Wow Mark. Thank you for this opportunity. Crying like a baby first thing in the morning. I really can’t thank you enough and appreciate how comfortable you made the interview, to discuss really uncomfortable stuff. God Bless you Mark.
Thank you for your interview. I could feel the pain you were feeling as a child through your words and how I could tell you were experiencing it all over again. Keep working on yourself.
I watched the whole interview sobbed throughout you really should be proud takes alot of courage to tell your story...and you're right it not only touched us but you've changed some hearts and minds Merry Christmas ❤
You are a lion ❤❤❤ I admire you so much. And you are not dirty, you are pure as a crystal but I perfectly understand why you felt 'disgusting') @@jason.brewer
@@jason.breweryou know, I also had a lot of problems with learning how to “handle” emotions. First few years of my recovery, emotions and not knowing how to handle them were always part of my relapse. Some emotions are still very difficult, but I try to remind myself that emotions will not kill me. They can suck really bad but they can also be wonderful! Thank you for
Mark, Jason speaks about events he has never spoken publicly about, because you radiate non-judgement. This experience has been cathartic, exhausting and beautiful for Jason and for that, I thank you. I'm so proud of my honey. I'm so proud he wants to help others despite his trauma. I'm so proud he wants to better himself. Gut-wrenching and beautiful episode. -Adrienne
He really had a certain way of storytelling, for me, it was gripping. I hope he’s proud of himself. Darkness will eat one alive until brought into the light. Abuse doesn’t define an individuals character, nor should it stain one’s future. Abusers don’t deserve that power. This was a touching interview. Have a very merry Christmas.
Jason. I was locked in this entire interview. I usually don’t watch long interviews, but your story really touched my heart and I wish you the best. Stay strong, Brother.
Let me assure you that some of the longest videos out there are by far the most inspiring/captivating! I’d recommend watching - Clark Frederick’s. Excellent story teller and so inspiring.
Little Jason comes out several times through the video, we are here for you too. Very brave of you to share. Merry Christmas to you and everyone here ❤️🩹❤️
@@jason.breweryou did so well, hats off, keep on keeping on - one day at a time! God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference. Ask and you shall receive, I did and got so much miraculous assistance till now and wish you continue to heal - forward is the way! Much love and marry Christmas to you and your family ❤
Jason said at 55:20, that at 6 years old he ‘made his life shit.’ Jason, at 6 you did NOT make your own life shit! It’s what kids do, they push boundaries. Kids are going to screw up and make bad choices. You just hope and pray that those choices, bad decisions don’t lead to people taking advantage of freaking 6 year olds!
@@Not-thatKaren I'm sorry but your comment is still putting the blame on the kids that go through this. No he did not "screw up" at 6 years old. He believed something a monster of an adult told him and followed him. You don't have a lot of discernment at 6 years old and it's a normal thing to do. And even if you do have discernment and get assaulted it's still, only, the other persons fault. They carry the blame. That's it. It's not your common sense or your screwing up that is to blame, it's someone deciding to be a horrible human. That's why, even if this happens to an intelligent adult, it is still bad. What's crazy to me is that we keep referring to this as "screwing up" and "bad decisions" when this happened because a monster decided to SA a kid. That is it, that's the whole story. If someone does a bad thing to you, you didn't make the bad decision, the other person did. That's it. No more. I know you meant well but this is unintentionally taking the blame off someone who committing a horrible act. Your words are taking the blame off of the perpetrator, whether you want it or not, tbh
Out of the ruins of a broken, traumatic youth comes a stronger, more resilient, and even more admirable man. Admire those who make it out of "that life" because very few of us do. We have so many people to rescue with love and compassion. You wouldn't turn your back on a human like Jason or ANY other. Thank you, Jason Brewer. You're a hero to a complete stranger who knows and loves you as a brother. Stay strong. Take care of yourself and your people. So proud of you, sir.
Hearing this broke my heart but I’m so proud of this man for being able to tell his story. He overcame this awful series of events and had the courage to share his vulnerability with complete strangers. It is such a selfless act to decide to do this, he is helping so many people who are struggling. You’re a hero and a real man, Jason. I don’t know you but I’m really glad you are here. Thank you.
Just wanna give this man a big hug. Love the way his eyes lit up when talking about his childhood love, wishing you only the happiest of futures big man.
This is THE best story you’ve posted. Especially since you didn’t ask him questions, and he’s very intelligent. I haven’t cried so much in years & years. I’m a psychologist & this man is still that baby boy who was destroyed by a predator. I hope he can read these comments Jason? I love you very much, especially the little boy you were.
Thank you so much and I love you back. I never considered myself intelligent but then again, I made many 'agreements' with myself that have proven to beat me down - self-love does not come easy. Thank you for watching my story!!!
Jason. Your gift to the world was unfairly and tragically earned. I am so sorry that you had to experience such a betrayal from the human race so early. I don’t know you. But I’m proud of you.
'To trust in something I don't understand.' Wow, that's a powerful takeaway, Jason 👏 thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I hope you are proud of where you are on your journey now. Bravo!!!
The fact he's crying so much I could relate. Because if you really were a bad person, you wouldn't be crying. You are still reliving trauma. It's c p t s d. And p t s d. We got this.We can get stronger because we're telling our stories, we have empathy. ❤
Someone hug this man for me. Tell him he has an awesome smile. He blames himself starting at six years old? No, no, no. A child is not responsible for an adult’s actions. I wish him the best.
