this is what depression feels like (Lyric Video) - Marina Lin
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Written by: Marina Lin
Lyric video by: Marina Lin
Produced, Mixed and Mastered by: Myles “Losh” Schwartz at Incredible Projects
Official Lyric Video for "this is what depression feels like" by Marina Lin.
Lyrics:
If i’m being honest, I’m not okay
doubled my dosage, but the pain won’t go away
these couple weeks, I haven’t felt the same
so if i’m being honest, I’m not okay
I don’t wanna cry for help
but i’m getting tired, pretending so well
me
thought i was going steady, but my minds got the best of me
I don’t know why i’m still here, honestly
If you took a peak inside of my brain
you’d find the reasons for all of the blame
constantly drowning, it wont go away
and if i’m being honest, i’m not okay
I don’t wanna cry for help
but i’m getting tired, pretending so well
me
thought i was going steady, but my minds got the best of me
I don’t know how to live, normally
I don’t wanna cry for help
but im getting tired and im not so well
I guess i’m unsteady, cause you got the best of me
I hope one day, i’ll be fine, honestly
Welppppp, here's my first attempt at a lyric video... I knew this song definitely deserved one. If you or anyone you know is struggling please don’t be afraid to reach out for help. Healing is a process and never linear, so please don’t be too hard on yourself!
Thank you😚but I'm not sure if I can trust anyone to help me😔
Marina Lin help!I have been pretending so long cause am scared of every things. Glad you always share yours words towards us it’s feels good.❤️🌸✌🏻
@@lem0nk3t Don't say that Angel..I know u can do things to make You feel happy again and if u don't im Always here for you!❤😅😘
I love this song so much, I listened to it so much when I felt like shit. Thank you so much for making this.
❤❤i hope u re also fine
I'm in a state where I don't want to kill myself, but I wouldn't care if I died.
This is exactly how I feel. Sometimes I just wish an accident would happen
Same. It sometimes feels like I'm already dead just an empty vessel walking around
Same tbh
You're not alone. I'm in that state also
I can sadly relate with this. It's a horrid thing, but you get used to it.
Just a heads up for people,
Depression affects people in different ways, some cry a lot, others hide it, some try to ignore it, some become suicidal
But, not all depressed people wear all black hoodies, sweats, etc.
A lot of them dress normally and act "normal".
In my experience, I know that sometimes depressed people dress super nice, because they want a distraction, so please don't believe the stereotype that ALL depressed people wear only black.
They don't. My closest friend has depression and she dresses really nicely, so please, don't believe this crappy stereotype.
TYSM for 208 likes, getting likes wasn't my intention, I just wanted to share some real information to others about depression.
Yes
This
@•S w e e t• •H o n e y• … I am so very sorry that you feel this way. If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here. :>
@•S w e e t• •H o n e y• Oh no, I was just saying, that if you need to talk with someone, I am here! And how I am very sorry that you feel as if there Is no normal in your life.
That's all! :3 I am sorry if I offended you though! It wasn't my intention
Thank u exactly I tried to tell my parents they said everyone goes through this phase and they said I acts normal so I’m fine 🤦🏼♀️ idc anymore
@@jenellestraub4273 It's not a phase, first of all. And second, when ppl say 'act normal' they forget to pay attention to one word, 'act' bc that's what it all is, an act, and if you feel depressed, then you are not fine and it's not a phase!
If you ever want to speak with someone, I'm here. I know what this feels like, so maybe I can help, have a nice day/ or night! :>
I think one of the worst things you could do to someone who’s going through depression is comparing like saying “My situation is worst than yours” and other crazy things like that. Having depression is a mental illness not a competition of who has it worst in life
That’s what my “best friend” and my mother do...
@@strawberriemilk6413 I'm sorry, that sucks and hurts. I have had friends tell me that I shouldn't be sad because other people have it worse. Best to cut that friend out of your life and I presume you are young and probably still living at home but when you aren't anymore you don't have to listen to your mother say hurtful things. Good luck.
Thats what my mom did. She would say she had it worse than me and i already knew that but it didnt change the fact that im going thru stuff.
@@dalila.marrufo4692 same
This is why Im bottling up all my rants and feelings and isolate myself instead of telling anyone.
i miss my old self. i miss being happy. i miss being carefree. i miss feeling loved. i miss being able to laugh. i feel like i'm drowning and everyone around me is happy. i miss being able to control my thoughts. i miss being able to hang out with people without constantly having my head tell me things. i miss smiling. i miss other emotions. i miss feeling things. i miss sleeping peacefully, not to escape this horrid world and my mind, but to sleep. i miss saying "im tired" and meaning i just want to sleep and not meaning im tired with life. i miss having friends. i miss not feeling scared and tired at the same time.
Same it's sad how your mind can change everything then you just don't feel like yourself anymore
Me too..
I feel ya 😔
😭
Same it’s sad how our minds have one day changed to suicidal minds from happy minds
I wish more people I’m close to understood how it feels and that I’m not being sad because I want to be pitied or seeking attention i just don’t have the ability to be ‘happy’ most of the time and it sucks.
no one is sad on purpose. It is a very real emotions we feel. WE should not shy away from saying we are not okay and we should be brave to share our thoughts with people who care. stay strong!
