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  • @pendragon2012
    @pendragon2012 Місяць тому +83

    My TBR is a million miles long and you're not helping, Emma!!!😂 Loving the rash of videos lately, hope your week is going well!!

  • @annamattos8627
    @annamattos8627 Місяць тому +16

    My TBR for this month includes:
    1. The Wind in the Willows, by Kenneth Grahame
    2. The Canterbury Tales, by Chaucer
    3. Romeo and Juliet, by Shakespeare
    4. On Writing (and Writers), by C. S. Lewis
    5. Warbreaker, by Brandon Sanderson
    6. Sketches by Boz, by Dickens
    7. The Poem of the Cid
    8. Gulliver's Travels, by Jonathan Swift
    There's no way I'm gonna read them all, but a girl can dream. 😅

  • @mollycadieux5916
    @mollycadieux5916 Місяць тому +32

    Ahh I missed these TBR planning videos so much! I always go back and rewatch your old ones for comfort, especially the spring and winter ones as the vibes are unmatched

  • @amysoukup6970
    @amysoukup6970 Місяць тому +9

    These 'Plan a Month of Reading with Me' videos are some of my absolute favorite!

  • @iamrjdennis
    @iamrjdennis Місяць тому +30

    Excited for a new month of reading! I hope everyone has an amazing month! 💛

  • @BUHEBA
    @BUHEBA Місяць тому +10

    I love Ur videos so much they are heartwarming, your vibe is very chill, and anybody sees your channel will recognize that reading IS the portal to the places we cannot go to, and is the portal to understanding yourself and others, which leads to better life.
    READING is the key to the many doors of life. 👑👑👑📚📚📚❤

  • @denisefreitas6727
    @denisefreitas6727 Місяць тому +14

    Anne of Green Gables and The Housekeeper and the professor are wonderful choices, Emma! Oh! Wind in the willows too! ❤️😊

  • @shannonbrown8966
    @shannonbrown8966 Місяць тому +12

    You must get your hands on The Sea The Sea by Iris Murdoch which won the 1978 Booker Prize. That is your book for the trip!

    • @zephyr2266
      @zephyr2266 Місяць тому +1

      Wasn't meant for me but I'm taking that recommendation regardless. Thank you :)

    • @shannonbrown8966
      @shannonbrown8966 Місяць тому

      @@zephyr2266 my pleasure!

  • @kimbarbeaureads
    @kimbarbeaureads Місяць тому +8

    I adored Anne of Green Gables. A book rec from my Great Grandmother.

  • @Jane42.
    @Jane42. 21 день тому

    I used to listen to a cassette tape of Wind in the Willows to fall asleep when I was a kid. (I’m old-tapes were a thing!). Hearing you read the lines out loud I could recite every word with you! Love that story.

  • @barbaralemon4170
    @barbaralemon4170 Місяць тому +5

    The Wind in the Willows is a definite 5 star read! I've read this beautiful book many times. Just wonderful!!

  • @grff_
    @grff_ Місяць тому +3

    I used to only have one bookshelf for everything and early last year i got really into book shopping and my other belongings filled up the remaining shelves so i also had stacks of books all over😭 thankfully now i have two more bookshelves and everything looks great

  • @aidanvergano
    @aidanvergano Місяць тому +12

    YES LOTR!! I'm so ready!!

  • @saranshnegi6535
    @saranshnegi6535 Місяць тому +9

    The sheer happiness. I just can't 😭✨
    Thank you, Em.🥺❤️

  • @maanya__742
    @maanya__742 Місяць тому +4

    These monthly planning videos were definitely missed. I always look forward to your videos... sending love ❤

  • @WhiteRaven43
    @WhiteRaven43 Місяць тому +6

    RIP the black bookshelves. The end of an era. Book jenga seems like a fun game but for your sake, I hope you get new shelves soon.

  • @sarahstager8450
    @sarahstager8450 Місяць тому +1

    a tale for the time being mention!!! :0 it's one of my favorite books of all time, and it does have a something to do with the ocean...

