5 ways a Narcissist will Weaponize your Boundaries

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  • Опубліковано 25 гру 2024
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    Whenever we are dealing with anyone toxic or narcissistic, they will see your boundaries as a threat to their control or dominance over the relationship. The truth is, there is no connection or intimacy or emotional closeness that can come from a relationship where the other person has no respect for your boundaries.
    Your boundaries aren't what's causing the conflict, it's the fact that they feel threatened that you have the ability to stand up for yourself. So let's look at some common ways toxic or narcissistic people will undermine or weaponize your boundaries against you.
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  • @jeffreyvazquez4870
    @jeffreyvazquez4870 Місяць тому +1683

    Narcissism is so confusing, it’s like, they disrespect you, silent treatment, they ignore your boundaries, etc. Then you start acting out of character after months or years of the abuse, then you start reacting, yelling, say things you don’t mean, etc. then you end up feeling and thinking like you are the narcissist, no wonder this drives people crazy, you love them and stay trying to see if things will change, they only get worse and you get blamed for it all.

    • @nicolehayes6020
      @nicolehayes6020 Місяць тому +119

      @@jeffreyvazquez4870 yep 👍 nailed it. Short answer, walk away in silence with your head held high ❤️💪💯🙏🤷🏻‍♀️✌️😎

    • @KimberlyStrube-f6h
      @KimberlyStrube-f6h Місяць тому +129

      @jeffreyvazquez4870 yes! They will "rage-bait you and then when you finally "go off, they tell everyone, "See, I told you she was crazy!"

    • @TheSlavicSear
      @TheSlavicSear Місяць тому +28

      @@jeffreyvazquez4870 this sounds very familiar for both me and my hubby. These replies really helped too thank you- finally 3 years later we are back on track.

    • @NarcissistHex-nf9eq
      @NarcissistHex-nf9eq Місяць тому

      @@nicolehayes6020 as a self-aware diagnosed narcissist I wish I could have said something better than you, but that's pretty much it.

    • @FoodNerds
      @FoodNerds Місяць тому +39

      Then they accuse you of being that narcissist.
      A person can only take so much .
      If I kick you every day, but you don’t get upset and you don’t react eventually you’re going to get tired of that and react . If I get upset with you and the victim, then who actually has the problem well, that would be me.

  • @NolaCaffey
    @NolaCaffey Місяць тому +1169

    Q: Why did the narcissist cross the road?
    A: He thought it was a boundary!

  • @woopiemiddleman8232
    @woopiemiddleman8232 Місяць тому +958

    Once you grabbed the stick and fight back after being poked the 40th time, they immediately called you the abuser, the ill-tempered, and then they told the whole world you are the crazy one.

    • @KimberlyStrube-f6h
      @KimberlyStrube-f6h Місяць тому +23

      Amen! My narcissistic slammed my character to his entire family! The cruelty never ends!!

    • @paulv2348
      @paulv2348 Місяць тому +37

      It's called "reverse abuse". Look it up, covert narcissists do that a lot

    • @tshaika9165
      @tshaika9165 Місяць тому +16

      Better not to fight them, just get them so bored with you that they go find someone else. They won't even know that in this way you are in control of the situation. They will just think you got to the catatonic stage and are done with you.

    • @dianetobin
      @dianetobin Місяць тому +26

      Apparently I'm abusive because I left, or I've been told...

    • @navy_flyer2331
      @navy_flyer2331 Місяць тому

      100%. Coincidentally, this is exactly what Palestine does to Israel. Israel fights back and then is painted the aggressor.

  • @ihanat
    @ihanat Місяць тому +756

    The worst part of learning about narcissists is realizing you were groomed by narcissist parent to accept this kind of behaviour and then you landed in the arms of a spouse who treats you exactly the same or worse and now having to reprogram yourself entirely because you don’t even know what’s North anymore.

    • @hollyfabiani
      @hollyfabiani Місяць тому +28

      Yes! And it's natural to love your parent on top of it. Even starting over completely, internally and instinctively were going the opposite direction as our brains/emotional regulation already formed like an emotional disability.

    • @Sandra-jj3uk
      @Sandra-jj3uk Місяць тому +33

      Yes, the realization of grooming is the worst. It's even more horrifying when you realize a licensed therapist you were seeing for help in navigating narcissistic dynamics as an adult was responsible for grooming you all over again to accept that behavior after you finally began to set boundaries and recover from the initial parental grooming, and consequently now have to deprogram yourself all over again from the manipulation and gaslighting that retraumatized you. Not to mention processing the financial and emotional betrayal you experienced from someone you were paying to help you, who in reality took advantage of your vulnerability to emotionally abuse and exploit you.

    • @mesalouis8976
      @mesalouis8976 Місяць тому +12

      That part infuriates me.

    • @tricialafrancerougas
      @tricialafrancerougas Місяць тому +7

      This is the truth!!! 💯

    • @mksway
      @mksway Місяць тому +17

      Took me way too long, and an awful relationship to realize where this stemmed from.

  • @PowerGurhl
    @PowerGurhl Місяць тому +658

    Mine would always say “you’re preventing us from having a working relationship” 😅 now I realize he is saying “you’re not letting me create the controlling relationship I want”

    • @laurel7309
      @laurel7309 Місяць тому +14

      Yes!! My brother and SIL did the same thing. Their behaviors got so toxic that I began grey rocking them. My brother threw a fit and said his boundaries weren't being respected. 😂😂

    • @ktbiwk
      @ktbiwk Місяць тому +6

      😂❤ 💯 perfect narc translation 👌

    • @salammbo6809
      @salammbo6809 Місяць тому +7

      Excuse me, have you been dating my ex ? 😂😂

    • @PowerGurhl
      @PowerGurhl Місяць тому +6

      @@salammbo6809 lol they really all so and sound the same!! 😭

    • @salammbo6809
      @salammbo6809 Місяць тому +8

      @@PowerGurhl The good thing is that, when you saw one, you saw all of them. Indeed they all function the same. It has been very useful since my little narc and I parted ways. 😅🙏

  • @fxbvl9191
    @fxbvl9191 Місяць тому +425

    To all of you who are going through this, or went through this. You have nothing to be ashamed of. This isn't on you.

    • @findinghiddenriches
      @findinghiddenriches Місяць тому +14

      Thank you ❤ Holidays are a hard, but important, time to remember that!

    • @hollyfabiani
      @hollyfabiani Місяць тому +8

      But the work afterwards is. This is the hard part. And reversionary behavior like a sobriety date.

    • @velvetgardenia
      @velvetgardenia Місяць тому +1

      🕊 ✌️ ☮️ yes. Thank you.

    • @carlamaxwell8923
      @carlamaxwell8923 Місяць тому +1

      It has nothing to do with you. You didn’t create it

    • @jdprettynails
      @jdprettynails Місяць тому +2

      Thank you. I’m learning to set boundaries for the first time this year which is really hard for me. My friends keep giving me a hard time for not cutting off the toxic person, but that’s even more terrifying

  • @robcab3725
    @robcab3725 Місяць тому +276

    A narcissistic person will push you because it was never about peace it's only about power

  • @elisebrown5157
    @elisebrown5157 Місяць тому +394

    Narcissists are actually extremely delicate and artful in their manipulation. I know this because I would never fall for such a thing. And then I did. The love bombing draws you in, then there's the small thing you did wrong (or did you really? Well, who cares, you'll take one for the team). And over and over, pushing you away just enough to make you really fully believe if you could just find the right thing to say or do that it would be OK. And then you find that thing (inevitably, it's some relaxation of your boundaries), and you're rewarded like a puppy dog. Over time, the rewards are harder to get, but you fight harder for them. You actually want to believe that things are your fault, because if they are, then you actually have the power to make things better by changing. The aha moment for me was when I actually viscerally realized that when he said "I guess I can't trust you," what he actually meant had nothing to do with trust (which was very important to me.) What he meant was that I had done something he didn't like. "Trust" meant "trust you to please me at all times." Once I could detangle the self I imagined myself to be (trustworthy, honorable, loyal) from how he defined those words in relation to me, I could let go without tearing a hole in myself. I could be all those things and still leave the relationship. It's years of my life I'll never get back, but it's also proof of how insidious the manipulation can be. I can't believe how much of myself I gave up to someone whose only goal was to make me give up myself.

    • @tabithabates244
      @tabithabates244 Місяць тому +38

      The way you explained this was perfect. It was exactly the same experience I had with my ex narcissistic partner. I was with him for 8 years until I realised nothing I could ever do would live up to his ideals and as you said every time you manage to do the thing they wanted they move the goal posts. He did that constantly. Until I left. He threw the usual insults the “you will never find anyone like me”, “no one will want you”. Then fell on his knees crying on his front lawn as I drove away. Then stalked me for months trying to win me back. Best decision I ever made was leaving.

    • @Jillsy-c6u
      @Jillsy-c6u Місяць тому +35

      I have already read your comment 3X and am thinking that I need to print it out, put it on my bathroom mirror, and read it multiple times a day for the next year.
      Thank you.

    • @SandAngels73
      @SandAngels73 Місяць тому +20

      Yep, it's a cycle of:
      1) love-bombing
      2) abuse
      3) gaslighting/guilting tripping/manipulation
      4) repeat steps 1-4

    • @LauraSchendel-ko1qk
      @LauraSchendel-ko1qk Місяць тому +5

      Well said!

