Feel Like I'm Fixin' To Die
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- Опубліковано 24 сер 2024
- More information on how I'm doing with Debbie's passing and what might be in store for this channel
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I’m a 60 year old Las Vegas Dj and have been battling sickness. Please keep going man!
I am. I'm keepin' on keepin' on.
Ted, I am moved by your comments. I’m an old dude myself, just turned 80, with the same intimations of mortality as you, the same sudden bewilderment over how I got here (and so rapidly) and where do I go from here? I feel attuned to your grief and your loss and to the disorientation that accompanies it. The focus of life changes doesn’t it when you suffer a great personal loss and realize you’ve lived under the delusion of having always a uxurious swath of time before calling it quits. It is the central delusion of human life, I think. And yet, in the face of the rapidly approaching Inevitable one is still called to honor life by bringing as much aliveness to the time that’s left as possible. There is no other way to be that isn’t capitulaion. Your spiritual practice is repaying your long-term commitment with supportive wisdom. Good for it. Good for you. I hope your son is a source of love and support. I wish you perseverance and strength and peace.
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That’s a lot of uncertainty my friend!
Look to the Lord Jesus and know what your future holds.
All one must do is to place their faith in the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of their sins.
This is the Gospel we read in 1 Corinthians 15:1-4 that most of the so called church does not preach.
Ephesians 2:8-9 explains further what I’m speaking of.
This offer which cost us nothing will not be available when we pass on!
I pray that you will consider our Creator.
@@Adam-gm5tm Thank you for posting a comment that you believe might help.
Grief nor growing old is not for sissies. Prayers of God’s Peace and Mercy be with you. I’m so sorry for your loss.
@@gr8fullytedicated I flat-out BEG you to please, please come to Jesus Christ!!! I used to be involved in those spiritual practices/beliefs you spoke of and I praise the Lord Jesus and fervently thank Him for waking me up!!! HE is the Savior of this world, none other!!!!! AND HE IS COMING VERY SOON TO RAPTURE THE TRUE, DEVOTED CHURCH. Any non-believer "left behind" -- it will be Hell on earth here (re the Book of Revelation). God bless and protect you, please devote yourself to HIM alone, before it's too late. Frankly, you are putting yourself in SEVERE DANGER by these false beliefs. ALL sinners will be left behind to suffer the Great Tribulation (read the Book of Revelation, again, for understanding) You may be furious with me for saying all this but, I tell you truly, I care enough about you to tell you.
Grief is horrendous. Like an upside down roller coaster. The numbness is brain fog, its hard to take in. Grief never goes away, just changes. It makes us realise how many people have passed in our latter years, its a shock to think this can happen to us. Keep up everyday life. Bathing, eating, housework etc.
Take care. 🕊🕊🕊🫂💖
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Ted wishing you better days ahead. Moments of wonder and beauty. Waking in the morning and over a cup of coffee or breakfast finding yourself saying life is good.🥰
THank you so much, Bill
Where there is deep Grief,There is Great ❤️ LOVE. What a blessing it is to "Feel". I know and have made friends with Grief, Ive been a Bereaved Mother for 10 years this fall.
Blessed Are Those Who Mourn, for they shall be comforted❤️🙏
Broken heart syndrome is real. I wish you peace at this time. She went so quickly that there was not time for good-by's. I was a CNA for 14 years back when I was young. Even when they are ill or look like they are struggling to exit the shell we call bodies, they actually have already begun the transition and are blissfully unaware that they are barely breathing. We are all encased in love such as we have never known on earth. She is watching over you, and everyone else you have lost is also watching over you. She would be with you if you did go on a cruise. A European riverboat cruise would be nice. I haven't....yet I've heard they are 'quite lovely.' 🙂I like to watch LittlePoet, yet I have to make sure I can watch and not just listen because she is quite the movie maker producer. Little splices of photos and short videos that are just fun and calming to watch. Talk to Debbie. I'm sure you do. She is listening. She can 'listen' to your thoughts too. A new super power we gain on the other side.
