I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to Crack, spent my whole life fighting Crack addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder, got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!
I was in Active Opiate Addiction for 20+ years. Took ANYTHING I could get my hands on. I was wearing 3 of the 100 Fentanyl patches and taking about 30-50 pills a day. That wasn’t the worse of it though.. I was so sick of the vicious cycle, Drug Court, Withdrawals, going in & out of jail etc. I put myself into Detox in 2016. I’ll be 8 years Clean & Serene this October.
Ohhh my!! I just read the part of your post that mentioned the pain patches and mannnn that brings back nightmares of me lookin for them just so I could “eat them” and itcc be was such a nightmare time in my life that I’m so glad is over!! I’m so proud of you tooo!! Clean life is the BEST choice❤
My brother 43yo Marine Corp Vet…. Od in motel alone Had no idea he did street drugs or any for that point. Inside me I knew I’d never touch any of “that” cuz I’d end up dead. Sober over 20yrs now. Pain pills is as far as I got. I’m so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry to hear that.... children were created to heal the adults around them and yet most people think that they're here to teach the children, that's the hugest mistake I've witnessed😢 You might like the Ted Talk that states that addiction is about a lack of connection, because either they don't feel connected to parents and family which every child needs to begin with, or they don't feel connected to their higher spiritual self, their own true inner authentic self.. but when you undoubtedly feel connection you will not search externally for other sources to feel good. You will not search for accolades validation or anything from another or the outside world because The feeling good will come from within. Did the son grow up in a house of joy and happiness and a healthy relationship that he could emulate? Did he feel safe and secure within himself, was he encouraged to be his authentic self and be seen and truly heard? Could he follow his Passions and own intuitiveness or was he subjected to what the parents beliefs were? Was there any betrayal from the parents to the child where they weren't supported and encouraged all the time ? Most parents who haven't done their own inner child healing have no idea how children will process the energy within the home❤ but every single being has experienced neglect and Trauma and their childhood and it gets stored in the subconscious which creates our habits behaviors speech patterns and thoughts. children pick up on the energy that is Unsee.... more than even words and actions but they Do sense everything..as highly evolved spiritual energetic beings that sense everything, even when parents are not authentic and completely transparent which they need to be in order for the child to be healthy. Did the parents demonstrate apologies, accountability, following through on their word? Did they show vulnerability, emotions and allow a safe space for children to identify and regulate and express emotions? All of these things impact children in ways parents have no idea about. They cannot honor respect and unconditional love themselves if they did not sense that happening in the home on a consistent basis. And people are only conditioned to search externally for that, instead of searching Within❤
*If this girl didn't have dark hair & dark eyes I would think it was me there talking. I lived the same type of crazy life. I was a heroin & crack addict from 19-35. After too many prison stays, rehabs, halfway homes, detoxes, & psych ward I finally got clean Dec 2015. Coming up on 9 years & I have such a beautiful life today. So very grateful I eventually got the message*
So so happy for you ❤ Addict here on 21ish years? Hardest I got was Vicodin ES. Lost my “addict” bro in 1/20/2020. Never even knew he used anything! We relocated to another state during this time. He was my only sibling. Not close. Toxic upbringing. He used crack heroin & fentanyl. Loss Unexpectedly. Keep it up 👍🏻 please ❤ God bless uou
@@Kristen10-22 I am so sorry for the loss of your brother. Recovery is always possible, but not always achievable due to huge internal pain. 🫂 Congratulations on your recovery!
20 yrs . Wow . God bless you and someone I loved for decades after he lost his life was a boyfriend of mine who I didn't even realize was a heroin addict until after we broke up . ... he was only about 36 when he lost his life to heroin . Some other woman had the Nightmare Horror of waking up to him dead next to her in bed .
Thank you for the encouragement… I’m actually writing one right now and I have some people reach out and try to help me write it, but they wanted to change some things around and make it a little bit more soft and fluffy… I didn’t like that idea, I don’t think people can benefit Like, or even dislike you unless they know the real authentic you so I’m trying to do it on my own and it’s taking a little bit longer as I have to learn all of the steps as I go, but I am doing it and I will definitely post when I have completed it. Nonetheless, thank you for the encouragement and the suggestion. I appreciate you! Much love and respect to you. ❤️🙏🏼
@@jenjengomezJen I totally agree , you have to stay true to yourself and what's the point of telling a true story if it's going to be watered down . Yes please write it in your own voice , your own words . If you're good at editing you can edit and proofread it yourself . If you have any photos or photos of your artwork that you get copyrighted ( and it's very easy to copyright your book as well as your photos through the Library of Congress on the internet ) well then you don't have to pay somebody to do the cover of your book . I really do think you should self-publish through the on-demand publishing and the reason is it might save you money in the long run but I'm not sure . I mean , you could get really lucky with a publishing house that will promote you and pay for you to do the tours onto the morning TV shows and what not to promote the book and to do public readings at various major bookstores ... or you could book those yourself and just be your own promoter and manager ? I've known several people who have published books but regrettably now I only know one and I haven't spoken to her in a couple years but she was not satisfied with her publishing company but didn't explain why . She's a very honest person so I would say you might want to avoid a publishing company called Page . And yes if you could do an audio book for it and have it monetized here on UA-cam a lot of people many many people would certainly listen to the whole thing ... I know I certainly would .
“Recipe for disaster, booty cheeks itchen” 😂😂😂😂 that’s so real. My butt was always full of scratches when I was a pilot popper. I was so proud of my addiction too, I thought I was so cool. How embarrassing! Im glad I found Yahweh
Yep, I was a heroin addict for 22+years, all it takes is once for some people...!! I'm now 79 months sober now and absolutely love sober life...!! Thanks for sharing... Keep up your awesomeness...
I accidentally took heroin one day. I listened to "Miles Davis On the Corner" and understood it. I enjoyed it. It was crazy (it's a horrible album). The next day I tried to listen to it again. The magic was gone, it was just noise again. I KNEW to never do that again, because like you said, I felt TOO good.
I am a recovering opiate addict..I have been clean for 17 years,and Just now listening to you describe withdrawals took me back to a time in my life that I try to forget..I had some medical issues that led me down my path of insanity and to be honest the only reason I am still alive is because of my mother's prayers..Thank you for sharing your experience,and just like you I had no what I was doing to my body until it was too late and I felt trapped.. Please keep sharing your life experiences because there are so many young ppl that need guidance and if you reach just one then that will be well worth your time and energy..
Thank you for sharing a little bit of your story… It’s insane how some of us become addicts in such a seemingly innocent way… I had no intentions of becoming an addict and I did not understand the severity of the choice. I made one night while I was partying. It was like a snowball that I did not see coming at all and before I knew it I couldn’t stop it. I know a lot of people that have become addicted to opiates as well from just how you described, a medical situation and it’s just all insanity because doctors and big Pharma I believe play a big part in keeping a lot of people addicted and subdued. Of course it’s not their fault if people become an addict, but these drugs are so dangerous and even as a 23 year old, I didn’t understand how serious one decision could be. Most of the time I talk about my prison journey, but I wanted to start talking about my addiction story as well because it’s a very serious one, it was a major part of my story, and it was a very hard battle to overcome. Thank you for your encouragement. Great job on recovering. I wish you nothing but the absolute best and The continued success in your walk. 17 years is a long time and I’m sure that your life is so much better now. Much love and respect to you and thank you again for your support and encouragement. 🙏🏼❤️
I had bad back pain. So my Pain Management doctor prescript me monthly 120 10/325 Norco's. After 3-1/2 years my back started to feel better, so I started weening myself off them. After I took my last one I had 8 days of hell. My heart was pounding, my nose was running and I wasn't hungry. NOT WORTH IT!!
I have a similar story to yours..... I was 21 years old when I first started using and the very first time I used I injected I.V. I've been sober for almost 18 years (August 10 will be 18 years) I'm so blessed to be alive and living the life I have. I'm happily married and am fully thriving. I'm so happy that you're doing well and living your best life!
