I don't think I have commented on any of your vlogs before although have been following you and John for quite a while now. Just wanted to say all the best for your appointment tomorrow. You are a true inspiration - your attitude to what is going on with your health is phenomenal and you are truly strong and optimistic in the most challenging of situations. I truly hope that things will go aw well as they can for you and of course for John xxx
That phrase, "nothing they didn't expect to see" was exactly what they said to me before my treatment started, so I don't think it is anything to worry about.
That's my thoughts too. Because the clinical staff deal with this all of the time, they sometimes forget us patients aren't used to it, and then we worry. They also need to cover their backs and not tell you something they're not supposed to. Its all about crossing those T's and dotting the i's 😊 I'm only 4.43 into the vlog so I'll get back to it. ❤
I agree its about change & not screening. Most screening tests cannot determine whether someone will get ill. Many people wrongly mistake screening for “prevention,” and some think that having regular screening tests can protect them from a disease. But that is not the case: screening tests usually cannot prevent diseases. Doctors also tend to be too optimistic when it comes to the benefits of screening. Please do your own research into this topic... Like you l also use natural products. Your outlook is great, a positive mind can do wonders. I'm still praying 💜
You are the best! I love the way you are able to express your feelings and what is going on. Your honesty is refreshing. I liked the example of the vortex with you in the center and everything flying around you. I am like you when I am in a situation with medical stuff and just do what they tell me to do. Your recommendation of watching for changes is so spot on. That is why I do annual testing because it can show changes that I might have missed. You are a special lady with your needs and desires just where there need to be. You are strong and know that you will get thru this with flying colors. Sending hugs and prayers.
Hari OM Oooh, I am a bit behind - driving through Kathleen, then parking and hiding from Kathleen and her afterthought stuff... but catching up now. You'll have had your visit and I do hope that it all went well and "was as you expected"!!! Keeping the humour is so important. More power to you for it, Mandy. YAM xx
Pleased your sense of humour is getting you thru this x at least the fact they don’t want you in and there’s no real sense of emergency they can’t be that bothered x next visit will come soon enough so no stressing hun x You will beat this and come back bigger and better x we all luvs you billions and have your back xx
So sorry you have got to wait again, but things will come good. You and John are doing great, keep laughing and enjoying the things that you do. Love to you both. 🦋🦋
OMG That Votrtex reference is bang on!! When I was in treatment for BC I ordered a blue raincoat! What came a bright pink!! I was rocking the bald look, no eyebrows etc but having ro wear that pink raincoat gave strength, your humour is yours, keep laughing and it'll magically help those around you x
Feel for you Mandy. You are being so positive, Like the message that you are putting out about change and how important it is for both men and woman alike. Nobody likes to be poked and prodded, i have recently been though an exploratory procedure, having a camera put where you should never really have one. Good news, goods news it did reveal a very small tumour that was removed and treated very quickly. Embarrassing, but has to be done. As you said the doctors and nurses are doing this many times a day, its the patient that feels uncomfortable. Love you openness. Thinking of you, all my best wishes and big hugs to both of you.
