omg how are you 36!? If you've only been transitioned for four years, that means you must've started pretty close to my age. As a newly cracked egg (thinking about transition), that gives me a lot of hope that I still have a chance of eventually looking at least relatively cute. You're such an inspiration 🥰
For cis-woman also😅 I had been lucky and dodn't need any surgeries but I will get an operation if I had some cosmetic defect that I just couldn't accept
Omg you are so right about everything! I smiled all the way through this video. So much more effort to maintain the appearance now. Skin care is a daily routine. The pressure to be more “presentable” all the time is much higher. I only do light make up but even doing that daily can be tiring. Sometimes I just want to wear sweats to go to the grocery store lol. The social aspects of what you said was also so accurate. I am just starting to experience this every so often. I was often so caught off guard by flirting that I didn’t know how to react. Someone holding the door open is definitely affirming, though no stranger has tried to help me carry stuff yet! Women smiling and saying friendly greetings is really affirming too. My connections with all my meaningful friends are all deeper and closer. Thank you for this awesome video! So much to relate to.
I can so relate. I'm 47 and 18 months into my transition and don't exactly pass, but I am treated so differently. Always working on my voice, having women treat me like an equal and not a threat, and if I don't put on the makeup (or shave, cause electrolysis takes forever) I just feel like I'm going boymode (which I hate). Thanks for these videos.
I always hated the way I was treated in the past; with fear and suspicion (women crossing the street to avoid me, etc). I understood even then from where that mistrust came, even better now experiencing the world as a woman, but it always hurt, leaving deep scars. There was nothing to fear from me, but there was no way to convey that, and now I feel the same terror. Entirely justified!
Omg just wanting to cuddle is such a thing. I don't care how you identify. Admittedly I probably don't know how CIS-HET males actually feel because I only pretended to be one, but I imagine based on my own experience that there are times when they are made to feel guilt because wanting affection or wanting to give affection is perceived as being horny.
I think it's pretty clear that basically everyone likes to cuddle and that it's only sexual when you want it to be. The proof is how we all behave with animals (dogs in particular). I'm a straight guy, not really open sexually, but I enjoy trying to sympathize with people different from me. I had an instance where my family's golden retriever died around Christmas. The last walk I took him on we sat down in the grass. He then just started pressing on me to cuddle. Most of us family members would resist just because you don't want to smell like dog for the rest of the day. I'm very glad I chose to embrace him. I think the theory on it is basically just about sharing warmth. I tend to think there is more to cuddling than that. Something happening at the cellular level, but I have no idea.
You are so right about the politeness of the people who you meet. I work retail and I have found that more customers are, dare I say, sweeter to me? I have given more hugs to more people than I have in my entire life. There have been negatives, some horrendous, but thankfully few and far between. I'm 58 and This is my BEST life! Thank you Ashley I love your videos 😍💖
You look great girl! I wish I look like you in 8 years, I'm 28 and I'm just starting my transition and wow, all you said is incredibly useful, thank you!
A great video and welcome thing for me to think about as I try to refocus on the positives of transitioning as a real highlight from the last few rough years!
I really like when you mentioned presentation. I think that is the thing I have noticed the most, not only from other people, but from my own expectations. When I was presenting male, I would wear whatever felt good and hair was... no one cared anyway. As a female, I won't leave the house without a good base of makeup on and my clothing has to be well thought out and appropriate. As far as age, I'm about to turn 48 in July. Maybe its just something I don't notice, or maybe it doesn't concern me as much because I'm in a solid relationship and I'm respected in my career.
I will admit, a lot of what you described leads me to question if I want to transition badly enough to put up with all of that. I presently identify as non-binary and, being in my 40s, already even feel the influences of age on the clothes from the women's section that I think I can pull of in simply a queer AMAB presentation, not even fully feminine. Even in simply cultivating a queer presentation, there are looks I might have considered when I was 20 that would probably look ridiculous now in a "hello fellow kids" kind of way. So, whether transitioning into the masculine or feminine or somewhere in non-binary territory, age definitely complicates the matter. I do relate in some of the other matters as well. Even if not presenting as a woman, I feel like just throwing stuff on is way too boymode for me. So, even if I don't feel like putting in all of the fuss, I still have to take the time to consider what to wear that's at least a little euphoric and normally at least have to do a dash of eyeliner.