I feel every bit of your story. I actually went the other way with my DOC. I started with the OC 80 sprinkled with some Roxy 30 on the daily and fought that for almost 20 years. I eventually graduated to H and it had me hooked line and sinker. I went to rehab 5 times in the first 6 months of 2022. I had never done powder up to that point because I loved the opiates. After being separated from the H for the last time I swore I would not go back to anything that I could get physically attached to. I was offered powder and tried it and I loved the energy it gave me so I continued to use it in powder form until I was introduced to it in rock form. I became a crack addict in less than a week. It had me in its grip with no chance of letting go. I had stolen and pawned things before but this was on another level. I wanted to do nothing but smoke rock all day everyday. Even if I wanted to do something else it wasn’t possible because I couldn’t keep that little glass pipe out of my mouth. It took a bottom sufficient enough for me after all these years to finally relinquish control to God over my life. My sobriety date is 02/03/23 and not looking back. Thank you so much for your story as it can help give hope to someone struggling. God bless you
I had a friend who went through the same thing years ago . He had already had addictions in the past and so when he told me he was cooking crack for some people I knew he was also using it and then when I saw him my God he was so emaciated and I knew it was true about him using it . Then he vanished for over 2 years and told me what happened : He hated being an addict and he said he was in his living room praying out loud to Jesus please let him die if he can't get him off the drugs and he said just then the cops busted down his door and off to jail and then to prison he went . He said he was actually glad when they showed up at his door . I haven't seen him in years but I hope he is well and I hope he is free from addictions .
Congratulations on staying clean .I myself is currently a heroin user, 15yrs . I’ve done crack before but here’s the thing……I feel(and this is just how I personally feel about crack.everyone is different) I feel that crack is addictive but nowhere as addictive as heroin. You don’t get withdrawals from crack.heroin on the other hand,is the WORST and the best drug at the same time. I KNOW it’s time for me to put the straw in the garbage,I’m 46yrs old and I definitely don’t want to be an addict for the rest of my life. May god continue to bless you 🙏
I can totally relate - I’ve been an opiate adrift much of my adult life but the first time I tried crack I was addicted, and within 3 months lost my job my car my relationship and my house. I can’t say one is worse or better but their affects are so similar yet different
Im glad to read people are getting sober or are now sober. Being on drugs cant be fun. Im glad i never smoked, drank alcohol or took drugs. Im glad youre in a better place and speaking to help people.
but they are fun....as Eminem said " ...i overdosed.... because drugs are delicious ". Having a drug habit is NOT fun tho; so i guess what you said was right, that BEING on drugs is not fun...well most of the time. Once you've scored and are ingesting/injecting then yeah, it's fun for maybe 10 mins. How confusing was that lol. Sorry. Anyway, am rapt to be part of the sober club now.
Same..I would never take anything I dont know what it is...she could have die that night..😮 Actually there is a story on u tube of a girl who died from cocaine and they were able to revive her but she crossed over in a process .....
@@nopressurenodiamonds5566you should be all that crap is demonic especially the injections😢 current corrupt med system was created by a satanist, Rockefeller in the early 1900s to keep people in the system and make him and his cronies tons of money,
I appreciate your honesty. People really don’t understand addition and how it can all get started. I’m a nurse and I know nurses that went for surgeries and came out of the whole thing a drug addict.
First, thank you for being a nurse and for your contribution to healthcare… The healthcare system has changed so much and it’s the nurses who really keep everything together and I firmly stand behind that! I’ve seen it in my mom‘s office and in family friends, private practices… So Thank you for that! Additionally, you’re right, a lot of people don’t fully understand addiction and even though I try to put an entertaining or comedic spin on some of my stories, I tell them that way so that they won’t be boring and run flat. Nonetheless, it’s still a super serious subject matter and my point to sharing my story, because I was very ashamed and embarrassed at first, is to show that poor decision-making, and particularly addiction, do not discriminate. I had the perfect foundation to NOT become a drug addict and to understand the consequences of trying drugs! However, when I started, just like I explained my story and just like you explained about someone who goes into surgery and comes out with an addiction, I didn’t intend for one night of partying to become a full-blown addiction… People don’t understand that opiates in your system for seven days can lead to flu like symptoms once you stop and right there your body has become even the slightest bit dependent, which can then lead to catastrophic consequences. I know in your field of work you have probably seen more than all of us… All in all, I really appreciate your comment and your encouragement because sometimes the way I say things comes across as lighthearted or as if I don’t take it serious… And my point is just to make it entertaining so it’s consumable and digestible. So.. I appreciate comments like yours for the encouragement and support that your words give! Thanks so much again, much love and respect to you and your family and I hope you have a good weekend.❤️🙏🏼
I hope some people here will tell others about the power of Noni juice or if that is to expensive which I feel it's very overpriced one can do no need to use powder which is very cheap and get it usually at Indian Grocers but also online . It greatly helps reduce cravings for the things people have mentioned here . It also made it very easy for me to quit smoking and I was up to over two and a half packs a day
She hooked up with a Russian drug dealer I dont think she makes great decisions. A lot of female addicts hook up with their dealer thats probably what happened. Some degenerate men use drugs to use women too.
I’m in my 30’s and never tried anything. Majorly I think because of what they did to my oldest brother. He left home at 15 because of course my parents caught him and tried to help, then when my mom finally got a hold of him years and years later he was that homeless drug addict from the streets you mentioned. They tried to get him clean and while he tried, he couldn’t get his feet up, then he burned his house with him inside. My dad saved him and then it all happened over again until he got arrested for dealing. I never wanted to try, I was so scared to make my mom cry like she cried every night for him
How is your brother doing now ? Is he still struggling with addiction or has he been able to free himself ? Please don't tell me he passed away from an overdose ... or from being burned in a fire . Do you know how the fires got started ? Was his home a drug lab where he was the cook ? I'm sorry if I seem too nozy .
@@gardensofthegods he was high but already struggling with severe depression, he set it on fire while using because he wanted to die. The house was rented and he was living there. He is okay and alive, but he is in a Mexican jail and he may never come out.
@@mongdc jeeze that's sad that he wanted to die by fire ... not a pleasant way to go . But a shame he did that to somebody else's house . That's sad about him being in a prison especially one in a foreign country . I hope that somehow he can find joy and be able to get free from the Mexican prison and have a new lease on life
Thank goodness you survived the years of drug abuse. I smoked dope for years but my heavenly father Jesus Christ freed me from.the desire to smoke the weed.I haven't smoked for at least 35 years.
I HAVE MAD RESPECT FOR YOU!!!!You should write a book or be a motivational speaker!!! You're straight to the point and you tell it like it is !!!! God Bless You!!!! Thank you for sharing I'm sure your story will help a lot out Of People out there!!!!
I really appreciate your honesty!! I’m a recovering opiate addict and I’m so very grateful for sobriety!! I just know that you are helping countless people by speaking out ❤
Thank you for not only your kind words, but you’re encouragement also. It’s hard for me to tell stories without animation/enthusiasm and sometimes people mistaking it for or making light of the situation. That’s never what I’m trying to do… I just try to tell things exactly the way they are, and I also understand the fact that in social media, if you don’t have some sort of color to your storytelling, then it will be boring because when I watch them for me comes across flat.. so I appreciate the fact that you can understand what I’m trying to do and appreciate it. Addiction is a very serious situation and should never be taken lightly, but I really want people to understand how easy it is to become addicted to a serious drug and how it can completely destroy your life within a matter of months! i’m so happy that you are in recovery and I send you nothing but loves and positive energy to continue your path and continue to live your best life because after the hell that I’m sure you’ve gone through, because we all did, you deserve nothing, but the absolute best. Be your best self, live the best version of your life, and continue to know that you are stronger than any substance. Much love and respect to you from the bottom of my heart and thank you again for supporting and encouraging me ❤️✊🏼🙏🏼
That’s how opiates get you, the fear and excruciating withdrawals. I got hooked back when I was a teen in the mid 90’s by my bio dad who came into my life. I got off H in 1998 after a 3 year struggle with it that landed me homeless and in and out of jail because I shoplifted jeans to sell from stores for 3 years. I would not wish opiate addiction on my worst enemy. By 21 I had tried methadone detox 3 times. Finally got out on methadone maintenance and was able to clean up my life and get a job and apartment. Got off methadone in 2003. Thanks for your story! ❤
The people that leave the rude comments...do you EVER THINK about not projecting your insecurities on people? I mean, this woman is sharing this story for a reason. It's not easy. Stop nitpicking and calling her stupid names and give THE GRACE AND LOVE that YOU would want given to YOU. The world realllllly needs it! ❤❤❤
It really is that easy folks. Im the same way…you look at me now you’d never think i’ve been through a similar hell hole but I was. I got hooked very easily and it affected my life in many ways. Im just happy I made it through and im still here today
You are a strong woman. I'm very scared of drugs, never done it and not interested never will i don't want to end up broke and homeless or dead. I need to be the best influence for my son. I want to get surgery, but im concerned I'll get addicted to pain killers 😞
THANK YOU 👏👏👏👏 FOR TELLING UR STORY SO PPL STOP THINKING IT CANT HAPPEN TO THEM! SOME PPL CAN DO THINGS ONCE AND NEVER THINK ABOUT IT AGAIN. OTHERS CANNOT. ITS LITERALLY WRITTEN IN YOUR DNA! IT DOESNT DISCRIMINATE AND YOUR SO BLESSED TO BE ALIVE! YOUR GORGEOUS AND YOU GOT THIS.
