I have attempted a couple of times and been suicidal since I was 10 years old. I was born disabled and sick. Now I am just more disabled and sick with cancer, autoimmune and other chronic illnesses. I have never really found a purpose until I realised that just being me is inspiring others.I hope the train driver also got help, I can't imagine what they went through knowing they hit a person. Suicide is just really sad all around. I am glad you shared your story.
Hi iSheree, It’s 2:30 in the morning and I just happened onto watching Kristen’s video. It was very difficult story to hear, but I kept being drawn to the end as she closed her remarks she just left me smiling very warmly here all by myself. And then I thought, I’d like to know what others have commented. And then I read your words and my heart tore for you, and your suffering such things so painful and inescapable so long as there’s breath in your body. Like me. I’m living, as a friend once shared with me: Moment to moment. Breath to breath. Maybe also like you, people don’t know what to say to me. It’s uncomfortable and awkward for both of us. Would you pray with me now? Lord God, have mercy on us. Show us the way forward, the way through the things that afflict us, and threaten to take our life. Give us peace from thoughts that would lead us alone into the darkness where we can be badly hurt, thoughts that we must not entertain. But more than that, be the light to our feet, as you promise. Give us the energy to fight on, the courage and strength to live, and the gift of faith and trust in you, your word and promises to us those who are called to believe in you alone, holy God, our father and Lord Jesus our savior. Amen. I didn’t know what I was going to write, I was afraid to make mistake. I’m glad I dared to trust God for the good purposes, he has for us both, which is whatever will bring him the greatest glory. Imagine that.
I am so sorry for your loss. My younger sister lost her youngest son to suicide and it made her lose her mind from grief. She drank herself to death within a year. She died a horrible death from currhosis. Losing them both destroyed the entire family for many years, but seven years later, I am accepting that this is my life without them both and I am doing much better with my grief after years of therapy.I am so glad that you are still here.
@@colinwee9981God loves people. He didn't cause their deaths. He gives everyone free will. It breaks His heart when we make wrong choices. Choose Jesus Christ. ❤
@@PinkSoldier2009 Genesis 2:7 says that God breathed life into man, stating, "And the LORD God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and man became a living being"
I was always told, “never make permanent decisions about temporary things “. This one statement has helped me tremendously through life. Thank you for sharing your story. Bless you and your family.
This is a cautionary tale for parents. I understand grounding but peers are more important than family for teens. Studies have shown this. Be careful taking away your teens whole world. Also shame is a very damaging emotion esp for a vulnerable teen. Do NOT shame children (eg do you know what you put me through? We waited all night worried sick). Teens are so vulnerable. We have to treat them like the aliens they are. And I say this with love ❤️
Bless you and your story. I watched your first telling from five years ago and am so glad you are still here and continue strong and devoted to the mission you and God decided was yours. I am 82 years old and have had depression and suicidal thinkingpretty much of my life. God and I decided that I was going to become a wounded caregiver and slowly found my way into serving as a psychiatric nurse. Patients resonated with my desire to give them hope. While I was finding my way, my beloved sister, came to the hospital I worked in with a gunshot wound to her head. The police ruled it a suicide. I was able to sit with her unconscious body for the three days it took her strong young body to follow her hopelessly dead brain. We were so close, and the loss so great. The lesson it taught me was that I could never bring so much sorrow to my family for any reason. I made sure to let those close to me know that. I would not take that option. I promised them that I would not consider it an option. In spite of further family tragedy I have kept that promise. I fortunately had a Psychiatrist who.did his internship on our mental health unit and he and I fought the good battle. I would never have wanted to disappoint him, because I gave him that promise also. I have Seasonal Affective Disorder, and suffer depressions in spring and fall. But I'm still here far older than I thought because of a disastrous physical set of diagnoses. I am comfortable with dying in God's good timing as I still have my mind and the desire to love and bring healing if I can. Your story touched me greatly. There are wonderful people with wonderful stories that I can hear through you tube as I am not able to be out in the world much. I have a beloved daughter with whom I live. Family that is still undergoing their own struggles and I will continue to.love and forgive, as I hope that they will do so for me. Keep up your good fight,too. Glad that I could hear your story from five years ago and recognize your face on this latest podcast. God bless you.
Karen- Your story touched me very deeply too. You are an amazing strong woman and your long life, despite all the struggles, is testimony to that. I am glad you are here & thank you for sharing your story. God bless you ❤🙏❤
@Karenshields395? Your story is remarkable. I cannot imagine living with depression until 82. I cannot imagine having a family member take their own life. This is absolutely devastating! You must be an incredibly strong person with good skills for managing your depression. I'm glad that you are still with us, living every day, moment by moment.❤
As someone who has struggled with trying to not commit suicide your story very much touched my heart/mind. I had a wonderful life until my 40s & due to circumstances I still don’t fully understand one day I found myself in my bed crying out telling my brain to stop trying to get me to take my life. All I knew in that moment is of if I stayed in bed then I wouldn’t be able to hurt myself I fought very hard against my own brain telling me horrible lies. Thankfully I won. It’s so surreal to try to explain to someone who never had thoughts like that. Anyway, thanks for sharing your story
@@lynndinovo3500 No, I had been experiencing some odd behaviors for awhile. After that incident which happened days after losing my dad to cancer who I loved dearly I had a full on hallucination where was also extremely terrifying. However, in the moment I truly believed what was happening was real. I actually recorded the hallucination cause I knew I’d need proof for the police. So we had the entire episode on video. After that I went to a psychiatrist scared thinking I did have something like schizophrenia. After a work up & testing they found that I was taking a medication I shouldn’t be on due to not being able to break it down therefore it was at toxic levels in my system. So they said it was a mix of the medication (Trazadone originally prescribed to help me sleep) & the extreme stress causing these bizarre episodes. I was weened off the medication & haven’t experienced any other episodes. This all happened in 2022. I did all things I’ve been taught I told my family what was happening & I was honest with my doctors immediately which I think is what helped me survive. My full story is much longer with many details which I hope to share one day if I get brave enough.
I think it is worse than losing someone we love. It's simply a living he'll that seems to never end 😂😂 I only wish it to people that abuse a child. I'm happy to you still here to tell. God bless you 🙏
@@lynndinovo3500 I answered your question regarding if it was a symptom of schizophrenia, but either the channel host or UA-cam removed my very long detailed response. No, mine was due to extreme stress & a medication that my body couldn’t break down so it be came toxic in my system. After weaning off that medication & I was able to work through some of the trauma I had experienced that was happening at that time in my life I started doing much better. It hadn’t happened again.
