dealing with weight gain - following doctor's orders
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- Опубліковано 6 лип 2024
- Nervous, excited, thrilled but most importantly happy to share this second part of my weight gain series with you guys. I hope you enjoy this one as much as the first one. Hopefully this is able to help some of you who also struggle, pushing you in the right direction xx
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0:00 intro
0:36 what the doctor said
4:45 I'm only human
5:29 pulling the breaks
6:21 remind yourself why
8:32 blood tests
8:47 holding myself back
9:24 when my mind yells at me
10:19 the workout
11:23 test results
14:06 I felt the pain
15:04 don't blame the body
18:26 final words (for now) - Розваги
Nervous, excited, thrilled but most importantly happy to share this second part of my weight gain series with you guys. I hope you enjoy this one as much as the first one. Hopefully this is able to help some of you who also struggle, pushing you in the right direction xx
❤ so much love, its fucking hard but you are incredible. Do you have a support system apart from drs, like family/friends to help w the anxiety and just fears?
And you can regain your health, due to both severe anxiety and my ed mine (period) has been gone for way too long, I dont even want to say 😢 but you can do this xox ps sorry for so many comments 😂
Your future self is cheering you on
I've recently gained some weight due to eating disorder recovery and the fact that I have someone online going through the same process makes it so much easier. It is weight restoration, not just weight gain. Love this series.
You're right. And I feel that it only gets easier and easier.. xx
I never comment on videos, however I’ve been watching your videos for a while and honestly you’re such an inspiration. Tonight I’ve finally decided I want to properly recover and get rid of this ED. Thank you for showing the reality of recovering and showing that it is possible! I now know that it is better to gain weight than live a life full of regret.
This genuinely brings tears to my eyes. I am so so SO beyond happy, proud and just lost for words. This is exactly why I do what I do. We have got this!!!
You got this! Thank you for being so honest on your journey. I promise you it gets easier! 💛
Your openness is so lovely, thank you for trusting us!! Super excited to see your progress ❤
so proud of you! such an inspiration how u keep urself accountable even if it is tough ❤
Tysm Paulina
You got this Katharina! Amd thank you for sharing these sensitive topics with us.
xx Thank you!
It’s so incredibly strong showing us -strangers- the worst weaknesses. Never saw anybody so honest, reflected and strong. Lots of love for you on your way! Imagine yourself looking back in a few months at this moments and being so damn proud
I've got wet yes. Thank you xx
im just so proud of you for pushing through, at the end- its all worth it, i swear
Thank you so much 🫶🏼
I can't even express how helpful your videos are. Thank you.
xx made me smile
my period has also been gone for around 6 months, so I am also on the recovery journey, it makes it less difficult to know that I am not the only one going through this. stay positive and keep pushing katharina, it's going to be okay
you're definitely not alone. Let's beat this xx
Same
Keep going!! Sending all the love possible, you can do this☺️🙏🏻 you should be proud of you for what you have done already!! You’ve got this😉
Thank you so so so much ❤️
I think you're doing fantastic! Thoughts can be really selfdestructive somethimes, im so proud for you fighting through it! Excited to follow along on upcoming videos 😃
Thank you so much! Made me happy!!
Thank you so much for sharing this! It is really easy to stop doing what your doing if you aren't accountable via youtube so I hope you continue your journey and update us when you are healthy.
Believe me, I will!
Really appreciate you being so open and honest about this very sensitive journey. I am cheering for you wholeheartedly!
Thank you so much! 🫶🏼
You’re incredibly brave. Lots of love. You got this!!
xx right back!
so proud of you 🥰 sending lots of love xx
Thank you Katharina for your bravery to share your journey and vulnerability - it’s truely inspirational.
I have no doubt that you videos can help a lot of people, who has similar struggles to yours.
You're welcome. I find so much pleasure in being able to inspire you!
i’m so proud of you sweetheart! thank you for being so open and vulnerable
Thank you so much
im really proud of you for pushing through , and thank you for sharing this with us ive been thinking of recovery and weight gain so much now and im really nervous but you helped me a lot and motivated me so. much
You can do this!!
