Ex Porn Actress interview-Crissy
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- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Crissy Moran, a former porn actress.
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I am 25 years old. A husband and father to two daughters. One thing I learned from my father is that you don’t bring friends home. You keep your buddy’s out side of the home. The house is a sanctuary for my wife and my kids and I believe as a husband, you don’t bring other guys in to your home because you can’t trust a single soul.
You literally don't invite your friends to your house? Because you are worried they will abuse your family? I don't understand . . .
that's fukt.
Luis, that's very smart. Keep men away from your wife and daughters. 99% of sexual predators are someone the family knows AND TRUSTS.
Not only are you respectable, but also smart. Your wife and children must really admire you.
Luis Sarduy great perspective
Molesting children should get automatic death sentence. Worst type of crime imaginable.
If they go to prison for SA on a minor, they're a dead man/ woman walking. So there is that.
What about child molesting an another child? Male childrens are born with different amount of testosterones, and they can get influenced by pornography real quick. Americans don't have any precautions against pornography (one set of easy question is not going to work).
Yeah! The US has little accountability for criminals like these. They get to live for free, eat free food, and get recreation at the cost of tax payers.
@@xyero4399most of the time cosca happens because the one doing the abusing was abused by an adult first
It's not the Law , it's deeper than that , you might not want to hear this by it seems pretty much common in American society and for a long while now . I know it happens in every country but your prison's are full of men and women who have hurt children in the states
she maybe an adult but she still has a very childlike aura. That's what childhood trauma does to you. It keeps you stuck in that child state and you never really grow out of it. The pain you can see from her eyes is piercing. This woman is so beautiful in and out and just hope she has found peace in her life.
Spot on 💯👏
Precisely this.
I just feel like she was able to connect very fully with her child-self. You can tell from the end of the interview that she's a fully integrated adult.
That is true.
I am a father of two daughters and it hurts me to listen to her story.
But just imagine if she ends up being with someone very nice bloke and down the track after certain time spent together, she starts fighting and arguing and everything goes to he'll. It's just not worth it to be around people with so trauma. I hope she finds someone who can really love her and appreciate who she is.
That's true, arrested development.
Crissy Moran, I used to do security for her on sets and during club tours. She was a total sweetheart. I'm glad to hear she made it out and found a new calling in her life.
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What kind of entertainment was she performing?
@@David-yh7up Glass blowing.
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@@David-yh7up welding
These interviews have taught me the importance of being a good parent
Michael Franzese interview was the closest thing to healthy ive heard so far and he was a Mobster
Funny I recently started watching and I said the same to my other half. I told her we have a huge responsibility
You look like you got trouble written all over you.
Hands down!!! You are 100%correct
If it took this you may have more problems.
There's a special place in Hell for people that abuse children in any way.
C'mon. What?!
There's no "special" place in Hell. You high?
Hell is eternal torture. That itself is enough for child molesters.
@@Lab4ny34 I have to disagree, I believe there's a worse version of Hell for people like Hitler, Stalin, Mao, Cho Mo's etc. Compared to horrible people in general that didn't kill people by the Millions.
@@andyv16012 Maybe you're right. Who knows 🤷. All I know is that sin..is sin. No matter if you killed 1 person or 50,000. Honestly. If you think about it. Do you really think the devil would give Hitler (whom by the way never actually killed anyone) the red carpet treatment? ...
No!! He doesn't care. 🤷 His whole objective is to bring any and everybody to hell for torment. The bible mentions non stop torture to the point were if you kill yourself, you're brought right back to life to resume torture. Isnt that by itself bad enough?
So no..I dont think there's levels. I think helll itself is THEE worst place to be. But then again, you'd have to believe there is a hell in the first place. If you don't...
Then the devil has already one.
In Divine Comedy the hell is divided into 9 divisions based on graduation of wickedness and descension of love, the 9th division is the place of betrayal where Satan is for his treachery against God. A child sexual abuse is the ultimate betrayal , violation of human connection to an innocent child . Child abusers are at the bottom of the hell paying for the worst sin . The inscription on the gate of Dante’s Hell says “Abandon all hope ye who enter here...” .... I am not a revengeful person but I think that’s what they deserve
"be the woman that is going to attract the guy that you want" such wise words...same advise for men. She is so beautiful and soft even after everything she went through; her beauty shines through. I wish her and her husband the best and may they live a very happy and long life together. Congratulations to both!
Wow, I just realized who she was.. she was a porn actress who my ex used to print pictures out of and say he wanted me to look like her, and to hear her say how less then she felt when her partners would watch porn made it come around full circle for me. Honestly it healed my heart just a tad. That man really broke me down. I m glad to see your doing better
That must have been a shocking moment for you, very upsetting.
You sound ugly, I don't blame him
Crazy that meanwhile she was on the other end thinking she's not enough by comparison. I'm so happy she found someone who she could trust and grow with. And I hope the same for you! 🙏
I am a man and would like to apologise for this horrible nasty person and I hope you and Crissy have a fun happy life ❤
@@richardtaylor2449Simp 😅
I feel like she is emotionally stunted. She even speaks like a small girl. So innocent. All she wanted was love and respect. I am proud of you.
Ummm. . . no! Comments like this are an example of how tragedies such as those this woman is talking about is allowed to happen. There is nothing "proud" about being so naive that you are vulnerable to the point of being raped and roofied. Wtf is wrong with people? What she (and girls like her) need to be told is that they are acting like a dumb bitch and can do better than that.
