Thank you for y'all's hard work and content. As someone that lives in Buffalo it's been a T-O-U-G-H few days but content such of this reminds me of how many BEAUTIFUL, TALENTED Black folks there are in the world and we - as an A-MA-ZING PEOPLE - can NOT and WILL NOT BE STOPPED. ❤️🖤💚
Evelyn sweetie listen, I have a dear cousin who has been my ride or die bestie since before I knew we were related. Your energy and hers is SO SAMEZZZZZ🤣🤣🤣 I adore her and you share those affections for much the same reasons. That said, your ending comments on developing social anxiety and not knowing how to engage friends anymore: get it. I assure you none of your friends could possibly be annoyed with your or not want to be around you. You’re a joy to watch and since you are so much like my cousin, I KNOW you’re a good time in person! I hope you reflect on this comment and feel a little better when those feelings creep up! Love your Internet (could have been actual) Cousin💝
I think making a spreadsheet and being intentional about re-establishing connection with your friends is a great idea. This has been a horrible, draining, punishing couple of years. It's good that you're recognizing and addressing how this has affected you and that you're not beating yourself up about it. The Behind the Scenes was so fun to see! Thanks for vlogging it!
🥲 thanks for the encouragement Stephanie! I had to accept that if something doesn’t come “naturally” I can make it happen ✨intentionally✨ and there’s nothing wrong with that!
I figured out through the pandemic that I'm probably autistic. For me that meant always struggling to some degree with social anxiety and being very ill equipped to interact with others, but since covid I REALLY don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm so nervous all the time, even around friends. I can't say I've reverted to how I was when I was younger and struggling because it feels so different now. Like, I got worse at being social and functioning like a human in the real world but worse in a way I've never been before. This is uncharted territory. I don't think it helped that covid cut off the last couple months of high school for me. I missed prom, graduation, starting college, living on campus, turning 18, all of that. I mean, I did graduate from high school and start completely remote online community college classes but it happened a totally different way than it's supposed to. In my mind I'm still 17 even though I'm turning 20 in a couple months because all the landmarks that I expected to happen never did and my life has changed so much since before covid. I'm a different person now living a different life.
Ooo! Did people on tik tok help you come to that understanding? I’ve seen that it’s been helpful in connecting people!! And YES EXACTLY! Milestones aren’t what they used to be anymore - it’s missing the fanfare and cultural excitement. The amount of drive-by baby birthdays alone makes me sad at all the things we’ve collectively missed out on. It sucks that you weren’t able to experience those pivotal moments 😢
I'm SO glad you touched on this in the vlog. I was already a little awkward and anxious but with this pandemic...Jesus. Im having to really push myself to get out or touch base with my friends. It makes no sense! Thanks for starting this conversation. You are definitely not alone here.
The show bts, the doodle stickers, the flower walk, the post therapy feeling, the creative field trip, the processing social anxieetyyy (whew) the honesty, relatability and lofi chillness of this blog was comforting
That ending chat was SO REAL and SO RELATABLE! I've had anxiety most of my post-adolescent life and it's always been like issues with like controlling my thought life. But the new fears I've experienced post panini around hanging out with people I adore and know adore me are a whole new animal. I'm still working through it, with my therapist and with friends, but just wanted to say you are not alone! I appreciate you sharing because it helps so much! I hope you are giving yourself lots and lots of grace! 💛
Thanks Deborah ❤️✨ it’s so nice to know I’m not alone because a layer of the social anxiety is that “I’m probably overreacting literally nobody else is freaking out” smhhhh
It’s been hard and every month feels like a great reason to have an existential crisis. I appreciate the work you do. It makes me just feel better. And right now, that’s enough for me.
I don't know what type of sorcery has fallen upon us but I've noticed a lot of ppl have been feeling like poop these past months, don't give up on yourself Cousin! I LOVED watching this coulda been an email
That spreadsheet idea is great, I might start doing that too. I’ve been wanting to reconnect with more of my friends but I get a little anxious about reaching out. Suggesting an activity is so much easier since I’m very awkward and can only keep a text conversation alive for 5 minutes.
For sure! We have to make the transition from just giving each other updates on our lives to actually making memories together. I literally don’t wanna talk about myself or what I did today I wanna TURN UP!! 😂😂
Thuggish ruggish bone hair dryer took me out lol. Just wanted to say I have so much appreciation and respect for you. You always help me access my own humanity so easily (which is hard because life 🥴) by listening to your insights and the way you process your experiences. Sending you so much good energy as you continue learning about your anxiety. 💙
I feel you! Right before the pandemic clicked for me, like “oh you need to go back home,” I was at the finish line of grad school, really hard two years and felt I was hitting strides with what I wanted to do and understanding myself, all that good stuff. I’ve always had social anxiety, but I was in DC and like a week before things popped off officially in 2020, I had lunch with someone which was huge. All that momentum has since gone, friendships that have fizzled out of existence for some of the same feelings you mentioned, and I’m back home in a place that I’ve grown up in with none of the feelings of wonder and I feel like I’ve lost my memory of what relationships look like beyond family. So doing good! (It’s progress that I at least know this about where I am now.)
