this vlog has accompanied me editing my own videos and photos after a weekend of taking photos. it's nice watching someone who is also trying to find a flow, because I'm finding that there really isnt one set way to do stuff. you just have to move with your cycles of energy and not make the structure too complicated. i think youre doing a great job at continuing to show up and share your feelings all while taking care of yourself when you need it. ♥
I appreciate the vulnerability so much, the admitting you had good cry sessions. Cause I feel embarrassed when I do but these videos show me its OKAY 😂❤
I've watched this one twice now, all the way through, and it just hits so hard. I'm dealing with the same stuff at the moment, having panic attacks about it, etc... And hearing that we're going through it the same way, trying to love ourselves through it, is just so comforting. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, emotions... My brain is totally fried atm sorry hahah, but just wanted to say thank you. This one was so helpful on the mental health front. XOXO
Just came back from a three weeks trip and was super unfocussed at work today, so I put on your video and it helped a looooot with staying focussed. Thanks for that chatty vlog 🧡
i relate so much to your discussion on toxic shame, fear of abandonment, needing to constantly please others etc. - things started getting significantly better for me as I started to journal and meditate way more often, as well as creating a routine for myself and spending more time alone. but its hard work, it takes so much consistent effort over a long period of time, and I do still have my struggles with my mental health, but Im soooo happy I took those steps! It looks like youre taking a lot of the same steps too, so trust the process, I promise it will get easier! and try to be easy on yourself as you go through it! also i love the oni drawing you made :D
yes 1000% - its so many ups and downs but just being able to see my progress over the past few years has really shown how impactful those little routines can be & makes me excited for how I will continue to grow & heal🥹🫶 thank you!!!❤️
ooh I really like the plant watering outro tradition lol I really relate to what you're talking about and I just want to say that you're on the right track and just keep moving through discomfort and eventually it won't feel so scary and bad to speak up when you need space or can't do something bc you need down time etc. and people who truly love you and want the best for you will respect and understand that a boundary is not a personal attack but rather a relational conversation about How to be in relationship with you and truly be close to you in an authentic way---you deserve that just as much as everyone else (:
omg a second comment I'm so spoiled LOL thank you🫶🫶🫶 slowly learning how to convince myself of these truths & truly believe them - all with time & practice🌱
Struggling with a lot of the same things, and I really appreciate you sharing. Perfectionism is very difficult to overcome. Being kind and encouraging to myself takes effort, but it's worth it.
I have a friend I run by the things I'm going to take on before I commit because I have the tendency to take on way to much. And most people don't come to these realizations until way later in life. It's a tough path to go through and process in a healthy way so that's so awesome for you. You'll get to a place of contentment beyond those learned behaviours and what a beautiful thing that will be. You got this.
I feel the distance thing. all of august has been like one giant clogged drain creatively.. that aside I love how real your content is 🫶 loved the video!
This just popped up in my feed. You're a very deep thinker, unraveling your subconsciousness with much care and precision. On the topic of acceptance, it can be hard for me to strike a balance too. It isn't easy to perform at work while juggling with my own emotions, so there is that innate emotional suppression. Ultimately, I've accepted my own neurosis and idiosyncrasies; and while I don't ask others to understand, I hope that I can make it up in other areas. I hope you find your own comfort zone in time. Our egos are very fragile, aren't they? Be gentle and patient with yourself 😊
i love you when you are unperfect the term of perfection is ablosutely subjective and not stable one for everybody who living and moving even if this talk is about only ur own seeing. then it seems like the best way you can keep is giving yourself that u need and how feel thanks for the videos and cyaa
I love the juxtaposition of the vase you painted/glazed with the fish painting behind you! I really enjoyed seeing you paint traditionally and I hope you can do more traditional work if you want to (:
thats so beautiful thank you for sharing your feelings on it🥹🫶 I'm so sorry for the pain you had to grow through - living through the difficulties of life obviously sucks but coming out the other side is such a beautiful thing that enables you to have so much more empathy/connect with others on a deeper level - Ive been thinking about that alot lately🌱 thank you for watching & being so sweet to me as always🥹 appreciate you❤️
Late to this but you can get little needle nose glaze applicators that lay glaze or other liquids down in lines. If you ever do this kind of thing again.