The more I learn about depression, the less I uderstand it. Sometimes, when I'm sad (wich is a bit rare), I can get what it feels like (I think), but most of the time, I wonder how people can care so much
Same
Tons of people understand. Just never the ones we need. No one in my family understands. My brother tries. Which is more than I can say for the others. Tons of people understand. Just not those we crave to be understood by, which makes is feel more alone. That's what I think anyway
Have you heard NF?
I have a lot of recommendations
“Stress”
“Nate”
“Like this”
“I miss the days”
“Hate myself”
My depression wants me to die but my anxiety is scared to
I know how that feels..
Olives_51 I feel the same way!
Oh that’s relatable
Yep...
Don’t. In this case, listen to your anxiety
Sleep isn’t just sleep anymore...
It’s an escape from reality...
That and books
I sleep to avoid conversations with the voice in my head
It hurts how much truth and pain is in two sentences.
Now if only I could get some
damnn that literally hits so hard and this is so true too.. i don't think i'm very okay anymore honestly...
Myself keep saying "go die" but in the same time myself keep saying "im scared"
Idk if this will help but, if you just remember that Dying isnt the best option, and you keep just focusing on Living rather then worrying about death, your life will be better
Same
I'm feeling the same way I'm so very depressed and anxiety
Honestly, I'm not okay either.
School is running me down, and all these fake people around me are draining me of all my emotion.
I don't want to die, just for the pain to end.
Kit Kat i feel like that’s normal though. i’m bipolar, so i guess my emotions are never really balanced, but from my experience, most people don’t feel ”good” most of the time, and feel stressed out from school and/or work
Same thing...
Yea being run down by school is normal but wanting to die is not. Think about the best Kit kat. Everything will get better.
Kit Kat i was just thinking if all the depressed people in the world gathered and have a good day together and let them feel like they're or we are not feeling alone and we have a good times spend together
I am with you ....... studying is really hard and it's taking the best of me.
the reasons why i live
1. i was born
2. i haven't died yet
Yep
Those are greats reasons to live yeah!
I laughed at your comment then I met total silent-
Lol😅
Axienty: WHAT IF I DIE!?
Depression: I WANT TO DIE.
Hey how u doing? I know its been 1 year but still
This two thing bothering me😢
Depression is like waiting for the day to end, just to cry out loud alone after facing heavy situations.
Its more worse when u can't even cry...the tears never comes out...
@@laok18yeah i wanna cry so hard but it doesn’t. It so painful like just waiting one day that i can’t endures it anymore
Depression is like waiting for the day to end, just to cry out loud alone after facing heavy situasion .
Sometimes it just make u feel wanna cry all the time without any reason when it flashback thing that hurting you so badly , hard to breathe.. feel like im dying in & out.
*"depression is like getting hit on the head and feeling the pain"*
But the pain doesn't go away.. But you lie and lie saying you're fine.. When you're not..
@@alexhowes8778 ikr 😔
@@solange3172 How are you? I bet not fine since you're agreeing with me. Anyways. When people reply I usually ask them how they feel mostly as it kind of helps I guess. However sometimes we don't know how we feel or why we feel that way
@@alexhowes8778 Ty sooo much for asking 💜 you're a really kind person. Lately, I felt so bad, now it's seems everything's better for me... But I know pain will come back, it always come back. Sometimes I just feel better, but you know, deep down, I know the pain is still here, there are just moments when I feel better... Perhaps I can convince myself that I'm totally fine. You know, I just keep smiling, so I think I'm fine. Now I feel better, but thank you so much for asking, you're a really beautiful person. And, how are you? Feel better too?
@@alexhowes8778 sorry for my bad English btw
"I dont know why I'm still here honestly"
.....
Same 🥺
Same
EXACTLY ME TOO
I say to myself that I'm here for the people that love me... but then again no one does love me anymore, so I dont even know.
That's what i think like every day
@@flowerthemusical2851 same
Sometimes you dont really want to die you just want to disappear until it all feels better
Yes yes yes 😢I was here once
"I don't wanna cry for help
But I'm getting tired pretending so well"
This is so true. I'm afraid of being seen as dramatic that's why I've been keeping everything to myself.
Hey hope you okay ??
I'm tired with everything. Just like the lyric, I'm not okay even tho I didn't show much to ppl. This song is totally how I feel like everyday. And I don't want ppl around me to know that I'm not okay. Complicated is the only definition of my life.
Subscribe to Danny... Smt. U'll feel better. And i promise to u. Ur still around becuz ur strong. U'll overcome it all.
Hey.. I understand what your talking about.. I felt exactly the same before, and even if I don't know your pain I can understand it, but, I want you to know something, I want you to know that you can get better. I would have a lot of things to tell you, but the most simple thing I can do is to advice you to watch those videos. I know it seems weird maybe, but the things that are said in it are totally true! And I know that because before I was at my bad, I was tired, I didn't want to live anymore, to suffer anymore and I attempt suicide, but I realize that I have dreams and that I don't allow myself to die before doing those things, so I learned to take things in life as it comes and to try to see the positive in things around me. It is not something easy but it is possible. All start in your mind, but go check this, you will understand:
• ua-cam.com/video/zD0XKGLh_Eo/v-deo.html
• ua-cam.com/video/hJLxJhMstrg/v-deo.html
• ua-cam.com/video/_f2NkYWDVTs/v-deo.html
• ua-cam.com/video/v7fODknoBrM/v-deo.html
I hope you will be able to feel better, you're strong enough to defeat the difficulties of life, I wish you all the happiness and send you all my love, don't give up 💜
lillsundaee i feel the same way
I hope one day we'll all be happy
Have you heard NF?
