this just feels so cozy and warm, i hope you know how loved you are by all of the children of cain. please post more content like this!! love you forever meemaw
@GreenMayoMan69_ its very much daughters of cain. Daughters, in this regard, is inclusive of everyone. I go by he/him pronouns, but consider myself a daughter of cain...I get wanting to feel part of the fanbase, but the name is definitly inclusive. Daughters of Cain is for everyone! Children just doesnt hit the same :((
Hi Ethel, I'm really happy you like the work of Beskinski! He's from Poland (my home country). Just a small correction referring to what you said: he didn't fight in war, he was born in 1929 so he was 7-16 years old when the war happened. He was a boy during WWII and lived most of his life during the communist era in Poland, and the atmosphere of that time might be reflected in some of his paintings. It's important to know that he always insisted he doesn't use symbolism in his work and the things he paints don't have any "hidden meaning" behind them. He was initially an engineer, then a photographer and later taught himself to paint when he was around 30. If you ever visit Poland you can see his works in museum in Sanok(his birthplace) or in Warsaw (Muzeum Archidiecezji Warszawskiej).
thank you for the insight Alex, I have always loved the overwhelmingly foreboding feeling of beskinski and it's interesting to hear that he was purely expression himself without any focus on a specific theme
listening to people infodump about things they're passionate about is so comforting. :) will be listening to this while i hang up some thrifted picture frames!
Pro tip on the any Mexican soda or Cola. Put it in the freezer for 20 minutes. Part of the end gets slushy and frosty. It's sooo good. Also, could be the reason you like Mexican Cola more than regular is because they use sugar cane natural sugar. So it's made a bit differently.
43:43 i really like this part about being surrounded by scary creatures that don't pay attention to you as being scarier! i feel like as a person who has been very isolated from/rejected by my peers for a long part of my life, it would have been almost preferable for my peers to bully me rather than ignore me? because at least if they were directly giving me a hard time, i would have a goal or a way to escape it or fight against it or whatever, but you can't punch away loneliness. when you grow up and think back about it, it feels really hard to resolve, in a way, because you can't really blame them for not being interested in you. there's no clear enemy to "blame", there's just you and all this time you had to spend alone. i just thought it was a very interesting perspective about how feeling invisible could be represented through art (:
@chadwagoner7056 screaming over you replying to seemingly every single comment telling people they're just begging for attention or calling then stupid or whatever....... baby look in the mirror
Hearing Ethel speak about her dream was truly fascinating, it actually quite reminded my of a dream I once had despite the similarities being liminal. I've always loved talking about dreams but it's difficult because I've never really met someone that thinks the same way.
This was unintended ASMR. I did art the entire time while listening to you talk about artists that interested you. I love the way you explain how and why things mean to you. I really hope you post more video like this.
Something about this feels so extremely comforting and warm. No pressure to present a certain way, no formalities, just existence. Thank you for introducing me to the world of art in a simplistic, easy way to comprehend~ much love meemaw 💜
The anime of the 80s and 90s just have a sort of ambience the modern kind doesn’t. Some that make me feel that ambient feeling is Cowboy Bepop and Serial Experiments Lain. Something about it was different, and like the works and lines were more personal, in a way? I don’t know, but it’s not like those of today, where everything feels more crisp and vibrant.
The 2000s also had some good stuff going for it with the likes of ergo proxy, texhnolyze, and boogiepop phantom, but that has been lost over the 2010s and I wonder if that could even exist now. It would've been wonderful if dorohedoro had gotten an anime adaptation earlier so it could've had an older look to match its already dark visuals that the recent anime doesn't. It's too clean.
@@mirroredhour yeah the 2000s is honestly my favorite era of anime! Fooly Cooly is one that comes to mind when i think of that stylized, kind of gritty animation
I must live under rock! As a 53 year old mother....my teen daughter's just introduced me to Ethel Cain music and I am HOOKED. To read some bio info and find this video :-) This momma over here is one proud momma that my girls musical taste are amazing. She may never read this but Ethel your helping saving a part of my soul that I tucked away, suppressed and tried running from. Thank you.
@@chadwagoner7056 if you don't like the band or my comment you could have kept scrolling. It costs zero dollars and zero cents to mind your own damn business 🙄
I was so excited when you pulled out the Beksiński collection, his work is just so interesting to look at. You might enjoy Leonora Carrington's art too. Her work is considered surrealist although I don't believe she ever considered herself to be a surrealist painter during her life. I can't find a source for that but I was deep into her work in highschool and remember hearing it somewhere. She's my absolute favorite artist of all time, her work is so fascinating. I think it's definitely in the realm of alien and otherworldly type stuff. So incredible.
your description of being in a place where everything is frightening, but nothing is out to get you, resonates with me deeply. there's a lot of emptiness in that.