I cannot even describe how ecstatic I was seeing this pop up in my sub box. Adored seeing the cast (you practicing your scene? love it, love it) and crew (additional love to all PAs because whew that underappreciated job on other sets). That fact about Tame Impala? bless. I think the spreadsheet and using coaching when you needed it to help with connecting with friends as best as you can again when you can is beautiful. I hope by your birthday it feels miles and miles easier (or even if it’s “”only”” marginally easier that’s still brilliant and I hope you’re proud of yourself regardless. All of us deserve whole heapings of grace after the last few years we’ve been through)! So happy to see an upload from you!
The way this ending spoke to my soul. I felt like I was the only one going through this. Yes, I have anxiety but my friends were my safety net. Now, I feel my only space is in my home by myself. Talk about isolation. I can count on one hand how many times I’ve hung out friends in the last 2 yrs. Let’s not even get into dating. What is that? If the thought of hanging out with my friends makes me sweat, then intentionally setting up time to meet a person of romantic interest sounds unfathomable. What is life.
Your chat about gaining social society and being mostly anti-social during the pandemic is SO relatable. I literally don't know how to communicate or be around my friends anymore. Throw in a case of anxiety and ADHD tendencies, and it's over. Thank you for speaking on this, Evelyn. 💕
Rusty with vlogging? Before the midpoint of this video I was thinking to myself, “I love this style of vlog that Evelyn is doing”; the ending only made it better! 💕
Girl! This vlog was SO good. I really enjoyed the editing style in particular. It made it feel extra cinematic. Not that you asked for advice, but I wanted to share that when I first understood that I had depression, I made a private Pinterest board about depression and it helped me process the feelings. That may be helpful for your social anxiety too. 🤷🏾♀️ Either way, you got this lady!
thank you thank you thank you!! I've always struggled with social anxiety and it is so affirming to hear you've been having similar experiences. The anxiety can be very convincing at times :(
Social anxiety is something I've had since before I can remember. I've had to learn to trust that people who choose to be around me actually want to be around me. It helps when they express that in some way. Congrats on episodes 2 and 3! 🎬Thanks for sharing. Sturdy vlog. 💯
I completely feel you on how the current pandemic climate has impacted us on a social/emotional/physical/mental level-- among those who value connection, we all question what it really means to connect and the inherent and vitality it holds. It's nice to see you vlogging again and for sharing this journey with us, Evelyn! Love and appreciation to all! Please continue to stay safe and healthy!
Can I tell you that much in the same way you needed to make this old fashioned vlog, I needed to watch this old fashioned vlog. I been stressed and this was a great way unwind from my day. Also, this wig and these doodle are everything. On top of this chat. I can relate.
Congratulations on the wrap! 🍾🎉🎊🥳 Can’t wait for the episodes to air. I really enjoyed the moment of nature in the middle of the vlog 🥰 I watched some videos today on NUTs (negative unconscious thoughts). They are different for every person but some examples… I’m not good enough, I’m not smart enough, I don’t work hard enough. Quarantining encouraged us to just wallow in those negative loops and you sharing this anxiety makes me feel so seen. Maybe that’s the solution too? Being honest with our friends… giving that fear a name. your video inspired me to reach out to two people I used to be close with but somewhere over the last two years disconnected from. We’re getting drinks on Thursday. Thanks for making this content. See you on the internet!
I clicked on this video so fast and was cheesing from ear to ear the ENTIRE TIME. We get a whole 24:38 minute vlog from our good sis 🥰🤯🥰🥰 So dope to see queens making and taking your own. That last part about social anxieties around friends has been my struggle this pandemic as well. I really couldn’t figure it out and thought it was just me. So encouraging and interesting to know it’s happening to a good chunk of us. Bless my therapists heart. She tried to help me flesh this out but was like 😶. That coaching yourself before reaching out, is a real thing. Thank you Evelyn for always keeping it real and transparent. Been a fan since jump and am so proud of you 👏🏿
this was oddly comforting to watch? like i didn't know how to talk to people before but now i'm like? maybe just never gonna see most people again bc i don't know where to start?
Girl, yes that is exactly what a life with an anxiety disorder is like. The pandemic has made my regular anxiety worse. 😬 It sucks! I can absolutely relate. I hate it here!
Literally last night I was missing your vlogs and wondering if you would make another one any time soon. Thank you for bringing us along your daily life! Also I feel your pain with social anxiety. It sucks, and this doesn't make things any better, but we are all a little more broken, sometimes in unexpected ways, then before the pandemic hit. I'm glad you are allowing yourself time off to walk, craft and rest, Hugs and love.
