I Wrote A Song About Dealing With Depression & Anxiety

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  • @Gremlinmusic24
    @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +2514

    I share my story with you in hopes that you don't feel so alone when you go through tough times.. Please be sure to share this with everyone you know and let's make the world hear us! Also, I'll leave the lyrics below for you. #BrokenPeople
    [Verse 1: Gremlin]
    Heart broken and I'm starin at the moon light/
    Nothings helping so I'm hopin that this vew might/
    I dont wanna sink into it tonight/
    So I crack a brew cause that's just what I have to do to get my mood right/
    I dont understand who I'm even becomin/
    Dont know why my demons are always getting summoned/
    Man they make it so hard, for me to let love in/
    Dont know what I run from, but I keep on runnin/
    Wish that I could slow down but I've never known how/
    If you give me your heart it's gonna get thrown out/
    I stayed in the darkness even when I found light/
    Fuckin hate this bottle so I break it on the ground like/ like
    [Hook x2: Gremlin]
    Why do I drink till I'm numb?
    Why do I smoke till it's done?
    Till I dont feel anything no more
    I dont feel anything no more
    [Verse 2: Gremlin]
    Feels like I dont fit in with society/
    They may not like who I am but I am me/
    I dont talk ever talk I'm sitting quietly/
    But my head is loud dont know how to settle down all the anxiety/
    I have always felt like I dont belong here/
    It's been a long year, it's been a long life/
    Sick of everybody sayin its gonna be alright/
    Little do they know that I had tears dropping all night/
    Everyone is who the fuck I need to stay away from/
    I dont wanna feel shit, I just wanna stay numb
    I know that it's not right, needa get my mind right/
    But for now I'm drunk, high & crying to the sky like/ like
    [Hook x2: Gremlin]
    Why do I drink till I'm numb?
    Why do I smoke till it's done?
    Till I dont feel anything no more
    I dont feel anything no more
    [Verse 3: Gremlin]
    I dont wanna be like this forever though/
    I hold onto a lot of shit I need to let it go/
    But it's harder than I'd like to show/
    I make the small things seem bigger like I'm lookin through a microscope/
    Lost so many friendships and I lost a few girls/
    Needa be relentless if I wanna build a new world/
    I know that I can change every day I am praying/
    Cause I dont wanna be a 80 year old man sayin/ sayin
    [Hook x2: Gremlin]
    Why do I drink till I'm numb?
    Why do I smoke till it's done?
    Till I dont feel anything no more
    I dont feel anything no more

    • @wendicopenhaver8550
      @wendicopenhaver8550 4 роки тому +72

      I'm going through a really hard time right now. I have bipolar disorder and right now my depression and anxiety is higher than ever. Thank you for making this song. It couldn't have come at a better time.

    • @yvonnelavato1096
      @yvonnelavato1096 4 роки тому +27

      Thank you...

    • @tristesacerezo4307
      @tristesacerezo4307 4 роки тому +21

      Love it!!! 💛 Perfect timing when I'm currently going through both 💔 #Gremlinthebest! #smokedablunttothis!! 💛 #IREALLYLOVEDIT

    • @tufftony6604
      @tufftony6604 4 роки тому +17

      I need to get me one of those shirts bro

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +22

      @@wendicopenhaver8550 hope it helped! I know youll get through it.

  • @__awe_dree__1485
    @__awe_dree__1485 4 роки тому +2643

    “Sick of everyone saying ‘its gonna be alright’ little do they know I had tears dropping all night.”
    I felt that. Hard.
    👏🏼🖤😭

  • @alejandromontoya701
    @alejandromontoya701 4 роки тому +726

    “Talk to your parents about it”
    I don’t wanna tell the woman who gave me this life that i don’t want it anymore

    • @gabbypollard8795
      @gabbypollard8795 4 роки тому +21

      How would I even do it is the question

    • @alejandromontoya701
      @alejandromontoya701 4 роки тому +11

      Doingitwithnay that’s the thing

    • @jacksonmicheals3654
      @jacksonmicheals3654 4 роки тому +20

      Same. She’s the reason why I’m the way I am

    • @Arasie_Saros
      @Arasie_Saros 4 роки тому +9

      If you need someone to talk to, there are some people on Instagram that have support groups. And if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. 💜

    • @Casey_videography
      @Casey_videography 4 роки тому +17

      I have anxiety and i never tell anyone about my feelings but my best freind cause i only feel myself around her

  • @thecristinashow9102
    @thecristinashow9102 4 роки тому +555

    1. I cried
    2. This song is fire
    3. You spoke my depression and anxiety
    4. I love this song
    Thanks for this video!!

    • @blankblank897
      @blankblank897 4 роки тому +3

      Same it's crazy asf

    • @seangsovanthado3789
      @seangsovanthado3789 4 роки тому +3

      same as you

    • @ricknear2096
      @ricknear2096 4 роки тому +3

      Yow it is my first time to love rap
      Its because of you dude ,I hope I got youre attention
      #from the philippines
      Subscribing for more of your music

    • @chrislawrence7573
      @chrislawrence7573 4 роки тому +3

      He spoke my depression and anxiety

  • @Jennifer-bw7ku
    @Jennifer-bw7ku 9 місяців тому +190

    Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.

    • @steceymorgan814
      @steceymorgan814 9 місяців тому

      Does anyone know any good source to get them? I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels, would love to give shrooms a try.

    • @elizabethwilliams6651
      @elizabethwilliams6651 9 місяців тому

      Yes, dr.sporesss

    • @APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU
      @APOLLINAIREBARTHOLOMIEU 9 місяців тому

      Dr.sporesss is the best, he's been my go to for anything psychedelics.

    • @twinfred3160
      @twinfred3160 9 місяців тому

      Is he on instagram?

    • @elizabethwilliams6651
      @elizabethwilliams6651 9 місяців тому

      Yes he is. dr.sporesss

  • @christopherstolfi1532
    @christopherstolfi1532 4 роки тому +583

    50 days clean and sober. I needed this Brother. God bless

  • @Nathan-qn4pc
    @Nathan-qn4pc 4 роки тому +1046

    He reminds me of NF. He's definitely going to blow up.

