Lies I told myself in recovery | not I’ll enough, no weight gain & starting tomorrow
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- Опубліковано 16 лип 2024
- I’ve repetitively been lying to myself throughout my recovery and before I fully committed to it. In this video, I share with you some of the lies I told myself which only held me back to reach the point I am today. I’m aware it’s a bit long but I simply couldn’t cut it any shorter without explaining myself as I wanted to. I sincerely hope you found it helpful to listen to my advice, thoughts and perspective on such sensitive topics as these. Remember, you should always seek professional help if you’re struggling. This is only some of the lies I told myself during my recovery and I’d like to share even more with you, if you find it helpful.
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Timestamps
0:00 opening & disclaimer
1:09 my past and present
1:45 “I will start tomorrow”
2:39 “I am not hungry”
3:50 running injury, Barrys & bmo
5:28 “I don’t need my period”
7:12 “I don’t need to eat more than anyone else”
8:28 resting my mind
9:56 “I don’t need to stop exercising”
11:24 why I can’t run
12:25 “I have gained enough weight”
14:45 cozy evening
15:32 “I am not ill enough”
17:01 final words - Розваги
Sharing this video feels like a breath of fresh air - even though I’m revisiting my past. As mentioned, I feel responsible to share the knowledge I’ve gained through my experience in recovery from an eating disorder with the purpose to help those of you, who need that extra push. I do remember saying I did not want to post more about this certain topic on my channel but what I also learned from making this video is how far I’ve come myself - which I wanted to honor as well.
I’m aware it’s a bit long but I couldn’t cut it any shorter, nor did I want to. I personally think these topics deserves a few minutes at least to be discussed in the best way and I hope by sharing my experiences and perspectives, that you’ve gained the confidence and motivation to to what’s best for you. I’d really love to know, If you’ve experienced the same, agree or even disagree with me - that’s the thing about recovery too. Not a two journeys are the same because not two people are the same.
Let me know if you want me to turn these videos into a series. Thank you for listening xx
Omg yes pls turn this into a series and let me tell you, your videos are never ,too long“ 🙏🏻❤️
We often tell ourselves lies in order to ease our minds, but it is when we sit in the uncomfortable that we truly begin to flourish, if I've learned anything this years is that sitting with ones feelings is so beneficial, instead of trying to push them away and forgetting about them. It is why I do my own UA-cam vlogs giving advice and sharing insights with others is my way of reflecting on my emotions, and the things around me
Thank you for sharing your thoughts, as another content creator I appreciate seeing these types of videos, as people like you can reach so many, my wish for 2024 is to get to a point where I can do the same with the community I have began creating
I'm glad you think so 🥹@@mirchen01
Thank you! I resonate completely with what you're saying@@oxanadc
Have a cookie each time I say 'the biggest lie' or 'I wish I did it sooner'. Enjoy ;)
Does an Easter egg count? Different flavour each time!
lol love it!
absolutely haha! @@liliansmeenge3297
**there is no valid reason for skipping meals** - loved that Katharina! ❤👍
Putting it straight out there!
@@katharinaschneiderr yassss sis 👏👏
Something that I struggled (and still struggle) with in my recovery is falling into traps of disguised restriction, such as intermittent fasting. I became very interested in intermittent fasting this past summer and although I wouldn’t admit it at the time, really I was just looking for some way to restrict myself because after about a year of eating intuitively again I was growing discontent with my eating & my body. I tried intermittent fasting for a few days but I stopped after seeing a video on Abbie the dietician’s channel about how intermittent fasting can mess up women’s periods. I had just gotten my first natural period of my life that summer and I was extremely happy about it so I wasn’t willing to risk losing it again. Looking back at it now, all of the UA-cam videos I had watched on intermittent fasting that inspired me to start were made by men.
I myself believe that everyone should do what feels the best for themselves, but personally, I've only had bad experiences with intermittent fasting. I think this lies deep into the 'setting rules' and controlling my food intake around a certain time, place etc. which only made me feel horrible - and destroyed my hunger signals. It's definitely interesting to know more about the scientific part of it! I'll watch some of that myself. I am SO PROUD for you to get your period back! That is absolutely amazing ❤❤❤
this video is amazing! I love the way you edit, i'm truly inspired by your style and also these lies are ones I told myself and its such a good reminder that we are never alone in these feelings and that we shouldn't fault ourselves for having these thoughts, but they don't need to be listened to ever!
Thank you Jenny. I do appreciate this so much
Thank you for sharing genuinely honest content, these type of videos are helpful and you sharing your personal experience and what you’ve learned helps other young 20 somethings like me not feel so alone going through recovery❤ Inspiring seeing others like you share the ups and downs, and show that growth is possible✨ You are such a genuine creator, thank you for sharing all you do!
