I'm realizing a lot of this now. When I first came out to myself, one of my biggest struggles was being so overwhelmed with so many options and possibilities. Like, "Oh my God! I want a dress! I want estrogen! I need to learn makeup! Ahhh!!"
My tipping point for realizing I was transgender was one of the most intense emotional experiences of my life. I hope the next tipping point is less intense 😅😅 I think it will be though, as it was a release of like 30 years of denial and finally being able to process some deeply buried issues. You're looking great, so glad you're feeling more in love with who you see in the mirror! That's definitely something I still can work on.
@@AshleyxAdamson I did go out in a scoop neck shirt and skinny jeans. Some lady gave me a questioning look, but then smiled :) I haven't worn the skirt out yet though 😊 ... I think next week (after my move) I need to get some more androgynous clothes! The 3 platforms idea has really been blowing my mind though. I've been using "think less, experiment more" as a mantra in all sorts of areas of my life.
When you said you were shopping for bodies I remember Sophie saying “my face is the front I shop”. It’s true, as trans people we have so much power to sculpt our appearance and we are allowed to take inspiration from others.
Tipping point is when I finished my social transition as my social dysphoria has becoming worse in the last years. It is like hitting a wall. I solved my two physical dysphorias : facial hair and voice. I'm very happy so far. My mirror still continue to report that White Snow is the most beautiful. I love my look of Evil Queen or Cruella Devil. My feminity references are a bit different, but they match with my body, that I wouldn't change at all. The "disadvantages" are my differences and I like to play with them and turn myself in derision.
My actions are being driven by dysphoria rather than some notion of perfection. As a deeply flawed and highly valued person, I have never aspired toward perfection. As far as typing points, like many of my trans friends, I have had many typing points. Each transition goal has come with its own tipping point: HRT; FFS; Going Full Time; coming out at work; and SRS so far.
Do you ever leave your bedroom? I can’t imagine being THIS self-absorbed. Everything that’s going on in the world who thinks about their image this much? How incredibly sad...
Extremely helpful video, thanks. I used to fear transitioning because as an older transwoman undergoing HRT I'd see an older cis gender woman, and an accusatory voice in my head would say, "All you're going to do is end up looking like that baggy-faced crone over there...". But your video here helps me to remain undeterred in my trans journey.
Hello. I’m a 62 yr old cis female who fell in love with my trans girlfriend several months ago and I wanted to reach out to thank you for your videos. This one addressed issues that came up during a trans life support meeting we had at our local community center for LGBTQ+.
Great ideas girl. I'm always hard on myself about my looks. My trouble spot is my face hair. I shave every day.and still have a gross shadow. Thank you 😊
One little suggestion you can do that may help with self motivation and self love ❤️ . Use a dryerase marker on your mirror and right things on there to boost your mood. Tell yourself you are amazing and beautiful with the marker on the mirror. So you can remind yourself you are great every time you look in the mirror ! I hope this may help 🙏 🙂
This video means more then you know today today was a huge tipping point day for me I finally got on the waiting list for my first HRT appointment I’m so excited to move to the next step in my transition Thank You You and Your videos are so amazing and so helpful I always look forward to to them
Namaste, Ashley! I know some people abuse it but it just means "I hail [the Divine] you!" (it represents recognizing the Divine in all people everywhere; a form of deep respect). No worries. I am not yet to my tipping point (the point where my mind sees the woman in the mirror, I mean; I know I'm a transwoman, inside) and I think I'll probably go for my orchiectomy and vaginaplasty before any of the other feminizations. But, that's my feelings about what parts will need attention once I've let HRT get some results "upstairs". I guess, for me I see content creators like you, Mia, Abigail and Natalie all as being more realistic for goal-setters, since you all have been brutally honest with the public every step of your transition and you didn't start out two steps from supermodel. Also, if I can tackle the internal stuff that you and others (beforementioned) have talked about struggling with, then I think I will feel that tipping point more solidly. At least, that's how I see it. No worries, Ashley, we're all caterpillars watching you come out of your chrysalis and are inspired to get there, too.
