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Ive always been a linkin park fan and i relate in many ways to alot of the songs and emotions, and i can relate to you in some ways, the last 16 years have been a battle mentally , emotionally and physically. October 5 2005 my son was born but due to being 15 weeks premature october 17 2005 he passed , november 28 2005 my exwife called me from my best friends house and told me she was moving in with him and wanted a divorce so i gave her a divorce and moved back in to help take careof my parents my father had just had open hear surgery he had a 5 way bypass my mother was a one legged amputee who couldnt physically care for my father so i took care of them but come december of 2005 my mother wound up in the hospital with a massive infection that included MRSA but December 27 2005 she developed gangrene from the infection and went septic my mother then passed december 28 2005. March of 2006 a very close friend i grew up with because her mother and my mother were best friends was t boned in an intersection by a drunk who ran a redlight she spent atleast 3 days in icu but the same night of her accident her mother who was like a second mother to me had a massive heart attack and died. In six months nearly everyone and everything i loved and cared about died or left or was nearly killed life as i knew it crumbled around me. No holiday or anything has been the same since so i get you and understand you. Currently im awaiting a disability hearing due to a birth defect that nearly paralyzed me from the waist down im 36 years old and ever since i was a child ive always complained my back legs and feet hurt or would lose feeling and for 34 years ive been told i was too young or i just needed to lose weight that there was nothing wrong with me so i forced myself to work and live with pain. Finally i got some good pain management doctors and a neurosurgeon and when the both looked at my MRI's the asked how i managed to walk into the office both of them said that my spinal cord and sciatic nerves were so crushed that i shouldn't be able to walk i was then finally diagnosed with sever Congenital spinal stenosis (birth defect sever narrowing of the spinal canal)from L4-S3, degenerative disc disease, bulging disc at L4-L5 and a herniated disc L5-S1. Unfortunately after surgery to prevent my spine from severing my spinal cord i still have alot of pain and sensation loss that i may have for the rest of my life and its bad enough that i cannot return to either of the careers i trained for i cant work as a paramedic because theres too much risk of me losing sensation and harming a patient and when i had surgery i was working as a correctional officer in a prison 6 year CO veteran now i cant work and ive always been one who was always doing something and doing nothing takes its toll all of it dose so i understand and can relate to how u feel this time of year
@@kagekenturo Your story remind me of the life of Poe, who also lost everyone close to him. My heart breaks for all you have been through. I'm proud of you for continuing to fight. I think the thing that really keeps me going on some days is realizing that it's now my responsibility to share the love of those I've lost with the world. My parents, my baby, my friends. All those who have passed, I have to find ways to connect with them and share that energy. Perhaps you are needing to think of other things you can do to contribute that are less physically demanding. I definitely understand the need to act and do something! I'm here if you ever need to talk.
That is my go-to song to process throughout the holidays. I've celebrated the holidays rather quietly in recent years and was just happy talking to family on the phone for a few minutes. Honestly, I miss Chester as well. And that song perfectly exemplifies how he processes his emotions. Stay safe and have a happy and peaceful holiday! 🎄❄️⛄
😮Yass! This is My Go-To song! I’ve been listening to this every year for the past 10 yrs! His beautiful voice makes me feel good. He understood us, unfortunately we Really didn’t understand him! 😢rip Chester 💔
My interpretation of the lyrics as they resonated was that, his “December” was his cold place that he would escape to mentally, shutting people out. I’ve definitely been here and still go there more often than not. Pointing to my snow covered trees (the little things that I have when I shut out friends and family mentally). It could be a hobby or in my case a habit that allows me to numb everything when I don’t feel like being bothered, when truly I feel like I need someone or somewhere to go to with a loved one, friend or even pet to at least feel the love. I would give “it all” (my snow covered trees, etc.) away, to have someone to go home to. Finally coming out of my shell. Depression is tough!!!! Especially when you don’t feel that your feelings can be understood. This song hits home with me. Thanks for sharing your reaction.
Stay strong Amanda, Winston Churchill (our leader during WW2) suffered from heavy depression and once said - "If you're going through Hell - keep going". Chester once said in an interview that one of his strategies was to spend a few moments with his son each day and literally count their blessings. Some people might think well that's easy for you Chester - you're a rock star and have millions but he wasn't talking about that, he was talking about the simple things that money cannot buy. In another interview after Chester passed Ryan Shuck (his long time friend and bandmate in Dead By Sunrise) revealed that Chester told him that his 'Dream Job' would be a mental health counsellor. Thank you for sharing your journey and inspiring a lot of people to "keep going";
@@MentalAmanda I truly believe that you are right on pointe there Amanda because Chester gifted us with so much more than his music and art. I have never met Jaime but I have never been any less than totally inspired every time I see this amazing young man continue his father's legacy of helping those in need and loving all. Complete respect also to the brave and selfless commitment that Talinda (and Vicky Cornell, Yourself & others) have done in raising awareness of mental health issues and talking so candidly.
One more light live always hit me the hardest. Chester did so much for mental health awareness and understanding. His greatest gift to the world before his passing
Hi Amanda, The moment when you was starting to cry has broken my heart and I had to start crying as well. I can't remember the last time I cried. This song helped me to overcome my depressions in the past but they are back right now. I just suppressed them. Today I was witness of a suicide on a train station. This brought me back to this song and remembered me to get some help. I never want to end in suicide. For all the people worldwide who feel sad and face hopelessness right now. You are never alone. Best wishes and love for you all from Germany.
stone sour hesitate is a special song for me cos its a song that my dad liked not long before he died i still find it hard to even talk about it without getting sad I miss him every day
i sincerely hope you have a good Christmas. I'll be struggling with the loss of my aunt who was like a mother to me. She died in September so this will be first Christmas without her. The grief is still very near because her power of attorney over her was in the hospital with Covid like she was so we had to postpone the funeral until about 3 weeks ago. I tired and exhausted from going to funerals. But hopefully time will heal everything.
