If Joe had gulped those pills in his lonely isolation cell, the world would have lost one hell of a great storyteller. My God, but this guy has a gift. I'm constantly tuning in, telling myself I'm just going to watch a minute or two, and then sitting rapt while he weaves his latest tale. It's not just the vivid way he relates his stories, but the honesty of it. It's like listening to the frantic, fevered chatter of another's inner thoughts. Even the most prosaic, day-in-the-life kind of narrative becomes utterly spellbinding. I know plenty of professional storytellers who don't do it nearly as well.
Yea, I really like this guy...but thinkin of all the sympathy I can percieve he has from those videos it's like I wonder how he was in jail...must be a nice guy to share cell with.
No. Hes an idiot that thinks 14 jail accessible seroqul pills is lethal which is a joke. He would sleep for a day and wake up drowsy I was prescribed highest dose for years and trust me, suicide with those pills alone, esp fucking 14 low dose ones, is completely impossible
@joel gautreau It also depends on your weight, height, body mass, etc. Not everybody reacts the same... There are people who could have a fatal reaction to one or two. I use to be prescribed it. The first time I took it (100 mg)... I was exactly like Joe acted out. But, also out of my mind, confused, and paranoid. Had I taken even 4 or 5 I most likely would have o.d'd...
This one is powerful Joe! You chose life and you chose wisely. And now look at you! Married to a beautiful woman and a whole new world ahead of you. You beat the devil, literally, and you came out on top. God bless you and keep you.
Douglas Jones Meh, personally not Relegious, tend to keep that stuff out. But he did do something great. It’s amazing hearing his stories. I’m a New Sub and I feel he is a great man
Joe, I've got to admit, this video made me a little misty eyed. I have considered taking my life a few times, for various reasons. Even tried once and chickened out and cut the knot last minute. But what you said in this video at 33:30 really touched me man. " I will not have people remembering me as nothing. " That really spoke to me. I will turn 30 in 2 weeks, and so far I haven't accomplished much. But I have hope, and you've reminded me that I'm more than just a fuck up. Thanks man. I'm really glad you didnt take your life, and I'm glad you made this channel.
D Daley Death is that dude! I miss grizzy though, he’s hilarious. Joe is great too, their storytelling is different but both creators are great. You ever seen Badger? He’s great too.
Jeez Joe! The end of this is a tear jerker... I love listening to your story, man! You're funny af and really insightful! Some of this stuff can inspire people not to make bad choices! Proud of you, dude!
You know Joe, I’m at a pretty low place myself I’ve been here for a while and your stories help me tip the odds to the positive side of a negative decision thank you for all that you’re doing man
im not even suicidal anymore but this was super inspiring. i wish there was a video like this out there for me to watch in 2017 but im glad youre alive and im glad im doing fine
Joe, your storytelling skills, coupled with your sense of pacing when you edit, can make me laugh myself sick, or tear up for you, like I did here. The suspense, the despair, the internal conflict, the reversals of fortune... this was a forty-minute Michael Mann thriller made by one dude, in a chair, maximizing his tech to tighten the screws until that final moment. They used to call radio serials "theatre of the mind," and I think you may be reinventing that, via your Prison Story series. Incredible work, brother. I'm glad you're still with us.
I had tears running down my face at the end of the video, especially when you said "Make the most of everyday". Joe, you really are such a gift to the world man, you're struck so much inspiration in not only my hearts, but millions around the world, and I'm so grateful that I've come across your videos. Thank you for all you do, APS army for life.
I've never gotten into serious trouble before, in fact I'm only 15 and kinda the perfect student but I love listening to your prison stories. It's easy to judge others before you get to know them but what I want to know is what changed in your mentality which helped you get through the rest of you sentence because you say you were depressed in the beginning.
Young man or lady, keep doing what you're doing. Don't give in to peer pressure. I did and I wasted alot of years of my life. Not in prison but I turned into an alcoholic. Finally quit in 08 thank God. Kids may try to push you into something. Trust me when you get out of school and into you 20's or 30's you'll look back and be so thankful that you chose the right path. There's not to many kids out there in todays world that can say that they are doing what your doing. I don't even Know you but I can honestly say that I'm proud of you. I'm sure your family is too. Keep it up. In a few years you'll be glad you did.
As long as u keep it by being interested, and not ending up in prison its ok. Youre 15. Dont throw away your youth, like a lot of us did, because you cant buy that back. Even if ure a billionaire, u cant get that back.
I can't believe you ever thought of yourself as nothing Joe. You are such a talented guy.. Such a character.. I'm glad you held on to life.. and I hope that now you will enjoy it and realize what Great guy u are.
I own my own swimming pool company in AZ and am on the road a lot and have your videos on play all day long! I am to a ex convict and only did 1.5 years but started on a 2 yard and ended on a 5 yard. Went in when I was 18 and out when I was 20 and never went back. Thanks for awesome UA-cam content keep em coming big joe! I’m 28 now so it’s been 10 years since my conviction.
angie payne thank you! A wise women once told me “the character of a man isn’t determined by how he falls but solely on how he gets up!” I’m sorry you are having pool issues if I was near I would fix it for you for free for being apart of the APS army. Where is the pipe broken before or after the pump?
