Porn Actress interview-Maddy
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- Опубліковано 4 лис 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Maddy, a porn actress in Las Vegas, Nevada.
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How do you hear a 5 year old baby talking about sex toys and not get involved with getting them to safety? She was failed by so many people its heart breaking man.
And what scares me, is that as a woman in TX, and the administration, NOTHING has been done after banning our reproductive rights to STEP UP and take care of girls and children. Because in a few years... it's going to be BAD for vulnerable women & children
How are foster families / adoption applicants vetted? How does a five year old walk into school and talk about sex toys and nobody tries to dig deeper. This young woman was failed by so many people.
All of the people I know who have adopted went through crazy rigorous vetting process. I have to imagine things have gotten more strict over time.
@@apaaaa Seems to me like there are stricter vetting process from animal shelters when it comes to screening potential adopters . . there is definitely something wrong with so many stories going back to abuse within the foster system...
Because if they investigated sex crimes a lot of very wealthy people would be in prison... No one would have children at all most likely because it really takes one bad apple then all kids are saying dirty things... Children who are victims don't always just say shocking things.
She was poor and nobody gave af. I'm sure her parents said she was lying. It was probably the 90s? It was a lot different then.
@@birdyw3324 a lot of people period.
I have such massive respect for this woman, she’s so young yet so mature due to horrific circumstances, extremely smart and cautious yet independent, you’re an amazing human being and you can accomplish anything ❤
The more I hear stories like this, the more I want to adopt children rather than having my own. There are so many children in the world who deserve better than this. This is so devastating.
God bless you. Take your time with that decision. Almost all adoptions are now "open". You will be required to be in some sort of contact with biological family. This can be an enormous hurdle and can even sabotage relationship with you child.
I was adopted and suffered greatly by having contact with my bio family.
Maybe you are called to do it, though. Said a prayer for you.
The answer is responsibly raised children raised by responsible parents. The culture has endangered the Maddy’s of the world. All the children abandoned and caught in self destructive circular patterns in family histories exist in so many variations and types. They’re often described as on the margins. Appreciate and understand why so many want to rescue those on the margins, but the best result is raise your own, and love them without this broken culture that has let down so many.
@@wireless2367 sadly most of us cannot
Find a life partner
@@juliettezea9507 really? maybe then there not worthy
why not have your own its precious your not responsible for others misfailings.................just saying
I like that you let the subject speak, without interruption, or trying to be the 'star' of the show as so many others do. You're very good at your craft, Mark, and it makes for some great interviews. That's just my opinion anyhow. Thanks for the vids mate!
i totally agree
Agreed
Just listening is sometimes the best for everyone. We get to watch uninterrupted & she was using this like a therapy session just to get it off her chest. That’s a very healthy thing to do. The more you hold things in, the more they fester. As long as she stays away from drugs & selling herself there’s a good chance she can get a job & have a better life. She has to use professional facilities like daycare or schools though to keep her daughter as safe as possible. I wouldn’t trust leaving her with friends or neighbors while at work. Save the money up to keep the daughter in a secure place. Give her a healthy happy childhood so she sees none of what the mother had to go through. Give her the best opportunities for an easier path to success. That way, you broke the cycle ❤️
You’re new here aren’t you
I agree. Mark does know what he's doing and does it well.😊👏👏👏
'I was damaged, but not unfixable damaged " This was so pivotal for me. My Wife (whose life was very similar to Maddy's) always said to me that none of us is ever broken. I am not broken, Maddy is not broken, none of us are. I know now that we cannot heal unless we face the insurmountable task of not only learning to like who we see in the mirror, but love them. Because if we don't think we are precious, perfect right here, right now, we will not do what it takes to fight for ourselves. It is excruciating work. But so far it has been worth it. Maddy, you are a rockstar. And your inner belief and inner strength are a goddamn torch blazing in the sky. Love, peace and blessings to you and your little girl. Namaste ☮️
😢 this brought tears to my eyes. Thank you friend. May the universe Bless you and may you prosper
@@7lilly5 💞
I can’t stress how important this channel is, everybody has a voice, everybody has a story, and everybody deserves to be heard
You are so right! Im so thankful and glad that Mark is doing this so that all of these precious souls, can tell their stories. They NEED to be told....they need to be heard and a lot of these horrible rotten criminals caught or not, NEED to be held ACCOUNTABLE!!! Maddy you are amazing, I wish you all the peace and love YOU DESERVE.
Everyone deserves love and compassion... Humanity has checked out and has abandoned faith... What a powerful young woman. What a painful story... I listen to Mark and his guests that come in and tell their stories... I struggle to understand where we have gone off the rails and stopped helping each other and stop these predators preying on our babies.... Ty for telling your story. Keep going sweetheart... You are loved.
I started crying when the camera changed focus and showed you laying there listening to her speak. This is a huge part of what we're missing in society - the patience to listen and truly hear someone out, let them tell their story, use their voice.
Agreed! This is a great point! I had the same reaction. It felt so intimate and you can tell Mark was intently listening
A lot of these people make it a lot dont
I actually wished i was talking to him , he looked sincerely caring and listening.. sometimes that’s all I really need
ya Mark is a true artist. He made his mark(no pun intended) doing photography. So he's being doing this for so long he knows how to get a good and organic interview with people who are telling very intimate parts of their lives,which isn't aesy thing to do,and have it comee out as well as it is.
