"You can die with this or you can overcome it whenever you want." Holy hell, that shook me. It takes a ton of bravery to hop on UA-cam and open up about this. I give you a lot of props for doing this, and you're one of the strongest ones out there. I'm sure there are tons of people who relate to you and are glad that there is someone like you talking about your experiences (i.e. me). This video made me reflect on myself. I get it; I did my four years of college already, got my bachelor's in May, and I am still in school getting my master's degree. College is a time of great wonders but also great stress, depending on how you perceive it all. I managed baseball, schoolwork, a part-time job, and much more (friends, down-time, internships, etc.) during those four years. While it brought great joy to know that I was so active and making people happy, the process was absolutely brutal sometimes and I knew when I was going through the trials. Through all of the ups and downs, and some really down times, I never/still don't seek/sought therapy, and my parents still urge me to consider going back to it. I think my fear of therapy, which derives from not knowing where to start the conversation with a therapist, has been a downfall of mine in recent years and it will continue to be so if I stay on this path. I think the bigger issue is that I'm still trying to prove myself to others first before caring for myself and my survival, and the consequences to that are incredible (not always in good ways). I always consider myself to be the ultimate team player while putting others first, but if you neglect yourself, then you're already in deep trouble. You tackled these issues way quicker than I ever did/could, and I'm glad that you found it in you to love and enjoy who you are without the pressure of society and without feeling the need to, as you said, prove yourself. You're right, you are smart. You're intelligent. You're an example and in a generation where we need better role models for each other, you are a great example for others to follow. The day that I take action for myself and get things straight, I'm gonna thank you again. I genuinly wish you the absolute best in everything because the sky's the limit for you. We're all here if you need anything. Thanks for sharing this, and I hope your college experience and your life afterwards is nothing but awesome. God bless.
Sounds like you've put in a lot of hard work to get to this place and of course the journey never really ends. I am impressed by anyone who can be this vulnerable and speak from the heart. Thanks for sharing your story. :)
You deserve everything, Alexandra, and you just gifted the world with a very important message. Remember to value your message, keep sharing :) we are all in the same boat, I'm following the same path, therapy and mindfulness. Remember that your "resurrection" into authenticity and worthiness is an important example to others. And of course you deserve the best life you want to have.
I'm 26. I have an exceedingly weighty chip on my shoulder. I've learned to deal with, internalize, and utilize the pains and struggles, both inflicted by others but primarily inflicted on myself, on my own. I live in a perpetual state of ebb, flow, and stagnation, physically and mentally. It is draining at times but invigorating at others. I've never gone to therapy. I'll most likely refuse to go to therapy, if asked. I really doubt I'll ever go to therapy. I've discovered who I am and what it is I am going to do in my life, and no matter where or how things end up being, I will always work toward that goal. I am self-aware of my predicament. I am conscious of what this stress does to my body, and that I may only have a decade left, give or take. Do I need therapy? Yes. But my statement stands until I break. Nonetheless, I am happy for you that you have had such great and wholesome help and have had such revelations.💯
Hi So Brave! So Smart! So Talented! So Jolly! Beautiful Voice! So Friendly with Beautiful Smiling face! Alex You are going to reach Your GOAL! Love Your Videos! 💯% 🌟🌹🌼🎄✨
Wonderful video Alexandra, very relaxing. I didn't know if you had tried any character-based videos, because I had the idea for a masked ASMR superhero (in the style of The Incredibles or Batgirl) that I think could be fun. The premise would go something like this. The viewer would be injured or distressed by a villain, but you would show up to help, using your superpowers of ASMR. Throughout the video, the viewer would ask who you really were, but you would tell them how important it is that you wear your mask, and keep your identity a secret, but, at some point, you would trust the viewer enough, to unmask yourself and show them who you really are. I think you would do an awesome job. Keep up the great work.
"You can die with this or you can overcome it whenever you want." Holy hell, that shook me.