I have a lot of recommendations
“Stress”
“Nate”
“Like this”
“I miss the days”
“Hate myself”
IM ACTUALLY GONNA CRY I GOT SENT TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL AND MY CAT MISSED ME AND SHE HEARD THIS SONG AND STARTING PURRING AND CUDDLING WITH MEEE-
Cats are so sensitive to their entourage specifically to one they care for the most. Perhaps she felt you getting emotional and that is her way to comfort you even if she cannot convey it through words turning it into action and treating cha like her cub instead.
It's nice your cat missed you but cats dont understand human words like this. Your cat was just genuinely happy to see you. Which on its own is great. This song your cat doesn't understand I'm afraid. But don't let that take the reaction differently
@@glowstickz2141 cats don’t understand our language so it’s more like (awww that’s dumb)
Depression mainly feels like- you can’t breathe- like- a pill that’s hard to swallow-
It really does
Exactly what i feel when i cry and keep my sadness in the darkness. I never let myself make a sound whenever i cry and it is so hard to breath. It is suffocating and feels like choking you to death.
everyone in this comment section needs a hug ~virtual hugs for everyone~
I didn’t choose to be depressed, Believe me
When u build up the confidence to talk to someone about it but they think it's as easy as choosing not to be Depressed in the first place.
Why does it feel easier to be depressed than owning up to my own failures and the disappointment my life is, why does my mind continue to do things and think thinks that would make me more and more depressed, is it because I think I'm not depressed enough for people to believe me is my depression depressed
when you're depressed but believe in hell so suicide is not an option
I would love to go to hell. Why should I go to heaven if I can also go to hell. Sounds crazy, but if there is something called hell and someone called Lucifer I would really love to go to this place. But one thing. Maybe those people that are going through some stuff, are already in hell but on earth. And if they are happy for a very long time they are in heaven but on earth. Idk if someone even knows what I want to say but if not it's also Okay. And I am sorry for my bad English
Yeah I feel u , :( and I'm doing my best to live , even I'm around people who thinks I'm so worthless and I'm here crying :(
Sarah Lemmerer but you’ll suffer for eternity youll buen for eternity
Sarah x Totally see your point. Ive always wondered: “What if life here on earth is actually hell?”
Or maybe Hell and Heaven coexist and God gives you the strength to be lucky to live a happy life, or the weakness to live hell on earth..
@@asadturtle05 you are not worthless. And honey don't cry it's not worth it. You are beautiful and worth for everything. Tears are not looking good on you. Keep your head up, even if it's hard. I love you and so much other people also do.
We're all here for different reasons, but we share one thing in common :
Our minds want to escape, while our body's want to stay
We share the same type of pain through different origins of that
true
honestly days just pass by like it never happened, i barely even remember what happened yesterday or any day before that, and i cant cry to release my sadness. i just don't have tears left to cry. i think I've just gone numb over time and i don't really care that much on what happens most of the time. everything is just a haze or a lost memory that's been lost inside my mind.
I know how it feels, it s just like me
Same...
Oh boy didn't know it was TimeToGetEmotionallyDestroyed Thursday!
Haha same
I'm currently in *TimeToGetMentallyDestroyed* for it is THURSDAY and the 2nd day of our exams.
Nicholas Mohammed hey it's Thursday today
@@aurxphia_7421 Ohh nice! *Timetogementallydestroyed*
TimeToGetEmotionallyDestroyed Thursday, everyday Baby!
The worst part of depression is pretending that everything is okay, when nothing is really okay. When the whole world is crashing down on you and you feel burdened. That whole emotional lie is exhausting!!
Do you ever get that feeling where your suddenly sad, but you don’t know why and it’s like a deep sinking feeling?
No? Just me?
Edit: thank you for the likes and helping me feel like I’m not alone anymore
Sometimes I cry so much to the point my heart feels like it's sinking or the hole is getting bigger..thank you school, I'll never miss ya.
Me too my stomach drops and I feel hollow
Yup..
i feel the same way everyday eventho im surrounded by happy people with complete family. idk i feel that way
I know how it feels
"I don't know how to live normally"
I really don't know at the moment.
And I'm tired of pretending it wasn't this way.
Whatever, I hope it'll get better soon✨
As I wish to all the people who are struggling with similar things!! Dark times will pass! :)🌻
I know how you feel.I’ve been pretending for so long I forgot how to feel I’m numb and I don’t know what to do I’m too much of a coward to self harm and I don’t want to disappoint everyone I know so I always kept it in the inside where I don’t even know what’s real anymore
@@naydelinnonato164 Naydelin Nonato Soo sorry to hear. That doesn't sound good!