Give yourself space and don't listen to anyone's (even societal) expectations. You need time to grieve and recharge. Take time away and honor her and feel whatever you need to feel. We've got your back.
Lost my mom 2 weeks before my wedding. And my dad just before New Years years ago. I know the pain. Stay strong. More people have the struggle than people want to admit.
@@MentalAmanda Thanks I've come to grips with it. We all have struggled... but it have people that can help you over come them is what is important. I learned along time ago to deal with things. My son helped me cope. And I tried to teach him the same. Wishing you well. And if you need help you can find me.
This song has meant so much for me. I recently lost a friend and my 16 year old dog that is my child. Ppl can laugh but my wife has PCOS and we've never been blessed with a child. Just knowing that a new beginning is in front of you has helped me.
This is a really beautiful channel. I appreciate you being open all the time with feelings no matter how close to the heart and intimate. You're a beautiful person and I adore what you're giving to everyone with this outlet my dude. You were given an outlet and you had so many things to choose to make out of it and you chose to make something pretty and honest and I just have to respect the fuck out of that. I'm 100% not emotional today at all
This is one of those special songs that I can only pull out when I need to let the pain go. Good to know that I'm not the only one who cries to this song.
This is hands down, by far one of my favorites from LP. I have to listen to this every yr Bc it helps me cope. I had to restart the vid Bc I thought there was a glitch in the beginning of ur vid. I cried cried along with u💗 😔
Your such a strong person... You sharing the pain gives the voiceless a voice, and the unseen a light to see ... Your a beautiful soul and the world truly needs you and more people like you, I understand it's hard... But they say if you help even one person it's worth it.... You've helped with more than I can put into words this year.. thank you so much Amanda, for everything you do
My December.. There is pain inside me, I manage to accept him. Sometimes he comes out. It's ok, it's part of me. I know, I said he. I gave him a personality. somebody I have to live with. LPs songs give me the power to celebrate that pain, and get out stronger. My December, One more light, Numb.. You changed my life.. You made me suffer and, at the same time, you made me stronger... We miss you Chester, we do really miss you so much. @mentalAmanda thanks for this 😘
Any time people talk shit about them changing after Meteora I direct them to this song. They always mixed it up. Slower songs existed but weren’t as common. They have a little of everything.
Hi Amanda. Hope you're doing OK. First of all I wanted to say sorry for your loss. Also- thanks for the video. Always happy to watch. Thank you. Happy holidays to everyone. ❤
I listen to this song a lot, and I really love it. It's one of those songs where all of the lyrics have meaning to me. I never teared up listening to it though...Until today. Thank you. I needed this, I think.
I don’t know if you’ll see this but the saddest thing before Chester Passed, I felt something was telling me something bad was going to happen to someone in Linkin Park about a month before the incident 💔 my 2 poodles also passed a year apart from 2017 and 2018 so that was really a rough time for me. Aswell as trying to manage my anxiety and thoughts. Hope you’re doing well 🤍 Linkin Park is still my favorite band of all time. #MakeChesterProud 💙
I know this is an old video so you probably won't see this. Every time I see you cry in a video it destroys my heart. I don't know you but I feel you so completely. I've dealt with so much loss and sadness over the years. I fight my own mental health battles every single day and sometimes I feel like I'm losing. I'm alone in every single way. I have no one in my life that cares. That makes it so much harder. Anyway, just know that I know you even though I don't and I love you.
Amanda and Everyone who has came to this page Loss is one of the Hardest things we have to deal with to Loose a Loved one is Incredibly Hard it is very hard at certain times of year especially The Festive Season. We have all gone through it and it is hard to See light & Positivity But Please Please Remember This That Loved One Had a Impact on you Thus They Are Part of You and will always be Within you Forever Yes Its Hard but Focus On the Times You Shared Everybody Please stay safe and Be Positive
Such a beautiful song and I love your reaction, so honest and raw, makes me feel better about always crying during songs. I miss Chester, I miss my Poppy (grandpa), and I miss my friend Cassie. Merry Christmas Amanda and I wish nothing but happiness for you and everyone here! 😊
I miss him alot too. We will never hear his inner thoughts the last months or longer,but i cant help but think the obvious. How insanely close he and Chris Cornell were,how Chester would light up of joy whenever he saw him. And how he fought to compose himself several times on Jimmy Kimmel,honoring Chris. It was probably that last thing that made it all too difficult to carry for him. Another reactor said something interesting "this man went out of his way to help soo many people,but we didnt manage to help this 1 man that needed it the most". It was a beautiful thing that made me think,but obviously he had difficulties reaching out to others with what bothered him. 🤗
I'm a newbee on your channel and i've binge watched a lot of videos last night. I made me feel a little better.. So.. A virtual hug from Amsterdam the Netherlands and have a nice and peaceful Xmas .
Hi, Amanda. What a beautiful song... Wow. When de loose somebody, out live changes. I miss my parents since 1996 ans 2011. The pain never disappears but we must be strong and show a smilling face even if we are cold inside. Life is hard but we can make it better.