I just want to say Joe, I'm glad ya didn't go down that road. I've been watching you for awhile now and i know this world is better off with you in it than not. It's a hopeless feeling to feel like that, I've been in that place and it's cold and dark and full of rot and dispare. I think this is one of the best episodes I've seen you do. I could see it in your eyes and hag to hold back years cuz I know it brought you back to that cold, dark place. Thanks for keeping it real. Aps army for life. A true fan.
This hit me in a deep and personal way. I wasn’t in prison in the literal way that you were but I had been married to a man who abused me for over 20 years. When I finally left for good and I realized that I had no life skills, no money and all my socialite friends had turned their backs on me ( because his family had the wealth and my family was addicts who had no way of helping themselves or me) I hit rock bottom. I spent days alone, crying, feeling scared with no sense of direction at all. I couldn’t eat, sleep or function. All my “privileges” taken, I was stripped bare. I WANTED to die. My life was over. I found myself with a rope around my neck, leaning into the oblivion, almost free. I realized that was exactly what everyone expected me to do. The girl with nobody, reduced to nothing, snuffed herself off. I checked myself into a mental health hospital, and changed my mind. That was almost two years ago. I started in a 500 square foot shit hole. Than I met a boy we hit it off, bigger apartment, now a house. I started a small business, it’s doing really good and all those people who said that I was nothing… They don’t know shit.
Matthew 25:29 For to everyone who has, more will be given, and he will have abundance; but from from him who does not have, even what he has will be taken away. Matt.25:29 nkjv.
I’ve been watching your vids since the very beginning Joe and I’ve seen your channel change so much in that time. I’m happy that you shared this story, I am even happier that you chose life! One love brother!
Suicidal thoughts pop into my head quite often. And today it was of the worst. Watching this video helped enlighten me. And nick some sense into me. Thank you joe. Thank you.
Your story telling skills are phenomenal. I was only gonna skip thru this and get the outcome but found myself listening from work ,over the freeway , to home, and still sat in the parking lot till you were done. It was like I was there witnessing everything going down. I could see the crazy guy , the guards, the GED class room filled with gang members politicking. Your stories are as vivid as watching a motion picture. Dude you got talent.
Wow Joe very inspiring story im proud of you man not many in that position would've done that. Great storytelling man and your one of my biggest go to when things like this are going on in my life i appreciate evrything you've done not only for me and my family but for the entire APS army your our rock the one we turn to in hard times. Your like a long lost brother I never had man. Awesome work on everything and from my heart thank you.
I came to this channel for the prison cooking, which I am fascinated with, but I began to wonder about you, and how a former prisoner became a UA-camr. This video is a great story and has answered a lot of my questions. Good for you for reaching a turning point in your life. Know that you are helping many people with your videos, some who have been to prison, and some who are on the road to prison. Your videos will help both groups, and may even help those who are on that road to turn back. Great video!
Hi Joe,I hope you and your wife are well? And thanks for another great upload! I hated my 11yrs jail it felt like I was never gonna get out for the 1st few yrs! And I had a gf of 6 yrs at the time that stood by me all throughout my sentence,boy it made me ill with paranoia wondering if she cheating,mind playing tricks etc. Been out 8 yrs now and clean 10. Jamie (UK England)
Sometimes, tossing yourself in harms way and creating unnecessary trouble is better then dealing with the real internal issues going on inside. Even a negative distraction is still a distraction. I've been there Joe.
Joe, I have to tell ya that I agree 100% with the folks who say you have a gift. You are a natural story teller who has the ability to make your listener feel like they're right there with you, seeing things happen. Not many people can do this well, and I'm glad to see that you chose the path of life because your stories have an effect on people. Hell, I've been a CO for 20 years (working with both adults and juveniles) and you even brought my cynical, jaded heart to the verge of tears with this one. Keep on doing videos like this from time to time. I watch the funny stuff and enjoy it a LOT, but now that you have the large audience I hope you continue to mix it up and slip in something that has meaning (like this one did). Respect from the OTHER side of the bars...
The point isn't if the Seroquil's would've killed him or not. The pills were a loaded gun with blank bullets, but Joe didn't know they were blanks. The point is, he chose to live & see the silver lining of he could only improve from where he is, instead of ending it. If he had chose the path of ending it & failed he would've been completely demoralized; he would've primarily focused on searching for another suicide method other than improving himself. Choosing the path of self help was significant in his life, the lethality of the pills is pretty irrelevant.
This was one of the deepest, most personal of all the APS vids. Thanks for sharing, Joe. Your words and actions inspire me. Keep going, dude. Make the most of everyday.
Nice cartoon Joe. You ever thought about, that by taken those pills off your cell mate, you may saved some one elses life aswell . Great video. God bless you.
Brother you survived the hard life to tell and inspire others who find themselves in the same or worst scenerio,you have a gift man? dont ever lose it you and you alone will prosper in all your endeavours and hopefully help many others lead by your example,,,,,Peace be with you
Thanks APS! Some much needed entertainment while dealing with this hurricane aftermath. Thoughts and prayers for all those still struggling to get through all this. Stay strong!
17:20 - 17:38 Haha Joe...that was slick! After saying many times "I was hoping and praying......" you slide in "As I was *hooping* and praying...." Made me definitely do a double take there! Wonder how many listeners caught that. Nice one!
