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  • @mxttthxw
    @mxttthxw  25 днів тому +55

    I hope everyone enjoyed the video. Stay positive yall

    • @LandonRILLANILLAholtrust
      @LandonRILLANILLAholtrust 23 дні тому +3

      I'm starting to write my thoughts down now maybe it might help my anger issues

    • @-TheOracle-
      @-TheOracle- 23 дні тому +4

      @LandonHoltrust I forgive others who have harmed or even want to harm me. It isn't weakness. Actually it is strength. I release them from me through forgiveness.

    • @LandonRILLANILLAholtrust
      @LandonRILLANILLAholtrust 23 дні тому +3

      @-TheOracle- it gets hard for me especially with my anger problems and my fear of getting help so sometimes I struggle with it My anger is bad enough that talking to me upsets me but I do appreciate you and your concern I'm working on it wise words though

    • @LandonRILLANILLAholtrust
      @LandonRILLANILLAholtrust 23 дні тому +3

      @-TheOracle- you're a great person for what you said and I can't express how grateful I am that you said that I used to be that way but within the past few years my life has been flipped upside down Left right and sideways and it sucks but one thing I am grateful for is my refusal to feel sorry for myself and to straighten my back and look dead ahead

    • @ShipsoftheOceans
      @ShipsoftheOceans 23 дні тому +2

      Am getting there, I hope you have a happy new year and keep well buddy.

  • @user-lx3oi6xy2e
    @user-lx3oi6xy2e 23 дні тому +20

    You have a great mind, once you realise how bizarre existence is you can zen out and not worry as much

  • @fierymoth4330
    @fierymoth4330 23 дні тому +15

    True Matt! Existing is weird, dark, and lonely for most of us, but you being here in this world makes it brighter and a lot happier. Thank you for reminding us to always stay positive despite all the challenges in this lifetime.

  • @edwardsofin3593
    @edwardsofin3593 23 дні тому +4

    Wonderful. Great surprise finding a daytime video today. You reflect a lot for me, make my days better, watching your presentations is a pleasant escape for me. I figure it is that same way for many others. Your winter coat looks good on you. Happy New Year to you and all that read this. Looking forward to watch the ball drop with all this great crew tonight. Sincerely CHEERS!

  • @sunboyjim693
    @sunboyjim693 23 дні тому +9

    Very well said, Matthew. Perfection is not possible, but we just need to do our best and live life to the fullest. Wish all the happiness in the world to you and hopefully see you live tonight. Happy New Year!!!❤

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +2

      well, said my man, you are absolutely amazing

  • @grandiosa86
    @grandiosa86 23 дні тому +14

    That is among the worst pain in life: Losing the people you really cared for, but sadly they did not care as much about you. They moved on one day and while you are not in their thoughts anymore as they found new people, YOU are the one which is struggling because you never was capable to let them fully go. This is a part of being human, but this is very rough to deal with.

    • @dennisk.441
      @dennisk.441 23 дні тому +2

      @@grandiosa86 exactly what i've been going through last 2 months. And nobody can understand that pain untill they feel it on their own skin. You explained it so beautifully, thank you!

    • @grandiosa86
      @grandiosa86 23 дні тому +1

      ​@@dennisk.441 hang in there! Those people does not define your worth, and you have not even lost any value of who you are. No matter what you go through in life always remember that your your value does not change. You can twist and bend a $100 as much as you want, even make it a little dirty with the sand - it will still be a $100 that you can use, and get the exact amout of food from it as it was new and clean. Eventho it looks a little "depressed" to what you did to it, doesn't define it's value.
      Remember that the people that treated you really bad, may one day go through exactly the things you have gone through in life. At that time also the "sheeps" will understand which pain they barrowed others.
      The biggest difference is that these people will then have to go through the so called phase called 'regretion' and their head will keep spinning and send signals if they are experiencing 'karma' now. And there will be nobody able to help them.

    • @dennisk.441
      @dennisk.441 22 дні тому

      ​@grandiosa86 thank you for that sweet kind explanation. Yes what goes around comes around but it still hurts when you still care about people that hurt you so deeply. Happy New Year i wish you all the very best.

    • @grandiosa86
      @grandiosa86 22 дні тому

      @@dennisk.441 Thank you, somehow I can't see my previous comment. But I wanted also to tell you that - the best cure of any form when it comes to losing people you thought were your friends and so on - is to try find some new people to be around. It won't be easy by any means, but just aim to find that one friend - when you are two together it will be easier to find more people. Wishing you the best for 2025 ofc.