Your story hit me more and harder then you know you truly have saved ppl from making that same decision! (At least me today) Bc all the videos in the world sometimes just don't work! Yours thank the lord opened mine and I'm a single mother with two boys so thank you from the bottom of my heart today❤
🥹🥲🙏🩷🩷🩷 so proud of you. I totally empathize as well. I struggle with very severe depression and horrible chronic pain. It’s an uphill battle every day and I’m scared for my future, but I’m trying to hang onto hope and find my purpose in life. Sending lots of love and positive energy your way. We have to keep fighting.🙏🕊️💐🩵💙🌷🌸🌹
@@robynashley6083 thank you and stay strong bc I have deep faith in you and every day makes us stronger and we are here for a reason! Sometimes it feels like there's not a god enough reason but we will find out what it is and be grateful that we stuck it out!!!
The fact that you are looking for videos to help you not do anything to yourself perhaps God is guiding you to these videos. I had the video suggested while watching near death experiences and afterlife visions and although only my left ear got to enjoy this video it was a nice thing to hear. Especially her hearing Amazing Grace being played in her ears.
I am almost 69 yrs old. A long story short..I am disabled and homebound. The reason is due to childhood abuse and now because of it, I have 8 rods in my back, a cage and titanium plate in my neck, a titanium plate in my left foot, many, many diagnoses all stem from childhood beatings. My drs are amazed that I don’t struggle with depression. I have always had a very strong faith and I agree we are all here for a purpose! God is not finished with me yet. You are here to encourage others. I am proud of you! Please know you are here because God is not ready for you yet.
I know it had to be hard to tell your story. Thank you for sharing. January 2nd is my birthday, and that opens my eyes to the pain that people can be going through. I do know in my heart, there is a reason why you're still here. Your story could save so many lives. Thank you again for sharing. My husband took his life on December 4, 2015...on our 22nd anniversary. Our boys were 25, 15, and 11 at the time. Our lives have been torn apart since then. Our children blame me for his death. I haven't seen or talked to them in over two years. I have a grandson that I'm not allowed to see. I carry that like a backpack, and the load gets really heavy.
Thank you. I am Homeless. Its a Very Hard Journey. Shelter mental health Justice system Fails our Family. I know suicide all to Well. Thank you for Talking about your Story. I can Relate to you. I am Glad your here in the World. You matter to me. Love you. ♥ mama D
Ive worked in nursing homes, and had several residents who attempted suicide. Never is that an answer to our problems! Im glad to know you survived, and doing well. ❤
My Sister had a stroke, she didn’t have any money so the hospital released her to a State run Nursing Home. It was terrible, the food always arrived cold, she would need pain medication and it took the nurse several hours to bring her the prescription. She had to actually call 911 twice because she needed bedding because she couldn’t get anyone to assist her. A Chinese man actually managed to take his life there and nobody cared. My Sister was constipated and the male nurse didn’t use any lubricants when inserting into her bottom, hurt her for days. She would wake up with patients at her bedside just looking at her. The place shut down for about six months, but it’s been re-opened. It’s been about a year since she left, but she said there were times there that she didn’t care if she died because she wouldn’t be there.
Thanks for your service. I also have worked in nursing homes for many years. Perhaps many of your co-workers are pro-death-with-dignity/pro-personal autonomy. I know I am. I wouldn't recommend suicide. However, if a person is suffering beyond the pale, then they should have a choice with the proper ethical & legal parameters in place to end their suffering. It's merciful to allow people their personal autonomy. I understand, like the kind lady said in the video, she need to take a all-approach to unaliving herself off the table for herself & family. Tho everyone has their unique situations. It seems unethical to force those who do not desire it to waste away in a nursing home or in terrible pain. However, hopefully not, If being tortured, perhaps you or many other people would reconsider their 'never' approach to this very nuanced issue.
@@davidgabrie1302 as someone who is going into healthcare this is such a horrific story. No human being should ever be treated this way, I'm so sorry your sister suffered like that.
Excellent video. Brought back memories of contemplating suicide as a teenager and again in my early 20s. It makes me happy to realize that I have been suicidal ideation free for years now. I wish I could tell younger me how life is now. She would be relieved to know that alcohol and drugs don't control her life anymore.
Hi Kristen You are truly a light . Sharing your story ,I know is so hard. But, so important to share. I see a strong and beautiful woman. I’m so proud of you For speaking about what you have been through.I’m so very happy you are still here. I lost my son , Kyle to suicide, 4 years ago. He was 21 My life is forever changed and my soul ❤ Sending hugs and prayers for you and your family.. 🦋🦋🦋 🌈 Love Kyles Mama Goose
Matthew 11:28-29 "28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." Jesus Christ from Nazareth ❤
Oh shut up with your sick religious babble if God exists he would of stopped this poor girl from going onto the train track in the bloody 1st place (let alone her losing both her legs)a lot of you's are living in loo loo land
Thank you so, so much ❤ I lost my only daughter April 26/ 2024. I was her caregiver and she passed away at home with me like she wanted. I’m grateful for that. I miss her so much, I’m trying to figure out Gods purpose for me. Your story makes me feel hopeful. Bless you ! Lisa, Vancouver, BC
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the only way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. We have a lot of growing up to do. we should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. We need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength. John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
Thank you for your story. I have lost two close friends to suicide and thought to do it myself multiple times. I have three kids and a shattered marriage. Never truly felt happy. Your story helps to move on and keep soldering through. God bless you.
Peace and love to you, and so many Blessings from all of this community that feels struggles and life weights too and want to share our strength and wrap you in our armour. You are thought of and prayed for. ❤
Thank you so MUCH for sharing this!!! I think your story will help people! Even if it would help just 1 person who has the same thoughts as you had. THANK YOU again for sharing this vunerable story! 🙏🏼 A BIG hug for you from The Netherlands ❤
What a story!! I was captivated. You are indeed a miracle and your story is a very powerful testimony. I'm so glad you are here and that you are happy and that you are changing lives and making a real difference. Even if this was not the way you inagined it. God bless you. ❤🙏❤
WOW! God’s love is amazing! Sharing Your story has blessed so many people. We all have a purpose. I’m going to get your book for my 17 year old granddaughter that struggles with depression. Thank you for sharing your story. God Bless You!
