Just found out he passed away 2 years ago. His videos helped us through some very tough times. We white knuckled it after a year long struggle with opiates. It can be done if your mind is strong and resilient enough. Our love for our daughter was our motivation. The key is to find your own motivation. RIP Ryan and may God bless and protect his beautiful family.
I am on day eight and I woke up today for the first time in a very long time, feeling so good. Omg, I feel warm, I feel good. I hope this lasts. I HATE opiates. I was doing over 100mg a day. I feel so much better.
Oh my God same I feel like my life will be boring and I’ll feel like I’ll be missing some thing I’m scared to go through the withdrawal process But I really just want to get off Suboxone I’ve been on it for two years
Was on Perk 10’s for my back for 5 years. Didn’t need them but for 2 weeks. Dr’s kept giving them to me. I’m clean now for 4 months. The first 4 days is HELL but take something to help u sleep at night and you will be a New person starting on the 5th day I promise. I’m 49 and feel 39 already. If I can do it anybody can. Get your mind right first...
Curtis Gupton I want to get there so bad. I’m so nervous to start, and that I’ll be super depressed for super long after giving it up. I’ve had fibromyalgia for 15 years and off n on opiates but just realizing how much my body and mind started changing recently. I feel like I have NO dopamine. No motivation. No joy.
OMG your comment was a blessing I read it and I'm on day 4 and it's just a relief to hear it come from someone who experienced it thank you for your comment and encouragement😀👍
OMG just came across your comment so glad I read it I'm on my 4th day and I feel like crap thanks to your comment gives me hope and encouragement feels better when you hear it from someone who experienced it thank you God bless👍😀
i am 7 days clean from fentanyl/ heroin today. and i can finally feel again...my life is coming back to me..i feel like me again. 💚 if anyone goin thru it just know u can. i was crying for so long thru withdrawals, it gets worse before it gets BETTER !💚💚
You weren't kidding about the sunlight and music chills ! I felt all that today , first day out of detox. That's really so true. I even told some people and they could see the difference in me already saying before I was kind of more slow moving and now I'm very like sharp and alert and I can feel it! Thank you , and I'm watching these videos as I still have some trouble sleeping ....
Korin Burnsed how are you now? Everytime I quit mine completely I go back after 24-48 hours at most. I take 30-60 mg depending on the day. And it’s so hard. I know I’d be better off and eat better and enjoy daily life again more off them.
Same! This is all so so spot on! I thought I would have to pretend to be happy for my family! Surprise! It all comes back stronger! It's your reward for doing the right thing (getting your life back) I know everything will never be perfect.. but I'm not taking anything for granted! New outlook on life! when I look in the mirror I can feel proud and strong! that's huge cause I hated myself! So hard to stop but so worth it! Ryan..can't say it enough...THANKS✌
İn my experience now. When 20 days clean,time flies faster and it starts to look achievable.İt has been 23 days after my last dose. İ once done 40 days off and the last 10 days of 40 days i don't even remember. İ mean life became normal and so easy. İ made that one easy mistake: i talked to my friend (that i smoked with) to say a simple hello and i started using again the point was: İt happens so fast.Burn down all the bridges.
Cant believe hes gone.. RIP Sir Ryan Donelly. you gave me that first push to get clean on my first attempt and the reason I'm now on my 5th attempt and on day 8.
@@livamber202 Know this is late but I just saw your comment. Ryan had a blood disorder that caused him to get blood clots the last one was in his lung and it took his life. So sad, he literally dedicated his sober life to helping as many people as possible. One of a knd
By the way I had been on pain killers for two years due to avascular necrosis of my hips and waiting on Medicare. Finally I got it and will be getting my first hip replacement on 2/23/15 and the left one done 4/4/15. I defiantly will never take narcotic pain killers again cause I don't ever want to be addicted again!!! I miss the real me so much!
@@ant7699 just remember it’s temporary. You feel like you are in a dark cloud for a while because your body isn’t used to producing it’s own happy hormones anymore. It takes time for your body to readjust. You’ve got this!
@@tianarizzo5070. Congrats on being clean so long! Quick question, did you have really bad anxiety weeks after you quit? I’m about 50 days clean but the anxiety is still there. I don’t want to take benzos or anything for it, I just want my brain to heal!
I have tried to say the same exact thing to the handful of people who truly know me and what I’ve been dealing with for the past 10 years. It’s been exactly 10 years since I started using the Fentanyl patches (prescribed all 10 years). I have been clean for 6 months. And it has been great. I have tried to tell people the exact same thing. That I’m happier. I am feeling things I haven’t felt in years, having emotions I haven’t had in years, not because I didn’t want them but because the drug became my focus. I have always loved my wonderful wife who stood by my side through it all. No matter how many times she talked to me and I ignored her. She stuck with me and I feel like I let her and our kids down so bad. But in general I am so much happier and more clear headed. But it’s hard to tell people that without it feeling like some corny punch line or sounding scripted for some rehab commercial or something. But the world feels better. My relationship with my wife is getting back to what it was 10 years ago and it’s great. Better than anything any drug could ever give me.