LINKIN PARK and Chesters music saves my life too. I’m 43 and NUMB was the song that hit me hardest because it describes my life to a T. When Chester lost his battle it broke my heart but was lucky enough to see them live!!
@@MentalAmanda they were amazing. He sang Rolling in the deep by Adele and I liked it better than her version. His music helped me come back from taking a massive overdose where I was clinically dead for 2 mins and my ex who’s a nurse managed to keep me going to the ambulance got there. I’m clean now and work as a addiction counsellor
@@redandwhitearmy3166 I never liked her version but love his. I'm SO proud of you for getting clean and using your experience to help others! Superhero status!
I lost my dad about two years ago. It never gets any easier. For me, I listen to Knights in White Satin by the Moody Blues or Brothers in Arms By Dire Straights when I miss him. They were two of his favorite songs. But im not sure if i could listen to them right now. Your stronger than you think purposefully listening to this to bring out the pain. Thanks for sharing.
I lost my dad in 05 and there are still days where the grief is crippling. I found starting a memory journal and finding ways to honor his memory and share his love with the world really helps.
Happy holidays & merry Christmas to you! Love the reaction! If you want something lighthearted, funny and in the Christmas spirit to react to, may I suggest Dropkick Murphys "The Season's Upon Us" :)
😓This is one of my favorite songs! It's a great winter song. I like it when it randomly plays in my songs.🤘🖤 If you have time, check out Limp Bizkit - 'When it rains.' It's also a great winter song, and a nu metal ballad.
This and one more light which I assume as a big LP fan and from comments is another fave, I would love to see more Chris Cornell and Taylor Momsen and Sully Erna along with the classic Eddie Veder I am a huge fan of all and they seemed to be a close group of friends and amazing vocalists all dealing with similar stories and all very amazing singers.P.S my december was always since I was 8 when my great gran died which wouldnt seem much to most people but untill then we would spend every sunday round her house for dinner with all my fathers side of the family and that december we went to my aunts and I didnt realise how ill she was, as a kid I got in a shared car and expected her to be there later but it left me without actually saying any kind of goodbye to her. I carry that memory every year to this day.
"Eyes are the window to the soul", they say. I just reached a milestone, 10 years of Kundalini meditation - while I can fend off any form of negative energy without putting any effort in it, my eyes are still not completely clear. Your eyes show galaxies and beyond.
For the last three years, my adopted sister and I have done Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's Eve via Skype. Ps: This morning, I dropped 25 on your patron. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you and your son.
This song, from your view hits me hard. I am 44, soon 45, with both parents aging and struggling with health. I have no sibling, no nieces or nephews. Small group of cousins on my mother’s side, non on my father’s. I am the last, will be the last, to carry the name Gaps. I have no partner or significant other, and no children, will never have children. When my parents are gone, what is left? Every day I feel this more.
I didn't have my son, had no family at all and my friends were on the other side of the country. I was completely alone. If I can survive (though I will admit, barely), anyone can!
@@MentalAmanda , it’s something I feel most of the year. I see my friends putting so much energy into their children. That is our future after all. I don’t know what to put my energy into. Being single doesn’t help either. I imagine I am not the only one in this situation.
Always was one of my favorite songs by them. I was absolutely in awe the first time I heard it because I didn't know it existed till after Meteora dropped. For some more upbeat tunes to react to, I would really recommend the band Icon for Hire, particularly "Theater" or "Make a Move". Or, a bit more somber but a damn good song about overcoming an abuser, "Only a Memory" is amazing. *Edit: I was typing this before the video ended, that story about your parents made me smile.
Damn, I forgot how sad this song makes me feel. I'm happy to have seen them live before we lost him. This song makes me think of all that I lost because of my brain injury. Makes me feel like crying but I can't due to my injury. Why did you have to react to this, you're evil,lol. Yes, I'd do anything to feel love accepted. I have to remember that it's okay to feel vulnerable and show it but it's hard as a man and Marine. I hate showing my vulnerability because I feel I'm not a "man" and Marines are supposed to be hard and stoic. If you read all of this I am grateful. This video hit me hard. And I feel the emotion and sincerity in your words, thank you.
It takes more strength to be emotionally vulnerable. That's a secret society has tried to hide. Emotions are natural and not gender specific. As for being evil.....#notsorry #maniacallaugh
Amazing!! Special Request: The band is STAIND and the is called “something to remind you” LIVE VERSION This mans ability to convey emotions through his voice and music is unparalleled. I think everyone at some in at some point can relate to this song. He was also dear friends with Chris Cornell SoundGarden/ Audio Slave who passed away and also Chester Bennington from Linkin Park who unfortunately took his life shortly after Chris passed. So it’s a tough song for him to perform. If you could please react to it, it would be such a gift. I’m 39 years old with PTSD and seen so much, all the up’s and downs, so many friends that have left too early and this song really does say it all. Sorry for getting too personal, this track just means so much to me. Anyway, sorry for getting too personal. Blessings from Texas
Dear Amanda , you helped me through so much ( you have no idea ) since I found your channel I really wish you could react to " clouds" with there song " the forever sleep " but I think this will never happen because there is no music video for this song...... But this song is basically how I feel all the time ..... 😔
I got a song for you. Korn-No Ones There. It’s a song I come back to time to time. It’s a song that when I’m depressed it gives me a out of body experience. You hear Johnathon Davis pours his heart out in it.
