right now, i'm having a miscarriage.
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- Опубліковано 3 жов 2024
- This video is Part 1 of my Miscarriage Story.
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I have never wanted to hug someone through a screen more in my life. Sending you and your family so much love.
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I literally don’t want to like this video. I wish UA-cam had the care button. Virtual hug to you and your family at this time❤️❤️❤️
Omg Elle I’m so so sorry 🥺💔💔💔 I am SOBBING watching this 😭 please know how much we all love you. I’m so so sorry 💔
this was so hard to watch, but i watched every second as an honor to you, to your pregnancy, to your loss. my heart is breaking for you. hugs and prayers for strength and healing, mama. 💔
This. This is the post, I did the same out of respect.
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You articulated my feelings perfectly.
Pro trick: watch series at flixzone. Been using them for watching all kinds of movies during the lockdown.
@Juan Bo yea, I've been watching on Flixzone} for since december myself :D
I am so sorry Elle. Sending you lots of love 💗
I know it’s so hard, but thank you so much for being vulnerable, raw, and real with us! This is very educational and will help so many.
I couldn’t imagine the pain and heartache, Elle I speak for most of your loyal subscribers when I say you are a kind, loving, amazing woman and warm and it’s your story to tell. I just hope you find healing in this terrible situation.
Beautifully said!
Your vulnerability is so brave, and you are for sure helping other women out there feel less alone. I hope that you heal in your body and soul. I am so sorry 😞
My personal opinion is that we should be free to embrace our feelings, I mean, if someone mourns over the loss of a chemical pregnancy then yes it's painful, someone losing a baby later on, is painful. We shouldn't feel guilty because someone might have experienced something worse... you know? All feelings are valid and you are free to mourn...!!
Yes! Nobody's pain invalidates somebody else's pain.
I wish I could like this comment more than once. 🤍
What I've always loved about you is that you speak into the camera so naturally, so genuinely. This felt more like a sit down with a friend. And as I would with any friend, I wish I could hug you. xoxo
Elle has such a genuinely humble soul and I'm sure they will have their rainbow baby when it is right. I also want to hug her so bad right now.
This story is a reminder of the power of a mother’s love: unending. all consuming. intuitive. Sending you love 💔
The pain in your voice crushed me. I just went through this in December and the grief is so raw and real. Praying for healing. You will come out on the other side so much stronger than you ever knew possible.
From one Mama to another...my heart breaks for you. I've had 2 miscarriages and 3 healthy babies, 2 of which are my rainbows. Grieve, be sad, get mad...but don't lose hope. 🌈
Elle, I’m so sorry for your loss. 🥺 Sending you huge hugs and love. Please know we all love and support you. 💕
Unfortunately I’m not in a place emotionally where I can watch this video right now. I’m having my 3rd miscarriage as we speak. This week has been very difficult. I just wanted to comment to tell you you are not alone and I’m praying for you. This is not a club any woman wants to be in, but so many of us are. 💗🙏🏼 hugs
I am so sorry. Sending you so much love and a virtual hug 💕💕💕
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Sending ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Sending you so much love 💕
Sending sooo much love to you. 💗
I am heartbroken for you, Elle.
You are helping so many women by being so open, honest, and vulnerable.
I will continue to pray for you. Please hug James and Alex extra tight.
No one with an inkling of empathy would ever judge you as cold while you tell your story. It is your narrative to tell as you see fit and can. You are between worlds at the moment, cold with grief and you should be allowed to be cold with grief. It is a process and a journey and you take all time you need and go through what you need to in order to heal. Sending you love and light in this difficult time for you and your family ❤️
I love this comment! Everyone grieves in such different ways, some may seem cold and some may react differently. Both are perfectly acceptable!!
A mother’s love and a mother’s intuition is so strong. You have been an amazing mother to this baby!
My first pregnancy was a miscarriage and 3 months later I was pregnant. We were so scared the whole pregnancy but he ended up being healthy and full term. It definitely changed the way we experienced my pregnancy but we will always remember and honor our lost baby. So sorry Elle.
I’m already crying and I haven’t even started the video. I’m so sorry, Elle.
Me too 😭
I had a missed miscarriage with my first baby. It took me years to get pregnant again. My second pregnancy was fine and that baby is 6 now. Praying for you and your family. Thank you for being vulnerable. This will help others struggling
I'm so sorry for your loss. I myself have had 2 chemical pregnancies, 2 natural miscarriages at 7 and 8 weeks, 1 missed miscarriage at 10 weeks (conceived via IVF), and 1 stillborn son at 39 weeks. 6 losses total over 7 years. We're still trying for a living baby. Baby loss is so hard to deal with. My heart is with you 💕
I am so so sorry! Your journey is truly heartbreaking. My heart goes out to you and I am praying for a happy healthy baby for you! 💕
I’m so sorry ❤️ I just lifted you in prayer
This breaks my heart. I have been in your shoes. You imagine that child’s whole life the second you get a positive test. I wish I could give you a hug. Feel whatever you need to feel and know there is not a certain way you should or have to grieve. I’m praying for you. I’m so sorry.