@@ant7699 yes about 3 years ago, right in the middle of helping so many people, really solid dude. At least his videos are up for people. It was a blood clot and not an od
got clean in prison took six months working out almost everyday to feel normal again got out got a job stress from spoiled bratty people at my work cus a relapse took vics and Xanax for months then got fire got a new job doing labor couldn't find any pain pills but coped a zip of black started using and quit my job lucky I stopped before I took to the next level but been sober for two weeks just starting to feel a lil bit normal again but have low amount s of energy sucks really bad
I'm on day 8. Feeling "ok" I've always lifted weights during my 2.5 year opiate binge up to ~200mg Percs some days. I have lifted weights through the past week of opiate WD. I know that helps. Doing all the rest of the vitamins and protein shakes But Rite now I have rough sleeps, still tough getting out of bed to go to work. And feels like I'm wearing a lead suit, while walking. I know everyone's different and asking for a "feel better timeline" is like asking a stranger what the meaning of life is. ...whatever answer you get you still are gonna be skeptical because let's face it, Our minds at this point aren't very positive. What I will Ask though is with my usage starting small (Like everyone starts) and getting up to ~200mg oxy a day in the past 2.5 yrs. what are the average times of big leaps (feeling better) with an aggressive guy at the gym with that length and strength of doses?
I never have any energy if physically and spiritually drained If feel like the devil is always trying to kick me down in the dirt I look like a ghost im not skinny well built but they years of anguish is starting to show in my face I dont want to die like this but you have no care for life when addicted. The deugs services in the uk have all gone private and seem to be falling apart they barely function ive not seen a drug worker for four month's. You look really well im glad for u.
This is my favorite video you've ever done!!! Wow what a shot of hope in the arm!:-) Just hearing there is a happy life on the other side of addition is what I've needed to hear for years. I thank you enough!!!!!!!! :-)
@@iNREEk how comes... Do hou eat meat? If you do... please drink Beef soup... That will help building ur blood, muscle... And for how many years do you do the thing... And how does it feel i mean the symptoms...
@@lamkavangkhua1459 hardly eat dark meat. Mostly chiken. But thanks I'll try it. Just feels weird and my legs shake at night. Or sometimes randomly. It feels like if I drank coffee. I also get cravings. I hate it. :(
After 6 months I was happier than I have ever been...getting clean was great..I relapsed after 9 months but I was so happy sober...I gotta go though it again and I sware never again will I do this...
Im in new jersey just like you are. Im 17 and I'm scared. Ive been using heroin since i was 15. Ive been snorting 10+ bags a day. I dont even get high anymore.. I just hate feeling the withdrawal. It honestly just kills me. Im done feeling sick and just want to be a regular teenager again. Im on day two of recovery and have never felt so depressed and sick in my entire life. Im watching these videos and its sort of giving me hope but i don't know if i can do it. It doesn't feel like its getting any better.
+Tomern121 That's awful. New Jersey is a drug infested hellhole. It's really bad on the shore where I lived. Oxys and heroin everywhere. You're very young. I would work towards getting off the shit and eventually getting out of such an awful place. Definitely go to school somewhere in the middle of the country. The east coast is loaded with opiates. I'm guessing nearly everyone around you is some kind of drug addict. The best you can do is have the will to get off the junk and get far away from there. Definitely before it is too late or it will become a way of life.
In five years I've not gone more than fives days without. Euphoria is a thing of the past wether from pills or anything else. My punishment will be the inevitable withdrawals that I am reminded of every morning.
I was run over by a car in 1985 . I have and are still taking percocet. Every day . Doctors tell me that all I can do .they cant fix my spine and back . What should I do . Should I smoke weed . If i take pills i have a job if i smoke weed i dont have a job .
Lucy Lu, I am 7 days clean and I can tell you that this isn't the first time I've gone clean. This time is different from the rest of of the other times,, this time its my choice, and it SUCKS AND HURTS! But it can be done. I have lived this hell for 6 years. I don't really know what I'm trying to say but maybe its just telling you to fight like you never have before!
They cant fix my problem, they just keep writing scripts every 30 days Almost 30 years now .. I have stopped taking them for 30 days or so . Only thing I felt was a lot of pain . Would rather take the pills them be in so much pain that I cant move . I feel sorry for every one that got hooked on them that are not in pain . But you make your own choices in life and only you filled the script . And only you can kick the habit.
This is where I am right now.. strictly using to not go through withdrawal :( honestly that's been my situation for over a year.. it's a horrible cycle of hell Every Single Day
My brain is so messed up and I'm miserable. It's been 10 days and today I worked out this morning. I thought I would feel better and energized after and I did not. My day has just gotten worse as it has gone on. I feel like I'm back on day 1. Idk what to do!? I'm starting to feel hopeless again. Even though I've gotten through this before, it took me months before I was my normal self again. I don't want to have to wait months before I feel better. Please help me! I can't go on like this but I know relapsing will only make it worse.
This has been a wild ride. I have tried so many times in 15 yrs but PAWS gets me back on them. I Tapered down from 30mg a day. I feel like such a wimp being addicted to so little. I quit alcohol cold turkey but this stuff... I am on the other side and so looking forward to normal life again. Thank U.
How long did it take you to get off opiates ive been in methadone for about 14 years. I really hope I can get off soon. It is a living hell a pit of hell ive nit had a relationship for a while im 34 now and started reducing again I think its best for me to go to rehab to try do my withdrawal at hope. If you could give me any information to make me have hope I remember last time I got off your right lights were brighter emotions back and I could feel the power of god in my liffe I miss that so mu
How long does it take to not feel so lethargic anymore to feel joy again to feel excited about living! I had to stop taking morphine cause I'm having a hip replacement in 9 days. I did very well in tapering down on my own and now am completely off! Just taking almost every vitamin out there, but I feel so lethargic anyway!
