Can we start keeping it real and just calling it what it is, clean my dirty apartment with me clean my messy apartment with me people who are really depressed don't try to get attention for it
What’s the purpose in your comment? You have someone who’s completely transparent in her video in an attempt to help others and herself. Does it make you feel better to criticize another person behind the guise of a computer? Go waste your meaningless time trolling elsewhere.
Can you start not assuming you know someone else's life let alone their mental health through a computer screen? Some people need a sense of accountability in order for them to motivate themselves to do a task. For example, I used to do all my schoolwork in cafes and busy libraries. The public setting made me feel accountable to keep doing the work instead of binging UA-cam videos. Posting this video also could help someone else with a not so clean living space feel motivated to tackle it and maybe also realize they arent in a healthy mental state and get some help. Also maybe dont click on a video you obviously dont want to watch and then post a negative comment?
I promise you, you are not using depression as an excuse. As someone who has depression, anxiety and is also autistic, I completely understand. Depression destroys your energy levels, which in turn destroys motivation. You need energy for motivation. I also understand that its hard to be nice to yourself when you feel so low. That's why you get hard on yourself. But your depression is not an excuse, you're doing brilliantly and its ok to not be ok. Please be nice to yourself x
Girlfriend you helped me today. I have this bookcase 7 freaking shelves x2. I was nesting in bed and you gave push to work on it. I got 5 done. I have depression and anxiety. I have been on meds for 30+ years. Lately I have been stuck. Not wanting to clean. House is tidy and picked up but there is dirty. Those 5 shelves had very much dust crossed over to dingy but not gross. I been stuck emotionally and socially. I came home pissed off at MEN. Storytime I had meet up with pretty interesting guy. Then he flipped to I need more time for grow. He am not ready to date. I am cool. We can hang out. I am able to be friends with a man without being romantic. He ghosted me. Friday fine I am going take control of what I can control. Cleaning house. My mom use to come over. Now she doesn’t so I don’t “Mom inspection”. I am feeling better with clean house. Now I am done to deep detail cleaning. Tchotchkes cleaning. The dust I cannot see. Dada tada to praising on you. You are doing a great job. Heart break is hell. Depression and Anxiety hard to deal with. It not like there is a blood test. There is no vaccine. It is hard work, great doctors and more hard work. Let’s do the the test on how you are doing! Have you eaten, showered, hair clean, clean clothes on, on time to work, work hard at work. Pets have food, litter, water and loved on. Bing bango. You are kicking ass. I hope mom and dad gifted you car detail after you cleaned out the car. You did the hard part. You got dressed. Make up. Hair combed. You could stopped there. You went out and worked on the car. Don’t listen to those people who do not understand depression since it is like missing eye, broken arm, there are no stitches. There are lots of dumb people who are cruel and insensitive to invisible conditions. We can no control them or the weather. What you can control is getting basics making through the day. Then add on things you can control. Silly example. In my house 3/2 there is one trash can. I cannot stand have trash cans all over the place. So I have to walk all trash to kitchen trash. To me having one trash can I can handle more than one forget about it. Not so silly example I am preparer. This moment my computer bag, work backpack and lunch bag are in one spot. I have set out everything I need take with me in lunch. Other stuff like car keys. Clothes are picked out. No it doesn’t look pretty on counter. You know what I have everything I need for work. I can control this. One last thing girl friend my closet I hang up everything but sock and underwear. Folding is just too much. Towels, set of sheets in hanger, blankets, I have one hanger for multiple pairs pants you know what I have each clip shorts. Too much furniture stresses me out. Too many surfaces too much art on wall. I need physical and visual space. Dirty clothes on floor that messes with both. Dirty dishes I need the surface clear off. My house nope there are no dirty dishes in the sink on no. They move from dirty to gross. 🤮. This is what I can control. This what keeps me feeling safe and comfortable. This is not chores this is what I can control. I don’t expect others to think like me. That is their problem not me problem.
I randomly came across your video, and I just want to tell you how proud I am of you for being this vulnerable and working on yourself. I’m twice your age and struggle with my depression and anxiety in a similar way. This was very relatable and inspiring. I hope you’re proud of you, too.
people on social media really only show their best selves. and their idea of a mess, is 5 dishes in the sink and a small amount of clutter around their very nice, clean, shiny living spaces. i can't relate to that at all. i relate to you because i let my dishes pile up in the sink, my clothes pile up on my bathroom floor and my cats hair get embedded in my carpet before i vacuum it once a month 😅😅 this gave me the motivation to go get my shit done so i can exist in a clean home, which we all deserve
I deeply appreciate your honesty and vulnerability! I struggle with anxiety and Depression and I understand how you feel. It's like this cycle for me... I'm good for a bit and then something happens or nothing happens lol and I "fall off the wagon ". I have come to recognize that it's a chronic illness and it's normal to have relapses but never giving up and always moving forward when you can... that's a huge win! Good job! Proud of you!
Thank you for this video! I love videos like this as I try to crawl myself out of my depression and pick up the pieces again and clean up my home. It felt like I was cleaning my house with a friend ❤ Also unrelated, but if you consistently struggle with organization, it may be worth looking into ADHD. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was an adult and lived on my own, and I constantly wondered why I struggled so much with chores, organization, etc.
@@MidwestMagicCleaning well hot damn, it’s the guy they used to call Moose Seducer Johnny back in Shreveport. Kinsley- if you don’t already watch Mack then you should check him out. He is a cleaning legend and will have you giggling in the first 5 seconds
Your apartment is so cute! And honestly, yes it's dirty but not the worst I've ever seen. The fact that you're able to acknowledge it was your depression, and pick yourself up and do something about it instead of continuing the cycle, is very mature ❤️
Great job! Thanks for this. I am also living in a depression/adhd pit and don’t feel motivated to get up and do self care, let alone home care. I did my dishes along side you, and felt much better about it, not being alone. ❤
You are literally SO beautiful and you *cannot* allow your ex to make you doubt yourself in any way 😢❤. He's not worth your discomfort, sending healing and positive energy your way ✨ !
