Hi Ethel, I'm really happy you like the work of Beskinski! He's from Poland (my home country). Just a small correction referring to what you said: he didn't fight in war, he was born in 1929 so he was 7-16 years old when the war happened. He was a boy during WWII and lived most of his life during the communist era in Poland, and the atmosphere of that time might be reflected in some of his paintings. It's important to know that he always insisted he doesn't use symbolism in his work and the things he paints don't have any "hidden meaning" behind them. He was initially an engineer, then a photographer and later taught himself to paint when he was around 30. If you ever visit Poland you can see his works in museum in Sanok(his birthplace) or in Warsaw (Muzeum Archidiecezji Warszawskiej).
thank you for the insight Alex, I have always loved the overwhelmingly foreboding feeling of beskinski and it's interesting to hear that he was purely expression himself without any focus on a specific theme
listening to people infodump about things they're passionate about is so comforting. :) will be listening to this while i hang up some thrifted picture frames!
I must live under rock! As a 53 year old mother....my teen daughter's just introduced me to Ethel Cain music and I am HOOKED. To read some bio info and find this video :-) This momma over here is one proud momma that my girls musical taste are amazing. She may never read this but Ethel your helping saving a part of my soul that I tucked away, suppressed and tried running from. Thank you.
this just feels so cozy and warm, i hope you know how loved you are by all of the children of cain. please post more content like this!! love you forever meemaw
@GreenMayoMan69_ its very much daughters of cain. Daughters, in this regard, is inclusive of everyone. I go by he/him pronouns, but consider myself a daughter of cain...I get wanting to feel part of the fanbase, but the name is definitly inclusive. Daughters of Cain is for everyone! Children just doesnt hit the same :((
43:43 i really like this part about being surrounded by scary creatures that don't pay attention to you as being scarier! i feel like as a person who has been very isolated from/rejected by my peers for a long part of my life, it would have been almost preferable for my peers to bully me rather than ignore me? because at least if they were directly giving me a hard time, i would have a goal or a way to escape it or fight against it or whatever, but you can't punch away loneliness. when you grow up and think back about it, it feels really hard to resolve, in a way, because you can't really blame them for not being interested in you. there's no clear enemy to "blame", there's just you and all this time you had to spend alone. i just thought it was a very interesting perspective about how feeling invisible could be represented through art (:
Pro tip on the any Mexican soda or Cola. Put it in the freezer for 20 minutes. Part of the end gets slushy and frosty. It's sooo good. Also, could be the reason you like Mexican Cola more than regular is because they use sugar cane natural sugar. So it's made a bit differently.
@chadwagoner7056 screaming over you replying to seemingly every single comment telling people they're just begging for attention or calling then stupid or whatever....... baby look in the mirror
Something about this feels so extremely comforting and warm. No pressure to present a certain way, no formalities, just existence. Thank you for introducing me to the world of art in a simplistic, easy way to comprehend~ much love meemaw 💜
This is the type of content I'd love to see a part 2 of, seriously. I find myself coming back to this video all the time cause it's so fascinating and low-key relaxing and the fact that it all implies a second part is leaving us hanging lol Whenever you get the time it'd be really cool to follow up on this cause I'm so invested!
your description of being in a place where everything is frightening, but nothing is out to get you, resonates with me deeply. there's a lot of emptiness in that.
I was so excited when you pulled out the Beksiński collection, his work is just so interesting to look at. You might enjoy Leonora Carrington's art too. Her work is considered surrealist although I don't believe she ever considered herself to be a surrealist painter during her life. I can't find a source for that but I was deep into her work in highschool and remember hearing it somewhere. She's my absolute favorite artist of all time, her work is so fascinating. I think it's definitely in the realm of alien and otherworldly type stuff. So incredible.
Hearing Ethel speak about her dream was truly fascinating, it actually quite reminded my of a dream I once had despite the similarities being liminal. I've always loved talking about dreams but it's difficult because I've never really met someone that thinks the same way.