    • @lifejoywithholly3924
      @lifejoywithholly3924 Місяць тому +6

      100%!!!! 💯

  • @Syrupnugget
    @Syrupnugget 28 днів тому +66

    “You won’t have to abandon yourself to make the right person happy” … damn you got me cryin in the club lol

  • @an81angel
    @an81angel Місяць тому +238

    Worst thing is going through all this as a child from a parent. You spend your formative years learning how to be the best for them. By that I mean being turned into a boundaryless doormat that gets abused and blamed for everything. Waking up in your 30s, finally realizing you were a victim and not the aggressor. That is a gut punch that shatters your world. Then spending the next decade trying to understand why they did it and trying to dodge the abuse. To starting your 40s and calling it a lost cause and feeling like a worthless failure who couldn't even be loved by a parent and thinking, "no wonder all my relationships went south". I wish people talked about this with me decades ago. Would have save me years of pain.

    • @PowerGurhl
      @PowerGurhl Місяць тому +9

      @@an81angel I really can’t imagine. And I’m truly sorry 😞 cus having a partner is horrible can’t imagine a a parent

    • @septemberjames9080
      @septemberjames9080 Місяць тому +16

      You're not alone and thankfully today is a new day. Your life isn't lost!

    • @hollyfabiani
      @hollyfabiani Місяць тому +13

      We need our own dating reality show! Life begins at 40!

    • @Smellslikenarcspirit
      @Smellslikenarcspirit Місяць тому +2

      I hear you .

    • @marryinchains
      @marryinchains Місяць тому +9

      It's especially sad when you are in your mid 30s and you still try to connect with said parents but you still get the same treatments. I never earned my love but merely a breadcrumb of respect from them, randomly. My therapist says it sounds like playing the lottery with them cause they were so unpredictable and I never knew when I would get punished or rewarded. It's still like this and I'm still trying to have relationships with them. I still think they are also human even if they are treating me like this. 😢 Ofc this influences how our other relationships play out. At least now I have awareness over it and have agency. Growing up in that medium was horrendous and all I can say is I am surprised I survived.
      Hope everyone who grew up with npd parents can find a way of healing and self love. ❤

  • @lisakaminski4959
    @lisakaminski4959 Місяць тому +263

    Covert and passive aggressive abuse LOOKS and SEEMS like it wouldn't be as significantly harmful, but I would argue it's worse because it makes you doubt your judgment and sanity.

    • @saraibloomquist4827
      @saraibloomquist4827 Місяць тому +21

      THIS! When you can't point at a certain thing like you called me a horrible thing or you hit me yet you know it's abuse and soooo slick and coercive 😔

    • @unseenmolee
      @unseenmolee Місяць тому +15

      YES omg.. my mom has been abusive my entire life but its never been the "obvious" kinds of abuse. its neglect and she has no emotional regulation, shes always treated me like a friend instead of a daughter (which realllly messed me up in a lot of ways, like ik it doesnt sound bad but its like i never really had a mother. she never nurtured me, i was the one nurturing her). its so hard to articulate to ppl who havent been thru something similar, because ill say one off things my mom has done and ppl will dismiss it like im being overdramatic, but they dont know all the trauma that led up to that point that makes it a bigger deal... like its just so complicated, and most of my life is gone, blacked out because of the stress i was under. i really think i have cptsd but its hard to claim that when most ppl just think of abuse as physical and not phycological

    • @Janaely
      @Janaely Місяць тому +5

      ⁠@@unseenmoleeI’m in the same situation, and I definitely have CPTSD. Not being able to remember things feels awful 😣 Good luck in sorting out the situation she gave you, friend 💜💜

    • @jendixon3868
      @jendixon3868 Місяць тому

      @@lisakaminski4959 yup. Mine’s one. It’s the worst. They reallllly double down on the victim stuff, too. 🙄

    • @bestlife613
      @bestlife613 25 днів тому +1

      Yes.. I was with a “good guy” who just wanted to do the right thing for everybody until I realized I was completely under water. Thank God I made the break. Never been happier.

  • @mermaid66
    @mermaid66 Місяць тому +204

    I remember my ex going on about how terrible I was and I said “ it sounds like I’m terrible, perhaps you should part ways with someone like that”, he was dumbstruck. I left soon after.

    • @caitlinmccauley2241
      @caitlinmccauley2241 Місяць тому +24

      Lmfao. I did the same thing. Cue him crying for 2 hours in my apt and implying he might hurt himself. Woof.

    • @mermaid66
      @mermaid66 Місяць тому +9

      @ yep, I know that routine too.

    • @chrystalminor1422
      @chrystalminor1422 Місяць тому +17

      @@caitlinmccauley2241 an abusive ex of mine wanted an exact reason why I was leaving the relationship and he said "don't give me any of that 'it's not you, it's me' BS." I said "oh no, don't worry, it's definitely you."

    • @NARLYgirl
      @NARLYgirl 26 днів тому +10

      My partner has threatened me like that at least 4 times this year. So I'm finally taking the bait. I know I'm worthy of a partner who respects me more than to offer up the door when things get tough. I warned him after the 1st time he did it that he has 2 choices:
      1. Follow my boundary and not make that threat because it hurts me deeply and doesn't solve anything
      or
      2. He can ignore my boundary and not be shocked or sad when I finally do decide to leave.
      Naturally, I'm on Day 2 of getting moved out and I'm still getting the tears, the begging pleas to stay, the hot/cold attitude, the accusations of how angry/cruel/heartless I am, the same fake-ignorant fights where he never did anything wrong and im just crazy (I started getting angrier/more heated the more dead end convos we had. He would laugh seeing me get riled up), the confusion like I haven't exhausted hours and hours over all the months this year trying to talk about my feelings and boundaries... it's a mind-bending, paradoxical abyss with narcs. I'm just glad I only wasted a year and not decades like my mom and others have 🙌

    • @NARLYgirl
      @NARLYgirl 26 днів тому +1

      ​@@chrystalminor1422hahaaa!! Nice!! He kinda set himself up for that one! 😂

  • @liambraithewaite6415
    @liambraithewaite6415 Місяць тому +287

    Also obviously not personal, but just hearing someone says directly into the camera (especially a guy) 'I love you, I care about you, you are lovable' it is actually felt and some small part of what's broken inside gets healed. Thanks Jimmy

    • @nicolegemma1233
      @nicolegemma1233 Місяць тому +6

      Totally agreed

    • @abcd-rp7lx
      @abcd-rp7lx Місяць тому +1

      @@liambraithewaite6415 I know. I had the exact same response. It actually felt so good and reaffirming. I'm tearing up 😢

    • @KaylaMcClellan-s2o
      @KaylaMcClellan-s2o Місяць тому

      💯💯💯💯

    • @NARLYgirl
      @NARLYgirl 26 днів тому

      I feel that soooooo much 🥰

    • @AA-iy4gm
      @AA-iy4gm 22 дні тому

      Therapist Patrick Teahan here on youtube is like that in a way, comforting, reassuring and shares a lot of insight and knowledge, having had a tough childhood himself, thought it might help to share another helpful resource.

  • @dianadee4300
    @dianadee4300 Місяць тому +56

    "You don't owe anyone your time, energy, attention or body"

    • @kerstinoberlin4708
      @kerstinoberlin4708 19 днів тому +2

      Lol told that to my narcissistic mother thought she was going to die of a heart attack bit of course her response was but I'm your mother that doesn't apply to me sadly had to tell her yes it applies to you and in true fashion refused to believe or respect that because it's all about her.

    • @stephani4636
      @stephani4636 17 днів тому +2

      THAT HIT FOR ME TOO!

    • @amyrenee1361
      @amyrenee1361 4 дні тому

      ​@@kerstinoberlin4708 so your mother did all that sacrifice and work to bring a selfish brat into the world. I feel for your mother.

    • @Ocean19856
      @Ocean19856 2 дні тому

      Or ur baby the narc in my case is my mil

  • @StoopidMonkiy
    @StoopidMonkiy Місяць тому +117

    You know whats been eating away at me, the quote “sometimes monsters don’t know theyre monsters” its like they don’t even realize they hurt others

    • @tatiscolombia
      @tatiscolombia Місяць тому +28

      They do but they create reasons and excuses to do so.

    • @annelbeab8124
      @annelbeab8124 Місяць тому +20

      Often they really don't. It's an act of desperation and limitation coming from own past trauma / experience of toxic relationships in upbringing. Nobody is born that way. Nobody in their right mind would want to be like that. It is a handicap that may be overcome. But only if it is seen how petty and useless the whole show is.
      Often there is too much support - just look at politicians: the more narcissistic, the more appealing and deceptive.