  • @martinelanglois3158
    @martinelanglois3158 Місяць тому +4

    Planning what to read and shopping one's shelves is so much fun! Thanks for sharing. Have a good time! 📚

  • @lucilledatta4260
    @lucilledatta4260 Місяць тому +1

    A Tale for the Time Being would fit the ocean vibes a lot, as it has an important role in the story

  • @yuhhyuhhhyuhhhh
    @yuhhyuhhhyuhhhh 25 днів тому

    I had an old, beaten up copy of The Count of Monte Cristo (abridged, unfortunately 😔) that I stole from my father which I had never really thought much about, but seeing as you had enjoyed it so thoroughly- I was intrigued.
    It was SO GOOOOOD. I'm definitely going to read the unabridged version someday, that is, if I eventually get over my fear of large books. I'm soooo thankful that you liked it and mentioned it because I might never have read it otherwise. So again, thank you so much for the recommendation!!
    Much love ❤.
    Also, I hope everyone who's reading this comment has a great day/evening. And please, please, PLEASE recommend me more books that have the same vibes as The Count of Monte Cristo!

  • @bookishsyd6077
    @bookishsyd6077 Місяць тому +1

    You made me laugh so hard when you had to pull a book out with the plant and were like ‘ok, extra points’ in your game of Jenga. Great video, thanks for it!

  • @quokka44
    @quokka44 Місяць тому +2

    I did not find The Birds uplifting but it is stunningly beautiful. Really look forward to hearing what you think when you get round to reading it. The Housekeeper and the Professor is wonderful. You will love the magic of the numbers!

  • @Cakewalkingbaby
    @Cakewalkingbaby Місяць тому +2

    Dear Emma, just a small recommendation, I hope you try out reading Faulkner one day! You are so well spoken, I trust your taste and would love to hear your thoughts on his books. Sending much love and appreciation 💫

  • @bookishBisexual
    @bookishBisexual Місяць тому +4

    I so missed the tbr videos, you made my day!

  • @Ms.SpookyNerd
    @Ms.SpookyNerd Місяць тому +1

    Hope you enjoy your reads ☕📚

  • @MsGloomyLamp
    @MsGloomyLamp Місяць тому +1

    Emma, I highly recommend A Tale For The Time Being, it's such a profound and expansive novel!
    Also excited to hear your thoughts on Jeanette Winterson, I loved some of her books and felt meh about others, but didn't read the one you picked.

  • @CatherineMarianne
    @CatherineMarianne Місяць тому +2

    Anne of Green Gables is my desert island book. I've probably read it 50 times in my life. During lockdown in 2020 I finally read the series through Anne of Ingleside (plus Chronicles of Avonlea). Loved them. You've got a great TBR coming together!

  • @yacrupni
    @yacrupni Місяць тому +1

    A tale for the time being was a five-star for me, you should absolutely check it out if you're looking for a fun and trippy time!

  • @exlibrisdeclan
    @exlibrisdeclan 28 днів тому

    i read lighthousekeeping at the end of last year and really enjoyed it. jeanette winterson is honestly in a league of her own 😅 i hope you enjoy it too!

  • @LexieMoon321
    @LexieMoon321 Місяць тому +8

    “Wake up! Emma posted a new video!”

  • @hannahmiller4716
    @hannahmiller4716 Місяць тому +2

    Hi Emma! ❤❤❤ How are you? I read Anne of Green Gables a few years ago.
    It's a great classic book!❤📕♥️

  • @villinaudasi5418
    @villinaudasi5418 Місяць тому +2

    I have been wanting to reread Anne of Green Gables for a while now.... Guess I will start this on my birthday this May and might be reading along with you!

  • @haerhawk
    @haerhawk Місяць тому +2

    Seeing you arrange your tbr is so therapeutic

  • @evastrange
    @evastrange Місяць тому +2

    I loved Shipwrecks.🌊 Yoshimura has a talent to wreak quiet devastation on the heart. One Man's Justice by him is amazing, too. However, Shipwrecks is a very quiet, understated and realistic historical novel, and not something you should pick up if you're really in the mood for a thrilling gothic murder and revenge fest, like the blurb makes it out to be. That might lead to disappointment.

