everyone in the comments being super vulnerable and deep it makes me feel bad for not being able to stop laughing at the balloon filter from edit maddie
Words cannot express the safety you have created for so many of us, Maddie. As a plus-size queer person, you have opened my life to actually living and loving the act of being alone. You’ve made me feel confident enough to experiment with fashion and love my body more. You're a truly gifted creative.
I came to the realization that I am bi this year and it has completely changed my life. I always was seeking validation from men and so I literally never even considered trying to date women. I am dating a man now but he is also bi and honestly probably a huge part of the reason I realized. We share in our queerness and it’s beautiful. I also feel like my boundaries of how I thought I could interact with other people have completely broken. Being bi made me realize I can literally love everyone and have love for everyone around me and I don’t have to be confined by societal constructs. It’s made me a more loving person in general and I’m very grateful to be queer.
as a Black woman on the aplatonic, aroace, and touch/sex averse spectrum, i spend so much of my life focusing on what im lacking, or what's wrong with me. thank you for reminding me that accepting my own queerness can be a liberating strength. this week has been incredibly difficult and i really needed this. genuine thank you for what you do. your presence on this platform has been incredibly meaningful to me for many years now 🤍
As a fellow ace (demisexual) and non-binary black person, I really resonate with your comment. I can’t help myself from tearing up while typing this bc it can be so easy to feel like you are alone in how you feel. ❤
Also fellow aro/ace person. Takes a lot of energy to try focus on what I have rather than what I don’t. I’m still not in a great place with it - feel very broken still. But it’s a work in progress
@@abbababba8186 for me it is fairly similar to romantic or sexual attraction, except it pertains to friendship. i consider myself to be demi when it comes to all these attractions, meaning that when it comes to friendship, my brain, mind, etc. doesn't experience the desire to form relationships with people specifically until after i have an emotional bond and/or feeling of safety with a person until that feeling arises, i generally feel neutral/apathetic towards others when it comes to experiencing a personal bond with them. i usually have to be around people for an extended period, but from afar, and get to know them that way before my brain can flip the switch and be interested in friendship/relationship. it can be quite inconvenient considering that i believe that love, belonging, and connection are the reason we are here, but oh well i guess i hope that explanation made some sort of sense
@@abbababba8186 for me it is fairly similar to romantic or sexual attraction, except it pertains to friendship. i consider myself to be demi when it comes to all these attractions, meaning that when it comes to friendship, my brain, mind, etc. doesn't experience the desire to form relationships with people specifically until after i have an emotional bond and/or feeling of safety with a person until that feeling arises, i generally feel neutral/apathetic towards others when it comes to experiencing a personal bond with them. i usually have to be around people for an extended period, but from afar, and get to know them that way before my brain can flip the switch and be interested in friendship/relationship. it can be quite inconvenient considering my belief that love, belonging, and connection are the reason that we are here, but oh well i guess i hope that explanation made some sort of sense
You put into words exactly what queerness and bisexuality did for me. Before I looked at nude women, I HATED my boobs. I would cry hysterically as a teenager because as they grew, they sagged and I somehow heard from the boys my age and the internet that "saggy boobs are gross". But looking at women with natural boobs made me realise... I don't look at other women in that same, cruel way. I am still attracted to them. But when I looked at myself, I saw someone who was undesirable and ugly. I'm still not fully comfortable with my chest (I'm waiting for the day I have enough money to get a breast reduction) but I no longer hate it and think I'm unworthy of intimacy and love.
I love saying "I am my own type" whenever I start feeling a bit insecure about my body, which is also so much less often since embracing my queerness and finding my style! Being able to say that is wonderful for self esteem
I remember in school guys pretending to ask me out as a dare, because it was funny to ask out the fat girl. Its been 10 years and its still something I think about daily. Forever grateful my boyfriend is so patient and kind
I totally get what you mean by your queerness being good for your body positivity. I too realized in my early teens, when I understood that I was bi, that I appreciated such a big range of women - even actually preferred them on the curvier side. So I started to question why I would stress about my own body being thin when I didn’t even particularly find that the most attractive 😅
Something I noticed about myself is that I am and have always been very attracted to fat bodies and curves but it didn’t translate to myself and unpacking that and realising that other people must feel the same way has really helped. Like I realised I would go for women who specifically had many of my insecurities and loved that about THEM but realised that’s what my inner voice hated about me.