I havent heard the seroquel shuffle since my cousin BIG DEZ passed away 7 years ago. Just hearing that brought me back to him and some crazy and funny ass memories... THANKS FOR THAT JOE! I FORGOT SOME OF THOSE MEMORIES! Have a blessed day and thanks again just for saying "seroquel shiffle" 😂🤣😂🤣❣😇☝️
Thank you Joe! I deal with those thoughts and depression pretty regularly because I’m a heroin addict and I’m always getting clean for a bit and then running and gunning again. Your channel with all its different content, especially the humor you add, really helps me see life in a better perspective. So I just wanted to say thank you for giving someone like me a little time out of myself, some good laughs but most of all, some hope for a better life awaiting me just over the horizon... I wish you and your friends and family nothing but the best!
Joe, You’re an incredible human being. This is why I watch your videos because you speak genuine to every single one of us and that speaks volumes. I am so great full you did not take your life and are here sharing these amazing stories. Stay strong Joe 💪🏻
Joe, you do have a gift and a ministry. It’s great to see you helping others and sharing your own mistakes in an humble, positive way. God bless you, and keep on that positive path. Billy
Hmmm Seroquel honestly is shite. Last time I took it I laid awake most of the night cuz my mucles kept contracting and relaxing with like 5 seconds intervals. And the moment I finally fell asleep I had a horrible lucid dream that messed my mind up for a good 1 to 1 1/2 days.
I'm so proud your still here. You have helped so many people. In person and just from watching your videos.. You are a true Blessing and you don't even know it.. God has you here for a reason... We Love You Joe.❤❤❤❤🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
Well you will learn more life lessons here with Joe than in your homework. However keep making good grades do what ya gotta do til you're done. Don't take it all as truth cause most of what you learn in school isn't truth and has zero to do with the real world!♡♡♡♡
My brother Joe,your story’s touch home for me a lot. I did 4 years,on a 12 year sentence . The way you narrate your stories somehow brings em to life for me and I’m sure everyone else..keep doing what you do. Let those guys incarcerated know their is hope on turning your life around and bringing something good to the table by sharing your prison experience.. I plan on doing something similar in the near future,and maybe we touch base again in my comments box.. thanks again,and keep em coming joe..
Im homeless again and been contemplating the same thing done plenty of time myself... And this spoke to me on a personal level today. Thank you man. Thank you for sharing that.
Good look bro I feel u im at my rock bottom baby mama trying to take my kids hit me for child support I'm Low key home less and top it all recovering heroin addict and Xanax. But u made it Ik it wasn't easy but thank u fam
Hang in there brotha, for people like us it takes rock bottom to bounce back even harder, in times like these we feel like NOONE understands or can relate, trust me I do man. Where there is a will there is a way, you need someone to talk to that can relate don't be scared to holler at me bro. Much love and better times on the horizon
@@derekdick6650 funny thing is bro I read thousands of comments daily and I don't say a word I've been watching Joe since he started and you've probably never even seen me comment but for some reason something told me to reach out to you today, it's Humanity bro sometimes you just have to give back, there was people who didn't know me from a hole in the wall that put things on the line for my success, I'm actually mentoring a guy in real life and nothing I can say or do can Veer him away from using, but I Don't Preach to him nor do I pass judgment, I just simply tell him whenever he's ready I will be there for him, I wish more people were as level-headed as you are just the simple fact of you reaching out and putting your feelings and situation in a public manner I can't help but respect you for it
@@derekdick6650 I know it sounds cliche but the first step is admitting you have a problem, and I am not a basic text thumper, nor am I affiliated with NA whatsoever but I'm the type to take pieces from everything and mold it to my tools for recovery. I could never do Narcotics Anonymous, a lot of people took it as a joke and I couldn't be around the constant relapse and the guys and girls that just went there to find a one night stand and could care less about if they were clean or not that wasn't conducive for me it was toxicso if you're similar to me in any way whatsoever just know it is possible to make it without the rooms, a wise guy once told me that if you want to get clean you go to AA and if you want to get laid you go to NA lmmfao
Man, Joe I feel you were ment to do this. If it wasn't for all the things you been threw you wouldn't have this channel. You had to go threw hell to make it to heaven.
This has to be the deepest video, or one such as this, that I have see thus far that you pour a lot of your feelings into. I really enjoy your videos. I find them to be comical, educational, and informative.
What a beautiful story, it should be an inspiration to us all whenever we face our darkness moments there is always a little Ray of Hope!!!! I am glad you live to tell the story you brought tears to my heart of Stone!!!!!!!!
I can totally relate to this. Not the situation specifically (because _boy_ that's specific) but sometimes you don't even realize you're lying until it comes out of your mouth and you have no idea _why_ you just did that because you _know_ you just made everything worse. Now you have to sit and deal with it so you try to justify it to yourself somehow.
I certainly can't say that I enjoy during the story but thank you for sharing it with us. It's a very personal story and I think people can relate to it on many many levels
Joe-- I'm rewatching this again, years later. I went thru a real rough patch and attempted to take my own life. I'm now in a long term relationship and have a son who is my world. If I had been successful, my fiance potentially and most likely, wouldn't of gotten sober because I've helped him to do that. He did some time inside due to drug charges. Fast forward 15 years and he is an amazing stepfather to my son and sober 5+ years. Our little family is unconventional but I'm so very lucky to have it. And my son is amazing, he has the biggest heart and plans to go into the military. My little family is the one thing I've truly done right in my life. I'm so thankful to hear your story. I'm so thankful you are here today. The work you do is much needed. Thank you.