Yet there are a bunch of people bashing Mark saying he’s exploiting them. Those people suck and are haters because they are jealous. At least he gives them an opportunity to talk and get it out of their system. He also helps them a little financially and gives clothes and phones and hotel rooms and at least a little comfort in their otherwise chaotic life. I love Marks channel and what he does to try and comfort people for at least a few hours.
Girl, your words at the end are so encouraging and uplifting. Thank you.
“I don’t need to fill a void just cause I got hurt”
The strength and resilience this woman embodies is incredible to say the least. Wow. Just wow.
I watched this twice, back to back. I caught that statement, and it hit hard at the quality of this woman's strength of character.
Damn! One of the toughest, saddest interviews you've done. How the hell is this young woman still functioning - amazing. She deserves all the help and success she can get.
Why don’t you put a ring on it
She's got a sense of self-respect, and that makes all the difference. What is really amazing is that with all the bad that people have done to her and tried to do to her, they did not ever manage to take that away from her. She did the right thing each time she decided to look out for herself and left a toxic situation, even if it meant having to risk running in with the law (and she owned up to this!) or going into the unknown without a plan (that is scary and takes a lot of courage to do). She learned stuff the hard way, but learn she did. She always kept her head up in spite. Others would have been broken beyond repair, turned to drugs as painkillers or other forms of backfiring self-medication, would have suicided or seeked violent revenge. She just persevered and tried to grasp any opportunity at (more) freedom and independence that presented itself. Unfortunately it hasn't been much so far, but she keeps her head and her hopes up without an overbearing sense of entitlement and without giving up her sense of self-worth, and what's even more is that she manages to still have empathy and sympathy for the people around her. That's more than most well-to-do people her age have managed. There is so much self-hate, abuse, exploitation, bitterness and coldheartedness around, but she isn't taking part in that. That's a strong personality right there, a true character.
@@elfsieben1450 I couldn't agree more👍.To maintain a sense of empathy&,caring for someone else,when she has had some truly awful experiences,really has to be respected,admired and learned from.!
P.s And to be honest I haven't been to.impressed or am.most def ambivalent towards this film maker&his intentions and what exactly is truly motivating him,but this was (imo)one of his best Profiles!
@@jerryoshea3116 I get where you are coming from concerning the film maker's motivation/intention. But if there's one thing we can learn from these films it is second-guessing, empathy, a non-judgemental attitude, broadening out horizons, and not least of all developing a sense of ambiguity (well, that was more than one, actually). Aren't all of out ambitions/intentions/motivations ambiguous/ambivalent to some extent, maybe even unbeknownst to ourselves? I guess "humbleness" is the word I was looking for, that and thankfulness for what I have on the brighter side of my life.
@@elfsieben1450 She does but she doesn't. Being in an industry that demoralizes and exploits women, that's not respectful and she does work that is demeaning to her, she does it for money. So there is a lack of self love and respect she possesses. In some instances she's in denial. She has been through a lot of trauma and crap, albeit it could be a lot worse for her she really needs some consistent therapy. I think she has some emotional detachment issues. I wish her the best of luck.
Maddy, your resilience is beyond amazing. If I’ve been through a fraction of what you’ve been through I don’t know if I would still be here. I’ve had a very traumatic childhood as well, suffering from verbal and mental abuse from my very mentally ill mother and was sexually abused as an young adult, but nothing compares to the pain I’ve felt hearing your story. I pray you find peace, you deserve it my dear. I wish more people who watch porn would watch these videos and see that most of the time only the most broken people get into the industry. You are amazing hun, never give up. We are here for you!
She is very detached. A survival skill. Hope she finds peace and heals.
Yes. Exactly!
Yeah I agree. I don’t know how anyone could go through that much trauma and not be dissociative.
@@k_xxo You are telling the truth.
Attachment issues, probably due to multiple caregivers prior to the age of two. Reactive attachment disorder
Holly dissociation… 😣🙏🏻 we wouldn’t be alive without this possibility that our brain disconnect
I think people in the comments need to remember this is not an “entertainment” channel this is a documentary of someone’s life which they willingly decided to share with you. Whether it’s true or even half of it. Who are we to judge someone’s trauma and their interpretation of their lives? Be grateful it’s not you or a loved one or maybe it does reach someone in this exact situation that needs hope. That is all this is for. It’s not for anyone to keep score of how bad someone’s abuse is, to keep score on facts, nor judge anyone on their actions. I pray Maddy continues to keep her head up high and wish her nothing but healing and success. ❤️
Amen. We are here as witnesses and to be listening, understanding ears for those who need to tell their stories. This is not a competition. It is a chance to connect with, expand, and extend, our humanity.
Thankfully you are around to tell everyone how to craft their comments; in essence coaching us all on how to behave and how to think. You are obviously better than most mere mortals.
@@Xbangsplot You’re welcome!
Amen. I agree. This channel is about opening our eyes to truth we may be unaware of.
I agree with Dan. Don’t come on here telling everblybody how to interpret these videos. Everybody trying to be the moral superiority these days. Geez. 🤦🏾♂️
I listen to many of the stories you post and they are often heartbreaking and eye opening. This story brought me to tears, but reminded me why I work in the field that I am in. I had a very, very tough week with my students suffering from severe behavioral and emotional challenges and this was my reminder to keep pushing on and helping the kids like this young lady. 💜
The dog pound seems to do better than the adoption agencies when placing animals. Background checks seem low in the totem pole parents ...🕵
My boss has been trying to adopt for years it's super difficult now a days.
totem pole parents *_: ?_*
It's all by design ....sickos trading kids
@@layneco9545 erereerettteeeeees seee day
@@layneco9545 doepu
Don't give her pity. She doesn't want anyone's pity. Be proud of her. She had every right to feel like a victim but instead she's a survivor. This is a fighter. I really respect her. We have too many victims and we need more like Maddy, a fighter and survivor.