When you leaned in to tell us that we are so smart and gorgeous and always leave room for nuance i literally had to stop what i was doing because i got so flattered and giddy. Internet lady is nice to me ❤❤❤
I love the way you address discovering your attraction to women and how that is different from your attraction to men… I haven known that I am bi for some years but somehow attraction to men feels more … accessible? and I was in a relationship with a guy for the past four years. Now that that is over, I see myself struggling with all the things you discussed when talking about the pressure of being the perfect bisexual and while I want to explore my queerness more and embrace that part of myself, I do not want to fall into that trap. Thank you for continuously reminding me how beautiful it is to accept ourself as we are and that is is okay to explore and not know and feel different about men than about women as a bisexual. With love because I must, is still one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard
Absolutelllyyyyy agree! I still catch myself noticing insecurities and not liking parts of my appearance but then I look at my partner and I ask myself whether I would still love her and be attracted to her with my flaws. And of course I would!! So why would anyone else not love me just because of one insecurity I have? I still have insecurities but I’ve found that since embracing my queerness, I’m able to truly believe that these insecurities are only things that I (ONLY I) care about. And putting it into perspective like that makes it so much less worse. I may hate parts of myself but it’s unlikely that others do too. And that’s miles better than hating myself and believing everyone else hates me too
I love you too Maddie. I don’t think I can properly express how integral you’ve been to learning to love myself as myself over like the last 2 to 3 years I’ve watched you. don’t stop being you, babe.
Girl you ate that last dance so bad! I feel you so much, I've felt like I'm on the "out" for so long in regards to friendships and I wish I was in more queer spaces 💕
7:30 thiiiiis part right here. i feel like this realization is inevitalbe for most queer woman and it certainly shifted my outlook on myself. always love your videos queen 💜
I resonate so much with what you're saying! Being attracted to other women has also allowed me to find my physical self more beautiful. I never judge other women for their societally-framed flaws-- I find those things interesting and pretty in themselves. Wow, thank you for this video! I feel like I've found a kindred spirit. :)
I really appreciate this video. I’m also a baby when it comes to understanding my queer identity and your words really validated a lot of the things that I have felt over the years
I have been out since 2019,which is wild! and being literally 12 the only reason I ever admitted it was I was sitting on the bleachers at p.e.when one of my friends went "I think I'm bi," all of us, simultaneously, went "same!" and then it went back to silence. Recently I have felt similar ways since coming out as trans. the baby gay queer experience is something I adore with my whole heart. I hope you are doing well ❤
just wanted to drop a comment and say this video was so heart warming. 💛 i’m queer and trans and have been working towards body neutrality (rather than positivity) and seeing how your queerness has helped you navigate body positivity is so inspirational. thank you so much for sharing Maddie 🩷
Loved to hear about your thoughts on queerness, especially as a late-blooming bisexual gal myself! Also big fan of the callback to with love because i must, at the end
happy for you queen !!! i just watched your video on loneliness & bisexuality bc i had been saving it for the right moment and divine timing really led me to it today. it's so amazing watching your journey from initially wanting your sexuality to be something you keep to yourself for your peace & solitude to feeling more and more comfortable sharing it online & being able to connect with your queerness unabashedly. the joy really radiates off of you, and is so much fun to see
I recently started college, and am trying to get a gf (wish me luck!) but because ive never really had the time to do love or care about my body i found myself becoming more and more insecure. I too had that voice who would say terrible things to me that i would never even think of saying to anyone else. this video just popped into my recommended today and yesterday i literally cried because i just felt so uncomfortable with myself. I'm going to work on loving myself more. I will be binge watching you and becoming a loyal supporter :)
ive never heard anyone put to words the feeling of being scared of straight male friendships before! i have felt the exact same way for most of my life. when i was younger i was told by my then male friends that they would never date me, despite me never expressing that i wanted to date them either. the only times ive ever been able to interact with straight men has been romantically, and i have this intensely deep-rooted fear that my appearance is the only thing that matters in determining my worth as a friend. which is absolutely insane. despite being on an active self-love journey, and appreciating and loving my body for what it is, this still all wavers whenever i enter a conversation with a straight man. it's nice to know I'm not alone in this feeling, and thank you so much Maddie for making me feel less guilty and having difficulty forming meaningful friendships with straight men. i hope i can start to process these feelings!