Incredible good news!!! I found out that Brown County, WI has a community outreach social worker on call, trained for wellness checks!!! Its a small win for mental health, but a win is a win! WHY I found this out wasn’t as pleasant. I am disabled from it, so I’m familiar with how it all goes. I went in for a few days. It’s not a vacation, but just getting a sleep and eating schedule back, and no responsibility, other than to go with the flow. AVOID AT ALL COST, the corporate, cookie cutter, insurance monsters!!! Find a real hospital. It can help, if you let it.
AJ from Backstreet Boys also paints his nails and he's been doing it longer than Chester did. In fact he has his own nail polish company that he created with his daughter. If your son wants to paint his nails then lethim because there are famous man who do it and they don't get picked on for it. If anyone says anything tell them to worried about what they are doing not what your son's doing because that's your job not theirs.
I just found out my sister's husky passed away😢😢 My sister got him as a puppy and 2 years later my sis was killed on a freeway accident. Father died 2020 and mom on 22. Husky help my brothers and I grieving. And now his gone😢😢😭💔. I cannot stop crying 😢
I remember losing my mom's dog in 2017 (a decade after my mom's passing), the day after Christmas and falling apart because I kept thinking "this was the last living part of her" until my friend messaged me and said, "You're wrong, YOU are the last living part of her. How are you going to give love to the world like her dog gave to you in her memory?" It took me some time to process. I cried daily for weeks. Crying is perfectly natural when we lose someone we love so much that was such a security blanket for us. Take all the time you need to grieve. 💖
I know what you mean because I've done a lot of bad things in life and taking ex girlfriend for granted and I just wish I could be helped or to be excepted for who I am but now for what I had done in the past 😟😟
I'm sorry that you went through divorce... Its weird for guys to fill for divorce. Yea Chester was a great person that exhausted himself. Can you react to Linkin Park - System?
This is my first holiday (2023) with no family 😢. I lost my sister 2013, father 2020, mom 2022. It hurts, it's tough...... I love linkin Park. Grew up in the nineties.... I love all grunge bands. I play NIRVANA AND ALICE IN CHAINS UNPLUGGED during the Holidays 😌 I miss mom's deep fried Tamales.
The first holidays are absolute hell. I went and saw Sweeney Todd in theaters first Christmas without my mom (she passed in 07, dad had passed in 05 and I had no siblings) because I felt dark and bitter. Don't feel pressured to do any of the holiday stuff. Get through the season and connect with your lost loved ones in YOUR ways! Even if it means trying to nail mama's tamale recipe all season instead of baking cookies!
@MentalAmanda Agree. My birthday is on December 19th. I have so many great memories. I'll try to do some holidays stuff. Living in sunny L.A. I look forward to some cool cold weather ❄️ ⛄️
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Ive always been a linkin park fan and i relate in many ways to alot of the songs and emotions, and i can relate to you in some ways, the last 16 years have been a battle mentally , emotionally and physically. October 5 2005 my son was born but due to being 15 weeks premature october 17 2005 he passed , november 28 2005 my exwife called me from my best friends house and told me she was moving in with him and wanted a divorce so i gave her a divorce and moved back in to help take careof my parents my father had just had open hear surgery he had a 5 way bypass my mother was a one legged amputee who couldnt physically care for my father so i took care of them but come december of 2005 my mother wound up in the hospital with a massive infection that included MRSA but December 27 2005 she developed gangrene from the infection and went septic my mother then passed december 28 2005. March of 2006 a very close friend i grew up with because her mother and my mother were best friends was t boned in an intersection by a drunk who ran a redlight she spent atleast 3 days in icu but the same night of her accident her mother who was like a second mother to me had a massive heart attack and died. In six months nearly everyone and everything i loved and cared about died or left or was nearly killed life as i knew it crumbled around me. No holiday or anything has been the same since so i get you and understand you. Currently im awaiting a disability hearing due to a birth defect that nearly paralyzed me from the waist down im 36 years old and ever since i was a child ive always complained my back legs and feet hurt or would lose feeling and for 34 years ive been told i was too young or i just needed to lose weight that there was nothing wrong with me so i forced myself to work and live with pain. Finally i got some good pain management doctors and a neurosurgeon and when the both looked at my MRI's the asked how i managed to walk into the office both of them said that my spinal cord and sciatic nerves were so crushed that i shouldn't be able to walk i was then finally diagnosed with sever Congenital spinal stenosis (birth defect sever narrowing of the spinal canal)from L4-S3, degenerative disc disease, bulging disc at L4-L5 and a herniated disc L5-S1. Unfortunately after surgery to prevent my spine from severing my spinal cord i still have alot of pain and sensation loss that i may have for the rest of my life and its bad enough that i cannot return to either of the careers i trained for i cant work as a paramedic because theres too much risk of me losing sensation and harming a patient and when i had surgery i was working as a correctional officer in a prison 6 year CO veteran now i cant work and ive always been one who was always doing something and doing nothing takes its toll all of it dose so i understand and can relate to how u feel this time of year
@@kagekenturo Your story remind me of the life of Poe, who also lost everyone close to him. My heart breaks for all you have been through. I'm proud of you for continuing to fight. I think the thing that really keeps me going on some days is realizing that it's now my responsibility to share the love of those I've lost with the world. My parents, my baby, my friends. All those who have passed, I have to find ways to connect with them and share that energy. Perhaps you are needing to think of other things you can do to contribute that are less physically demanding. I definitely understand the need to act and do something! I'm here if you ever need to talk.