I am 41 but on my good days I’ve had people clock me as 10 years younger. I’ll probably miss it in ways I haven’t anticipated yet. I do have more intimate relationships with my friends who are mostly femmes and thems than I ever did before. Regarding pressures concerning behavior and general presentation. It’s weird because the pressures I feel as a trans woman are largely the same pressures that cis women feels but maybe with the added edge of if I fail to perform my femininity correctly then people will perceive me incorrectly as a man. At least though it’s not as huge of a gap as performing masculinity was for me.
Straight cis male here, and walking behind a woman SUCKS. If she looks concerned, I drop my keys and take my sweet time about picking them up. That puts enough distance between us for her to feel safe.
I must say I think women have another sense. They know when someone is looking at them. I can recall seeing a woman go past the window of the pub I was in and about 1 minute or so later I left and walked up the street the woman was on. I must have been about 200 feet behind her but straight away she adjusted her bag to cover her bum more and pulled her jumper down a bit at the back as she knew I was looking at her but there was no way she heard me or saw me she just felt it.
Girl I always love your videos. You always expand on a lot of thoughts I had when transitioning that I use to wonder if it was just me 😆. Thank you again for sharing your insight, and positive energy! Oh and to speak to your questions 100%. I'm 33 now and use to rarely think about my age before transitioning (I started hrt at 25). I also joke with my friends the only male privileges I miss is the ability to roll out of bed 10 minutes before work, throw on a shirt, and go. Now I have to wake up 3 hours before hand to do my make up, hair, and find an outfit I don't hate that day 😆😆😆.
I had a really hard time with how invisible you become in society as a mid-forties woman. I went from having women check me out, to largely being invisible to everyone. But being a matron isn't all bad. I can teach the young'uns.
I'm a mtf but I don't plan on doing any bottom stuff and I only been with women my whole life also I love my body but still have dysphoria so its tuff staying happy
back in mask times i had a rainbow mask on at the grocery and a lady asked me "ma'am, could you reach this for me?" and i felt so validated just by being momentarily recognized as who I am even if she was obviously weirded out by my voice responding to her "thank you" with a simple 'you're welcome' that minor rejection doesn't count as much as the instant perception of me.
I love the insight you bring to every single one of your videos, and also the way you expand on each point as well leaving nothing unanswered. I'm fairly young into my transition but I can say with honestly as well that i've been on both sides of the 'being followed' point and it's really interesting to see the difference. Validating as hell in many ways, but obviously I understand the caution that needs to be taken as well.
You live in Portland? Is this in Oregon? I had SRS surgery in Portland, Oregon at OHSU Oregon Health and Science University. Vulvoplasty is what I had. I still have to lift heavy things at work. Depends on the situation and place.
I am also a Trans Woman, and since you had Vulvoplasty, I was wondering are you still physically able as you were before Vulvoplasty? Like can you still run, jump, climb, and et cetera? Or no? Because I really want Vulvoplasty, but if I can't run, jump, and climb, then I'm not so sure.
Do you have a video about the topic of “why trans women are women! “ I would love to see it as too many anti post around it and would love to start attracting more positive vibes
Great topic for a video. Good tips to incorporate into our everyday lives, unfortunately we have to “learn them” a bit less organic method than our cis women sisters did.
I need some fashion advice please sisters! When it comes to aging gracefully when you're a transwoman, I kind of have the opposite problem. I almost always wear dresses so Im not misgendered, but I'm told that I dress like an older woman, and I love the vivid patterns they go for! "Dress like the girls your age" (which is 25) atleast in my area means wearing sports attire, showing parts of the body im too dysphoric to reveal, or wearing just a blouse and jeans and getting called "sir", any advice for a 6"1 lady on mid-twenties fashion advice, or any womens fashion youtubers to recommend? xx
There are a lot of feminine jeans you can wear! They usually have high waist and kind of a baggy cut. And there are very feminine shirts that I doubt anyone would read you as male as well!