Know why she couldn’t see herself as a victim? Because she believes no one will help her. At least those who see themselves as victims are crying for help. No one should have to go through what she did. She does need and deserve pity.
Ecclesiastes 7:7
King James Version
7 Surely oppression maketh a wise man mad; and a gift destroyeth the heart.
I think we just need more authenticity. Each person deals with their traumas differently and we should hold space for wherever they are in the process of healing. 💜
Yeah i think regardless of the interworkings of things, shes successful and proud of herself. She doesnt "need" pitty per se but she does deserve it. Thats not necessarily something I would tell someone like her though because itd probably just piss her off lol
@@GaliciaSekulska Spot on✨🙌🏼✨
She’s probably so tired of being strong. I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s crying for a caring supporter and a soft place to fall.
After listening to her life story for 45 mins, I dont think this video should label her a porn actress. Its not what she came to you to talk about.
Exactly it's for clickbait
@@colleen3627💯agree!
Agree!
I could listen to Maddy talk all day. She is so calm and insightful, anyone would be fortunate to have her as a friend.
Agreed. Special place in hell for someone who meets someone like this and takes advantage of them, and that she’s met 20 of those people in a row is an indictment of where our society is at.
Add her
Is her story sad? Yes. Is there some truth there? I'm sure. But you can literally see her thinking up parts of her story as she tells it.... Doesn't mean she deserves anything she did go thru and she OBVIOUSLY has been thru something.... The problem with todays world is how overly sensitive we have all become... God forbid you comment something thats not all skittles and rainbows.... Everyone sitting here pretending like they have never judged another person, never mistrusted someone's story or questioned someone's truthfulness. Its ok to not believe everything you hear. Its ok to express those opinions especially on a public forum like this... The softer we become as a society the harder times will be for future generations.... A bunch of narcissists with a superhero complex.... Meanwhile behind closed doors they are a just as judgemental as the ones they condemn...
@@christinaleblanc8973 Feel like this comment doesn't entirely apply here. OP isn't talking about other commenters.
@@christinaleblanc8973 agreed. We can be compassionate without believing every word someone spouts.
Her story is so devastating, my heart is aching listening to her.
I hope she can find peace.
@@jeremyb5198 you
@@jeremyb5198 Yes, you can find peace! People are tough.
I know its surreal to hear
@@jeremyb5198 a large part of the solution would be correcting mens behavior and attitudes towards women. Correcting the way males in general are taught (often by example), to sexualize females... Our culture has commercialized the abuse.
Even the most deeply wounded can heal, through self awareness, self acceptance, kindness and understanding. Maddie being a good example of someone who has learned that growth and peace ultimately come from within. She has the strength, and the ability to be brutally honest with herself. I'm not saying she won't have times when she struggles with her trauma, but overall I think she will meet those challenges. It would be better not to dismiss and devalue survivors. It's no help to them, and we deprive ourselves of their hard won wisdom and compassion.
There are some who are never able to face their trauma, largely because they see how survivors have been treated. I live in hope, for a time when survivors aren't re-victimized when they finally summon the courage to tell their story. By families who deny their abuse, a society that shames and blames, and strangers who tell them they will never find peace.
I cried throughout most of this. I know she is not looking for pitty..... it all just is so sad :( I would have not made it as far as she has.
She is one of the strongest people I've ever seen. Not going to drugs or alcohol, finding a way to make a life for her and her kid and still able to see the good in people with that much damage done to her. God bless her. I hope she finds real true honest love because she deserves it so much.
strongest butthole
I hate when people say that it’s made me who I am today like it makes you strong. It doesn’t. It hurts deep and forever :(
"Stronger" should be replaced with knowing yourself, and that's a great achievement!
Some people get over it, some people don't.
@@thematriarchy2075 exactly!
Me too.
@@thematriarchy2075 Amen! Good response.
Hey, sweetie!😘
One of the best interviews I have ever listened to. Take away the porn aspect and shes speaking facts on how to cope and move forward in life no matter your situation. Dont let her scattered thoughts fool you, shes a very intelligent and insightful person at just 24. Wish her nothing but success in the future.
It just gets worse and worse the more you listen to it, but for her to be so resilient and strong in spite of all this horrible trauma is really awe-inspiring! Wish her all the best!
Ever know where she ended up. Your post is only a year. That is the newest.
"it was the first time I had been raped since I was a child" well that's something you don't wanna hear.
😭
@@mestillme3921 SHE WAS 4
She's still standing....
@@chanted1558 ❤💔
The world is not supposed to be like this.😔Especially with babies. In my view she was a baby when these events began.
This by far is the most incredible interview you've ever done Mark. She's genuine and her story is... well.. wow...
As a survivor of sexual abuse when I was a preteen, I can relate and also have a ton of respect for her strength and still keeping on living even if she has plenty of horrible reasons not to. If you're reading this, thank you for sharing your story and really wish the best for you in the future❤
When she talked about her little bit of joy of collecting insects when she was a child, I was almost heartbroken.
I cried at that moment, I'm sure that was the only happiness she ever had as a young girl.
