This is the last of the footage in my hard drive graveyard…and my last video for now! In January I hope to return with some fresh stuff. Merry Christmas y Happy New Year 🎉
You are truly incredible and I cherish you content and personality💜💜 You are so funny, relatable, and inspiring at the same time. Wishing you Happy Holidays and a safe and Happy New Year🎆🎆😆😆
Soooo you WROTE, PRODUCED, FILMED and EDITED a whole bleepin' show in only 18 months? Mostly the by yourself???? Netflix/HBO could never. Who's standards are you living by girl?? You damn near giving ME anxiety. You're doing amazing. Love you!
I cannot begin to THANK-YOU for your transparency and showing what depression can REALLY look like. I resonate SO MUCH with your journey of depression & low energy and allowing yourself grace to just be! We missed u and we're glad ur fighting back! Sending light & love as you continue on your journey! I have so enjoyed this vlog!
well done!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is so easy to dwell on the past and what we haven't done. it's much harder to pick up unfinished pieces and see them through. great job on regaining momentum, seeking the support you need, and seeking to care for yourself at the same time. 👏🏾
"Your brain needs an accommodation so go 'head and accommodate yourself!" Yep, that sounds like a lesson that everyone needs to learn even though it's hard to accept sometimes
IvyGG - yes! This was what floored me, I have never thought of allowing myself ANY kind of accommodation! How differently my life would have been if I’d accommodated my needs, ever, at any time
evelyn! even the organisation of these videos, the editing, the authenticity & the hard work that goes into consistently designing thumbnails & exporting videos, setting up lights & mics & documenting, even JUST RECORDING all the whole being brilliant at it nonetheless!!! you’re a phenomenon & we love you ❤❤❤❤ God bless you more & more baby girl 🎉
The 4 month depression scenario is so relatible! So many of us (me included) have been there, and I wish I'd known at the beginning of most of my projects that I would need to build in time for the meltdowns and the days for with no energy. Thanks for showing us how it's done. ✌️
This actually makes me feel so much better. I was sad because I couldn’t turn an idea around in a month but it takes time to “produce” something good. I need to just take my time and bring my ideas to life exactly how I envision it.
The tiny bites of Evelyn and Friends footage had me GUFFAWING and heart-eyez-ing. The LOOK THE FEEL THE YOU! THE BABIEST BLO! THE FLOW! THE ENERGY! THE VIBE! So overjoyed. So excited. So grateful. So blessed to see your life force replenishing day by day, moment by moment in this vlog. May goodness and mercy and grace and love and laughter and comfort palpably and powerfully surround you now and always, Internet Cousin.
The seamless Elsa to Keyshia Cole fake out! 😂 ❤ Gratitude to you for sharing your process - the ups, the downs, the fire alarm battery chirps and everything in between. Wishing you nothing but success E!🎉
my whole life i’ve had creative impulses and never chased that dream because i always assumed i’d fail. the fact that you’re brave and passionate enough to even put this much work into a project is amazing to me. having to deal with depression on top of it all seems like the most stressful thing ever. you should be insanely proud of yourself.
i'm obsessed with this video. what an awesome behind the scenes to what these projects can look like. i spent a huge part of 2021 and 2022 working on a big project that totally failed and didnt work and is dead now and i'm like....... wow! damn! on to the next thing?! i'm excited to watch your show
Shoutout to you, Evelyn, for getting it done❣️ Annnnd shout out to your Virtual Assistant. Having actionable items lined up for you is huge. I'm looking forward to whatever you do in 2023.
What an accomplishment to even be documenting this right here! I’m so inspired by your honesty and insight into the creative making process. Keep pushing forward! Who cares if it’s not good, the fact that you’re making it come to life is the big win 👏🏻 But you know what, I already know it’s gonna be good! That’s why we all come back to keep watching you! We are all ROOTING for you! And we love you already, internet cousin ❤
When you said you got a virtual assistant and were thinking about it as an accommodation: MIND BLOWN. This kind of thinking would be so helpful in my own life! Also your authenticity and realness is such a wonderful thing I'm shooketh
I watch a lot of Imani @crutches_and_spice vids on Tik Tok and have been learning all the ways ableism prevents us from even helping ourselves 🙃 trying to unlearn little by little
As a neurodivergent entrepreneur whose prone to experience a lot of guilt about the long ass list of things I haven't done, was supposed to do, thought to do, dreamt to do (you get the drift) - this vlog was so relatable. Thanks for being you and persisting with sharing content. It's bloody brilliant and hilarious and so are you!
Can NOooOootttt wait for E+Friends. You are such an inspiration, cause I have big unfinished projects and I just have this irrational faith that somehow it’ll work out, if I just don’t give up. Thank you for modeling that. No shame in taking time.
This journey is a true inspiration for anyone trying to make a passion project come to life. I cannot wait for Evelyn and Friends. From the bits you've shown us, It looks so colorful, joyous, humorous, and just all around a good time. I'm rooting for you, Evelyn!! Have a wonderful 2023.
Thank you for sharing this journey with us. Thank you for not giving up on your brain baby. Thank you for helping us to feel seen simply by allowing us to see you. I’m so proud!
Tbh this shud show u that even wit a 4month stretch of depression u were still able to pull thru & accomplish ur goal. It didnt happen in the time u planned, but it still happened & that shud make u feel proud of urself but also prepped to be more kind if u ever experience another depressive episode. Thank u for these vlogs ! Very grounding & realistic & RELATEABLE (half of the comment i jus typed is also to MYSELF)
I’m so, I’m so proud of you 👏🏾 ❤!!!!!!!!! I have no doubt that E&F is going to be fantastic! Also, THANK YOU, for showing your process, all the ups and especially the downs. I wish you nothing but the best and happy holidays and new year to ya!