But maybe a little inspiration:
even though it were only a few months since I apparently wrote this comment, but I already feel better. It came slowly, often I wondered if it changed at all- but it did! You know, there's still much shit in my life going on, but at least I can feel again❤️
Days pass and I don't think about death or bad things...
So, maybe it's true what I wrote...that dark times will pass!
I really wish you the best. And I can so really recommend talking to people. Slowly opening up, sharing your sorrow, so you can feel truly alive again one day.
Please, stay strong
Will not*
Sherlockhart I really hope you are right I’m still fighting it gets a little hard sometimes but I’m hanging on a little more I’m waiting until I can be happy again
@@naydelinnonato164 Oh yes, stay strong. One day you'll be happy again. I just know it❤
Artists like you Marina makes me proud of being from Canada in general. Having fought / still fighting through Depression of 12 years this hits home. Yes, Mental Health, specifically Depression is subjective from person to person but the underlining similarities are still there, and creators like yourself and Alayna provide a voice for those who're either too afraid to speak up or lack the words because it falls on deaf ears (Speaking for myself mainly).
As always keep up the amazing work Marina !
This is the sweetest ever!! Thank you for sharing your story and taking the time to acknowledge our work as creators :) I hope some of the music I share can help you through whatever it is you're going through. Xx
Have you heard NF?
I have a lot of recommendations
“Stress”
“Nate”
“Like this”
“I miss the days”
“Hate myself”
@@ArielShootsClips Yup ! Been a fan of NF way before he went mainstream, his work is amazing ! Also mainstream in meaning before he blew up and everyone knew about him lol.
I'm not saying this for attention, I just don't want to tell anyone I know personally.
I just don't have the energy anymore to deal with day to day life, and even on one of my good days I still don't want to be alive, I just don't wanna kill myself. Its been so hard this year and my grades in school are going down, I'm so scared of disappointing my parents. My friends consider me skinny so I've been trying not to eat I just don't want them to know that I'm not perfect and it's so stressful. I just don't know if I can go on anymore.
goose battalion you can, I promise I know what it feels like, I’m struggling because I’m losing everything and everyone I love but I don’t want to say anything because I don’t want people to know or be called an attention seeker and you don’t want to do anything so you just lose hourself. But I’m here for you, you can do this, I don’t know you but I love you so much. Stay well friend
“Having a rough day?
Place your hand over your heart.
Feel that?
That’s called purpose.
You are alive for a reason.
Don’t give up”
Have you noticed that most people get depressed because of school? Hm? Now y’all know 😖🤔🤗
This is so true. If it wasn't for school I would actually be genuinely happy. When I'm not at school its like a huge relief of my shoulders
lol, I think schools don´t give depression, just stress and anxiety. Depression comes from many, many things.
and I am not saying they do give, but if someone gets something it would probably be one of those two. Just not depression.
I am not in school and I still have it. But I am better now I am going to a psychologist.
Mine is bc of home and school
The only thing that is stopping me from ending it all is my family.
Cant relate
I hope you're better now
Same
literlly
Me my baby she's only 5 yrs old no body will take care of her if i die but Im very tired of my life
The fact she says "I hope one day I'll be fine honestly" reassures me. When you're in the worst spot, you don't even imagine things getting better, you only want to end your suffering, not feel better. The fact she can imagine herself doing better proves she is already on her way back up ❤️
I miss being happy, caring, loved, not afraid to cry, now i'm just careless, hated, broken, left in the dark, alone, and bottling all my emotions and keeping it all to myself i made a promise i won't end it and i'm struggling on keeping my promise but i have to, my depression wants me to die but my anxiety makes me too scarwd to--
I stopped pretending and everyone left me, so I guess I'll keep pretending I'm fine, so that my best friends come back to me (:(
If they do that, they’re are not true friends. I don’t have friends and I don’t know how to make one. I just don’t know how to talk to them.
This is sad I’ll be your guys friends even tho I’m always left in the dark :/
@@bean2216 just send me a message (tahupmelanie@gmail.com) if you need someone to talk to
Juniper_ I know they’re not real friends but at this point I'd rather have fake friends than no friends at all. I’m too scared to be alone. I guess since you don’t have any friends we’ll have each other now.
Melanie Tahup can I do that too?
This song is literally the summary of what I am feeling lately...empty
Words can't describe how much I want to have someone, who I can talk to, who feels and understands what its like when you are Empty. Stay strong everyone, you aren't alone, probably there are people near you who knows how your emptiness feels, they just hide it as you do ~
‘I’m getting tired of pretending so well” just that. No matter what and how i do things, i’ll never do it the right way, and “i don’t wanna cry for help” i don’t want help, but I’m still crying hoping the pain will leave one day, maybe that will take days, weeks, months or maybe i won’t get there, no one knows. It’s just that crying is the only thing i can do right.
Reasons why you should stay alive.
1. We would miss you.
2. It's not worth the regret. Either by yourself if you failed or just simply left scars, or the regret everyone else feels by not doing enough to help you.
3. It does get better. Believe it or not it will eventually get better. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to get to the rainbow.