You are really awesome and I’m glad you got off the dope. It is criminal listening to doctors talk about how bad something is, meanwhile they are the people writing the fkn prescriptions. You inspire me and others
It's so crazy, I have a little dotter, for the last year she is going through cancer. What I am saying is a father I can't stand to se her fight. In the end we need you. It's not just about you. Family needs you. We love you mate
It’s crazy to hear people telling my story as I’m sure the same story of all of us who been through this crazy vicious cycle. Thanks for sharing and Im so glad it’s finally over for you and pray for those who still are going through that struggle.
This story sounds so freakishly like my scenario with my first time trying it. He called it the same thing, but also called it "diesel" (I'm in NJ) I immediately threw up, but fell in love. I am now 11 years clean!!
Huh? I’m not sure if you’ve ever been an addict or been close to an addict, but I’m going to guess by your comment that it’s quite possible, actually I’m certain of it that you have not ever been… I don’t quite think I’ve ever seen a response like yours, but I can assure you that it’s wrong from the first letter to the last!
Complete BS. My ego saved my life. Never got into heroin or fentanyl due to the fact I was a bodybuilder and it would've torn my body to shreds. Otherwise I would've been high every day. GHB and steroids for a good 15 years though
You know what made me see worms in my eyes skin and all over the house. METH. Never coke. Girl someone gave you straight up meth. I’m telling you. I’m six years clean in August. H made me always itch and made me throw up a lot when I first started I was always puking for the first couple of years. And then when I was sick I would really puke at even the sight of it. It’s crazy to look back and see that I even did something I was once so judgmental about. But I like you was a super pretty girl thought if I did it, it would be heroin chic, I wouldn’t be like all the other addicts. But I ended up being JUST LIKE all the other addicts still looked pretty but I was a full blown addict. Got into meth and everything else. When I finally sobered up I was one month clean got pregnant and never went back had my son and here we are six years later.
That’s the thing…people say addiction is a choice, but plenty of people don’t even know what they’re taking, when they try something. These days, more people are addicted to fentanyl than H, and sometimes they’re told it’s coke or speed. Dope is mixed in with everything, now. A Canadian study found it was mixed into 95% of hard drugs. A lot of the U.S. has the same problem of not being able to identify what you’re putting in. I, too, acquired an opioid use disorder, without thinking that’s what I was doing. I was going to the doctor for an injury. The route to addiction you’ve mentioned is so common. Young people rarely think of what friends are doing as having anything to do with what people who sleep in the subways are doing. Yes, people are dying, but if it hasn’t happened in their social circle (yet), a lot of people don’t think their friends, family (another common story), or partner would give them anything like that. I’m not saying you don’t take responsibility for your decisions. Obviously, you do, but the actions of your then-boyfriend are a good lesson that we all need to be aware that plenty of people we know and trust not to hurt us, intentionally, use substances that might be addictive and dangerous. It’s sad that we have to be on such high alert, and can’t just go and relax and turn up, like other people do, but none of us comes with a warning label that says we’re at high risk of addiction, and to what substance (though if a parent does, there’s a 50% chance. I decided to study 📚 addiction 🥃 💉💊💨, because I wanted to know what the h happened to me, and what I could do to help myself and others who, I guarantee, did not think, “I want to be an addict, and go to prison and rehab.” There are people who want to seem edgy and embody a certain chic that comes with using certain drugs, socially, but they don’t ever know the feeling of being utterly miserable and worthless that comes with it or they’d know it was a lot worse than people thinking you’re boring and naive. Nobody wants to feel like addiction actually feels, and never imagine that what they’re doing, in the moment, will lead to that, so people need to stop thinking others freely choose it, and figure out how it really goes, before it happens to them. Thanks for educating people. It really helps! I quit the same way you did (and how most of us do)…in jail, with a prison term over my head. How I stayed quit was I found out there’s no painless way to do it and the cravings are do to your neurobiology, not because you “don’t really want to quit.” You have to starve the part of your brain that’s demanding it, until it figures that substance is no longer available in your habitat (we are human animals). Then, it stops telling us to go get it, all the time. On average, this takes 1-3 years. There’s nothing wrong with using Suboxone or methadone, if it helps, either, but now they’ve got tranq mixed in with fentanyl, and it’s a whole other addiction those meds don’t help with. Everyone underestimates how hard it is to make it through those first years of sobriety, unless they’ve been through it, because Substance Use Disorder is the hardest mental state to imagine. It’s like entering the Twilight Zone. So glad you got out! I don’t wish what we’ve been through on anyone, but it’s huge that you’ve made it into something positive. I hope people can learn from our mistakes, instead of having to go through it themselves. ❤
Thank you for your post. I’m on methadone and I feel embarrassed to tell others my story cuz I was to the point I was stealing used fentanyl patches and eating them for the relief of sickness. It was terrible. It’s a place in my life I never like to remember or tell people. I really liked reading your input.
@@lisssoakie8419girl! Don't be embarrassed! Ur story can help others! Addiction makes everyone do things they wouldn't normally. Been there done that. Proud of u!!! Alot of ppl don't make it back, don't ever be embarrassed for what u overcame! ❤
Immediate follow! I have 7 years clean and 10 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story!! Addiction doesn’t discriminate… trust me. It comes for every race and social status.
I'm glad your sober ! Your so honest and beautiful! Your so funny ,I love the way you tell your story ! Hope you have more ! I'm glad your happy and have a family ! God bless you !!!!!!
My story is a bit uglier. But it's all ugly. Many years later it's my first thought in any difficult situation. People tell me to write a book, but I'm pretty disleix. I love the way you tell it❤❤❤
So glad to hear you are well..I just recently lost someone who was addicted..a little of this and a bit of that..a troubled and tortured soul..unfortunately with 2 beautiful children...I do not know where they are...my words and actions were not enough..they were viewed with contempt...and led to a falling out..stuck feeling I did not do enough..
Come on now don't blame yourself . The fact that they had a falling out with you because they didn't want to hear the truth should be proof to you that you did all you could . And you know when those people suffer from addictions they are not themselves and you are dealing with the drug and the addiction ... you are dealing with the horrible grip that has on them . Don't blame yourself when you did what you could to the point of making it turn against you . I hope someday you will be able to find out what happened to the children so that you can keep in touch with them and tell them about what a wonderful person their parent was despite their addiction .
I can so relate to your chaotic life. Opiates had consumed me and was also getting into all sorts of trouble and problems. Now I take Suboxone and have been 5 years clean. Congrats and keep sharing your testimony to help others battling addiction!
Oooh chile! I saw family members get messed up real bad on substances as a child and vowed to stay drug free. I'm glad you came out on the other side ok.
Me too my brother was H user since age of 10. He told not ever touch it. My brother lived life stealing and shooting up. I died in nursing flown blow aids OD on H had someone sneak it in. I love my brother but scared me about H he called it shit don’t touch it.
Thank you so much for your kind words! I truly appreciate everything you said! Just to be honest and to be fair, there is a beauty mode on which doesn’t change my appearance, but it does smooth the skin out. I don’t have that skin and I don’t look any different in real life, but I don’t have perfectly flawless in either… I have four and I have wrinkles when I smile. It’s not a bad thing, but I just, leave the mode on when I it makes me feel good to see my skin so flawlessly perfect but if anyone ever comments, I at least want to share that it’s not as perfect as it appears because that can be discouraging to other people if they think that there are some of us walking around out here with flawless skin. Anyhow, thank you again for your kind words and much love and respect to you! 🙏🏼❤️
@@jenjengomezThis beautiful and honest essence in you is what makes you even more beautiful.. and makes all the success coming your way all the more deserved 🤍
@@jenjengomezthank you for your honesty which is so rare nowadays . You might want to try Noni juice powder and the reason I suggest that is because you can get it very cheaply where as the juice is so expensive . Usually about 6 hours after drinking a teaspoon of it in a tall glass of water the skin of my face feels as smooth as a baby's bottom . It's also called Indian Mulberry .
'Im glad you are sober now since I know you were looking at alot of drug charges as well as theft charges before you went to prison glad those heroin charges were dropped against you.