I’m much older than you are and I’ve never enjoyed cleaning. I love cleanliness but abhor the process. I’ve always suffered from depression and anxiety. You are doing a great job. Mind shift. I needed to hear that. Thank you.
this felt like a breath of fresh air FR I struggle so hard with household upkeep as a young adult with depression and adhd and thank you for making me feel less alone and honestly motivating me to clean while watching this
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! Thank you for being human, being honest, being realistic in yourself and your expectations. You can see the struggle is real for you and I truly appreciate it. I came across this video and honestly have NEVER felt more human than I do watching you. You don't show what you think people want to see, you show the raw truth! I feel seen because of your video. And the raw emotion in your voice, just makes me want to give you a huge hug 🩷🩷🩷 Thank you for your openness and honesty. Depression and anxiety are REAL & they REALLY do make a difference in our lives! Love and strength to you. You've inspired me to try and get MY Depression house in order!
Back when I was in my late 20’s when I moved out on my own, I took care of my home to a degree. I kept up with my dishes and cleaning. I wouldn’t say my home was spotless because I didn’t grow up with a spotless home. My mom was a working homemaker. Then something triggered/happened that I kinda let my home get away from me. I’d stop coming home after work. I’d stay and talk with a coworker. I mostly ate out. I mainly slept and ate at my apartment. I started going to concerts. When I started my second job I worked 7 days a week so literally I had no time for myself. I then started making time for me but that looked like just staying home and laying in bed on my phone playing it. A few years back I had a mind shift where I wanted to rearrange my pantry. I did that then I moved to my linen closet. I’d watched pantry organizing videos which led to watching cleaning videos. I’ve deep cleaned my bathroom and kitchen a few times since then. I started out small one section at a time. Even though I’ve had different phases of being depressed the last 3 years I’ve worked through it where I’m now being consistent and showing up for myself. My mindset changed within because I didn’t just want my apartment to be just a place to sleep. I wanted it to be a home for me. Now I call my apartment my home even though I don’t call the location I live is home. I’m not originally from where I live. In January and February I let my home go. Then some time in March I was like I need to get taken care or. I showed up for myself and got moving because I was done. Since then I keep showing up and doing what I can and need to. After watching some cleaning routine videos I figured out what system I want to start. I’m on week two and it’s going good for me. I created a cleaning routine for me. What has helped me before starting my routine was writing done a few tasks a week/day on my bathroom mirror. I stick with 3 or 4 no more than 6 or I don’t get to them. My goal would to accomplish 3 not all of them.
I am amazed at how you balanced on the side of the tub! Thanks for the video, I am glad that I am not the only one that hates doing dishes and lets them pile up in grossness.
i wanted to take the time to say how proud i am of you. i know how your environment reflects how your doing mentally. all i wanted to do was give a big hug. even before you expressed what your going through. i know how you feel and i’m glad you were able to take that step and make your space free of all those things that were weighing you down. i know it won’t solve everything but it’s progress in the right direction. i can’t wait to what you post next. much love. ❤
@@moody0613 this made me tear up, thank you so much for your kind words! i’m so happy you took the time to watch my video and leave a comment, i can’t give you a hug in real life so i’ll give you a virtual one instead ❤️ comments like your give me so much motivation
You should be proud, that was a lot. Moving forward make it easier on yourself by putting away as you go thru the day so it’s a little task instead of overwhelming. Good luck on your journey . Showing the vulnerable side of ourselves is not easy, you are brave and you got this!
Tips for a dusty shower! As a self employed cleaner.. clean it and then use the shower to wash away all the dust rather than trying to wipe it all up, way more effective and quicker. Can always buff it over with a fresh cloth to get rid of water marks 😊 well done for getting this done!
I'm so proud of you! Cleaning can be a lot on a person struggling with depression and I completely understand how terrible it feels to not only be in a very low mood/mindset but also an unclean environment. Try to not be hard on yourself during this time, you're doing an amazing job and I hope you continue to challenge your struggles and take care of yourself!!!
I know this was posted 4 months ago, but I genuinely want to applaud you for this video 👏❤️ this takes a lot of courage to get out of a slump, especially with the emotionally draining things you were going through during this time. I can relate so much to this. My house is an absolute wreck, to the point where I don’t let anyone in (It’s practically a hoarder house 😂) thank you for giving me the motivation to clean my own home and for taking care of yourself too! 💕 I know this helped so many others as well!
I don’t know how your video randomly came across my feed, but I’m glad it did! I struggle with severe anxiety and depression. It is so “easy” to ignore the mess around you when you’re struggling , but it can definitely contribute to your mental state as well 😩 I’ve always either focused on Nothing, or Things that seem way too impossible for me. The last few weeks, I’m really focusing on getting rid of the clutter and cleaning things bit by bit. It’s been helping me emotionally, and my husband has definitely noticed. I even returned library books that were 8 months overdue! I saw you have a few more videos posted about cleaning your car and closet, so I’ll be watching now!
I feel you! Depression can be so consuming. You should be proud of what you have achieved. To some it make be a minor achievement but I know personally that even the thought of cleaning can be exhausting xx
it feels really good knowing that i’m not the only one who goes through this (and am currently going through this). that being said, this video is a great form of accountability for me to try to clean up my apartment for the sake of bettering my mental health in any way i can. thank you for giving me some motivation in a time that that’s hard to achieve :)
Your video came up on my home screen and I'm glad it did. I have gone through times in my life where my living situation looked worse than yours. I told people it was a reflection of how my mind was at that time. I was quite literally building walls up around me. I'm glad you recognize this as being depressed. A lot of people think it's just being lazy.
It's comforting in a way to know that we are all suffering in similar ways. I'm probably twice your age, and I find myself going through this more than I'd ever like. Great job powering through.
Appreciate you showing the reality of it. You showed things most would try to hide. Helps me feel more human. Depression and anxiety are not an excuse. You’re not alone ❤
GIRL we would be such good friends just based off our cleaning styles alone LOL. I have undiagnosed-but-pretty-much-everyone-knows-she-has-it ADHD and depression, and I just want to say good job for doing the damn thing! That's honestly the hardest part.Your mental health might be a reason that you're struggling right now, but it's not an "excuse." You're not lazy because if it was laziness you wouldn't care & would be content with your current reality. I've really had to dig deep and learn that over the past few years. Thank you for sharing this!! BTW You're also so pretty!