This dude is a hero, the bravery in his vulnerability, his realness....I know that feeling of being "dirty" or " gross". Wounded warriors, God stay w this man. I know from experience getting sober is so hard...and the fear of life. ..seeking the beauty in life keeps us alive..
Jason- I am also in Recovery of 6 years. Drugs and violence of all types. Trauma that was done to me and then unintentionally/intentionally causing trauma to others was/is the hardest part of Recovery. Actively telling your story and being transparent will help someone put an end to pain in their own line. Grab ahold of your higher power or higher self. Look into meditation. Meditation is what helped me to take off the masks. (Still not all the time but better) it also helped me to realize that I was selfish in ways I didn’t realize still and how to truly LOVE. Love is what this is all about! You are incredible, articulate and you are actively saving lives. I ask God to bless your life.
Jason I hope you find more of your inner peace. I am a father of 3 children from Sweden and I cried for you and your story, mostly for your strength and the clarity you seemed to achieve without any direct help. I send a thought of strength and wish you well. If you are ever in Sweden, I offer a cup of hot coffee, a firm handshake and a hug from a brother. Keep going don't give up. Love from Sweden!
Thank you so much! When in Sweden, I'd share a cup of coffee with you and give you a hug right back. I appreciate your kind words and I'm sending the love right back to you from America! Happy New Years brother.
@@jason.brewer Thank you and hope 2025 will be a good year for both of us. I work with young people who have similar stories to yours. I think the vulnerability that you as a child and children of today experience is what hurts so damn much. We have to work so that 2025 and all the years to come will be years when the children get what they really should have, love, love and love. Happy New Year!
Jason, you may never get this message but, I am writing anyway. Thank you. Thank you for having the courage to share your story, thank you for remaining human in a world where you could have so easily turned to the darkness, thank you for the strength you give everyday to just be you. I too have been a victim of S.A. and am also a former battered wife. My heart has been moved by your battle. You my friend are never alone. I wish you peace and happiness.
Message received and truly appreciated. You are very welcome and THANK YOU for watching it and commenting. I hope you've found avenues of help and support with your trauma and I'll add you to my prayers for healing. You are correct - we are not alone.
Jason, you’re a phenomenal human being. I know this because you’re an incredibly brave, intelligent and introspective person. You’re in touch with your feelings and you know how you affect others. So many appear to go through life without concern for others or themselves. Little six-year-old Jason was NOT responsible for the behavior of others. You did nothing to cause what happened to you. I admire your gentle soul and your determination to fight for a better you and a better life. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
I have watched this channel for years, and doing so has brought me every emotion imaginable, or so I thought. This interview broke my heart in a way I never could have imagined. I sobbed. This man will remain in my prayers for the rest of my life.
Your story is my sons story. He told me so many of the same things you've said. Drugs, jail, violence, failed relationships. He didn't make it. I know the mental gymnastics, too. It tires me out physically to where I, too, want to drink and I might or might not. Keep sharing. It for sure it will help anyone. Helped me to understand me better and definitely my son in heaven. Edit: being this vunerable with your story heals a little more. Vunerability is hard that way. Love u man.
Jason, I don’t know if you can see how beautiful and how radiant you are. Who you are is pure and it got wronged and taken advantage of at every turn. Your smile is incredible and through it you can see that amazing little boy is still there.
No words can express the admiration and compassion I have for you Jason. The journey off self love and service to others after what you've been through is only one taken by advanced souls. So much love coming to you and your.
Jason "Gratitude is the Attitude " and you are so courageous and you are transforming the shame and guilt. You are worthy and loved. Receive It and keep blessing others
6 minutes in and my heart is totally breaking for this guy! Jason so proud of you for sharing your story honey! Much love and respect for you sir! Your one courageous young man! Praying for you and your healing ❤
@celticwarrior777 makes no sense *to you* and maybe to the people who liked your comment. I get it, though! It just means this person felt moved by the way he told his story. Also in a way letting him know that it wasn't the events that happened to him that touches the soul, because it is not a heart warming story by ANY means. But it was the way that he bravely and eloquently told his story, and the way he's moved forward with his life and presents himself today. That might help or it might not 😅
@@celticwarrior777what the person is saying is that it’s not the STORY that shows who Jason is, it’s how he tells his story. he tells it with bravery, passion and raw emotion. that’s who Jason is and that’s what moved that persons soul
The amount of courage it must have taken to tell this story I can’t even imagine. I hope only continued healing in your life and relationships moving forward. Your honesty is very honorable
This was one of the most raw interviews you’ve done! What a story. I feel like watching this helped me to understand so many people. Thank you for the strength to share.
I appreciate this comment so much. I hoped to help people with battles in their own mind and it didn't occur to me that it would help people understand others. That is very cool so thank you again.
This was deeply moving and incredibly touching. Jason, this interview was hard to do, I realize that, but you did SO well. You're a lovely person. Keep going the way you are and you'll find that inner peace. The traumatized child within will find a beautiful peace. Thank you Mark for giving Jason this little bit of space to clear his head and thank you also for your lovely contribution at the end of the interview.
Jason, I am so proud of you! Many times while you told your story and emotions got tough, you self regulated and continued. That takes an incredible amount of work (usually through therapy), to sit with the emotions and not give up or run. Your story will inspire others. It will make a difference. I’m so proud of you!
Jason,,, You can do this. Look how brave you were in this video to share such painful stuff that happened (not happening now, right). My gosh, you are going up and up. I applaud you. I applaud you for you and who you are. 👍💜 👏
I truly hope and pray that Jason is alright after talking about all his trauma and past. Watching this is like watching someone take out stitches from a wound that hasn’t healed yet.
