I currently have a diagnosis of major depressive disorder with psychotic features. (The voices are never nice to me) I know alot about what you have been experiencing as far as the depression and psychosis are concerned (and I am still off of my meds too because I just moved to a different state and started a new job, hence no insurance). Tbh, I think about opting out alot...just struggling with emotional trauma, feeling unlovable, anhedonia, hell I have played guitar my whole life and haven't touched it in like a month. But it's good knowing I am not alone, that someone else understands these complex feelings that I can't even find the words to explain. It's awesome you are sharing this and hope you find some comfort knowing you have an entire hive here on YT who look forward to your posts and videos. Keep your head up, much love and best wishes. ❤
Do you have tools to lift the feeling of the grey? I guess you do with the bees 🐝. One of my friends has bad depression however a view of ocean seems bring her a bit back up from it. Might be her remembering all her joys around water she been a real water baby. keeps her from going deeper down she seems to then tear up. I can’t tell but might be old Joys and it really helps her out of the blah empty feeling. She has so much value but sometimes doesn’t realize it. Sharing your moods sure helps others but hope you can stay in area you want when you want. 🐝 Think we all have it at times but some get stuck longer. Good luck Kit you are a great person helping many
It definitely makes the uncomfortable comfortable at its best. I love watching the videos when you say you're close to hypermania, because it's like you're glowing and radiating enthusiasm. But I don't think a state of perpetual enthusiasm, where everything is positive, is desirable or possible. The fact that you show up when the mood is not the best, when there is a rain cloud over your head, shows how authentic you are. I really appreciate your courage.
I as well have been diagnosed with severe bi-polar at 17yrs. old. I have experienced hypomanic conditions that kept me awake for days;and later on in my life, schizoaffective syndrome. I'm almost 61 now and I'm off all of my psychotrops. I'm doing great on my own. Thanks so much for your forthright openness with your situation. May GOD BLESS YOU!❤❤❤
Firstly, I think its very brave and admirable of you to post such an honest video about your mood. Im sorry you’ve been feeling depressed. Try to take this time to engage in interests you enjoy, even if they feel more difficult. If anything, it will distract from negative thinking patterns.
When I start obsessing over cosplay too much is usually a sign to me my mood is going to do some sort of major shift. I keep thinking about MomoCon to try and block out the negative feelings associated with the mood shift. Your Bee is so cute! I didn't know there were stuffed animals that could be put in the microwave! I hope your depression doesn't get worse and that everything will be okay! Thank you for sharing everything and your authenticity is helping others check in with themselves as well.
At the end of it, this too shall pass... for me , being able to recognize that during a depression and just waiting it out has been key. rather than losing my mind because it feels like $#!t. still miserable and alone, but staying out of the hospital these days
Live in the moment, even if it sucks, the future holds great things for you. You are the creator of your reality. No one said it would be easy, your goal isn't just achievable, it's in your cards.
Thanks for the real content ❤ been on my depression meds since April and I had hopes it would help with the holidays but it really hasn't feeling restless and numb. Hope everyone here has a warm and safe holidays your not alone!
I hope you emerge from this little slump soon. I can only marvel at your self awareness and understanding of the conditions and moods you deal with. I was diagnosed from a mh perspective over 30 years ago, which eventually "emerged" as a bipolar diagnosis. So I am aware of how tough this is even without all your extra challenges. I did get diagnosed as autistic a year ago which explains a lot. I now view bp1 more as a symptom of autism than a cause in its own right. Totally unscientific, possibly wildly inaccurate view of this but it fits more neatly in my mind. I hope you go from strength to strength. It is so encouraging to see younger people deal so much more competently and effectively with mh than my generation. I know this does not mean lesser struggles by any means. I just love the understanding and honesty that you show. Exactly the correct and possibly only way to keep this under control. Thank you for sharing.