Should I get on antidepressants because of my depression after getting off heroin. Im on methadone but i dont feel the same way that i used to when i was on heroin. I can honestly say that my favorite thing is sleep and if i could sleep 20 hours a day ud be happy. I have panic attacks when im around a lot of people...
Day 4 clean off roxy 30s, Man I'm feeling better Took 120mg of oxycodone a day for 10 years For wounds I got in war. Smoke some cannabis (indica) and get the munchies . LISTEN TO YOUR INNER VOICE, My wallets happier 👍 No more fuckin up only rollin blunts
Honestly I've used Fett for 9 years and been through insaneeeeee cold turkey kicks while locked up and not bit this time I taperd down to useing 2 points every 24 hours then used the same while microdosing bupe 4 times a day while using minimal amounts then I stopped woke up felt a bit anxious to see how o would feel later but been good all day popped some benzos smoked some weed and. I feel great no comedown at all just a really tough taper it took all my will to not use more also I megadosed vit c last 3 days while microdosing bupe but yeah no withdrawal went from 2 gram fetty a day to 2 ps every 24hr in the course of a month then a week at lowest I could get then 3 days with bupe and megadosed vit c no wds first time in over 200 detox mind blown
Day 8 for me im finally getting out of bed my senses are heighting i can smell things its great...i have severe rhumatoid arthritis so the depression cones n goes im tryin so hard..today couldnt walk. I took few excedrin layed down. Thats my problem im always taking care family dogs work crazy hours. I quit job i need to help mysrlf n not kill myself over shit job 40 years to realize
day 17 no percs..My body feels normal again but the depression is a problem Im smoking weed now daily. Funny thing is the weed use to trip me out but I guess after all these yrs of perc popping my brain has been fried
I have been clean now for 3 years after a 21 year addiction. I am so lonely as have no friends that are clean, when trying to make friends I just get judged by my past. Can anyone help me, advise me or anything that doesn't involve lying. Life doesn't seem worth living at times and would rather end it than start using again just for company. I am desperate! Please can anyone help me?
Nicholas James I feel you. I Was an addict for 11 years now 16 months clean. I find this new life so hard to live suffering depression and anxiety, Suicidal thoughts. I wish you lived near me. I would be your friend brother. I hope things get better for you.
Nicholas James I don't have many friends either..ill be your friend. Still on the sub after 7 8 years. I don't have many people to talk to about it that gives a shit or would understand.
There are reasons we started using in the first place, unless that all has been fixed, we will go back to feeling the problems. I have been on and of for 20 years, can't take the pain when off, but i try.
Have you gone to a meeting It's going to be hard since we numb are brain 8 felt more depressed after stopping than I did before I started but I see the light 🦋
That doesn't surprise me brother... I went 13 months completely clean from prescription oxy and still went back. I had to teach myself to pretend to be happy. It's like I lost the ability to sense pleasure from life... I would go through things in life that normally would make me happy and tell myself "this is what makes you happy, start feeling happy". Eventually it got REALLY dark for me and it was a dangerous place. When I went back, I felt normal and everyone around me was so happy! They told me that they(family) couldn't stand being around me when I was clean. When I am on pills, every aspect of my life improves and I become more productive. I've pretty much come to the conclusion I will be dependant for life. The only hope would be being on a deserted island without communication.
8 months is not nearly enough time. It's not magic. It takes time and will. Besides after hard drugs it takes awhile before your brain and body know how to feel happy again. But more drugs aren't the answer.
Can take up to a year, grey period of post acute withdrawal syndrome, it'll be worth it in the long run, opiates as good as they make you feel, are only short term, its not sustainable, you have to sober up eventually, the longer you leave it the worse it might be, Im 25 now, first tried oxy at 17, fell in lust, never felt so much orgasmic bliss, been on suboxone the last few years, which is another trap in itself, trying to taper off it now, switch dependence to a short term acting opiate, then w/d over a week or two, then the PAWS hits, 2018 may be dull and bleak, but this is no way to live, barely existing, So ready for it to be over, I just want to be me, naturally. Lets live guys, lets live.
Light is greater than darkness if that is the case, and you choose an opiated life, look into growing your own poppies for opium, cheap natural alternative to pills or powder, low dose naltraxone - taking micro gram dosage before bed, while you sleep it removes the opis off the receptors, you wake up sober, this keeps you from building physical dependence, so no withdrawal, and helps keep tolerance low, DXM- robotussin cough syrup is said to lower tolerance too, taken an hour before dosing, also use a safe ROA- Route of administration, orally is obviously the safest, plugging has highest BA(bioavailability) next to IV use, but injecting is a whole other ball game, not good for long term use unless you dont care to be here long, practice harm reduction and you can live a fairly normal healthy life on opiates, they're not nuerotoxic so shouldn't fry your brain. All the best to you sir.
Everywhere I search I find discouraging information saying "the brain is permanently damaged from opiates" and "you lose the ability to feel pleasure again forever" it really gets me down..I just pray that it's not true :(
Christina Kuykendoll i just saw your comment.. i relapsed. Im 5 days now though.. i told my mom the truth. She actually is helping instead of freaking out.. which was a relief. Right now im just dealing with trying to deal with this identity crisis. I did roxys and heroin for sooooo long. Years.. im past the worst part of withdrwal. And my withdrawl was HELL man.. audig82@gmail.com if you need to talk.