Emaunual Carr seems u have some shit inside you that got triggered so strongly
You can't judge her off these few things Like maybe your so angry cause your lacking inside
Otherwise no reason to be so angry you write BYE LADY
Wish u sat in front of a camera and people from other life styles judge you You don't understand her insecurities or can say for sure why she's talking like that It's the way she deals with her issues
You yell on messaging to deal with yours about a person facing a camera while you sit and judge every little thing and diagnosed it such in such an enraged mannor
@@emanualcarr7408 ok incel
@@stacey7954 The same way you say I'm judging her is the same way you attempted to judge me for having a *different perspective* with intensity that I'm entitled to, as I am unapologetic (fuck your feelings) when I speak in general. VS your view point. I just call people out on their nonsense when I feel there are discrepancies their statements and hypocrisy in their actions.
*You got triggered* because you took the bait of some random woman being interviewed for a blog who (appears to be) helpless and innocent, yet her (actions) contradict the very thing she was saying caused her supposed distress with men. It's like saying I don't like racism yet you attend a Klan rally. Even people who have other trauma are consistent to their trauma. But it's like (she plays on your intelligence) with her sob story, and you never once heard her say; I seeked help for it or attended any treatment programs for my issue. But I'm open to telling my story to help others who have a similar story yada yada. She's behind a camera telling the world how traumatized she is supposed to be when convenient to financially capitalize off it in (porn) and who knows what else.
Then she tries to play ethical consciousness as she navigates through her story. "I got with these men thinking I may have to sleep with them because they are doing me a favor, but I know I didn't want to becauses it crosses my boundaries." I'm like BITCH SHUT up, your boundaries were crossed the minute you gave into temptation thinking *financial gane would fix your alleged sexual trauma.* Like who acts like this who really wants help? Don't play on the public's intelligence, I peep the bull shit.
I'm sure the *"Me too movement"* would question her rational, knowing a Gloria Allred would never be able to defend such hypocrisy with such blatant inconsistencies. You so traumatized, never once saut help? But you're smart enough to gain monetarily for such trauma in the way of doing porn with multiple different men who you deemed to be your talent agents. GTFOH with that nonsense, epic fail!
It's funny you have all this empathy for a random white woman looking for pity in her self induced failures, but don't seem to keep the same energy when it came to R. Kelly's (victims) who were Black women with factual data to their trauma, not an online interview. Yea, that part right there. You pick and choose what narrative you want to run with. But I see through all the smoke screens.
@@jjetsam8739 You're not qualified as a random blogger to make such a diagnoses. Learn the meaning of the word *incel* before attempting to devalue someone elses opinion, opposite of your rational. Thinking in some way it will boost your online persona or credentials. The word isn't even formally in the dictionary. Just made up nonsense by (your people). My people not burning churches down, mosques, and running over innocent people with cars like they did the woman in Virgina.
As you want to do the word play game, diagnose your own people with their mental health issues when they commit *"HOMEGROWN TERRORISM,"* that the American government doesn't want to label such. But continue to give them a pass. In hopes of keeping underlying White supremacy alive knowing they are slowly but surely becoming the American minority. Yea that part right there. Smirk
So you can have several seats and tam your ego. The internet has NO filter on my end. I say what I mean and mean what I say unapologetically (fuck your opinion and feelings) while you seek likes and clicks it will not alter my perspective. We can have different opinions and express ourselves in any way we choose, along UA-cam guidelines of (respect) posted at the top of each blog.
It's so tough growing up as a girl when older men start noticing your body changing. It's something that haunts you forever.
What about younger boys
I'm a girl so idk
It really is
Ruby Violet Agreed. It becomes so uncomfortable being anywhere. I started developing from a young age and watched how men began to look at me different as I changed. To this day I still feel uncomfortable being out near men.
If it's that deep, get a license and exercise your second amendment right. Then you won't have to live in fear,
you will live in power.
Crissy's candid, honest autobiography and Mark's caring approach, especially his validation of her personal growth at the end, invites support and compassion.
So many young women just need ONE good trustworthy man - father, friend, or husband. It changes everything.
Couldn't agree more. That first protector should always be the Father. If a Father isn't there then this is the path young women go down and the STATS bear that out.
"So many young women just need ONE good trustworthy man" ...no. this is exactly the type of propaganda that gets them into this situation in the first place. how is someone supposed to know that man is trustworthy?
Just stop consuming p orn already
Jesus christ. She seems like such a lovely person. Its hard to hear she's gone through so much trauma. I'm a horrible person by comparison and havent gone through nearly as much crap. I really wish her the best. I'm just over 10 minutes into the whole interview and its hard. What a fucked up world. She's got a strong mentality man.
If you ever come across someone who smiles or laughs while recounting horrific events they've experienced, just know that it's a trauma response to try and perceive it as "not so bad". If our brains can't process the pain, sometimes we try to make light of it. Not everyone will burst into tears when they tell their story. Sometimes people have cried all their tears already.
👏🏼👏🏼❤️
THIS
Spot on!
weird, ive been through worse than this woman and i dont smile and giggle when recounting it
@@user-io8bm6gz5z everyone has different ways of coping with things
This is a little girl talking in a adult woman's body.
Alger C. Fax
@@Mattsabih That's EXACTLY what I thought as soon as I heard the first 2 minutes! This poor girl was traumatized and never grew up! Sadly this is a common story. She's a gorgeous young woman, it's too bad everyone took advantage of her. Her scum-bag father is mostly to blame for exposing her to his drunken friends and not protecting her from the people around them! Her mom doesn't sound too loving either! I hope she finds a guy who truly loves and respects her. I can't believe she had to go online to FIND someone to love her and she ends up with all these slime-ball predators who exploit her! I'm only 20 min. in and I can't believe how child-like and innocent she is, my heart is bleeding for her! Looking for love in all the wrong places! All of these scum-bags that abused her need a couple behind the ear, AFTER torturing them, friggin' maggots!
