I started out with zero dysphoria and as I have explored, expressed, and tried to celebrate all of who I am I have come to see it in aspects of who I am. You may ask why I even started exploring a feminine part of myself? Well, my only answer is because I felt an incredible drawing toward it. Maybe it was there the whole time and I could only deal with this in that manner. I don't know.
at the moment i often dont feel that much physical dysphoria unless im looking at myself in the mirror or, sometimes it'll just hit me and i will feel rubbish for a few days or weeks but a lot of the time my dysphoria seems to come in the form of dissociation. I think because i dont look how i want i tend to not really think of this body as mine therefore things like showering dont affect me as much as others, which i am very grateful for... but its still a very unpleasant feeling that i dont really exist in my physical body. but i have a strong feeling that once i start transitioning i will feel it a lot because like you said i will start to maybe associate with my body more so the more it feels like mine that more dysphoria i will get. loved the video :)) (i hope that made sense??)
I'm currently one year and 4 months on Testosterone and my dysphoria has increased because now that I see the changes I want T to somehow do more. I pay more attention to my height to my hands especially to my bottom growth I get extremely dysphoric that I can't even hang out with the bros because I feel like I'm going to constantly be thinking why wasn't I born normal like them. Why must I go through this pain. Testosterone helped me so much to feel more comfortable existing and I am beyond grateful that's why I try my best to remind myself where I was at when Testosterone wasn't in me. Also.. thank you for the letter Dr Z I have my consultation with the surgeon Tuesday can't wait for top surgery. It wouldn't have been possible without ur help a million thanks 🤝
Thank you for sharing and yes it is very common to have increase in dysphoria because you are starting to see changes and feel they are not enough or fast enough. Take some time. Especially after top surgery it should decrease. Very happy to help. Feel free to reach out at anytime.
My experience confirms the idea of dysphoria as a moving target.I was not truly aware of any dysphoria for most of my life. I had a profound waking up experience late in life and then years of behavior going back to early childhood rose into my conscious being. Then dsyphoria became readily apparent and I have had to pursue surgeries to alleviate. I am not done and the closer I get to my goal the worse the dysphoric elements haunt me.
Gender dysphoria comes in strong and moderate waves and for me started after I finally accepted that I was transgender at age 50 (second puberty) and initiating social MTF transition (not on hrt yet) as my body is not inline with my souls perception. It shows strong resemblances with anorexia as far as the mind struggles with itself and secondary symptoms come to the surface e.g. extreme self-critical and focus, questioning, loop-thinking, doubt, control, (social) anxiety, fear, depression, isolation and shame. I feel the dysphoria is reducing bit by bit as my facial and body hair is slowly retracting, and starting to trust in what I do to present myself is to my satisfaction as a female. New dysphoria does creep to the surface I noticed such as increased dysphoria for my genitals and voice unalignment etc. You have to deconstruct the male side and built up the feminine, and this takes time and the speed will be as fast as your ability too change. Be gentle with your self. It takes baby steps, but just like a baby, eventually you will be able to stand-up, walk and dance :)
I got scared after taking HRT in 2015 but I'm very ready to go back on. Wearing female underwear, laser hair removal, getting ears pierced, using female deoderants and perfumes, waxing and wearing tighter clothing has helped me in the past. Im currently going through alot of dysphoria in lock down and only came off from living on the streets of Johannesburg South Africa a few months ago so you can imagine my financial situation currently doesnt allow for much but it will soon change. During this lock down period its given me time to access internet, which i didnt have for over a year, and ive been able to down load some really good stuff. Thanks for all your help thus far Dr. Z!
I dont know that it moves so much for me, rather that it is "malignant". So whatever I add becomes the new minimum I can accept to be at peace, and then it seems like I want to add the next item to my list. It is a scary progressive process.
Thanks again for an amazing informative video. I suspect it could explain why my own voice sometimes sounds embarrassingly phoney, childlike or estranged, but when with my closest relatives or with people I don't want to come out to it is bearable. Also my sexuality has been very limited because of the shape I have. I hadn't realised this until after I began questioning. It did come to me as a surprise though, because for a long time I thought I was most likely asexual or blocked.
Dear Dr Z. I've discovered your channel and find it very interessant. I'm dealing with gender disphoria. For me it's more like "disphoria crisis oder episod". I mean it can be very present for some days localizing on a body part for ex breast where I feel depressive and emotional labil and then it will be some days after more ok. I find it rather strange and I'm wondering if it can have something to do with hormons cycle ? I'm born with female body. Thanks for your advices
Hi and thanks for sharing. Hormones, stress, lack of exercise, what we eat, etc, all have an effect on how we feel psychologically so yes, it can certainly have an effect.