@@potatomo9609 thank you for describing the type of jeans, I will definitely invest in some next payday, but could you please describe what type of shirts you meam? 🤗
I can so relate to looking over the shoulder especially as a outward Cis Male but inner trans woman when shopping for intimates. I am 35 and as i look to transition by removing my facial hair... I was shocked that i must at least 5 years younger 😳 😅 😂
Ashley ... so many things that I don't have experience with! Well, there certainly has been the "looking scary" on the street thing, but the T-blockers have changed my appearance to something far less intimidating. I think you also have a "pass", having started in your 30's, for getting a face lift when you start thinking you need one ... you've got a "turn the clock back" credit karma.
You are on Point! But I'd never have guessed that you were 36 back than. You're my age. And even though people perceived me as younger till I was about 35; I'd never dress as girly as you do (or did?). Don't get me wrong: you're a beautiful woman! And I get that when you are late to the party; you try to experience the same type of evolution that cis-girls/women go through... I've been there myself. But sometimes I feel it's just easier to skip a step and move on. I had bottom surgery when I was 25... And I never felt like I could dress up like a 16 year old even though I would have liked to have experienced the natural progression from preteen to teen going into puberty, going through adolescence and becoming a woman. In short: I never really had a pink phase in my life... And that's ok
I felt awkward all my life trying to "be a guy" I didn't like it, I was just doing it for family till I transitioned at 32 I'm 34 and I have to say they being a woman came so naturally but I had my struggles like walking or even my voice. I'm told I "pass" even when I don't have makeup on and I get so happy. Lmao lifting heavy things is not a problem anymore. I've lost so much muscle mass I actually NEED someone to help and it feels validating to be treated as delicate. One thing you missed out on mentioning is having to worry about smiling a lot more I feel as a woman you're expected to smile a lot more then guys. I understand about the height thing I'm 5'11 in flats but wear boots so I look 6ft.
Oh, honey age doesn't matter. I think it's more of genetics and what you do to stop aging as well. I hate hair and on my face, it makes me 20 years older. I have it removed and I'm instantly seen 18. But... That doesn't make me happy. I sometimes wake up and feel like doing the process to transition, but financially I can't. Taking a cold shower often can reduce aging signs by tightening the skin and moisturizing often. Also, reduce the intake of Carbon dioxide drinks like cokes (which accelerate aging). Being born as a man I feel we are given expectations to follow. I hate following them because it just feels like a performance and I'm not myself. Not just that my personality doesn't help. As an INFJ it's like the 18th-century woman in me who is always exhausted socializing even though It's a performance as well. For example, we are expected to spread our genetic material and produce spawns. We are expected to forcibly take Sir and/ Mister as titles. Not gonna lie I do want kids, but I don't want the forced expectation that I have to marry a Female. I don't mind adopting children and giving them my lineage name. I consider myself a Feminamoric and if I do marry a woman I want her to support me as a marriage (emotional, physical) not as I am but willing to accept me when I transition as well. And the thing is I know I haven't found any person like that yet. Until then I know I'm not ready because I need to learn to love myself. I see myself in the mirror and it's a stranger, it's not how I perceive myself. Yeah, it's tough being a suicide survivor, but I do have my Ikigai. And it's telling me that I will find someone in Japan. So... Hopefully we all get a strong support group to help each other. I hope you all have a pleasant week. 😊
I started cross dressing at a early age I was lucky my mom help me with everything she took me to the doctor when I was 16 I was put on hrt by I was 18 I was ready for the surgery
I find friendliness with me from others increases with my level of femme presentation. Ten years into my new life I suddenly decided to go for much more femme look and suddenly people got real friendly...
I'm a trans woman in the Netherlands, and I feel like the anxiety about potentially predatory men is much less here than what I hear from US (trans) women. So this one is partially local culture
On age: I'm 51, and I came out as trans at 49. In many ways I've found being older is good in the sense that while I'm not passing yet because I'm not on hormones, the "expected" fashion choices for older women are way more flattering and feminising than fashions for younger women that are more about showing off your body than 'suggesting ' a feminine form.