The Mad Badger I’m going to a lot of similar situations as she is, it’s common unfortunately
@@juliettezea9507 I'll keep you in my prayers
Yeah she is silly
It's amazing to see a person go down a path that most won't tread and come out on the other side a better person for it. Crissy is a true inspiration and a beautiful woman inside and out.
It's so beautiful to see she's doing so well now. She has the most adorable laugh. And wow, she looks amazing for 50!
50? No way!
“It was better to be abused, than to be alone” I know so many people who believe this and let it inform their lives. So heartbreaking 💔
Ive been abused and have lived alone for the past ten years they are both equally debilitating. Im weird now. Too much isolation.
That is very sad. The sad part of that the potential the best thing for these people to do is to be alone and gather the strength to stand on their own two feet - however daunting that might be perceived by them in the midst of what they're going through. There is something to be said of letting go of what one seeks in desperation to come to terms and address that desperation within to pave the way for happiness... The universe can be weird like that.
@@arikalamari19 Safe to say Ive got this isolation situation down! Who knew it would come in handy some day.
I know women in my life SO MANY that have this attitude. Strange that women are attracted to these type of men, Especially Naive women like this. Never have I seen an intellectual woman stand for this kind of shit.
*@Lea*
Keep on keeping on ; )
There are a lot of interviewers who could learn a bunch from Mark’s style of non-judgmental, non-interrupting, questioning.
He slipped up once that I know of. I was surprised.
Ehh, he's made quite a few mistakes in his interviews that indirectly blamed the victims. Being quiet is good, though; agreed.
Compared to other interviewers, absolutely. I feel that every now and then, the interviewer may feel the need to kind of pull the interviewee back on track by cutting in and asking a question. As long as it’s not overdone, I see no problem with that.
Mark really is very good, and his style and tone are very calm and unintimidating.
Lol Oprah comes to mind
Thank you for your honesty and sharing your story. I’m sorry you endured abuse but glad that you have overcome it. God Bless.
I am so happy that she found her best self and happiness after all that trauma. she is truly a very strong woman to have gone through all that, not given up, and come out the other side of it healthy and with strong insights to help others.
Shes reliving it in her mind and she has so much anxiety in her voice. I hope shes okay.
@Amy Hundley I only watched it up to 31:39. But yeah I'd say shes dealing with mental health issues bc of what happened
@Amy Hundley I watched the rest and yeah I'm so happy for her 💞
She's been involved in ministering to women trying to escape the sex industry for years. She's a lovely, wonderful human being.
@@JessEllen123 💜💜
I noticed that too. You can also tell with her body language how anxious she is. It’s heartbreaking.
Sad to see so many disrespectful comments. These videos are supposed to be about finding empathy for people that are different from us, not to judge them.
@RORO roro The interviews give a greater depth and understanding to those conclusions, based on a clearer emotional connection to their experiences that we didn't have before. So yes, by definition, empathy.
Incels. The comments are typically vicious for beautiful women.
Their not different their human like all of us .
Easy for people to judge others in the shadows when they haven't lived certain things being born with that persons brain and genetics
@@lavinder11 yup jealous and I'm sure she dealt wt a lot of hateful woman that don't understand what she goes through Just cause your beautiful doesn't mean somebody doesn't have inner struggling
Sexual abuse at a young age can destroy a person forever sexually and in many other ways.
I hope she’s found peace in her life doing something else. It’s astounding how common child abuse is and how profoundly damaging it is for those who have been on the suffering end of it.
I was 10 when it started happening to me. I still hate being touched and I'm married. That's one of our biggest problems. I always make up an excuse or play sick it's insane. That trauma is very real and very damaging!
That is an amazing story. How brave to tell her story, and how helpful. God bless you Crissy.
Her dad sounds so GROSS. Dads in general who act like their daughters body and virginity belong to them are GROSS. if you just taught your daughter that her body belongs to her, and not anyone else, she may have had a healthier view of sex.
I have 3 Daughters, I've really impressed to them, you "own" your body, if they don't want to hug a family member they are not pushed to do it. They're young Adults now. I've told them whether your married or not, you can say "No" and He should respect that, you are the "owner" of your body.
you dad must have been a big pussy
It is a balanced. A dad is supposed to protect their daughters’ bodies until their mature enough to do it for themselves. Yes, they should should not be forced to hug ect. When they don’t want to, but we give children way too much responsibility too young. A four year old does not have the capability to protect themselves. Therefore parents are the protectors of their bodies.
Her dad was a patriarch. A good man
i’m 18 and my parents act like they own me, i can’t decide anything for myself😔
The moral for most of these stories is: ‘STOP BEING A SHITTY PARENT’ or one day one of these interviews will be your kid😡
Exactly!!!!
Stop being a shitty human! Some people have great parents with shitty friends, or a shitty manager or shitty boss. So no excuses stop being shitty.
Amen!!!
I had good parents. I knew what the responsibilities of a parent were. I never felt like in my life I was ready to raise a child.
So I been wearing a condom since I was 15. They work.
I had the best Mom and Step-Dad. I am 43 and they are still amazing to me. Me and my sister have been in jail, in trouble, through rehab. Put them through absolute shit! Sometimes, SOMETIMES, it is the kid not the parents.
My sister thinks both our parents were good parents, but my mom has anxiety disorder and paranoia and my dad was like a stoic, hardly showed any emotion, never said "I love you", hardly talked to us. Today my sister is an obese lesbian with anger issues and tattoos all over her body. So if both you and your sibling turned out bad, then your parents failed somewhere, you just have poor judgment to see it.
You seem to be such a great person and it breaks my heart that you went through that..I am proud of you for coming out and sharing...Thank You!
So you have a heart that breaks from seeing a video of a struggling person? Your heart must break dozens of times a day. Or, are you just virtue signaling. And unless you know this person and have some role in her agreeing to this interview, what are you “proud of”? You had nothing to do with it. You are simply virtue signaling to try and feel like a better person.