Yes, poor little child deprived of the most tiny joy! And she loved it when she was allowed to be out in nature for those six months she spent at camp. Shame, shame, shame on all the monsters she had to endure...not even humans!
I can't believe this girl is 24 yrs old. She has most definitely developed a strong ability to compartmentalize to keep one foot in front the other. I hope she can stay strong throughout her life and continue rising above all that she has to overcome. I wish her and her kid the very best. ❤️
the angle showing you and her together is beautiful and insightful, thank you for including it
Childhood trauma is the worst,because you tell some of what you remember the best way you can,but there are other things buried deep in your mind that you never tell anyone it affects your life forever ♥
I couldn't agree more.
I agree a lot
It is. I'll be 42 next month and I just started therapy, and it has affected every corner of my existence. And I have had a rough life as an adult. Praying that therapy will help me maybe be happy at some point somewhere..
@@Dave1979z I hope that you do get the help you deserve peace and happiness ❤
@@Dave1979z I highly recommend reading The Healing Code by Alex Loyd!! He teaches you a lifelong tool to overcoming trauma! I can attest!! Life-changing!
Mark, SO darn smart to lie on the floor. The body language dynamic allows the subject to comfortably impart their "secrets." I bet it's especially effective with women like Maddy who've endured so much trauma. You are a master of your craft. THANK YOU for what you do. ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
I believe the reason so many commenters think I’m a harsh and mean interviewer is because I’m off camera and they can’t read my body language. All they hear is an ominous voice. There’s no way my interviewees would open up with me as they do if I were the person these commenters are imagining.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly That's really strange to me, Mark. I have never had that impression of you, not even a little bit. But we both know that individuals often project, and that's in addition to their perceptions being colored by their own experiences. The reality is, NONE of these people (women who've endured trauma especially) would open up to you if you were stern or uncaring. They'd skim the surface, say what they think you want to hear, get paid, and be on their way. The emotional vulnerability you elicit in your interviews is proof positive of who you really are and what you're trying to achieve. Anyone who claims otherwise has their head up their ass, to put it plainly. And just for the record, I have 2 years clean from heroin on February 8th, after using for 10 years. So I can relate to these stories. When I say "Thank you, Mark," it truly does come from the heart. Btw, fellow Chicagoan here! Be safe. Continue to be kind and open-minded. We need more of us out there. Much love, Jamie Leigh. 🖤
Yeah. Neither did I, Hemlock. He has very even inflection in his vocalization.
I thought the same thing. Standing above someone who is sitting down feels like dominance. Intentionally lying below eye level most definitely puts people at ease.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly I definitely don't get that impression from you. I saw an interview you did not too long ago and you looked well put together and carefully thought out in what you were saying. i think that some people struggle to process vocal tone without the visual aspect as body language is so important. But all of these people that you've interviewed, as you so rightly stated, simply wouldn't open up to you if you were this mean and uncaring person.
I am once again reminded how ridiculously lucky I am as an adult and how lucky I was as a child. These events are horrendous. It's amazing that she's even alive and talking about them.
This girl is so brave. She was let down by so many people in her life. Experiencing horrible, unimaginable things and she still seems to have a good heart. Bless her ❤️
Wow.. This girl can talk.. Had my undivided attention for 45 minutes.. Hope she gets what she wants out of life.. Seems like a very intelligent girl, wish her the best..
The strength, the wisdom and the compassion coming out of this young woman are incredible! Thank you Mark!
It’s really incredible how often people comment on subjects like Maddie in Mark’s videos and are so amazed at how intelligent, well-spoken, and/or articulate they are. I’m guilty of it, too, but really, it’s that we’ve been living under this assumption that people who live life on the fringes, ie sex workers, addicts, criminals, must NOT be smart or they wouldn’t be in these situations. The truth is that we have thousands and thousands-maybe even millions- of broken, abused, thrown away people walking amongst us who we try to ignore even exist bc it makes us too uncomfortable. Watching this channel is a crucial exercise in developing empathy and I think the world is made better because of it. Kudos, Mark. Huge fan. You are someone who uses your talents to shine a light on humanity and the result is positive. Welearn what not to do, how not to treat others, and also how to have true empathy and compassion for all sorts of people regardless of their circumstances. That’s everything. My background is in sociology so I am fascinated by your channel. Thanks so much!
I don't think viewers believe that these people are not smart, I think that its more astonishing to watch, see and listen to how people cope with these situations.
Because so many abused are stripped of those qualities because of the abuse. I see nothing diminutive in acknowledging their strengt and spirit.
There was a girl named Suzie Diamond (From Slovakia) back in 2005-2007 time frame. Absolutely stunning! Could have been a legit model. Quit the business after 2 .5 years and literally disappeared. No social media (none that's actually her at least), no post-career interviews or podcasts.....nothing. Anybody know if she's still alive or any info on her??
Speak for yourself.
I sent this interview with a timestamp to the county of Utah where she talks about Cinnamon Hills Youth center, I hope they follow up and look into it to make sure those things still aren't happening.
where do we report them to the state
@@pinkpugginz It didn't happen at Cinnamon Hills. They only take the girls monthly for a physical with a female doctor (I was the academic director at a school near there and when I watched this instantly called all the former employees I knew, including ones that rage quit and speak out against that hellhole.). All the folks I spoke to were like "Yeah-that we don't do. Was she manhandled at the facility? Probably. But we don't take anyone to the doctor monthly and if it's a GYN it has to be female." I DO have a suspicion about what school it DID happen at, and did contact the State about that one.