Bad associations can get people into a lot a trouble. The book “See You At The Top” by Zig Ziglar is an amazing book and has a great chapter on habits.
Jen, I am a new subscriber. How fabulous to have found your story. You are an inspiration. Please carry on. Smiles, and serenity to you and your family.💫💥💛💫🧡💥❤
Hey girl nice to meet you. This is my first of your videos. What a story I would love to hear more. You should be so proud, you have come a long way. Many need to hear you. May God Bless you and your family.
When you create that Joy from within n you're high on life, you don't seek it externally. But everyone must do their own inner child healing from trauma and neglect because most parents have not done theirs❤
These are reasons why I would never date someone into drugs nor would I ever try anything. I enjoyed smoking cigarettes when I was younger and I enjoyed drinking and I didn't want anything to ever feel that good so I just never tried anything else. People should just stay away from it. I don't understand why people try anything after knowing what happens to people.
Thank you for your story..❤ People don't realize that addict come in all shapes and sizes and income brackets.. a lot of soccer moms are H addicts or on some form of opiates. I am staying away from all of that.. I am getting sober and trying to find my life again.
Omg something like my story..didn't know what drug I was doing, besides cocaine and Marijuana...but it was smooth and good. Also, I didn't want to do drugs ever, but so called friends wouldn't stop taunting me one long night to try a line they had made and saved for me from early on. I was afraid I'd get addicted because already I loved alcohol too much. Well, 4 to 6 hours later I gave in out of feeling obligated and found myself quietly craving my next line. That was my 1st time with any drug before the rest came along from friends sharing. So glad I finally sobered up after 2 or 3 yrs.. which lasted 10 years. Fell off the wagon 6 years only on alcohol and worked hard to sobriety again. Now sober a little over 14 years again. Thank you for letting me share. Feels good to release once in a great while ❤🥲
I've been there with the withdrawals and saying you were sick is putting it mildly. That is a sick where you litterally think you are going to die and almost hope you will so it will be over. That is the reason people stay addicts fortunately now there are things you can take to spare you that hell.
Yes!!!! Withdrawal is the fkn worst,total hell just like you said. Yeah thankfully they do have medicine for you to take so you don’t get sick but you are just switching from one drug to another.YOU ARE STILL AN ADDICT.Only difference is that one is Legal and the other is not. Prayers 🙏 and 🫶 from Chicago
Thank you Laurie! I appreciate your encouraging comments. I see all of them and I just want you to know that you commenting and supporting means so much. Not only does it obviously help the channel so that’s awesome but it also just makes me feel really happy and grateful that genuinely kind people like yourself find my channel and stick around with me.. so if I haven’t said it enough. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I appreciate you so much and I appreciate your love, support, and encouragement more than you know and more than I could explain in a comment. Have a great rest of the weekend 🙏🏼❤️
Great content! Love watching your videos and interviews. I can relate so so much and my story is almost identical. I turned my life around and now making legal Dr./Lawyer money and have everything I ever dreamed of. But above all I have happiness I’ve never experienced. Keep up the hard work and keep on this path your on.
I'm loving your stories! I'm in recovery too (Aug 2024 will be full 6)...But before these 6 yrs I went to 3 different rehabs, lost my husband of 17 yrs and 2 daughters. That is the thing I struggle with most, the damage done to my girls. I have relationships with them now. With each relapse I got worse..I started with pills and asked to go to rehab. Stayed clean about 5-6mo after then went on a 3 year bender but I was able to hide it from friends and family....I don't think my husband wanted to believe I was using. Well the pills got too expensive & too hard to find, so I was introduced to "H" someone shot me up & I was in love......I'll leave it there! Thank you for sharing your story! I'm subscribed now!
I will never understand the psychology behind taking that first hit. We have so much information about addiction and consequences and how lives are ruined yet we have a tidal wave of young people hooked on all these different drugs. Makes me so sad.
I have an inner voice. We all do. That whisper says his conversation & actions is telling you that you are not that girl. I listen to that voice & my last visit was a i cannot do this with you anymore. I listened & he was russian. 😊
Boy what very vivid image….mouth is watering thinking of that feeling…WOW….such an incredible feeling…. I thought like you… as a young man in the 90’s that’s what I thought of H… dirty drug I thought but when the oxy’s hit at the turn of the century and the price was getting so high, a friend I asked for a pill said he didn’t have any but he had something that would heal me and was cheaper…. Well just like you said petrified of being sick….19 years later finally recovered
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to Crack, spent my whole life fighting Crack addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder, got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
Hey! Yes Ali shroom
Mushrooms are very medicinal. This is why anybody familiar with psilocybin and any other kind of fungi will tell you, "They are alive." They have a very ancient wisdom. To my experience, all mushrooms have always said, "Pay attention to your life. How you think, how you feel, and what will you do with the information that you always knew, but now are seeing in this point of view." This is why mushrooms are so respected in tribal cultures. This mental health treatment works for me too. Half micro doses do the trick for me. At least a few days at a time with lengthy time in between. Never addictive. Thank you for sharing this point!
How do I reach out to him? Is he on Facebook
I was in Active Opiate Addiction for 20+ years. Took ANYTHING I could get my hands on. I was wearing 3 of the 100 Fentanyl patches and taking about 30-50 pills a day. That wasn’t the worse of it though.. I was so sick of the vicious cycle, Drug Court, Withdrawals, going in & out of jail etc. I put myself into Detox in 2016. I’ll be 8 years Clean & Serene this October.
Respect what you've been through because I know. Love from the 🇬🇧
Mucho Respecto !
Ohhh my!! I just read the part of your post that mentioned the pain patches and mannnn that brings back nightmares of me lookin for them just so I could “eat them” and itcc be was such a nightmare time in my life that I’m so glad is over!! I’m so proud of you tooo!! Clean life is the BEST choice❤
Proud of you
Amazing! Keep on going… you are one of the 3%
I'm 16 years clean from H in October 2024. Congrats on everyone else's recovery! ❤👍🙏
Yes!!!!❤
I am so proud of you baby girl keep strong bless your journey in life!
I've got 23 yrs clean in October. 10-23-2001
Gz folks!
Congratulations 🎊
I listen to these stories to try and make sense of my son's struggles through his addictions. 😢 RIP... 9.23
I'm so very sorry for your loss.
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My brother 43yo Marine Corp Vet…. Od in motel alone
Had no idea he did street drugs or any for that point.
Inside me I knew I’d never touch any of “that” cuz I’d end up dead. Sober over 20yrs now. Pain pills is as far as I got.
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry to hear that.... children were created to heal the adults around them and yet most people think that they're here to teach the children, that's the hugest mistake I've witnessed😢
You might like the Ted Talk that states that addiction is about a lack of connection, because either they don't feel connected to parents and family which every child needs to begin with, or they don't feel connected to their higher spiritual self, their own true inner authentic self.. but when you undoubtedly feel connection you will not search externally for other sources to feel good. You will not search for accolades validation or anything from another or the outside world because The feeling good will come from within. Did the son grow up in a house of joy and happiness and a healthy relationship that he could emulate? Did he feel safe and secure within himself, was he encouraged to be his authentic self and be seen and truly heard? Could he follow his Passions and own intuitiveness or was he subjected to what the parents beliefs were? Was there any betrayal from the parents to the child where they weren't supported and encouraged all the time ?
Most parents who haven't done their own inner child healing have no idea how children will process the energy within the home❤ but every single being has experienced neglect and Trauma and their childhood and it gets stored in the subconscious which creates our habits behaviors speech patterns and thoughts.
children pick up on the energy that is Unsee.... more than even words and actions but they Do sense everything..as highly evolved spiritual energetic beings that sense everything, even when parents are not authentic and completely transparent which they need to be in order for the child to be healthy. Did the parents demonstrate apologies, accountability, following through on their word? Did they show vulnerability, emotions and allow a safe space for children to identify and regulate and express emotions?
All of these things impact children in ways parents have no idea about. They cannot honor respect and unconditional love themselves if they did not sense that happening in the home on a consistent basis. And people are only conditioned to search externally for that, instead of searching Within❤
*If this girl didn't have dark hair & dark eyes I would think it was me there talking. I lived the same type of crazy life. I was a heroin & crack addict from 19-35. After too many prison stays, rehabs, halfway homes, detoxes, & psych ward I finally got clean Dec 2015. Coming up on 9 years & I have such a beautiful life today. So very grateful I eventually got the message*
Congratulations on your Recovery!
I just celebrated 10 years clean and serene. ❤
God bless both of you. 💚
@@DeeElla-o8i thank you!! 🫂
So so happy for you ❤
Addict here on 21ish years?
