Attempted Suicide Survivor Shares Personal Story

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  • Опубліковано 25 лис 2024

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  • @gjop-xm2xe
    @gjop-xm2xe 3 місяці тому +9

    Not only depression but PTSD I’m 65 and still don’t want to live I survived a n attempt when I was 15 😢

    • @GodBlessYou1982
      @GodBlessYou1982 3 місяці тому +1

      You’re still here.
      And God has kept you here for a reason…please resonate on that.
      Praying for you and your family🙏🏼 and God Bless you🙏🏼💝🕊️
      Sending much love to you❤️

    • @Melmass1
      @Melmass1 2 місяці тому

      Sending ❤

  • @michellegreen5312
    @michellegreen5312 3 місяці тому +6

    I just came across your channel…very empowering & impactful…. Hugs

  • @KristenBockeno
    @KristenBockeno 4 місяці тому +13

    My fiancé took his life four months ago after he was struggling with his mental health and his drug addiction. He didn’t want to go to rehab because he said that It didn’t work. He had no family friends or anybody only me and he needed more then that. I will always blame myself for what happened to him. I just feel like I could have done more to save him. I saved him with his first attempt but his second one I couldn’t save him.

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 4 місяці тому +2

      You couldnt stop him..he was determined to ease his restlessness of soul..however..without the Jesus Christ as our Saviour & Lord then even in eternity there will be no rest.
      Are you going to let this determine your life ahead..do you want to carry the blame or would you like to gine it all to Jesus..Matthew 11:28.
      I speak as one who knows..my youngest sister after years of several attempts finally after not getting off medications succumbed tragically at her own hands then 8 years later my dad with COPD jumped off a wharf early hours of a bleak n morning.
      It wasnt my fault even though theyd both talked of it. I know that & i dont want you wasting your energy on lying torments..thats the way of the devil..he wants to keep us bound. Go enjoy life..have coffees..find Jesus through this time.
      Read please: John 1:1-15; Colossians 1:12-18 & Genesis 1 & 2. Jesus Christ is Lord & God. Cry out to Him..look what He did for us on the cross!
      'For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son that whosoever believes on Him shall not perish but have everlasting life '. John 3:16

    • @heathermitchell7191
      @heathermitchell7191 3 місяці тому +1

      Sweetie, please don’t blame yourself. I know it’s easier said than done. I know this because the same thing happened to me back in 2008. My fiancé killed himself as well. It’s not your fault. What I learned through counseling is, weather it was now, five months from now, five years from now, they still would have done this. You WILL get through this. It might not seem like it right now, but you will. I remember sitting on my grandmas couch that night when the chaplain came to see me and I said “my life will never be the same, I will never be happy again”. And yes, your life will never be the same, but you WILL be happy again and there will come a time where you notice you didn’t think about it all day, and then a few days go by and then all the sudden you’re living your life. And this isn’t because you forgot about him. Here I am now, 15 years later. I just met the nicest man I’ve ever known, I’m happier than ever. I’m just telling you this because I know how you feel right now. And even these words won’t help much, but I hope they give you some hope for the future. Because I was excatky where you are 15 years ago, and here I am. I will keep you in my thoughts. It will be ok, I promise. Hugs!!

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 2 місяці тому

      @@heathermitchell7191 ..well said & encouraging message.

    • @zonderbaar
      @zonderbaar 2 місяці тому

      Please don't do this to yourself. we don't have that power, everybody has a free will that isn't under acute psychosis, and then it's up to professionals to protect them. One person never can save another. Please forgive and love yourself ❤

    • @liteswitvh
      @liteswitvh Місяць тому

      This is not your fault. I am sorry for your loss. Find healthy activities to help you recover from this traumatic event. I love this thing on UA-cam called "classical music and art" it's very relaxing. ❤

  • @JustMe-px9qy
    @JustMe-px9qy 5 місяців тому +9

    I really appreciate you saying that life didn’t become perfect after you became a Christian. If you could share more about those times…that would be great.
    It’s easy to have unrealistic expectations. Thanks and all the best/ ❤

  • @aunum
    @aunum 4 місяці тому +6

    so good to see your page back up precious! your journey is a voice and inspiration for many who do not have the courage it share it on youtube. you're a champion!