@@lauraromdeussen864 I don't believe you!
@@rachelr.n.3563 Doesn't matter if you believe me or not. Unless you were physically working there, or at a local school at that time, your opinion is just that--opinion. Those of us who were there at that time know exactly what school this would have happened at, and turned that school in several times. It's a money making machine and they contribute to the political machine there so...
They wont
I’m blown away by her ability to keep so level headed, maintain her intelligence and understanding of every situation. She is so smart and thoughtful and I’m too dumb to explain it 😂
For those doubters...walk a mile in another person's shoes then be the judge.
What do you mean? What was in doubt? What judgements where made?
@@apaaaa if something traumatic happens to you you either suppress memories or you can remember them in details!
Walk a mile in another person’s shoes; that way, you have their shoes and are a mile away :)
@@mattghostly5261 alot of comments below suggesting she isnt being entirely truthful but I think those comments were made before listening to the entire interview
My grandma was a wealth of clichés. She knew this one too.
I believe her. I think the trauma of all she has had to deal with causes her to jump around in her story but I don’t think she is making any of this up. Its insane what she has been through. I can’t even imagine.
Yes. This!! I jump around too. There is just SOO MUCH you want tell someone that is listening to you. You just want them to understand and everything starts popping up in your mind that has happened all at once!!
yes! And people dont realize that trauma can cloud your memory or delete it and the memories could also come back full force. PTSD symptoms for sure.
100 % agree.
Of course she is telling the truth.
I noticed how she rarely smiles: Given what she's endured, I'm not surprised by a less than cheerful manner. I'm not saying we should all seem happy if we're not, but I do sense the extreme pain she has been through and must still affect her: I'm stunned by how she can talk about her past abusers without crying--I would! God bless her. I wish her and her daughter all the best.
Although you see a serious emotional and developmental delay, she is so insightful. One after one, the adults in and around her life failed her. Social workers, medical professionals, teachers, neighbors and of course her mother. I hope she finds healing and love.
I dont see any developmental delay
You are correct, Liza. I definitely noticed the developmental delay throughout the interview. It's as if she was speaking from an 8 to 12 year old level of development, mixed with her current early adulthood. Severe trauma will cause this type of damage. I have 3 cousins adopted from orphanages in Siberia. They are all young adults now and they each have different developmental and emotional delays.
@@x.x..x.x I was thinking perhaps she could be on the autism spectrum with alexithymia, not showing emotion like crying. Even if half the bad things happened there would be boxes of kleenex used. But she has a distance from her pain.
I'm thinking maybe her sickness/earache when she was a baby has something to do with her delay. It may have been more than that. Also the meds she was on early in life...maybe.
@@marquitashiver6141 yes, it certainly is something that caused the delay. I believe those things she talked about did happen, she just does not express them in an emotional or connected way.
You said "even adults sometimes deserve better", and that's why you are a better person than most. Please realize YOU deserve better!
After everything she’s been through she still cares so much about people. We could probably all learn from her.
Maddy I believe in you. Your eyes lit up so much when you were talking about feeling connected to nature and doing outdoorsy things. I wish you find your way back to nature and heal. Sending you an abundance of love and light, take care
Take a pen and paper and try creating a time line, it doesn't add up
Good Morning Mark..
This is one helluva never ending story if I have ever
heard one!!!!!!!!
Maddy is a Warrior!
Thankyou so much for the work that you do.
Warrior...Beautiful!!!😊💖
Maddy is someone who’s become a shell of a person but has become so conditioned and stoic. Her face shows it all. What a brave woman.
Damn! That was a harrowing story she told. Unbelievable. I am amazed that she is still here, still functioning. She is one tough, strong, smart young woman. I am in absolute awe of her; her strength, her intelligence, and her compassion. No child should ever have to be subjected to the kinds of abuses she experienced literally her entire childhood. You go girl! I don't know how you did it but, hell, you did.
I had no idea my own childhood was such a day at the beach...
This is so heartbreaking. She's an incredibly strong person. What she described happening at that school is exactly what Paris Hilton described happening to her and other children at the schools she was sent to. It's disgusting that this is allowed. Her adoptive mother didn't protect her and just was another in a long list of people who used her.
She said “ I think I’m 20” 😔 She strikes me as a good person and truthful. I wish her the very best in life. I like her 🥳
I think she meant she was 20 when that situation happened because she later says she is 24
Yeah I saw that at the end 😐
She was saying I think I'm 20 when he was asking how old she was at the time of the event they were discussing
I LOVEEEE what she said about not letting anything, anyone control her. Not drugs!!! Yesss Maddy!!!
The director controlled her.
@@The.Drunk-Koala Exactly my point, porn is a extremely dangerous profession, suicide rates in porn stars are sky high!
@@leilanidupree5922 She said they were.
@@Luna7-v1p 😢
@@marylougeorge9890 I hope she can get out of that industry so she can begin to heal !
This interview is astonishing with how she could even process that kind of constant violence and still articulate all that trauma in a very sober analysis and still know right from wrong. ( And without drugs!) She is one of the Very Few people you’ve interviewed that is So Deserving of your help too. So many adult abuses on every level BUT It’s Also one of the most enlightening and inspiring interviews of the human will to want to be safe, independent and happy despite real adversity.Great job Mark for letting her talk freely in your safe respectful space! Would like to see a follow up.
She is overcome her issues without help
When people have this much trauma, they naturally dissociate from reality, as a survival mechanism. That's how she survived. It causes the detachment.
