All the comments saying "Please dont" are people that dont care for your mental health. You are free to take a break in whatever you do okay. Thoughts are free will, free will is what makes everything creative. Dont let your brain build a brick wall. Let it free. Dont worry about dissapointing people. 6:38 lel console hackring
it's ok, I get that what I do means a lot to a lot of people. I'm not bothered by it. I just also accept that at the end of the day I only have so much I can offer people.
@@JamAttack Also, heres what I reccomend you do: Take a break from youtube now, make friends, go to the place you mentioned in the video, maybe even get a job, but just try not to even think about youtube for a few months. Then, come back, and you can chose if you want to stay or not, having experienced what it will be like if you quit. If you like that option more, than go down that route. If I were in your shoes, I think that is what I would do.
This was incredibly relatable. I'm 25. Life doesn't care about your dreams, your passions, your obsessions, who you were "meant to be". And sometimes it feels like a cruel twisted joke, and other times it makes you see there are actually things and people more valuable in this world than your own personal "dreams". I go back and forth between feeling good about this and not. Feeling good or bad about being obsessed with my desired future, then feeling good or bad about letting go of those dreams, being bitter or appreciative of the unexpected things life throws my way, and feeling serenity or anxiety about the absurdity of it all... It's so fucking messy and confusing idek if this comment makes sense.
I totally feel ya. You're not alone. There's so many expectations around every corner. There's a constant battle to chose not to care about what doesn't affect you. I can feel like a bad person sometimes for not measuring up to everything about everyone around me and I need to stop. It's ok to be imperfect. It's ok to be weird. The secret is that most people feel inadequate and are just faking their confidence. That's 100% normal.
Life is kind of like the level electrodynamics, where everything is going as it always does, smooth and continuous, when suddenly, it all speeds up, and you nearly lose control, and you have to get used to the more challenging version of existence (also don't worry Jam we are all here to support you take as long as you want)
First, i would like to say, i am not an adult, i am 14 years of age as of writing this comment. But, i can relate a good amount to what you are saying, i never really noticed until now that your brain makes things seem normal to you, when they really arnet. I think that if anyone knew alot about my life, they would find it very weird and concerning but to me its just, how its always been. I am also neurodivergent, and i relate to what you said about that. Its pretty hard to realise that being neurodivergent really does effect every moment of your life, because it really doesn't feel like it, but its just the truth. You should always try to remember that, you being neurodivergent is part of what makes you, you. the same way an artist being good at drawing is one of the things that make them themselves. Its not something to be ashamed of. I one hundred percent agree that being around other people can make your life 100x better, you just need to be around *your* people. Forcing yourself to be around people who you dont really enjoy being around can be damaging, if there always putting you down or always ignoring you or making fun of you, then those arnet your friends. Try to be more open with people, if they don't like you for being you then, you were probably better off without them anyways. Its nice to see you coming to terms with this stuff, there is more to life about you than just jamattack. I hope that you try to focus more on yourself, from what i can see your already getting better, which is great. Have a good day jam :)
Im also 14 and neurodivergent. My biggest dream would be a best friend. There are people that consider me as a friend, but I don't see them back that way, and that makes me feel bad about myself. Either they are really nice but we don't have the same interests, making things really akward and hard to hang out, or we have the same interests but I don't like their personality. I'm not good at making friends. I wouldn't know where to look, but even if I knew I probably wouldn't have the balls to talk to strangers.
I am also 14 and also neurodivergent. I’ve tried making friends in the past but all of them ended up taking advantage of me overall, like one friend who went with me to a trip to a waterpark in the past, whom I invited to come, who ended up bringing another friend of theirs and then not even acknowledging my presence when there, or another that ended up using me in a bet that made them $10 and then proceeding to distance us and stop talking at all since the moment they got the money. At this point I’ve just stopped trying to make friends, and while I know it isn’t a good idea I still cannot bring myself to try making more friends especially having “extreme” anxiety and generally being considered a weird kid that nobody wants to be around.
Not to pander to the people here that still don't see you as a human being with other needs, but I'll be honest, I doubt you'll have to quit completely. You may have been granted a privilege in this game and channel but I was granted a privilege in like so many other ways that I am pretty much certain that things will turn out fine for me no matter what. And with so many options in front of me I realize that its not about choosing one or the other, it's about choosing both but in the right way. Give your brain more credit, it can fit a little of itself in the JamAttack Box and plenty in the You Box. You're probably gonna have to leave behind the kinds of people in this comment section who say you can't leave, but you don't have to abandon this passion of yours, its still here, its ready for you when you are. I and many many others will remain here still hoping the best for you.
Yea I do still love doing this. I agree with what you're saying. I think I'm just trying to make it clear that at the end of the day it's my choice how I approach this game. I've spent a long time working out of a sense of expectations and pressure. I need to let go of that. I need to go back to making stuff because I want to. Seems kinda blatantly obvious saying it now lol, I got way too sucked into grind culture.
@@JamAttacklike if you ever want to drop a level, dont listen to the people pressuring you to finish it. just do whatever content you want to make, and if you want to switch games even, that's fine, as long as you are happy. if you want a break for a while, thats also fine, as long as you are happy. dont let people pressure you into doing what you dont want to do.
aswell as if you want to do a certain decorating style, definitely listen to the suggestions but remember they are suggestions not like requirements. in the end no matter what you decide to do, its your decision and as long as you are happy thats all that matters
at the end of the day this is a stupid game about a cube jumping over a spike. And just remenber mental health always comes first so if you take a pause or even quit just remenber: I like many others (I think at least) will always support you, no matter what you make masterpiece or not you always have supporters on this useless thing called social media.
Love the fact that there are still normal people that actually try focusing on life as a full picture than just locking themselves to one thing No matter what jam does i hope the community respects him for his decision ❤
Just watched your layout video and it was awesome. And as for you, I’m glad you’ve been able to meet people and focus on yourself for a bit, instead of just the channel. So whatever you do next, I wish you well :3
Hey Jam! Im pretty young, but I have some pretty serious ADHD, and I can relate quite a lot to this video. I can't stop thinking about things I obsess over, music, geometry dash, school, friends, fights, and I can't stop thinking about it until I obsess over something else. I completley understand the part of doing your own thing or projects in your room all day. Thats all I do. Outside of school, and talking to my parents, hellos and goodbyes between siblings, I just spend all day in my room. I think I spend more time with my dogs then I do all other human beings combined. I think you really made me realise just how little I interact with other humans, so thank you for helping me come to that reaslization. I agree with the part about "No people" And "Yes people" as I'm in an improv troop, I actually had a performance yesterday, and I agree with you about finding and surrounding yourself with "Yes, and" people more than anything in this video. As my teacher says, we should'nt say "Yes, but" or "Yes, or" or "No, but" because it completley de-values the other persons idea, and thats not fair to them. So anyways, take as much breaks as you need from youtube, as long as you think it will help you do better, and be healthier. I hope you have a great day, night evening, wherever you are.