  • @missymurphy9996
    @missymurphy9996 2 місяці тому +2

    I had suicidal ideation while coming off benzos. I prayed to Jesus. I also realised that the those thoughts were from the enemy. After that, I never had it again. I now thank God for waking me up

  • @aunum
    @aunum 5 місяців тому +17

    thanks for sharing your journey... many who attempt suicide end up maiming themselves. i shot myself in the head the day after my 22nd birthday and Jesus miraculously saved my life, which led me to know Him. God bless you!

    • @elainebraindrain3174
      @elainebraindrain3174 5 місяців тому

      Thats my plan. 🔫 hope i dont fail😢

    • @aunum
      @aunum 5 місяців тому

      @@elainebraindrain3174 please let me know you're okay precious. i've subbed to your channel and look forward to seeing you feeling better. lack of family support was a major contributing factor to my attempt. now @50 yrs later, they're still so toxic i've been going through legal proceedings to dissolve any association with them, and have had to go absolutely no contact with them. with being so broken, one of the things that helped most was learning who God says i am. and with giving my life to God, my life is no longer mine to take, but will be his decision. God is with you and wants to bless you. you are precious to Him, and He created you for a special purpose. be blessed darling.

    • @marilynbosma2352
      @marilynbosma2352 4 місяці тому +1

      Please Elaine, talk to someone. The pain people cause when they take their life never goes away. Please cry out to God, He will answer you!!!

    • @chriscutler8025
      @chriscutler8025 4 місяці тому +1

      ​@@elainebraindrain3174Elaine please know there are people who care. I had the suicidal ideology and had a plan please go to a faith community if you have faith . Depression clouds are way of seeing thing. I care and please reach out to who ever you trust !!

    • @amyt6254
      @amyt6254 4 місяці тому

      @@elainebraindrain3174 Please do not do it, Elaine! You matter! There are people that can help you. Keep seeking help until you find something that works for you to feel better. Remember the thoughts we have in depression are distorted thoughts and not real. With the right counseling and medication, you can begin to feel better. It is really possible. Dialectical Behaviour Therapy (DBT) was something that helped my depression and anxiety.

  • @traditionalgirl5585
    @traditionalgirl5585 22 дні тому

    I am grateful you are still here too. Thank you for your kindness. May God continue to Bless you and your family.

  • @minnesotagal507
    @minnesotagal507 5 місяців тому +9

    My mother completed suicide at 52 years, many people told me she would not reach heaven. I was very depressed for years after.

    • @marilynbosma2352
      @marilynbosma2352 4 місяці тому +2

      I do not believe a person committing suicide causes him/her to go to hell. According to God’s Word, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that Jesus was raised from the dead, you will be saved. And if a person confesses and believes, it is not negated when a person takes his/her life. Of course, it is not Gods will that a person commit suicide, God does have a path of healing for each person.

    • @Sept2cfm1953
      @Sept2cfm1953 4 місяці тому

      I think it has something to do with, you can't ask for forgiveness since you died, but that doesn’t make sense because we all have sin every day, but that doesn’t keep us from heaven. No sin is worse than another.
      My father committed suicide and it was said if he was in his right mind, he's in hell. Who is in their right mind when they commit suicide?
      Also, only God knows the condition of ones heart, and it's also said the first will be last the last will be first.

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 2 місяці тому +1

      @@marilynbosma2352 ..so there is a IF there..if she chose Jesus in her life I do believe as the word says..and nothing..NOTHING, can snatch such a one from God's hands.

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 2 місяці тому

      @@minnesotagal507 ..