Thank you. I feel sad and somehow do not understand my past and why am I living away from my kids. I have to keep praying for strength and faith I don’t see myself doing anything against me. Like you, I would like answers but I don’t know if someday I will have them ❤
Thank you for sharing your story. You gave a bit of insight as to perhaps my nephew was thinking before he took his own life ar 23. I am thankful you are still alive and well to help those who suffer from depression and those of us left behind to try to make sense of our lost loved one. Stay well and happy. 🤍🕊
A few blocks from where I live, a young girl was found murdered at a park. She lived in an area near the park. She went missing for a day or so and was recovering from being molested, posters were seen at the grocery store.
@@PinkSoldier2009 They probably took it from the common saying " suicide is a permanent fix to temporary problems." I have never liked that saying because a lot of people that struggle with depression actually don't have temporary problems. For instance, having survived adverse childhood events and being left with PTSD is something that can be worked on but that can never go away. A lot of people are disabled and or chronically ill and those issues are not likely to go away. A lot of people can not escape poverty cycles. They do not receive the foundation early on for learning and were struggling for survival during childhood and can never be high earners in society. Someone disabled and working at Burger King with an inability to get a GED with three kids to feed has problems that aren't " temporary". I think there are some people (usually teens) who will act impulsively over bullying, a break up, failing a class ect. but most people who attempt suicide have been struggling for many years and do not actually have temporary problems.
Thank you for telling your story. It’s great that you are using your experience for the good of others. I’ve suffered depression on and off most of my life and it’s hard. Life is hard but God gives us the strength. God bless everyone and may you all feel loved and know that life can change for you too ❤
I m 61 on depression meds. A good family , retired , enought money for another 20 yrs but I still hope pray to Jesus that I would like to go by 65. Life is so painful for the last 46 yrs. Not a single day I m fully OK.
The core of depression is living in the past and worrying about the future. Make closure about your past, forgive your self and forgive others. Remember your blessings and that we are here on this earth for short time anytime. Make the most of your days, pray and help others if you can. Go for walks in nature, travel to a new country Write about your blessings, gratitude is key in life. What you have now , is someone’s else dream. Wishing you quick recovery ❤❤❤
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People commit suicide because they struggle so hard to survive financially, maybe you can find organizations to donate to if you have 20 lifetimes worth of money. You really could save lives.
I’ve had stress in my life since birth and if it’s true that babies can hear everything from the womb after about 4 months than it’s very likely I had it before birth. I remember wanting to not be here before I knew what dead was. I’m going to say by age 3. So depression was with me my whole life and continually complicated by family issues. It got very severe by my forties and fifties so was taking medication. Counseling did nothing except make me mad talking about it. This is such a debilitating illness and takes so much work. It’s exhausting beyond explanation. When I finally decided to commit suicide is when I had this feeling of futility. Beyond sad or hopelessness. Those feelings were normal everyday stuff but the futility was new. For two weeks before I started sighing. At first once an hour then twice an hour then four times until it was every minute or two which started to effect my breathing. I decided that was it and made my decision and almost instantly the sighing stopped. It was a huge relief. Had a total plan complete with a great dinner. When I woke up afterwards I was sooo f’ing madddddd!!!! Turns out I have CPTSD from family. I wish I could say things are a lot better but they’re not. I haven’t felt the futility or had the sighing since then. It’s been 5 years. My few friends dumped me and almost all family is out of my life. It’s lonely but probably better than being hurt by others 🤷🏽♀️
You are not the only one i tried a few times ended up the in the hospital and in psychiatric care. I understand now i was mentally ill never wanted to die and i am on medication now and now i believe and think life is vibrant and so much worth living for. I just thought life was too hard before too hard to even shower at times! There is help and hope and there is Jesus. ❤
Thanks for having the courage to share your story. Touched me really deep. You are a beautiful lady, you are a beautiful person and you deserve to live as much as anybody else.
Thank you for sharing your story! I’m so happy you found a way to move forward to have a family and enjoy life together. I live my life with chronic pain due to a spinal cord injury at work, 14 years ago. I also have difficulty standing and kind of walking short distances, medical complications related to my injury and nerve damage, which threw me into a deep, endless and hopeless depression. No amount of pain medicine can stop the pain charging through my broken body. For that reason alone, I want to die, because it’s the only way to end my pain and suffering. Yet, I have strangers telling me that suicide isn’t the answer, but they can never provide me with the answer, other than God. This is my response: 1. I value quality of life over quantity of life. 2. I pray you’ll never experience the ridiculous amount of pain that causes me to curl up into the fetal position, begging God to end my suffering. 3. My physical condition is only getting worse and I’ll never get better, which means my pain will also get worse; if that’s possible. 4. Humans have no problem killing other animals, like a horse suffering from a broke to leg, but won’t do the same for a fellow human whose in even more pain!
I remember listening to a guy that tried to commit suicide on the Golden Gate Bridge. He said that as soon as he let go of the railing, the thought hit him that the only realy problem he had in life is that he had just jumped off that bridge.
You are an amazing young lady. You are helping so many people who don’t realize just how temporary their problems are. You have most likely saved many lives with your book and reaching out to others. I ordered your book. I have a son with depression and I hope it helps him too.
Wow - thanks for sharing your story….. I was on UA-cam just looking at random videos, but nothing in particular. And I came across your channel, and I watched this video and started tearing up. Your survival story is reminiscent to one of my suicide attempts. God bless you, thanx again. If more people shared their stories etc….suicidal thoughts would be less “ trendy” so to speak. It sounds like GOD stopped that train from ultimately killing you.
I'm so glad that she is still with us on this earth. It's a spiritual battle she was going through and she let the dark thoughts from the pit of hell dominate. God rescued her and I'm so glad she is able to tell her story and encourage others. Philippians 4:8-9 in the Bible tells us this. "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things."
At age 65 ..I learned this past summer that it sure can't be seen An aquaitance my horses Farrier ( horse shoe'r ) ive known Paul for 6 years. He reset my horse on the 21 and on the 24 took his life .. Talked that day lovingly about his kids and a camp out planned ..but instead ..two days later he was dead at aged 45 😢
Just an incredible testimony! Many of our lives are used by God to help, comfort and teach others. Our life experiences become our Ministry. Our purpose. Example: My baby girl died 53 years ago in a terrible accident and her death drew me to Jesus and he has comforted many over the years through me. 🙏⚘ I'm going to look up your book right now.