Thank you for your transparency and vulnerability. Just know that you are not alone. We are still figuring so much out. And if I may offer this, know that your anxiety especially with people you know and admire. Comes from a place of care. When you care for someone, you want to meet them where they are. Without feeling like a burden. But with everything they is going on, it’s easy for any of us to feel overwhelming to someone else. You are loved and supported. And a true connection can never be broken by intentional space.
Evelyn! Missed you! Hope you're doing well. Thank you for always just being you and sharing your life, vibes and light with us. Loved your 'it's ok i'm ok' t-shirt-care to share where you got it?! Bisous😘
GIRLLLLLL you talking about your social anxiety- hard same. It's like pre-pandemic I was coasting and then I had too much time to sit and overthink. And now I overthink everything I say or do, combined with realizing I have adult ADHD. I think at some point I put interacting with friends into the "tasks" category of my head.
GIRL thank u so much for saying this and doing this, i really really appreciate it! As a fellow Leo austinite with uhhhh Ragin' social anxiety since the pandemmy....bruh i feel u so much. i'm relieved to hear i'm not alone here, and even moreso relieved to see it reflected. I'm really sorry ur going through it too, but for our birthdays I hope so bad that we can have the glorious celebrations of ourselves and our loved ones as we imagine them!!! It's Fucking Hard right now.
appreciate you sharing some of your life with us and that honesty about social anxiety is reall. i was totally not reaching out to friends bc i was busy with work so in april i made an intention to reconnect with people i hadn't seen since the beginning of the year and it was so nice to have a meal or go to some bookstores together and just catch up on how our lives and thoughts on life have shifted because of everything going on. best of luck on your plan to reconnect with ppl, really like that idea of making a spreadsheet!
you are not alone on that one. congratulations for creating a web series in a pandemic. And i really liked the first episode. shout to u for being creative during a pandemic.
First of all: this was super relaxing to watch. Loooved your music choices and the parts where you chose not to use music. Wish you included a time lapse of you organizing your office because I live for those lol but totally fine that you didn't! Second of all: what a privilege to feel like we were hanging out with you for a few days! Despite you saying you're rusty with vlogging, it felt so natural and organic. Almost like you were free associating with a video camera in hand, and it worked really well. Third of all/finally: thank you for sharing about your post-pandemic social anxiety! I think you articulated something many people are struggling with that isn't necessarily obvious to those who--for whatever reason--bounced back more easily. Such an important conversation. I hope naming it helps you with navigating it
Maybe it's a silly idea, but perhaps boardgames could help. I've been building up a boardgame collection recently and I'm happy to have a structured activity I can suggest when I meet people. I watch a lot of videos by the channel "No Rolls Barred" and have bought most of my boardgames and card games on their suggestion. I am now the "boardgame lady" and I hope that that's a valuable contribution to my friends.
Not silly at all! There’s something about the way I learn/process information where learning the rules of a game is SO DIFFICULT it’s like the person explaining isn’t speaking English 😂😂 but I LOVE ✨watching✨ people play!
@@Evelynfromtheinternets Thank you for your positive response! :) In that case, maybe you'll like their UA-cam channel as well - they're a very wholesome group of friends. :) I hope things improve for you soon.
Inspiring me to just DO IT. I bought makeup while I’m fading the stress breakout acne scars. My makeup is just sitting on my work desk I stare at it everyday. I need to put it on already instead of complaining. Thanks Evelyn. I lived lipstick only way to long its time to actually do lady things since you can still play connect the dots on my face.
I'm SOO glad to see you!! I've missed seeing your face upon these Internets!! Honestly, I don't care if you're rusty, I just like you being out here. ♥
Evelyn, I think the spreadsheet sounds like a great idea! Creating social paths via activities is such a practical approach. I know for me, if I have to spend time with someone where I know I might struggle to have a lengthy social interaction with I sometimes make a list of conversation topics beforehand which might sound basic but it helps me feel more at ease.
1. I love you Evelyn. 💛🥺 2. I 100% understand the social anxiety and have it but I refuse to not reach out to folks so I still do even though my insides be like ALERT! DANGER! ABORT MISSION!! and alladat. I wuv my peoples so I just do it anyway.
Congratulations on pushing through and getting your stuff done, I am very familiar with anxiety so I know whatchu feelin.Just breathe through it (deeeep breaths).Also look into essential oils they can really help! Looking forward to watching the show!
Great Vlog. AND I relate to the last part “that’s not me”, except it is me now, never was before, but is now and the connection I lost was first to myself because that social part of myself had no place for expression or anyone mirroring me back to me for so long. So I am grieving now and for a while longer I won’t be reaching out cause gotta reach in to feel the loss & reconnect with me and then as you are doing now reconnect with friends. Love your spreadsheet and practice & prepare for birthday idea. My birthday is in the Fall, so, that’s helpful. 🙏🏽💗🙏🏽 Thank you for sharing!
As an extroverted Gemini - trying to be social again and having confusion about how to do this has been very destabilizing. thanks for mentioning this!
