The End Of The (First) Lockdown 💙
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- Опубліковано 11 чер 2020
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“If I want to live, I’ve got to keep living” I desperately needed that
YUP
I can’t express how very lovely it is to see you back on here.
One word: RELATIVELY.
This randomly popped up on my feed. I was like this young lady looks familiar. Omg it's been years since I've watched you. Glad to see you again.
Ahh so lovely to see you back on here. I can imagine it's been tough. Sending love xx
It is always so wonderful how you share your experiences with such honesty. You're one of the most courageous people online! Chapeau!
Off topic - but wooah!! You are SO PRETTY! Like you're glowing and your makeup and hair is gorgeous
Seems that like many of us, 2020 is throwing everything and the kitchen sink at you. I'm glad to see you're still standing! And hey, if you can survive this crazy year, what else are you capable of, right?
Is it my imagination or does "messy glory" sound like it could be a punk-rock/new wave band name and "hello in blue" the debut album? ^J^
Sounds awesome lol. I kinda wanna create fake album covers from fake bands now after reading your comment 😎💜
I am also scared - it is such a strange time now things are starting to be lifted and I just don't know how to react to anything. I haven't been anywhere in 3 months (as of tomorrow, the 13th). No shops. 4 very short walks in March and April, then nothing since. I've just been struggling to leave my house. Whilst others around me go about like it's fine. It's so confusing. It's lovely to see you on UA-cam again - sending you love xx
You look like you’ve figured out so much stuff! I hope you can find more stability and happiness even in these uncertain times. Loved the video
Beckie you look gorgeous and I'm glad you're relatively OK. You're not the only one who gets anxious about going outside or to the supermarket; I do too and go very late at night on purpose (although this probably isn't an option for you). Keep on fighting; sending socially distanced virtual hugs
I can relate to what you're saying sooooo much! What a freaking weird time my God. Also, YOUR HAIR 😍Absolutely gorgeous I love this length on you so much. I've been following you for quite some time now and the fact that it's getting longer is AMAZING 😁 Yaaaay 👏👏👏
Gorgeous hair, young lady! That is a big plus.
You will be fine. Life WILL return to normal, because THIS is never going to be normal.
You look amazingly adorable. Love the look and always the insight. Keep up the good fight, Beckie. We can only take things one moment at a time. Many govts messed this up. Here in the US, I'm terrified. I'm one of those immunocompromised people and others are just flipping their middle fingers at social distancing here. Ugh. Hugs 💜
So glad you are back making videos. I alway enjoy them. Take care. Love from New Zealand.
Sorry to hear about all that happened! We are always here for you!
Enjoy your summer, Rebecca. Thanks for the update. Best of luck to ya!
I adore that top, it's a lovely color on you!
Lovely to see an update from you. It felt like I was just sitting and chatting with a friend. Things are tough at the moment, but keep talking and sharing - there are lots of people out there who care about you. And oh, your beautiful gorgeous mesmerising eyes.... I've missed them. :)
I've been following on insta, Its a rough old time for everyone but I think I speak for everyone when I say you're absolutely glowing! You've got this 💪✌️❤️
BOO and thank you x
Sending you love from the US. It's been a crazy start to the year all over.
Love you 💕 Always nice to hear from you
05:20 Pensive look off into the distance, "So in regards to life, if I want to live I gotta keep living"
Mini-lol
Nice to see you again! ❤️
We all have been struggling during quarantine, but we must stay strong. Sending good vibes to you, Beckie.
You’re such a good content creator! Good to see you creating again x
I am sending you a bucket full of support and love. ❤️
Really really good to see you again, Beckie. Been keeping up with you on Instagram but UA-cam is the platform where I discovered you so seeing you vlog again brings a smile to my face. I'm relieved none of your family members have been lost due to Coronavirus. Delighted to hear your Etsy store will be reopening soon and that you'll be shipping to the U.S.! Thanks very much for the update on how you're doing.
So glad to see you, hope hope hope you're okay this weekend. Try to rest and just ABSOLUTELY give yourself all the pampering you need or want. good luck with jobs and the next few weeks/months financially, it's horrible I know. Sending you a huge hug. I've had some horrible times too and it's so tiring right?! We will cope. xxx
You look super pretty in blue, keep powering through!