The teen years in particular are *so hard* for so many. Seek real help, people, it *does* exist. And hold on. You are valuable and precious, more so than you could ever believe.
Every trainee train driver gets told in the first few days that if they have a career in this role they will likely kill one or more people. Many leave straight away.
Damn does this need a trigger warning or what! I kinda just assumed it would be pills or something less violent. So scary that even kids who have decent home lives can get to this point. Strong lady and appreciate ber sharing.
Wow that is incredible. I thought you might say that you jumped back at the last second. I'm so glad you survived! *Such an inspiration!* 👏 ❤ All the best and congratulations on discovering your path to do God's work 🙏 All the best for you and your family. ❤
I had two roommates that tried to commit suicide in my house??' Within 3 weeks of each other!! They both lived' but it was dramatic to me!! Both times' carpet had to be replaced' mattresses' ya!! It looked like a horror show!! & That was my house!! Very Scary!! I sometimes wonder why God made me go through that??' IDK' but I get the I feel like I don't want to be here!! It Sucks!!! I had to get a lawyer to serve both eviction letters' at the hospitals they were in' & have a 3rd party come & retrieve their belongings!! Ughh' I wouldn't wish it on Anybody!!!! After Liam Payne' IDK' maybe his was by accident!! But' it really makes you see How bad drugs & alcohol can mess u up!!! & Stay away!!! I guess we All need A Purpose' & a Hope!!! Hell' Happiness! & Joy!!! But' for me' that was Scary' I'm a single female & they were both guys that did that! & We weren't friends' just roommates' I didn't know them prior! But' def' shook me up!! I had to call a Crisis Line afterward!! which helped A Lot!! Never Make a Permanent Decision on a Temporary Problem!!!
You obviously have not stepped into everybody else's shoes. What people, especially those in the medical field, need to understand, is that some people's lives really DO suck, and cannot be fixed. It's a shitty reality. Sometimes, there really IS no hope, and nobody can do anything about it.
SO grateful you survived and are living a purpose filled life, healed and happy, there is always hope, ..call is there, if we just call on Him, He answers..🙏🏽♥️🕊️
The systems are BROKEN . Your Punished for accepting Help. I will NEVER ACCEPT HELP AGAIN. Its more Money , not the Person. People NEVER STAY LONG ENOUGH TO HELP YOU HEAL.
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Even people who look like they have everything to live for can be depressed, or suicidal. The pain is real.
I have attempted a couple of times and been suicidal since I was 10 years old. I was born disabled and sick. Now I am just more disabled and sick with cancer, autoimmune and other chronic illnesses. I have never really found a purpose until I realised that just being me is inspiring others.I hope the train driver also got help, I can't imagine what they went through knowing they hit a person. Suicide is just really sad all around. I am glad you shared your story.
You matter! You are loved, wanted and needed in this world 🌎!!
@@cinndot aww thank you ❤️
God Bless you! You are a wonderful soul and the world needs you❤
@@ThatgirlLondon. thank you so much 🥰
Hi iSheree, It’s 2:30 in the morning and I just happened onto watching Kristen’s video. It was very difficult story to hear, but I kept being drawn to the end as she closed her remarks she just left me smiling very warmly here all by myself. And then I thought, I’d like to know what others have commented. And then I read your words and my heart tore for you, and your suffering such things so painful and inescapable so long as there’s breath in your body. Like me. I’m living, as a friend once shared with me: Moment to moment. Breath to breath. Maybe also like you, people don’t know what to say to me. It’s uncomfortable and awkward for both of us. Would you pray with me now? Lord God, have mercy on us. Show us the way forward, the way through the things that afflict us, and threaten to take our life. Give us peace from thoughts that would lead us alone into the darkness where we can be badly hurt, thoughts that we must not entertain. But more than that, be the light to our feet, as you promise. Give us the energy to fight on, the courage and strength to live, and the gift of faith and trust in you, your word and promises to us those who are called to believe in you alone, holy God, our father and Lord Jesus our savior. Amen.
I didn’t know what I was going to write, I was afraid to make mistake. I’m glad I dared to trust God for the good purposes, he has for us both, which is whatever will bring him the greatest glory. Imagine that.
Thank you for sharing your story. I lost one of my daughters to Suicide. It's devastating for everyone. I am grateful that you are still here. ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. My younger sister lost her youngest son to suicide and it made her lose her mind from grief. She drank herself to death within a year. She died a horrible death from currhosis. Losing them both destroyed the entire family for many years, but seven years later, I am accepting that this is my life without them both and I am doing much better with my grief after years of therapy.I am so glad that you are still here.
Sorry for all your losses..oh what a cruel god we have...how could people believe he is all loving n merciful...bloody cruel
Sad you blame human choices on God.@@colinwee9981
@@colinwee9981I mean, right? I had a near-death experience, and it was a beautiful thing... So who knows? But thank you for your comment.
@@colinwee9981God loves people. He didn't cause their deaths. He gives everyone free will. It breaks His heart when we make wrong choices. Choose Jesus Christ. ❤
“If you have air in your lungs then you have a reason to be here”…. Very powerful statement
Yeah that was meaningful to me
Yes it's in Genesis.
Too bad most people never find out the reason WHY they're here.
@@resoluton Where does it say that in Genesis?
@@PinkSoldier2009 Genesis 2:7 says that God breathed life into man, stating, "And the LORD God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and man became a living being"
I was always told, “never make permanent decisions about temporary things “. This one statement has helped me tremendously through life.
Thank you for sharing your story. Bless you and your family.
Six children! What a joyful and beautiful celebration of life that is. So grateful to this beautiful lady for sharing her story.
This is a cautionary tale for parents. I understand grounding but peers are more important than family for teens. Studies have shown this. Be careful taking away your teens whole world.
Also shame is a very damaging emotion esp for a vulnerable teen. Do NOT shame children (eg do you know what you put me through? We waited all night worried sick). Teens are so vulnerable. We have to treat them like the aliens they are. And I say this with love ❤️
I don't know how I survived. I was only 13 and am sooooo thankful for my life.