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 2 місяці тому

      @@minnesotagal507 ..if your sad mumma KNEW Jesus in her life at some stage & trusted Him then, NOTHING can snatch her from His hands. Look up John 10:27-30.
      JustbtrustnthatnonlybGod knows and meanwhile you must live as to honor your mum by living thankful & doing things you enjoy. The devil wants us depressed and unable to move..there is victory & power in the name of Jesus & His shed blood that cleanses && forgives us!
      Hope you're up and enjoying life now..your mum would be so sorry & regret what she did to you..I know. She was so young still & didn't know what she was doing!
      LikecJesus said of the new at the cross treating Him bad still..'Father, forgive them, they know NOT what they do'. That's why we can forgive too..they really don't.
      We all need our sin nailed to the cross ..well it has in Christ..He bared them all-not wonder it went black all around & the ground erupted. Wow..but we have a choice whether we have faith in who Jesus is & that He has paid the wages for our sin..He's taken the sting of death for all..if they come to Him.

  • @angiep10
    @angiep10 3 місяці тому +3

    I looked her up on google. She is now married with children ❤ doing wonderful!!

  • @bevhaywood3558
    @bevhaywood3558 4 місяці тому +7

    What a brave woman! Bev from South Africa

  • @lindaprince966
    @lindaprince966 3 місяці тому +3

    You are amazing! Thank you for sharing your story and your faith journey in such an inspiring way. 😇🙏🏻❤

  • @amynelson1787
    @amynelson1787 4 місяці тому +6

    I don’t know you , but from my spirit to yours, I love you. And if I can honestly love you, oh how much your father in heaven loves you. God does not punish us for pain we are unable to bear. He scoops us up in his arms and loves us back to health.

  • @dianedevore5814
    @dianedevore5814 3 місяці тому +3

    " All things work together for good tothose who love God & are called according to His purpose. "
    I was searching the internet, & listened to your story. I am 72 yrs old, a committed follower of Jesus. He allowed me to live through 2 suicide attempts. I continue with medicine, but have found the best medicine in my walk with Jesus. So good to meet you. I will begin following your ongoing story. Blessings to you & those you love❤

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 2 місяці тому

      @@dianedevore5814 ..glad you're here to tell your story and know Jrsus more. We look up, for our Redemption draws nigh!
      A most poignant time is near..see 1 Thessalonians 4:12-18.

  • @TaxusBaccata-c4n
    @TaxusBaccata-c4n 5 місяців тому +27

    That woman who told you were going to hell was beyond rude. Only God knows.

    • @blessedtobealive
      @blessedtobealive 4 місяці тому +6

      When it comes to spending an ETERNITY in hell, rudeness is the last thing you need to worry about.

    • @bevhaywood3558
      @bevhaywood3558 4 місяці тому +2

      Agree

    • @pattih7
      @pattih7 4 місяці тому +3

      Sometimes God speaks through others; it did give her pause and directed her to search.

    • @pattih7
      @pattih7 4 місяці тому

      @@blessedtobealiveamen!

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 4 місяці тому

      ​@@blessedtobealive..well said..quick and to the point..truth.

  • @louiseskillen8657
    @louiseskillen8657 3 місяці тому +3

    your so pretty,im happy your still here.God was there with you sweetie.

  • @christinaschipper5973
    @christinaschipper5973 4 місяці тому +3

    Thank you for sharing your story, and the Good News of Jesus in your life. I will have to check out your book.

  • @liteswitvh
    @liteswitvh Місяць тому

    First of all, Im glad you are still with us. I have suffered depression. I have a ministry writing to prisoners, and it has emotionally affecting me, because I learned I was insecure! I thought I sabotaged my ministry, and wanted to die for my failure. Turns out I needed therapy. I hope to continue helping prisoners though.

  • @guardiansanimalrescuestate7289
    @guardiansanimalrescuestate7289 4 місяці тому +3

    This is a mental disease. Animal hoarding doesn’t ever stop. Those poor animals. Many of reptiles appeared to have a life threatening calcium deficiency. The poor goat needed his horns needed cut way way down as well as it’s feet trimmed. That’s why he acted that way. He was so so confused and scared. I hope he got a sanctuary with grass. He should have a life time ban of owning animals.
    I too have been abused my entire life so I understand how these animals feel. They don’t know what they did wrong. Neither do I for that fact.