This was unintended ASMR. I did art the entire time while listening to you talk about artists that interested you. I love the way you explain how and why things mean to you. I really hope you post more video like this.
All I want is for all my favorite artists to be this candid. I know I’m not entitled to it, but it is such a treat seeing into the raw inspirations behind the music. Love you, praise you, Ethel Cain
i agree so intensely to "something can't be scary without it also being deeply sad", it's something I bring up a lot when explaining how certain horror movies make me feel and why I love some more than others, I've never heard anyone else express this sentiment
I’m absolutely interested on the Anime Architecture book you showed. I’m just as picky with my anime series, and one of my favorite series is Revolutionary Girl Utena. The architecture is mind-blowing, especially in the movie “Adolescense of Utena”. It’s super dreamy and surreal, maybe you know it already, otherwise I really recommend it!
@@chadwagoner7056 if you don't like the band or my comment you could have kept scrolling. It costs zero dollars and zero cents to mind your own damn business 🙄
The anime of the 80s and 90s just have a sort of ambience the modern kind doesn’t. Some that make me feel that ambient feeling is Cowboy Bepop and Serial Experiments Lain. Something about it was different, and like the works and lines were more personal, in a way? I don’t know, but it’s not like those of today, where everything feels more crisp and vibrant.
The 2000s also had some good stuff going for it with the likes of ergo proxy, texhnolyze, and boogiepop phantom, but that has been lost over the 2010s and I wonder if that could even exist now. It would've been wonderful if dorohedoro had gotten an anime adaptation earlier so it could've had an older look to match its already dark visuals that the recent anime doesn't. It's too clean.
@@mirroredhour yeah the 2000s is honestly my favorite era of anime! Fooly Cooly is one that comes to mind when i think of that stylized, kind of gritty animation
I haven’t posted a yt comment in years but just listening to you describe art you care about has inspired me so much and I’ve actually picked up my paint brush for the first time in a long time. You are truly such a gift to the earth. 💖💖💖
Glad you're able to by art books for the artists you see on tumblr 😊. I love sharing that stuff, but don't have the money to buy art books or photography books so I try to collect/upload the ones I can find on my account.
Thank you so much for this video. This is the first time I have seen Andrew Wyeth’s work and I absolutely love it! I found your own perspective on his work super insightful. Please continue doing your art tours ❤️
I am so happy you posted this, I was in the Instagram live where you talked about different books you owned and liked and I couldn't find a recording of it to rewatch. Thanks!
It’s interesting as well that a lot of this art is from a perspective that makes it seem so much larger than life, a low perspective that allows the subject matter to kind of swallow you, makes you feel small in the grand scheme of the universe. I love it Ethel thank you for sharing with us!
11:00 I love that you added some space to talk about the subjectivity of history!!! Historical accounts all have to begin with the analysis of primary (first hand account) source which, at their most fundamental level, are just stories. Everyone experiences historical events in their own personal way; one person's account is not necessarily more correct than another's. Ultimately the most objective way to study history is to do exactly what you mentioned in using it as a jumping off point for empathy. we really r all just here to understand one another better.
Thank you for sharing with us your collection. This feels so special and intimate and I really truly appreciate you taking the time to do it. I struggle finding people around me who are willing to listen or speak about more “obscure” art or not as mainstream media because i come from a very small town in spain. love you 💚🤎
Scorn is such a good game, the whole atmosphere and melancholy of it just blew me away and left me in shreds for days afterwards... every single still from the videogame is a work of art.
Beksiński was from poland (my country 🦅🦅🦅🦅) and i love his paintings too. I love that they're untitled and up to your complete interpretation and im planning to get one of them tattooed soon. he was one of the best artists of his generation and he's greatly loved and missed
yay i love this. great replacement to the similar insta live u did that seems impossible to find now. thanks for giving us this little window into ur world❤❤
you really just have an ominous noise in ur house all the time huh 😭😭
I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST ME
OH MY GOD YOU PINNED MY COMMENT
Anyone else think it kinda sounds like the ambience from Five Nights at Freddy's? Anyways ily meemaw
Lynchian youtube sketchbook tour
i think the song in the background (if thats what ur talking abt) is an ambient song she wrote
i love this its like my cool big sister finally let me in her room
I was abt to comment something just like this lol
no bc this is exactly how it feels
yess
NO YOU ACTUALLY RIGHT
literally
What a day to be an Ethel Cain fan and an art major
Same fr
Literally
SAME!!