  • @zabiker8858
    @zabiker8858 4 роки тому +355

    When he said "I dont feel like I fit in with society" I felt that

  • @brandonbarker4654
    @brandonbarker4654 3 роки тому +395

    I'm a musician and heavy rap critic and I just don't know if anyone has ever hit the nail on the head for so many people soooo underrated

    • @dominikdavisscheidegger3855
      @dominikdavisscheidegger3855 3 роки тому +3

      I agree

    • @beki2958
      @beki2958 3 роки тому +8

      Maybe you should feel how some of us feel before you just say something like that why dont you feel the pain some people feel. Now days its some "wanna be rap" dont talk about other peoples music if you don't know the meaning behind it. You dont know the pain..And too the people im not meaning bad things..

    • @vaporz7282
      @vaporz7282 3 роки тому +10

      @@beki2958 he was complimenting Gremlin and his song. Giving him props. You just interpreted the "underrated" incorrectly.

    • @stephenwrobel4282
      @stephenwrobel4282 3 роки тому +3

      @@beki2958 yeah. He's saying the song is underrated because more people should be listening and it should be more mainstream. Nothing bad 👍🏼🤙🏼

    • @og7890
      @og7890 3 роки тому +2

      This song hits hard period

  • @vamshikishan7822
    @vamshikishan7822 4 роки тому +226

    This will be the best medicine to the people with depression and anxiety

  • @Kayy722
    @Kayy722 4 роки тому +108

    “I don’t want to feel shit, I just want to stay numb”🥺🥺🥺

  • @yaniraportillo2688
    @yaniraportillo2688 4 роки тому +59

    "Little do they know that I had tears dropping all night" 😭, some people have no clue what happens behind closed doors and you're by yourself. It's nice to have someone to relate to.

  • @HappilyAnonymousGirl
    @HappilyAnonymousGirl 3 роки тому +47

    “Everyone is who I need to stay away from” Dang. I felt that.

    • @SpikioMegvatron
      @SpikioMegvatron 4 місяці тому

      My current situation staying away from everyone

  • @sharonacosta2951
    @sharonacosta2951 4 роки тому +492

    Who ever didn’t like this song and left a “👎🏻” y’all tripping he’s the best if you don’t like it just leave don’t leave hate 🙄 that’s really sick

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +23

      agreed

    • @stevenvialpando8365
      @stevenvialpando8365 4 роки тому +2

      @@Gremlinmusic24 for real

    • @marybethsmith2124
      @marybethsmith2124 4 роки тому +6

      Agree 1000% Gremlin is the real deal and is by far my favorite artist💯 Speaks nothing but real life everyday struggles. Like always this was pure 🔥🔥🔥

    • @ShayNashiv
      @ShayNashiv 4 роки тому +1

      So right but many got used to bad shit and dont press the right buttons no more...

    • @LoneKingMuzik
      @LoneKingMuzik 4 роки тому

      True

  • @EMiitchell
    @EMiitchell 4 роки тому +169

    This is absolutely deep. A lot of broken people feel this... including me ... thanks I needed this. We’re not alone for sure.

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +5

      Much love brother

    • @artcruz5603
      @artcruz5603 4 роки тому +1

      I lost my mom yesterday i can't stop saying crying 😭🥺😔

    • @FH_83_02
      @FH_83_02 4 роки тому

      @@artcruz5603 I'm sorry for your loss.

    • @EMiitchell
      @EMiitchell 4 роки тому

      Gremlin like wise bro.

  • @aaronlorenzenzaaron6783
    @aaronlorenzenzaaron6783 4 роки тому +269

    “Feels like I don’t fit in with
    Society
    They may not like who I am but I am
    Me
    I don’t ever talk I’m sitting
    Quietly
    But my head is loud don’t know how to settle down all the Anxiety”

    • @norru12
      @norru12 4 роки тому +3

      same🎧💜✔

    • @ashleygarcia4443
      @ashleygarcia4443 4 роки тому +1

      Aaron LorenzenZAaron sane ❤️😭

    • @lisab116
      @lisab116 4 роки тому +1

      That part got me

  • @thelostsock3169
    @thelostsock3169 3 роки тому +86

    Anyone battling depression or anxiety, read the comments on this song, you’re not alone 💯

    • @joycasey4503
      @joycasey4503 2 роки тому +3

      I feel the same we need help that's all not hate or haters

    • @shelbyalice7840
      @shelbyalice7840 Рік тому

      I feel this song

    • @Vampirewitch-ss2xf
      @Vampirewitch-ss2xf 11 місяців тому +1

      I feel this cuz I have both boarder line anxiety and depression

    • @Vampirewitch-ss2xf
      @Vampirewitch-ss2xf 11 місяців тому +1

      On top of anger issues, PTSD,odd,slow learning disability and mentally younger than my physical age, impulsive discord,ADHD.

    • @Vampirewitch-ss2xf
      @Vampirewitch-ss2xf 11 місяців тому

      Bonus sensory issues.
      Questionably OCD

  • @rominagonzalez5901
    @rominagonzalez5901 4 роки тому +88

    You speak the unspoken words of us broken people ❤️ Never stop writing music. You are our voice.

  • @hope0972
    @hope0972 4 роки тому +90

    I pray for my friend who is going through depression and anxiety as she was diagnosed bearly this week 🙏

    • @stevenvialpando8365
      @stevenvialpando8365 4 роки тому

      *Barely*

    • @stevenvialpando8365
      @stevenvialpando8365 4 роки тому +3

      I hope your friend gets better

    • @gloriaramos6443
      @gloriaramos6443 4 роки тому +2

      Sorry to hear about your friend. May our heavenly father heal her and bless her with a good life

    • @clintonwansink3052
      @clintonwansink3052 4 роки тому +4

      Believe in God he will lead her to the right way my friend didn't believe in god and tried to kill her self and then i prayed for her and talked to her prayed and now she is the most powerful girl i ever met God bless everything will get better just BELIEVE !

    • @isisteaukura1475
      @isisteaukura1475 4 роки тому +2

      Tell her to start a spirtual journey

  • @robertcinnamon4678
    @robertcinnamon4678 2 роки тому +24

    I'm an old guy of 61 and I have to say these words are profound and must be spoken out of experience. Keep it up, young man. Your work is inspiring to us all...Peace

  • @rohitshakya1168
    @rohitshakya1168 4 роки тому +363

    "I stayed in the darkness even when I found light."