You’re genuinely so amazing! Such an inspirational girl:) I really hope you bought that blue top because you looked lovely in it! I’ve been keeping up with your journey and I wish you all the best! We believe in you ❤
Thank you so much!! This means a lot to me ❤️
I really appreciate you sharing and I am wishing you all the best and sending all the strength your way. You have such a beautiful soul and you deserve to be free from this horrible disease xx I know how hard it is and I am still in recovery myself. You will be such a stronger person every day you fight it xx here fro you always
got a lil' emotional reading this. Thank you Helena
You are such an inspiration
Sharing your story and being vulnerable is never easy
Super proud of you and you look stunning 💙
Thank you so much
You are so strong and such an inspiration, Katharina. It is incredibly brave to talk openly about this and share your struggles and triumphs with us. Keep going, each step is a step forward and you have already made so much progress. ❤
Thank you so much Philippa. I'm really happy to be reading this comment today
Your mental strength is so admirable! Wow !! Thank you for sharing, you are beautiful inside and out, strong and a huge inspiration ❤️
❤️ thank you so much
you out everything that i’m feeling about my new bodies in words AND put a positive spin on how we can look it at. thank you 🙏🏾 we’ve got this
You are just so beautifull as a person and that's what shines through no matter what you look like on the outside. And don't worry about what topic you make your videos on, I just love watching them! You go girl!💪💕
Thank you so so much! I appreciate it
Im glad you post this im currently recovering and its feel uncomfortable just gaining weight and seeing your body changes but this helps me to keep on going ❤🎆
Im happy you find comfort in my videos ❤️ keep going, it’ll be worth it! xx
Thank you so much. I feel so alone, but you are such an inspiration. Everyday is a battle. We’re in this together ❤
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Sharing this shows your strength, truly wishing you only the best in your health-journey ❤️
thank you so much ❤
Thank you for sharing this with us. You are stronger than you know ❤
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Girll u discovered Your channel about 2 weeks ago and.. i’m in love i love watching You and You’re really big motivation for me. I also have ed and You make me feel so much better!! THANK YOU ❤😘💗😍😭🥹
Aww thank you! It truly makes me so happy!!
Keep going, you can do that! It’s not always easy, but you can be very proud of what you’ve already achieved and what you will achieve in the future.
Thank you so much!!🫶🏼
Lovely video as always :) You're very brave for sharing your journey! I'm sure this helps many people who come across your videos. x
Thank you so much Agnes xx
Ed Recovery world honestly needed a channel like yours! I watched all your videos and it helps so much! Very sad i just watched the last one for a while but I applaud you for making the best decision for your health.
this made me so happy to read. Thank you so so so much. But don't fear! It won't be the last one:) I'm just taking a step back to document every, single week
I believe in you and wish you the best and all the strength you need ❤️❤️ thank you for sharing this
You're welcome xx Tysm
You are a beautiful human being… ❤️ nothing but love and support for you…. Growing up is never easy… learning to love yourself is even harder…
tysm
I believe in you. You seem to have some raw grit and determination about you. You got this.
such a wonderful comment. thank you
I am so proud of you, you are very strong. Personally I can't imagine how scary this journey is and you are doing so well. I know there are lots of struggles you are facing right now and things on your mind but we are all rooting for you and you got this! This is a side note but you remind me of Rapunzel from Tangled a lot you are so pretty, your hair and facial features remind me of her a lot, plus your sense of adventure with traveling.