I hope you made it! But this guy is speaking the truth. I was hooked for three years. I'm not bragging but I did it alone, and it sucked! But it's worth it
In my opinion meth is so much harder to get of, it gets into your bones, I recommend doing it raw, a few benzo's will help but don't do them every day or you will end up addicted to them. GOOD LUCK!
This is a nice outcome. Not all outcomes are such. After a serious addiction then withdrawals, I've been oxycontin free 20mths. I thought my life would be bright, I fought so hard to get clean....for what!! To be now classed as an addict. I have a chronic pain condition that I have to endure everyday without relief. A doctor prescribed my oxy, I knew after a few yrs I was sitting on the very edge. I moved city, got clean and now am not trusted with any potentially addictive pain relief. I wish Id never spoken up and make changes. I wished I'd never stopped. I guess not all recovery stories are rainbows n butterflies.
The guy passed away from a pre existing blood clot a couple years back. He helped a lot of people, but his comment section stays alive, if you need advice just post a comment and there will be people replying
Yes, that’s fine for people who aren’t living in chronic pain… and because of you, people who do live in chronic pain are now denied proper opiate medications and are committing suicide… think of that whilst you enjoy your happiness.
@@varthdader6162 there are many people I care for that I wouldn’t say that about… family are not them, I can’t wait for some of my family to expire… yet, I do hold great contempt for those people who have made my chronic pain untenable, and drug addicts or those in “recovery” who have/had an important impact in denial of my necessary opiate medications that are no longer available to me or many thousands others. I’m sorry if this offends your sensibilities.
i know every case is different,but i myself like everyone started small,then got to more and more,point being,there was no possible way to go from say 6 30mgs of oxy or more to none,that was not going to be possible,the withdrawal was crazy pain,the legs,no sleep,never got to throwing up,but the shits and anxiety,i found that if i cut myself back,the physical withdrawal wasn't nothing like that,after tapering down,to where i could actually take a 10mg and feel its affect,and then lesson it to half,when i ran out first day i was fine second day mentally i wanted it but didn't feel as if i didn't get it i would surely die,for me that was the only way,i fell down a few times but quiting can be achieved and stopping the right way is better than going all out and running out,then trying to stop,i even used tramadol at the end just to keep the demon down,i don't know if you ever get to were you once were,but hey that is why its recovery,hope all of you the best keep your heads up,try to lesson the amount you take,and as far as filling your body with a bunch of other shit to make yourself feel better,i don't agree with that,maybe some vitamins and maybe something from the GNC store for energy,but to quit opiates well just seems pointless to go putting a bunch of other shit in the system,slowly decrease your amount and let the body take back what it's lost,in a little while you will be ok,so will i.stay strong and again hope everyone the best.
It's so much better when a person who was a former addict explains these type of things because everything is just spot on relatable
Adon Joey agreed. Unless you’ve been a addict yourself you’ll never understand. Non addicts when never know what a addict has been or goes through!
Just found out he passed away 2 years ago. His videos helped us through some very tough times. We white knuckled it after a year long struggle with opiates. It can be done if your mind is strong and resilient enough. Our love for our daughter was our motivation. The key is to find your own motivation. RIP Ryan and may God bless and protect his beautiful family.
I am on day eight and I woke up today for the first time in a very long time, feeling so good. Omg, I feel warm, I feel good. I hope this lasts. I HATE opiates. I was doing over 100mg a day. I feel so much better.
Very true. I was scared for a long time, thought life would be to boring and that I wouldn't be happy. It's getting better everyday.
Oh my God same I feel like my life will be boring and I’ll feel like I’ll be missing some thing I’m scared to go through the withdrawal process But I really just want to get off Suboxone I’ve been on it for two years
@@mariahkemp969 you can do it FACT
Was on Perk 10’s for my back for 5 years. Didn’t need them but for 2 weeks. Dr’s kept giving them to me. I’m clean now for 4 months. The first 4 days is HELL but take something to help u sleep at night and you will be a New person starting on the 5th day I promise. I’m 49 and feel 39 already. If I can do it anybody can. Get your mind right first...
Curtis Gupton I want to get there so bad. I’m so nervous to start, and that I’ll be super depressed for super long after giving it up. I’ve had fibromyalgia for 15 years and off n on opiates but just realizing how much my body and mind started changing recently. I feel like I have NO dopamine. No motivation. No joy.
Been on hydro's for 9 years I'm bound and determined to stop, I want my life back, ( day 2 of detoxing)
OMG your comment was a blessing I read it and I'm on day 4 and it's just a relief to hear it come from someone who experienced it thank you for your comment and encouragement😀👍
OMG just came across your comment so glad I read it I'm on my 4th day and I feel like crap thanks to your comment gives me hope and encouragement feels better when you hear it from someone who experienced it thank you God bless👍😀
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i am 7 days clean from fentanyl/ heroin today. and i can finally feel again...my life is coming back to me..i feel like me again. 💚 if anyone goin thru it just know u can. i was crying for so long thru withdrawals, it gets worse before it gets BETTER !💚💚
How are you doing dave? I hope you're doing well.
Thank you for making this video. I really needed this.