Yooooouuuu Are Nooooot Aloooone! From one Leo to another, I feel ya. Its a weird place. We survived a pandemic and then folks kinda just expect us to fall back into old rhythms. Like... THREE YEARS HAVE COME AND GONE... IM A NEW VERSION OF MYSELF! But I'm believing that one thing about a leo... WE GON COME BACK BETTER THAN BEFORE. And I hope that for all of the other zodiacs as well.
Hey Evelyn, I wish you great success on your Web Series. I love Hallease and the two of you working today is Epic. Thank you for being so opened and vulnerable. I think I understand what you are experiencing because I am, and have been experiencing some of the same feelings you are talking about for awhile now but I can't pinpoint when it began. Do you believe that the Pandemic have something to do with it? Is this depression? God is with you my sister this is going to lift soon in Jesus name.
Thanks for all your support and encouragement ❤️✨ Yes, I think the pandemic 10000% impacted the way we interact. First, it was the initial scariness of the virus itself. We didn’t know how people were getting sick and why some but not others. The whole “if you go home for the holidays you could kill your grandma” 🤭 that’s so intense and scary! Then, as vaccines and testing became available it was “well if I have to risk myself for a JOB then of course I’m gonna go out for drinks after!” And now we’re picking up the pieces of realizing how much time we lost. 🥲
I don't have friends anymore. The ones I liked left the city with no plans to come back and the ones that are here, we no longer vibe. So my old @$$ has to learn how to meet people again and... iowanna.
i was thinking grace looked familiar then realized u and her were both on that hair channel a few years back ? (if i’m not mistaken) it’s cool seeing u guys on screen together again ! 💗
Oh wow. Will there be new episodes of " this could have been an email coming in the near future?" It's been so long since your last vlog. This was a nice just to catch up. Yep, that anxiety can hit ya in the most unexpected ways but we find ways to work around and through it. For those who can access it, therapy can be some helpful with this.
Been feeling very 🙃💩😵💫 since March, so why not get back to basics with a good ol fashioned vlog. How have y'all been?
Thank you for y'all's hard work and content.
As someone that lives in Buffalo it's been a T-O-U-G-H few days but content such of this reminds me of how many BEAUTIFUL, TALENTED Black folks there are in the world and we - as an A-MA-ZING PEOPLE - can NOT and WILL NOT BE STOPPED. ❤️🖤💚
@@Passion84GodAlways whew that is tough 😞 I’m glad this vlog could be that reminder for you. Thanks for your support as always ❤️
@@Evelynfromtheinternets - Thank YOU! 🫂
Evelyn sweetie listen, I have a dear cousin who has been my ride or die bestie since before I knew we were related. Your energy and hers is SO SAMEZZZZZ🤣🤣🤣 I adore her and you share those affections for much the same reasons. That said, your ending comments on developing social anxiety and not knowing how to engage friends anymore: get it. I assure you none of your friends could possibly be annoyed with your or not want to be around you. You’re a joy to watch and since you are so much like my cousin, I KNOW you’re a good time in person! I hope you reflect on this comment and feel a little better when those feelings creep up! Love your Internet (could have been actual) Cousin💝
You have definitely been missed🥺
And sad to say, but there are many of us that feel the same way🙏❤️❤️
Also, I definitely don’t regret being your friend. Ever. Never ever. Never have I ever. 😊 (just saying that out loud in the world so it’s known)
I think making a spreadsheet and being intentional about re-establishing connection with your friends is a great idea. This has been a horrible, draining, punishing couple of years. It's good that you're recognizing and addressing how this has affected you and that you're not beating yourself up about it.
The Behind the Scenes was so fun to see! Thanks for vlogging it!
🥲 thanks for the encouragement Stephanie! I had to accept that if something doesn’t come “naturally” I can make it happen ✨intentionally✨ and there’s nothing wrong with that!
Agreed.
I figured out through the pandemic that I'm probably autistic. For me that meant always struggling to some degree with social anxiety and being very ill equipped to interact with others, but since covid I REALLY don't know what I'm doing anymore. I'm so nervous all the time, even around friends.
I can't say I've reverted to how I was when I was younger and struggling because it feels so different now. Like, I got worse at being social and functioning like a human in the real world but worse in a way I've never been before. This is uncharted territory.
I don't think it helped that covid cut off the last couple months of high school for me. I missed prom, graduation, starting college, living on campus, turning 18, all of that. I mean, I did graduate from high school and start completely remote online community college classes but it happened a totally different way than it's supposed to. In my mind I'm still 17 even though I'm turning 20 in a couple months because all the landmarks that I expected to happen never did and my life has changed so much since before covid. I'm a different person now living a different life.
Ooo! Did people on tik tok help you come to that understanding? I’ve seen that it’s been helpful in connecting people!!
And YES EXACTLY! Milestones aren’t what they used to be anymore - it’s missing the fanfare and cultural excitement. The amount of drive-by baby birthdays alone makes me sad at all the things we’ve collectively missed out on. It sucks that you weren’t able to experience those pivotal moments 😢
I can totally relate to not knowing how to do this human thing at times.