If you need some songs for your channel I’d recommend ghost by badflower I cried because of the video theme
I read that you got divorced and don’t understand why someone would want to not be with you because you are a beautiful girl
@@redandwhitearmy3166 I initiated the divorce because the relationship was very unhealthy. And beauty isn't everything!
Chester had so more EMOTION AND RAW POWER that hits home. RIP CHESTER AND CHRIS CORNELL 💔
That is my go-to song to process throughout the holidays. I've celebrated the holidays rather quietly in recent years and was just happy talking to family on the phone for a few minutes. Honestly, I miss Chester as well. And that song perfectly exemplifies how he processes his emotions. Stay safe and have a happy and peaceful holiday! 🎄❄️⛄
😮Yass! This is My Go-To song! I’ve been listening to this every year for the past 10 yrs! His beautiful voice makes me feel good. He understood us, unfortunately we Really didn’t understand him! 😢rip Chester 💔
My interpretation of the lyrics as they resonated was that, his “December” was his cold place that he would escape to mentally, shutting people out. I’ve definitely been here and still go there more often than not. Pointing to my snow covered trees (the little things that I have when I shut out friends and family mentally). It could be a hobby or in my case a habit that allows me to numb everything when I don’t feel like being bothered, when truly I feel like I need someone or somewhere to go to with a loved one, friend or even pet to at least feel the love. I would give “it all” (my snow covered trees, etc.) away, to have someone to go home to. Finally coming out of my shell. Depression is tough!!!! Especially when you don’t feel that your feelings can be understood. This song hits home with me. Thanks for sharing your reaction.
Stay strong Amanda, Winston Churchill (our leader during WW2) suffered from heavy depression and once said - "If you're going through Hell - keep going". Chester once said in an interview that one of his strategies was to spend a few moments with his son each day and literally count their blessings. Some people might think well that's easy for you Chester - you're a rock star and have millions but he wasn't talking about that, he was talking about the simple things that money cannot buy. In another interview after Chester passed Ryan Shuck (his long time friend and bandmate in Dead By Sunrise) revealed that Chester told him that his 'Dream Job' would be a mental health counsellor. Thank you for sharing your journey and inspiring a lot of people to "keep going";
I am friends with his son, Jaime, and I think the healing spirit just runs in the family because he has that same drive to help and heal!
@@MentalAmanda I truly believe that you are right on pointe there Amanda because Chester gifted us with so much more than his music and art. I have never met Jaime but I have never been any less than totally inspired every time I see this amazing young man continue his father's legacy of helping those in need and loving all. Complete respect also to the brave and selfless commitment that Talinda (and Vicky Cornell, Yourself & others) have done in raising awareness of mental health issues and talking so candidly.
One more light live always hit me the hardest. Chester did so much for mental health awareness and understanding. His greatest gift to the world before his passing
Hi Amanda, The moment when you was starting to cry has broken my heart and I had to start crying as well. I can't remember the last time I cried. This song helped me to overcome my depressions in the past but they are back right now. I just suppressed them. Today I was witness of a suicide on a train station. This brought me back to this song and remembered me to get some help. I never want to end in suicide.
For all the people worldwide who feel sad and face hopelessness right now. You are never alone. Best wishes and love for you all from Germany.
I am sorry that you are struggling but I'm beyond happy that you are getting help 💖
I understand. Much love from SC to Germany. 🇩🇪
Awww, bless you. I hope you're doing better! RIP Chester
I hope the last 2 years have been so much better for you. You are cared for. We love you too. And we all miss Chester ❤.
I'm sorry that you're struggling. I hope you have a wonderful Christmas. And I hope you find your special someone.
stone sour hesitate is a special song for me cos its a song that my dad liked not long before he died i still find it hard to even talk about it without getting sad I miss him every day
Him singing Crawling live to the crowd with no music gives me chills
No matter how u feel u will always be a daughter ..
i sincerely hope you have a good Christmas. I'll be struggling with the loss of my aunt who was like a mother to me. She died in September so this will be first Christmas without her. The grief is still very near because her power of attorney over her was in the hospital with Covid like she was so we had to postpone the funeral until about 3 weeks ago. I tired and exhausted from going to funerals. But hopefully time will heal everything.
Give yourself space and don't listen to anyone's (even societal) expectations. You need time to grieve and recharge. Take time away and honor her and feel whatever you need to feel. We've got your back.
@@MentalAmanda thank you. It's getting easier.
Lost my mom 2 weeks before my wedding. And my dad just before New Years years ago. I know the pain. Stay strong. More people have the struggle than people want to admit.
That's heartbreaking!
@@MentalAmanda Thanks I've come to grips with it. We all have struggled... but it have people that can help you over come them is what is important. I learned along time ago to deal with things. My son helped me cope. And I tried to teach him the same. Wishing you well. And if you need help you can find me.
This song has meant so much for me. I recently lost a friend and my 16 year old dog that is my child. Ppl can laugh but my wife has PCOS and we've never been blessed with a child. Just knowing that a new beginning is in front of you has helped me.
Dogs are family, period.
This is a really beautiful channel. I appreciate you being open all the time with feelings no matter how close to the heart and intimate. You're a beautiful person and I adore what you're giving to everyone with this outlet my dude. You were given an outlet and you had so many things to choose to make out of it and you chose to make something pretty and honest and I just have to respect the fuck out of that. I'm 100% not emotional today at all
This is one of those special songs that I can only pull out when I need to let the pain go. Good to know that I'm not the only one who cries to this song.