    • @gypsywoman9140
      @gypsywoman9140 Місяць тому +5

      I think it depends on the person.
      I do not know if a full-on narcissist or sociopath ever feels badly for those they've hurt. I know my narcissist former step-dad and my half-sister (sired by him) never even seem to fully own up to the wrongs they've done: everything is always someone else's fault. "I wouldn't have physically attacked you if you hadn't p*ssed me off so much!" "There's nothing wrong with me! It's everyone else who's fkd up! I'm perfect!" These are things they have said. There has never been a moment (to my knowledge) where they have asked themselves "Why do these things keep happening to me? Am I the problem? What can I do to fix this?"
      I think most of us have asked ourselves "Am I the problem? How can I fix this?" At some point. It's in asking ourselves such questions that leads to personal growth amd development. But if a person thinks they're perfect and everyone else is the problem, they're never going to evolve. My "perfect" sister would shrug at such a statement "Pikachu never evolves. He's cute and he's perfect!" He's a temperamental cartoon character that's quick to electrocute anyone and everyone around him....but yeah, ofc he's cute af because he's an anime character.
      At any rate, the narcissists stunt themselves with their own delusion. When they open up and get vulnerable, it usually seems to be part of some trap (in my experience, at least, w narc family and also narcissist exes.) If they were to genuinely get real and vulnerable with themselves or someone else, they *could* change and evolve for the better.
      I'm not sure if they're afraid to get raw like that because they don't want to face their ugly behavior and it's ramifications. Like Shia LeBeauf(sp?) He "takes accountability" but he doesn't really. He opened up, getting raw and real with us.....but it was all a lie. His dad never harmed him or did any of that. Probably the real reason Shia was paying for his father's lifestyle; hush money "Go along with the Honeyboy narrative and you'll have a comfortable life." That's how these people roll.
      The biggest question is: Why are they like this? My sister and I grew up with the same parents, we were both the scapegoat with her father, our mom was also a victim....different trauma response wiring, maybe? Idk. But why is her father like this? He grew up in a lowkey affluent family, there was no trauma, he'd lived a good life and often bragged about his party boy years. He never outgrew the party boy; he only married a single mom (my mom) to show his parents "Look, I'm responsible now!" Because they wanted him to settle down and get serious, stop partying. Where's his trauma? Are they (my former step-dad and Shia's of the world) warped due to a lack of any real struggle?

    • @bronwentillman8385
      @bronwentillman8385 Місяць тому +8

      Or they know and don't give two shites

    • @debbiewilder4738
      @debbiewilder4738 Місяць тому +2

      D​@@gypsywoman9140it's not only trauma that make people narcissist it's also selfishness and they do know what they're doing when it's selfishness being spoiled by Rich parents or something to that effect will also make you a narcissist

  • @pearljoad
    @pearljoad Місяць тому +88

    I have blamed myself for anxiously responding to being stonewalled and over-communicating with the narcissist while being stonewalled. I told myself if they could understand or hear me. I wish I hadn't done that. It made me look and feel crazy, which in the end is what I think they wanted.

    • @TheRealVivia
      @TheRealVivia Місяць тому +11

      Girl. We have all been there. Makes you feel like you mean nothing.

    • @holdinourown
      @holdinourown Місяць тому +5

      Feeling this so hard right now. It's like the more I try, the further he turns away. 😢

    • @ashleysno
      @ashleysno Місяць тому +2

      That's exactly what they want.

    • @BeckyCsernik
      @BeckyCsernik Місяць тому +1

      Same...

    • @KH-rh3lr
      @KH-rh3lr 26 днів тому

      💯

  • @alivepartner
    @alivepartner Місяць тому +129

    This is powerful and important to know. Setting boundaries with toxic or narcissistic people often brings conflict not because of the boundaries themselves, but because they challenge the other person's control.

    • @haineko1989
      @haineko1989 28 днів тому +3

      And they will keep pushing them, your being "too sensitive" or distancing", the ones they keep "loving" and "natural". Gosh, I could've seen what was happening and still let it get to the point when text messages from my mom were being questioned if they came after 10pm... SMH 🙈 Double empathy is terrible if you try to empathize with their projection 😐

    • @j4994
      @j4994 17 днів тому

      Right. And they will do ANYTHING to get and maintain that control.

  • @lovegoodmusic2477
    @lovegoodmusic2477 Місяць тому +153

    The problem with a nacricisst is, that the person you love and is most close to you is behaving more awful than anyone else.

    • @PixiePercival
      @PixiePercival Місяць тому +4

      Yes- that’s the worst isn’t it…. That and the lack of understanding out there in your day…

    • @rainbomg
      @rainbomg 22 дні тому +4

      That person you’re talking about _doesn’t exist_
      The abuser is the real them. The person you fell in love with is a mask. Let them go.

  • @SheelaFernandez
    @SheelaFernandez Місяць тому +58

    It's incredible how there are tons of studies, videos, books, podcasts, you name it...describing the situation that I'm in with the narc in my life...everything fits...there is ample proof that this is not in my head...that this is a real, unhealthy situation that I am engaged in and is making my life unbearable...yet I still feel like maybe I'm in the wrong...maybe I'm crazy...maybe I'm a bad person...maybe it's all my fault. I can objectively say this is real, yet I still feel like maybe I'm making this up.

    • @cathylucas3653
      @cathylucas3653 Місяць тому +7

      Keep the receipts. Copy, record, screenshot, note down the occurrences, and prove it to yourself . This is therapeutic because if you can see it , you can no longer logically deny it. God bless you and give you wisdom

    • @lizrain8306
      @lizrain8306 Місяць тому +5

      For 35yrs I have been in this position. I am finally ready to accept it is not me, not my responsibility, not my problem to fix. I have nothing left but the rest of my life. But I will be ok on the path of mental recovery.

    • @amandajones661
      @amandajones661 Місяць тому +2

      Make a plan to leave.

    • @pamelavoss989
      @pamelavoss989 Місяць тому +6

      Journal every conversation. I started journaling about 3 yrs ago. Whenever I go back and read them, I can’t believe how much I’ve endured, convincing myself, “if only…” fill in the blank. Preparing to leave now. Scary after 23 yrs of marriage that I thought was to the man of my dreams. The manipulation is the worst. He’s a master at it.

    • @SheelaFernandez
      @SheelaFernandez 29 днів тому +1

      Thank you all for your replies. I'm going to try to implement your advice.

  • @judewuski
    @judewuski Місяць тому +109

    4:55 “if you yell at me….” can be weaponized by the narcissist when they set up a bait/trap that has extremely painful or panic inducing impact in order to make the person to react, especially if narcissist knows that your pain reaction can involve crying/vocalizing loudly or speaking loudly from panicking…. They will label this as “yelling” & deem you “abusive”.

    • @tatiscolombia
      @tatiscolombia Місяць тому +19

      This. My ex knew all the hurtful things to do and say to make me get anxious moving and talking in a higher tone and then he was all chill saying I needed to calm down, I was hysterical and getting things out of proportion. He even used my PTSD against me by making sudden moves towards me while in a fight so I would do a hard movement or jump and accused me of being physically abusive. He messed with my head so much I didn't even realized I wasn't the abuser, but the abused, until I started going to therapy.

    • @resilient8788
      @resilient8788 Місяць тому +3

      I have to work with someone like that sometimes. Luckily my "sentence" has pretty much run it's course. Unfortunately now a 19 year old (good kid) has taken that spot and isn't handling it well either. I feel for him, but I had to deal with it for many years and like I just said my " sentence" has pretty much run it's course. I tell the kid, be thankful you don't have to live with that. He agrees whole heartedly.
      Living with one is a nightmare. I've been there lived that hell. Forever changed. Wiser and stronger having gone through the fire.

    • @toliveischrist950
      @toliveischrist950 Місяць тому +5

      @@tatiscolombiaI learned that’s a level of narcissistic behavior called toxic narcissism when they purposefully use what they know hurts you, against you. I’m so sorry that happened to you. I hope and pray you find and God sends you heathy, safe people.

  • @gail9566
    @gail9566 Місяць тому +119

    A boundary is not "stop yelling at me." Its saying "if you tell at me I will leave for 30 minutes." Then you do it. In that way you're the one who holds your boundaries, not relying on someone else to maintain them.

    • @mksway
      @mksway Місяць тому +9

      I did that recently with my narc mom. She was getting snarky and rude, so i told her i was going to walk away, and while I was outside, she manipulated my dad, who has mild dementia, into believing that I was yelling at her, that I was so mean to her, she's such a victim, etc. He got so angry and worked up that when I came back, he began yelling at me and calling me names. She looked at me and smiled. He hasn't spoken to me in weeks because of her.

    • @grmpEqweer
      @grmpEqweer Місяць тому +1

      ​@@mksway Yikes. My sympathies.

    • @thebilliexojean
      @thebilliexojean Місяць тому +1

      @@mkswayKarma will come for her.

    • @breann_
      @breann_ 29 днів тому +3

      ⁠@@mkswayI'm really sorry. I can relate. It's crazy how our own parents enjoy seeing us hurt.

    • @AndrewJohnson-oy8oj
      @AndrewJohnson-oy8oj 21 день тому +1

      I did that, and then my partner said that it made her feel abandoned when I left because they always had to be the victim.

  • @BlinkinFirefly
    @BlinkinFirefly Місяць тому +74

    Jimmy is the emotionally intelligent big brother I never had ❤

    • @geekchick4859
      @geekchick4859 Місяць тому

      Sadly, apparently he’s like it because he fckd up. Just shows that we are not defined by our mistakes, but by what we do after that.

    • @i.ehrenfest349
      @i.ehrenfest349 16 днів тому +1

      Not many of us did :)

  • @FishareFriendsNotFood972
    @FishareFriendsNotFood972 Місяць тому +128

    "Please stop standing there; they're not going to stop."

  • @bonobo3748
    @bonobo3748 Місяць тому +160

    I wonder how many narcs watching this rn saying "Yea, you're right, I am the victim"

    • @Damesanglante
      @Damesanglante Місяць тому +6

      I'd bet probably 90% of the commenters complaining. 😂

    • @nicB7777
      @nicB7777 Місяць тому +8

      Exactly! Fake victims versus REAL survivors 🙏❤️

    • @esthercurtis6540
      @esthercurtis6540 Місяць тому +9

      They wouldn’t think this applied to them

    • @rainbomg
      @rainbomg 22 дні тому +1

      It shouldn’t matter and they wouldn’t care. This isn’t for them, this is for people who need the courage to get away from them.