Bless you and your story. I watched your first telling from five years ago and am so glad you are still here and continue strong and devoted to the mission you and God decided was yours. I am 82 years old and have had depression and suicidal thinkingpretty much of my life. God and I decided that I was going to become a wounded caregiver and slowly found my way into serving as a psychiatric nurse. Patients resonated with my desire to give them hope. While I was finding my way, my beloved sister, came to the hospital I worked in with a gunshot wound to her head. The police ruled it a suicide. I was able to sit with her unconscious body for the three days it took her strong young body to follow her hopelessly dead brain. We were so close, and the loss so great. The lesson it taught me was that I could never bring so much sorrow to my family for any reason. I made sure to let those close to me know that. I would not take that option. I promised them that I would not consider it an option. In spite of further family tragedy I have kept that promise. I fortunately had a Psychiatrist who.did his internship on our mental health unit and he and I fought the good battle. I would never have wanted to disappoint him, because I gave him that promise also. I have Seasonal Affective Disorder, and suffer depressions in spring and fall. But I'm still here far older than I thought because of a disastrous physical set of diagnoses. I am comfortable with dying in God's good timing as I still have my mind and the desire to love and bring healing if I can. Your story touched me greatly. There are wonderful people with wonderful stories that I can hear through you tube as I am not able to be out in the world much. I have a beloved daughter with whom I live. Family that is still undergoing their own struggles and I will continue to.love and forgive, as I hope that they will do so for me. Keep up your good fight,too. Glad that I could hear your story from five years ago and recognize your face on this latest podcast. God bless you.
Karen- Your story touched me very deeply too. You are an amazing strong woman and your long life, despite all the struggles, is testimony to that. I am glad you are here & thank you for sharing your story. God bless you ❤🙏❤
@Karenshields395? Your story is remarkable. I cannot imagine living with depression until 82. I cannot imagine having a family member take their own life. This is absolutely devastating! You must be an incredibly strong person with good skills for managing your depression. I'm glad that you are still with us, living every day, moment by moment.❤
As someone who has struggled with trying to not commit suicide your story very much touched my heart/mind. I had a wonderful life until my 40s & due to circumstances I still don’t fully understand one day I found myself in my bed crying out telling my brain to stop trying to get me to take my life. All I knew in that moment is of if I stayed in bed then I wouldn’t be able to hurt myself I fought very hard against my own brain telling me horrible lies. Thankfully I won. It’s so surreal to try to explain to someone who never had thoughts like that. Anyway, thanks for sharing your story
Is that a symptom if schizophrenia?
@@lynndinovo3500 No, I had been experiencing some odd behaviors for awhile. After that incident which happened days after losing my dad to cancer who I loved dearly I had a full on hallucination where was also extremely terrifying. However, in the moment I truly believed what was happening was real. I actually recorded the hallucination cause I knew I’d need proof for the police. So we had the entire episode on video. After that I went to a psychiatrist scared thinking I did have something like schizophrenia. After a work up & testing they found that I was taking a medication I shouldn’t be on due to not being able to break it down therefore it was at toxic levels in my system. So they said it was a mix of the medication (Trazadone originally prescribed to help me sleep) & the extreme stress causing these bizarre episodes. I was weened off the medication & haven’t experienced any other episodes. This all happened in 2022. I did all things I’ve been taught I told my family what was happening & I was honest with my doctors immediately which I think is what helped me survive. My full story is much longer with many details which I hope to share one day if I get brave enough.
I think it is worse than losing someone we love. It's simply a living he'll that seems to never end 😂😂 I only wish it to people that abuse a child. I'm happy to you still here to tell. God bless you 🙏
@@lynndinovo3500 I answered your question regarding if it was a symptom of schizophrenia, but either the channel host or UA-cam removed my very long detailed response. No, mine was due to extreme stress & a medication that my body couldn’t break down so it be came toxic in my system. After weaning off that medication & I was able to work through some of the trauma I had experienced that was happening at that time in my life I started doing much better. It hadn’t happened again.
@@nnydiav2 thank you
Your story hit me more and harder then you know you truly have saved ppl from making that same decision! (At least me today) Bc all the videos in the world sometimes just don't work! Yours thank the lord opened mine and I'm a single mother with two boys so thank you from the bottom of my heart today❤
🥹🥲🙏🩷🩷🩷 so proud of you. I totally empathize as well. I struggle with very severe depression and horrible chronic pain. It’s an uphill battle every day and I’m scared for my future, but I’m trying to hang onto hope and find my purpose in life. Sending lots of love and positive energy your way. We have to keep fighting.🙏🕊️💐🩵💙🌷🌸🌹
I felt just like you did! Now I take comfort in knowing that God is going to rectify matters. You went through so much!
@@robynashley6083 thank you and stay strong bc I have deep faith in you and every day makes us stronger and we are here for a reason! Sometimes it feels like there's not a god enough reason but we will find out what it is and be grateful that we stuck it out!!!
@@marystrenke3050 thank you 🙏🏼
The fact that you are looking for videos to help you not do anything to yourself perhaps God is guiding you to these videos. I had the video suggested while watching near death experiences and afterlife visions and although only my left ear got to enjoy this video it was a nice thing to hear. Especially her hearing Amazing Grace being played in her ears.
I am almost 69 yrs old. A long story short..I am disabled and homebound. The reason is due to childhood abuse and now because of it, I have 8 rods in my back, a cage and titanium plate in my neck, a titanium plate in my left foot, many, many diagnoses all stem from childhood beatings. My drs are amazed that I don’t struggle with depression. I have always had a very strong faith and I agree we are all here for a purpose! God is not finished with me yet. You are here to encourage others. I am proud of you! Please know you are here because God is not ready for you yet.
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ALL must continue to share with others=it is the gift of redemption..
Thx for helping everyone.. You've saved more lives then you'll ever know 😇
I know it had to be hard to tell your story. Thank you for sharing. January 2nd is my birthday, and that opens my eyes to the pain that people can be going through. I do know in my heart, there is a reason why you're still here. Your story could save so many lives.
Thank you again for sharing.
My husband took his life on December 4, 2015...on our 22nd anniversary. Our boys were 25, 15, and 11 at the time. Our lives have been torn apart since then. Our children blame me for his death. I haven't seen or talked to them in over two years. I have a grandson that I'm not allowed to see.
I carry that like a backpack, and the load gets really heavy.
You are not alone.🙏
Why does your birthday open you up to the pain others go through?
@@sashasandra3726a time of celebration for one can be a time of grief for another. She’s maybe recognized this🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍✅
Your story opened my eyes. Thanks for sharing. Hope you find peace.
Thank you. I am Homeless. Its a Very Hard Journey. Shelter mental health Justice system Fails our Family.