Lol. I roared when you said about the boob fondling.... 😅 It's defo a strange experience! A story to share about black humour. My ex's boss had some form of cancer (it was a while ago now), and he had to have an op. Now he was a very, very, very hairy man (except on his head, bizarrely) but when he was about to go under, the last thing he heard was the guys wondering how many razors they were going to need to shave his chest!!! He said he laughed or tried to. He thought it was hilarious. Keep your pecker up. Black humour helps. 🤣
So glad you're trying to stay positive Mandy, Hopefully they'll see this and realise how by postponing by appts affects people and even though people tell you not to worry. Your brain doesn't always want to listen. Loving the dark humour, and at least you have the other ladies something to laugh about. Good luck today. You've got this x
Love, love, love dark humour, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with it. When I told my gorgeous Northern friends I had breast cancer, I said give me your worst most inappropriate comments, as it won't be as bad as some of the things myself and Adam had come out with. Humour is a good tonic. The analogy your cancer nurse came out with is exactly the term I used. You have a cancer diagnosis and then get thrust into the tornado that is appointments. Funnily enough I was having a conversation today in the changing room after swimming about how I'd rather have a mammogram any day over getting my vag out 😂😂. As I've said before you're smashing this out of the park. No point fretting as you can't change it. You've just got to ride the wave. 😘😘
Hi Mandy, couldn’t watch your video last night as I work nights, so I have just caught up with you. You have been on my mind all week, so really pleased for your update. I hope all goes well for you today, I’m sure it will. Your view on it all is brilliant, but I suppose it is the best way to be , stay positive and keep smiling you have got this. Sending you loads of love,good luck 😊
I love your outlook it’s very encouraging and never drop the dark humour - it’s what makes life that more doable … here’s everything crossed for you appointment today (Tuesday) 🤞🏼💪🏼❤️
Hey lovely lady. How good are you at keeping sane through all this. I think so many of us followers will be thinking of you for the 9th. I’m starting to think you’re keeping us going with your positive vibes. Big hugs for you and John ❤
Just you stay positive dear both, & will be with you in heart tomorrow. 🩷🩵🩷🙏🏻🥰🥰✊🏻✊🏻. Your nature is on your side thankfully Mandy your such a lovely person. Love & hugs xxx
Well, it's wazzing down tonight as I watch your video, hoping it's better weather for your appointment tomorrow. The dog looks like he'd be happy if I didn't take him out for last orders; and I'm reminded by you in the vidio that it's the changes that signal a call to action, and that my late brother took too long to go and see his doctor about changes in his bowel movement. Thanks for the reminder. Take care, big hugs to both. 👋 🇬🇧🇺🇦🇪🇺
Thank you for beimg so open with this Mandy, its so helpful for people, especially other worriers like me! Gotta say, i love dark twisted humour too, Paramedics are usually the best comedians ive found. :)
I'd put off speaking to the Dr about something gynae but following your journey has encouraged me to go. I have a scan this Thursday so hopefully get to the bottom of things.
So great to see you, Mandy. Been thinking of you and John ❤. Thank you so much for the update and hope all goes well tomorrow. Just wanted to thank you and John as well as hubby and i have followed you from the beginning. You have inspired us and we have just bought our first van to convert 🤪🤔. Lots of love to you both ❤❤
Humour is a very great blessing to have…. Good luck for the results tomorrow…hopefully after tomorrow you’ll have a clear plan of progress…..and action….❤️&🙏🏻
Hi Mandy we all send you kind words of support but that won’t stop you worrying try to stay positive You can tell how worried you are but treatment has come a long way these days so think positive my thoughts are with you 🥰💖💕
Good luck for tomorrow x it will be good when you have your treatment plan in place as you can focus on that. I have been very cranky the last few days as I had the first stage of my reconstructive surgery last Thursday so feeling sore and tired but glad to finally be moving forward. Humour definitely helps and is my default and coping mechanism when things go wrong or are out of my control x sending healing thoughts x
It’s good to keep checking and be aware of any changes but mine was only picked up at breast screening as was deep and couldn’t be felt. I love how you are keeping positive and your sense of humour is amazing. I think you just have to go with the flow and at the end of the day you can’t control what is happening to you but you can control how you deal with it, take care, 💚
@@unadventurousmandy yea I worked as an oncology nurse for years so aware what to look for but this couldn’t be detected by my monthly checks, that’s why screening is important. Thanks for sharing your treatment and life with us💚
The positive attitude really helps. My family told me to let them do the worrying and I keep myself positive. So I concentrated on getting healthier before my surgery. I’ve gone back to being a couch potato these days, ooops.
Hey Mandy, first big hugs from us ❤ We are wondering if you and John are going to VanLife Festival in June? It will be our first and we are just finishing our van conversion. It would be so lovely to chat to you both about conversions 😁🚚
Here in the USA the nurses and technicians aren't allowed to say anything about what they see on scans or reports before the doctor says it. That's why they say things like she did and just keep repeating the same thing. Not something to worry about it. Hang in there.
Hello Mandy, just caught up with your vlog this morning… so glad the boob check went well 🩷. Wishing you well for today (9th April); will be thinking of you this afternoon 🙏🏻❤️. Love & big hugs to you & John. xxxx
I think they have a 'team' meeting first, to decide on the best treatment, and then they will have more information when they see you... many best wishes from Canada...
Waiting is the worst. You are a great. I have to use a catheter with a few months. I found it very difficult to accept and also as you experienced the strangers looking into my vigina. I have found it helped to just come straight out with what l was experiencing.