Please don't cry Amanda, you make my ayes full of tears! :/
That was a interesting first minute of the video, déjà vu, edit or take. Nice. 😁 I thought I was having a brain fart. Happy holidays to you. *hugs* 😢
This is hands down, by far one of my favorites from LP. I have to listen to this every yr Bc it helps me cope. I had to restart the vid Bc I thought there was a glitch in the beginning of ur vid. I cried cried along with u💗 😔
Your such a strong person... You sharing the pain gives the voiceless a voice, and the unseen a light to see ... Your a beautiful soul and the world truly needs you and more people like you, I understand it's hard... But they say if you help even one person it's worth it.... You've helped with more than I can put into words this year.. thank you so much Amanda, for everything you do
Keep shining bright Amanda. Thank you for your inspiration and your light. Merry Christmas love!
I saw them in concert twice..and it was such an amazing concert. This song is so underrated for sure….love your videos
My December.. There is pain inside me, I manage to accept him. Sometimes he comes out. It's ok, it's part of me. I know, I said he. I gave him a personality. somebody I have to live with. LPs songs give me the power to celebrate that pain, and get out stronger. My December, One more light, Numb.. You changed my life.. You made me suffer and, at the same time, you made me stronger... We miss you Chester, we do really miss you so much. @mentalAmanda thanks for this 😘
Any time people talk shit about them changing after Meteora I direct them to this song.
They always mixed it up. Slower songs existed but weren’t as common. They have a little of everything.
Hi Amanda. Hope you're doing OK. First of all I wanted to say sorry for your loss. Also- thanks for the video. Always happy to watch. Thank you. Happy holidays to everyone. ❤
Death. Christ. Family. So much in my December. I'm scared again
December is a heavy month for many. It's okay to be scared. Just remember that you aren't alone.
I don't know you but I hope you're doing okay
I listen to this song a lot, and I really love it. It's one of those songs where all of the lyrics have meaning to me. I never teared up listening to it though...Until today. Thank you.
I needed this, I think.
I love the re-animation version of this. I'm a december baby so this hits home for me.
I don’t know if you’ll see this but the saddest thing before Chester Passed, I felt something was telling me something bad was going to happen to someone in Linkin Park about a month before the incident 💔 my 2 poodles also passed a year apart from 2017 and 2018 so that was really a rough time for me. Aswell as trying to manage my anxiety and thoughts. Hope you’re doing well 🤍 Linkin Park is still my favorite band of all time. #MakeChesterProud 💙
We're all mental!
@@MentalAmanda mental squadd 😅💪❤️🩹
I know this is an old video so you probably won't see this. Every time I see you cry in a video it destroys my heart. I don't know you but I feel you so completely. I've dealt with so much loss and sadness over the years. I fight my own mental health battles every single day and sometimes I feel like I'm losing. I'm alone in every single way. I have no one in my life that cares. That makes it so much harder. Anyway, just know that I know you even though I don't and I love you.
You aren't alone. You can message me anytime. I care.
Amanda and Everyone who has came to this page Loss is one of the Hardest things we have to deal with to Loose a
Loved one is Incredibly Hard it is very hard at certain times of year especially The Festive Season.
We have all gone through it and it is hard to See light & Positivity But Please Please Remember This That Loved One
Had a Impact on you Thus They Are Part of You and will always be Within you Forever Yes Its Hard but Focus
On the Times You Shared Everybody Please stay safe and Be Positive
Such a beautiful song and I love your reaction, so honest and raw, makes me feel better about always crying during songs. I miss Chester, I miss my Poppy (grandpa), and I miss my friend Cassie. Merry Christmas Amanda and I wish nothing but happiness for you and everyone here! 😊
I miss him alot too. We will never hear his inner thoughts the last months or longer,but i cant help but think the obvious. How insanely close he and Chris Cornell were,how Chester would light up of joy whenever he saw him. And how he fought to compose himself several times on Jimmy Kimmel,honoring Chris. It was probably that last thing that made it all too difficult to carry for him. Another reactor said something interesting "this man went out of his way to help soo many people,but we didnt manage to help this 1 man that needed it the most". It was a beautiful thing that made me think,but obviously he had difficulties reaching out to others with what bothered him. 🤗
I understand your pain. Lost my mother and son I same month. December. I feel it every year.
BEAUTIFUL REACTION AMANDA, have a merry blessed xmas ♥i love LP and Chester, miss him
I'm a newbee on your channel and i've binge watched a lot of videos last night. I made me feel a little better.. So.. A virtual hug from Amsterdam the Netherlands and have a nice and peaceful Xmas .
Vocals are a lot more haunting now that he's gone
Hi, Amanda. What a beautiful song... Wow.
When de loose somebody, out live changes. I miss my parents since 1996 ans 2011. The pain never disappears but we must be strong and show a smilling face even if we are cold inside.
Life is hard but we can make it better.
LINKIN PARK and Chesters music saves my life too. I’m 43 and NUMB was the song that hit me hardest because it describes my life to a T. When Chester lost his battle it broke my heart but was lucky enough to see them live!!
I saw them live too even if my seats were crap!
@@MentalAmanda they were amazing. He sang Rolling in the deep by Adele and I liked it better than her version. His music helped me come back from taking a massive overdose where I was clinically dead for 2 mins and my ex who’s a nurse managed to keep me going to the ambulance got there. I’m clean now and work as a addiction counsellor
@@redandwhitearmy3166 I never liked her version but love his. I'm SO proud of you for getting clean and using your experience to help others! Superhero status!