I am worried about the pressure to wear make up. In my understanding, you can't make a pigment that adheres to a surface that doesn't contain lead, the chemistry just isn't there. I am trying to avoid heavy metals.
do you have a profession or something? regardles of gender I am PERSON,HUMAN ok? but I am also artistic I was a skilled carpenter by the age of 15 not to mention that by then had all sorts ok skills when I was 8 I allready learned about the circuit and more or less the theory of volt, by 9 I had built my fist bike also built an experimental telegraph I also in grammar or elementary school had a nack for plastic arts such as drawing ,molding with clay or playdough cartoon characters . by the age of seventeen became a musitian I love to sing and Imean I could go on but im trying to get a few points across . am I making any sence to you?any way forgive me if im miss informed or if I ofended you in any way I did not mean to I just want the best for every one I think about you quite often and I just wish you the best and keep you in my prayers that you may fullfill your dreams in life. CINCERAMENTE yours truly... i built
I envy your curvy, feminine body. I wish mine was the same way, and I'm not even two years into HRT yet. My two-year tranniversary isn't til August 1. 🏳⚧ In the time I've been transitioning, I've noticed that guys hold doors for me all the time. Most of the time, they don't hit on me, thankfully. Being a lesbian, I'm very wary of men. I carry pepper spray with me when out in public and walk with my keys between my fingers whenever I'm in a parking lot. I have a harder time picking an outfit I want to wear each day, but I also like what I wear far more than I ever did when I was in boymode. I can't just throw something on and go anymore. But I won't go anywhere in frumpy sweatpants and a hoodie, either. I always look put together, even if I'm simply making a Wawa or Royal Farms run.
I envy your curvy, feminine body. I wish mine was the same way, and I'm not even two years into HRT yet. My two-year tranniversary isn't til August 1. 🏳⚧ In the time I've been transitioning, I've noticed that guys hold doors for me all the time. Most of the time, they don't hit on me, thankfully. Being a lesbian, I'm very wary of men. I carry pepper spray with me when out in public and walk with my keys between my fingers whenever I'm in a parking lot. I have a harder time picking an outfit I want to wear each day, but I also like what I wear far more than I ever did when I was in boymode. I can't just throw something on and go anymore. But I won't go anywhere in frumpy sweatpants and a hoodie, either. I always look put together, even if I'm simply making a Wawa or Royal Farms run.
omg how are you 36!? If you've only been transitioned for four years, that means you must've started pretty close to my age. As a newly cracked egg (thinking about transition), that gives me a lot of hope that I still have a chance of eventually looking at least relatively cute. You're such an inspiration 🥰
Yup! Surgery helped a lot
Hey, I'm 47 and my egg has *just* cracked. It's never too late.
For cis-woman also😅 I had been lucky and dodn't need any surgeries but I will get an operation if I had some cosmetic defect that I just couldn't accept
Ashley is indeed a babe.
Depressing, as I’m in my mid seventies and perception by others matters..
So does self image . It’s a real conundrum . Love listening to you!
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Omg you are so right about everything! I smiled all the way through this video. So much more effort to maintain the appearance now. Skin care is a daily routine. The pressure to be more “presentable” all the time is much higher. I only do light make up but even doing that daily can be tiring. Sometimes I just want to wear sweats to go to the grocery store lol. The social aspects of what you said was also so accurate. I am just starting to experience this every so often. I was often so caught off guard by flirting that I didn’t know how to react. Someone holding the door open is definitely affirming, though no stranger has tried to help me carry stuff yet! Women smiling and saying friendly greetings is really affirming too. My connections with all my meaningful friends are all deeper and closer. Thank you for this awesome video! So much to relate to.
So cool to hear this Samantha!
I can so relate. I'm 47 and 18 months into my transition and don't exactly pass, but I am treated so differently. Always working on my voice, having women treat me like an equal and not a threat, and if I don't put on the makeup (or shave, cause electrolysis takes forever) I just feel like I'm going boymode (which I hate).
Thanks for these videos.
Very useful info for me was that you are 36 and you started transition at 32… because you look awesome and it gives me more hope at my start at 36 😊
I'm transitioning at 29 you just made me feel so great!!
Same here, I'm glad I'm doing it finally.
I always hated the way I was treated in the past; with fear and suspicion (women crossing the street to avoid me, etc). I understood even then from where that mistrust came, even better now experiencing the world as a woman, but it always hurt, leaving deep scars. There was nothing to fear from me, but there was no way to convey that, and now I feel the same terror. Entirely justified!