Thank you for this video! I have adhd and cptsd which resulted in anxiety and depression while still being untreated. My apartment used to look like this for a good two years (with the occasional clean up but it never would last longer than a day) before I finally managed to get therapy and meds. You’re doing great, be kind to yourself
I am so grateful that you uploaded this! I relate so much, and it makes me feel less alone, seeing that other people struggle just as badly sometimes. So, thank you!
I hope you’re in a mentally better space now. I remember being where you were and being curled up in a ball in my closet. My one sane thought at the time was calling my aunt, who was a psychologist, and asking for a therapist referral. Therapy and Celexa saved me.
love love love the realness!! I can feel your channel blowing up :) I also think the way you talk about mental health struggles without all the "pathos" like other youtubers do, is very relatable and refreshing 🌻
I’ve been here and to me worse than here and my depression made me beat myself up about it so bad. I hate to see others struggle but I’m also so glad you shared your struggles to show others like me we aren’t alone. It does get like this and not because we are disgusting or gross or whatever.
you go girl!! you got this! I can totally understand what you're going through but you will get through this. This was a great first step. keep going. watching this makes me want to get up and clean my room lol much love
First off, you’re hilarious. Second, thanks for making this video! ADHD/depression brain here and it’s comforting to know there’s ppl like me out there cause most of the time I feel like the only one whose place gets this way. Also loved how Milo took his job as project manager so seriously.
I feel ya girl. Been there, done that many times. Depression chaos is so hard to clean, u did a great job! Finally found someone feelin similar as my situation...
You’re so real for showing this dude! I hope your mental gets better girl!! You’re making strides just taking steps to make your space better! Rooting for you 🫶🏻
I'm so proud of you for cleaning your apartment!! Depression makes daily tasks insanely difficult for people who suffer (like you, me and many others) to do the tasks we need to tackle. But once we do the tasks, no matter how long it takes us to do them we feel so much better 🫶🏻 be kind to yourself when your episodes happen and your apartment gets messy, not being okay is okay even when you feel like the odds are against you. Everything will be just fine and you're doing amazing.
can I just say, thank you for being so REAL!!! saw the title to this video and subscribed before even watching. I struggle a lot with my mental health and my house is the same (if not worse) than yours. thank you for showing up for not only yourself but also helping normalize how it can be for those who are struggling. I am SO SO SO proud of you!! ❤❤❤
This video randomly showed up in my feed, and it is so relatable. Thanks for putting yourself out there. You got this. Love your kitty too. I just subscribed to your channel! 💕
You came across my recommended videos so I decided to give it a watch. I understand what depression is like and even though I’m a mother and grandmother there have been times in my life that I felt just like you. Even though you don’t know me, I’m proud of you for pushing through your depression ❤
Great job! Step 1 to taking care of yourself and your mental health ❤ I have been through periods like this and it happens sometimes. You did a great job and should be proud you lifted yourself out of it👏🏻
Great job! Step 1 to taking care of yourself and your mental health ❤ I have been through periods like this and it happens sometimes. You did a great job and should be proud you lifted yourself out of it👏🏻 also, as someone that struggles keeping my place clean too I found taking advantage of small bursts of energy is key. Whenever you are heating up food, clean up the kitchen while you wait. When you are about to sit down in the living room, tidy it up first. A small five minutes here and there will keep it clean. Or you can set a timer and do 15 min every night before you sit down for the night and just clean up everything. You’d be surprised how much can get done in that time.
you're not lazy and you most definitely are not using depression as an excuse - it's an explanation. it takes a lot out of us and on some days just finishing a day and being alive is more than enough, so please be proud of yourself, you did great cleaning your home :)
I saw you have a lint roller. I find the best tool to get cat hair off of couches and rugs is a squeegee. I have a hand held one and it's a game changer!
Proud of you, I see you, you did great. I’d look into adhd, autism neurodivergence - executive dysfunction, basic things, sensory issues with cleaning dishes etc, and also you said about your tone this can be common too. Hope this helps lots of love xxxxxx
Randomly came across this vid and so glad I did :) Great job! ❤ By the way, I struggle with depression and hate cleaning dishes too and I must say getting a countertop/portable dishwasher really, really helps! It seemed so silly/wasteful to me to get one but it's so nice to just put dirty dishes away as I go and not see them, and it gets me motivated to do other cleaning.
Whoever the guy is that broke up with your beautiful self is, he’s an idiot and we are glad to be rid of him. He didn’t deserve you and the trash took itself out. Now, onwards and UPwards! You got this!
this made me feel so normal I have a chronic illness and chronic depression which makes it hard to do much of everything even when motivated as it effects my heart joints and ofc my mental. the dishes are stacked the laundry is everywhere and everything is out and everywhere and it all feels so much and trying to clean it all at once hurts so this makes me feel a bit better with the daily struggle
This popped up on my recommended, definitely my sign to do the same today. I've been putting it off cause the last 2 weeks have been crazy. Thanks for the video
Hey girl, Just started this video to help me motivate myself to clean my space and just wanted to say when I graduated college 2 years ago I was in a very similar mental space (in addition to having life long struggles with cleaning exacerbated by ADHD). Post grad is such a hard time with no longer having routine or structure that school has provided for most people from a very young age. Super normal to be struggling and feeling this way, esp with a break up on top of that. You got this and hoping your video can help motivate me too 🥰
Within the first 2 minutes of clicking on this video, i adore you. You're doing great 💜 I also hate dishes. It helped me to get cute dishwashing gloves so that I didn't have to touch the ick
Thank you for keeping it real. I like that! New start new you! Now you can easily keep it clean.. It's only you so you just have to clean up after yourself lol easy peezy! I bet you slept so well that night.. I always sleep better in a clean house.. Actually that's my toxic trate, I live with 2 kids and a slob as a spouse and refuse to go to bed with it messy which is prob why I sleep 4 hrs a day...
