You are talking a lot about your dreams and what your husband wanted, when you were 23 yo. But life is not only about you and your husband anymore. You have kids. They also have to live with the consequences of your husband's and your decisions. Obviously your mental health should have abolute priority. But if pursuing a professional tennis career at age 31 is the solution for your anxiety and depression, you should take a hard look at the inner beliefs and thought processes that make you come to this conclusion. I have learned that part of growing up is to adjust your goals to the realities of your life and also make peace with the fact that some dreams might not come true and you still can live a happy and satisfied life. Having said all that, I wish you all the best on your journey in tennis and in life.
Stay strong Ema. Problems in our life make us stronger.
You are talking a lot about your dreams and what your husband wanted, when you were 23 yo. But life is not only about you and your husband anymore. You have kids. They also have to live with the consequences of your husband's and your decisions. Obviously your mental health should have abolute priority. But if pursuing a professional tennis career at age 31 is the solution for your anxiety and depression, you should take a hard look at the inner beliefs and thought processes that make you come to this conclusion. I have learned that part of growing up is to adjust your goals to the realities of your life and also make peace with the fact that some dreams might not come true and you still can live a happy and satisfied life.
Having said all that, I wish you all the best on your journey in tennis and in life.