Omg just wanting to cuddle is such a thing. I don't care how you identify. Admittedly I probably don't know how CIS-HET males actually feel because I only pretended to be one, but I imagine based on my own experience that there are times when they are made to feel guilt because wanting affection or wanting to give affection is perceived as being horny.
yup can relate!
I think it's pretty clear that basically everyone likes to cuddle and that it's only sexual when you want it to be. The proof is how we all behave with animals (dogs in particular). I'm a straight guy, not really open sexually, but I enjoy trying to sympathize with people different from me. I had an instance where my family's golden retriever died around Christmas. The last walk I took him on we sat down in the grass. He then just started pressing on me to cuddle. Most of us family members would resist just because you don't want to smell like dog for the rest of the day. I'm very glad I chose to embrace him.
I think the theory on it is basically just about sharing warmth. I tend to think there is more to cuddling than that. Something happening at the cellular level, but I have no idea.
I’m a cos woman and I don’t like when people hug touch or cuddle me. Idk lol plus I don’t wear makeup or anything like that.
You are so right about the politeness of the people who you meet. I work retail and I have found that more customers are, dare I say, sweeter to me? I have given more hugs to more people than I have in my entire life. There have been negatives, some horrendous, but thankfully few and far between. I'm 58 and This is my BEST life! Thank you Ashley I love your videos 😍💖
Okay dude
@@silkebroxdude7625 Okay, baby. You mean. Please correct yourself before you wreck yourself.
@@veil6666 You know the person that invinted the word "cis" justified speedophilia?
@@veil6666 Everyone needs kindness don't they? For me people seem to accept me more easily. I love it and give it back to men and women.
You look great girl! I wish I look like you in 8 years, I'm 28 and I'm just starting my transition and wow, all you said is incredibly useful, thank you!
A great video and welcome thing for me to think about as I try to refocus on the positives of transitioning as a real highlight from the last few rough years!
37 here and 6months on journey. Namaste!
I learn so much from your videos, both about trans women and my own emotions ♥ Thank you!
I really like when you mentioned presentation. I think that is the thing I have noticed the most, not only from other people, but from my own expectations. When I was presenting male, I would wear whatever felt good and hair was... no one cared anyway. As a female, I won't leave the house without a good base of makeup on and my clothing has to be well thought out and appropriate. As far as age, I'm about to turn 48 in July. Maybe its just something I don't notice, or maybe it doesn't concern me as much because I'm in a solid relationship and I'm respected in my career.
surprisingly, an area we haven’t heard to much about.ty
I will admit, a lot of what you described leads me to question if I want to transition badly enough to put up with all of that. I presently identify as non-binary and, being in my 40s, already even feel the influences of age on the clothes from the women's section that I think I can pull of in simply a queer AMAB presentation, not even fully feminine. Even in simply cultivating a queer presentation, there are looks I might have considered when I was 20 that would probably look ridiculous now in a "hello fellow kids" kind of way. So, whether transitioning into the masculine or feminine or somewhere in non-binary territory, age definitely complicates the matter.
I do relate in some of the other matters as well. Even if not presenting as a woman, I feel like just throwing stuff on is way too boymode for me. So, even if I don't feel like putting in all of the fuss, I still have to take the time to consider what to wear that's at least a little euphoric and normally at least have to do a dash of eyeliner.
Your videos always come in so handy, Ash! Every time I ponder something... voila! There you are clarifying 😄❤
I am 41 but on my good days I’ve had people clock me as 10 years younger. I’ll probably miss it in ways I haven’t anticipated yet. I do have more intimate relationships with my friends who are mostly femmes and thems than I ever did before.
Regarding pressures concerning behavior and general presentation. It’s weird because the pressures I feel as a trans woman are largely the same pressures that cis women feels but maybe with the added edge of if I fail to perform my femininity correctly then people will perceive me incorrectly as a man. At least though it’s not as huge of a gap as performing masculinity was for me.
Thank you, for your help, as a Transgender women m2f...
Straight cis male here, and walking behind a woman SUCKS.
If she looks concerned, I drop my keys and take my sweet time about picking them up. That puts enough distance between us for her to feel safe.