6:45 never related to anyone more than this moment right here, honestly. i too have OCD and i swear i have NEVER felt so understood! the cycle of caring way too much about minuscule details to being forced to not care about some things because it’s just too much, then recharging and repeating the cycle again is (at least in my case) spot-on. i’ve even started a project a year ago that fit the question you asked, “if you’re not getting anything out of what you’re doing, and it’s not enjoyable or accomplishing anything, why are you doing it?” this next paragraph will be basically me ranting about the project in question, so skip to the next one if you’d like, it’s pretty darn long :) the project in question was an unreachable goal, by definition. something that could never be reached, that could be infinitely expanded, and with one of my neurological disorders making me VERY creative, that tends to get very out of hand very quickly. it was essentially a recipe for disaster. i was never even planning to submit it anywhere because of the fear that no one would like it, therefore i wasn’t getting anything out of it but some fun ideas on paper! it started out as EXTREMELY enjoyable, i would write nearly 20+ pages of this thing a DAY, i would talk about it nonstop, i would be constantly looking up inspirations and things to learn from to use for the project, hours and hours every day dedicated to obsessing over it. i was obsessed with this project, and then it started to drain me. it was becoming too monotonous, i would try to shake things up, and it would never really help. the project was becoming too big a scale, so i took a long break before getting into it again, and it just… wasn’t the same. so, after about three years of work poured into it, i quit the project, and i still have mixed feelings about that. i know it was definitely the right thing to do, but at the same time, it felt wrong to be abandoning it like this? yeah, i was THAT obsessed with it. but still, i ended up quitting it, and i’ve been quite a bit more free since. in short, do whatever you need to do! take some time off, defocus on the channel to prioritize your life, focus on the channel when you can and want to, whatever you need at the moment, i know i’ll support you through it! in that relatively short section about your experiences with OCD, you unironically made me feel the most understood and felt i’ve been in a LONG, long time. thank you for that, i wish you nothing but the best :D (sorry about the ridiculously long comment, but i had a lot of feelings to get out i guess lol)
❤ you @Jamattack Don’t ever try to force out things you don’t wanna do. Thank you for help build this wonderful community, and keep building this work of art for your mind. Your peace. You’ve inspired me to build myself, for myself. I speak for all of us when I say, we’re okay with anything you do. And we are grateful for everything you’ve done for us as geometry dash players. But, we’re gonna miss ya if you take a break. Give yourself some credit, don’t be too hard on yourself. Well done with everything you’ve built Jam, and I wish you a beautiful life buddy. ❤
do whatever, you've put out relatively consistent 10/10 videos and 10/10 levels for ages now and wanting to move on is entirely understandable, just focus on what you want to do and please try not to fall into the youtuber trap of "i need to make content for the subs". hope you have a good time in whatever you wanna do. youve inspired thousands and lead to people finding their passion, its only fair that you get to find another passion if you want
I like how everyone was panicking 20 minutes ago, but cmon guys, watch the video first! And JamAttack, thank you for being aware of how important building your online community should be to you!
This made me cry. Thank you for all the content. You can do whatever you want or need, because you have given us so much under your will, sacrifiicnng your time, effort, and energy on something that might hurt you. Thank you for everything.
The way I look at it, nothing truly matters. Eventually, everything you ever did will be lost in time. So why don't you just do what makes you happy? I've always been an introvert, and I like being alone. When I'm with a friend, I always feel like I have to be at the top of my game, to give the right response to everything he says. Also, I don't see them back as friends. I'm just kinda friends with them so I'm not alone, which makes my feel bad about myself. My biggest dream is a friend that when he asks me to hang out I'm not trying to think of every possible excuse to avoid it. When I'm alone, I'm more relaxed. I play Pokémon which allowed me to interact with some awesome people, but I never know what to say and it always makes things awkward. Maybe its because of my autism, maybe not, idk. I wish I was good with people, but I'm not, and it can be hard to embrace that sometimes.
There are people out there that you can enjoy being around. We all need a little bit of that. It might be hard to find them, and it might take a lot of figuring out which ways you need to change. It's best to stay focused on the best aspects about yourself and find other people that embody those things.
I’m so glad you chose to take this step In your life. As the son of a licensed therapist, I know that brains are hard to understand, and as a 14 year old kid, I’m really glad you told me this, because I’m in a bit of a weird place in my life and I’m still struggling to find myself. You really helped me, and I’m so glad you made this video. Good luck with your future!
Hi Jam, I honestly can relate to this because my mental health was severely messed up like 5-6 months back due to me not caring about it and just living in my stupid ass chair all day, all week. All I ever did was Chair and after 3-4 months of that I was like "Man, I really gotta fix up my life and what I'm doing as a person" so lately I've been doing things that make me happy and hanging out with friends that make me happy. Hell, I got back into school, and it may have been a rough start, but it was really worth the time and effort of getting to know new people that I can enjoy my time with instead of living in my own personal bubble away from the outside world. Thank you for letting me look back at what I did and what I can do even better towards the good :3
I don't want to say who I am, but I do want to say, I'm glad to realise thats what we have both experienced some overlap, it's normal to struggle. And speaking up is always the best course of action. But i wanted to thank you and say you are one of the best GD creators.
You've been an amazing person Jam. I've always looked up to you as the nicest person on youtube. Being stressed with school messes my life up a lot, but you sure make me happy when I watch a video of yours! You've gotten far, and I really wish the best for you and your friends. I know you've had a lot of things to balance lately, and I wish you luck with your accomplishments Make sure that whatever you do will make your life as happy as you want it to be You're a great man
This hits home so hard. I'm an undisclosed age (because ew creeps) but I'm also autistic, fairly certain I'm ADHD and have obsessive tendancies. I related to all of this. The trapped feeling, not caring about something you used to be so passionate of and something that was quite literally all you had. I'm so glad you're getting better and it makes me want to get better too! My mood diary says that I've been getting worse but weirdly I've been feeling a little better - I've started doing my hair more often (yours looked sick by the way) and started trying new things. I dyed my hair, started hanging out with a couple new people. Not to trauma dump but I've never been good with people, or small talk (my best friend's sister described me as an 'awkward child' lmao) but you're inspiring me to try harder, and be myself. Also, the way you talk is so articulate and wise, I enjoy it a lot. Thank you for being awesome Jam, hope you're okay. Take as much time as you need on your little breaks. Have a good day / night!
Good for you, your path and lively hood has given me inspiration to move on more in my life… whether that be from your “speech” or your previous videos, they all have a charm that allows me to do so many tasks and aspirations in my life, from playing gd to pursing a higher education.. just from watching this video I realized that I have been bound by the opinions of others rather than allowing my own free thoughts and beliefs shine through (not in a toxic way) I this video really helped with my own self discovery, thank you 😊 Jam attack or whatever you’d like to be called 👍
Thank you for the amazing videos and levels glorious fortress was my first demon and your channel will always hold a special place in my heart for inspiring me to start with level creation take as much time as you need
This video changed my life, it opened my eyes. I really agree with the message being put out, and I'm happy for you, Jam. I'm glad you could turn into a happier, healthier version of yourself, and I hope you continue to do so. (Pls finish my little mountain town in under a decade :])
i have autism, ADHD, DCD and social anxiety all diagnosed and honestly the most helpful thing for me was to pick up more stuff, i have basically quit gd at this point and picked up game development, music and drawing and honestly i haven't enjoyed myself this much in a long time, just like you i didn't really realize just how bad of a place i was in, i was actually suicidal without really realizing it, it sucks because i feel like i wasted so much of my time focusing on things i didn't actually care about just for the sake of my future, but i realize now that realistically, there isn't really much i can do about how i am now, I've already done a ton of work on my issues, they are still a huge problem and the returns are minuscule now, but somehow that's a bit freeing, i know i wont be able to live a normal life like i once wanted to, i can't get over my anxiety or any of my other problems, so what am i left with? nothing, so i might as well do whatever i want, i stopped really caring about improving my issues and conversely that has improved how i feel about myself a lot. i picked up stuff that i always wanted to do but felt like i didn't have the time to do because i always had to work extra hard to keep up with important stuff, eventually i will be an adult and i will need to work out stuff but for now I'm just going to fuck around a bit and maybe some of the things i'm good at can take me somewhere
Please don’t feel like you are responsible for giving us anything! If you ever need a break, we have the entire rest of the internet to entertain us while you’re gone. But don’t let that make you think we won’t come back, because at the very least, I’ll stick around. (Still don’t feel pressured to ever come back if that’s not the best for you.)
glad you’re doing better! im happy that you’re finding yourself, what you like to do, and people that you enjoy being around. keep being you and just live life
There's so many people that need this video, so just as a quick reminder for anyone who stumbles across my little comment, you are more important to yourself than what other people think of you. Don't focus too hard on building up a public image, because no matter how you show yourself, you're still a person and disconnecting from yourself to deliver to others is a really unhealthy habit.