Even if he's lying. It's good. Lol
You weren't kidding about the sunlight and music chills ! I felt all that today , first day out of detox. That's really so true. I even told some people and they could see the difference in me already saying before I was kind of more slow moving and now I'm very like sharp and alert and I can feel it! Thank you , and I'm watching these videos as I still have some trouble sleeping ....
cindy corona I would love to connect. I need to start this journey...
Korin Burnsed how are you now? Everytime I quit mine completely I go back after 24-48 hours at most. I take 30-60 mg depending on the day. And it’s so hard. I know I’d be better off and eat better and enjoy daily life again more off them.
Same! This is all so so spot on! I thought I would have to pretend to be happy for my family! Surprise! It all comes back stronger! It's your reward for doing the right thing (getting your life back) I know everything will never be perfect.. but I'm not taking anything for granted! New outlook on life! when I look in the mirror I can feel proud and strong! that's huge cause I hated myself! So hard to stop but so worth it! Ryan..can't say it enough...THANKS✌
İn my experience now. When 20 days clean,time flies faster and it starts to look achievable.İt has been 23 days after my last dose. İ once done 40 days off and the last 10 days of 40 days i don't even remember. İ mean life became normal and so easy. İ made that one easy mistake: i talked to my friend (that i smoked with) to say a simple hello and i started using again the point was: İt happens so fast.Burn down all the bridges.
Cant believe hes gone.. RIP Sir Ryan Donelly. you gave me that first push to get clean on my first attempt and the reason I'm now on my 5th attempt and on day 8.
Curtis Carpenter he’s dead ? How did he die ??
@@livamber202 Know this is late but I just saw your comment. Ryan had a blood disorder that caused him to get blood clots the last one was in his lung and it took his life. So sad, he literally dedicated his sober life to helping as many people as possible. One of a knd
Ryan your a solid man! Thanks for what everything you've done to help this situation of mine and many others.
By the way I had been on pain killers for two years due to avascular necrosis of my hips and waiting on Medicare. Finally I got it and will be getting my first hip replacement on 2/23/15 and the left one done 4/4/15. I defiantly will never take narcotic pain killers again cause I don't ever want to be addicted again!!! I miss the real me so much!
thank you, 60 days on monday and days 6-14 you were my anchor. thank you so much
55 days heroin free here. It’s rough at first but there is life after opiate addiction and I haven’t felt this good in years :)
How long did it take to feel good. Days..?
@@ant7699 days… weeks. And here I am almost 5 years later now! 🙏🏼
@@tianarizzo5070 Ah well done mate. That's awesome.
@@ant7699 just remember it’s temporary. You feel like you are in a dark cloud for a while because your body isn’t used to producing it’s own happy hormones anymore. It takes time for your body to readjust. You’ve got this!
@@tianarizzo5070. Congrats on being clean so long! Quick question, did you have really bad anxiety weeks after you quit? I’m about 50 days clean but the anxiety is still there. I don’t want to take benzos or anything for it, I just want my brain to heal!
I have tried to say the same exact thing to the handful of people who truly know me and what I’ve been dealing with for the past 10 years. It’s been exactly 10 years since I started using the Fentanyl patches (prescribed all 10 years). I have been clean for 6 months. And it has been great. I have tried to tell people the exact same thing. That I’m happier. I am feeling things I haven’t felt in years, having emotions I haven’t had in years, not because I didn’t want them but because the drug became my focus. I have always loved my wonderful wife who stood by my side through it all. No matter how many times she talked to me and I ignored her. She stuck with me and I feel like I let her and our kids down so bad. But in general I am so much happier and more clear headed. But it’s hard to tell people that without it feeling like some corny punch line or sounding scripted for some rehab commercial or something. But the world feels better. My relationship with my wife is getting back to what it was 10 years ago and it’s great. Better than anything any drug could ever give me.
Man people need you now more than ever buddy, thanks for the help. Rest in peace brother😃😞
He's dead?
@@ant7699 yes about 3 years ago, right in the middle of helping so many people, really solid dude. At least his videos are up for people. It was a blood clot and not an od
Thankyou this is just what I needed to hear brother!
got clean in prison took six months working out almost everyday to feel normal again got out got a job stress from spoiled bratty people at my work cus a relapse took vics and Xanax for months then got fire got a new job doing labor couldn't find any pain pills but coped a zip of black started using and quit my job lucky I stopped before I took to the next level but been sober for two weeks just starting to feel a lil bit normal again but have low amount s of energy sucks really bad
I'm on day 8. Feeling "ok"
I've always lifted weights during my 2.5 year opiate binge up to ~200mg Percs some days.
I have lifted weights through the past week of opiate WD. I know that helps. Doing all the rest of the vitamins and protein shakes
But Rite now I have rough sleeps, still tough getting out of bed to go to work. And feels like I'm wearing a lead suit, while walking.
I know everyone's different and asking for a "feel better timeline" is like asking a stranger what the meaning of life is. ...whatever answer you get you still are gonna be skeptical because let's face it,
Our minds at this point aren't very positive.
What I will Ask though is with my usage starting small (Like everyone starts) and getting up to ~200mg oxy a day in the past 2.5 yrs. what are the average times of big leaps (feeling better) with an aggressive guy at the gym with that length and strength of doses?
I never have any energy if physically and spiritually drained If feel like the devil is always trying to kick me down in the dirt I look like a ghost im not skinny well built but they years of anguish is starting to show in my face I dont want to die like this but you have no care for life when addicted. The deugs services in the uk have all gone private and seem to be falling apart they barely function ive not seen a drug worker for four month's. You look really well im glad for u.
