100th Episode! My Life: 1 Year 5 Years 10 Years and 18 Years Ago! // Looking Back
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- Опубліковано 23 сер 2024
- My 100th Video on UA-cam was filmed as my life had reached a nexus. 1 year ago - 5 years ago - 10 years ago - 18 years ago
#INFP #Memories #30Something
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I'm an Aussie Mum of 3 teenage boys living in Regional Queensland whilst we decide what to do next (eek!). Our family of 5 lived in Europe for the better part of the past decade: in the U.K for 8 years and Germany for 18 months. We recently made the big move from Germany back home to Queensland, Australia and I am SO GRATEFUL that we have become more and more Minimal over the years leading up to this (hopefully) final monster international move. Having less stuff has made these transitions between countries and cities so much more doable!
You can connect with me on my blog at: www.chaotically... or below in the comments section.
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I'm really loving your story time videos! The greenery you speak of admiring in England brings me to tears so often, it's so beautiful!! Thank you for sharing the bit about wishing your younger self had known about all the good stuff that's coming, i really needed to hear that. Sending lots of love as always xxxxx
Powerful and moving video Jen. How very INFP to look back with nostalgia at times long past :)
The end of this video should had actually been: Cheers to another meaningful 5, 10, 20 and more good years.
Right? :)
I like how you ordered the time leaps in the narration.
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Hi! I felt so moved by this video. A lot of what you said resonated with me. I guess the way you talk about what happened in your past is similar to the way I see my past. I’m impressed by your resilience and your strength. Your interior design skills are impressive too. I don’t really post here, I’m more on instagram...but I felt moved to make a video. Though I’m not sure I’ll post.😂 As an almost 47 year old...I can say that the next 10 years will be better. Every decade seems to have its own epiphanies that help us accept who we are and see our place in society. 35 is when we hit the “face our demons age”. Frankly, it’s hard, but if you hang in there...a more balanced self accepting self emerges. I have a feeling that you will emerge glorious! Hope you take this as a loving gesture...as an older INFP who just wants to encourage you. Mostly, because you’re adorable and I wish someone had told me when I was 35. 😂 Have a lovely day, dear! 💜
Ack! I replied to both of your comments last night but they seem to have disappeared overnight!? Ah well :) Thank you Beatrice, I really appreciate your kind comment. Our 30s are also the decade I think we start to truly appreciate the perspectives and wisdom of those a few years older than us (or at least in a deeper way than before) :) What you said about 35 being the age we 'face out demons' rings true for me for sure. I think it did kick off with the beginning of my 30s but this past 6 months I feel like my mind has opened up more than ever before to taking stock of my life, my behaviours, my thought processes and definitely my past in general. Thank you for the encouragement, and the reassurance that there is progress around the corner :) If you do feel comfortable putting up the video, I'd love to watch it.....but I understand if it's not something you're comfortable with :)
I’m really uncomfortable in front of a camera...you’re so much braver! I also have other personal reasons why I can’t put up a public video, though I hope that circumstance will change. ☺️ From much older women than myself, I learned that progress is slow, but steady. At some point, it’s truly wonderful! So I’m still on the path to improvement and I look look forward to being the best version of myself by 50.😂 I hope.☺️
This was beautiful! It felt like I was watching an indie movie.
Thank you Veronica :) It was a very meaningful video for me to make, I'm glad it came across okay for others too :)
Awesome story
Thanks for stopping by N Nowsheen :)
Sooooo what’s up with the vids girl...? I have speculations but yeah....
Hey Sean :) In thinking about what to say in response to you....I wrote a blog post instead cause it was too much for a comment :) chaoticallyme.com/2019/06/15/i-feel/
I'll still be around :) just buckling down the hatches of me for self-preservation and to protect the world from being inundated with any more of my awkward crap and emotional meltdowns...
Hope you're doing okay :) thanks for being my UA-cam friend!
MY BAD!!!! LOL yeah I missed it! Want to talk? Can you call?
Sorry Sean, went into proper hermit mode for a few days there.
Yeah no I get it! I was just worried and open to help if you needed anything (even though I myself do things on my own and don't want outside help - you also probably prefer to do your "own processing" I would assume. Iv'e just been in a lot of these situations that you are in at the moment and have got really good at coming out of them pretty quick. It's just something that you too need to keep dealing with where the more times you do it gets easier.
You're decision with UA-cam is COMPLETELY understandable and something I can clearly see happening to many like minded types like us. If I didn't make videos also then yeah I wouldn't be able to fully understand your thoughts, but since I do I really get what's up! That's the only reason why I offered a little more to ta;l things out because like you said in your blog - everyone around you doesn't get it and just see's Jen running away to make stupid videos... It's extremely lonely when you do something not common and friends and family can be your BIGGEST critics. You do something in life that you feel is a good thing and means something to you if it's something they don't get the words will then come. I have pressed on and on through the surface level comments a ton in life (because I'm always "doing things" not normal, and just something I have lots of experience ignoring. Doesn't mean it's easy and it's EXTREMELY frustrating to feel you are being punished but it's ALWAYS going to come no matter what you choose t do in life. I personally would rather have the critics come doing something I enjoy opposed to having them come and doing something I don't enjoy (or just not doing "anything" period..)
...oh you left a comment just now :)
I appreciate it :) I really do....I'm just terrible at accepting help ;)
Man...you're so right about people not getting the things I do or am passionate about no matter what those things may be. It is lonely doing something different that other's don't necessarily understand...and I appreciate that you totally get it :) The issue here is me caring that a) I'm not the norm and b) what other's think...why can't I just be more resilient and care less about what other's think? It's so exhausting. But on the other hand if I really believed in myself and trusted myself to do a good job and that I was doing something worthwhile then I know I could push past the fear of judgement. I just feel so less than right now, in all aspects. Hopefully this will pass.
Yes, again you're right...much better to be criticised for doing something I'm passionate about than something I care less about but feel might fly under the radar more.
My comment skills are a little lacking right now....it'll all come around again I'm sure :) Thank you again for the thoughtful responses!