To me, one of the strangest things about having a vlog channel about your life, is when you’re scheduled to post a video on a week when you just feel like a bad person. Fucking up in life all week long…and then capping the week off with a selfie movie about what you had for breakfast, what you’re wearing to your date, and how funny your jokes are. It doesn’t sit well to broadcast only select parts of myself. It feels like repeatedly looking into a mirror where my nose and left ear are always missing. It’s unsettling. And it leaves me unsure of what I actually look like. I receive a lot of love on this channel. Which has been an incredible gift, given me a lot of comfort, confidence and solace. And which has also led me to discover that it’s hard for me to feel loved without also feeling seen for my flaws. Sometimes the more comments of praise I read, the more I hate myself. “How deeply I must have deceived them.” UA-cam Caroline is much better than me. Yesterday I confessed to my sister that in moments of moral conundrum I sometimes catch myself thinking “what would UA-cam Caroline do?”. I wish I could be more like her. It’s not that anything I show is ever “not real”. But there’s just so much more to the human story. As a producer, I know that most parts of my day / myself don’t offer suitable entertainment value. But as a person, lovable moments often make me feel like a fraud. I expect there may be some comments of “You’re not a bad person, bad moods are normal, don't worry” and things like that - which are very kind comments and I appreciate them generally speaking, but I’m not fishing for that, that’s not the point of this video. Certainly, I do understand that this vlog contains mostly scenes of me simply in a bad mood. And I understand that being in a bad mood is not the same as being a bad person. Nor is it necessarily even “bad”. But I simply don’t have many of my true fuckup moments captured on tape. They tend to happen privately. But when they do happen, it’s usually during one of these bad moods. I’ve had to do some personal reflection this week. I’m working on changes for a better self. And for reasons that may not make sense to anyone, this video needed to be part of that. Thanks for being here And dang! this channel is getting weird huh
Don't worry darling! Don't self-sabotage.. even if it is just a version of you, we still really love that version. That doesn't mean we would not like you even if you have flaws. We all have bad parts, it doesn't mean that you should hate yourself for that... You are worthy of love and credibility for making us laugh and inspire every week ❤️
I feel like that when I meet friends for three hours. I am done up, and witty, and charming, and on point, and I sum up what I did so my life seems to make sense. They never see the weird, meandering, procrastinating, inefficient, moody me I experience so often. They just hear the narrative and see the best part of me. Not trying to deceive them, but of course I am also happy and focused when I'm with them. Would they like me if they knew "the real me"? My husband says: probably yes. Because everybody is like that. I suppose that experience is weirdly heightend for UA-camrs, but I think it doesn't mean your fake, or deceptive, or bad... just human. We do like human.
u need to fucken chill bietch, i get it you're aware, but it's really fine and you keep focusin on how upset you are great content and ur great, I wish u had the ego like a fat rich man and you would accept and brush off your own emotions easily thank u for being opem
we all fuck up constantly. at least I do. thanks for being real about it. you get compliments because you deserve them, even when you're angry. 😉 there are a lot of people in my life who hate me because i'm crass, or lack tact, or am too brutally honest... and while I reflect on ways I can be a nicer person to people... there are those in my life who love me for who I am. that's how I feel about you this video. shit, that's weird. i just said i love you
What the heck I came to this channel to be roasted alive for my decor decisions and now I find myself looking forward to each week’s therapy session or an entertaining rant that is all too relatable. Whatever is going on here, glad to be a part of this community, and always rooting for you girl
I’m tearing up because I feel seen. When I have days like these, I think of all the vlogs I watch and I’m like “am I normal?” It seems like everyone else has their shit together and I’m a chaotic mess 24/7. I love you for this, Caroline. Thank you for this. 🤍
During the whole kitchen segment I was just silently laughing because I have had SO MANY days like this lately and it's weirdly entertaining to hear other people rant about stuff they're pissed off about.
Same! I appreciate this delve into absolute normalcy. It's so refreshingly comforting to see someone else get flustered by life. We're all human, and seeing raw honesty is connection on a level rarely seen. Thank you, Caroline. 💜
I think I like your channel better than anything I’ve found on UA-cam. I normally get bored with people really quick I don’t think that will happen here and I thought I would just get really good design advice😂
People need to stop lying to themselves and calm down about negativity in general. "Good vibes only", barf. Being angry, negative and bitter in moderate amounts is both necessary and helpful. Gives you a chance to hone your skills of incorporating your shadow and taming it/channeling it into productivity, creativity and net positive. Anyway, that's my "I am not nice!" Skeletor rant. Don't be too hard on yourself Caroline, you're as lovely as can be 🙂
@@theta_ome Agreed, so many people walk around as this smiling ball of vitriol and resentment and then wonder why they end up snapping at gargantuan proportions. "Oh, I don't know what came over me?!?" Lol, yeah you do, it's just a couple year's worth of shit at once.
Yes to the rant where you are trying to entertain his interests and trying to keep an open mind only to have him try to tell you that your fair analysis and peaceful interpretation is wrong.
As far as I could tell, this wasn't the first time we saw you in some kind of a 'bad mood". Actually I think that's part of your personality. Not mainly the moods, but _showing and not hiding them._ And I think we (or the most of us) appreciate you being authentic and _not_ masking completely and editing it all out "perfectly"/for the perfect appearance, like all those "rainbow girls". Same opinion anyone?.. Anyway, great video. As always. Love you. Bye. ♡ Btw.: Your lens is absolutely fine! I don't even know what you're talking about!! 😅
I agree and I love that about her. Hers is the only interior design channel that I watch (well, hers and Nick's) because the others are just boring. Caroline seems like an actual real person. I don't feel lied to.
@@Lily-uv9uu That's not what I meant. I know some guy once told her about an other (better) lens and she changed to it. But here in this video she says her lens was dirty and also not appropriate bc. in general her video-/filming-techniques/-skills are bad.. I just wanted to say there's no dirt visible at all and everything is fine. 😊
Oh, THANK GOD!!!!!! Finally, a person who is NORMAL !!! I’m sooo darn tired of the false perfection tht is constantly posed on most channels. This makes me so much calmer even though I’m not happy you had a tough week. I hope the next week is/was better. ❤❤❤
As someone who grew up in an environment that encouraged numbness, at the age of 26 I am just now developing ✨feelings✨ and I actually feel incredibly grateful and excited when I feel upset (like a grateful and excited me is watching the upset me) since being upset means I am a human! With standards and opinions and feelings! Thanks for sharing this vlog. As I grow into having feelings, I appreciate all of them... even the negative ones. ❤
@Mackenzie, I like how you described that kind of environment-and environment of numbness. I could never find the right word for it. I grew up in the same kind of environment and also where people would get upset if you showed excitement or expressed how you felt. I've seen thankfully am now proud of how I make myself vulnerable to those whose deserve it, tell people I love them and express my joy's, frustrations, etc.I always tried to do this when growing up but was always the odd one out. Thanks for posting your comment as I rarely see anyone who went through the same or similar things growing up.We are alive and human and it's okay to show it!