You’re so kind, thank you! It’s tough yes but it’s what makes me change :) xx
This helps me so much because I'm very scared to regain weight and get my period back... but you help so much with your pureness and you are amazing! Keep fighting ❤
You keep going! I'm so proud
I applaud you for sharing such a journey on the internet, and you don’t know how much it is positively making an impact on other young girls who are going through similar journeys. I am also in ed recovery and in the process of gaining weight (for the 2nd time) and it’s scary but I find comfort in living this experience with you. I relate to everything you say and it inspires me to keep going, weight gain can be a beautiful thing! and you are so gorgeous!! Lots of love ❤️ xxx
This genuinely put such a huge smile on my face. Thank you Gabrielle, I'm so happy that you find my videos motivating and a way to push you in the right direction. We've got this xx
thank u so so much for being so open cause I'm struggling the same thing just right now... My weight has gone up and I can't look at myself in the mirror, I just see the different person... Thanks, u show that every change is matter, it gives the power to continue cause the other time u just don't believe in urself and think u r ugly and don't deserve anything in this life... U r so strong, u give powers to all of us who struggle, who don't believe and who r still trying to love our new bodies
Thank you for your kind words xx I really hope you find the power to keep going and push through!!
What a beautiful person it’s so hard to fight ED but your really really brave and I know you can do this ❤
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I am rooting for you!!! You can do it!!!
Thank youuu!
Thank you for your vulnerability, Katharina! In case it’s any comfort to you: My mom also struggled with anorexia in her 20s and had the same medical condition that you have now. She was also told by her doctor to gain weight, so that her hormones will break down the cysts. She did and has five kids now. Miracles are possible, I’m praying for you!🙌🏻❤️
I absolutely needed this Elizabeth!! Thank you so much for sharing her story. I’ll keep going❤️❤️
Your story really touched me, I think what many forget is that eds are illnesses. It can be hard not to blame a loved one for hurting themselves (or blame yourself for the damage done). But its not you, its the disorder whos in control. And you just have to keep pushing to get back infront of the wheel. Keep going even when you relapse, keep going even when all feels hopeless. I belive in you! One day at a time. Slowly. And remember: recovery is NEVER linear. Keep safe
Oh, I felt the same sh...t during my real recovery. Up and down, good and bad days, fears. I cried a lot, but I'm healthy now. I know, now is so hard, but it will be better day after day. Be strong (mentally also), and fight :) You are stronger, than your ED.
❤️❤️ we’ve got this!
Yes keep us updated you can do it
i will x
It takes a lot of strength to do what you are doing. I feel like i’m living the opposite where i ve mistreated my body by eating too much for years and now i’ m trying my best to eat healthier and exercise for my health.
It’s all about finding balance, regardless if you’re trying to gain or lose weight. Same terms applies. You’ve got this too!
soo proud of you for sticking to it
jeg er så stolt af dig! du er så sej!
jeg kæmpede selv med at acceptere at min krop ændrede sig, men jeg er så meget mere tilpas i min krop nu hvor jeg er helt recovered! så det er mega worth it❤️❤️
Tusind tak Lucca
As a 15 (soon 16) year old girl, who is trying to recover from very bad anorexia, this is very helpful
Wish you the best
hii katharina, my name is theodora and I wanted to tell you that even though I don't know you, I somehow feel so close to you and your journey, recovery, travels, etc. you quickly became one of my favourite youtubers and you're a huge inspiration for me. I want to thank you for sharing your true, authentic self. I don't feel alone anymore, I've been struggling with secondary amenorrhea for years and only lately, in the past couple of months I committed to recovery. I can't explain how helpful it is to be reminded of what my main goal should be: health. We're in this together and we're so strong, we are getting out of this bullshit and I am so proud of you and everyone on this journey with us. There's not much genuine talk about this topic and one may not even think about what consequences may follow if this issue is avoided on a day to day basis. thanks to you, I can hold myself more accountable in an environment that is many times triggering/harmful for recovery.
I am sending you so much love,
theodora
I resonate a 100% with everything you said. I'm so proud of you to keep going, pushing and move forward. It's tought but rewarding - let's do this together! Hugs xx
Thank you for sharing these difficult moments... We all go through this period and we need someone to be with us and challenge the same difficulties... Caring for the body is important, especially as a female...
I am 16 years old and I lost my period for almost more than two years ago... I hope that I will recover from that and that losing it will not affect my future...
You’re welcome. Im sorry to hear about your situation.. but let’s find the motivation to keep going xx
You are so brave sharing this babe! ❤
Thank you !
i don't know you but i've been watching your videos for quite some time now and i think you have such a kind and honest energy around you.