She just wanted someone who loved her enough to COMMIT to loving her, unlike her parents
Exactly
She wanted someone to love her enough to not put their sexual urges ahead of her well being and need to feel safe and protected. Maybe 1 in a thousand men can do that, even less now due to the effects of pornography.Good men of honor are rare these days.
@@1adadada
interesting theory yo'.
Try loving yourself first
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The level of molestion and child abuse that exists in everday human life is absolutely ridiculous (almost very story shared on this platform has included it in some shape or form); almost as ridiculous as our refusal to address it.
Yep. It's revealed in almost every interview because the interviewer knows it's likely at the root of each person's story ... and so he always asks that question and asks it early on.
So many sick people, everyone would know a ''normal ' guy who has molests vulnerable children. They should have their hands and dicks cut off. So So vile.unforgivable repulsive.
That really is the question at the end of Every.Single.One of these interviews. Who are these fucking people who abuse children and Seriously, how can it be stopped?
Yes..its really the real pandemic in this country when you understand the fallout
@@mileysong1117 exactly. And when they get caught they only get light sentences. Its ridiculous!!!!
The trauma of experiencing rejection and neglect by your parents is so powerful and devastating. It stays with you forever and I think becomes more difficult to cope with as you get older. ❤
I am a father of 3 boys and a daughter and its just heart breaking to listen to this ladies story. What kind of father's are out there...?! This lady deserves the best. Am so sorry for her. Be strong and you will make it...
She reminds me of Marylin Monroe. She has this sweet, child-like mentality but a childhood and history of abuse and not enough love.
Totally!
M.M. was very intelligent actually. Some of the quotes attributed to her are eloquent and clever.
@@napelvision She played piano so well she had considered becoming a concert pianist. Marilyn also was a very good cook, loved to sew, loved to read complex self help books. She was very smart, knew how to flip her "Marilyn Monroe" switch whilst being Norma Jeane in her private life.
@@iosifmd i think so judging by the comment
Totally does! Poor thing she seems so sweet. But has a lot of pain :(
It wouldn’t surprise me if she is suppressing memories of her childhood. I have a strong feeling there something else to her dad’s story. Gorgeous lady and great Testimony.
Nel Njai totally agree with you
You can see it in her eyes and the pauses and she looks up in the sky a lot
@@infiniti37G you're disgusting and should be ashamed of yourself. This is not the fucking place
infiniti37G were they good?
Girl me too! I think he Dad molested her and was pimping her out to his friends! Yes, I went all the way there!
Thank you for another compassionate and honest interview.
very raw, compelling, candid. thanks for doing this.
Such a luminous person. A mixture of fragility and resilience, wisdom and innocence. A compellingly beautiful woman. Just love that advice: Be the woman that will attract the kind of man you want. That is so true. It takes years to learn it though.
Gwen Lewis I love how you just described her. 💛 beautiful words
Gwen Lewis your comment should be highlighted,just a beautiful description of the lady.
How many girls are actually taught that? Look how weve had to fight for women's and girls rights. We're still not there.
@@cynthiaallen9225 The price of that lesson is really high for most people, and in some cases, it costs everything they have.
@@gwenlewis4443 I agree.
hearing someone else say, "well id been raped before, so who cares" hit my soul. I didnt realize me feeling that way was messed up until hearing someone else say it out loud.
Get a good therapist.........trust me, it matters
I care. You do matter. Please get the help you need. 🙏
Same, I barely told my family last yr and it was when I was 11. Two decades ago.
@@tamanthalecu8912 Nothing that has happened in your life is your fault. I was taken sexual advantage of at the young age of 5. Neighbor across the street did it because I tattle taled about something and I can tell you as a man, it entirely changed the course of my life,it is the absolutely most devastating life altering event. Positive, I can tell you that healing is real and available to you, because to be honest what caused me so much pain for so many years has turned me Into an absolutely monster in my career, ethics, and morals. I am so glad you are getting this out. I came to terms with things last year as well
If I had $1000 for every time I heard a women say "I was raped" after the fact, I'd be a millionaire!
Many of us have suffered in our lives the worst abuse. I am grateful everyday that I was able to heal and begin to create my own life. So tuff to see this woman so traumatised. I managed to grow into a man who protects, provides for, and is faithful to his wife and family. It took years of study and effort to work on my self. The lesson I see is that it's worth the effort. Never give up and keep improving. Now I am blessed with a rich family life and peaceful existence.
sending so much love and wishes for this lovely woman. this is such a tragic story. i really hope she is ok and finds the happiness she deserves
After watching all these videos, I've learned TWO lessons..
1. - "Never judge people, cause you never know what they've been through"
2. - "Always show respect"
But I bet you forget :)
Number one, 9 times out of 10, that is very true.
Abused people are damaged goods.
But then shouldn't we judge people based on their actions?
@@blindfire951 You're not there yet. You see them first.
The still shot of her - her eyes say, “please don’t judge me.” Her story hurts my heart. She really has such a sweet, trusting heart.
As a man listening to this really makes me want to wipe men off the face of the earth
@@PeachesandCream225 so, you believe every man to be exactly like this? even yourself?
@@MrDaniel9009 yes, I think if you look at the statistics and the fact that 80% of all porn has violence against women you will see that the large majority of men are a danger to women or fetish harming women. Therefore wiping out all men would logically be beneficial to women as men who are not a danger to women or fetish harming women are the minority. Now as a guy it sucks that the majority of men hate women but you need to accept the statistics.
@@elgalloblanco did you even watch the video? and if you did and have this opinion then please leave our society
@@elgalloblanco lol you sound like a super villain! "I am reality" so you are reality man? Pure cringeee
What a beautiful soul. I hope she finds inner peace in her life. I just want to give her a big hug and tell her that life will get better each and everyday. She just needs to surround herself with people who genuinely loves and cares about her.
