Dear Tabitha, It's amazing how much strength your approach gives me. I thank you so much for giving me the hope and motivation that I've been missing for years. For the first in 13 years of anorexia I really feel that I can get over it completely. I've always been told by therapists that I should not expect to get completely healthy; after reading your books I'm convinced that they've been wrong and that I can do this! My boyfriend, too, is taken aback (in a positive sense of the term) of the changes that I've already done in this short time since I started my recovery. I thank you soooo much ❤️ Sincerely, Maxi
I'm so happy this was mentioned and you lovely Tabitha was able to shed some light on it. I'm struggling with this and has been super helpful to know I'm not alone and why this is happening. Huge fan Tabitha!! Your content and knowledge has been so helpful to my own recovery 💕
Spot on. My emotions are all over the place but I am so happy to be feeling again! Yes, there are the negative emotions we are no longer buffered from, but oh I feel so blessed to be feeling joy, excitement & actually feeling positive again. Thanks for addressing this Tabitha 😍
My mum asked me to put away one of her hoodies I had been wearing that day and I had the weirdest reaction to it. I pretty much threw a tantrum and went to my room to cry lol. Thought about it later and decided it wasn't her request that upset me, but the cheese I had just eaten. I'm starting to wonder if my head avoids acknowledging my true emotional response to certain things (ie. eating cheese for the first time in ages) until a convenient time (being asked to do something). Also explains why I get overly frustrated when a TV programme I thought was on actually isn't - it's the surfacing of repressed emotions associated with recovery and the guilt my ED tries to make me feel for doing the RIGHT thing.
Omg what you said about the wall blocking your own emotions and the ability to connect to others is EXACTLY what i am experiencing! I thought i was just a weirdo 😂 its nice to know it's "normal"
Yeah I’m like way more emotional... happier, sadder, angrier, more lost feeling, see more beauty, everything is funnier and to be honest the hardest things is how much LOVE I am feeling. Like how and I feel like it’s too much.. and too open?? Like too engaging or something. I mean I personally have this fear of being too friendly and others push me away because I’m annoying. So that actually was a huge thing with my ED is it made me more aloof or gave me the option to be less engaging and I liked it because it was like I held a power. (So effed up really.) EDs are literally tyrants. Since recovering I find I’m a little more off the ball with things. Like I am not as vigilant?
I'm so happy this was talked about!! You talk a lot about your body not sending messages properly and not knowing how sick you are in energy deficit, and I was wondering if the same is true about illness/ skin problems etc. I don't know if I'm the only one, but when I'm in my active anorexia, my skin doesn't break out as much, and I NEVER GET SICK (like, I'm the only person I know in the last 5 years that hasn't been unwell with a cold/ flu/ bug/ virus, despite the fact I've done stupid things like eating raw meat (thanks starved brain, side note, do other people experience weird food cravings like raw red meat/ raw potatoes/ dirt in absence of PICA?!)). Does anyone else experience not only your brain not knowing, but almost your body not seeming to get sick? Thankyou for your consistent and always helpful insight and voice in the ED recovery field
Same here!! I had absolutely great skin during my worst times. And everyone around me seemed to be getting colds and whatnot, but I never did. Well, I got shitloads of non-infectious stuff instead... 😵 BTW, raw pork is a regular dish in Germany. They spread it on bread. It's a very popular party food! 😁 👍🏻 I grew up there, so to me that's not weird at all. 😂
sorry to reply to an old comment, but during restriction the body will suppress the immune system. so, it might seem like you're super healthy, but in reality your body just isn't bothering to fight infections, and you could end up getting extremely sick or even die. also, i definitely had strange cravings like raw meat! certainly don't eat uncooked food, but go for the cooked versions - if you eat a wide variety of food (as much as you want), your brain should eventually start being less eccentric. at least that's how it's been for me :]
Late to the commenting game, but I definitely had NO ACNE EVER! It was crazy, when my hormones started picking back up again, I had a pizza face lol. Now it evened out. I also craved and thoroughly enjoyed very weird things like eating unsweetened cocoa powder straight up from the container! Most people would be utterly disgusted by that habit, but I loved it! Probably my Eds way of having chocolate without the sugar when it actually craved sugary chocolate.
I'm so grateful for your videos and have also been binge listening to the podcast as I find it very helpful (giving me a deeper understanding of my own issues / different ways to fight them) & incredibly encouraging, especially the EDAW series you did makes me realize that I am not alone. thank you so much for doing this, I truly have love in my heart for you and everyone in the struggle ❤️
I'd be a goner without my sense of humour. It's what I always cling to and always have done. It's the best thing I've got and I LOVE it. That's why I love this channel, it's wildly witty. xoxoxox Love to Dave and Stinky!
how did you deal with your tiredness and fatigue during recovery? did you stop working? I'm currently at university, very tired... but i can't stop! and in the same time, i can't deal with eating more and concentrate on both my recovery and school at the same time... it's very hard and a huge dilemma...