Hey there internet cousin!! I am proud of you and what you've accomplished and what you had to overcome. I get how you feel 100% ahaha cause depression is a leach. Also, we are our worst critics so just know that I see you, that I love you and all you do on Beyonce's internets 😘 Happy holidays and happy new year!!! 🎉
What’s so important about this is seeing this happen to people who are talented, outgoing, entertaining or even funny, go through a down time or bout of depression BUT can bounce out of that eventually even if it takes MONTHS! And it’s okay to say “I am struggling. Be back soon” and take the time necessary to tend to your overall health and wellbeing. You can’t pour from an empty cup, but the cup can be refilled to pour again when we can address ourselves and figure things out. Like man, I hope this makes sense. Evelyn, thank you for sharing your vault and what you’ve gone through and how you have come out the other side because sometimes when you’re in it, like in it in it, you never think you can come out of it. Like it’s gonna be like this forever. But THIS is proof you can! We can! We gon be alright! 🎉LOVE YOU CUZ❤
I really appreciate you talking about reframing the fact that you got a virtual assistant. It truly is an accomodation. I struggle so hard with shame around asking for reasonable accommodations for my disabilities. I often view myself as being lazy or needy for asking for help and accomodations. Partially because I've had people tell me that and partially because I have a warped ass idea that I should be able to handle everything with no difficulties. Thank you for opening up and talking about this. It's encouraging to listen to others experiences unlearning internalized ableism.
You are *simply* INCREDIBLE - seeing your dedication and grace through a long and difficult project is inspiring and I appreciate your ongoing transparency. Happy holidays and congratulations on getting through this phase of the project!
You're right Evelyn...it took 16 months of you working on a passion project that might not even be good... 🗣️📢 "It's gonna be GOODT/GREAT and of HIGH QUALITY because you're at the helm and GREAT things take TIME to bring to fruition!!!" 🤗❤️🙏🏾🥰
when I tell you it's the DEEP breath I had when we got to the after part of the organizing and saw all those shelved neatly lined up. if that were my real life I would be so much more at ease!!!!!!
Before I even watched this video I wanted to comment and say like... Thanks for showing us all the in-between. You share a lot of your personal life with us and we don't have any claim to you or your life but I just want to say how much I appreciate you sharing your down-bad times. As someone who also struggles to do basic things I think what you have done is amazing. Thank you for being my internet cousin. 💕
Congratulations! I am legitimately so proud and I can’t wait to see the rest of the process. As someone whose own ~creative endeavors got sidelined by brain chemicals chemical-ing too lol, this and all the vlogs in the archive have been really wonderful to watch.
Per usual. This vlog gave what it needed to give. I dont even have the words Ev, man. You are a treasure, your work makes a difference as does your transparency. I cant wait for Evelyn & friends (Patreon cousin been on the edge of my seat since the animation preview). So excited for you!! It’s LIT!
"I'm joining Evelyn's patreon" flew out of my mouth after this video, TYSM for your openness and your gifts, you're a beautiful woman and I feel like I'm growing with you
Oh my goodness. I felt SO much of this from the depression to the feeling guilty about not doing things in the background, “losing” months of work because brain things ETC ETC ETC Thank you so much for sharing this 💕✨
Thank you for being transparent about the struggle in a world that over polishes every kind of presentation. Your efforts in a realistic state, with sarcasm, annoying beeps, a majestic eye roll (worthy of the thorns in my soul), gave me a newish kind of good feeling, which is a lot given the existential mental health crisis soup this country (US) is in. I think it takes a great deal of courage and intelligence to acknowledge the messiness of life and still cultivate and honor new seeds. Much appreciation and love for whatever you choose next.
Thank you so much for sharing this with us, seriously appreciate the transparency because it's rough out here and you really actually did SO MUCH! Appreciate you, dada. Keep on keeping on.
Thank you for this honest look at what actually goes into doing a big project. It's NEVER a straight line. Thank you for sharing all the challenges and twist and turns with us so we can all remember how complicated the whole process is. I'm also impressed how organized and well produced this video is. I'm sure your journaling superpowers help, but I can never remember the order in which things happened when I look back at my process. And CONGRATULATIONS FOR MAKING IT THIS FAR! We will be here whenever you are done editing. I'm excited to watch it, and remember that you will always be your harshest judge, so don't sweat it if you can help it.
The community you've created here is like nothing else. Just scrolling and reading through all the acknowledgement and appreciation of you and your art 🥲💟
I appreciate you so much. First I wholeheartedly believe it’s going to be fantastic! So executive to watch. Your energy, transparency, authenticity is everything I need to remember to keep moving forward.
Yay Evelyn for taking the jump and showing us all that sometimes you just have to close your dang eyes and just take the dang leap of faith. May your endeavors produce fruit. We'll be here to watch when your baby hits the internets
Wwwoooowww my internet cousin DID THAT! GIRL! I'm amazed, in awe 🤯, for some reason, I didn't know making shows took all of what u explained. It's gonna be good I know it! Every day take a moment to be thankful for the small things. You learned what not to do, and what to add to make life easier. Life's a journey & ur journeying🤷🏾♀️.
fellow creative here. hell yea issa 365 day situation, rinse repeat reality, whatever happens happens when it happens and that's just what had happened. wishing you all the luck, energy, self care, support and periodical focus needed to do you. xx
As weird as it may sound… everything is still right as it’s suppose to be. It’s apart of the process and our life journey. I’m a therapist and often tell my clients “if it was to happen that way, it would’ve. Life doesn’t happen to us, but through us”. You’re human and sometimes plans and goals aren’t linear. When you needed to put your mental health first you did instead of barreling through when you weren’t your best. And even better, you put out relatable content that many feel but are afraid to put on public display. Sending you light, vibes and uplifting virtual energy! Have a safe entry into the new year Evelyn. And so it is 💕✨
Awww Evelyn! The Casita, Patreon, Craig, and all of your community really showed up for you. The guest list alone is amazing. I cannot wait to see this.You always crack me up and keep me going. Just know you're not alone. Well done!