Wow. I started watching this and couldn’t stop. God bless this woman. Her strength and determination are so inspiring. What a journey. I’m so happy she’s in a better place.
I think she was addicted to love in the same way someone can be addicted to drugs
Emilie Roberge Absolutely. Love addiction is real.
Not not addicted, she's constantly looking for it in the wrong places.
I don't believe she's addicted to love .
You would've had to used drugs before in order for you to be addicted to drugs. She had a strong yearning to be loved . She never had love before , not from her parents , not from the creeps she met along the way in her life . Through all the b.s. she STILL wanted only one desire , more than anything else but to be loved .
If that is the meaning of a love addict well damn it 😔 I must be a stone cold junkie😪
yes
addicted to what she believes is love perhaps.
She broke at one point and asked "how does a kid know about sex at that age?" Her own story is one the many possible answers to that question.
Yeah. I hated seeing interviews with female pornstars who said they knew from the age of 10, 12 or 14 that they wanted to be a pornstar. It's like, A) how the hell do you already have your mind made up that young and b) how the hell did they get so experienced at watching porn while underage. Nothing good about it.
Deep!
Very good point
I sadly knew about sex from the age of 7. Found my step-dads Playboys. That was in 1991. Then, in 96, I found my dad's tapes that he had. I got stuck on porn for most of my teenage years, and again in my lane 20's through my 30's, but I was using it as am escape from my mental problems. I came from an extremely broken, narcissist family. Abused by my dad and step-dad, and abandoned by my mom to my dad, so sex and porn were my release go to's. It really messed with my perception of girls growing up. This kind of stuff really pulls me away from wanting to look at porn. She is such a sweet person. I'm glad she is doing well now! Trauma is very difficult to overcome, and she seems to have done it!
I am SO HAPPY for you Christy! Your story was SO SAD; SO TRAGIC until the very end! Way to go for sticking to your dreams and not giving up, despite incredible trauma and setbacks! Your strength is TRULY AMAZING! May God bless you with everlasting happiness, love and friendship, and good fortune! Your husband sounds like a great man! It sounds like both of you are incredibly lucky to have found each other!
As a kid I thought beautiful women could have it all, but over my life I've found that starting at puberty, they have a life of distrust, abuse, insecurity, loneliness, and justified paranoia.
I don't care what ppl say in the comments about her being a little girl still. Shes obviously been thru things but you can tell she has a kind and honest heart. I'm proud of how far she has come
I know...people can be such jerks.
Exactly she has a beautiful soul and spirit she's obviously hurt not "a little girl" I have been bullied most of my childhood and what I learned is that when people say negative things about you they're insecure with who they are tryna being you down, clearly her beautiful soul is triggering something within them, for anyone has called her a "little girl" seek therapy cause clearly y'all hate yourselves to be hating on her.
People don’t understand...that’s from trauma. It steals everything.
This was difficult to watch. Almost like I couldn’t breathe as she was going through her emotions. You can tell that something happened to her more than what she is expressing. I feel so sad watching this. It’s bringing up a lot of triggers for me.
A lot has happened to me. But I continue to live and stay on track. Yes it’s a “trigger” . It’s hard to see the lives of others with similar experiences and see that they had to go through what they went through. I have overcome and continue to work through and live.
Is very triggering. Her self-esteem seems low. Gives her power away to men too fast. Hope she's had some therapy.
@TheDodicat stfu
@@ilovefredreika shut the fuck up. Yeah she gives her power away to men maybe because of her abuse and trauma. Go away.
Same
Geez, you can tell that she was dissociating during the interview while she was describing the numerous assaults against her.. At least that's what it sounded like.
I can't imagine how alone she must have felt. This is from me who is basically alone.
Thanks for sharing your story. It was told with the heart. I wish you the best of things.
I find it so strange that anyone would say she’s playing the victim or blaming the world for her problems. She literally is just telling her story. She says her life had beat her down and she had no self esteem. But no where does she say that’s anyone else’s fault? She says multiple times that she made bad choices and laughs at her own insecurities and poor choices. I think she’s just telling a story she’s told before of how she got to that low point and how she rose above it. Don’t mock her relationship with god because you disagree. Look how it changed how she feels about herself? Why is that so bad? She was so desperate for love and connection and if that’s what brought her that and stopped her making these terrible, self destructive choices WHY DO YOU CARE? It gave her hope. Good for you, Chrissy. I’m happy for you and all the positive changes you made in your life.
Some people have the strength to stand in her truth & as you said if she feels God got her through it to get to her blessings NOW, is silly to judge. She's clearly acknowledged her past & even the feelings or thoughts she "should have had then". I applaud her & side-eye those with skeletons in dark closets. #TalkTheTruth&ShameTheDevil😇
I have noticed that people get turned off or repulsed by hearing people find strength in something they cant see. It is interesting.
Mistysfedora That it is. Why does it bother people for others to have faith? I find that interesting and I’m not really someone who is particularly religious. If it helps people, and brings them strength and peace...so what? It’s not hurting anyone else.
@@EcantBHppy I'm not religious but honestly like you said, how could I ever knock someone for believing in something that makes them feel better? I dont. It only bothers me if people dont have the same tolerance and respect for the fact that I choose not to believe the same things as them, and that's what makes me feel happy.
People who love their porn addiction HATE being taught the truth about how horrifying it is because they don't want to stop. I see it all the time.
She's been through so much and her eyes reflects all that pain while narrating those terrible things. However, I felt joy when she said she became another person and found her person. She's so sweet. You're a very strong woman Crissy.
She found Jesus, honey.