I must say I think women have another sense. They know when someone is looking at them. I can recall seeing a woman go past the window of the pub I was in and about 1 minute or so later I left and walked up the street the woman was on. I must have been about 200 feet behind her but straight away she adjusted her bag to cover her bum more and pulled her jumper down a bit at the back as she knew I was looking at her but there was no way she heard me or saw me she just felt it.
Girl I always love your videos. You always expand on a lot of thoughts I had when transitioning that I use to wonder if it was just me 😆. Thank you again for sharing your insight, and positive energy! Oh and to speak to your questions 100%. I'm 33 now and use to rarely think about my age before transitioning (I started hrt at 25). I also joke with my friends the only male privileges I miss is the ability to roll out of bed 10 minutes before work, throw on a shirt, and go. Now I have to wake up 3 hours before hand to do my make up, hair, and find an outfit I don't hate that day 😆😆😆.
I had a really hard time with how invisible you become in society as a mid-forties woman. I went from having women check me out, to largely being invisible to everyone. But being a matron isn't all bad. I can teach the young'uns.
Another great and insightful video! thank you again Ashley!
I'm a mtf but I don't plan on doing any bottom stuff and I only been with women my whole life also I love my body but still have dysphoria so its tuff staying happy
also just outside of portland, starting my first dose of estrodiol tmr!! thanks for being a local friend.
back in mask times i had a rainbow mask on at the grocery and a lady asked me "ma'am, could you reach this for me?" and i felt so validated just by being momentarily recognized as who I am even if she was obviously weirded out by my voice responding to her "thank you" with a simple 'you're welcome' that minor rejection doesn't count as much as the instant perception of me.
I love the insight you bring to every single one of your videos, and also the way you expand on each point as well leaving nothing unanswered. I'm fairly young into my transition but I can say with honestly as well that i've been on both sides of the 'being followed' point and it's really interesting to see the difference. Validating as hell in many ways, but obviously I understand the caution that needs to be taken as well.
12:03 I appreciate that. its something alot of women don't seem to want to talk about. age sadly is a factor. it is a harsh reality.
You live in Portland? Is this in Oregon? I had SRS surgery in Portland, Oregon at OHSU Oregon Health and Science University. Vulvoplasty is what I had.
I still have to lift heavy things at work. Depends on the situation and place.
I am also a Trans Woman, and since you had Vulvoplasty, I was wondering are you still physically able as you were before Vulvoplasty? Like can you still run, jump, climb, and et cetera? Or no? Because I really want Vulvoplasty, but if I can't run, jump, and climb, then I'm not so sure.
Do you have a video about the topic of “why trans women are women! “
I would love to see it as too many anti post around it and would love to start attracting more positive vibes
Great topic for a video. Good tips to incorporate into our everyday lives, unfortunately we have to “learn them” a bit less organic method than our cis women sisters did.
I need some fashion advice please sisters! When it comes to aging gracefully when you're a transwoman, I kind of have the opposite problem. I almost always wear dresses so Im not misgendered, but I'm told that I dress like an older woman, and I love the vivid patterns they go for! "Dress like the girls your age" (which is 25) atleast in my area means wearing sports attire, showing parts of the body im too dysphoric to reveal, or wearing just a blouse and jeans and getting called "sir", any advice for a 6"1 lady on mid-twenties fashion advice, or any womens fashion youtubers to recommend? xx
There are a lot of feminine jeans you can wear! They usually have high waist and kind of a baggy cut. And there are very feminine shirts that I doubt anyone would read you as male as well!
@@potatomo9609 thank you for describing the type of jeans, I will definitely invest in some next payday, but could you please describe what type of shirts you meam? 🤗
this one sold me. very well done.
I'm 63 and just starting. Wish I started at 33 like you. you're gorgeous.
thank you Lindsey and thank you for the support!
Love that roosters shouts backside)))
Great video girl friend ❤️ I love getting ready to look nice at work. I'm looking forward to not heavy lifting and manual labor 😉
I can so relate to looking over the shoulder especially as a outward Cis Male but inner trans woman when shopping for intimates. I am 35 and as i look to transition by removing my facial hair... I was shocked that i must at least 5 years younger 😳 😅 😂
Wigs and makeup work *wonders*
You're so beautiful. I hope I'm not offending to by saying so, but you're so so so beautiful and feminine. You are 100% unclockable.