PERIODDD
here!
never seen an artist so connected and willing to share their interests like this, we really appreciate it
it's amazing honestly, this world needs this
Beg for attention
@@chadwagoner7056 ??? It was a genuine compliment i dont care if she see it or not what do you mean by this
Mothers voice is like ASMR. So soothing. So excited to watch this.
“It’s one thing to be hurt but it’s another thing to be hurt and forgotten” Ethel you kill me i love you
I read this comment at the exact moment it was said.
Hi Ethel, I'm really happy you like the work of Beskinski! He's from Poland (my home country). Just a small correction referring to what you said: he didn't fight in war, he was born in 1929 so he was 7-16 years old when the war happened. He was a boy during WWII and lived most of his life during the communist era in Poland, and the atmosphere of that time might be reflected in some of his paintings. It's important to know that he always insisted he doesn't use symbolism in his work and the things he paints don't have any "hidden meaning" behind them. He was initially an engineer, then a photographer and later taught himself to paint when he was around 30. If you ever visit Poland you can see his works in museum in Sanok(his birthplace) or in Warsaw (Muzeum Archidiecezji Warszawskiej).
oh interesting, thank you!! i must have read something wrong haha. i very much hope to visit poland someday, i’d love to see his works in person :’)
@@mothercain COME TO POLAND PLEASEEE ♥️♥️♥️
thank you for the insight Alex, I have always loved the overwhelmingly foreboding feeling of beskinski and it's interesting to hear that he was purely expression himself without any focus on a specific theme
If she made a podcast id be listening to it all day
The ambiance track really fits the nightmarish art work discussions.
Imagine if Ethel Cain did horror ambiance tracks too, would die. Literally.
housofpsychoticwomn?
The ambient track IS Ethel Cain. Omg
This is so pathetic. You beg for your shot at being acknowledged.
listening to people infodump about things they're passionate about is so comforting. :) will be listening to this while i hang up some thrifted picture frames!
Find your own life
@@chadwagoner7056I think you need to heed your own advice bro 😭😭😭
@@chadwagoner7056teenagers ruin everything my god
zdzisław beksiński being on this list makes so much sense. both his work and ethel's discography is so so hauntingly beautiful.
Are, not is. Get a reality check
@@chadwagoner7056 just a grammar issue.
her liking beksiński is so correct
I must live under rock! As a 53 year old mother....my teen daughter's just introduced me to Ethel Cain music and I am HOOKED. To read some bio info and find this video :-) This momma over here is one proud momma that my girls musical taste are amazing. She may never read this but Ethel your helping saving a part of my soul that I tucked away, suppressed and tried running from. Thank you.
she's so wellspoken and sounds so calm and relaxing..... can't believe she wrote ptolomaea
imo she’s exactly the kind of woman that WOULD write a song like Ptolemaea and I absolutely adore that about her
@@tshypooooo no wait i see the vision you're absolutely right
pTolemy is a Biblical character you obviously know little about. Go to your Google search before you answer so you look so idiotic.
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@@jennab.6723 get a grip
this just feels so cozy and warm, i hope you know how loved you are by all of the children of cain. please post more content like this!! love you forever meemaw
YES
@GreenMayoMan69_ perfect! just made a correction
@GreenMayoMan69_ its very much daughters of cain. Daughters, in this regard, is inclusive of everyone. I go by he/him pronouns, but consider myself a daughter of cain...I get wanting to feel part of the fanbase, but the name is definitly inclusive. Daughters of Cain is for everyone! Children just doesnt hit the same :((
@@tobygurd8752nigga what
43:43 i really like this part about being surrounded by scary creatures that don't pay attention to you as being scarier! i feel like as a person who has been very isolated from/rejected by my peers for a long part of my life, it would have been almost preferable for my peers to bully me rather than ignore me? because at least if they were directly giving me a hard time, i would have a goal or a way to escape it or fight against it or whatever, but you can't punch away loneliness. when you grow up and think back about it, it feels really hard to resolve, in a way, because you can't really blame them for not being interested in you. there's no clear enemy to "blame", there's just you and all this time you had to spend alone. i just thought it was a very interesting perspective about how feeling invisible could be represented through art (:
“Sometimes i just do k*tamine and just lie in bed and read” i love her
Thats not cute yall are weird
Mind ur business
Timestamp?