My husband and I had tried for years... finally got pregnant and it ended in miscarriage. My advice...take the time to mourn. It is a huge loss. Also and I know your hurting, but check on Alex. I was so lost in my grief I didn’t ask my husband how he was feeling and later found out he was hurting just as much as I was. Prayers for you and Alex. 😘
Elle I haven’t even started watching yet and I’m in tears. I am so so sorry for your loss. James will be a big brother one day I’m praying for you
I had a miscarriage with d&c. It affected me deeply. After d&c, I got pregnant pretty immediately and my baby is 1 year old this Saturday. Hang in there. I love you!
I saw the title and started crying for you with out watching I... i just want to hug you and cry with you. You are not alone Elle
same,,,
I'm so sorry.. I'm sending so much love to you!
I am so so sorry. I lost our first baby in what they call a “missed miscarriage.” I should have been 12 weeks, but the baby died at 8 weeks. I had no symptoms that anything was wrong, but just this horrible gut feeling that something bad had happened. It was such a dark time for me going through that. You have so many people here supporting you and sending you love in this difficult and heartbreaking time. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with us all. ❤️
I am so scared to say the wrong thing. Your feelings are YOUR feelings, and there is nothing "crazy" or wrong about them. I'm so proud of you for making this video because it's going to help others, like others have helped you. I'm sending so much love to you. Your courage and your strength are so admirable. Thank you for sharing this chapter your story. ❤️
Except her feelings killed her baby... So there's that..
@@NYIslanders4Lyfe I'm sorry that you feel like you need to spread negativity and lies on a video about something so sensitive and serious in nature. I can only assume that you are not educated on the subject and are looking for attention. So here's some attention from me, I hope it helped you in some way. Take care.
@@TamaraBoudreau It's literally true though... Stress is sooo bad for early pregnancy and she legit had full on panic attacks which killed her baby. She would have been better drinking a beer to chill her self the fuck out..
I’m so sorry Elle this must be so difficult 🥺❤️
I lost my baby at 10 week pregnant in july 2019 and It was horrible. My baby girl was my salvation. I got pregnant on november 2019 and I have a beautiful baby boy now. What really helped me was knowing that is easier to get pregnant after a loss, 💙💗💙💗
I don’t think any of your viewers made it through this video without crying. I’m so so sad for your loss, Elle. I think at this point, we want you to have a baby almost as much as you do...
I was trying so hard not to cry but I just couldn't stop it from coming.
Oh, Elle, I have been there. We were 9 weeks pregnant when we lost our baby. But I want to encourage you, too. As soon as I had my first period after, they had me back in for fertility treatments and we were pregnant again within 2 months and that little 8-year-old boy is now running amock in our living room. Take all the time you need to grieve. Let people be there for you. I'll be praying for you.
Wow Elle... life can be so painful... I am so so sorry for you loss. Thank you for your vulnerability and for sharing your story.
I’m really sorry. I’ve been there. I actually bawled when you said “there is no heartbeat is there?” because that’s exactly what I asked. I went on a Monday knowing with my every being something was wrong. There was a heartbeat...I left saying something was still wrong, my husband was going to talk to our ob about me seeing a psychiatrist(nothing wrong with that)...at our regular apt 3 days later the heartbeat had silenced. I’m sorry. From the bottom of my heart. It gets easier, but never goes away. I like to focus on all the joy before the ending. Lots of love. Light all the candles, take all the baths, drink the bubbly, snuggle up and watch all the shows...you will be able to help others when you least expect it because of this bb’s life. 🤍
I hate that I can relate to your comment so well.
I'm heartbroken. I'm so sorry Elle. I will be praying for you guys.
I’m so sorry Elle! Praying for you and your family!
Oh Elle, the hurt in your voice is so painful. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Elle I am so incredibly sorry. I cried through this whole thing right along with you. I’m 26 so you’ve practically raised me and this feels like my older sister going through something. Sending you so much love and support. Give James lots of extra snuggles and remember what a blessing he is.
Right? I know we don't actually know her, but I'm 21 and she's my extra older sister. I'm cryin like this was my bio sister going through this.