"Like a greatful and exited me is watcing the upstairs me"... I love how you put that, its a really good way to view the way you are always watching yourself while being yourself... Idk XD I think i'm gonna steal it :>
"I'm done with people, I'm done with parking, and I'm done with armpits!" OMG yes, yes, and yeessss!!! I agree with you 1000%. You are hilarious, even on your " bad mood days". This video makes you even more relatable, shows your humility. You are a rare breed, Caroline!!
What Caroline doesn’t know is this incredibly authentic and unhinged rant in the kitchen WAVING A KNIFE 🔪 is what I came here for. I feel so validated and seen through her expressing her truth. It makes me feel ok expressing mine. Thank you ❤
Your angry days look a lot like mine. Yelling about things but with a funny twist on it. Really, you still maintain perspective when you’re mad which is amazing. None of this makes you a bad person, and I would argue that people automatically assume creators want to present their best selves because of course they do. Thank you for sharing, this is above and beyond gutsy and not something I’ve seen from a UA-camr before.
I just ended a relationship. Literally. This video is making it more bearable. Caroline, thank you. Your honesty and truth is making my heart hurt a little less 😢
Her getting angry at the coffee machine for brewing coffee so loudly was my moment where I've put a hand on my heart and softly gasped "omg we're the same"
I felt every second of it deep down in my soul. It's like one of those days where it seems, every person on this planet ONLY woke up that morning, to mess with my day. I'm glad it happens to others as well.
Hey girl, I can relate deeply to your rants, how everything and anything can just absolutely have you raging your face off. But I have to admit that even though you were positively furious I could not help but smile and laugh because I know exactly how that feels. Big props for being honest and daring to show it. You are just great!
I've been in the worst / weirdest mood for the past week, and feel less lonely watching this. Whether it was refreshing or uncomfortable (or both) for you, I appreciate it. Every one of us are made of many parts -- all true, all valid (shout out to IFS therapy). Obv everyone is many things, but it is comforting to see. Spesh bc I love you sm.
I couldn’t even wait until halfway through to comment. It’s probably gonna piss you off even more that everyone absolutely loves this video. You are hilarious and when you are angry it’s even more funny. The rant about the Sopranos was awesome and exactly how I feel when I’m being petty so it was great to see someone else is just like me. I’ll take your videos whether you’re being a good person or a “bad“ person. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
That sopranos rant brought back all the reasons I deleted those apps. But then it’s hard as heck to meet folks… so I cave for a few hours or a few days or on the very rare occasions a few weeks once or twice every year or two. 😂
as an asshole myself, this is very refreshing to watch. Not that you're an asshole, you're just a real, normal, regular person with real emotions and stuff. Nobody is happy, chill and healthy all the time
I'm not a youtuber, but i work with kids. Its like the same sort of thing, where you HAVE to be the Best You and showcase the happy, understanding side of yourself all the time. Which kids deserve, but it fucking... leaves you with a lot of pent up frustrations. WHICH is why i loved this unhinged, angry energy - makes me feel a lil less alone.
What's amazing is YOU ARE SO LOVABLE EVEN ON YOUR BAD DAYS. Also, thank you for humanizing this space, in a genuine, real, way. You are a LIGHT here (:
I was hiding in anonym silence watching your channel for a few weeks but now I have to speak/write because this is true bravery!!! I am amazed that you have the courage to film these moments. It is so therapeutic to watch as you just released all this tension and frustration. Thank you Caroline!
Caroline, I could go on and on and on about how quickly you have become my favorite person on UA-cam. I have been consuming UA-cam in various genres as my main source of entertainment for about a decade. NEVER and I mean that NEVER have I been more moved by and connected to a stranger. I love everything about you and what you do in the spaces you exist. You’re genuine, you’re bright, you inspire and I appreciate you. I have watched basically all of your videos in the last week since discovering your channel. As an introvert myself and my own reservations with other human beings, I will say man I’d fucking love to be your friend! You’re a gem and not in the rough, but for the whole world to see. Keep shining, even when you’re feeling dimmed you’re still brighter than you think! If you find yourself in Portland Oregon ever, let’s go thrifting! 🫶🏻✨🤗
I think it is important to have examples of female anger in media. A lot of times, women and other marginalized community's anger is dismissed and manipulated to render that community's voice unheard, but a lot of time when (white) male anger is portrayed in the media it is "heartfelt" and "rousing" and "something to be taken seriously." So thank you, for helping to show healthy/normal anger.
I busted out laughing when you said “is this like a regular vlog?” It definitely felt very normal and there was no need for an apology. I think you are just so authentically you that you have a small rant at least once a vlog so this was like an extended version of that. Loved this
Gotta spread some love because this video kind of completed the picture of how muuuch I appreciate you lol. You appear a very mentally awake person, trying to see your own mind and surroundings as they are and just finding how to work with it. I'm feeling actually understood in a way and find your views really realistic and interesting, which virtually never happens to me for youtubers. I'm also quite sure your way of consciously choosing which people, opinions and things to care about and put your energy into will keep serving you.
what matters most is how you decide to react to those feelings. you shouting and yelling is just a reflection of your moods, how you treat people is the real test of your integrity. having a bad mood doesn't make you a bad person, it's how you ultimately treat people that matters most.