Hardest I got was Vicodin ES. Lost my “addict” bro in 1/20/2020. Never even knew he used anything! We relocated to another state during this time.
He was my only sibling. Not close. Toxic upbringing.
He used crack heroin & fentanyl. Loss Unexpectedly. Keep it up 👍🏻 please ❤
God bless uou
@@Kristen10-22 I am so sorry for the loss of your brother. Recovery is always possible, but not always achievable due to huge internal pain. 🫂 Congratulations on your recovery!
Gotta love Jen Jen and her honesty. 20 year heroin addict here who has been off H and Fent for almost a year. You rock Jen Jen keep kicking ass!!
20 yrs . Wow . God bless you and someone I loved for decades after he lost his life was a boyfriend of mine who I didn't even realize was a heroin addict until after we broke up .
... he was only about 36 when he lost his life to heroin .
Some other woman had the Nightmare Horror of waking up to him dead next to her in bed .
Congratulations a year is awesome!
Good for you! Keep it up! One day at a time! ❤👍
Not really, she tells it like it wasn’t really her and blames everyone else.
Shes no different to any other smackhead.
Keep fighting the good fight
Wow maybe you should write a book. You're a good storyteller.
Thank you for the encouragement… I’m actually writing one right now and I have some people reach out and try to help me write it, but they wanted to change some things around and make it a little bit more soft and fluffy… I didn’t like that idea, I don’t think people can benefit Like, or even dislike you unless they know the real authentic you so I’m trying to do it on my own and it’s taking a little bit longer as I have to learn all of the steps as I go, but I am doing it and I will definitely post when I have completed it. Nonetheless, thank you for the encouragement and the suggestion. I appreciate you! Much love and respect to you. ❤️🙏🏼
@@jenjengomezyessss!!! you reading your own book, like as an audiobook would be amazing. your voice, your intonation, it’s powerful
@@jenjengomez No to 'soft and fluffy'. Make it real.
@@jenjengomezJen I totally agree , you have to stay true to yourself and what's the point of telling a true story if it's going to be watered down .
Yes please write it in your own voice , your own words .
If you're good at editing you can edit and proofread it yourself .
If you have any photos or photos of your artwork that you get copyrighted ( and it's very easy to copyright your book as well as your photos through the Library of Congress on the internet ) well then you don't have to pay somebody to do the cover of your book .
I really do think you should self-publish through the on-demand publishing and the reason is it might save you money in the long run but I'm not sure .
I mean , you could get really lucky with a publishing house that will promote you and pay for you to do the tours onto the morning TV shows and what not to promote the book and to do public readings at various major bookstores ... or you could book those yourself and just be your own promoter and manager ?
I've known several people who have published books but regrettably now I only know one and I haven't spoken to her in a couple years but she was not satisfied with her publishing company but didn't explain why .
She's a very honest person so I would say you might want to avoid a publishing company called Page .
And yes if you could do an audio book for it and have it monetized here on UA-cam a lot of people many many people would certainly listen to the whole thing ... I know I certainly would .
Pretty lady.
I’ve been drug and alcohol free for 10 years!!! ❤❤
“Recipe for disaster, booty cheeks itchen” 😂😂😂😂 that’s so real. My butt was always full of scratches when I was a pilot popper. I was so proud of my addiction too, I thought I was so cool. How embarrassing! Im glad I found Yahweh
For me it was my nose n face that itched alot...sometimes my back when REALLY using
Why do you get an itchy booty?
@@mleecthulhu OMFG I’d want to rip my nose off my face!! 😹🤣
We can laugh now, but it really was a sad, depressing time
You found what?
@@thegingerrunner9448 God in Judaism
Yep, I was a heroin addict for 22+years, all it takes is once for some people...!! I'm now 79 months sober now and absolutely love sober life...!! Thanks for sharing... Keep up your awesomeness...
I accidentally took heroin one day. I listened to "Miles Davis On the Corner" and understood it. I enjoyed it. It was crazy (it's a horrible album). The next day I tried to listen to it again. The magic was gone, it was just noise again. I KNEW to never do that again, because like you said, I felt TOO good.
This is the way ❤
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I am a recovering opiate addict..I have been clean for 17 years,and Just now listening to you describe withdrawals took me back to a time in my life that I try to forget..I had some medical issues that led me down my path of insanity and to be honest the only reason I am still alive is because of my mother's prayers..Thank you for sharing your experience,and just like you I had no what I was doing to my body until it was too late and I felt trapped.. Please keep sharing your life experiences because there are so many young ppl that need guidance and if you reach just one then that will be well worth your time and energy..
Thank you for sharing a little bit of your story… It’s insane how some of us become addicts in such a seemingly innocent way… I had no intentions of becoming an addict and I did not understand the severity of the choice. I made one night while I was partying. It was like a snowball that I did not see coming at all and before I knew it I couldn’t stop it. I know a lot of people that have become addicted to opiates as well from just how you described, a medical situation and it’s just all insanity because doctors and big Pharma I believe play a big part in keeping a lot of people addicted and subdued. Of course it’s not their fault if people become an addict, but these drugs are so dangerous and even as a 23 year old, I didn’t understand how serious one decision could be. Most of the time I talk about my prison journey, but I wanted to start talking about my addiction story as well because it’s a very serious one, it was a major part of my story, and it was a very hard battle to overcome. Thank you for your encouragement. Great job on recovering. I wish you nothing but the absolute best and The continued success in your walk. 17 years is a long time and I’m sure that your life is so much better now. Much love and respect to you and thank you again for your support and encouragement. 🙏🏼❤️
Stick with it, Judy 👍
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I had bad back pain. So my Pain Management doctor prescript me monthly 120 10/325 Norco's. After 3-1/2 years my back started to feel better, so I started weening myself off them. After I took my last one I had 8 days of hell. My heart was pounding, my nose was running and I wasn't hungry. NOT WORTH IT!!
@@calken546I’m astounded that after 120 norco’s/month for 3-1/2 years you were able to get off on your own!! Well done!That’s incredible!!
Same. I started with prescription drugs and ended up on H…. I’m so grateful to have 4 years sober
I have a similar story to yours..... I was 21 years old when I first started using and the very first time I used I injected I.V. I've been sober for almost 18 years (August 10 will be 18 years) I'm so blessed to be alive and living the life I have. I'm happily married and am fully thriving. I'm so happy that you're doing well and living your best life!
I feel every bit of your story. I actually went the other way with my DOC. I started with the OC 80 sprinkled with some Roxy 30 on the daily and fought that for almost 20 years. I eventually graduated to H and it had me hooked line and sinker. I went to rehab 5 times in the first 6 months of 2022. I had never done powder up to that point because I loved the opiates. After being separated from the H for the last time I swore I would not go back to anything that I could get physically attached to. I was offered powder and tried it and I loved the energy it gave me so I continued to use it in powder form until I was introduced to it in rock form. I became a crack addict in less than a week. It had me in its grip with no chance of letting go. I had stolen and pawned things before but this was on another level. I wanted to do nothing but smoke rock all day everyday. Even if I wanted to do something else it wasn’t possible because I couldn’t keep that little glass pipe out of my mouth. It took a bottom sufficient enough for me after all these years to finally relinquish control to God over my life. My sobriety date is 02/03/23 and not looking back. Thank you so much for your story as it can help give hope to someone struggling. God bless you
I had a friend who went through the same thing years ago .
He had already had addictions in the past and so when he told me he was cooking crack for some people I knew he was also using it and then when I saw him my God he was so emaciated and I knew it was true about him using it .
Then he vanished for over 2 years and told me what happened :
He hated being an addict and he said he was in his living room praying out loud to Jesus please let him die if he can't get him off the drugs and he said just then the cops busted down his door and off to jail and then to prison he went .
He said he was actually glad when they showed up at his door .
I haven't seen him in years but I hope he is well and I hope he is free from addictions .
Congratulations on staying clean .I myself is currently a heroin user, 15yrs . I’ve done crack before but here’s the thing……I feel(and this is just how I personally feel about crack.everyone is different) I feel that crack is addictive but nowhere as addictive as heroin. You don’t get withdrawals from crack.heroin on the other hand,is the WORST and the best drug at the same time. I KNOW it’s time for me to put the straw in the garbage,I’m 46yrs old and I definitely don’t want to be an addict for the rest of my life. May god continue to bless you 🙏
I can totally relate - I’ve been an opiate adrift much of my adult life but the first time I tried crack I was addicted, and within 3 months lost my job my car my relationship and my house. I can’t say one is worse or better but their affects are so similar yet different
Im glad to read people are getting sober or are now sober.