After watching so many of these interviews, I actually thanked my Mother just the other day for the wonderful life her and my Father gave me !! Never appreciated until 57 yrs old.
When she said that abortion was worse than being raped in her life she was not lying. In fact, she's not lying at all in this interview...she's speaking the truth about the sickness, the depravity, the disgusting nature that is human beings. There's a lot of good in the world but you have to search far to find it these days.
She is one of the most resilient and strong people I've ever seen on this channel. I'm very proud of you Maddy. I hope so many people see this interview and see your strength. It's beyond impressive. It's inspiring.
She is hard as they come but her soul is gone
Damn Maddie, you're not just a survivor, you are a warrior. I wish the best to you and your daughter.
This type of abuse is much more common than we think.
At first, I was shocked that these women go into and stay in the porn industry after being put through so much sexual trauma as children. But after hearing how normalized sex and body abuse become to them at such young ages, and knowing my own ability to compartmentalize trauma, its not shocking at all. You do what you know. Bless this woman.
When it’s all we’ve ever known it becomes , we become disposable commodities from conditioning . You just disconnect because it’s easier
It's what they know, and what they can access, and they have been conditioned from childhood to be on the fringes of society by abuse, lowlife parents who make them the weird kid, the smelly kid, the badly behaved kid, the odd one out, the foster kid, the runaway. They see a normal life as beyond their reach and access.
I thought that & pray The Lord heal all sexually traumatized people ! Sad cause sex is a gift and so many selfish bastards abuse females or kids ! Hate it
14:30 Wow I love this angle Mark!!! I always imagined how the set looked. Never guessed you laid on the floor lol. Thanks for sharing.
So weird that he's on the floor like that while they tell him some tragic stories about their lives. Lol
@@bigman4407 It's smart from a psychological standpoint. YOu don't want to "loom" over somebody when you want them relaxed. Same reason people cower when they are in fear, or animals lay down and play dead. You signal you're not a threat, you can't leap over, you're full visible. It's smart. I would have imagined he'd be sitting on a low chair or stool and had the guests on a taller stool.
@@captainsewerrat thats right...he looks calm and relaxed ,so in turn it makes the interviewee feel the same way
@@bigman4407 oh would you just relax. Christ sake.
Mark is very tall I think 6’4 or 6 ‘6 so he may intimidate some people. Hey whatever works for him. ❤️🙏🏽🇨🇦
This is heartbreaking. People are so cruel to children. No child deserves this treatment. She didn't deserve any of this. I hate she had to go through this and children go through this daily
This was kind of a sobering interview. This woman, who was raped multiple times and abused, has a "mutual", even positive relationship with the porn industry, that she isn't even fazed with having sex with other people on camera. I think this goes to show that she's been SO desensitized, abused and even raped in the foster system, that porn doesn't bother her. But I think action speaks louder than words, as she keeps going, trying to put a roof over her head as well as her daughter too..... She just keeps going. And I think that's a really commendable act and more importantly, a redemption on her part. Really good interview.
She looks like she can be a regular member of society but the first two minutes already revealed a tragic past
What stands out in her story is the excruciating loneliness during her life. Wish Maddy all the best. She must be a very strong person, surviving the horrors she had to go through.
Her foster parent(s), the men who abused her, the treatment providers, workers, should all be charged. There is no statute of limitations for this kind of abuse. These perpetrators and those who failed to protect this young woman need to be prosecuted and held accountable.
Get a legitimate advocate to provide you with a referral to a credible, kick ass, cause-driven, social Justice litigator and go after the perpetrators criminally (some jurisdictions in the US allow for financial compensation in criminal matters as well) and the child protection system/workers/treatment providers civilly… if you don’t want the $ for yourself, set up a foundation.
At the very least, you are owed justice. ✌️
It just seems like alot of times those programs and facilities that are in place to "help" children and troubled kids ,only end up exploiting them and hurting them even more.
Ofcourse, It's the perfect workplace to find victims.
Yep they are just fronts , skimming off the grants and state monies.
I was really surprised he didn’t edit out the name..Cinnamon Hills Youth Center -is still in operation in Utah.
Government is run by pedos
Disfunction is good for business
This woman is amazing. She has suffered, felt pain, and has been subjected to all kinds of abuse, felt a lack of love and protection. And yet, she's in control of herself and her destiny. She has a clear head. She's her own person. Mad respect. She's very insightful - I bet she'd make a good councillor in some fashion. Maddy, you're incredible.
She speaks so calmly about these awful things. It sounds like poetry but the content is just brutal. I feel very sad knowing people are doing these horrendous acts. How can they be so cruel??
It really pisses me off to watch these videos over and over and feel like theres nothing i can do to help these woman.
Prevention. The purpose of these videos is to help us become more aware of how and why these things keep happening. There are millions of three year old Maddy’s out there. Better parenting, protecting our children and learning how to love ourselves and each other more might change our future.
@Dorothy Zbornak then why are you sitting her just watching? Go do something. Go change the world.
@Dorothy Zbornak You have no idea what transpires from these interviews. They could be the catalyst for many positive changes in this world, or even more important the interviewees lives.
@Dorothy Zbornak Your answer is BS. Sorry.
@Dorothy Zbornak @Soft White Underbelly is being active. As you state as to what helps. IDK if you think he should be doing jumping jacks while he is interviewing during his filming. Showing what may happen when someone endures something as a young child and the potential ramifications helps others understand and make others really think about their own behaviors and make change. Hey, jus think about it a little bit. That's all I'm asking.
so mark be laying on the ground like that? I thought the homie was on a stool.