    • @Steinweg100
      @Steinweg100 21 день тому +1

      Hi again Grandiosa, I just remembered something. A friend came home from school to find his house empty and his parents had moved to live somewhere in Europe! Still rings in my head : How could anyone do this?

  • @bradcarltonslogoarchive9488
    @bradcarltonslogoarchive9488 23 дні тому +9

    HI MY BEST BROTHER, Existence can be weird at times. Some things don't make sense from time to time and to time. But we are all here by the grace of GOD!!!! And we are all bound to make mistakes. It is life itself. We are all in need of grace, when we mess up! Anyway, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW ONCE AGAIN THAT I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BROTHER!!!! YOU ARE HERE FOR A REASON BY GOD'S GRACE, No matter how weird or strange it feels!!!! YOU ARE MORE!!!! YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!! GOD LOVES YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE, SO DO I VERY MUCH!!!! LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BROTHER, I'M ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU AS YOU KNOW REALLY WELL NOW!!!! LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING YOU TONIGHT FOR THE NEW YEAR'S EVE LIVE STREAM!!!! I LOVE YOU BROTHER VERY MUCH!!!! GOD BLESS YOU GRACIOUSLY AND BEAUTIFULLY THE REST OF THIS AFTERNOON!!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏

  • @SfJames
    @SfJames 23 дні тому +6

    Never wait, learn from your mistakes and don’t get frustrated if you fail one day, try again tomorrow with a new mindset.

  • @Gingerspicelife
    @Gingerspicelife 22 дні тому +1

    Happy New Year!!! I relate to what you are saying. I’m just so very tired. I’m working on self care this year!!!
    Please know you are a beautiful human being

  • @Raven_Luna_Tick
    @Raven_Luna_Tick 23 дні тому +4

    Being an adult is realizing that the world isn't perfect, and you have to find a way to navigate through it. Be Brave, Be true and Be Kind. You never know when your time is going to run out, so make the most of the time you have right now. Have a great day people. Love ya Matthew 🖤

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +2

      you are amazing Raven. Thank you so much, my man.

    • @tbecon
      @tbecon 23 дні тому +2

      Awesome comment.

  • @jamesm611
    @jamesm611 22 дні тому +1

    New subscriber. Love hour channel.. your the best.

  • @biclight2007
    @biclight2007 23 дні тому +2

    Very good points, Matthew! And happy new year! When you mentioned looking back on life and seeing how the scribbles at the beginning were a necessary part of the picture and how they tied in, I thought immediately of the Mad magazine fold-ins, where the back cover was a picture and sometimes a few sentences and they would provide lines where you would fold the cover to reveal another picture and message. Quite a few are discoverable with a Google search if you care to see what they were like.

  • @BryanDoor
    @BryanDoor 23 дні тому +3

    Wow the sunlight is making your hair look good and if you just cut a new cut. Maybe you did. Yeah you do need to take care of #1 first and I hope your own advice works in your own life. You ARE worthy AND allowed man, you ARE. I still love that quote you have used before, you have more yesterdays built up then the tomorrows. Good Matthew quote or who ever else said it. We all here are very glad that you are you here. Thank you for the video Matthew! Stay Positive!

  • @scott7349
    @scott7349 23 дні тому +1

    I always watch your videos. Much love to you. Happy New Year.

  • @-TheOracle-
    @-TheOracle- 23 дні тому +8

    Love, you are correct. We cannot do everything in this world that we naturally want to do. That is a lie. Not everyone can be the President of the United States. Not everyone can be the CEO of a Forbes 500 company.
    You are correct in finding things that make you want to be yourself! Dayem, I love your precious mind and your passing quotes from your natural absorbing of others thoughts.
    What can we do? We are all here to love one another in faith, believing that THAT love will come back to us. If it doesn't, we are still to continue being who we are, because we are worthy of love and to give it freely to all others. God is love, as we are love. Love warms the darkness!

  • @OurNewHampshireLife
    @OurNewHampshireLife 23 дні тому +6

    Happy 2025, my man! Oh, one thing that about advice. I say take advice from people that have found happiness in life. Find their secret. Listen to elders, they have been through it. Stay positive!!