    • @flowergarden1426
      @flowergarden1426 2 місяці тому

      I’d like to know what makes someone hoard animals. I know a woman who’s Mother left her and her siblings at a young age, she has 5 dogs and two cats in an apartment. She is an RN nurse and she and her husband now have a two year old and it’s so chaotic. When they come over they bring all the dogs and I try and be understanding but sometimes it’s overwhelming. When you say animal hoarding I wonder if they fall under that.

  • @jeffszmiett2600
    @jeffszmiett2600 4 місяці тому +4

    Thank you for sharing your story with us. God is using you in a wonderful way. God bless

  • @tl4472
    @tl4472 2 місяці тому

    Thank you for sharing your story. When I first heard your testimony on different video I couldn't believe it, as I took care of a 25 yr old girl in 2005 who lost her legs via train. She was schizophrenic and a chronic meth user, so her recovery and outcome was different than yours. I never saw her cry or even acknowledge what happened. When she got her prosthetics it didn't seem to phase her at all - it was so weird. I lost track of her after a few years, but she was in and out of jail so I'd see her mugshots every so often. I still think of her and wish I knew where she was and how she's doing. In a cruel twist of fate, only 8 yrs. later my own daughter developed schizophrenia. I worry about her constantly. Schizophrenia is devastating; and depression is ever-present. Then my sister killed herself in 2015. Mental illness is a beast. God clearly spared your life so you can offer hope to those who suffer. Your story is amazing and I'm so thankful you survived. xo

  • @margyduke1136
    @margyduke1136 2 місяці тому

    Kristen, what a tragically beautiful testimony. Thank you for retelling it. I needed to hear it today. ❤❤

  • @PsalmsForTheLoveOfJesus19
    @PsalmsForTheLoveOfJesus19 3 місяці тому +1

    Hi Kristen, thank you for sharing your story. You are so brave and inspirational. The Lord works in mysterious ways and what the devil means for evil, God will make good. Keep on fighting the good fight. I wonder how you are doing now xx

  • @bryanbond1658
    @bryanbond1658 3 місяці тому +2

    As I text you this message it is August 2024 I turned 56 next month in September as I said my ex-wife has had to suffer nothing and she's the one that committed adultery but I paid the price for her sin as well.

    • @mamatica7
      @mamatica7 3 місяці тому

      She has sand castles, that's all. I was in a similar situation and I wondered why the aggressor is doing well, while my life is far from perfect, and His answer was this, what I see in the aggressor are only sand castles, it doesn't mean anything, they just look beautiful.

  • @zayaziday
    @zayaziday 3 місяці тому +1

    Some people that go to church are so rude. Once when I was at church a lady who approached me to shake my hand, squeezed my hand so hard and would not let go untill I thought my knees would buckle after that I never wanted to go to church again. Trust me you will go to heaven ❤ not all church people are good or have any sense.

    • @GodBlessYou1982
      @GodBlessYou1982 3 місяці тому

      I stopped going to church..even though I really wanted to continue going..it simply never happen literally after I got Baptized I fell into a deep depression.
      God is in control of
      everything🙏🏼💝🕊️
      A lot of weird vibes from some ppl from that church.
      Listen to that inner voice …which is Gods voice guiding us.
      God Bless You 🙏🏼💝🕊️😊

  • @djkk464
    @djkk464 4 місяці тому +3

    Whosoever calls upon the name of the Lord shall be saved 🙏🏻 🤍

  • @aunum
    @aunum 4 місяці тому +1

    looking forward to your next vid and hit the notifications button so i don't miss it! God bless you darling!

  • @chriscutler8025
    @chriscutler8025 4 місяці тому +2

    Thank You Kristen ❤

  • @Sept2cfm1953
    @Sept2cfm1953 4 місяці тому +3

    Just know, suicide is never the answer. Don't believe those voices in your head. God has a plan for your life. It sometimes takes a while for God to bring it to fruition. I'm 70 years old, I know.