I’ve been taking seroquel for a while since I’m “crazy” but really doesn’t mess with me much. Just calms me down so people who flip me off in traffic can continue to have a good day.
Glad you chose to keep going - the world would be less colorful without you! You have a real gift of telling your stories. I was supposed to go to sleep like an hour ago. instead I listened to your "Slick" and "Killer" and other crazy stories. Congrats on your GED, too!
Wow you poured your heart out in this video for all to see and hear. That was very brave of you. Your story is very inspirational. I'm glad and thankful that you decided to stay with us. 🙂
We all make mistakes man, I felt horrible the 5 years or so where I fucked up and ended up in prison. Non the less you seem like a good hearted dude, I'm glad to see that your doing much better these days. Much love man. Your videos remind why I never want to go back to those days.
Hey man I just wanna say I love your show. It makes me want to never end up in prison and realize how lucky I am not to have been caught up with drugs as I easily could have. It’s really cool how you use this outlet to share your story. Much love!
If Joe had gulped those pills in his lonely isolation cell, the world would have lost one hell of a great storyteller. My God, but this guy has a gift. I'm constantly tuning in, telling myself I'm just going to watch a minute or two, and then sitting rapt while he weaves his latest tale. It's not just the vivid way he relates his stories, but the honesty of it. It's like listening to the frantic, fevered chatter of another's inner thoughts. Even the most prosaic, day-in-the-life kind of narrative becomes utterly spellbinding. I know plenty of professional storytellers who don't do it nearly as well.
Mark LaFlamme agreed
Well said. Joe definitely has the art of story telling down.
Yea, I really like this guy...but thinkin of all the sympathy I can percieve he has from those videos it's like I wonder how he was in jail...must be a nice guy to share cell with.
No. Hes an idiot that thinks 14 jail accessible seroqul pills is lethal which is a joke. He would sleep for a day and wake up drowsy
I was prescribed highest dose for years and trust me, suicide with those pills alone, esp fucking 14 low dose ones, is completely impossible
@joel gautreau
It also depends on your weight, height, body mass, etc.
Not everybody reacts the same... There are people who could have a fatal reaction to one or two.
I use to be prescribed it. The first time I took it (100 mg)... I was exactly like Joe acted out. But, also out of my mind, confused, and paranoid.
Had I taken even 4 or 5 I most likely would have o.d'd...
I’m very glad that you are still here! You have a great personality and a great story teller. GOD bless you!
Love this guys videos
@PodGuy07 So?? He can't have a great personality, or be a great story teller?
Purity_games man take yo lame ass on somewhere then. You ain’t needed nor wanted here ✌🏾
It's unlikely he could've suicided with 14 pings of that stuff.
Not catch me outside in jail tho!!!
This one is powerful Joe! You chose life and you chose wisely. And now look at you! Married to a beautiful woman and a whole new world ahead of you. You beat the devil, literally, and you came out on top. God bless you and keep you.
Douglas Jones Meh, personally not Relegious, tend to keep that stuff out. But he did do something great. It’s amazing hearing his stories. I’m a New Sub and I feel he is a great man
I agree completely with one caveat. You beat it, but you haven’t conquered it. Only death conquers it. Keep fighting, keep being strong.
I agree with you 100% God bless him
Joe, I've got to admit, this video made me a little misty eyed. I have considered taking my life a few times, for various reasons. Even tried once and chickened out and cut the knot last minute.
But what you said in this video at 33:30 really touched me man.
" I will not have people remembering me as nothing. "
That really spoke to me. I will turn 30 in 2 weeks, and so far I haven't accomplished much. But I have hope, and you've reminded me that I'm more than just a fuck up.
Thanks man. I'm really glad you didnt take your life, and I'm glad you made this channel.
Bruce Wayne ohhh poor baby! 🍼 shut the fuck up
@@Bdawg20 well daaaamn
bruce wayne take care.
BlenderTale You’re what’s wrong with the world.
Everyone is worth something. No matter what anyone says
I love longer videos that are 20+ minutes. I listen to APS and Lockdown23&1 when I go to sleep. It's like having a bedtime story lol. Anyone else?
Yesssss!
D Daley
Death is that dude!
I miss grizzy though, he’s hilarious.
Joe is great too, their storytelling is different but both creators are great.
You ever seen Badger? He’s great too.
@@AnjelicaLynch or luna and other various creators
@@valzahnzahn legit what I'm doing rn
LMFAO i always fall asleep to one of APS videos
Jeez Joe! The end of this is a tear jerker... I love listening to your story, man! You're funny af and really insightful! Some of this stuff can inspire people not to make bad choices! Proud of you, dude!
She was not yur girl she was dating yur drugs. And drug money how much ever that was. Good to see you doing better now. Aps all day.
Larry G Benz I see it happen all the time
You know Joe, I’m at a pretty low place myself I’ve been here for a while and your stories help me tip the odds to the positive side of a negative decision thank you for all that you’re doing man
I like the longer episodes personally. I know a lot of people don't.