Ugh you are seriously my favorite UA-camr/person I follow on the internet. Thank you for sharing this, I resonate so much with your realization of how little you judge others being able to help you with your own self image (because truly, people are self-absorbed as a default, and mostly worrying about themselves). It’s a bittersweet realization but one that allows us to heal the way we view ourselves ❤
You've created such a safe corner in the internet with all the content you create. How unapologetically honest you are is a big sigh of relief on the internet. I've watched you for years now and seeing you shift and grow into the wonderful woman you are is such an honour and, I find myself healing alongside with you. This video is exactly the kind of chatty therapy vibe I needed, thank you
I get that how comfortable one can feel with other women. I struggle so much to be who I am, but I don't know if I know what my style is, as now a plus sized woman. I was very slim for years, and now I feel safer not being under the male gaze. I hope to embrace myself as I am now❤
still so happy that you're a part of us, so open and out! i had the same change of thoughts about my body but first after i hab sex with a fellow bisexual. i wish all girls could evolve in a more friendly & save environement
10:50 I find it to be completely relevant. Letting go of guessing how strangers think of me has genuinely improved my quality of life by tenfold. I get to be loved without asking the question of if I’m attractive enough for it because I know I find myself soooo attractive, and the people who’s opinions I care about are already on my side. I do not have to convince anyone, and people are allowed to find me unattractive in the same way I’m allowed to find others unattractive. It just means they can’t be mean to me for no reason, and that I shouldn’t be mean for no reason. I don’t owe anyone access to me, just as they don’t owe me access. Getting a better handle on consent has helped my body image significantly, or perhaps healing my body image has helped me grasp consent.
You talking about having had your whole life so far to understand your attraction to men and how you’re still a baby in trying to understand you attraction to women and your queerness in general-that really is so relatable to me and was really nice to hear I am not alone in. Sometimes I get frustrated with myself for not having clearer thoughts and feelings, forgetting that understanding yourself and your feelings takes time. I need to give myself more grace. It’s hard to put into words exactly what I mean and how it connected with me, but I just wanted time share that I did connect with what you said and it helped me feel better. I appreciate you sharing this video. =)
Absolutely incredible video Maddie. I've also only quite recently admitted to myself (and a couple of close friends) that I'm bisexual, and there's a lot more for me to explore in terms of my queerness. I'm going to share this video with my friend who is on a similar journey as well, thank you so much for this masterpiece ❤✨️🏳️🌈
I started crying when you showed the graffiti and then the tears just kept on flowing. Just this week I talked to my therapist about struggles with identity and self worth when realizing that you are queer -so not performing heteronormativity- and how that can disrupt you growing up
Honestly, the way I absolutely adore this beautiful woman is on another level!! 😍🥹 Thank you, Maddie, for being such a strong voice for so many of us who are voiceless and still trying to find our voices. I genuinely leave your videos feeling immensely reflective, as well as being much kinder to myself (something I have struggled with on a daily basis for literally my entire life). From one Lover girl to another, lots of love to you all the way from the UK (this British girly loves you! ❤) xxx
first off, completely understand and agree with you on this. second, I need to tell you the nails with all your rings is SO chefs kiss and then with the purple hair??? PLEASE mama its GIVINGG!!
i came out (for the first time. being out as an adult in the south is a lot more complicated than being out as a teenager in the south) as a lesbian when i was 14 or 15, and definitely struggled greatly with my body for many years before, during, and after that period. i’ve been fat my whole life, except for a year of serious disordered eating right around the same time i came out. now, though, at 27 i feel lightyears ahead of my peers, both thin and fat, in terms of body image. i think being a lesbian, being attracted to other fat women and not having to worry about whether or not men find me attractive, honestly did play a big part in that. fatphobia does seem a lot less common among lesbians and bi women than among straight men and women and even queer men, at least in my experience. it’s a really beautiful part of this community for me. this is such a beautiful and joyful video, and i feel so much excitement for you getting to explore this side of yourself!