  • @colinandrews1118
    @colinandrews1118 23 дні тому +5

    Thanks Matthew
    Time is always going forward on our universe world 🌍 life positivity keeps us going lots of universal love to everyone 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 Colin

  • @pendude1256
    @pendude1256 23 дні тому +3

    Hurt people hurt people. I haven't heard that but its a solid truth!!! Happy New Year!!!!! 2025 is gonna be awesome!!!!!

  • @Dragonmoon1598
    @Dragonmoon1598 23 дні тому +9

    I'm just hitting on a couple of things:
    Of course, starting something new is hard . . . It's new. Less begrudging more effort. Now, if said experience doesn't bring joy into your life. Ya, it's probably a good idea to walk away (when applicable. Sometimes, we need that paycheck or health insurance.)
    "Don't take others' advice."
    I found something that's a little more open minded that I heard recently.
    1) Don't take advice from someone you wouldn't change places with.
    2) Don't take feedback from people who aren't your target demographic (more business relatated, but still viable).
    As for the other stuff agreed. Life is challenging . . . So get your sword and shield and face it head on.
    Hope you have a great New Year.
    PS. I was just wondering if you ever considered doing merchandise? Like a "stay positive" hoodie or mug.
    You have enough subscribers that it may be worth looking into at the very least. Sense you have some free time on your hands, not going back to school for a bit. You may want to look at some business possibilities. Granted, there's probably a money factor. So potentially not a possiblity right now. But, just a thought.😁

    • @Steinweg100
      @Steinweg100 23 дні тому +3

      A Brilliant Idea! I definitely would wear that! Got to go to oncology soon ant it would be a great message to wear! But would industrial sizes be available LOL

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +4

      thank you so much for this comment dragon you are really amazing my man and I really appreciate the advice. I have been thinking about making some kind of merchandise in the future and I think stay positive is definitely something I’m going to be using it in the near future, really appreciate my man

    • @tbecon
      @tbecon 23 дні тому +3

      OMG, incredible feedback. You are on another level. Your comments brighten my day!

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому +1

      Actually for real we need a Stay Positive merch

  • @Valjao67
    @Valjao67 15 днів тому +1

    Yes, existing is weird when you think of what it implies, all the pain, the suffering, the madness of the world. But it’s more than that once you decide to feel happy with every bit of good times you experienced, when you decide to see it and stop waiting for a perfect event that will perhaps never come.
    Taking every bit of happiness for me is, as an example, taking my breakfast with one of your video. Your intelligence, your way to talk, feel at such a young age is a real beacon of hope in a world that seem to me more difficult, insane each day. They are so many people who seem to enjoy ignorance, hate, anger, that watching someone like you is a pure delight and that’s what I choose to see as I see a beautiful sunset, a gorgeous picture of an amazing nebula in our galaxy, the kindness of a girl in a cold street of Paris yesterday who bought a coffee and a sandwich to a homeless old man.

  • @kimsanchannel3920
    @kimsanchannel3920 22 дні тому +2

    It's not much but it is something
    I wish you all the best in life and
    Remember that I will always love you.
    Happy new year 🌟⭐️✨️🌠 kim ✨️

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  22 дні тому +3

      kim, thank you so much for this. You are such an amazing human being and I cannot tell you how much I appreciate you and having you around thank you so so much and I also hope you are enjoying a very happy new year.

    • @kimsanchannel3920
      @kimsanchannel3920 21 день тому

      Hello Matthew ✨️
      I hope you are well. Thank you
      For your kind words 😊 i change
      My mind, if you really like me hanging here, we'll i can stay 😊
      Kim ✨️

  • @kaii2535
    @kaii2535 23 дні тому +13

    The title itself says it all ❤🤜🏻

  • @GaryGarlic
    @GaryGarlic 23 дні тому +5

    Life itself is a happy chance but it's an unusual happy chance. We're here trying to make sense of everything. People come and ago as will we. Not everyone gets an opportunity to experience this happy chance so I hope we soak it all in. Your jacket is cute Matthew and I love the haircut. Hope you have a great day :)

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +1

      thank you so much, Gary you are absolutely amazing my man and I hope you are doing well. Enjoying the holidays.

  • @cityguyusa
    @cityguyusa 21 день тому +1

    "Change" is the only constant variable.