  • @donnajohnson8035
    @donnajohnson8035 2 місяці тому

    A lot of people say that if you take your own life, that you won’t go to heaven. I chose to believe that it’s between you and God.

  • @tobyroyson9336
    @tobyroyson9336 5 років тому +3

    awww what a sweet girl!

  • @angelinaquilimaco8105
    @angelinaquilimaco8105 4 місяці тому +1

    Sadly, i can’t get your book because it isn’t available on audible and i am totally blind.

  • @djkk464
    @djkk464 4 місяці тому +6

    Depression meds cause depression!!! Jesus is the answere.

  • @aquilinaciamacco2410
    @aquilinaciamacco2410 3 місяці тому

    I'm someone who always!!!! asked everyone else for advice and guidance. After many unsuccessful years of disappointment? I finally realized that God and Jesus are the only ones who can give us the guidance we are seeking. Just pray. Pray and ask for direction and guidance and trust that you will be led in the right way to go each day ❤.

  • @babbaruff1045
    @babbaruff1045 3 місяці тому

    You dear soul, God bless you 🙏💖

  • @sunshine91671
    @sunshine91671 2 місяці тому

    My God would never co demn a soul to hell for doing something to end the unrelenting pain and darkness that severe depression rains down upon someone. I struggle with long term suicidal depression. I fight every single day to remain here. But if i ever made that choice, i know i will be in heaven. Period. That woman was rude and a trash human.

    • @flowergarden1426
      @flowergarden1426 2 місяці тому

      I’m with you, God is not a Monster. My life got relief after watching tentmaker777 videos on his channel and his website.

  • @Helena-nu3cr
    @Helena-nu3cr 5 місяців тому +9

    Sorry, but I don’t believe it’s down to God who decides to take a life. That’s like saying God has decided children and adults being murdered was his choice

    • @mamatica7
      @mamatica7 5 місяців тому +5

      Yes, it is His choice. He gives some people 3 seconds to live, others hundreds of years. I remember from the Bible when one gathered so much harvest that there was no place to put it and he thought that it was done, now he will live only to enjoy life, and God tells him that he is a naive person because that night he will demand his soul, and others will eat its harvest.
      Crime is not God's choice, but when he gives life to the one who is going to be killed, he knows that he will be killed. Should he stop giving him life because he will be killed? Should he stop giving life to the criminal? Wouldn't this mean that our existence would be conditioned by whether or not we do what He wants?
      There is another case in the Bible where God tells a king not to go to war because he will be killed, but he still goes and is killed. Not the choice of God, but the choice of the king to ignore God.

    • @Helena-nu3cr
      @Helena-nu3cr 5 місяців тому +2

      @@mamatica7 Neither one of us knows the truth whether God decides or not. Only when we die ourselves we will know the truth.

    • @UniquelyBarb
      @UniquelyBarb 5 місяців тому

      What God is that??

    • @elainebraindrain3174
      @elainebraindrain3174 5 місяців тому +1

      ​@@Helena-nu3cr i hope for non existance and peace.

    • @elainebraindrain3174
      @elainebraindrain3174 5 місяців тому +1

      ​@@Helena-nu3cr
      Agree

  • @aunum
    @aunum 4 місяці тому +2

    it sound like your toxic family may never be capable of being supportive of you. it can feel crushing to accept it in a world where folks say family is everything. thank God we have a family through Christ where you do matter, and people do care. love and hugs

    • @zariballard
      @zariballard 4 місяці тому +1

      Her family wasn't toxic...what are you talking about?

    • @zayaziday
      @zayaziday 3 місяці тому +1

      @@zariballardI agree! I was appalled by that statment!

  • @elainebraindrain3174
    @elainebraindrain3174 5 місяців тому +5

    Many do not have the family support you have. I lost faith in everything.😢

    • @aunum
      @aunum 5 місяців тому +1

      precious- hang on! i've lost my entire family- they have never supported me to this day! you can get through this darling!

