It's been a hot minute! Hope you guys have been well. Forgive me for the downer video, i really just needed to vent. I also need to thank all our patrons and long time viewers for supporting this channel. I sincerely apologise for being MIA. My brain must of short circuited or something, where I couldn't even look at my youtube channel, let alone replying to people. Anyways after a week of filming this video, I definitely feel like things are starting up again slowly. I finally have color in my face after being paler than a vampire from a long Melbourne winter, and I'm doing lots of exercise, writing and introspection. I will be uploading videos regularly again, and begin the next era! See ya soon. Much love, Tom
Don't convince yourself that any drug will help you long term... psychedelics or prescription drugs will not fix you. If you take adhd medication, tolerance will take effect... Your brain will change in the opposite direction you desire and quitting will leave you in a worse hole. Amphetamines are bad. Wanting a magic pill to fix everything is your addictive side coming through. I got forced into reality 2 months ago when drugs stopped helping. Any substance makes me panic now but I'm the happiest I've ever managed to be while sober. I've wanted to quit for a long time but never did without resistance until I was given a reason to never get high again.
Own how you feel Tom! We in it together. One for all, all for one! Desires are desires, “this is how im feeling and its fucking awesome!” Instead of resisting the desire just be like, yeah, this is it . Anyway! Try mantra maybe? Baba nam kevalam, meditate, kiirtan, all is good, everything is fine. Stop trying to fix things and rest in being, whatever is needed out of the moment, serve others. It’s all a learning journey. Don’t bummer yourself down from what the mind thinks it is going to be. God has a big plan for you, all of us. Ps i almost ate a plectrum writing this, eating pepper n salt cashews Much Love, Also try a sattvic vegetarian diet for a week, see how you feel 😺 Do some asanas Kiirtan Meditation Switch it up Sadness is ok, energy that needs expression 💫 Baba nam kevalam Love is all there is
how much of this do you think is based on the quality of the collective? I along with many I know along these similar paths spiritually specific, are in this same phase. I wonder if this common revisiting of old self aspects is in a way a collective shedding of such. to go back and close the chapter of such I suppose. and I dont at all mean. subjugating the blame like "its cause the world sucks", I simply just see the patterns here, as im going through the same, as well as others I know in the same life paths, and it hit us at the same time
hi, ont think you'r good again... You are like you are.Just accept a lot o things on our person, it's the real way o life, it's called "sagesse" in french. I am 36, 5 years really down and just become to realize a lot o things, i think its like 12-18, or 40 crisis... Some people are active, some are worker, others like me (...and you i guess) are melancholic but world need all this stuff, for balance. thinking a lot makes us tired and depressed, but makes us and others improve.
Mate, don’t be hard on yourself. I am a young man (17 years of age) and the mental lessons I’ve learnt from this channel could last 4 lifetimes. I also have diagnosed adhd so I get where you’re coming from with the weed. People like us have addictive personalities so it’s easy of us to fall back in the loop of depending on weed to perform. You have travelled the world doing what you love and have opened the eyes of millions. You should be proud of yourself, you are what I aspire to be as a man.
Do you also have trouble concentrating when doing boring tasks? I get bored so quickly that there were occurences where i went home in middle of boring 9-5 shifts because i couldnt hold it anymore looking at the watch and seeing that i still have hours and hours to work while the others seem so unbothered as if they werent doing the same boring garbage job like me. I also am the only one in my friend group who is against playing cards or board games when they suggest it because it doesnt stimulate me, its so slow paced and unspectacular. Maybe this hasnt to do with adhd but i also have a hars time concentrating on many things and tend to overthink
@@oranges557I know exactly what you're taking about and unless you do something about it, you'll always feel like that. What I did was work towards being a Scientist, this enabled me to put the overthinking part of me to good use as well as providing challenging stimulation. As for the playing cards and board games, I felt exactly the same. This was until I realised that although the games are boring, it's about people connecting. That's the real reason behind doing things like that, not the game itself. So my overall advice is, accept what you are and change your environment to appeal to what you are.
It seems like everyone right now is going through struggles, it’s like god is really putting us all to the test right now. I’ve been battling alcohol addiction, losing family, losing my girlfriend/best friend of 5 years. It’s been rough. It’s time for us all to pick up the pieces together and rebuild. I almost feel like it’s now or never to get your bs sorted out. I’m here for you Tom, pray on it, meditate on it you will get through brother. ☀️
Stop saying God this or that and blame yourself and everyone around you apart form those being abused daily cause they didn't choose to be around you skum
You're not alone Tom. Trust. Going through it right now myself. Hold on to your wife, you're blessed to have a wife who is supporting you so greatly despite your situation. I hope you find steady waters in your life soon. You're not alone.
You probably won’t read this, but you’re not alone dude. If you’ve been feeling great for a long time it is only right for you to feel depressed for (not as long) but a while… what goes up must come down. The opposite of down is up therefore it MUST go back up these are the laws of life the laws of the universe. It will happen when least expected one day you will wake up and be stronger than ever. Then eventually you will drop back down. But as I said it will always come back. The universe does not allow for eternal happiness or eternal depression. We live in the combination of opposites.
Dreams, as we all know, are very queer things: some parts are presented with appalling vividness, with details worked up with the elaborate finish of jewellery, while others one gallops through, as it were, without noticing them at all, as, for instance, through space and time. Dreams seem to be spurred on not by reason but by desire, not by the head but by the heart, and yet what complicated tricks my reason has played sometimes in dreams, what utterly incomprehensible things happen to it!
Youre right in a way but what i feel you really saying is that emotion does not have to define who you are or in extend even your mood. You can feel down to a great extend and recognice and accept it as a feeling an not 'who you are'. That being said, i have not been able to master this fully. Sometimes time just needs to pass.
I had another thought. If you read the gulag Archipelago (and yes i did need to c/p that) itll show that people even i the the worst of times (certinly worse than ours) had an abillity to laugh. So It's not your sourrondings to a great extend. It's litterally freeing yourself from giving a fuck every day when you don't absolutely have to. And when it's finally time, youll have the energy to fcking smash it!
I have enjoyed watching your channel throughout the years. I have been on my own plant medicine journey and what struck me about this video and really all of your videos is how honest and vulnerable you are. I give you so much respect and support. You have it together more than you realize. Hope we cross paths one day. Stay cool brother.
I feel you mate. Turning 31 tomorrow and been sobbing 3 times a day for the past month. Very frustrating not to have a clear explanation for my distress. Finding community support has been hard and also very helpful. Your wife sounds amazing. Hang in there! Love from France ❤️
ive been depressed for years, ive done nothing for years. you are doing better than you give yourself credit for, you are not alone and you arent less vaulable than anyone else. youve spred possitivity and you deserve peace. get well brother
Your poem was fantastic. It spoke to me, almost taking me right back to how my depression felt at age 18-20. I accessed thoughts and feelings I didn't even know I still could and hadnt seen for years. Good luck brother, been following your channels for years.