Jessi Smiles is another creator on here and she just went through the same thing if you’re interested in reaching out to her to support each other through this.
Chloe Murray too. Another that might help.
Erin Robinson from clevver style also if you needed to reach out
I had a pregnancy loss at 16 weeks. It was the hardest thing that ever happened to me. Sending you love. So much love.
So sorry for your loss. Sending love your way too. ❤️❤️
I just went through this in November. I was 6 weeks when it happened and even though I wasn’t far along, it was my baby. I know your pain! I’m so so sorry. I want you to know that after a rough holiday season, we just found out we are pregnant again. I know you’re hurting, just don’t give up hope. ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve had two miscarriages in the last six months and it’s just so hard. I know that I’m just a stranger on the internet, but thank you so for sharing your journey-I can’t imagine the strength it took to do that. sometimes it can feel like we’re all so alone in this, and your videos have helped me feel like I’m not...if that makes any sense 💜 hoping for the best for you & your family.
Thank you so much for sharing and being vulnerable ❤️ I had a missed miscarriage in 2019 and I still grieve that baby. Our rainbow baby was born almost exactly a year later, healthy as can be. Sending love your way.
Oh Elle, I am heartbroken for you. I truly hope you find comfort in the stories of other women experiencing similar losses to know you’re not alone in this 💕
My deepest sympathies. I cannot imagine what you're going through.
i'm sobbing my heart out at this i'm so sorry elle :(
Elle, i am so sorry you had to go through that. I totally understand your feelings/thoughts on it. I've had 2 miscarriages one early on 6 weeks maybe 5. My most recent one was right before 8 weeks. And just like you I was able to hear the baby's heartbeat before that. Heartbeat was nice and strong. A loss after hearing that heartbeat definitely hurts more! I am now 22 weeks pregnant with a baby girl. I am still very paranoid of anything going wrong. Praying for you and Alex and hope you get blessed with another baby soon!
Elle I’ve been watching since I was 14. I’m sorry. Sending you love.
I can’t imagine what you’re going through! You are such a strong momma and Im praying you’ll be holding a baby in your arms one day soon ❤️
I’ve been there, Elle. I’m so sorry. I won’t say it happened for a reason, or that it made you stronger, because quite simply it’s fucking awful and horrible and no one deserves this. You are loved, your baby was real.
so sorry Elle 💔no words, i am sending you a virtual hug!
Elle-Thank you for this. You ARE NOT ALONE. As so many have said below ... I too have been there and am so sorry. Feel everything you need to feel. Do whatever you need for you. Your rainbow will come when you’re ready
Elle. I am crying watching these raw videos that you are posting . I recently had a Biochemical pregnancy myself and it was very hard for my body to process . My spirituality has helped me throughout this process and my boyfriend as well. I was not able to share this experience with family or anyone else for other reasons. But truly I thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to watch your story via these Videos. You are seriously a gift to me and others from God for being so strong and letting other women know they are never alone. I will Pray for you and your family , God bless .
Elle- I’ve been dealing with infertility for ten years and I’ve lost 5 babies over those years. I started watching you as a distraction from real life when life got hard. Last January I lost a little boy when I was 10 weeks. I just had another little boy in December. It breaks my heart that you helped me through my own infertility and losses and now you are going through the same. I’m so so sorry Elle. I’m keeping you in my prayers 🙏💕
I can’t even bring myself to watch this, I couldn’t even imagine enduring it. I’m so sorry, Elle. I’ve watched your videos for well over a decade and I always keep you in mind. I’m praying for you and your baby who was taken away too soon. Sending you so much love.
Same. This is the third time I start this video and I keep closing it because even though we've never met I really feel like Elle is an old friend of mine and seeing her be this sad breaks my heart 😔
It must feel beyond awful to get your hopes up , experience all of this anxiety and then see your worst fear come true. I'm so so sorry for you Elle, really really sorry
I’m so so sorry... My heart breaks for you and your family. I won’t tell you it gets better because it’s not something easy to surpass... give yourself time and take the space you need to vent, to rest, to shut down, to do whatever you need to do get get through this. Sending you lots of love ❤️
I had a couple of miscarriages after years of fertility. It’s not easy and I never found that people fully understood how it felt... you are amazing and such a strong woman. Sharing your story, sharing the ups and downs - thank you.
I'm incredibly sorry to you and your husband. It's so unfair that you have to go through this. Much love.