😂😂😂 hes chillen
So his interviewee will feel comfortable with telling their stories. To look less intimidating.
@@tiffanipatterson9654 you get it. Facing the person sitting in a stool feels very confrontational.
Mark really does care about his interviewees. I saw him being interviewed and he spoke about the recent death of an interviewee he had befriended. He was sincerely grief stricken.
@@catherinecookson225 indeed. I can tell. I hope it wasnt jerry.
Seeing you laying there listening intently to this lovely wounded soul……bless you Mark. You have a huge impact on so many.
After listening to her story, I feel respect and admiration towards the strength she displays. Despite everything she's lived, she has not succombed to despair. Her resilience is unmatched. I feel truly humble when listening to her story. I wish her well for the future. May her life be a lesson for others.
Maddy - I’m so sorry the system and soooo many adults failed you. The Teachers etc failed you. x 🇬🇧🏴🇬🇧🏴🇬🇧🏴🇬🇧
Agree!..couldn't have said it better myself...just wanna hug her
yeah 🇺🇸🇺🇲🇺🇸🇺🇲🇺🇸🇺🇲🇺🇸🇺🇲🇺🇸🇺🇸🇺🇲🇺🇸
@Lauren BiKitty Me too
This channel is a straight up masterpiece. These people should be treasured. I wish all of them peace.
Stop it. Marks exploiting them. Their lives are worse because their innermost secrets are now out there for everyone to view. Nobody will help but believe me, people will use it against them.
There are still places like Cinnamon Hill today. It’s disturbing
There is a documentary film available here on YT titled 'Kidnapped for Christ.' It is bone-chilling. Religion aside: it exposes the dangers and horrors of these at-risk youth programs, and just how many exist.
What is cinnamon hill?
@@susanspalatteofmakeup4212 a fake religious camp with a bunch of pedophiles and abusers.
@@susanspalatteofmakeup4212 Most likely a CIA program.
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This changed quickly. I thought she was blessed someone finally cared for her and then it all went down. How sad. Im only 5 mins in.
This story.......that's all I can truly say. There's a lot of time lapses and information that jumps around.....it's a lot to process. Seems made up.....I think some stuff is mixed up and missing.
@@williamgolston5399 I agree, I hate to feel like she’s making some of this up as she’s going along
@@kutie1018 it seems whimsical......like nothing consistent. Ages, names, events, people, times. Maybe the drugs, but it is a WIDE range of stuff that doesn't make any sense or have any consistent flow.
@@williamgolston5399 I was thinking the same but I also think it could be the trauma or maybe she does have ADHD.
It's sad to hear that a person would be faced with so much trauma.
It's overwhelming to just try to comprehend this is a person's life.💔
What an incredibly strong, decent, self-aware person. I wish Maddy the love, peace, safety she so richly deserves
Are there any porn actresses who haven't been abused and exploited? Seems like the that industry is so predatory.
I think that you will find abused people in every industry. They just talk about it more.
@@thematriarchy2075 victims of sexual abuse are drawn towards the sex i dusty because it subconsciously allows them to recreate their trauma. It’s their brains way of giving them an opportunity to change the outcome and lessen the trauma. Bust most often it only hurts retraumatizes the victim.
The porn industry is horrendous.
Nina Hartley?
Yes, but you can pretty much count them on one hand. While sexwork absolutely is a legitimate last resort profession, the problem is that you pretty much can't become a famous pornstar without actually enjoying the repeated, emotionless sex, and that is something no woman enjoys unless she's mentally broken.
Moreover, the industry is absolutely horrendous, the abuse would be completely unacceptable literally anywhere else. It's to the point where even the illegal high-end escort industry is less abusive. Porn agents are, without exception, exploitative scumbags.
The solution, however, is NOT to stigmatize the pornstars further, the solution is to recognize the profession's last resort nature, and to stop glorifying it. The industry also needs strong regulations to weed the abusers out.
this is my first time commenting and mind you, i’ve been binge watching only and only your channel since a week now. wow, what you’re doing is so important, and listening to all of these stories has really made me feel more grateful about my life. all the people who’ve come on here and shared their childhood trauma and other private things about their life are SO brave.
Same. These can be hard to watch, but its important to, because it really does help give perspective on things in life that might be getting you down, and realize that they're small potatoes compared to the lives a lot of people like this girl have lived and been through.
I definitely appreciate my upbringing a lot more. I just hope this girl and those like her ended up with people that have their backs. Sadly, especially when it comes to women in porn, they tend to end up with abusive men.
No human being could endure this. The mom should be in prison for life with no chance for parole.
My mom would always tell me to get over it. The fact that I was abandoned and felt some type of way growing up because of that or sexually abused... hearing these stories really make me proud that their voices are being heard and cared for. Not pushed or shut down! Tell your story 👏 don't feel bad for speaking the truth/speaking up. It's not you, it was them
I can relate 🙏🏻
While it’s a testament to her strength that she has not turned to drugs to channel the traumatic pain of her past, the truth is there are many outlets for pain including volatile and turbulent relationships, seeking out partners that are not only emotionally unavailable but also completely unable to meet her needs or value her. Full healing would require her to better understand this history of codependency/love addiction as well. I absolutely wish this recovery for her, she is an amazingly powerful, intelligent woman with an incredible warriors spirit. She deserves to heal, be at peace and live a beautiful life, at only 24 years old she has many more years to live and i truly hope those ahead are kinder to her.❤️
She's so sweet, the way she talks about Emma. She is only dying for a good friend. I hope she had good people around her now. I wish her every happiness for the future. Virtual love and hugs to you Maddy.