Regarding you feeling down or empty... check what time of the month you are in your period. When I started to link these changes in mood and my period it all made more sense
for the demon illo I’m using ink bleed hard from Koteri Ink’s Patreon ( www.patreon.com/koteriink ), and the grainy texture shading brush is a customized ver of Jingsketch’s edge control brush! ( jingsketch.gumroad.com/l/JingsketchBrushes ) I tend to use these two sets, as well as a bunch of the procreate default brushes (primarily hb pencil customized in different ways) - hope this helps!
The drawing of the girl is a high jumper I did that in middle school/highschool and I actually jumped 6 feet! I made my couch lose his mind lol (I'm not a tall person) i also wanted to say your thoughts on sponsorship is the same as mine like I wouldn't be opposed to it if it was something that I was really into but also I don't want to be a UA-camr I want to be an artist also I am very strong minded so when I put my mind to it I do it I don't really do the easy way out my mind likes to feel accomplished off my hard work so putting the time and effort into my art instead of doing sponsorships will really make me feel a lot more accomplished as an artist but maybe one day I will get to that point where I have the time to do both I'm still working on just getting my business started. I have the same problem as you feeling like if I'm not doing my all and being perfect for everyone then I am going to lose people. What I have been starting to do is trying to figure out where this thought process even started because I feel like once I know when it started that I know why that mindset started. Then I can work on that myself also needs the same kind of love so lately I have been working on doing my same routine with others for myself. With that I have canceled plans, I have done less for people when they treat me poorly, taken more time to the things I want, focused more on my needs, set more boundaries, and that is actually slowly making me feel stronger for myself which gives me more strength to help and care for others when I make time for it. So maybe that can help you a little bit? No matter what you're doing great not one single person is perfect and the fear of being criticized is ok because no one likes it but working on how you react to it will actually do wonders. People well hate on you for doing one thing that they wouldn't do but you're not them their choices are for them yours are for you and it's ok to be different and it's ok to contradict yourself sometimes because sometimes you grow and you become a different person throughout life. The thing about social media is everyone has an opinion and they don't know your life they could see you do one thing and judge you for that one thing not knowing all the wonderful things that you do throughout the day to everyone to yourself even. I support you!
🥹🥹 thank you so much you’re so kind - definitely, I’m working through all of these little things that bog me down and learning slowly as I dig into myself further how to undo my beliefs and patterns that have made me emotionally unhealthy/unloving to myself. Slowly learning how to set boundaries and give myself what I need🌱 I appreciate your support sm thank you thank you🥹🫶❤️
@@leechuts I'm proud of you! Just now growing is a lot of ups and downs and sometimes you can move a few steps forward and then a few steps back, but the good thing is nothing is constant! No matter what things will always change and so try not to be too hard on yourself. You got this even if you have to take Little steps to reach your big goals. ☺️
Long format videos are life! Perfect to work along side! Thank you for the company while I storyboard! ~
omg YESS 96 minutes of pure peace to draw alongside.
@@malurus_ 🤲 just for you xo enjoy
this vlog has accompanied me editing my own videos and photos after a weekend of taking photos. it's nice watching someone who is also trying to find a flow, because I'm finding that there really isnt one set way to do stuff. you just have to move with your cycles of energy and not make the structure too complicated. i think youre doing a great job at continuing to show up and share your feelings all while taking care of yourself when you need it. ♥
thank you for the reminder🥹🫶 thats beautiful I'm so happy you allowed yourself the space to make your art - all the love as always appreciate you❤️❤️
I appreciate the vulnerability so much, the admitting you had good cry sessions. Cause I feel embarrassed when I do but these videos show me its OKAY 😂❤
I've watched this one twice now, all the way through, and it just hits so hard. I'm dealing with the same stuff at the moment, having panic attacks about it, etc... And hearing that we're going through it the same way, trying to love ourselves through it, is just so comforting. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, emotions... My brain is totally fried atm sorry hahah, but just wanted to say thank you. This one was so helpful on the mental health front. XOXO
Love this long form video!