So for whatever reason your video popped up on my “recommended” list. I ended up watching it and I gotta say you did a great job. It’s tough I get it but I’m betting you’ll feel better living in a clean apartment. Keep it up! 😊
I got so overwhelmed by all my stuff i had laying around i just throw them in my basement LOL. Never missed thing since, it made me realize that i didnt need that much stuff in first place but it fed into my depression ADHD rotting stage, that i never wanted to do anything because it was too much for me x.x I'm so proud of you and your apartment looks pretty cute tho!!
Hello Kins, Your a very beautiful young woman. I suffer too with anxiety and depression, it's tough, but little steps I find really help me to tackle house work and I always find the toughest part is just starting, once your own your way, I pick up the pace and I find listening to music motivates me along Kins. You should be very proud of yourself, you done a huge lot with super results, well done Kins, try and stay on top of it, little bit here and there each day, you'll feel so much better. Take care and stay safe Kins x ☺
What you can also do is clean 1 room per day before it gets bad. Like clean the bathroom immediately after you take a shower, clear the bathroom sink and pack away all your products then clean your bedroom, then the next day tuckle the living rokm and dust it, clean it up and leave it tidy. Always wash/clean as you cook that way when you're done cooking you only have pots and the plate you're eating from to wash before bed. Clean the stove, counter tops and sink before you even start eating (while yout hot food cools down, coz you shouldn't also eat very hot food as it's not good for your stomach). That way your place will always be clean. Or save up and invest in a robot vacuum so that when you're not home it can sweep and mop around for you during the day.
To help with the dishes, I have a spray bottle of dawn dish soap, isopropyl alcohol, and water handy to eliminate/prevent the smell when I need the dishes to sit awhile. It helps me a ton.
Hii so first of all i loved the video, secondly it took me until the end to realise who you reminded me of and you look soooo much like Rose Tyler from Doctor Who!
Anyone who says talking about depression is attention seeking: I used to think that way. I used to judge people when they talked about "anxiety" and "depression" because I myself couldn't comprehend why someone would want attention that badly. Until it happened to me. Diagnosed at 31 after struggling for a year most recently, but historically looking back, I know there were other times where I was depressed but in denial that that's what it was. I relate to this so much. I don't know Kinsley but I'm proud of her for showing up for herself and taking accountability because it's not easy.
@@_caitlin_ i admire your honesty! i grew up with that mentality, that anyone who claims they’re depressed or struggling mentally is just crying for attention. when i got older and started to find that i didn’t have as much energy to take care of myself as my peers did, i just deemed myself as lazy and was called lazy. I was diagnosed last year, but like you had been struggling for a bit before. my perspective had been changed on mental disorders and i post these videos to show the reality of them with no shame of it in hopes that it will motivate those who struggle as well, i want others to feel that they’re not alone. i’m sorry you can relate to my content, i know it’s hard and isolating, but i’m happy that we can share this burden! ❤️
Please I took 3 extra days off because I just got divorced last Monday and no time to process and my birthday was Saturday. My apartment is a mess. I’m just processing and taking care of myself and my space.
U can even make your own tidy tango on your tube u see the cleaning vid got u the most watched out of all your vids ppl love cleaning vids !! Good luck hun
I highly recommend getting rubber gloves for when you do the dishes. It makes the experience less awful :) it doesn't feel as gross, your hands don't have to get wet, and you can make the water a lot hotter.
Slay me personally I struggle with the same thing it's executive dysfunction it can be caused from depression anxiety mental/physical disabilities etc it is a legitimate thing but that's like what's happening but hey you are right though there's no excuse as to why to not work on that but that's probably what happened You're not alone and you did amazing cleaning your apartment
You have to control you. Think how much better you feel when you are productive and be happy and proud of your accomplishments. Take care if your environment and your environment will take care of you.
Can we start keeping it real and just calling it what it is, clean my dirty apartment with me clean my messy apartment with me people who are really depressed don't try to get attention for it
What’s the purpose in your comment? You have someone who’s completely transparent in her video in an attempt to help others and herself. Does it make you feel better to criticize another person behind the guise of a computer? Go waste your meaningless time trolling elsewhere.
pin of shame, lol
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Who shit in your cereal
Can you start not assuming you know someone else's life let alone their mental health through a computer screen? Some people need a sense of accountability in order for them to motivate themselves to do a task. For example, I used to do all my schoolwork in cafes and busy libraries. The public setting made me feel accountable to keep doing the work instead of binging UA-cam videos. Posting this video also could help someone else with a not so clean living space feel motivated to tackle it and maybe also realize they arent in a healthy mental state and get some help.
Also maybe dont click on a video you obviously dont want to watch and then post a negative comment?
I promise you, you are not using depression as an excuse. As someone who has depression, anxiety and is also autistic, I completely understand. Depression destroys your energy levels, which in turn destroys motivation. You need energy for motivation. I also understand that its hard to be nice to yourself when you feel so low. That's why you get hard on yourself. But your depression is not an excuse, you're doing brilliantly and its ok to not be ok. Please be nice to yourself x
@@samanthacassidy6377 thank you so much ❤️
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Girlfriend you helped me today. I have this bookcase 7 freaking shelves x2. I was nesting in bed and you gave push to work on it. I got 5 done.
I have depression and anxiety. I have been on meds for 30+ years.
Lately I have been stuck. Not wanting to clean. House is tidy and picked up but there is dirty. Those 5 shelves had very much dust crossed over to dingy but not gross.
I been stuck emotionally and socially. I came home pissed off at MEN. Storytime I had meet up with pretty interesting guy. Then he flipped to I need more time for grow. He am not ready to date. I am cool. We can hang out. I am able to be friends with a man without being romantic. He ghosted me. Friday fine I am going take control of what I can control. Cleaning house. My mom use to come over. Now she doesn’t so I don’t “Mom inspection”.
I am feeling better with clean house. Now I am done to deep detail cleaning. Tchotchkes cleaning. The dust I cannot see.