And as for me, (for anyone who cares) as a trans girly myself, I definitely struggle, being so focused on the internet and stuff. I live in one of the most republican states in America, so I have little to no interest in being social around others near me, and I have REALLY bad social anxiety. I still have many ways to go, and I doubt all of my problems will go away for another few years, but fixing yourself is a process, not something that happens instantly. So being patient and being easy on yourself is something that I think is worth knowing. Good luck to all of you, and much love.
I feel like I have to comment on this, a lot of it is relatable to me even though I'm not exactly in the same situation. I have Asperger's and I tend to get super obsessed with some ideas I have and I will do anything to make them reality. Maybe someone remembers Animation vs. Geometry Dash, the auto level I made back in mid 2.1, I can't even tell how many hours I dedicated to it, it took a year and a half to finish. I have made some similar scope projects outside of Geometry Dash as well. This was fine when I was young, but now I'm 24, I have a job, need to pay taxes, there is simply no time at all to do what my brain is telling me to, not to mention no energy as my job while fun is as exhausting as any. But my brain still wants me do do stuff and start new projects and it's hard to resist. Being on the spectrum is a different kind of life experience than most have, I hope by the many good comments here you can see you are not alone in this and many people can relate to your problems in their own way.
If you feel you need to take a break, permanently even, we support you :). You’ve been amazing to watch, I’ll miss you, but I’m sure all of us will be happier if you’re happier
Hey jam, i hope whatever you do is the best for you, not us, as people (I just want to say us viewers but people will work) just want to see more and more, but some people, see past that see the real person that inside you, and i do hope that most of your community will support you wherever you go, and those people who dont, dont care about them, they are just small specks of your community, and that most people will support you, no matter what. Sorry if that came off as weird by any chance, not good with words honestly, but whatever you do, we support you♥
jam, i don't know if you'll read this, but i need somewhere to ramble about where i'm at and this video brought up a lot of stuff for me. of course you have no clue how i am, but i see a lot of myself in you whenever you talk about your life, and i'm so so grateful that you've been as open and honest with us as you have. i'm a freshman in college, and i'm lost. very very lost. needless to say that as i grow older the world gets more and more confusing. this includes with gender as well; i've been trying to figure that shit out for like 4 years but i've accepted it'll never make sense to me. living in florida doesn't help either. i've found solace for a while in online communities, and the idea that finding other people who complement you in the right ways is the key to success is something i've reflected on a lot recently. i think that as a kid there were very rare instances of having someone who truly felt like that to me, and even then i never really felt understood. but i also didn't realize that i never felt understood, so it just felt like there was some sort of invisible boundary between my own world and everyone else's. meeting people through discord over the past couple of years has sorta started to break that, but it still makes a huge difference for me that i can't spend time with them in real life. going into college, i thought it would be the perfect time to finally find those types of people in real life. but, as i'm sure you know, it's *really fucking hard.* and right now, i'm sort of in the stage where i can barely keep myself together, if at all, so i start to lose hope that i'll ever find my place. i still try as hard as possible to have hope for the future, but when i don't see a path out it's really difficult to believe it exists. if anyone's reading this far, thank you so much, i don't really know where i wanted to go with this but it's been causing me a lot of stress. god damn i wrote a lot uhhh ok yeah again thanks for putting this out there so people like me have someone they can somewhat relate with. ok bye, have a nice day and also welcome to the nb club
Keep holding onto hope. Do the things you want to do even if you're terrified to do them. When the world doesn't value who you are, the best you can do is show them why they should. It's not an easy place to be put in, it's incredibly hard and confusing at every turn, but it also can be a rewarding journey. That's what I tell myself anyway. Change starts slow and small. As long as you're doing something that feels like it's helping, that's enough for now. Even if it's a small thing.
I respect this and would be fine with him quitting if he wants to move on. I can totally understand that feeling like stuff can pull you away from other things and that you might want to change. I just hope you enjoy what you find later on
Hey Jam, we all support you. I may be disappointed now, but in time I will indefinitely respect your decision to do what you need. It takes a strong person be able to do that. Here's a quote: "Sometimes, the best way to move forward is to take a step back." -Unknown
JamAttack, take your time on videos, if you're stressed out or if you're trying to do something, that's completely fine, don't make UA-cam your top priority, as long as we know you're okay, we're fine with that ❤
I'm 21 and in a similar boat; I feel like I've, I don't want to say "wasted", but just not really used my late teens especially as well as I could've and I'm trying to make up for lost time a little myself. I still play the game as it makes me happy and I relate to What you're saying a lot. We got this 👍
i recently have been very depressed and not making anything or working on anything I enjoy so as somebody trying to keep people from falling into that pit take a bit and focus on yourself jam
7:03 I realized this when I hit 20, but didn't act on it until a couple months ago, that day I left everything related to gd, but stayed with the friends i made. Since that day I've felt a little more alive and started to think about what I actually want to do in life. I've gotten closer to my real life friends and been doing more things with my family. For me, leaving the community and just checking in once in a while has been one of the best choices I've made the last couple years, and I wish you luck on your own journey
I just hope you stay safe Jam, you have a great community that cares about you, that supports you and would do everything they have in hand to help. This video has made me realize things, it's... sorta depressing, but in a good way, it made me realize that I shouldnt limit myself to one or things, that I should go outside my lil comfort zone and explore, and to be... myself. Thank you very much Jam, please take care and keep being as cool as you are
boundaries are good and you are so right. you don't owe us anything, and this isn't all there is to life. we love you and support you, and i hope you know that it's okay to take as many breaks as you need or leave entirely. take care.
I understand you , we do , Things gotta change in life , like we no longer watch the same baby / kid shows we used to. First time I saw a phone I was 5/6 years old , got my first one at 7 .I also met some problems with geometry dash, The bigg st one being that I play it alone , none of my Friends play it and they keep telling me to quit it , I haven't played gd in 2 weeks now , they don't know that , and am not telling them . Who knows who I would be without that game, years ago , I had a potato pc , I was looking for games to play when I stumbled upon GD , it helped me escape reality , me being the most hated by my parents. Thank you for caring about yourself jam !
at the end of the day its all art. life is an art. art is a skill. art is fun. life is fun. so the point is to improve at the skill of making life fun. seems like youre doin that so nice job!
Can relate to a lot of this. And yeah I really understand. Hope 2025 can be a less confusing year for you. Also OCD fucking sucks I used to really struggle with it
Just do... whatever you want man. You don't owe us anything. If you feel like uploading, go for it. Im always happy to see you upload. If you don't feel like and have other priorities- that's completely fine. :)
Even though I'm only 13, I still understand what you are saying. I'm also autistic and I constanly worry about what will happen to my later life. At the end of the day, it's your decision. Do what you want with your life.
I'd say this video helped me with my own geometry dash addiction. The GD community is an all-consuming community. You'll make a level and it'll get popular for a certain amount of time but then it just stops. A great example of this is the demon list, people will hype up the top 1 but once it's dethroned people mostly care about the new top 1 instead. Stargrinders will play levels once then forget about them, cp grinders will make levels and never mention them again. You put in so much effort only to retain a temporary position. The important thing to make sure of is that you are enjoying what you are doing. There's no point in having all the fame in the entire world if you hate it. Do what you want to do, spend time with the people who care about your work, not the people who want an extra 6 stars on their profile. I only got my first featured level after I stopped caring about the creator points, stopped caring about the standards for the level. And just doing what I wanted to do, and just being me. I've recently felt burnt out because I cared about rate standards and wanting to finish and release my level, when really I should have been focusing on having fun. Thank you, Jamattack, and good luck with your future endeavors.