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Could we please get more of these? You taste in art is so good I’d love to see your book, music, movie, and video game collection!
I need to hear her talk more about anime tbh
Video Game???? UGH. This is ... I give up
@@chadwagoner7056 yes video games???? She literally has a whole ass stack of them behind her???? Are you ok????
Ignore him! This Chad guy had posted several comments just complaint about other people’s comments. I don’t know why he’s here!
I love seeing this side of an artist. The haunting dark themes all come together
UGH!
same
artist..hmm
i wish i had a mind like hers, she gets me in a way i never saw, but she manages to amplify those thoughts and deepen in a beautiful way
It’s the “hurt & forgotten” that draws me to abandon & liminal places it’s speaks to my innermost self
Her sentence goes on and on but her train of thought never break. Her intuition is quite strong.
Glad you have such a connection with others. Rolling eyes.
literally what are you doing when you reply to several comments with this obnoxious tone, leave loser@@chadwagoner7056
@@chadwagoner7056 huh?
Pro tip on the any Mexican soda or Cola. Put it in the freezer for 20 minutes. Part of the end gets slushy and frosty. It's sooo good. Also, could be the reason you like Mexican Cola more than regular is because they use sugar cane natural sugar. So it's made a bit differently.
that natural sugar cane makes all the difference
Ethel not only is your music beautiful but you’re so magnetic to watch and your art education is phenomenal
She stated clearly that she had no education in art. Cling-on
@@chadwagoner7056education can be self taught and she is in fact educating people? ur so annoying
@chadwagoner7056 screaming over you replying to seemingly every single comment telling people they're just begging for attention or calling then stupid or whatever....... baby look in the mirror
I majored in art history but since leaving uni I haven't met many people that talk about art so thanks❤
I love how you’re sharing us more of what you like and what you’re interests are in art and paintings. You feel like such a sweet girl Hayden.
this is so soothing, I love hearing people talk about the things they love!
Something about this feels so extremely comforting and warm. No pressure to present a certain way, no formalities, just existence. Thank you for introducing me to the world of art in a simplistic, easy way to comprehend~ much love meemaw 💜
This is the type of content I'd love to see a part 2 of, seriously. I find myself coming back to this video all the time cause it's so fascinating and low-key relaxing and the fact that it all implies a second part is leaving us hanging lol
Whenever you get the time it'd be really cool to follow up on this cause I'm so invested!
We love you!!! We need a Preacher’s Daughter vinyl!!!
Fucking clingy
your description of being in a place where everything is frightening, but nothing is out to get you, resonates with me deeply. there's a lot of emptiness in that.
It's always intresting to see an artist pick apart and let you in on things they're into.
her voice is so calming and nice
I love hearing how you describe things, particularly your fears and nightmares.
Needed proof that all this relentless pain is worth it, and you delivered fruitfully
Begger
I was so excited when you pulled out the Beksiński collection, his work is just so interesting to look at. You might enjoy Leonora Carrington's art too. Her work is considered surrealist although I don't believe she ever considered herself to be a surrealist painter during her life. I can't find a source for that but I was deep into her work in highschool and remember hearing it somewhere. She's my absolute favorite artist of all time, her work is so fascinating. I think it's definitely in the realm of alien and otherworldly type stuff. So incredible.