I hope you are now at a much better place
Thank you so much. I am so proud to be a leading example and for you to find this comfort, watching my videos and the things you learn from them. I always question myself, if I should even post them - and for what reason. But thank you ! ❤
I remember when I first saw another person struggling and I felt so sad instead of wanting to be that size and I realized wow, this is recovery - knowing that a small body doesn't bring true happiness and that living that lifestyle is just not worth it. It's a journey and I think looking back and reflecting every now again is super helpful. Sending you lots of love and big hugs from Hollywood!! xoxo 🤗❤❤❤
Absolutely! It's definitely something worth mentioning. Love right back! xx
@@katharinaschneiderr 💖💖💖
Love your videos😊. I like that you are so authentic and honest. When I used to struggle I felt so alone and that no one ever talked about these things made me really lonely. It’s so nice to hear about your knowledge and perspective☺️
Thank you so so so much! I'm really happy that you think so. It's really important for me to be relatable, down to earth and comforting. This made me smile
I'm happy that you uploaded a video Katharina I hope everything goes well for you for this week too also keep being a awesome UA-camr because thats what you are to me ❤
Thank you so much! Hope you're doing great too ❤
Wow! Katharina, you are such an encourager and an AMAZING communicator!
This video helped me a lot🙏
Thank you so so so much! I am really glad you say so ! xx
Always love hearing your advice and how you go about problem solving. Inspirational as always! :) Youre making a lot of progress!
Thank you so much:))
You're such a lovely person, I'm loving your videos.
Glad you like them!
this video was beyond helpful for me I related to every single thing u said and I feel so motivated in my recovery after hearing everything u said
I'm glad. Thank you for sharing this with me
Katharina you help me so much, thanks you thank you thank you. Please continue, and especially what I eat in a day and stuff.
I am so so so glad. I definitely will!
This video is very much appreciated. Thank you, Katharina :)
Thank you for telling me ❤
This was also very helpful for me.
I'm in quasy since... yrs. I'm eating less, than others, but I'm thinking all the time about food, meals. I'm soooo hungry (all the time), but I'm restricting at the same time.
I have so many fears, but I want to recover and a normal life with happiness and joy :(
This is insane. :/
I am so sorry for you. However, glad to be able to help you! Please, watch the videos I posted during my weight gain series, I believe they'll motivate you! at least, make you feel like you're not alone. I wish the absolute best - remember, you can achieve so much more than you think
So so much of my thoughts and feelings towards things are exactly as you are explaining. Exercise and recovery is such a hard thing.
It's difficult to find the balance! Seems impossible at times but like anything else, we can achieve what we work towards xx
you're really saving me, it feels like we are talking like friends. thank you thank you thank you for being so brave and sharing
Thank you for letting me know. I'm so glad to be this helpfull! Wish you the best
great video and great reflections!! i’m very happy for you , hugs 🫶🏽🫶🏽
Thank you so much Monica! Hugs for you ❤
2 words: Inspiring and Strong. I can't think of any other words that describe you better❤ Keep fighting. I am cheering for you❤
❤❤❤ I'm all smiles. Thank you!
Thank you so much for posting this! I swear, I've been telling myself all of these lies. I feel like I'm doing better, but I'm actually doing worse, so I think it's time to kick that voice in the butt and tell it to quit lying to me!
Yess, that's the spirit! I'm happy to help you push yourself! Let me know if I can do anything to help you further.!!
@@katharinaschneiderr 💕💕 oh my gosh, thank you so much!!! I really appreciate that
You're welcome!
Loved this! ❤ maybe a video on “unexpected” benefits of recovery? Like more focus on things, able to spend money on yourself…??
That's actually a really great idea! I'll definitely consider that! xx
Thank you so much for this video
You are absolutely welcome
Hi Katharina nice to see you again, hope your new year is going great for you. I hope your food feels better soon sounds like planter fascitis swelling of the tendon going along your food i have had that its very painful for while. Great vlog as always, have you ever thought of becoming a motivational speaker? to girls and guys who may be going threw an eating disorder> I think clients would respond really well to you and your story by educating them on what you have had to do to recover you mentioned at the beginning of your video about a girl you noticed in the gym that seemed to be struggling maybe try reaching out to her slowly maybe you might be able to help her for sure. Love all of your vlogs everything you create. Have a great rest of your week head winds are not helpful thats for sure especially when having to clean up snow.
First of all, thank you! appreciate it. Both yes and no - I was considering it, but I honestly have no idea where to start. I believe I need to look into a relevant study at university or something like that. But that would definitely be interesting and a great achievement for me too, being able to help other people. Thank you for encouraging me ❤
This video is so helpful for me! I agree with all your worlds. I'm struggling with eating disorder, so I need to gain min 8-10kg and I don't want to live in hospital. My doctor said that l have to. Also l want keep long running😢 l'm afraid of weight gain. Your video really help me! Thank you very much❤❤❤
gaining weight = gaining your life back
there is no moral value that we should place on it
you will get to run again, and think of it like this, once your body is recovered you will be even a better runner than before, once you trust your body, and allow yourself to listen to it so it can protect you and nourish you, that is when you become the best version of yourself
you can do it, and you are doing it
keep choosing yourself
and like I often like to remain other with my own UA-cam videos is that baby steps are better than no progress at all, so take it day by day, you will get there to a place that doesn't feel as scary anymore
I've gained 10+ kgs since I started. It was terrifying at first but slowly, as I reached this point, it became easier and easier. Don't worry about the numbers, focus on what you can handle right now. You need to eat, gain your life back and everything will be possible for you again. Thank you for watching ❤
This video is so mind blowing helpful and motivating wow
❤❤ hugs hugs hugs
I don’t have much to say right now, I only want to say thank you❤️
thank YOU ❤
This really made me open my eyes, I’ve lost my period for 3 years now and i have never really cared much about it. The thing is i have no idea how to get it back
I'm glad and sorry for you. My tips for you would be to cut out stressfull things from your life - such as intense exercise. Eat a lot (A LOT!) and give it time. It takes a while for your body to trust you again after longer periods of not having your period, so to speak.