I've just had a moment of synchronicity! I've had a bad week, I started to look for a job after two years of not working. I'm terrified of going to interviews and I cried every day because I feel worthless and stupid. So I was thinking about the typical question "what are your weaknesses" and I had this thought "what would Caroline say to this? I'm sure she doesn't have any" and bam! a video about her being a bad person. Of course I know everybody have their different sides, but in a very low moment you idealize everyone around you and think about yourself as the worst person on the Earth. But then you realize that many people think about themselves this way and of course it's always irrational thinking. Thank you, Caroline, for not being afraid of showing your weaknesses too, it helps to remember that we are all human and we have to treat outselves and others with kindness and compassion ❤️
I’m in my 30s went back to uni for a career change. Studied for two years and forgot what it was like to have a job. I was terrified of interviews to a point that I didn’t apply for anything for 3 months. I was appalled beyond belief . Having worked for over a decade I still had the feelings you had. There were times I felt so stupid. We all have our moments.
Honestley... I found this video weirdly relaxing. I've been feeling like this most days this year and watching you go through it so unapligeticly and me not judging you for it made me realize that i am too quick to judge myself for not dealing with my emotions gracefully all the time. thanks so much for this upload
It's unrealistic to be happy 24/7. Life has its ups and downs, and we are allowed to have different emotions. I respect her for being honest and real. Social media is too fake and always showing "happy and perfect." That's why I stay far away from it, it's not healthy. I love youtubers like Caroline because this is reality and I respect it. We all have days, we all have moods. It's called life. So thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. Freaking love you and always look forward to seeing what new video you have posted this week. Truly makes my weekend!
I just got out of an 8 year relationship I don’t expect you to read this but you’ve really really helped me I just moved in to a flat I absolutely love and I’m trying to decorate it too I’m an actress who gave up acting and now I’m in sales in a job I love but not necessarily feel fulfilled I would love to hear more about your relationship how you picked up the pieces and do you ever have bad days etc? I’m 30 and I feel like a mess but seeing you just shows me that I may just be a funny smart independent woman who’s doing her best and she’s just human I’ve clearly fucking imprinted on you lol
I love this. I'm dealing with someone close to me who is making me feel bad for saying something sarcastic or being in a bad mood sometimes. That makes no sense to me and is not realistic. I'd rather someone be real than pretend to be something they aren't. Thanks for showing us that you are human.
Caroline, I love how authentic, talented, smart, funny and creative you are. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I just found you on UA-cam about a month ago, but have shared your spilled wine analogy with almost 35 people already…it’s magical for someone who is downsizing and finding my new home style. You ROCK!
Omg, this was the best video on the internet! I'm genuinely sorry that you were in such terrible moods, because it really sucks to go through. BUT... this was the most relatable thing I've ever watched, and it had me dying laughing (it's funny because it's true type situations, you know?) I loved it, you are a gem, thank you for sharing your terrible moods. 💜
I told you before you were quickly becoming one of my favorite people. I think you just did it. Caroline, you are a wonderful, honest, flawed, funny, perfect human being. Please never change.
Fully appreciate the honesty in this. Lately, I've been ranting and raving (to an audience of one, mind you) about the littlest things to the point where I'm pissing myself off. Nice to know I'm not the only absolute menace on the planet. ❤️
Thank you for making me feel normal. I try to be as nice as possible but then I have moments like yours, when probably I won't be lashing out at people but I am really mean in my head and I hate everyone and everything. And the whole story ends up with me hating myself because I never say what I want to say but I can't say it coz it makes me feel like a terrible person... The bad thing is I get so overwhelmed with my negative emotions that I stop functioning. I will have days/weeks in which I don't want to cook, do my laundry, every tiny thing feels huge. I went to therapy without results because I also don't want to discuss it, as I am totally embarrassed with myself. The only good thing that came out is I worked on my relationship with family members. But when it comes to admitting I'm probably not a good person, I have huge problem with that.
I’m older than your parents and so relate to this video. We all had our stage to show our light and shadow side but definitely needed to keep the shadow side a lot quieter and around select people. Kudos to you on being authentic you here!🎉
There's absolutely a difference between a "bad person" and just a person who has the ability to feel their feelings out loud. As someone who has watched a lot of your content, I do feel like I've gotten good at noticing little flashes of anger or sadness or tiredness in you- I'd imagine a lot of your subs have. You're an expressive person, which is so refreshing - I think it adds to the honest and genuine feel of you and your vids. Even if you display a higher proportion of good days on your channel than bad days, it's still you, it's all part and parcel of you as a whole. Don't feel like a fraud because so many people see so much of your good side and like it- if we couldn't sense the flaws too then no-one would be able to relate. You're worthy of the praise you get my love, don't for a moment think that being short-tempered and snappy makes you any less of a person deserving of admiration. No-one's perfect, not you, not me, but I think you're pretty cool anyway :) Much hugs xx
Being angry at the guy in the khaki shirt was very relatable. I always know I'm on edge when I'm mad about innocent clothing choices! It's okay to be irritated. It's okay to feel negative. It's okay for everything to be fine and all wrong at the same time. Thank you, as always, for putting more realness into the world.
this is probably one of the strongest parasocial relationships i’ve felt with someone on youtube and it’s slightly scary but incredibly comforting during this time in my life… i feel like a chronically online freak for commenting this, but in the spirit of honesty 😣😅 but, i do think parasocial relationships can be beneficial sometimes. for example in my case, i have severe social anxiety (like i’m barely avoiding agoraphobia). for me, it’s difficult to imagine having close friendships. when i watch your videos, i feel like i’m actually hanging out with another human. it helps me imagine becoming friends with someone like you. plus, i learn a lot and laugh even more! you are a lot more authentic than you give yourself credit for. to me, your honesty about your flaws is a big reason your videos are so enjoyable. you are a normal person with neuroses and mistakes. i think the world would be a much more understanding place if we were all more honest about our unique palette of crazy.
Watching other vloggers always makes me wonder how everyone is so happy all the time. It’s really refreshing to see a more realistic portrayal of someone’s life. Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic on this channel, it really means a lot to people ❤️
"Despite the chemistry, we did not decide to meet in person." made me snort laugh! Your anger in this video is visceral and it makes me feel so seen cos like, same.
Ok this is weirdly therapeutic to watch lol. Thank you for this. I was in a bad mood and can so relate to Getting mad at the loud noise from coffee maker and other rants.. sometimes it takes seeing someone else experience this to take a step out of myself and realize it's maybe not so bad and things will be ok
You basically pushed me to start youtube with your art of making videos. Absolutely love it and love your honesty about your personality and former struggles like your eating disorder. So brave to talk about it! Thank you for the inspiration.