Being on drugs cant be fun.
Im glad i never smoked, drank alcohol or took drugs.
Im glad youre in a better place and speaking to help people.
but they are fun....as Eminem said " ...i overdosed.... because drugs are delicious ". Having a drug habit is NOT fun tho; so i guess what you said was right, that BEING on drugs is not fun...well most of the time. Once you've scored and are ingesting/injecting then yeah, it's fun for maybe 10 mins.
How confusing was that lol. Sorry.
Anyway, am rapt to be part of the sober club now.
@ceeejay9112 thank you for writing. Glad your better now. Please don't go back.
@@arfriedman4577 thankyou!! ...and no, there's no going back for me
If it wasn’t fun nobody would do it. It just drains your mind and body after a while.
10 years in Prison? You are the definition of unbreakable. Keep soaring high.
Mija, I have never touched narcotics in my life, but safe to say that God took you away from all that! Thus, to God be the glory!
And if you did you could have blamed it on your Russian mob boyfriend...or the Devil. 😂
I'm so paranoid, it's mind boggling that people take drugs without knowing what the hell it is. People are wild!
no way in hell !
Yes I’m scared to even take scripts like antibiotics and stuff from my dr let alone street drugs like this.
Same..I would never take anything I dont know what it is...she could have die that night..😮
Actually there is a story on u tube of a girl who died from cocaine and they were able to revive her but she crossed over in a process .....
Ok so I get the drugs are bad but are we just gonna skip over the whole Russian mobster boyfriend thing?????
@@nopressurenodiamonds5566you should be all that crap is demonic especially the injections😢 current corrupt med system was created by a satanist, Rockefeller in the early 1900s to keep people in the system and make him and his cronies tons of money,
I am a muslim and applaud you for your courage and strength. Your story will help so many. Keep up the good work and all the best for the future. ❤
I appreciate your honesty. People really don’t understand addition and how it can all get started. I’m a nurse and I know nurses that went for surgeries and came out of the whole thing a drug addict.
First, thank you for being a nurse and for your contribution to healthcare… The healthcare system has changed so much and it’s the nurses who really keep everything together and I firmly stand behind that! I’ve seen it in my mom‘s office and in family friends, private practices… So Thank you for that! Additionally, you’re right, a lot of people don’t fully understand addiction and even though I try to put an entertaining or comedic spin on some of my stories, I tell them that way so that they won’t be boring and run flat. Nonetheless, it’s still a super serious subject matter and my point to sharing my story, because I was very ashamed and embarrassed at first, is to show that poor decision-making, and particularly addiction, do not discriminate. I had the perfect foundation to NOT become a drug addict and to understand the consequences of trying drugs! However, when I started, just like I explained my story and just like you explained about someone who goes into surgery and comes out with an addiction, I didn’t intend for one night of partying to become a full-blown addiction… People don’t understand that opiates in your system for seven days can lead to flu like symptoms once you stop and right there your body has become even the slightest bit dependent, which can then lead to catastrophic consequences. I know in your field of work you have probably seen more than all of us… All in all, I really appreciate your comment and your encouragement because sometimes the way I say things comes across as lighthearted or as if I don’t take it serious… And my point is just to make it entertaining so it’s consumable and digestible. So.. I appreciate comments like yours for the encouragement and support that your words give! Thanks so much again, much love and respect to you and your family and I hope you have a good weekend.❤️🙏🏼
@@jenjengomezthank you for taking the time out to write such a thoughtful comment ❤ you’re a beautiful person and have such a big heart
I hope some people here will tell others about the power of Noni juice or if that is to expensive which I feel it's very overpriced one can do no need to use powder which is very cheap and get it usually at Indian Grocers but also online .
It greatly helps reduce cravings for the things people have mentioned here .
It also made it very easy for me to quit smoking and I was up to over two and a half packs a day
Jen Jen Gomez doesn't know how many blessings God sent her way. Count your blessings. Continue the excellent work.
I think she does know and is very grateful she said this in an interview .
She hooked up with a Russian drug dealer I dont think she makes great decisions. A lot of female addicts hook up with their dealer thats probably what happened. Some degenerate men use drugs to use women too.
I’m in my 30’s and never tried anything. Majorly I think because of what they did to my oldest brother. He left home at 15 because of course my parents caught him and tried to help, then when my mom finally got a hold of him years and years later he was that homeless drug addict from the streets you mentioned. They tried to get him clean and while he tried, he couldn’t get his feet up, then he burned his house with him inside. My dad saved him and then it all happened over again until he got arrested for dealing. I never wanted to try, I was so scared to make my mom cry like she cried every night for him
How is your brother doing now ? Is he still struggling with addiction or has he been able to free himself ?
Please don't tell me he passed away from an overdose ... or from being burned in a fire .
Do you know how the fires got started ? Was his home a drug lab where he was the cook ? I'm sorry if I seem too nozy .
@@gardensofthegods he was high but already struggling with severe depression, he set it on fire while using because he wanted to die. The house was rented and he was living there. He is okay and alive, but he is in a Mexican jail and he may never come out.
@@mongdc jeeze that's sad that he wanted to die by fire ... not a pleasant way to go .
But a shame he did that to somebody else's house .
That's sad about him being in a prison especially one in a foreign country .
I hope that somehow he can find joy and be able to get free from the Mexican prison and have a new lease on life
I have been clean for 22 years now. You found out, just like me. Thanks for your stories. Tommy from Chicago
🎉🎉🎉. 21 years here. And I still think about it
Thank goodness you survived the years of drug abuse. I smoked dope for years but my heavenly father Jesus Christ freed me from.the desire to smoke the weed.I haven't smoked for at least 35 years.
I HAVE MAD RESPECT FOR YOU!!!!You should write a book or be a motivational speaker!!! You're straight to the point and you tell it like it is !!!! God Bless You!!!! Thank you for sharing I'm sure your story will help a lot out Of People out there!!!!
Wow 10 years in prison!! Wasn't expecting that!! U r so strong and SOOOO beautiful ❤️
Youre a warrior, holy shit. Glad you made it out of that life alive, you seem to be a really good person, just had some bad cards dealt to ya.
I really appreciate your honesty!! I’m a recovering opiate addict and I’m so very grateful for sobriety!! I just know that you are helping countless people by speaking out ❤
Thank you for not only your kind words, but you’re encouragement also. It’s hard for me to tell stories without animation/enthusiasm and sometimes people mistaking it for or making light of the situation. That’s never what I’m trying to do… I just try to tell things exactly the way they are, and I also understand the fact that in social media, if you don’t have some sort of color to your storytelling, then it will be boring because when I watch them for me comes across flat.. so I appreciate the fact that you can understand what I’m trying to do and appreciate it. Addiction is a very serious situation and should never be taken lightly, but I really want people to understand how easy it is to become addicted to a serious drug and how it can completely destroy your life within a matter of months! i’m so happy that you are in recovery and I send you nothing but loves and positive energy to continue your path and continue to live your best life because after the hell that I’m sure you’ve gone through, because we all did, you deserve nothing, but the absolute best. Be your best self, live the best version of your life, and continue to know that you are stronger than any substance. Much love and respect to you from the bottom of my heart and thank you again for supporting and encouraging me ❤️✊🏼🙏🏼
@@jenjengomezthank you for such a beautiful response!! By the way, most of us love hearing your longer stories so please bring them back ❤❤
@@jenjengomez so glad that those life savers did just that!!
That’s how opiates get you, the fear and excruciating withdrawals. I got hooked back when I was a teen in the mid 90’s by my bio dad who came into my life. I got off H in 1998 after a 3 year struggle with it that landed me homeless and in and out of jail because I shoplifted jeans to sell from stores for 3 years. I would not wish opiate addiction on my worst enemy. By 21 I had tried methadone detox 3 times. Finally got out on methadone maintenance and was able to clean up my life and get a job and apartment. Got off methadone in 2003. Thanks for your story! ❤
You are beautiful. Your voice is soothing and you’re a wonderful story teller. I’m glad you’re doing great now.
The people that leave the rude comments...do you EVER THINK about not projecting your insecurities on people? I mean, this woman is sharing this story for a reason. It's not easy. Stop nitpicking and calling her stupid names and give THE GRACE AND LOVE that YOU would want given to YOU. The world realllllly needs it! ❤❤❤
And the reason is to get the likes and followers.