Dada tada to praising on you. You are doing a great job. Heart break is hell. Depression and Anxiety hard to deal with. It not like there is a blood test. There is no vaccine. It is hard work, great doctors and more hard work.
Let’s do the the test on how you are doing! Have you eaten, showered, hair clean, clean clothes on, on time to work, work hard at work. Pets have food, litter, water and loved on. Bing bango. You are kicking ass.
I hope mom and dad gifted you car detail after you cleaned out the car. You did the hard part. You got dressed. Make up. Hair combed. You could stopped there. You went out and worked on the car.
Don’t listen to those people who do not understand depression since it is like missing eye, broken arm, there are no stitches. There are lots of dumb people who are cruel and insensitive to invisible conditions.
We can no control them or the weather. What you can control is getting basics making through the day. Then add on things you can control.
Silly example. In my house 3/2 there is one trash can. I cannot stand have trash cans all over the place. So I have to walk all trash to kitchen trash. To me having one trash can I can handle more than one forget about it.
Not so silly example I am preparer. This moment my computer bag, work backpack and lunch bag are in one spot. I have set out everything I need take with me in lunch. Other stuff like car keys. Clothes are picked out. No it doesn’t look pretty on counter. You know what I have everything I need for work. I can control this.
One last thing girl friend my closet I hang up everything but sock and underwear. Folding is just too much. Towels, set of sheets in hanger, blankets, I have one hanger for multiple pairs pants you know what I have each clip shorts. Too much furniture stresses me out. Too many surfaces too much art on wall. I need physical and visual space. Dirty clothes on floor that messes with both. Dirty dishes I need the surface clear off. My house nope there are no dirty dishes in the sink on no. They move from dirty to gross. 🤮. This is what I can control. This what keeps me feeling safe and comfortable. This is not chores this is what I can control. I don’t expect others to think like me. That is their problem not me problem.
Your comment was made for me as well as the millions who silently suffer . Thank you so much for shining a light on this ♥️♥️♥️
"That's also another way of saying I give in terribly to overconsumption and I'm easily persuaded" - girl lol your sense of humor is so funny.
I randomly came across your video, and I just want to tell you how proud I am of you for being this vulnerable and working on yourself. I’m twice your age and struggle with my depression and anxiety in a similar way. This was very relatable and inspiring. I hope you’re proud of you, too.
I came to say the same! I'm 40 trying to get out of a funk and this video helped me start!!
"hey babygirl, let's focus" me to myself 1200 times a day
people on social media really only show their best selves. and their idea of a mess, is 5 dishes in the sink and a small amount of clutter around their very nice, clean, shiny living spaces. i can't relate to that at all. i relate to you because i let my dishes pile up in the sink, my clothes pile up on my bathroom floor and my cats hair get embedded in my carpet before i vacuum it once a month 😅😅 this gave me the motivation to go get my shit done so i can exist in a clean home, which we all deserve
The ability to be vulnerable to a judgement world is admirable. Great video!
Thank you for being so vulnerable! This makes me feel less alone in my own depression.
I deeply appreciate your honesty and vulnerability! I struggle with anxiety and Depression and I understand how you feel. It's like this cycle for me... I'm good for a bit and then something happens or nothing happens lol and I "fall off the wagon ". I have come to recognize that it's a chronic illness and it's normal to have relapses but never giving up and always moving forward when you can... that's a huge win! Good job! Proud of you!
Thank you for this video! I love videos like this as I try to crawl myself out of my depression and pick up the pieces again and clean up my home. It felt like I was cleaning my house with a friend ❤
Also unrelated, but if you consistently struggle with organization, it may be worth looking into ADHD. I wasn’t diagnosed until I was an adult and lived on my own, and I constantly wondered why I struggled so much with chores, organization, etc.
This was great, and I love your editing.
@@MidwestMagicCleaning well hot damn, it’s the guy they used to call Moose Seducer Johnny back in Shreveport. Kinsley- if you don’t already watch Mack then you should check him out. He is a cleaning legend and will have you giggling in the first 5 seconds
Proud of you for actually doing those dishes. A lot of times, once the ecosystem develops in it, I just throw it away
@@missclaran i’ve resorted to that quite a few times lol
@@kinsleyregan we do what we need to do lol
Your apartment is so cute! And honestly, yes it's dirty but not the worst I've ever seen. The fact that you're able to acknowledge it was your depression, and pick yourself up and do something about it instead of continuing the cycle, is very mature ❤️
Great job! Thanks for this. I am also living in a depression/adhd pit and don’t feel motivated to get up and do self care, let alone home care.
I did my dishes along side you, and felt much better about it, not being alone. ❤
You are literally SO beautiful and you *cannot* allow your ex to make you doubt yourself in any way 😢❤. He's not worth your discomfort, sending healing and positive energy your way ✨ !
I’m much older than you are and I’ve never enjoyed cleaning. I love cleanliness but abhor the process. I’ve always suffered from depression and anxiety. You are doing a great job. Mind shift. I needed to hear that. Thank you.
this felt like a breath of fresh air FR I struggle so hard with household upkeep as a young adult with depression and adhd and thank you for making me feel less alone and honestly motivating me to clean while watching this
THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!
Thank you for being human, being honest, being realistic in yourself and your expectations.
You can see the struggle is real for you and I truly appreciate it. I came across this video and honestly have NEVER felt more human than I do watching you. You don't show what you think people want to see, you show the raw truth!
I feel seen because of your video. And the raw emotion in your voice, just makes me want to give you a huge hug 🩷🩷🩷 Thank you for your openness and honesty.
Depression and anxiety are REAL & they REALLY do make a difference in our lives!
Love and strength to you. You've inspired me to try and get MY Depression house in order!
Back when I was in my late 20’s when I moved out on my own, I took care of my home to a degree. I kept up with my dishes and cleaning. I wouldn’t say my home was spotless because I didn’t grow up with a spotless home. My mom was a working homemaker.
Then something triggered/happened that I kinda let my home get away from me. I’d stop coming home after work. I’d stay and talk with a coworker. I mostly ate out. I mainly slept and ate at my apartment.