I absolutely love what you shared here❤ I've witnessed the same as they exit the body🙏 They are ALWAYS with us🙏✨️
@hopebrowning6300 Unfortunately/so sadly these people more than likely took the jibby-jab, and sadly do not make the connection, and yes this is all in the good book that this would happen, I have lost some people and young and healthy before the you know what......may the good Lord help me and everyone that believed this lie.
You are a pleasure - Ty . I lost my partner 13 weeks ago - I too am in deep grief .
I’m glad you’re staying on yt . ❤
Namaste
If there's anything I can do to ensure that you don't drown in your suffering while you work through your grief, please let me know.
Grief is a personal journey for each of us. I lost my mother in 1990. She was only 59 years old. I grieve her loss daily but, I feel her presence daily as well!
I totally agree.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband about two years ago and it was quite difficult to get through that time. It was a journey for sure. I too worry about death sometimes but I’ve decided I’m not gonna waste one more minute or more energy and worry about that. Hundred. I’m gonna enjoy every single day and the beauty that God has created. I have two beautiful golden retrievers that absolutely give me purpose and so much love. I’ve just started my 70s and, I stay close to some close friends and I do a little bit of traveling and working in my yard and life is good. I hope you get through this journey of grief and life will be something you look forward to once again
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It’s Angela W. I’m thinking of you every day, and wishing strength and comfort to you as you move through this profound loss. Much love to you! ❤️❤️❤️❤️🫂
Angela, you have no idea how much your support over these past 3 weeks have helped me. I'm getting better every day.
I’m here to support you in any way that I can.
I’m so sorry to see you struggling. I think getting out in nature will help in your healing process. A group of us will be camping in Grants Pass in a few weeks. You’re welcome to join us. Oregon ‘24 🤗
Let me know the dates and I just may. Are you thinking of attending the Oregon Country Fair?
@@gr8fullytedicated look up PNW Nomad Meetups Grants Pass 2024. Looks like Matty Van Helen even put up a video about it. I went last year. 14th-21st.
Ted, so sorry for your terrible loss. Losing someone so close and who has been so close for such a long time is unimaginable.
Hang in there and continue to lean on your circle of support. While the problem really is we think we have time but at time really is your friend when it comes to grief and loss.
Enjoy the Ride
Much love Ted, use this channel as a way to get distracted and move forward! Being creative during lows can help in many ways.
Thank you very much, Evan. I plan to do just that.
I remember when I was 22 and my father was on his death bed he said: “I just want to die”. I didn’t understand why he would say such a thing.Now I’m 45 and I understand it much better.You just get tired sometimes…death becomes much more understandable the closer you get to it
I also understand it, but I know that while I am not afraid of it anymore, I am not ready for it yet, either. Thanks for posting.
On some things, the only way out is through. You enter the tunnel at one end without knowing whether or not there's a way out. I haven't always enjoyed living, but I always enjoy having lived. My friend, songwriter Gary -- I think you met him -- dates back to 1972, passed about 2 weeks ago. Took a chunk of my life with him. In so many ways, life is impossibly sad.
Yes, I remember, Gary. I think I have a recording of him doing one of my songs...death is the conclusion to taking life in this incarnation. I am fairly ok with mine, but I still am not ready for those close to me. Be well and healthy, Bro',
So sorry for your loss..I am 73 and I really can't believe I have made it this far with all the issues I have dealt with in my life! My heart has really taken a beating over the years..I am ready to go and yet I am not ready to go..we shall see..
I completely understand that. Thank you so much for commenting.
I am very sorry for your loss. I think I have found you at a good time, and I I am thankful for that. Lately I have found myself feeling very odd and like I have no real purpose...except for caring for my disabled son....life just seems flat, I want to find and feel happiness again. I look forward to your upcoming content. Blessings
Thank you for your post. It is received with a warm and open heart. You should know that I created this channel to be a travel and events channel that Debbie really helped me with, although she didn't appear much in the videos. In this video, I allude to the previous one I made of her passing. For me to keep going at my age, I will continue to do travel and events as the main theme. However, there are so many people who have reacted to this one and the one about Debbie passing, that I will now also do some personal ones every week or two. May you be happy and peaceful of mind.