Strong as fuck! I'm the same age, went through similar things, and I am not handling it nearly as well as this woman is. Inspirational.
Wishing you better days from Nashville ❤️
Wish the same from Knoxville ❤️
May God bless with you with the strength to overcome your hurt !
One day at a time
Stay strong brother, do you have someone to talk too?
Maddy the adults in your life failed you tremendously and people u trusted you are a strong BEAUTIFUL woman thru it all STRIVE and SURVIVE your so worth it💞💯
So many horrible things happened to her, still she stayed so strong and didn't do drugs once. I'm so proud of you sister.
🥀 This sweet girl went thru so damned much !!! And she's still able to care about others, and retain a formidable strength as well as her sense of self worth !! It's amazing !! I'm so proud of her ! What a great friend to have in one's life !! Love you, gal !!
And Mark, great job, as usual, dude !! I love your set-up shots with you lounging on the floor on the other side of your cameras ! That looked pretty cool.
I also like the way you allow the interviewee to do most the talking with no interruptions. This was a beautiful interview. "Maddy" is such an eloquent speaker, especially surprising after all she's lived thru in her young life !
(Sigh...) ♥️💙💜🙋🏻♀️
I love Maddy. I felt so bad for her at first. Watching her wringing her hands, I just wanted to hug her and tell her everything is going to be ok. The more I heard of her story, the better I felt about how she had processed her trauma. She's intelligent and logical but I'd like her to see her become her full self. That her feeling self would become free, knowing she truely is safe and well able to protect her heart.
Thank you, Maddy for sharing your story. God bless you. I wish you joy.
Love from Michigan.💖💖💖
This is one of the most powerful stories I have watched on SWU. Maddie is only 24 yet has the demeanor of somone twice her age and her integrity is etched into her memory of the facts. She handled herself with so much class in the face of a life time of horros from non stop betrayal. What a rare person Maddy indeed is.
she's the most beautiful person i saw on this channel. there are no words that can describe her. i dont think .. she's so amazing. you watch her and understand how powerful God is and good and great. imagine God created someone like her. God created someone so beautiful, strong, STRONG. God is great.
Love the sideview angle Mark great viewpoint we love your work! God bless you. Thank u for Being the most consistent channel with the most benefit for the ppl on this platform.
I don't believe she is lying. She is telling this story with no hesitation.
I have no idea whether she’s lying...not my call...HOWEVER, l can certainly tell you that liars tell their lies “with no hesitation.”
@@tallentstravels5727 but not for 45 minutes.
@@viralbuthow000 You’re naive. They can do it for 45 years, no problem.
@@tallentstravels5727 Not with the questions Mark is asking with no hesitation. Point is, I don’t think she’s lying. shit happens to people
that shit sound like some movie shit
After all she's been through, she's such a pure soul, stronger than many of us;
wish her the best.
My heart breaks for this girl, it's unbelievable the abuse she endured-- child abuse is the real pandemic, and the cause of so many addictions and self-destructions... God bless you girl, you can be give so much love and great advice to others, you have so much to give yet! I'm hugging you from a distance, wish you had been my child!
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and now she's almost reenacting her traumas out every day at her job
I'd hire Maddy if I had a company/corporation and teach her the ropes. Maddy is EXTREMELY smart and has alot to offer. Old soul.
need to judge the men that come into her life better....Especially that she has a daughter at home.
@Cool Story Bro stfu. Have some respect.
This interview blew me away. I’ve been a foster care caseworker for 9 years and I have been blessed with the opportunity to shine a light on all the things she spoke about. I’ve spent so much of my career empowering my clients to seek safety and to feel comfortable in using their own voices to not only speak for themselves but also for those who are unable to.
My mantras for my career are to empower my clients to become the best versions of themselves and to use my voice to advocate for those are unable to do so for themselves. Everything she spoke of is a reality. I can’t tell you how many foster parents I’ve seen treat kids like this or use the money for everything except taking care of the kids.
I do my best every day to get my clients out foster homes like the ones she spoke of but unfortunately the system is so broken. A lot of times I find that regardless of how hard I try to promote positive change in these kids lives and the system over all so much of this is out of my hands. It’s makes me so sad. I can only hope that in the future enough people in my position receive the proper mental health care opportunities and fair compensation which will enable them to work harder to advocate for these kids. It truly breaks my heart.
That is one hell of a life story. Her statements at the end, as well as her saying that there are always ways around suffercation, is poignant. She's so interesting and I hope smooth sailing going forward in life for her and her daughter. She should write a book.
I have great respect for Maddy. She is a survivor of extreme childhood trauma from people who deserve to be in prison for their abusive crimes. Maddy seems to do her best to balance her life amidst a constant barrage of indifferent people along her way. I hope she can learn to set healing boundaries for herself, and avoid co-dependency in her relationships. Many thanks to Maddy and Mark for sharing this interview.
I see a pattern here in all these interviews:
1. Trauma Unload
2. Point towards Trauma to validate actions
3. Accepting the current situation
4. Hoping for a better future
I love how mark is just laying there listening to every word shes saying so beautiful
@Benedict Hampus he needs to be able to see through the camera at the right angle