@@DRZPHD many thanks for your comment. !'ve noticed for ex when I make musculation gym training it seems that the Testo and hormon balance Oestrogen/Progesterone ist better and I suffer less from dysphoria. Do you think that producing Testo in a natural way with sport exercises can help again dysphoria?
Dysphoria has been tricky for me, I was burned as an infant so I have body dysphoria after the ridicule I received from my scars, at the same time I was raised in a very homophobic environment and time so I learned to bury it all deep but it kept cropping up especially at puberty. I battled for years to keep it all in check I even managed to become the person (ultra macho people pleaser) that i was expected to be. Then in my late 20's it grew more and more I blamed it on everything from fetish to just wanting to be someone else. At 35 I was relay feeling it and finally found help and well I came to a hard realization who I was inside and learned to understand what I was feeling, gender dysphoria. To go along with what your saying my dysphoria has moved along with my understanding, in the beginning I had no problems with the boy parts per say, first it was my hips then it moved to breasts then to my facial hair and now its on the boy part. I have had a rough go of it witch leads me to an idea for you to explore. My life is very entrenched in my male self and I had a big blow to my ego that caused me to go back in the closet only now a few years later am I just starting to come back to my feelings, I have suffered hard with dysphoria, depression and de-realization and de-personalization along with major anxiety. Perhaps now that your looking at the middle age groups you could explore the pitfalls and triumphs of this age bracket. Thanks for the great vids and I hope your knee is better. Be well.
Thank you for such candid response and I am very sorry to hear about your painful past. I hope things will get better. Also, you are absolutely right about the pitfalls and triumphs of older individuals, something we dont focus much on but needs to be seen as they have and are, paving way for the young. Thank you for kind concerns, knee is doing very well :)
I don’t look at dysphoria as a moving target. It’s prioritized, so that when the most urgent issue is addressed, the next one arises, often terminating in bottom surgery.
Is it normal to not feel body dysphoria , and ones you come out to yourself and socially transition you suddenly find out that you are dysphoric about the body, and about a lot of it?
Yes it is because a lot of gender dysphoria in relation to body remains largely unconscious for many. When a person comes out and begins to embody their true self, they begin to see themselves and their body differently, hence often leads to dysphoria.
I've have dysphoria when I see my face and any facial hair. This has been ongoing for many years. I started HRT roughly two years ago, and in the last 6 months, I have steadily become more dysphoric regarding genitals. So much so, that I am working toward getting GCS. Great topic. Enjoyed the video. Thank you!
Thanks for sharing and I am sorry to hear dysphoria has moved to the genital region. That is incredibly common in my view and has, in my view, nothing to do with hormones, but more to do with actually starting physical transition.
Hi. I have to say I have not found any clinical correlation with hormone balance and dysphoria being driven to genitals in the course of my experience. It is not hormones in of itself that cause GD to shift, but the fact that one has started physical transition. Hence, when the body is more in alignment including hormones, one starts to experience GD due to incongruence.
@@DRZPHD That is the case with me. My transition has opened my eyes to what is possible, and being very binary, I have the need to surgically transition. You're feedback was very helpful. Thank you!
I am so sorry! I gotta say, the pandemic is in a way a good time for many to transition due to the face covering masks as it helps a bit with dysphoria.
I'm not sure if I have more, or it's just that I quit repressing so let myself think and look at myself for the first time...although ironically, my body isn't AS bad as I had thought it was, maybe, as I never really studied it, and just took it as the most maximally...the way I didn't want, and maaaaaaybe it isn't THE most...that on Earth
It seems that the object of gender dysphoria shifts because of new knowledge. The more we know ourselves, the more accurate and persistent our evaluation of what causes our gender dysphoria.