@@AshleyxAdamson , sure! Natalie Wynn (Contra-points), Abigail Thorn (Philosophy Tube), Mia Mulder and Jessie (Jessie Gender), whom I didn't note last time but thought to include. You all inspire me on a realistic, healthy transition. Thank you!
Hi Ashley! I feel that I have always been transgender. I found for me that the tipping point was professional. I find it much more comfortable as a caregiver to present female than male. For many years about 40 I could not figure out why I never fit as a cis het male. I just never knew what to do about it. Thank you for always encouraging me and inspiring me. I just went to 8mg estrogen and have never felt better about myself. I love you always. Andrea
I just had my name legally changed the other day. Goodbye deadname, hello chosen name! The name I picked out? Daria. If I ever encounter other Darias, I have the following nicknames picked out for myself: Dar Dar Binks, Scarface, Yung Deezy, Her Dar-ness, and La Dariana. I'm also now over 8½ months into HRT. Can't wait til I have some curves to my body. If that doesn't happen fast enough, I'm considering hip implants. Don't know if they'll use silicone, titanium, cadaver bones, or what. But I want to wake up one day and have some wide hips and body fat redistributed to the right places. Hell, I've also been thinking of switching my hormones from pills to injections and seeing if that makes a difference. I'm currently on 6 mg of estradiol and 200 mg of Spyro the Dragon. I'm not a doctor and this isn't medical advice. These are just the drugs and dosages I'm on. Meanwhile, I've started dressing more feminine and bought some more women's clothes at a couple thrift stores; I also added some bead bracelets to the ensemble.
Yay Daria!!!! So I know your hips seal at 25 so your chances of hip bones moving afterwards are very low, but you can get fat redistribution that can help depending on your dna. The only hip augmentation I've seen is hard silicone implants. Good luck on your journey!
Ashley your are beautiful from the inside out. You really make me laugh in this video and it is good. Every trans journey is unique but just say that mine is more high and low tipping points but the curve is slowly climbing to the stars.... xxx
This channel is amazing and I know that I really appreciate all these videos... definitely is the right time for them. Love you keep up the great work.
im not as far as you at the point you were in this video. ive accepted i might be trans at this point and have worn clothing in public to varying degrees. not around family yet (havent crossed that hurdle yet), wearing a skirt and using nail polish is normal now adays. breast forms and bra when in general public but not at work. still trying to minimize the chance the shape the forms in public arent seen as clearly as "in the open". nothing that big ie B-C cups but there are places where i dont stress on it or just forget to worry/ignore what ifs of being seen. i still got a long way to go if this is my path forward but as you've said, im not forcing anything. im just finding new normals that move in that direction.
Yeah I've definitely been comparing myself with how confident and socially skilled you seem to be, I worry I won't make be successful in this and other areas without these skills.
I find you so so insightful, thank you. I agree so much about your graph analogy. I’m at 3 years now on HRT, and like you I had FFS. At the beginning I pictured a series of steady changes building to a complete whole. But it was not like that at all, it was sporadic and random, and at a certain point the whole simply became more than the sum of those parts
Also, so glad you had that clarity moment in the mirror. Ffs is such a long healing experience and I did not really blossom personally until after the 6 month mark. And I really noticed the long term change was more drastic than the short term. My brain also got used to how I looked so quickly it tricked itself into thinking nothing has changed. But when I do a side by side with an old photo it becomes more obvious
@@morgenloree6084 I had an identity crisis on the first few days cause I thought I'd just look Asian 100%. I didn't realize being half Asian was so deep in my own identity. Also thank you for the compliments it means a lot when you're so invested!!!!
I feel like ive had a tipping point recently. My face is starting to round out more, my breasts are getting more full, and my hips are getting wider. My hips have always been a source of discomfort bc growing up as a boy, they were wide and i was skinny. after gaining +30 pounds and the rest of my body filling in so to speak, i feel more at home in my body. today i looked in the mirror and i barely recognized myself from a year ago.
