My father, eight years old, answered a knock on the door one morning to greet the local priest. The pastor told him that his dad, my grandfather, was killed by the train whilst saving a rabbit. It had only been a few years since he had returned from the war. My father was fourteen when he was digging through his mothers drawers and stumbled upon the obituary chronicling his fathers suicide. This video makes me think of that story in a way… my own pocket of midwest lunacy.
the lofi ASMR sounds of your AC unit or heating unit in the background turning on and off periodically to give it sonic layering was sooooo incredible. please more ASMR videos your lofi style is wonderful
Played this right before bed and it was so calming. At some point during your reading of the newspaper excerpts, I remembered that we’re all just stories in the end- to be told and retold, spread through gossip, media, or through reminiscence of the past. These excerpts don’t capture the full scope of those people’s lived experiences. A woman’s profound struggle with faith is simply reduced to “religious insanity”. You just know there had to be so much more to her (and everyone else’s) story. When you hear a boiled-down version of what happened, your imagination is left to fill in the gaps (which honestly kind of reminds me of some the narrative elements of Hayden’s music). I really enjoyed this! Hope there are more readings to come :)
Oh my, this was so tingly and good. The tapping at the beginning, the sounds of your whispering are so calming. Thank you for sharing with us. I appreciate you so much. As a chronic ASMR listener, you nailed it. You really nailed it.
as a wisconsin native, i thoroughly enjoyed hearing you pronounce all the town names correctly :) i’ve never heard of this book before but will definitely be getting it and checking out the movie too! thank you for sharing
This was such an interesting 2 am listen and I'm definitely going to check out this book. These sort of epidemics of "madness" are so very interesting to me, especially as they correlate with harsh periods in history. I hadn't heard of Black River Falls (likely because I'm from Europe) so thank you for this excerpt and the recommendation. I also loved your little tangent on history and how a truly reliable narrator doesn't exists. It's been something that's been on my mind as well and I've been exploring it a lot in my writing lately. In my opinion there is no way for us as humans to find objective truth. How I experience a moment might (and likely will) greatly differ from how you experience it, which again will be different from the way an onlooker does. There is no real objectivity since our perception is always tinted by life experiences, personal biases and out general outook and view on life. The interesting thing to me is that this doesn't make our recollections less true, it just means that truth is a subjective thing in a way. I guess the objective truth would be an amalgamation of all these threads, analyzed to distill only the parts that are not tinged by anything at all, or rather including the nuances that come with the core events. And there is the difficulty with history. Even though historians do their best to be objective (I hope!) there is always something that gets lost. Often it's the fact that not all the voices are heard and history for the most part doesn't consider the voices on the margins at all. Which are also often the ones bearing the brunt of historical events. Another interesting thought is how even just communicating your version of the truth to others dilutes it already. Because conveying every little nuance and emotion, the whole context that informed your perception is next to impossible. Bringing it back to history, the more often a story gets retold, the more it dilutes since it will always be recounted with the narrator's own perception of it. I hope you enjoy the essay, sorry for the long ass comment, I had a lot of thoughts. I'll leave you with a little anecdote on the fact of historical people always being so serious. After my grandma died, I got to look through her old photo albums from when she was younger and there were so many hilarious pictures in there. My favourite was the one where they covered my grandpa in beer cans when he was the first to fall asleep at a party. It's a little more recent history, but honestly, people were always silly and that makes me very happy.
Okay, I have more thoughts. This whole thing of mania as a response to trauma reminds me of the Maenads from Greek and Roman History/Mythology. In the stories, Dionysos would curse the women from cities that opposed him to become his frenzied followers. But going back to the thing with the unreliable narrator, what if that is just the chosen narrative? I find it much more intriguing to imagine women taking to the woods in a frenzy to escape their life and exist solely for pleasure.
This comment is great!! Like you said, it's so hard to really take a step back and remember that events from the past are not the objective truth. It's so easy to read about something, or digest some form of recollection of the past and take it as a 1:1 retelling and move on. When you stop to think about all the extra bits that never made it into the history books, or the parts that weren't ever recorded, it can become jaring just how much of history is potentially lost to time, affecting everyones perception of the world we came from.
@@captsharkman7615 Exactly! I do find it interesting to see though, how humanity will constantly reevaluate events to get a little closer to the truth. Interesting because one one hand we are starting to consider more sources, leading to a more complete picture. But on the other hand we are applying our own lense again, rooted in the world we currently live in. And like you said, so much can never be discovered, because there is simply no surviving record. Also: thank you for reading my little essay and enjoying it!