Dysphoria for me is like an pool dirty water you can't see everything tell you start cleaning. you start cleaning up everything that's floating on the surface, this might things like a wig, clothing, breast forms depending on the person. but GAHT is like Shock Treatment in a pool it clears the water makes all the little things clump up into bigger things, some might float to the top some might sink to the bottom of the pool but the clear water means you can really see what must be done. The internal "Fog of War" has lifted now the battle can be planed with a clear picture of the army your facing. I think for those that are NB and/or fem but more Andro But think they feel full fem and start GAHT and stop are simply having a hard time facing that army because of the mixed messages GAHT really not only lifts the fog but that army your facing is more like the Rights Movement Marching they all have megaphones and what your hearing is the inner voice we have been repressing inside in order to conform. many transgender people start and stop GAHT many times most trying to find a point along the spectrum where they fit in. many people in the LGBTQIA+ community well never even sit with me because yes I'm trans (13mo GAHT with ffs in June this year) but i am not apart of the LGBTQIA+ political views. warning below here is politics read at your own risk................................................. politics i stand in the center, and support capitalism and HATE what Both the Left and Right have become. I was more left in the 90's but what was the left in the 90's is treated like the far right today. I disagree with socialism. but do agree in a safety nets I think government in just about every country in the world has become a bloated steaming pile of crap. I voted for trump the first run I did not the 2nd time i was not expecting him to treat the Trans community the way he did. that said i did not vote for Biden either we need fresh Strong leaders people with a heart. On the world stage you Must talk big and carry a big stick. the world is filled with bullies as a US prez you Must be able to contain them or things like Ukraine happen. I honestly think gas will be less then half it is now and Ukraine bit happen if trump was calling the shots. all that Putin V needed to see what how must Biden messed up our exit that basically said the new admins are all a joke and can't do anything damaging.
As a partner, although this information is not personally relevant to my own body, it is invaluable to help me understand dysphoria. We end up putting so much pressure on our trans partners to explain gender dysphoria, and they're not always able to do this. Not only that, but it's taxing on them and can trigger deeper dysphoria. Thank you for providing this information!
Yes, it's true that gender dysphoria is dynamic. Considering myself as a transman who have not started my medical transition, it has certainly increased as I grew up. At first when my puberty hit, it started with my chest, then to my hips, thighs and butt. Suddenly at age 16, without understanding why, I cut my hair and on the same day, I shifted totally to masculine clothes. I am still wondering why so many changes in just one day lol. At that time, I didn't even know what trans was. At 18, when I came to know about trans, everything suddenly made sense. All those years of me binding my chest and trying stp secretly without knowing why...all questions were answered. I still haven't come out yet. So for strangers, I somehow easily pass as a male but when there is a need to communicate, my voice gives out. Then all of a sudden I became aware of my voice. I felt anxious and uncomfortable. Thus when came my voice dysphoria. I started speaking at low volumes, speaking less and even gave up on singing which is sad but can't help until taking up of hormones. Thus, my dysphoria grows by age and experiences. It's possible for me to get genital dysphoria as I undergo medical transition. Oh! I forgot to mention that I have a huge height dysphoria. Even as a afab, I am the shortest which does not much help the situation i.e me being a male.
well my Dysphoria feels like its getting better with starting HRT.3 months now i don't really like putting make -up on yet i do sometimes but i feel scared doing it wrong so if i mess it up i take it off and give up trying but then i feel like i should do it it's just that i don't look like how i feel and its hard for me to wear make -up i want to maybe its just to early i don't now i do feel happier now that I'm on HRT. but i still feel like something is missing this is hands down the hardest thing I had ever done in my life my mind wants more I feel like no one ever talks to me unless i talk to them first some of my friends are confused as well as I am I'm still married to my wife of witch I love very much but I'm not sure How much long i can live with but being the whole women i had always wanted to be I hope that she will stay with me it's asking a lot but she must of know i was different from the start I was at a fair well to my uncle who past way 2 weeks ago i got there latter them my family members and i was sitting with my wife way from them and not one of them came over to say hello to me I feel like I'm a out cast in my family at times is that something that goes away after time or do i deal with it for the rest of my life
I'm overweight and I really hate how my fat distribution affect my silhouette. When I'm putting on woman clothes it just looks so bad. To be honest I don't like the idea of being a curvy woman too but it's not nearly as bad as looking like a fat guy. Since I'm really new at this, I decided that losing weight would be the first step in my transition. That alone will not make me have a woman's silhouette but it will help a lot. It's also something that I can start to control right now, unlike HRT which I want to start but cannot right now. Among many other things, I want HRT to help me gain a little bit of fat where it looks good and feminine. The next thing that annoys me the most is how my face looks. Once again, if I dress as a woman, it sticks out and make me look real bad. I really hate having a 5 o'clock shadow in particular. I'm looking for permanent facial hair removal options at this time. I also hate having a thick skin and huge pores. I've seen what HRT did to some women and it definitely is something that I want. Not having boobs doesn't seem to annoy me as much as my face and overall body shape at the moment, but I know I want some. I kinda expect my disphoria to shift as I fix more pressing problems. Maybe it's because I have a little bit of manboobs at the moment. Idk, but it still doesn't look right. The same goes with my genitals. I think being small in that department helps a lot. I feel like my balls are kinda useless and in the way. I'm thinking about removing them but I'm not sure about that. As for the rest of my genitals, I don't want SRS at the moment but maybe that will change the further I go into my transition. I don't know yet.
