I grew up without a dad , and let me say with a mom that didn’t care much, life was like hell. The trauma and pressure and stress and depression from it all is just hell. When you have nothing but drunks telling you what to do it’s really hard to learn anything. I wish my dad lived to teach me even the littlest things like how to tie a tie. But now I’m 19 and still can’t do it let alone fix my own car ever time it breaks. Every day feel like a failure even if I worked a 14 hr shift leaving with no energy left in my body. I just want someone to let it all out on but when that person shows up I always have to act tough because that’s what I taught myself. I had to be tough throughout it all and it’s all I know anymore. I just push through it all while letting it come out as anger on the few people left i talk to in my family and that also makes everyday worse especially when you think about how you just got angry at someone for no reason and now they’re probably wondering what they did to make you mad but really it’s just all the anger build up from your past. Really hope someone relates and I’m not just losing my mind.
Thank you jordan 2x. I owe you alot.
After I lost my grandma in 2020 before everything went to shit from Covid I screwed my head on correct and been getting it ever sense
Thank you so much for this and more
I grew up without a dad , and let me say with a mom that didn’t care much, life was like hell. The trauma and pressure and stress and depression from it all is just hell. When you have nothing but drunks telling you what to do it’s really hard to learn anything.
I wish my dad lived to teach me even the littlest things like how to tie a tie. But now I’m 19 and still can’t do it let alone fix my own car ever time it breaks. Every day feel like a failure even if I worked a 14 hr shift leaving with no energy left in my body. I just want someone to let it all out on but when that person shows up I always have to act tough because that’s what I taught myself. I had to be tough throughout it all and it’s all I know anymore. I just push through it all while letting it come out as anger on the few people left i talk to in my family and that also makes everyday worse especially when you think about how you just got angry at someone for no reason and now they’re probably wondering what they did to make you mad but really it’s just all the anger build up from your past. Really hope someone relates and I’m not just losing my mind.
I need help
Wah wah