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  21 день тому

      The only thing that doesn’t change is change itself

  • @MarcoAntonio-ib7rs
    @MarcoAntonio-ib7rs 23 дні тому +2

    Matthew, this video was amazing! Your words are impactful and essential! You are very special to me! I love you! ❤

  • @Fortodaystoryline
    @Fortodaystoryline 23 дні тому +2

    Matthew one thing I learned long time ago you can’t worry about what happens in next week or (3) three years or (5) five years or (10) ten (20) twenty years from now that will just because you to have worried and anxiety. Worry about today the morning you wake up every day every morning thats the day you worry about on how you are getting through today not yesterday or tomorrow but at the moment you awaken you start your day you worry about that day but mostly you know what happens that day so you know you have no worries.. Listen Matthew it’s New Year’s Eve let’s bring in the new year with a smile positive attitude and energy ,peace ,Love and happiness and God. I love you buddy stay strong now and Have a wonderful Happy New Year my friend 🎉❤🎊👍😊

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому

      Is "worry" ( which Matthew has a lot of ) almost a futile emotion state as it causes distress and can be paralysing .
      The positive of worry is about caring about something like a positive outcome .
      But I think there might be something more resourceful like Caring, Consideration , Action

  • @billspooks
    @billspooks 23 дні тому +5

    GOOGLE AI says about your SANTA CRUZ air freshener, "You can wear whatever you want, from flip-flops and tank tops to absolutely nothing at all at Santa Cruz's nude beaches. "

  • @yveshouel377
    @yveshouel377 22 дні тому +1

    Existence is weird,we don't know why we're there,I admire your moral tenets for being and doing well❤

    • @yveshouel377
      @yveshouel377 22 дні тому +1

      Maybe we have the answer after death,meanwhile,enjoy your trip on Earth ❤❤😮

  • @anderson49anders
    @anderson49anders 23 дні тому +3

    "Wet rock"...love the metaphor. Ah...existence...the one notion that keeps me going and growing. 6:37 Perceptive and tantalizing question about memory (switch). Hint: a 6 year old generally cannot experience nostalgia or angst of memory but later.....

  • @cityguyusa
    @cityguyusa 21 день тому +3

    If you haven't noticed everyone wants to look like everyone else according to social media. They're all clones of eaach other.

  • @Jeff-si8uv
    @Jeff-si8uv 23 дні тому +4

    YOU ARE GREAT. STAY POSITIVE 👍🏻. I’m here for you. You sound like me. It’s definitely difficult. You have to stay safe. Stress sucks. DONT let it get to you l. YOU ARE LITERALLY LOVED. NEVER FILL BAD FOR WHO YOU ARE. YOU ARE GETTING TO EMOTIONAL. I WANT YOU TO RELAX. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE BLESSED. You are loved. 🥰

  • @jupiter-p75
    @jupiter-p75 22 дні тому +1

    Happy new years Matthew, I hope this year brings you joy and thank u so much for your positivity in the life stream today and tysm for the shoutout❤

  • @marvincloud3842
    @marvincloud3842 23 дні тому +2

    I like you. We never know what tomorrow will bring. Embrace the good and let the bad roll off your back. When we think about it, we are all miracles.

  • @centerstage-42
    @centerstage-42 22 дні тому +1

    Happy New Year Matt! This is the Spidey dude Chris, coming at you from my own content creation UA-cam channel for musical theater! Keep up the awesome work, and from one creator to another, YOU GOT THIS! I support you 💯😎

  • @dennisk.441
    @dennisk.441 23 дні тому +2

    Happy New Year my friend. New Year - New opportunities. 🥂💪❤️

  • @jimv2094
    @jimv2094 23 дні тому +2

    Hello my man, this is a amazing video, the things you say here are great, when you say about bringing things forward that need to come forward, I get that so much ,I also get a lot of the others things, that you said about the rag on the post made me smile, because I'm like that with certain things I see ,and some things of that nature almost have a philosophical meaning to them , sometimes, it's like some cars I see in the scrap yards , ( not all but some) seem to give off a feeling of sadness, it's hard to explain, but you could say they sum up lots of life, once they were new , loved, looked after , the best thing since sliced bread, but they got a bit older and maybe needed a bit of work or help, but after all that loyal service to there owners they were thrown in the scrap , just like lots of us , once we are no longer 21, I'm sure you get what I mean, anyway happy new year to you my man, I've sent you a few pics on snap, your amazing my friend , I really love you so much, ❤️ XXX.