Arielle Milla ask someone at the uni (either your tutor or student health or whatever your uni has) for help sweet heart. if you can arrange postponed deadlines/exams or something. I went into residential for a few weeks at the very very end of my uni - like you say - I couldn’t do uni and recovery at the same time. It’s so hard to do both, and completely acceptable to ask for help x
Dear Tabitha,
It's amazing how much strength your approach gives me. I thank you so much for giving me the hope and motivation that I've been missing for years. For the first in 13 years of anorexia I really feel that I can get over it completely. I've always been told by therapists that I should not expect to get completely healthy; after reading your books I'm convinced that they've been wrong and that I can do this! My boyfriend, too, is taken aback (in a positive sense of the term) of the changes that I've already done in this short time since I started my recovery. I thank you soooo much ❤️ Sincerely, Maxi
I'm so happy this was mentioned and you lovely Tabitha was able to shed some light on it. I'm struggling with this and has been super helpful to know I'm not alone and why this is happening. Huge fan Tabitha!! Your content and knowledge has been so helpful to my own recovery 💕
Spot on. My emotions are all over the place but I am so happy to be feeling again! Yes, there are the negative emotions we are no longer buffered from, but oh I feel so blessed to be feeling joy, excitement & actually feeling positive again. Thanks for addressing this Tabitha 😍
My mum asked me to put away one of her hoodies I had been wearing that day and I had the weirdest reaction to it. I pretty much threw a tantrum and went to my room to cry lol. Thought about it later and decided it wasn't her request that upset me, but the cheese I had just eaten.
I'm starting to wonder if my head avoids acknowledging my true emotional response to certain things (ie. eating cheese for the first time in ages) until a convenient time (being asked to do something). Also explains why I get overly frustrated when a TV programme I thought was on actually isn't - it's the surfacing of repressed emotions associated with recovery and the guilt my ED tries to make me feel for doing the RIGHT thing.
Omg what you said about the wall blocking your own emotions and the ability to connect to others is EXACTLY what i am experiencing! I thought i was just a weirdo 😂 its nice to know it's "normal"
Yeah I’m like way more emotional... happier, sadder, angrier, more lost feeling, see more beauty, everything is funnier and to be honest the hardest things is how much LOVE I am feeling. Like how and I feel like it’s too much.. and too open?? Like too engaging or something.
I mean I personally have this fear of being too friendly and others push me away because I’m annoying. So that actually was a huge thing with my ED is it made me more aloof or gave me the option to be less engaging and I liked it because it was like I held a power. (So effed up really.) EDs are literally tyrants.
Since recovering I find I’m a little more off the ball with things. Like I am not as vigilant?
I'm so happy this was talked about!! You talk a lot about your body not sending messages properly and not knowing how sick you are in energy deficit, and I was wondering if the same is true about illness/ skin problems etc. I don't know if I'm the only one, but when I'm in my active anorexia, my skin doesn't break out as much, and I NEVER GET SICK (like, I'm the only person I know in the last 5 years that hasn't been unwell with a cold/ flu/ bug/ virus, despite the fact I've done stupid things like eating raw meat (thanks starved brain, side note, do other people experience weird food cravings like raw red meat/ raw potatoes/ dirt in absence of PICA?!)). Does anyone else experience not only your brain not knowing, but almost your body not seeming to get sick?
Thankyou for your consistent and always helpful insight and voice in the ED recovery field
Same here!! I had absolutely great skin during my worst times. And everyone around me seemed to be getting colds and whatnot, but I never did. Well, I got shitloads of non-infectious stuff instead... 😵
BTW, raw pork is a regular dish in Germany. They spread it on bread. It's a very popular party food! 😁 👍🏻 I grew up there, so to me that's not weird at all. 😂
sorry to reply to an old comment, but during restriction the body will suppress the immune system. so, it might seem like you're super healthy, but in reality your body just isn't bothering to fight infections, and you could end up getting extremely sick or even die. also, i definitely had strange cravings like raw meat! certainly don't eat uncooked food, but go for the cooked versions - if you eat a wide variety of food (as much as you want), your brain should eventually start being less eccentric. at least that's how it's been for me :]
Late to the commenting game, but I definitely had NO ACNE EVER! It was crazy, when my hormones started picking back up again, I had a pizza face lol. Now it evened out. I also craved and thoroughly enjoyed very weird things like eating unsweetened cocoa powder straight up from the container! Most people would be utterly disgusted by that habit, but I loved it! Probably my Eds way of having chocolate without the sugar when it actually craved sugary chocolate.
I'm so grateful for your videos and have also been binge listening to the podcast as I find it very helpful (giving me a deeper understanding of my own issues / different ways to fight them) & incredibly encouraging, especially the EDAW series you did makes me realize that I am not alone. thank you so much for doing this, I truly have love in my heart for you and everyone in the struggle ❤️
I'd be a goner without my sense of humour. It's what I always cling to and always have done. It's the best thing I've got and I LOVE it. That's why I love this channel, it's wildly witty. xoxoxox Love to Dave and Stinky!
I love you.
how did you deal with your tiredness and fatigue during recovery? did you stop working? I'm currently at university, very tired... but i can't stop! and in the same time, i can't deal with eating more and concentrate on both my recovery and school at the same time... it's very hard and a huge dilemma...
Arielle Milla ask someone at the uni (either your tutor or student health or whatever your uni has) for help sweet heart. if you can arrange postponed deadlines/exams or something. I went into residential for a few weeks at the very very end of my uni - like you say - I couldn’t do uni and recovery at the same time. It’s so hard to do both, and completely acceptable to ask for help x