8:12 - 'How to give people updates when there are none.' 1. Just at least get a skeleton in order of what needs to happen. That way you have a map to follow, and know what step to tell people you're on when they ask a. Subparagraph to the main steps: list what materials are needed, people to contact, or actions need to happen to accomplish that step. 2. Note: the steps can be in whatever format makes most sense to you. It might be chronological, or it could be broken up into type of work (email work, writing work, drive in the car to go somewhere work). 3. Accomplish subparagraph steps as required. Even if you don't get them done, tell who is asking "So I'm working on [task here]. (Painting my front door green). I've narrowed down a couple places to get paint, Lowe's or Home Depot, and I've got a few shades in mind. I have to call Lowe's to see if they have the color Cash Money. I'll keep you in the loop with any updates I have." Did you go to Lowe's or Home Depot yet? Did you actually decide on green, much less what type? Have you called? Maybe, maybe not. But it gives the sense of confidence that you know what comes next and at least a way forward. And maybe the next update is "hey, I had to pivot because green paint is expensive, and red is cheaper. I'll let you know what I find." It is important to actually action these things eventually, but having the confidence of the big wickets gives you the ability to fiddle with specifics until you have the chance to make them more solid. Also, be honest if a lack of action is going to slow down meeting a goal. It's easier for you to justify"I need more time to work on this specific piece" (even if you actually need more time in general). It'll make your boss or whoever feel more reassured if they can picture a specific thing, and you have more direction in what needs to get done, even if you haven't done it yet.
Imma just tell you RIGHT NOW! Evelyn and Friends is going to be GOOD! It’s the variety show we all need and just didn’t know it! Do your edits and we’ll be right here ready to support when you finish. 💕
Have watched you from when you were back posting vids from your dorm. So proud of your journey, sis. It's been a pleasure to watch your growth through ups and downs. Can't wait to watch your next project.
Congratulations on finishing filming and making it to this level. I cannot tell you how many projects I’ve started that never seen the light of day or the end of the tunnel…. Or even see the tunnel… You deserve so many good things and they are coming
👏👏WELL DONE EVELYN!! You did A LOT considering the year that was. You're an inspiration. Thank you for sharing all that you do! 💛💛💛 Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too!!! 🥳
Evelyn... Internet cousin!! This was such a joy to watch!! I am very proud of you for getting through all that!! It seems like emotional breakdowns be coming out of left field sometimes, especially when we begin to do amazing things. I don't know how spiritual you are, but with this summary, it seems that you are on to something amazing that will change your trajectory. When we hit purpose, opposition is right there with it's dirty hands gripped around our ankles trying to stop our progress. SO..with that had been said.... YOU DID THAT!! And I can't wait to see it!!
Thank YOU for showing all the ups and downs and just being authentic as heck! Believe it or not, despite everything you were still able to create and share your story transparently & you got it done! Kudos to you and I can't wait to see it all come together. Thanks for sharing! 💕
I haven't watched much lately but I always enjoy your videos! I love your humor, your energy, and how you share honest, hard stuff and show acceptance for yourself. Well done, getting some help to get stuff done when you needed support!! I'm sorry it's been hard (been there) but I hope it's all good for editing season ☺️
OMG! Cant wait to see the final product! As far as giving updates, my strategy is to set a cadence at the start of a project and communicate that status update calendar to set shared expectations. The benefit of this is it gives more anxious collaborators security and consistency of regular updates to stave off any desire to reach out, and it also takes some pressure off regarding quality of the update as the goal is simply to meet the pre-established expectation around status updates.
@@Evelynfromtheinternets hope it helps! I am a perfectionist and overachiever which means I reside in the land of anxiety and guilt. Over the years I have been able to build up my toolbox of strategies to help me optimize the good and minimize the bad that of my perfectionism and overachiever traits.
Wow! Thank you for sharing your journey this year. I so appreciate your vulnerability and transparency! There is beauty in one day at a time. Congrats on completing the series and I can't wait to see it.
We are so proud of you!!! Thank you for taking us along this journey with you. These self reflection uploads have definitely made me feel less alone about feeling like I don't have all together at this point of my life.
Luvvy your journey this year 🙆🏾🤦🏾🤔 echoes all the voids and pedestrian crossings into gully and high mountain tops experience and you made it *insert Marvin Sapp*. 2023 is already your season of overflowing buckets of sucess, and we your crazy in love Internet family, not relatives, got you 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Evelyn WE LOVE YOU!!! Excellent job on all your accomplishments! That 4 month hiatus was your healing time. We all need that down time. I think we come out more creative, grateful, and stronger to fight another day, month, etc. during those down periods. I am thankful you made it out, because some do not. If it comes around again, embrace it and heal some more. Love ya cousin! It's always good to see BabyBlo too! Happy New Year!
Lady, Gyal, Evelyn, Couz'n - endless blessings to you. the honest and gentle beauty with which you live is absolutely inspiring thanks for showing up as you in this space and the wider world. It's examplry how you embrace your humanity (magic and mess) . KEEP WALKING IN YOUR DREAMS. Love from 🇹🇹
I’m over here just smiling and nodding cause the vibes was felt. So happy you found your flow again! Also, tell your brain folds that you did that despite the circumstances. Excited to keep watching everything unfold. In realistic time cause the Internets be whyling with these timelines. Okay bye! *little girl voice*
I have an online tutoring business that I stopped promoting bc I fell off fb and ig. I dont think I was depressed but the way my ADHD set up, those two SUCKED my time from actually doing my tutoring. I abandoned it and just focused on the kids I had instead of trying to get more and more kids. Now I go on fb and ig like a it's a scary jungle and get off asap lol...ISATTS whatever reason u need to DIP off the web Chile, is probably necessary. Glad you're feeling creative again!
very good point!! it can all be so overwhelming!! I've definitely let go of the things that just don't vibe with me for example i completely stopped posting "hey i made a vlog! go check it out on youtube" posts on Instagram because i don't caaaaare the algorithm either got me or it don't lol
I am so proud of you and excited for the release of this project!! I am also so very grateful for you sharing these vlogs and these updates on your struggles as a creative. I have just started projects that will require similar acts of bravery that I do not feel ready to take on, but I'm trying to go for it anyway. Your vulnerability in showing how to sit with difficult emotions, ask for/accept help, and finish things that have been sitting for a while is super validating and genuinely inspiring. Best of everything to you in the coming year!!
I'm cheering you on!! when i'm feeling scared i just imagine the worst movie or tv show or song i've ever heard and remember everyone worked REALLY HARD ON IT PROBABLY lmao so might as well take the risk!!
Giiiirl, IT'S GOOD! WE KNOW. Absolutely love how you and " baby blo " show up for each other 😊❤️ Thank you soooo much for sharing this. You've really helped give me perspective around some of my own stuff. Thank you so much!