I'm SO glad you touched on this in the vlog. I was already a little awkward and anxious but with this pandemic...Jesus. Im having to really push myself to get out or touch base with my friends. It makes no sense! Thanks for starting this conversation. You are definitely not alone here.
Whew we gon get through this Briana! Maybe! Lmaooo but we’re gonna at least try!
I agree 100% with you and I’m working only it!
The show bts, the doodle stickers, the flower walk, the post therapy feeling, the creative field trip, the processing social anxieetyyy (whew) the honesty, relatability and lofi chillness of this blog was comforting
That ending chat was SO REAL and SO RELATABLE! I've had anxiety most of my post-adolescent life and it's always been like issues with like controlling my thought life. But the new fears I've experienced post panini around hanging out with people I adore and know adore me are a whole new animal. I'm still working through it, with my therapist and with friends, but just wanted to say you are not alone! I appreciate you sharing because it helps so much! I hope you are giving yourself lots and lots of grace! 💛
Thanks Deborah ❤️✨ it’s so nice to know I’m not alone because a layer of the social anxiety is that “I’m probably overreacting literally nobody else is freaking out” smhhhh
It’s been hard and every month feels like a great reason to have an existential crisis. I appreciate the work you do. It makes me just feel better. And right now, that’s enough for me.
I don't know what type of sorcery has fallen upon us but I've noticed a lot of ppl have been feeling like poop these past months, don't give up on yourself Cousin! I LOVED watching this coulda been an email
Thanks for the encouragement, Cousin!! We out here!!! ✨✨
@@Evelynfromtheinternets WE WILL PREVAIL
That spreadsheet idea is great, I might start doing that too. I’ve been wanting to reconnect with more of my friends but I get a little anxious about reaching out. Suggesting an activity is so much easier since I’m very awkward and can only keep a text conversation alive for 5 minutes.
For sure! We have to make the transition from just giving each other updates on our lives to actually making memories together. I literally don’t wanna talk about myself or what I did today I wanna TURN UP!! 😂😂
Thuggish ruggish bone hair dryer took me out lol. Just wanted to say I have so much appreciation and respect for you. You always help me access my own humanity so easily (which is hard because life 🥴) by listening to your insights and the way you process your experiences. Sending you so much good energy as you continue learning about your anxiety. 💙
I feel you! Right before the pandemic clicked for me, like “oh you need to go back home,” I was at the finish line of grad school, really hard two years and felt I was hitting strides with what I wanted to do and understanding myself, all that good stuff. I’ve always had social anxiety, but I was in DC and like a week before things popped off officially in 2020, I had lunch with someone which was huge. All that momentum has since gone, friendships that have fizzled out of existence for some of the same feelings you mentioned, and I’m back home in a place that I’ve grown up in with none of the feelings of wonder and I feel like I’ve lost my memory of what relationships look like beyond family. So doing good! (It’s progress that I at least know this about where I am now.)
I cannot even describe how ecstatic I was seeing this pop up in my sub box. Adored seeing the cast (you practicing your scene? love it, love it) and crew (additional love to all PAs because whew that underappreciated job on other sets). That fact about Tame Impala? bless.
I think the spreadsheet and using coaching when you needed it to help with connecting with friends as best as you can again when you can is beautiful. I hope by your birthday it feels miles and miles easier (or even if it’s “”only”” marginally easier that’s still brilliant and I hope you’re proud of yourself regardless. All of us deserve whole heapings of grace after the last few years we’ve been through)! So happy to see an upload from you!
The way this ending spoke to my soul. I felt like I was the only one going through this. Yes, I have anxiety but my friends were my safety net. Now, I feel my only space is in my home by myself. Talk about isolation. I can count on one hand how many times I’ve hung out friends in the last 2 yrs. Let’s not even get into dating. What is that? If the thought of hanging out with my friends makes me sweat, then intentionally setting up time to meet a person of romantic interest sounds unfathomable. What is life.
Your chat about gaining social society and being mostly anti-social during the pandemic is SO relatable. I literally don't know how to communicate or be around my friends anymore. Throw in a case of anxiety and ADHD tendencies, and it's over. Thank you for speaking on this, Evelyn. 💕
Rusty with vlogging? Before the midpoint of this video I was thinking to myself, “I love this style of vlog that Evelyn is doing”; the ending only made it better! 💕
The panoramic really effed up my relationship to leisure in general. Actually to work too, just anxiety all around.
Yuppp like if it’s not sitting on the couch catching up on This Is Us idk what to do with myself lmaooo
@@Evelynfromtheinternets exactly! What am I gonna do when this last episode airs?! 😭
Girl! This vlog was SO good. I really enjoyed the editing style in particular. It made it feel extra cinematic. Not that you asked for advice, but I wanted to share that when I first understood that I had depression, I made a private Pinterest board about depression and it helped me process the feelings. That may be helpful for your social anxiety too. 🤷🏾♀️ Either way, you got this lady!
thank you thank you thank you!! I've always struggled with social anxiety and it is so affirming to hear you've been having similar experiences. The anxiety can be very convincing at times :(
Claire!! This anxiety really be in our ear like 👿👿👿👿 and I hate it!!