The interviews/Testimonies that are changing people for the better (Knowledge) is a PHENOMENAL Humanitarian effort that is MUCH APPRECIATED. Thank you again. We need to become more humane than just thinking this sh*t is ok and it happens. It shouldn't EVER happen. I can't express my empathy for all of these testimonies that have me in tears.
What a beautiful man! I wish I could give him a big hug and tell him the little boy is loved and safe now. He’s so articulate and vulnerable. I pray that he continues to move forward and have wonderful relationships with his loved ones. It’s so good to hear that he is helping others; that will really progress his healing. I pray that this video helps more people than he can imagine. 🙌
This shattered me and captivated me at the same time. The pain in his soul, I can hear it in the quiver and control of his voice, in the look in his beautifully expressive eyes, in the constant fidget and movement of his body. It’s crazy how simple our needs are as children but yet how complex things can get when those simple needs are violated or unmet. As I watched I really wanted nothing more than to hug him tight, not let go and tell him he is loved. God sent his son to this earth to pay for our wrongs and in so doing made a bridge for us to have a relationship with God. This life is short and this world is broken, there will always be pain. I pray he finds the true lover of his soul. 🙏🏻
Jason what happened to you as a child is absolutely not your fault. so sorry you went through such horrific times in your life. Thank you for having the strength to share your story. Bless you
Your ability to be honest and vulnerable brought me to tears, I see myself in each of these videos and I know healing is real and it is for you too! Thank you for sharing the very real internal struggle of so many of us
Awww baby, I am sending you the most insanely huge hug! I absolutely know trauma and its been strange to me that talking about it and warning others...was helpful. God love you and your family. Bless you, love from Alabama ❤
He was never able to speak out as a child, a very heavy burden to bear. He was also trying to be brave and to protect his loved ones by not telling anyone..he was being very brave and heroic. It's very sad how victims blame themselves and can no longer trust anyone. Prayers and the light of god is the only way out of such a hell. Wonderful person indeed.
Jason that was such a powerful telling and very inspiring. Your boss is right - you're very articulate and you show a lot of self-knowledge that many many men never even start to think about. The way you are now is a credit to yourself and your loved ones. Fair play to you ! 🇮🇪
This was so amazing I was glued to my phone. I could mimic every facial expression, pain and shock that you did telling your story. I am so so sorry for how you was treated. I understand what you’re battling. I’m battling the same thing daily. I just want you to know you are loved. I love you. Thank you for your story and you be blessed.
That is one of the most powerfully raw testimonies of what it truly means to be human. I believe that behind all maladaptive behavior lies fear, shame, and some sort of dysfunctional childhood. I can see the good in everyone. I see beyond the exterior. I have been down many a dark road and found sobriety and sometimes it gets worse before it gets better but it always gets better. I’m proud of this guy and I pray he stays clean and rebuilds his relationship with his kids. There’s nothing like a father’s love. Thank you for sharing! (Made me cry)
Immediately following this interview, I got to spend the day with my son and his pregnant girlfriend. We walked the pier at Santa Monica and had lunch. Rebuilding one day at a time!
People destroyed this guy, he was just an innocent kid when the world started doing him wrong. He’s still a gentle giant - his rage is purely instinct to protect himself from further trauma… All the best my friend. All the best.
5:37 i feel that. talking about childhood trauma, you don't think it'd be so hard to talk about but your throat wants to close up, you have to keep clearing your throat and you feel the emotions come on. it's unexpected, since you didn't know what was going on then, yet your mind finds it hard to process and go over now. good for him that he's able to talk about it, that's a weight that can be hard to lift.
@@jason.brewer I’m happy you were able to talk about it, makes me feel like one day i could talk about my experience too. And your words meant a lot, thank you for this so much 🙏
I’ve never commented on a UA-cam video, but this one was different. I can see and hear the pain he still has, I hope he is working through it and has great success and happiness in the rest of his life.
Thank you for watching and commenting. I am working through this - it's painful and slow but this experience has been humbling and freeing. Thank you again!
@@jason.breweryou are a wonderful human being, it breaks my heart for you and others that had to go through assaults at a young age - I will pray for you and all other victims every day…I pray the rest of your life will be pain free from all you endured up until now. Also, your mother is a beautiful and loving mom. She must be so proud of you and she kept the faith in you to once and for all change your life. No pats on the back from me, only warm hugs!! 😊
Truly heartbreaking. These sick fucks ruin children's lives forever. Ugh. I am so sorry that happened to you Jason. You are such a strong man to tell your story .
When I start crying at the 6:00 minute mark I know this is going to be rough. I had to stop. I will return and watch this later.today Jason- I have no words-
Theres only been one video on this channel that i had to take breaks for. “Trauma, revenge, and redemption.” If any of you have not seen this one, i highly recommend it. I had to take breaks it was just so intense and depressing and raw. Its over an hour long but its actually insane how the story unwinds and finally ends. Powerful shit. Its the best video on this channel by far in my opinion.