Do what you love, and don’t let expectations make more out of your work than you make out of it yourself. Even as just a 20 year old, I’ve had many of my friends (even my GD-adjacent ones) frazzled at my continued undying passion for this game that, if anything, has grown over the decade I’ve played it. What I’ve come to realize is that passion is a wave, and one you have to be okay with riding the way it’s “meant” to go. I’ve had nearly years at a time where GD is as about as much as a game I loved that I’ve consigned won’t be updated ever again and isn’t as worth playing due to the skill ceiling nowadays, and even more years at a time where I embrace that my love for it goes far beyond nostalgia and encapsulates how I feel about art and the love I have for music and individualism. What I’m getting at is that whatever doubts you’re getting now, whatever derision you feel for loving something that feels “past your age” - know that is not you and that cannot hold weight over you. If that wave isn’t giving your work and experiences in GD the release of passion you want, then let that wave move you forward, just don’t expect passion to move linearly, especially for the neurodivergent. I pray you come to accept change and growth with open and loving arms, and can approach what you love in a way that’s healthiest and least stressful for you. Wishing the best for you and what you love. You’re an inspiration to us all.
Sometimes moving on in life isn’t about letting go of what you hold dear, rather, changing your perspective and realizing you had so much more room for new things to love than you previously thought. Rarely does accepting something new require giving up what’s dear to you already - just adjusting where that sits in your life. Whether that be people, media, lifestyle, or otherwise, love and passion is an infinite wellspring that is embodied deep in us. Be happy and proud you are making room for more loves.
Hey, I'll keep it brief so as to not write an essay in the comment section (something I am very guilty of). But as a (self-diagnosed) autistic trans girlie (non-binary), I think you hit on a lot of things I also personally have been dealing with as I'm 23 years old. I'm in a completely liminal space, not entirely sure where I'm going or where I am, but shit is happening. I hope to begin HRT next year, I'll have to go through my autism screening before then for some reason, and in the meantime I'm just waiting on shit to happen. You also hit on the concept of community, I've been thinking a lot about it recently, like I have friends and sort of a support system, but I wish I had more of a community, an exclusively social environment. So I've been trying to act on that wish, meeting people whenever I can, but it's hard, especially as someone with a lot of social trauma and anxiety due to my autistic tendencies as a kid. Failure has always been hard to deal with, most of my anxiety surrounds making mistakes. From what it seems though, this looks to be a very normal experience, "the liminal twenties" as I call it. Anyway this was a very pleasing listening experience and made me feel better about where I am, thank you. (I know i said I'd keep it brief but this is as brief as it can go okay)
It's pretty hard to define yourself in a world built around fitting into certain models. I know it can pay off in the long run though. It's a hard and confusing journey full of sacrifice and guilt around every corner. But it's also beautiful when you finally come full circle and realize that despite everything... it's still you. (undertale fan who would have guessed) You are still the person you always knew deep inside that you are. The journey isn't about rising to the thousands of demands from life, it's about learning not to care. It's about learning that you're still you at deeper and deeper levels.
I watched your previous video and it is beatiful how you represented a human being in this level, (well I think that this is the case with that level). I remember playing video games, having fun with friends, now its gone. I really think about the future now, polishing my hobbies and passions, but GD is a game that I can just get back to and relax for a bit, making some stuff in editor for fun. I dont have any creator points, but Im okay with that, sometimes I just want to be myself, again... but its hard in a world of liars. Thx jam.
Jam. Thank you so much. I'm genuinely so glad you chose this path. This lifestyle of youtubing and digital satisfaction is so degrading and makes you feel empty. People need to know when to stop. When to chill. Your right. You don't owe us anything. And I completely respect that. If you need to stop. Stop. I've been supporting your channel for a while now, and I'll be sad to see you go. But in a good way.
I have Echolalia so i can relate that autism feels wierd, even with my curse to yell/scream random words (people then look at you and with introvert person it isn't best combination)
Finally! Honestly no one on earth expects your entire life to be gd related just so we can watch content... Ever since your first video I've been wondering when you would dial it down on the crazy scale. No other gd content creator does nearly as much as you and we watch them anyway... GL
I genuinly can’t think of anything to comment anymore, you’ve exhausted my small reserve of positive comments! ohno!! you deserve it though ^w^ Idon’tknowwhattosayanymorebyeeeee
Thank you for making all this great content. You do not owe us anything, as you said, and you’ve already produced some amazing content. If you’d quit now, that’s perfectly fine. I hope your life goes well!
whatever you do, we all care about you (i think) and you can do anything you want if its what you genuinely want to do, as long as it makes you happy :) anyways time to play the mlmt layout
damn, we have some similar life things. just be yourself. You were an insperation, and still are. I am probably going to watch all of your vids when I have time.
After watching this video, I really feel for you. You don't know me and I don't know you, but as someone with autism and possibly undiagnosed ADHD (and my hyperfixation being GD instead of something 'useful') it sounds like you genuinely mentally tortured yourself to make the 100 hour layout, and I don't even know what you're going through IRL. I can't give advice for everything, but my suggestion is to slow down with the content creation and possibly just make a small little level just for fun, exactly the way you want to - nobody has to know about it and you don't even have to upload it or show it to anyone. And of course, stick by your friends and family and try your best not to feel pressured to keep pumping out content or community updates; at its core, UA-cam really is just supposed to be a platform for a hobby. Don't forget that you don't owe us anything and that your wellbeing comes first.
Hi jam! I have autism and adhd and ocd too, and I love your vids! Your videos are really awesome and I always laugh! Do whatever you want to stay happy and if you ever have too much on your plate, remember that you can just stop being productive and chill. Your vids are great man, and good luck ❤
look jam, i love your videos, and watch all new ones all the way through, but do what you think you need to do. Your personal stuff is way more important than all of us watching a few videos.
do whatever you wish man. at the end of the day it's but to you, but honestly i'd just say to make videos when you feel like it. if that's never, that's okay. but regardless, still keep making creative things, it gives us all a purpose
All the comments saying "Please dont" are people that dont care for your mental health. You are free to take a break in whatever you do okay. Thoughts are free will, free will is what makes everything creative. Dont let your brain build a brick wall. Let it free. Dont worry about dissapointing people.
6:38 lel console hackring
it's ok, I get that what I do means a lot to a lot of people. I'm not bothered by it. I just also accept that at the end of the day I only have so much I can offer people.
No way he listened to the guy who told him to get a stable life in his glorious fortress videos
@@JamAttack Also, heres what I reccomend you do: Take a break from youtube now, make friends, go to the place you mentioned in the video, maybe even get a job, but just try not to even think about youtube for a few months. Then, come back, and you can chose if you want to stay or not, having experienced what it will be like if you quit. If you like that option more, than go down that route. If I were in your shoes, I think that is what I would do.
This was incredibly relatable. I'm 25. Life doesn't care about your dreams, your passions, your obsessions, who you were "meant to be". And sometimes it feels like a cruel twisted joke, and other times it makes you see there are actually things and people more valuable in this world than your own personal "dreams". I go back and forth between feeling good about this and not. Feeling good or bad about being obsessed with my desired future, then feeling good or bad about letting go of those dreams, being bitter or appreciative of the unexpected things life throws my way, and feeling serenity or anxiety about the absurdity of it all...
It's so fucking messy and confusing idek if this comment makes sense.
This does make sense
I totally feel ya. You're not alone. There's so many expectations around every corner. There's a constant battle to chose not to care about what doesn't affect you. I can feel like a bad person sometimes for not measuring up to everything about everyone around me and I need to stop. It's ok to be imperfect. It's ok to be weird. The secret is that most people feel inadequate and are just faking their confidence. That's 100% normal.
he may be a diddler but hes spittin 🔥🔥🔥
he may be a diddler but hes spittin 🔥🔥🔥
Hi Jam! Just finished watching your 100+ hour layout video, great stuff man, keep it up!