You don't owe your audience anything with your journey but I appreciate so much that you shared. I hope things will get brighter in your future, your family is so loved by those who dont even know you. Sending many prayers to you and Alex
This is my biggest fear. I am crying and can't imagine the pain you're going through. You are strong and I thank you for sharing this to help others, it must be so hard to do so. You're all in my prayers ❤
Just got the notification and my heart dropped at the title. 😥I have been praying for you over the holidays and wondering. I'm so so sorry to hear this. Watching the rest of the video now, but I wanted to let you know that Jesus hears you and will be alongside you as you walk on this road of pain and grief. May God bless you. 🙏
Sending you so much love Elle. Thank you for your video. You are very brave to share your story. I had a miscarriage when I was 14 weeks pregnant (and never had the courage to talk about it). It is very traumatic. I feel your pain. One day you will hold your healthy baby in your arms and it will help ease the pain a little.
Awww Elle I'm so sorry to hear this! I had one myself in November. Sending all the hugs and love ♥ 🤗 ♥ 🤗 ♥
I’m so sorry. My little sister has been through this twice. Her stories are almost identical to yours. I know there are no words that can bring you comfort. I will just say again, I am so very sorry. Sending love and prayers to you and Alex. ❤️
Elle, my heart breaks for you. I cannot imagine the grief, disappointment and anger you're going through. Please be easy on yourself, take your time to heal and grieve. Thank you for sharing your story as you're helping break the stigma about miscarriage. This is not shameful and it happens way more often than people think. Sending you a lot of love from an OG subscriber.
I’m so so sorry. Can’t even fathom how one can have the strength to talk about this and go through it. You are a warrior. I truly hope that you are blessed with another baby 💜💜 you deserve that.
I’m going through the same thing right now. After trying for three years, this would have been our first baby. I was supposed to be 13 weeks tomorrow, but I’m not anymore. As I physically process my loss, I thought of your video. I’ve been following you for over a decade through all of your different eras, and I just want to thank you for the strength and confidence it takes to share your journey, especially this chapter, with everyone. 💗
I'm so sorry. What has helped me since my miscarriage that happened in December is listening to other's stories. Thank you so much for sharing yours.
Elle I am sitting here sobbing because my heart has absolutely broken with yours throughout this video.
I am so sorry. That seems like the most inadequate thing to say at a time like this. Sending you so much love right now. I know there’s nothing anyone can say or do that will make this any better. It’s so unfair and so cruel. It sucks more than I can find the words to say.
I am holding you and Alex in my heart right now. You are so loved and so cared about. I hope you can both feel the thousands of arms around you guys right now.
Your baby matters and will always matter. I will light a candle tonight to remember and honour your baby. Sending you so much love 💗 xxxx
Well said. My heart is so broken for Elle and Alex. Praying for you, Elle and any and all mothers who have experienced this type of devastating loss. There’s nothing any of us can say that will lessen the grief and pain this beautiful family is experiencing other than we love them and are praying for them during this time. We are with you, Elle.
I'm so sorry elle. This breaks my heart. No one wants to go through this. Regardless its a loss, a loss of something that was a part of you. Its a horrible thing. I'll be praying for you.
I haven’t even watched the video yet but i am just so sorry!!! The title just made my heart break. My thoughts and prayers with you and Alex and your families 💕
The pain in your voice breaks my heart. This babe will always be a part of you. Will be praying for you and your family. Know that better days are ahead and I am so beyond sorry for your loss🤍
I am so so sorry for your loss. It’s not your fault. I’m sorry this happened. It’s normal to be upset and take as much time as you need to heal because i know this is a hard loss for you. I will pray for you and your family.
I'm so sorry for your loss Elle. There is a special little soul waiting for you, just like you are waiting to be their mommy. It will happen, the universe is just waiting for the perfect time. Mourn for this baby, remember him, and know you will be holding a baby in your arms again soon.
Wow.. This made me tear up, as I'm going through a similar journey. ❤️ Beautifully put!!!!
@@melanieg.1410 I'm sorry for your loss as well. It hurts, but trust in the process and know that everything will work out!!
I experienced a miscarriage back in September. I was 11 weeks as well. I was hospitalized because of it because I started hemorrhaging really bad. My heart is completely broken for you. I know how much this baby was wanted by you both. Sending you so much love during this very difficult time ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss 💛
Soo so sorry 💔
I can’t even begin to imagine the heartbreak of what you’re going through. Sending you both so much love and strength! Xxx
Elle I am so so sorry. When I saw the title my heart started to clench. I don't even know you personally but you were the first youtuber in the makeup community i subbed to about 10 years ago. i am so so sorry. this hasn't happened to me but has hasn't to sooo many women around me and i hear it is awful. but you will get through this. there is light at the end of the tunnel.
I lost my first baby at 12 weeks 4 years ago. Now i have two healty boys.