This is the type of content I'd love to see a part 2 of, seriously. I find myself coming back to this video all the time cause it's so fascinating and low-key relaxing and the fact that it all implies a second part is leaving us hanging lol Whenever you get the time it'd be really cool to follow up on this cause I'm so invested!
if you get the chance you should definitely visit rothkos chapel in houston. extremely haunting, it's his last works before he passed. it's completely free to the public, and a lot of people go there to process death or emotions in a visceral way.
All I want is for all my favorite artists to be this candid. I know I’m not entitled to it, but it is such a treat seeing into the raw inspirations behind the music. Love you, praise you, Ethel Cain
Scorn is such a good game, the whole atmosphere and melancholy of it just blew me away and left me in shreds for days afterwards... every single still from the videogame is a work of art.
I haven’t posted a yt comment in years but just listening to you describe art you care about has inspired me so much and I’ve actually picked up my paint brush for the first time in a long time. You are truly such a gift to the earth. 💖💖💖
Glad you're able to by art books for the artists you see on tumblr 😊. I love sharing that stuff, but don't have the money to buy art books or photography books so I try to collect/upload the ones I can find on my account.
The pop of blue color in Beksińskis work is said to be a reference to the blue hue the Zyklon B left in the gaschambers. Don't qoute me on that one, but I saw it in a videoessay about his work. Truly an amazing artist.
It’s interesting as well that a lot of this art is from a perspective that makes it seem so much larger than life, a low perspective that allows the subject matter to kind of swallow you, makes you feel small in the grand scheme of the universe. I love it Ethel thank you for sharing with us!
Beksiński was from poland (my country 🦅🦅🦅🦅) and i love his paintings too. I love that they're untitled and up to your complete interpretation and im planning to get one of them tattooed soon. he was one of the best artists of his generation and he's greatly loved and missed
I’m absolutely interested on the Anime Architecture book you showed. I’m just as picky with my anime series, and one of my favorite series is Revolutionary Girl Utena. The architecture is mind-blowing, especially in the movie “Adolescense of Utena”. It’s super dreamy and surreal, maybe you know it already, otherwise I really recommend it!
you really just have an ominous noise in ur house all the time huh 😭😭
I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST ME
OH MY GOD YOU PINNED MY COMMENT
Anyone else think it kinda sounds like the ambience from Five Nights at Freddy's? Anyways ily meemaw
Lynchian youtube sketchbook tour
i think the song in the background (if thats what ur talking abt) is an ambient song she wrote
i love this its like my cool big sister finally let me in her room
I was abt to comment something just like this lol
no bc this is exactly how it feels
yess
NO YOU ACTUALLY RIGHT
literally
never seen an artist so connected and willing to share their interests like this, we really appreciate it
it's amazing honestly, this world needs this
Beg for attention
@@chadwagoner7056 ??? It was a genuine compliment i dont care if she see it or not what do you mean by this
What a day to be an Ethel Cain fan and an art major
Same fr
Literally
SAME!!
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Mothers voice is like ASMR. So soothing. So excited to watch this.
The ambiance track really fits the nightmarish art work discussions.
Imagine if Ethel Cain did horror ambiance tracks too, would die. Literally.
housofpsychoticwomn?
The ambient track IS Ethel Cain. Omg
This is so pathetic. You beg for your shot at being acknowledged.
i think that dark ambience soundscapes is already an essential part of her work.
she's so wellspoken and sounds so calm and relaxing..... can't believe she wrote ptolomaea
imo she’s exactly the kind of woman that WOULD write a song like Ptolemaea and I absolutely adore that about her
@@tshypooooo no wait i see the vision you're absolutely right
pTolemy is a Biblical character you obviously know little about. Go to your Google search before you answer so you look so idiotic.
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@@jennab.6723 get a grip
If she made a podcast id be listening to it all day
zdzisław beksiński being on this list makes so much sense. both his work and ethel's discography is so so hauntingly beautiful.