Hey Tom, sending you Love and Life from the African continent! You have been an inspiration to so many. May the Infinite guide and hold you during this trying time. You've got this!!! 💫
I literally feel everything you said in this man. Finally somebody talking about real shit. You’re the man tho homie keep your head up. I appreciate this video a lot you help a lot of people man
This is weirdly relatable man. I just uploaded a similar video to my channel a week ago. Nice to see another auzzie talking openly about their mental health on UA-cam
Peace and love from Canada Tom. Backsliding does not mean you've lost progress and lessons previously learned are still valuable, even if our present conditions are not favourable or what we'd like our lives to be. The good times in life prepare us for these kinds of times. Sharing your difficulties does not make you a bitch at all and you show commendable strength talking about them publicly like this when many people never even do so privately. Good luck on your path and I hope for goodness along your way. 🙏
Your story gets a standing ovation! The courage and humility to tell your truth resonates with more people than you might realize! I’m one of them! Thank you!
Thanks to my mycologist for introducing to me Microdosing when no medication worked on my anxiety and depression. my life has Greatly changed for the best
Tom, it's been a long time since I've checked in with your channel but thankful to see this upload. I'm 30 now, also married and moving in with my own parents now. It can be really crushing and depressing to start from Year 0 again. I have fairly severe depression and addiction issues, which have gotten the better of me lately. We'll start again but with gained knowledge-- we just need to embody that knowledge and wisdom rather than lock it away. Best of luck to you, brother. We're gonna make it.
Thanks for this mate. What you say ressonates with me and shows me there are others just like me out there who are going through very similar situation. I believe we are just a the bottom of our wave and we need to persevere through these dark times and so shall the sun come out again with energies being boosted. I think one the most valuable things I learnt is to be humble in both good and bad situations as we live in the world of duality and because of this we will experience both sides to life. We need to be grateful and humble during the good times, remembering the bad times, as well being strong and never giving up in the bad times as we can always keep in mind that good times will have its chance again. The only one who determines accessing these good times in the end is ourselves though, so once again, we can never give up and from my favourite quote from a movie called "Meet the robinsons" that I watched as a kid, we got to KEEP MOVING FORWARD! Once you are a prisoner in your own mind, that's when it truly becomes dark. Fight back and take full control of your mental as this is your soul right. Freedom starts within!
This video so relatable man. As a 26 year old I always stayed positive on manifesting my dreams but especially recently everything in my life has collapsed and this isn’t the first time it’s happened. I’m pretty much given up and just trying to get an ordinary job that pays well preferably not one I hate but we’ll see. Weed, meditation and music are the main things really helping me and keeping me in a good space and I only smoke when I can get it since I go through times where I’m broke and don’t smoke it for a sometimes weeks which isn’t a problem but a bit annoying and makes things harder than usual. Anyways man I wish you nothing but the best and keep up the YT grind and you’ll probs make some good money 😊
@@LostTemplate nice reflection of yourself 🤣 cuz that’s what all this is. A reflection of your delusions and insecurities. Anyways I’m done with you and your negativity and BS 🥱. Whatever helps you sleep at night 🤷♂️ not gonna waste anymore of my precious energy 👋
@@LostTemplate talm bout “manifesting isn’t real” & then coming off as some phony psychic with the “I can feel you’re scared” lol of course bro didn’t care for that. Life is full of magic, hope you can experience it for yourself one day.
Thank you for putting yourself out there Tom. I look up to you and Jarrad alot and you guys have changed my life for the better so to hear you talk about being in such a similar mental position right now means a lot and makes me feel a little less alone.
I deeply resonate with everything you’ve said in this video Tom almost word for word it brings a little solace to know your not alone in this crazy existence. Hope you can catch a breath of fresh air soon.
Going through something really similar here. You are not alone and love to see how this vulnerability makes us connect and show up for each other. Much love.
Keep going bro iv watched your channel on and off your a good guy bro we all have our ups and downs rebuild yourself I know how it is it’s difficult some times bro u have the power 🙏🏼
Hang in there... A lot of us are going through something similar so you're not alone at all.. Thank you for making this video and I hope you feel better mate.
I just want to tell you that I am 34 years old, and I have been watching your videos for several years straight. From the beginning of your journey that experienced a spiritual transformation, personal development and growth and in general, you know, in your video that you are in South America doing ayoaska, that you return to the reality of human beings, this is the most exciting moment that I have watched in all your videos, exciting that every time I return to receive inspiration for life, I return to the video your. I'm in tears and I'm just happy that there are people like you in the universe. You are an amazing, special, powerful person. You are all one big heart. You are all one big vibration that resonates so strongly that you break and shatter energy waves.
Thank you for being so vulnerable and courageous in sharing this. I resonate with you so deeply man, I am also 31 and feeling the exact same way. I have found some guidance and relief through psychedelics but it still doesn't feel like it's enough. Having a good dr is super key and I fortunately do have a very caring family dr but she referred me to a specialist and it's been 6 weeks with no word of when I'll actually be able to see them and try to find a resolution. I'm so grateful for the support I have from my friends and family but man has it been difficult. Really appreciate you and wishing you all the best brother, I know we'll get through this and be better off for it, just gotta keep trying our best. Much love 🤍🙏🏻
Hey Tom, I completely feel for ya man, i myself have been struggling years an years with this exact same feeling. My situation started super young. Ever since i seen you on youtube these last few years i decided to get into psychedelics and with your guidance videos its really helped me learn more about myself, Something i was truly not wanting to do but really needed too. I thank you for good spirit. I know everything is rough but us fans are here to support you as much as you supported us through the years. Thank you (From Tucson Az)
I have always enjoyed your channel tom, and I'm glad you're still making videos. They are like a journal of our lives. I was following you back when I had a psychedelic Channel and always appreciated your contributions
Hey Tom, you are so strong❤ Don’t be so hard on yourself, you have experienced bad things in the past, of course you are depressed. I also just got a adhd diagnosis here some months ago, and I’m 21. It’s so hard living with adhd undiagnosed and I hope you get better like me with the meds. I think it’s so great you make this video, there needs to be shed more lights on mental disorders, it should not be a tabu.❤
I know it’s too late for this to be seen but I swear ever since I found your channel I always saw myself in you. Just all the same character traits and similar experiences and ways of thinking, and during my psychedelic phase it was intensified so much so that your face even started to look like mine. I come across it again couple years later with yet again the exact same feeling, at the exact same time as I was thinking about my life and all the same points. Straight up synchronised lives
I’m with you brother. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I guarantee you many of us can relate, and it’s nice to know you’re not the only one feeling this way. All I can suggest is to maintain a faith, and get some momentum going in a direction you can feel better about. Peace and love, mate !
His mind and heart were flooded with extraordinary light; all torment, all doubt, all anxieties were relieved at once, resolved in a kind of lofty calm, full of serene, harmonious joy and hope, full of understanding and the knowledge of the ultimate cause of things.