Same here
Life is kind of like the level electrodynamics, where everything is going as it always does, smooth and continuous, when suddenly, it all speeds up, and you nearly lose control, and you have to get used to the more challenging version of existence (also don't worry Jam we are all here to support you take as long as you want)
my life is like a video game
@@JamAttacktrying hard to beat the stage
And for some reason im here
One of the most relatable things I have read
I completely understand. Make sure to focus on what you need. ❤
We* ❤
First, i would like to say, i am not an adult, i am 14 years of age as of writing this comment. But, i can relate a good amount to what you are saying, i never really noticed until now that your brain makes things seem normal to you, when they really arnet. I think that if anyone knew alot about my life, they would find it very weird and concerning but to me its just, how its always been.
I am also neurodivergent, and i relate to what you said about that. Its pretty hard to realise that being neurodivergent really does effect every moment of your life, because it really doesn't feel like it, but its just the truth. You should always try to remember that, you being neurodivergent is part of what makes you, you. the same way an artist being good at drawing is one of the things that make them themselves. Its not something to be ashamed of.
I one hundred percent agree that being around other people can make your life 100x better, you just need to be around *your* people. Forcing yourself to be around people who you dont really enjoy being around can be damaging, if there always putting you down or always ignoring you or making fun of you, then those arnet your friends. Try to be more open with people, if they don't like you for being you then, you were probably better off without them anyways.
Its nice to see you coming to terms with this stuff, there is more to life about you than just jamattack. I hope that you try to focus more on yourself, from what i can see your already getting better, which is great. Have a good day jam :)
Im also 14 and neurodivergent. My biggest dream would be a best friend. There are people that consider me as a friend, but I don't see them back that way, and that makes me feel bad about myself. Either they are really nice but we don't have the same interests, making things really akward and hard to hang out, or we have the same interests but I don't like their personality. I'm not good at making friends. I wouldn't know where to look, but even if I knew I probably wouldn't have the balls to talk to strangers.
I am also 14 and also neurodivergent. I’ve tried making friends in the past but all of them ended up taking advantage of me overall, like one friend who went with me to a trip to a waterpark in the past, whom I invited to come, who ended up bringing another friend of theirs and then not even acknowledging my presence when there, or another that ended up using me in a bet that made them $10 and then proceeding to distance us and stop talking at all since the moment they got the money. At this point I’ve just stopped trying to make friends, and while I know it isn’t a good idea I still cannot bring myself to try making more friends especially having “extreme” anxiety and generally being considered a weird kid that nobody wants to be around.
Not to pander to the people here that still don't see you as a human being with other needs, but I'll be honest, I doubt you'll have to quit completely. You may have been granted a privilege in this game and channel but I was granted a privilege in like so many other ways that I am pretty much certain that things will turn out fine for me no matter what. And with so many options in front of me I realize that its not about choosing one or the other, it's about choosing both but in the right way. Give your brain more credit, it can fit a little of itself in the JamAttack Box and plenty in the You Box. You're probably gonna have to leave behind the kinds of people in this comment section who say you can't leave, but you don't have to abandon this passion of yours, its still here, its ready for you when you are. I and many many others will remain here still hoping the best for you.
Yea I do still love doing this. I agree with what you're saying. I think I'm just trying to make it clear that at the end of the day it's my choice how I approach this game. I've spent a long time working out of a sense of expectations and pressure. I need to let go of that. I need to go back to making stuff because I want to. Seems kinda blatantly obvious saying it now lol, I got way too sucked into grind culture.
@@JamAttack ❤
@@JamAttacklike if you ever want to drop a level, dont listen to the people pressuring you to finish it. just do whatever content you want to make, and if you want to switch games even, that's fine, as long as you are happy. if you want a break for a while, thats also fine, as long as you are happy. dont let people pressure you into doing what you dont want to do.
aswell as if you want to do a certain decorating style, definitely listen to the suggestions but remember they are suggestions not like requirements. in the end no matter what you decide to do, its your decision and as long as you are happy thats all that matters
at the end of the day this is a stupid game about a cube jumping over a spike. And just remenber mental health always comes first so if you take a pause or even quit just remenber: I like many others (I think at least) will always support you, no matter what you make masterpiece or not you always have supporters on this useless thing called social media.
man...
keep moving on jam
nothing stopping you
you didnt just make art
you became the art show itself
Love the fact that there are still normal people that actually try focusing on life as a full picture than just locking themselves to one thing No matter what jam does i hope the community respects him for his decision ❤
so many Niko pfps in this comment section
@@vespli this comment section must have been blessed
Just watched your layout video and it was awesome. And as for you, I’m glad you’ve been able to meet people and focus on yourself for a bit, instead of just the channel. So whatever you do next, I wish you well :3
Hey Jam! Im pretty young, but I have some pretty serious ADHD, and I can relate quite a lot to this video. I can't stop thinking about things I obsess over, music, geometry dash, school, friends, fights, and I can't stop thinking about it until I obsess over something else. I completley understand the part of doing your own thing or projects in your room all day. Thats all I do. Outside of school, and talking to my parents, hellos and goodbyes between siblings, I just spend all day in my room. I think I spend more time with my dogs then I do all other human beings combined. I think you really made me realise just how little I interact with other humans, so thank you for helping me come to that reaslization. I agree with the part about "No people" And "Yes people" as I'm in an improv troop, I actually had a performance yesterday, and I agree with you about finding and surrounding yourself with "Yes, and" people more than anything in this video. As my teacher says, we should'nt say "Yes, but" or "Yes, or" or "No, but" because it completley de-values the other persons idea, and thats not fair to them. So anyways, take as much breaks as you need from youtube, as long as you think it will help you do better, and be healthier. I hope you have a great day, night evening, wherever you are.
Thank you for being such a great part of the community even if u might leave, you deserve a break ❤
Mental health is the priority, don't apologize for leaving
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never related to anyone more than this moment right here, honestly. i too have OCD and i swear i have NEVER felt so understood! the cycle of caring way too much about minuscule details to being forced to not care about some things because it’s just too much, then recharging and repeating the cycle again is (at least in my case) spot-on. i’ve even started a project a year ago that fit the question you asked, “if you’re not getting anything out of what you’re doing, and it’s not enjoyable or accomplishing anything, why are you doing it?”
this next paragraph will be basically me ranting about the project in question, so skip to the next one if you’d like, it’s pretty darn long :)
the project in question was an unreachable goal, by definition. something that could never be reached, that could be infinitely expanded, and with one of my neurological disorders making me VERY creative, that tends to get very out of hand very quickly. it was essentially a recipe for disaster. i was never even planning to submit it anywhere because of the fear that no one would like it, therefore i wasn’t getting anything out of it but some fun ideas on paper! it started out as EXTREMELY enjoyable, i would write nearly 20+ pages of this thing a DAY, i would talk about it nonstop, i would be constantly looking up inspirations and things to learn from to use for the project, hours and hours every day dedicated to obsessing over it. i was obsessed with this project, and then it started to drain me. it was becoming too monotonous, i would try to shake things up, and it would never really help. the project was becoming too big a scale, so i took a long break before getting into it again, and it just… wasn’t the same. so, after about three years of work poured into it, i quit the project, and i still have mixed feelings about that. i know it was definitely the right thing to do, but at the same time, it felt wrong to be abandoning it like this? yeah, i was THAT obsessed with it. but still, i ended up quitting it, and i’ve been quite a bit more free since.
in short, do whatever you need to do! take some time off, defocus on the channel to prioritize your life, focus on the channel when you can and want to, whatever you need at the moment, i know i’ll support you through it! in that relatively short section about your experiences with OCD, you unironically made me feel the most understood and felt i’ve been in a LONG, long time. thank you for that, i wish you nothing but the best :D
(sorry about the ridiculously long comment, but i had a lot of feelings to get out i guess lol)
Bro, you're on your touching grass arc. Good job!