I’m a 50-something cis female who came out as bisexual in the ‘80s. Gay men were my refuge at the time, but surprisingly (to me anyway) the friends that stuck around were straight women. Most lesbians never wanted anything to do with me (except for the ones I dated, yay!), because bi was sus (am I too old to use this?). I was absolutely shocked and very sad as gay male friends dropped out of my life. As for straight male friends? Haven’t known any of those since highschool! Even as a now happily 😢married person, if I reach out to straight men it’s as if I have cooties- no, trust me, I don’t want you sexually- but that’s kind of how I perceive their behavior. Anyway, thank you for being such an inspiration for a curvy, big-boobed mama who found my beshert and the comfort of good female friends :)
also, the rant about not having straight male friendships growing up. I have actually been talking about this exact thing more recently with my friends, and to my surprise my friends actually couldn't relate! So its so refreshing to hear someone else talk about this, because I am right there with you. I never made genuine cishet male friends until my early to mid twenties ( I am 28 now.) I wonder if in a way it took me so long to make safe male friendships because I used to be SO insecure I felt a need to perform around men? and now i'm just like... This is who I am take it or leave it! Def not the whole explanation, but i do think that did play a role
I actually have a YOUNG memory being in 1st or second grade, I was assigned someone in the grade above me as like a mentor of sorts? But who I was assigned to was a boy, and I cried about it, and told my teacher I wanted to be assigned to a girl instead. 😂😅 like, i had no trauma (at least to my knowledge) surrounding boys at the time... little me just knew lol
I have this song in mind that I think you might like. The artist is a plus size woman who is queer and has a beautiful voice. JENNARIE- NEVER BEEN SMALL
I really relate to this as a fellow fat queer woman! thank you for articulating our shared experiences so well, and in such a fun and artistic way too! 💜🌹
I just love who you are, beautiful inside and out and I also appreciate what I see - just so beautiful! You have helped me celebrate more of me and accept and enjoy myself bc I see a reflection of myself in you and I feel so free and special ❤
As someone who graduated 22 years ago, the gowns thing never crossed my mind at the time. Traditionally the men wore the dark color and women the lighter color. But my year the men didn't want to wear purple, so we swapped. No one cared. But we didn't have any openly trans in our small town that long ago.
As a bisexual woman about to marry another bisexual woman who are both plus size YES YES YES A THOUSAND TIMES YES (my name is also Maddie coincidentally)
love love love this video! I've been watching every single video of yours for the past 6 years, and this one is my new favorite. thanks for being so vulnerable and for sharing such intimate feelings and thoughts with us. sending love from Brazil 💌
I'm so glad to see that at such a young age you were able to outgrow all the bs imposed on us. I'm fighting my battle against ageism..I think it's another hurdle that will be overcome with time. I look younger than my age (also due to my style) and people are always like... don't worry about this and that, you are still young...then I'm like I will be 40 in 3 years...and they completely change their attitude. This o.c occurs at job interviews as well. Imagine that 10 years ago, the consensus was that in your late 20's you should have been married etc ... lol fast forward to nowadays and I was reading about how the zillennials are so carefree. This messy comment just wanted to point out the fact that we are the change and not them (being advertising, secular outdated concepts, judgemental relatives, and so on) xx
everyone in the comments being super vulnerable and deep it makes me feel bad for not being able to stop laughing at the balloon filter from edit maddie
Words cannot express the safety you have created for so many of us, Maddie. As a plus-size queer person, you have opened my life to actually living and loving the act of being alone. You’ve made me feel confident enough to experiment with fashion and love my body more. You're a truly gifted creative.
I came to the realization that I am bi this year and it has completely changed my life. I always was seeking validation from men and so I literally never even considered trying to date women.
I am dating a man now but he is also bi and honestly probably a huge part of the reason I realized. We share in our queerness and it’s beautiful. I also feel like my boundaries of how I thought I could interact with other people have completely broken. Being bi made me realize I can literally love everyone and have love for everyone around me and I don’t have to be confined by societal constructs. It’s made me a more loving person in general and I’m very grateful to be queer.
as a Black woman on the aplatonic, aroace, and touch/sex averse spectrum, i spend so much of my life focusing on what im lacking, or what's wrong with me. thank you for reminding me that accepting my own queerness can be a liberating strength. this week has been incredibly difficult and i really needed this. genuine thank you for what you do. your presence on this platform has been incredibly meaningful to me for many years now 🤍
As a fellow ace (demisexual) and non-binary black person, I really resonate with your comment. I can’t help myself from tearing up while typing this bc it can be so easy to feel like you are alone in how you feel. ❤
Also fellow aro/ace person. Takes a lot of energy to try focus on what I have rather than what I don’t. I’m still not in a great place with it - feel very broken still. But it’s a work in progress
aplatonic, how fascinating! never heard of it before, can I ask what being aplatonic means to you?