This reminds me about my initial episodes of my bipolar that I had. My initial episodes for bipolar were practically cyclothymia, well for the first 2 months because it started a little bit before summer break and got worse when school started again, so basically when my episodes began I would have hypomanic episodes that lasted a week but would barely even qualify as a hypomanic episode because it wasnt very noticable to the people around me and i would barely even have the required 3 symptoms of hypomania in the dsm and then after the hypomanic episodes I would have sorta dysthmic episodes that also lasted a week that would happen not exactly right after a hypomanic episode but maybe a few hours to a week after the hypomanic episode and weren't nearly as bad as my most recent depressive episode that lasted about 15 or 16 days, thankfully I haven't had a full blown manic episode yet, but if I don't take care of my mental health I'll probably have a manic episode because of how much more hypomanic episodes I have over depressive episodes
SK - it's very interesting to hear of how your symptoms manifest. Would you say that the most effective medications dull the highest manias while also lessening the deepest depressions? It's like both have a higher intensity, which is food for thought for me. Happy beehive thoughts and honey moments will hopefully come your way soon on the other side of depression! 🐝
I'm in a situation that i can sleep all i want. for thirty years i had to fight my demons. i was very disturbed. it was a long long time things were not alright. now i suffer from PTSD about my plight though it's over and I just want to sleep. even though sleeping is so nice i am up and doing my thing.
Thank you Kit. As always It's an awesome video. I have learned so much from your videos over the past year and I really appreciate your insights into the schizo effective condition. Are you gonna go live again anytime when you feel up for it?
Wishing you the very best, curious do the videos help your symptoms at all? They are very well done. Anyway wish you the best.Thanks for making your videos, they help me a lot.
the last couple of weeks has been rocky for me. i’m experiencing a low mood kinda like u not too down i still get out of bed, the dominant system is loss of appetite, food and the thought of eating is disgusting right now
hey, your video came up on my youtube. after 20 seconds of you talking i can write you something about YOU. First, you have a strong Aura and strong Voice. Your Hair Choice is cool, i like this blue. Let me give you an advice, that i hard learned. YOU are not a Diagnosis, take the Medication, thats good. I had the same Diagnosis given with 18 Years old, now im 47 young Man, fighting all my Life with the given Trauma as a very Young Human being, by given this Sorta Diagnosis which laaaater came out is in case not real. Doctors are dangerous but also can help you. No big Drama Talk here, i just had the impulse to write this down. i know heavily how brutal and without anything to see a future can be. holy moly, i normally dont react on videos ;-) greetings from germany, dont know your name, im thomas
Please consider going to a church this holiday season. Look for a Calvary Chapel church in your area. Talk to the pastor about what you are dealing with. And let the church leaders pray for you about your condition. You may healed of it. You may not. It depends on what the Will of God is for your life. But one thing is for certain. If you open your heart and mind to the Lord, He will never leave you alone in this world a d you will feel His presence in your life forever. And your depression will go away. Come on now. Try it. There is no payment. There isn't even a commitment on your part. All there is, is an introduction and the beginning of a relationship with the creator of everything. Merry Christmas!
You're managing really well! Thanks so much for sharing your 'ups and downs' , like today, as well as all the other things going on. Have the best Christmas & I hope Santa brings you lots of great stuff!!
I hope your depression doesn't get any worse in this episode. 🙏
Don't forget, you're awesome, even when you don't feel awesome.
I really appreciate you sharing these videos. Thanks
I’ve been feeling low and disconnected over the last week. Thanks for sharing it makes me not feel alone. You’re amazing 👍
Thank you for sharing Kit. ❤️You are an inspiration.
I currently have a diagnosis of major depressive disorder with psychotic features. (The voices are never nice to me) I know alot about what you have been experiencing as far as the depression and psychosis are concerned (and I am still off of my meds too because I just moved to a different state and started a new job, hence no insurance). Tbh, I think about opting out alot...just struggling with emotional trauma, feeling unlovable, anhedonia, hell I have played guitar my whole life and haven't touched it in like a month. But it's good knowing I am not alone, that someone else understands these complex feelings that I can't even find the words to explain. It's awesome you are sharing this and hope you find some comfort knowing you have an entire hive here on YT who look forward to your posts and videos. Keep your head up, much love and best wishes. ❤
Do you have tools to lift the feeling of the grey? I guess you do with the bees 🐝. One of my friends has bad depression however a view of ocean seems bring her a bit back up from it. Might be her remembering all her joys around water she been a real water baby. keeps her from going deeper down she seems to then tear up. I can’t tell but might be old Joys and it really helps her out of the blah empty feeling. She has so much value but sometimes doesn’t realize it. Sharing your moods sure helps others but hope you can stay in area you want when you want. 🐝 Think we all have it at times but some get stuck longer. Good luck Kit you are a great person helping many
Love you, Kit. I hope your depression passes quickly. ❤🎉❤😊
It definitely makes the uncomfortable comfortable at its best. I love watching the videos when you say you're close to hypermania, because it's like you're glowing and radiating enthusiasm. But I don't think a state of perpetual enthusiasm, where everything is positive, is desirable or possible. The fact that you show up when the mood is not the best, when there is a rain cloud over your head, shows how authentic you are. I really appreciate your courage.