This is my favorite video you've ever done!!! Wow what a shot of hope in the arm!:-) Just hearing there is a happy life on the other side of addition is what I've needed to hear for years. I thank you enough!!!!!!!! :-)
22 days off....have good days/ bad days but I can feel the healing. Exercise helps ALOT and so does eating lots of veggies and drinking clean water.
Gone but still helping me. Thanks. It's been 3 months and I'm still getting withdrawal 😭😭😭
How comes....walk.out...drink lots of water
@@lamkavangkhua1459 I work out. Go out. Drink tons of water. Its been 5 months. Still get it 😭😭
@@iNREEk how comes... Do hou eat meat? If you do... please drink Beef soup... That will help building ur blood, muscle... And for how many years do you do the thing... And how does it feel i mean the symptoms...
@@lamkavangkhua1459 hardly eat dark meat. Mostly chiken. But thanks I'll try it. Just feels weird and my legs shake at night. Or sometimes randomly. It feels like if I drank coffee. I also get cravings. I hate it. :(
@@lamkavangkhua1459 oh also was taking meds since 2003. Strong shit. Glad I'm off of it. Just tired of getting sick
After 6 months I was happier than I have ever been...getting clean was great..I relapsed after 9 months but I was so happy sober...I gotta go though it again and I sware never again will I do this...
Been on opiates over a decade I have a love hate relationship with them. I am 6 days clean.
How are you doing?
RIP Ryan. You helped so many
Im in new jersey just like you are. Im 17 and I'm scared. Ive been using heroin since i was 15. Ive been snorting 10+ bags a day. I dont even get high anymore.. I just hate feeling the withdrawal. It honestly just kills me. Im done feeling sick and just want to be a regular teenager again. Im on day two of recovery and have never felt so depressed and sick in my entire life. Im watching these videos and its sort of giving me hope but i don't know if i can do it. It doesn't feel like its getting any better.
+Tomern121 That's awful. New Jersey is a drug infested hellhole. It's really bad on the shore where I lived. Oxys and heroin everywhere. You're very young. I would work towards getting off the shit and eventually getting out of such an awful place. Definitely go to school somewhere in the middle of the country. The east coast is loaded with opiates. I'm guessing nearly everyone around you is some kind of drug addict. The best you can do is have the will to get off the junk and get far away from there. Definitely before it is too late or it will become a way of life.
1 week in......the one thing I always did do...was GYM...still doing that.....PRAYERS please
How you getting on?
In five years I've not gone more than fives days without. Euphoria is a thing of the past wether from pills or anything else. My punishment will be the inevitable withdrawals that I am reminded of every morning.
Well done you look very happy it gives me a bit of confidence.
I was run over by a car in 1985 . I have and are still taking percocet. Every day . Doctors tell me that all I can do .they cant fix my spine and back . What should I do . Should I smoke weed . If i take pills i have a job if i smoke weed i dont have a job .
10 days in. Still fighting thru it day by day.
Zofran for nausia.. hydroxyzine for for anxiety, imodium, vit c, calcium, magnesium some melatonin are helping me from fentanyl and methadone withdraw
I feel like I’m never going to get out of this hell.
Lucy Lu, I am 7 days clean and I can tell you that this isn't the first time I've gone clean. This time is different from the rest of of the other times,, this time its my choice, and it SUCKS AND HURTS! But it can be done. I have lived this hell for 6 years. I don't really know what I'm trying to say but maybe its just telling you to fight like you never have before!
They cant fix my problem, they just keep writing scripts every 30 days
Almost 30 years now .. I have stopped taking them for 30 days or so . Only thing I felt was a lot of pain . Would rather take the pills them be in so much pain that I cant move . I feel sorry for every one that got hooked on them that are not in pain . But you make your own choices in life and only you filled the script . And only you can kick the habit.
Rest in peace brother you helped me through some rough times go to your maker
This is a great video. Didn't realise the guys dead. How did he die?
@@ant7699 he died from blood clots
@@JB-pt7sr Yeah. I just found out. Pulmonary embolism Such a shame.
This is where I am right now.. strictly using to not go through withdrawal :( honestly that's been my situation for over a year..
it's a horrible cycle of hell
Every Single Day
Thank you so much for this.
My brain is so messed up and I'm miserable. It's been 10 days and today I worked out this morning. I thought I would feel better and energized after and I did not. My day has just gotten worse as it has gone on. I feel like I'm back on day 1. Idk what to do!? I'm starting to feel hopeless again. Even though I've gotten through this before, it took me months before I was my normal self again. I don't want to have to wait months before I feel better. Please help me! I can't go on like this but I know relapsing will only make it worse.
This has been a wild ride. I have tried so many times in 15 yrs but PAWS gets me back on them. I Tapered down from 30mg a day. I feel like such a wimp being addicted to so little. I quit alcohol cold turkey but this stuff... I am on the other side and so looking forward to normal life again. Thank U.
How are you doing now? Hope everything's going well
How long did it take you to get off opiates ive been in methadone for about 14 years. I really hope I can get off soon. It is a living hell a pit of hell ive nit had a relationship for a while im 34 now and started reducing again I think its best for me to go to rehab to try do my withdrawal at hope. If you could give me any information to make me have hope I remember last time I got off your right lights were brighter emotions back and I could feel the power of god in my liffe I miss that so mu
Matthew how are things going??