@@abbababba8186 for me it is fairly similar to romantic or sexual attraction, except it pertains to friendship. i consider myself to be demi when it comes to all these attractions, meaning that when it comes to friendship, my brain, mind, etc. doesn't experience the desire to form relationships with people specifically until after i have an emotional bond and/or feeling of safety with a person
until that feeling arises, i generally feel neutral/apathetic towards others when it comes to experiencing a personal bond with them. i usually have to be around people for an extended period, but from afar, and get to know them that way before my brain can flip the switch and be interested in friendship/relationship. it can be quite inconvenient considering that i believe that love, belonging, and connection are the reason we are here, but oh well i guess
i hope that explanation made some sort of sense
@@abbababba8186 for me it is fairly similar to romantic or sexual attraction, except it pertains to friendship. i consider myself to be demi when it comes to all these attractions, meaning that when it comes to friendship, my brain, mind, etc. doesn't experience the desire to form relationships with people specifically until after i have an emotional bond and/or feeling of safety with a person
until that feeling arises, i generally feel neutral/apathetic towards others when it comes to experiencing a personal bond with them. i usually have to be around people for an extended period, but from afar, and get to know them that way before my brain can flip the switch and be interested in friendship/relationship. it can be quite inconvenient considering my belief that love, belonging, and connection are the reason that we are here, but oh well i guess
i hope that explanation made some sort of sense
You put into words exactly what queerness and bisexuality did for me. Before I looked at nude women, I HATED my boobs. I would cry hysterically as a teenager because as they grew, they sagged and I somehow heard from the boys my age and the internet that "saggy boobs are gross". But looking at women with natural boobs made me realise... I don't look at other women in that same, cruel way. I am still attracted to them. But when I looked at myself, I saw someone who was undesirable and ugly. I'm still not fully comfortable with my chest (I'm waiting for the day I have enough money to get a breast reduction) but I no longer hate it and think I'm unworthy of intimacy and love.
I love saying "I am my own type" whenever I start feeling a bit insecure about my body, which is also so much less often since embracing my queerness and finding my style! Being able to say that is wonderful for self esteem
I remember in school guys pretending to ask me out as a dare, because it was funny to ask out the fat girl. Its been 10 years and its still something I think about daily. Forever grateful my boyfriend is so patient and kind
I had this happen to me at 10 years old and I still think about it 😢
“With love because I must”- new merch right there!! ❤ I love how perfectly that line encapsulates Lover Girls Worldwide
I totally get what you mean by your queerness being good for your body positivity. I too realized in my early teens, when I understood that I was bi, that I appreciated such a big range of women - even actually preferred them on the curvier side. So I started to question why I would stress about my own body being thin when I didn’t even particularly find that the most attractive 😅
Something I noticed about myself is that I am and have always been very attracted to fat bodies and curves but it didn’t translate to myself and unpacking that and realising that other people must feel the same way has really helped. Like I realised I would go for women who specifically had many of my insecurities and loved that about THEM but realised that’s what my inner voice hated about me.
I am 43 years old and I never missed a video of yours. It says a lot . Love from Sweden .
39 from Germany, you are not alone 😊
When you leaned in to tell us that we are so smart and gorgeous and always leave room for nuance i literally had to stop what i was doing because i got so flattered and giddy. Internet lady is nice to me ❤❤❤
Same thing, I felt....idk how to put it.... empowered
Maddie you're such an inspiration, living in a place without acceptance of queerness I look up to you tremendously
21:46 the way ur face changed so quick lmfaoooooo 😭
I love the way you address discovering your attraction to women and how that is different from your attraction to men… I haven known that I am bi for some years but somehow attraction to men feels more … accessible? and I was in a relationship with a guy for the past four years. Now that that is over, I see myself struggling with all the things you discussed when talking about the pressure of being the perfect bisexual and while I want to explore my queerness more and embrace that part of myself, I do not want to fall into that trap. Thank you for continuously reminding me how beautiful it is to accept ourself as we are and that is is okay to explore and not know and feel different about men than about women as a bisexual.
With love because I must, is still one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard
I think that's one of your greatest videos. Such a blessing to watch your content. Greetings from Berlin 💜
Absolutelllyyyyy agree! I still catch myself noticing insecurities and not liking parts of my appearance but then I look at my partner and I ask myself whether I would still love her and be attracted to her with my flaws. And of course I would!! So why would anyone else not love me just because of one insecurity I have? I still have insecurities but I’ve found that since embracing my queerness, I’m able to truly believe that these insecurities are only things that I (ONLY I) care about. And putting it into perspective like that makes it so much less worse. I may hate parts of myself but it’s unlikely that others do too. And that’s miles better than hating myself and believing everyone else hates me too
I love you too Maddie. I don’t think I can properly express how integral you’ve been to learning to love myself as myself over like the last 2 to 3 years I’ve watched you. don’t stop being you, babe.