I have dysphoria with my chest. At least I think I do. I’m not completely sure if it’s dysphoria, because I’m not sure what dysphoria is supposed to feel like. It doesn’t feel like what I heard dysphoria is supposed to be like. I just dissociate my chest from my body. Like it doesn’t feel like it’s mine.
Even before I even considered the idea of me being trans I felt dysphoric (at the time I didn't know it was dysphoria) about my hair, where I was fine but wanted to let it grow, then one day I cut it and felt terrible, like I wasn't myself and ended up letting it grow again. This was all about 10+ years before I started questioning. When I started questioning and later accepting I'm trans that has sped up, having started with the beard that I had 5+ years and was fine and suddenly it was unbearable, and has spread to a lot of other parts of my body. Like many said I too don't have dysphoria about my genitals but there was recently an episode where I "ajusted" myself in a way that suddenly I didn't feel it and that gave me unexpected euphoria... Since then I made a mental note that not feeling dysphoric there may change since I got euphoria from something I never thought I would, and usually after having euphoria with something, not experiencing that something brings dysphoria and tbh my impression of my genitals shifted a tiny bit since that episode.
Dear Dr. Z. I hope I understood your video correctly; sometimes comments can be completely off track because the true meaning of the message was not understood. Given that. If anything my experience has been, that dysphoria as you mention is an evolving condition. I remember at the beginning of my transition, all I wanted was to be accepted (pass), As time passed, all I wanted was to take the next step and at some moments nothing is enough. isn't HRT supposed to alleviate dysphoric feelings? where does the need to reach the other side of this ocean comes from? has dysphoria evolved? or can it be attached to HRT? Best Wishes R
Hi. Dysphoria is an evolving condition for some, but not all people. For some HRT is enough to alleviate the symptoms. HRT defiantly helps reduce them, but may not fully take care of dysphoria. In my experience, the level, severity, and extend of dysphoria varies from person to person. For some, dysphoria stops once they transition to another binary, a goal for many trans identified folks. While for others, there are aspects of gender identity they "feel" is never achieved and often experience dysphoria. HRT alone, often is not enough to take care of dysphoria. Overall physical transition along with acceptance of your sense of Self, realistic expectation, and self love help.
I have had all the quirky symptoms you mentioned. It was all because I did not want to be a boy. I loved girls body and soul. I asked my dad about it once. He said to me "I always wanted to be a girl because they are so pretty". This was the same man that kicked me out of the house in the pouring rain when I came out to him. Yet he was a very good father to me. As to your question, could be that transition helps fulfill a wish to feel and be pretty? We all feel let down when sincere wishes are denied. Maybe that is GD in a nut shell. The trouble is small changes are incomplete. To complete the change the male soul must be given up to the past, that is, given up to the shadow, not destroyed. Then the self can issue you anew as a female persona. And then the wish is granted. GD is converted to GE (Euphoria). All energy is conserved. Does this make sense Dr Z PHD?
Hi. As mentioned prior, I do not believe the soul has wishes to be female in a sense of Jungian anima/animus. Gender dysphoria is a medical condition requiring medical intervention for many people. It is not a manner of persona/shadow/or unconscious self as far as Jungian psychology concerned and my professional experience renders.
Dr. Z your comments describe me exactly. I had no dysphoria about my genitals until that area became incongruous with the rest of me. I went from not wanting SRS to wanting it very much and taking steps to make it happen.
@@DRZPHD no reason to be sorry we all learn our lessons at our own pace, luckily for myself and I’m sure many others you have been here helping us and I am so thankful for allllllll the videos.
I started out with zero dysphoria and as I have explored, expressed, and tried to celebrate all of who I am I have come to see it in aspects of who I am. You may ask why I even started exploring a feminine part of myself? Well, my only answer is because I felt an incredible drawing toward it. Maybe it was there the whole time and I could only deal with this in that manner. I don't know.
at the moment i often dont feel that much physical dysphoria unless im looking at myself in the mirror or, sometimes it'll just hit me and i will feel rubbish for a few days or weeks but a lot of the time my dysphoria seems to come in the form of dissociation. I think because i dont look how i want i tend to not really think of this body as mine therefore things like showering dont affect me as much as others, which i am very grateful for... but its still a very unpleasant feeling that i dont really exist in my physical body. but i have a strong feeling that once i start transitioning i will feel it a lot because like you said i will start to maybe associate with my body more so the more it feels like mine that more dysphoria i will get. loved the video :))
(i hope that made sense??)