Hell yea bro
James Wilson me to tbh
Lol I didn’t even notice this was almost 40 minutes
James Wilson - same here
Time flies when you're having fun
I didn't think I would go from laughing at his jokes to crying, such a powerful story
Can we get some respect for Joe here
Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha
can we get the real Kane to throw you through a cell? or was that Undertaker? my life is a lie.
but these generic accounts smell feeshy.
Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha. No. Why
@@smokecathairandtoenails9626 Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha Haha
@@youtubeuser1432 bro
im not even suicidal anymore but this was super inspiring. i wish there was a video like this out there for me to watch in 2017 but im glad youre alive and im glad im doing fine
Joe, your storytelling skills, coupled with your sense of pacing when you edit, can make me laugh myself sick, or tear up for you, like I did here.
The suspense, the despair, the internal conflict, the reversals of fortune... this was a forty-minute Michael Mann thriller made by one dude, in a chair, maximizing his tech to tighten the screws until that final moment.
They used to call radio serials "theatre of the mind," and I think you may be reinventing that, via your Prison Story series.
Incredible work, brother. I'm glad you're still with us.
I had tears running down my face at the end of the video, especially when you said "Make the most of everyday". Joe, you really are such a gift to the world man, you're struck so much inspiration in not only my hearts, but millions around the world, and I'm so grateful that I've come across your videos. Thank you for all you do, APS army for life.
There is a higher being Joe, His name is Jesus, you will meet him when you die and you will give acct
I've never gotten into serious trouble before, in fact I'm only 15 and kinda the perfect student but I love listening to your prison stories. It's easy to judge others before you get to know them but what I want to know is what changed in your mentality which helped you get through the rest of you sentence because you say you were depressed in the beginning.
Young man or lady, keep doing what you're doing. Don't give in to peer pressure. I did and I wasted alot of years of my life. Not in prison but I turned into an alcoholic. Finally quit in 08 thank God. Kids may try to push you into something. Trust me when you get out of school and into you 20's or 30's you'll look back and be so thankful that you chose the right path. There's not to many kids out there in todays world that can say that they are doing what your doing. I don't even Know you but I can honestly say that I'm proud of you. I'm sure your family is too. Keep it up. In a few years you'll be glad you did.
You sound very intelligent, use that to your advantage.
Make something of your life bro! 👌
You round maturer than your age, use this to your advantage and excel at life and its peaks and valley's.
As long as u keep it by being interested, and not ending up in prison its ok. Youre 15. Dont throw away your youth, like a lot of us did, because you cant buy that back. Even if ure a billionaire, u cant get that back.
I can't believe you ever thought of yourself as nothing Joe. You are such a talented guy.. Such a character.. I'm glad you held on to life.. and I hope that now you will enjoy it and realize what Great guy u are.
I own my own swimming pool company in AZ and am on the road a lot and have your videos on play all day long! I am to a ex convict and only did 1.5 years but started on a 2 yard and ended on a 5 yard. Went in when I was 18 and out when I was 20 and never went back. Thanks for awesome UA-cam content keep em coming big joe! I’m 28 now so it’s been 10 years since my conviction.
Amen! That's awesome. I wish you were in North Carolina my pool has a burst pipe and I'm clueless how to fix it! Ugh.
angie payne thank you! A wise women once told me “the character of a man isn’t determined by how he falls but solely on how he gets up!” I’m sorry you are having pool issues if I was near I would fix it for you for free for being apart of the APS army. Where is the pipe broken before or after the pump?
Cheers from Flagstaff bruv!
Went in same age, did 3.5 and now I'm 28 as well, lol small world
Damn bro we are similar. Im in AZ, went to prison at 18 and did 1.5 years. And i turn 28 next month. Hahah
I just want to say Joe, I'm glad ya didn't go down that road. I've been watching you for awhile now and i know this world is better off with you in it than not. It's a hopeless feeling to feel like that, I've been in that place and it's cold and dark and full of rot and dispare. I think this is one of the best episodes I've seen you do. I could see it in your eyes and hag to hold back years cuz I know it brought you back to that cold, dark place. Thanks for keeping it real. Aps army for life. A true fan.
Suicide is a permanent answer to a temporary problem! No matter what things do get better! You just got to have the strength to go forward!
Robert Aviles I love this saying. Thank you
This hit me in a deep and personal way.
I wasn’t in prison in the literal way that you were but I had been married to a man who abused me for over 20 years. When I finally left for good and I realized that I had no life skills, no money and all my socialite friends had turned their backs on me ( because his family had the wealth and my family was addicts who had no way of helping themselves or me) I hit rock bottom.
I spent days alone, crying, feeling scared with no sense of direction at all. I couldn’t eat, sleep or function.
All my “privileges” taken, I was stripped bare.
I WANTED to die.
My life was over.
I found myself with a rope around my neck, leaning into the oblivion, almost free.
I realized that was exactly what everyone expected me to do.
The girl with nobody, reduced to nothing, snuffed herself off.
I checked myself into a mental health hospital, and changed my mind.
That was almost two years ago.
I started in a 500 square foot shit hole.
Than I met a boy we hit it off, bigger apartment, now a house.
I started a small business, it’s doing really good and all those people who said that I was nothing…
They don’t know shit.
Why do you need a man to live life that sounds extremely unhealthy it’s called co dependent
I think this quote is pretty poignant here; 'To those who have everything more will be given, from those who have nothing everything will be taken'.
srspower - I believe the Bible says "to whom much is given, much is expected."