This man right here deserves ALL the blessings, health & happiness that God wants to grant him. He is loved ❤ I wish I could squeeze him with lots of hugs 🤗
Thank you. This ‘interview’ hit home more than ANYTHING in my journey to recover, reconcile with my own experience. We must trust that what we don’t fully understand to heal. You are so very loved. ❤
This channel is changing the world Mark. It’s truly shows what humans can survive, and that we’re all wounded beings from the things we’ve been through. Most importantly, it demonstrates that YOU ARE NOT ALONE in pain and healing. There is always light at the end of the darkness, you just have to fight to find it. (much easier said than done)
One of the best interviews. Loved the way he told his story, and found myself hanging on his words. Loved the small moments of humor aa well. So glad he survived and shared his story with all of us.
6:12. I'm crying for you. This takes a lot of strength to talk about. I'm praying you can have forgiveness to release yourself from it. It took 56 years for me to. Praying for you brother 🙏🙏🙏💖. That's the way it was back then , not telling anyone. I'm so sorry you had to go through all this, forgive your self too. 😢
Dear Jason, don't feel bad that you spent so much time in prison, and please don't feel like it was a waste of time. I know so many men who are of your age and they have Zero self-awareness, they are empty and have no hope or kindness in their hearts. Focus on the future, find love, create purpose and meaning. You are a handsome strong man who is not afraid of vulnerability, you will be fine now!
Jason thank you for sharing your story! This was so Brave! I experienced sexual abuse too! I surrender my heart to Jesus and it has helped me through my struggles and my journey of healing! I pray that you will continue to have the inner healing! Continue to share your story . I know that it will help many people who have gone through traumas! Thank you again for sharing your story and being a brave man! A brave soul! And forgive yourself of things the that has happened !God bless you!
Wow Mark. Thank you for this opportunity. Crying like a baby first thing in the morning. I really can’t thank you enough and appreciate how comfortable you made the interview, to discuss really uncomfortable stuff. God Bless you Mark.
Thank you for your interview. I could feel the pain you were feeling as a child through your words and how I could tell you were experiencing it all over again. Keep working on yourself.
I've already commented but just saw this. Thank you for sharing so vulnerably with us, Jason x
I watched the whole interview sobbed throughout you really should be proud takes alot of courage to tell your story...and you're right it not only touched us but you've changed some hearts and minds Merry Christmas ❤
Jason! You need to write! incredible story my friend!
Sending you virtual hugs!
I saw the child come out over and over again, almost saying, "I'm still here. I need to be heard." Totally raw and human.
Omg I seen him too 😩🙏🏾
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Ditto!❤
Yah, What a Loser, LOL!
Exactly what I see
This took a colossal amount strength to tell his story. I wish you the best. You deserve it.
Thank you. I’m working on believing I deserve the good things in life. It’s a process 🙏🙏🙏.
Well said
Great big hugs 🫂
You are a lion ❤❤❤ I admire you so much. And you are not dirty, you are pure as a crystal but I perfectly understand why you felt 'disgusting') @@jason.brewer
After changing your gender I think anything is possible
This guys got some guts to tell his story to the world. Respect to him. He has children, there is no greater gift.
Thank you!
@@jason.brewer
Man, Jason, thank you for sharing your story!!
Your story is a sad and still amazing and very relatable!
Thank you for sharing!
@@jason.breweryou know, I also had a lot of problems with learning how to “handle” emotions. First few years of my recovery, emotions and not knowing how to handle them were always part of my relapse.
Some emotions are still very difficult, but I try to remind myself that emotions will not kill me. They can suck really bad but they can also be wonderful!
Thank you for
A gift for Epstein maybe.
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Mark, Jason speaks about events he has never spoken publicly about, because you radiate non-judgement. This experience has been cathartic, exhausting and beautiful for Jason and for that, I thank you.
I'm so proud of my honey. I'm so proud he wants to help others despite his trauma. I'm so proud he wants to better himself.
Gut-wrenching and beautiful episode.
-Adrienne
He really had a certain way of storytelling, for me, it was gripping. I hope he’s proud of himself. Darkness will eat one alive until brought into the light. Abuse doesn’t define an individuals character, nor should it stain one’s future. Abusers don’t deserve that power. This was a touching interview. Have a very merry Christmas.
MUCH Love and MANY Blessings to You , Jason and Your Family…🙏🏼🩶🙏🏼🩶🙏🏼🩶🙏🏼
Much blessings ❤
Jason SO proud of your courage to speak on things you never asked for, none of it is on you.
I am thrilled for both of you. Jason helped me make piece with a very difficult adoption. Thank you💜✌️
“ I have this great life when I can see it “ very powerful
Jason. I was locked in this entire interview. I usually don’t watch long interviews, but your story really touched my heart and I wish you the best. Stay strong, Brother.
Thanks brother. Wishing you all the best as well!
Let me assure you that some of the longest videos out there are by far the most inspiring/captivating! I’d recommend watching - Clark Frederick’s. Excellent story teller and so inspiring.
@@rebekahjoy7921 thank you baby. I appreciate it.
Jason. That baby boy is not at fault.
It really was amazing. I love the way he communicates. It's real with a touch of humor. He's a character.
This man went through hell, and yet he is a survivor.
A sissy, but a survivor
Little Jason comes out several times through the video, we are here for you too. Very brave of you to share. Merry Christmas to you and everyone here ❤️🩹❤️
Thank you for your support and Merry Christmas!
@@jason.breweryou did so well, hats off, keep on keeping on - one day at a time! God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can and the wisdom to know the difference. Ask and you shall receive, I did and got so much miraculous assistance till now and wish you continue to heal - forward is the way! Much love and marry Christmas to you and your family ❤
This is the most real interview. His honesty is so physical. I'm praying that he makes it through all of the dark days.