I'm so glad! This made me really happy
Baby u r an inspiration!
Remember when all of this began past u will understand that u r the strongest person u have ever know!
My period had gone for so many months and for me reinstate the food was a continuos pain because my body didn't want to hold on and continued to vomiting all for 😅
Now im healty.
I belive in you and i wanna see the happiness that grown with your healty in your video ❤️
With love baby ❤️
thank you
Stay strong, girl. You've got this.
I’m so proud of you ❤
❤️ thank you!
åh ska också ge mig själv ett smycke, va fin idé! x
så ledsen att du ser dig själv som stor... galet vad tankarna kan få en att tro. Allt sitter verkligen bara i ditt huvud, du är otroligt smal tjejen!
It's all in my mind - which is crazy, I can tell when I rewatch this. Unbelievable. If you get something, let me know! I'm sure you can find something beautiful xx
You are so brave and doing so well. A
Sending you love and blessings.
tysm
i know it’s so scary, but you are gaining so much more than weight! you’re gaining your life back honestly, i never understood what people meant when they said that to me during recovery but now i’m almost fully recovered mentally i can see how much i gained once i gained weight. we are so much more interesting than what our bodies look like, just try to remember that ❤
You're right! I feel more alive the more I gain. And that's what motivates me!! I just have to learn not to listen to the voice, yelling at me. It has become easier, thankfully.
Ah Katharina I’m so sorry for what you are going through but please don’t blame yourself. It’s absolutely not your fault! And eating disorders are monsters to fight! But you are taking responsibility and if you keep going at your own pace, it will gradually get easier and the ED voice will be quieter. The jewellery is beautiful by the way - as are you, inside and out. Thank you for sharing. I’m sorry you’re leaving for a while but glad you are focusing on your recovery. Keep going - you’re doing amazing! 💪🏼🌟💕 🌈 And I loved the end to this video! Yay!! 😁
Thank you for your comment Joanna, I truly appreciate it.
Blue top fits you super good!
Thank you :')
Just know no one sees the change, except you. I don’t think anyone sees any difference. Proud of you:)
thank you Puck
It's such a uncomfortable feeling. I get ya. But it's well worth it in the long run! Also, everytime it happens, just embrace that your body is functioning the way it is, not focusing on the way it looks! Being able to move your bones, skin, etc!
You're right! Food to function :)
You‘re so strong. Keep going ❤
Will xx
thank you so much for sharing your condition with the cysts. I know it’s personal so it must have felt scary but it’s important for women to know all the possible impacts of being underweight. you could save a woman’s fertility or even life with this video.❤
That’s exactly why I do what I do. Hopefully I’m able to 🤞🏼
God bless beautiful!! We are all so proud!! 🙏🏼🤍
im gonna miss youuu!! get some rest and focus on yourselfff❤❤❤❤
More videos soon!
me and my cat love your vids! when she hears your voice she immediately jumps up and starts meowing until i let her watch with me
I am much of a cat person and I find this adorable :')
You are so strong ❤ keep going ❤❤❤❤
tysm
I love your videos! you are very brave!
i hope you to continue healing
love from argentina 😘
Wish u well❤ u such a sunshine🥰
Thank you ❤
Loved this video! I have so much faith in you that you will get back to being healthy!! You can do it! 🩷 also are the earrings with the little beads dangling from them from the website you mentioned also? Or are those from somewhere different? I love them so much!!
You're so kind!! I can refer you to this page here to try and look up some similar ones as I can't find the exact ones you mentioned xx agape-studio.com?dt_id=387149
Love love love
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Hey :)
Just wanna share some personal experience concerning secondary amenorrhea..
I lost my period for seven years, during hunger and overexercising periods and i got it back last year. I tried a lot, visited many doctors, but in the end all that helped was gaining weight. I'm really grateful that my body recovered and I just wanna spread some hope, that healing is worth it and possible!