  • @chuucake
    @chuucake Місяць тому +1

    love today's video so much, Emma! ♡

  • @faerield
    @faerield Місяць тому

    SOO SO EXCITED for the lotr vlog !!

  • @wiskerlikestoread4594
    @wiskerlikestoread4594 Місяць тому +1

    The Book of Disquiet is life changing!

  • @halapyrolock7210
    @halapyrolock7210 Місяць тому

    Thank you for blessing us with another video so soon! 😍❤️ like many other said, we love the continuous videos lately please keep it up 🥹🙏💖 Wishing you a great day 🌸

  • @sequoia504
    @sequoia504 Місяць тому +1

    The Secret Garden, Anne of Green Gables, and Wind in the Willows were my spring reads! And I started LOTR early because I just couldn’t wait 🙈

  • @jamesduggan7200
    @jamesduggan7200 Місяць тому +2

    A couple of years ago - on a whim - I listened to LotR on UA-cam, which was very nice. Currently I'm recovering from a major surgery and quite frankly I'm just too tired to read. I've yet to finish anything this year. My tentative plan is to read Amy Tan's The Opposite of Fate, and if that goes well then maybe I'll try to finish a Faulkner novel. Thx for the video - enjoyed.

  • @juandbooks
    @juandbooks Місяць тому

    this video was like pure asmr to me i dont know why! amazing as always, emma

  • @aamnahere6250
    @aamnahere6250 Місяць тому +2

    This video popped as I was watching your last upload which is perfect timing. I hope you're having a wonderful time. I am currently reading 'Pachinko' by Min Jin Lee and loving it so far. Thinking of reading 'Pedro Paramo' by Juan Rulfo next. Hopefully it's great as well. Happy reading!

  • @angelacanedit
    @angelacanedit Місяць тому

    YESSSS something to watch while I paint my room 🥰

  • @vickilimbocker2505
    @vickilimbocker2505 Місяць тому

    Love your book choices. I love love Wind in the willows 💕 I need to read it again.

  • @MusicJustin15
    @MusicJustin15 Місяць тому +2

    You’re my favorite Canadian.

  • @marioksmith
    @marioksmith Місяць тому

    Can't wait to see Anne of Green Gables in the vlog. 😊 It's my favorite book of all time. It's the perfect spring/summer/autumn/winter read. 😁

  • @jessicaloomis2687
    @jessicaloomis2687 Місяць тому

    I love these TBR videos! Also, I'm reading Anne of Green Gables to my 10-year-old now--so love sharing this favorite of mine with my eldest! Also, the Emily trilogy was Montgomery's favorite. If you haven't read Montgomery's Emily books, I strongly recommend: she has the spirit and imagination of Anne; however, the books are slightly darker, slightly realer. So so good for Anne fans who want more by this amazing author.

  • @bethanywhite7904
    @bethanywhite7904 Місяць тому +1

    Anne of Green Gables is amazing!

  • @circleofleaves2676
    @circleofleaves2676 Місяць тому +1

    Yes absolutely 100% take Jeanette Winterson's Lighthousekeeping with you on your trip. Jeanette Winterson signed my copy to me (addressed to me by name). The Waves (Virginia Woolf) is my favourite book of all time. To The Lighthouse (Virginia Woolf) is also wonderful, but more soul-crushing. Then again, I don't remember it crushing me when I first read it in my early twenties. But it crushed me on my re-read in mid-40's because of personal circumstances and phase of life stuff. But definitely, definitely take Ligthousekeeping with you; it's the perfect book and quite easy to read through, so it's good for a holiday I think. And you absolutely need to read more of Jeanette Winterson! She's one of my favourite authors. I was so hoping you'd read The Passion before or during the Venice trip. One of my favourite books of all time is her essays collection, Art Objects (not to be confused with Art & Lies, one of her other wonderful books).

  • @andrewmalone2911
    @andrewmalone2911 Місяць тому +2

    The only Yoko Ogawa book I've read was a very creepy short story collection called Revenge and I ADORED it. Surprised that The Housekeeper and The Professor appears to be something completely different. Sounds interesting though, I must join you on that one this month! Definitely check out Revenge if you like her writing. Would highly recommend.