I know you didn't post this for us to just tell you how great you are and how you're not a bad person and blah blah blah. So I'm not going to do that. I'm just going to say that this vlog made me feel less..alone? less crazy? less like a b*tch? I love you and all your moods, Caroline! Thank you for this, my dude.
I just found your channel last week and I’ve been going back and watching your past videos. I just finished watching this one and through it I kept thinking, “she’s a female version of myself.” I absolutely love your content and I have subscribed! Thanks!
Real life ain't always pretty. It's got to be unnerving to film yourself constantly and then editing something cohesive together week after week. Don't be too hard on yourself. Not a one of us could pass the smell test on that. Your a gem Caroline, no need to explain yourself to anyone!!!
For getting rid of clothes I try to keep a bag where I toss clothes when I decide I don't want them anymore. When the bag is reasonably full, I donate the clothes. I like this system because I find the process of going through my closet to be tedious. It doesn't work quite as well for clothes you never wear but just pull something new out once in a while and do it all in bite size moments. It's too overwhelming to do all at once, for me.
I love you, Caroline! Your transparency, honesty and humor transcend timelessly. I’m old enough to be your grandmother! You always touch my heart and humanity❤️
Ah we're on the same level. I have the same feelings sometimes too. It is refreshing to see this. Thank you. I know it is hard to open up about this s* on the internet. But rather then say you're a bad person, think you sometimes are challenging. See yourself as expert level vs. beginner. No one is inherently bad and it is damaging to believe that.
Best video. I’m 70 yrs., and relate. Feeling “rough” at times never seems to go away. I’m just glad that mostly it fades away.(and, of course, any intelligent/sensitive person will go through these waves).
Thank you Caroline for sharing this content. On a societal level there's an unhealthy expectation of always showing your best in large part due to social media. Our bodies literally have systems that contribute to an undulating path of emotion. It is normal to be emotional!!! Let's stop shaming people for revealing emotions that are considered less ideal.
I am actually crying while watching this - because I see so much of myself here. You and I are so very much the same in how we express ourselves that it's a little creepy and watching you just rage at life is exactly what I do. Only I do it alone - like really alone. No vlog channel or anything. But maybe I am not so alone after all. Thank you.
This angry ranting whilst trying to just live your life is so relatable haha. New follower here and I just love you, your style and your bad moods so much!
Acknowledging the things that make us angry or sad or frustrated allows us to deal with them in a healthy way. You are allowed to feel the full spectrum of human emotions without judgment. I appreciate the transparency of your channel and your genuine nature. I’m so proud of you for being able to identify your feelings because that means you are now closer to processing through them healthily. ❤❤❤
I dk if my vocabulary is broad enough to explain how much I love and appreciate this video. I have gotten to where I instantly scroll past videos that have someone in full glam hair and makeup demonstrating how they did this craft project or cooked this meal. I dk if it’s my own crotchety-ness or what. I can’t spend another second of my life looking at it. I’m not showing up for “the tea” or whatever either. I can not relate to people who have thousand dollar hauls or who “thrift” pieces at $1k here and “I thrifted it for a steal at $800”. I spent months watching this woman decorate her forever home and then she broke down that she and her husband came up with her home decorating budget when they first bought their place a couple yrs ago. They’re fairly strict about allocating certain amounts per month and trying not to go over it. Her monthly home decor budget… $3k per month. For her own diys. Not for contracting. I had to unfollow. I felt like a fucking fool. And suddenly I realized that I don’t want to torture myself by watching content creators who aren’t relatable. It’s not like I’m unfollowing and hoping they’re doomed for failure. But more like by absorbing that content, I’m the one trying to “keep up” in a way and spending time and energy feeling lazy or inadequate or fucking discontent when that creator has sponsors or generational wealth or a retired spouse who just happened to be a general contractor and has their own wood shop. Hell, all of the above. Rambling. I guess what I’m trying to convey is that I’m making a conscious effort to protect myself from consuming content from folks that feel too stepford wifey. I saw someone on TikTok just today who found this cute little antique door handle on Etsy and bought it to replace a turning door knob on her pantry door. Then the backing on the antique knob didn’t cover the hole drilled through said door which is meant to house a standard doorknob assembly. So she grabbed a piece of very thin wood, held it up and said something like” I wonder if this over the door hole would work if I glued it on..” or something. That’s exactly how it plays out with me beginning with great intentions, affordable purchase and the idea to diy some cute simple upgrade. It’s far more relatable to me. That being said, I’ll be online looking for pretty door knobs to swap out on my own pantry door… and thanks for making this content.
I love this and everything about it. This world is exhausting with its standards for pleasing people and the relentless pursuit of perfection. It’s never enough and we’re only granted “a few bad days” when in reality, most days can have me irritated beyond belief at the audacity of expectations placed upon all of us. The filtered society we see keeps us feeling inadequate and defeated and I love you for showing your unfiltered version, because most won’t. ❤❤❤
I’m a newer subscriber of yours so I don’t know exactly your personal history of uploading and vlogging, but I just want to say that I find it really refreshing and honestly a relief to see a creator be honest about life and show that not every day is a good day and that’s okay. I think everyone could use a bit more honest and raw content
There are days that I'm in a mix of in a bad mood and also emotional and everything goes wrong to the point where it seems like life is having a laugh at my expense. So then I yell, swear and kind of cry and then I get over it.
Great vlog. I'm old now, but at your age fury was a frequent thing (hormonally driven?). Same kind of rage, too- silently hating strangers & burning up at the gall of their getting in my way...?! Of course- never expressed. So fun watching you build your channel. I'm sure it's going to get giant...Keep up the good work!
There's something sooo cathartic about seeing you rant about this dude from the dating app hahaha I can't even. I somehow love being in this ranting phase of a bad mood, my friend and I call it "Phase 3" and we just rant like crazy people until we feel better. I recommend
This is one of the most relatable vlogs I’ve ever watched. ❤ I’m going to make my friends watch it so that when I’m mad or frustrated about something, I can yell, “And there he was! Riding a scooter in a full suit!” And they will understand my frustration and we can laugh about the ridiculousness of it all 😂😂😂
this is such a great video, as you said many vloggers present a perfect life, but this one made me feel much better about having ups and lows in my mood. lots of love from Brazil ❤❤
I LOVE that she's vying for the WORST QUALITY UA-cam VIDEO Award. She wants to win... but honey, nope... there ARE worse. And I LOVE your videos. Keeping it real is awesome... Plus, I speed up videos to 2x and then everyone sounds like ME... because i talk FAST... angry or not.