Are, not is. Get a reality check
@@chadwagoner7056 just a grammar issue.
her liking beksiński is so correct
“It’s one thing to be hurt but it’s another thing to be hurt and forgotten” Ethel you kill me i love you
I read this comment at the exact moment it was said.
this just feels so cozy and warm, i hope you know how loved you are by all of the children of cain. please post more content like this!! love you forever meemaw
YES
@GreenMayoMan69_ perfect! just made a correction
@GreenMayoMan69_ its very much daughters of cain. Daughters, in this regard, is inclusive of everyone. I go by he/him pronouns, but consider myself a daughter of cain...I get wanting to feel part of the fanbase, but the name is definitly inclusive. Daughters of Cain is for everyone! Children just doesnt hit the same :((
@@tobygurd8752nigga what
Hi Ethel, I'm really happy you like the work of Beskinski! He's from Poland (my home country). Just a small correction referring to what you said: he didn't fight in war, he was born in 1929 so he was 7-16 years old when the war happened. He was a boy during WWII and lived most of his life during the communist era in Poland, and the atmosphere of that time might be reflected in some of his paintings. It's important to know that he always insisted he doesn't use symbolism in his work and the things he paints don't have any "hidden meaning" behind them. He was initially an engineer, then a photographer and later taught himself to paint when he was around 30. If you ever visit Poland you can see his works in museum in Sanok(his birthplace) or in Warsaw (Muzeum Archidiecezji Warszawskiej).
oh interesting, thank you!! i must have read something wrong haha. i very much hope to visit poland someday, i’d love to see his works in person :’)
@@mothercain COME TO POLAND PLEASEEE ♥️♥️♥️
thank you for the insight Alex, I have always loved the overwhelmingly foreboding feeling of beskinski and it's interesting to hear that he was purely expression himself without any focus on a specific theme
listening to people infodump about things they're passionate about is so comforting. :) will be listening to this while i hang up some thrifted picture frames!
Find your own life
@@chadwagoner7056I think you need to heed your own advice bro 😭😭😭
@@chadwagoner7056teenagers ruin everything my god
I love seeing this side of an artist. The haunting dark themes all come together
UGH!
same
artist..hmm
“Sometimes i just do k*tamine and just lie in bed and read” i love her
Thats not cute yall are weird
Mind ur business
Timestamp?
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Her sentence goes on and on but her train of thought never break. Her intuition is quite strong.
Glad you have such a connection with others. Rolling eyes.
literally what are you doing when you reply to several comments with this obnoxious tone, leave loser@@chadwagoner7056
It’s the “hurt & forgotten” that draws me to abandon & liminal places it’s speaks to my innermost self
Pro tip on the any Mexican soda or Cola. Put it in the freezer for 20 minutes. Part of the end gets slushy and frosty. It's sooo good. Also, could be the reason you like Mexican Cola more than regular is because they use sugar cane natural sugar. So it's made a bit differently.
that natural sugar cane makes all the difference
Could we please get more of these? You taste in art is so good I’d love to see your book, music, movie, and video game collection!
I need to hear her talk more about anime tbh
Video Game???? UGH. This is ... I give up
@@chadwagoner7056 yes video games???? She literally has a whole ass stack of them behind her???? Are you ok????
Ignore him! This Chad guy had posted several comments just complaint about other people’s comments. I don’t know why he’s here!
43:43 i really like this part about being surrounded by scary creatures that don't pay attention to you as being scarier! i feel like as a person who has been very isolated from/rejected by my peers for a long part of my life, it would have been almost preferable for my peers to bully me rather than ignore me? because at least if they were directly giving me a hard time, i would have a goal or a way to escape it or fight against it or whatever, but you can't punch away loneliness. when you grow up and think back about it, it feels really hard to resolve, in a way, because you can't really blame them for not being interested in you. there's no clear enemy to "blame", there's just you and all this time you had to spend alone. i just thought it was a very interesting perspective about how feeling invisible could be represented through art (:
i wish i had a mind like hers, she gets me in a way i never saw, but she manages to amplify those thoughts and deepen in a beautiful way
Ethel not only is your music beautiful but you’re so magnetic to watch and your art education is phenomenal
She stated clearly that she had no education in art. Cling-on
@@chadwagoner7056education can be self taught and she is in fact educating people? ur so annoying
@chadwagoner7056 screaming over you replying to seemingly every single comment telling people they're just begging for attention or calling then stupid or whatever....... baby look in the mirror
Needed proof that all this relentless pain is worth it, and you delivered fruitfully
Begger
We love you!!! We need a Preacher’s Daughter vinyl!!!
Fucking clingy
Hearing Ethel speak about her dream was truly fascinating, it actually quite reminded my of a dream I once had despite the similarities being liminal. I've always loved talking about dreams but it's difficult because I've never really met someone that thinks the same way.
I love how you’re sharing us more of what you like and what you’re interests are in art and paintings. You feel like such a sweet girl Hayden.
this is so soothing, I love hearing people talk about the things they love!
