fortunately, my inner me chose "running" as the coping mechanism to deal with the trauma from the brutal incestual rape I endured at age 17. I got arrested for being under age after several months, but at age 18 I got a passport a ticket across the Atlantic, with $100 in my pocket I ran for years from ocean to ocean and continent to continent. So many beautiful wonderful people on this earth, many more good than bad, and each with a insight to the world that offer us a broader view on all things. Including a Crappy Childhood. ❤
I loved this video. I must admit that something that often riles me up is the dismissive comment, “It wasn’t that bad.” Yes, there are always people that have it worse, but my experience was still painful. But this video did not make me feel that way. It wasn’t about dismissing the pain, it was about honoring it. You honor your own pain by helping others. And you are right. There is always something good. My son and I were traveling and came home to what I felt was a messy house but he was so excited about our clean bathroom and it made me appreciate something very small. I didn’t feel so bad about my housekeeping skills after noting the bathroom. Perspective isn’t dismissive. It can be a beautiful thing.
Dismissing someone else's pain hardship or suffering is called minimalizing...your pain is yours and you have every right to feel whatever and however you feel. Also remember though...you can acknowledge your weak points without beating yourself up..the key truly is perspective...Build yourself up with your positive traits and notice where you feel you fall short with self love and acceptance ❤ These are merely areas that you can mabey work a little harder on. Hopefully this helps
Watching this from Africa. As an African who is relatively privileged and from a country that offers free medical care and free tertiary education I have missed so many opportunities and because of that I became very depressed. I recently started to get out of my dark phase and found light. I looked around and recognized my privilege and decided to work towards helping the many other people around me who have it a lot worse. Your story shows me I'm on the right track to healing. Thank you. ❤
l live on $750 a month and from the PTSD and abuse in my life l'm on Disability. My x husband of 20 years and father of my 3 sons makes $10-15k a month...it's hard not to resent that, be bitter and depressed...but l know it could be worse...l'm crying as l write this.
"They told me that my body wouldn't heal, but it did heal!" I accepted ('told') myself that I would never fit in, never belong, because that had always been my reality. Now I know...I KNOW that I can fit in, am worthy of belonging and will complete my own journey of healing, as you have done. Ask and you shall receive in this Universe of abundance and love - Never accept imposed limitations on yourself. Always grateful for your insights. Thank you
Many years ago, I had the good fortune to be a ble to spend 9 months in India between 2 trips. The way you describe Kenya and the people there reminds me of that time. Such grinding poverty and misfortune but at the same time such exuberant joy. Thanks for reminding me to be thankful.
When going through a period of grief it hit me with stark clarity it's impossible to grieve without the assumption that what you lost is better than what you currently have. Equally it's impossible to grieve for something you wished you'd had without believing that that lost chance would be better than what you actually received. Grief in short is 'this' is worse than 'that'. All of this sounds obvious, but having gained a bit of distance I now could ask, 'What if these assumptions weren't entirely true or always true or even remotely true?' What struck me next was that the antidote to grief therefore is staying present, noticing what you do have and expressing appreciation for it. And then I realised how you must also add great kindness to yourself because putting this into practice takes time. Kindling a spark of appreciation in the midst challenges can feel like lighting a wet match in a cold, dark wood. But with patience and persistence you do get a warm fire going.
I am from Africa living in the US, every time self pity creeps up on me I remember my two childhood friends and one cousin who died in a war of 1999 back home and the effect it has on their family's. Both my friends were first born and were helping their parents, after the war the familys fell into deep poverty. They weren't as lucky as I was to leave the country.
I think you are terrific, I really do. I remember being a single mom and living in fear every day, panicked about waking up in the middle of the night because the pain of anxiety would begin. But it’s all mostly changed. I sure could have benefited by having someone inspirational in my life. It’s wonderful that you’re inspiring others.
Thank you for posting.. to just imagine the person who wrote the comment that is being responded to in this video-just imagine the absolute Hell they have lived up until this point - the cycle of abuse, stripped of self worth & drown in shame by abusers, likely to this day. No positive interactions. No one can even pretend to know what kind of pain or what type of Hell that individual is going through. Yet they are still obviously searching for answers, with a desire to trust others who offer advice?! That is the most amazing thing I can imagine. If that in itself is not a profound example of the miracle of life and the strength of the human spirit I don’t know what is. God bless that person in such unbearable pain - God Bless that tender yet incredibly strong heart (and soul) ❤️
The commenter said very little about circumstances. Just how they felt. Whatever happened in the past, each of us has a choice to start taking positive steps today.
Bit the apple, I just wanted to thank you for your comment. It is rare to see that kind of compassion and empathy. It is easy for me to relate to this person. There is just something inside that pushes us forward. Most days it's a struggle to get through that day but we carry on. I have found so much healing here and just want to say how truly greatful I am for Anna and for people like you! Thanks again for your comment, it made my day! I now have (hope) that there are still caring empathetic people in the world! God bless you and have a great day!
I'm learning more from you and feeling clearer and more hopeful about my situation in just a few videos than I have from 10+ years seeing psychiatrists, psychologists and counsellors. Thank you so, so much for making these videos!!
I went through a terrible period in my life, I was so depressed I spent most of the day laying on the couch. This went on for two years. Finally it dawned on me, the best way to help myself is to help someone else. I became a volunteer for Jewish Family and Children's Services (a wonderful organization for EVERYBODY), I was paired up with an elderly lonely holocaust survivor, and we developed a beautiful, loving, mutually supportive relationship. It helped to me to come back to life .....
what a beautiful story :D So inspiring! I love it that you manage to emphasise the need for gratitude without diminishing one's own right to acknowledging their suffering!
She's not making judgements but just sharing. I could go there as well, but, this is bigger and ok. Let's give God the glory if you will, if you can. It's ok
They had hope even in tough times with upcoming projects to improve their lives and beautiful pictures on the walls of their home. They were gracious and giving, even though they had little to give. Many families were helped by the priest and the Childhood Fairy and are now extraordinarily grateful for their new circumstances. This is all really beautiful and I am grateful to have heard this. It makes me want to help too.
Wow. That's a powerful story. When I was ill in the hospital because the chemo for my cancer had gone wrong I was very tempted to feel fed up & then I realised that I was being cared for. I was in a clean room on a clean bed, with clean covers over me, I had a jug of clean drinking water by me. I had a bell I could ring for help by a professional if I was in pain. I realised that I was rich. I realised that what I was experiencing was wealth. That there were probably thousands of desperately ill people out there laying alone by the sides of roads just hoping that someone might bring them a broken cup of dirty water so that they had something to drink. If you have somewhere clean to be, somewhere halfway comfortable to lay down, clean water & someone to call on for help then you are rich. Thats the real difference between rich & poor in this world. Its not all mansions & yachts. Its a lot more basic than that.
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I hope so too Anna. I found a lump a few months ago & waited to be given a date for a scan but as soon as I had one it was cancelled due to the covid19. They have given me an appointment to see the oncologist for next April. My feeling is that this lump is not cancer, which the vast majority of lumps are not.
I’m in the problem area I’m in now after 50 years of shoving down my ongoing abuse and only focusing on others. Yeah eventually the closet blew open and now I’m up to my nose in my own issues which can’t be ignored anymore. I wish everyone all the wellness and happiness but I’m drowning now so I can only try to help myself.
Again, you're my hero. A big shift happened for me at the age of 18; I was away at school when my parents and all 4 younger siblings were barely rescued by the Coast Guard when our boat sank in a sudden storm on the Great Lakes. Often asked by friends (and even therapists) how I have managed as well as I have, in spite of extreme childhood trauma, I express how truly grateful I am for my family. My parents are deceased now, and I am estranged from all 4 siblings because they, too, are abusive addicts. They have not fared as well. But had I lost them all at once when I was 18, I might never have faced the abuse, or seen the long term effects it was having, or sought therapy. I had - and still have - the opportunity to heal.
Thank you for sharing. Yes I needed to be reminded about being thankful for the great abundance of support we have in USA. Gratitude, lm growing to love that word. This is the second video of yours I watched this am. I will ponder what was said and get busy with positive thoughts and action today.
Wow, what an amazing story Anna. Thank you for sharing. 🙏💙 Sometimes perspective is everything. Willing to just begin again wherever you're at really resonates with me. Another thing that stands out is how God really seems to have worked in your life 🙏🕊
I just found you yesterday. Feb 42021. I've shared u with many, including fb. My son had been praying for me than I found you. Hid heard and hears our prayers. We both agree that I found you because God was directing me to you. My son is also benefitting.
This is a wonderful way to ground yourself. I began thinking a few years ago that if everyone in the world had to live in a third world country for a month… it could change their perspective forever. I’ve been stuck in shutdown for quite awhile, but this took me back to my idea. We are leaky vessels and quickly forget the good. It seems simpler to remember the bad and the sadness. I’m trying to fight and starting to follow your practices. Thank you for helping so many people!❤
Boy.. what a "leap of faith" my dear❤️🙏❤️ Spiritually healing indeed!!! You gifted yourself something that was life changing❤️😊❤️ Your view of life & helping others will never be the same!!!
I found that helping animals by advocating for animal rights and veganism helped me. Farm animals are the most vulnerable and easily exploited beings on earth. Something about helping that symbolic "vulnerable" group of life from an adult, responsible and strong perspective gave me self respect and purpose and made me able to connect with others. There really is something in helping a part of yourself through helping others.