What did you mean by reborn date? I have a new birth date in the day I accepted myself with a new name. That’s what I calling my creation date. Which seems hubristic. It’s not a born date, though its a tipping point for sure. On 6/14/2020 I accepted myself as a trans person. What do you call that?
Is interesting in the video for the explain to tipping point personal development with the experience you're so wonderful to advices on the videos😍💖❤👏✨
Hi! I love your videos they are resonating very very well, I wanted to point out your inner demon topic related to you being a perfectionist when you were in LA seeing beautiful women, you mean by your Chiron sign wound correct?
I'm realizing a lot of this now. When I first came out to myself, one of my biggest struggles was being so overwhelmed with so many options and possibilities. Like, "Oh my God! I want a dress! I want estrogen! I need to learn makeup! Ahhh!!"
I know girl it is overwhelming to start. Baby steps
I've been out as non binary for about 2 years and I just recently had a major tipping point, your videos just pop in to my feed right on time :3
Trans man here. I love your messages of positivity for trans people.
Thank you J!!!
My tipping point for realizing I was transgender was one of the most intense emotional experiences of my life. I hope the next tipping point is less intense 😅😅
I think it will be though, as it was a release of like 30 years of denial and finally being able to process some deeply buried issues.
You're looking great, so glad you're feeling more in love with who you see in the mirror! That's definitely something I still can work on.
We can def all work on it Terra! Glad you're making progress on yourself. Did you go out with the dress yet?
@@AshleyxAdamson I did go out in a scoop neck shirt and skinny jeans. Some lady gave me a questioning look, but then smiled :)
I haven't worn the skirt out yet though 😊 ... I think next week (after my move) I need to get some more androgynous clothes!
The 3 platforms idea has really been blowing my mind though. I've been using "think less, experiment more" as a mantra in all sorts of areas of my life.
When you said you were shopping for bodies I remember Sophie saying “my face is the front I shop”. It’s true, as trans people we have so much power to sculpt our appearance and we are allowed to take inspiration from others.
The future of marrying is trans!. Not a fetish but the future; best of both worlds they say. I can't find my punk rock goth trans queen.
Tipping point is when I finished my social transition as my social dysphoria has becoming worse in the last years. It is like hitting a wall. I solved my two physical dysphorias : facial hair and voice. I'm very happy so far. My mirror still continue to report that White Snow is the most beautiful. I love my look of Evil Queen or Cruella Devil. My feminity references are a bit different, but they match with my body, that I wouldn't change at all. The "disadvantages" are my differences and I like to play with them and turn myself in derision.
Wow very thoughtful reflection. Thank you Gwen!
I gotta agree. I recognize milestones that I have passed. 1.Self love 2. Nipple growth etc . But, I keep getting self doubt on my true "progress".
My actions are being driven by dysphoria rather than some notion of perfection. As a deeply flawed and highly valued person, I have never aspired toward perfection. As far as typing points, like many of my trans friends, I have had many typing points. Each transition goal has come with its own tipping point: HRT; FFS; Going Full Time; coming out at work; and SRS so far.
Wow you have gone far already! So many tipping points!!
Do you ever leave your bedroom? I can’t imagine being THIS self-absorbed. Everything that’s going on in the world who thinks about their image this much? How incredibly sad...
@@karaaaaaaaa2354 yeah, I’m pretty self absorbed... ; - )
Extremely helpful video, thanks. I used to fear transitioning because as an older transwoman undergoing HRT I'd see an older cis gender woman, and an accusatory voice in my head would say, "All you're going to do is end up looking like that baggy-faced crone over there...". But your video here helps me to remain undeterred in my trans journey.
Hello. I’m a 62 yr old cis female who fell in love with my trans girlfriend several months ago and I wanted to reach out to thank you for your videos.
This one addressed issues that came up during a trans life support meeting we had at our local community center for LGBTQ+.