4. There's so much you would miss out on doing.
5. There is always a reason to live. It might not be clear right now, but it is always there.
6. So many people care, and it would hurt them if you hurt yourself.
7. You ARE worth it. Don't let anyone, especially yourself, tell you otherwise.
8. You are amazing.
9. A time will come, once you've battled the toughest times of your life and are in ease once again, where you will be so glad that you decided to keep on living. You will emerge stronger from this all, and won't regret your choice to carry on with life. Because things always get better.
10. What about all the things you've always wanted to do? What about the things you've planned, but never got around to doing? You can't do them when you're dead.
11. I love you. Even if only one person loves you, that's still a reason to stay alive.
12. You won't be able to listen to music if you die.
13. Killing yourself is never worth it. You'll hurt both yourself and all the people you care about.
14. There are so many people that would miss you, including me.
15. You're preventing a future generation, YOUR KIDS, from even being born.
16. How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve their lives if you died?
17. You're gorgeous, amazing, and to someone you are perfect.
18. Think about your favourite music artist, you'll never hear their voice again...
19. You'll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day
20. Listening to incredibly loud music
21. Being alive is just really good.
22. Not being alive is really bad.
23. Finding your soulmate.
24. Red pandas
25. Going to diners at three in the morning.
26. Really soft pillows.
27. Eating pizza in New York City.
28. Proving people wrong with your success.
29. Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
30. Seeing someone trip over a garbage can.
31. Being able to help other people.
32. Bonfires.
33. Sitting on rooftops.
34. Seeing every single country in the world.
35. Going on roadtrips.
36. You might win the lottery someday.
37. Listening to music on a record player.
38. Going to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
39. Taking really cool pictures.
40. Literally meeting thousands of new people.
41. Hearing crazy stories.
42. Telling crazy stories.
43. Eating ice cream on a hot day.
44. More Harry Potter books could come out, you never know.
45. Travelling to another planet someday.
46. Having an underwater house.
47. Randomly running into your hero on the street.
48. Having your own room at a fancy hotel.
49. Trampolines.
50. Think about your favourite movie, you'll never watch it again.
51. Think about the feeling of laughing out loud in a public place because your best friend has just sent you an inside joke,
52. Your survival will make the world better, even if it's for just one person or 20 or 100 or more.
53. People do care.
54. Treehouses
55. Hanging out with your soul mate in a treehouse
55. Snorting when you laugh and not caring who sees
56. I don't even know you and I love you.
57. I don't even know you and I care about you.
58. Because nobody is going to be like you ever, so embrace your uniqueness!
59. You won't be here to experience the first cat world emperor.
60. WHAT ABOUT FOOD?! YOU'LL MISS CHOCOLATE AND ALL THE OTHER NOM THINGS!
61. Starbucks.
62. Hugs.
63. Stargazing.
64. You have a purpose, and it's up to you to find out what it is.
65. You've changed somebody's life.
66. Now you could change the world.
67. You will meet the person that's perfect for you.
68. No matter how much or how little, you have your life ahead of you.
69. You have the chance to save somebody's life.
70. If you end your life, you're stopping yourself from achieving great things.
71. Making snow angels.
72. Making snowmen.
73. Snowball fights.
74. Life is what you make of it.
75. Everybody has a talent.
76. Laughing until you cry.
77. Having the ability to be sad means you have the ability to be happy.
78. The world would not be the same if you didn't exist.
79. Its possible to turn frowns, upside down
80. Be yourself, don't take anyone's shit, and never let them take you alive.
81. Heroes are ordinary people who make themselves extraordinary. Be your own hero.
82. Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections.
83. One day your smile will be real.
84. Having a really hot, relaxing bath after a stressful day.
85. Lying on grass and laughing at the clouds.
86. Getting completely smashed with your best friends.
87. Eating crazy food.
88. Staying up all night watching your favourite films with a loved one.
89. Sleeping in all day.
90. Creating something you're proud of.
91. You can look back on yourself 70 years later and being proud you didn't commit
92. Being able to meet your Internet friends.
93. Tea / Coffee / Hot Chocolate
94. The new season of Sherlock
95. Cuddling under the stars.
96. Being stupid in public because you just can.
97. If you are reading this then you are alive! Is there any more reason to smile?
98. being able to hug that one person you havent seen in years
99. People care enough about you and your future to come up with 100 reasons for you not to do this.
100. But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn't seem so great right now, literally anything could happen
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Melissa Garces Vieira ty 💕🥺
this is so kind of you💕
You’re amazing
This was really...nice. thank you
Thank you....so much you'll be in my memory forever
I suffer from depression and am very suicidal, but I'm trying my best to be happy and recently started homeschooling because school kinda made it worse, I've tried killing myself 3 times and my most recent one made me realize that if I go I would miss out on a lot of stuff and I also have people that care about me and I have 3 pets to take care of, honestly I want to get better but it's really hard, and my birthday is tomorrow, and I'm kinda happy that i didn't die and that I'm still here, anyways I just want to let you know that it will get better, and that you're not alone.💕💕
Happy belated birthday dear... I hope ur fine...n yeah Don't ever think of killing yourself ...its not a good idea... We are a child of God... N he cares about you ... I hope n i pray that God will deliver you from depression and suicidal thoughts just like he delivered me.... God bless you.. N keep on fighting...