I'm sending you a great big virtual wrap around hug.
The one song that still brings me to tears to this day is To Build a Home by Cinematic Orchestra❤️
I lost my dad about two years ago. It never gets any easier. For me, I listen to Knights in White Satin by the Moody Blues or Brothers in Arms By Dire Straights when I miss him. They were two of his favorite songs. But im not sure if i could listen to them right now. Your stronger than you think purposefully listening to this to bring out the pain. Thanks for sharing.
I lost my dad in 05 and there are still days where the grief is crippling. I found starting a memory journal and finding ways to honor his memory and share his love with the world really helps.
Happy holidays & merry Christmas to you! Love the reaction!
If you want something lighthearted, funny and in the Christmas spirit to react to, may I suggest Dropkick Murphys "The Season's Upon Us" :)
😓This is one of my favorite songs! It's a great winter song. I like it when it randomly plays in my songs.🤘🖤 If you have time, check out Limp Bizkit - 'When it rains.' It's also a great winter song, and a nu metal ballad.
woooow long time no see :D amazing seeing you react to Linkin Park again, hope you doing okay.
happy holidays / merry christmas
i love you amanda, keep it going 💓💗💕
This and one more light which I assume as a big LP fan and from comments is another fave, I would love to see more Chris Cornell and Taylor Momsen and Sully Erna along with the classic Eddie Veder I am a huge fan of all and they seemed to be a close group of friends and amazing vocalists all dealing with similar stories and all very amazing singers.P.S my december was always since I was 8 when my great gran died which wouldnt seem much to most people but untill then we would spend every sunday round her house for dinner with all my fathers side of the family and that december we went to my aunts and I didnt realise how ill she was, as a kid I got in a shared car and expected her to be there later but it left me without actually saying any kind of goodbye to her. I carry that memory every year to this day.
"Eyes are the window to the soul", they say. I just reached a milestone, 10 years of Kundalini meditation - while I can fend off any form of negative energy without putting any effort in it, my eyes are still not completely clear. Your eyes show galaxies and beyond.
I didn't miss the NSYNC bit. I remember you and I joking about them a couple of months ago under the breaking the habit video 😁
For the last three years, my adopted sister and I have done Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's Eve via Skype. Ps: This morning, I dropped 25 on your patron. Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you and your son.
Thank you so much!!!!! Merry Christmas!
I lost both my parents to. It sucks being an orphan
Please feel free to share your favorite memories of them here.
Yeah last month I lost my great uncle to covid and its been tough for me so seeing your positive outlook on life is inspirational to me
I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you find peace and healing.
This song, from your view hits me hard. I am 44, soon 45, with both parents aging and struggling with health. I have no sibling, no nieces or nephews. Small group of cousins on my mother’s side, non on my father’s. I am the last, will be the last, to carry the name Gaps. I have no partner or significant other, and no children, will never have children. When my parents are gone, what is left? Every day I feel this more.
I didn't have my son, had no family at all and my friends were on the other side of the country. I was completely alone. If I can survive (though I will admit, barely), anyone can!
@@MentalAmanda , it’s something I feel most of the year. I see my friends putting so much energy into their children. That is our future after all. I don’t know what to put my energy into. Being single doesn’t help either. I imagine I am not the only one in this situation.
@@davidgaps6589 Yourself
Always was one of my favorite songs by them. I was absolutely in awe the first time I heard it because I didn't know it existed till after Meteora dropped.
For some more upbeat tunes to react to, I would really recommend the band Icon for Hire, particularly "Theater" or "Make a Move". Or, a bit more somber but a damn good song about overcoming an abuser, "Only a Memory" is amazing.
*Edit: I was typing this before the video ended, that story about your parents made me smile.
Happy Valentine's day ❤️
Damn, I forgot how sad this song makes me feel. I'm happy to have seen them live before we lost him. This song makes me think of all that I lost because of my brain injury. Makes me feel like crying but I can't due to my injury. Why did you have to react to this, you're evil,lol. Yes, I'd do anything to feel love accepted. I have to remember that it's okay to feel vulnerable and show it but it's hard as a man and Marine. I hate showing my vulnerability because I feel I'm not a "man" and Marines are supposed to be hard and stoic. If you read all of this I am grateful. This video hit me hard. And I feel the emotion and sincerity in your words, thank you.
It takes more strength to be emotionally vulnerable. That's a secret society has tried to hide. Emotions are natural and not gender specific. As for being evil.....#notsorry #maniacallaugh
@@MentalAmanda sorry, I just now saw this. Have you heard Shadow Of The Day by them? It's another tear jerker.
@@MentalAmanda OH, also Valentines Day.
i hope that you are having a B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L christmas holidays!
Amazing!!