I will become unstoppable 💪
just to remind you, we all love you and keep doing whatever you think is right
Take as much time as you need bro, you deserve it :)
❤ you @Jamattack Don’t ever try to force out things you don’t wanna do. Thank you for help build this wonderful community, and keep building this work of art for your mind. Your peace. You’ve inspired me to build myself, for myself. I speak for all of us when I say, we’re okay with anything you do. And we are grateful for everything you’ve done for us as geometry dash players. But, we’re gonna miss ya if you take a break. Give yourself some credit, don’t be too hard on yourself. Well done with everything you’ve built Jam, and I wish you a beautiful life buddy. ❤
Good luck mate, just hope you have fun with whatever you wanna do. Wishing you the best
do whatever, you've put out relatively consistent 10/10 videos and 10/10 levels for ages now and wanting to move on is entirely understandable, just focus on what you want to do and please try not to fall into the youtuber trap of "i need to make content for the subs".
hope you have a good time in whatever you wanna do. youve inspired thousands and lead to people finding their passion, its only fair that you get to find another passion if you want
Just do what you love, it's your life, not ours.
I like how everyone was panicking 20 minutes ago, but cmon guys, watch the video first! And JamAttack, thank you for being aware of how important building your online community should be to you!
jam, this alone has gain so much of my respect, follow your dreams man.
This made me cry. Thank you for all the content. You can do whatever you want or need, because you have given us so much under your will, sacrifiicnng your time, effort, and energy on something that might hurt you. Thank you for everything.
The way I look at it, nothing truly matters. Eventually, everything you ever did will be lost in time. So why don't you just do what makes you happy?
I've always been an introvert, and I like being alone. When I'm with a friend, I always feel like I have to be at the top of my game, to give the right response to everything he says. Also, I don't see them back as friends. I'm just kinda friends with them so I'm not alone, which makes my feel bad about myself. My biggest dream is a friend that when he asks me to hang out I'm not trying to think of every possible excuse to avoid it.
When I'm alone, I'm more relaxed. I play Pokémon which allowed me to interact with some awesome people, but I never know what to say and it always makes things awkward. Maybe its because of my autism, maybe not, idk. I wish I was good with people, but I'm not, and it can be hard to embrace that sometimes.
There are people out there that you can enjoy being around. We all need a little bit of that. It might be hard to find them, and it might take a lot of figuring out which ways you need to change. It's best to stay focused on the best aspects about yourself and find other people that embody those things.
Jam, do what you need to to be happy ❤
D:
It's devastating, yes, but...
You're your own person, do what you want and what you think you need.
I’m so glad you chose to take this step In your life. As the son of a licensed therapist, I know that brains are hard to understand, and as a 14 year old kid, I’m really glad you told me this, because I’m in a bit of a weird place in my life and I’m still struggling to find myself. You really helped me, and I’m so glad you made this video. Good luck with your future!
Hi Jam, I honestly can relate to this because my mental health was severely messed up like 5-6 months back due to me not caring about it and just living in my stupid ass chair all day, all week. All I ever did was Chair and after 3-4 months of that I was like "Man, I really gotta fix up my life and what I'm doing as a person" so lately I've been doing things that make me happy and hanging out with friends that make me happy. Hell, I got back into school, and it may have been a rough start, but it was really worth the time and effort of getting to know new people that I can enjoy my time with instead of living in my own personal bubble away from the outside world.
Thank you for letting me look back at what I did and what I can do even better towards the good :3
I don't want to say who I am, but I do want to say, I'm glad to realise thats what we have both experienced some overlap, it's normal to struggle. And speaking up is always the best course of action. But i wanted to thank you and say you are one of the best GD creators.
You've been an amazing person Jam. I've always looked up to you as the nicest person on youtube. Being stressed with school messes my life up a lot, but you sure make me happy when I watch a video of yours!
You've gotten far, and I really wish the best for you and your friends.
I know you've had a lot of things to balance lately, and I wish you luck with your accomplishments
Make sure that whatever you do will make your life as happy as you want it to be
You're a great man
So good to hear you feel better now. Love ya man, stay real ❤
This hits home so hard. I'm an undisclosed age (because ew creeps) but I'm also autistic, fairly certain I'm ADHD and have obsessive tendancies. I related to all of this. The trapped feeling, not caring about something you used to be so passionate of and something that was quite literally all you had. I'm so glad you're getting better and it makes me want to get better too!
My mood diary says that I've been getting worse but weirdly I've been feeling a little better - I've started doing my hair more often (yours looked sick by the way) and started trying new things. I dyed my hair, started hanging out with a couple new people. Not to trauma dump but I've never been good with people, or small talk (my best friend's sister described me as an 'awkward child' lmao) but you're inspiring me to try harder, and be myself. Also, the way you talk is so articulate and wise, I enjoy it a lot.
Thank you for being awesome Jam, hope you're okay. Take as much time as you need on your little breaks. Have a good day / night!
Good for you, your path and lively hood has given me inspiration to move on more in my life… whether that be from your “speech” or your previous videos, they all have a charm that allows me to do so many tasks and aspirations in my life, from playing gd to pursing a higher education.. just from watching this video I realized that I have been bound by the opinions of others rather than allowing my own free thoughts and beliefs shine through (not in a toxic way) I this video really helped with my own self discovery, thank you 😊 Jam attack or whatever you’d like to be called 👍
Thank you for the amazing videos and levels glorious fortress was my first demon and your channel will always hold a special place in my heart for inspiring me to start with level creation take as much time as you need
I know that feeling very well. But if you've came this far, you should keep it up! You can do this! I believe you! We believe you!
This video changed my life, it opened my eyes. I really agree with the message being put out, and I'm happy for you, Jam. I'm glad you could turn into a happier, healthier version of yourself, and I hope you continue to do so. (Pls finish my little mountain town in under a decade :])
i have autism, ADHD, DCD and social anxiety all diagnosed and honestly the most helpful thing for me was to pick up more stuff, i have basically quit gd at this point and picked up game development, music and drawing and honestly i haven't enjoyed myself this much in a long time, just like you i didn't really realize just how bad of a place i was in, i was actually suicidal without really realizing it, it sucks because i feel like i wasted so much of my time focusing on things i didn't actually care about just for the sake of my future, but i realize now that realistically, there isn't really much i can do about how i am now, I've already done a ton of work on my issues, they are still a huge problem and the returns are minuscule now, but somehow that's a bit freeing, i know i wont be able to live a normal life like i once wanted to, i can't get over my anxiety or any of my other problems, so what am i left with? nothing, so i might as well do whatever i want, i stopped really caring about improving my issues and conversely that has improved how i feel about myself a lot. i picked up stuff that i always wanted to do but felt like i didn't have the time to do because i always had to work extra hard to keep up with important stuff, eventually i will be an adult and i will need to work out stuff but for now I'm just going to fuck around a bit and maybe some of the things i'm good at can take me somewhere
Please don’t feel like you are responsible for giving us anything! If you ever need a break, we have the entire rest of the internet to entertain us while you’re gone. But don’t let that make you think we won’t come back, because at the very least, I’ll stick around. (Still don’t feel pressured to ever come back if that’s not the best for you.)
I understand, you came take a break im completely fine with that, its your choice and your life, i cant control that
glad you’re doing better! im happy that you’re finding yourself, what you like to do, and people that you enjoy being around. keep being you and just live life
Don’t Attack the Jam, Our Jam
Do whatever you want man! Take time off and do what you need, we’ll all be here for you. ❤
There's so many people that need this video, so just as a quick reminder for anyone who stumbles across my little comment, you are more important to yourself than what other people think of you. Don't focus too hard on building up a public image, because no matter how you show yourself, you're still a person and disconnecting from yourself to deliver to others is a really unhealthy habit.