I am currently creating a sanctuary/shelter for abused animals. It’s scary because I have been unable to so far get financial support and it’s costly and I don’t know how I’ll manage it and work. I was so lucky to get some stress leave and have been using the time to get this going for real but it is what is healing me more than anything. I had two rescue dogs already and have been able to take on two more, one was severely traumatized and three cats with hopes of more. I will do what it takes to make this work. It is my salvation as well no doubt. The Pet Project Canada on Facebook if anyone wants to see my babies :)
@@janferrante1024 How beautiful of you! I have grown up around rescued animals and "misfit" pets people didn't want, and it has really opened my eyes to be kind to those very different to myself. Both humans and animals. I wish you all the very best, and I'll be sure to find your facebook-page!
Wow this video has me emotional this morning. I’m just in awe. In fact, the word wow it came from my mouth countless times. The four years of your life you described sound just like mine currently. I call it “the trenches” I shamefully admit that I have been throwing myself the shame party of a lifetime for me myself and I. I’ve pushed everyone that I love far far away and I finally admitted to myself yesterday that it was out of fear that I would just be hurt again. The most resentment I felt in a very long time came when my ex (we were together 14 years before we split and we have three boys together) Told me that I am just a victim and My tears are for attention and nothing more. Hearing that hurt deeply because it is far from the truth and if that’s what he believes why should I waste my time to try to convince him otherwise yet I find myself doing just that every time he hurts me with his words. It feels like a punch in the gut. I never realize just how addicting codependency is and how very real trauma bonding is as well. I’ve been stuck in this misery for three years. I got so sick and thought I was going to die before doctors ever figured out what was wrong with me and when they figured it out it seemed too big to reverse. The road to recovery is long and lonely and that’s the mentality I have had anyways. I went from feeling very independent happy confident and full of self-love working my purpose as a nurse to Forced into medical leave because I can no longer do my job in fact I could barely even walk 10 feet without fainting. my ex told everybody that I was creating the symptoms and it’s all imaginary. He has my oldest child thoroughly convinced (She is from my previous relationship and our relationship has always been strained. Her dad was extremely abusive and kidnapped her from me when she was three years old and it was very Trumatic for the both of us and I didn’t see her for half a year by the time the judge had ordered her back. but by the time we saw each other again her dad had convinced her that I wasn’t her mom. there’s so much more to that heartache. A lifetime of abuse that felt like a very unfair hand to be dealt. But I handled it well and I never felt sorry for myself and I absolutely hate the word victim and instead of sympathy seeking I would use it to help others when need be. I was often told that I was the strongest woman someone had ever met, by friends and patients. It felt in a way like healing. What are you come to realize when I went on medical leave was that I was addicted to work because I needed that appreciation because I never got it as a child or I’m assuming that’s the reason. and the value I had came from the title I had earned as a nurse. That left me feeling worthless and those critical words I spoke to myself mentally were mirrored by my ex. It was extremely painful period of time that I can’t think much on even though I’m still in it it’s not as bad as it was but I am the loneliest I have ever felt. Writing all this makes me cringe because it sounds so pathetic when there’s other problems far bigger than mine. I don’t have a car that runs or money. i’m fresh out of hope. I didn’t really have family to begin with but I had some really good girlfriends and I have pushed them all the way. I know that I could get in touch with them and rekindle that but even that alone is so exhausting. I don’t want to be what a sad hopeless victim anymore and I’m starting your daily practice today. Your videos have been like a lifeline to me because not only does your story feel pretty similar to mine and that helps me to feel less alone, but I now realize that I to have see PTSD and it makes so much more sense now. And learning all that I can through your channel and what I find on the Internet has felt very empowering and giving me a spark of hope.
What an amazing story. I’m grateful I’ve stumbled upon your methods, and I want to tell you and everyone else about the Wim Hof Method too, where you do breathing exercises and take cold showers 🥶. That one has been indispensable to me as well.
I had a similar awakening when I visited India when I was younger, but after years of being back in developed rich country it still blows my mind how generous kind and hospital the people often very poor compared to myself yet I never had experienced this kindness here where I live it's still lacking, now that I'm a mother I travel with my child when I can to these beautiful countries and their people and hope to settle there one day***
What a great story of hope and gratitude. But what I found most compelling wasn’t the hope or the gratitude parts, it was you being BRAVE in the face of uncertainty, saying YES to a commitment to god to help others, going on an incredible journey across the world, and learning through it just how powerful and strong you are. I think your bravery is the secret to your triumph.
I dont know why but it was a long time I wasn't glued to the screen like that , listening carefully. This story just captivated me , and kinda inspired me too. I realize how many times I've got into self pity without realizing how beautiful life was. But sometimes it's harder to recognize the blessings we have due to the triggers. I think it's all about the state you are in inside. Some people may have everything someone could ever want and still being depressed and unhappy. Thank you for this video !
Thank you for this story 🙏 I just ask God to forgive me for grumbling about things that can be fixed and thankful for his blessings I also pray for those that have it really bad and that I will always be grateful to the Lord Amen and Amen 🙏 ❤️ I really enjoy your videos you will never no how much they have help me and my family 🙏 ❤️ ♥️ 😊
I think using art as a tool is like meditation, as when either doodling, painting, drawing, writing, colouring, sewing or playing an instrument seems to takes you away, from the world around us, we can lose time, hours a can go by and we don't even realise it, whilst in the flow of creativity, which I have found very therapeutic, I have used art as a tool to express myself since childhood, although as a child I did not realise I was doing it for that reason. I couldn't draw from my imagination as I did not have one at that time, all I saw was grey. But I loved looking at art, the images on cards and comics, and I would try and copy the pictures I saw, I had a shortage of materials only my school pencil and a biro, and I would copy the same picture over and over until I thought it was as good as I could get the likeness. But when doing art at school my paintings were flat, I did not understand hues, or shading, and they always looked cartoonish. The paintings resembled how I was feeling inside flat, and lifeless, a mere.cartoon character. I never knew I was expressing my feelings through my art work till I entered a part time art course, and my tutors would tell me my work was childlike. Which really upset me! I was embarrassed, and did not understand why they would say that? I realised after years of studying that my art work was childlike because I was actually a child inside an adults body, and my child self was expressing herself. Even in UnI my experiences were coming out in my work, I would start a project and not even know what I was really doing, and when I would put all the work together for presentation I was shocked to see a pattern evolving, my life story in art form. I don't know how I passed th e course really because I was like a fish out of water, in many repects, I was a mature student, surrounded by younger students, and hadn't got a clue what I was doing there? Yet I finished the course and got a Degree with honours? And I was diagnosed at Uni as being dyslexic. The reason I mention this is because most people like me who were told they were stupid, thick, and won't amount to any thing, believe what they were told over and over again, but as I found out that's not true. I even think dyslexia is just a word to explain the wall we put up, to protect ourselves, that wall prevents things going in and coming out, so trying to learn some thing whilst your on highly stressed is not going to work out. At school i wael stupid, they kept telling me I "wasn't concentrating" but I was trying to? every child wants to do well, so when they are forced to do a subject they don't like or don't understand it makes them feel stupid when they cannot perform the task. I would be thinking of what was waiting for me when I got home, when I was at school, nothing made sense to me, I would try my hardest to do the work I would be given to do, but my mind was so full of crap and angst, I couldn't remember the stuff I was supposed to remember. And because the teachers kept saying in was not trying hard enough I just have up. But to be truthful I am glad now, that I never took anything in, because the schooling system is lacking in so many ways, and is only really working to indoctrinate us with lies. I have learnt more out of school student subjects that actually matter to me. That's my opinion, a child is unique in their abilities and talents which are not discovered in the public schooling system, they are suppressed. There is hope, it's a journey, most people I think are looking for a quick fix, that will take a day or two, and everything will be sorted. But it's a life's time of discovering and recovering, layers upon layers. But each layer we take off, each brick we knock out of the wall we built up around us, is making us lighter and brighter.
You are truly an amazing and inspirational lady. An amazing life story and an amazing spirit who led you to that story and healing for you and those you brought healing to.
To recover from heartache. To recover your joy. To recover our senses, to think, to feel, to touch and To hear the Truth and to see. That Love is in you, and that Love is in me. To recover all the pieces that were ripped apart. To recover the child, to open up our closed hearts. To recover our body that took all the blows. To recover from illness that brings us the lows. To recover our identity to know who we are. To recover our Light so we can shine like a star.
oh my gosh, Anna!! I have been watching your videos, but this one, which is older, just really touched me. I LOVE that you just picked up and went to Kenya. What an experience! Whatever your past, you are really letting some beautiful light shine through. If you doubt it, just look at some of your old videos vs the more recent ones. You look good in them all, but you just glow more and more with the more recent ones. It's obvious, things are going good for you in life, just by how you look! I believe all that helping other people makes a person heal and glow from the inside out. I think a lot of us with CPTSD are VERY good hearted, but just tend to get caught up in and downright obsessed with our own problems to the point where we look or are self-absorbed. I feel like that is MY biggest lasting problem from my childhood. I am so into fixing myself, that I don't get out there among people and focus on THEM. I don't turn the cab light on for friends or romantic interests. This video is fantastic for reminding me, that I might heal faster and better by putting more energy into helping others than myself and that round about, it will help me out too. I need to do some version of that trip to Kenya for myself. I have in the past, but maybe it's time to do it again. It's easy to fall into thinking I haven't got anything else to give other people and I'm "all out of love" or just energy, but it doesn't really work that way, does it? I'm requesting more of these videos on healing the OTHER areas of CPTSD like this one. Love your stuff, keep it coming!
Stories like these is why I bottle everything up. My problem is small compared others going through extreme times. My issues are not worthy of attention
Thanks for this reminder. Even with my parents, while I do feel they failed me in many ways, we did have good times, which is why I struggle between wanting to forgive them and wanting to heal first. Even so, I've still had many good people in my life who have done good things for me, who've inspired me to want to keep being a good person and to never lose hope that I can find loving people in the world.