You read my mind! Thank you!
How long does it take to not feel so lethargic anymore to feel joy again to feel excited about living!
I had to stop taking morphine cause I'm having a hip replacement in 9 days. I did very well in tapering down on my own and now am completely off! Just taking almost every vitamin out there, but I feel so lethargic anyway!
Should I get on antidepressants because of my depression after getting off heroin. Im on methadone but i dont feel the same way that i used to when i was on heroin. I can honestly say that my favorite thing is sleep and if i could sleep 20 hours a day ud be happy. I have panic attacks when im around a lot of people...
It’s been 22 days since I went off 16mg of Subutex ct, my insomnia has subsided for about the last 4-5 days I just feel weird right now.
Day 4 clean off roxy 30s,
Man I'm feeling better
Took 120mg of oxycodone a day for 10 years
For wounds I got in war.
Smoke some cannabis (indica) and get the munchies .
LISTEN TO YOUR INNER VOICE,
My wallets happier 👍
No more fuckin up only rollin blunts
Honestly I've used Fett for 9 years and been through insaneeeeee cold turkey kicks while locked up and not bit this time I taperd down to useing 2 points every 24 hours then used the same while microdosing bupe 4 times a day while using minimal amounts then I stopped woke up felt a bit anxious to see how o would feel later but been good all day popped some benzos smoked some weed and. I feel great no comedown at all just a really tough taper it took all my will to not use more also I megadosed vit c last 3 days while microdosing bupe but yeah no withdrawal went from 2 gram fetty a day to 2 ps every 24hr in the course of a month then a week at lowest I could get then 3 days with bupe and megadosed vit c no wds first time in over 200 detox mind blown
Rip brother...... RIp
Rip Ryan
Did Ryan Die ?
@@johnstewart1148 yes he passed away quite some time ago now.
@@insolentnik495 great guy ... he’s helped so many people. Thanks for the reply 🙏🏽❤️😊
Day 8 for me im finally getting out of bed my senses are heighting i can smell things its great...i have severe rhumatoid arthritis so the depression cones n goes im tryin so hard..today couldnt walk. I took few excedrin layed down. Thats my problem im always taking care family dogs work crazy hours. I quit job i need to help mysrlf n not kill myself over shit job 40 years to realize
day 17 no percs..My body feels normal again but the depression is a problem Im smoking weed now daily. Funny thing is the weed use to trip me out but I guess after all these yrs of perc popping my brain has been fried
Was just curious where you stand with cannabis?
Great you're right
Thanks for watching!
I have been clean now for 3 years after a 21 year addiction. I am so lonely as have no friends that are clean, when trying to make friends I just get judged by my past. Can anyone help me, advise me or anything that doesn't involve lying. Life doesn't seem worth living at times and would rather end it than start using again just for company. I am desperate! Please can anyone help me?
Nicholas James I feel you. I Was an addict for 11 years now 16 months clean. I find this new life so hard to live suffering depression and anxiety, Suicidal thoughts. I wish you lived near me. I would be your friend brother. I hope things get better for you.
Nicholas James I don't have many friends either..ill be your friend. Still on the sub after 7 8 years. I don't have many people to talk to about it that gives a shit or would understand.
Hey Nic, I've been looking for others in this situation. Please reach out to me on FB if you want to talk.
There are reasons we started using in the first place, unless that all has been fixed, we will go back to feeling the problems. I have been on and of for 20 years, can't take the pain when off, but i try.
chin up never give up have you got a hobby? if not you should go yo yoga classes etc meet loads of friends
What if yu used drugs because yu were sad then yu quit but Yu still can’t find happiness... I lost my will to go on...
I feel that playa i do!!!
Have you gone to a meeting
It's going to be hard since we numb are brain 8 felt more depressed after stopping than I did before I started but I see the light 🦋
I was nearly 8 months clean of shooting dope before I relapsed.
I wasn't happy after 8 months.. would I ever be?..
That doesn't surprise me brother... I went 13 months completely clean from prescription oxy and still went back. I had to teach myself to pretend to be happy. It's like I lost the ability to sense pleasure from life... I would go through things in life that normally would make me happy and tell myself "this is what makes you happy, start feeling happy". Eventually it got REALLY dark for me and it was a dangerous place. When I went back, I felt normal and everyone around me was so happy! They told me that they(family) couldn't stand being around me when I was clean. When I am on pills, every aspect of my life improves and I become more productive. I've pretty much come to the conclusion I will be dependant for life. The only hope would be being on a deserted island without communication.
8 months is not nearly enough time. It's not magic. It takes time and will. Besides after hard drugs it takes awhile before your brain and body know how to feel happy again. But more drugs aren't the answer.
Amen I'm gonna get off them this week so tired of this addiction.
Can take up to a year, grey period of post acute withdrawal syndrome, it'll be worth it in the long run, opiates as good as they make you feel, are only short term, its not sustainable, you have to sober up eventually, the longer you leave it the worse it might be, Im 25 now, first tried oxy at 17, fell in lust, never felt so much orgasmic bliss, been on suboxone the last few years, which is another trap in itself, trying to taper off it now, switch dependence to a short term acting opiate, then w/d over a week or two, then the PAWS hits, 2018 may be dull and bleak, but this is no way to live, barely existing, So ready for it to be over, I just want to be me, naturally. Lets live guys, lets live.
