The rush of excitement when you find a new hair style or tattoo you want sooo much & how you think it will finally make you feel like a real person is so real ugh
I always pick up traits/habits from the people I am attached to or “admire” which can be super unhealthy because sometimes I admire people who don’t have the best lifestyle themselves.
i swear us bpd girlies are sooo creative though like at least we are colourful and emotional compared to people who are so scared of having any other hair colour than brown or black
for me the biggest problem is wanting to heal and knowing exactly how to, but its hard to love yourself when you dont really know whats at your core, youve hidden your core from people and yourself so much that you dont know whats at the core. so how do you love it when you dont know her? i know what i stand for, what i like and dont like, but what am i as a person really like? truly, authentically. I dont know!
I used to be like this with buffy the vampire slayer. I loved her wanted be her. I acted like her got the hairstyle dressed. Got into witch craft study supernatural. I felt I could see me in the character.i could relate. I'm scared il say something wrong or not make sense. Can't stand up for myself my opinions and my emotions are heightened upset and cry when I want and can't explain myself and stick up for myself
For me, it’s like having a huge walk in closet full of costumes and personalities, all the while having one thing constant between them, the hole in my chest.
I relate a lot. I once changed the way i wrote my numbers because they weren't cute enough. Now I've gone back to drawing my 8's my way again. It feels like a matter of pride to take it back. I feel guilty about it or embarassed that i decided to change that. I am a chameleon too. I've developed a sense of style i think and I'm proud of having my own preferences. I feel it's part of being a real person. When i don't know what i want, it makes me feel like less of a person. For a long time my taste in music was something that was a total product of other people, now it's basically an unchanging list of not that many songs. But i felt like i didn't have my own taste in music, because I'm not a real person. Thanks for making this video. I can tell that u r somebody who would get me, i feel like i get u after just watching 2 videos. You have really helped me understand more about borderline, which i think i probably have.
I struggle with this a lot and been doing ths my whole life but don't think I have bpd I have symptoms but never been diagnosed I relate a lot with everything you said
Thank you! I love this video, I’m the exact same way.. always have been. It always feels super comforting to know that there’s other people who can relate
I really needed a video from you. I thought, “it’s officially Wednesday, let’s see if Angela dropped a new video” And there it was! So this specific symptom has been a tough one for me. I could relate to everything you said. I’ve even gone to the extent of legally changing my name, Bc I felt I had no connection with my original.
Are there hobbies and beliefs you have carried through the years or do you find that it's all kind of fluid? Nvm you answer it in the video, really great take on what this is like.
The rush of excitement when you find a new hair style or tattoo you want sooo much & how you think it will finally make you feel like a real person is so real ugh
I always pick up traits/habits from the people I am attached to or “admire” which can be super unhealthy because sometimes I admire people who don’t have the best lifestyle themselves.
i swear us bpd girlies are sooo creative though like at least we are colourful and emotional compared to people who are so scared of having any other hair colour than brown or black
for me the biggest problem is wanting to heal and knowing exactly how to, but its hard to love yourself when you dont really know whats at your core, youve hidden your core from people and yourself so much that you dont know whats at the core. so how do you love it when you dont know her? i know what i stand for, what i like and dont like, but what am i as a person really like? truly, authentically. I dont know!
I used to be like this with buffy the vampire slayer. I loved her wanted be her. I acted like her got the hairstyle dressed. Got into witch craft study supernatural. I felt I could see me in the character.i could relate. I'm scared il say something wrong or not make sense. Can't stand up for myself my opinions and my emotions are heightened upset and cry when I want and can't explain myself and stick up for myself
For me, it’s like having a huge walk in closet full of costumes and personalities, all the while having one thing constant between them, the hole in my chest.
I relate a lot. I once changed the way i wrote my numbers because they weren't cute enough. Now I've gone back to drawing my 8's my way again. It feels like a matter of pride to take it back. I feel guilty about it or embarassed that i decided to change that.
I am a chameleon too.
I've developed a sense of style i think and I'm proud of having my own preferences. I feel it's part of being a real person. When i don't know what i want, it makes me feel like less of a person.
For a long time my taste in music was something that was a total product of other people, now it's basically an unchanging list of not that many songs. But i felt like i didn't have my own taste in music, because I'm not a real person.
Thanks for making this video. I can tell that u r somebody who would get me, i feel like i get u after just watching 2 videos. You have really helped me understand more about borderline, which i think i probably have.
Youre not creepy girl, its just a way to cope and its ok, you can grow out of it with love and compassion for yourself ❤
I struggle with this a lot and been doing ths my whole life but don't think I have bpd I have symptoms but never been diagnosed I relate a lot with everything you said
I Can totally relate. My wardrobe is changing every week, my hairstyle as well...I seriously feel exhausted. Thank you for sharing :)
Thank you! I love this video, I’m the exact same way.. always have been. It always feels super comforting to know that there’s other people who can relate
I will go months on end without any inner discussions except for telling myself how useless I am when something goes wrong
I really needed a video from you. I thought, “it’s officially Wednesday, let’s see if Angela dropped a new video” And there it was!
So this specific symptom has been a tough one for me. I could relate to everything you said. I’ve even gone to the extent of legally changing my name, Bc I felt I had no connection with my original.
I didn't know that people with BPD struggled with that stuff.
I really relate to this. This is bad for me
Are there hobbies and beliefs you have carried through the years or do you find that it's all kind of fluid? Nvm you answer it in the video, really great take on what this is like.
Your videos have been so helpful. Thank you so much. 💗
Yup the tattoo and piercings is definitely me.
Ty x
I don't know if this is anything to do with bpd. Do you ever think something that is happened is real it happened
i know what you mean
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