Thank you for being your authentically self! You’re 1,000% correct that many people on YT showcase a small fraction to none of themselves. This video only made me adorn you even more because I, too am a devoted person to being as raw and honest as I can be. I’m such a moody person as well and I know I’m intolerable at times to deal with, but fck it. I’m only human and as long as I try to be a better version of myself the next day then that’s all what should matter.
Girl, I just started watching you over the last couple of months and I just have to say, “ I LOVE YOU!” I’m not weird or anything just found a kindred spirit!! Thank you 🙏🏽 keep up the good work! Peace ✌🏼
Caroline, you are not a bad person! You are a wonderful human being that openly and creatively expresses her imperfectly perfect humanness! Nothing wrong with that. It’s actually very refreshing! 😊🙏🏼
Your transparency and honesty is so fascinating and inspiring girl. Thank you so much for this, the internet needs more of this. This helps people sooo much to feel less alone (it does so for me at least). THANK YOU CAROLINE💗
I always feel silly after being in a bad mood. I use to have this boss who would come in a lot and be in the worse mood ,I would just smile and try not to make it worse.The best thing she ever told me was that she couldn't stay that way around me. I'm glad I have someone like that for me .I hope you find someone like that for you because you are a true, good honest person. By the way love that green forest fabric.
Your channel is not getting weird, Caroline! It is unique and I can only speak for myself, but I greatly appreciate your honesty! I always will. You’re too awesome to feel like you have to hide the bad moments…but I get it. It’s the internet, so a lot of things still need to be private. Thank you for filming and sharing this vlog. As you continue to work on yourself, I will surely be doing the same…as I have a lot to work on as well. You are not alone. 💗
Caroline you are so entertaining. You have an unapologetic honesty about you that could be construed as arrogance but I don’t read you that way because you also show quite a bit of humility. And not to mention you are hilarious! You have a phenomenal eye for design and I wish you the best.
Love it. The weird thing to me is that your rotten moods look legitimate, like, they're not irrational, they're just natural reactions to things going wrong or things that are annoying. I totally get it. And yeah, not being "your best" or not being in a "good mood" all the time just means you're human. Also, what color did you paint your kitchen? I've been looking for the right color for my kitchen and that color looks perfect.
Just as little things can make us happy, the same goes for little things making us stroppy. You share your life with us - with all the interesting and fun stuff, so having the honesty and trust to share your not so positive moments and bad moods is what makes you human and relatable.
Thank you for showing yourself smack talking. I do it all the time, but when "others" accidentally hear me, they look so shook that I actually question if I'm hiding out-of-bounds personality. I never realized how much my inner monologue was yelling obscenities at myself until I regularly took hot yoga classes. The shit I would yell at myself was awful. It was actually a bit of a reckoning that I could not go on with that inner talk. I still yell loudly at assholes in my car, but I call myself an asshole less often than before, especially in my imposter syndrome attacks. Best to you
you know what? I like you! I don't watch vlog channels (honest or not), i don't have any use of life advice videos, even honest and good ones (though i should) - but i still watch you for the pure *realness* of you, more than literally anyone else i've seen online. You feel like a real living person and I appreciate you for that. Maybe in another life we'd be friends!
jesus christ, you're literally the best. THE. BEST. so fucking real 🤩🤩one of the things I hate most about the way social media has gone (aside from all the photoshopped tiny waists and giant lips), is TOXIC POSITIVITY. We all feel mad or sad or whatever at some point... and seeing others go through the same shit we do CONNECTS us. I never understood the 'you're bringing me down' thing. No way, you're CONNECTING us bc i see you going through it just like me. bravo for this video, srsly xoxo
To me, one of the strangest things about having a vlog channel about your life, is when you’re scheduled to post a video on a week when you just feel like a bad person. Fucking up in life all week long…and then capping the week off with a selfie movie about what you had for breakfast, what you’re wearing to your date, and how funny your jokes are.
It doesn’t sit well to broadcast only select parts of myself. It feels like repeatedly looking into a mirror where my nose and left ear are always missing. It’s unsettling. And it leaves me unsure of what I actually look like.
I receive a lot of love on this channel. Which has been an incredible gift, given me a lot of comfort, confidence and solace. And which has also led me to discover that it’s hard for me to feel loved without also feeling seen for my flaws. Sometimes the more comments of praise I read, the more I hate myself. “How deeply I must have deceived them.”
UA-cam Caroline is much better than me. Yesterday I confessed to my sister that in moments of moral conundrum I sometimes catch myself thinking “what would UA-cam Caroline do?”. I wish I could be more like her.
It’s not that anything I show is ever “not real”. But there’s just so much more to the human story. As a producer, I know that most parts of my day / myself don’t offer suitable entertainment value. But as a person, lovable moments often make me feel like a fraud.
I expect there may be some comments of “You’re not a bad person, bad moods are normal, don't worry” and things like that - which are very kind comments and I appreciate them generally speaking, but I’m not fishing for that, that’s not the point of this video. Certainly, I do understand that this vlog contains mostly scenes of me simply in a bad mood. And I understand that being in a bad mood is not the same as being a bad person. Nor is it necessarily even “bad”. But I simply don’t have many of my true fuckup moments captured on tape. They tend to happen privately. But when they do happen, it’s usually during one of these bad moods.
I’ve had to do some personal reflection this week. I’m working on changes for a better self. And for reasons that may not make sense to anyone, this video needed to be part of that.
Thanks for being here
And dang! this channel is getting weird huh
Don't worry darling! Don't self-sabotage.. even if it is just a version of you, we still really love that version. That doesn't mean we would not like you even if you have flaws. We all have bad parts, it doesn't mean that you should hate yourself for that... You are worthy of love and credibility for making us laugh and inspire every week ❤️
Still love you Caroline. Hugs.