Youre a light Tom. Thanks for existing. Been appreciating you for a long time. Hard times also on me since quite a while now. Much love and may we all be well ❣️
Tom, we’re with you. Take as long as you need to power up and come back strong as ever to battle the algorithm once again with top notch content. You know what’s funny? Even you talking “depressingly” was such a treat to watch. Whenever you express yourself you’re always effortlessly dropping nuggets of wisdom, truth, and insight. And that’s always a treat to take in, whether you’re talking about something positive, neutral, or negative. I honestly don’t think depression is negative but it can feel negative. It weighs the mind down into modes of thinking where we start to believe that things will not get better. Mate, just know that that’s a filter that’s cast over our brain right now. It doesn’t represent the truth. I know it’s hard to be grateful and see the good in life when this filter’s present, but just know that you’re a marvellous individual, in depression and in full strength and everything in between. I’m grateful that you come out with content where you just express yourself in a raw and vulnerable way. Ironically, it’s empowering because it lets the rest of us know that it’s okay to have these feelings arise. That we’ll all deal with depression at one point. And for those people who are never gonna experience it to a great degree, bless you. Anyway, you’re a badass for posting this and letting us know that even when kicked down by depression you can still come out with a kick ass video. Patiently waiting for your next one, take as much time as you want. Love and light my mate Tom ❤️ 💡
dude you sharing this helped me so much. im almost in the same place right now. I dont have anything helpful to offer. just know that youre not alone with this. cheers from germany
Tom everything you described in this video is pretty much what I've been going through for the past few months or year even. When I saw you say how you struggled with it I thought to myself well if even Tom has these struggles despite his accomplishments, I'm fucked:) but this morning I feel more like saying thank you for uploading this because it just goes to show even people you look up to struggle too. Wish they didn't, wish nobody had to struggle. I don't feel like a well functioning member of society at times and can be quite hard on myself. I've always had this small bit of hope somewhere in me and knowledge that it will pass as it always does. Harser to see sometimes but ye
Viktor Frankl believed that humans are motivated by something called a “will to meaning,” which equates to a desire to find meaning in life. He argued that life can have meaning even in the most miserable of circumstances, and that the motivation for living comes from finding that meaning. Taking it a step further, Frankl wrote: “Everything can be taken from a man but one thing, the last of the human freedoms, to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances.”
Sorry for the struggles Tom - you've got a a great wife and lots of support from your fans always. Just keep moving - go through the motions even if you don't feel like it!
Hey Tom. Ive been watching you since 2016 andjust want to tell you how much of a positive impact you had on people ALL over the world. I also struggle with depression and weed addiction. You make our lifes better😊
Tom thanks for sharing , mate . Very courageous and real of you. These "old" character traits aren't something to eliminate and these behaviors and addictions were coping mechanisms for the pain. It shows itself because this part of you wants to be seen and felt, not eliminated. Pushing away makes it stronger . Sit down and feel that what you want to push away completely and be kind with it and with yourself. There is no way around it. No project or doing can make it go away. You have done so much over the last few years. You need time to integrate, self regulate and feel what is actually there. Not what should be there or should have been there by now. The mind tries to immediately make a story like shit I am a failure, nothing is happening. It's not doing nothing, it's honoring yourself and taking time. A fruit won't get ripe from someone shouting at it and judging it for not being ripe yet. There is timing for these things. My humble opinion which comes from my humble experience which is too similar to yours not to comment . Much love ❤
Love you Tom, it do be like that sometimes… You’re not alone, and hearing you helps me feel less alone. Thank you for being bold to share your heart and your voice ❤
Hi Tom, When I was going through an existential crisis of my own (feelings of alienation and disconnect from normality). Your videos made me feel that there were people out there that I connect with. Your documentaries on psychedelics and vlogs with Jarrad were inspiring at the time. One thing I've learned through martial arts is that we must train the body and the mind. Are you still practicing BJJ? it may not be the answer but it may provide some relief and motivation. Wish you well.
whats up mate, im struggling with similar things myself at the moment, im happy to see you. Ive followed this channel for a long time and every once in a while when you pop up in my recommended it really is like seeing an old friend. Sending you good energy from Colombia :)
My mom always says I’m too hard on myself remain In the present cut ties with old thinking and just exist maybe this is your season of acceptance and finding yourself enough to sit alone and be at complete peace is a treasure
Man I just a few weeks ago found Jared’s cartoons and your channel too.. ya seem pretty relatable and idk just down to earth soo hope you feel better…. Hope you continue to make more videos because I think you have a bunch a folks here for it mate! Chin up keep moving forward it’ll come together. I need to listen to my own advice 😂
Thank your for sharing! We are always at battle with self, chess match with ourselves that will take us through the ups and downs of life. Express all feelings to be let go so a new space can open up of infinite limitless opportunities!
Been a while since I last watched this, hope you are feeling better Tom. Its important you don't create such a strict harsh judgement on yourself as you navigate life. You've done a good job transitioning from being in the feminine learning stage of your life that was filled of exploration of the past and who you are through various plants but it seems you have got the masculine aspect all wrong here and have overdone what you feel is masculine through whatever conditioning you have picked up. You are not doing as bad as you think, and you will be all the more a person once you get through this seemingly dark stage of your life as you always have, so remember that and truly hold an optimistic viewpoint as to not be stuck hopeless during this time. Faster you remember your true nature the faster you will come back and bring joy to the world as you had done previously. Much love Tom. Hope to see you smiling on here again.
Can't save anyone from themselves, but this helped me... Passion is life! Find things you are truly passionate about and just enjoy them. Get out of your own way, don't overthink it and the best things in life are simple.
You got it brother keep pusing sending you all the love , you pushed me to do aya in my darkest time and changed my life . This shall pass as well . God bless you man !
Thanks for the upload. It's helping me cope with my own stuff. I hope you can keep riding this wave out of the darkness. A flower won't bloom before it's season and will eventually fade. The roots are born into the ground and that's where they stay until they rot.
Hey mate saw your video and love your content. First of all thanks for sharing and what strengh and currage it takes to be open about it. I see alot of what you going through in myself. The hardest part can be the part where we have to lift ourselves up and be our own shoulder, clap on the back and encouragement. But I know you can do it. Keep walking man, you are an inspiration ❤
When one of us struggles, we all do my brother. Stay strong. I am on a mushroom trip right this second. Very first one ever, and i am not seeing visuals, but I feel open. I'm typing this comment freely. I am not thinking about a lot, but please know you are the man, and you will be okay. I am 33, but always want to feel 22, we can't be what we were, but have so much power to be more
The stuff you say at 1:03 about depression and how it comes and goes, I feel that one. I really don't know how to help you, I just wanna say I feel you.
Love from the states mate!! I hope you can find a way to get diagnosed that doesnt cost an obscene amount. love your videos, its been so cool growing myself and having your content over the years. youre not alone man!
Its actually so brave to get vulnerable in front of such a big audience. In front of the whole world! I felt it all. Was once addicted to w33d and it was Jesus who healed me. I just asked him, I knew I couldn't do it on my own. He did it in just one day!! I'll never forget that day... It's something supernatural when you feel like something in you almost forces you to light up that joint yet He (not less supernatural lol!) gently but strongly ensured you stay away from that. I cant put that into words but I'm beyond grateful. I remember watching your podcast with Steven Bancarz and thought back then... Jesus has a plan for this guy. Sending you lots of love brother. You are never alone.
Thank you for sharing your heart and poetry! It’s good to share things like this because others can relate to your journey. It’s been hard the past few years what the world experienced caused so much isolation and depression but there is a silver lining! You have a wonderful support group on UA-cam and a wife that is your rock. I hope you find the aha moment and break through the darkness 🙏🏽 In Mexican circles we have something called a “platica” which means you talk it out and do a “limpia” that might be what can help you vs medication which will only suppress your creativity.