@@ruthtirado2750 Im still watching her old videos and she is very dirty :\
Imagine . . Her father was a preacher ! Ughhhh
@@carolgayfagerhaugh1969 watching videos :\
Jeuss!!
Are you all falling for so much bullsh!t?? She is LYINGGGG her ass off...!!!
She obviously had many simple simp men, like you along the way to become a wife, and have all the things in life, but she chose to do all the rest she did like continue doing porn... this is a new phenomenon, so many pornstars lately in 2023, are "repackaging" their P to be saints, after their twenties of course, when they hit the wall!!
They repent, and of course people like YOU, white knights, simps really, are buying it whole. What did she do with all that money?? exactly, she lived it up, come on guys!!
How many opportunities did she have along the way?? She says it herself, she had manyyy of them... but only now that she is NOT young anymore does she come to Jesus and change...
It is a repackaging or "rebranding" program and it is working wonders for Mia Kalifa and other girls like this one. Your natural MALE protective instincts are getting the best of you all.
Wake the hell up!!
Even now I bet you she should marry or be with a man LIKE YOU but... she cannot and will not.
I think you are very brave to tell your story Thankyou ..you have been through so much. I wish you all the very best
I remember her, she was 10/10 gorgeous in her day. Her voice has a sadness to it that is a tad depressing, kudos to her for stepping up and sharing this.
Fathers, be good to your daughters.
Amen
and especially MOTHERS too!
Be good to your CHILDREN!!! Little boys are impacted in a completely different way but still just as traumatic.
@@icantstandsbmm8880 yeah. Have you seen what those grown men have done, to their childhood preachers?
John Mayer ♥️♥️♥️♥️
I am impressed by this lady. She has survived abusive family, abusive partners, drugs and the porn industry and she still comes out of all of it so sweet and beautiful!
i totally empathize with her- She is so beautiful people have projected on her Her whole life...starting with her father-. We must remember our innocence.
@@telahquemere6100 She has such a innocent pretty voice
I’ve got some swamp land in Florida for sale.
OMGosh....really! If she had a different look you wouldn’t have the same thoughts! She’s a very good actress. Go find her and fix her ha ha ha ha maybe she will marry you!
Dawn Miller … speculate Much ??!!
That's a real shame. She seems like such a sweet, sad, nice girl who deserved so much better. I'm glad she finally found happiness.
Thank you for sharing! You are so precious. I’m so sorry that you had to go through all that but the Lord uses everything for good and now your testimony will touch many lives. You are amazing, many blessings!
Amen!!!
Never judge a book by its cover, at first look I might think she has had a pampered easy life , but She has been through more than I could ever imagine. What a strong women. I hope all the best.
aren't covers made to represent books?
@@mind-blowing_tumbleweed no, covers are intentionally lying to us to trick us into buying things
It’s so sad that she smiles/laughs after trauma she retells
Michael Hart
That's a defense mechanism hard wired into us to protect our emotional health. Mentally healthy people tend to laugh after sharing something they are ashamed of experiencing. It counteracts the otherwise impending sorrow over the ordeal. I've caught myself doing it multiple times after it was pointed out, and explained, to me by a psychology professional.
My sister and I do the same thing when we talk about our childhood trauma. We laugh it off now because it's over, there is no reason to let it hurt us anymore.
It’s disassociation. Common defense mechanism when someone who has been through serious trauma.
@Yogi Breeze Its kind of a situation of if you don't laugh you want to cry
@@stormport9313 yogis are smarter than us. They are all about no judgment in theory and masks slip on the internet
I wish I could have known her personally - not for anything sexual or anything like that but she is just a nice, honest person. Really a down to earth lady.
She’s empathic. That’s why the predators were attracted to her. She gives off a sweet and vulnerable quality.
She's a victim of abuse and vulnerable, you can tell by her body language and people who tend to be abusive can pick up on the vulnerability of her body language. They did studies where people with higher levels psychopathic personality traits could accurately pick a person who had been a victim of a violent crime out after viewing a video of them over 80% of the time.
@@whhe11 makes sense. You also have a heightened sense of perception which can turn you into the ultimate people pleaser in order to ward off bad things happening again. Some call it being an empath because you’re a sponge of other peoples’ emotions.
Is that it? I attract creeps all the time and I don’t understand why
@@felicityduijkersloot6043 I’m 40 and I missed it for years. They see the empathy in me and they know how to play upon it. With some introspection, I know see it as gaslighting and manipulation - that I allowed. Everyone is different but you might take inventory of your life and see if that might be part of it. Best wishes 😀
Naive and not very intelligent too. Feel sorry for her, she is sweet, I'm sure guys take advantage.
It has taken an honest review of sexual abuse I experienced as a boy to finally understand how a beautiful woman like Crissy, whom I lusted after in my own confusion and pain, also come from trauma and not some fantasy realm. Lost kids afraid to tell parents when bad things happen try to make sense of it all without the maturity or internal sense of security to do so. And so we end up living desperate lives filled with pain, hurting ourselves and those around us. Finding a way out is never easy. I appreciate this channel for sharing videos of men and women facing the very real challenges of life... not always successfully. Life is not a Disney movie.
U right, Disney was a thirty third degree freemason and top of the world pedophile. Check the Disney cruise ship line with Epstein island
you must manage your lust by staying away from the causes and it is up to you you decide whether or not you must dominate your self because if you obey the abundance the more you satisfy your lust you will search for another you never find peace and quiet in your life till your death
Stay strong. You're a child of trauma. Don't force anything. Thank you for sharing. You are a strong, beautiful human being.