    • @natashac.1074
      @natashac.1074 19 днів тому

      Crazy people don't know they are crazy

  • @rubee7510
    @rubee7510 Місяць тому +176

    I was with a narcissist for 5 yrs..when I found out he was cheating and told him my boundaries, his response was "see, I knew you couldnt love me unconditionally". 😮

    • @Khiarika1
      @Khiarika1 Місяць тому +39

      That's when you tell them "Correct."

    • @bri_rene
      @bri_rene Місяць тому +8

      🤯

    • @tiffanya3586
      @tiffanya3586 Місяць тому +12

      Same exact thing. In the beginning he picked a fight out of no where and went as far as kicking me out. The next day they claimed it was because everyone always abandons them had me feeling so much hurt and pain for them and I made a promise to them I'd never leave them and always love them unconditionally. That was a couple months in and it only lasted about a year and a half after that. Thank God they left me for someone else. As much pain as I stayed in during that time and even a year after without even having contact as much as I felt like I needed them and swore I would just die without them I'm so glad they left I never would have 😢😭

    • @JSD938
      @JSD938 Місяць тому +8

      I'm so sorry this happened and the heartless response that you were given. Mine would tell me I was too emotional, always negative and annoying as hell. Hurt my feelings so bad.

    • @deehyatt5173
      @deehyatt5173 Місяць тому +8

      They are sooo sick in the head ..

  • @jeannechristensen7459
    @jeannechristensen7459 Місяць тому +61

    I had 9 years of this type of crap. Ladies… trust me run for the hills and don’t look back. Best decision I’ve made in my entire life!!!

    • @georgiehughes4858
      @georgiehughes4858 Місяць тому

      I had 49 yrs 9 mos of the horrible patterns. Kept hoping things would improve!

  • @kristirose2289
    @kristirose2289 Місяць тому +83

    This is spot on! My husband of 22 years uses all of these techniques. I’m just now learning about covert narcissism and so many things are making sense now. This is more helpful than the marriage counseling and personal counseling which never made anything better. TY

  • @PinkWytchBytch
    @PinkWytchBytch Місяць тому +53

    When you change but their narrative of you doesn’t, that says so much

  • @elyseremy3816
    @elyseremy3816 Місяць тому +80

    I love how the control and dominance is explained.
    He actually used the words boundaries and limits when he wanted to control. For things that weren’t boundaries but explained my flaws.
    Kept telling me how I communicated so badly and didn’t take his feelings into account. Meanwhile family and friends were telling me uhhhh you didn’t say anything bad …
    they’re just
    hypersensitive even to imaginary things ! It’s never their fault …

    • @yazajag
      @yazajag Місяць тому +6

      Yes exactly! They are so insecure that they create perceived slights against themselves. You could point at a flower and say, "That's a pretty flower," and somehow you are insulting them, calling them hideous. But in the contrary, they will literally call you/me/ any of us every name in the book, insult us, find a flaw, no matter how many times you ask them to stop, and somehow we are the ones who are too sensitive or we are exaggerating. Narc Insecurities Projecting their own behaviors 101

    • @SwiftRabbit-w7g
      @SwiftRabbit-w7g Місяць тому +2

      Mum called me to yell at me, because she felt that I wouldn't let her haunt my house when she dies 💀✨

    • @samanthas8340
      @samanthas8340 Місяць тому +1

      Same

    • @niratomas579
      @niratomas579 20 днів тому +1

      I would agree with them: “You’re right! I’m horrible! Let me remove myself since I’m hurting you!”

  • @hannah51238
    @hannah51238 Місяць тому +40

    "I thought we were a team" spat my drink out 😂😂 I hear that ALL THE TIME!

    • @PennyIronwood
      @PennyIronwood Місяць тому +1

      Same! 🎯

    • @Damesanglante
      @Damesanglante Місяць тому

      If you hear that all the time, maybe it's because you are disloyal, narcissistic and/or selfish person ?

    • @hannah51238
      @hannah51238 Місяць тому

      @Damesanglante yeah maybe 😂😂 bang on mate. Nothing to do with what Jimmy is talking about at all 😂😂

  • @SarahRenz59
    @SarahRenz59 Місяць тому +103

    My last boyfriend was a narcissist. I call him WBE: Worst Boyfriend Ever. I had never encountered this with any of my other relationships, so I got sucked right into his manipulations. But there was always a small part of me that kept saying, "This isn't right." I finally became apathetic: "Oh, you're mad at me. Again. Must be a day ending in 'y'." That's when he broke up with me. I still kick myself for not being the one to end the relationship at the first sign of trouble. I'm sadder but wiser now, and really appreciate people like Jimmy who are raising awareness about this toxic behavior.

    • @tshaika9165
      @tshaika9165 Місяць тому +22

      But you did the exact right thing, making him leave you, so that he doesn't feel like he lost control and he need not take revenge. It was the safest. The time you needed to understand what he is can be chalked up as a useful learning experience. You will never fall for those tricks again and are just the richer for it.

    • @PowerGurhl
      @PowerGurhl Місяць тому +6

      @@SarahRenz59 same it was the first time I had a really bad relationship. I kept staying the same thing “this isn’t right, I have to leave” I said that for years. I would tell him you’re the first person who disrespects me, no one had treated me like this before. His response “oh you think you’re so fucking great!” …. Ummmm no but you did choose to be with me so I must be something goooood cus you’re all the bad 🥲😂

    • @anacorona2534
      @anacorona2534 Місяць тому +9

      Don't kick yourself for it, that was the fastest way to get rid of him, if you would've been the one to leave, he would not have made it easy for you to stay away, the calls, the showing up where you are, calling you the worst things that are out there then being the sweetest/perfect person you always wanted. Well I hope you didn't get that.

    • @l.r.775
      @l.r.775 Місяць тому +1

      😮blessing that he did 👌 🙏 🌟

    • @marryinchains
      @marryinchains Місяць тому +2

      Glad you said "toxic behaviour" because not all people with NPD are toxic. Some people with NPD or NPD tendencies really work hard on themselves. Some people grew up with NPD parents and learned such behaviours before learning they aren't healthy or useful. I'm sad that most comments see NPD people as bad and not their behaviours.

  • @enraegen561
    @enraegen561 Місяць тому +80

    Bulletpoints:
    1. Punish you. Purposely doing things to hurt you.
    2. Mocking, dismissing, and/or invalidating your boundary.
    3. Claim you are being controlling. The key here is that they turn around the victim and offender roles. Suddenly you are abusive, when all you are saying is "I don't want to be abused". (Essential part of DARVO, maybe they follow it up with 5.)
    4. Twist your words or gaslight. They listen to the boundary, maybe even agree, only to later cross it with no problem. If you call them out, they criticize you for not being specific enough or claim you never set this boundary in the first place. Could be that they misunderstood and cannot admit to being wrong, don't care, or that they are on a purposeful gaslighting campaign.
    5. Play the victim. Either by openly claiming the boundary is unfair and is hurting them, or seamlessly transition into an unrelated story to invoke pity.

  • @DartmoorPaul
    @DartmoorPaul Місяць тому +31

    100% my mum. She is 87 and I’m 56 and through therapy I discovered she is a narcissist. Sorry is a word I have never heard her say and when i started to put boundaries in for the first time in my life, oh boy did she hit the rage and victim. Thank you Jimmy as always for validating our feelings and its the narcissist who is hurting us, not the other way around.

    • @evbemma33
      @evbemma33 Місяць тому +3

      My story is the same. I knew something was wrong that my mother wasnt a calm warm mum but later i disovered she has narcististic traits. She is very critical she has a low level to enter flustration or anger she loves to compete with her own chlodren ans she has to win she was telling me all my life you are too sensitive so i was thinking there is something wrong with me. And on therapy im working hard to brake my People pleasing tendencies, to wake up my anger, to look for good side of my sensitivity, to be assertive, to communicate my needs and boundaries and few more... hard work to do ..But so important.

    • @stuharrison1
      @stuharrison1 29 днів тому +2

      Me too Brother...man, many years of counselling has helped me, and the 'work' will continue for the rest of my life. Boundaries, distance and time exposure has helped.

    • @i.ehrenfest349
      @i.ehrenfest349 16 днів тому

      My narc says sorry regularly. It just doesn’t mean anything. Oh, and it’s said with exasperation. 🙂

    • @SFred-m3b
      @SFred-m3b 15 днів тому

      My sister has never apologized for anything ever. She is always the victim. Really good at crying on cue to get everyones sympathy too. Sad part is my entire family still doesn't see it.

    • @i.ehrenfest349
      @i.ehrenfest349 15 днів тому

      @@SFred-m3b Yeah…in my case it’s my sister, too….I can’t help it, when I hear that your sister cries now and then, I wonder if maybe she’s genuinely sad? I think mine is. She has depression, and I don’t like that for her. Mine cries from time to time, but I was just reflecting, the other day, that it’s almost always angry crying. I don’t normally see her sad. What’s that like with yours?
      Incidentally I’ve decided to go no contact a mere few days ago. I feel sorry for her because I know she’s not happy, but I can’t be the doormat.

  • @samaralucero7911
    @samaralucero7911 Місяць тому +40

    Oh, the constant zig-zag to find a tool that wins in the present moment... it's exhausting. Then i stop and think, dang, how much energy is this person putting in to crafting the illusion of me losing either way every. Single. Time.