This was incredible! Your vlogs been so helpful. And definitely give yourself credit. It took longer than you wanted but you are steadily moving this project forward to completion and it looks amazing. Very inspiring and this has given me so many ideas for how to move my own stalled projects forward. Definitely going to look into professional organizers and a virtual assistant.
Ms Evelyn, Ms Cariño working from La Casita. You NEED to give yourself your flowers. Writing, producing, filming and editing a dang show is no easy feat and HERE YOU ARE. I can def relate to the feeling of sorting through an entangled mess, but isn't it great when things pick back up? You're amazing! xoxo someonewhoneedstolearntodelegateandactuallygetbacktogetprojectsdoneHEEHEE x
I love what you say about accommodations, truly not talked about enough and I'm so, so, so happy to hear you frame this success as a success for your brain, your self, your work💜
Sis Accept, acknowledge and appreciate where you are right now! It is such an accomplishment! Even when you take baby steps it’s still movement. We’re SO proud of you!❤ Ur internet Cuzins🥰👏🏾
God, I am beyond uber proud of you Evelyn!!! I've been watching your work since the Spicy Eve days 😭👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾. Please keep posting. Greatness begins with one day at a time!
I can’t wait to watch this! Thank you for your vulnerability as someone who suffers with depression and anxiety your recent vlogs have mean allot. I’m soo happy you’re back. Have a lovely new years.
Congratulations! You did that thing. With all that you went through it is absolutely amazing that you got the project completed. Looking forward to seeing Evelyn and Friends when you air it. I'm proud of you.
I'm sure everything turned out great...all your hard work & anxiety will pay off. It was nice seeing you get stuck & somehow push through. Happy Holidays!
I am so inspired by you - just by hearing about the pregnancy I know this show is going to be fire; you are about to birth something life changing and we’re here for it! Love the monochrome look as well that was giving what it needed to give 💛
Evelyn! So, so proud of you! You didnt only complete the work, you kept the vision and pushed through! Love you! And we will wait for Evelyn and Friends when it’s ready….so excited for the final product❤️
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! This is actually extremely inspiring. How many of us have just ditched projects right after conception because we hit some sort of mental/health/financial/etc wall? You made it happen despite your struggles. Can't wait to watch, and I hope you take care of yourself during the editing process! We'll see it when we see it
Ahhhh 🎉! This video/vlog was a highlight this year for me and I imagine all the Internet Cousins! What a labor of love! Time spent taking care of yourself and just being is never time wasted. You’re amazing Evelyn, in your highs and lows!
I feel everything you said here, this year has been a year of accomplishments but I went through a depressive episode from like July to October and my life stopped. I had interviews I conducted from the Toronto International Film Festival, red carpets I worked, I just started school again and a new job and it all came crashing down around me. Every day began to feel like I was letting everyone down and wasting the effort that had already been put into the projects thus far. I stopped responding to emails, dodged texts and lied about how I was doing. And then I have a come to Jesus moment where I realized I can’t. Like, I straight up cannot keep doing this to myself so I dropped out the semester and let people know that I needed time to process and get my shit together. Which I did October to even now. I tackle little things when I have the energy to and respond to people when I can with updates I have. Beyond that, I’m not speaking to people or beating myself up for needing that time and space. That’s the only thing you can really do, you have to remind yourself that this is important but not more important than your daily work of keeping yourself alive.
Sis this content is like no other I’ve seen. Thank you for sharing your process and progress even if you have shame around it. I’m over here thinking how can I budget supporting you in 2023 financially. I’m guessing patreon is the best way??
This is the last of the footage in my hard drive graveyard…and my last video for now!
In January I hope to return with some fresh stuff. Merry Christmas y Happy New Year 🎉
typo in the video: I got Covid July *2022 😔
Merry Christmas! Happy New Year!!
Merry Christmas, Blessed Kwanzaa, and a Happy New Year to you and everyone reading this! 🤗🙏🏾
You are truly incredible and I cherish you content and personality💜💜 You are so funny, relatable, and inspiring at the same time. Wishing you Happy Holidays and a safe and Happy New Year🎆🎆😆😆
p.s. That green sweater you started the video with is so fly🤩🤩
Soooo you WROTE, PRODUCED, FILMED and EDITED a whole bleepin' show in only 18 months? Mostly the by yourself???? Netflix/HBO could never. Who's standards are you living by girl?? You damn near giving ME anxiety.
You're doing amazing. Love you!
This!
Seriously!! 🎉
Yes!
RIIIGHT!!! GO EVELYN!!!!!!!🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳
yesssss
Animating for Evelyn and Friends has been such a delight💖Best cold email I've ever received!! 🌟
😭😭😭 and I'm gonna email you soon i promise!! lol
@@Evelynfromtheinternets 🤣LOL NO WORRIES! We got this!!
I cannot begin to THANK-YOU for your transparency and showing what depression can REALLY look like. I resonate SO MUCH with your journey of depression & low energy and allowing yourself grace to just be! We missed u and we're glad ur fighting back! Sending light & love as you continue on your journey! I have so enjoyed this vlog!
Thanks for watching the journey!!
well done!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is so easy to dwell on the past and what we haven't done. it's much harder to pick up unfinished pieces and see them through. great job on regaining momentum, seeking the support you need, and seeking to care for yourself at the same time. 👏🏾
Here here!
"Your brain needs an accommodation so go 'head and accommodate yourself!" Yep, that sounds like a lesson that everyone needs to learn even though it's hard to accept sometimes
IvyGG - yes! This was what floored me, I have never thought of allowing myself ANY kind of accommodation! How differently my life would have been if I’d accommodated my needs, ever, at any time
evelyn! even the organisation of these videos, the editing, the authenticity & the hard work that goes into consistently designing thumbnails & exporting videos, setting up lights & mics & documenting, even JUST RECORDING all the whole being brilliant at it nonetheless!!!
you’re a phenomenon & we love you ❤❤❤❤ God bless you more & more baby girl 🎉
🥰🥰🥰 i feel the looooove! thank you!