Big Thank you for being so open about your current state I believe you already know how many people can relate to this 🤲🏾 As I’m also in the middle of a similar struggle I’m not going to pretend to have the answers. I just want to remind you that you’re not alone in this. We are not alone.
Holy shit you are literally describing my whole life and how I feel right now, I'm 35, got married at 30, got 2 kids now since marriage, my Uruguayan mother was the same with pills and ADHD, the pot plant analogy was spot on and I really feel that, what's your background tom ? When I went to Uruguay as a child I felt like I was at home, I've never felt like that since, I've struggled with addiction myself and I'm currently addicted to opiates from a back injury from tiling, my wife supports me and I feel like a worthless bitch tbh, I've only recently got over not wanting to be alive but now I don't know wtf to do, having to kids that look up to you when you hate yourself is really fucked up, I appreciate your honesty, I hope you get better, sending love and peace, I hope you find guidance brother ❤ vamos arriba
I’m 43 and had (self-diagnosed) depression for most of my adult life, that affected my marriage and relationships and work as well. So I feel you, brother. Sending you love. A few things came to mind as I watched this: 1. Jim Carrey saying depression is the body saying “fuck you, I don’t want to play this character anymore.” (it’s a youtube clip.) This rings true for me, in hindsight. Depression may be Life’s signal that something needs to change, drastically. 2. Resist and it will persist. 3. I’ve done the psychedelics and personal development etc. Then I spent 7 days in darkness alone. What I “saw” in myself, with all distractions & addictions stripped away, was powerful. I still have depressive tendencies (waking up in the morning as you describe), but can now talk myself out of it more effectively, because of that context.
It's just unreal to listen to you. I don't know which time i am already commenting this, but when you speak it's like listening to my spiritual brother. I resonate right to the point with so much you say. Then you said about Latinamerica. How you want to meet your tribe and this is what i am personally up to now, after struggling so much being in one place, going through crazy ups and downs all the time, i am flying to Mexico with almost no money in my pocket next month. As you say, you've got to make that move even if you are not ready. All the best to you mate!
This hits close to home. After years of putting it off, I've finally gone through the steps and got a therapist, and even though I've only been once so far, it feels like one of the best decisions of the last years. Been following this channel for a long time and you always felt super relatable to me. Hope we'll do better soon!
I’m a 32 year old man who often struggles with the same things you mentioned. I wish you and anyone else struggling with this to beat this! I think having kids is a key to a happy adult life but that’s a topic for a personal talk
Thanks to my mycologist for introducing to me Microdosing when no medication worked on my anxiety and depression. my life has Greatly changed for the best
Hey Tom I appreciate your latest video on depression. I have been dealing with all the same shit. Obviously different, but I have been having the same feelings. I think a lot of people are going through this right now. Like A LOT. I've talked to a lot of people and I think we are all struggling and feeling the energy of disparity in the world right now. You're not alone man! Nature loves courage, keep on going!
I'm 30 and starting my life over from scratch. There's nothing wrong with that. When everything falls apart, use it to your advantage. Just keep going. You're not alone.
You will overcome whether you are on screen or not, and we believe in you remember everything is going to be ok. We are all connected. Remember everything will be ok, you know this you've seen this, you understand this. Don't take all that you have accomplished for granted. You have done so much good to overshadow your positive energy with self-doubt. Stay strong my brother 🙏 sending my positive vibrations your way ❤
I love your poem! Feel perhaps that depression is normal to a certain degree. If we were to live to in one continuously happy phase, would we even class anything as happy because we’d have no baseline. Try not be too hard on yourself. This you already know of course. It’s frustrating wanting and knowing you’re capable of progress, but feeling you’re making slow progress. Just the fact you’re aware of wanting progress, is a blessing. I feel it’s impossible to talk yourself out of a depressive time… it’s so hard. It always does pass, like you say. Just like a scary night, in the morning it’s all completely evaporated. Hope you are feeling great ASAP!
Going through a similar situation myself Tom but ultimately ADHD won't ever stop you man you're already well on ya way to a massively successful career and whatever happens you're blessed to live in such a beautiful place with a great family and wife man great things are coming for you ;)
I've felt so similar to how you expressed yourself in this video. Don't give up. Depression is a real bitch, but you're a strong soul, Tom. You know what you need to do... start with baby steps. Sending much love ❤
So relatable... it's like I can function so well for a period of time then the music turns off for a while. Constant ebb and flow my whole life. Cold baths are working for me but i expect the crash to happen at some point. Meds can help with adhd but even just being diagnosed and understanding that it is part of you and reading / researching adhd to understand yourself better helps so much. You have this following because you are a great person, don't forget to count your wins. No one is perfect all the time ❤
So crazy how relatable your struggle and thought processes is to mine as I’m dealing with the same shit. I’ve always felt connected to you in a sense soul wise. I’m not sure what the requirements is to be on Dr K, but since your in the digital space maybe he could help you out or lead you in the right direction who knows what can come it of it. All the best Tom, we’ll get through this one step at a time, sometimes backwards. But as long as we’re intentional about moving forward
It's been a hot minute! Hope you guys have been well. Forgive me for the downer video, i really just needed to vent. I also need to thank all our patrons and long time viewers for supporting this channel. I sincerely apologise for being MIA. My brain must of short circuited or something, where I couldn't even look at my youtube channel, let alone replying to people. Anyways after a week of filming this video, I definitely feel like things are starting up again slowly. I finally have color in my face after being paler than a vampire from a long Melbourne winter, and I'm doing lots of exercise, writing and introspection. I will be uploading videos regularly again, and begin the next era! See ya soon.
Much love,
Tom
Don't convince yourself that any drug will help you long term... psychedelics or prescription drugs will not fix you. If you take adhd medication, tolerance will take effect... Your brain will change in the opposite direction you desire and quitting will leave you in a worse hole. Amphetamines are bad. Wanting a magic pill to fix everything is your addictive side coming through.
I got forced into reality 2 months ago when drugs stopped helping. Any substance makes me panic now but I'm the happiest I've ever managed to be while sober. I've wanted to quit for a long time but never did without resistance until I was given a reason to never get high again.
I felt this on such a deep level! Big love to you Tom, I know you'll manage to pull through this! 💚
Own how you feel Tom! We in it together. One for all, all for one! Desires are desires, “this is how im feeling and its fucking awesome!” Instead of resisting the desire just be like, yeah, this is it . Anyway! Try mantra maybe? Baba nam kevalam, meditate, kiirtan, all is good, everything is fine. Stop trying to fix things and rest in being, whatever is needed out of the moment, serve others. It’s all a learning journey. Don’t bummer yourself down from what the mind thinks it is going to be. God has a big plan for you, all of us.