Thanks for sharing and it makes perfect sense as dissociation is incredibly common in trans identified folks.
I'm currently one year and 4 months on Testosterone and my dysphoria has increased because now that I see the changes I want T to somehow do more. I pay more attention to my height to my hands especially to my bottom growth I get extremely dysphoric that I can't even hang out with the bros because I feel like I'm going to constantly be thinking why wasn't I born normal like them. Why must I go through this pain. Testosterone helped me so much to feel more comfortable existing and I am beyond grateful that's why I try my best to remind myself where I was at when Testosterone wasn't in me.
Also.. thank you for the letter Dr Z I have my consultation with the surgeon Tuesday can't wait for top surgery. It wouldn't have been possible without ur help a million thanks 🤝
Thank you for sharing and yes it is very common to have increase in dysphoria because you are starting to see changes and feel they are not enough or fast enough. Take some time. Especially after top surgery it should decrease. Very happy to help. Feel free to reach out at anytime.
My experience confirms the idea of dysphoria as a moving target.I was not truly aware of any dysphoria for most of my life. I had a profound waking up experience late in life and then years of behavior going back to early childhood rose into my conscious being. Then dsyphoria became readily apparent and I have had to pursue surgeries to alleviate. I am not done and the closer I get to my goal the worse the dysphoric elements haunt me.
I am so sorry to hear that. Yes as dysphoria gets worse it can be really difficult.
Gender dysphoria comes in strong and moderate waves and for me started after I finally accepted that I was transgender at age 50 (second puberty) and initiating social MTF transition (not on hrt yet) as my body is not inline with my souls perception. It shows strong resemblances with anorexia as far as the mind struggles with itself and secondary symptoms come to the surface e.g. extreme self-critical and focus, questioning, loop-thinking, doubt, control, (social) anxiety, fear, depression, isolation and shame. I feel the dysphoria is reducing bit by bit as my facial and body hair is slowly retracting, and starting to trust in what I do to present myself is to my satisfaction as a female. New dysphoria does creep to the surface I noticed such as increased dysphoria for my genitals and voice unalignment etc. You have to deconstruct the male side and built up the feminine, and this takes time and the speed will be as fast as your ability too change. Be gentle with your self. It takes baby steps, but just like a baby, eventually you will be able to stand-up, walk and dance :)
Thank you for sharing.
I got scared after taking HRT in 2015 but I'm very ready to go back on. Wearing female underwear, laser hair removal, getting ears pierced, using female deoderants and perfumes, waxing and wearing tighter clothing has helped me in the past.
Im currently going through alot of dysphoria in lock down and only came off from living on the streets of Johannesburg South Africa a few months ago so you can imagine my financial situation currently doesnt allow for much but it will soon change. During this lock down period its given me time to access internet, which i didnt have for over a year, and ive been able to down load some really good stuff. Thanks for all your help thus far Dr. Z!
Thanks for sharing and I am excited you will resume your transition.
I am hating my genitals. It is so small. I hate it. I am reminded every time I go to the bathroom
Sorry to hear that. Dysphoria can be very difficult to deal with.
I dont know that it moves so much for me, rather that it is "malignant". So whatever I add becomes the new minimum I can accept to be at peace, and then it seems like I want to add the next item to my list. It is a scary progressive process.
I am so sorry to hear.
Thanks again for an amazing informative video. I suspect it could explain why my own voice sometimes sounds embarrassingly phoney, childlike or estranged, but when with my closest relatives or with people I don't want to come out to it is bearable.
Also my sexuality has been very limited because of the shape I have. I hadn't realised this until after I began questioning. It did come to me as a surprise though, because for a long time I thought I was most likely asexual or blocked.
Thanks for sharing and glad to hear the content is helpful.
Dear Dr Z. I've discovered your channel and find it very interessant. I'm dealing with gender disphoria. For me it's more like "disphoria crisis oder episod". I mean it can be very present for some days localizing on a body part for ex breast where I feel depressive and emotional labil and then it will be some days after more ok. I find it rather strange and I'm wondering if it can have something to do with hormons cycle ? I'm born with female body. Thanks for your advices
Hi and thanks for sharing. Hormones, stress, lack of exercise, what we eat, etc, all have an effect on how we feel psychologically so yes, it can certainly have an effect.
@@DRZPHD many thanks for your comment. !'ve noticed for ex when I make musculation gym training it seems that the Testo and hormon balance Oestrogen/Progesterone ist better and I suffer less from dysphoria. Do you think that producing Testo in a natural way with sport exercises can help again dysphoria?