@@Lori_L Those are different verses. Similar or same story though, I believe. It may have been the same parable told in different situations.
Matthew 25:29 For to everyone who has, more will be given, and he will have abundance; but from from him who does not have, even what he has will be taken away. Matt.25:29 nkjv.
Man, I love hearing these survivor stories, makes me want to keep going just one more day, just to see what happens next....
I like that you’re doing the prison stories more often like before.
He's not
You only got so many good stories
I’ve been watching your vids since the very beginning Joe and I’ve seen your channel change so much in that time. I’m happy that you shared this story, I am even happier that you chose life! One love brother!
Such a Positive dude it's amazing how much you've been through and still able to remain so funny and filled with positive energy.
AyoRocket we all make a choice
Suicidal thoughts pop into my head quite often. And today it was of the worst. Watching this video helped enlighten me. And nick some sense into me. Thank you joe. Thank you.
Your story telling skills are phenomenal. I was only gonna skip thru this and get the outcome but found myself listening from work ,over the freeway , to home, and still sat in the parking lot till you were done. It was like I was there witnessing everything going down. I could see the crazy guy , the guards, the GED class room filled with gang members politicking. Your stories are as vivid as watching a motion picture. Dude you got talent.
this made me pretty much cry. "getting caught with something bad saved my life." that irony is God at work, friend. bless you.
Just let you know as bad as things seem at the time there's always hope for a better life. We just cant give up. God bless bro!
God bless you man. Everyone has a bottom and a decision to make at that bottom, we are blessed you chose the right path. Love the content
Wow Joe very inspiring story im proud of you man not many in that position would've done that. Great storytelling man and your one of my biggest go to when things like this are going on in my life i appreciate evrything you've done not only for me and my family but for the entire APS army your our rock the one we turn to in hard times. Your like a long lost brother I never had man. Awesome work on everything and from my heart thank you.
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I came to this channel for the prison cooking, which I am fascinated with, but I began to wonder about you, and how a former prisoner became a UA-camr. This video is a great story and has answered a lot of my questions. Good for you for reaching a turning point in your life. Know that you are helping many people with your videos, some who have been to prison, and some who are on the road to prison. Your videos will help both groups, and may even help those who are on that road to turn back. Great video!
Hi Joe,I hope you and your wife are well? And thanks for another great upload! I hated my 11yrs jail it felt like I was never gonna get out for the 1st few yrs! And I had a gf of 6 yrs at the time that stood by me all throughout my sentence,boy it made me ill with paranoia wondering if she cheating,mind playing tricks etc. Been out 8 yrs now and clean 10. Jamie (UK England)
@Easton Dana I don't care I have a beautiful wife and two beautiful daughters and not with the woman who I was with when I was banged up! 😁
Jamie Ball Jnr where u do time bro
@@woody816 In England at hmp Garth,hmp haverigg and hmp Risley over here in England.
Jamie Ball Jnr stay strong. I’ve never did time but I’m happy for you, further everyday 👌
@@SailingTheSeasPirateRob thank you rob that's really nice of you,much appreciated.
Sometimes, tossing yourself in harms way and creating unnecessary trouble is better then dealing with the real internal issues going on inside. Even a negative distraction is still a distraction. I've been there Joe.
Barely found ur channel man and ur content is awesome. Keep it up brotha 👊🏽
You are a REMARKABLE REMARKABLE man. I’m SO GLAD you are alive and I really appreciate your stories and your vulnerability. God Bless YOU.
oh shit, you hit the million! congrats man!
Joe, I have to tell ya that I agree 100% with the folks who say you have a gift. You are a natural story teller who has the ability to make your listener feel like they're right there with you, seeing things happen. Not many people can do this well, and I'm glad to see that you chose the path of life because your stories have an effect on people.
Hell, I've been a CO for 20 years (working with both adults and juveniles) and you even brought my cynical, jaded heart to the verge of tears with this one.
Keep on doing videos like this from time to time. I watch the funny stuff and enjoy it a LOT, but now that you have the large audience I hope you continue to mix it up and slip in something that has meaning (like this one did).
Respect from the OTHER side of the bars...
The point isn't if the Seroquil's would've killed him or not.
The pills were a loaded gun with blank bullets, but Joe didn't know they were blanks.
The point is, he chose to live & see the silver lining of he could only improve from where he is, instead of ending it.
If he had chose the path of ending it & failed he would've been completely demoralized; he would've primarily focused on searching for another suicide method other than improving himself.
Choosing the path of self help was significant in his life, the lethality of the pills is pretty irrelevant.
Rooman you think people are finding a silver lining in anything in JAIL
This was one of the deepest, most personal of all the APS vids. Thanks for sharing, Joe. Your words and actions inspire me. Keep going, dude. Make the most of everyday.
Nice cartoon Joe.
You ever thought about, that by taken those pills off your cell mate, you may saved some one elses life aswell .
Great video. God bless you.
Brother you survived the hard life to tell and inspire others who find themselves in the same or worst scenerio,you have a gift man? dont ever lose it you and you alone will prosper in all your endeavours and hopefully help many others lead by your example,,,,,Peace be with you
Thanks APS! Some much needed entertainment while dealing with this hurricane aftermath. Thoughts and prayers for all those still struggling to get through all this. Stay strong!