  • @countryside_guy
    @countryside_guy 4 роки тому +228

    I'm a 49 year old man. I'm homeless. Oh my god those words, I can relate to some of it, especially not fitting in with society, it's like I don't exist. I have tears rolling down my face as I type this and my throat is all tight. I don't drink or smoke or do drugs, nothing like that but yeah, tough words to hear.

    • @lanabogdanova9672
      @lanabogdanova9672 4 роки тому +6

      chilliman07 sometimes the truth hurts and sometimes you have to except it for what it is You will be alright

    • @alejandromontoya701
      @alejandromontoya701 4 роки тому +5

      Stay strong you’ll make it one day I wish I could help you but I can’t drive and I don’t have money 😔

    • @grammaroffherrockerreacts1122
      @grammaroffherrockerreacts1122 4 роки тому +3

      Good luck to you sir!❤❤🕇🕇💯💯

    • @Kai-mx3tw
      @Kai-mx3tw 4 роки тому +3

      Hey man are you ok

    • @SpicyCupcak3
      @SpicyCupcak3 4 роки тому

      ❤️

  • @bijaybhandari1545
    @bijaybhandari1545 4 роки тому +206

    I just wanna wear my headphone put this song on a repeat and walk to nowhere till i'm numb i don't wanna look back till i'm done.

  • @krystalBaby01
    @krystalBaby01 3 роки тому +10

    28, started using heavy drugs to escape reality and everyone keeps thinking it changed me, drugs didn't change me what I went through did, all I went through in just the last 3 years changed me more than anything

  • @74bigv
    @74bigv 4 роки тому +39

    My oldest son told me about this kid that's how I started listening to him I myself am going on 10 yrs Clean from meth .I was a addict for 17 yrs .It took for my lady to leave me and take my kids to open my eyes , long story short now they all live with me again . I drink my beers but that's it, I did it cold turkey 10 years ago never touched it again....Gracias...for ur music GREMLIN 👍

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +5

      thats amazing!! Very happy for you and your family!

    • @jessicachurch3850
      @jessicachurch3850 4 роки тому +1

      Aveganueve I give you major props because my stepdad has been an addict to meth going on 8 years and my mom won’t fucking leave him... he needs a HUGE eye opener cause I don’t think he will ever stop and it’s hurting all of us kids :/

    • @Nvrpro888
      @Nvrpro888 4 роки тому +1

      jessica church Sorry for your situation :(

    • @74bigv
      @74bigv 4 роки тому +1

      @@jessicachurch3850 I'm so sorry that you're in that situation ,your mom needs to realize that her kids are her number one priority ,she needs to put her foot down and tell him either you get clean or we walk

    • @jessicachurch3850
      @jessicachurch3850 4 роки тому +1

      Aveganueve yeah I know I’ve tried telling her that but her thing is if she kicks him out he WILL be homeless and he will go off the rails and she doesn’t want my 2 younger siblings going w out him because they adore him and look up to him.

  • @joshuahunnicutt8105
    @joshuahunnicutt8105 4 роки тому +20

    Gremlin
    Don’t stop this.
    It doesn’t matter whether rich or poor.
    Stand left or right or somewhere in between.
    Grew up on either side of the railroad tracks,
    Was handed everything in life, or had to fight to survive since you were a small but unfairly forced into childhood maturity human being.
    Black, white, Christian or Jew. Hispanic, middle eastern Muslim or Hindu.
    Struggles come in all forms.
    I don’t know your story exactly, but you have chosen to overcome.
    We all can.
    Currently my struggles are real. For myself and my 4 year old daughter.
    Every day that goes by I just want it to be fixed or be over.
    But I know as long as I fight I will win in the end.
    Not only will I give my daughter the life she deserves, but I will help guide others to have the lives they deserve.
    No matter the bad decisions we make and the holes we dig ourselves in, they will always be a light at the end of the tunnel.
    We just have to run to it. Even if it takes our whole lives.
    Failure is not an option.
    I will get out of this motel. I will put my child through the very best school possible. I will be successful in my view and I will leave a legacy that the people dear to me will be proud of.
    Rock bottom isn’t the end. There is still a way up, and I can still be buried further.
    The choice is mine.
    Poor people have it, rich people want it. If you eat it, you may die. What is it?
    The answer is... nothing...
    Even homeless and without work, the world is yours. You can never have nothing.
    Take every opportunity that may help you thrive and attempt to dismiss every opportunity that will pull you down.
    Just my thoughts from this emotional masterpiece of a song.
    Thank you Gremlin, for showing the world we are the same, just wanting something more, even if it feels impossible.

  • @Mallbia
    @Mallbia 4 роки тому +71

    Ive never found an artist who speaks to my soul like gremlin does. It has the exact effect he’s looking for. Knowing someone feels the same emotions is really reassuring when Im stressed.

  • @Fluffyballz
    @Fluffyballz 3 роки тому +12

    I Just kept overdosisng myself. I legit died and came back . But is it weird that those 2 minutes i was gone were probably the best 2 minutes of my life.

  • @evangeleetafoya9004
    @evangeleetafoya9004 4 роки тому +80

    The only thing that gets me from taking my own life at this moment is this song

    • @narcisozamorajr.9007
      @narcisozamorajr.9007 4 роки тому +5

      Know that there are people that are willing to offer their support. You don't have to through this alone. I'm hear if you need someone to talk to or just to vent. I at times feel the same way. Feeling trapped in my mind with no way out.

    • @CraftYourBukkit
      @CraftYourBukkit 4 роки тому +8

      Remember you are one of a kind, there's no one like you. You're special and that's what makes you amazing. Everyone has their flaws, but those are the reason you are living. It's your purpose to make the best out of what you have and keep pushing yourself to your best, so you become a better person.
      I know you're going through rough times and it's probably been way too long since you've felt good, but it'll come. And when it will come, it will come big.
      Stay strong and keep in touch with people. Don't try to do this on your own. There are so many people who would help you fight your demons.
      I hope you're feeling better soon.