Thanks for these long format videos. It takes the anxiety off to finish my artwork.
Just came back from a three weeks trip and was super unfocussed at work today, so I put on your video and it helped a looooot with staying focussed. Thanks for that chatty vlog 🧡
wow that first piece looks gorgeous!! 🥰🥰
Yaaaaay! Love your videos! You're such an inspiration. Thanks for sharing your feelings and thoughts.
i relate so much to your discussion on toxic shame, fear of abandonment, needing to constantly please others etc. - things started getting significantly better for me as I started to journal and meditate way more often, as well as creating a routine for myself and spending more time alone. but its hard work, it takes so much consistent effort over a long period of time, and I do still have my struggles with my mental health, but Im soooo happy I took those steps! It looks like youre taking a lot of the same steps too, so trust the process, I promise it will get easier! and try to be easy on yourself as you go through it! also i love the oni drawing you made :D
yes 1000% - its so many ups and downs but just being able to see my progress over the past few years has really shown how impactful those little routines can be & makes me excited for how I will continue to grow & heal🥹🫶 thank you!!!❤️
So excited to watch this!!💛
oh hell yeah a leechuts vid! 🤩
ooh I really like the plant watering outro tradition lol
I really relate to what you're talking about and I just want to say that you're on the right track and just keep moving through discomfort and eventually it won't feel so scary and bad to speak up when you need space or can't do something bc you need down time etc. and people who truly love you and want the best for you will respect and understand that a boundary is not a personal attack but rather a relational conversation about How to be in relationship with you and truly be close to you in an authentic way---you deserve that just as much as everyone else (:
omg a second comment I'm so spoiled LOL thank you🫶🫶🫶 slowly learning how to convince myself of these truths & truly believe them - all with time & practice🌱
Struggling with a lot of the same things, and I really appreciate you sharing. Perfectionism is very difficult to overcome. Being kind and encouraging to myself takes effort, but it's worth it.
I have a friend I run by the things I'm going to take on before I commit because I have the tendency to take on way to much. And most people don't come to these realizations until way later in life. It's a tough path to go through and process in a healthy way so that's so awesome for you. You'll get to a place of contentment beyond those learned behaviours and what a beautiful thing that will be. You got this.
thats such a good habit! thank you so much🥹❤️ I can already feel the little glimpses of peace when I create them for myself - I'll keep on going🌱
I feel the distance thing. all of august has been like one giant clogged drain creatively.. that aside I love how real your content is 🫶 loved the video!
yeah something bout the end of summer i guess😮💨 sending clarifying vibes🌱🌱 ty for watching🫶
I very much needed to hear this from another artist. Thank you so much for sharing.
I like your honesty and strength, good soul!!, love you
@@brucemitchell9509 thanks bruce love u too🫶🫶🫶
51:40 i literaly was thinking about for what the metal pipe is existing on your kitchen for all this part holy
This just popped up in my feed.
You're a very deep thinker, unraveling your subconsciousness with much care and precision. On the topic of acceptance, it can be hard for me to strike a balance too. It isn't easy to perform at work while juggling with my own emotions, so there is that innate emotional suppression. Ultimately, I've accepted my own neurosis and idiosyncrasies; and while I don't ask others to understand, I hope that I can make it up in other areas.
I hope you find your own comfort zone in time. Our egos are very fragile, aren't they? Be gentle and patient with yourself 😊
thank you sm🙏🌱🌱🌱 the mystery of life is definitely complicated as it is beautiful - thank you for sharing & for the reminder!!🫰
New video!!! LETTTSSSSS GOOOOOOOOO!!!!
"bc I'm smart" hahaha, so gr8.