The 4 month depression scenario is so relatible! So many of us (me included) have been there, and I wish I'd known at the beginning of most of my projects that I would need to build in time for the meltdowns and the days for with no energy. Thanks for showing us how it's done. ✌️
build. it. in. YESSSSSSS
This actually makes me feel so much better. I was sad because I couldn’t turn an idea around in a month but it takes time to “produce” something good. I need to just take my time and bring my ideas to life exactly how I envision it.
we got this, Cousin!
The tiny bites of Evelyn and Friends footage had me GUFFAWING and heart-eyez-ing. The LOOK THE FEEL THE YOU! THE BABIEST BLO! THE FLOW! THE ENERGY! THE VIBE! So overjoyed. So excited. So grateful. So blessed to see your life force replenishing day by day, moment by moment in this vlog. May goodness and mercy and grace and love and laughter and comfort palpably and powerfully surround you now and always, Internet Cousin.
Yaaass!! I canNOT wait to watch!!!
**pentecostal dance** thank you for seeing the vision!!!
The seamless Elsa to Keyshia Cole fake out! 😂 ❤ Gratitude to you for sharing your process - the ups, the downs, the fire alarm battery chirps and everything in between. Wishing you nothing but success E!🎉
my whole life i’ve had creative impulses and never chased that dream because i always assumed i’d fail.
the fact that you’re brave and passionate enough to even put this much work into a project is amazing to me. having to deal with depression on top of it all seems like the most stressful thing ever.
you should be insanely proud of yourself.
Chase them!! Even if it's a private practive!!
She’s an icon. 🔥A legend. 🔥And she *IS* the moment! 🔥🔥🔥 Now come on now!!
i'm obsessed with this video. what an awesome behind the scenes to what these projects can look like. i spent a huge part of 2021 and 2022 working on a big project that totally failed and didnt work and is dead now and i'm like....... wow! damn! on to the next thing?! i'm excited to watch your show
Thank you Ariel!!
Shoutout to you, Evelyn, for getting it done❣️ Annnnd shout out to your Virtual Assistant. Having actionable items lined up for you is huge. I'm looking forward to whatever you do in 2023.
What an accomplishment to even be documenting this right here! I’m so inspired by your honesty and insight into the creative making process. Keep pushing forward! Who cares if it’s not good, the fact that you’re making it come to life is the big win 👏🏻 But you know what, I already know it’s gonna be good! That’s why we all come back to keep watching you! We are all ROOTING for you! And we love you already, internet cousin ❤
Go Evelyn go!
Right! She's making a whole variety show and documenting her journey. Hope she knows how amazing and inspirational she is
Thank you so much!! 🤧🤧
you have to take care of yourself before anything else. i’m proud of you and i can’t wait to see the content you’ve work hard to create.
When you said you got a virtual assistant and were thinking about it as an accommodation: MIND BLOWN. This kind of thinking would be so helpful in my own life! Also your authenticity and realness is such a wonderful thing I'm shooketh
I watch a lot of Imani @crutches_and_spice vids on Tik Tok and have been learning all the ways ableism prevents us from even helping ourselves 🙃 trying to unlearn little by little
As a neurodivergent entrepreneur whose prone to experience a lot of guilt about the long ass list of things I haven't done, was supposed to do, thought to do, dreamt to do (you get the drift) - this vlog was so relatable. Thanks for being you and persisting with sharing content. It's bloody brilliant and hilarious and so are you!
whewwww the struggle is always so real. TOO REAL. I'm glad you enjoyed the vlog!
Can NOooOootttt wait for E+Friends.
You are such an inspiration, cause I have big unfinished projects and I just have this irrational faith that somehow it’ll work out, if I just don’t give up. Thank you for modeling that. No shame in taking time.
This journey is a true inspiration for anyone trying to make a passion project come to life. I cannot wait for Evelyn and Friends. From the bits you've shown us, It looks so colorful, joyous, humorous, and just all around a good time. I'm rooting for you, Evelyn!! Have a wonderful 2023.
It is! and she is so brave to share it with us
Thank you for sharing this journey with us. Thank you for not giving up on your brain baby. Thank you for helping us to feel seen simply by allowing us to see you. I’m so proud!
“Helping up feel seen by allowing us to see you” let’s not overlook how significant this is. Wow🤔
Tbh this shud show u that even wit a 4month stretch of depression u were still able to pull thru & accomplish ur goal. It didnt happen in the time u planned, but it still happened & that shud make u feel proud of urself but also prepped to be more kind if u ever experience another depressive episode. Thank u for these vlogs ! Very grounding & realistic & RELATEABLE (half of the comment i jus typed is also to MYSELF)
We're so proud of you! Just keep swimming baby girl. You are an inspiration just by being here.
I've been a subscriber for years and just want to say I'm so proud of you. It's been awesome & inspiring to see you follow your passion.
I’m so, I’m so proud of you 👏🏾 ❤!!!!!!!!! I have no doubt that E&F is going to be fantastic! Also, THANK YOU, for showing your process, all the ups and especially the downs. I wish you nothing but the best and happy holidays and new year to ya!
Hey there internet cousin!! I am proud of you and what you've accomplished and what you had to overcome.
I get how you feel 100% ahaha cause depression is a leach.
Also, we are our worst critics so just know that I see you, that I love you and all you do on Beyonce's internets 😘
Happy holidays and happy new year!!! 🎉
What’s so important about this is seeing this happen to people who are talented, outgoing, entertaining or even funny, go through a down time or bout of depression BUT can bounce out of that eventually even if it takes MONTHS! And it’s okay to say “I am struggling. Be back soon” and take the time necessary to tend to your overall health and wellbeing. You can’t pour from an empty cup, but the cup can be refilled to pour again when we can address ourselves and figure things out. Like man, I hope this makes sense. Evelyn, thank you for sharing your vault and what you’ve gone through and how you have come out the other side because sometimes when you’re in it, like in it in it, you never think you can come out of it. Like it’s gonna be like this forever. But THIS is proof you can! We can! We gon be alright! 🎉LOVE YOU CUZ❤
I really appreciate you talking about reframing the fact that you got a virtual assistant. It truly is an accomodation. I struggle so hard with shame around asking for reasonable accommodations for my disabilities. I often view myself as being lazy or needy for asking for help and accomodations. Partially because I've had people tell me that and partially because I have a warped ass idea that I should be able to handle everything with no difficulties. Thank you for opening up and talking about this. It's encouraging to listen to others experiences unlearning internalized ableism.