I feel like that when I meet friends for three hours. I am done up, and witty, and charming, and on point, and I sum up what I did so my life seems to make sense. They never see the weird, meandering, procrastinating, inefficient, moody me I experience so often. They just hear the narrative and see the best part of me. Not trying to deceive them, but of course I am also happy and focused when I'm with them. Would they like me if they knew "the real me"? My husband says: probably yes. Because everybody is like that. I suppose that experience is weirdly heightend for UA-camrs, but I think it doesn't mean your fake, or deceptive, or bad... just human. We do like human.
u need to fucken chill bietch, i get it you're aware, but it's really fine and you keep focusin on how upset you are
great content and ur great, I wish u had the ego like a fat rich man and you would accept and brush off your own emotions easily
thank u for being opem
we all fuck up constantly. at least I do. thanks for being real about it. you get compliments because you deserve them, even when you're angry. 😉 there are a lot of people in my life who hate me because i'm crass, or lack tact, or am too brutally honest... and while I reflect on ways I can be a nicer person to people... there are those in my life who love me for who I am. that's how I feel about you this video. shit, that's weird. i just said i love you
What the heck I came to this channel to be roasted alive for my decor decisions and now I find myself looking forward to each week’s therapy session or an entertaining rant that is all too relatable. Whatever is going on here, glad to be a part of this community, and always rooting for you girl
I don’t know how I end up in here too, but now in here to stay.
Yep
Ha ha. Today is my first day in Caroline-land. I'm pretty much hooked. This one is stellar. Bad people unite!
same here
Omg same! I’m so inspired after binging on these videos 🤣
"The slope of the earth was f*cking with me." - this is truth. Thank you for sharing real life.
A bad mood doesn't equate to a bad person. Just make us part of being human. Love you more for showing this. No apologies!
Agreed Sally
THIS!
She said that in her comment
Truth! Please read her pinned comment♥️✌🏻
I’m tearing up because I feel seen. When I have days like these, I think of all the vlogs I watch and I’m like “am I normal?” It seems like everyone else has their shit together and I’m a chaotic mess 24/7. I love you for this, Caroline. Thank you for this. 🤍
During the whole kitchen segment I was just silently laughing because I have had SO MANY days like this lately and it's weirdly entertaining to hear other people rant about stuff they're pissed off about.
Same! I appreciate this delve into absolute normalcy. It's so refreshingly comforting to see someone else get flustered by life. We're all human, and seeing raw honesty is connection on a level rarely seen. Thank you, Caroline. 💜
Me too! I know the feeling
Yep!
I think I like your channel better than anything I’ve found on UA-cam. I normally get bored with people really quick I don’t think that will happen here and I thought I would just get really good design advice😂
Same!
People need to stop lying to themselves and calm down about negativity in general. "Good vibes only", barf. Being angry, negative and bitter in moderate amounts is both necessary and helpful. Gives you a chance to hone your skills of incorporating your shadow and taming it/channeling it into productivity, creativity and net positive. Anyway, that's my "I am not nice!" Skeletor rant. Don't be too hard on yourself Caroline, you're as lovely as can be 🙂
" 'Good vibes only', barf"
For. Real. Some shit is fucking annoying, let me be annoyed about it.
It has a name - toxic positivity. We must manage and balance our emotions, not shove them into a box until people explode.
@@usernaames Hell yeah!
@@theta_ome Agreed, so many people walk around as this smiling ball of vitriol and resentment and then wonder why they end up snapping at gargantuan proportions. "Oh, I don't know what came over me?!?" Lol, yeah you do, it's just a couple year's worth of shit at once.
@@theta_ome Also, love your kitty, he/she looks awesome and adorable!😻
Yes to the rant where you are trying to entertain his interests and trying to keep an open mind only to have him try to tell you that your fair analysis and peaceful interpretation is wrong.
As far as I could tell, this wasn't the first time we saw you in some kind of a 'bad mood".
Actually I think that's part of your personality. Not mainly the moods, but _showing and not hiding them._
And I think we (or the most of us) appreciate you being authentic and _not_ masking completely and editing it all out "perfectly"/for the perfect appearance, like all those "rainbow girls".
Same opinion anyone?..
Anyway, great video. As always. Love you. Bye.
♡
Btw.: Your lens is absolutely fine! I don't even know what you're talking about!! 😅
I agree and I love that about her. Hers is the only interior design channel that I watch (well, hers and Nick's) because the others are just boring.
Caroline seems like an actual real person. I don't feel lied to.
Same
Frogenius W: I have the same opinion.
I know what she’s talking about. A guy in the comments told her to use a different lens but she changed it
@@Lily-uv9uu That's not what I meant.
I know some guy once told her about an other (better) lens and she changed to it.
But here in this video she says her lens was dirty and also not appropriate bc. in general her video-/filming-techniques/-skills are bad..
I just wanted to say there's no dirt visible at all and everything is fine.
😊
Oh, THANK GOD!!!!!! Finally, a person who is NORMAL !!! I’m sooo darn tired of the false perfection tht is constantly posed on most channels. This makes me so much calmer even though I’m not happy you had a tough week. I hope the next week is/was better. ❤❤❤
As someone who grew up in an environment that encouraged numbness, at the age of 26 I am just now developing ✨feelings✨ and I actually feel incredibly grateful and excited when I feel upset (like a grateful and excited me is watching the upset me) since being upset means I am a human! With standards and opinions and feelings! Thanks for sharing this vlog. As I grow into having feelings, I appreciate all of them... even the negative ones. ❤
@Mackenzie, I like how you described that kind of environment-and environment of numbness. I could never find the right word for it. I grew up in the same kind of environment and also where people would get upset if you showed excitement or expressed how you felt. I've seen thankfully am now proud of how I make myself vulnerable to those whose deserve it, tell people I love them and express my joy's, frustrations, etc.I always tried to do this when growing up but was always the odd one out. Thanks for posting your comment as I rarely see anyone who went through the same or similar things growing up.We are alive and human and it's okay to show it!
This
"Like a greatful and exited me is watcing the upstairs me"... I love how you put that, its a really good way to view the way you are always watching yourself while being yourself... Idk XD
I think i'm gonna steal it :>
@@Starlight_Akira not stealing, let's share it 😘
I agree! It's great seeing a woman be angry!
"I'm done with people, I'm done with parking, and I'm done with armpits!" OMG yes, yes, and yeessss!!! I agree with you 1000%. You are hilarious, even on your " bad mood days". This video makes you even more relatable, shows your humility. You are a rare breed, Caroline!!
Whatever the mood Caroline, we’re here for it.
Love this video 😂!!! Armpits so relatable Lol!!!