Ps i almost ate a plectrum writing this, eating pepper n salt cashews
Much Love,
Also try a sattvic vegetarian diet for a week, see how you feel 😺
Do some asanas
Kiirtan
Meditation
Switch it up
Sadness is ok, energy that needs expression 💫
Baba nam kevalam
Love is all there is
how much of this do you think is based on the quality of the collective? I along with many I know along these similar paths spiritually specific, are in this same phase. I wonder if this common revisiting of old self aspects is in a way a collective shedding of such. to go back and close the chapter of such I suppose. and I dont at all mean. subjugating the blame like "its cause the world sucks", I simply just see the patterns here, as im going through the same, as well as others I know in the same life paths, and it hit us at the same time
hi, ont think you'r good again... You are like you are.Just accept a lot o things on our person, it's the real way o life, it's called "sagesse" in french. I am 36, 5 years really down and just become to realize a lot o things, i think its like 12-18, or 40 crisis...
Some people are active, some are worker, others like me (...and you i guess) are melancholic but world need all this stuff, for balance. thinking a lot makes us tired and depressed, but makes us and others improve.
Mate, don’t be hard on yourself. I am a young man (17 years of age) and the mental lessons I’ve learnt from this channel could last 4 lifetimes. I also have diagnosed adhd so I get where you’re coming from with the weed. People like us have addictive personalities so it’s easy of us to fall back in the loop of depending on weed to perform. You have travelled the world doing what you love and have opened the eyes of millions. You should be proud of yourself, you are what I aspire to be as a man.
❤️ 🙏
Do you also have trouble concentrating when doing boring tasks? I get bored so quickly that there were occurences where i went home in middle of boring 9-5 shifts because i couldnt hold it anymore looking at the watch and seeing that i still have hours and hours to work while the others seem so unbothered as if they werent doing the same boring garbage job like me. I also am the only one in my friend group who is against playing cards or board games when they suggest it because it doesnt stimulate me, its so slow paced and unspectacular. Maybe this hasnt to do with adhd but i also have a hars time concentrating on many things and tend to overthink
@@oranges557I know exactly what you're taking about and unless you do something about it, you'll always feel like that. What I did was work towards being a Scientist, this enabled me to put the overthinking part of me to good use as well as providing challenging stimulation. As for the playing cards and board games, I felt exactly the same. This was until I realised that although the games are boring, it's about people connecting. That's the real reason behind doing things like that, not the game itself. So my overall advice is, accept what you are and change your environment to appeal to what you are.
Listen to a bunch of Elliott Smith, you will spunk up in no time! @@yourmatetom
It's been a long time tom. I know what it's like to need to step away from this to develop yourself. We're all rooting for you.
Love ya both
You're a legend Quentin!
No way
Quentin the GOAT
Quentin really is goated for truly caring about himself and his mental health and doing what is right for him despite any pressure. thats awesome
It seems like everyone right now is going through struggles, it’s like god is really putting us all to the test right now. I’ve been battling alcohol addiction, losing family, losing my girlfriend/best friend of 5 years. It’s been rough. It’s time for us all to pick up the pieces together and rebuild. I almost feel like it’s now or never to get your bs sorted out. I’m here for you Tom, pray on it, meditate on it you will get through brother. ☀️
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Pls read James 1:13 before saying God is testing you pls pls . 😢😢😢
Stop saying God this or that and blame yourself and everyone around you apart form those being abused daily cause they didn't choose to be around you skum
@@saltmaster8927nah that’s okay
@@yok-fk5li nah we choose to make things worse on badness for attention
You're not alone Tom. Trust. Going through it right now myself. Hold on to your wife, you're blessed to have a wife who is supporting you so greatly despite your situation. I hope you find steady waters in your life soon. You're not alone.
You probably won’t read this, but you’re not alone dude. If you’ve been feeling great for a long time it is only right for you to feel depressed for (not as long) but a while… what goes up must come down. The opposite of down is up therefore it MUST go back up these are the laws of life the laws of the universe. It will happen when least expected one day you will wake up and be stronger than ever. Then eventually you will drop back down. But as I said it will always come back. The universe does not allow for eternal happiness or eternal depression. We live in the combination of opposites.
Absolutely agree! Without suffering, there would be no happiness.
Ying and Yang it’s a certainty
Dreams, as we all know, are very queer things: some parts are presented with appalling vividness, with details
worked up with the elaborate finish of jewellery, while others one gallops through, as it were, without noticing
them at all, as, for instance, through space and time. Dreams seem to be spurred on not by reason but by desire,
not by the head but by the heart, and yet what complicated tricks my reason has played sometimes in dreams,
what utterly incomprehensible things happen to it!
Youre right in a way but what i feel you really saying is that emotion does not have to define who you are or in extend even your mood. You can feel down to a great extend and recognice and accept it as a feeling an not 'who you are'. That being said, i have not been able to master this fully. Sometimes time just needs to pass.
I had another thought. If you read the gulag Archipelago (and yes i did need to c/p that) itll show that people even i the the worst of times (certinly worse than ours) had an abillity to laugh. So It's not your sourrondings to a great extend. It's litterally freeing yourself from giving a fuck every day when you don't absolutely have to. And when it's finally time, youll have the energy to fcking smash it!
I have enjoyed watching your channel throughout the years. I have been on my own plant medicine journey and what struck me about this video and really all of your videos is how honest and vulnerable you are. I give you so much respect and support. You have it together more than you realize. Hope we cross paths one day. Stay cool brother.
I feel you mate. Turning 31 tomorrow and been sobbing 3 times a day for the past month. Very frustrating not to have a clear explanation for my distress. Finding community support has been hard and also very helpful.
Your wife sounds amazing. Hang in there! Love from France ❤️
ive been depressed for years, ive done nothing for years. you are doing better than you give yourself credit for, you are not alone and you arent less vaulable than anyone else. youve spred possitivity and you deserve peace. get well brother
Your poem was fantastic. It spoke to me, almost taking me right back to how my depression felt at age 18-20. I accessed thoughts and feelings I didn't even know I still could and hadnt seen for years.
Good luck brother, been following your channels for years.
Hey Tom, sending you Love and Life from the African continent! You have been an inspiration to so many. May the Infinite guide and hold you during this trying time. You've got this!!! 💫
Heyy I am also from Africa and my name is also Tom😂
@@tom-juniorbezuidenhout5841
Hey Tom from Africa... Where are you from?
Pretoria South Africa. You guys should come visit 😂
@@tom-juniorbezuidenhout5841 Same here... We should kuier.
Love ya mate, sharing vulnerability is such a gift… it makes others feel less alone… which as you know all too well right now, is so important
I literally feel everything you said in this man. Finally somebody talking about real shit. You’re the man tho homie keep your head up. I appreciate this video a lot you help a lot of people man
This is weirdly relatable man. I just uploaded a similar video to my channel a week ago. Nice to see another auzzie talking openly about their mental health on UA-cam
Oh hey brother, love your vids. Sorry to hear about your struggles. Weird synchronicity.
Wishing you all the best mate ❤
Peace and love from Canada Tom. Backsliding does not mean you've lost progress and lessons previously learned are still valuable, even if our present conditions are not favourable or what we'd like our lives to be. The good times in life prepare us for these kinds of times. Sharing your difficulties does not make you a bitch at all and you show commendable strength talking about them publicly like this when many people never even do so privately. Good luck on your path and I hope for goodness along your way. 🙏
bro you don’t know how much i relate to this right now and the past couple years. we all got this 🙏❤️
Your story gets a standing ovation! The courage and humility to tell your truth resonates with more people than you might realize! I’m one of them! Thank you!