@@Evelynfromtheinternets Angel!!! Made my day
Missed you, loved the vlog, so excited to see Tazzy Phe!!!!
Good to see you're still friends with Grace. Love your hair styling and Black Card Revoked videos together 😂😂
I don't enjoy vlogs generally but I always love yours! Anxiety is on 100. I feel you sis. Take great care of yourself ✨
Social anxiety is something I've had since before I can remember. I've had to learn to trust that people who choose to be around me actually want to be around me. It helps when they express that in some way. Congrats on episodes 2 and 3! 🎬Thanks for sharing. Sturdy vlog. 💯
I completely feel you on how the current pandemic climate has impacted us on a social/emotional/physical/mental level-- among those who value connection, we all question what it really means to connect and the inherent and vitality it holds. It's nice to see you vlogging again and for sharing this journey with us, Evelyn! Love and appreciation to all! Please continue to stay safe and healthy!
Can I tell you that much in the same way you needed to make this old fashioned vlog, I needed to watch this old fashioned vlog. I been stressed and this was a great way unwind from my day. Also, this wig and these doodle are everything.
On top of this chat. I can relate.
Spreadsheet sounds like a good idea. Good to see you.
Thanks Udochi! Good to be back!
Congratulations on the wrap! 🍾🎉🎊🥳 Can’t wait for the episodes to air. I really enjoyed the moment of nature in the middle of the vlog 🥰
I watched some videos today on NUTs (negative unconscious thoughts). They are different for every person but some examples… I’m not good enough, I’m not smart enough, I don’t work hard enough. Quarantining encouraged us to just wallow in those negative loops and you sharing this anxiety makes me feel so seen. Maybe that’s the solution too? Being honest with our friends… giving that fear a name. your video inspired me to reach out to two people I used to be close with but somewhere over the last two years disconnected from. We’re getting drinks on Thursday. Thanks for making this content. See you on the internet!
Thank you for sharing and being so transparent. I hope you feel more like your old self soon💚
Yall are like professional adults doing things wow wow wow goals I wanna be like yall when I grow up.... mind you im 31
Pahahah I literally tell Hallease “wow you’re doing it” all the time 😂😂 I’m just along for the ride ayyyeee
I clicked on this video so fast and was cheesing from ear to ear the ENTIRE TIME. We get a whole 24:38 minute vlog from our good sis 🥰🤯🥰🥰
So dope to see queens making and taking your own.
That last part about social anxieties around friends has been my struggle this pandemic as well. I really couldn’t figure it out and thought it was just me. So encouraging and interesting to know it’s happening to a good chunk of us. Bless my therapists heart. She tried to help me flesh this out but was like 😶.
That coaching yourself before reaching out, is a real thing.
Thank you Evelyn for always keeping it real and transparent. Been a fan since jump and am so proud of you 👏🏿
Love you Evelyn! 💕
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i absolutely love your vlogs, Evelyn. they are calming, comforting and i appreciate your candor. thank you.
Congratulations on the Webseries Internet Cousin Evelyn and Hallease!!!🎉🎉🎉👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾💕✌🏾 I get the anxiety thing too, you are NOT alone. 🙏🏾
I do see it Evelyn! I do! I love it. I love that monitor for youuuuuuuu
this was oddly comforting to watch? like i didn't know how to talk to people before but now i'm like? maybe just never gonna see most people again bc i don't know where to start?
Girl, yes that is exactly what a life with an anxiety disorder is like. The pandemic has made my regular anxiety worse. 😬 It sucks! I can absolutely relate. I hate it here!
Missed you Ms. Evelyn!!!
Missed y’all too! I needed a good ol fashioned vlog for the soul! ❤️❤️
Literally last night I was missing your vlogs and wondering if you would make another one any time soon. Thank you for bringing us along your daily life! Also I feel your pain with social anxiety. It sucks, and this doesn't make things any better, but we are all a little more broken, sometimes in unexpected ways, then before the pandemic hit. I'm glad you are allowing yourself time off to walk, craft and rest, Hugs and love.
Thank you for your transparency and vulnerability. Just know that you are not alone. We are still figuring so much out. And if I may offer this, know that your anxiety especially with people you know and admire. Comes from a place of care. When you care for someone, you want to meet them where they are. Without feeling like a burden. But with everything they is going on, it’s easy for any of us to feel overwhelming to someone else. You are loved and supported. And a true connection can never be broken by intentional space.