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +2

      Jim, thank you so much for your thoughts in this comment my man you are truly amazing and I hope you are enjoying the holiday season

  • @noosamark
    @noosamark 23 дні тому +3

    Matthew, My prayers are with you. Take care mate,

  • @mikethorn70
    @mikethorn70 23 дні тому +4

    Birds of a feather flock together. I'm listening, I'm hearing you. Now hear me, you are my friend, you are not alone, you may feel alone sometimes but, remember. . . . You are not alone and I love you. Look forward to seeing you tonight. Till then be safe, take care, see ya soon, hugs for Nana and Papa ♥️💙🤗🤍🖤

  • @Pravda224
    @Pravda224 23 дні тому +2

    Yes, the world is cold and unforgiving. You just have to plow through it with self confidence.

  • @conceicaoalvesdasilva555
    @conceicaoalvesdasilva555 4 дні тому +1

    great message. I loved it.

  • @ジェシーウォルター
    @ジェシーウォルター 23 дні тому +3

    Happy New Year's Eve, Matthew! Hope you're having an amazing day!

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +1

      Happy New Year's Eve to you as well! 🖤

  • @perrycomeau2627
    @perrycomeau2627 23 дні тому +2

    I'm down sizing too. Enjoy.

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 23 дні тому +4

    Matthew i love you 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 your so beautiful 😍

  • @ricwhelan8523
    @ricwhelan8523 23 дні тому +4

    Matthew... do you speak to your real friends like this ? What about the people you work with ?
    Just wondering.
    The internet is a strange place filled with strange people.
    Happy NY btw from 🇦🇺Australia

  • @baldbeardedbloke6887
    @baldbeardedbloke6887 23 дні тому +2

    Life is strange and hard but the best you can do is Stay Positive.

  • @erik0073
    @erik0073 23 дні тому +2

    Happy New Year to you, Matthew! 🎉

  • @janvanhouten2699
    @janvanhouten2699 23 дні тому +2

    well said, just back home from new years party was ok. and now to bed it is 2:25 in the morning

  • @ChrisA-u3t
    @ChrisA-u3t 23 дні тому +4

    This resonates with me, bro !

  • @7728abbott
    @7728abbott 23 дні тому +3

    10K subs. coming soon, Matthew.

  • @dg1442
    @dg1442 23 дні тому +2

    Your greatest enemy is yourself…. Be your own reason to smile!!!

  • @galaxyninja287
    @galaxyninja287 23 дні тому +2

    Hey Matt, im on my other acc and I will be there for your live!

  • @Godfranci
    @Godfranci 21 день тому +2

    With God = Matthew everything is possible! God

  •  23 дні тому +3

    Hey Matthew, hope you have a wonderful New Year, my friend. Keep going. No matter what, you got this! :-) Please let me know if you would like to chat about whatever, and share, rant, vent, advise, care, compare, listen, talk, anything. Ok? Would Love to be part of your healing and success. Love You Bro! :-)

  • @tbecon
    @tbecon 23 дні тому +3

    Hi Matthew. I am not sure that railing against generic life is valuable, we need to have or develop a purpose, it's purpose that give us value in life, in fact, purpose and value can be used interchangeably. You are providing a service here, assisting strangers online, that is a good start. The world in a cold and miserable place? I washed my car and then went to the park to exercise today. Sun shining everywhere but a single cloud came and rained on me as I was on the trail and rained on my freshly washed car. As I was approaching my car to take cover and leave, I saw a double rainbow. I chose to see the beauty of the rainbow's vs complaining about getting a little damp. That was my choice. I grew up in a very negative family, always looking for the pessimistic perspective but I trained myself to look for the positive/beauty because I didn't want to be miserable as those around me, again my choice. Everyone has the opportunity to chose their perspective. To repeat: I am not sure that railing against generic life is valuable, it just makes us negative nelly's. My parents died in a murder suicide domestic violence situation, right in front of me when I was a kid, the most pointless of acts. I was 3 ft from the end of that gun and still do not know why I was spared to this day other than to assume that God had a purpose for me. It's hard for me to complain that I have to get up, go to work, take care of my responsibilities when I was fortunate to survive that act of violence and continue to live. Daily general life is a blessing to me and I just struggle with how it can that much of a burden so I assume that life isn't the issue, there must be something much deeper driving such negativity in our culture and we seemed to have lost our ability to survive and overcome. It's worries me to see so much angst in the world and so little appreciation that we are alive and still have opportunities, to he honest, it just breaks my heart and brings me to tears. I wish you and your YT community a happy and prosperous new year and hope that we develop the persistence and determination we need to thrive and be content. Stay positive. 😉

  • @1wayticket1
    @1wayticket1 23 дні тому +2

    Life is always hard but if you battle through it you will come out of the other side better and possible happier. But if you leave it till the last minute it will not happen, and you will be happy. If you have the right person to look after you and will listen to you, they will interact with you and help you to become happy again.