    • @joannaly5246
      @joannaly5246 4 роки тому

      You are special ♥️

    • @cheyennemartin2211
      @cheyennemartin2211 4 роки тому +3

      I'm not going to give you a long drawn out message about this or that, all I'm going to say is I love you. I don't even know you but I love you and if you need to vent about shit going on in your head, in your heart, or in your life, then I'm always here to listen.
      You can reply to this comment or if you don't want it to be publicly posted then you can message me on Instagram @c.m.art_official anytime. 🖤

    • @cynthiag9193
      @cynthiag9193 4 роки тому +3

      GOD DOESN’T GIVE THE HARDEST BATTLES TO HIS TOUGHEST SOLDIERS, HE CREATES THE TOUGHEST SOLDIERS THROUGH LIFE’S HARDEST BATTLES!
      Stay strong! I’ve been there myself many many times, but every battle/hardship made me stronger without even realizing it.
      Keep your head up no matter what other people say or think about you.
      Just know you are loved!❤️

  • @enrobotics
    @enrobotics 4 роки тому +180

    Please Gremlin should quit hiding his abilities on UA-cam. He should go sign to a record label.

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +31

      We will get there brother

    • @clintonwansink3052
      @clintonwansink3052 4 роки тому

      Feeling you gremlin love you bro god bless

    • @Ben-rr3gr
      @Ben-rr3gr 4 роки тому

      @@Gremlinmusic24 Keep it about the music, you have a lot of time, let the talent shine and the process will work for itself

    • @tdub2399
      @tdub2399 4 роки тому +3

      Don't sign shit keep doing u and u will make it on ur own!!!

    • @sassyleo7821
      @sassyleo7821 4 роки тому

      Your music is real! You remind me of my son. When my son was 13 he asked me for a DJ set and he had been doing music since 3 rd grade. I believed in him and encouraged him to do what he loves. I bought him that set and he never looked back. Today at age 24 he DJs at some of popular clubs downtown in Denver! He makes music that people love to hear. His concerts get sold out every time! I see you in the future becoming this huge talented rap artist! I’ll be looking for that album!

  • @alexmobile7538
    @alexmobile7538 4 роки тому +59

    This hits hard cause it's true
    Gremlin keep the songs coming we need more people like you

  • @beccabreathedeep3
    @beccabreathedeep3 4 місяці тому +9

    I know people always say they can relate, or it sounds like you're telling there story...but damn. I could have co-wrote this. ❤

  • @chancedonald8708
    @chancedonald8708 4 роки тому +112

    "why do i drink till im numb" i felt that hard

    • @juanyo5647
      @juanyo5647 4 роки тому

      Chance Donald I felt that hard!! 🙏🏾

    • @dlara1986dl
      @dlara1986dl 4 роки тому

      Stay strong ya'll🙏

  • @joannatapia1703
    @joannatapia1703 3 роки тому +29

    Thank you for this song. Most people take anxiety as a joke not knowing the demons we're going up against.

  • @williambrandt3564
    @williambrandt3564 4 роки тому +31

    "Don't even know why my Demons keep getting summoned!!!!" I feel that big time!!!!

  • @dylancolt225
    @dylancolt225 3 роки тому +4

    "Why do I drink till I'm numb, why do I smoke till its done, till I dont feel anything no more, I don't feel anything no more." Never heard truer and more relatable words

  • @yallacttry4945
    @yallacttry4945 4 роки тому +33

    “I don’t want to be an 80 year old man saying, saying why do I drink until I’m num” man I feel u I have severe anxiety keep it up man

  • @mannysanchez2402
    @mannysanchez2402 3 роки тому +57

    "Sick of everybody saying its gonna be alright." "Little do they know that I had tears dropping all night." MAN!!! that right their hit home and got me in my feels!! Love your channel my dude!! Thank you for this depression is tough cuz some ppl dont understand but hearing your song helps me 💙💙

  • @jordanvalladores4933
    @jordanvalladores4933 4 роки тому +27

    " They may not like who I am but I am me " Dang, dude. You're so good.

  • @jayplowman8149
    @jayplowman8149 2 роки тому +7

    Yo as a rapper and a rocker who struggles with multiple forms of depression, you just gave me my life story without even knowing me. Man, you just spit a direct line to my soul bro. You ain't just killin it, you as real as they come. Stay real homie. I'm a fan.

  • @ibrxkenmarilyn_gmln8044
    @ibrxkenmarilyn_gmln8044 4 роки тому +27

    "I have always Felt Like, I don't Belong Here."
    That Hit me Hard.
    and That Is Me Too.

  • @abyzz4589
    @abyzz4589 4 роки тому +170

    I'm 17 years, dealing with some stuff ans i felt the lyrics i'm addicted to drugs, this reality sucks and i just wanna escape, i dont want no attention i just want some people to know that they are not alone❤

    • @abeeromar1388
      @abeeromar1388 4 роки тому +2

      You are not man I know this might sound dumb but there is a lot of people out there ready to help you out you need to seek help I am on the other side of the globe so I can’t do anything but talk so if you need anything text me on my ig : mazen.m.o.h.a.m.e.d

    • @mellville2136
      @mellville2136 4 роки тому +1

      I'm sorry your going through this but there is help

    • @sweetienmd
      @sweetienmd 4 роки тому +2

      Im battling some demons myself, I hope you're doing ok! Stay strong!

    • @angee_p
      @angee_p 4 роки тому +2

      I know that ull get over it one day

    • @OPUS_ONER
      @OPUS_ONER 4 роки тому +2

      Your not alone

  • @ericamcadams7918
    @ericamcadams7918 4 роки тому +44

    This hit me hard in the feels. This is how I have felt since losing my son in May.
    #RIPNoah

    • @taelorandjazz7102
      @taelorandjazz7102 4 роки тому +2

      Erica McAdams God Bless And God Loves You, You will See Your Son Again Just Seek God✝️🙌🏾❤️🙏🏽

    • @Mommy2anAngelbaby
      @Mommy2anAngelbaby 3 роки тому +1

      I understand your pain 💔 so sorry for your loss as well.