“My booty cheeks were itching.” 😂😂😂😂
That one night didn't ruin your life, your ex bf did
Nooo... she did
It really is that easy folks. Im the same way…you look at me now you’d never think i’ve been through a similar hell hole but I was. I got hooked very easily and it affected my life in many ways. Im just happy I made it through and im still here today
You are a strong woman. I'm very scared of drugs, never done it and not interested never will i don't want to end up broke and homeless or dead. I need to be the best influence for my son. I want to get surgery, but im concerned I'll get addicted to pain killers 😞
THANK YOU 👏👏👏👏 FOR TELLING UR STORY SO PPL STOP THINKING IT CANT HAPPEN TO THEM! SOME PPL CAN DO THINGS ONCE AND NEVER THINK ABOUT IT AGAIN. OTHERS CANNOT. ITS LITERALLY WRITTEN IN YOUR DNA! IT DOESNT DISCRIMINATE AND YOUR SO BLESSED TO BE ALIVE! YOUR GORGEOUS AND YOU GOT THIS.
Jen, you have such a cute, fun way of telling your story, but you are also getting important messages out. Great job!
You are really awesome and I’m glad you got off the dope. It is criminal listening to doctors talk about how bad something is, meanwhile they are the people writing the fkn prescriptions.
You inspire me and others
It's so crazy, I have a little dotter, for the last year she is going through cancer. What I am saying is a father I can't stand to se her fight. In the end we need you. It's not just about you. Family needs you. We love you mate
Youre videos are sad but surprisingly very refreshing. Just write the damn book already Jen jen
It’s crazy to hear people telling my story as I’m sure the same story of all of us who been through this crazy vicious cycle.
Thanks for sharing and Im so glad it’s finally over for you and pray for those who still are going through that struggle.
She has enough energy for 5 people, glad she is in recovery and I pray she never lapses.
This story sounds so freakishly like my scenario with my first time trying it. He called it the same thing, but also called it "diesel" (I'm in NJ) I immediately threw up, but fell in love. I am now 11 years clean!!
I had a dream about u last night!!
Thank you for sharing. I’ve been clean since 2018 from H ❤
1 minute in and I'm so glad you overcame that. You look beautiful and I'm so glad you overcame!
Root cause of all addictions is BIG EGO. This is why the cure is ego deflation which is what 12 step programs do.
That’s not accurate at all, but nice try
Huh? I’m not sure if you’ve ever been an addict or been close to an addict, but I’m going to guess by your comment that it’s quite possible, actually I’m certain of it that you have not ever been… I don’t quite think I’ve ever seen a response like yours, but I can assure you that it’s wrong from the first letter to the last!
Complete BS. My ego saved my life. Never got into heroin or fentanyl due to the fact I was a bodybuilder and it would've torn my body to shreds. Otherwise I would've been high every day. GHB and steroids for a good 15 years though
@@jenjengomezabsolutely 💯
And my ego was HUGE 😂😂😂 💯
You know what made me see worms in my eyes skin and all over the house. METH. Never coke. Girl someone gave you straight up meth. I’m telling you. I’m six years clean in August. H made me always itch and made me throw up a lot when I first started I was always puking for the first couple of years. And then when I was sick I would really puke at even the sight of it. It’s crazy to look back and see that I even did something I was once so judgmental about. But I like you was a super pretty girl thought if I did it, it would be heroin chic, I wouldn’t be like all the other addicts. But I ended up being JUST LIKE all the other addicts still looked pretty but I was a full blown addict. Got into meth and everything else. When I finally sobered up I was one month clean got pregnant and never went back had my son and here we are six years later.
Yep, that wasn’t Coke 😂
That’s the thing…people say addiction is a choice, but plenty of people don’t even know what they’re taking, when they try something. These days, more people are addicted to fentanyl than H, and sometimes they’re told it’s coke or speed. Dope is mixed in with everything, now. A Canadian study found it was mixed into 95% of hard drugs. A lot of the U.S. has the same problem of not being able to identify what you’re putting in. I, too, acquired an opioid use disorder, without thinking that’s what I was doing. I was going to the doctor for an injury. The route to addiction you’ve mentioned is so common. Young people rarely think of what friends are doing as having anything to do with what people who sleep in the subways are doing. Yes, people are dying, but if it hasn’t happened in their social circle (yet), a lot of people don’t think their friends, family (another common story), or partner would give them anything like that. I’m not saying you don’t take responsibility for your decisions. Obviously, you do, but the actions of your then-boyfriend are a good lesson that we all need to be aware that plenty of people we know and trust not to hurt us, intentionally, use substances that might be addictive and dangerous. It’s sad that we have to be on such high alert, and can’t just go and relax and turn up, like other people do, but none of us comes with a warning label that says we’re at high risk of addiction, and to what substance (though if a parent does, there’s a 50% chance. I decided to study 📚 addiction 🥃 💉💊💨, because I wanted to know what the h happened to me, and what I could do to help myself and others who, I guarantee, did not think, “I want to be an addict, and go to prison and rehab.” There are people who want to seem edgy and embody a certain chic that comes with using certain drugs, socially, but they don’t ever know the feeling of being utterly miserable and worthless that comes with it or they’d know it was a lot worse than people thinking you’re boring and naive. Nobody wants to feel like addiction actually feels, and never imagine that what they’re doing, in the moment, will lead to that, so people need to stop thinking others freely choose it, and figure out how it really goes, before it happens to them. Thanks for educating people. It really helps! I quit the same way you did (and how most of us do)…in jail, with a prison term over my head. How I stayed quit was I found out there’s no painless way to do it and the cravings are do to your neurobiology, not because you “don’t really want to quit.” You have to starve the part of your brain that’s demanding it, until it figures that substance is no longer available in your habitat (we are human animals). Then, it stops telling us to go get it, all the time. On average, this takes 1-3 years. There’s nothing wrong with using Suboxone or methadone, if it helps, either, but now they’ve got tranq mixed in with fentanyl, and it’s a whole other addiction those meds don’t help with. Everyone underestimates how hard it is to make it through those first years of sobriety, unless they’ve been through it, because Substance Use Disorder is the hardest mental state to imagine. It’s like entering the Twilight Zone. So glad you got out! I don’t wish what we’ve been through on anyone, but it’s huge that you’ve made it into something positive. I hope people can learn from our mistakes, instead of having to go through it themselves. ❤
Thank you for your post. I’m on methadone and I feel embarrassed to tell others my story cuz I was to the point I was stealing used fentanyl patches and eating them for the relief of sickness. It was terrible. It’s a place in my life I never like to remember or tell people. I really liked reading your input.
Well done ❤
@@lisssoakie8419girl! Don't be embarrassed! Ur story can help others! Addiction makes everyone do things they wouldn't normally. Been there done that. Proud of u!!! Alot of ppl don't make it back, don't ever be embarrassed for what u overcame! ❤
BS!!
You know EXACTLY what you’re taking! You know it’s drugs, you know it’s not something you’ve ever been given before.
Stop playing the victim.
Immediate follow! I have 7 years clean and 10 years sober. Thank you for sharing your story!! Addiction doesn’t discriminate… trust me. It comes for every race and social status.
Thank you for sharing your story! I am sending this to my kids so they can see how easily and quickly things can go bad!
I'm glad your sober ! Your so honest and beautiful! Your so funny ,I love the way you tell your story ! Hope you have more ! I'm glad your happy and have a family ! God bless you !!!!!!
My story is a bit uglier. But it's all ugly. Many years later it's my first thought in any difficult situation. People tell me to write a book, but I'm pretty disleix. I love the way you tell it❤❤❤
Incredible story.
May God continue to bless you and your family.
So glad to hear you are well..I just recently lost someone who was addicted..a little of this and a bit of that..a troubled and tortured soul..unfortunately with 2 beautiful children...I do not know where they are...my words and actions were not enough..they were viewed with contempt...and led to a falling out..stuck feeling I did not do enough..
Come on now don't blame yourself . The fact that they had a falling out with you because they didn't want to hear the truth should be proof to you that you did all you could .
And you know when those people suffer from addictions they are not themselves and you are dealing with the drug and the addiction ... you are dealing with the horrible grip that has on them .
Don't blame yourself when you did what you could to the point of making it turn against you .
I hope someday you will be able to find out what happened to the children so that you can keep in touch with them and tell them about what a wonderful person their parent was despite their addiction .
Chile I’m new here!! What a rollercoaster‼️ Much love to you.
Wow, girl you been thru alot. Thank you for sharing your story, it will definately steer people in the right direction.
I can so relate to your chaotic life. Opiates had consumed me and was also getting into all sorts of trouble and problems. Now I take Suboxone and have been 5 years clean. Congrats and keep sharing your testimony to help others battling addiction!