You are *simply* INCREDIBLE - seeing your dedication and grace through a long and difficult project is inspiring and I appreciate your ongoing transparency. Happy holidays and congratulations on getting through this phase of the project!
You're right Evelyn...it took 16 months of you working on a passion project that might not even be good...
🗣️📢 "It's gonna be GOODT/GREAT and of HIGH QUALITY because you're at the helm and GREAT things take TIME to bring to fruition!!!" 🤗❤️🙏🏾🥰
when I tell you it's the DEEP breath I had when we got to the after part of the organizing and saw all those shelved neatly lined up. if that were my real life I would be so much more at ease!!!!!!
for real!! such a relief!!
Before I even watched this video I wanted to comment and say like... Thanks for showing us all the in-between. You share a lot of your personal life with us and we don't have any claim to you or your life but I just want to say how much I appreciate you sharing your down-bad times. As someone who also struggles to do basic things I think what you have done is amazing. Thank you for being my internet cousin. 💕
🥲 Thanks for being my Internet Cousin!!
Congratulations! I am legitimately so proud and I can’t wait to see the rest of the process. As someone whose own ~creative endeavors got sidelined by brain chemicals chemical-ing too lol, this and all the vlogs in the archive have been really wonderful to watch.
Per usual. This vlog gave what it needed to give. I dont even have the words Ev, man. You are a treasure, your work makes a difference as does your transparency. I cant wait for Evelyn & friends (Patreon cousin been on the edge of my seat since the animation preview). So excited for you!! It’s LIT!
Patreon Cousin!! Y'all seen everything from day one lawd!! Thanks for your support!
"I'm joining Evelyn's patreon" flew out of my mouth after this video,
TYSM for your openness and your gifts, you're a beautiful woman and I feel like I'm growing with you
Oh my goodness. I felt SO much of this from the depression to the feeling guilty about not doing things in the background, “losing” months of work because brain things ETC ETC ETC
Thank you so much for sharing this 💕✨
Thank you for being transparent about the struggle in a world that over polishes every kind of presentation. Your efforts in a realistic state, with sarcasm, annoying beeps, a majestic eye roll (worthy of the thorns in my soul), gave me a newish kind of good feeling, which is a lot given the existential mental health crisis soup this country (US) is in. I think it takes a great deal of courage and intelligence to acknowledge the messiness of life and still cultivate and honor new seeds. Much appreciation and love for whatever you choose next.
listennn one thing about meee is i love a good eye roll!
Thank you so much for sharing this with us, seriously appreciate the transparency because it's rough out here and you really actually did SO MUCH! Appreciate you, dada. Keep on keeping on.
Thank you for this honest look at what actually goes into doing a big project. It's NEVER a straight line. Thank you for sharing all the challenges and twist and turns with us so we can all remember how complicated the whole process is. I'm also impressed how organized and well produced this video is. I'm sure your journaling superpowers help, but I can never remember the order in which things happened when I look back at my process. And CONGRATULATIONS FOR MAKING IT THIS FAR! We will be here whenever you are done editing. I'm excited to watch it, and remember that you will always be your harshest judge, so don't sweat it if you can help it.
I had to dig through my Gcal and old emails to get my months straight for sure!! Thank you so much for the encouragement!!
The community you've created here is like nothing else. Just scrolling and reading through all the acknowledgement and appreciation of you and your art 🥲💟
10:27 the joyful surprised intake of breath I had omg the grace of it all. Internet love you forever Evelyn ❤
Internet love you right baaaack, Cousin!!
I appreciate you so much.
First I wholeheartedly believe it’s going to be fantastic! So executive to watch.
Your energy, transparency, authenticity is everything I need to remember to keep moving forward.
Yay Evelyn for taking the jump and showing us all that sometimes you just have to close your dang eyes and just take the dang leap of faith. May your endeavors produce fruit. We'll be here to watch when your baby hits the internets
Those videos during your depression helped others more than you know… congrats on the show! 🫶🏾
Congrats Evelyn! What a journey. The universe knows when you need time to decompress and when you need to accelerate -- your life is a testimony!
yupppp they say if you don't take a break your body will take the break FOR you smhh 🤣
Wwwoooowww my internet cousin DID THAT! GIRL!
I'm amazed, in awe 🤯, for some reason, I didn't know making shows took all of what u explained. It's gonna be good I know it! Every day take a moment to be thankful for the small things. You learned what not to do, and what to add to make life easier. Life's a journey & ur journeying🤷🏾♀️.
“You thought I was going to do Frozen, no! Keyshia Cole”
😂😂😂 I luv you lol
fellow creative here. hell yea issa 365 day situation, rinse repeat reality, whatever happens happens when it happens and that's just what had happened. wishing you all the luck, energy, self care, support and periodical focus needed to do you. xx
lololol and that's just what had happened!! period!!!
✨🥹✨Thank you, fren!! YOU’RE a visionary, a creative powerhouse and a treasure!
As weird as it may sound… everything is still right as it’s suppose to be. It’s apart of the process and our life journey. I’m a therapist and often tell my clients “if it was to happen that way, it would’ve. Life doesn’t happen to us, but through us”. You’re human and sometimes plans and goals aren’t linear. When you needed to put your mental health first you did instead of barreling through when you weren’t your best. And even better, you put out relatable content that many feel but are afraid to put on public display. Sending you light, vibes and uplifting virtual energy! Have a safe entry into the new year Evelyn. And so it is 💕✨
✨and so it is, indeed✨ thank you!!
Awww Evelyn! The Casita, Patreon, Craig, and all of your community really showed up for you. The guest list alone is amazing. I cannot wait to see this.You always crack me up and keep me going. Just know you're not alone. Well done!
And all of Y'ALL! These comments over the past 8-ish weeks have given me liiiiife
8:12 - 'How to give people updates when there are none.'
1. Just at least get a skeleton in order of what needs to happen. That way you have a map to follow, and know what step to tell people you're on when they ask
a. Subparagraph to the main steps: list what materials are needed, people to contact, or actions need to happen to accomplish that step.
2. Note: the steps can be in whatever format makes most sense to you. It might be chronological, or it could be broken up into type of work (email work, writing work, drive in the car to go somewhere work).