Sneding you strength from Berlin, Germany!
sounds like what I'm going through.Can't wait until I get there xx
I hope that making this videos isn't making things more difficult for you in this tough process that you're on right now. Just to let you know that your videos help many people, but you can keep some things private if you want to or if you don't feel fully comfortable!
Thank you, really
I totally think it is the right decision to step back from this content for a long while, as you can focus in private and still update us eventually -no negative responses or any thing that is really difficult can interfere. You can also focus on more fun stuff which is probably the kind of content that is better for long term channel growth as you are so much more than than an ED channel, so much more! even though that is helpful too, Have a nice week!
Happy that's the way you responded to what I was trying to say! I'm so excited to post more about other stuff too as I've got 10000 ideas in my mind :') take care xx
Good luck you will smash this! 🎉 a good tip I used for balancing my hormones was to have a lot of protein and fat at breakfast … not sure if that’s helpful but it worked with me helping me regulate my hormones 🌸 ❤sending love ❤
I'll be sure to get my daily intake (and more!
you are wonderful and brave
❤️❤️ thank you!
I genuinely think we could be good friends ahaha I resonate with the way you move around life having seen your previous travel videos... I do feel the same regarding when you feel you belong to a certain country besides from your own or this kinda fire inside to want to expand elsewhere. Idk, I could go on more but just a thought ❤
Thx for your videos and vulnerability, I enjoy them and love your editing!
Hugs from Costa Rica 🦋
Made me super happy to read this! Text me on insta if you want
I know how you feel hunni I have sever exercise addiction and also anorexia 22 years we need to fight we have to so hard xx
let's beat it!
I hope you got the blue top! You looked so pretty in it!
ahh I didn't, I chickened out :')
@@katharinaschneiderr ahh! If it is meant to be you will see it again somewhere 😊🧐
You’re right 🥹
This video is the perfect example that everybodu can recover from Ed. By myself, i have had ed since the age of 12 and I still haven't recovered yet. I lost my period, i lost weight and overall, i lost happines. the relationship I have with food is exausting, bingind and purging then starving. but when i try to gaing weight and see that I'm bloated, makes me go to starve again. but this video incpired me that if I want to gain weight, I'll do.
Have you thought about stop exercising in your recovery? 🙈 because the fact that accepting the changes is so hard for you to deal with kinda shows that it’s also part of the Ed that wants to go to the gym and exercise 😢 but correct me if I am wrong ❤ nut I am very proud that you sticked to ur plan given by the doctor!
As long as she is not over exercising working out is a good idea. Keeping up muscle mass is healthy. It's also really good for your lungs heart and brain.
I thought about it but no - it has taken me a while to realize but personally, it depends on my reasons as to why I exercise. I don't do it to punish myself (anymore) but because I've found a new source of energy that I want to put into use. I don't work out as much as I did in the past (by far) which is a huge step xx For me, it works. Thank you for your concerns
@@katharinaschneiderr I am so glad! We can do anything addictively. Eat, not eat, read, exercise, drink, etc. It's so important to self analyze and do these things in moderation.
Absolutely!!! Believe me, it has taken me such a long time to do that. And it has been hard to admit that I used to do it for the wrong reasons. But thankfully, everyone is able to change their mindset for the better. It just takes a lot of strength and willpower :’)
@@katharinaschneiderr totally. I am a food addict. I lost 50 pounds. I wanted to lose more but my husband begged me to stop. Which made me realize that maybe I was trying to take it too far. I have body dysmorphia like so many women out there. I am addicted to flour and sugar. I started gaining some of the weight back. Now I have to be really firm with myself and not allow myself to have it at all because I can't control myself around it. But I have learned the power of mind control. As soon as those creeping thoughts come in I immediately shut them down and tell myself out loud what I want my brain to think. If that makes any sense 😁.
I am sure this video was very difficult to log. I commend you for telling your story im sure without a doubt your story will help someone else in the same situation. That is great the your doctor is so involved in your care and giving you the besr care possible just keep following th orders you are are making progress everyday, here to support you as much as I can. I do want to ask what music do you like to listen to when you are in th gym or on the train commuting?