    • @Silenceisgolden-o9o
      @Silenceisgolden-o9o 4 місяці тому

      🕊️🙏✝️♥️🌹

    • @Silenceisgolden-o9o
      @Silenceisgolden-o9o 4 місяці тому +2

      I have been down that road. Tell the devil to be gone and give your heart to our Lord we belong to him.

    • @aunum
      @aunum 4 місяці тому

      @@Silenceisgolden-o9o amen!

    • @court5231
      @court5231 4 місяці тому +1

      I'm very sorry that you are struggling in your life! I'm going to pray for you. God loves you, and so do all your fellow humans! God bless you! 🙏❤️

  • @yvonnerahui8729
    @yvonnerahui8729 4 місяці тому +2

    Gosh..it clearly was an angel of the Lord holding you down under the train.
    And..that lady was correct wasn't she..without Christ as Saviour and Lord we will be lost eternally. So..praise God..He saved you to know the truth!
    You might have been more angry at yourself..& as you say..no fellowship, no word going into you to renew your mind stunts our growth.
    So glad to hear of your intimacy now with Jesus..& yes..b4 you even said it..it came to me that the depression was yr thorn to keep you bound to Jesus.

    • @yvonnerahui8729
      @yvonnerahui8729 4 місяці тому +1

      And..wonderful to hear you're married with children.
      What a miraculous story..all your family Christ followers too.

  • @estanteria45
    @estanteria45 2 роки тому +2

    Is there a way to message you privately. I am going through some things

    • @aquilinaciamacco2410
      @aquilinaciamacco2410 3 місяці тому

      @estanteria45? You will be okay. Just have faith in yourself and keep doing your best each day ❤.

  • @CheerupA1
    @CheerupA1 6 місяців тому +4

    The "loving" parents don't sound so great, they sound controlling. Plus church, which is never great.

    • @mamatica7
      @mamatica7 5 місяців тому +2

      I'll bet you're not a parent. As a parent you do not have the power to make life a Heaven for your child. You cannot protect him from all the evils of the earth, even if you wanted to. They took her from counselor to counselor, allowed her a lot. They punished her only to make her more responsible, she was a teenager. As a teenager you definitely don't make the best choices.
      The church is very important, it is a support system, maybe not perfect, but certainly better than any other organization.

  • @BridgetDoyle-y7d
    @BridgetDoyle-y7d Місяць тому

    Hi from bridget

  • @sanketbojewar5398
    @sanketbojewar5398 4 місяці тому +2

    Can I talk to you once? I am struggling

  • @Nightraven6665
    @Nightraven6665 4 місяці тому +1

    The Bible was written by people that drank out of the same river they shit in it must be true 😂

    • @mamatica7
      @mamatica7 3 місяці тому

      I have bad news, you drink from the same water you shit in. It is filtered, but it is practically the same.
      Plus, at least they knew which were women and which were men. Men were not asked by doctors if they were pregnant. They did not speak of themselves in the plural. they did not marry animals or trees. They did not claim to be animals. I don't know what we drink, but surely our water is more contaminated than that of those who wrote the Bible.

  • @Jgg-j7m
    @Jgg-j7m 3 місяці тому +2

    I do NOT believe that folks who commit suicide go to hell. I believe God created us with our emotions, physical, mental and spiritual. Any one of us can be sick in our physical, mental spiritual. A person who ends their life, is sick spiritually and emotionally. God knows our hearts. Please … anyone who reads this.. give your heart to God. Ask forgiveness. And know that God loves you. Once we accept Him as our Savior and Father then we belong to Him.
    PS. With God, good can from bad!

  • @Jgg-j7m
    @Jgg-j7m 3 місяці тому +1

    I do NOT believe that folks who commit suicide go to hell. I believe God created us with our emotions, physical, mental and spiritual. Any one of us can be sick in our physical, mental abdominal spiritual. A person who ends their life, is sick spiritually and emotionally. God knows our hearts. Please … anyone who reads this.. give your heart to God. Ask forgiveness. And know that God loves you. Once we accept Him as our Savior and Father then we belong to Him.