Tragically captivating. Forgive that little boy mate. It wasn't your fault. You were just a kid. All the best mate!
Jason said at 55:20, that at 6 years old he ‘made his life shit.’ Jason, at 6 you did NOT make your own life shit! It’s what kids do, they push boundaries. Kids are going to screw up and make bad choices. You just hope and pray that those choices, bad decisions don’t lead to people taking advantage of freaking 6 year olds!
I'm working on it mate!
@ you’re doing a fantastic job!!
@@Not-thatKaren I'm sorry but your comment is still putting the blame on the kids that go through this. No he did not "screw up" at 6 years old. He believed something a monster of an adult told him and followed him. You don't have a lot of discernment at 6 years old and it's a normal thing to do. And even if you do have discernment and get assaulted it's still, only, the other persons fault. They carry the blame. That's it. It's not your common sense or your screwing up that is to blame, it's someone deciding to be a horrible human. That's why, even if this happens to an intelligent adult, it is still bad. What's crazy to me is that we keep referring to this as "screwing up" and "bad decisions" when this happened because a monster decided to SA a kid. That is it, that's the whole story. If someone does a bad thing to you, you didn't make the bad decision, the other person did. That's it. No more. I know you meant well but this is unintentionally taking the blame off someone who committing a horrible act. Your words are taking the blame off of the perpetrator, whether you want it or not, tbh
@ I meant it as the opposite. People can’t blame themselves for anything they do as a 6 year old.
Out of the ruins of a broken, traumatic youth comes a stronger, more resilient, and even more admirable man. Admire those who make it out of "that life" because very few of us do. We have so many people to rescue with love and compassion. You wouldn't turn your back on a human like Jason or ANY other. Thank you, Jason Brewer. You're a hero to a complete stranger who knows and loves you as a brother. Stay strong. Take care of yourself and your people. So proud of you, sir.
Thank you for the love and support. Appreciate it more than you know.
Hearing this broke my heart but I’m so proud of this man for being able to tell his story. He overcame this awful series of events and had the courage to share his vulnerability with complete strangers. It is such a selfless act to decide to do this, he is helping so many people who are struggling. You’re a hero and a real man, Jason. I don’t know you but I’m really glad you are here. Thank you.
Thank you thank you. Being vulnerable is not something that comes easy however it's been freeing.
He was so well spoken, he had me zoned in and listening. This was one of the best interviews, Mark.
Bless this man heart 😢he is reliving it while trying to talk about it. I felt it this morning. Thank you for your brave interview
Thank you for watching. My only hope is that my experience helps another, to talk about it and relinquish its power.
Proud of you for telling your story, it will inspire other men that it's not weak to speak.
Just wanna give this man a big hug. Love the way his eyes lit up when talking about his childhood love, wishing you only the happiest of futures big man.
This is THE best story you’ve posted. Especially since you didn’t ask him questions, and he’s very intelligent. I haven’t cried so much in years & years. I’m a psychologist & this man is still that baby boy who was destroyed by a predator. I hope he can read these comments
Jason? I love you very much, especially the little boy you were.
Thank you so much and I love you back. I never considered myself intelligent but then again, I made many 'agreements' with myself that have proven to beat me down - self-love does not come easy. Thank you for watching my story!!!
Jason. Your gift to the world was unfairly and tragically earned. I am so sorry that you had to experience such a betrayal from the human race so early. I don’t know you. But I’m proud of you.
'To trust in something I don't understand.' Wow, that's a powerful takeaway, Jason 👏 thank you for being so open and vulnerable. I hope you are proud of where you are on your journey now. Bravo!!!
The fact he's crying so much I could relate. Because if you really were a bad person, you wouldn't be crying. You are still reliving trauma. It's c p t s d. And p t s d. We got this.We can get stronger because we're telling our stories, we have empathy. ❤
Someone hug this man for me. Tell him he has an awesome smile. He blames himself starting at six years old? No, no, no. A child is not responsible for an adult’s actions. I wish him the best.
Virtual hugs back!
Protect this beautiful soul at all costs
GOD IS THE ONE THAT PURPOSE TO PROTECT HIM
Jason. Don't know if someone ever told you this. You're enough. You do enough, and you are a good person. I wish you the best.
I watched and listened and felt it all. Jason, please don't give up. The world is a better place with you in it.
Amen!
This dude is a hero, the bravery in his vulnerability, his realness....I know that feeling of being "dirty" or " gross". Wounded warriors, God stay w this man. I know from experience getting sober is so hard...and the fear of life. ..seeking the beauty in life keeps us alive..
I pray for your healing and I love that work "seeking". I'm seeking Him and the beauty in life!
You don’t have to be afraid anymore. You now have an army of people behind you!
This was one of the most moving stories I’ve heard on here. I want to hug this man. I hope you find true peace and joy in life. You deserve it
Thank you, Jason! 👏👏 You are living proof that there is a light at the end of the tunnel
Wow. Moved me to tears. How I admire your strength, bravery and courage. ❤
Me too. My life changed in receiving his sharing of his journey.
Thank you!
@@JAYSONGS that's my hope. Prayers to you!
Jason- I am also in Recovery of 6 years. Drugs and violence of all types. Trauma that was done to me and then unintentionally/intentionally causing trauma to others was/is the hardest part of Recovery. Actively telling your story and being transparent will help someone put an end to pain in their own line. Grab ahold of your higher power or higher self. Look into meditation. Meditation is what helped me to take off the masks. (Still not all the time but better) it also helped me to realize that I was selfish in ways I didn’t realize still and how to truly LOVE. Love is what this is all about! You are incredible, articulate and you are actively saving lives. I ask God to bless your life.