May you always be healed and comforted.
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Hello dear one. I'm a newbie here. Sending you love and light. So sorry to hear of your dear friends passing. May her spirit shine through you. Hugs.
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I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope you'll be able to find a way to overcome all the feelings associated with loss that can hold us back.
I'm a young man of 38, and I've lost more in life than I've gained. I've lost a lot recently, including one of my oldest, closest friends.Depression, addiction and a loss of will is a deadly combination.
I'm finally at a point where I'm doing everything I can to change my mindset and learn how to be a positive thinking and overall happier person.
What I've found to be helpful has been learning about the bible for the first time, and talking to others people who are also struggling with the same situations. Keeping my mind busy has been the biggest help.
I hope at least something i said has meant something to you. If you have found anything that has helped you, i would love to hear about it.
Keep on doing what you do. (From Lapine Oregon)
THank you for your kind post. Know that what you said was received with a warm and open heart. (From Redmond, Oregon)
The video's title was scary. It's good to hear you're trying your best to hold on and keep moving. And good for us to plan on seeing more videos of you and places you visit.
My neighbor stole my Yorkie three months ago, and I thought the pain would fade with time, but it has worsened...I'm 56 but I feel too old, too lonely, too broken, my grief so great I don't want to go on, I feel like I'm fixin' to die.
I can understand your feeling at this point. I try to remember to allow the grief to arise and pass away, arise and pass away, without drowning in any suffering that working through the grief may cause. Good luck.
@@gr8fullytedicated thank you, that was so helpful
I lost my dog Bear , it was unbearable, I understand your pain, you need to keep your self busy. Maybe donate time to walking dogs at the shelter, by me they have options of temporarily fostering dogs till they get adopted. Keeping them out of the kennel. So much need for people with big hearts.
Did you call the cops? 😒 🤔
@MichelleKumler its complicated; she used to be his dog. But he told me she was my dog now, and I had her registered to me. She was mine for nine months before he snatched her back and gave her away to someone else, he's a dognapper and it hurts so bad to live next to him, her name is Flower and she came to me during the Full Flower Moon, this would have been our 1 year anniversary, we used to dress as twinsies and walked with the Lord, and I'm so angry and heartbroken and helpless and bitter
Thank you for sharing your life with us. It is helping others and I hope it helps you too.
Thank you for saying that. I think I'm finding that out. It might mean doing more of this as I also do the Travel and Events part. We'll see.
I am so sorry to hear about your losses, but I believe you will see them all again. Those close to you, now gone with let you know by something your shared together. One day you will see something you both shared here on earth. Peace and continue to grow, learn, and experience things!
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I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend, Debbie. May she be resting in peace and finding ways to encourage you! Thank you for sharing your life and times with us. Live to your fullest, you won't regret it and know that God always has your back!
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Sending prayers for comfort and peace. We are so sorry for your devastating loss. We understand and wish you emotional improvement, which takes time and ultimately, joy again.
Thank you for your kind thoughts. They are truly appreciated.
Do some research on how psilocybin mushrooms can help you deal with grief.
Sending you lots of love Ted!!!
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My heart goes out to you. I'm a new subscriber, and I watched your last video. I'm just so very sorry for the loss of your dear friend. My heart breaks for you. I wish you only the best. May your friend's memory be a blessing. ❤🙏
Thank you so much for your kind wishes. Know they are received with a warm and open heart.
You are so welcome. I wish you nothing but the best. ❤@@gr8fullytedicated
Good luck old buck. The world needs hearty elders now just as ever.
Thank you, know your comment was received with a warm and open heart. I'll be as hardy (hearty) as I can, too.
Yeah man. We're teetering on the edge. Probably from this dream to another. Peace❤
Your grief shows how much you valued and loved her. It is beautiful to see but I know it’s hard. Take one day as it comes and if some days you don’t want to do anything, stop and think you will do it for her. In her honor and memory. She would love that I am certain.