Beautifully written
I’m so sorry to hear that you were sexually abused as a child. Predators are very savvy and opportunistic and have caused so much pain and sorrow. We talk a lot about stranger danger in our society and yet most abuse is done by relatives, neighbors, or people in power known to the family (coaches, priests, etc.). PTSD is extremely common after sexual abuse and I hope someone, somewhere along the line told you that you did NOTHING wrong. You and Chrissy are survivors and I wish you all the best. BTW, there is nothing wrong with being attracted to Chrissy. She is a beautiful woman. It is very sad that she also was preyed upon by a pedophile and it greatly impacted her life choices.
My heart's breaks hearing this story. I'm glad you made it through, and I hope that you found the love that you deserve.
I commend you for your strength and your faith. You are such a beautiful soul and I’m so happy your story turned out so wonderful! God bless you.
This is ONE of the many reasons I hate porn. At the heart of all porn is pain, exploitation, and abuse.
THIS COMMENTS SHOULD HAVE THE MOST LIKES 👍🏼
Pain, exploitation and abuse are at the heart of any industry.
i love it
@ThirdeyeStrike why not. It is fruit of the poisoned tree. Liking it doesn't make it good.
@@samuelliotta9437 but exploitation and abuse IS the heart of porn. Other industries may use people to it's end. Porn's end is using people.
I think I saw this lady on a documentary called "After Porn" , I have nothing against pornography but it has a habit of exploting (financially and emotionally) vulnerable people , its the vicious nature of it that offends me . This lady's soul is beautiful , no amount of porn can take that away .
Yup she was in “After Porn”. A very good documentary BTW
RORO roro - Well there is no money in porn these days.
RORO roro Well there is no money in porn these days so there’s that.
RORO roro have you ever considered these girls may be in desperate need of money for food or medication or a place to stay and they have no other option
@@neon9016 Unfortunately it's far more likely they're in desperate need for drugs/alcohol - at least that's what statistics say. It's very sad, and we should still feel sympathy and empathy for them. But let's not pretend lack of food and medicine are the reasons they get into this.
Thank you for your testimony. It was so inspiring. You are such a beautiful person inside and out.i have no words how much your testimony affected me. You turned ashes into beauty ❤🙌
Life truly isn't fair. From age 4 this poor soul had awful people doing unspeakable things to her. Some people never get the chance to live a normal, happy life. It is incredibly sad. You're a strong human, Crissy, and I hope you find peace.
This story really touched me. I can relate SO much to her testimony. I too, broke down on my knees one night after being an exotic dancer for many years which I knew was not my true path. My prayer was very simple. I asked God to HELP me. I received the exact same message that this woman received. “Give up your current life and I will lead you out of the darkness. I will take care of you”....literally the next day I was offered a job (not making nearly as much money but it was honest work. Better than stripping). That was 7 years ago. Today, I stand now as a college graduate and owner of a company that brings in over 1MM dollars a year in revenue. And growing! I started from literally nothing. I could not have done it if I didn’t step out of the darkness and into the light. I am forever humbled and grateful for God’s Grace ❤️
Brittani Williams can you please give me information on this company? God bless you
Yes queen!! Congrats
That really worked out for Andrea Yates and her children too!! 🤣😂😂😂😂😂
I’m so glad you made it out of your darkness and are successful . You are worthy !
What is your company name?
This is one of the most heart wrenching interviews I've ever seen. Haunting. Depressing. Just wanting, needing to be loved but never finding it. ..I'm so sorry, I know how hard that is , how much it hurts & eventually leaves us incapable of receiving what we yearn for.
Uhm, seems like she just doesn't want to acknowledge that her dad was also sexually abusive. So odd to hear someone speak about their life as if they're telling a strangers story.
It's called disassociation, it's the mind's way of protecting us from trauma, by shifting us into the perspective of a third party observer, rather than keeping us a 1st person direct experience
Thank You Crissy ❤ This meant a LOT to me, May The HIGHEST Bless You and ALL who listen, i will pray for you ❤
Sometimes you just want to give someone a hug.
I’m so glad she found happiness, she deserves it ❤
People are pathetic. This serious is NOT for us to judge. Who the F has the audacity to judge!? No one human is perfect, not one. Those that are judging, wouldn't be able to do this.
@National Trolliosis Foundation AND your a fucking idiot. I would never claim to be any one's example, but if I did, I would express an OPINION, which happens to be fact; that not one human is perfect. So yes, express an opinion, but to put others down, because somehow you think your better, is something I don't do. Your an idiot because you turned an opinion into a personal attack. So fuck off. I'm done.
if you judge you will be judged worse we are all sinners not one is good
@@ka3097 Truth!! We all have opinions, but they are different from judgements. Personally I have no room to judge.
She would be getting 6 figure pay checks I don't think she cares
People can have their opinions just like you hav yours
I feel so sorry for her, she is like a little girl in a woman's body.
So well said
She’s happy now, her life has turned around and she’s married!
Get over it.. think outside your limited sphere
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What are you talking about? Just because she's not jaded and still has that child like openness does not mean she's still a little girl, she overcame her past, only a strong woman can do that.
Obviously a very sweet lady. It’s refreshing to hear a story of about redemption. It’s been said that the measure of success of a man is not what he accomplishes but rather what he overcomes. I’m very happy and very proud of this lady. Wishing her a life of peace. I think the most difficult portion of her life is behind her.
The number of people Soft White Underbelly helps. . . . Is FANTASTIC. These stories are real. Thank you.
I remember when she spoke at a church event when I was in middle school. She left a profound impact on me. Her story is powerful. She is just as sweet and humble in person
Her upbringing and what makes her great made her slip into this realm. Too much priority in wanting love. And quite honest, beautiful. But by month’s 1 end of living with her, I would be done, too.
Here she is alot older and speaks like an optimistic and naive 15 year old. I can’t imagine her between 15 and early 20’s.
It is a shame her adventures put her in front of the wrong people.
She's a pornstar....