Objective v. subjective communication has been heavy on my mind lately too!! For sure relevant when thinking of history, though to add to it, it can have such as impact just on daily interactions. I find myself trying to be as objective and honest as I can, yet it does seem to require unraveling all parts of the big idea, and the nuance of balancing and making it known when you’re being subjective. Like saying “in my experience/interpretation” or “to me” since we all essentially have our own reality. This is the best way I can think of to try and avoid verbal projections onto others. And, I STILL DO IT 😅😅 no one will be free from projections bc we all have egos. For example, historically would more quickly assume someone either is like me about something or the complete opposite than think to ask. And I think we all hate getting put into boxes when someone says “you are ____” when we know it’s not WHO we inherently feel we are. It seems to depend on a person’s level of self-awareness and willingness to face truths about themselves, whether they can truly free themselves from the influence of others, learn to self-regulate when triggered or when anxieties are high in order to respond instead of react :) just my 2 cents
@@creatrix_child Oh absolutely! I find myself in a similar position often, trying to be mindful of my biases but of course not always succeeding. I've also noticed that I'm trying to give as much context as possible which makes conversations a little long-winded on my part. But how could I leave things out that might help you understand the situation more thoroughly? It's hard to figure out what matters in that sense. I also don't quite believe that we can truly free yourself from the influence of others because humans are in the end social creatures (and I say that as someone who is very solitary). But it doesn't have to be a bad thing. Like, this thread is going to influence me in some way, thinking about this from different angles, and I think that is a good thing. I've been reading about Trans-Individualism lately, which is the theory of humans being inseperable from their surroundings, maybe that influenced my thinking here. Anywho, thank you for sharing! People interacting with my thoughts makes me so happy and I love getting to rethink my own opinions.
Mother Ethel, I recently came across your music and I must say that you have touched my soul. Lately I have been going through the darkest episodes of my life, but, whenever I listen to you I feel that things will be all right someday. Thank you for your light. 💞⭐
She is not in fact your mother. Also, not sure why you think listening to the depression fuel music she makes is somehow helping you out of a depression but to each their own I guess.
please post more asmr, i dont know if you read these comments but i had no idea how i was going to fall asleep tonight and seeing this instantly calmed me down. also your whispering voice is so relaxing.
I’ve listened to preachers daughter everyday since it came out and it never fails to give me chills. Not to mention every previous project you’ve done. You’re a lyrical genius and your music genuinely lights my soul on fire in the most beautiful way imaginable. The fact we are graced with an asmr video from you has already made my year. The only thing on earth that has comforted me as much as your music is asmr. 🥹 You’re an Angel. Thank you so much for sharing your art with the world, it needs it. 🤍
This era of history is so interesting! The idea that history was just beginning to be commemorated through snap shots was such a mystic and new thing, so much so that it was able to capture such integral and interesting moments with sincerity and clarity. The Midwest is such an interesting canvas to illustrate during this time as well. The spread of disease that indeed twisted the natural order of things paired with the deep embedded religious fear of the unknown made for masses of “deranged,” grieving, guilty, afraid, unwell, and more that made it such an eerie and complex time. Would love to hear some songs with your thoughts on it!
This feels like I’m at a middle school slumber party and Hayden won’t go to sleep and keeps me awake by telling me about this book and honestly I’m here for it and will thoroughly enjoy it
obsessed with the idea of the woman, mentioned around 28:10, who just hated her neighbour so much that she mailed a hate letter to her and got fined for it? honestly good for her
0/10 don't recommend. I did this when I was young and newly flatting and our neighbour had a bunch of fertilizer dumped in her garden on a sweltering day. The smell of shit filled our entire house. I immediately regretted it the next day when she came door to door with her baby apologizing profusely to all surrounding neighbours because she was away and the workers she'd hired had done it sooner than planned so they had no chance to warn people. Yeah I felt pretty bad. Learned my lesson.
This is the type of content I like to watch and would like to someday make. Until now I never really saw anyone go through their favorite books or explain how they experience music (like you do) on UA-cam before. So thanks for being you!
Something about how articles from this time period and how things are described invoke a sense of conjuring. Like these souls are somehow still there waiting to be conjured, waiting to be set free if even possible.
i’m not going to lie, i was doing homework when i turned this video on and i got completely sucked in and forgot i had homework lmao. this book sounds super interesting. i love historical stuff and i’m also a big fan of the late 1800s-early 1900s. such an interesting time period and a lot happening culturally, socially, and politically to talk about. i also grew up reading little house on the prairie, anne of green gables, little women, and so many other books, it made me gain an interest in learning more about that time period. and i have a morbid interest in learning about various historical disasters and crises so that aspect also got me hooked in. i feel unexplainably sad thinking about people from back then and remembering they were people just like us. maybe because there were so many people who lost their lives when today, those deaths could’ve been preventable, maybe just because we’re all destined to be part of the history books someday and we don’t think about it much because we’re alive right now. btw hayden, you did great at asmr! i’d totally listen to more videos like this, very chill and calming but also informative at the same time. since you said you liked reading long comments, i thought i’d give my thoughts on the video. enjoy your downtime and looking forward to see what you do next on your channel!
I must request more whispered vids because I keep coming back to this one. Who knew mitskis cool name was so tingly. Your voice is so comforting and relaxing, I am an arms fiend and I can recognize your talent for it.