    • @Eliitheone
      @Eliitheone 2 роки тому +1

      God bless hope you feeling way better🙏🏽🙏🏽

    • @dawnw4968
      @dawnw4968 2 роки тому +1

      I’m sorry for your loss I hope it get a better.

    • @user-ek2ms4om7p
      @user-ek2ms4om7p 2 роки тому

      @@taelorandjazz7102 STOP. I'm so tired of this "God loves you" 😒
      i'm born Again Christian and i defend GOD JESUS almost every day, but HE do NOT give a Fuc. for HIS elect sheep😔😞, imagine how He will threat unbelievers...😳😟
      YHWH YESHUA is a KILLER, bring CURSES to 3 and 4 generations, bring FAMINE, bring POVERTY...etc...
      It is all in HIS Word - the Bible🧐
      JESUS is more EVIL than the demons 😞
      Even the demons are Trembling before Him and His Name😳
      Worst: Humans/more Worst: fallen angels/the WORST: the LORD👎
      I will curse my Savior in the Eternity every day, no joy after living in this Satanic world👎😔😞🤬🤬
      WHY YOU HATE US SO MUCH O LORD JESUS???????💔😞😫😢😢😟😔
      Send me to the Hell i do Not fear this place the Earth is WORST, BUT HEAL my mom - Your daughter immediately 🥺😡
      F.ck YOU JESUS.👎💔😞😭

  • @cynthiafuentes5351
    @cynthiafuentes5351 9 місяців тому +7

    You wrote this 4 years ago and i came across it because at this point in my life im at the bottom of the barrel but im gonna keep moving and not let the devil win..because God got me no he got Us ..thanks it helped me alot just now

  • @sovirakteppanhareachvong7363
    @sovirakteppanhareachvong7363 3 роки тому +287

    im 13 years old and i'm fighting so hard while the people around me keep on putting pressure on me .

    • @aquaflow1264
      @aquaflow1264 3 роки тому +14

      I just turned 40 and life doesn’t get easier U gota fight to live anthr day I pray I die every day smh I’m going thru serious depression ovr a break up in March2020

    • @shubham.pandey
      @shubham.pandey 3 роки тому +13

      Remember life=struggle+happiness

    • @brunobrunosjourney9944
      @brunobrunosjourney9944 3 роки тому +12

      I’ve been that age feeling that same way. I’m 42 now. I’m here to tell you the journey is long but it’s worth it in the end. Hold on tight to the people who truly care about you.

    • @the_holly_cells3729
      @the_holly_cells3729 3 роки тому +8

      @@brunobrunosjourney9944 you'r so right, but the things we don't all have this chance (having someone who cares), God dam It's hard I'm 17, now and being almost major will not help me. (Hypocrisis mode activited : ) Stay strong little fellow it's gonna be fine, I believe you gonna make it until you find a purpose in life !!

    • @ivaninfante9828
      @ivaninfante9828 3 роки тому +6

      I just want to say that our differences are what make us unique and seperate us from the rest were human and have souls of our own even some one whos been through something similar will not fully understand and cant appreciate you for who you are. Love you and be the best you. Life os tough trust me. But the day people see you coincidently be you for some reason they'll want to be you. So no matter how you slice it this is one fd up place. Even if it doesnt seem like it just find one rhing each day that makes you happy and something that you can feel grateful for. Weather you believe it or not there are people out there who respect and have compassion for you. God loves you and I only speak from experience

  • @MysteriousRye
    @MysteriousRye 4 роки тому +94

    “The ones who feel like they don’t belong here, you are lucky I’m lucky to be apart of the “I don’t fit in group” we are more wiser then most people, because of the things we went through we see life differently and we act mature, because of the trauma, and heart break we go through..”

  • @user-fo6fq9cl3u
    @user-fo6fq9cl3u 4 роки тому +39

    “dont know what im running from but i keep on running“ Relateble

    • @rach2264
      @rach2264 3 роки тому

      I feel the same way I keep running but I don't know what I'm running from

  • @frenchie7777
    @frenchie7777 2 роки тому +5

    Bro the line “I don’t want to be an 80 year old man saying” should make all of us reflect on who we are. We can only become a different person by changing the path we are on right now. If we don’t change, we will be who we are today 60 years from now 💯

  • @Mrs.2k13
    @Mrs.2k13 4 роки тому +26

    I have been dealing with so much within and I can NOT thank you enough for this song. To know I'm not alone brings a little peace. 🌻

  • @ITZGIJS
    @ITZGIJS 4 роки тому +12

    i can just feel this guy if like we share a story that we are telling each other....

  • @jasongammie6985
    @jasongammie6985 4 роки тому +44

    I can relate to this song about the crap going on in my life being homeless

    • @luigilsperu
      @luigilsperu 4 роки тому +3

      Jason Gammie You can change that, it’s up to You.

    • @jasongammie6985
      @jasongammie6985 4 роки тому +2

      @@luigilsperu I'm working with an organization to help me get off the street it will take time God is on my side

    • @jasongammie6985
      @jasongammie6985 4 роки тому

      @Unayah Vanhamme I will pray for you

    • @audreygrandchamp392
      @audreygrandchamp392 4 роки тому +1

      Hang in there Jason I know it's hard I've been homeless with my little boy for two years now and shit keeps hitting me one thing after another but we gotta hold our heads high and keep going.

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому

      Hang in there brother

  • @DieHardzHD
    @DieHardzHD 3 роки тому +6

    This song is so relatable. Anxiety sucks been dealing with social anxiety for years & cannot control it.

  • @yeseniasanchez9409
    @yeseniasanchez9409 4 роки тому +23

    “So I crack a brew, that’s just what I have to do to get my mood rite. “ I’ve been so stressed, anxiety gets worse by the day, venting to friends is not what I like to do bc nothing will help remove the pain I have. I push people away bc I’m not happy with me. I’ve found myself drinking , smoking more bc that’s when I’m in a happy mood. ITS TRUE. I need to let it go... currently blowing up your stuff bc I’ve spent the last two hours playing your stuff. You’re amazing. ❣️ I found you at the perfect time.

    • @paris1292
      @paris1292 4 роки тому

      This song hit me so hard.... I went thru a Mental Breakdown 2 years ago. This song is deep and real. I cant get enough of his music. He is real and his music is so real... keep it up Gremlin.