Light is greater than darkness if that is the case, and you choose an opiated life, look into growing your own poppies for opium, cheap natural alternative to pills or powder, low dose naltraxone - taking micro gram dosage before bed, while you sleep it removes the opis off the receptors, you wake up sober, this keeps you from building physical dependence, so no withdrawal, and helps keep tolerance low, DXM- robotussin cough syrup is said to lower tolerance too, taken an hour before dosing, also use a safe ROA- Route of administration, orally is obviously the safest, plugging has highest BA(bioavailability) next to IV use, but injecting is a whole other ball game, not good for long term use unless you dont care to be here long, practice harm reduction and you can live a fairly normal healthy life on opiates, they're not nuerotoxic so shouldn't fry your brain. All the best to you sir.
Some people realy need them . Not everyone is a junky
Everywhere I search I find discouraging information saying "the brain is permanently damaged from opiates" and "you lose the ability to feel pleasure again forever" it really gets me down..I just pray that it's not true :(
Don't believe that crap. I'm still in deotx mode and went for a walk and saw everything so clear and felt a buzz from it and its only four days.
Josh S - Oh so not true. U will feel 10 years younger and more energy than ever, believe me I know.....
@@curtisgupton8475. Honestly how long did It take you? I’m about 50 days clean and the anxiety gets me bad!
2017 anyone? day 2 here.. not too bad yet. Hopefully this time wont be as bad as others..
Austin Hensley day 2 also and i want to die. did you make it past it? Or did you relapse????
Christina Kuykendoll i just saw your comment.. i relapsed. Im 5 days now though.. i told my mom the truth. She actually is helping instead of freaking out.. which was a relief. Right now im just dealing with trying to deal with this identity crisis. I did roxys and heroin for sooooo long. Years.. im past the worst part of withdrwal. And my withdrawl was HELL man.. audig82@gmail.com if you need to talk.
Austin Hensley if your on day 2 and your okay I think you will be alright!! Good luck:)
I hope you made it! But this guy is speaking the truth. I was hooked for three years. I'm not bragging but I did it alone, and it sucked! But it's worth it
Austin G how r u doing now
Very true
It's been 2 years and I'm still majorly depressed from giving up opiates
How are you doing now?
What about methadone? It doesn't come with the euphoric feelings like pain pills and H, any advice?
bianca cullen for me methadone was as hard as any but it's possible.I got off 100mg
In my opinion meth is so much harder to get of, it gets into your bones, I recommend doing it raw, a few benzo's will help but don't do them every day or you will end up addicted to them. GOOD LUCK!
How long did u use it
This is a nice outcome. Not all outcomes are such. After a serious addiction then withdrawals, I've been oxycontin free 20mths. I thought my life would be bright, I fought so hard to get clean....for what!! To be now classed as an addict. I have a chronic pain condition that I have to endure everyday without relief. A doctor prescribed my oxy, I knew after a few yrs I was sitting on the very edge. I moved city, got clean and now am not trusted with any potentially addictive pain relief. I wish Id never spoken up and make changes. I wished I'd never stopped.
I guess not all recovery stories are rainbows n butterflies.
U still post videos on here?? Hope so! Big help!
The guy passed away from a pre existing blood clot a couple years back. He helped a lot of people, but his comment section stays alive, if you need advice just post a comment and there will be people replying
Didn't mean to say what
Do you ever had Hepatitis C
Yes, that’s fine for people who aren’t living in chronic pain… and because of you, people who do live in chronic pain are now denied proper opiate medications and are committing suicide… think of that whilst you enjoy your happiness.
He’s dead…
@@varthdader6162 well, I certainly hope he enjoyed his death… unlike others.
@@wadesprings9214 you wouldn’t say that if it was someone in your family
@@varthdader6162 there are many people I care for that I wouldn’t say that about… family are not them, I can’t wait for some of my family to expire… yet, I do hold great contempt for those people who have made my chronic pain untenable, and drug addicts or those in “recovery” who have/had an important impact in denial of my necessary opiate medications that are no longer available to me or many thousands others. I’m sorry if this offends your sensibilities.
@@wadesprings9214 it helped me get off harder opioids which I used for chronic back pain
i know every case is different,but i myself like everyone started small,then got to more and more,point being,there was no possible way to go from say 6 30mgs of oxy or more to none,that was not going to be possible,the withdrawal was crazy pain,the legs,no sleep,never got to throwing up,but the shits and anxiety,i found that if i cut myself back,the physical withdrawal wasn't nothing like that,after tapering down,to where i could actually take a 10mg and feel its affect,and then lesson it to half,when i ran out first day i was fine second day mentally i wanted it but didn't feel as if i didn't get it i would surely die,for me that was the only way,i fell down a few times but quiting can be achieved and stopping the right way is better than going all out and running out,then trying to stop,i even used tramadol at the end just to keep the demon down,i don't know if you ever get to were you once were,but hey that is why its recovery,hope all of you the best keep your heads up,try to lesson the amount you take,and as far as filling your body with a bunch of other shit to make yourself feel better,i don't agree with that,maybe some vitamins and maybe something from the GNC store for energy,but to quit opiates well just seems pointless to go putting a bunch of other shit in the system,slowly decrease your amount and let the body take back what it's lost,in a little while you will be ok,so will i.stay strong and again hope everyone the best.