And as for me, (for anyone who cares) as a trans girly myself, I definitely struggle, being so focused on the internet and stuff. I live in one of the most republican states in America, so I have little to no interest in being social around others near me, and I have REALLY bad social anxiety. I still have many ways to go, and I doubt all of my problems will go away for another few years, but fixing yourself is a process, not something that happens instantly. So being patient and being easy on yourself is something that I think is worth knowing. Good luck to all of you, and much love.
I feel like I have to comment on this, a lot of it is relatable to me even though I'm not exactly in the same situation. I have Asperger's and I tend to get super obsessed with some ideas I have and I will do anything to make them reality. Maybe someone remembers Animation vs. Geometry Dash, the auto level I made back in mid 2.1, I can't even tell how many hours I dedicated to it, it took a year and a half to finish. I have made some similar scope projects outside of Geometry Dash as well. This was fine when I was young, but now I'm 24, I have a job, need to pay taxes, there is simply no time at all to do what my brain is telling me to, not to mention no energy as my job while fun is as exhausting as any. But my brain still wants me do do stuff and start new projects and it's hard to resist. Being on the spectrum is a different kind of life experience than most have, I hope by the many good comments here you can see you are not alone in this and many people can relate to your problems in their own way.
Always appreciated those kind of videos from you, it's always reassuring to know that I'm not the only person with a trainwreck of a life
If you feel you need to take a break, permanently even, we support you :). You’ve been amazing to watch, I’ll miss you, but I’m sure all of us will be happier if you’re happier
Hey jam, i hope whatever you do is the best for you, not us, as people (I just want to say us viewers but people will work) just want to see more and more, but some people, see past that see the real person that inside you, and i do hope that most of your community will support you wherever you go, and those people who dont, dont care about them, they are just small specks of your community, and that most people will support you, no matter what.
Sorry if that came off as weird by any chance, not good with words honestly, but whatever you do, we support you♥
jam, i don't know if you'll read this, but i need somewhere to ramble about where i'm at and this video brought up a lot of stuff for me. of course you have no clue how i am, but i see a lot of myself in you whenever you talk about your life, and i'm so so grateful that you've been as open and honest with us as you have. i'm a freshman in college, and i'm lost. very very lost. needless to say that as i grow older the world gets more and more confusing. this includes with gender as well; i've been trying to figure that shit out for like 4 years but i've accepted it'll never make sense to me. living in florida doesn't help either. i've found solace for a while in online communities, and the idea that finding other people who complement you in the right ways is the key to success is something i've reflected on a lot recently. i think that as a kid there were very rare instances of having someone who truly felt like that to me, and even then i never really felt understood. but i also didn't realize that i never felt understood, so it just felt like there was some sort of invisible boundary between my own world and everyone else's. meeting people through discord over the past couple of years has sorta started to break that, but it still makes a huge difference for me that i can't spend time with them in real life. going into college, i thought it would be the perfect time to finally find those types of people in real life. but, as i'm sure you know, it's *really fucking hard.* and right now, i'm sort of in the stage where i can barely keep myself together, if at all, so i start to lose hope that i'll ever find my place. i still try as hard as possible to have hope for the future, but when i don't see a path out it's really difficult to believe it exists. if anyone's reading this far, thank you so much, i don't really know where i wanted to go with this but it's been causing me a lot of stress. god damn i wrote a lot uhhh ok yeah again thanks for putting this out there so people like me have someone they can somewhat relate with. ok bye, have a nice day and also welcome to the nb club
Keep holding onto hope. Do the things you want to do even if you're terrified to do them. When the world doesn't value who you are, the best you can do is show them why they should. It's not an easy place to be put in, it's incredibly hard and confusing at every turn, but it also can be a rewarding journey. That's what I tell myself anyway. Change starts slow and small. As long as you're doing something that feels like it's helping, that's enough for now. Even if it's a small thing.
@@JamAttack thanks. i don't have any plans of stopping right now and hearing about your journey and thought process gives me more motivation :)
I respect this and would be fine with him quitting if he wants to move on. I can totally understand that feeling like stuff can pull you away from other things and that you might want to change. I just hope you enjoy what you find later on
Hey Jam, we all support you. I may be disappointed now, but in time I will indefinitely respect your decision to do what you need. It takes a strong person be able to do that.
Here's a quote: "Sometimes, the best way to move forward is to take a step back." -Unknown
JamAttack, take your time on videos, if you're stressed out or if you're trying to do something, that's completely fine, don't make UA-cam your top priority, as long as we know you're okay, we're fine with that ❤
I'm 21 and in a similar boat; I feel like I've, I don't want to say "wasted", but just not really used my late teens especially as well as I could've and I'm trying to make up for lost time a little myself. I still play the game as it makes me happy and I relate to What you're saying a lot. We got this 👍
I completely respect whatever you choose to do,and will support you
Good luck bro! Do what you want. I will always support you ❤
i recently have been very depressed and not making anything or working on anything I enjoy so as somebody trying to keep people from falling into that pit take a bit and focus on yourself jam
Stay strong and take care of yourself, because you disserve it no matter what anyone tells you.
thank you so much. I look up to you and your one of the reasons i ever got into geometry dash. Stay save jam
7:03 I realized this when I hit 20, but didn't act on it until a couple months ago, that day I left everything related to gd, but stayed with the friends i made. Since that day I've felt a little more alive and started to think about what I actually want to do in life. I've gotten closer to my real life friends and been doing more things with my family. For me, leaving the community and just checking in once in a while has been one of the best choices I've made the last couple years, and I wish you luck on your own journey
I just hope you stay safe Jam, you have a great community that cares about you, that supports you and would do everything they have in hand to help.
This video has made me realize things, it's... sorta depressing, but in a good way, it made me realize that I shouldnt limit myself to one or things, that I should go outside my lil comfort zone and explore, and to be... myself.
Thank you very much Jam, please take care and keep being as cool as you are
boundaries are good and you are so right. you don't owe us anything, and this isn't all there is to life. we love you and support you, and i hope you know that it's okay to take as many breaks as you need or leave entirely.
take care.
I understand you , we do , Things gotta change in life , like we no longer watch the same baby / kid shows we used to. First time I saw a phone I was 5/6 years old , got my first one at 7 .I also met some problems with geometry dash, The bigg st one being that I play it alone , none of my Friends play it and they keep telling me to quit it , I haven't played gd in 2 weeks now , they don't know that , and am not telling them . Who knows who I would be without that game, years ago , I had a potato pc , I was looking for games to play when I stumbled upon GD , it helped me escape reality , me being the most hated by my parents. Thank you for caring about yourself jam !
I understand you completely dont feel like you cant quit love you jam!
👍Hey man, good for you! Real life is important, I'm glad you're doing what you think is best for you!
do whatever makes you happy and keep looking out for yourself ❤
be yourself, do what makes you happy. ❤❤❤😊😊
at the end of the day its all art. life is an art. art is a skill. art is fun. life is fun. so the point is to improve at the skill of making life fun. seems like youre doin that so nice job!
cool :) do whatever you want but remember 72 thousand people love you (I support whatever you want) Also i can't wait for your new level
Can relate to a lot of this. And yeah I really understand. Hope 2025 can be a less confusing year for you. Also OCD fucking sucks I used to really struggle with it
Do whatever you want. If you want to quit, we won't blame you.
Just do... whatever you want man. You don't owe us anything. If you feel like uploading, go for it. Im always happy to see you upload.
If you don't feel like and have other priorities- that's completely fine. :)
I have Asperger's syndrome. Damn. You have so much more. You're doing well!
That was what I was diagnosed with when I was 5 actually but they moved it to be part of ASD I think.
will always support u
Even though I'm only 13, I still understand what you are saying. I'm also autistic and I constanly worry about what will happen to my later life. At the end of the day, it's your decision. Do what you want with your life.