Your baby just has forgotten something and will come back soon!!!
Love from germany
What a lovely thought to hold onto (baby has just forgotten something and will come back soon) in such a heartbreaking time for Elle and Alex 🥺
@@juliamaria2349 i hope so
Cried so much, you are the reason I fell in love with youtube. It hurts me to see you hurting like this. My heart goes out to you, Alex and little James.
Elle, I've been there and I feel for you. I'm so incredibly sorry for your loss. After trying for 15 months, I lost my first pregnancy. Take your time and grieve.
As someone who has also experienced miscarriage my heart is breaking for you watching this video. There are no words to describe the level of pain that is felt during situations like these. I am so deeply sorry for your loss, Elle. My thoughts are with you at this time.
My heart just broke for you Elle. Sharing your story will be so powerful and help so many women I am sure of that. Telling your story is so brave, opening the line of communication for other mothers and fathers to speak and feel heard is so amazing. Your babies are so lucky you are their mama ❤️
I’m so so sorry, praying for you and your family 💙
I've just had a missed miscarriage of my 2nd child and it hurts so so much. I had surgery today to have the foetus removed. You will have a rainbow baby and so will I ❤❤❤
You have no idea how much this video is helping me to deal with my own grief right now
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I lost my baby at 10 weeks in May and 5 weeks in November. It sucks so hard. I'm with you girl. 🖤
@@stateoferinyt im so sorry Erin. I truly believe that one day our beautiful little babies in heaven will open the gates for us so we can smother them in hugs and kisses ❤
Beautifully said. 🖤
I lost my first baby in 2018 after 2 years of trying to conceive. It's a pain like nothing else in the world. I felt so alone and jealous and angry and bitter. Two months later I got pregnant again and now I have a happy, healthy, thriving daughter. I'm so proud of you for sharing this because it will help more people than you know. Prayers for you 🙏 ❤
I clicked fast I haven’t watched it but I’m sending all my love to you Elle
Take a deep breath. You got this you can do this.
I am sooo sorry for you and your family 😢 but I am 100% sure that you guys will have your own rainbow baby 🙏
A mother's intuition is so real. I'm truly heartbroken for you and your family. Sending lots of prayers to you and your family during this difficult time 💗
It took me two miscarriages and almost three years to finally get my second child. Don't give up! People have healthy babies after miscarriages all the time. I know this is very sad, but don't give up. You will have another child...I know it! just take care of yourself right now, play with your son, and that second baby will come in due time ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss 💛
Oh, Elle, I'm heartbroken for you and your family. Please be gentle with yourself x
Sweet, sweet Mama, thank you for telling us the story of your precious little one. We celebrate the life with you and thank God for every moment of it.
My heart hurts for you, as a mama who’s lost two babies in 2019, I want to hug you so, so deeply and let you know you aren’t alone.
I am currently 32.5 weeks pregnant with our rainbow baby, our first baby we will hold. I only share this to help share that spark of hope every mamas so desperately needs when fear can feel so overwhelming. Please know I am praying for you both. Sending you all the love in my heart.
I am so sorry to hear about your loss Elle. I know how much your wanted this baby, and I can hear the pain in your voice. I’m not a mother yet, but I do dream of being one someday. I am praying for your healing. I know your hurting but don’t give up because you will get your baby!
I am so sorry for your extremely difficult loss. 💔 “a person is a person, no matter how small”
I lost my baby at 8 weeks when Iwas supposed to be measuring at 10 weeks, MC hurts so much it is physically and emotionally draining. I wish I could give you a hug bcs this hurts so much.
I feel like I grew up alongside you back when you were in college (I’m a few yrs older, and had gone back- and you reminded me so much of myself). I also had a younger sister much like Blair. You helped me get through sooo much for so many yrs, so though I never met you, feels like we are related. My heart absolutely breaks for you. Know that I’m sending you both so many prayers and blessings, and if you ever need anything, please let me know! 🤗
I went through one last week, I still don’t feel like myself, I’m still hurting. I feel you 100% and understand you completely. Thank you for sharing and showing me I am not alone, I felt so very alone. I love you and praying for strength over anybody going through this 😞
You are not alone. I’m so so sorry. Praying for your strength 💕
So sorry for your loss...
I’m so sorry. I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks. I can feel your pain through the screen and I’m so sorry for your loss. Sending positive thoughts to you and your family. ❤️
I’m so, so sorry that you’re going through this Elle. Many women including me know the pain you’re going through and are sending you love and prayers. Thank you for talking about this to help others. It can feel incredibly lonely and isolating but we’re never alone even if it feels like it.