Ever since I discovered this video i’ve been looking forward to watching it every single night you have no idea. I have been waiting for this moment ALL DAY.
i don't know why but i really like the feeling this video gave me. history can so easily be shrugged off as just a story but hearing you read these excerpts in such a calming way combined with the white noise of the room kinda makes the reality of the stories stand out more. it was so calming and so unsettling at the same time. i love your fascination and appreciation of american history. thank you for sharing your passion about it with us, mother
Wisconsin has so much dark history. I lived in rural wi my whole life up until now and this oddly makes me miss all my favorite places. One place I spent a lot of time was the Walnut Grove Cemetery in Glenbeulah. St. Nazianz was also a favorite. The town was founded by a priest who came from the Black Forest in Germany and was known to be a healer. When he died I guess his body never decomposed and he has a mausoleum at the back of the property there. I’ve always wanted to see it but I never could work up the nerve to go out there since it’s considered “private property.” I live in Seattle now and there’s definitely a lot to do and see out here but it doesn’t really feel the same.
this is such an interesting book, thanks for introducing it to us. definitely gonna have to read it. it’s crazy to think that all these people were the same as us, they just lived in a different era. any of us could have ended up being the woman holding the dead baby walking down the street, hopeless and alone. it’s all just circumstance
Being actually delirious is one of the scariest things i experienced. I didnt even know the things i was experiencing and thinking were delusions. I thought it was completely normal. Literally had no idea how much i was disconnected from reality
I would actually really enjoy another one of your ‘ASMR’ videos; this was so relaxing. And I just love this setup of this video; from Hayden sitting down in the dim lit room, whisper reading to us, to the muffled, booming noises coming from the floor upstairs, from her neighbors, to what sounded like to me to be a thunderous train going by or the AC going off
I find that your tone of voice and the way you pronounce certain words is very calming, not to mention the fact that the literature you choose is always so ethereal. Amazing work! One suggestion would be to read ‘The Yellow Wallpaper’ by Charlotte Perkins Gilman.
These videos going over art and concepts you have a passion for are beautiful. I've enjoyed each one that has come out so far, and this one is certainly no different. Thank you for continuing to share all of this with us!
anemia can lead to slow organ failure but venofer infusions resolved mine when nothing else worked. life changing. nettles also help build up the blood. thank you for this soft reading
this reminded me a lot of the asmr artist SouthernASMR sounds with the lofi set up (a creator I feel like you’d really like) her library and reading videos are soooo wonderful and she always picks really interesting reads
after your video on the ring theory i knew your asmr would be heavenly. this video is amazing, it truly relaxed me, and the book sounds super interesting
When I was in elementary school I only did projects about Louisa may alcott and tuberculosis bc I was just so fascinated by the way people lived in that time period. Whenever i see pictures from that time especially of places I've been to I get like ASMR tingles.
i found this video equally fasinating and troubling to watch. the details of "farmers" "farmer's wi(ves)" and "railway workers" really struck me as so distinctly jarring -the ways in which manual workers are, i think, in the general cultural conciousness treated and thought of as one homogenised male body is indeed jarred by the uniqueness of their deaths. there is something very tragic about that distinctiveness, i think, especially the anonymous hanged "railway worker." the earned individuality and local celebrity is only in that final act. thanks for this hayden, i will be getting this book come payday!
the fact i was just talking about wishing that hayden would make a video doing *asmr*, i’m a native wisconsinite, this movie happens to be released on my birthday (but not same year), and going through a ethel cain obsession rn is just insane
This reminds me of some of the stuff i learned when i visited the Fall River historical museum in Massachusetts. I mainly went for the Lizzie Borden display but they had a lot of things like this
how a person so bearing, made of thick and flesh, on earth holds so many emotions and memories of the past, ideas of the future, all a being like a different dimension to explore, past the hidden walls of their mind and the expression created tangible or intelligible, the beauty of their walk and how their walk acted out by their limbs reassures their here, how their limbs got them to this moment and how they’re standing in front of you after the many things they’d gone through, the dark nights through the forest, surviving the creepy neighbors, the gunshots, the rapist at the corner of the gas station or the woman mourning the loss of her child. Led you up to here. My goodness, who are you…
This is so funny to me because for whatever reason I’ve been listening to Wisconsin death trip by static x on repeat for the last week. And you even mentioned it here lol. Anyway love u !
everything you make speaks to such a kindred place in my soul i love that people so far away from each other can have such similar experience no matter the time or place. your music has impacted my life in such a healing way. best wishes for your break mother
God, Hayden, you're scaring us with talk of anemia and paralysis. I used to experience numbness in my arm easily when I was a teenager after sleeping in a bad position. It's often due to deficiencies in vitamins, minerals (magnesium, potassium, iron, zinc...), fatty acids (omega-3 fish oils, crucial for the brain and nerves), and vitamin D. It disappeared later on. Check with a good doctor who specializes in nutrition to ensure you have everything needed to nourish your nerves. It often takes about 6 months of supplementation to regain balance. Take care of yourself! We love you.