Girl you ate that last dance so bad! I feel you so much, I've felt like I'm on the "out" for so long in regards to friendships and I wish I was in more queer spaces 💕
7:30 thiiiiis part right here. i feel like this realization is inevitalbe for most queer woman and it certainly shifted my outlook on myself. always love your videos queen 💜
I resonate so much with what you're saying! Being attracted to other women has also allowed me to find my physical self more beautiful. I never judge other women for their societally-framed flaws-- I find those things interesting and pretty in themselves. Wow, thank you for this video! I feel like I've found a kindred spirit. :)
I really appreciate this video. I’m also a baby when it comes to understanding my queer identity and your words really validated a lot of the things that I have felt over the years
I have been out since 2019,which is wild! and being literally 12 the only reason I ever admitted it was I was sitting on the bleachers at p.e.when one of my friends went "I think I'm bi," all of us, simultaneously, went "same!" and then it went back to silence. Recently I have felt similar ways since coming out as trans. the baby gay queer experience is something I adore with my whole heart. I hope you are doing well ❤
just wanted to drop a comment and say this video was so heart warming. 💛 i’m queer and trans and have been working towards body neutrality (rather than positivity) and seeing how your queerness has helped you navigate body positivity is so inspirational. thank you so much for sharing Maddie 🩷
Loved to hear about your thoughts on queerness, especially as a late-blooming bisexual gal myself! Also big fan of the callback to with love because i must, at the end
happy for you queen !!! i just watched your video on loneliness & bisexuality bc i had been saving it for the right moment and divine timing really led me to it today. it's so amazing watching your journey from initially wanting your sexuality to be something you keep to yourself for your peace & solitude to feeling more and more comfortable sharing it online & being able to connect with your queerness unabashedly. the joy really radiates off of you, and is so much fun to see
I recently started college, and am trying to get a gf (wish me luck!) but because ive never really had the time to do love or care about my body i found myself becoming more and more insecure. I too had that voice who would say terrible things to me that i would never even think of saying to anyone else. this video just popped into my recommended today and yesterday i literally cried because i just felt so uncomfortable with myself. I'm going to work on loving myself more. I will be binge watching you and becoming a loyal supporter :)
ive never heard anyone put to words the feeling of being scared of straight male friendships before! i have felt the exact same way for most of my life. when i was younger i was told by my then male friends that they would never date me, despite me never expressing that i wanted to date them either. the only times ive ever been able to interact with straight men has been romantically, and i have this intensely deep-rooted fear that my appearance is the only thing that matters in determining my worth as a friend. which is absolutely insane. despite being on an active self-love journey, and appreciating and loving my body for what it is, this still all wavers whenever i enter a conversation with a straight man. it's nice to know I'm not alone in this feeling, and thank you so much Maddie for making me feel less guilty and having difficulty forming meaningful friendships with straight men. i hope i can start to process these feelings!
Ugh you are seriously my favorite UA-camr/person I follow on the internet. Thank you for sharing this, I resonate so much with your realization of how little you judge others being able to help you with your own self image (because truly, people are self-absorbed as a default, and mostly worrying about themselves). It’s a bittersweet realization but one that allows us to heal the way we view ourselves ❤
You've created such a safe corner in the internet with all the content you create. How unapologetically honest you are is a big sigh of relief on the internet. I've watched you for years now and seeing you shift and grow into the wonderful woman you are is such an honour and, I find myself healing alongside with you. This video is exactly the kind of chatty therapy vibe I needed, thank you
I get that how comfortable one can feel with other women. I struggle so much to be who I am, but I don't know if I know what my style is, as now a plus sized woman.
I was very slim for years, and now I feel safer not being under the male gaze.
I hope to embrace myself as I am now❤
still so happy that you're a part of us, so open and out! i had the same change of thoughts about my body but first after i hab sex with a fellow bisexual. i wish all girls could evolve in a more friendly & save environement
😭😭😭😭😭 this is the best video ever, your intro was amazing
10:50 I find it to be completely relevant. Letting go of guessing how strangers think of me has genuinely improved my quality of life by tenfold. I get to be loved without asking the question of if I’m attractive enough for it because I know I find myself soooo attractive, and the people who’s opinions I care about are already on my side. I do not have to convince anyone, and people are allowed to find me unattractive in the same way I’m allowed to find others unattractive. It just means they can’t be mean to me for no reason, and that I shouldn’t be mean for no reason. I don’t owe anyone access to me, just as they don’t owe me access. Getting a better handle on consent has helped my body image significantly, or perhaps healing my body image has helped me grasp consent.