    • @snizzlesnort
      @snizzlesnort Місяць тому

      It's wild. So much effort for a lie

  • @roxy7255
    @roxy7255 Місяць тому +58

    Yes the worse thing is that when your boundary has been crossed for the third time so you react angry then they say ‘I’m going to remove myself bye’ leaving you feeling like you’re the one who’s wrong 😂 you’re 100% right leave when you are poked with that stick or boundary crosses the first time. Anyone who crosses your boundary doesn’t care how how it makes you feel.

    • @HurairaHerbals
      @HurairaHerbals Місяць тому +2

      yup. I went through this with a "friend". Once I finally lashed out after being poked a thousand times she started ignoring me then when I asked her what was going on after MONTHS of her ignoring me, she said she was keeping a distance from me because I was toxic and wanted me to respect her boundaries. I said ok, and I apologized, but she NEVER apologized for all the wrong she did to me and acted like she was the victim because I yelled at her. From her other words and past actions, I realized she never really liked me and thought maybe she only kept me around because I give really good gifts or I can get her amazon packages from the door when she's not home (we are also neighbors). I'm still confused about what happened because I don't like to think of others as narcissists but the fact she kept gaslighting me, disregarding my feelings, and not even reflecting on her words or actions speaks volumes.

    • @marryinchains
      @marryinchains Місяць тому +1

      ​@@HurairaHerbalsthat's something I grew up with. Victim control dynamic - it happens a lot in groups. A NPD person will subtly poke and they know your triggers. When you react is when they play the victim card. And then the whole group sees the reaction but they didn't notice what triggered the reaction and everyone blames you 😢 took me years to learn how not to react anymore just to not get in that position anymore 😢

  • @Melinda_FeedYourSoul
    @Melinda_FeedYourSoul Місяць тому +54

    “You just don’t want peace”.
    “You get hurt too easily”
    “Were you always like this?”
    “You’re too much”.
    And pretending no harm was done minutes or hours after insults.
    It’s all toxic behavior.

    • @MamaMixedGamer
      @MamaMixedGamer Місяць тому +1

      Or "you're too sensitive"
      "You're making this more than it needs to be"
      "We're the same and you're a hypocrite" - if you're fighting for your voice to be heard and standing up for yourself, and your partner is dismissing and blaming you for your feelings, that's not the same thing and standing up for yourself and telling them it's not ok for them to treat you that way. There's no use in trying to get them to understand, when they don't actually care. It's a hard thing to realize for sure!

    • @toliveischrist950
      @toliveischrist950 Місяць тому +3

      You’re too nice, too sensitive, you’re different. Underhanded knocks.

    • @grmpEqweer
      @grmpEqweer Місяць тому +1

      I was told "You're just so dramatic I don't take you seriously."
      Yeah.
      I don't trust her with my feelings now.

    • @jenlazee
      @jenlazee 27 днів тому

      You are not asking for too much; you're asking the wrong mother f*****.

    • @benitereis5950
      @benitereis5950 8 днів тому

      Every. Day.

  • @kellyyork3898
    @kellyyork3898 Місяць тому +68

    Narcissists are so awful and damaging that it’s not worth one minute of your time to ever be around them.

  • @sophietsafcas6371
    @sophietsafcas6371 Місяць тому +94

    You need to constantly screenshot messages as proof when they deny what was said and accuse you of lying..just exhausting 😮‍💨😮‍💨

    • @Ratgirl2
      @Ratgirl2 Місяць тому +7

      Yes I'm in the thick of it right now. And boy is he the fake victim. I'm one up on him most of family members know. They are with me the battle goes on. Oh Jimmy I was told the other day I have mental issues. I'm beyond done oh the baiting. 😮😮

    • @laurel7309
      @laurel7309 Місяць тому +4

      Yes!! My brother and SIL's behaviors got so toxic that it pushed me to get counseling. I was advised in 2021 to screenshot every text and upload them to a safe place and save every email. It seemed extreme, but I did it. I also greyrocked them which made them furious. I'm so thankful because in 2023, they had enough of my grey rocking and came at me via email with false accusations and manipulations. They were counting on the fact that I wouldn't remember what was said or what happened. I replied (and included the rest of the family who couldn't understand why I was keeping my distance) and attached a word document with timelines and all the screenshots of texts and emails. I haven't heard from them since other than a brief thank you text for sending my nephews a birthday gift. 😂

    • @Lisa-ee6tf
      @Lisa-ee6tf Місяць тому +5

      @@Ratgirl2So predictable. Let me know when you’re told “You need help”, “You need therapy!”. Sounds like he’s scared by your awareness already. Keep being strong and grey rocking (cool, calm respond vs react.) You got this!👍

    • @Ratgirl2
      @Ratgirl2 Місяць тому

      @@Lisa-ee6tf
      Yes he told me our kids think I'm crazy. He's away he told me I'm heading home tonight I couldn't hold back my emotions waited until
      They where at it's peak and let his three family members here it he put it on speaker. It's sick I know I'm not crazy he got me again. 😵‍💫😵‍💫🫤🫤

    • @Puppylove82-gv3gm
      @Puppylove82-gv3gm Місяць тому +1

      Kinda funny you say that because I think my mom caught on and she never texts me anymore. Guess what, I don't talk to her or my mother inlaw without my husband by my side. Yall gonna behave today!!! Lol. But my mother inlaw acted one infront of him the other day and we were like, yeah, she needs to be medicated, when she left. What is it with the women over 60 that I know that are like this!!!

  • @michaelynazzopardi2705
    @michaelynazzopardi2705 Місяць тому +26

    6 years out and I still have moments of doubt. Thank you for those moments of reminder

    • @carolfield2760
      @carolfield2760 27 днів тому

      It will be a lifetime of moments of doubt. 13 years out and I still have moments of doubt.

  • @kristalynnmertz
    @kristalynnmertz Місяць тому +37

    My mom always used to tell me how sensitive I was. Then one day I responded by saying “You know what mom? I’d rather be sensitive than in-sensitive like you.” Come to realize how sensitive SHE is and honestly, I’m just normal.

    • @bronwentillman8385
      @bronwentillman8385 Місяць тому +6

      The one who claims to have raised me used to say:
      "You're too sensitive"
      "You're too emotional"
      "You're not a normal child" (in some ways, she's not wrong)
      "So, I'M the bad guy, huh...."
      "I'm your mother. You don't get privacy"
      And a whole host of other things, even now. I'M the one who needs help. I'M the one who can't function in life......sure, whatever. I graduated hs, she didn't. I graduated college, TWICE, she had to study for days to take a typing test. She thinks education is soooooo easy, yet she gave up her sophomore year.....

    • @BeckyCsernik
      @BeckyCsernik Місяць тому

      I feeeeel this!

    • @caleblarsen5490
      @caleblarsen5490 Місяць тому +6

      If they feel something, it's completely valid always. If you feel anything at all, it either doesn't matter or you aren't given permission.

    • @buirvin1236
      @buirvin1236 Місяць тому +3

      This happened to be, but not with my mom. Nobody in my life thinks I’m sensitive or emotional. I’m pretty calm like 90% of the time, so the sensitivity accusations used to drive me nuts. I felt so crazy. One day I realized how insane it was when I finally saw that the only person in my life who calls me sensitive is also the only person who calls me stupid, yells and cusses at me, tells me I’m not funny, and habitually ignores me. It’s not you. It’s them.

    • @niratomas579
      @niratomas579 20 днів тому +3

      I’ve started saying: “I AM sensitive!” I just agree with them and keep it moving!

  • @emetee217
    @emetee217 Місяць тому +21

    "Please stop standing there." Finally stepping out of that spot after 27 years. Your videos have helped with that decision to do so.

  • @brandiHeartagrams
    @brandiHeartagrams Місяць тому +15

    “When we abandon ourselves, we never experience peace” 🤯 Facts.

  • @app13s33d
    @app13s33d Місяць тому +36

    Tysm for this. Ive considered unblocking the narc this morning and this video popped up to remind me why I went no contact in the first place. ❤

    • @findinghiddenriches
      @findinghiddenriches Місяць тому +8

      I heard a great saying recently "Inviting a toxic person back into your life is like drinking poison because you're thirsty". Loved that! With the holidays coming up, stay strong!

    • @skachor
      @skachor Місяць тому +1

      Stay strong, and there's so many other people out there that you could explore life with rather than someone who you've found to be a negative impact of your life.

    • @app13s33d
      @app13s33d Місяць тому +1

      @skachor ty. It's not so much that I want to talk to him again but I feel bad for blocking him knowing that he has no one. The blocking seems cruel to me but I need to remind myself to keep me safe first and foremost. Everyday it's always my empathy VS my safety fighting and it's exhausting. 😮‍💨

  • @ShalomUSA
    @ShalomUSA Місяць тому +43

    Boundaries are just a challenge. Go no contact. Period.

    • @amberanime
      @amberanime Місяць тому +4

      That isnt always realistic. What if the narc is your parent, or sibling, or child and you live in the same house? What if you are financialy dependant on them? Sometimes you either cant fully break off from them and sometimes you simply dont want to because despite their issues you still love them.
      Sometimes you need to find ways to both protect yourself whilst maintaining some level of contact. And that IS possible. I have a narc dad and I see him 4/5 times a years and those times are usualy fun because I know how to handle him and what not to talk about. I dont take things personal and I keep things shallow. And when I do that contact goes well enough that I doesnt cause me stress or less quality of life. He lives his life and I mine.
      But, not every narc is the same. There are different types of narcs. And some are far more harmless then others. There are narcs that are truly wel and deeply dangerous, or those that just refuse to leave you alone. My dad being content with 4/5 meetings a year is great for me as it allows me to have that balance. But not all narcs will be fine with such little contact.
      Its a case by case basis. But I will say, when in doubt and its possible for you to do, no contact is probably the best call.