I know suicide all to Well. Thank you for Talking about your Story. I can Relate to you. I am Glad your here in the World. You matter to me. Love you. ♥ mama D
Ive worked in nursing homes, and had several residents who attempted suicide. Never is that an answer to our problems! Im glad to know you survived, and doing well. ❤
My Sister had a stroke, she didn’t have any money so the hospital released her to a State run Nursing Home. It was terrible, the food always arrived cold, she would need pain medication and it took the nurse several hours to bring her the prescription. She had to actually call 911 twice because she needed bedding because she couldn’t get anyone to assist her.
A Chinese man actually managed to take his life there and nobody cared. My Sister was constipated and the male nurse didn’t use any lubricants when inserting into her bottom, hurt her for days. She would wake up with patients at her bedside just looking at her. The place shut down for about six months, but it’s been re-opened.
It’s been about a year since she left, but she said there were times there that she didn’t care if she died because she wouldn’t be there.
Thanks for your service. I also have worked in nursing homes for many years. Perhaps many of your co-workers are pro-death-with-dignity/pro-personal autonomy. I know I am. I wouldn't recommend suicide. However, if a person is suffering beyond the pale, then they should have a choice with the proper ethical & legal parameters in place to end their suffering. It's merciful to allow people their personal autonomy. I understand, like the kind lady said in the video, she need to take a all-approach to unaliving herself off the table for herself & family. Tho everyone has their unique situations. It seems unethical to force those who do not desire it to waste away in a nursing home or in terrible pain. However, hopefully not, If being tortured, perhaps you or many other people would reconsider their 'never' approach to this very nuanced issue.
@@davidgabrie1302 as someone who is going into healthcare this is such a horrific story. No human being should ever be treated this way, I'm so sorry your sister suffered like that.
@@guitarkatie there was an inspection of that nursing facility, fines over $170,000 were levied against it for so many failures…
Thank you for your willingness to share. Praying for your journey
Excellent video. Brought back memories of contemplating suicide as a teenager and again in my early 20s. It makes me happy to realize that I have been suicidal ideation free for years now. I wish I could tell younger me how life is now. She would be relieved to know that alcohol and drugs don't control her life anymore.
Thank you so much for sharing your story!
Hi Kristen
You are truly a light . Sharing your story ,I know is so hard.
But, so important to share.
I see a strong and beautiful woman. I’m so proud of you
For speaking about what you have been through.I’m so very happy you are still here.
I lost my
son , Kyle to suicide,
4 years ago. He was 21
My life is forever changed and my soul ❤
Sending hugs and prayers for you and your family..
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Love Kyles Mama Goose
Matthew 11:28-29
"28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." Jesus Christ from Nazareth ❤
Oh shut up with your sick religious babble if God exists he would of stopped this poor girl from going onto the train track in the bloody 1st place (let alone her losing both her legs)a lot of you's are living in loo loo land
How much grief and deep sadness we cause our parents for nothing. I feel so sorry for them.
I’m so glad your life got better. Thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you so, so much ❤ I lost my only daughter April 26/ 2024. I was her caregiver and she passed away at home with me like she wanted. I’m grateful for that. I miss her so much, I’m trying to figure out Gods purpose for me. Your story makes me feel hopeful. Bless you ! Lisa, Vancouver, BC
Keep holding on to God. No matter what may be trying to keep you down, keep looking up to God. He will always be your hand in helping you get back up. We serve God who can do all things. Romans 8:31 tells us, “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” this means that no man, woman, boy or girl is a threat to the purpose God placed on the inside of you. This means that the only way you experience defeat is when you surrender. In moments of worry and anxiety, we are called to bring our concerns before God in prayer. Instead of allowing anxiety to consume us, we can find peace and comfort in knowing that the Almighty God is attentive to our needs for He cares for us deeply. In the storms of life, God is our only hope. His faithfulness and His goodness are present Even during the darkest storm. We have a lot of growing up to do. we should continue to grow in our relationship with God, and there is no point where we can say we've "had enough" Jesus tells his followers not to worry about food, drink, clothing, or tomorrow, and instead to seek first God's kingdom and righteousness and He will give us everything we need. Give thanks and be appreciative of the small and big things that God is doing in your life. Doing that means that you are looking for God throughout your day. You’re looking for God in your situation. You’re looking for God in your struggles and your pains, and keeping your focus on God instead of focusing on all the bad that’s going on. It’s what God wants you to do. He wants you to keep your eyes on Him. for the Lord will give you understanding in everything. The reason why Jesus tells us not to be anxious is because the Father cares for us. He has your back and will help you through anything, All you have to do is Repent and have Faith. The Bible teaches that God's sovereignty is an essential aspect of who He is, that He has supreme authority and absolute power over all things. There is nothing that God is not in control of. Everything that happens, God either causes to happen or He allows it to happen. However, Everything God does is done in love. There is always some reason for it, and for those who love God and are called according to His purpose, He will work everything out for good. Ultimately, the enemies we face, are not people or objects. It is not our body, It is not physical enemy. our battle is indeed spiritual, In each of those cases, we can choose to fight the wrong battles, or we can rest knowing God is fighting for us. We fight this war by daily putting on the whole armor of God, always praying, standing firm in the Word of God, and staying alert. We need to live each day guided by an eternal perspective. So rest in knowing that when you keep holding on, you will see that in your weakness, God will be your Strength.
John 14:27
"Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
In these tumultuous times, it is such a blessing to feel God through your words. Thank you and God Bless you.
Thank you for being so brave to share your story, lots of love for you :D
Thank you for your story. I have lost two close friends to suicide and thought to do it myself multiple times. I have three kids and a shattered marriage. Never truly felt happy. Your story helps to move on and keep soldering through. God bless you.
Thanks for the story. I struggle to find peace, and love.
Peace and love to you, and so many Blessings from all of this community that feels struggles and life weights too and want to share our strength and wrap you in our armour. You are thought of and prayed for. ❤
Thank you for your vulnerability and openness. Thank you for sharing your amazing story and encouragement. God bless you.❤
So well spoken, thank you so much❤!!!!
Keep sharing your incredible story! Your a good speaker
Thank you so MUCH for sharing this!!! I think your story will help people! Even if it would help just 1 person who has the same thoughts as you had. THANK YOU again for sharing this vunerable story! 🙏🏼 A BIG hug for you from The Netherlands ❤
What a story!! I was captivated. You are indeed a miracle and your story is a very powerful testimony. I'm so glad you are here and that you are happy and that you are changing lives and making a real difference. Even if this was not the way you inagined it. God bless you. ❤🙏❤
I can’t think of the last time I cried so hard listening to this. -don from Lorain Ohio USA 🇺🇸
WOW! God’s love is amazing! Sharing Your story has blessed so many people. We all have a purpose. I’m going to get your book for my 17 year old granddaughter that struggles with depression. Thank you for sharing your story. God Bless You!