Special Request: The band is STAIND and the is called “something to remind you” LIVE VERSION
This mans ability to convey emotions through his voice and music is unparalleled. I think everyone at some in at some point can relate to this song. He was also dear friends with Chris Cornell SoundGarden/ Audio Slave who passed away and also Chester Bennington from Linkin Park who unfortunately took his life shortly after Chris passed. So it’s a tough song for him to perform. If you could please react to it, it would be such a gift. I’m 39 years old with PTSD and seen so much, all the up’s and downs, so many friends that have left too early and this song really does say it all. Sorry for getting too personal, this track just means so much to me. Anyway, sorry for getting too personal. Blessings from Texas
I’m crying 💔
Dear Amanda , you helped me through so much ( you have no idea ) since I found your channel I really wish you could react to " clouds" with there song " the forever sleep " but I think this will never happen because there is no music video for this song...... But this song is basically how I feel all the time ..... 😔
you would like "aftermath" by the ghost inside
Going through the same thing, stay strong beautiful
I got a song for you. Korn-No Ones There. It’s a song I come back to time to time. It’s a song that when I’m depressed it gives me a out of body experience. You hear Johnathon Davis pours his heart out in it.
I LUV your yellow hand stamp
It is actually a tattoo of the Triforce from The Legend of Zelda.
My personal favorite Linkin Park song ever
Incredible good news!!! I found out that Brown County, WI has a community outreach social worker on call, trained for wellness checks!!! Its a small win for mental health, but a win is a win! WHY I found this out wasn’t as pleasant. I am disabled from it, so I’m familiar with how it all goes. I went in for a few days. It’s not a vacation, but just getting a sleep and eating schedule back, and no responsibility, other than to go with the flow. AVOID AT ALL COST, the corporate, cookie cutter, insurance monsters!!! Find a real hospital. It can help, if you let it.
Luv you Amanda BAD
Buildings burn. People die. But real l love is forever
Ok I can't watch this one. Seeing you like this hurts me. Words are escaping me right now.
Damn girl, you are making me cry.
AJ from Backstreet Boys also paints his nails and he's been doing it longer than Chester did. In fact he has his own nail polish company that he created with his daughter. If your son wants to paint his nails then lethim because there are famous man who do it and they don't get picked on for it. If anyone says anything tell them to worried about what they are doing not what your son's doing because that's your job not theirs.
We have some of AJ's polish! It's called Ava Dean and is vegan and cruelty free!
Have you heard one more light by linkin park? It is eery when you know what happened soon after
It is my go to song that I listen to when I lose someone. Chester's passing deeply affected me.
Please do Alice in Chains Don’t follow or Nutshell! I battle every day with depression and these songs have helped me immensely!
I am trying my best to smile
But I cannot pretend to be ok
You don't have to pretend here. You don't have to smile. Be you. Get out what you need to get out. Surround yourself with people that understand.
7:15 hugs* aaaw wish I could give you a hug or something, idk what I would do if my parents where no longer here, for sure I would feel lost sigh...
I LOVE this song. ❤️
I just found out my sister's husky passed away😢😢
My sister got him as a puppy and 2 years later my sis was killed on a freeway accident. Father died 2020 and mom on 22. Husky help my brothers and I grieving. And now his gone😢😢😭💔. I cannot stop crying 😢
I remember losing my mom's dog in 2017 (a decade after my mom's passing), the day after Christmas and falling apart because I kept thinking "this was the last living part of her" until my friend messaged me and said, "You're wrong, YOU are the last living part of her. How are you going to give love to the world like her dog gave to you in her memory?" It took me some time to process. I cried daily for weeks. Crying is perfectly natural when we lose someone we love so much that was such a security blanket for us. Take all the time you need to grieve. 💖
@@MentalAmanda 💙💙💙
Esto me hizo llorar😩😭
You'd like "panic attack in paradise" by "ashnikko"
I know what you mean because I've done a lot of bad things in life and taking ex girlfriend for granted and I just wish I could be helped or to be excepted for who I am but now for what I had done in the past 😟😟
We will accept you for who you are!
I'm sorry that you went through divorce... Its weird for guys to fill for divorce.
Yea Chester was a great person that exhausted himself.
Can you react to Linkin Park - System?
I'd love for you to react to Seratonia by Highly Suspect, the video. I feel like it is a good take on depression. Great channel!
Listen the kroq version
What talking about do you have heath problems?
You should really check out Linkin park "easier to run" and "given up"
im all ways sed and loney
Hi sweetheart I just want to wish you a Merry Christmas and your family too be safe and enjoy keep rocking to LOL
Rammstein Spring ^^
Mayhem - Life Eternal next.
Hey i have 2021 so much thinks ex
And i have bean little deprisive im from the netherlands sorry for my bad englisg but yeah now it's going well whit my deprisive
Amanda it would suck without you
Hi!!!! could you see the song of system of a down, Lonely day. It’s a great song!!
Where is indi🙏
Have you ever dug into Type O Negative?
Could you please react to the song Across The Line by Linkin Park please 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
This is my first holiday (2023) with no family 😢. I lost my sister 2013, father 2020, mom 2022. It hurts, it's tough......
I love linkin Park. Grew up in the nineties.... I love all grunge bands. I play NIRVANA AND ALICE IN CHAINS UNPLUGGED during the Holidays 😌
I miss mom's deep fried Tamales.
The first holidays are absolute hell. I went and saw Sweeney Todd in theaters first Christmas without my mom (she passed in 07, dad had passed in 05 and I had no siblings) because I felt dark and bitter. Don't feel pressured to do any of the holiday stuff. Get through the season and connect with your lost loved ones in YOUR ways! Even if it means trying to nail mama's tamale recipe all season instead of baking cookies!
@MentalAmanda Agree. My birthday is on December 19th. I have so many great memories. I'll try to do some holidays stuff. Living in sunny L.A. I look forward to some cool cold weather ❄️ ⛄️
Need u to react indonesian song called simba by anantavinnie !! Hope u'll react to it ! Thankss