It takes a ton of bravery to hop on UA-cam and open up about this. I give you a lot of props for doing this, and you're one of the strongest ones out there. I'm sure there are tons of people who relate to you and are glad that there is someone like you talking about your experiences (i.e. me). This video made me reflect on myself. I get it; I did my four years of college already, got my bachelor's in May, and I am still in school getting my master's degree. College is a time of great wonders but also great stress, depending on how you perceive it all. I managed baseball, schoolwork, a part-time job, and much more (friends, down-time, internships, etc.) during those four years. While it brought great joy to know that I was so active and making people happy, the process was absolutely brutal sometimes and I knew when I was going through the trials. Through all of the ups and downs, and some really down times, I never/still don't seek/sought therapy, and my parents still urge me to consider going back to it. I think my fear of therapy, which derives from not knowing where to start the conversation with a therapist, has been a downfall of mine in recent years and it will continue to be so if I stay on this path. I think the bigger issue is that I'm still trying to prove myself to others first before caring for myself and my survival, and the consequences to that are incredible (not always in good ways). I always consider myself to be the ultimate team player while putting others first, but if you neglect yourself, then you're already in deep trouble.
You tackled these issues way quicker than I ever did/could, and I'm glad that you found it in you to love and enjoy who you are without the pressure of society and without feeling the need to, as you said, prove yourself. You're right, you are smart. You're intelligent. You're an example and in a generation where we need better role models for each other, you are a great example for others to follow. The day that I take action for myself and get things straight, I'm gonna thank you again. I genuinly wish you the absolute best in everything because the sky's the limit for you. We're all here if you need anything.
Thanks for sharing this, and I hope your college experience and your life afterwards is nothing but awesome. God bless.
Another year has come & past. Appreciate the things you work hard for. Sunshine or rain, always keep your vision clear. 🌹
You’re back! Hope all is well :)
I think using UA-cam as a way to get these kinds of thoughts out there is a great idea. Definitely a lot of really relatable points.
Healing is a long process. Be proud of were you are at and who you are. Glad you found a way to express. If you need to express more, we'll listen. 👍👍
Sounds like you've put in a lot of hard work to get to this place and of course the journey never really ends. I am impressed by anyone who can be this vulnerable and speak from the heart. Thanks for sharing your story. :)
You deserve everything, Alexandra, and you just gifted the world with a very important message. Remember to value your message, keep sharing :) we are all in the same boat, I'm following the same path, therapy and mindfulness. Remember that your "resurrection" into authenticity and worthiness is an important example to others. And of course you deserve the best life you want to have.
I dont know whys, whats, hows, but I feel like I needed to hear every single word you said...
Thank you
I'm 26. I have an exceedingly weighty chip on my shoulder. I've learned to deal with, internalize, and utilize the pains and struggles, both inflicted by others but primarily inflicted on myself, on my own. I live in a perpetual state of ebb, flow, and stagnation, physically and mentally. It is draining at times but invigorating at others. I've never gone to therapy. I'll most likely refuse to go to therapy, if asked. I really doubt I'll ever go to therapy. I've discovered who I am and what it is I am going to do in my life, and no matter where or how things end up being, I will always work toward that goal. I am self-aware of my predicament. I am conscious of what this stress does to my body, and that I may only have a decade left, give or take.
Do I need therapy? Yes. But my statement stands until I break. Nonetheless, I am happy for you that you have had such great and wholesome help and have had such revelations.💯
Hi So Brave! So Smart! So Talented! So Jolly! Beautiful Voice! So Friendly with Beautiful Smiling face! Alex You are going to reach Your GOAL! Love Your Videos! 💯% 🌟🌹🌼🎄✨
you have a beautiful soul, i'd love to have you as friend
you put a lot of time and effort into bettering youself and i think its cool you are willing to share and help others to push and do the same
Wonderful video Alexandra, very relaxing. I didn't know if you had tried any character-based videos, because I had the idea for a masked ASMR superhero (in the style of The Incredibles or Batgirl) that I think could be fun. The premise would go something like this. The viewer would be injured or distressed by a villain, but you would show up to help, using your superpowers of ASMR. Throughout the video, the viewer would ask who you really were, but you would tell them how important it is that you wear your mask, and keep your identity a secret, but, at some point, you would trust the viewer enough, to unmask yourself and show them who you really are. I think you would do an awesome job. Keep up the great work.
hey alexandra. good to see you. thank you for sharing this and being vulnerable💗💗
I Hope All is Well With You
I see you have a good intent, trust God
Hi Alexandra 😊
Do you like porcupines? I do. I wish I could have one in the same room during my therapy sessions. ❤