    • @stephanietagliere6016
      @stephanietagliere6016 4 роки тому

      Perfectly said exactly how I feel it sucks that others feel like this but it’s good to know we aren’t alone in this feeling wish you well

    • @bradhughes4806
      @bradhughes4806 3 роки тому

      Hey beautiful

    • @bradhughes4806
      @bradhughes4806 3 роки тому

      Hey

  • @travisvaudrin7832
    @travisvaudrin7832 4 роки тому +10

    It's truly heart breaking to hear that somebody is going through the mental hell I go through. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. But thank you making me feel not alone in this journey!!!

  • @fabianmueller7883
    @fabianmueller7883 4 роки тому +6

    This guy deserves success in the music business.. real... talented... humble... get him where he belongs...

  • @robertdutton7277
    @robertdutton7277 2 роки тому +13

    Dude... Get out of my head. My life is torture with anxiety and u nailed it. U gained a new subscriber. Ty

  • @noemi1768
    @noemi1768 4 роки тому +6

    Man this is crazy... i bet a lot of people can relate to this and are really thankful for the song.

  • @4R05T
    @4R05T 4 роки тому +8

    "Everyone is who the f*ck i need to stay away from. I dont wanna feel sh*t, i just wanna stay numb." i felt that hard😔💔

  • @samcarley1760
    @samcarley1760 4 роки тому +25

    This helped me so so so so much because i have depression and anxiety

  • @RustyVR2
    @RustyVR2 3 роки тому +9

    Wow, this hits me hard.... I'm deionized with anxiety, depression, dyslexia, ADHD, and bipolar. I'm only 11, but that doesn't matter what matters is that I am beating it. I am stronger than it. So as everyone that has any deionized.

    • @nicholas3620
      @nicholas3620 3 роки тому +2

      That’s nice to hear, keep it up.

    • @RustyVR2
      @RustyVR2 3 роки тому

      Idk thank you so much, I have been working on life, hard work pays oof

  • @marc_tha_420_pyro
    @marc_tha_420_pyro 4 роки тому +5

    Wow... the timing of this video is perfect. I'm sitting outside smoking, trying to numb my pain right now. This song is hella deep.

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому

      youll get through it brother

    • @marc_tha_420_pyro
      @marc_tha_420_pyro 4 роки тому

      @@Gremlinmusic24 thanks man. Amazing song, btw. You're very talented. I'm sharing it everywhere I can.

  • @ashnidahiya8347
    @ashnidahiya8347 4 роки тому +94

    We all listening to this song should make a group on a social network. Any suggestions?
    Wish you guys best and only the best in your lives

  • @javiersierra4943
    @javiersierra4943 4 роки тому +12

    “Feels like I don’t fit in with society ... Sick of everybody saying everything is gonna be alright little did they know I had tears dropping all night ... Everyone is who tf I need to stay away from... why do I drink till I’m numb” 🔊🔊🔊💯

  • @Smorgellep
    @Smorgellep 3 роки тому +2

    This song is absolutely life changing, I played this song to my dad and he just started to cry and hug me
    Cause he has no idea what to do with me being an alcoholic and smoker and prescribed alprazolam and when you use drugs you lose control of your frontal cortex and then you just drink and drink and drink and then it’s only emotions that come out , big respect
    This song means a lot to me

  • @johndixon5307
    @johndixon5307 4 роки тому +57

    This song helps me alot through the holidays thanks gremlin

  • @whyamihere4257
    @whyamihere4257 2 роки тому +14

    16 and diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. This truly describes what it's like. Every word. This song truly hits hard. You truly put all of the words in my head into a song. I've lost a lot of friends because of everything, I've pushed through, it's hard, but I keep pushing. Its gotten a tad better, but for those who need to hear this - you aren't alone, I'm here along with a lot of other people, you are loved and wanted, it may not feel like it now, but it will start to get better, it will just take some time, trust me. Take your pills, eat, stay hydrated and get the rest you need ❤
    Please, if you need someone to talk to or need to get something off your chest, reply to this, I'm here to listen and try to help you.

    • @raylenn9905
      @raylenn9905 2 роки тому +2

      I'm 14 and I had to go to a psych ward because no one understood what I was going through and I have MDD (Major Depressive Disorder) And GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) so I am wishing you the best and I hope you get better💛

    • @theharshtruthoutthere
      @theharshtruthoutthere Рік тому

      @@raylenn9905 ua-cam.com/video/fBhi9Ke1h7w/v-deo.html
      Why do we want to die before our time? For all those who have power in this fallen world are not even humans. They are the evil spirits, who have stole everything from us. And we, going away before our time to die - we give our enemies what they have wanted all along - we give them our lives. Ephesians 6:12 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places.
      If we do not call upone the NAME OF THE LORD and SHALL BE NOT SAVED - then our souls - our very being is theirs (satan`s) and not GOD`S.
      Romans 10:13 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
      Psalms 145:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      The LORD is nigh unto all them that call upon him, to all that call upon him in truth.
      Psalms 18:3 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      I will call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
      Psalms 116:13 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      I will take the cup of salvation, and call upon the name of the LORD.
      Do not take away what`s GOD`S . Your soul belongs to GOD who give it, your soul do not belong to satan. For lucifer is none to be worshipped, he is also the creation of GOD. Without GOD, there be no lucifer. For even the name: “LUCIFER” is GOD given.
      1 Chronicles 16:8 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      Give thanks unto the LORD, call upon his name, make known his deeds among the people.
      Psalms 105:1 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      O give thanks unto the LORD; call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people.
      Psalms 116:17 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      I will offer to thee the sacrifice of thanksgiving, and will call upon the name of the LORD.
      Psalms 80:18 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      So will not we go back from thee: quicken us, and we will call upon thy name.
      2 Samuel 22:4 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      I will call on the LORD, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
      Psalms 86:5 | View whole chapter | See verse in context
      For thou, Lord, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee.