DepressedTrAsH
we care about you, and please don’t die, you matter and you are on earth for a reason. ❤️
Depression has no excuse it's my birthday today and I'm depressed
My depression just recently came back at full force. This Covid crap is really messing with me. I miss my friends. I don't wanna stay in this house anymore. I just wanna go home ya know?
I totally feel that> I haven't been able to feel happy since this whole thing started. My job closed cuz of the virus and being home has really hit the feels. My parents don't want me leaving the house and being home all day doing nothing and being able to see anyone is really making me go crazy. It's worse because I already have depression as it is.
Can I just say how relatable his song is, it's so fucking relatable. I- I can't even find a song that expresses so well yet.
"This song is really a masterpiece. How can someone describe the feelings deep inside someone so cleary that it feels like their are you're own words.We can hear what you've been going through this years and i'm truly sorry. I'm struggling with depression and self harm for 4 years now.That feeling of being lost and captured is awful,it feels like you're falling deeper and deeper into this hole of struggling, self harm and depression until nobody can help you out anymore. I'm still having hope in myself, i'm believing that everyone can do it ! You just have to believe. It's not easy i know ,but you can reach the end of this struggle.This song really helps me to believe in myself , thank you so much for helping not only me going through this."
" I really enjoy listening to you're music so please keep up that amazing work !"
Depression is when a person act like everything's fine but when there alone all they want to do is be invisible and be gone. Others try to cry it off or just act as if nothing happened and your okey. I am very stressed until it come to the point were I reach the level they called depression, I seem to be fine but one occasion happened and I thought about killing myself but I'm happy that my brain let me know that I have a nice friends and pet to support me.
So to does who have depression...
Just think about the things you want to do and the stuff that makes you happy somehow and think about what your future holds for you.
I'm not.saying that this will heal your depression because depression cannot be healed that fast we all know that because it's all the pain that kept us.
Anyway once said that tomorrow's mystery and yesterday was history and today is a gift that is why it is called present...
After 3 years here I'm again, my illness again reached to the worst.
Once upon a time, I found someone who saved me from being here, now left me here again. Life is a loop. Idk when I will be able to escape
The worst part of having to live with depression, is the slow but steady loss of feeling, not everyone goes numb, but if you make it to the point where you can't feel anything it feels like hitting rock bottom, and it's not scary, because you're already giving up, you aren't scared to die anymore...you feel at peace with the seemingly inevitable. A lot of time things like self harm come into play at that point. A common misconception about self harm is that we're trying to kill ourselves with it, but really that's not it at all. We do it because we're desperate for some kind of relief, some kind of feeling. We do it because we're slowly giving in and we need a feeling..a feeling of release, it's like being a drink stuck in a vending machine...you feel trapped, you're leaning on the edge, but you aren't falling anymore, you're just sitting there...waiting...waiting for something to happen, but everything feels...slow. But when you self harm, you feel free from your head for just a minute. It's addictive. We don't do it for attention, we do it for us.
*Who said dealing with depression was easy? Who said having a broken heart was easy? Who said life was going to be easy? Who said that everything was going to be alright? Who said dealing with the bad things were going to be easy? WHO THE HELL SAID EVERYONE IS ALWAYS OKAY?! I’ll tell you who. All of the people NOT dealing with depression, who have never had a broken heart, who’s life is easy, where everything is alright, who’s never had to deal with the bad things, WHO THINKS THE WORLD IS GREAT AND IS ALWAYS OKAY*
I honestly agree with you
@@nikkixi5354 everything is just hard😭
@@nikkixi5354 Sorry for the late reply. I have been dealing with a lot. I don’t have many people that I can talk to. My family doesn’t really spend time with me much and I am in my room for the majority of the time I am home. I have been falling behind in all of my classes, I have been having a lot of panic attacks, my ADHD has been getting worse for some reason, I can’t focus on anything, I have been so weak and tired, I stay up most nights trying to study for tests and do assignments, and overall everything is just too much for me:/
People call me lazy, I guess its my fault. I just don't feel like doing anything, I just wanna stay in bed all day, its where I feel safe. I'm constantly feeling down without a reason, I cry every night without a reason, maybe its the frustration of being alive. Well I too wanna cry for help but you know, you only cry for help when you know there's help to cry for. My life is literally a wreck, I dont wanna get into much of it but my family is toxic, I've lived a toxic life but nevertheless I know my mother loves me. I've done 2 suicide attempts but non succeeded.
I have a hard time trying to cope with all the things happening around me. I dont really wanna believe I have depression because why should I be depressed for anyway? Sure my life is toxic but that's not a reason to be depressed for. My mother loves me, I have some friends so why be depressed right? But you know that's the thing about depression, it doesn't give a fuck about what your life has been.
Sometimes I think about how I can last because I know one day I'll just snap and I'd have a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
I'm sorry I had to vent
Bro I wanna talk to you I'm all's going through same
Things will get better and everything will be good soon. Just hold on. You are strong and you know it. All of heaven is rallying for you and so am I. Hang in there 💗
Hugs to all the people who aren't understood by others....