  • @yveshouel377
    @yveshouel377 22 дні тому +1

    We're all alone un this weird planet,the people at your north won't be the same as those in your funerals.😢

  • @night5091
    @night5091 23 дні тому +2

    Yup….way life is, people come and go. Others you might still talk to, but rarely see. You just have to make best of what have. In your world anyway. If not happy, then eventually need to make a move. Great that you’re younger. Just gives you time man. But this is a wacky world. Though we try to do right thing. It’s way too early to go tomb stone shopping! Stay positive bud.

  • @johnconway4161
    @johnconway4161 23 дні тому +4

    hi Matthew great video i hope i can watch your live stream one day

  • @kimsanchannel3920
    @kimsanchannel3920 19 днів тому +1

    Hello Matthew ✨️
    I hope you are feeling well, I've
    been working so much. life is weird and hard and its never going to be perfect to enyone. I think that you more hardness in life we are going true makes us stronger, it's a constant learning and circumstances shapes our lives
    and decisions we constantly are doing every day. So even if we had everything in life thats makes us happy is just temporary, joy is temporary, but we should do everything that's makes us happy
    Its how we do it and when.but what do i know , It's just my toughs. Maybe we get all the answers when we die, maybe everyone has a desteny that we
    Can't control. I hope that you have a nice day. Kim 🌠

  • @Pravda224
    @Pravda224 23 дні тому +2

    A video of life perspective should not be a video of deception.

  • @andyoneironaut5385
    @andyoneironaut5385 23 дні тому +3

    It's almost 2025 here in Germany. It's just a new year. You should keep looking for answers and they will be given to you.
    yours Andy

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 23 дні тому +2

    Matthew this sounds weird but the other day I was scrolling down on the UA-cam channel page to see want I can want ok so was then on my page came to your video that time it was the first time seeing you so was not sure to click on your video but my heart to told me to I was thinking and thinking do so I did click on your video I enjoy your video and what you were saying actually some one told to click on your was respect it so yeah I think was god came to me or someone did so I no this weird bc why you and I can help each others problems. This not first time this happened to me I had it to with my good best friend a message to help him I try and try then we came together to care each others he was dealing with demons or Satan that what he told me yes I had hard to with each other but later on he came to me to talk and to save him yes we fight a lot of times but we make up and forget and move on then one he actually told that I was is idols he like me to be around he trust me to. So we got stronger with friends, brothers. I never gave up on him I was there with each day talk, walk, hang out, listen, laugh he also told me dark places that you went you can't tell me what he told it is secret that I promise not tell anyone at all. Meanwhile he went down go to the hospital a lot times then finally day that came in room he woke me asking for some money that I told him I don't have any money so ok he told me he love me he will be right back home going get something but In the morning he never came back home every staff was looking for him then 2 staff came to me about him I told the truth so they were looking everywhere of him so later they found him inside the hotel with a friend or someone but he never woke up so they call 911 but it was to late he died from overdose, drinking some came to me the bad news about my good best friend I actually broke down crying I blame myself every one it was not my fault at all but I should stop him or did something I let him down

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому +1

      One thing I'm learning more is
      We can't be responsible for the actions of others .
      We can only try to a positive influence on others .
      We are human and can't save everyone .
      From what I understood, I wouldn't blame myself as it doesn't sound like you caused anything .
      The next step would be to Make Peace with what happened. And Honour the Living and Deceased

    • @ronniecincotti
      @ronniecincotti 23 дні тому +2

      @adrianhempfing2042 yes I do so understand you.. yes I no that but I try my best and yes I am so sorry what to him that I could do more but it happened he actually came to me told me that It was not my fault at all to and still love me to. I believe when he told me that.

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому

      @@ronniecincotti 🫶🙂

  • @richardwade6256
    @richardwade6256 23 дні тому +2

    Totally agree with every word.

  • @summer27619
    @summer27619 18 днів тому +1

    yeah/true , hoping you're doin' ok , *bro-hug*

  • @stephenveldhoen
    @stephenveldhoen 23 дні тому +2

    Happy New Year Matthew in 025!