  • @kezla
    @kezla Місяць тому

    Thanks for the notability inspo! I’m new to the app and am going to try out stickers 🎉

  • @alih.6334
    @alih.6334 Місяць тому +1

    You've inspired me to re-read LotR! I actually remember standing in line at the theater in the middle of winter when the films came out (worth it!!)

  • @laurennoel5176
    @laurennoel5176 14 днів тому

    When I think of essential "Oceanside" reading I think Beach Music by Pat Conroy. It's a very long book but a good one.

  • @fabulaklub
    @fabulaklub Місяць тому

    It is so funny how many coincidences happened in our bookclub picks. I have a bookclub specialized on reading women authors. I pick a book every two months. For March and April we were also reading Middlemarch and I struggled the same as you did, and I also saved myself with an audiobook, so I feel you! And for May and June, I picked The Housekeeper and the Professor!!! I could not believe my eyes when you started writing "The Housekeeper...", I already knew which book you were going to talk about. Wish you a pleasant spring reading 🌸

  • @feelinitalics
    @feelinitalics Місяць тому +1

    I’ve been obsessed with L.M. Montgomery since I was a little kid-you should also try Emily of New Moon if you haven’t read it yet. I prefer it over Anne of Green Gables (though that feels a bit blasphemous to say!).

  • @fiddleleaffiction
    @fiddleleaffiction Місяць тому

    I love your planning/TBR videos SO much! And I’m so excited for LOTR! I DNF’d Middlemarch for the second year in a row 😢

  • @Mariak82
    @Mariak82 Місяць тому

    Love Wind In The Willows, really want to reread it. Also Love Anne of Green Gables. ❤📚

  • @mayagbailey
    @mayagbailey Місяць тому

    i LOVED the housekeeper and the professor so much- such a sweet book!

  • @ReadingNymph
    @ReadingNymph Місяць тому +1

    The Jenga was dangerous 😂

  • @lizanelson4777
    @lizanelson4777 Місяць тому

    I would LOVE if you did some kind of video with you annotating a book. I’m interested in doing this, but I think I need some kind of guidance

  • @michaelmcgee335
    @michaelmcgee335 Місяць тому +1

    Your handwriting is very nice.

  • @myriam8190
    @myriam8190 Місяць тому

    I can’t wait to read LOTR with you guys! The Return of the King is my favourite and I’m so excited to reread it! 😊

  • @writeandscribbles9680
    @writeandscribbles9680 Місяць тому

    The Dark Hills Divide was great!!!! Thank you so much for the recommendation ❤ ordered Beyond the Valley of Thorns … aaaand as I’m a teacher I’ve brought it in to school too ❤

  • @rebeccaalcantar957
    @rebeccaalcantar957 Місяць тому

    Emmie if you haven't already, watch the movie. Anne Shirley is played by Megan Follows. You will love it!

  • @masoumealizadeh409
    @masoumealizadeh409 29 днів тому

    I love Anne of green Gables

  • @subtlefire7256
    @subtlefire7256 Місяць тому

    I'm so excited for The Lord of the Rings! I haven't read them in years. Already looking forward to your reading vlog. 😄
    Ngl I like the aesthetic of this new arrangement, even though it most be sooo inconvenient. I like it when books are stored kind of chaotically. (Which is lucky since my own shelves are overflowing haha.)
    I hope you and your mom have fun on your trip! ❤

  • @brandimullins3627
    @brandimullins3627 Місяць тому

    I feel like I’m watching a game of jenga!!!!! Thank you for my books on my tbr!!!!❤

  • @saranshnegi6535
    @saranshnegi6535 Місяць тому +2

    Yayy yayyy yayyy ✨🥺

  • @user-yk4gr8mz4b
    @user-yk4gr8mz4b Місяць тому

    I would suggest reading Written on the Body by Jeanette Winterson. Safe travels!

  • @thisisjeff9845
    @thisisjeff9845 Місяць тому

    I'm about to start Anne of the Island. I just finished Anne of Green Gables and Anne of Avonlea.