An oldie but a goldie. I hope you get these raw emotions back from your stories joe
You’re strong joe...we’re all proud you made it out of that darkness
17:20 - 17:38 Haha Joe...that was slick! After saying many times "I was hoping and praying......" you slide in "As I was *hooping* and praying...." Made me definitely do a double take there! Wonder how many listeners caught that. Nice one!
I havent heard the seroquel shuffle since my cousin BIG DEZ passed away 7 years ago. Just hearing that brought me back to him and some crazy and funny ass memories... THANKS FOR THAT JOE! I FORGOT SOME OF THOSE MEMORIES! Have a blessed day and thanks again just for saying "seroquel shiffle" 😂🤣😂🤣❣😇☝️
Thank you Joe! I deal with those thoughts and depression pretty regularly because I’m a heroin addict and I’m always getting clean for a bit and then running and gunning again. Your channel with all its different content, especially the humor you add, really helps me see life in a better perspective. So I just wanted to say thank you for giving someone like me a little time out of myself, some good laughs but most of all, some hope for a better life awaiting me just over the horizon... I wish you and your friends and family nothing but the best!
Great vid joe, have you talked about how real prison shows are compared to real life? that would be interesting to me to see what's real and not
he did it with prison break but i meant an updated video with more than one show.
Joe, You’re an incredible human being. This is why I watch your videos because you speak genuine to every single one of us and that speaks volumes. I am so great full you did not take your life and are here sharing these amazing stories. Stay strong Joe 💪🏻
Dude I don’t cry but I teared up at this I feel so bad you are you good man and I love that you had the strength to say no to death
Dat music at the end though..... killer story, and that music with you narrating over it. Badass.
Joe, integrity is the only gift a man can give himself. Enjoying your tales. Praying for you to continue to grow, inside and out.
Joe, you do have a gift and a ministry. It’s great to see you helping others and sharing your own mistakes in an humble, positive way. God bless you, and keep on that positive path.
Billy
This show is so Inspiring and funny😂💯
Great story buddy… I’m glad you’re here because if not, well I wouldn’t be able to enjoy your stories everyday. Thank you
Hmmm Seroquel honestly is shite. Last time I took it I laid awake most of the night cuz my mucles kept contracting and relaxing with like 5 seconds intervals. And the moment I finally fell asleep I had a horrible lucid dream that messed my mind up for a good 1 to 1 1/2 days.
Mick de Stoeptegel I love my seroquel
I'm so proud your still here. You have helped so many people. In person and just from watching your videos.. You are a true Blessing and you don't even know it.. God has you here for a reason... We Love You Joe.❤❤❤❤🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼
This applies to the old saying ( I'm 47) "you can choose your friends, but you can't choose your family.
Your honesty is also your bravery. You are the real deal!
stopped doing homework for this
Well you will learn more life lessons here with Joe than in your homework. However keep making good grades do what ya gotta do til you're done. Don't take it all as truth cause most of what you learn in school isn't truth and has zero to do with the real world!♡♡♡♡
My brother Joe,your story’s touch home for me a lot. I did 4 years,on a 12 year sentence . The way you narrate your stories somehow brings em to life for me and I’m sure everyone else..keep doing what you do. Let those guys incarcerated know their is hope on turning your life around and bringing something good to the table by sharing your prison experience.. I plan on doing something similar in the near future,and maybe we touch base again in my comments box.. thanks again,and keep em coming joe..
Listen to all your videos on my way to work
Im homeless again and been contemplating the same thing done plenty of time myself... And this spoke to me on a personal level today. Thank you man. Thank you for sharing that.
Be well friend 🙏❤️
Im prescribed sereoquel, 900 mg a day 1 300 mg in the morning in the afternoon and one at night
ok
But Joe thinks 1400mgs woulda killed him lmao
this is what u were meant to do joe inspire others your vids make me think and laugh when I'm having a bad day, keep it up bro cheers
"I'd go about hiding those pills" I'm on the floor now. LMAO
Nothing but respect for you. I hope you are experiencing infinitely more joy in your life right now
Good look bro I feel u im at my rock bottom baby mama trying to take my kids hit me for child support I'm Low key home less and top it all recovering heroin addict and Xanax. But u made it Ik it wasn't easy but thank u fam
Hang in there brotha, for people like us it takes rock bottom to bounce back even harder, in times like these we feel like NOONE understands or can relate, trust me I do man. Where there is a will there is a way, you need someone to talk to that can relate don't be scared to holler at me bro. Much love and better times on the horizon
andrea micucci thanks bro tht means more than u can imagine u dnt know me from a can of paint U took time to relate u a real one thank u bro on GOD
Tyrone James thanks homie I been trying goin the temp service in the am
@@derekdick6650 funny thing is bro I read thousands of comments daily and I don't say a word I've been watching Joe since he started and you've probably never even seen me comment but for some reason something told me to reach out to you today, it's Humanity bro sometimes you just have to give back, there was people who didn't know me from a hole in the wall that put things on the line for my success, I'm actually mentoring a guy in real life and nothing I can say or do can Veer him away from using, but I Don't Preach to him nor do I pass judgment, I just simply tell him whenever he's ready I will be there for him, I wish more people were as level-headed as you are just the simple fact of you reaching out and putting your feelings and situation in a public manner I can't help but respect you for it
@@derekdick6650 I know it sounds cliche but the first step is admitting you have a problem, and I am not a basic text thumper, nor am I affiliated with NA whatsoever but I'm the type to take pieces from everything and mold it to my tools for recovery. I could never do Narcotics Anonymous, a lot of people took it as a joke and I couldn't be around the constant relapse and the guys and girls that just went there to find a one night stand and could care less about if they were clean or not that wasn't conducive for me it was toxicso if you're similar to me in any way whatsoever just know it is possible to make it without the rooms, a wise guy once told me that if you want to get clean you go to AA and if you want to get laid you go to NA lmmfao
I got to say you are among the top prison channels. Some of the best storytelling on the inter-webs. Salute 👍
Man, Joe I feel you were ment to do this. If it wasn't for all the things you been threw you wouldn't have this channel. You had to go threw hell to make it to heaven.