Hearing Ethel speak about her dream was truly fascinating, it actually quite reminded my of a dream I once had despite the similarities being liminal. I've always loved talking about dreams but it's difficult because I've never really met someone that thinks the same way.
a video game collection vid would be so fun I d love to see what games inspire you and formed your storytelling!
I just threw up a little.
Huh??@@chadwagoner7056
I’ve genuinely never felt more connected to an artist in my life. Thank you for being you.
This was unintended ASMR. I did art the entire time while listening to you talk about artists that interested you. I love the way you explain how and why things mean to you. I really hope you post more video like this.
Find yourself
@@chadwagoner7056i'm about to find myself up your mothers ASS
You're the kind of person I show to the most interesting people I know
your thoughts on horror are so interesting. it's like you explained thoughts+feelings that I didn't even know I had
love getting these intimate glimpses into your room and mind!! thank you so much for sharing 🫶
Just ran into her Music and it’s some of the best stuff I’ve heard in recent memory. This woman is mesmerizing in every way.
these types of videos are so comforting to me and the fact that it’s hayden makes it so much better
literal unintentional asmr queen
you have a very advanced sense of the through lines that weave all these different artists together. Thank you for the recommendations meemaw ❤
WE NEED A DVD/ VHS TOUR PLEASE
All I want is for all my favorite artists to be this candid. I know I’m not entitled to it, but it is such a treat seeing into the raw inspirations behind the music. Love you, praise you, Ethel Cain
You are truly an icon! I hope in the future you will preform at award shows!! You deserve all of the awards❤️❤️
I probably wouldn't understand most of what she's saying but this is so relaxing and it's Hayden talking passionately about books and art. ❤
i agree so intensely to "something can't be scary without it also being deeply sad", it's something I bring up a lot when explaining how certain horror movies make me feel and why I love some more than others, I've never heard anyone else express this sentiment
Perfect thing to end my day with. Feels good to see you after so long. Love you mother!
the way you articulate your thoughts is so perfect for my brain to understand.
I love this video so much, an artist talking about art in a different medium and seeing how that parallels her artistic expression is so cool!
Your Tumblr account is already so inspiring but hearing you talk so openly about your thoughts and what you love is such a gift. Thank you, Hayden 🖤
I’m absolutely interested on the Anime Architecture book you showed. I’m just as picky with my anime series, and one of my favorite series is Revolutionary Girl Utena. The architecture is mind-blowing, especially in the movie “Adolescense of Utena”. It’s super dreamy and surreal, maybe you know it already, otherwise I really recommend it!
Listening to you and Ghost has given me the inspiration and the push I needed to start writing again
Yessss ! Write that book !!! Release your written world unto the earth for all to sink their teeth into ♥️
Ghost?! I JUST explained why Ghost is the 2020 KISS. Pathetic.
@@chadwagoner7056 if you don't like the band or my comment you could have kept scrolling. It costs zero dollars and zero cents to mind your own damn business 🙄
Isn’t Ghost Satanic tho
The anime of the 80s and 90s just have a sort of ambience the modern kind doesn’t. Some that make me feel that ambient feeling is Cowboy Bepop and Serial Experiments Lain. Something about it was different, and like the works and lines were more personal, in a way? I don’t know, but it’s not like those of today, where everything feels more crisp and vibrant.
The 2000s also had some good stuff going for it with the likes of ergo proxy, texhnolyze, and boogiepop phantom, but that has been lost over the 2010s and I wonder if that could even exist now. It would've been wonderful if dorohedoro had gotten an anime adaptation earlier so it could've had an older look to match its already dark visuals that the recent anime doesn't. It's too clean.
@@mirroredhour yeah the 2000s is honestly my favorite era of anime! Fooly Cooly is one that comes to mind when i think of that stylized, kind of gritty animation
i love watching your videos they are so comforting to me and every time i feel like life isn’t worth it i come back and it feels like a warm hug ❤
I for one love the stop n go rambling, this is fascinating, please do more soon 🙂🥰
Bless you for putting me on to Andrew Wyeth, I love his work. I can’t really put into words what his pieces make me feel, it’s magical.