Thank you. I feel sad and somehow do not understand my past and why am I living away from my kids.
I have to keep praying for strength and faith
I don’t see myself doing anything against me.
Like you, I would like answers but I don’t know if someday I will have them
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Sweetheart…you’re beautiful in every way and have a wealth of knowledge and information to help others especially now. Many prayers
Thank you for sharing your story. You gave a bit of insight as to perhaps my nephew was thinking before he took his own life ar 23. I am thankful you are still alive and well to help those who suffer from depression and those of us left behind to try to make sense of our lost loved one. Stay well and happy. 🤍🕊
A few blocks from where I live, a young girl was found murdered at a park. She lived in an area near the park. She went missing for a day or so and was recovering from being molested, posters were seen at the grocery store.
Thank you for sharing your truly inspiring story 🙏 It is helping more people than you can ever imagine ❤️ Sending you Gods Richest Blessings 🙌
So devastating for people to do something so permanent often over reasons that are just temporary 😔
For you to say that I assume that you know absolutely nothing about depression.
@@PinkSoldier2009 They probably took it from the common saying " suicide is a permanent fix to temporary problems." I have never liked that saying because a lot of people that struggle with depression actually don't have temporary problems. For instance, having survived adverse childhood events and being left with PTSD is something that can be worked on but that can never go away. A lot of people are disabled and or chronically ill and those issues are not likely to go away. A lot of people can not escape poverty cycles. They do not receive the foundation early on for learning and were struggling for survival during childhood and can never be high earners in society. Someone disabled and working at Burger King with an inability to get a GED with three kids to feed has problems that aren't " temporary". I think there are some people (usually teens) who will act impulsively over bullying, a break up, failing a class ect. but most people who attempt suicide have been struggling for many years and do not actually have temporary problems.
Thank you for telling your story. It’s great that you are using your experience for the good of others.
I’ve suffered depression on and off most of my life and it’s hard. Life is hard but God gives us the strength.
God bless everyone and may you all feel loved and know that life can change for you too ❤
Thanks for sharing your story! God bless you and your family!
I m 61 on depression meds. A good family , retired , enought money for another 20 yrs but I still hope pray to Jesus that I would like to go by 65. Life is so painful for the last 46 yrs. Not a single day I m fully OK.
The core of depression is living in the past and worrying about the future. Make closure about your past, forgive your self and forgive others.
Remember your blessings and that we are here on this earth for short time anytime.
Make the most of your days, pray and help others if you can.
Go for walks in nature, travel to a new country
Write about your blessings, gratitude is key in life.
What you have now , is someone’s else dream.
Wishing you quick recovery ❤❤❤
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@Lifeeden please trust in Jesus. God has good plans...
People commit suicide because they struggle so hard to survive financially, maybe you can find organizations to donate to if you have 20 lifetimes worth of money. You really could save lives.
I’ve had stress in my life since birth and if it’s true that babies can hear everything from the womb after about 4 months than it’s very likely I had it before birth. I remember wanting to not be here before I knew what dead was. I’m going to say by age 3. So depression was with me my whole life and continually complicated by family issues. It got very severe by my forties and fifties so was taking medication. Counseling did nothing except make me mad talking about it. This is such a debilitating illness and takes so much work. It’s exhausting beyond explanation. When I finally decided to commit suicide is when I had this feeling of futility. Beyond sad or hopelessness. Those feelings were normal everyday stuff but the futility was new. For two weeks before I started sighing. At first once an hour then twice an hour then four times until it was every minute or two which started to effect my breathing. I decided that was it and made my decision and almost instantly the sighing stopped. It was a huge relief. Had a total plan complete with a great dinner. When I woke up afterwards I was sooo f’ing madddddd!!!!
Turns out I have CPTSD from family. I wish I could say things are a lot better but they’re not. I haven’t felt the futility or had the sighing since then. It’s been 5 years. My few friends dumped me and almost all family is out of my life. It’s lonely but probably better than being hurt by others 🤷🏽♀️
Thank you Thank you for sharing hope ❤
Thank you
A beautiful woman, a beautiful person, and such a valuable contribution you're making. And those 6 kids and husband have a great mom and life partner.
You are not the only one i tried a few times ended up the in the hospital and in psychiatric care. I understand now i was mentally ill never wanted to die and i am on medication now and now i believe and think life is vibrant and so much worth living for. I just thought life was too hard before too hard to even shower at times! There is help and hope and there is Jesus. ❤
Have you had your thyroid checked..? Your throat looks swollen. Thank you for sharing your story.
I thought the same thing when I seen her neck.
Yes, I had multinodular goiters on my thyroid, and my neck looked like hers. She needs to get that checked, they could be malignant!
Thanks for having the courage to share your story. Touched me really deep. You are a beautiful lady, you are a beautiful person and you deserve to live as much as anybody else.
So glad you survived 🥰🙏🙏
Anyone else notice the huge lump on her neck on the right side
Goitre?
Thyroid??
No idea
Yes. I'd suggest a quick visit to the doctor to make sure all is fine. ❤
Is it the way her darker hair is laying next to her neck?
Thank you for sharing your story! I’m so happy you found a way to move forward to have a family and enjoy life together.
I live my life with chronic pain due to a spinal cord injury at work, 14 years ago. I also have difficulty standing and kind of walking short distances, medical complications related to my injury and nerve damage, which threw me into a deep, endless and hopeless depression. No amount of pain medicine can stop the pain charging through my broken body.
For that reason alone, I want to die, because it’s the only way to end my pain and suffering.
Yet, I have strangers telling me that suicide isn’t the answer, but they can never provide me with the answer, other than God.
This is my response:
1. I value quality of life over quantity of life.
2. I pray you’ll never experience the ridiculous amount of pain that causes me to curl up into the fetal position, begging God to end my suffering.
3. My physical condition is only getting worse and I’ll never get better, which means my pain will also get worse; if that’s possible.
4. Humans have no problem killing other animals, like a horse suffering from a broke to leg, but won’t do the same for a fellow human whose in even more pain!
I remember listening to a guy that tried to commit suicide on the Golden Gate Bridge. He said that as soon as he let go of the railing, the thought hit him that the only realy problem he had in life is that he had just jumped off that bridge.