Dysphoria has been tricky for me, I was burned as an infant so I have body dysphoria after the ridicule I received from my scars, at the same time I was raised in a very homophobic environment and time so I learned to bury it all deep but it kept cropping up especially at puberty. I battled for years to keep it all in check I even managed to become the person (ultra macho people pleaser) that i was expected to be. Then in my late 20's it grew more and more I blamed it on everything from fetish to just wanting to be someone else. At 35 I was relay feeling it and finally found help and well I came to a hard realization who I was inside and learned to understand what I was feeling, gender dysphoria. To go along with what your saying my dysphoria has moved along with my understanding, in the beginning I had no problems with the boy parts per say, first it was my hips then it moved to breasts then to my facial hair and now its on the boy part. I have had a rough go of it witch leads me to an idea for you to explore. My life is very entrenched in my male self and I had a big blow to my ego that caused me to go back in the closet only now a few years later am I just starting to come back to my feelings, I have suffered hard with dysphoria, depression and de-realization and de-personalization along with major anxiety. Perhaps now that your looking at the middle age groups you could explore the pitfalls and triumphs of this age bracket. Thanks for the great vids and I hope your knee is better. Be well.
Thank you for such candid response and I am very sorry to hear about your painful past. I hope things will get better. Also, you are absolutely right about the pitfalls and triumphs of older individuals, something we dont focus much on but needs to be seen as they have and are, paving way for the young. Thank you for kind concerns, knee is doing very well :)
I don’t look at dysphoria as a moving target. It’s prioritized, so that when the most urgent issue is addressed, the next one arises, often terminating in bottom surgery.
Thats another great way to look at it. Thank you for sharing.
Is it normal to not feel body dysphoria , and ones you come out to yourself and socially transition you suddenly find out that you are dysphoric about the body, and about a lot of it?
Yes it is because a lot of gender dysphoria in relation to body remains largely unconscious for many. When a person comes out and begins to embody their true self, they begin to see themselves and their body differently, hence often leads to dysphoria.
I've have dysphoria when I see my face and any facial hair. This has been ongoing for many years. I started HRT roughly two years ago, and in the last 6 months, I have steadily become more dysphoric regarding genitals. So much so, that I am working toward getting GCS.
Great topic. Enjoyed the video.
Thank you!
@@gwendolinegoetz9224 I've also learned that I am very binary which has increased the dysphoria.
Thanks for sharing and I am sorry to hear dysphoria has moved to the genital region. That is incredibly common in my view and has, in my view, nothing to do with hormones, but more to do with actually starting physical transition.
Hi. I have to say I have not found any clinical correlation with hormone balance and dysphoria being driven to genitals in the course of my experience. It is not hormones in of itself that cause GD to shift, but the fact that one has started physical transition. Hence, when the body is more in alignment including hormones, one starts to experience GD due to incongruence.
@@DRZPHD That is the case with me. My transition has opened my eyes to what is possible, and being very binary, I have the need to surgically transition. You're feedback was very helpful. Thank you!
Whenever I have to grow my hair out for electrolysis, I just wear a mask inside for the entire week.
I am so sorry! I gotta say, the pandemic is in a way a good time for many to transition due to the face covering masks as it helps a bit with dysphoria.
TK you, I've been dealing with this gender dysphoria all my life, some days are better than others.
When i started realizing that feelings, if taken in a vacuum, can't be wrong, thats when i felt It consciously
U look very amazing in your videos on UA-cam
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I'm not sure if I have more, or it's just that I quit repressing so let myself think and look at myself for the first time...although ironically, my body isn't AS bad as I had thought it was, maybe, as I never really studied it, and just took it as the most maximally...the way I didn't want, and maaaaaaybe it isn't THE most...that on Earth
Thank you for sharing.
It seems that the object of gender dysphoria shifts because of new knowledge. The more we know ourselves, the more accurate and persistent our evaluation of what causes our gender dysphoria.
Yes that adds to it.
Dysphoria for me is like an pool dirty water you can't see everything tell you start cleaning.
you start cleaning up everything that's floating on the surface, this might things like a wig, clothing, breast forms depending on the person. but GAHT is like Shock Treatment in a pool it clears the water makes all the little things clump up into bigger things, some might float to the top some might sink to the bottom of the pool but the clear water means you can really see what must be done.
The internal "Fog of War" has lifted now the battle can be planed with a clear picture of the army your facing.