Congratulations on your six years. Appreciate your support!
@ no problem… proud of old junkies like us standing tall!
Great share! ❤🎉Jason is great!
Jason I hope you find more of your inner peace. I am a father of 3 children from Sweden and I cried for you and your story, mostly for your strength and the clarity you seemed to achieve without any direct help. I send a thought of strength and wish you well. If you are ever in Sweden, I offer a cup of hot coffee, a firm handshake and a hug from a brother. Keep going don't give up. Love from Sweden!
Thank you so much! When in Sweden, I'd share a cup of coffee with you and give you a hug right back. I appreciate your kind words and I'm sending the love right back to you from America! Happy New Years brother.
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Thank you and hope 2025 will be a good year for both of us. I work with young people who have similar stories to yours. I think the vulnerability that you as a child and children of today experience is what hurts so damn much. We have to work so that 2025 and all the years to come will be years when the children get what they really should have, love, love and love. Happy New Year!
The Consistency in work being put out is second to none. Thank you Mark and Happy Holidays
Thank you soooo much for telling your helping so many ppl be able to tell their story. Your so strong. I really wish u the best.
Jason, you may never get this message but, I am writing anyway. Thank you. Thank you for having the courage to share your story, thank you for remaining human in a world where you could have so easily turned to the darkness, thank you for the strength you give everyday to just be you. I too have been a victim of S.A. and am also a former battered wife. My heart has been moved by your battle. You my friend are never alone. I wish you peace and happiness.
Message received and truly appreciated. You are very welcome and THANK YOU for watching it and commenting. I hope you've found avenues of help and support with your trauma and I'll add you to my prayers for healing. You are correct - we are not alone.
Jason, you’re a phenomenal human being. I know this because you’re an incredibly brave, intelligent and introspective person. You’re in touch with your feelings and you know how you affect others. So many appear to go through life without concern for others or themselves. Little six-year-old Jason was NOT responsible for the behavior of others. You did nothing to cause what happened to you. I admire your gentle soul and your determination to fight for a better you and a better life. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Thank you for the words of encouragement.
I have watched this channel for years, and doing so has brought me every emotion imaginable, or so I thought. This interview broke my heart in a way I never could have imagined. I sobbed. This man will remain in my prayers for the rest of my life.
Thank you for the comment and prayers! Hope you have a beautiful New Years!
This gave me chills - his honesty and self awareness and BRAVERY are heart wrenching. Wishing you all the best of luck and health and healing ❤
His honesty and raw emotion is so beautiful.
Your story is my sons story. He told me so many of the same things you've said. Drugs, jail, violence, failed relationships. He didn't make it. I know the mental gymnastics, too. It tires me out physically to where I, too, want to drink and I might or might not. Keep sharing. It for sure it will help anyone. Helped me to understand me better and definitely my son in heaven.
Edit: being this vunerable with your story heals a little more. Vunerability is hard that way. Love u man.
I’m so incredibly sorry for your loss. That’s a loss no one is ‘supposed’ to endure. Sending love and prayers from my Virginia 🙏♥️
@@taylorbj8827 I'm sorry for your loss.please take care of yourself in honor of him. Life is so darn hard. I send loving prayers
I'm grateful that he shared his story and I'm hopeful he will continue his path forward. He deserves soo much healing and joy in his life.
Jason, I don’t know if you can see how beautiful and how radiant you are. Who you are is pure and it got wronged and taken advantage of at every turn. Your smile is incredible and through it you can see that amazing little boy is still there.
man you are a survivor, what great showing of resilience,braveneness, admirable. you faced a lot, it is not fair for you, society owes you, for sure.
Thank you. Those aren’t words I’d use to describe myself but I’m learning to accept compliments and positive feedback. Appreciate the love.
No words can express the admiration and compassion I have for you Jason. The journey off self love and service to others after what you've been through is only one taken by advanced souls. So much love coming to you and your.
Jason "Gratitude is the Attitude " and you are so courageous and you are transforming the shame and guilt. You are worthy and loved. Receive It and keep blessing others
Thank you for saying so. I am very grateful for all the support!
6 minutes in and my heart is totally breaking for this guy! Jason so proud of you for sharing your story honey! Much love and respect for you sir! Your one courageous young man! Praying for you and your healing ❤
Jason, it's not your story that moved my soul, but your telling of it.
That makes no sense
@celticwarrior777 makes no sense *to you* and maybe to the people who liked your comment.
I get it, though!
It just means this person felt moved by the way he told his story. Also in a way letting him know that it wasn't the events that happened to him that touches the soul, because it is not a heart warming story by ANY means. But it was the way that he bravely and eloquently told his story, and the way he's moved forward with his life and presents himself today.
That might help or it might not 😅
@@celticwarrior777what the person is saying is that it’s not the STORY that shows who Jason is, it’s how he tells his story. he tells it with bravery, passion and raw emotion. that’s who Jason is and that’s what moved that persons soul
Thank you for sharing your story Jason
You are an incredible man for sharing this. I ray for you and your healing journey.
The amount of courage it must have taken to tell this story I can’t even imagine. I hope only continued healing in your life and relationships moving forward. Your honesty is very honorable
Early bird here! Merry Christmas and happy holidays to Mark, viewers and these souls who speak in these videos! Greetings from Finland!