What Caroline doesn’t know is this incredibly authentic and unhinged rant in the kitchen WAVING A KNIFE 🔪 is what I came here for. I feel so validated and seen through her expressing her truth. It makes me feel ok expressing mine. Thank you ❤
Your angry days look a lot like mine. Yelling about things but with a funny twist on it. Really, you still maintain perspective when you’re mad which is amazing. None of this makes you a bad person, and I would argue that people automatically assume creators want to present their best selves because of course they do. Thank you for sharing, this is above and beyond gutsy and not something I’ve seen from a UA-camr before.
I agree 100%. Way too many UA-camrs are like clones of each other; refreshing to see some honesty, not just personal branding.
I just ended a relationship. Literally. This video is making it more bearable. Caroline, thank you. Your honesty and truth is making my heart hurt a little less 😢
“Close before I slap you…thank you.” Are we the same person? This makes me feel better about my own feelings, thank you!
Her getting angry at the coffee machine for brewing coffee so loudly was my moment where I've put a hand on my heart and softly gasped "omg we're the same"
😄 yesss!
I love this. Especially as a woman, I tend to hold this part of myself back and i loved seeing you be honest and vulnerable with your community.
The rant about the park is actual PERFECTION- Speaks to me on a spiritual level.
I felt every second of it deep down in my soul. It's like one of those days where it seems, every person on this planet ONLY woke up that morning, to mess with my day. I'm glad it happens to others as well.
the SLOPE OF THE EARTH. [I have beeeeen there]
Same
not sure which was better - Slope of the Earth or “forgot how elevators work” 😂
@@elalle not sure which was better - Slope of the Earth or “forgot how elevators work” 😂
Hey girl, I can relate deeply to your rants, how everything and anything can just absolutely have you raging your face off. But I have to admit that even though you were positively furious I could not help but smile and laugh because I know exactly how that feels. Big props for being honest and daring to show it. You are just great!
You had me at "the slope of the earth was bugging me!" LOL You are the single most relatable human on your tube. That's why we love you!
I've been in the worst / weirdest mood for the past week, and feel less lonely watching this. Whether it was refreshing or uncomfortable (or both) for you, I appreciate it. Every one of us are made of many parts -- all true, all valid (shout out to IFS therapy). Obv everyone is many things, but it is comforting to see. Spesh bc I love you sm.
I couldn’t even wait until halfway through to comment. It’s probably gonna piss you off even more that everyone absolutely loves this video. You are hilarious and when you are angry it’s even more funny. The rant about the Sopranos was awesome and exactly how I feel when I’m being petty so it was great to see someone else is just like me. I’ll take your videos whether you’re being a good person or a “bad“ person. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Agree! 😂
Agree!
"Hoes be telling me" 😂
Omg yes - the sopranos rant made me laugh out loud 😂😂😂😂
That sopranos rant brought back all the reasons I deleted those apps. But then it’s hard as heck to meet folks… so I cave for a few hours or a few days or on the very rare occasions a few weeks once or twice every year or two. 😂
as an asshole myself, this is very refreshing to watch. Not that you're an asshole, you're just a real, normal, regular person with real emotions and stuff. Nobody is happy, chill and healthy all the time
I'm not a youtuber, but i work with kids. Its like the same sort of thing, where you HAVE to be the Best You and showcase the happy, understanding side of yourself all the time. Which kids deserve, but it fucking... leaves you with a lot of pent up frustrations. WHICH is why i loved this unhinged, angry energy - makes me feel a lil less alone.
What's amazing is YOU ARE SO LOVABLE EVEN ON YOUR BAD DAYS. Also, thank you for humanizing this space, in a genuine, real, way. You are a LIGHT here (:
I was hiding in anonym silence watching your channel for a few weeks but now I have to speak/write because this is true bravery!!! I am amazed that you have the courage to film these moments. It is so therapeutic to watch as you just released all this tension and frustration. Thank you Caroline!
Honestly love this. Being an imperfect human isn't being a "bad person" though.
Being bad at being perfect isn't being bad at being.
Caroline, I could go on and on and on about how quickly you have become my favorite person on UA-cam. I have been consuming UA-cam in various genres as my main source of entertainment for about a decade. NEVER and I mean that NEVER have I been more moved by and connected to a stranger. I love everything about you and what you do in the spaces you exist. You’re genuine, you’re bright, you inspire and I appreciate you. I have watched basically all of your videos in the last week since discovering your channel. As an introvert myself and my own reservations with other human beings, I will say man I’d fucking love to be your friend! You’re a gem and not in the rough, but for the whole world to see. Keep shining, even when you’re feeling dimmed you’re still brighter than you think!
If you find yourself in Portland Oregon ever, let’s go thrifting! 🫶🏻✨🤗
I think it is important to have examples of female anger in media. A lot of times, women and other marginalized community's anger is dismissed and manipulated to render that community's voice unheard, but a lot of time when (white) male anger is portrayed in the media it is "heartfelt" and "rousing" and "something to be taken seriously." So thank you, for helping to show healthy/normal anger.
I busted out laughing when you said “is this like a regular vlog?” It definitely felt very normal and there was no need for an apology. I think you are just so authentically you that you have a small rant at least once a vlog so this was like an extended version of that. Loved this
Gotta spread some love because this video kind of completed the picture of how muuuch I appreciate you lol. You appear a very mentally awake person, trying to see your own mind and surroundings as they are and just finding how to work with it. I'm feeling actually understood in a way and find your views really realistic and interesting, which virtually never happens to me for youtubers. I'm also quite sure your way of consciously choosing which people, opinions and things to care about and put your energy into will keep serving you.
Being real is way more attractive than being fake. Thanks!
That is so true!
From the bottom of my heart thank you for this video. I was ranting right there with you. LOUD PEOPLE AT INCONVENIENT MOMENTS ARE THE WORST!
Bad mood in the kitchen(this is just as far as I've gotten) is an animated depiction of my own PMS 😃
what matters most is how you decide to react to those feelings. you shouting and yelling is just a reflection of your moods, how you treat people is the real test of your integrity. having a bad mood doesn't make you a bad person, it's how you ultimately treat people that matters most.
I've just had a moment of synchronicity! I've had a bad week, I started to look for a job after two years of not working. I'm terrified of going to interviews and I cried every day because I feel worthless and stupid. So I was thinking about the typical question "what are your weaknesses" and I had this thought "what would Caroline say to this? I'm sure she doesn't have any" and bam! a video about her being a bad person. Of course I know everybody have their different sides, but in a very low moment you idealize everyone around you and think about yourself as the worst person on the Earth. But then you realize that many people think about themselves this way and of course it's always irrational thinking. Thank you, Caroline, for not being afraid of showing your weaknesses too, it helps to remember that we are all human and we have to treat outselves and others with kindness and compassion ❤️
I’m in my 30s went back to uni for a career change. Studied for two years and forgot what it was like to have a job. I was terrified of interviews to a point that I didn’t apply for anything for 3 months. I was appalled beyond belief . Having worked for over a decade I still had the feelings you had. There were times I felt so stupid. We all have our moments.