I feel it is indescribable it's a emptiness like your heart hurts but doesn't you wanna cry but it won't come out you feel alone surrounded by love you have no joy in anything everything hurts
This song hit my heart so hard
If you see anyone having a hard time, talk to them. Communicate with them! If they avoid you, keep trying…this is expected :) keep trying until they trust you..understand them at all times, be there for them! Tell them your hard times
When you listen or watch something that you knew it would make you cry but no tear comes out.
I wish, all of us depressed people, could meet, maybe hang out, chill, and relax, do alot of stuff, and probably, live together, for just a couple months, and probably if we're all done living together, we are all done with depression.
Jiyo i was thinking the same thing
That would be sick actually
that’s such a nice idea actually. I might make a group chat for that if people want to join
@@audreyy3957 ey im down for that just send the invite link here
I dont think I'm depressed but everything feels so useless and everyone and everything seems incredibly boring, even when having deep conversations I feel bored. Nothing really makes sense, I just dont understand. Am I the only one
I just found this song and it hits home. Happiness doesn't exist anymore. I miss the carefree I use to be. I miss the days I didn't hurt deep down with no way for it to heal, go away or then some. This song really speaks so so much.
Listened to this song 3 years ago and here my 21-year-old self listening to the same song again :):
Whos have depression and anxiety 🙋♀️
Me and still have it
i dont know honestly
@@fuzzyplayz391 same tbh....
@@fuzzyplayz391 i wish i figured it out, so i could get better meaning whaterver it is.
Because i have no Idea how much time i can still Handle everyting, i just wish i could do Just like in the séries i like, the woman was overwelmed, not sleeping great, basicaly all the shit i'm going throu and she started on anti-depressents and que was stunning afterwards
I Just want to fell okay, people say give it time, your Just 17. But i feel like everyday it gets worst and worst, and i'm Just can't cry for help
Me. 🙋🏻♀️
This reminds me of this class I'm in. It's a class only certain kids get into and to get into you have to take an interview. The class is very family oriented. We have these things called family circles to just share anything we want with the class trusting that the student that we consider family will keep it to themselves (everyone always does) the whole class is dealing with depression and I mean the entire fucking class. I remember seeing everyone boys and girls crying or tearing up hearing how everyone is hurting, people were self harming, taking pills etc... It was hard to do it but I ended up talking and it was so scary to cry I'm front of everyone. My teacher was crying and he said "I hate see you all in pain you're like family to me and when you're hurting I'm hurting too" At the end we all had a group high and then we hugged separately different people and just cried together.
I'm listening to this song for like the 15th time in less than a week. Who knew this song would mean so much to me.
"I hope one day I'll be fine, honestly". Me too. Me too
@LEENA BRAUER thanks
I keep coming back to this song...
In denial that I’m ok when I’m clearly depressed.
Muffling my cries so I don’t wake up my sleeping daughter next to me.
When is enough, enough?
Pretending that everything is fine when it hasn’t been for the past five years.
I’m scared.
....
I just want this pain to be over.
My boyfriend reminded me of this because he had depression. So if anyone out there with depression I just want you to know that you are loved and you are not alone❤️
I don't wanna say things like "Be strong" or "you're gonna be okay" but if I could hug the comment section...I would until everything was right.💜
@Tonks I'm glad💜💜
Hello fellow army. 😞
"I don't know how to live normally" that hit hard
Sleep is where I go when I'm depressed. I don't feel pain, I can see my mother and brother in my dreams, I wake up long enough to do business to just survive then find the right blanket and my box fan and leave everything behind for as long as I can. When I have to be awake I do what I have to do and look forward to another book to escape again. I know I should want better or different, but the feeling of escape, words cannot describe.
I am glad i finally have a song that can say so much of my feelings when I don't know what to say or if I can't say it. Thank you so much that is beautiful and I kinda feel better with this. I love you're voice so much and I hope you are okay 🌷❤
The saddest thing is when dealing with depression you become content with feelings you shouldn’t. But it’s like you’re stuck and you accept this is how it is.
There are moments in life where I’m simply confused. There are times when I don’t understand why I’m sad. I’m just sad. People ask me why my I’m “depressed” and I just look at stare at them and think to myself this is why I can’t be vulnerable. I try so hard to let my guard down with the people who are supposed to be their for me. But if I’m being honest they might as well be the reason why I’m depressed. They just make me anxious and insecure. I try to put a smile everyday but there are just days when I wanna cry for no reason. I feel isolated and numb and wish somebody would hold me and tell me everything is gonna be alright. But instead people just add more salt to my wounds that is rather be alone than get constantly hurt.
It's currently 5 a.m. and I have school tomorrow.
I stay up late because school and expectations have ruined me. They could care less about my mental health, only about how well I score on paper.
Staying up late gives me the chance to just breathe and relax, not worrying about deadlines or studying or college. Nowadays it's common I miss class for sleeping in, but honestly I don't remember the last time I cared for my grades without trying to please others.
"I dont know how to live normally" 😔 that made waterfalls in my eyes.. so many people always ask me why I'm not normal and lately it's been getting the best of me..
Fake depressed people : writing their emotions in comments ( just being real )
Real depressed people : trying to match their life with the lyrics ( just being real )
You know that lump that you get in your throat because you want to cry but you can’t? I don’t, but i do again now.
someone I don't know from the comment section said;
"depression is like living inside the body that's trying to survive with the mind that wants it to die"
it hit home for me..