I like you because you talk about feelings and real transgender issues I want my own real hair not a wig I didn't start till 55
Oh Ashley! Thank you so much. You are a daily part of my life and always make me feel better!
I'm so glad!
Great ideas girl. I'm always hard on myself about my looks. My trouble spot is my face hair. I shave every day.and still have a gross shadow. Thank you 😊
One little suggestion you can do that may help with self motivation and self love ❤️ . Use a dryerase marker on your mirror and right things on there to boost your mood. Tell yourself you are amazing and beautiful with the marker on the mirror. So you can remind yourself you are great every time you look in the mirror ! I hope this may help 🙏 🙂
Yes!!!!
This video means more then you know today today was a huge tipping point day for me I finally got on the waiting list for my first HRT appointment I’m so excited to move to the next step in my transition
Thank You
You and Your videos are so amazing and so helpful I always look forward to to them
Namaste, Ashley! I know some people abuse it but it just means "I hail [the Divine] you!" (it represents recognizing the Divine in all people everywhere; a form of deep respect). No worries.
I am not yet to my tipping point (the point where my mind sees the woman in the mirror, I mean; I know I'm a transwoman, inside) and I think I'll probably go for my orchiectomy and vaginaplasty before any of the other feminizations. But, that's my feelings about what parts will need attention once I've let HRT get some results "upstairs".
I guess, for me I see content creators like you, Mia, Abigail and Natalie all as being more realistic for goal-setters, since you all have been brutally honest with the public every step of your transition and you didn't start out two steps from supermodel. Also, if I can tackle the internal stuff that you and others (beforementioned) have talked about struggling with, then I think I will feel that tipping point more solidly. At least, that's how I see it.
No worries, Ashley, we're all caterpillars watching you come out of your chrysalis and are inspired to get there, too.
Thanks love! I dunno who those other UA-camrs are but I'd love to colab with them. Can you refer me their info!?
@@AshleyxAdamson , sure! Natalie Wynn (Contra-points), Abigail Thorn (Philosophy Tube), Mia Mulder and Jessie (Jessie Gender), whom I didn't note last time but thought to include. You all inspire me on a realistic, healthy transition. Thank you!
Although not yet on HRT the scale is definitely up n down like a roller coaster. Just this week I see myself as a beautiful masculine woman.
Every woman is awesome in her own way 🙋♀️
Hi Ashley! I feel that I have always been transgender. I found for me that the tipping point was professional. I find it much more comfortable as a caregiver to present female than male. For many years about 40 I could not figure out why I never fit as a cis het male. I just never knew what to do about it. Thank you for always encouraging me and inspiring me. I just went to 8mg estrogen and have never felt better about myself. I love you always. Andrea
Ahhhh yay! Andrea, glad to hear it's all working out.
I just had my name legally changed the other day. Goodbye deadname, hello chosen name! The name I picked out? Daria. If I ever encounter other Darias, I have the following nicknames picked out for myself: Dar Dar Binks, Scarface, Yung Deezy, Her Dar-ness, and La Dariana.
I'm also now over 8½ months into HRT. Can't wait til I have some curves to my body. If that doesn't happen fast enough, I'm considering hip implants. Don't know if they'll use silicone, titanium, cadaver bones, or what. But I want to wake up one day and have some wide hips and body fat redistributed to the right places. Hell, I've also been thinking of switching my hormones from pills to injections and seeing if that makes a difference. I'm currently on 6 mg of estradiol and 200 mg of Spyro the Dragon. I'm not a doctor and this isn't medical advice. These are just the drugs and dosages I'm on. Meanwhile, I've started dressing more feminine and bought some more women's clothes at a couple thrift stores; I also added some bead bracelets to the ensemble.
Yay Daria!!!! So I know your hips seal at 25 so your chances of hip bones moving afterwards are very low, but you can get fat redistribution that can help depending on your dna. The only hip augmentation I've seen is hard silicone implants. Good luck on your journey!
You give me so much hope Ashley!!
You're right: That girl does look cute! :)
Have a safe trip home, looking forward to the next videos!