Sending an internet hug
Evelyn, we have been watching and supporting for years!! So proud! How this video was shot was great, as always
Evelyn! Missed you! Hope you're doing well. Thank you for always just being you and sharing your life, vibes and light with us. Loved your 'it's ok i'm ok' t-shirt-care to share where you got it?! Bisous😘
That head scratch in the beginning is hella satisfying in the mornings 🤤🤌🏾
I loved the “get ready with me.” Your look was very pretty!
GIRLLLLLL you talking about your social anxiety- hard same. It's like pre-pandemic I was coasting and then I had too much time to sit and overthink. And now I overthink everything I say or do, combined with realizing I have adult ADHD. I think at some point I put interacting with friends into the "tasks" category of my head.
Loved this! Thanks Evelyn! Also. Can relate to the 🙃 feels of this
GIRL thank u so much for saying this and doing this, i really really appreciate it! As a fellow Leo austinite with uhhhh Ragin' social anxiety since the pandemmy....bruh i feel u so much. i'm relieved to hear i'm not alone here, and even moreso relieved to see it reflected. I'm really sorry ur going through it too, but for our birthdays I hope so bad that we can have the glorious celebrations of ourselves and our loved ones as we imagine them!!! It's Fucking Hard right now.
appreciate you sharing some of your life with us and that honesty about social anxiety is reall. i was totally not reaching out to friends bc i was busy with work so in april i made an intention to reconnect with people i hadn't seen since the beginning of the year and it was so nice to have a meal or go to some bookstores together and just catch up on how our lives and thoughts on life have shifted because of everything going on. best of luck on your plan to reconnect with ppl, really like that idea of making a spreadsheet!
you are not alone on that one. congratulations for creating a web series in a pandemic. And i really liked the first episode. shout to u for being creative during a pandemic.
First of all: this was super relaxing to watch. Loooved your music choices and the parts where you chose not to use music. Wish you included a time lapse of you organizing your office because I live for those lol but totally fine that you didn't!
Second of all: what a privilege to feel like we were hanging out with you for a few days! Despite you saying you're rusty with vlogging, it felt so natural and organic. Almost like you were free associating with a video camera in hand, and it worked really well.
Third of all/finally: thank you for sharing about your post-pandemic social anxiety! I think you articulated something many people are struggling with that isn't necessarily obvious to those who--for whatever reason--bounced back more easily. Such an important conversation. I hope naming it helps you with navigating it
So glad you’re back! I have severe social anxiety and with what I do for a living it’s tough! I need to be on! I relate to you so much! 😌
So grateful for the behind the scenes you both provide! Also so surprised and happy to see tazzyphe make a guest appearance ❤️
We DEFLEE gon listen to Tame Impala. Slow rush has been on repeat all week-- especially is it true and lost in yesterday.
I don’t make it a habit to invite people to “the cookout” but he definitely on the playlist!!! 😂😂
@@Evelynfromtheinternets we can make a cookout exception for him as a vendor-but not as a guest 👏🏾
That scratch tho!😂 nothing like that first morning scratch!!!
Maybe it's a silly idea, but perhaps boardgames could help. I've been building up a boardgame collection recently and I'm happy to have a structured activity I can suggest when I meet people. I watch a lot of videos by the channel "No Rolls Barred" and have bought most of my boardgames and card games on their suggestion. I am now the "boardgame lady" and I hope that that's a valuable contribution to my friends.
Not silly at all! There’s something about the way I learn/process information where learning the rules of a game is SO DIFFICULT it’s like the person explaining isn’t speaking English 😂😂 but I LOVE ✨watching✨ people play!
@@Evelynfromtheinternets Thank you for your positive response! :) In that case, maybe you'll like their UA-cam channel as well - they're a very wholesome group of friends. :) I hope things improve for you soon.
Inspiring me to just DO IT. I bought makeup while I’m fading the stress breakout acne scars. My makeup is just sitting on my work desk I stare at it everyday. I need to put it on already instead of complaining. Thanks Evelyn. I lived lipstick only way to long its time to actually do lady things since you can still play connect the dots on my face.
I'm SOO glad to see you!! I've missed seeing your face upon these Internets!! Honestly, I don't care if you're rusty, I just like you being out here. ♥
Evelyn, I think the spreadsheet sounds like a great idea! Creating social paths via activities is such a practical approach. I know for me, if I have to spend time with someone where I know I might struggle to have a lengthy social interaction with I sometimes make a list of conversation topics beforehand which might sound basic but it helps me feel more at ease.
Hang in there, Evelyn. It's been a tough couple of years. It's good that you are being honest about it and taking steps to address it. You got this.
1. I love you Evelyn. 💛🥺 2. I 100% understand the social anxiety and have it but I refuse to not reach out to folks so I still do even though my insides be like ALERT! DANGER! ABORT MISSION!! and alladat. I wuv my peoples so I just do it anyway.
1. Love you too ❤️💐. 2. I be in the car on the way to a friend’s house like 🛑⚠️🥵🤢🤡👽🫀 but you’re right we gotta go through with it!!
So transparent. Bless you. Much respect.
Can’t wait to watch this.