I love getting your book recommendations. I read "knockemstiff," and I want to read "Wisconsen Death Trip" as well. (I hated knockemstiff, but im glad i read it). It's comforting to know that theres a community for those who like the dark and macabre. I love fiction, historical fiction, and history of the horrifying sort. I'm inspired to study the turn of the 20th century in American history now. Please keep this type of videos going ! If you like pulp horror magazines from that time, it would make me literally levitate and explode with happiness if you did a video about them.
I’m definitely gonna have to read Wisconsin Death Trip as I have always loved history especially history about people that I can in some ways relate to even though they lived such a long time ago. Also I lived in Wisconsin for 8 years and the history of Wisconsin is so interesting
Wisconsin death trip sounds very interesting. I was feeling very bed raggled" today💤 just couldn't get out of bed so I rolled over put some headphones on and started listening. Started some coffee and couldn't stop listing. I love ASMR very much, your whispers fill me with fascination and comfort. You are a great story teller & ASMRtist. Thank you Hayden.☕❤️🔥🌌
woah, i am definitely going to have to locate a copy of this book to read. some of these stories made my hair stand on end. bizarrely the flat manner in which these accounts are written make it a thousand times creepier to me?? lol i’m a huge chicken though. also i made the most excited squealing noise when i saw that you made an asmr video!! asmr is one of my special interests and you are one of my all time favorite artists. this feels almost too good to be true. i love your whisper voice and the swallow sounds after some sentences. i feel like i’m being read a story by a nice school teacher 😂 i hope you do more asmr vids! this was such a delightfully weird mixture of comforting but horrifying to me haha
i’ve lived here my entire life and am only now discovering this piece of literature. from firsthand experience being from a town smaller than black river, there is more than a necessary amount of questionable spiritual entities that live deep in the soil.
I’ve been watching ASMR for ten years, and this video brought back some memories of the videos I used to watch back in 2014. And I’ll definitely search for this book here in Brazil! Thank you for this, Hayden. ✨ - …come to Brazil, please.🙏🏻
Hi Hayden...idk if you will see this or not, but i just wanted to say, your album Preacher's Daughter as well as the rest of your music has really helped me cope this year. Please do continue to move people of this world with the rest of your wonderful art and music...Know you are loved by all of your fans , and have a happy New Year :) 💙 love from California! (Oh, and btw...GREAT video you have here! I love this book.) ❤
"i was recommended this book by mitski" PAUSE.
WAIT WHAT😭😭
I need to go smoke a J before starting this vid
Truly the most fun sentence
@@bunnyfrosting1744me if i didn’t throw my cart in the trash
MITSKI X ETHEL COLLAB WHEN??
we got ethel cain asmr before gta 6
💀💀
Hello anan
@@dublin1necstasy oil up
Hayden: children being killed before their parents, throats being cut, fires being set
Me: 😌😴💤🕯 honk shoo
Never thought you would be doing ASMR, this was such a thoughtful gift for us
You take that XS picture of Rina Sawayayaa off right now, SIR.
My father, eight years old, answered a knock on the door one morning to greet the local priest. The pastor told him that his dad, my grandfather, was killed by the train whilst saving a rabbit. It had only been a few years since he had returned from the war. My father was fourteen when he was digging through his mothers drawers and stumbled upon the obituary chronicling his fathers suicide.
This video makes me think of that story in a way… my own pocket of midwest lunacy.
Wow
This actually gave me chills..
Did you write that or is it from somewhere? I’d love to read more!
ethel cain doing asmr with a book recommended by mitski omg that is just iconic
this cured my insomnia and ended world hunger. thank you so much
firebug like an angel
from music, to art discussions, to asmr. she literally does it all
Petition for Hayden to read a book for audible ❤
audible supports israel! it’s a boot!
I hope when she publishes her first book on Ethel Cain she does the narration ❤️
the lofi ASMR sounds of your AC unit or heating unit in the background turning on and off periodically to give it sonic layering was sooooo incredible. please more ASMR videos your lofi style is wonderful
Ethel cain Asmr book readings is something i didnt know i needed
40:15 i speak for all of us when i say that we would love to hear more
hear hear!! ✨🫶
Played this right before bed and it was so calming. At some point during your reading of the newspaper excerpts, I remembered that we’re all just stories in the end- to be told and retold, spread through gossip, media, or through reminiscence of the past. These excerpts don’t capture the full scope of those people’s lived experiences. A woman’s profound struggle with faith is simply reduced to “religious insanity”. You just know there had to be so much more to her (and everyone else’s) story. When you hear a boiled-down version of what happened, your imagination is left to fill in the gaps (which honestly kind of reminds me of some the narrative elements of Hayden’s music). I really enjoyed this! Hope there are more readings to come :)
I love the thought that we are all just stories to be told that never quite capture us in our entirety.
ethel cain asmr was something i didn’t know i was yearning for until it was gifted to me and i could not be more grateful
Oh my, this was so tingly and good. The tapping at the beginning, the sounds of your whispering are so calming. Thank you for sharing with us. I appreciate you so much. As a chronic ASMR listener, you nailed it. You really nailed it.
as a wisconsin native, i thoroughly enjoyed hearing you pronounce all the town names correctly :) i’ve never heard of this book before but will definitely be getting it and checking out the movie too! thank you for sharing
ethel + asmr is everything i could’ve wished for
This was such an interesting 2 am listen and I'm definitely going to check out this book. These sort of epidemics of "madness" are so very interesting to me, especially as they correlate with harsh periods in history. I hadn't heard of Black River Falls (likely because I'm from Europe) so thank you for this excerpt and the recommendation.