Not me crying at reading “with love bc I must”❤
Wow. I am glad who have continued to make videos over time. Perfect example of the importance of acknowledging our intersecting identities
I don’t have sisters but u always give me older sister energy i learn so much from you
Appreciating things about others that I give myself hard time about, bullying, afraid of men, being opinionated - this video speaks to me
You talking about having had your whole life so far to understand your attraction to men and how you’re still a baby in trying to understand you attraction to women and your queerness in general-that really is so relatable to me and was really nice to hear I am not alone in. Sometimes I get frustrated with myself for not having clearer thoughts and feelings, forgetting that understanding yourself and your feelings takes time. I need to give myself more grace.
It’s hard to put into words exactly what I mean and how it connected with me, but I just wanted time share that I did connect with what you said and it helped me feel better. I appreciate you sharing this video. =)
the dance class at the end looks sooooo lovely
this is important, poignant, gentle, thoughtful, resonating, and so powerful. thank you for sharing ♡
Absolutely incredible video Maddie. I've also only quite recently admitted to myself (and a couple of close friends) that I'm bisexual, and there's a lot more for me to explore in terms of my queerness. I'm going to share this video with my friend who is on a similar journey as well, thank you so much for this masterpiece ❤✨️🏳️🌈
I started crying when you showed the graffiti and then the tears just kept on flowing. Just this week I talked to my therapist about struggles with identity and self worth when realizing that you are queer -so not performing heteronormativity- and how that can disrupt you growing up
You’re everything you’ve always dreamed of!!! So proud of you ❤
you are a blessing to us lovergirls maddie!! i feel like you cracked my head open and read my thoughts with that intro section
Honestly, the way I absolutely adore this beautiful woman is on another level!! 😍🥹 Thank you, Maddie, for being such a strong voice for so many of us who are voiceless and still trying to find our voices. I genuinely leave your videos feeling immensely reflective, as well as being much kinder to myself (something I have struggled with on a daily basis for literally my entire life). From one Lover girl to another, lots of love to you all the way from the UK (this British girly loves you! ❤) xxx
first off, completely understand and agree with you on this. second, I need to tell you the nails with all your rings is SO chefs kiss and then with the purple hair??? PLEASE mama its GIVINGG!!
you being so vulnerable has helped me so much and completely changed my view on how i could handle and experience my feelings❤
i came out (for the first time. being out as an adult in the south is a lot more complicated than being out as a teenager in the south) as a lesbian when i was 14 or 15, and definitely struggled greatly with my body for many years before, during, and after that period. i’ve been fat my whole life, except for a year of serious disordered eating right around the same time i came out. now, though, at 27 i feel lightyears ahead of my peers, both thin and fat, in terms of body image. i think being a lesbian, being attracted to other fat women and not having to worry about whether or not men find me attractive, honestly did play a big part in that. fatphobia does seem a lot less common among lesbians and bi women than among straight men and women and even queer men, at least in my experience. it’s a really beautiful part of this community for me.
this is such a beautiful and joyful video, and i feel so much excitement for you getting to explore this side of yourself!
You are one of the most important creatives // intellectuals // baddies of our time ❤
I’m a 50-something cis female who came out as bisexual in the ‘80s. Gay men were my refuge at the time, but surprisingly (to me anyway) the friends that stuck around were straight women. Most lesbians never wanted anything to do with me (except for the ones I dated, yay!), because bi was sus (am I too old to use this?). I was absolutely shocked and very sad as gay male friends dropped out of my life. As for straight male friends? Haven’t known any of those since highschool! Even as a now happily 😢married person, if I reach out to straight men it’s as if I have cooties- no, trust me, I don’t want you sexually- but that’s kind of how I perceive their behavior. Anyway, thank you for being such an inspiration for a curvy, big-boobed mama who found my beshert and the comfort of good female friends :)
MADDIE I LOVE YOU AND YOUR CHANNEL!!!!!!!!!!!! You're too cool for this place
te adoro maddie! con tus videos haces que muchísimas personas empiecen a aceptarse y a amarse a sí mismas. eso es invaluable 🦋 gracias
I love the new aspect ratio
Wow this is so poetic, the words, the theme, the shots, this is such a wonderful time capsule treasure for yourself
what a beautiful video, thank u Maddie 💜✨
Maddie so much love, your videos always make me feel better about the world and make me feel hopeful❤
This video ended and I immediately started crying? Let’s look at that a bit closer I think
also, the rant about not having straight male friendships growing up. I have actually been talking about this exact thing more recently with my friends, and to my surprise my friends actually couldn't relate! So its so refreshing to hear someone else talk about this, because I am right there with you. I never made genuine cishet male friends until my early to mid twenties ( I am 28 now.) I wonder if in a way it took me so long to make safe male friendships because I used to be SO insecure I felt a need to perform around men? and now i'm just like... This is who I am take it or leave it! Def not the whole explanation, but i do think that did play a role
I actually have a YOUNG memory being in 1st or second grade, I was assigned someone in the grade above me as like a mentor of sorts? But who I was assigned to was a boy, and I cried about it, and told my teacher I wanted to be assigned to a girl instead. 😂😅 like, i had no trauma (at least to my knowledge) surrounding boys at the time... little me just knew lol
This video means more to me than I thought it would. Thank you, Maddie
So proud of you Maddie!!!!