Nothing wrong with dark humour, I let it out all the time very often where I shouldn't 😊 If they aren't rushing things it's definitely a plus! They are rushing my friend as they seem to get rid of it in one place and it pops up in another, we're now taking bets on where next. Take care, big hugs 🐾🐾🐕🦓
How long will it take from your diagnosis to the beginning of treatment? Do you have access to your medical records like we do here in the US? Knowledge is power in these situations.
The waiting room at the boob clinic always feels like when your in the vets with your dog and they all hide underneath the seat. Everyone is scared. Your doing so well as you say you just want to get it all going, it's the waiting that makes it worse. Once you have started treatment beating it has begun. Good luck for tomorrow will be thinking of you and holding your hand tight 👍🤝❤️😘🫂
Aw waiting is the worst part in this sh*t show and the scanxiety doesn’t get any easier ….it does get better once you know your treatment plan. Today is the 9th so I’m sending you the biggest hug 🤗 xx
The long process of examinations and appointments and new examinations and new appointments etc. was also something that frustrated me a lot. I do also recognize your way of dealing with the examinations: when I was in hospital, my time belonged to the hospital, we'd just wait without complaining, and do what I was supposed to do. The only time I really hated to bare my breasts and I actually refused to do so, was when the insurance doctors wanted to examine me. Come on, I didn't ask for all this shit, and I refused. Other than that: well, it is what it is, isn't it. Best of luck tomorrow!
I’m not an expert but from having members of my family treated for cancer yes you will worry Everyone worries, including members of your family and your friends but usually there is a case meeting where nurses, consultants etc discuss your case, make decisions and tell you the outcomes. I wouldn’t ask staff who are not at least at consultant level about your case because to be honest who knows more?
At least they didn't call you and say they needed to work you in earlier. Them being willing to delay is actually a positive. 🌺
This is very true ❤️❤️
How frustrating for you Mandy, it’s a good job you’re positive and have a good sense of humour! Good luck tomorrow, I hope you get some answers 🤞
Thinking of you today xx
I hope they see you in a big room next time because we are all with you in spirit . Sending love and strength x
I don't think I have commented on any of your vlogs before although have been following you and John for quite a while now. Just wanted to say all the best for your appointment tomorrow. You are a true inspiration - your attitude to what is going on with your health is phenomenal and you are truly strong and optimistic in the most challenging of situations. I truly hope that things will go aw well as they can for you and of course for John xxx
That phrase, "nothing they didn't expect to see" was exactly what they said to me before my treatment started, so I don't think it is anything to worry about.
That's my thoughts too. Because the clinical staff deal with this all of the time, they sometimes forget us patients aren't used to it, and then we worry. They also need to cover their backs and not tell you something they're not supposed to. Its all about crossing those T's and dotting the i's 😊 I'm only 4.43 into the vlog so I'll get back to it. ❤
I agree its about change & not screening. Most screening tests cannot determine whether someone will get ill. Many people wrongly mistake screening for “prevention,” and some think that having regular screening tests can protect them from a disease. But that is not the case: screening tests usually cannot prevent diseases. Doctors also tend to be too optimistic when it comes to the benefits of screening. Please do your own research into this topic... Like you l also use natural products. Your outlook is great, a positive mind can do wonders. I'm still praying 💜
I've had chemo and radiotherapy unfortunately this is me now. I wish you good luck as you are a brilliant person !!!
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Hi love! You will love The Gentlemen , its dark humor at its best!❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I’m rooting for you Mandy xx
You are the best! I love the way you are able to express your feelings and what is going on. Your honesty is refreshing. I liked the example of the vortex with you in the center and everything flying around you. I am like you when I am in a situation with medical stuff and just do what they tell me to do. Your recommendation of watching for changes is so spot on. That is why I do annual testing because it can show changes that I might have missed.
You are a special lady with your needs and desires just where there need to be. You are strong and know that you will get thru this with flying colors. Sending hugs and prayers.
They say laughter is the best medicine! Best wishes from Essex.
I totally understand why you are worried, I would be. All the best.