    • @beccaheib8747
      @beccaheib8747 Рік тому

      I've battled depression n severe anxiety n ptsd n so many things alongside those n its hard to explain urself to everyone n it's exhausting n ive been committed n so on by loved ones n my parents because they just assume u are on something if u act differently n an ex husband who made my life what felt like hell 20 years n a son n im 39 n am worse than I ever thought n I am alone in my life so that is bad an a surgery i had to have I thought I'd finally get help n they had to listen n understand me I thought n was I wrong. Alone no car severe cabin fever n I have been divorced n fighting custody n he is threatening me n wants me to surrender my rights as a mom n I can't do it n esp because of the bond I have with my 12 year old son I love n raised n he's a amazing n he understands me n it's a blessing n I then I think I will be happy I met someone n well that was absolutely terrible n they had the nerve to say that's why they didn't have a kid n omg I was like that does it n I left n like pos n I am not letting my angel bug go if so it'll kill me y heart will shatter n I don't know what to do do because it's been setups n years of screens n im not on anything but it's only worse n nobody ever wants to see or listen tome or my kid let alone videos don't lie im amazing mom but6 years alone n a alone in a marriage it's hell n im not well n im scared to even sleep because I'm afraid I won't wake I hate anxiety. Cry

    • @whyamihere4257
      @whyamihere4257 Рік тому

      Thank you for these comments. When you had posted it I had actually gone downhill very fast and took a major brake from everything. I am still not the best I could be, but I am getting there slowly. Again, thank you. 💛

    • @raylenn9905
      @raylenn9905 Рік тому +1

      @@whyamihere4257 No problem lole I said I hope you get to the point where you want to be and remember what anyone thinks doesn't matter it only matters what u think Good luck wishing u the best of luck💙

  • @Vagasoul
    @Vagasoul 3 роки тому +7

    'Good music doesn't come from the mind it comes from the soul' ~Juice

  • @cheyk3297
    @cheyk3297 3 роки тому +22

    ''I dont wanna feel shit, I just wanna stay numb''
    frl tho 😭✋

  • @antoinelefebvre3947
    @antoinelefebvre3947 4 роки тому +11

    "I make the small things look bigger like I looking through a microscope"
    Hit me hard

    • @jessicachurch3850
      @jessicachurch3850 4 роки тому

      FOR REAL!! I was like damnnn he’s attacking me in this song 😂😂 I love it

  • @rickysamuels8201
    @rickysamuels8201 4 місяці тому +3

    2024 and I barely found this man. Thank you Yeshua!

  • @darkmyth4848
    @darkmyth4848 3 роки тому +3

    THIS IS HOW MY DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY AND IT SUCKS I WISH IT CAN STOP AND THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SEE THAT I AM NOT THE ONLY PERSON DEALING WITH IT

  • @flakowitdadrako
    @flakowitdadrako Рік тому +2

    "Don't know what I run from, but I keep on running" gave me chills.

  • @jessicaestes683
    @jessicaestes683 3 роки тому +5

    My boyfriend and I are both into music. Hes the rapper though not me. But my words can not describe to you how much this means to me. Bro I shed tears as I write this. You saved my life. I mean that 💯. For that I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  • @vehighter9079
    @vehighter9079 4 роки тому +7

    Everyday, I feel down, stressed, irritated, anxious and tired. In addition, my parents used to fight a lot in the past and I feel like it affected me a little. Right now, there's more scolding and quarreling in my family. It makes me feel so drained and much worse. I just wish we can all be happy already. I would wish to have a chat with anyone here.

    • @NelmarDayanan
      @NelmarDayanan 4 роки тому +1

      Im here dude. Just stand, no matter what happen.

    • @vehighter9079
      @vehighter9079 4 роки тому +2

      @@NelmarDayanan thanks man..

    • @danielarguello5670
      @danielarguello5670 4 роки тому +1

      It’s ight be strong I promise u will get through it

  • @KayeFannin-jt5xs
    @KayeFannin-jt5xs Рік тому +8

    Almost 2 years clean from meth. Still drinking but I'm fighting for my life because of this song. I have 3 babies to live and love for! Thank you so much for this song! It's gotten me through suicide attempts and thinking I'm nothing! Everyone has a purpose and I believe mine is to give my children a better environment! I'm still working on it! God help me! You got this Gremlin

  • @vaporz7282
    @vaporz7282 3 роки тому +1

    I just wanted to say thank you Gremlin. You are not alone.

  • @KW6T9817
    @KW6T9817 4 роки тому +8

    "I make the small things seem bigger like I'm looking through a microscope"
    My Life 😪

  • @Sayless2o19
    @Sayless2o19 4 роки тому +35

    This song made me cry :( felt what he said dealt with this depression and anxiety ever since my mom passed away 😓

    • @mattdole4315
      @mattdole4315 4 роки тому +2

      sorry about your loss. Lost my mom 2.5 weeks ago, I feel your pain. I'm sorry.

    • @Sayless2o19
      @Sayless2o19 4 роки тому +1

      Matt Dole hurts so much hey? 😭

    • @mattdole4315
      @mattdole4315 4 роки тому

      @@Sayless2o19 damn straight. I feel lost. This song describes everything I'm feeling as I'm sitting here fucking drinking when I have to wake up in 5 hours. And everything I've felt for the last 2 weeks. Feels great,

    • @DeusOffical
      @DeusOffical 4 роки тому

      I had many family die not that long ago. I feel u

    • @justinrushing
      @justinrushing 4 роки тому

      You mom is so proud of u for still being alive

  • @amayabent1748
    @amayabent1748 4 роки тому +6

    You are the best rapper that relates to real life thanks so much for your inspirational songs

  • @pzykoziz8908
    @pzykoziz8908 3 роки тому +4

    Thank you so much Gremlin for doing this, the song described my whole personality, after thousands of comments in this video I now feel not alone.

  • @Isaac-ie5dx
    @Isaac-ie5dx 4 роки тому +4

    Man this is what im going through bro!!! I just lost everything had to move out of my country and left all my fam...i dont feel anything anymore and i am proud of you...i hope you get to read this bro!!! I dont have shit to loose any more...

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому +1

      You got this bro. Never give up on yourself man.