    • @dianakosa5915
      @dianakosa5915 Місяць тому +2

      I've had a long time friend who was a narcissist , only I fidnt recognize it for a long time. Eventually I had to go no contact and I saw all the backlash through another friend she chose to dump all of her toxicity towards me onto. This was all while she was simultaneously continuously crossing my boundaries of needing space and and love bombing me through the mail while slandering me to my other friend who had the clarity and loyalty to stand up for me and make me aware of what the narcissist was saying behind the scenes. I thank God that the narcissist friend is no longer in my life! I also thank God for my many healthy friendships and for giving me a friend who would fight in my corner! Keep up the powerful videos. Your insight is spot on!!

  • @xhaxha1028
    @xhaxha1028 Місяць тому +36

    So helpful! I'm approaching month 4 of no contact with a narcissistic bf and it's a WONDERFUL thing!!¡!!

    • @tatiscolombia
      @tatiscolombia Місяць тому +2

      you see the happiness in life again 😊

  • @abcd-rp7lx
    @abcd-rp7lx Місяць тому +22

    I identify with everything here. It's such a constant struggle, 30 years of this abuse, finally trying to break free.

    • @PixiePercival
      @PixiePercival Місяць тому +3

      Me too….20 years. 2 months separated. It’s so surreal listening to the fantasy world he is living in.

    • @miaqueen9578
      @miaqueen9578 Місяць тому +1

      ​@@PixiePercival 1 month over here..how do you feel? Any regrets? Do you miss him?

    • @PixiePercival
      @PixiePercival Місяць тому +2

      @@miaqueen9578 It hurts. I fell in love with him - miss him? Well, I think I miss the fantasy 'him' which may even be in there. But what is the reality? For I choose to remember - that the person who emotionally hurts me - who cannot relate and is injured and seems to need to play games with me all the time, so i feel like the enemy so yes - I try harder, or get so frustrated etc... - thats the real actual person. He actually isn't the 'seldom seen' one I thought. I heard something once - it was that If I had to answer 'what do I love about him' that I wouldn't actually be able to articulate it. I found this to be true. I can't. Its my mind splitting the reality of the person in two. Forget closure. I am so much more myself now he isnt here. Its early days but I will never go back.

    • @abcd-rp7lx
      @abcd-rp7lx Місяць тому +1

      @@miaqueen9578 I do miss him, but mostly I miss the comfort of my home and the family unit. When we are apart I can be myself, and yet I still feel like a piece of me is missing.

  • @LAtttiful
    @LAtttiful Місяць тому +13

    I think when in a relationship with a toxic narcissist you end up saying a lot of the things they have said. It’s become a confusing thing where you hear this and think you sound like a narcissist. But you got to remind yourself of things you went through with them that was illogical. The lack of trust, accusations, manipulations, lying about random things, gaslighting, breadcrumb, making the things they did for you bigger than what it was, even the possible physical violence you have gone through.
    You got to emotionally distant yourself ENOUGH to be ok with walking away and Blocking. Have zero ties if you can. Because we need to stop allowing access to us. Lets not this individual change us into someone we don’t like. Keep the vision you wanted for you life. ❤ one step at a time.

  • @Taylor-t7b
    @Taylor-t7b Місяць тому +25

    It got so bad that I thought my only way to get him to stop treating me so poorly was if I wore a camera on my body along with a camera facing me. That entire time I was thinking what it would take to get him to stop, such as the cameras, because I couldn't see the very simple fact.. I shouldn't have even been thinking that way to begin with.

  • @krystleklarity
    @krystleklarity Місяць тому +12

    Jimmy, Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am 15 months past a 3.5yr relationship with a narcissist. Every time I start to gaslight myself into, "maybe I was the problem" I see one of your videos and I feel so validated. Everything you talk about here was real for me. He pushed and pushed past every single boundary, never took any accountability, blamed me for the challenges in communication ( I am a very good communicator) gaslit, deflected. redirected and projected his own effed up toxic view of himself onto me. When that did not work he stonewalled. Dude pushed and poked until I lost it and got angry. The minute he figured out which buttons to push, he relentlessly pushed them. I was forced into hours long conversations. When I left the room he followed me until I left the house. MY house. The last 6 months we were together were beyond toxic. I aged 5 years in the last year we were together. I am still recovering.

  • @julievotaw3289
    @julievotaw3289 Місяць тому +16

    Extremely helpful! The number one goal of these toxic people is to get you to give up on yourself. You bring the clarity that stops this!

  • @annmariereyes5126
    @annmariereyes5126 Місяць тому +10

    Yes! He's always says I bring out the best in him... And I told him he brings out the worst of me... I've never been the type to get this angry ever... Until now...
    It's to the point where im disgusted when he says he loves me... Actions speak louder than words.... And in the words of the great Tina Turner "whats love got to do with it?" The poking analogy perfectly made sense to me! Thank you... Im tired of being poked... 😢

  • @karrielangdon-iy4my
    @karrielangdon-iy4my Місяць тому +13

    I have had my problem go away for a month because he does what he wants. The best thing that has happened in a long time....... I have had peace and time to review our relationship . I understand who he is. Thank you for these videos.

  • @darkfoxdigi
    @darkfoxdigi Місяць тому +19

    “I’m not going to let you sleep over anymore if you wake me up in the middle of the night when I have to go to work the next day for no real reason.” Oddly was the boundary battle line for years.

  • @HarmonizewithMelody
    @HarmonizewithMelody 4 дні тому +1

    "The right person wants you to feel safe!" 💯🔥💯

  • @emm1756
    @emm1756 17 днів тому +9

    For those leaving a narcissist - make an exit plan, be really careful, an animal trapped in a corner becomes desperate and dangerous. Be so so careful. I wish you all the best, please keep yourself and your children safe.

    • @mrb4761
      @mrb4761 2 дні тому

      There needs to be more examination of this even from the best professionals. There's not enough discussion of the flying monkeys and the enablers who will isolate and ostracize you and be cruel to you when all you are doing is trying to behave like the only healthy person in the family

  • @jacksimons-o8q
    @jacksimons-o8q 9 днів тому +1215

    Exciting video, A year ago i took the no contact route, well i wouldn't say it didn't go well, but i missed her and sometimes you have to leave your comfort zone and go for what you want, Without knowing and having a huge ego, we might actually miss out on our soul mate all in the name of not settling for less, I know who i am, and at the same time i know what i want for me, so i did all i could to get her back, and I must say, it was the best decision i have ever made, we have been together again for over 7 months, yes marriage isnt always rosey, but i am lucky to have her, just as she is to have me, we compliment each other.

    • @DorothyAngers
      @DorothyAngers 9 днів тому

      its difficult to let go of someone you love, i am in a similar situation, and i do not know what else do to have him back, i have been dying inside, people actually think i am happy, i am not.

    • @jacksimons-o8q
      @jacksimons-o8q 9 днів тому

      I feel your pain sis, after trying out the no contact experiment that failed miserably, i had to find other means, i had to reach out to a spiritual adviser, it was brilliant idea which i never thought it was, but it worked wonders for me.

    • @DorothyAngers
      @DorothyAngers 9 днів тому

      Amazing, how did you get a spiritual counselor, and how do i reach him/ her?

    • @jacksimons-o8q
      @jacksimons-o8q 9 днів тому +1

      Her name is Shelly renee white , and she is a great spiritual counselor who can bring back your ex.

    • @DorothyAngers
      @DorothyAngers 9 днів тому

      Thank you for this valuable information, i just looked her up now online. impressive

  • @GayleSandifar
    @GayleSandifar Місяць тому +12

    There is no apology. Ever. They will never apologize. Just get out. Escape and cut off all communication.

  • @ChrystalSafariRoy
    @ChrystalSafariRoy Місяць тому +9

    Omygosh!! The moment you set boundaries, they leave because they aren't able or willing to grow

  • @Jillsy-c6u
    @Jillsy-c6u Місяць тому +38

    You just summarized my entire 40 year marriage.

    • @tammygarrett8427
      @tammygarrett8427 Місяць тому +5

      Wow 40 years is a long time to deal with gaslighting

    • @lizrain8306
      @lizrain8306 Місяць тому +2

      Me too. But I am getting out asap. Walking with nothing and looking forward to enjoying the rest of my life.

    • @lucilleengbert4197
      @lucilleengbert4197 10 днів тому

      My 18

  • @TIJD19
    @TIJD19 Місяць тому +17

    As soon as boundaries were implemented,he turned victim.Mind you,those boundaries were needed to protect us from him 😢

  • @CarolAnne-n8w
    @CarolAnne-n8w Місяць тому +12

    100% true and I went through it all and so glad he bailed. I dodged a bullet and can totally enjoy the rest of my life! Well done video.

  • @sandylucas4279
    @sandylucas4279 Місяць тому +6

    The worst feeling is realizing how much disrespect I accepted just because I wanted love.

    • @seminarh
      @seminarh Місяць тому +2

      You also wanted to share your love. Somehow that feels better to me

  • @torywalker4768
    @torywalker4768 Місяць тому +10

    Thank you. This is great. For all relationships with people with narcissistic traits, not just romantic partners.