Loved this vlog. I welcome more of these whenever you feel moved to make them!
Oooohoooh! A bts vlog! 💜
Congratulations on pushing through and getting your stuff done, I am very familiar with anxiety so I know whatchu feelin.Just breathe through it (deeeep breaths).Also look into essential oils they can really help! Looking forward to watching the show!
Yes this exactly what it’s like, been like this my whole life. Thank God for the internet.
🗣I LOVE YOU COUSIN EVELYN! I see you. You are valued. You are valuable. Same. Anxiety sucks…
awww I'm late to this video but so happy and honored to be a part of this ☺️❤️
omg i love tazzyphe, cant wait for the new episodes!!
Great Vlog. AND I relate to the last part “that’s not me”, except it is me now, never was before, but is now and the connection I lost was first to myself because that social part of myself had no place for expression or anyone mirroring me back to me for so long. So I am grieving now and for a while longer I won’t be reaching out cause gotta reach in to feel the loss & reconnect with me and then as you are doing now reconnect with friends. Love your spreadsheet and practice & prepare for birthday idea. My birthday is in the Fall, so, that’s helpful. 🙏🏽💗🙏🏽 Thank you for sharing!
As an extroverted Gemini - trying to be social again and having confusion about how to do this has been very destabilizing. thanks for mentioning this!
Yooooouuuu Are Nooooot Aloooone! From one Leo to another, I feel ya. Its a weird place. We survived a pandemic and then folks kinda just expect us to fall back into old rhythms. Like... THREE YEARS HAVE COME AND GONE... IM A NEW VERSION OF MYSELF! But I'm believing that one thing about a leo... WE GON COME BACK BETTER THAN BEFORE. And I hope that for all of the other zodiacs as well.
Evelyn!!!! You crack me up! I love you!! I told a friend about you, you just might hear from her
we love you eve
Love the maintenance phase shout out. Great podcast
Loved this vlog
You were gone for a little while, glad you're back.
Why on earth does that bread have so many ingredients?!
glad to be back! And Cousin idk why the ingredients look like a CVS receipt lmaooo but it tastes amazing!!
Yes fam, the anxiety with friends has hit me so hard in the past two years, smh 🤦🏾♀️
Hey Evelyn, I wish you great success on your Web Series. I love Hallease and the two of you working today is Epic. Thank you for being so opened and vulnerable. I think I understand what you are experiencing because I am, and have been experiencing some of the same feelings you are talking about for awhile now but I can't pinpoint when it began. Do you believe that the Pandemic have something to do with it? Is this depression? God is with you my sister this is going to lift soon in Jesus name.
Thanks for all your support and encouragement ❤️✨ Yes, I think the pandemic 10000% impacted the way we interact. First, it was the initial scariness of the virus itself. We didn’t know how people were getting sick and why some but not others. The whole “if you go home for the holidays you could kill your grandma” 🤭 that’s so intense and scary! Then, as vaccines and testing became available it was “well if I have to risk myself for a JOB then of course I’m gonna go out for drinks after!” And now we’re picking up the pieces of realizing how much time we lost. 🥲
@@Evelynfromtheinternets 😥thank you for posting and sharing. Take care my friend ❤️
always happy to see how things are going! i relate like i cant hang out with work friends since the pandemic for the same reason
❤️❤️❤️ thanks for watching!
And yes It’s a struggle 😅😅😅
It's giving slice of life and I'm here for all of it.
Your blog has me missing Austin so much! I lived there from 2005-18.
yes i love the maintenance phase podcast!
Since the 2019 everyone gets me now and want to be left alone ha ha .....
You were ahead of your time!! Lololol
I don't have friends anymore. The ones I liked left the city with no plans to come back and the ones that are here, we no longer vibe. So my old @$$ has to learn how to meet people again and... iowanna.
come thru press
Tame impala is my favorite!!
Facts about the hair dryers 🤣
i was thinking grace looked familiar then realized u and her were both on that hair channel a few years back ? (if i’m not mistaken) it’s cool seeing u guys on screen together again ! 💗
Hey Evelyn,
thanks for the vlog. I am well and wishing the same for you. stay down and stay blessed!
As a fellow Leo....I feel seen and validated! 🥴😏
Lovely hair!
Thanks 😎
you're so dope, just found your channel and have been binge-watching
Oh wow. Will there be new episodes of " this could have been an email coming in the near future?" It's been so long since your last vlog. This was a nice just to catch up. Yep, that anxiety can hit ya in the most unexpected ways but we find ways to work around and through it. For those who can access it, therapy can be some helpful with this.
Yes! Episodes 2 and 3 will be coming soon and then we have to figure out how to finance the last two episodes 😅 Episodes 4 and 5.
That breakfast sandwich looks BOMB
Tame Impala 💜😜 same here!!
I Enjoyed this VLOG ✨👌🏾✨
I guess I've had social anxiety since middle school, because that's basically my life.
tazzy phe cameo!!!