Thank you JamAttack, your videos inspired me to create in gd and i hope you get all the rest you need.
But... Will you decorate my little mountain town? (im sorry it's just so sick stuff already)
I'd say this video helped me with my own geometry dash addiction. The GD community is an all-consuming community. You'll make a level and it'll get popular for a certain amount of time but then it just stops. A great example of this is the demon list, people will hype up the top 1 but once it's dethroned people mostly care about the new top 1 instead. Stargrinders will play levels once then forget about them, cp grinders will make levels and never mention them again. You put in so much effort only to retain a temporary position. The important thing to make sure of is that you are enjoying what you are doing. There's no point in having all the fame in the entire world if you hate it. Do what you want to do, spend time with the people who care about your work, not the people who want an extra 6 stars on their profile. I only got my first featured level after I stopped caring about the creator points, stopped caring about the standards for the level. And just doing what I wanted to do, and just being me. I've recently felt burnt out because I cared about rate standards and wanting to finish and release my level, when really I should have been focusing on having fun. Thank you, Jamattack, and good luck with your future endeavors.
Do what you love, and don’t let expectations make more out of your work than you make out of it yourself. Even as just a 20 year old, I’ve had many of my friends (even my GD-adjacent ones) frazzled at my continued undying passion for this game that, if anything, has grown over the decade I’ve played it. What I’ve come to realize is that passion is a wave, and one you have to be okay with riding the way it’s “meant” to go. I’ve had nearly years at a time where GD is as about as much as a game I loved that I’ve consigned won’t be updated ever again and isn’t as worth playing due to the skill ceiling nowadays, and even more years at a time where I embrace that my love for it goes far beyond nostalgia and encapsulates how I feel about art and the love I have for music and individualism. What I’m getting at is that whatever doubts you’re getting now, whatever derision you feel for loving something that feels “past your age” - know that is not you and that cannot hold weight over you. If that wave isn’t giving your work and experiences in GD the release of passion you want, then let that wave move you forward, just don’t expect passion to move linearly, especially for the neurodivergent. I pray you come to accept change and growth with open and loving arms, and can approach what you love in a way that’s healthiest and least stressful for you. Wishing the best for you and what you love. You’re an inspiration to us all.
Sometimes moving on in life isn’t about letting go of what you hold dear, rather, changing your perspective and realizing you had so much more room for new things to love than you previously thought. Rarely does accepting something new require giving up what’s dear to you already - just adjusting where that sits in your life. Whether that be people, media, lifestyle, or otherwise, love and passion is an infinite wellspring that is embodied deep in us. Be happy and proud you are making room for more loves.
Hey, I'll keep it brief so as to not write an essay in the comment section (something I am very guilty of).
But as a (self-diagnosed) autistic trans girlie (non-binary), I think you hit on a lot of things I also personally have been dealing with as I'm 23 years old. I'm in a completely liminal space, not entirely sure where I'm going or where I am, but shit is happening.
I hope to begin HRT next year, I'll have to go through my autism screening before then for some reason, and in the meantime I'm just waiting on shit to happen.
You also hit on the concept of community, I've been thinking a lot about it recently, like I have friends and sort of a support system, but I wish I had more of a community, an exclusively social environment.
So I've been trying to act on that wish, meeting people whenever I can, but it's hard, especially as someone with a lot of social trauma and anxiety due to my autistic tendencies as a kid. Failure has always been hard to deal with, most of my anxiety surrounds making mistakes.
From what it seems though, this looks to be a very normal experience, "the liminal twenties" as I call it.
Anyway this was a very pleasing listening experience and made me feel better about where I am, thank you. (I know i said I'd keep it brief but this is as brief as it can go okay)
It's pretty hard to define yourself in a world built around fitting into certain models. I know it can pay off in the long run though. It's a hard and confusing journey full of sacrifice and guilt around every corner. But it's also beautiful when you finally come full circle and realize that despite everything... it's still you. (undertale fan who would have guessed) You are still the person you always knew deep inside that you are. The journey isn't about rising to the thousands of demands from life, it's about learning not to care. It's about learning that you're still you at deeper and deeper levels.
I watched your previous video and it is beatiful how you represented a human being in this level, (well I think that this is the case with that level). I remember playing video games, having fun with friends, now its gone. I really think about the future now, polishing my hobbies and passions, but GD is a game that I can just get back to and relax for a bit, making some stuff in editor for fun. I dont have any creator points, but Im okay with that, sometimes I just want to be myself, again... but its hard in a world of liars. Thx jam.
Jam. Thank you so much. I'm genuinely so glad you chose this path. This lifestyle of youtubing and digital satisfaction is so degrading and makes you feel empty. People need to know when to stop. When to chill. Your right. You don't owe us anything. And I completely respect that. If you need to stop. Stop. I've been supporting your channel for a while now, and I'll be sad to see you go. But in a good way.
I have Echolalia so i can relate that autism feels wierd, even with my curse to yell/scream random words (people then look at you and with introvert person it isn't best combination)
Finally! Honestly no one on earth expects your entire life to be gd related just so we can watch content... Ever since your first video I've been wondering when you would dial it down on the crazy scale. No other gd content creator does nearly as much as you and we watch them anyway... GL
I mean sputnix and samifying do go pretty wild lol
I genuinly can’t think of anything to comment anymore, you’ve exhausted my small reserve of positive comments! ohno!!
you deserve it though ^w^
Idon’tknowwhattosayanymorebyeeeee
Completely fine bro we get it it’s hard to stay dedicated to this stuff
Jam saying hes 24 makes me feel way too old 😭
6:27 yooo we the same :D
Please, take your time.
Honestly, just do what you enjoy doing and do what you need to do. Just remember that life isn't fair and bad things will happen, it's part of life.
Thank you for making all this great content. You do not owe us anything, as you said, and you’ve already produced some amazing content. If you’d quit now, that’s perfectly fine. I hope your life goes well!
whatever you do, we all care about you (i think) and you can do anything you want if its what you genuinely want to do, as long as it makes you happy :) anyways time to play the mlmt layout
gl try to win
damn, we have some similar life things. just be yourself. You were an insperation, and still are. I am probably going to watch all of your vids when I have time.
After watching this video, I really feel for you. You don't know me and I don't know you, but as someone with autism and possibly undiagnosed ADHD (and my hyperfixation being GD instead of something 'useful') it sounds like you genuinely mentally tortured yourself to make the 100 hour layout, and I don't even know what you're going through IRL. I can't give advice for everything, but my suggestion is to slow down with the content creation and possibly just make a small little level just for fun, exactly the way you want to - nobody has to know about it and you don't even have to upload it or show it to anyone. And of course, stick by your friends and family and try your best not to feel pressured to keep pumping out content or community updates; at its core, UA-cam really is just supposed to be a platform for a hobby. Don't forget that you don't owe us anything and that your wellbeing comes first.
just do what makes you happy man, take your time❤
Take care of yourself :) I understand that your well being goes before GD ♥️
keep it up! (At your own pace). you dont need really to impress anyone. (also your hair looks nice)
Hi jam! I have autism and adhd and ocd too, and I love your vids! Your videos are really awesome and I always laugh! Do whatever you want to stay happy and if you ever have too much on your plate, remember that you can just stop being productive and chill. Your vids are great man, and good luck ❤
stay awesome bud
Life is indeed interesting...
look jam, i love your videos, and watch all new ones all the way through, but do what you think you need to do. Your personal stuff is way more important than all of us watching a few videos.
Thank you, I know we all support your decision.
do whatever you wish man. at the end of the day it's but to you, but honestly i'd just say to make videos when you feel like it. if that's never, that's okay. but regardless, still keep making creative things, it gives us all a purpose
Don't Worry bro take as much time you need