3. Accomplish subparagraph steps as required. Even if you don't get them done, tell who is asking "So I'm working on [task here]. (Painting my front door green). I've narrowed down a couple places to get paint, Lowe's or Home Depot, and I've got a few shades in mind. I have to call Lowe's to see if they have the color Cash Money. I'll keep you in the loop with any updates I have."
Did you go to Lowe's or Home Depot yet? Did you actually decide on green, much less what type? Have you called? Maybe, maybe not. But it gives the sense of confidence that you know what comes next and at least a way forward. And maybe the next update is "hey, I had to pivot because green paint is expensive, and red is cheaper. I'll let you know what I find." It is important to actually action these things eventually, but having the confidence of the big wickets gives you the ability to fiddle with specifics until you have the chance to make them more solid.
Also, be honest if a lack of action is going to slow down meeting a goal. It's easier for you to justify"I need more time to work on this specific piece" (even if you actually need more time in general). It'll make your boss or whoever feel more reassured if they can picture a specific thing, and you have more direction in what needs to get done, even if you haven't done it yet.
We love you, Evelyn! Thank you for bringing some Friday joy to our lives.
Imma just tell you RIGHT NOW! Evelyn and Friends is going to be GOOD! It’s the variety show we all need and just didn’t know it! Do your edits and we’ll be right here ready to support when you finish. 💕
😭😭😭😭 thank you!
Have watched you from when you were back posting vids from your dorm. So proud of your journey, sis. It's been a pleasure to watch your growth through ups and downs. Can't wait to watch your next project.
ah yes the big head skinny neck days of my youth pahahah wowowowowo thank you for being an OG Internet Cousin!!
Congratulations on finishing filming and making it to this level. I cannot tell you how many projects I’ve started that never seen the light of day or the end of the tunnel…. Or even see the tunnel…
You deserve so many good things and they are coming
👏👏WELL DONE EVELYN!! You did A LOT considering the year that was. You're an inspiration.
Thank you for sharing all that you do! 💛💛💛
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you too!!! 🥳
@Evelynfromtheinternets You DID it! Congratulations. Don't doubt yourself or your talent. The show is a success and it will be good.
You are just hands down the absolute coolest person I know and I am so proud of you! I love what you bring to this world. ❤
Heart You and Your Talents. Thanks for pushing through it all. 🙏
Evelyn... Internet cousin!! This was such a joy to watch!! I am very proud of you for getting through all that!! It seems like emotional breakdowns be coming out of left field sometimes, especially when we begin to do amazing things. I don't know how spiritual you are, but with this summary, it seems that you are on to something amazing that will change your trajectory. When we hit purpose, opposition is right there with it's dirty hands gripped around our ankles trying to stop our progress.
SO..with that had been said.... YOU DID THAT!! And I can't wait to see it!!
You go Evelyn, it must be a lot of work putting together a WHOLE variety show! Well done for getting to this point, can't wait to watch it!!!
Thank YOU for showing all the ups and downs and just being authentic as heck! Believe it or not, despite everything you were still able to create and share your story transparently & you got it done! Kudos to you and I can't wait to see it all come together. Thanks for sharing! 💕
I haven't watched much lately but I always enjoy your videos! I love your humor, your energy, and how you share honest, hard stuff and show acceptance for yourself. Well done, getting some help to get stuff done when you needed support!! I'm sorry it's been hard (been there) but I hope it's all good for editing season ☺️
Congratulations on preserving through all the obstacles this past year! 🫶🏾 I cannot wait to see what Evelyn & Friends will bring! 🍾🎊👏🏾
OMG! Cant wait to see the final product! As far as giving updates, my strategy is to set a cadence at the start of a project and communicate that status update calendar to set shared expectations. The benefit of this is it gives more anxious collaborators security and consistency of regular updates to stave off any desire to reach out, and it also takes some pressure off regarding quality of the update as the goal is simply to meet the pre-established expectation around status updates.
THANK YOU!!! That makes a lot of sense and I will 100000% be doing that from now on!
@@Evelynfromtheinternets hope it helps! I am a perfectionist and overachiever which means I reside in the land of anxiety and guilt. Over the years I have been able to build up my toolbox of strategies to help me optimize the good and minimize the bad that of my perfectionism and overachiever traits.
I feel like a proud mama! You did that 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
Wow! Thank you for sharing your journey this year. I so appreciate your vulnerability and transparency! There is beauty in one day at a time. Congrats on completing the series and I can't wait to see it.
We are so proud of you!!! Thank you for taking us along this journey with you. These self reflection uploads have definitely made me feel less alone about feeling like I don't have all together at this point of my life.
Yay!!! I’m so proud of you and happy for you! Watching this is spurring on my hope for my own projects. May the Lord bless us all.💕🥂
Luvvy your journey this year 🙆🏾🤦🏾🤔 echoes all the voids and pedestrian crossings into gully and high mountain tops experience and you made it *insert Marvin Sapp*. 2023 is already your season of overflowing buckets of sucess, and we your crazy in love Internet family, not relatives, got you 👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾
AMEN!!!
Evelyn WE LOVE YOU!!! Excellent job on all your accomplishments! That 4 month hiatus was your healing time. We all need that down time. I think we come out more creative, grateful, and stronger to fight another day, month, etc. during those down periods. I am thankful you made it out, because some do not. If it comes around again, embrace it and heal some more. Love ya cousin! It's always good to see BabyBlo too! Happy New Year!