  • @Tux-YT
    @Tux-YT 22 дні тому +2

    I personally do NOT believe people are 100% in control of their lives and things will be what they want.

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  22 дні тому +1

      I believe this is true

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 23 дні тому +2

    Matthew i am so sorry to so much. I also i love you too Matthew. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🎈🥳🎉💕💕🥰🥰

  • @jedixfettx8404
    @jedixfettx8404 20 днів тому +1

    So profound. Let’s start a podcast!

  • @alexstridiron334
    @alexstridiron334 23 дні тому +3

    True 💯

  • @Elora-i1f
    @Elora-i1f 23 дні тому +3

    Happy new years❤🎉

  • @brianjohnson1346
    @brianjohnson1346 23 дні тому +1

    factor in the "time goes faster and faster" principal and 26 years old is halfway... click that cow!

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +1

      lolllll

    • @brianjohnson1346
      @brianjohnson1346 23 дні тому +1

      @ lol. U laugh now…. I’m lookin at it from the other end and it’s pretty accurate

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 19 днів тому +1

    Matthew i am sooo sorry whatever i did and say i am to much to you Matthew. I am not a bad person or weird or crazy. I am a good person have a heart of gold will do anybody. I do so love you so much 💜💜💜 i really mean that to. I don't say it if i don't mean it. I really do so. I love you so much to.

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 22 дні тому +1

    Myself is not bad person. I have a gold heart and caring, loving.. I am so sorry mm

  • @Sneaks_2006
    @Sneaks_2006 23 дні тому +2

    It’s New Year’s Eve my man how you feeling currently?

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +2

      I am feeling all right my man definitely better than I’ve been feeling the past few days. I hope you are doing well and enjoying the holidays yourself.

  • @noosamark
    @noosamark 23 дні тому +2

    Happy New Year Matthew. Get some sleep now!

  • @chris-q1w1r
    @chris-q1w1r 23 дні тому +4

    Happy new years eve

  • @backpackmatt
    @backpackmatt 23 дні тому +3

    MMXXV is going to be so skibidi! 🐧🍎🍏💙

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому

      Maybe Matthew needs to visit Ohio and let us if it deserves the bad wrap.
      We know Matthew has got the Rizz

  • @cityguyusa
    @cityguyusa 21 день тому +1

    Your hair grows so fast.

  • @kellidowd1873
    @kellidowd1873 23 дні тому +2

    Depends who you are existing for

  • @derrelkizis7865
    @derrelkizis7865 23 дні тому +1

    Happy New Year Matthew! Goodbye to 2024😢

  • @Christianismyname
    @Christianismyname 22 дні тому +1

    Keep it up brother

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 23 дні тому +2

    Matthew i hope that you had a beautiful day. Yes i hope that your alright. Please don't be sad Matthew you are so beautiful to be sad. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🎈🎈🎈🎈🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹. Matthew i wish you have a happy new years to and i wish that your life get better to. By your in the videos that your in pain and i am so sorry that want you are so going through and feel,. emotions. I will pray for you to. Ok please stay warm, stay strong, smile more, be safe and careful to also hope that you have a wonderful night also to. Good night Matthew. With a hug. With 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜🫂

  • @trippyseedsindeedz
    @trippyseedsindeedz 23 дні тому +3

    still off the smoke lad? I'm finishing my stash and thats it. Ive quit before and always feel better mentally after a few weeks. Smoking is great at first but if your struggling with any mental health issues its just not worth it, it can make me so paro over nothing. keep the vids coming!

    • @OwenAllen-z9b
      @OwenAllen-z9b 23 дні тому +3

      Dont drugs just magnify what a person is feeling? At any rate, Jesus is the only....the only---way to find peace and a purpose in life.

    • @Steinweg100
      @Steinweg100 23 дні тому +2

      All the very best in the world for your decision! I wish you strength fortitude and determination

    • @tbecon
      @tbecon 23 дні тому +2

      Awesome comment. I appreciate the positive message vs the enabling messages that gets posted on occasion. Real friends deal in truth sometimes and you have shown yourself to be a true friend. Good luck with you sobriety.