The trauma of her childhood has limited her adult development.
It’s just her voice smh
@@oliviavankooten403 negative vibe from your comment. That's sad.
Mistysfedora what the fuck lmao bc I don’t think people should judge her voice?
Irving G. Definitely👌🏼
I think so too
She's so childlike & vulnerable yet knows exactly what she needs. Her life could have been so different if she'd had a stable family life. Bless her
I am so glad you found your peace at last, all the best for you!
She carries a crazy amount of shame. She’s learned people pleasing from an early age and it became a big part of her identity. I hope that with age she will feel more and more confident about being just herself without anyone’s approval and she will be able to thrive.
At least a woman can speak about her pain. Men just get laughed at and ridiculed for their pain, cause they evil, cause penis. They deserve no love, no affection, no help, pick yourself up, cause you are a man.
Dress like a man, no make-up, see how life is as a man.
@@mcmarkmarkson7115 Because weak men are a sign of the end times and societal failure. I would laugh at you too for whining and crying, its pathetic and a sign that you're a set of genes that need to exit the pool.
Some one has to be the grownup, both genders can't be weak, coddling adult toddlers.
It’s called a Fawn Response. 💔
A sweet, well meaning girl who was terribly abused & exposed to such a bad environment growing up. So happy to see she came out on the good end & is happy.
Not so fast. Something went wrong cause she's back doing porn.
Yes, so sad. There are millions of good, hard working young men in America who'd love to find a pretty gal to marry and have babies with, but she kept picking doucebags who only wanted to use her then toss her aside. Likely due to her upbringing by shitty parents.
We need Milf content from her now !
She’s seems so nice and sweet. She’s had a terrible life but it’s good to see she’s realised her self worth and love and respects herself now. She seems really happy.
I’m happy for you Chrissy. Glad you listened to the message you were sent. Well done!
The smile that flashed across her face when she said "I had hope." was so beautiful and genuine.
Hope is amazingly powerful.
The man that confronted her on the movie set helped save her life. I thought it was going to be another story of abuse and dysfunctional relationships leading her deeper into depression and depravity.
Thank God for the intervention and healing she received.
You can see the anxiety in her as she talks about her dad. He definitely did something to her. You can hear her pain. I'm glad she is doing better.
@GodGoldGuns The Hypocrisy of this comment is hilarious. You have zero evidence he DIDN'T do something. You also have no evidence of my hatred of men.
@@Lunalavender83 yeah, you are a man hating pos.
@@Lunalavender83 zero evidence he did not do something? You kidding right? With that approach you can pin anything to anyone! You could be right or wrong about this, so it is fiffty/fiffty for you, but not for the people you accuse of something they possibly did not do. Be careful in life with that. This is just comment section, so I guess it is ok.
@@whitediver45 I hope you are doing well and sending positive vibes to you. 💙
Sincerely,
The men "hating" POS. 👍😘
@@Lunalavender83 I know you hate men. You've been brainwashed, as have most westernized women and now many men as well.
The woman in this video says nothing directly about her dad molesting her. However, she did say her dad's friends were around drinking and dad saying odd things about her virginity. I would never allow that around my girls.
So many women including myself go through a period of looking for love in all the wrong places while neglecting loving ourselves by not getting therapy and doing the inner work to heal childhood trauma to get us in the spaces where true love is waiting for us to come through with a healed and open heart.
It would be nice to see how she's doing now. I hope that she is still on a healing path with her husband.
At the time of this interview, she still had PTSD, her trauma is very apparent. That was painful to watch.
I'm not a religious person but the fact she was searching for someone to love her, and then she realised that God loved her all along was so lovely.
I felt so sad for her during most of the video.....she was obviously suffering from severe clinical depression for most of her life. I was really happy that she managed to get her life back on track, and ended up with a man who truly loves her! Congratulations!❤
Yeah yeah sad crey her a river
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she´s some imbeciel some´n
Seems like he really loves Jesus. Yes.
@@lloydg9383 funny cause I was thinking that men who loved Jesus had caused her more problems than anyone else
@@PendeltonWhiskeyChrost warned about those people, as did St. Paul. I know as a Catholic, a person who believes in God, I am capable of great failings and if pushed, possibly great evil. But there are people I know who are so on fire with the love of Christ they would walk through fire for someone. My point is we one can praise Jesus with their lips but beat Him with the way they live their life.
This is how molestation affects people. It blunts their boundaries.
so brave! thank you for sharing your story Crissy ❤🙏🏽
Its called the " Nice girl syndrome" She feels like the need to please other men because she dosnt feel worthy herself.
@Tracy Lehane same. 😑
@Tracy Lehane ccffffp
Dependent personality DO
@Tony Tran so getting an abortion is crossing the line? You’re not allowed to determine what is right or wrong in someone else’s life and choices regarding themselves.
Ones body is inviolable, subject to ones own will alone.
Who made her that way? It started with a bad childhood.....people taking advantage of her innocence as a child. Her own father was the main culprit. What a whacko.
This was a powerful presentation. I am convinced that the dysfunction and abuse that young children suffer haunts them and destroys them as adults. I'm glad to see that Crissy came out of all that stronger and intact.
Intact?
I notice that she was always protecting other people, not herself even as an adult. Like not listening to her inner voice when she felt uncomfortable at the first photo shoot because the photographer had come all this way to take photos. Low self esteem started early with her. What a lovely woman she is and I hope she is content in her life now.
Good to hear her genuinely laugh at the end of this interview.
I can feel the tears in her voice from all these awful moments. She is such a brave person to be open about her journey in front of camera. She hit rock bottom. She has a level of honesty and integrity. I hope she continues to find her way forward into abundance and purity.
Thats the life she choose lol
She seem like she really is over those traumatic events in her life! I'm glad for her, god bless