I also loved your little tangent on history and how a truly reliable narrator doesn't exists. It's been something that's been on my mind as well and I've been exploring it a lot in my writing lately.
In my opinion there is no way for us as humans to find objective truth. How I experience a moment might (and likely will) greatly differ from how you experience it, which again will be different from the way an onlooker does. There is no real objectivity since our perception is always tinted by life experiences, personal biases and out general outook and view on life. The interesting thing to me is that this doesn't make our recollections less true, it just means that truth is a subjective thing in a way. I guess the objective truth would be an amalgamation of all these threads, analyzed to distill only the parts that are not tinged by anything at all, or rather including the nuances that come with the core events.
And there is the difficulty with history. Even though historians do their best to be objective (I hope!) there is always something that gets lost. Often it's the fact that not all the voices are heard and history for the most part doesn't consider the voices on the margins at all. Which are also often the ones bearing the brunt of historical events.
Another interesting thought is how even just communicating your version of the truth to others dilutes it already. Because conveying every little nuance and emotion, the whole context that informed your perception is next to impossible. Bringing it back to history, the more often a story gets retold, the more it dilutes since it will always be recounted with the narrator's own perception of it.
I hope you enjoy the essay, sorry for the long ass comment, I had a lot of thoughts.
I'll leave you with a little anecdote on the fact of historical people always being so serious. After my grandma died, I got to look through her old photo albums from when she was younger and there were so many hilarious pictures in there. My favourite was the one where they covered my grandpa in beer cans when he was the first to fall asleep at a party. It's a little more recent history, but honestly, people were always silly and that makes me very happy.
Okay, I have more thoughts. This whole thing of mania as a response to trauma reminds me of the Maenads from Greek and Roman History/Mythology. In the stories, Dionysos would curse the women from cities that opposed him to become his frenzied followers. But going back to the thing with the unreliable narrator, what if that is just the chosen narrative? I find it much more intriguing to imagine women taking to the woods in a frenzy to escape their life and exist solely for pleasure.
This comment is great!! Like you said, it's so hard to really take a step back and remember that events from the past are not the objective truth. It's so easy to read about something, or digest some form of recollection of the past and take it as a 1:1 retelling and move on. When you stop to think about all the extra bits that never made it into the history books, or the parts that weren't ever recorded, it can become jaring just how much of history is potentially lost to time, affecting everyones perception of the world we came from.
@@captsharkman7615 Exactly! I do find it interesting to see though, how humanity will constantly reevaluate events to get a little closer to the truth. Interesting because one one hand we are starting to consider more sources, leading to a more complete picture. But on the other hand we are applying our own lense again, rooted in the world we currently live in. And like you said, so much can never be discovered, because there is simply no surviving record.
Also: thank you for reading my little essay and enjoying it!
Objective v. subjective communication has been heavy on my mind lately too!! For sure relevant when thinking of history, though to add to it, it can have such as impact just on daily interactions. I find myself trying to be as objective and honest as I can, yet it does seem to require unraveling all parts of the big idea, and the nuance of balancing and making it known when you’re being subjective. Like saying “in my experience/interpretation” or “to me” since we all essentially have our own reality. This is the best way I can think of to try and avoid verbal projections onto others. And, I STILL DO IT 😅😅 no one will be free from projections bc we all have egos. For example, historically would more quickly assume someone either is like me about something or the complete opposite than think to ask. And I think we all hate getting put into boxes when someone says “you are ____” when we know it’s not WHO we inherently feel we are. It seems to depend on a person’s level of self-awareness and willingness to face truths about themselves, whether they can truly free themselves from the influence of others, learn to self-regulate when triggered or when anxieties are high in order to respond instead of react :) just my 2 cents
@@creatrix_child Oh absolutely! I find myself in a similar position often, trying to be mindful of my biases but of course not always succeeding. I've also noticed that I'm trying to give as much context as possible which makes conversations a little long-winded on my part. But how could I leave things out that might help you understand the situation more thoroughly? It's hard to figure out what matters in that sense.
I also don't quite believe that we can truly free yourself from the influence of others because humans are in the end social creatures (and I say that as someone who is very solitary). But it doesn't have to be a bad thing. Like, this thread is going to influence me in some way, thinking about this from different angles, and I think that is a good thing. I've been reading about Trans-Individualism lately, which is the theory of humans being inseperable from their surroundings, maybe that influenced my thinking here.