Lady, Gyal, Evelyn, Couz'n - endless blessings to you. the honest and gentle beauty with which you live is absolutely inspiring thanks for showing up as you in this space and the wider world. It's examplry how you embrace your humanity (magic and mess) . KEEP WALKING IN YOUR DREAMS. Love from 🇹🇹
Your ability to simply be yourself encourages me to discover who I really am. Thank you. Keep swimming♥️
I’m over here just smiling and nodding cause the vibes was felt. So happy you found your flow again! Also, tell your brain folds that you did that despite the circumstances. Excited to keep watching everything unfold. In realistic time cause the Internets be whyling with these timelines. Okay bye! *little girl voice*
I have an online tutoring business that I stopped promoting bc I fell off fb and ig. I dont think I was depressed but the way my ADHD set up, those two SUCKED my time from actually doing my tutoring. I abandoned it and just focused on the kids I had instead of trying to get more and more kids. Now I go on fb and ig like a it's a scary jungle and get off asap lol...ISATTS whatever reason u need to DIP off the web Chile, is probably necessary. Glad you're feeling creative again!
very good point!! it can all be so overwhelming!! I've definitely let go of the things that just don't vibe with me for example i completely stopped posting "hey i made a vlog! go check it out on youtube" posts on Instagram because i don't caaaaare the algorithm either got me or it don't lol
I am so proud of you and excited for the release of this project!! I am also so very grateful for you sharing these vlogs and these updates on your struggles as a creative. I have just started projects that will require similar acts of bravery that I do not feel ready to take on, but I'm trying to go for it anyway. Your vulnerability in showing how to sit with difficult emotions, ask for/accept help, and finish things that have been sitting for a while is super validating and genuinely inspiring. Best of everything to you in the coming year!!
I'm cheering you on!! when i'm feeling scared i just imagine the worst movie or tv show or song i've ever heard and remember everyone worked REALLY HARD ON IT PROBABLY lmao so might as well take the risk!!
This is so encouraging to keep pushing forward though you have down days and delays. Thank you Evelyn.
Giiiirl, IT'S GOOD! WE KNOW.
Absolutely love how you and " baby blo " show up for each other 😊❤️
Thank you soooo much for sharing this. You've really helped give me perspective around some of my own stuff. Thank you so much!
not the all caps!! i appreciate you, Cousin!!! and yesss he been my ride or die since 1995 ayyyee
EVELYN, I will die on this hill/will never shut up about how much your transparency has been saving lives since the 2010s!!!!
omgggg thank you!!! :')
This was incredible! Your vlogs been so helpful. And definitely give yourself credit. It took longer than you wanted but you are steadily moving this project forward to completion and it looks amazing. Very inspiring and this has given me so many ideas for how to move my own stalled projects forward. Definitely going to look into professional organizers and a virtual assistant.
Ms Evelyn, Ms Cariño working from La Casita. You NEED to give yourself your flowers. Writing, producing, filming and editing a dang show is no easy feat and HERE YOU ARE.
I can def relate to the feeling of sorting through an entangled mess, but isn't it great when things pick back up?
You're amazing! xoxo someonewhoneedstolearntodelegateandactuallygetbacktogetprojectsdoneHEEHEE
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hahahah thank you so much!!
xoxo,
someonewholiterallyjustfiguredouthowtodelegatelikeyesterday 🤣
I love what you say about accommodations, truly not talked about enough and I'm so, so, so happy to hear you frame this success as a success for your brain, your self, your work💜
I've been learning a lot from Imani @crutches_and_spice on Tik Tok about ableism and her perspective has helped me so much!!
Sis
Accept, acknowledge and appreciate where you are right now! It is such an accomplishment! Even when you take baby steps it’s still movement. We’re SO proud of you!❤
Ur internet Cuzins🥰👏🏾
God, I am beyond uber proud of you Evelyn!!! I've been watching your work since the Spicy Eve days 😭👏🏾👏🏾👏🏾.
Please keep posting. Greatness begins with one day at a time!
I can’t wait to watch this! Thank you for your vulnerability as someone who suffers with depression and anxiety your recent vlogs have mean allot. I’m soo happy you’re back. Have a lovely new years.
So proud of you and looking forward to watching Evelyn and Friends when it comes out. Happy Holidays!
Congratulations! You did that thing. With all that you went through it is absolutely amazing that you got the project completed. Looking forward to seeing Evelyn and Friends when you air it. I'm proud of you.
I'm sure everything turned out great...all your hard work & anxiety will pay off. It was nice seeing you get stuck & somehow push through. Happy Holidays!
I am so inspired by you - just by hearing about the pregnancy I know this show is going to be fire; you are about to birth something life changing and we’re here for it! Love the monochrome look as well that was giving what it needed to give 💛
Evelyn! So, so proud of you! You didnt only complete the work, you kept the vision and pushed through! Love you! And we will wait for Evelyn and Friends when it’s ready….so excited for the final product❤️
So proud of you! You are so naturally talented that anything you put effort into will prove it. Can't wait for the episodes to come out!
Amazing work, I can’t wait to see the final project!!! Congratulations on ALL of your hard work!
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! This is actually extremely inspiring. How many of us have just ditched projects right after conception because we hit some sort of mental/health/financial/etc wall? You made it happen despite your struggles. Can't wait to watch, and I hope you take care of yourself during the editing process! We'll see it when we see it
Thank you!!! 🥲
Ahhhh 🎉! This video/vlog was a highlight this year for me and I imagine all the Internet Cousins! What a labor of love! Time spent taking care of yourself and just being is never time wasted. You’re amazing Evelyn, in your highs and lows!
I feel everything you said here, this year has been a year of accomplishments but I went through a depressive episode from like July to October and my life stopped.
I had interviews I conducted from the Toronto International Film Festival, red carpets I worked, I just started school again and a new job and it all came crashing down around me.
Every day began to feel like I was letting everyone down and wasting the effort that had already been put into the projects thus far. I stopped responding to emails, dodged texts and lied about how I was doing.
And then I have a come to Jesus moment where I realized I can’t. Like, I straight up cannot keep doing this to myself so I dropped out the semester and let people know that I needed time to process and get my shit together.
Which I did October to even now. I tackle little things when I have the energy to and respond to people when I can with updates I have. Beyond that, I’m not speaking to people or beating myself up for needing that time and space.
That’s the only thing you can really do, you have to remind yourself that this is important but not more important than your daily work of keeping yourself alive.
100%!! And i'm so proud of you for taking that leap and being honest with yourself about the break you need!
Sis this content is like no other I’ve seen. Thank you for sharing your process and progress even if you have shame around it. I’m over here thinking how can I budget supporting you in 2023 financially. I’m guessing patreon is the best way??
Evelyn! I am sooo abundantly proud of you! I FEEL like this!!! You’ve transformed so much for me with this. Thank you! Thank you ❤
What a ride! Cannot wait to see the final series.
A ride indeed 😅😅