Thank you for sharing
Thanks for making this, even though I’m sure it was difficult. Good work 🎉
Thank You for sharing this ❤
Wishing you only the best, Kit!
We all have our ups and downs, don't let the downs drag you down
It takes courage to share these videos. Hoping that you find comfort in something that helps you regain your momentum in life.
I as well have been diagnosed with severe bi-polar at 17yrs. old. I have experienced hypomanic conditions that kept me awake for days;and later on in my life, schizoaffective syndrome. I'm almost 61 now and I'm off all of my psychotrops. I'm doing great on my own. Thanks so much for your forthright openness with your situation. May GOD BLESS YOU!❤❤❤
Firstly, I think its very brave and admirable of you to post such an honest video about your mood. Im sorry you’ve been feeling depressed. Try to take this time to engage in interests you enjoy, even if they feel more difficult. If anything, it will distract from negative thinking patterns.
Appreciate the video. Hope you feel better soon!
You're Amazing 🎈
Stay strong, Kit. You’re a truly unique and amazing person.
When I start obsessing over cosplay too much is usually a sign to me my mood is going to do some sort of major shift. I keep thinking about MomoCon to try and block out the negative feelings associated with the mood shift. Your Bee is so cute! I didn't know there were stuffed animals that could be put in the microwave! I hope your depression doesn't get worse and that everything will be okay! Thank you for sharing everything and your authenticity is helping others check in with themselves as well.
Just remember your a wonderful and beautiful person who is loved by many. Don't give up ❤
At the end of it, this too shall pass...
for me , being able to recognize that during a depression and just waiting it out has been key. rather than losing my mind because it feels like $#!t. still miserable and alone, but staying out of the hospital these days
I hope you start feeling better soon.
Live in the moment, even if it sucks, the future holds great things for you. You are the creator of your reality. No one said it would be easy, your goal isn't just achievable, it's in your cards.
Thanks for the real content ❤ been on my depression meds since April and I had hopes it would help with the holidays but it really hasn't feeling restless and numb. Hope everyone here has a warm and safe holidays your not alone!
Wishing you wellness.
Cute bee.🐝 Feel better!
You are always beautiful kit. You are a very strong woman. Love your channel
I hope you emerge from this little slump soon. I can only marvel at your self awareness and understanding of the conditions and moods you deal with. I was diagnosed from a mh perspective over 30 years ago, which eventually "emerged" as a bipolar diagnosis. So I am aware of how tough this is even without all your extra challenges. I did get diagnosed as autistic a year ago which explains a lot. I now view bp1 more as a symptom of autism than a cause in its own right. Totally unscientific, possibly wildly inaccurate view of this but it fits more neatly in my mind.
I hope you go from strength to strength. It is so encouraging to see younger people deal so much more competently and effectively with mh than my generation. I know this does not mean lesser struggles by any means. I just love the understanding and honesty that you show. Exactly the correct and possibly only way to keep this under control.
Thank you for sharing.
I admire you!
I have schizoafective disorder with bipolar too. I know from experience it gets better. So hang in there Kit!
Episodes mixed with mania, depression and gradiocity
The good days, the bad days, they are all part of the adventure of life.
I hope you feel better soon. It’s so hard than you cannot just feel great and motivated without fearing the downturn
This was really insightful. Thank you 💜
Also... I loooove the warmer bee! Have you decided on a name yet?
Thank you for being so open and honest. Hope your depression lifts soon. What cosplay did you start working on?