Anywho, thank you for sharing! People interacting with my thoughts makes me so happy and I love getting to rethink my own opinions.
I love you Hayden, I hope you’re doing good❤ enjoying your art a lot 🫶🏻
Mother Ethel, I recently came across your music and I must say that you have touched my soul.
Lately I have been going through the darkest episodes of my life, but, whenever I listen to you I feel that things will be all right someday.
Thank you for your light. 💞⭐
Music is such a beautiful escape and can truly help us through the toughest of times. I hope things get better for you, sending you light and love! ❤️
She is not in fact your mother.
Also, not sure why you think listening to the depression fuel music she makes is somehow helping you out of a depression but to each their own I guess.
@@jordanallen3078why the fuck are you even here?
@@jordanallen3078what’s your problem dude? calm down and let people enjoy things
@@aaronstevens5325 I am everywhere.
Calm down, chihuahua.
please post more asmr, i dont know if you read these comments but i had no idea how i was going to fall asleep tonight and seeing this instantly calmed me down. also your whispering voice is so relaxing.
please do more whispered readings your voice is so soothing oh my god
I’ve listened to preachers daughter everyday since it came out and it never fails to give me chills. Not to mention every previous project you’ve done. You’re a lyrical genius and your music genuinely lights my soul on fire in the most beautiful way imaginable. The fact we are graced with an asmr video from you has already made my year. The only thing on earth that has comforted me as much as your music is asmr. 🥹 You’re an Angel. Thank you so much for sharing your art with the world, it needs it. 🤍
This era of history is so interesting! The idea that history was just beginning to be commemorated through snap shots was such a mystic and new thing, so much so that it was able to capture such integral and interesting moments with sincerity and clarity. The Midwest is such an interesting canvas to illustrate during this time as well. The spread of disease that indeed twisted the natural order of things paired with the deep embedded religious fear of the unknown made for masses of “deranged,” grieving, guilty, afraid, unwell, and more that made it such an eerie and complex time. Would love to hear some songs with your thoughts on it!
I didn't know it but Hayden doing book asmr is just what I needed today
This feels like I’m at a middle school slumber party and Hayden won’t go to sleep and keeps me awake by telling me about this book and honestly I’m here for it and will thoroughly enjoy it
“i was recommended this book by mitski” 😭😭 haydennn i knew u were gonna become a legend
obsessed with the idea of the woman, mentioned around 28:10, who just hated her neighbour so much that she mailed a hate letter to her and got fined for it? honestly good for her
Weirdo behavior
0/10 don't recommend. I did this when I was young and newly flatting and our neighbour had a bunch of fertilizer dumped in her garden on a sweltering day. The smell of shit filled our entire house. I immediately regretted it the next day when she came door to door with her baby apologizing profusely to all surrounding neighbours because she was away and the workers she'd hired had done it sooner than planned so they had no chance to warn people. Yeah I felt pretty bad. Learned my lesson.
This is the type of content I like to watch and would like to someday make. Until now I never really saw anyone go through their favorite books or explain how they experience music (like you do) on UA-cam before. So thanks for being you!
Something about how articles from this time period and how things are described invoke a sense of conjuring. Like these souls are somehow still there waiting to be conjured, waiting to be set free if even possible.
i’m not going to lie, i was doing homework when i turned this video on and i got completely sucked in and forgot i had homework lmao. this book sounds super interesting. i love historical stuff and i’m also a big fan of the late 1800s-early 1900s. such an interesting time period and a lot happening culturally, socially, and politically to talk about. i also grew up reading little house on the prairie, anne of green gables, little women, and so many other books, it made me gain an interest in learning more about that time period. and i have a morbid interest in learning about various historical disasters and crises so that aspect also got me hooked in.
i feel unexplainably sad thinking about people from back then and remembering they were people just like us. maybe because there were so many people who lost their lives when today, those deaths could’ve been preventable, maybe just because we’re all destined to be part of the history books someday and we don’t think about it much because we’re alive right now.
btw hayden, you did great at asmr! i’d totally listen to more videos like this, very chill and calming but also informative at the same time. since you said you liked reading long comments, i thought i’d give my thoughts on the video. enjoy your downtime and looking forward to see what you do next on your channel!
This ASMR is so casual and so authentic, it doesn’t feel like ur trying to whisper it feels like this is just how u talk it’s so peaceful
Dead serious, you should totally do another asmr video. Your voice put all my senses at ease, I feel renewed.
So relaxing and calming. Hope you’re doing well :) love your art
I must request more whispered vids because I keep coming back to this one. Who knew mitskis cool name was so tingly. Your voice is so comforting and relaxing, I am an arms fiend and I can recognize your talent for it.