  • @typicalf8064
    @typicalf8064 4 роки тому +7

    Your actually so inspiring your songs have helped me through so much i cant even explain how much to help me on a day to day basis

  • @lisarodriguez6966
    @lisarodriguez6966 4 роки тому +4

    Wow. This song is breathtaking! Shared it with my 22 year old son and husband. Very talented artist with tremendous bravery to be so open and vulnerable and amazed that he has such insight into his emotions and subsequent actions.

    • @Gremlinmusic24
      @Gremlinmusic24  4 роки тому

      thank you very much!

    • @lisarodriguez6966
      @lisarodriguez6966 4 роки тому

      @@Gremlinmusic24 I'm honored you replied! It's a better world for having you in it.

  • @alhi1167
    @alhi1167 3 роки тому +2

    This song speaks to me cause I've been going through major depression, I feel like nobody cares about me. Every since I was born nobody wanted me going house to house, parents were drug attacks and alcoholics so they didn't care about me, I was adopted at like 6 got molested at that age nobody cared, im in school and got held back, got no freinds, and honestly nowadays I just feel like staying in my bed cause I'm to depressed to do anything.

  • @garrettdavis6968
    @garrettdavis6968 4 роки тому +5

    I saw the Brew the darkness falls on you like it did me all my life now I'm simply empty I stay faded and alone with a pain ..

  • @armandlovato5345
    @armandlovato5345 3 роки тому +8

    This song just came one while I had a blade to my wrist and made me stop I'm eternally grateful for you 💜💙💛❤

  • @iznabbas6020
    @iznabbas6020 4 роки тому +5

    This is why i like Gremlin

  • @liamlynch2115
    @liamlynch2115 8 місяців тому

    I don’t think there’s any one “answer” out there, but finding things (like this song) and people who are experiencing similar issues seems to be the most helpful.

  • @brookeakers9645
    @brookeakers9645 4 роки тому +8

    I relate to this so much 🥺 I love this .

  • @JoseGarcia-qp6kg
    @JoseGarcia-qp6kg 4 роки тому +12

    You’re legit dude! This helps a lot!!

  • @minja1585
    @minja1585 4 роки тому +4

    Imagine crying way more than you have ever in your life because of this song. Why? Because I can relate

    • @susanboos2951
      @susanboos2951 4 роки тому

      I relate to the lyrics, always feeling numb. Being the black sheep 🐑 on both sides of my family... no one wanting to be friends with me cos I'm different.

  • @mirandalee4546
    @mirandalee4546 Рік тому +2

    "I stayed in the darkness even when i found light"💔💜

  • @gmtherider8812
    @gmtherider8812 3 роки тому +6

    I suffer from anxiety and depression this hits deep 😢😭

  • @jessesaint7559
    @jessesaint7559 2 роки тому +4

    Still one of my top 10 artists. Love his lyrics.

  • @DeadDemonOfLostIzaleth
    @DeadDemonOfLostIzaleth 4 роки тому +5

    I’ve dealt with a break up with my last girlfriend and hurt bad and this song is chill

  • @chrischavez6888
    @chrischavez6888 2 роки тому +1

    I rarely comment on things like this. But honestly me myself I have been going through some tough issues. Dealt with problems I feel I can't over come or push to get through. But listening to this song along with many others. Gives me a push to better myself and do what's better for me and son. Single dad living day by day wondering. Thank you God bless

  • @MaddyLuvz04
    @MaddyLuvz04 3 роки тому +48

    Lyrics:
    [Verse 1: Gremlin]
    Heart broken and I'm starin at the moon light/
    Nothings helping so I'm hopin that this vew might/
    I dont wanna sink into it tonight/
    So I crack a brew cause that's just what I have to do to get my mood right/
    I dont understand who I'm even becomin/
    Dont know why my demons are always getting summoned/
    Man they make it so hard, for me to let love in/
    Dont know what I run from, but I keep on runnin/
    Wish that I could slow down but I've never known how/
    If you give me your heart it's gonna get thrown out/
    I stayed in the darkness even when I found light/
    Fuckin hate this bottle so I break it on the ground like/ like
    [Hook x2: Gremlin]
    Why do I drink till I'm numb?
    Why do I smoke till it's done?
    Till I dont feel anything no more
    I dont feel anything no more
    [Verse 2: Gremlin]
    Feels like I dont fit in with society/
    They may not like who I am but I am me/
    I dont talk ever talk I'm sitting quietly/
    But my head is loud dont know how to settle down all the anxiety/
    I have always felt like I dont belong here/
    It's been a long year, it's been a long life/
    Sick of everybody sayin its gonna be alright/
    Little do they know that I had tears dropping all night/
    Everyone is who the fuck I need to stay away from/
    I dont wanna feel shit, I just wanna stay numb
    I know that it's not right, needa get my mind right/
    But for now I'm drunk, high & crying to the sky like/ like
    [Hook x2: Gremlin]
    Why do I drink till I'm numb?
    Why do I smoke till it's done?
    Till I dont feel anything no more
    I dont feel anything no more
    [Verse 3: Gremlin]
    I dont wanna be like this forever though/
    I hold onto a lot of shit I need to let it go/
    But it's harder than I'd like to show/
    I make the small things seem bigger like I'm lookin through a microscope/
    Lost so many friendships and I lost a few girls/
    Needa be relentless if I wanna build a new world/
    I know that I can change every day I am praying/
    Cause I dont wanna be a 80 year old man sayin/ sayin
    [Hook x2: Gremlin]
    Why do I drink till I'm numb?
    Why do I smoke till it's done?
    Till I dont feel anything no more
    I dont feel anything no more yup whole mood

  • @user-fr6zz7oo9r
    @user-fr6zz7oo9r 4 роки тому +4

    I have chills through my whole body... I felt every syllable.. thank you for the words to my feelings..Much Love Back Brother

  • @user-wf5kj6fo6t
    @user-wf5kj6fo6t 4 роки тому +5

    "I don't feel anything no more" hit me

  • @blazingsalads3386
    @blazingsalads3386 3 роки тому +1

    A song like this is a hidden treasure that had has saved my life. Living with anxiety and depression has been a struggle that never loses strength. So its honestly this type of music that can save the world. Please don't let let your voice fade. You've saved more lifes that you could imagine. You are an angel among mortals. Keep it up!