Thank you very much for your comment. Know it was received with a warm and open heart. Tell Trent & Allie hello for me when you see them. Very grateful for your post.
We sure will! Hoping to get together with them soon before baby comes😀 hang in there and know we are all rooting for you!
@@mountainmoderadventures Thank you so very much.
Love to you dear man. I wish well.
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Stay strong ,there are other people that need you !
Yes, you are so correct as I am finding out. Thank you.
I am so sorry for you I lost my wife 4-19-2024 we was married 27 years I am 67 years old I have never feel like this it hurts so bad she had cancer 8 years of her life 💔 😢 I don't know what to do she was my best friend and soul mates 💔 😢 😢
I'm sorry you are going through this just as I am. The way I'm coping is to be aware of the grief and it arises and passes away, arises and passes away, while trying not to drown in suffering as I work through the grief. Good luck to you.
@gr8fullytedicated thank you very much and God bless us all
You are in the early stages of this horrific journey. Day, hour, minute at a time. Try to be gentle with yourself, lower your expectations. Simply surviving isn't as easy as it sounds but it is enough. 15 months for me. Mid-60s, lost my husband of 40+ years, early 70s. It has only been the last month or so I made the conscious decision I want to live, after many months of so badly wanting to join him.
Thank you for your thoughtful post.
My mom died February 19 . 2021 I'm old 56 . I'm still devastated I feel so so in tune n bad for you. It's a terrible n worst pain
Thank you so much for your comment.
Hi Ted, I’m glad to see you moving forward in your creative journey. Camping will be good as nature has a way of healing. Always good to see you on the screen. Looking forward to camping with you!
Thank you so much, Kari. It is truly appreciated. If you look at the vid's description, at the very bottom is an email you can use to get me and we can talk about a camping excursion. Again, thank you very much.
I'm so sorry....
Thank you for sharing.
Peace.
Praying for you
Me too
❤ love so much Love your way buddy
Sorry for your loss, Ted. I'll look for you at OCF this year. Be well.
I’ll be checking in for sure, may God give you peace.
God is the giver and taker of life. This is the day the Lord has made so rejoice and live it to the fullest. Look up! Peace!
I appreciate that you took the time to comment on a suggestion that you feel is something that might help.
Praying for you. 🙏
Thank you
My father is 89. He is spending his last years cursing his children. The hate is unbelievable.
Sorry thatyou have to endure that. Hatred never ceases by hatred, but by love alone is healed. This is the eternal law.
I agree with the statement you started with, "The problem is that we think we have time..." I'm so sorry for your loss and the grief you are feeling. I want you to know that death can be a new beginning through Jesus. There are many beliefs people have about death. But there is only one truth. Who has the right answer? Buddha? Muhammed? Atheists? Hindus? Jews? Christians? Spiritists? We cannot all have the right answer. We humans do NOT have the power to manifest our opinions beyond the grave. We do not have power to each make our beliefs happen after death. Only one thing will happen. There is only one outcome after we die, just like 2+2 always equals 4, there is only one outcome for everyone when they die. We will face God. The transition of life to death will mean facing God, the Maker of all things. Our souls are eternal, so we will live eternally, but where? I greatly encourage you to hear the good news of Jesus who died for you so that you may live in His eternal Light and Glory. Jesus paid for your sins and loves you so much that He paid the cost for your soul, so that you could be perfect in God's sight, holy and pure. You canno't be in the presence of God without being perfected through Jesus' blood and Spirit. Jesus can heal your sorrow. He can be your traveling companion. He doesn't leave or forsake. I pray that you get to know Jesus. I've prayed for your soul to be eternally saved, for you to know the healing life of Jesus and to have hope. Blessings.
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Yes we're all next...its life
Prayers for you
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sending love 🙏🏽
Thank you. It is received with a warm and open heart
Your friends and all the people who love you will help.
Yes I am feeling that, thank you.