34:13 that’s like when I’m reading doctor’s notes about my appointments. Also like reading psych evaluations.
the only asmr video to never fail me, if i can’t sleep i put this on and i never make it past 10 minutes
Ever since I discovered this video i’ve been looking forward to watching it every single night you have no idea. I have been waiting for this moment ALL DAY.
i don't know why but i really like the feeling this video gave me. history can so easily be shrugged off as just a story but hearing you read these excerpts in such a calming way combined with the white noise of the room kinda makes the reality of the stories stand out more. it was so calming and so unsettling at the same time. i love your fascination and appreciation of american history. thank you for sharing your passion about it with us, mother
i sat here, ordered and ate fried chicken and watched this entire video and I think it was my spiritual awakening.
these types of videos are legitimately so chill and comforting !!! thank you hayden :D
i don’t even have words. i’ll be listening to this every night for the rest of my life to fall asleep, till she makes a new one. 😂
Wisconsin has so much dark history. I lived in rural wi my whole life up until now and this oddly makes me miss all my favorite places. One place I spent a lot of time was the Walnut Grove Cemetery in Glenbeulah. St. Nazianz was also a favorite. The town was founded by a priest who came from the Black Forest in Germany and was known to be a healer. When he died I guess his body never decomposed and he has a mausoleum at the back of the property there. I’ve always wanted to see it but I never could work up the nerve to go out there since it’s considered “private property.” I live in Seattle now and there’s definitely a lot to do and see out here but it doesn’t really feel the same.
this is such an interesting book, thanks for introducing it to us. definitely gonna have to read it. it’s crazy to think that all these people were the same as us, they just lived in a different era. any of us could have ended up being the woman holding the dead baby walking down the street, hopeless and alone. it’s all just circumstance
Everything you do is so hauntingly beautiful💕💕
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i haven’t been able to sleep properly in weeks, this is so relaxing
Being actually delirious is one of the scariest things i experienced. I didnt even know the things i was experiencing and thinking were delusions. I thought it was completely normal. Literally had no idea how much i was disconnected from reality
My cat slowly drifted off to sleep while listening to this with me❤
I grew up in Wisconsin and when I heard of this book and the story of Black River Falls, I was NOT surprised.
I would actually really enjoy another one of your ‘ASMR’ videos; this was so relaxing.
And I just love this setup of this video; from Hayden sitting down in the dim lit room, whisper reading to us, to the muffled, booming noises coming from the floor upstairs, from her neighbors, to what sounded like to me to be a thunderous train going by or the AC going off
I find that your tone of voice and the way you pronounce certain words is very calming, not to mention the fact that the literature you choose is always so ethereal. Amazing work! One suggestion would be to read ‘The Yellow Wallpaper’ by Charlotte Perkins Gilman.
hayden you’ve always had the coziest, most welcoming presence!! i think it’d be awesome if you did more casual whispering videos like this!!
These videos going over art and concepts you have a passion for are beautiful. I've enjoyed each one that has come out so far, and this one is certainly no different. Thank you for continuing to share all of this with us!
You’ve changed my life for the better and have inspired me forever. You’re an angel ❤
anemia can lead to slow organ failure but venofer infusions resolved mine when nothing else worked. life changing. nettles also help build up the blood. thank you for this soft reading
this reminded me a lot of the asmr artist SouthernASMR sounds with the lofi set up (a creator I feel like you’d really like) her library and reading videos are soooo wonderful and she always picks really interesting reads
after your video on the ring theory i knew your asmr would be heavenly. this video is amazing, it truly relaxed me, and the book sounds super interesting
Pleaseeee do more of this!! Your voice is so calming. I love your music and this is just so beautiful too.
Hayden asmr??? This is everything i ever needed
When I was in elementary school I only did projects about Louisa may alcott and tuberculosis bc I was just so fascinated by the way people lived in that time period. Whenever i see pictures from that time especially of places I've been to I get like ASMR tingles.
oh i already know im watching this every night to sleep... you surprised everyone by becoming an asmr legend
i found this video equally fasinating and troubling to watch. the details of "farmers" "farmer's wi(ves)" and "railway workers" really struck me as so distinctly jarring -the ways in which manual workers are, i think, in the general cultural conciousness treated and thought of as one homogenised male body is indeed jarred by the uniqueness of their deaths. there is something very tragic about that distinctiveness, i think, especially the anonymous hanged "railway worker." the earned individuality and local celebrity is only in that final act.
thanks for this hayden, i will be getting this book come payday!
the fact i was just talking about wishing that hayden would make a video doing *asmr*, i’m a native wisconsinite, this movie happens to be released on my birthday (but not same year), and going through a ethel cain obsession rn is just insane
Speaking for all, thank you Mother Cain. 🖤
00:16 Yes Möther I'm listening
Had a hard day and this made me feel so light and peaceful for the first time in a while
This was so calming and strangely comforting
This reminds me of some of the stuff i learned when i visited the Fall River historical museum in Massachusetts. I mainly went for the Lizzie Borden display but they had a lot of things like this
yesss pls more asmr videos i love your music and your asmr is truly top notch, your voice is truly beautiful
how a person so bearing, made of thick and flesh, on earth holds so many emotions and memories of the past, ideas of the future, all a being like a different dimension to explore, past the hidden walls of their mind and the expression created tangible or intelligible, the beauty of their walk and how their walk acted out by their limbs reassures their here, how their limbs got them to this moment and how they’re standing in front of you after the many things they’d gone through, the dark nights through the forest, surviving the creepy neighbors, the gunshots, the rapist at the corner of the gas station or the woman mourning the loss of her child. Led you up to here. My goodness, who are you…
oml I thought I was the only one that adored or had even heard of this book I'm gonna cry
This brings me so much comfort
i hope one day she does a video or makes a post of all or some of her favorite books. very excited to watch this! 🩶
This is so funny to me because for whatever reason I’ve been listening to Wisconsin death trip by static x on repeat for the last week. And you even mentioned it here lol. Anyway love u !