Hari OM
Oooh, I am a bit behind - driving through Kathleen, then parking and hiding from Kathleen and her afterthought stuff... but catching up now. You'll have had your visit and I do hope that it all went well and "was as you expected"!!! Keeping the humour is so important. More power to you for it, Mandy. YAM xx
Pleased your sense of humour is getting you thru this x at least the fact they don’t want you in and there’s no real sense of emergency they can’t be that bothered x next visit will come soon enough so no stressing hun x You will beat this and come back bigger and better x we all luvs you billions and have your back xx
So sorry you have got to wait again, but things will come good. You and John are doing great, keep laughing and enjoying the things that you do. Love to you both. 🦋🦋
Mandy, you are a real inspiration. I will be sending love and positive vibes your way tomorrow afternoon. And your hair looks lovely xx
Good luck tomorrow Mandy 🍀 we've all got you in our thoughts, sending love and hugs xx
Thinking about you Mandy, hope you are ok.
Good luck Mandy and take care John love and prayers to you both stay safe xxPat
May be a good idea to keep some fresh ginger and lemons in your fridge. Just in case of nausea. Visualising good results for you Mandy, bless you
Each time I had chemo, I was given an anti nausea tablet.
OMG That Votrtex reference is bang on!! When I was in treatment for BC I ordered a blue raincoat! What came a bright pink!! I was rocking the bald look, no eyebrows etc but having ro wear that pink raincoat gave strength, your humour is yours, keep laughing and it'll magically help those around you x
Oh Mandy I’m so sorry your going through this, thinking and praying for you and your family, big hugs x
Feel for you Mandy. You are being so positive, Like the message that you are putting out about change and how important it is for both men and woman alike.
Nobody likes to be poked and prodded, i have recently been though an exploratory procedure, having a camera put where you should never really have one. Good news, goods news it did reveal a very small tumour that was removed and treated very quickly. Embarrassing, but has to be done.
As you said the doctors and nurses are doing this many times a day, its the patient that feels uncomfortable.
Love you openness.
Thinking of you, all my best wishes and big hugs to both of you.
Lol. I roared when you said about the boob fondling.... 😅 It's defo a strange experience!
A story to share about black humour. My ex's boss had some form of cancer (it was a while ago now), and he had to have an op. Now he was a very, very, very hairy man (except on his head, bizarrely) but when he was about to go under, the last thing he heard was the guys wondering how many razors they were going to need to shave his chest!!! He said he laughed or tried to. He thought it was hilarious.
Keep your pecker up. Black humour helps. 🤣
Love your sense of humour, keep smiling xx
So glad you're trying to stay positive Mandy, Hopefully they'll see this and realise how by postponing
by appts affects people and even though people tell you not to worry. Your brain doesn't always want to listen. Loving the dark humour, and at least you have the other ladies something to laugh about. Good luck today. You've got this x
Fingers crossed for news of your treatment plan today( Tuesday) I will be sending positive thoughts xx
Love, love, love dark humour, and there's absolutely nothing wrong with it. When I told my gorgeous Northern friends I had breast cancer, I said give me your worst most inappropriate comments, as it won't be as bad as some of the things myself and Adam had come out with. Humour is a good tonic.
The analogy your cancer nurse came out with is exactly the term I used. You have a cancer diagnosis and then get thrust into the tornado that is appointments.
Funnily enough I was having a conversation today in the changing room after swimming about how I'd rather have a mammogram any day over getting my vag out 😂😂.
As I've said before you're smashing this out of the park. No point fretting as you can't change it. You've just got to ride the wave. 😘😘
Great way to look at things Many! Half the battle is attitude….keep the positive and the dark humour is grande!
Keep the courage going Mandy, it will see you through ❤
Keep positive hun ,I have incurable prostate cancer,but live my life as normal xxxxxx Don’t worry Worry solves nothing
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Hi Mandy, couldn’t watch your video last night as I work nights, so I have just caught up with you.
You have been on my mind all week, so really pleased for your update.
I hope all goes well for you today, I’m sure it will.
Your view on it all is brilliant, but I suppose it is the best way to be , stay positive and keep smiling you have got this.