I think for those that are NB and/or fem but more Andro But think they feel full fem and start GAHT and stop are simply having a hard time facing that army because of the mixed messages GAHT really not only lifts the fog but that army your facing is more like the Rights Movement Marching they all have megaphones and what your hearing is the inner voice we have been repressing inside in order to conform.
many transgender people start and stop GAHT many times most trying to find a point along the spectrum where they fit in.
many people in the LGBTQIA+ community well never even sit with me because yes I'm trans (13mo GAHT with ffs in June this year) but i am not apart of the LGBTQIA+ political views.
warning below here is politics read at your own risk.................................................
politics i stand in the center, and support capitalism and HATE what Both the Left and Right have become. I was more left in the 90's but what was the left in the 90's is treated like the far right today. I disagree with socialism. but do agree in a safety nets I think government in just about every country in the world has become a bloated steaming pile of crap. I voted for trump the first run I did not the 2nd time i was not expecting him to treat the Trans community the way he did. that said i did not vote for Biden either we need fresh Strong leaders people with a heart. On the world stage you Must talk big and carry a big stick. the world is filled with bullies as a US prez you Must be able to contain them or things like Ukraine happen. I honestly think gas will be less then half it is now and Ukraine bit happen if trump was calling the shots. all that Putin V needed to see what how must Biden messed up our exit that basically said the new admins are all a joke and can't do anything damaging.
Thank you for sharing and I appreciate warning regarding politics.
As a partner, although this information is not personally relevant to my own body, it is invaluable to help me understand dysphoria. We end up putting so much pressure on our trans partners to explain gender dysphoria, and they're not always able to do this. Not only that, but it's taxing on them and can trigger deeper dysphoria. Thank you for providing this information!
Thank you for being an open partner willing to understand and learn.
Yes, it's true that gender dysphoria is dynamic. Considering myself as a transman who have not started my medical transition, it has certainly increased as I grew up. At first when my puberty hit, it started with my chest, then to my hips, thighs and butt. Suddenly at age 16, without understanding why, I cut my hair and on the same day, I shifted totally to masculine clothes. I am still wondering why so many changes in just one day lol. At that time, I didn't even know what trans was. At 18, when I came to know about trans, everything suddenly made sense. All those years of me binding my chest and trying stp secretly without knowing why...all questions were answered. I still haven't come out yet. So for strangers, I somehow easily pass as a male but when there is a need to communicate, my voice gives out. Then all of a sudden I became aware of my voice. I felt anxious and uncomfortable. Thus when came my voice dysphoria. I started speaking at low volumes, speaking less and even gave up on singing which is sad but can't help until taking up of hormones. Thus, my dysphoria grows by age and experiences. It's possible for me to get genital dysphoria as I undergo medical transition. Oh! I forgot to mention that I have a huge height dysphoria. Even as a afab, I am the shortest which does not much help the situation i.e me being a male.
Thanks for sharing.
Hi Dr. Z, Is there anyway I can Personally message you as I have a very sensitive topic I would like to speak about? Great video by the way.
You can contact via my website www.drzphd.com
I haven't started hormones but I feel like I have nearly all of the dysphorias other than bottom.
Sorry to hear that.
well my Dysphoria feels like its getting better with starting HRT.3 months now i don't really like putting make -up on yet i do sometimes but i feel scared doing it wrong so if i mess it up i take it off and give up trying but then i feel like i should do it it's just that i don't look like how i feel and its hard for me to wear make -up i want to maybe its just to early i don't now i do feel happier now that I'm on HRT. but i still feel like something is missing this is hands down the hardest thing I had ever done in my life my mind wants more I feel like no one ever talks to me unless i talk to them first some of my friends are confused as well as I am I'm still married to my wife of witch I love very much but I'm not sure How much long i can live with but being the whole women i had always wanted to be I hope that she will stay with me it's asking a lot but she must of know i was different from the start I was at a fair well to my uncle who past way 2 weeks ago i got there latter them my family members and i was sitting with my wife way from them and not one of them came over to say hello to me I feel like I'm a out cast in my family at times is that something that goes away after time or do i deal with it for the rest of my life
Thank you for sharing and I wish you all the best.
I'm overweight and I really hate how my fat distribution affect my silhouette. When I'm putting on woman clothes it just looks so bad. To be honest I don't like the idea of being a curvy woman too but it's not nearly as bad as looking like a fat guy. Since I'm really new at this, I decided that losing weight would be the first step in my transition. That alone will not make me have a woman's silhouette but it will help a lot. It's also something that I can start to control right now, unlike HRT which I want to start but cannot right now. Among many other things, I want HRT to help me gain a little bit of fat where it looks good and feminine.