  • @michaelpiper4067
    @michaelpiper4067 Місяць тому +13

    just got diagnosed autistic 7 weeks ago. i find that almost all your advice translates pretty directly to 'how to communicate with neurotypical people'. ty. i might be 'borrowing' some of your content going forward.

  • @robertahardy4215
    @robertahardy4215 Місяць тому +5

    This is ringing so many bells. The most toxic person I dated once provoked me to calling him a name, which I apologized for later. He was actually fine with it, even seemed pleased. I realized he was pleased to see me lose control. The time he was the angriest was when I told him he needed to own his behavior. The rage that came out then actually scared me. He would make grand, romantic gestures, and then do things to create distance, lose his temper, or accuse me of things I didn’t do. It was constant drama.
    My ex-husband was different. The needling was subtler. He was extremely passive-aggressive. I think that’s even worse, because if someone won’t even acknowledge their hostility or anger, it’s pure gaslighting. I was living with someone who was constantly trying to thwart me and pretending it was intended for my benefit. I’m so glad I got out!

  • @lscs4151958
    @lscs4151958 Місяць тому +8

    WOW… you couldn’t have said it any better than this! Thank you for your time and energy to put content out like this.

  • @anaviana2641
    @anaviana2641 Місяць тому +6

    Perfectly true.
    Who on earth wants to be with such a horrible human?
    Yes the moment you start respecting yourself, and being courageous to live on your own, you have so much power to make a better life for yourself.
    Be good and loving to only the right people, and NOT to the narc. "Do not give your pearls to swine least they trample on them and turn and tear you to pieces". Stand up for yourself and the narc can go fly a kite and vanish because there's NO LOSS loosing that horrible toxic mad human. And I do empathise for all the rebounds the narc will abuse just as much as the narc abused you.

  • @michaelcummings8744
    @michaelcummings8744 Місяць тому +57

    Online community has been a huge consolation when my real life social network has been destroyed.... Lord have Mercy ✝️

    • @JaneSmith.9941
      @JaneSmith.9941 Місяць тому +1

      I am so sorry for your loss. May God bring you a new in person community full of both truth and grace.

    • @tatiscolombia
      @tatiscolombia Місяць тому +1

      Being with a narcissistic ended half my social circle. And ending the relationship ended the other half. I had to start from zero, but leaving that place was worth it. You can do it, Michael! You're strong and resilient

    • @geekchick4859
      @geekchick4859 Місяць тому

      Remember “Footprints”. At the time when you’re at your lowest, God is carrying you.

  • @Kayenne54
    @Kayenne54 Місяць тому +2

    I have to add, trying to "people please" is also a covert form of trying to control another. "If I conform, if I am "perfect", then he / she will treat me better". Once I let go of trying to control HIM by turning myself into a human pretzel, that's when I broke free of the game. This is why I always say "I am 100% responsible for my *50%* in any relationship". This does not excuse the other's choices in how they treat you. It explains MY choices in how I choose to respond. Once I realized I could choose, then I was free.

  • @Mikelk71
    @Mikelk71 Місяць тому +17

    I just wept through this video because it rings so true for my experience. I am about seven months out and went no contact a few months ago. And I am just now starting to be able to read and understand without the fog that I was in. Slowly, I’m navigating my way out and I am so thankful to be out but the painful truth is I still miss them.

    • @alex97in
      @alex97in Місяць тому +5

      6 months for me.. I still miss her and I'm feeling so stupid for missing a person who was so bad for me 🥲

    • @Mikelk71
      @Mikelk71 Місяць тому +2

      @ I hear your pain and thank you for sharing. The hurt around the hurt runs deep and can be a lot. Yet we must keep moving forward know we deserve better.

    • @tshaika9165
      @tshaika9165 Місяць тому

      Once you fully realize that what you miss them for was all fake, you can break the spell. Look into "intermittent reinforcement", they got you addicted to their "nice" side by being unpredictable and thus getting you addicted to them. It's actually caused by body chemicals like dopamine and other hormones.

    • @SuperDflower
      @SuperDflower 9 днів тому +1

      But it wasn’t always completely terrible. So why would you beat up on yourself for missing them? Of course you miss certain aspects. And also there’s a part of our identity that gets wrapped up with the people that are in our lives and we lose that too. There’s loss. That’s how complex human emotion is you can be relieved, but you can also still miss the person. That does tend to go away over time or get better. Because you’re not a narcissist and you don’t see things in black-and-white, you miss certain aspects. That’s totally normal.

  • @judewuski
    @judewuski Місяць тому +13

    10:33 if someone’s poking you…. I would scream at the person poking”… And under the perfect set-up, a narcissist or their enabler/s might only witness the “scream at the person” & the screamer would then be labeled as abusive. The really smart narcissists can come up with that sort of scenario…the really lucky narcissists luck into those scenarios & run with it.

    • @voltairesarmy6702
      @voltairesarmy6702 Місяць тому

      This is how narcissistics weaponize the police, mental health system, CPS, etc.

  • @nicolehayes6020
    @nicolehayes6020 Місяць тому +18

    Thank you Jimmy! Makes perfect sense and I’m done standing there…I’m jumping off the cliff and can’t wait for my new journey 💯✌️🤷🏻‍♀️😎🌹🙏💪❤️

    • @NarcissistHex-nf9eq
      @NarcissistHex-nf9eq Місяць тому

      Are you leaving your narcissist? You can expect a rough ride Maybe, hoovering and harassment.

    • @nicolehayes6020
      @nicolehayes6020 Місяць тому

      @@NarcissistHex-nf9eq yes I am leaving my narcissistic mother finally after almost 5 long decades of her abuse and not knowing what I was dealing w until I was 48 and I’ll be 50 in April. I’m fully aware and expecting all the things. Stalking, harassment, hovering, smear campaign etc these things are not new tho, she’s been doing this and more since birth. The only difference now is that I know who and what she is and she knows I know and I’m not afraid of her anymore. I actually think she has no idea what to expect from me because I’m so indifferent. So say some prayers, cuz on 11/11/2024, I’m walking away in silence w my head held high ❤️💯🤷🏻‍♀️🙏✌️🌹💪🫶

  • @luckycat13
    @luckycat13 Місяць тому +11

    This describes my relationship with both my mother and my sibling. I'm so tired.

    • @tatiscolombia
      @tatiscolombia Місяць тому

      Get away, if you can. Cutting ties with family is so hard but sometimes is the only way to heal

    • @SFred-m3b
      @SFred-m3b 15 днів тому

      I get that.

  • @nickprice8411
    @nickprice8411 Місяць тому +3

    To those raised by a narcissistic parent, and are only realizing now that you have been. I stand with you. We can overcome our own learned narcissistic tendencies. We have a chance to live a happy life with healthy relationships. Keep working! Your relationships and how you feel about yourself only gets better. You are not the person you once were.

    • @judithshelton5655
      @judithshelton5655 11 днів тому

      Thank you for this. I have learned some narcissistic traits from my mom. I am seeing some of my own behavior here. I’m working on it with my therapist. But I don’t get into relationships anymore so it’s hard to put what I learn into practice.

  • @mobiusmaximus586
    @mobiusmaximus586 Місяць тому +13

    I think everyone wishes they had seen this video sooner. I know i do…. I also know my future self will be grateful i saw it when i did.
    Thank you Jimmy

  • @TheSlavicSear
    @TheSlavicSear Місяць тому +13

    My daughter became a mom 3 years ago. We were all living together for the first year and a half. When she moved out she set boundaries for family fun and visits which sometimes meant we didn't see each other for weeks at a time- I understood we all lived together we needed a break. Then it kept on and she often cancelled last minute and often would not agree to making plans for a visit. I have to be fine with her boundaries and it's been happening for awhile and I'm starting to just accept and be happy with what I do have - focus on all the good things in life and live the serenity prayer. I did become depressed for awhile but all passes. Thanks for your channel it helped me a lot. I wondered at times if I was the narcissist. Thanks for clarification and making learning fun!

    • @rachelg3274
      @rachelg3274 Місяць тому +7

      I don’t understand why you think you aren’t the narc. You sound like a narc playing the victim right now.

    • @sallak6483
      @sallak6483 Місяць тому +3

      When I became a mum I started to reduce contact with my step mother from hell. I literally got anxious the second I saw her name on my phone screen.
      Because refusing to come somewhere (so she can suddenly separate me from other people and start emotionally abusing me and then return to them as normal and happy and be totally stunned and laugh at how tired I looked, there must be something wrong with me being so introverted and getting so tired for no reason at all) would make her rage. So it is easier to just get a migraine or break a finger (Yeah I have actually hit myself with a hammer just to get away from her and have a legit reason) to cancel last minute.
      When I finally got in no contact with her, she was like "well I guess I am a monster and never did anything right 😢" and when she realized that bullsht wont fly anymore, she went pale and started screaming at how terrible and ungrateful daughter I am.
      She probably tells everyone I am a narcissist who has weaponized a boundary against her and she is the victim who tries to be understanding to me being horrible.
      Just saying.

    • @sallak6483
      @sallak6483 Місяць тому +5

      Lol UA-cam did not seem to let me post my long comment so Yeah in short
      This sounds like something my step mom from hell would write in comments after years of emotional abuse I endured from her
      I hope that you are different and just clumsy with your comment but damn my blood pressure went up from reading this.

    • @Bthe312
      @Bthe312 Місяць тому +2

      You are. You resent her setting boundaries.