Ashley your are beautiful from the inside out. You really make me laugh in this video and it is good. Every trans journey is unique but just say that mine is more high and low tipping points but the curve is slowly climbing to the stars.... xxx
🤗🌟🌟🌟
Yay
This channel is amazing and I know that I really appreciate all these videos... definitely is the right time for them. Love you keep up the great work.
Thank you so much!
This one hit home! I wish I could experience that point already. I struggle with comparing rather than relating to others.
Hmm I've never once thought about hip augmentation.
im not as far as you at the point you were in this video. ive accepted i might be trans at this point and have worn clothing in public to varying degrees. not around family yet (havent crossed that hurdle yet), wearing a skirt and using nail polish is normal now adays. breast forms and bra when in general public but not at work. still trying to minimize the chance the shape the forms in public arent seen as clearly as "in the open". nothing that big ie B-C cups but there are places where i dont stress on it or just forget to worry/ignore what ifs of being seen. i still got a long way to go if this is my path forward but as you've said, im not forcing anything. im just finding new normals that move in that direction.
Congratulations On Your PROGRESS
You are such actio beautiful intelligent interesting woman always look your videos awesome video ĺove you Ashley
Yeah I've definitely been comparing myself with how confident and socially skilled you seem to be, I worry I won't make be successful in this and other areas without these skills.
keep trying!
Safe travels!! 💕💕
Always look in the mirror and compliment your self confidence daily too 🙋♀️
I find you so so insightful, thank you. I agree so much about your graph analogy. I’m at 3 years now on HRT, and like you I had FFS. At the beginning I pictured a series of steady changes building to a complete whole. But it was not like that at all, it was sporadic and random, and at a certain point the whole simply became more than the sum of those parts
Also, so glad you had that clarity moment in the mirror. Ffs is such a long healing experience and I did not really blossom personally until after the 6 month mark. And I really noticed the long term change was more drastic than the short term. My brain also got used to how I looked so quickly it tricked itself into thinking nothing has changed. But when I do a side by side with an old photo it becomes more obvious
@@morgenloree6084 Exactly! I'm starting to see that too, I appreciate the heads up!
@@AshleyxAdamson you look so gorgeous too, I looked like a marshmallow lol
@@morgenloree6084 I had an identity crisis on the first few days cause I thought I'd just look Asian 100%. I didn't realize being half Asian was so deep in my own identity. Also thank you for the compliments it means a lot when you're so invested!!!!
What about body hair? Have you had it mostly removed? I am strongly inclined to do that as part of my transition.
I feel like ive had a tipping point recently. My face is starting to round out more, my breasts are getting more full, and my hips are getting wider. My hips have always been a source of discomfort bc growing up as a boy, they were wide and i was skinny. after gaining +30 pounds and the rest of my body filling in so to speak, i feel more at home in my body. today i looked in the mirror and i barely recognized myself from a year ago.
Hot damn that is amazing! Lucky you with the hips ❤️💜
@@AshleyxAdamson it’s a blessing and a curse! i definitely looked very awkward as a boy lol
You are amazing.
What did you mean by reborn date? I have a new birth date in the day I accepted myself with a new name. That’s what I calling my creation date. Which seems hubristic. It’s not a born date, though its a tipping point for sure. On 6/14/2020 I accepted myself as a trans person. What do you call that?
Same! :)
Good vibes 🐦
Love your content ❤
Thank you Lana!!!
@@AshleyxAdamson your most welcome 🦸♀️
Your deep
Oh geez, she IS cute!
I'm sorry to disapoint but I can't not compare myself to others. But usually dysphoria hits and I do actions...
💖💖💖💖💖
Is interesting in the video for the explain to tipping point personal development with the experience you're so wonderful to advices on the videos😍💖❤👏✨
Thanks Jose!
I like you. Namaste!
Hi! I love your videos they are resonating very very well, I wanted to point out your inner demon topic related to you being a perfectionist when you were in LA seeing beautiful women, you mean by your Chiron sign wound correct?