"if I want to live I need to keep living" mood. Thank you for sharing. I feel so similar, anxious about all of this while everyone seems to go back to normal. Also being alone all this time has been so hard. I have no idea how all of this will go on. It's wild.
Love and light to you from New York. Always glad to see another video. Stay safe, stay sane. Totally understand you on the glasses. I broke mine so many times already with no possibility of repair so must improvise.
i love your makeup! so bright and cheerful. i’m glad you’re healthy and (relatively) well !!
SO MANY RELATIVELIES. AHHH!
Sending you so much love and prayer ♥️ I hope life brightens up for you soon and you find yourself in so much joy and happiness ♥️♥️ I have been following you during this lockdown on Instagram but I'm so happy to see you here
me too about feeling like the only one who's still scared, and also about being alone, feel like everyone else is either with friends or family or a partner x
Sending love as always. Great to see your face again ❤️
Thanks for this real honest and vulnerable video Becky! It’s been rough for me mentally and financially as well with less work during lockdown also. It’s been a nightmare at times I never expected. Thank God for the little things we can be grateful for!❤️🙏🏻
Glad to see you back, and I think your hair looks so good in this video!!
Looking lovely Becky ♥️ It's good to see you. I'm sorry things have been hard. Here's hoping they get better for all of us...
I had shoulder surgery on February 24 for my right rotator cuff and the only thing I went out for do since lockdown is going to psychical therapy. I have been lucky in that I can work my job from home. Oddly, I've put up three new videos on my channel since being confined to my home, it's odd because I don't put out too much new material theses days (although two of my videos were just 30-second ones as entries to the Bill & Ted contest.
Sorry to learn things did not work out between you and James. Those times can be rough pandemic or no pandemic. Stay well, Rececca.
PS - I love your messy hair :)
watching your vid in south korea, gives me lots of thinkings....I still go to school, had big exam today, worry about my grades and wish to enroll in the uni that I desire...people in my country are losing tension. though we have an anxiety about the virus, we just keep working on daily lives as usual
now I really don't get if I should be worried or not. Governments tell us to be careful but they don't give the opportunity to.
Sending lots of love your way. Thank you for sharing. I can completely understand how you are feeling through all this. I hate how people aren't taking things seriously. We will get through this though. And I love your hair even if you don't think it looks nice, I think you pull it off really great. I couldn't pull off the length but I think you so great. (:
It's so nice to see your face again :) hope things getter better, take care 💜
My wife is scared of the outside woods. Many are. So you are not alone. Please don’t think you are. Social distancing is non existent in places like supermarkets. We have found finding the whitest time helps in that respect. My customers at work (I do deliveries for a department store) still don’t get social distancing. Yes the government should be held accountable for their manslaughter of over 40k people. My aspergers has been severely tested throughout lockdown because of my routines being broken, it sucks. Lastly. Your glasses are awesome. Stay you stay safe
keep powering through Beckie
So glad to have you back!
Weird times. Thank you for your posts. Best wishes :)
This video was lovely!
Looking absolutely gorgeous Beckie!
Sorry for your loss and I hope that you can find a way to grieve with it, although maybe you can't as you already have? Your hair is great! Love the mess! I guess its a case of head down into the storm and 'just keep swimming' Can't wait to see/hear your future book reviews and art..... That said have you ever considered doing an episode or few on pieces of art or styles that influence you? You could almost start an art history series :-) Good luck and thank you for being out there as a sane voice in the wilderness.
I was alone during lockdown and still. Miss someone to talk to.
Messy Glory! It suits!
And I get the glasses thing too.... I have to tilt mine ever-so-slightly up to see perfectly.
Sun looks good on you, and good to see and hear you again 🙂
Thank you for posting Beckie, it's nice to hear your thoughts and musings again! There are a lot of channels on this platform that chat about life and general things but very few who are brave enough to bare their innermost fears and anxieties....kudos to you ❤️! Yes, life is never perfect and there are things we love and hate about it, but it's the only one we are given. To hear that you have felt so low and alone struck a chord with most of us I think😔, sending you virtual platonic hugs 🤗 🤗 🤗...or a Cwtch as we say in Wales. Stay safe and well...ps I love the hair 😉❤️
Sending you good vibes! It's good to see you!
great to see you back!! i look forward to your upcoming videos!!