Omg!!! You’re unbelievable!! Omg!! What struck me the most is your integrity, regardless of the hard situation you were in: you promised yourself something and you did it even tho, it was way way too much. You were impeccable with your word to you! This is the first and most powerful agreement of the 4 agreements. In fact the author writes that if one is impeccable with their word their entire life changes and the other 3 agreements are no longer required. I didn’t understand the power of this until this video! You’re impeccable with your word. That’s truth. That’s powerful
Regarding Neptune, I can testify that the love ❤️ is indeed out of this world! My Neptune is on my IC and when Nikola did my reading he was thinking that I was raised by a church as soon as we started talking! My south node is at 15 Pisces ♓️, another very neptunian location. I’ve had 2 NDE without trauma and went into the most divine love and peace one can imagine with the knowledge of our true essence and true home. I’m no saint but I do see love everywhere and my task is to stop expecting love in return which has been painful when I love this way. Plus my Neptune conjunct my Venus, in scorpio: born to suffer in love !!! 😂 I’m getting better at this !! Fascinating!! Just confirmed what I experienced and never dared to talk about!
Wow. You are amazing to stick to your commitment to help and travel all that way. What a blessing you gave them and yourself. Thank you for sharing about these strong people.
I am so sorry , Anna for all the hardship you have been through. I feel your pain. My mind mirror you. My heart goes out, to you. I can see your true colours, like a rainbow, shining down on me. You restore my faith in woman, hoping they are somewhat , like you. Thank you for telling , Anna.
I relate to you so heavily. I too felt a huge purpose to help and assist others from the pains I have endured. The first five years that I began to serve and be there for others, I had absolutely no boundaries because I knew how low it all can get and feel. The previous and most current five years, I have made it sustainable for me. I have made it into a career. I see you. I feel you. I appreciate you. I have used this pain and this journey to touch others in ways those who have not felt it can not. You have too. I am so graciously crossing over your youtube and happy to see such a kindred soul. You have benefitted my morning heavily, and I appreciate your purpose and existence. Thank you for your work, and what you have done with pain. You have alchemized it within, and use it to assist. I relate to you so deeply and find solace in this synchronicity.
What a good reminder that helping others is so healing. I’d forgotten this, but it’s absolute truth, not only does it get me out of my head and away from the “me, me, me”, but it helps me to connect with others in a way that isn’t self-centered. Thank you for another excellent video. ❤️
Thank you for your wisdom and truths🙂❤️ I look forward to watching you and learning from the videos.. Blessings to you and your consistent healing knowledge💯💖
I feel I had loads of good stuff and was in a dream world about who I was. Then I had several breakdowns and NDE, but there was long term trauma too. I’ll give this a go as I have been losing hope. Can’t hurt. I get it when she says she thought she had a curse on her.
Omg Anna THATS THE MOST AMAZING STORY EVER! Thank you so much for telling this story! Very powerful! And transforming and an awakening eye opener. You are amazing yourself! I mean you went to Africa to help others! when you yourself were inflicted with so many challenges and hardships and darkness and struggles.....WOW! .......THANK YOU ANNA ❤️🙏🤗 I’ll never forget this story you told today- really powerful! and inspiring heartwarming and hopeful.......every!thing! here in ‘earth school’ seems to be a ‘lesson’ for our souls’ growth healing evolving. sending you love light and a hug🥰
This story is lightbulb/ "shift" moment - great term btw! My heart is so warm from your experience ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ this video will be on repeat for a while. Wow, Anna!
Wow. Another powerhouse video! After 50 years of hopelessness, you are giving me hooe that I just might be able to find my purpose and prosper at it and find a healthy partnerwith whom to enjoy life together. Thanks for all your courage and hard work and for being who you are!
What a lovely story of how hope reaches out and inturn brought such a tremendous internal change to your life! I reminder I needed as well! I am so encouraged by your videos and I agree with others your humble and loving demeanor has inspired my heart as well! I forgot my mission trip to Haiti back in 2000, and the ensuing abundant thankfulness for simple things like being able to take a hot shower! So grateful to be inspired to reach out as well!
Thank you! You have kept me grounded today at a very stressful time. I am already feeling myself getting more regulated and able to focus on getting back on task! I love you Anna and am so thankful for you and all your hard work!
Thank you, Anna for sharing your experience. It is important to have perspective. Our problems and things we suffer from are real and of course we care about them, but sometimes we can pull them up over our heads like a blanket and we feel smothered and can’t see anything else. The simple act of helping someone else out can break the trance of our misery. Think of it in terms of how grateful we would be if someone offered help to us or a loved one if we were in need. The good will come back to you even if it’s just in the form of peaceful sleep.
Almost started reading the comments…but then realized that they don’t matter. What matters is that your story about Kenya was remarkable. You were very brave in answering the priest’s call. Your call. He sounded amazing, by the way, speaking truth to power. Thank you for the story. You are right, in the midst of anyone’s sorry there are good things in life worth our attention also, even when we are at our lowest. They can exist side by side and hold similar space and time. Both equally valid.We can choose a little bit of light sometimes and focus on that for a while instead. I’m so grateful for you, you’ve been really helping me. I mean that. I do the writing exercise every day and have chosen a mantra to meditate. I’ve noticed the difference. I can throw away those negative thoughts early in the day and get on to doing something else more productive and healthy for me. I spend far less time ruminating on the tragedies of life. Thank you for that. It’s a freedom that I hadn’t experienced before. You’re doing the good work. Keep it up. I’m a fan.
Thank you for sharing your gift. You have a tremendous gift in speech and telling about your very special experiences in a storylike narrative. Perhaps that gift was passed on to you either from your mom or your dad? I know, it´s easy to have negative feelings, but people do what they can. That is hard to remember though it´s the whole point.
Your story made me cry. I've been through similar experiences. I was a single mom for most of my adult life. My youngest daughter is on the autism spectrum. There was a time when I was very stressed, worried, frustrated and lonely. I felt hopeless. I felt resentful. What turned it all around for me was almost losing my daughter and my own life. I was prescribed Xanax for anxiety during this time. I started abusing it along with alcohol and another substance. Long story short, I survived. I got my daughter back, and I started believing that there was a Higher Power looking out for us. I also realized that I had family, my father specifically that loved me unconditionally. I wasn't truly alone, eventhough I have felt lonely for as long as I can remember. Having gratitude and realizing that there are other people in the world that have it much worse does help immensely. It doesn't lessen the pain of what I'm going through, but it does keep it in perspective. There was a homeless man that used to sit near the drive through of a pizza place we frequented. I started buying him pizza and/or bottled water every time I saw him there. It felt good to do something nice for someone that needed it.
can partially relate. the family of my Marocco friend lives in a village. So I quite understand the point, the children there and the ones in his family are very poor but still happy. I am impressed by how much love is in that family, even if they are so poor, can´t help myself to be envious of those children the love they get. On other side, it´s like I get a second chance to change my attitude as they treat me like I´m part of that family, too and I always wanted to belong somewhere else - I felt so ashamed for my parents, for their addictions and their marriage and behavior to me and others etc. As a child I was often asking myself and dreaming of having other parents and another life. Here we go 35 years later and in other ways. So if you don´t have no positive memories, create some with 40, it´s still time and I had it on my list all the years.
Love this story! That is so encouraging! I may use this as my go-to video for when I get stuck! Gratitude and helping others can be very transforming. Thanks for sharing this!
What happens when you don't have any sort of resources left? I've been way too generous with my money, time, etc... ,only to have people who only take, step all over me and threw me under the bus as soon as I didn't have the means to pay for everything...and chose the worse time to do it...once I found out my dad was terminally ill with cancer. And then I did something similar to you and gave up all my dreams to take care of both my parents at home and now I feel worst, because I have nothing left to give. I live at home with my mom and she's abusive (narcissistic) and I feel stuck and I feel like for me, it's the opposite that would have worked for me...doing something for myself after having provided for both me and my partner, who was a drug addict (for 5 years)
I'm not sure if we have similar stories, @Forest_Faery_Tarot. I say that to point out that when I helped my friends it took two weeks only -- and my life, my career and my dreams stayed very much intact. I ended up enriched emotionally, and not drained -- which is what you are describing after giving "everything" to others. This is super common with CPTSD -- you can heal this too!
I think it’s important to consider what would actually be helping your loved ones and other people around you. Enabling a drug addiction isn’t ultimately helping another person, the same thing with giving all your inner and outer resources. We have to care for ourselves first in order to help those around us-you have to put on your oxygen mask in a plane crash before you help others put their masks on.
So true. Gratitude & shifting our focus to others is a powerful prescription. It also in turn gives us the mental energy to cope with own own stuff. When we give we also receive💞
I identify so much to your personal testimony in this video. It was even posted around the same time of my bad breakup from my children's father. I won't go into many details here. I will say that 3 years ago I was looking forward to my independence, hopeful for my future, and ambitious starting pre-med classes. Now three years later I am at rock bottom. Even relapsing after 15 years clean. How did I allow myself to get here? I want to heal, I want my life back and I want to be the best mom for my kids. Thank you for sharing all that you do.