@@katharinaschneiderr thank you love
Thank you so much for this video… I have decided to start recovery yesterday and it is soooooo hard. I feel everything you say and it is so nice not being alone. I am fighting not having to go to the hospital, because I want to try recovery at home. Could you please make more of this kind of videos 😊
dear, I am SO PROUD of you! The decision itself is actually amazing and such a huge step in the right direction! Now is the time to take action. Don't forget to remind yourself, why you chose this. You chose life - YOUR life! I'll be sure to help you the best I can. Hugs ❤
Omg I had the same thing with the Nike running shoes!! I know have a huge bump on the back of my foot that hurts so bad when put pressure on it and my doctor said it will not go away
oh dear, I'm sorry! Not a single person has the same running style as you, hence why shoes are so individual and important to get the right ones. I hope you'll get better with rest!
I like the video and how openly and honest you reflect your own way. But I think you still have some way to go. Please do not overexercise and allow yourself to live your life at home like you did in Japan (prioritising enjoying your life without any training goals). In my opinion the idea of running a marathon does not well go together with your recovery process ... wish you all the best!
Thank you! Have you watched my previous video? I talk about how my workout routine is. I suggest you watch it!
du er så god katharina
Tak
Hey Katharina, I thought you were German because of your surname, but you are living in Denmark. I love your style, I also watched your lookbook video! I also like your earrings and rings! Especially the long earrings, could you give me some info? Have a good day!
I'm Danish. I don't speak a single word German haha! I got my earrings in a shop in Canggu, Bali. So they're not online unfortunately :')
Wait she said she never leaves her house in the morning without eating first but she then showed how she had breakfast after leaving her workout class
Yet I wonder how you did not notice the first minute of the video? I suggest you rewatch it :)
I for a long time tried to loose weight (because I was overweight) and told myself the exact same lie: I’m gonna start tomorrow. It never worked because of this ‘better time better place’ idea. So it’s the other way around (loosing weight) but the brain works kinda the same way. Quite interesting.
know that you don't have to lose weight, we need to start learning to work with our bodies instead of against it, start trying to listen to it and become intuine with its needs, all it is doing is trying to protect us
@@oxanadc true, I needed to loose weight because it became unhealthy
@@liliansmeenge3297 the most Important thing is that you do it from a place of self care ☺️😘
I think we tend to hold back on a lot of things in life because of procrastination. Weight gain/loss, cleaning, signing up for something, getting that job done or whatever. It's all mental!
I am anorexic and idk how to get my period back, I lost them 2 months ago (i don't think it's a delay bc I usually have them all three weeks) and unconsciously I'm denying the dangerosity of this lost. I know I have to recover to get them back but it'll take too much time. If someone have any solutions, please help me!
Hi dear, thank you for reaching out! The inconsistent periods is completely normal - happens to me too. My doctor told me it's because my(your) body is stressed and in the need of finding balance. It'll happen, slowly!
My advice for you is to keep eating and resting. If I slip away from a 'normal' routine of eating and resting, my body reacts crazy and my period gets messed up again. Consistency is key, making your body trust you again, literally!
How long did you stop exercising?
almost 2 months !
i get my period then i’m losing it again i’m so tired of this😭
Happened to me as well. It's horrible! However, it's a sign from your body that you need to keep eating, fueling, resting and can't turn around, back to how things were. Fingers crossed for you
have you gotten your period back for "real" or is it from taking HRT?
As mentioned in previous videos, I quit the HRT months ago after regaining my period. It has continued ‘for real’ since then but a bit irregularly as expected :)
that's great - keep going!@@katharinaschneiderr
sorry but why do you put the sauce pan back on a hot stove?.... you ruin the sauce pan's lifetime a lot quicker!!😬 also concerning your injury - im sorry for you! recommend swimming or aqua jogging or spinning, as it won't put pressure on your foot while doing it!:)
p.s. its fulfilment (not fulfillness) :-)))
It's butter, not sauce, to make the eggs not stick!
Really enjoyed the video (as always!), thankyou you, are the best❤. I recognise so many of the thing you say, but luckely i am doing really well now! When I first starting watching you, I was still really deep into my ED but you have really helped me along the way with staying true to myself. Your kind en warming precense makes your videos like speaking to a friend🫶
Proud of you! ❤
so proud of you for choosing yourself, also if you need any positive affirmations I have one video on my youtbe channel about body image and staying true to yourself that I think you will love, if u want to check it out 😄
You're so kind, thank you. I am really glad you told me this ❤❤