Thanks to my mycologist for introducing to me Microdosing when no medication worked on my anxiety and depression. my life has Greatly changed for the best
She got psychxdelics and also delivar
She on lnst@gram
@huntartripz
Tom, it's been a long time since I've checked in with your channel but thankful to see this upload. I'm 30 now, also married and moving in with my own parents now. It can be really crushing and depressing to start from Year 0 again. I have fairly severe depression and addiction issues, which have gotten the better of me lately. We'll start again but with gained knowledge-- we just need to embody that knowledge and wisdom rather than lock it away. Best of luck to you, brother. We're gonna make it.
Hang in there Tom! You inspire us all, through both your good times and bad.
Thanks for this mate. What you say ressonates with me and shows me there are others just like me out there who are going through very similar situation.
I believe we are just a the bottom of our wave and we need to persevere through these dark times and so shall the sun come out again with energies being boosted. I think one the most valuable things I learnt is to be humble in both good and bad situations as we live in the world of duality and because of this we will experience both sides to life. We need to be grateful and humble during the good times, remembering the bad times, as well being strong and never giving up in the bad times as we can always keep in mind that good times will have its chance again. The only one who determines accessing these good times in the end is ourselves though, so once again, we can never give up and from my favourite quote from a movie called "Meet the robinsons" that I watched as a kid, we got to KEEP MOVING FORWARD!
Once you are a prisoner in your own mind, that's when it truly becomes dark. Fight back and take full control of your mental as this is your soul right. Freedom starts within!
This video so relatable man. As a 26 year old I always stayed positive on manifesting my dreams but especially recently everything in my life has collapsed and this isn’t the first time it’s happened. I’m pretty much given up and just trying to get an ordinary job that pays well preferably not one I hate but we’ll see. Weed, meditation and music are the main things really helping me and keeping me in a good space and I only smoke when I can get it since I go through times where I’m broke and don’t smoke it for a sometimes weeks which isn’t a problem but a bit annoying and makes things harder than usual. Anyways man I wish you nothing but the best and keep up the YT grind and you’ll probs make some good money 😊
manifesting isn’t real. you have some deep things you must accept. i can feel you are scared.
@@LostTemplate lol what are you waffling about 🤣 🤡 yeah I’m so “scared” 🥱 you really are lost….
@@_XYZ__ aweeh. emoji spamming and aggression…classic.
it does get better just so ya know brother. stick in there kiddo! 🫶
@@LostTemplate nice reflection of yourself 🤣 cuz that’s what all this is. A reflection of your delusions and insecurities.
Anyways I’m done with you and your negativity and BS 🥱. Whatever helps you sleep at night 🤷♂️ not gonna waste anymore of my precious energy 👋
@@LostTemplate talm bout “manifesting isn’t real” & then coming off as some phony psychic with the “I can feel you’re scared” lol of course bro didn’t care for that. Life is full of magic, hope you can experience it for yourself one day.
Thank you for putting yourself out there Tom. I look up to you and Jarrad alot and you guys have changed my life for the better so to hear you talk about being in such a similar mental position right now means a lot and makes me feel a little less alone.
I deeply resonate with everything you’ve said in this video Tom almost word for word it brings a little solace to know your not alone in this crazy existence. Hope you can catch a breath of fresh air soon.
Going through something really similar here. You are not alone and love to see how this vulnerability makes us connect and show up for each other. Much love.
Depression is rough, I'm going through some shit now too, i wish everyone here luck, health and happiness, you are gonna be alright ❤
Keep going bro iv watched your channel on and off your a good guy bro we all have our ups and downs rebuild yourself I know how it is it’s difficult some times bro u have the power 🙏🏼
Hang in there... A lot of us are going through something similar so you're not alone at all.. Thank you for making this video and I hope you feel better mate.
I just want to tell you that I am 34 years old, and I have been watching your videos for several years straight. From the beginning of your journey that experienced a spiritual transformation, personal development and growth and in general, you know, in your video that you are in South America doing ayoaska, that you return to the reality of human beings, this is the most exciting moment that I have watched in all your videos, exciting that every time I return to receive inspiration for life, I return to the video your. I'm in tears and I'm just happy that there are people like you in the universe. You are an amazing, special, powerful person. You are all one big heart. You are all one big vibration that resonates so strongly that you break and shatter energy waves.
Thank you for being so vulnerable and courageous in sharing this. I resonate with you so deeply man, I am also 31 and feeling the exact same way. I have found some guidance and relief through psychedelics but it still doesn't feel like it's enough. Having a good dr is super key and I fortunately do have a very caring family dr but she referred me to a specialist and it's been 6 weeks with no word of when I'll actually be able to see them and try to find a resolution. I'm so grateful for the support I have from my friends and family but man has it been difficult. Really appreciate you and wishing you all the best brother, I know we'll get through this and be better off for it, just gotta keep trying our best. Much love 🤍🙏🏻
Man, thanks for making this video. You’re not alone, we love you. Everything will be great, everything IS great.
Hey Tom, I completely feel for ya man, i myself have been struggling years an years with this exact same feeling. My situation started super young. Ever since i seen you on youtube these last few years i decided to get into psychedelics and with your guidance videos its really helped me learn more about myself, Something i was truly not wanting to do but really needed too. I thank you for good spirit. I know everything is rough but us fans are here to support you as much as you supported us through the years. Thank you
(From Tucson Az)
I have always enjoyed your channel tom, and I'm glad you're still making videos. They are like a journal of our lives. I was following you back when I had a psychedelic Channel and always appreciated your contributions
Its strong and important that you admit whats going on in your life at the moment. Keep it up brother you will get through this!!
Hey Tom, you are so strong❤
Don’t be so hard on yourself, you have experienced bad things in the past, of course you are depressed.
I also just got a adhd diagnosis here some months ago, and I’m 21. It’s so hard living with adhd undiagnosed and I hope you get better like me with the meds.
I think it’s so great you make this video, there needs to be shed more lights on mental disorders, it should not be a tabu.❤
Love your channel! Wishing you healing.
The whole video really resonates with me
I know it’s too late for this to be seen but I swear ever since I found your channel I always saw myself in you. Just all the same character traits and similar experiences and ways of thinking, and during my psychedelic phase it was intensified so much so that your face even started to look like mine. I come across it again couple years later with yet again the exact same feeling, at the exact same time as I was thinking about my life and all the same points. Straight up synchronised lives
I’m with you brother. Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable. I guarantee you many of us can relate, and it’s nice to know you’re not the only one feeling this way. All I can suggest is to maintain a faith, and get some momentum going in a direction you can feel better about. Peace and love, mate !
His mind and heart were flooded with extraordinary light; all torment, all doubt, all anxieties were relieved at once, resolved in a kind of lofty calm, full of serene, harmonious joy and hope, full of understanding and the knowledge of the ultimate cause of things.
Youre a light Tom. Thanks for existing. Been appreciating you for a long time. Hard times also on me since quite a while now.