This was unintended ASMR. I did art the entire time while listening to you talk about artists that interested you. I love the way you explain how and why things mean to you. I really hope you post more video like this.
Find yourself
@@chadwagoner7056i'm about to find myself up your mothers ASS
It's always intresting to see an artist pick apart and let you in on things they're into.
Something about this feels so extremely comforting and warm. No pressure to present a certain way, no formalities, just existence. Thank you for introducing me to the world of art in a simplistic, easy way to comprehend~ much love meemaw 💜
a video game collection vid would be so fun I d love to see what games inspire you and formed your storytelling!
I just threw up a little.
Huh??@@chadwagoner7056
The anime of the 80s and 90s just have a sort of ambience the modern kind doesn’t. Some that make me feel that ambient feeling is Cowboy Bepop and Serial Experiments Lain. Something about it was different, and like the works and lines were more personal, in a way? I don’t know, but it’s not like those of today, where everything feels more crisp and vibrant.
The 2000s also had some good stuff going for it with the likes of ergo proxy, texhnolyze, and boogiepop phantom, but that has been lost over the 2010s and I wonder if that could even exist now. It would've been wonderful if dorohedoro had gotten an anime adaptation earlier so it could've had an older look to match its already dark visuals that the recent anime doesn't. It's too clean.
@@mirroredhour yeah the 2000s is honestly my favorite era of anime! Fooly Cooly is one that comes to mind when i think of that stylized, kind of gritty animation
I must live under rock! As a 53 year old mother....my teen daughter's just introduced me to Ethel Cain music and I am HOOKED. To read some bio info and find this video :-) This momma over here is one proud momma that my girls musical taste are amazing. She may never read this but Ethel your helping saving a part of my soul that I tucked away, suppressed and tried running from. Thank you.
I love hearing how you describe things, particularly your fears and nightmares.
I majored in art history but since leaving uni I haven't met many people that talk about art so thanks❤
her voice is so calming and nice
I probably wouldn't understand most of what she's saying but this is so relaxing and it's Hayden talking passionately about books and art. ❤
Listening to you and Ghost has given me the inspiration and the push I needed to start writing again
Yessss ! Write that book !!! Release your written world unto the earth for all to sink their teeth into ♥️
Ghost?! I JUST explained why Ghost is the 2020 KISS. Pathetic.
@@chadwagoner7056 if you don't like the band or my comment you could have kept scrolling. It costs zero dollars and zero cents to mind your own damn business 🙄
Isn’t Ghost Satanic tho
I was so excited when you pulled out the Beksiński collection, his work is just so interesting to look at. You might enjoy Leonora Carrington's art too. Her work is considered surrealist although I don't believe she ever considered herself to be a surrealist painter during her life. I can't find a source for that but I was deep into her work in highschool and remember hearing it somewhere. She's my absolute favorite artist of all time, her work is so fascinating. I think it's definitely in the realm of alien and otherworldly type stuff. So incredible.
your description of being in a place where everything is frightening, but nothing is out to get you, resonates with me deeply. there's a lot of emptiness in that.
these types of videos are so comforting to me and the fact that it’s hayden makes it so much better
your thoughts on horror are so interesting. it's like you explained thoughts+feelings that I didn't even know I had
WE NEED A DVD/ VHS TOUR PLEASE
Just ran into her Music and it’s some of the best stuff I’ve heard in recent memory. This woman is mesmerizing in every way.
I love this video so much, an artist talking about art in a different medium and seeing how that parallels her artistic expression is so cool!
You are truly an icon! I hope in the future you will preform at award shows!! You deserve all of the awards❤️❤️
you have a very advanced sense of the through lines that weave all these different artists together. Thank you for the recommendations meemaw ❤
This is the type of content I'd love to see a part 2 of, seriously. I find myself coming back to this video all the time cause it's so fascinating and low-key relaxing and the fact that it all implies a second part is leaving us hanging lol
Whenever you get the time it'd be really cool to follow up on this cause I'm so invested!
Ethel is the epitome of an angel on earth. Such a sweet soul
love getting these intimate glimpses into your room and mind!! thank you so much for sharing 🫶
I’ve genuinely never felt more connected to an artist in my life. Thank you for being you.
if you get the chance you should definitely visit rothkos chapel in houston. extremely haunting, it's his last works before he passed. it's completely free to the public, and a lot of people go there to process death or emotions in a visceral way.
she is so full of knowledge and good taste, I hope she knows how special she is :(
I didn't know I needed a video of ethel showing us her art books
ahh anime architecture is one of my fav coffee table books i own i flip thru her weekly
Perfect thing to end my day with. Feels good to see you after so long. Love you mother!
you are so right on about the connection between sadness and horror, it's attachment that causes both.