"genre of boob" sounds amazing. im gonna say that now
Goosebumps at the end I love you Maddie!!!
I have this song in mind that I think you might like. The artist is a plus size woman who is queer and has a beautiful voice. JENNARIE- NEVER BEEN SMALL
Thank you for creating a safe space with your videos; they help me be more at peace with my changing body ♥
That opening monologue has made me smile and feel joyous and I truly do love it 🥰
21:42 the balloons popping up for coming out as an ally 😂
someone explain why the balloons pop out they come at the most random times 😭😭😭
@@heheyleafi think it’s because her hands did something close to a peace sign lol
Was looking for this comment, that had me cackling
I'm so thankful you are you and you share what's in your brain and your heart with us.
this was such a necessary video my GOD maddie. i needed this. so desperately.
I really relate to this as a fellow fat queer woman! thank you for articulating our shared experiences so well, and in such a fun and artistic way too! 💜🌹
I just love who you are, beautiful inside and out and I also appreciate what I see - just so beautiful! You have helped me celebrate more of me and accept and enjoy myself bc I see a reflection of myself in you and I feel so free and special ❤
As someone who graduated 22 years ago, the gowns thing never crossed my mind at the time. Traditionally the men wore the dark color and women the lighter color. But my year the men didn't want to wear purple, so we swapped. No one cared. But we didn't have any openly trans in our small town that long ago.
I love your take on basically everything ❤
i love this video to pieces.
the balloons floating up had me 🤣🎈21:47
Thank you for your content! ❤
I loved this one!!! Thanks maddie
Damn I love this comment section, this is my community!!!! 🤧🖤gosh y'all r making me teary eyed
Maddie!!! You inspire me so much ❤
Great video, I love the beginning part
As a bisexual woman about to marry another bisexual woman who are both plus size YES YES YES A THOUSAND TIMES YES (my name is also Maddie coincidentally)
Your videos are always helpfull in some way to me and my life. Thank you!
This is so helpful thank you maddy ❤🧡💛💚💙💜
I was in deep with this conversation and then the balloons just sent me 🤭
love love love this video!
I've been watching every single video of yours for the past 6 years, and this one is my new favorite. thanks for being so vulnerable and for sharing such intimate feelings and thoughts with us.
sending love from Brazil 💌
incredibly relatable,, another banger of a video
It’s so freeing to stop judging yourself from a cishet patriarchal standard 🥰
2 minutes in and im crying
A truly beautiful video 💜
Mango is def the hostess with the mostest.
111 likes!!! Love this Maddie❤ made so much sense❤❤❤
The balloons 😂😂
I think you should 100% be featured on stylelikeu
Allowing myself to sob uncontrollably in the aftermath of this video
I'm so glad to see that at such a young age you were able to outgrow all the bs imposed on us. I'm fighting my battle against ageism..I think it's another hurdle that will be overcome with time. I look younger than my age (also due to my style) and people are always like... don't worry about this and that, you are still young...then I'm like I will be 40 in 3 years...and they completely change their attitude. This o.c occurs at job interviews as well. Imagine that 10 years ago, the consensus was that in your late 20's you should have been married etc ... lol fast forward to nowadays and I was reading about how the zillennials are so carefree. This messy comment just wanted to point out the fact that we are the change and not them (being advertising, secular outdated concepts, judgemental relatives, and so on) xx
I haven't watched the video yet, but I know it's going to be a good one ♡🌷☆
The ending was so sweet 🥹💜
the fucking balloons took me OUT 💀
oh interesting, i like women too but i actually feel a little more insecure with women than men because theres a direct body comparison 😅
tbh i feel bad for the rude commenters who think that you're not attractive bc they are MISSING OUT on the glory of fat femmes 🥰
I❤u mads
made me tear up (in a good way)