Much love and may we all be well ❣️
Tom, we’re with you. Take as long as you need to power up and come back strong as ever to battle the algorithm once again with top notch content. You know what’s funny? Even you talking “depressingly” was such a treat to watch. Whenever you express yourself you’re always effortlessly dropping nuggets of wisdom, truth, and insight. And that’s always a treat to take in, whether you’re talking about something positive, neutral, or negative. I honestly don’t think depression is negative but it can feel negative. It weighs the mind down into modes of thinking where we start to believe that things will not get better. Mate, just know that that’s a filter that’s cast over our brain right now. It doesn’t represent the truth. I know it’s hard to be grateful and see the good in life when this filter’s present, but just know that you’re a marvellous individual, in depression and in full strength and everything in between. I’m grateful that you come out with content where you just express yourself in a raw and vulnerable way. Ironically, it’s empowering because it lets the rest of us know that it’s okay to have these feelings arise. That we’ll all deal with depression at one point. And for those people who are never gonna experience it to a great degree, bless you. Anyway, you’re a badass for posting this and letting us know that even when kicked down by depression you can still come out with a kick ass video. Patiently waiting for your next one, take as much time as you want. Love and light my mate Tom ❤️ 💡
I hear you man best of luck, it's great that you can be honest with yourself, that will take you far even if it's hard to do sometimes
Related incredibly well to this video and when i struggle i try to stop looking outward for approval and go back to the things that inspired me.
dude you sharing this helped me so much. im almost in the same place right now. I dont have anything helpful to offer. just know that youre not alone with this. cheers from germany
Your most honest video to date and I really appreciate it! ❤
Tom everything you described in this video is pretty much what I've been going through for the past few months or year even. When I saw you say how you struggled with it I thought to myself well if even Tom has these struggles despite his accomplishments, I'm fucked:) but this morning I feel more like saying thank you for uploading this because it just goes to show even people you look up to struggle too. Wish they didn't, wish nobody had to struggle. I don't feel like a well functioning member of society at times and can be quite hard on myself. I've always had this small bit of hope somewhere in me and knowledge that it will pass as it always does. Harser to see sometimes but ye
Viktor Frankl believed that humans are motivated by something called a “will to meaning,” which equates to a desire to find meaning in life. He argued that life can have meaning even in the most miserable of circumstances, and that the motivation for living comes from finding that meaning. Taking it a step further, Frankl wrote: “Everything can be taken from a man but one thing, the last of the human freedoms, to choose one’s attitude in any given set of circumstances.”
This is exactly how I feel and I’m so glad you made this video, helped me a lot
Sorry for the struggles Tom - you've got a a great wife and lots of support from your fans always. Just keep moving - go through the motions even if you don't feel like it!
Hey Tom.
Ive been watching you since 2016 andjust want to tell you how much of a positive impact you had on people ALL over the world.
I also struggle with depression and weed addiction. You make our lifes better😊
So great that you are being honest.
Tom thanks for sharing , mate . Very courageous and real of you.
These "old" character traits aren't something to eliminate and these behaviors and addictions were coping mechanisms for the pain. It shows itself because this part of you wants to be seen and felt, not eliminated. Pushing away makes it stronger . Sit down and feel that what you want to push away completely and be kind with it and with yourself. There is no way around it. No project or doing can make it go away. You have done so much over the last few years. You need time to integrate, self regulate and feel what is actually there. Not what should be there or should have been there by now. The mind tries to immediately make a story like shit I am a failure, nothing is happening. It's not doing nothing, it's honoring yourself and taking time. A fruit won't get ripe from someone shouting at it and judging it for not being ripe yet. There is timing for these things.
My humble opinion which comes from my humble experience which is too similar to yours not to comment .
Much love ❤
Damn haven’t seen you for years used to watch your videos religiously back in the day especially around 2015. Good to see you back
Thanks for sharing, Mate Tom!
Much love from Canada
Hey man, so refreshing to get a notification for a video from you. Currently in progress. Thanks again!
Love you Tom, it do be like that sometimes… You’re not alone, and hearing you helps me feel less alone. Thank you for being bold to share your heart and your voice ❤
Hi Tom,
When I was going through an existential crisis of my own (feelings of alienation and disconnect from normality). Your videos made me feel that there were people out there that I connect with. Your documentaries on psychedelics and vlogs with Jarrad were inspiring at the time.
One thing I've learned through martial arts is that we must train the body and the mind. Are you still practicing BJJ?
it may not be the answer but it may provide some relief and motivation. Wish you well.
Hello Tom. As someone who can relate to your struggles, I’d like you to know you’re not alone. Please stay strong brother. Much love.
whats up mate, im struggling with similar things myself at the moment, im happy to see you. Ive followed this channel for a long time and every once in a while when you pop up in my recommended it really is like seeing an old friend. Sending you good energy from Colombia :)
watched this fully thank you Tom
My mom always says I’m too hard on myself remain In the present cut ties with old thinking and just exist maybe this is your season of acceptance and finding yourself enough to sit alone and be at complete peace is a treasure
❤❤❤❤ sending you all the love your way Tom! Thanks for sharing
Love your content for a long time tom! Stay strong
Man I just a few weeks ago found Jared’s cartoons and your channel too.. ya seem pretty relatable and idk just down to earth soo hope you feel better…. Hope you continue to make more videos because I think you have a bunch a folks here for it mate! Chin up keep moving forward it’ll come together. I need to listen to my own advice 😂
Thank your for sharing! We are always at battle with self, chess match with ourselves that will take us through the ups and downs of life. Express all feelings to be let go so a new space can open up of infinite limitless opportunities!
I liked your poem. It's a more precise expression than what I could have come up with. Hopefully all goes well, and you find your momentum again.
Been a while since I last watched this, hope you are feeling better Tom. Its important you don't create such a strict harsh judgement on yourself as you navigate life. You've done a good job transitioning from being in the feminine learning stage of your life that was filled of exploration of the past and who you are through various plants but it seems you have got the masculine aspect all wrong here and have overdone what you feel is masculine through whatever conditioning you have picked up. You are not doing as bad as you think, and you will be all the more a person once you get through this seemingly dark stage of your life as you always have, so remember that and truly hold an optimistic viewpoint as to not be stuck hopeless during this time. Faster you remember your true nature the faster you will come back and bring joy to the world as you had done previously. Much love Tom. Hope to see you smiling on here again.
Can't save anyone from themselves, but this helped me... Passion is life! Find things you are truly passionate about and just enjoy them. Get out of your own way, don't overthink it and the best things in life are simple.
Thanks for posting this. Keep creating mate!
You got it brother keep pusing sending you all the love , you pushed me to do aya in my darkest time and changed my life . This shall pass as well .
God bless you man !
Thanks for the upload. It's helping me cope with my own stuff. I hope you can keep riding this wave out of the darkness. A flower won't bloom before it's season and will eventually fade. The roots are born into the ground and that's where they stay until they rot.
Hey mate saw your video and love your content.
First of all thanks for sharing and what strengh and currage it takes to be open about it.
I see alot of what you going through in myself.