Merry Christmas from Massachusetts ❤
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This was one of the most raw interviews you’ve done! What a story. I feel like watching this helped me to understand so many people. Thank you for the strength to share.
I appreciate this comment so much. I hoped to help people with battles in their own mind and it didn't occur to me that it would help people understand others. That is very cool so thank you again.
Jason, I pray you find peace every single day. You clearly have a good heart underneath all the layers. Keep on helping people, it will help you heal.
This was deeply moving and incredibly touching. Jason, this interview was hard to do, I realize that, but you did SO well. You're a lovely person. Keep going the way you are and you'll find that inner peace. The traumatized child within will find a beautiful peace. Thank you Mark for giving Jason this little bit of space to clear his head and thank you also for your lovely contribution at the end of the interview.
Thank you for the encouragement and support. It means a lot!
Jason, I am so proud of you! Many times while you told your story and emotions got tough, you self regulated and continued. That takes an incredible amount of work (usually through therapy), to sit with the emotions and not give up or run. Your story will inspire others. It will make a difference. I’m so proud of you!
Thank you so much.
Jason,,,
You can do this.
Look how brave you were in this video to share such painful stuff that happened (not happening now, right).
My gosh, you are going up and up.
I applaud you.
I applaud you for you and who you are.
👍💜 👏
Appreciate the support and kind words!
I truly hope and pray that Jason is alright after talking about all his trauma and past. Watching this is like watching someone take out stitches from a wound that hasn’t healed yet.
Talking about it is cathartic and I appreciate the prayers! Hug back!
Hey Jason, I'm glad you're still here.
All I can see is a man with an incredible amount of kindness and love.
Cling on to your conscience,brother.
Though difficult to hear all you experienced this was one of the best videos I’ve watched on this channel. Profound and will help others. ❤
Wow, thank you for the kind words!
From a stranger to another I love you Jacob and I’m proud your still here ❤
The interviews/Testimonies that are changing people for the better (Knowledge) is a PHENOMENAL Humanitarian effort that is MUCH APPRECIATED. Thank you again. We need to become more humane than just thinking this sh*t is ok and it happens. It shouldn't EVER happen. I can't express my empathy for all of these testimonies that have me in tears.
What a beautiful man! I wish I could give him a big hug and tell him the little boy is loved and safe now. He’s so articulate and vulnerable. I pray that he continues to move forward and have wonderful relationships with his loved ones. It’s so good to hear that he is helping others; that will really progress his healing. I pray that this video helps more people than he can imagine. 🙌
Thank you! Your prayers mean a lot and I have the same prayers - to help someone, anyone!
@@jason.brewer🕊 🫂
This is one of the most moving and powerful stories I’ve ever heard.
This shattered me and captivated me at the same time. The pain in his soul, I can hear it in the quiver and control of his voice, in the look in his beautifully expressive eyes, in the constant fidget and movement of his body. It’s crazy how simple our needs are as children but yet how complex things can get when those simple needs are violated or unmet. As I watched I really wanted nothing more than to hug him tight, not let go and tell him he is loved. God sent his son to this earth to pay for our wrongs and in so doing made a bridge for us to have a relationship with God. This life is short and this world is broken, there will always be pain. I pray he finds the true lover of his soul. 🙏🏻
Thank you for watching and the comment. Sending you a big hug back!
Jason what happened to you as a child is absolutely not your fault. so sorry you went through such horrific times in your life. Thank you for having the strength to share your story. Bless you
You have an incredible testimony to share! Your transparency is so raw and vulnerable, it’ll touch the lives of soooooo many!! I’m proud of you ❤
Your ability to be honest and vulnerable brought me to tears, I see myself in each of these videos and I know healing is real and it is for you too! Thank you for sharing the very real internal struggle of so many of us
Awww baby, I am sending you the most insanely huge hug! I absolutely know trauma and its been strange to me that talking about it and warning others...was helpful. God love you and your family. Bless you, love from Alabama ❤
He was never able to speak out as a child, a very heavy burden to bear. He was also trying to be brave and to protect his loved ones by not telling anyone..he was being very brave and heroic. It's very sad how victims blame themselves and can no longer trust anyone. Prayers and the light of god is the only way out of such a hell. Wonderful person indeed.
You sir are a warrior. Your personal strength is an inspiration. I wish you peace.
Wow. I've been working my way thru the SWU library, and this is one of the most powerful stories I've heard. Cheers to your recovery, Jason.
Thank you for sharing… such a tough story to share 🙏🏽❤️
Jason that was such a powerful telling and very inspiring. Your boss is right - you're very articulate and you show a lot of self-knowledge that many many men never even start to think about. The way you are now is a credit to yourself and your loved ones. Fair play to you ! 🇮🇪
Thank you. The credit is all due to the Big Man and the gift of trying to help someone else.
I'm only 9 minutes in.... But I need to say, Sir, I'm so desperately sorry this happened to you 😢 xxx Kylie Perth Australia
He is a warrior in this plane who gets tested time and time again looses but always wins. ❤ you are an inspiration to many. To me.
This was so amazing I was glued to my phone. I could mimic every facial expression, pain and shock that you did telling your story. I am so so sorry for how you was treated. I understand what you’re battling. I’m battling the same thing daily. I just want you to know you are loved. I love you. Thank you for your story and you be blessed.
Thank you and bless you too. I'm sorry you can relate however grateful we are not alone.
I just want to hug this sweet man. Just remember you're stronger than you feel. And it's okay not to be okay sometimes.