All I want is for all my favorite artists to be this candid. I know I’m not entitled to it, but it is such a treat seeing into the raw inspirations behind the music. Love you, praise you, Ethel Cain
literally jumped on outta fear of deletion so quickly!!
literal unintentional asmr queen
that Beksiński box set oh my god i need it
Christina's World inspired an iconic shot from a late 80's horror movie called Bad Dreams. It's worth a watch if you've never seen it.
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Knowing you exist is reassuring.
Scorn is such a good game, the whole atmosphere and melancholy of it just blew me away and left me in shreds for days afterwards... every single still from the videogame is a work of art.
there’s something so soothing about her
I love Scorn. That game just lives in my head at all times. It’s so surreal it’s like a playable nightmare.
Please do yourself a favoand get yourself a Marsona 1200a analog sound generation device.
just ordered one, maybe i’ll make a review video when it comes in 😱
@@mothercain Js saw the video 😭😭
the background reminds me so much of my grandparents house, especially the huge shelf of dvd's (in the best way possible of course)
I could listen to you for hours its like finally someone with a ruminative mind I love you so so much
hi Ethel, love the way you pronounced Zdzisław Beksiński, btw come to Poland to visit his museum and play a concert here
Bless you for putting me on to Andrew Wyeth, I love his work. I can’t really put into words what his pieces make me feel, it’s magical.
You nailed pronunciation of Beksiński meemaw.
I would kill for more videos like this! 🤍
You would be perfect at voicing a relaxing podcast that goes into history, art, music, film, etc. I know I would love it and be an avid listener!
I don't know if you will ever see this, but a few more artists you may like are Hans Bellmer, Hiram Williams, and Rico LeBrun.
Mother's voice is so soothing 🥺💕✨ istg there's always an ominous ambience and I'm here for it.
i listened to this video while cleaning my room it was so comforting
Your Tumblr account is already so inspiring but hearing you talk so openly about your thoughts and what you love is such a gift. Thank you, Hayden 🖤
watching this before going to bed. so soothed. even with the terrifying white noise
I collect contemporary art books too and so this was a special treat
shes so calming
And the art she showed us, would only be described as Ethel Cain. Also… your voice is literally so calming I was like anxious and now I’m so calm.
She's quite an inspiration, but art critic... come on! She likes what she likes. Get over yourself
I haven’t posted a yt comment in years but just listening to you describe art you care about has inspired me so much and I’ve actually picked up my paint brush for the first time in a long time. You are truly such a gift to the earth. 💖💖💖
these are so cool, i love how you talk about these books it makes me want to get some of my own. i hope you do more like this!
I could seriously listen to you talk about your favourite art/artists all day long. Would adore seeing more vids like this ❤️
Please continue these kinds of videos this was very comforting and I love the art
as a lover of white noise this was particularly pleasing to me
Glad you're able to by art books for the artists you see on tumblr 😊. I love sharing that stuff, but don't have the money to buy art books or photography books so I try to collect/upload the ones I can find on my account.
The pop of blue color in Beksińskis work is said to be a reference to the blue hue the Zyklon B left in the gaschambers. Don't qoute me on that one, but I saw it in a videoessay about his work. Truly an amazing artist.
the artwork of artists like *Luiz Royo* and*Brum* (Dark Sun) are also amazing.
the coke and burrito bowl are too good of a combo
It’s interesting as well that a lot of this art is from a perspective that makes it seem so much larger than life, a low perspective that allows the subject matter to kind of swallow you, makes you feel small in the grand scheme of the universe. I love it Ethel thank you for sharing with us!
"sometimes i just do ketamine and lie in bed and read them" phahhahahahah i died at that casual comment
was looking for a comment mentioning this lmao i adore her she’s so funny
Beksiński was from poland (my country 🦅🦅🦅🦅) and i love his paintings too. I love that they're untitled and up to your complete interpretation and im planning to get one of them tattooed soon. he was one of the best artists of his generation and he's greatly loved and missed
I would love to see a tour of your art 😍
thank you for this! i really loved your livestream where you discussed your art books so this is such a major blessing.
I’m absolutely interested on the Anime Architecture book you showed. I’m just as picky with my anime series, and one of my favorite series is Revolutionary Girl Utena. The architecture is mind-blowing, especially in the movie “Adolescense of Utena”. It’s super dreamy and surreal, maybe you know it already, otherwise I really recommend it!
the way you articulate your thoughts is so perfect for my brain to understand.
Love the painting of Andrew Wyeth, Christina's world on your wall. One of my favorite painting 🖤