It definitely wasn't easy. But worth it! I listen to various music, depending on my mood :)
You are so naturally gorgeous 😍 real beauty
Thank you :')
Apologies in advance as I have only seen a few of your videos so dont know the full story but would totally recommend seeing a psychologist.
It took me 6 months of eating properly to regain my period but it's worth it!
I’ve already done that and I decided to quit it, back in 2021. Ever since I quit it, I started putting on weight. I’ll do en entire video dedicated solely to my history anorexia to make you understand better xx
You look so good. Hopefully you can recover on your own.
I believe I can 💪🏼💪🏼
Sending care! I also want to let everyone know that even if you don't get your period due to ED, there is still a chance (though smaller) of pregnancy- just don't want anyone getting a surprise pregnancy :)
true :) I’m just focusing on making my body function properly again xx
Du virker så sød ❤ bliv ved selvom det bliver hårdt.
det gør jeg
Katherina i just wanna say that i am really proud of you! Know that (even when it seems impossible right now) when you keep fighting against your eating disorder, keep on gaining weight and try to see youre body as a magnifical machine that is working so hard for you that it deserves to be loved, your body dismorphia will disappear and you will be happy with your body and mind in the future♡ i just want you to be free and healthy. I will ask Jesus to make you strong to fight against and overcome your eating disorder! He loves you and helps you when you are weak!
I needed to hear this, right now. Thank you
Rooting for you from california
That blue looks absolutely gorgeous with your skin tone and hair!
And your English is soo good I can’t believe it.. I’ve been living in Austria for 2.5 years and it’s still very difficult for me to speak about medical stuff or complicated topics. Did you live in an English speaking country?
You're so kind, thank you! I live in Denmark :)
@@katharinaschneiderr amazing! I can imagine all the hours of hard work that went into getting to that level. Definitely inspiring me to keep going with German
@@katharinaschneiderr good luck with your journey over the next few months; I will remember you in my prayers. We are all so proud of you!
I am proud of you too!
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The way you talk so kindly about to comment nicely and that you are being vulnerable is so kind of you and shows what a good-hearted person you are. Even the way you are talking I can tell you truly do want to recover but it is extremely hard. I know exercise feels healthy and like part of the routine but I STRONGLY suggest taking a short break to prove to yourself you CAN do it mentally and it will also be great for getting your period back AND you can be refreshed and stronger to return to it. You have to do it for YOU though, not because anybody else it telling you, but because you have thought it through and realised that is is something worth doing!
also im currenly trying to do it to so its so Nice to have someone doing it with me because its so mentally hard. Its also really hard feeling like there's something wrong with me not having my period yet either but I will get there
I feel that you see right through me and it feels amazing. We've got this together!
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I lost my period too due to overexercising and undereating, it was terrible! i lost it for almost a year, then i got it back naturally just in January!! i was 55-56kg and exercising 4-5 times a week, mind you, i am 173cm, i wasn't technically underweight, but i was definitely about to be, the way i got it back is by quitting any form of exercise for two weeks, literally, cold turkey. The Max exercise i did was walk. second thing I did was i started my weight gaining journey since November last year, i gained about 4-5kg, and when i quit sports in January for just two weeks that's when i got it! please take care of yourselves and eat loooots of healthy fats! I'm a competitive CrossFit athlete so i burn a lot, i now eat a jar of peanut butter each week, lol (not joking, i actually finish up half a kilo of peanut butter by myself in one week), for reference i am 61 kilos now! Don't be scared from the weight! I promise you, the energy, the strength and the quality of sleep you will get will be irreplaceable, it will be SO rewarding. i am back to exercising 4-5 times a week, more intensely than before and i have 10 times the energy and my period is always on track.
Thank you for sharing your story - it gives me hope. A lot of it xx I'm not scared by the number at all. To me it's all about being healthy - wether that would be at 55, 60 or 65+ kgs. It's all in my mind that I need to look at myself in a healthy way and live a sustainable life xx
And now im craving pb hehe
Hey, hang in there, you will be good
I Will 🤞🏼