Thoughts and feels are with you chappy, also I like your hair at the mo
Don’t know if it’s just me but I alway find beckie’s voice so calming
Thank you Beckie for coming back to UA-cam !!! I always love your vid's, and being in Canada it's nice to hear how people like you and your country is handling this Pandemic !! I was sad to hear that you and James are not together - you need to came to Canada where the crisp mountain air and fresh lakes will put a spring in your step.
Be brave little lady, YOU will make it out of this "House Arrest" that we all have to deal with. --
So nice to see you!
I am so scared too and people around me are breaking the rules. It's really anxiety triggering. Your videos always help, particularly this one. You're not alone in how you feel about lockdown.
Sending you love and solidarity x
There's so much drama on UA-cam, and so I said to myself who is the one unproblematic person on this platform and you popped into my mind so I had to check your channel after years passed.
Its okay not to cry. If you were treated unfairly or neglected...the first emotion that comes sometimes is just anger. I have been there. It's okay.
Oh Beckie! Hugs xx
Lovely video, gorgeous top, marvelous colour. Crazy how everyone is carrying as 'normal' . I saw photos and videos taken outside Nike Town on social media on Monday. The amount of people there was just ridiculous, absolutely no social distancing, or many masks being worn.
I got mononucleosis in april-march and due to restricted travel guidlines (and also my immunesystem not being great) I missed my sisters graduation yesterday, life seems very unfair right now and life is put on hold. I've waited YEARS to celebrate my sister graduating but I am stuck in a small town 6 hours away from my family. Thankfully I have my girlfriend and FaceTime to communicate with my family, but I still feel stuck and alone. Sweden isn't under lockdown and has very loose regulations but people seem to fail to follow the most basic guidelines, which is anxiety inducing. Thankfully I have Animal Crossing as an escape and the sun is sometimes here and it makes the day better.
Beckie; I'm glad to see you here again. Your Hair Looks BEAUTIFUL; Your eyes are stunningly Gorgeous. I am going thru some really Heavy shit also and have NO guy friends to talk with anymore. I understand your loneliness. Things will get Better....... But once again YOU Look AWESOME~!*
So good to see you ♥
always good to see you
Oh Beckie it's so great to see you again! It's my birthday today and when I opend youtube I wished for a video I'd really enjoy and here we are :)
I don't have Instagram but yesterday I looked at your page and was heartbroken. For what happend to you, how you are but mostly for how you feel about UA-cam. I have been following you for six years and when I first stumbled across your channel I was instantly hooked and watched your videos back untill the beginning. I loved every single one of them and I still do! Even though you might not think they're perfect, I do and I know a lot if other people do as well
I also am a long-time follower of beckie and don't have Instagram. Beckie will forever be one of my favorite youtubers - especially for her honest content. Lots of love!
Happy belated birthday.
Yeah, UA-cam is so difficult now. Even IG has it's tough moments.
Oh I'm lucky, I know that things have evened out a little and took too long to do so, but for many - it's hard. Lucky to be going back to work at all at this rate with shops closing down permenantly left right and centre!
I do feel I've failed on here, not doing anything of value. Not feeling confident in anything the last few years and feeling more disconnected than before. My brain is saying more than I physically manage to get out. Sorry if I have let you or anyone down. Means alot to see what you have written.
@@lisasnotes Somone I recommend is SimplyNailogical - especially her side channels and podcast with Ben. She's the most honest, down to earth and biggest open activist/donator I've come across. She's exceptional!
@@lisasnotes Somone I recommend is SimplyNailogical - especially her side channels and podcast with Ben. She's the most honest, down to earth and biggest open activist/donator I've come across. She's exceptional!