This reminds me about my initial episodes of my bipolar that I had. My initial episodes for bipolar were practically cyclothymia, well for the first 2 months because it started a little bit before summer break and got worse when school started again, so basically when my episodes began I would have hypomanic episodes that lasted a week but would barely even qualify as a hypomanic episode because it wasnt very noticable to the people around me and i would barely even have the required 3 symptoms of hypomania in the dsm and then after the hypomanic episodes I would have sorta dysthmic episodes that also lasted a week that would happen not exactly right after a hypomanic episode but maybe a few hours to a week after the hypomanic episode and weren't nearly as bad as my most recent depressive episode that lasted about 15 or 16 days, thankfully I haven't had a full blown manic episode yet, but if I don't take care of my mental health I'll probably have a manic episode because of how much more hypomanic episodes I have over depressive episodes
SK - it's very interesting to hear of how your symptoms manifest. Would you say that the most effective medications dull the highest manias while also lessening the deepest depressions? It's like both have a higher intensity, which is food for thought for me. Happy beehive thoughts and honey moments will hopefully come your way soon on the other side of depression! 🐝
Hope you feel better. 💚💙💜
I'm in a situation that i can sleep all i want. for thirty years i had to fight my demons. i was very disturbed. it was a long long time things were not alright. now i suffer from PTSD about my plight though it's over and I just want to sleep. even though sleeping is so nice i am up and doing my thing.
Warmies are great. I use my red panda to help me get through migraines. I hope your bee helps you as much
great video! hope your mood lifts for you😁
I get that Kit… feel better 😘🙏❤️🩹
Thank you Kit. As always It's an awesome video. I have learned so much from your videos over the past year and I really appreciate your insights into the schizo effective condition. Are you gonna go live again anytime when you feel up for it?
Wishing you the very best, curious do the videos help your symptoms at all? They are very well done. Anyway wish you the best.Thanks for making your videos, they help me a lot.
good video kitz!
Just so you know your a beautiful person we all have bad days.
the last couple of weeks has been rocky for me. i’m experiencing a low mood kinda like u not too down i still get out of bed, the dominant system is loss of appetite, food and the thought of eating is disgusting right now
I imagine it being like a little hole on the road that adds turbulence to your trip. But you are wearing a seatbelt (the meds). Hope this helps 💪
Your strength and your support system are a helmet and a life jacket ⛑️🛟
Same
does your boss let you take little cat nap breaks at work? Pacing is something I do a lot bc I live with some chronic stuff.
Have you tried hypnosis?
WHAT'S THE LONGEST HIGH THAT Y'ALL HAVE HAD OR THROUGHOUT HUMAN HISTORY?
hey, your video came up on my youtube. after 20 seconds of you talking i can write you something about YOU. First, you have a strong Aura and strong Voice. Your Hair Choice is cool, i like this blue. Let me give you an advice, that i hard learned. YOU are not a Diagnosis, take the Medication, thats good. I had the same Diagnosis given with 18 Years old, now im 47 young Man, fighting all my Life with the given Trauma as a very Young Human being, by given this Sorta Diagnosis which laaaater came out is in case not real. Doctors are dangerous but also can help you. No big Drama Talk here, i just had the impulse to write this down. i know heavily how brutal and without anything to see a future can be. holy moly, i normally dont react on videos ;-) greetings from germany, dont know your name, im thomas
Please consider going to a church this holiday season. Look for a Calvary Chapel church in your area. Talk to the pastor about what you are dealing with. And let the church leaders pray for you about your condition. You may healed of it. You may not. It depends on what the Will of God is for your life. But one thing is for certain. If you open your heart and mind to the Lord, He will never leave you alone in this world a d you will feel His presence in your life forever. And your depression will go away. Come on now. Try it. There is no payment. There isn't even a commitment on your part. All there is, is an introduction and the beginning of a relationship with the creator of everything. Merry Christmas!
Some of this disorder sounds like normal mood swings everyone gets. Conversely I guess everyone is a little bipolar at least.
“A little bipolar” is not a thing. Everyone gets mood swings, sure, but not bipolar I or bipolar II level.
You're managing really well! Thanks so much for sharing your 'ups and downs' , like today, as well as all the other things going on.
Have the best Christmas & I hope Santa brings you lots of great stuff!!