    • @skachor
      @skachor Місяць тому +3

      These other people are really jumping the gun calling you a narcissist.
      You don't seem upset beyond being hurt that you don't see your daughter and grandchild as often as you did.
      The rest of these armchair psychs are confused and oversensitive in their responses.

  • @plumbus8315
    @plumbus8315 8 днів тому +1

    I cried like a baby listening to your words. You are telling my experience that I've never been able to articulate even to myself and I feel freed. I needed this so badly. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

  • @gingerquinlan7953
    @gingerquinlan7953 25 днів тому +5

    Thank you for this video. I felt like you were talking to me through the whole thing. I just left my husband who invaded my boundaries always! It is so peaceful in my mind and heart now. I have been isolated for 11 years. This entire year I set myself up to put up my boundaries stronger, became my own best friend, and moved out this past week. Starting over at age 66. Scary but my soul was dying, and my heart couldn't take it anymore! Thank you for your wisdom!❤❤

    • @bon3042
      @bon3042 24 дні тому +1

      I am so proud of you and happy for you. Check out the song “Glorious” by Macklemore. I used to listen to it on repeat after I got free. You did it 🎉

    • @gingerquinlan7953
      @gingerquinlan7953 24 дні тому

      @bon3042 thank you so much! Having coffee and jamming to Glorious. Sending you hugs and love, with deep gratitude for all you do!🙏🙏🙏💜💜💜

  • @Kittysniffles888
    @Kittysniffles888 19 днів тому +11

    0:11 seconds in and I am already pausing to reflect, analyze, and understand. Lol

    • @terrabelle4289
      @terrabelle4289 6 днів тому

      Me too lol like we'll shit 😂😂😂

  • @kathrynhegarty9576
    @kathrynhegarty9576 Місяць тому +7

    Yes 100% it took me 15 yrs of bullshit before I realised they will never change, never be truly happy and never be truly content, never feel or give real love. They can never live a life without complications and manipulation. They can never be in a relationship and give love, respect, and empathy. I said to him, "This is not my problem anymore. I can't find a reason to love you anymore, I dont feel loved or respected from you. I'm ending it now, I'm done." He was actually flabbergasted, that made me smile. I had spent so long caring about you, your boundaries, whilst becoming a person I wasn't. It's been 2 yrs. I'm still learning about me and what I actually like. But I am who I want to be. I am happy. 😁❤️

  • @shannonbelson7969
    @shannonbelson7969 Місяць тому +1

    This might be the single best video on narcissistic boundary denial that I’ve seen! WELL DONE! 👏👏

  • @Albatross4Sure
    @Albatross4Sure Місяць тому +17

    With many of my family members, their favorite tactic was to go to opposite extremes to punish me for speaking up when I'm uncomfortable. I'm freezing cold, and I say so, they'll turn the thermostat up to stifling heat, wait for me to say something about that, and then use this to "prove" I can't be satisfied. I'm going to complain no matter what. It's too noisy, I can't think, and I ask for quiet while I'm trying to study for this important test. Well! Just because I temporarily needed quiet at that particular time, they'll launch into this lengthy, drawn out, resentful silent treatment. If I ever want the pleasure of their company and conversation again, I'm going to have to BEG them to speak to me! I feel suffocated because they're overhelping me, and I speak up about wanting to do it myself, then by jiminy, the next time I genuinely need help, they're going to let me fall flat on my face, and they'll be sure to throw it at me. "But I thought you said you could take care of yourself!" You get the picture.

    • @tatiscolombia
      @tatiscolombia Місяць тому +3

      and all said in passive aggressive tone. Sounds just like my family 😅😢

  • @Knightshade-95
    @Knightshade-95 Місяць тому +4

    This is insanely accurate. Especially the part about poking someone to their breaking point and eventually they snap back and act out of character. I finally found the courage to get a separation. Been a decade of this type of crazy-making and my mental, emotional, physical, and even spiritual health has suffered enough.

  • @tatiscolombia
    @tatiscolombia Місяць тому +5

    My boundaries were 'exagerated', 'too hard to follow', 'cruel', I was 'frigid' 'traumatized' and 'complicated'. Luckily, I was able to leave (after many years) but the confusion and the damage left is something I'm still dealing with.

  • @dluxsolutionsathome5162
    @dluxsolutionsathome5162 Місяць тому +6

    I told my ex husband before we got married that I didn’t want to share details of my past with him, but I made a few boundaries on the topic.
    AS SOON as I gave him a small explanation, he immediately utilized that information against me.
    We were married 60 days and he immediately started gaslighting me and accusing me of setting him up for counseling 🤯
    The worst part, his family took his side so to not damage their relationship with him.

  • @laurel7309
    @laurel7309 Місяць тому +5

    This is so spot on. My brother and sister in law's behaviors got so toxic that I had to start grey rocking them at family gatherings. My brother (who is in his 40s) never asked "what's wrong? Are you ok?" He just threw tantrums and kept texting the rest of the family that I was ignoring him. When I made it clear I was done with the gaslighting and manipulation he said his boundaries weren’t being respected and I need therapy. It's ironic because he's the reason I decided to go to therapy and learned how to set boundaries with controlling people. 😂

  • @stk7033
    @stk7033 Місяць тому +8

    It would probably start a fight, i wondered how they would react after saying "you made me do it" you ask " are you good with me having that much control over how you act?" 😮

  • @LindaTaglieri
    @LindaTaglieri Місяць тому +11

    Thank you Jimmy: I could have used u years ago. I am so lost right now, but now I know what I am dealing with. Listening to you, I understand a lot more. Thank you.

  • @0scJohnson0
    @0scJohnson0 Місяць тому +7

    Best way to handle them is to go no contact and if that’s not possible : don’t tell them your plans, don’t ask them for help Or cooperation, don’t voluntarily interact with them and when they do (and they will) come up with some reason they need to speak to you, keep your responses short and not open ended.

  • @mesalouis8976
    @mesalouis8976 Місяць тому +17

    My mom loves calling me a crazy alcoholic. I have never had a drink in my life.😭🤦🏽‍♀️

    • @jessicabulloch5302
      @jessicabulloch5302 Місяць тому +2

      My husband would call me a whore, after being married for 25 years and giving him 8 kids and never having been with another man.😢

    • @SFred-m3b
      @SFred-m3b 15 днів тому

      😮

  • @andreahinojosa978
    @andreahinojosa978 Місяць тому +10

    We are a team until I challenge him by giving my opinion. Even if most of the time it’s regarding my own autonomy.

  • @jaykyu1132
    @jaykyu1132 Місяць тому +1

    Wow I can’t believe that you’ve helped me realise I’m not narcissistic. I stooped to their level and that’s on me. I care so much that I made my boundaries known.

  • @dezimoon2021
    @dezimoon2021 Місяць тому +4

    8:31 left me crying 😢😢😢

  • @Kitsasaru
    @Kitsasaru Місяць тому +19

    My ex of 8 years left me on valentines day for a mutual friend who was supposed to be the priest for our wedding. Wish I'd seen your videos sooner, probably would've avoided a lot of suffering.
    It's crazy how I didn't understand the behavior until seeing stuff like this.

  • @bobbiechinn9578
    @bobbiechinn9578 Місяць тому +5

    Can't help but notice the plants you have in your backgrounds. Beautiful. Ive been growing/collecting for around 40 years. Love them ❤💚

  • @teeare2367
    @teeare2367 Місяць тому +4

    You are my hero! I needed this at this exact moment!
    I wish I could discover and heal what has broken my ability to let toxic PEOPLE GO!

  • @joeldoesdesign
    @joeldoesdesign Місяць тому +8

    You had me at “absolutes.” Only a Sith deals in absolutes.

  • @austinking9912
    @austinking9912 Місяць тому +51

    “He’s just a friend, you’re so insecure”

    • @amnahaque9058
      @amnahaque9058 Місяць тому +12

      Mine does that.
      Stares at other women and calls me jealous and insecure.

    • @austinking9912
      @austinking9912 Місяць тому

      @@amnahaque9058FOR THE STREETS

    • @livsweetdreams
      @livsweetdreams Місяць тому +10

      If he gives you no respect and refuses to change he is waisting your future husbands time with you.

    • @strawberrykatnz
      @strawberrykatnz Місяць тому +3

      ​​@@amnahaque9058 He doesn't respect you. You should start saying you think they're hot and compliment what they're wearing and then it'll make him super insecure and be like, "I'm so glad we can say what we think."🤣 Watch his jaw drop. Ultimately, the right person wouldn't do that to you. They wouldn't deliberately make you feel jealous and insecure.

    • @The_Drew_82
      @The_Drew_82 Місяць тому +2

      ​@@amnahaque9058yeah my wife was doing that too. Right before I found out that my concerns were absolutely valid.

  • @nandelars6411
    @nandelars6411 Місяць тому +5

    They only apologize to manipulate. There's never a change in their toxic behavior. Fake repentance. Fake, fake, FAKE!!!

    • @JessicaSchiro-e5f
      @JessicaSchiro-e5f Місяць тому

      Every time my ex would repeat a terrible behavior, and I would bring up the fact that he continued to perpetrate the same offenses, he would try to argue that I couldn’t bring up his past actions because he had apologized for them. Now I was just the bad guy, keeping score and dredging up the past. He refused to acknowledge that an apology doesn’t count if you keep carrying out the same actions. I used to think his willingness to apologize it was a green flag 🙄

  • @VanessaPalma-q2v
    @VanessaPalma-q2v Місяць тому +1

    Thank you! You are appreciated deeply.