This is So So Moving Anna its Powerful Stuff. Had me in tears. I have So Much Gratitude for what I HAVE. I HAVE So Much. I HAVE NO ROOM IN MY LIFE FOR SELF PITY. I MUST KEEP HELPING OTHERS. DOING MY RESENTMENTS AND FEARS LIST AND MEDITATION. YOU ARE A SHINING EXAMPLE TO TO YOUR WORK. I AM STRIVING FOR PROGRESS. HUGS AND LOVE TO EVERYONE. 🌈🏴🙏💕💐😍🤹♀️💖🎁🖐️👏
Really helpful ....Jane Fonda when she was 50 revisited her childhood as a mature adult.She forgave her father and reconciled.I revisit mine now in the blessings of my childhood. It is powerful
Wow! What a story! You are brave to do what you did! I could not. I was distressed and crying while you told the story. It is wonderful you were able to help them. .Wonderful!
Amazing story. I’m trying to practice gratitude and I do appreciate my blessings. I just feel like it’s getting late in my life and I’m worried that I won’t be able to find a loving relationship. My husband of 20 years cheated and left me and our three kids who were teens at the time. 10 months later I met a man whom I thought really loved me but whom I ended up in a 7 year mostly off than on relationship, which further devastated me. Now I feel like no one will ever want me. My mother was emotionally unavailable and both parents were emotionally and physically abusive to me. I also meditate and that has been a big help but I feel that life is passing me by and all I’m doing is managing and waiting for the end. I’m 54 years old now and can’t seem to attract good people. I’m grateful I know what the problem is. I have no idea how to get past all this.
Hi @Angelica -- one thing you could try is my Dating course. This is what it's for -- to get clearer about what you really want, become more tuned in to the good people out there, and use a structured process of dating.
Just yesterday I was saying that I have no hope. No family, no partner, no friends who actually get me...just my cat and my broken brain. Too many traumas, not enough compassion...and I'm stepping into perimenopause too. In a pandemic. I don't know how to pull myself out. The last time I tried medication for my depression, it made me suicidal. I feel so stuck, so alone...
Saying you were feeling self pity is unhealthy. Don't we have enough people telling us we're (the royal We) looking for pity? Please don't say "Others have it worse." It is another statement said to us to put us down) Others have it worse is comparing, which ends up minimizing your experience and its aftermath. Pain, physical or emotional, cannot be compared, except in the self (ie. I did better today than I did yesterday...I hurt more now than last month) Each person an individual, with different strengths, weaknesses, abilities, genetics, nurturing or lack of, safety net or lack of, friends or lack of. That this pain is rampant in society, is a nightmare in real time, yet, just because so many are hurting, doesn't make it "normal" or acceptable (like child abuse. Society is so desensitized it's almost to the point of it's expected but people can't bear the idea, video, or picture, of a dog being beaten, broken) People can relate to other's pain, but we cannot step in their skin.
I would have never did that because I would have been overwhelmed. I just shut my door to a homeless woman. I did. Because I was scared I would wind up way over my head. I had once before. I gave what I had but knew if I became friends with her I couldnt say ok, go back and live in your car now, time for bed. I feel like such a selfish coward. Even after having to live in my car in the summer heat this past season. I KNEW what it felt like. The lonliness, the exhaustion, the shame. My husband and I can help as we have a little room now. but the last time we did, we wound up having to call the police. How did you do this with kids of your own ? Who took care of them?
Hi Kathy, my kids stayed with their dad -- no problem. He's always been very active in their upbringing. I think most of us struggle with how to help homeless people without getting over our heads.
Hey Love your Work. Speaking the Truth from the Heart. Many of us do this, and cannot help but do this, as it is part of us. Some great things are coming to this world very soon as we all learn the deeper things that make us function and dysfunction. And its going to be Freaking Amazing! Seriously, we have not yet imagined what is possible with our new up coming revelations of our potential. So many of us are using our own minds against ourselves and preventing us from doing such great things. Everything is programmable. Clue, what you find yourself saying and thinking as habits... is a hint... are you getting in your own way by repeating words that put you down? We make statements at times in frustration, which become the program and the subconscious goal, and things go from bad to worse and we have a bad day.... ever find yourself jokingly saying, Knowing my luck, I will really mess this up in some way... to that effect... these things are programming your amazing mind to work against you and its in our culture and sayings and things we have come to do as habit... and one must wonder why? and work out how to defeat them. Some are like viruses of the mind programs, with emotions that provoke the same emotion in another when they hear the words. This is mind warfare. or Spiritual Warfare as it invokes emotions, which are technically spirits by the definitions. A spirit of anger, a spirit of fear, a spirit of joy, a spirit of love... We get stuck in triggers and stuck in loops that self trigger. We have reactions to revile and disgust, and easily have them directed at a thing or individual with complete judgement and prejudice against them as guilty. We have had the public shaming, the public executions, the training to BELIEVE the headlines that name the villain and they are scorned, without anything but TRIGGERS to aim the accumulated angst and pain at something else. Uniting the mob in the mind control, away from those who are controlling them with the words, the programs and the triggers... and one needs to look back further and see the history... but just look at the programs of the mind and see what is working and what is not working, and what is viral... All of them need upgrades, weeds need removing. Antiviral antidotes to stop the replays of the triggers. Emotional Healing to change the memories learn the lessons and lessen the triggers... We create our own reality and perceptions of reality by what we believe with no doubts. Its the same KEYS as with the Placebo Effect, no pill necessary. Its programming. We all have this power to take up greater abilities. I am not meaning intellectual academic pursuits, but more of things thought impossible for you, and even impossible for mankind, but yet are possible if we seek to pursue them. We have been stunted, and when you get the fuller understanding, you might think HEALING YOURSELF is far too easy to not want to walk on water too. Seriously, NEW Concepts are going to have science prove spiritual awakening power that effects mind programming and our realities. And when we look back we find that we have been in an illusion which has had us at war world wide and even in ourselves with traditions that hinder us with various beliefs. Everyone of us is programmed by the systems and knows no different until we search and compare and seek understanding, and realise, everything is programming, and it varies with locations, cultures, and peer groups and experiences. Everyone has unique experiences, and most of us share an assumed reality, but each sees it differently, yet assumed. WE often assume others think like us and see the same. But look at police questioning witnesses and ALL tell a different story alone. And if the story is the same words, it means they have made it up by agreeing. Time to WAKE UP the world, the magicians ruling it with slight of hand are doing nasty stuff, and prophesies say they are going to be exposed and the world restored to what it should be in spirit and truth with integrity, by the TRUE consensus of the people by their own free will. Be well. Placebo is more powerful and will heal, will kill or will keep sick. It is programming. As JC said, those who believe with no doubts it is granted to them. What you believe you expect to happen is the key. Realise you can CHOOSE to be healthy. And FEEL healthy activates the imagination, mind, feelings and body to activate the Placebo Effect to heal the body. Peace. Create Inner Peace, its KEY. Focus for 30 seconds on something to change subject and stop panic loops. You are strong and what you focus upon you feed your energy to make it more. Love and Compassion and Kindness, we are family.
I was lucky in life I had two wonderful brothers and some good friends and we were there to help each other in life , and made me forget the bad memories of childhood , with amazing times we were given together , but sadly they are all no longer with us , now I am truly alone for the first time in my life , which has left me feeling helpless for the first time in my adult life , and don't know which way to turn , and has left me feeling low . how can any one fill there shoes , those wonderful people who are no longer with us , I wish I new the answer , how to move on and find the good people I once knew , it's been the toughest time of my life . other then my childhood 💔👩👩👦👦👬👫🧑🤝🧑💞🥰🦮🐬
fortunately, my inner me chose "running" as the coping mechanism to deal with the trauma from the brutal incestual rape I endured at age 17. I got arrested for being under age after several months, but at age 18 I got a passport a ticket across the Atlantic, with $100 in my pocket I ran for years from ocean to ocean and continent to continent. So many beautiful wonderful people on this earth, many more good than bad, and each with a insight to the world that offer us a broader view on all things. Including a Crappy Childhood. ❤
I loved this video. I must admit that something that often riles me up is the dismissive comment, “It wasn’t that bad.” Yes, there are always people that have it worse, but my experience was still painful. But this video did not make me feel that way. It wasn’t about dismissing the pain, it was about honoring it. You honor your own pain by helping others. And you are right. There is always something good. My son and I were traveling and came home to what I felt was a messy house but he was so excited about our clean bathroom and it made me appreciate something very small. I didn’t feel so bad about my housekeeping skills after noting the bathroom. Perspective isn’t dismissive. It can be a beautiful thing.
You're a good writer, @Invantfaire. Thanks for this story and your kind words!
My dad says that all the time
Dismissing someone else's pain hardship or suffering is called minimalizing...your pain is yours and you have every right to feel whatever and however you feel. Also remember though...you can acknowledge your weak points without beating yourself up..the key truly is perspective...Build yourself up with your positive traits and notice where you feel you fall short with self love and acceptance ❤ These are merely areas that you can mabey work a little harder on. Hopefully this helps
‘And life slowly got sweeter and easier ...’.
Thank you, in need of hearing this.
Watching this from Africa. As an African who is relatively privileged and from a country that offers free medical care and free tertiary education I have missed so many opportunities and because of that I became very depressed. I recently started to get out of my dark phase and found light. I looked around and recognized my privilege and decided to work towards helping the many other people around me who have it a lot worse. Your story shows me I'm on the right track to healing. Thank you. ❤
l live on $750 a month and from the PTSD and abuse in my life l'm on Disability. My x husband of 20 years and father of my 3 sons makes $10-15k a month...it's hard not to resent that, be bitter and depressed...but l know it could be worse...l'm crying as l write this.
"They told me that my body wouldn't heal, but it did heal!" I accepted ('told') myself that I would never fit in, never belong, because that had always been my reality. Now I know...I KNOW that I can fit in, am worthy of belonging and will complete my own journey of healing, as you have done. Ask and you shall receive in this Universe of abundance and love - Never accept imposed limitations on yourself. Always grateful for your insights. Thank you
Thanks for listening!