Oooh chile! I saw family members get messed up real bad on substances as a child and vowed to stay drug free. I'm glad you came out on the other side ok.
Me too my brother was H user since age of 10. He told not ever touch it. My brother lived life stealing and shooting up. I died in nursing flown blow aids OD on H had someone sneak it in. I love my brother but scared me about H he called it shit don’t touch it.
Amazing Complexion, Beautiful amazing glowing eyes, Silk hair, truly a stunning top model quality girl.
Thank you so much for your kind words! I truly appreciate everything you said! Just to be honest and to be fair, there is a beauty mode on which doesn’t change my appearance, but it does smooth the skin out. I don’t have that skin and I don’t look any different in real life, but I don’t have perfectly flawless in either… I have four and I have wrinkles when I smile. It’s not a bad thing, but I just, leave the mode on when I it makes me feel good to see my skin so flawlessly perfect but if anyone ever comments, I at least want to share that it’s not as perfect as it appears because that can be discouraging to other people if they think that there are some of us walking around out here with flawless skin. Anyhow, thank you again for your kind words and much love and respect to you! 🙏🏼❤️
@@jenjengomezThis beautiful and honest essence in you is what makes you even more beautiful.. and makes all the success coming your way all the more deserved 🤍
@@jenjengomezstay real! Refreshing now days as it’s rare
@@jenjengomezthank you for your honesty which is so rare nowadays .
You might want to try Noni juice powder and the reason I suggest that is because you can get it very cheaply where as the juice is so expensive .
Usually about 6 hours after drinking a teaspoon of it in a tall glass of water the skin of my face feels as smooth as a baby's bottom .
It's also called Indian Mulberry .
Aside from having many benefits and you can look it up it also is said to help break addictions to alcohol , nicotine ... and opiates .
Oh mama…. I’ve been clean for 3.5 yrs… but I was doing 30 oxys a day…. We are lucky to be alive.
Congratulations on your UA-cam channel taking off 🛫 🙌
Thank you for your story, beautiful girl. You're helping in so many different ways.💕
Great story. Lesson of the day is to be careful of the company you keep!
'Im glad you are sober now since I know you were looking at alot of drug charges as well as theft charges before you went to prison glad those heroin charges were dropped against you.
Bad associations can get people into a lot a trouble. The book “See You At The Top” by Zig Ziglar is an amazing book and has a great chapter on habits.
Damn girl. Good job. I’ve been sober for 5 years. Life is so much better.
Girl you were speedballing!! Mixing H with either Snow or Ice is speedballing but can be dangerous af.
I wish every girl on u tube talks fast and natural like beautiful Jen Jen God bless her … so down to earth normal honest …
Love your brutal honesty ❤and I hope your story helps ppl
Jen, I am a new subscriber. How fabulous to have found your story. You are an inspiration. Please carry on. Smiles, and serenity to you and your family.💫💥💛💫🧡💥❤
Hey girl nice to meet you. This is my first of your videos. What a story I would love to hear more. You should be so proud, you have come a long way. Many need to hear you. May God Bless you and your family.
Awesome post about drug abuse and withdrawal, you had me laughing so hard 😅
They helped right into handcuffs! ❤. Your too much!;; and I am here for it!
Your stories are very awesome and helpful and your intelligent woman God Bless
When you create that Joy from within n you're high on life, you don't seek it externally. But everyone must do their own inner child healing from trauma and neglect because most parents have not done theirs❤
You are so entertaining! Who needs Hulu?! 😂
Glad to hear you’re all good now. You’re a great storyteller
These are reasons why I would never date someone into drugs nor would I ever try anything. I enjoyed smoking cigarettes when I was younger and I enjoyed drinking and I didn't want anything to ever feel that good so I just never tried anything else. People should just stay away from it. I don't understand why people try anything after knowing what happens to people.
Lost my brother. 27 years old. You don’t always recover. This is the reality.
Thank you for your story..❤ People don't realize that addict come in all shapes and sizes and income brackets.. a lot of soccer moms are H addicts or on some form of opiates. I am staying away from all of that.. I am getting sober and trying to find my life again.
Omg something like my story..didn't know what drug I was doing, besides cocaine and Marijuana...but it was smooth and good. Also, I didn't want to do drugs ever, but so called friends wouldn't stop taunting me one long night to try a line they had made and saved for me from early on. I was afraid I'd get addicted because already I loved alcohol too much. Well, 4 to 6 hours later I gave in out of feeling obligated and found myself quietly craving my next line. That was my 1st time with any drug before the rest came along from friends sharing. So glad I finally sobered up after 2 or 3 yrs.. which lasted 10 years. Fell off the wagon 6 years only on alcohol and worked hard to sobriety again. Now sober a little over 14 years again. Thank you for letting me share. Feels good to release once in a great while ❤🥲
Thank you thank you for telling your story! You are such an amazing woman. May God continue to bless you and your family 🙏🩷🙏!
I've been there with the withdrawals and saying you were sick is putting it mildly. That is a sick where you litterally think you are going to die and almost hope you will so it will be over. That is the reason people stay addicts fortunately now there are things you can take to spare you that hell.
Yes!!!! Withdrawal is the fkn worst,total hell just like you said. Yeah thankfully they do have medicine for you to take so you don’t get sick but you are just switching from one drug to another.YOU ARE STILL AN ADDICT.Only difference is that one is Legal and the other is not. Prayers 🙏 and 🫶 from Chicago
Wow, anybody can make that mistake especially when they’re on that stuff. Been there done that God bless you and one day at a time🙏❤️
Thank you Laurie! I appreciate your encouraging comments. I see all of them and I just want you to know that you commenting and supporting means so much. Not only does it obviously help the channel so that’s awesome but it also just makes me feel really happy and grateful that genuinely kind people like yourself find my channel and stick around with me.. so if I haven’t said it enough. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I appreciate you so much and I appreciate your love, support, and encouragement more than you know and more than I could explain in a comment. Have a great rest of the weekend 🙏🏼❤️
Thank you for your video. H & fetty were the love of my life for 5 years. Clean for 3.5 years now.
Great content! Love watching your videos and interviews. I can relate so so much and my story is almost identical. I turned my life around and now making legal Dr./Lawyer money and have everything I ever dreamed of. But above all I have happiness I’ve never experienced.
Keep up the hard work and keep on this path your on.
Your son is very handsome! Happy you are home with him.❤
It's ALWAYS the boyfriend's that get us in trouble!! I've NEVER gotten myself in trouble. Other than the choice of being around the wrong people!
Damn your storytelling is 🔥
I'm loving your stories! I'm in recovery too (Aug 2024 will be full 6)...But before these 6 yrs I went to 3 different rehabs, lost my husband of 17 yrs and 2 daughters. That is the thing I struggle with most, the damage done to my girls. I have relationships with them now. With each relapse I got worse..I started with pills and asked to go to rehab. Stayed clean about 5-6mo after then went on a 3 year bender but I was able to hide it from friends and family....I don't think my husband wanted to believe I was using. Well the pills got too expensive & too hard to find, so I was introduced to "H" someone shot me up & I was in love......I'll leave it there! Thank you for sharing your story! I'm subscribed now!
3 years sober one week ago🎉🎉🎉
That’s really all it takes, is one time. I’ve never tried H and never will god willing ❤glad ur sober now
That's a ROUGH deal. She's tough as nails to have gone through it all. Glad she is doing fine as of 4 yrs.
I remember a time long ago Coke and whiskey...man it hella helped the emotions but dang flakes make that voice ao strong and in range
I will never understand the psychology behind taking that first hit. We have so much information about addiction and consequences and how lives are ruined yet we have a tidal wave of young people hooked on all these different drugs. Makes me so sad.
Proud of you! Blessings to you and your family
SIs, you're a GREAT STORY TELLEER.... I'm eager to hear morrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrre!!!!!
What lip gloss is that? It’s beautiful 😍
I have an inner voice. We all do. That whisper says his conversation & actions is telling you that you are not that girl. I listen to that voice & my last visit was a i cannot do this with you anymore. I listened & he was russian. 😊
Boy what very vivid image….mouth is watering thinking of that feeling…WOW….such an incredible feeling…. I thought like you… as a young man in the 90’s that’s what I thought of H… dirty drug I thought but when the oxy’s hit at the turn of the century and the price was getting so high, a friend I asked for a pill said he didn’t have any but he had something that would heal me and was cheaper…. Well just like you said petrified of being sick….19 years later finally recovered