You are so joyful!
Ashley ... so many things that I don't have experience with! Well, there certainly has been the "looking scary" on the street thing, but the T-blockers have changed my appearance to something far less intimidating. I think you also have a "pass", having started in your 30's, for getting a face lift when you start thinking you need one ... you've got a "turn the clock back" credit karma.
I liked the topics on this video. I like hearing others experience with being seen as a threat for looking like a man
You are on Point! But I'd never have guessed that you were 36 back than. You're my age. And even though people perceived me as younger till I was about 35; I'd never dress as girly as you do (or did?). Don't get me wrong: you're a beautiful woman! And I get that when you are late to the party; you try to experience the same type of evolution that cis-girls/women go through... I've been there myself. But sometimes I feel it's just easier to skip a step and move on. I had bottom surgery when I was 25... And I never felt like I could dress up like a 16 year old even though I would have liked to have experienced the natural progression from preteen to teen going into puberty, going through adolescence and becoming a woman. In short: I never really had a pink phase in my life... And that's ok
I felt awkward all my life trying to "be a guy" I didn't like it, I was just doing it for family till I transitioned at 32 I'm 34 and I have to say they being a woman came so naturally but I had my struggles like walking or even my voice. I'm told I "pass" even when I don't have makeup on and I get so happy. Lmao lifting heavy things is not a problem anymore. I've lost so much muscle mass I actually NEED someone to help and it feels validating to be treated as delicate.
One thing you missed out on mentioning is having to worry about smiling a lot more I feel as a woman you're expected to smile a lot more then guys.
I understand about the height thing I'm 5'11 in flats but wear boots so I look 6ft.
there is also what we are and it seem like the who and the what have been mixt or confused by many
Oh, honey age doesn't matter. I think it's more of genetics and what you do to stop aging as well. I hate hair and on my face, it makes me 20 years older. I have it removed and I'm instantly seen 18. But... That doesn't make me happy. I sometimes wake up and feel like doing the process to transition, but financially I can't. Taking a cold shower often can reduce aging signs by tightening the skin and moisturizing often. Also, reduce the intake of Carbon dioxide drinks like cokes (which accelerate aging). Being born as a man I feel we are given expectations to follow. I hate following them because it just feels like a performance and I'm not myself. Not just that my personality doesn't help. As an INFJ it's like the 18th-century woman in me who is always exhausted socializing even though It's a performance as well. For example, we are expected to spread our genetic material and produce spawns. We are expected to forcibly take Sir and/ Mister as titles. Not gonna lie I do want kids, but I don't want the forced expectation that I have to marry a Female. I don't mind adopting children and giving them my lineage name. I consider myself a Feminamoric and if I do marry a woman I want her to support me as a marriage (emotional, physical) not as I am but willing to accept me when I transition as well. And the thing is I know I haven't found any person like that yet. Until then I know I'm not ready because I need to learn to love myself. I see myself in the mirror and it's a stranger, it's not how I perceive myself. Yeah, it's tough being a suicide survivor, but I do have my Ikigai. And it's telling me that I will find someone in Japan. So... Hopefully we all get a strong support group to help each other. I hope you all have a pleasant week. 😊
You dont have to lift heavy things anymore. That made me smile. 😁
Ps. You are great. Thank you. And lovely.
I started cross dressing at a early age I was lucky my mom help me with everything she took me to the doctor when I was 16 I was put on hrt by I was 18 I was ready for the surgery
My favorite is definitely not having to lift heavy things any more too
I find friendliness with me from others increases with my level of femme presentation. Ten years into my new life I suddenly decided to go for much more femme look and suddenly people got real friendly...
Hello Ashley!
this is so helpfull hon
I don't wear make up. and never felt like I needed to unless I was seeking men
always interesting
I just LOVE your laugh 🥰
Nobody never talks to me😊
Don't look a day over 21! 🙂
oh yea I allmost forgot I also been a closet case for as lon as I can remember so like to get some sort of reply from you ok?
I'm a trans woman in the Netherlands, and I feel like the anxiety about potentially predatory men is much less here than what I hear from US (trans) women. So this one is partially local culture
On age: I'm 51, and I came out as trans at 49. In many ways I've found being older is good in the sense that while I'm not passing yet because I'm not on hormones, the "expected" fashion choices for older women are way more flattering and feminising than fashions for younger women that are more about showing off your body than 'suggesting ' a feminine form.