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy 🙂
Many years ago, I had the good fortune to be a ble to spend 9 months in India between 2 trips. The way you describe Kenya and the people there reminds me of that time. Such grinding poverty and misfortune but at the same time such exuberant joy. Thanks for reminding me to be thankful.
Well said!
When going through a period of grief it hit me with stark clarity it's impossible to grieve without the assumption that what you lost is better than what you currently have. Equally it's impossible to grieve for something you wished you'd had without believing that that lost chance would be better than what you actually received. Grief in short is 'this' is worse than 'that'. All of this sounds obvious, but having gained a bit of distance I now could ask, 'What if these assumptions weren't entirely true or always true or even remotely true?'
What struck me next was that the antidote to grief therefore is staying present, noticing what you do have and expressing appreciation for it.
And then I realised how you must also add great kindness to yourself because putting this into practice takes time. Kindling a spark of appreciation in the midst challenges can feel like lighting a wet match in a cold, dark wood. But with patience and persistence you do get a warm fire going.
This is beautifully expressed.
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thanks Anna x
I am from Africa living in the US, every time self pity creeps up on me I remember my two childhood friends and one cousin who died in a war of 1999 back home and the effect it has on their family's. Both my friends were first born and were helping their parents, after the war the familys fell into deep poverty. They weren't as lucky as I was to leave the country.
I think you are terrific, I really do. I remember being a single mom and living in fear every day, panicked about waking up in the middle of the night because the pain of anxiety would begin. But it’s all mostly changed. I sure could have benefited by having someone inspirational in my life. It’s wonderful that you’re inspiring others.
Thank you for posting.. to just imagine the person who wrote the comment that is being responded to in this video-just imagine the absolute Hell they have lived up until this point - the cycle of abuse, stripped of self worth & drown in shame by abusers, likely to this day. No positive interactions. No one can even pretend to know what kind of pain or what type of Hell that individual is going through. Yet they are still obviously searching for answers, with a desire to trust others who offer advice?! That is the most amazing thing I can imagine. If that in itself is not a profound example of the miracle of life and the strength of the human spirit I don’t know what is. God bless that person in such unbearable pain - God Bless that tender yet incredibly strong heart (and soul) ❤️
The commenter said very little about circumstances. Just how they felt. Whatever happened in the past, each of us has a choice to start taking positive steps today.
Bit the apple, I just wanted to thank you for your comment. It is rare to see that kind of compassion and empathy. It is easy for me to relate to this person. There is just something inside that pushes us forward. Most days it's a struggle to get through that day but we carry on. I have found so much healing here and just want to say how truly greatful I am for Anna and for people like you! Thanks again for your comment, it made my day! I now have (hope) that there are still caring empathetic people in the world! God bless you and have a great day!
I’d be very careful about using a blanket statement like ‘no one’.
I'm learning more from you and feeling clearer and more hopeful about my situation in just a few videos than I have from 10+ years seeing psychiatrists, psychologists and counsellors. Thank you so, so much for making these videos!!
Wow thank you for this reminder. Perception is everything when it comes to opening your eyes to your own blessings.
I went through a terrible period in my life, I was so depressed I spent most of the day laying on the couch. This went on for two years. Finally it dawned on me, the best way to help myself is to help someone else. I became a volunteer for Jewish Family and Children's Services (a wonderful organization for EVERYBODY), I was paired up with an elderly lonely holocaust survivor, and we developed a beautiful, loving, mutually supportive relationship. It helped to me to come back to life .....
What an incredible story. A two year depression! And then uplift. Thank you for sharing this.
what a beautiful story :D So inspiring! I love it that you manage to emphasise the need for gratitude without diminishing one's own right to acknowledging their suffering!
Thanks for watching!
-Cara@TeamFairy
It does not make me feel better to know someone has it worse!
What makes you feel better?
It’s not supposed to make you feel better. It’s to help you gain a better perspective. What you do with that perspective, I guess, is your choice.
She's not making judgements but just sharing. I could go there as well, but, this is bigger and ok. Let's give God the glory if you will, if you can. It's ok
Or maybe you’re just afraid to hear how other people ‘have it’
They had hope even in tough times with upcoming projects to improve their lives and beautiful pictures on the walls of their home. They were gracious and giving, even though they had little to give. Many families were helped by the priest and the Childhood Fairy and are now extraordinarily grateful for their new circumstances. This is all really beautiful and I am grateful to have heard this. It makes me want to help too.
I seriously said yesterday, I have NO HOPE! Watching and listening closely.
Wow. That's a powerful story. When I was ill in the hospital because the chemo for my cancer had gone wrong I was very tempted to feel fed up & then I realised that I was being cared for. I was in a clean room on a clean bed, with clean covers over me, I had a jug of clean drinking water by me. I had a bell I could ring for help by a professional if I was in pain. I realised that I was rich. I realised that what I was experiencing was wealth. That there were probably thousands of desperately ill people out there laying alone by the sides of roads just hoping that someone might bring them a broken cup of dirty water so that they had something to drink. If you have somewhere clean to be, somewhere halfway comfortable to lay down, clean water & someone to call on for help then you are rich. Thats the real difference between rich & poor in this world. Its not all mansions & yachts. Its a lot more basic than that.
I love what you said. Thank you. I hope the cancer is behind you now?
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy I hope so too Anna. I found a lump a few months ago & waited to be given a date for a scan but as soon as I had one it was cancelled due to the covid19. They have given me an appointment to see the oncologist for next April. My feeling is that this lump is not cancer, which the vast majority of lumps are not.
I’m in the problem area I’m in now after 50 years of shoving down my ongoing abuse and only focusing on others. Yeah eventually the closet blew open and now I’m up to my nose in my own issues which can’t be ignored anymore. I wish everyone all the wellness and happiness but I’m drowning now so I can only try to help myself.
This is so inspiring! I was meditating and my heart lead me to this video. I’m manifesting radical healing this year 💙💙💙
That's beautiful!
Again, you're my hero. A big shift happened for me at the age of 18; I was away at school when my parents and all 4 younger siblings were barely rescued by the Coast Guard when our boat sank in a sudden storm on the Great Lakes. Often asked by friends (and even therapists) how I have managed as well as I have, in spite of extreme childhood trauma, I express how truly grateful I am for my family. My parents are deceased now, and I am estranged from all 4 siblings because they, too, are abusive addicts. They have not fared as well. But had I lost them all at once when I was 18, I might never have faced the abuse, or seen the long term effects it was having, or sought therapy. I had - and still have - the opportunity to heal.
Thank you for sharing. Yes I needed to be reminded about being thankful for the great abundance of support we have in USA. Gratitude, lm growing to love that word.
This is the second video of yours I watched this am. I will ponder what was said and get busy with positive thoughts and action today.
Hi @David, thanks for this lovely comment!
You're amazing. God Bless. I can't pretend to know what the commentor went thru in childhood, but I wish him/her the best in recovery.
Incredible journey of compassion fueled with benevolent power. 🙏
Wow, what an amazing story Anna. Thank you for sharing. 🙏💙 Sometimes perspective is everything. Willing to just begin again wherever you're at really resonates with me. Another thing that stands out is how God really seems to have worked in your life 🙏🕊
Absolutely!!
-Cara@TeamFairy
This was transformative to my heart, Anna...thank you for sharing this story...we all have so much to be grateful for
I just found you yesterday. Feb 42021. I've shared u with many, including fb. My son had been praying for me than I found you. Hid heard and hears our prayers. We both agree that I found you because God was directing me to you. My son is also benefitting.
Pffffff... That was such a GREAT exercise to regain some perspective, thank you SO MUCH, dear fairy! ❤️❤️❤️
This is a wonderful way to ground yourself. I began thinking a few years ago that if everyone in the world had to live in a third world country for a month… it could change their perspective forever. I’ve been stuck in shutdown for quite awhile, but this took me back to my idea. We are leaky vessels and quickly forget the good. It seems simpler to remember the bad and the sadness. I’m trying to fight and starting to follow your practices. Thank you for helping so many people!❤
Boy.. what a "leap of faith" my dear❤️🙏❤️ Spiritually healing indeed!!! You gifted yourself something that was life changing❤️😊❤️ Your view of life & helping others will never be the same!!!
Anna Runkle, thank you for helping me understand.
I found that helping animals by advocating for animal rights and veganism helped me. Farm animals are the most vulnerable and easily exploited beings on earth. Something about helping that symbolic "vulnerable" group of life from an adult, responsible and strong perspective gave me self respect and purpose and made me able to connect with others.
There really is something in helping a part of yourself through helping others.
Lovely. Great suggestion.
I am currently creating a sanctuary/shelter for abused animals. It’s scary because I have been unable to so far get financial support and it’s costly and I don’t know how I’ll manage it and work. I was so lucky to get some stress leave and have been using the time to get this going for real but it is what is healing me more than anything. I had two rescue dogs already and have been able to take on two more, one was severely traumatized and three cats with hopes of more. I will do what it takes to make this work. It is my salvation as well no doubt. The Pet Project Canada on Facebook if anyone wants to see my babies :)
@@janferrante1024 How beautiful of you! I have grown up around rescued animals and "misfit" pets people didn't want, and it has really opened my eyes to be kind to those very different to myself. Both humans and animals. I wish you all the very best, and I'll be sure to find your facebook-page!
@@janferrante1024 I live in London. This is my dream. I would be happy to help you x
I feel the same way! Rescuing animals and being vegan really helps me as well.