  • @ellynmfx4431
    @ellynmfx4431 Місяць тому

    Emma you MUST read Olga Grushin!! Depressing yet super transporting and brilliant Russian author. I've read The Dream Life of Sukhanov and Forty Rooms and both are on my favorites list.

  • @neshkavirdure8289
    @neshkavirdure8289 Місяць тому

    Sooo Looking Forward TO Reading LOTR😊📚Still Chipping Away At Middlemarch (pg.355)
    I Also Want to Reread Wind in The Willows and Just Might (Thanks to You and Carolyn's Awesome Spring Book Rec, It Has Become my Most Favorite New Children's Book Read😊👍👍📚Thanks For All These Awesome Book Recommendation Videos😊👍👍📚

  • @mattkean1128
    @mattkean1128 Місяць тому

    I really should read those Vesaas. Some on my May tbr:
    The Ambassadors - Henry James
    Emma M. lion Vol. 2 - Beth Brower
    Someone at a Distance - Dorothy Whipple

  • @natasagajic1061
    @natasagajic1061 Місяць тому +1

    I really enjoyed Anne of Green Gables when I read it last year and I think that it works so well as a standalone that I don't really plan on continuing on with that series. However, I am actually quite curious about the author's other series - Emily of New Moon. Have you maybe read it and if yes, would you recommend it? 🤔
    I hope you have a lovely reading month! ☺(even though I don't envy you reading the whole LOTR trilogy in 2 months - I thought it's one of the most boring things I have ever read 😅Except Pippin! He's great and *the* saving grace of the story 😁)

  • @Cubehead27
    @Cubehead27 Місяць тому

    Personally I'm going to give the next around the world pick a miss in May to give myself time to catch up a bit on my reading (currently I'm obsessed with Alice Oswald's Memorial though so that's really cool), but I'm planning to be back on board with GoT to nerd out about Tolkien with y'all so I'm really looking forward to that 😊

  • @t.m.4864
    @t.m.4864 Місяць тому

    Moomin papa at sea was unexpectedly heart tugging, especially during a season of upheaval & trying to find ‘home’.
    To the Lighthouse is one I’d recommend, & I added Lighthouse Keeping to my TBR.
    PLEASE READ THE GRACE OF WILD THINGS. Put it at the top of the pile 😅

  • @Rosa-bb5hi
    @Rosa-bb5hi Місяць тому

    You should watch the ballet segment that’s about The Waved (Tuesday) it’s incredibly sad but so beautiful

  • @itsjustamy1876
    @itsjustamy1876 Місяць тому +1

    im kinda into the chaotic bookshelf. It adds some extra personality. Hope you're doing well :)

  • @gbin99
    @gbin99 Місяць тому +1

    Thank you as always for a great episode. Oh, which tablet are you using?

  • @MillennialDandy
    @MillennialDandy Місяць тому

    Oooh I’d love to see you read Tale for the Time Being! People have very mixed feelings about it so I’d love to hear yours!

  • @aubreybentley920
    @aubreybentley920 Місяць тому

    Where is your necklace from ? The black pendant is so pretty ❤

  • @sherrirabinowitz4618
    @sherrirabinowitz4618 Місяць тому

    I have had a hard time with Middlemarch too.

  • @gmcenroe
    @gmcenroe Місяць тому

    I was on a Stephen King kick, read Lisey's Story and Duma Key. Now I need a break from him so I am reading The Morning Star by Knausgaard. After that I am either reading Count of Monte Cristo or The Brothers Karamazov. I want to reread The Hobbit and Lord of the Rings, but those are better suited for fall/winter reading to me. For a translated work, The Morning Star is a pleasure to read even though I am not sure about the structure of the book that surrounds 5 characters and their lives.