The hardest part can be the part where we have to lift ourselves up and be our own shoulder, clap on the back and encouragement. But I know you can do it. Keep walking man, you are an inspiration ❤
When one of us struggles, we all do my brother. Stay strong. I am on a mushroom trip right this second. Very first one ever, and i am not seeing visuals, but I feel open. I'm typing this comment freely. I am not thinking about a lot, but please know you are the man, and you will be okay. I am 33, but always want to feel 22, we can't be what we were, but have so much power to be more
The stuff you say at 1:03 about depression and how it comes and goes, I feel that one. I really don't know how to help you, I just wanna say I feel you.
Love from the states mate!! I hope you can find a way to get diagnosed that doesnt cost an obscene amount. love your videos, its been so cool growing myself and having your content over the years. youre not alone man!
Its actually so brave to get vulnerable in front of such a big audience. In front of the whole world! I felt it all. Was once addicted to w33d and it was Jesus who healed me. I just asked him, I knew I couldn't do it on my own. He did it in just one day!! I'll never forget that day... It's something supernatural when you feel like something in you almost forces you to light up that joint yet He (not less supernatural lol!) gently but strongly ensured you stay away from that. I cant put that into words but I'm beyond grateful. I remember watching your podcast with Steven Bancarz and thought back then... Jesus has a plan for this guy. Sending you lots of love brother. You are never alone.
Thank you for sharing your heart and poetry! It’s good to share things like this because others can relate to your journey. It’s been hard the past few years what the world experienced caused so much isolation and depression but there is a silver lining! You have a wonderful support group on UA-cam and a wife that is your rock. I hope you find the aha moment and break through the darkness 🙏🏽
In Mexican circles we have something called a “platica” which means you talk it out and do a “limpia” that might be what can help you vs medication which will only suppress your creativity.
Big Thank you for being so open about your current state I believe you already know how many people can relate to this 🤲🏾
As I’m also in the middle of a similar struggle I’m not going to pretend to have the answers.
I just want to remind you that you’re not alone in this.
We are not alone.
You’ll get through this my man ❤
Thank you for this video. It helped me feel not alone. ❤
Holy shit you are literally describing my whole life and how I feel right now, I'm 35, got married at 30, got 2 kids now since marriage, my Uruguayan mother was the same with pills and ADHD, the pot plant analogy was spot on and I really feel that, what's your background tom ? When I went to Uruguay as a child I felt like I was at home, I've never felt like that since, I've struggled with addiction myself and I'm currently addicted to opiates from a back injury from tiling, my wife supports me and I feel like a worthless bitch tbh, I've only recently got over not wanting to be alive but now I don't know wtf to do, having to kids that look up to you when you hate yourself is really fucked up, I appreciate your honesty, I hope you get better, sending love and peace, I hope you find guidance brother ❤ vamos arriba
it‘s extremely impressive you are sharing this, many people hide their whole life. thank you, making me feel not alone with depression ❤
Hey Tom as a fellow Aussie I fully understand how you feel when in this country I feel very similar
This video is real! Very relatable,Thank you
I hope we all find the peace and purpose we are seeking 🩵
I’m 43 and had (self-diagnosed) depression for most of my adult life, that affected my marriage and relationships and work as well. So I feel you, brother. Sending you love.
A few things came to mind as I watched this:
1. Jim Carrey saying depression is the body saying “fuck you, I don’t want to play this character anymore.” (it’s a youtube clip.) This rings true for me, in hindsight. Depression may be Life’s signal that something needs to change, drastically.
2. Resist and it will persist.
3. I’ve done the psychedelics and personal development etc. Then I spent 7 days in darkness alone. What I “saw” in myself, with all distractions & addictions stripped away, was powerful. I still have depressive tendencies (waking up in the morning as you describe), but can now talk myself out of it more effectively, because of that context.
It's just unreal to listen to you. I don't know which time i am already commenting this, but when you speak it's like listening to my spiritual brother. I resonate right to the point with so much you say. Then you said about Latinamerica. How you want to meet your tribe and this is what i am personally up to now, after struggling so much being in one place, going through crazy ups and downs all the time, i am flying to Mexico with almost no money in my pocket next month. As you say, you've got to make that move even if you are not ready.
All the best to you mate!
This hits close to home. After years of putting it off, I've finally gone through the steps and got a therapist, and even though I've only been once so far, it feels like one of the best decisions of the last years. Been following this channel for a long time and you always felt super relatable to me. Hope we'll do better soon!
I’m a 32 year old man who often struggles with the same things you mentioned. I wish you and anyone else struggling with this to beat this! I think having kids is a key to a happy adult life but that’s a topic for a personal talk
Thanks to my mycologist for introducing to me Microdosing when no medication worked on my anxiety and depression. my life has Greatly changed for the best
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Hey Tom I appreciate your latest video on depression. I have been dealing with all the same shit. Obviously different, but I have been having the same feelings. I think a lot of people are going through this right now. Like A LOT. I've talked to a lot of people and I think we are all struggling and feeling the energy of disparity in the world right now. You're not alone man! Nature loves courage, keep on going!
You've touched people's hearts, just by being yourself. It simply also is, the only thing we can do. ❤
Glad you're back Tom ❤
Brother, just know you are loved and appreciated by us 💕
im 24 and ive always loved your content bro from way back, youre an awesome dude, much love ❤
I'm 30 and starting my life over from scratch. There's nothing wrong with that. When everything falls apart, use it to your advantage. Just keep going. You're not alone.
You will overcome whether you are on screen or not, and we believe in you remember everything is going to be ok. We are all connected. Remember everything will be ok, you know this you've seen this, you understand this. Don't take all that you have accomplished for granted. You have done so much good to overshadow your positive energy with self-doubt. Stay strong my brother 🙏 sending my positive vibrations your way ❤
I love your poem! Feel perhaps that depression is normal to a certain degree. If we were to live to in one continuously happy phase, would we even class anything as happy because we’d have no baseline. Try not be too hard on yourself. This you already know of course. It’s frustrating wanting and knowing you’re capable of progress, but feeling you’re making slow progress. Just the fact you’re aware of wanting progress, is a blessing. I feel it’s impossible to talk yourself out of a depressive time… it’s so hard. It always does pass, like you say. Just like a scary night, in the morning it’s all completely evaporated. Hope you are feeling great ASAP!
Going through a similar situation myself Tom but ultimately ADHD won't ever stop you man you're already well on ya way to a massively successful career and whatever happens you're blessed to live in such a beautiful place with a great family and wife man great things are coming for you ;)
I've felt so similar to how you expressed yourself in this video. Don't give up. Depression is a real bitch, but you're a strong soul, Tom. You know what you need to do... start with baby steps. Sending much love ❤
So relatable... it's like I can function so well for a period of time then the music turns off for a while. Constant ebb and flow my whole life. Cold baths are working for me but i expect the crash to happen at some point. Meds can help with adhd but even just being diagnosed and understanding that it is part of you and reading / researching adhd to understand yourself better helps so much. You have this following because you are a great person, don't forget to count your wins. No one is perfect all the time ❤
So crazy how relatable your struggle and thought processes is to mine as I’m dealing with the same shit. I’ve always felt connected to you in a sense soul wise. I’m not sure what the requirements is to be on Dr K, but since your in the digital space maybe he could help you out or lead you in the right direction who knows what can come it of it. All the best Tom, we’ll get through this one step at a time, sometimes backwards. But as long as we’re intentional about moving forward