Wow this video has me emotional this morning. I’m just in awe. In fact, the word wow it came from my mouth countless times. The four years of your life you described sound just like mine currently. I call it “the trenches” I shamefully admit that I have been throwing myself the shame party of a lifetime for me myself and I. I’ve pushed everyone that I love far far away and I finally admitted to myself yesterday that it was out of fear that I would just be hurt again. The most resentment I felt in a very long time came when my ex (we were together 14 years before we split and we have three boys together) Told me that I am just a victim and My tears are for attention and nothing more. Hearing that hurt deeply because it is far from the truth and if that’s what he believes why should I waste my time to try to convince him otherwise yet I find myself doing just that every time he hurts me with his words. It feels like a punch in the gut. I never realize just how addicting codependency is and how very real trauma bonding is as well. I’ve been stuck in this misery for three years. I got so sick and thought I was going to die before doctors ever figured out what was wrong with me and when they figured it out it seemed too big to reverse. The road to recovery is long and lonely and that’s the mentality I have had anyways. I went from feeling very independent happy confident and full of self-love working my purpose as a nurse to Forced into medical leave because I can no longer do my job in fact I could barely even walk 10 feet without fainting. my ex told everybody that I was creating the symptoms and it’s all imaginary. He has my oldest child thoroughly convinced (She is from my previous relationship and our relationship has always been strained. Her dad was extremely abusive and kidnapped her from me when she was three years old and it was very Trumatic for the both of us and I didn’t see her for half a year by the time the judge had ordered her back. but by the time we saw each other again her dad had convinced her that I wasn’t her mom. there’s so much more to that heartache. A lifetime of abuse that felt like a very unfair hand to be dealt. But I handled it well and I never felt sorry for myself and I absolutely hate the word victim and instead of sympathy seeking I would use it to help others when need be. I was often told that I was the strongest woman someone had ever met, by friends and patients. It felt in a way like healing. What are you come to realize when I went on medical leave was that I was addicted to work because I needed that appreciation because I never got it as a child or I’m assuming that’s the reason. and the value I had came from the title I had earned as a nurse. That left me feeling worthless and those critical words I spoke to myself mentally were mirrored by my ex. It was extremely painful period of time that I can’t think much on even though I’m still in it it’s not as bad as it was but I am the loneliest I have ever felt. Writing all this makes me cringe because it sounds so pathetic when there’s other problems far bigger than mine. I don’t have a car that runs or money. i’m fresh out of hope. I didn’t really have family to begin with but I had some really good girlfriends and I have pushed them all the way. I know that I could get in touch with them and rekindle that but even that alone is so exhausting. I don’t want to be what a sad hopeless victim anymore and I’m starting your daily practice today. Your videos have been like a lifeline to me because not only does your story feel pretty similar to mine and that helps me to feel less alone, but I now realize that I to have see PTSD and it makes so much more sense now. And learning all that I can through your channel and what I find on the Internet has felt very empowering and giving me a spark of hope.
What an amazing story. I’m grateful I’ve stumbled upon your methods, and I want to tell you and everyone else about the Wim Hof Method too, where you do breathing exercises and take cold showers 🥶. That one has been indispensable to me as well.
How long are you under the cold water?
I had a similar awakening when I visited India when I was younger, but after years of being back in developed rich country it still blows my mind how generous kind and hospital the people often very poor compared to myself yet I never had experienced this kindness here where I live it's still lacking, now that I'm a mother I travel with my child when I can to these beautiful countries and their people and hope to settle there one day***
What a great story of hope and gratitude. But what I found most compelling wasn’t the hope or the gratitude parts, it was you being BRAVE in the face of uncertainty, saying YES to a commitment to god to help others, going on an incredible journey across the world, and learning through it just how powerful and strong you are. I think your bravery is the secret to your triumph.
Thank you!
I dont know why but it was a long time I wasn't glued to the screen like that , listening carefully. This story just captivated me , and kinda inspired me too. I realize how many times I've got into self pity without realizing how beautiful life was. But sometimes it's harder to recognize the blessings we have due to the triggers. I think it's all about the state you are in inside. Some people may have everything someone could ever want and still being depressed and unhappy. Thank you for this video !
Thank you for this story 🙏 I just ask God to forgive me for grumbling about things that can be fixed and thankful for his blessings I also pray for those that have it really bad and that I will always be grateful to the Lord Amen and Amen 🙏 ❤️ I really enjoy your videos you will never no how much they have help me and my family 🙏 ❤️ ♥️ 😊
Thanks very much for this kind comment. I hope it will encourage all who read it.
I think using art as a tool is like meditation, as when either doodling, painting, drawing, writing, colouring, sewing or playing an instrument seems to takes you away, from the world around us, we can lose time, hours a can go by and we don't even realise it, whilst in the flow of creativity, which I have found very therapeutic, I have used art as a tool to express myself since childhood, although as a child I did not realise I was doing it for that reason. I couldn't draw from my imagination as I did not have one at that time, all I saw was grey.
But I loved looking at art, the images on cards and comics, and I would try and copy the pictures I saw, I had a shortage of materials only my school pencil and a biro, and I would copy the same picture over and over until I thought it was as good as I could get the likeness.
But when doing art at school my paintings were flat, I did not understand hues, or shading, and they always looked cartoonish.
The paintings resembled how I was feeling inside flat, and lifeless, a mere.cartoon character.
I never knew I was expressing my feelings through my art work till I entered a part time art course, and my tutors would tell me my work was childlike.
Which really upset me!
I was embarrassed, and did not understand why they would say that?
I realised after years of studying that my art work was childlike because I was actually a child inside an adults body, and my child self was expressing herself.
Even in UnI my experiences were coming out in my work, I would start a project and not even know what I was really doing, and when I would put all the work together for presentation I was shocked to see a pattern evolving, my life story in art form.
I don't know how I passed th e course really because I was like a fish out of water, in many repects, I was a mature student, surrounded by younger students, and hadn't got a clue what I was doing there? Yet I finished the course and got a Degree with honours?
And I was diagnosed at Uni as being dyslexic.
The reason I mention this is because most people like me who were told they were stupid, thick, and won't amount to any thing, believe what they were told over and over again, but as I found out that's not true.
I even think dyslexia is just a word to explain the wall we put up, to protect ourselves, that wall prevents things going in and coming out, so trying to learn some thing whilst your on highly stressed is not going to work out.
At school i wael stupid, they kept telling me I "wasn't concentrating" but I was trying to?
every child wants to do well, so when they are forced to do a subject they don't like or don't understand it makes them feel stupid when they cannot perform the task.
I would be thinking of what was waiting for me when I got home, when I was at school, nothing made sense to me, I would try my hardest to do the work I would be given to do, but my mind was so full of crap and angst, I couldn't remember the stuff I was supposed to remember.
And because the teachers kept saying in was not trying hard enough I just have up.
But to be truthful I am glad now, that I never took anything in, because the schooling system is lacking in so many ways, and is only really working to indoctrinate us with lies.
I have learnt more out of school student subjects that actually matter to me.
That's my opinion, a child is unique in their abilities and talents which are not discovered in the public schooling system, they are suppressed.
There is hope, it's a journey, most people I think are looking for a quick fix, that will take a day or two, and everything will be sorted.
But it's a life's time of discovering and recovering, layers upon layers.
But each layer we take off, each brick we knock out of the wall we built up around us, is making us lighter and brighter.
You are truly an amazing and inspirational lady. An amazing life story and an amazing spirit who led you to that story and healing for you and those you brought healing to.
Thanks for watching!
-Cara@TeamFairy
You are a remarkable human being. Thank you for offering me hope.
You are so welcome
Annnnnnna!!!! You are awesomeness. Period. Full stop. Thank you for your work.
You're making me laugh, and thank you!
To recover from heartache.
To recover your joy.
To recover our senses, to think, to feel, to touch and To hear the Truth and to see.
That Love is in you, and that Love is in me.
To recover all the pieces that were ripped apart.
To recover the child, to open up our closed hearts.
To recover our body that took all the blows.
To recover from illness that brings us the lows.
To recover our identity to know who we are.
To recover our Light so we can shine like a star.
I love listening to your experiences Anna, you’re an incredible lady! an inspiration, thank you! ❤️
oh my gosh, Anna!! I have been watching your videos, but this one, which is older, just really touched me. I LOVE that you just picked up and went to Kenya. What an experience! Whatever your past, you are really letting some beautiful light shine through. If you doubt it, just look at some of your old videos vs the more recent ones. You look good in them all, but you just glow more and more with the more recent ones. It's obvious, things are going good for you in life, just by how you look! I believe all that helping other people makes a person heal and glow from the inside out.
I think a lot of us with CPTSD are VERY good hearted, but just tend to get caught up in and downright obsessed with our own problems to the point where we look or are self-absorbed. I feel like that is MY biggest lasting problem from my childhood. I am so into fixing myself, that I don't get out there among people and focus on THEM. I don't turn the cab light on for friends or romantic interests. This video is fantastic for reminding me, that I might heal faster and better by putting more energy into helping others than myself and that round about, it will help me out too. I need to do some version of that trip to Kenya for myself. I have in the past, but maybe it's time to do it again. It's easy to fall into thinking I haven't got anything else to give other people and I'm "all out of love" or just energy, but it doesn't really work that way, does it?
I'm requesting more of these videos on healing the OTHER areas of CPTSD like this one. Love your stuff, keep it coming!
Your request is noted, thanks for being here!
-Cara@TeamFairy
You are wonderful! Thank you
I know this experience. How amazing I’m not alone.
You certainly aren't alone! So glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Stories like these is why I bottle everything up. My problem is small compared others going through extreme times. My issues are not worthy of attention
yo this aint the pain Olympics, just bc someone somewhere is going through worse doesnt mean ur problems and issues dont matter or are invalid.