I started going to concerts. When I started my second job I worked 7 days a week so literally I had no time for myself. I then started making time for me but that looked like just staying home and laying in bed on my phone playing it.
A few years back I had a mind shift where I wanted to rearrange my pantry. I did that then I moved to my linen closet. I’d watched pantry organizing videos which led to watching cleaning videos. I’ve deep cleaned my bathroom and kitchen a few times since then. I started out small one section at a time. Even though I’ve had different phases of being depressed the last 3 years I’ve worked through it where I’m now being consistent and showing up for myself.
My mindset changed within because I didn’t just want my apartment to be just a place to sleep. I wanted it to be a home for me. Now I call my apartment my home even though I don’t call the location I live is home. I’m not originally from where I live. In January and February I let my home go. Then some time in March I was like I need to get taken care or. I showed up for myself and got moving because I was done. Since then I keep showing up and doing what I can and need to. After watching some cleaning routine videos I figured out what system I want to start. I’m on week two and it’s going good for me. I created a cleaning routine for me.
What has helped me before starting my routine was writing done a few tasks a week/day on my bathroom mirror. I stick with 3 or 4 no more than 6 or I don’t get to them. My goal would to accomplish 3 not all of them.
You have a cute apartment! Please don't beat yourself up. We all have times when we feel depressed. You are doing wonderful! ❤
Waiting so long to fold and put away clean clothes, that you forget what's clean and what's dirty is totally my life. Kudos for taking care of urself.
I am amazed at how you balanced on the side of the tub! Thanks for the video, I am glad that I am not the only one that hates doing dishes and lets them pile up in grossness.
@@kellymcrae3836 i’m not even sure why i squatted like that 😭 released my inner spider-man
i wanted to take the time to say how proud i am of you. i know how your environment reflects how your doing mentally. all i wanted to do was give a big hug. even before you expressed what your going through. i know how you feel and i’m glad you were able to take that step and make your space free of all those things that were weighing you down. i know it won’t solve everything but it’s progress in the right direction. i can’t wait to what you post next. much love. ❤
@@moody0613 this made me tear up, thank you so much for your kind words! i’m so happy you took the time to watch my video and leave a comment, i can’t give you a hug in real life so i’ll give you a virtual one instead ❤️ comments like your give me so much motivation
You should be proud, that was a lot. Moving forward make it easier on yourself by putting away as you go thru the day so it’s a little task instead of overwhelming. Good luck on your journey . Showing the vulnerable side of ourselves is not easy, you are brave and you got this!
Tips for a dusty shower! As a self employed cleaner.. clean it and then use the shower to wash away all the dust rather than trying to wipe it all up, way more effective and quicker. Can always buff it over with a fresh cloth to get rid of water marks 😊 well done for getting this done!
I'm so proud of you! Cleaning can be a lot on a person struggling with depression and I completely understand how terrible it feels to not only be in a very low mood/mindset but also an unclean environment. Try to not be hard on yourself during this time, you're doing an amazing job and I hope you continue to challenge your struggles and take care of yourself!!!
I know this was posted 4 months ago, but I genuinely want to applaud you for this video 👏❤️ this takes a lot of courage to get out of a slump, especially with the emotionally draining things you were going through during this time. I can relate so much to this. My house is an absolute wreck, to the point where I don’t let anyone in (It’s practically a hoarder house 😂) thank you for giving me the motivation to clean my own home and for taking care of yourself too! 💕 I know this helped so many others as well!
I don’t know how your video randomly came across my feed, but I’m glad it did! I struggle with severe anxiety and depression. It is so “easy” to ignore the mess around you when you’re struggling , but it can definitely contribute to your mental state as well 😩 I’ve always either focused on Nothing, or Things that seem way too impossible for me. The last few weeks, I’m really focusing on getting rid of the clutter and cleaning things bit by bit. It’s been helping me emotionally, and my husband has definitely noticed. I even returned library books that were 8 months overdue! I saw you have a few more videos posted about cleaning your car and closet, so I’ll be watching now!
I feel you! Depression can be so consuming. You should be proud of what you have achieved. To some it make be a minor achievement but I know personally that even the thought of cleaning can be exhausting xx
it feels really good knowing that i’m not the only one who goes through this (and am currently going through this). that being said, this video is a great form of accountability for me to try to clean up my apartment for the sake of bettering my mental health in any way i can. thank you for giving me some motivation in a time that that’s hard to achieve :)
you deserve to live in a clean space ❤️ i’m so happy my video could give you some motivation :) i’m proud of you
Your video came up on my home screen and I'm glad it did. I have gone through times in my life where my living situation looked worse than yours. I told people it was a reflection of how my mind was at that time. I was quite literally building walls up around me. I'm glad you recognize this as being depressed. A lot of people think it's just being lazy.
It's comforting in a way to know that we are all suffering in similar ways. I'm probably twice your age, and I find myself going through this more than I'd ever like. Great job powering through.
Appreciate you showing the reality of it. You showed things most would try to hide. Helps me feel more human.
Depression and anxiety are not an excuse. You’re not alone ❤
First off I am so proud of you! You’re not alone and I really appreciate how real you are. Thank you. This genuinely motivated me to clean my room ❤
thank you!! i’m so happy i was able to motivate you!!! you can do it
GIRL we would be such good friends just based off our cleaning styles alone LOL. I have undiagnosed-but-pretty-much-everyone-knows-she-has-it ADHD and depression, and I just want to say good job for doing the damn thing! That's honestly the hardest part.Your mental health might be a reason that you're struggling right now, but it's not an "excuse." You're not lazy because if it was laziness you wouldn't care & would be content with your current reality. I've really had to dig deep and learn that over the past few years. Thank you for sharing this!!
BTW You're also so pretty!
Thank you for this video! I have adhd and cptsd which resulted in anxiety and depression while still being untreated. My apartment used to look like this for a good two years (with the occasional clean up but it never would last longer than a day) before I finally managed to get therapy and meds.
You’re doing great, be kind to yourself
I am so grateful that you uploaded this! I relate so much, and it makes me feel less alone, seeing that other people struggle just as badly sometimes. So, thank you!