Thank you. Honestly, thank you.
30 years on this planet, and no one really put depression in to a perspective others can understand more easily.
I have suffered from major depression just about my whole life, and it's as if no one seems to grasp the magnitude of such a diagnosis. It isn't as simple as "just be happy" or "why don't you cheer up". If such a thing were possible there wouldn't be depression.
Thank you again for such an honest song, one that truly embodies depression.
it must have felt like hell in those years..... it must be hard for you
it's lowkey sad that year ago i didn't really understand this song so well, but now i do
I feel so lost n dont want this life anymore...but still have to stay alive cause its reality 💔
for anyone who sees this, you are not alone in this
please don't give up on yourself,, it takes a lot of courage to take the first step out and get help but as a person who has been through this process, it is worth it, you are worth the fight, so hang in there and fight for yourself, don't lose hope
you have to get help if you need it, it's not a sign of weakness but it shows that you are strong, strong enough to persevere and not succumb
i have just started my healing journey but im glad that I took the first step out despite all my fears, I believe that you can do it too
Let's all get through this together.
Lrean my story (if you want) im 14, i have anxiety, depression, ptsd, low self esteem, body issues, and rly bad social anxiety. My dad had a head ingury and it made him go crazy so he left when i was eight. When i was 11 i weighed 110 and my "friends" told me they were 10 pounds i felt so fat, i started not eating i would go to school get home then lay in my bed and watch youtube. I lost wieght, and my step dad siad "thank god you lost weight, you had a beer belly" i still feel very big, and i hate my body. Im very insacure and cant go out in public or speak to new ppl. Im scared to talk i think ppl are always judeing me. But im trying to do better. I have a best friend. And when im with her i feel confident, and i can be myself around her. I font talk to anyone about my problems, i dont want to make ppl sad, my dad is back in my life now!! i feel happier than i did before but there are still some days were i dont want to get out of bed, but im am rly trying to get better, and have a happy life💜
Sadness is "im sad"
Depression is "i can't get happy"
i’m in the state where i don’t feel sad anymore. i’m just numb. when i want to cry it out, i just end up staring into the roof with a blank face while i lie down on my bed.
PA CHIA THAO ah, thank you for the kind words! and yes, i’m just waiting for the day where it can all be over soon. hopefully i can be myself again..
To all the people dealing with depression and anxiety: Please try to get help!!! There are so manny reasons worth living for!! You are so brave dealing with all this every single day!!! There are people Who can help you! You are not allone! Don't be shy, there is absoluotly nothing wrong about you and your feelings! You are worth living and worth happines!! YOU ARE AMAZING!! Please don't end your live because you would be greatly missed and the world would have miss one angel Who deserved live maybe more than some others!! Please Talk to someone!! I greatly belive in you :)♡
I don't wanna cry for help, but I'm tired
I love how u made the melody fit so perfectly with your voice 🥰❤️😍
THE SONG EXPLAINS VERY WELL, WHAT IS LIVING DEPRESSION,
SO 'SOMETIMES,THE PAIN RUNS TOO DEEP TO BE HEALED BY WORDS ALONE '💥💥
" I don't wanna cry for help but I'm getting tired pretending so well " depression is getting the best of me as well .
This is so accurate but its even worse with depression and anxiety it's like your depression wants u 2 die but ur anxiety is too scared to
I cried listening to this. It perfectly explains everything, thank you so much for making this
Basically for u happy ppl out there
Depression isn’t being sad it’s
*you can’t be happy*
It feels like I’m sitting in my mind watching everything pass by and Faking a smile or laugh is exhausting.
This is so good. I feel exactly like that and your voice is so beautiful!
When your too scared to die but your tried of living...
honestly im tired of fighting the pain and struggle itself makes me want to give up
It’s a miracle that we are living so , even when I feel depressed , I must remember and you must remember it’s not worth taking your life , you will not cut the suffering
The comments section makes me feel less alone, ahaha.
Anyone want a huggo?
*I don't wanna did I just don't wanna live... I wish I could give my life to someone who actually wants to live...*
"I don't remember happy memories.
All I knew was pain which forever stained me.
I don't even know myself anymore.
What do I like?
What do I want to be"?
I literally feel like my life has stopped after graduating college. I've realized and regretted a lot of things. Knowing that I have wasted precious years of my life still haunts me. I don't know where and when to start again. I've been doing the same little routine everyday. Besides from family, letting myself down was the biggest blow. I have my own dreams and passion, but I know it's just something that is impossible to reach.
I don't have passion for anything else and I regretted every decision that has hindered me from taking that path. I don't blame my parents, but man...why did I let their words control me?
It hurts because I feel like I just want everything to end, but I cannot afford to be suicidal either. I have no one to talk to as well. My parents won't even try to understand, and my friends have their own problems to deal with.
I did try to venture new things, but they're really not for me. I just want to survive each day praying that I won't hear any words of disappointment from people, because everytime I do, I just go blank and break down.
this is what i feel today, because of problems and because of the heat between my family...im happy but im hurt inside and i just want to cry but i cant do it...i want to get this over but its so hard
I relate so muchhhhhhhh, thank you for writing this.