@@gryffindorgirl102 ok so the how do u tell the difference between bitching about a ruff past and talking about traumatizing events the cause issues
All respect to you for this incredible journey! What a wonderful reminder to live in gratitude. Thanks for all you do! What a blessing!
Thanks for this reminder. Even with my parents, while I do feel they failed me in many ways, we did have good times, which is why I struggle between wanting to forgive them and wanting to heal first. Even so, I've still had many good people in my life who have done good things for me, who've inspired me to want to keep being a good person and to never lose hope that I can find loving people in the world.
This makes me happy. This is the way toward a good life!
Omg!!! You’re unbelievable!! Omg!! What struck me the most is your integrity, regardless of the hard situation you were in: you promised yourself something and you did it even tho, it was way way too much. You were impeccable with your word to you! This is the first and most powerful agreement of the 4 agreements. In fact the author writes that if one is impeccable with their word their entire life changes and the other 3 agreements are no longer required. I didn’t understand the power of this until this video! You’re impeccable with your word. That’s truth. That’s powerful
Thank you!
Regarding Neptune, I can testify that the love ❤️ is indeed out of this world! My Neptune is on my IC and when Nikola did my reading he was thinking that I was raised by a church as soon as we started talking! My south node is at 15 Pisces ♓️, another very neptunian location. I’ve had 2 NDE without trauma and went into the most divine love and peace one can imagine with the knowledge of our true essence and true home. I’m no saint but I do see love everywhere and my task is to stop expecting love in return which has been painful when I love this way. Plus my Neptune conjunct my Venus, in scorpio: born to suffer in love !!! 😂 I’m getting better at this !! Fascinating!! Just confirmed what I experienced and never dared to talk about!
Wow. You are amazing to stick to your commitment to help and travel all that way. What a blessing you gave them and yourself. Thank you for sharing about these strong people.
Beautiful, brought a tear to my eye.
Being around or hearing stories about people who are making it through life that is much harder just exponentially increases my shame and self hatred
I am so sorry , Anna for all the hardship you have been through. I feel your pain.
My mind mirror you.
My heart goes out, to you.
I can see your true colours, like a rainbow, shining down on me.
You restore my faith in woman, hoping they are somewhat , like you.
Thank you for telling , Anna.
What a kind message for Anna, thank you so much
-Cara@TeamFairy
I relate to you so heavily. I too felt a huge purpose to help and assist others from the pains I have endured. The first five years that I began to serve and be there for others, I had absolutely no boundaries because I knew how low it all can get and feel. The previous and most current five years, I have made it sustainable for me. I have made it into a career. I see you. I feel you. I appreciate you. I have used this pain and this journey to touch others in ways those who have not felt it can not. You have too. I am so graciously crossing over your youtube and happy to see such a kindred soul. You have benefitted my morning heavily, and I appreciate your purpose and existence. Thank you for your work, and what you have done with pain. You have alchemized it within, and use it to assist. I relate to you so deeply and find solace in this synchronicity.
What a good reminder that helping others is so healing. I’d forgotten this, but it’s absolute truth, not only does it get me out of my head and away from the “me, me, me”, but it helps me to connect with others in a way that isn’t self-centered. Thank you for another excellent video. ❤️
Most of us need that reminder, thanks so much for watching!
Thank you, always a work in progress. Breathing through wit much more ease .
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Thank you for your wisdom and truths🙂❤️ I look forward to watching you and learning from the videos.. Blessings to you and your consistent healing knowledge💯💖
Thank you Anna. Onto stop traumatizing yourself. 🙏❤
I feel I had loads of good stuff and was in a dream world about who I was. Then I had several breakdowns and NDE, but there was long term trauma too. I’ll give this a go as I have been losing hope. Can’t hurt. I get it when she says she thought she had a curse on her.
Cant stop crying hearing this. Tears of hope, gratitude, and inspiration. TY so much for this one.
Omg Anna THATS THE MOST AMAZING STORY EVER! Thank you so much for telling this story! Very powerful! And transforming and an awakening eye opener. You are amazing yourself! I mean you went to Africa to help others! when you yourself were inflicted with so many challenges and hardships and darkness and struggles.....WOW! .......THANK YOU ANNA ❤️🙏🤗 I’ll never forget this story you told today- really powerful! and inspiring heartwarming and hopeful.......every!thing! here in ‘earth school’ seems to be a ‘lesson’ for our souls’ growth healing evolving. sending you love light and a hug🥰
This story is lightbulb/ "shift" moment - great term btw! My heart is so warm from your experience ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ this video will be on repeat for a while. Wow, Anna!
Wow. Another powerhouse video!
After 50 years of hopelessness, you are giving me hooe that I just might be able to find my purpose and prosper at it and find a healthy partnerwith whom to enjoy life together.
Thanks for all your courage and hard work and for being who you are!
What a lovely story of how hope reaches out and inturn brought such a tremendous internal change to your life! I reminder I needed as well! I am so encouraged by your videos and I agree with others your humble and loving demeanor has inspired my heart as well! I forgot my mission trip to Haiti back in 2000, and the ensuing abundant thankfulness for simple things like being able to take a hot shower! So grateful to be inspired to reach out as well!
Thank you! You have kept me grounded today at a very stressful time. I am already feeling myself getting more regulated and able to focus on getting back on task! I love you Anna and am so thankful for you and all your hard work!
Thank you! I feel it.
The attitude of gratitude is a great tool that I use when I start feeling sorry for myself...
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Every story you tell is so moving, so inspiring, giving so much hope, Fairy. God bless🙏
Thank you so much!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Thank you, Anna for sharing your experience. It is important to have perspective. Our problems and things we suffer from are real and of course we care about them, but sometimes we can pull them up over our heads like a blanket and we feel smothered and can’t see anything else. The simple act of helping someone else out can break the trance of our misery. Think of it in terms of how grateful we would be if someone offered help to us or a loved one if we were in need. The good will come back to you even if it’s just in the form of peaceful sleep.
Thanks so much for watching!
Almost started reading the comments…but then realized that they don’t matter. What matters is that your story about Kenya was remarkable. You were very brave in answering the priest’s call. Your call. He sounded amazing, by the way, speaking truth to power. Thank you for the story. You are right, in the midst of anyone’s sorry there are good things in life worth our attention also, even when we are at our lowest. They can exist side by side and hold similar space and time. Both equally valid.We can choose a little bit of light sometimes and focus on that for a while instead. I’m so grateful for you, you’ve been really helping me. I mean that. I do the writing exercise every day and have chosen a mantra to meditate. I’ve noticed the difference. I can throw away those negative thoughts early in the day and get on to doing something else more productive and healthy for me. I spend far less time ruminating on the tragedies of life. Thank you for that. It’s a freedom that I hadn’t experienced before. You’re doing the good work. Keep it up. I’m a fan.
Thank you for this kind note, @Anthony_Cruz. You are kind to say this.
Thank you for sharing your gift. You have a tremendous gift in speech and telling about your very special experiences in a storylike narrative. Perhaps that gift was passed on to you either from your mom or your dad? I know, it´s easy to have negative feelings, but people do what they can. That is hard to remember though it´s the whole point.
Your story made me cry. I've been through similar experiences. I was a single mom for most of my adult life. My youngest daughter is on the autism spectrum. There was a time when I was very stressed, worried, frustrated and lonely. I felt hopeless. I felt resentful. What turned it all around for me was almost losing my daughter and my own life. I was prescribed Xanax for anxiety during this time. I started abusing it along with alcohol and another substance. Long story short, I survived. I got my daughter back, and I started believing that there was a Higher Power looking out for us. I also realized that I had family, my father specifically that loved me unconditionally. I wasn't truly alone, eventhough I have felt lonely for as long as I can remember. Having gratitude and realizing that there are other people in the world that have it much worse does help immensely. It doesn't lessen the pain of what I'm going through, but it does keep it in perspective. There was a homeless man that used to sit near the drive through of a pizza place we frequented. I started buying him pizza and/or bottled water every time I saw him there. It felt good to do something nice for someone that needed it.
Thanks for sharing- great example of getting out of self 💜
-Cara@TeamFairy
You are such a blessing! Thankyou!
Very kind of you to say!
can partially relate. the family of my Marocco friend lives in a village. So I quite understand the point, the children there and the ones in his family are very poor but still happy. I am impressed by how much love is in that family, even if they are so poor, can´t help myself to be envious of those children the love they get. On other side, it´s like I get a second chance to change my attitude as they treat me like I´m part of that family, too and I always wanted to belong somewhere else - I felt so ashamed for my parents, for their addictions and their marriage and behavior to me and others etc. As a child I was often asking myself and dreaming of having other parents and another life. Here we go 35 years later and in other ways. So if you don´t have no positive memories, create some with 40, it´s still time and I had it on my list all the years.
Love this story! That is so encouraging! I may use this as my go-to video for when I get stuck! Gratitude and helping others can be very transforming. Thanks for sharing this!
What happens when you don't have any sort of resources left? I've been way too generous with my money, time, etc... ,only to have people who only take, step all over me and threw me under the bus as soon as I didn't have the means to pay for everything...and chose the worse time to do it...once I found out my dad was terminally ill with cancer. And then I did something similar to you and gave up all my dreams to take care of both my parents at home and now I feel worst, because I have nothing left to give. I live at home with my mom and she's abusive (narcissistic) and I feel stuck and I feel like for me, it's the opposite that would have worked for me...doing something for myself after having provided for both me and my partner, who was a drug addict (for 5 years)
I'm not sure if we have similar stories, @Forest_Faery_Tarot. I say that to point out that when I helped my friends it took two weeks only -- and my life, my career and my dreams stayed very much intact. I ended up enriched emotionally, and not drained -- which is what you are describing after giving "everything" to others. This is super common with CPTSD -- you can heal this too!