  • @diamindwirt792
    @diamindwirt792 23 дні тому +1

    Another car video you rock 💪🏼

  • @TheLondonTransportDroid
    @TheLondonTransportDroid 23 дні тому +2

    Would you rather not exist 😂

  • @supreme_elmo
    @supreme_elmo 23 дні тому +2

    Are you gonna stream today?Stay positive brother

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +1

      i’ll be streaming shortly brother

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому

      ​@mxttthxw tonight being a special event NYE , would you pass on any Donos to St Judes ?
      If yes maybe add that to title of the stream so people know it's not a normal , helping Matthew with funds

  • @Comeback-k4y
    @Comeback-k4y 23 дні тому +2

    You have a great view of life. I think that you look like a philosophy professor or genius.👍

  • @FabriceLEQUEUX
    @FabriceLEQUEUX 23 дні тому +4

    2024 IS GOING TO END I HAVE HAD TWO PLEASURES THIS YEAR HAVING TO BOYS MY TWINS AND KNOWING YOU HELP ME A LOT I AM 21 YEARS OLD AND I CAN UNDERSTAND YOU I WISH YOU AND YOUR LOVED ONES THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THINGS FOR 2025 I AM DOING THIS FOR YOU KISS YOUR FRIEND FABRICE HI MATTHEW you re not sad it s the world that s ugly

  • @Idk-h6v3s
    @Idk-h6v3s 23 дні тому +4

    I can’t wait for ur live tonight

  • @paulsimpson307
    @paulsimpson307 23 дні тому +5

    Well, what do you want to do, Matthew. In the last two weeks, your videos have been about how life has treated you. You need to make a plan and move forward with it. I also think that smoking is having a detrimental effect on your mental health. This is affecting your thought process.

    • @Steinweg100
      @Steinweg100 23 дні тому +2

      I so regret that that is so!

    • @tbecon
      @tbecon 23 дні тому +2

      Another great message of truth and encouragement.

  • @ShipsoftheOceans
    @ShipsoftheOceans 12 днів тому +1

    Is it easy being a Gen Z? Existing as a Gen X I feel is a nightmare.

  • @user-lx3oi6xy2e
    @user-lx3oi6xy2e 23 дні тому +3

    You're extra fluffy again ❤️

  • @GeorgeSchultz-ht1xz
    @GeorgeSchultz-ht1xz 23 дні тому +2

    You are not weird you are smart enough to be who you are in life you have to decide what you want in your life if you want to be with a guy or girl because I want to be with you and love you i will care for you and I will do anything to be with you being with a guy would be good for you and trusting a guy who can love you and make you feel better and he can care more about you then any other girl can do that for you a guy can treat you more better than a woman and he can love you and be honest with you

    • @mxttthxw
      @mxttthxw  23 дні тому +1

      thank you so much for this comment

    • @adrianhempfing2042
      @adrianhempfing2042 23 дні тому

      A bf or gf can still cause a broken heart

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 22 дні тому +1

    It look like I am no good for anyone to.

  • @adamszpojda
    @adamszpojda 23 дні тому +2

    I see that it's getting harder for you. Go to a mental health professional and let them help you. It's not just talking about your crisis, it's also pharmacological support. It will help you free yourself from too many burdens. You've clearly been through too much bad in your life and it's piled up so much now that you can't go on on your own. Help yourself before it's too late.

  • @Earthandweather
    @Earthandweather 23 дні тому +2

    After this video, what am I going to do? Well...I think I'll go out for dinner and have a nice single malt scotch poured over a few cubes of ice. Tomorrow, I plan on recording the bass lines to the new song I'm trying to workout. With any luck, I'll be happy with it and be able to commit to a final version. If not - I'll just keep working on it. What are you going to do? Try to do something that "accumulates". BTW - You should take a listen to the band Rush. Read the lyrics too. If you sing-along I thin k it will elevate your spirits. You might want to start with their albums - Signals & Presto. "The Pass" is quite an emotive song to which, I believe, you'll find relate. I wish you well in 2025.

  • @ronniecincotti
    @ronniecincotti 23 дні тому +2

    Matthew i love you so much 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

  • @Raven_Luna_Tick
    @Raven_Luna_Tick 23 дні тому +2

    I know it's morbid, but in response to your story about the guy. With serious wounds where disfigurement of the face and head is present, Morticians/Funeral Directors, won't allow open casket service. I think it might put your in a different perspective if you went and talked to a Mortician/Funeral director. Maybe volunteer and put those nursing skill to use.

  • @r4h4al
    @r4h4al 23 дні тому +3

    Car vlog!

  • @White_Voi.d----3
    @White_Voi.d----3 23 дні тому +3

    Love the vid 🤍