@@beckiejbrown Hi Backie! I've been following for years now, and am SO happy to see you are back! I don't think you've let anyone here down - 99% of us are more than happy to see and hear you - for you! I assure you, you haven't failed and what you post has a lot more value than a lot of the nonsense on UA-cam :) much love and wishing you all the very best ❤
Hello Beckie! ❤️
Getting Maria Von Trapp vibes with that hair ! Love it ❤️
Sending you love 💕
I tuned out of your videos for a good five years or so but it was refreshing to come back and watch this. I’m fortunate enough to have worked all the way through lockdown without much really changing. Because of my job it’s been fairly hard to do the social distancing thing and I forget that other people are still living to a different normality, thus meaning I’m getting in their space without intentionally doing so. I don’t think it helps that there has been conflicting information from the government, the WHO have been a complete and utter shambles, the media have done nothing but scaremonger (which I guess is what they always do anyway). The wearing of masks has been scientifically proven that it can make a healthy wearer poorly. I have had customers asking for the fire alarm system to be reconfigured so as to stop their fire doors closing on a fire activation because they are terrified of touching their door handles to open them up again (which seems absolutely bizarre to me, as they’d rather have their premises burn down quicker than have more of their building preserved and just wash their hands afterwards). I don’t see things going back to normal for a long, long time but it’s been lovely to see the country just crack on and try and make good of a bad situation for the most part. Though to be completely honest, I’m missing the roads being dead!
I like these little updates
The past 3 months have been kind of awful for me. Primarily because I had to move back in with my parents and I was brutally reminded of why I left in the first place. I don’t know how else to put it because if I bring it all up, I’ll be upset again. But I’m trying to put a positive spin on the slow reopening in Canada. The only other thing I’ll say is that my brother is letting me move in with him and soon I’ll be able to rebuild my life.
I love your glasses. :) Stay safe, and I wish the best for you.
Stunning Lady .. I hope things pick up for you soon..
Happy to see you
"breathe in.. carefully" hihi
Hi beckie! You put a smile on my face everytime i see you upload a new video!
I can relate to eveything you have mentioned on this video, and that gives me comfort knowing that I am not the only one. (Myglasses broke down too)
For the crying - watch Grave of the Fireflies (a studio ghibli film)
❤️
Here in New Zealand I wish I could say the anxiety has gone now that we’ve eliminated the disease, but the economic impact is severe. I’m unemployed now and it’s tough going.
Best wishes. Hang in there!
Your hair looks so healthy! :)
I was watching the entire videos thinking, "your hair looks so effortlessly beautiful, how it just falls into layers." To hear the video end on a note of disappointment took me by surprise.
I was forced to return to work; if I had told my job I didn't feel safe they would have viewed it as a "refusal to work" and I would have lost my unemployment assistance. I do not feel safe, people are incredibly INCREDIBLY selfish and inconsiderate, I get panic attacks in grocery stores, and working in retail makes me hate everyone that thinks they had to leave their house for a new pair of shoes. It's 👏 not 👏 over 👏 just 👏 because 👏 you're 👏 bored!
I've missed you so much
I’ve been though almost the same my ex was not communicating with me and it doesn’t help that she cheated on me with her ex but I’m just over it.
You deserve better. Wishing you the best💚
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Thank u 4 ur vlogs. Ur hair looks lovely xxx
I really like your messy hair. It really suits you ❤
Love your top. That's my favourite colour 😍
I adore blue
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I meant 💙💙💙
@@bintiboop2610 Either is lovely
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I'm sorry you feel so alone. Hopefully sharing your life will help offer some connection with the people who enjoy watching the work you put out there. You definitely have people cheering you on,even if you can't hear them some days.
If i hear "unprecedented"or "new normal" one more time i'm gonna puke in my mouth 😎 thanks for the update & i hope you're okay. Wish you still had a PO Box, i would've sent a postcard 🖋📝📩📮📬
Thanks for checking in with us Beckie, we've missed you (:
I've been in lockdown in a foreign country for the last 3 months so I can totally relate to your feelings of abandonment and isolation!
If you ever need to talk, you can always drop me a message for semi-anonymous, entirely non-judgemental, honest chats (:
Hope the future is bright for you, take care Ɛ>
Love you. Still :)
Congrats on the break up! Maybe you can't cry, because you know there's not much to miss anyway. 💛
Glad you are still standing and living day by day.
I live in a tiny town so Covid didn't hit hard here, but I still wear the mask even though people look at me funny and I hate the mask.
With all of our protests and the uprising here in the states I fear for the safety of everyone.
My husband is still (8 months and counting) awaiting his trial in jail. Its been weird being alone this long. Even when we were homeless we were nearly never apart. But I am persevering. Glad you are thinking of vids again.
Good to see ya.
Glad you have hair to be a mess with.