I think it’s important to consider what would actually be helping your loved ones and other people around you. Enabling a drug addiction isn’t ultimately helping another person, the same thing with giving all your inner and outer resources. We have to care for ourselves first in order to help those around us-you have to put on your oxygen mask in a plane crash before you help others put their masks on.
So true. Gratitude & shifting our focus to others is a powerful prescription. It also in turn gives us the mental energy to cope with own own stuff. When we give we also receive💞
I identify so much to your personal testimony in this video. It was even posted around the same time of my bad breakup from my children's father. I won't go into many details here. I will say that 3 years ago I was looking forward to my independence, hopeful for my future, and ambitious starting pre-med classes. Now three years later I am at rock bottom. Even relapsing after 15 years clean. How did I allow myself to get here? I want to heal, I want my life back and I want to be the best mom for my kids. Thank you for sharing all that you do.
Thank you, Anna - I needed this recalibration.
Yay!
-Cara@TeamFairy
This is So So Moving Anna its Powerful Stuff. Had me in tears. I have So Much Gratitude for what I HAVE. I HAVE So Much. I HAVE NO ROOM IN MY LIFE FOR SELF PITY. I MUST KEEP HELPING OTHERS. DOING MY RESENTMENTS AND FEARS LIST AND MEDITATION. YOU ARE A SHINING EXAMPLE TO TO YOUR WORK. I AM STRIVING FOR PROGRESS. HUGS AND LOVE TO EVERYONE. 🌈🏴🙏💕💐😍🤹♀️💖🎁🖐️👏
@Evelyn_Craig, thank you for your consistent and radiant healing positivity!
Amazing story. Thank you for sharing. ♥️
thank you for sharing that story, its a worthwhile one
It really is!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Beautiful, thank you for sharing
Really helpful ....Jane Fonda when she was 50 revisited her childhood as a mature adult.She forgave her father and reconciled.I revisit mine now in the blessings of my childhood.
It is powerful
wonderful!
Wow! What a story! You are brave to do what you did! I could not. I was distressed and crying while you told the story. It is wonderful you were able to help them. .Wonderful!
Amazing story. I’m trying to practice gratitude and I do appreciate my blessings. I just feel like it’s getting late in my life and I’m worried that I won’t be able to find a loving relationship. My husband of 20 years cheated and left me and our three kids who were teens at the time. 10 months later I met a man whom I thought really loved me but whom I ended up in a 7 year mostly off than on relationship, which further devastated me. Now I feel like no one will ever want me. My mother was emotionally unavailable and both parents were emotionally and physically abusive to me. I also meditate and that has been a big help but I feel that life is passing me by and all I’m doing is managing and waiting for the end. I’m 54 years old now and can’t seem to attract good people. I’m grateful I know what the problem is. I have no idea how to get past all this.
Hi @Angelica -- one thing you could try is my Dating course. This is what it's for -- to get clearer about what you really want, become more tuned in to the good people out there, and use a structured process of dating.
Just yesterday I was saying that I have no hope. No family, no partner, no friends who actually get me...just my cat and my broken brain. Too many traumas, not enough compassion...and I'm stepping into perimenopause too. In a pandemic.
I don't know how to pull myself out. The last time I tried medication for my depression, it made me suicidal. I feel so stuck, so alone...
So sorry to hear that, you can take our Daily Practice course free :)
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-Cara@TeamFairy
I love my 6th grade teacher. She made a lot of difference for me.
Wonderful! I just learned my 6th grade teacher has died. He was that person for me too -- helped me in ways that changed my life.
You are an angel on earth, Anna! God bless you ❤
Divine intervention, no question in my mind. What a story! I loved it. God bless!
Oh my goodness...this was beautiful thank you so much for sharing with us 💘
Saying you were feeling self pity is unhealthy. Don't we have enough people telling us we're (the royal We) looking for pity? Please don't say "Others have it worse." It is another statement said to us to put us down) Others have it worse is comparing, which ends up minimizing your experience and its aftermath. Pain, physical or emotional, cannot be compared, except in the self (ie. I did better today than I did yesterday...I hurt more now than last month) Each person an individual, with different strengths, weaknesses, abilities, genetics, nurturing or lack of, safety net or lack of, friends or lack of. That this pain is rampant in society, is a nightmare in real time, yet, just because so many are hurting, doesn't make it "normal" or acceptable (like child abuse. Society is so desensitized it's almost to the point of it's expected but people can't bear the idea, video, or picture, of a dog being beaten, broken) People can relate to other's pain, but we cannot step in their skin.
I would have never did that because I would have been overwhelmed. I just shut my door to a homeless woman. I did. Because I was scared I would wind up way over my head. I had once before. I gave what I had but knew if I became friends with her I couldnt say ok, go back and live in your car now, time for bed. I feel like such a selfish coward. Even after having to live in my car in the summer heat this past season. I KNEW what it felt like. The lonliness, the exhaustion, the shame. My husband and I can help as we have a little room now. but the last time we did, we wound up having to call the police. How did you do this with kids of your own ? Who took care of them?
Hi Kathy, my kids stayed with their dad -- no problem. He's always been very active in their upbringing. I think most of us struggle with how to help homeless people without getting over our heads.
Awe what a beautiful story
Hey Love your Work. Speaking the Truth from the Heart. Many of us do this, and cannot help but do this, as it is part of us.
Some great things are coming to this world very soon as we all learn the deeper things that make us function and dysfunction. And its going to be Freaking Amazing! Seriously, we have not yet imagined what is possible with our new up coming revelations of our potential. So many of us are using our own minds against ourselves and preventing us from doing such great things. Everything is programmable. Clue, what you find yourself saying and thinking as habits... is a hint... are you getting in your own way by repeating words that put you down? We make statements at times in frustration, which become the program and the subconscious goal, and things go from bad to worse and we have a bad day.... ever find yourself jokingly saying, Knowing my luck, I will really mess this up in some way... to that effect... these things are programming your amazing mind to work against you and its in our culture and sayings and things we have come to do as habit... and one must wonder why? and work out how to defeat them.
Some are like viruses of the mind programs, with emotions that provoke the same emotion in another when they hear the words. This is mind warfare. or Spiritual Warfare as it invokes emotions, which are technically spirits by the definitions. A spirit of anger, a spirit of fear, a spirit of joy, a spirit of love... We get stuck in triggers and stuck in loops that self trigger. We have reactions to revile and disgust, and easily have them directed at a thing or individual with complete judgement and prejudice against them as guilty. We have had the public shaming, the public executions, the training to BELIEVE the headlines that name the villain and they are scorned, without anything but TRIGGERS to aim the accumulated angst and pain at something else. Uniting the mob in the mind control, away from those who are controlling them with the words, the programs and the triggers... and one needs to look back further and see the history... but just look at the programs of the mind and see what is working and what is not working, and what is viral... All of them need upgrades, weeds need removing. Antiviral antidotes to stop the replays of the triggers. Emotional Healing to change the memories learn the lessons and lessen the triggers... We create our own reality and perceptions of reality by what we believe with no doubts. Its the same KEYS as with the Placebo Effect, no pill necessary. Its programming. We all have this power to take up greater abilities. I am not meaning intellectual academic pursuits, but more of things thought impossible for you, and even impossible for mankind, but yet are possible if we seek to pursue them. We have been stunted, and when you get the fuller understanding, you might think HEALING YOURSELF is far too easy to not want to walk on water too.
Seriously, NEW Concepts are going to have science prove spiritual awakening power that effects mind programming and our realities. And when we look back we find that we have been in an illusion which has had us at war world wide and even in ourselves with traditions that hinder us with various beliefs. Everyone of us is programmed by the systems and knows no different until we search and compare and seek understanding, and realise, everything is programming, and it varies with locations, cultures, and peer groups and experiences. Everyone has unique experiences, and most of us share an assumed reality, but each sees it differently, yet assumed. WE often assume others think like us and see the same. But look at police questioning witnesses and ALL tell a different story alone. And if the story is the same words, it means they have made it up by agreeing. Time to WAKE UP the world, the magicians ruling it with slight of hand are doing nasty stuff, and prophesies say they are going to be exposed and the world restored to what it should be in spirit and truth with integrity, by the TRUE consensus of the people by their own free will. Be well. Placebo is more powerful and will heal, will kill or will keep sick. It is programming. As JC said, those who believe with no doubts it is granted to them. What you believe you expect to happen is the key. Realise you can CHOOSE to be healthy. And FEEL healthy activates the imagination, mind, feelings and body to activate the Placebo Effect to heal the body. Peace. Create Inner Peace, its KEY. Focus for 30 seconds on something to change subject and stop panic loops. You are strong and what you focus upon you feed your energy to make it more. Love and Compassion and Kindness, we are family.
Beautiful testimony 🙌 🙏 God is good
Thank you for sharing this beautiful beautiful story of your journey to Kenya, it was SO inspiring!
Oh, thank you!
I was lucky in life I had two wonderful brothers and some good friends and we were there to help each other in life , and made me forget the bad memories of childhood , with amazing times we were given together , but sadly they are all no longer with us , now I am truly alone for the first time in my life , which has left me feeling helpless for the first time in my adult life , and don't know which way to turn , and has left me feeling low . how can any one fill there shoes , those wonderful people who are no longer with us , I wish I new the answer , how to move on and find the good people I once knew , it's been the toughest time of my life . other then my childhood 💔👩👩👦👦👬👫🧑🤝🧑💞🥰🦮🐬
Glad you are here!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Absolutely beautiful wow thank you 🙏