Kevin Hicks that was, probably.
What saved me is thinking this won't matter in a few years
Thank you for sharing your story. Suicide ideation is so much bigger than we imagine. You are some one’s answer to prayer.
R u sure? What about the many ,even pastors that lost their live to suicide
You are an amazing young lady. You are helping so many people who don’t realize just how temporary their problems are. You have most likely saved many lives with your book and reaching out to others. I ordered your book. I have a son with depression and I hope it helps him too.
IM SOOO VERY SORRY. DEPRESSION IS INCREDIBLY SAD. HOPING THAT U ARE RECOVERING PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY AND THAT YOURE OUT OF PAIN.
Wow - thanks for sharing your story….. I was on UA-cam just looking at random videos, but nothing in particular. And I came across your channel, and I watched this video and started tearing up. Your survival story is reminiscent to one of my suicide attempts. God bless you, thanx again. If more people shared their stories etc….suicidal thoughts would be less “ trendy” so to speak. It sounds like GOD stopped that train from ultimately killing you.
I'm so glad that she is still with us on this earth. It's a spiritual battle she was going through and she let the dark thoughts from the pit of hell dominate. God rescued her and I'm so glad she is able to tell her story and encourage others. Philippians 4:8-9 in the Bible tells us this. "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things."
Wonderful truth-filled comment ❤
wow!!!!! so sad, but i am glad she is still here
At age 65 ..I learned this past summer that it sure can't be seen
An aquaitance my horses Farrier ( horse shoe'r ) ive known Paul for 6 years. He reset my horse on the 21 and on the 24 took his life ..
Talked that day lovingly about his kids and a camp out planned ..but instead ..two days later he was dead at aged 45 😢
I was on a ward with a lady that did the same’ she became a friend ‘ god bless you 🙏
Thank you very much for sharing your story. I pray you never go down that route again. God bless from Ireland ☘️🕊♥️🌹
Just an incredible testimony! Many of our lives are used by God to help, comfort and teach others. Our life experiences become our Ministry. Our purpose.
Example: My baby girl died 53 years ago in a terrible accident and her death drew me to Jesus and he has comforted many over the years through me. 🙏⚘ I'm going to look up your book right now.
God bless you and thank God that you’re here to share with others and help others! You matter and are so loved! ❤
Grazie per questa importante condivisione. Chiedere aiuto e farsi aiutare è importante ❤🙏
Thank you for sharing your story.
So sad, happy, and all in-between ❤❤
The teen years in particular are *so hard* for so many. Seek real help, people, it *does* exist. And hold on. You are valuable and precious, more so than you could ever believe.
Thanks for your valuable testimony Kristen. You're truly a miracle. The Lord bless you and keep you 🙏 😊
Every trainee train driver gets told in the first few days that if they have a career in this role they will likely kill one or more people. Many leave straight away.
My heart goes out to you.
You are incredible - INFINITE LOVE AND GRATITUDE.
Thankyou for sharing 😢❤
Prayers God has a plan for you and your doing im so proud of you. Please dear Lord protect and give this little love peace and your grace
Im so sorry for everything you have been going through!! You have a beautiful heart ❤️ & I pray you continue to do great things with your life 💕💕💕💕
Damn does this need a trigger warning or what! I kinda just assumed it would be pills or something less violent. So scary that even kids who have decent home lives can get to this point. Strong lady and appreciate ber sharing.
Amazing story and so glad you are ok now
Oh dear heart🙏🕊️🙏
Great story! Thanks for sharing! 🩵
Wow that is incredible.
I thought you might say that you jumped back at the last second.
I'm so glad you survived!
*Such an inspiration!* 👏 ❤
All the best and congratulations on discovering your path to do God's work 🙏
All the best for you and your family. ❤
I am glad your doing Great things. I am Proud of you. ❤
I had two roommates that tried to commit suicide in my house??' Within 3 weeks of each other!! They both lived' but it was dramatic to me!! Both times' carpet had to be replaced' mattresses' ya!! It looked like a horror show!! & That was my house!! Very Scary!! I sometimes wonder why God made me go through that??' IDK' but I get the I feel like I don't want to be here!! It Sucks!!! I had to get a lawyer to serve both eviction letters' at the hospitals they were in' & have a 3rd party come & retrieve their belongings!! Ughh' I wouldn't wish it on Anybody!!!! After Liam Payne' IDK' maybe his was by accident!! But' it really makes you see How bad drugs & alcohol can mess u up!!! & Stay away!!! I guess we All need A Purpose' & a Hope!!! Hell' Happiness! & Joy!!! But' for me' that was Scary' I'm a single female & they were both guys that did that! & We weren't friends' just roommates' I didn't know them prior! But' def' shook me up!! I had to call a Crisis Line afterward!! which helped A Lot!! Never Make a Permanent Decision on a Temporary Problem!!!
You obviously have not stepped into everybody else's shoes. What people, especially those in the medical field, need to understand, is that some people's lives really DO suck, and cannot be fixed. It's a shitty reality. Sometimes, there really IS no hope, and nobody can do anything about it.
Love her story!!! What a wonderful lady ❤
Great story, and very helpful.
So happy for your joyous outcome! May God continue to bless you 😊
What a beautiful testimony ❤God can use our lowest ,darkest situations for His Glory turning our "tests" into Testimonies! As you are living proof ❤🙏
I attempted suicide at 19 because I was very depressed about that I was constantly falling and that I broke my leg. But God saved my life.
Thank you 😢💚🙏
Our purpose is to bring others closer to JESUS ❤️ and that’s what you’re doing. 🤗
You articulate very well. ❤
SO grateful you survived and are living a purpose filled life, healed and happy, there is always hope, ..call is there, if we just call on Him, He answers..🙏🏽♥️🕊️
The systems are BROKEN . Your Punished for accepting Help. I will NEVER ACCEPT HELP AGAIN. Its more Money , not the Person. People NEVER STAY LONG ENOUGH TO HELP YOU HEAL.
I can't go Back . I can't go Forward either.
Ypu are stuck just go talk to Samaritans and get help ypu are in danger but ypure mi d is blocked from.real ferli gs right niw please Get help my friend .talk ti helpline or any one who is open to listwni g and helping you
Praying ❤🙏🏻
I'm from Waukegan, IL. Is that close to where you're from?
I know your pain, it took a very long time, however the correct cocktail has now made me , happy. People need the right meds.