videos on this channel are always so soothing- and are the BEST to work/draw to. such excellent background
I LOVE your art Ethel Cain, thank you forever for sharing! ♥️
everything you make speaks to such a kindred place in my soul i love that people so far away from each other can have such similar experience no matter the time or place. your music has impacted my life in such a healing way. best wishes for your break mother
i'm watching this every night, i think by the end of the month i'll know all the words of this vid, fr
God, Hayden, you're scaring us with talk of anemia and paralysis. I used to experience numbness in my arm easily when I was a teenager after sleeping in a bad position. It's often due to deficiencies in vitamins, minerals (magnesium, potassium, iron, zinc...), fatty acids (omega-3 fish oils, crucial for the brain and nerves), and vitamin D. It disappeared later on. Check with a good doctor who specializes in nutrition to ensure you have everything needed to nourish your nerves. It often takes about 6 months of supplementation to regain balance. Take care of yourself! We love you.
didn't expect ASMR from hayden but im happy it exists hope to here more excerpts if you like doing them
I love getting your book recommendations. I read "knockemstiff," and I want to read "Wisconsen Death Trip" as well. (I hated knockemstiff, but im glad i read it). It's comforting to know that theres a community for those who like the dark and macabre. I love fiction, historical fiction, and history of the horrifying sort. I'm inspired to study the turn of the 20th century in American history now. Please keep this type of videos going ! If you like pulp horror magazines from that time, it would make me literally levitate and explode with happiness if you did a video about them.
I’m definitely gonna have to read Wisconsin Death Trip as I have always loved history especially history about people that I can in some ways relate to even though they lived such a long time ago. Also I lived in Wisconsin for 8 years and the history of Wisconsin is so interesting
Wisconsin death trip sounds very interesting. I was feeling very bed raggled" today💤 just couldn't get out of bed so I rolled over put some headphones on and started listening. Started some coffee and couldn't stop listing. I love ASMR very much, your whispers fill me with fascination and comfort. You are a great story teller & ASMRtist. Thank you Hayden.☕❤️🔥🌌
hayden doing asmr. couldn’t be more ecstatic
it's 1 am where i live so this is perfect timing :) ily hayden
it’s so enriching to see you talk about things you’re passionate about, it inspires me to do the same. also i very much need a copy of this book now.
This was something I never knew I needed, but I am so glad it exists.
please ive been watching this to sleep every night since release i need more
this is about to be the best 40 minutes of my life
wake up babe, hayden dropped an asmr bedtime story
woah, i am definitely going to have to locate a copy of this book to read. some of these stories made my hair stand on end. bizarrely the flat manner in which these accounts are written make it a thousand times creepier to me?? lol i’m a huge chicken though.
also i made the most excited squealing noise when i saw that you made an asmr video!! asmr is one of my special interests and you are one of my all time favorite artists. this feels almost too good to be true. i love your whisper voice and the swallow sounds after some sentences. i feel like i’m being read a story by a nice school teacher 😂 i hope you do more asmr vids! this was such a delightfully weird mixture of comforting but horrifying to me haha
i’ve lived here my entire life and am only now discovering this piece of literature. from firsthand experience being from a town smaller than black river, there is more than a necessary amount of questionable spiritual entities that live deep in the soil.
I was just about to comment that me and a friend started to put together all the super dark shit that’s happened in Wisconsin.
I’ve been watching ASMR for ten years, and this video brought back some memories of the videos I used to watch back in 2014. And I’ll definitely search for this book here in Brazil! Thank you for this, Hayden. ✨
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…come to Brazil, please.🙏🏻
Hi Hayden...idk if you will see this or not, but i just wanted to say, your album Preacher's Daughter as well as the rest of your music has really helped me cope this year. Please do continue to move people of this world with the rest of your wonderful art and music...Know you are loved by all of your fans , and have a happy New Year :) 💙 love from California! (Oh, and btw...GREAT video you have here! I love this book.) ❤
I'm recuperating from Covid, which feels like the ideal circumstances to listen to this. So soothing...
my favorite big sister sneaking into my room past our bedtime to read a bed time story circa 1927 by the candlelight
I really needed this, your whispers are so relaxing omgg
thank you hayden, truly. you are such a comforting presence ♥︎
sobbing, crying, screaming, i love you sm. i can finally sleep now thanks to you girl xx 🤭🫶🏼