Good to see you my friend, losing someone close to you is tough. Yes, life goes on, but it can be tough. Remember the good times you had together. Stay strong my friend, wish you all the best
Thank you so much. It's really appreciated.
Im in my midd sixties . They found a anuerisism in my head last month . Mire drs until we come up with a plan.im.looking at lufe saying my sisters needed me whats going to hapoen.im.so sorrybfor your loss. It takes time
May you be healthy and strong of body
Hang in there, everything’s gonna be all right.
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@@gr8fullytedicated no need to get down and depressed. It’s always a better day. I lost my father to a very tragic death when I was very young. My mother left when I was a baby. and there’s more tragedy, but you will prevail and rise above it all. Things will turn around for you for sure!
drink some cocoa powder with milk n water you will be pumped up ted drink this a few times a day youll get so much done youll feel young n quick make sure to eat beans and veggies to come off this drink later in the day.
thank you for your kind post
@@gr8fullytedicated your welcome brother . Try some stair climbing if you have a tight back or bad knees. Alot of the time its energy we dont have but once the ball is rolling our mind can think with less stress. And sometimes shallow breathing or drowning feeling is just indegestion and we need to burp then we breath fine or i just need baking soda to get rid of the acid. Man as you know life is tough and its best to shake out all that stress into something constructive . So take that walk be active brother youll have nothing to stress about all the energy needs to be spent if we bottle it up and quit life is 10x harder
I am sorry for your loss. Your friends and family would want you to keep living. Sudden loss is a trauma and shock to our system. Reach out to Jesus He is the way truth and life and no one comes to the Father but through Him. Sending you a hug from Michigan , God bless you ....
THank you for your post
Best wishes dude
Thank you so much
God Bless you and your companion
Thank you so much
Looking forward to getting to know you kind soul. :)
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Time. Oh my friend Time. 🕙
You are certainly correct. Thank you.
@@gr8fullytedicated time stops for no one. Time never slows down. Time never speeds up. You can always count on Time to be consistent. Unless of course Time isn't consistent. Who are you time? ⏰️ 🤔🕑 (poem I just wrote for you) 😁
There is life after death. With God enjoying him forever or not.
I was thinking of the subject just the other day. Death that is. I actually think of it a lot. Death has always been there since birth. There's such a fine line between life and death. It just seems that when we get older it becomes more prevalent but in reality, it has always been there waiting. I say this because I have escaped death many times in life. I can count at least 10 times in my life where I almost died or could've died. I've seen many times from family and people that I know give up in life and soon after they had died. Many times it's a choice that one wants to die. It matters that one fights to live.
Very astute way of looking at things. Thanks for posting it.
Even more important. What’s to live for???
Good point. And it would seem I do have things to live for.
Make the Lord your shepherd , he can heal your broken heart and give you hope and salvation.Praying for you to heed this scripture, if today you hear his voice harden not your heart❤
very sad
But I am getting better day to day.
Can a child of light be born at eternal life? or.. Can you "doubt" using "Do you Be across"
I apologize but I am not able to understand what your post means. Sorry.
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You look like Jerry Garcia reincarnated
I get that all the time...LOL
May God bless you he love you all so much he died on the cross for your sins belive in him and repent!!! ♥ ♥
I feel bad for you,wish I could say something that would help.
Just the fact that you took the time to watch and to comment helps a lot. Thank you.
I hope you still have some people left.I myself am out of everyone.Everyone has either passed away or became unlikeable.I'm down to my dog whose 14 years old and not doing so good.Good luck!
@@Tony-hu7uk I do have people, thank you. Good luck to you as well.
Pastor Charles Lawson Utube
He is the propitiation for your sins.
Sorry for your loss,please don’t die with out Jesus~ John 3:3~8
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@@gr8fullytedicated Jesus said “i am the way,the truth, and the life,no man cometh to the father but through me”. Please don’t die like those who have no hope,but like those who have hope for the blessed future in ever lasting life in paradise.
Trust in Jesus. Jesus said anyone who comes to me I will in nowise cast out.