The next thing that annoys me the most is how my face looks. Once again, if I dress as a woman, it sticks out and make me look real bad. I really hate having a 5 o'clock shadow in particular. I'm looking for permanent facial hair removal options at this time. I also hate having a thick skin and huge pores. I've seen what HRT did to some women and it definitely is something that I want.
Not having boobs doesn't seem to annoy me as much as my face and overall body shape at the moment, but I know I want some. I kinda expect my disphoria to shift as I fix more pressing problems. Maybe it's because I have a little bit of manboobs at the moment. Idk, but it still doesn't look right. The same goes with my genitals. I think being small in that department helps a lot. I feel like my balls are kinda useless and in the way. I'm thinking about removing them but I'm not sure about that. As for the rest of my genitals, I don't want SRS at the moment but maybe that will change the further I go into my transition. I don't know yet.
I have dysphoria with my chest. At least I think I do. I’m not completely sure if it’s dysphoria, because I’m not sure what dysphoria is supposed to feel like. It doesn’t feel like what I heard dysphoria is supposed to be like. I just dissociate my chest from my body. Like it doesn’t feel like it’s mine.
Thanks for sharing and it’s always a good idea to speak to a professional in your area for guidance.
Even before I even considered the idea of me being trans I felt dysphoric (at the time I didn't know it was dysphoria) about my hair, where I was fine but wanted to let it grow, then one day I cut it and felt terrible, like I wasn't myself and ended up letting it grow again. This was all about 10+ years before I started questioning. When I started questioning and later accepting I'm trans that has sped up, having started with the beard that I had 5+ years and was fine and suddenly it was unbearable, and has spread to a lot of other parts of my body.
Like many said I too don't have dysphoria about my genitals but there was recently an episode where I "ajusted" myself in a way that suddenly I didn't feel it and that gave me unexpected euphoria... Since then I made a mental note that not feeling dysphoric there may change since I got euphoria from something I never thought I would, and usually after having euphoria with something, not experiencing that something brings dysphoria and tbh my impression of my genitals shifted a tiny bit since that episode.
Thanks for sharing.
Dear Dr. Z. I hope I understood your video correctly; sometimes comments can be completely off track because the true meaning of the message was not understood.
Given that. If anything my experience has been, that dysphoria as you mention is an evolving condition. I remember at the beginning of my transition, all I wanted was to be accepted (pass), As time passed, all I wanted was to take the next step and at some moments nothing is enough. isn't HRT supposed to alleviate dysphoric feelings? where does the need to reach the other side of this ocean comes from? has dysphoria evolved? or can it be attached to HRT?
Best Wishes
R
Hi. Dysphoria is an evolving condition for some, but not all people. For some HRT is enough to alleviate the symptoms. HRT defiantly helps reduce them, but may not fully take care of dysphoria. In my experience, the level, severity, and extend of dysphoria varies from person to person. For some, dysphoria stops once they transition to another binary, a goal for many trans identified folks. While for others, there are aspects of gender identity they "feel" is never achieved and often experience dysphoria. HRT alone, often is not enough to take care of dysphoria. Overall physical transition along with acceptance of your sense of Self, realistic expectation, and self love help.
I have had all the quirky symptoms you mentioned. It was all because I did not want to be a boy. I loved girls body and soul. I asked my dad about it once. He said to me "I always wanted to be a girl because they are so pretty". This was the same man that kicked me out of the house in the pouring rain when I came out to him. Yet he was a very good father to me.
As to your question, could be that transition helps fulfill a wish to feel and be pretty? We all feel let down when sincere wishes are denied. Maybe that is GD in a nut shell. The trouble is small changes are incomplete. To complete the change the male soul must be given up to the past, that is, given up to the shadow, not destroyed. Then the self can issue you anew as a female persona. And then the wish is granted. GD is converted to GE (Euphoria). All energy is conserved. Does this make sense Dr Z PHD?
Hi. As mentioned prior, I do not believe the soul has wishes to be female in a sense of Jungian anima/animus. Gender dysphoria is a medical condition requiring medical intervention for many people. It is not a manner of persona/shadow/or unconscious self as far as Jungian psychology concerned and my professional experience renders.
Dr. Z your comments describe me exactly. I had no dysphoria about my genitals until that area became incongruous with the rest of me. I went from not wanting SRS to wanting it very much and taking steps to make it happen.
Yes, that's very common.
Soooo true! This was me.
Sorry to hear that.
@@DRZPHD no reason to be sorry we all learn our lessons at our own pace, luckily for myself and I’m sure many others you have been here helping us and I am so thankful for allllllll the videos.