Sending you loads of love,good luck 😊
I love your outlook it’s very encouraging and never drop the dark humour - it’s what makes life that more doable … here’s everything crossed for you appointment today (Tuesday) 🤞🏼💪🏼❤️
You are a WARRIOR Sending hugs
Hey lovely lady. How good are you at keeping sane through all this. I think so many of us followers will be thinking of you for the 9th. I’m starting to think you’re keeping us going with your positive vibes. Big hugs for you and John ❤
Just you stay positive dear both, & will be with you in heart tomorrow. 🩷🩵🩷🙏🏻🥰🥰✊🏻✊🏻. Your nature is on your side thankfully Mandy your such a lovely person. Love & hugs xxx
Hi Mandy and John. Good luck for today. Hope everything goes ok xx
Good luck for tomorrow and stay strong you grumpy cow. 😊
AH , thanks for that info. BTW I think you are doing amazingly well considering the frustrating wait. x
Well, it's wazzing down tonight as I watch your video, hoping it's better weather for your appointment tomorrow. The dog looks like he'd be happy if I didn't take him out for last orders; and I'm reminded by you in the vidio that it's the changes that signal a call to action, and that my late brother took too long to go and see his doctor about changes in his bowel movement. Thanks for the reminder. Take care, big hugs to both. 👋 🇬🇧🇺🇦🇪🇺
Good luck Mandy. I am sure that your attitude towards all this will help you. Sending you loads of best wishes. Xx
Thank you for beimg so open with this Mandy, its so helpful for people, especially other worriers like me! Gotta say, i love dark twisted humour too, Paramedics are usually the best comedians ive found. :)
Well done Mandy I love your way of handling this look after yourself 👍
I'd put off speaking to the Dr about something gynae but following your journey has encouraged me to go. I have a scan this Thursday so hopefully get to the bottom of things.
That’s fab..!! I hope you do get to the bottom of things quickly ❤️
Hope all goes well tomorrow. We're all thinking about you x
So great to see you, Mandy. Been thinking of you and John ❤. Thank you so much for the update and hope all goes well tomorrow. Just wanted to thank you and John as well as hubby and i have followed you from the beginning. You have inspired us and we have just bought our first van to convert 🤪🤔. Lots of love to you both ❤❤
Humour is a very great blessing to have….
Good luck for the results tomorrow…hopefully after tomorrow you’ll have a clear plan of progress…..and action….❤️&🙏🏻
I wish you all the best. I cannot Imagine how you must feel ❤
Hi Mandy great to see you on here as thinking about you and John and your family big hugs always keep safe 😊👍🏻
You’re a brave lady, you have support from John and your family. I’d fall to pieces. Best of luck.
Hi Mandy we all send you kind words of support but that won’t stop you worrying try to stay positive You can tell how worried you are but treatment has come a long way these days so think positive my thoughts are with you 🥰💖💕
My daughter is prone to breast ciste and she has to keep an eye on them,so glad it wasn't Cancer Mandy xx
Good luck for today Mandy 👍
Good luck for tomorrow x it will be good when you have your treatment plan in place as you can focus on that. I have been very cranky the last few days as I had the first stage of my reconstructive surgery last Thursday so feeling sore and tired but glad to finally be moving forward. Humour definitely helps and is my default and coping mechanism when things go wrong or are out of my control x sending healing thoughts x
I’m glad the first stage went well. I hope the pain eases soon ❤️❤️
Best wishes for tomorrow. ❤❤❤ xxx
Good luck for tomorrow mandy big hugs Maggie Manchester xxx ❤
Hope all goes well tomorrow-keep with the positivity 😘
How are you enjoying the gentlemen? I loved the humour in it . Xx
Love and hugs to you both x x❤️
It’s good to keep checking and be aware of any changes but mine was only picked up at breast screening as was deep and couldn’t be felt. I love how you are keeping positive and your sense of humour is amazing. I think you just have to go with the flow and at the end of the day you can’t control what is happening to you but you can control how you deal with it, take care, 💚
Absolutely go for all and any routine check ups too but just don’t forget you are the best to notice the changes ❤️
@@unadventurousmandy yea I worked as an oncology nurse for years so aware what to look for but this couldn’t be detected by my monthly checks, that’s why screening is important. Thanks for sharing your treatment and life with us💚
Ooh that food looks lush!
Good luck tomorrow Mandy. Sending positive vibes.
Good luck tomorrow xx
Good luck Mandy, thinking of you ❤️
We all wish you well. Chin up ❤
Good Luck tomorrow Mandy xx
Love you Little-Sis and good luck for tomorrow 🩷
Thinking of you Mandy.