I’m listening to this while I walk the doggies!! I can’t wait to see our vases soon 👀
@@Itsminpling SAME kiss the puppos for me xoxoxoxo
i love you when you are unperfect
the term of perfection is ablosutely subjective and not stable one for everybody who living and moving even if this talk is about only ur own seeing. then it seems like the best way you can keep is giving yourself that u need and how feel
thanks for the videos and cyaa
I love the juxtaposition of the vase you painted/glazed with the fish painting behind you! I really enjoyed seeing you paint traditionally and I hope you can do more traditional work if you want to (:
thats so beautiful thank you for sharing your feelings on it🥹🫶 I'm so sorry for the pain you had to grow through - living through the difficulties of life obviously sucks but coming out the other side is such a beautiful thing that enables you to have so much more empathy/connect with others on a deeper level - Ive been thinking about that alot lately🌱 thank you for watching & being so sweet to me as always🥹 appreciate you❤️
Late to this but you can get little needle nose glaze applicators that lay glaze or other liquids down in lines.
If you ever do this kind of thing again.
🤩🤩🤩
Regarding you feeling down or empty... check what time of the month you are in your period. When I started to link these changes in mood and my period it all made more sense
love your content SO much. aspire to be like you 🫶
thank you🥹🫶
What brushes are you using for procreate? Can you link them? ;))
for the demon illo I’m using ink bleed hard from Koteri Ink’s Patreon ( www.patreon.com/koteriink ), and the grainy texture shading brush is a customized ver of Jingsketch’s edge control brush! ( jingsketch.gumroad.com/l/JingsketchBrushes ) I tend to use these two sets, as well as a bunch of the procreate default brushes (primarily hb pencil customized in different ways) - hope this helps!
I kd like crying because i can just let go and feel i don’t have to think (maybe its wired idk)
Maybe need to make it clear Thad i prefer crying over being sad i don’t like the emotion but i feel better wen i cried then wen i just was whatever
🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍
The drawing of the girl is a high jumper I did that in middle school/highschool and I actually jumped 6 feet! I made my couch lose his mind lol (I'm not a tall person) i also wanted to say your thoughts on sponsorship is the same as mine like I wouldn't be opposed to it if it was something that I was really into but also I don't want to be a UA-camr I want to be an artist also I am very strong minded so when I put my mind to it I do it I don't really do the easy way out my mind likes to feel accomplished off my hard work so putting the time and effort into my art instead of doing sponsorships will really make me feel a lot more accomplished as an artist but maybe one day I will get to that point where I have the time to do both I'm still working on just getting my business started.
I have the same problem as you feeling like if I'm not doing my all and being perfect for everyone then I am going to lose people. What I have been starting to do is trying to figure out where this thought process even started because I feel like once I know when it started that I know why that mindset started. Then I can work on that myself also needs the same kind of love so lately I have been working on doing my same routine with others for myself. With that I have canceled plans, I have done less for people when they treat me poorly, taken more time to the things I want, focused more on my needs, set more boundaries, and that is actually slowly making me feel stronger for myself which gives me more strength to help and care for others when I make time for it. So maybe that can help you a little bit?
No matter what you're doing great not one single person is perfect and the fear of being criticized is ok because no one likes it but working on how you react to it will actually do wonders. People well hate on you for doing one thing that they wouldn't do but you're not them their choices are for them yours are for you and it's ok to be different and it's ok to contradict yourself sometimes because sometimes you grow and you become a different person throughout life. The thing about social media is everyone has an opinion and they don't know your life they could see you do one thing and judge you for that one thing not knowing all the wonderful things that you do throughout the day to everyone to yourself even. I support you!
🥹🥹 thank you so much you’re so kind - definitely, I’m working through all of these little things that bog me down and learning slowly as I dig into myself further how to undo my beliefs and patterns that have made me emotionally unhealthy/unloving to myself. Slowly learning how to set boundaries and give myself what I need🌱 I appreciate your support sm thank you thank you🥹🫶❤️
@@leechuts I'm proud of you! Just now growing is a lot of ups and downs and sometimes you can move a few steps forward and then a few steps back, but the good thing is nothing is constant! No matter what things will always change and so try not to be too hard on yourself. You got this even if you have to take Little steps to reach your big goals. ☺️
lol hi :)))))