  • @ElinorMilanesi
    @ElinorMilanesi Місяць тому

    Hi Emma ! How often do you wash your hair ? It grows super fast

  • @chelleandpoppy6379
    @chelleandpoppy6379 Місяць тому

    Don’t skip the Murakami shelf haha I read Kafka on the Shore immediately before I went to the coast of Ireland and it couldnt be more perfect. I peeped Legends and Lattes and I read Bookshops and Bonedust immediately when I got back because I was missing the northern beach town vibes and did it deliver!
    As for Virginia Woolf, To the Lighthouse is definitely a more beachy read (The Waves is not about the beach lol). I’m not a huge huge TTL fan; Mrs. Dalloway is my fav; the waves a close second, but it’s up there in terms of Woolf. It’s about her family’s holidays to St. Ives and losely about her life and her siblings. 1 book away from finishing my Woolf reread and have officially read all of Woolf(‘s novels at least…. So many short stories and letters I haven’t touched!) safe travels!

  • @rachy891
    @rachy891 Місяць тому +1

    hope you enjoy the grace of wild things!! it was my favourite read of last year 💚🍃 (also jenga bookshelf solidarity 🤝)

  • @veara906
    @veara906 Місяць тому +1

    oh my god! how come you haven't read Waves by Virginia Woolf yet? it's like made for you. it was a 5 star for me, it's so beautifully written. It follows the life of these 5 people from childhood to adulthood and death; I genuinely felt emotional finishing it, like I watched them grow up. The writing is genuinely exceptional, like Woolf at her best.
    (idk about To the lighthouse, I have not read it, but I did find it boring when I tried to years ago.)

  • @merlinisme
    @merlinisme Місяць тому

    Write a mysterious first line in a book and Emma is DEFINITELY going to pick that up

  • @finreads
    @finreads Місяць тому +1

    are you going to prince edward island? or possibly newfoundland?

  • @jshain4117
    @jshain4117 Місяць тому

    I've been listening to the audiobook of Middlemarch and have a little over two hours left and it has been a slog to get through especially compared to Count of Monte Cristo.
    Looking forward to rereading the LOTR books. Haven't read them since the movies came out.

  • @Kyle4k9
    @Kyle4k9 Місяць тому

    Hi Emma thanks for cheering me up with your video today; I needed it. My family just left after a week’s visit with me. It was like, OK everybody hug Kyle so he can get back to work. Bleh. … My guess for your trip is PEI.

  • @Integritydefins
    @Integritydefins Місяць тому

    You're so good at recommending books without recommending them

  • @deepashapuri1608
    @deepashapuri1608 Місяць тому

    Really ,I've exams in May I won't be able to join in reading but will get back as soon as they finish

  • @1984isnow
    @1984isnow Місяць тому

    My monthly tbr list is not that hardcore, i only read 1 book a month mostly, i have maaybe 100 to 125 books, ive initiated a book buying ban on myself until ive read all unread books in my collection, currently reading (bad habit) heart shaped box, firefly ghost machine and the mermaid the witch and the sea.

  • @LovSpeakNow13
    @LovSpeakNow13 Місяць тому

    I have a feeling someone's going to the Maritimes hehe

  • @EP-hm5ue
    @EP-hm5ue Місяць тому +1

    I guess Nova Scotia

  • @Snow_drops-bv7ov
    @Snow_drops-bv7ov Місяць тому

    I recommend you try reading the manga series of Bungo stray dogs plus the light novels. I promise. YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED ❤❤. And also i hope you enjoy your books.

  • @Skavop
    @Skavop Місяць тому

    You wondered what Virginia Woolf's "The Waves" is about. I read it, quite some time ago, and couldn't understand anything I was reading, despite re-reading sections, in the hope it was just that my focus had slipped. I remember it as being a stream of consciousness style of thing, but I couldn't grasp any of the ideas, because there were all sorts of metaphors in it I couldn't understand. Perhaps I wouldn't have the same difficulty if I were to read it again, but it put me off reading Woolf for ages, until recently I picked up "A Room of One's Own", and thought it was a wonderful read, with no difficulties at all about grasping what she was saying. I'd love you to read and review "The Waves" sometime, to see if it was just poor focus on my part, all those years ago, that made it so unintelligable to me. I like the look of the selection of books you currently have on your shelves, and I think you're probably a discerning reader.

  • @ruchieru
    @ruchieru Місяць тому

    East coast! Your trip… PEI?

  • @abitmuch7682
    @abitmuch7682 Місяць тому +1

    The Birds by Vesaas is NOT an unplifting story lol, it will break your heart