Sending Positive Vibes Mandy 🙏
God luck tomorrow! ( I just love your sence of humour ) 🥰
sending positive vibes to you Mandy .. ❤ ❤❤❤
Good luck Mandy
The positive attitude really helps. My family told me to let them do the worrying and I keep myself positive. So I concentrated on getting healthier before my surgery. I’ve gone back to being a couch potato these days, ooops.
Mandy you are so funny brilliant video today good luck with everything love Avis xx
Good luck and big hugs ❤
Keep up you sense of humor and the jokes love to you xxxxxxx
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That happened last week and I can’t believe it!! ❤️❤️
Hey Mandy, first big hugs from us ❤
We are wondering if you and John are going to VanLife Festival in June? It will be our first and we are just finishing our van conversion. It would be so lovely to chat to you both about conversions 😁🚚
We’re only going to Campervan Campout this year.. we’ll be travelling more once my treatment finishes
Best wishes. Hope everything goes well xxxx
When you're being prayed for you can have supernatural peace, Jesus peace x
Here in the USA the nurses and technicians aren't allowed to say anything about what they see on scans or reports before the doctor says it. That's why they say things like she did and just keep repeating the same thing. Not something to worry about it.
Hang in there.
Hello Mandy, just caught up with your vlog this morning… so glad the boob check went well 🩷. Wishing you well for today (9th April); will be thinking of you this afternoon 🙏🏻❤️. Love & big hugs to you & John. xxxx
Hi again Mandy. It’s nearly 2pm… just a little message to say I’m thinking of you as you await your appointment… hope it all goes well. Big hugs xxxx
Laughter is the best medicine! 😂 ❤
I think they have a 'team' meeting first, to decide on the best treatment, and then they will have more information when they see you... many best wishes from Canada...
Sending hugs for today. X
Waiting is the worst. You are a great. I have to use a catheter with a few months. I found it very difficult to accept and also as you experienced the strangers looking into my vigina.
I have found it helped to just come straight out with what l was experiencing.
Nothing wrong with dark humour, I let it out all the time very often where I shouldn't 😊 If they aren't rushing things it's definitely a plus! They are rushing my friend as they seem to get rid of it in one place and it pops up in another, we're now taking bets on where next. Take care, big hugs 🐾🐾🐕🦓
Can't beat a bit of dark humour. Good news on the lumps not being nasties. Tc lovely. ❤xx
Good luck Mandy x
How long will it take from your diagnosis to the beginning of treatment? Do you have access to your medical records like we do here in the US?
Knowledge is power in these situations.
I applied for access but it seems most are on request, I don’t know how long exactly just yet but it’ll be approx 2 months but feels like 2 years
That’s a long wait. Sending you good wishes.
Good luck for tomorrow x
Hi Mandy, good luck for Wednesday and keep the dark humour up😅❤
The waiting room at the boob clinic always feels like when your in the vets with your dog and they all hide underneath the seat. Everyone is scared.
Your doing so well as you say you just want to get it all going, it's the waiting that makes it worse. Once you have started treatment beating it has begun. Good luck for tomorrow will be thinking of you and holding your hand tight 👍🤝❤️😘🫂
Food wise be aware your tastes will probably change xx
Aw waiting is the worst part in this sh*t show and the scanxiety doesn’t get any easier ….it does get better once you know your treatment plan.
Today is the 9th so I’m sending you the biggest hug 🤗 xx
Sending love take care as always xx
The long process of examinations and appointments and new examinations and new appointments etc. was also something that frustrated me a lot. I do also recognize your way of dealing with the examinations: when I was in hospital, my time belonged to the hospital, we'd just wait without complaining, and do what I was supposed to do. The only time I really hated to bare my breasts and I actually refused to do so, was when the insurance doctors wanted to examine me. Come on, I didn't ask for all this shit, and I refused. Other than that: well, it is what it is, isn't it. Best of luck tomorrow!
Sending you both hugs.❤
I’m not an expert but from having members of my family treated for cancer yes you will worry Everyone worries, including members of your family and your friends but usually there is a case meeting where nurses, consultants etc discuss your case, make decisions and tell you the outcomes. I wouldn’t ask staff who are not at least at consultant level about your case because to be honest who knows more?
Your an inspiration to.us all, bless you x❤