Mother's voice is so soothing 🥺💕✨ istg there's always an ominous ambience and I'm here for it.
Love the painting of Andrew Wyeth, Christina's world on your wall. One of my favorite painting 🖤
Ethel is the epitome of an angel on earth. Such a sweet soul
I haven’t posted a yt comment in years but just listening to you describe art you care about has inspired me so much and I’ve actually picked up my paint brush for the first time in a long time. You are truly such a gift to the earth. 💖💖💖
Please continue these kinds of videos this was very comforting and I love the art
you are so right on about the connection between sadness and horror, it's attachment that causes both.
I didn't know I needed a video of ethel showing us her art books
so warm and calming to watch/listen to while i animate... so inspiring
literally jumped on outta fear of deletion so quickly!!
the coke and burrito bowl are too good of a combo
I would kill for more videos like this! 🤍
I could seriously listen to you talk about your favourite art/artists all day long. Would adore seeing more vids like this ❤️
Glad you're able to by art books for the artists you see on tumblr 😊. I love sharing that stuff, but don't have the money to buy art books or photography books so I try to collect/upload the ones I can find on my account.
Thank you so much for this video. This is the first time I have seen Andrew Wyeth’s work and I absolutely love it! I found your own perspective on his work super insightful. Please continue doing your art tours ❤️
You’re an artist to the core ! I love it !
watching this before going to bed. so soothed. even with the terrifying white noise
I am so happy you posted this, I was in the Instagram live where you talked about different books you owned and liked and I couldn't find a recording of it to rewatch. Thanks!
It’s interesting as well that a lot of this art is from a perspective that makes it seem so much larger than life, a low perspective that allows the subject matter to kind of swallow you, makes you feel small in the grand scheme of the universe. I love it Ethel thank you for sharing with us!
You nailed pronunciation of Beksiński meemaw.
This has become my new favorite asmr video idc
I could listen to you for hours its like finally someone with a ruminative mind I love you so so much
ur collection is so good im so jealous 🙏
omggg hi mother! please make more content like this, ilysm!!! i’m in love so far, i’m watching this whilst waiting for my yoga class to begin!
11:00 I love that you added some space to talk about the subjectivity of history!!! Historical accounts all have to begin with the analysis of primary (first hand account) source which, at their most fundamental level, are just stories. Everyone experiences historical events in their own personal way; one person's account is not necessarily more correct than another's. Ultimately the most objective way to study history is to do exactly what you mentioned in using it as a jumping off point for empathy. we really r all just here to understand one another better.
she is so full of knowledge and good taste, I hope she knows how special she is :(
Thank you for sharing with us your collection. This feels so special and intimate and I really truly appreciate you taking the time to do it. I struggle finding people around me who are willing to listen or speak about more “obscure” art or not as mainstream media because i come from a very small town in spain. love you 💚🤎
You would be perfect at voicing a relaxing podcast that goes into history, art, music, film, etc. I know I would love it and be an avid listener!
Scorn is such a good game, the whole atmosphere and melancholy of it just blew me away and left me in shreds for days afterwards... every single still from the videogame is a work of art.
there’s something so soothing about her
Beksiński was from poland (my country 🦅🦅🦅🦅) and i love his paintings too. I love that they're untitled and up to your complete interpretation and im planning to get one of them tattooed soon. he was one of the best artists of his generation and he's greatly loved and missed
Very excited to watch this!!! 😊
I love Scorn. That game just lives in my head at all times. It’s so surreal it’s like a playable nightmare.
I strive to have a space like yours.
Absolutely beautiful room and a great taste in art books.❤
Hayden im so glad you use such amazing words I can add it in my vocabulary😭 you’re amazing
yay i love this. great replacement to the similar insta live u did that seems impossible to find now. thanks for giving us this little window into ur world❤❤
these are so cool, i love how you talk about these books it makes me want to get some of my own. i hope you do more like this!
could listen to you speak for ages your voice is so nice and you’re genuinely so well spoken can’t wait for a part 2 🤍
Can't wait for part 2❤❤
the best video in the history of youtube looking forward to part 2