I hope you’re in a mentally better space now. I remember being where you were and being curled up in a ball in my closet. My one sane thought at the time was calling my aunt, who was a psychologist, and asking for a therapist referral. Therapy and Celexa saved me.
I must say you have a lovely home and well done for showing us how it looked before and after it was brave of you
love love love the realness!! I can feel your channel blowing up :) I also think the way you talk about mental health struggles without all the "pathos" like other youtubers do, is very relatable and refreshing 🌻
I just happen to come across you & I love you already. You seem real, cussing & what not & not trying to be “perfect” ! Giving me inspiration!
I’ve been here and to me worse than here and my depression made me beat myself up about it so bad. I hate to see others struggle but I’m also so glad you shared your struggles to show others like me we aren’t alone. It does get like this and not because we are disgusting or gross or whatever.
you go girl!! you got this! I can totally understand what you're going through but you will get through this. This was a great first step. keep going. watching this makes me want to get up and clean my room lol much love
First off, you’re hilarious. Second, thanks for making this video! ADHD/depression brain here and it’s comforting to know there’s ppl like me out there cause most of the time I feel like the only one whose place gets this way. Also loved how Milo took his job as project manager so seriously.
haha thank you! milo is the best in his field honestly
I'm so proud of you for pushing through 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 I hope you reward yourself! That's what I do 😊❤
I feel ya girl. Been there, done that many times. Depression chaos is so hard to clean, u did a great job! Finally found someone feelin similar as my situation...
You’re so real for showing this dude! I hope your mental gets better girl!! You’re making strides just taking steps to make your space better! Rooting for you 🫶🏻
You did a wonderful job! I’m very proud of you.
I'm so proud of you for cleaning your apartment!! Depression makes daily tasks insanely difficult for people who suffer (like you, me and many others) to do the tasks we need to tackle. But once we do the tasks, no matter how long it takes us to do them we feel so much better 🫶🏻 be kind to yourself when your episodes happen and your apartment gets messy, not being okay is okay even when you feel like the odds are against you. Everything will be just fine and you're doing amazing.
can I just say, thank you for being so REAL!!! saw the title to this video and subscribed before even watching. I struggle a lot with my mental health and my house is the same (if not worse) than yours. thank you for showing up for not only yourself but also helping normalize how it can be for those who are struggling. I am SO SO SO proud of you!! ❤❤❤
@@nutz13_ THANK YOU SO MUCH ❤️❤️❤️
This video randomly showed up in my feed, and it is so relatable. Thanks for putting yourself out there. You got this. Love your kitty too. I just subscribed to your channel! 💕
You came across my recommended videos so I decided to give it a watch. I understand what depression is like and even though I’m a mother and grandmother there have been times in my life that I felt just like you. Even though you don’t know me, I’m proud of you for pushing through your depression ❤
Great job! Step 1 to taking care of yourself and your mental health ❤ I have been through periods like this and it happens sometimes. You did a great job and should be proud you lifted yourself out of it👏🏻
Great job! Step 1 to taking care of yourself and your mental health ❤ I have been through periods like this and it happens sometimes. You did a great job and should be proud you lifted yourself out of it👏🏻 also, as someone that struggles keeping my place clean too I found taking advantage of small bursts of energy is key. Whenever you are heating up food, clean up the kitchen while you wait. When you are about to sit down in the living room, tidy it up first. A small five minutes here and there will keep it clean. Or you can set a timer and do 15 min every night before you sit down for the night and just clean up everything. You’d be surprised how much can get done in that time.
@@randomlyjessie9689 i’ll start implementing that into my days! thank you so much for your kind words and your suggestions!!
you're not lazy and you most definitely are not using depression as an excuse - it's an explanation. it takes a lot out of us and on some days just finishing a day and being alive is more than enough, so please be proud of yourself, you did great cleaning your home :)
I saw you have a lint roller. I find the best tool to get cat hair off of couches and rugs is a squeegee. I have a hand held one and it's a game changer!
You’re so pretty!! This was great motivation for me today, love seeing people be real! ❤️
Proud of you, I see you, you did great. I’d look into adhd, autism neurodivergence - executive dysfunction, basic things, sensory issues with cleaning dishes etc, and also you said about your tone this can be common too. Hope this helps lots of love xxxxxx
Randomly came across this vid and so glad I did :) Great job! ❤
By the way, I struggle with depression and hate cleaning dishes too and I must say getting a countertop/portable dishwasher really, really helps! It seemed so silly/wasteful to me to get one but it's so nice to just put dirty dishes away as I go and not see them, and it gets me motivated to do other cleaning.
Also, I got a robovac/mop and same thing applies. It's a big expense but automating is cheaper than other coping mechanisms, for me 😆
Whoever the guy is that broke up with your beautiful self is, he’s an idiot and we are glad to be rid of him. He didn’t deserve you and the trash took itself out. Now, onwards and UPwards! You got this!
this made me feel so normal I have a chronic illness and chronic depression which makes it hard to do much of everything even when motivated as it effects my heart joints and ofc my mental. the dishes are stacked the laundry is everywhere and everything is out and everywhere and it all feels so much and trying to clean it all at once hurts so this makes me feel a bit better with the daily struggle
Keep rocking girl, I’m proud of you.
It gets better, I promise ❤
This popped up on my recommended, definitely my sign to do the same today. I've been putting it off cause the last 2 weeks have been crazy. Thanks for the video
Hey girl,
Just started this video to help me motivate myself to clean my space and just wanted to say when I graduated college 2 years ago I was in a very similar mental space (in addition to having life long struggles with cleaning exacerbated by ADHD). Post grad is such a hard time with no longer having routine or structure that school has provided for most people from a very young age. Super normal to be struggling and feeling this way, esp with a break up on top of that. You got this and hoping your video can help motivate me too 🥰
the squatting on the bathtub is so relatable
Within the first 2 minutes of clicking on this video, i adore you. You're doing great 💜
I also hate dishes. It helped me to get cute dishwashing gloves so that I didn't have to touch the ick
@@sarahluczyk thank you so much!!! omg cute dishwashing gloves i didn’t even think about that, brb gonna go buy some you’ve convinced me!