How can you not get emotional listening to this poor guy deal with all that pain?? I can’t imagine how hard this had to be for him.
That is one of the most powerfully raw testimonies of what it truly means to be human. I believe that behind all maladaptive behavior lies fear, shame, and some sort of dysfunctional childhood. I can see the good in everyone. I see beyond the exterior. I have been down many a dark road and found sobriety and sometimes it gets worse before it gets better but it always gets better. I’m proud of this guy and I pray he stays clean and rebuilds his relationship with his kids. There’s nothing like a father’s love. Thank you for sharing! (Made me cry)
Immediately following this interview, I got to spend the day with my son and his pregnant girlfriend. We walked the pier at Santa Monica and had lunch. Rebuilding one day at a time!
Jason you are an inspiration thank you for telling your story ❤
People destroyed this guy, he was just an innocent kid when the world started doing him wrong. He’s still a gentle giant - his rage is purely instinct to protect himself from further trauma…
All the best my friend. All the best.
Thank you my friend. Wishing you all the best as well!
5:37 i feel that. talking about childhood trauma, you don't think it'd be so hard to talk about but your throat wants to close up, you have to keep clearing your throat and you feel the emotions come on. it's unexpected, since you didn't know what was going on then, yet your mind finds it hard to process and go over now. good for him that he's able to talk about it, that's a weight that can be hard to lift.
You describe it well. The "weight" gets lighter the more I talk about it.
@@jason.brewer I’m happy you were able to talk about it, makes me feel like one day i could talk about my experience too.
And your words meant a lot, thank you for this so much 🙏
So proud of you man ❤ You deserve peace ❤❤
I’ve never commented on a UA-cam video, but this one was different. I can see and hear the pain he still has, I hope he is working through it and has great success and happiness in the rest of his life.
Thank you for watching and commenting. I am working through this - it's painful and slow but this experience has been humbling and freeing. Thank you again!
@@jason.breweryou are a wonderful human being, it breaks my heart for you and others that had to go through assaults at a young age - I will pray for you and all other victims every day…I pray the rest of your life will be pain free from all you endured up until now.
Also, your mother is a beautiful and loving mom. She must be so proud of you and she kept the faith in you to once and for all change your life. No pats on the back from me, only warm hugs!! 😊
Truly heartbreaking. These sick fucks ruin children's lives forever. Ugh. I am so sorry that happened to you Jason. You are such a strong man to tell your story .
When I start crying at the 6:00 minute mark I know this is going to be rough. I had to stop. I will return and watch this later.today Jason- I have no words-
Theres only been one video on this channel that i had to take breaks for. “Trauma, revenge, and redemption.” If any of you have not seen this one, i highly recommend it. I had to take breaks it was just so intense and depressing and raw. Its over an hour long but its actually insane how the story unwinds and finally ends. Powerful shit. Its the best video on this channel by far in my opinion.
This man could physically break my bones and definitely broke my heart.
I’ve never wanted to hug someone I’ve never met so badly.
This man right here deserves ALL the blessings, health & happiness that God wants to grant him.
He is loved ❤
I wish I could squeeze him with lots of hugs 🤗
Thank you. Sending hugs back my friend.
Thank you. This ‘interview’ hit home more than ANYTHING in my journey to recover, reconcile with my own experience. We must trust that what we don’t fully understand to heal. You are so very loved. ❤
I could relate to your entire story. Thank you for being so vulnerable and brave.
Wow 6 mins in I can barely listen smh crazy work praying for your healing ❤
Mark, thank you for interesting, thought provoking interviews! Jason, thank you for sharing your story. Happy holidays to you both!
This channel is changing the world Mark. It’s truly shows what humans can survive, and that we’re all wounded beings from the things we’ve been through. Most importantly, it demonstrates that YOU ARE NOT ALONE in pain and healing. There is always light at the end of the darkness, you just have to fight to find it. (much easier said than done)
One of the best interviews. Loved the way he told his story, and found myself hanging on his words. Loved the small moments of humor aa well. So glad he survived and shared his story with all of us.
6:12. I'm crying for you. This takes a lot of strength to talk about. I'm praying you can have forgiveness to release yourself from it. It took 56 years for me to. Praying for you brother 🙏🙏🙏💖. That's the way it was back then , not telling anyone. I'm so sorry you had to go through all this, forgive your self too. 😢
Thank you for listening to my story. I'm working on the forgiveness each day!
So unfair that this poor man was abused and never really recovered. Still showing compassion. Blessings, dude.
I'm working on the recovery. Thank you for the blessings. 🙏
Dear Jason, don't feel bad that you spent so much time in prison, and please don't feel like it was a waste of time. I know so many men who are of your age and they have Zero self-awareness, they are empty and have no hope or kindness in their hearts. Focus on the future, find love, create purpose and meaning. You are a handsome strong man who is not afraid of vulnerability, you will be fine now!
Thank you. Vulnerability is not easy but I'm trying to view it as an asset, rather than weakness, and use it for good. Thank you again!
videos like his make me feel i deserve better to feel at peace and to speak my truth, very inspiring.
You do and I'm thankful for you sharing this.
Jason thank you for sharing your story! This was so Brave! I experienced sexual abuse too! I surrender my heart to Jesus and it has helped me through my struggles and my journey of healing! I pray that you will continue to have the inner healing! Continue to share your story . I know that it will help many people who have gone through traumas! Thank you again for sharing your story and being a brave man! A brave soul! And forgive yourself of things the that has happened !God bless you!
Thank you and God bless you as well!