You are a master storyteller. Your delivery is top notch.
Life has a funny way of coming through for you...
Thank god you didn’t end it joe. You do so much good for people and changed your life and others in such a positive way! Keeping giving great content!
Joe “Monte Christo” Guerrero...digging out :))
That was honestly fucking amazing. Usually I only "like" music based videos, but this one earns it. You have yourself a subscriber my friend.
I enjoy these from the heart videos
You should 100 be talking to kids to break the cycle. You have such great insight with a great sense of humor. Sending love from Texas xo
I wanna know how many times joes ever said “locked up”
This has to be the deepest video, or one such as this, that I have see thus far that you pour a lot of your feelings into. I really enjoy your videos. I find them to be comical, educational, and informative.
Whats going on with dave joe im worried brotha
And got very sick as soon as he got back. He’s still recovering.
I hope dudes ok. My gut says he may have relapsed.
Thornton E His girlfriend was chatting on the Bobo this morning and I don’t think she’d do that if something tragic had happened.
@@thornmatthew8395 nah man traveling means airplanes and airplanes are hotbeds of sickness viruses
Hope you are both right! Im rooting for that dude.
What a beautiful story, it should be an inspiration to us all whenever we face our darkness moments there is always a little Ray of Hope!!!! I am glad you live to tell the story you brought tears to my heart of Stone!!!!!!!!
I can totally relate to this. Not the situation specifically (because _boy_ that's specific) but sometimes you don't even realize you're lying until it comes out of your mouth and you have no idea _why_ you just did that because you _know_ you just made everything worse. Now you have to sit and deal with it so you try to justify it to yourself somehow.
I certainly can't say that I enjoy during the story but thank you for sharing it with us. It's a very personal story and I think people can relate to it on many many levels
I thought it was called “The Thorzeen shuffle”?
Unbelievable story. Well told, thank you for sharing these moments with us
Good on you for flushing those pills.
Joe-- I'm rewatching this again, years later. I went thru a real rough patch and attempted to take my own life. I'm now in a long term relationship and have a son who is my world. If I had been successful, my fiance potentially and most likely, wouldn't of gotten sober because I've helped him to do that. He did some time inside due to drug charges. Fast forward 15 years and he is an amazing stepfather to my son and sober 5+ years. Our little family is unconventional but I'm so very lucky to have it. And my son is amazing, he has the biggest heart and plans to go into the military. My little family is the one thing I've truly done right in my life. I'm so thankful to hear your story. I'm so thankful you are here today. The work you do is much needed. Thank you.
I’ve been taking seroquel for a while since I’m “crazy” but really doesn’t mess with me much. Just calms me down so people who flip me off in traffic can continue to have a good day.
This is why I love ya Joe. Been a fan forever going back over old videos. This is top 3
1400 mg seroquil definitely wouldn’t have killed you but I’m glad you decided to go above and beyond Joe must love keep it up
Glad you chose to keep going - the world would be less colorful without you! You have a real gift of telling your stories. I was supposed to go to sleep like an hour ago. instead I listened to your "Slick" and "Killer" and other crazy stories. Congrats on your GED, too!
As long as "Negro Bandito" weren't her name, it'd be ok...
Negra bandita **** just sayin.
youre a great human being I couldn't imagine a world without after prison show you inspire so many people, thanks for keeping it real with us
14:22 coolmaths games 🤔
Lol
Wow you poured your heart out in this video for all to see and hear. That was very brave of you. Your story is very inspirational. I'm glad and thankful that you decided to stay with us. 🙂
Bruh I was playing GTA V online while listening to this.
Ernesto is Awesome Bruhhhh 😡😡
Playing Rimworld while watching
We all make mistakes man, I felt horrible the 5 years or so where I fucked up and ended up in prison. Non the less you seem like a good hearted dude, I'm glad to see that your doing much better these days. Much love man. Your videos remind why I never want to go back to those days.
Ive beent taking 200mg seriquel at night for the last 4 years
Michael also seriquil in low doses is for sleep and high doses is for schizophrenia if I’m not mistaken
I take it for my bi polar and mood
@@kyledasmoka I've taken Seroquel for the last 6 months for bipolar disorder. It's no joke. Side effects and all.
@@victoriawilliams8504 I take 200ml every night for sleeping disorders associated with PTSD
Hey man I just wanna say I love your show. It makes me want to never end up in prison and realize how lucky I am not to have been caught up with drugs as I easily could have. It’s really cool how you use this outlet to share your story. Much love!