Good stuff Kinsley! Inspiring me to clean my apartment… tomorrow
you can do it!! 😼
truly the best feeling in the world. helps the mind soooo much. also, love the card lol
this is so relatable, i love it! 🫶🏼
@@emilyconway9104 i love u 😍🥰
@@kinsleyreganugh pink trash bags
@@carterkedrowicz4666 they’re cute aren’t they
@@kinsleyregan the texture feels weird especially on the pink ones I bet they feel weird on your soft hands too
@@carterkedrowicz4666 sure!
Thank you for keeping it real. I like that! New start new you! Now you can easily keep it clean.. It's only you so you just have to clean up after yourself lol easy peezy! I bet you slept so well that night.. I always sleep better in a clean house.. Actually that's my toxic trate, I live with 2 kids and a slob as a spouse and refuse to go to bed with it messy which is prob why I sleep 4 hrs a day...
I just came across this and I'm in love with the brutal honesty here. Please make more! Also, you go guuurl!
So for whatever reason your video popped up on my “recommended” list. I ended up watching it and I gotta say you did a great job. It’s tough I get it but I’m betting you’ll feel better living in a clean apartment. Keep it up! 😊
You have a lovely home 🏡❤ Keep up the tidying habit, even if it's just 5-10min a day. I can absolutely relate.
You’re hilarious 😂
Your use of humour to describe the trauma is great!! ❤ very relatable
That was such a good video, I love how honest you were and it’s relatable. I think it’s just hard to do sometimes ❤
thank you for sharing
I’m proud of you too!
Great work on a big job!
I got so overwhelmed by all my stuff i had laying around i just throw them in my basement LOL. Never missed thing since, it made me realize that i didnt need that much stuff in first place but it fed into my depression ADHD rotting stage, that i never wanted to do anything because it was too much for me x.x
I'm so proud of you and your apartment looks pretty cute tho!!
Hello Kins, Your a very beautiful young woman. I suffer too with anxiety and depression, it's tough, but little steps I find really help me to tackle house work and I always find the toughest part is just starting, once your own your way, I pick up the pace and I find listening to music motivates me along Kins. You should be very proud of yourself, you done a huge lot with super results, well done Kins, try and stay on top of it, little bit here and there each day, you'll feel so much better. Take care and stay safe Kins x ☺
What you can also do is clean 1 room per day before it gets bad.
Like clean the bathroom immediately after you take a shower, clear the bathroom sink and pack away all your products then clean your bedroom, then the next day tuckle the living rokm and dust it, clean it up and leave it tidy.
Always wash/clean as you cook that way when you're done cooking you only have pots and the plate you're eating from to wash before bed.
Clean the stove, counter tops and sink before you even start eating (while yout hot food cools down, coz you shouldn't also eat very hot food as it's not good for your stomach).
That way your place will always be clean.
Or save up and invest in a robot vacuum so that when you're not home it can sweep and mop around for you during the day.
Love Milo overseeing everything 😂
I love relatable videos like this!
I can see the pain in your eyes.. you are loved and Not alone ❤
To help with the dishes, I have a spray bottle of dawn dish soap, isopropyl alcohol, and water handy to eliminate/prevent the smell when I need the dishes to sit awhile. It helps me a ton.
Love the dark humour😅 You are loved and all will be well. Trust me ❤ Sending Love and hope all the way from RSA ❤❤❤
I hope you do more of these! I loved it
Thank you for this realistic video
@@ausrinextwilight thank you for your sweet comment! being realistic helps me connect with others ❤️
New subbie. Really enjoyed. Proud of you. Sending hugs.
So proud of you! You got this girl ❤
You dod a great job! 👍 You have a cute apt. Your kitty Milo is so adorable. I have a silver Chinchilla Persian kitty named Milo..❤️🥰
milo gang 😼😼
Hii so first of all i loved the video, secondly it took me until the end to realise who you reminded me of and you look soooo much like Rose Tyler from Doctor Who!
Anyone who says talking about depression is attention seeking: I used to think that way. I used to judge people when they talked about "anxiety" and "depression" because I myself couldn't comprehend why someone would want attention that badly. Until it happened to me. Diagnosed at 31 after struggling for a year most recently, but historically looking back, I know there were other times where I was depressed but in denial that that's what it was. I relate to this so much. I don't know Kinsley but I'm proud of her for showing up for herself and taking accountability because it's not easy.
@@_caitlin_ i admire your honesty! i grew up with that mentality, that anyone who claims they’re depressed or struggling mentally is just crying for attention. when i got older and started to find that i didn’t have as much energy to take care of myself as my peers did, i just deemed myself as lazy and was called lazy. I was diagnosed last year, but like you had been struggling for a bit before. my perspective had been changed on mental disorders and i post these videos to show the reality of them with no shame of it in hopes that it will motivate those who struggle as well, i want others to feel that they’re not alone. i’m sorry you can relate to my content, i know it’s hard and isolating, but i’m happy that we can share this burden! ❤️
So proud of you, thanks for the inspiration. ❤
You’re doing amazing! ✨❤️
Great job 👏 keep going one step at a time 👍🏼
Please I took 3 extra days off because I just got divorced last Monday and no time to process and my birthday was Saturday. My apartment is a mess. I’m just processing and taking care of myself and my space.
this was so entertaining. please make more!
U can even make your own tidy tango on your tube u see the cleaning vid got u the most watched out of all your vids ppl love cleaning vids !! Good luck hun
I highly recommend getting rubber gloves for when you do the dishes. It makes the experience less awful :) it doesn't feel as gross, your hands don't have to get wet, and you can make the water a lot hotter.
Slay me personally I struggle with the same thing it's executive dysfunction it can be caused from depression anxiety mental/physical disabilities etc it is a legitimate thing but that's like what's happening but hey you are right though there's no excuse as to why to not work on that but that's probably what happened You're not alone and you did amazing cleaning your apartment
You have to control you. Think how much better you feel when you are productive and be happy and proud of your accomplishments. Take care if your environment and your environment will take care of you.