I forgot how much weaker I am and really hurt myself by trying to lift more than I was able.
I don't smile when approachings strangers. It's weird.
I am worried about the pressure to wear make up. In my understanding, you can't make a pigment that adheres to a surface that doesn't contain lead, the chemistry just isn't there. I am trying to avoid heavy metals.
I’m sorry did you say 36??? I thought you were in your early twenties… 😃
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damn i wish i would look like you . You are so beautiful ♥️
do you have hobbies or better said what do you do other than videos about you ? if I may ask
At 58 I thought I was past this, but boomers still hit on me. I'm trans and sapphic and happily married, so it's simultaneously validating and creepy.
It's always boomers ☠️☠️☠️
You are so pretty.
Your armlet is beautiful. You should also wear silver chain with S hook n shall look more beautiful on you. Its feeling is great too.
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I want to be like you
Ashley adam
Love you
Beauty girl up
Oh all the problems.
Boo hoo
Nice bulge. I've said that not tucking could positively impact dysphoria and confidence. Am I right! How does it affect you?
i dunno i find it uncomfortable to tuck, though tucking does feel nice to not see it down there!
@@AshleyxAdamson I haven't seen any negative comments about it. I think that not tucking in public can help a trans woman's confidence.
@@AshleyxAdamson I think that it's a better goal than SRS and with far better benefits for the well-being of trans women.
You are a very beautiful woman!!! kisses
Wow, thank you
There are benefits for being a woman. But there are cons too.
do you have a profession or something? regardles of gender I am PERSON,HUMAN ok? but I am also artistic I was a skilled carpenter by the age of 15 not to mention that by then had all sorts ok skills when I was 8 I allready learned about the circuit and more or less the theory of volt, by 9 I had built my fist bike also built an experimental telegraph I also in grammar or elementary school had a nack for plastic arts such as drawing ,molding with clay or playdough cartoon characters . by the age of seventeen became a musitian I love to sing and Imean I could go on but im trying to get a few points across . am I making any sence to you?any way forgive me if im miss informed or if I ofended you in any way I did not mean to I just want the best for every one I think about you quite often and I just wish you the best and keep you in my prayers that you may fullfill your dreams in life. CINCERAMENTE yours truly...
i built
Wtf
Your boyfriend is in Berlin? Does he take your breath away? ;)
This is my 2nd video of yours I watched and the only thing that bothers me is that you giggle a lot and sometimes it rubs me the wrong way.
Real women who want to perceived as serious people don’t make videos for public consumption in their underwear. Just a thought.
I envy your curvy, feminine body. I wish mine was the same way, and I'm not even two years into HRT yet. My two-year tranniversary isn't til August 1. 🏳⚧
In the time I've been transitioning, I've noticed that guys hold doors for me all the time. Most of the time, they don't hit on me, thankfully. Being a lesbian, I'm very wary of men. I carry pepper spray with me when out in public and walk with my keys between my fingers whenever I'm in a parking lot. I have a harder time picking an outfit I want to wear each day, but I also like what I wear far more than I ever did when I was in boymode. I can't just throw something on and go anymore. But I won't go anywhere in frumpy sweatpants and a hoodie, either. I always look put together, even if I'm simply making a Wawa or Royal Farms run.
I do I'm 55 And I'm transitioning And I find it really difficult Cause I have no view in this area
I envy your curvy, feminine body. I wish mine was the same way, and I'm not even two years into HRT yet. My two-year tranniversary isn't til August 1. 🏳⚧
In the time I've been transitioning, I've noticed that guys hold doors for me all the time. Most of the time, they don't hit on me, thankfully. Being a lesbian, I'm very wary of men. I carry pepper spray with me when out in public and walk with my keys between my fingers whenever I'm in a parking lot. I have a harder time picking an outfit I want to wear each day, but I also like what I wear far more than I ever did when I was in boymode. I can't just throw something on and go anymore. But I won't go anywhere in frumpy sweatpants and a hoodie, either. I always look put together, even if I'm simply making a Wawa or Royal Farms run.
Curvy? 😂