Hey girls, same here.. I am in a rut and not applying for the past 3 months because im scared and i feel unqualified
Honestley... I found this video weirdly relaxing.
I've been feeling like this most days this year and watching you go through it so unapligeticly and me not judging you for it made me realize that i am too quick to judge myself for not dealing with my emotions gracefully all the time.
thanks so much for this upload
It's unrealistic to be happy 24/7. Life has its ups and downs, and we are allowed to have different emotions. I respect her for being honest and real. Social media is too fake and always showing "happy and perfect." That's why I stay far away from it, it's not healthy. I love youtubers like Caroline because this is reality and I respect it. We all have days, we all have moods. It's called life. So thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. Freaking love you and always look forward to seeing what new video you have posted this week. Truly makes my weekend!
I just got out of an 8 year relationship
I don’t expect you to read this but you’ve really really helped me
I just moved in to a flat I absolutely love and I’m trying to decorate it too
I’m an actress who gave up acting and now I’m in sales in a job I love but not necessarily feel fulfilled
I would love to hear more about your relationship how you picked up the pieces and do you ever have bad days etc? I’m 30 and I feel like a mess but seeing you just shows me that I may just be a funny smart independent woman who’s doing her best and she’s just human
I’ve clearly fucking imprinted on you lol
I love this. I'm dealing with someone close to me who is making me feel bad for saying something sarcastic or being in a bad mood sometimes. That makes no sense to me and is not realistic. I'd rather someone be real than pretend to be something they aren't. Thanks for showing us that you are human.
Relatable all the way through but, hearing you call these fabric swatches your children brought this whole vlog home for me. Much respect girl
Caroline, I love how authentic, talented, smart, funny and creative you are. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I just found you on UA-cam about a month ago, but have shared your spilled wine analogy with almost 35 people already…it’s magical for someone who is downsizing and finding my new home style. You ROCK!
Omg, this was the best video on the internet! I'm genuinely sorry that you were in such terrible moods, because it really sucks to go through. BUT... this was the most relatable thing I've ever watched, and it had me dying laughing (it's funny because it's true type situations, you know?) I loved it, you are a gem, thank you for sharing your terrible moods. 💜
I told you before you were quickly becoming one of my favorite people. I think you just did it. Caroline, you are a wonderful, honest, flawed, funny, perfect human being. Please never change.
Dear Caroline, I so love this video. Seeing other people furious calms me down and proves that I am not alone with the "freak out thing".
How about some heavy metal music? Really helps me in this way
Fully appreciate the honesty in this. Lately, I've been ranting and raving (to an audience of one, mind you) about the littlest things to the point where I'm pissing myself off. Nice to know I'm not the only absolute menace on the planet. ❤️
Thank you for making me feel normal. I try to be as nice as possible but then I have moments like yours, when probably I won't be lashing out at people but I am really mean in my head and I hate everyone and everything. And the whole story ends up with me hating myself because I never say what I want to say but I can't say it coz it makes me feel like a terrible person...
The bad thing is I get so overwhelmed with my negative emotions that I stop functioning. I will have days/weeks in which I don't want to cook, do my laundry, every tiny thing feels huge. I went to therapy without results because I also don't want to discuss it, as I am totally embarrassed with myself. The only good thing that came out is I worked on my relationship with family members. But when it comes to admitting I'm probably not a good person, I have huge problem with that.
I’m older than your parents and so relate to this video. We all had our stage to show our light and shadow side but definitely needed to keep the shadow side a lot quieter and around select people. Kudos to you on being authentic you here!🎉
There's absolutely a difference between a "bad person" and just a person who has the ability to feel their feelings out loud. As someone who has watched a lot of your content, I do feel like I've gotten good at noticing little flashes of anger or sadness or tiredness in you- I'd imagine a lot of your subs have. You're an expressive person, which is so refreshing - I think it adds to the honest and genuine feel of you and your vids. Even if you display a higher proportion of good days on your channel than bad days, it's still you, it's all part and parcel of you as a whole. Don't feel like a fraud because so many people see so much of your good side and like it- if we couldn't sense the flaws too then no-one would be able to relate. You're worthy of the praise you get my love, don't for a moment think that being short-tempered and snappy makes you any less of a person deserving of admiration. No-one's perfect, not you, not me, but I think you're pretty cool anyway :) Much hugs xx
Being angry at the guy in the khaki shirt was very relatable. I always know I'm on edge when I'm mad about innocent clothing choices! It's okay to be irritated. It's okay to feel negative. It's okay for everything to be fine and all wrong at the same time. Thank you, as always, for putting more realness into the world.
My favorite part as well.
this is probably one of the strongest parasocial relationships i’ve felt with someone on youtube and it’s slightly scary but incredibly comforting during this time in my life… i feel like a chronically online freak for commenting this, but in the spirit of honesty 😣😅 but, i do think parasocial relationships can be beneficial sometimes. for example in my case, i have severe social anxiety (like i’m barely avoiding agoraphobia). for me, it’s difficult to imagine having close friendships. when i watch your videos, i feel like i’m actually hanging out with another human. it helps me imagine becoming friends with someone like you. plus, i learn a lot and laugh even more!
you are a lot more authentic than you give yourself credit for. to me, your honesty about your flaws is a big reason your videos are so enjoyable. you are a normal person with neuroses and mistakes. i think the world would be a much more understanding place if we were all more honest about our unique palette of crazy.
No need to apologize for being human. I'm so glad your doing this and showing us these sides of yourself. 👍❤️
THIS is relatability. I've also been having a week. Major props!
Watching other vloggers always makes me wonder how everyone is so happy all the time. It’s really refreshing to see a more realistic portrayal of someone’s life. Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic on this channel, it really means a lot to people ❤️
"Despite the chemistry, we did not decide to meet in person." made me snort laugh! Your anger in this video is visceral and it makes me feel so seen cos like, same.
Ok this is weirdly therapeutic to watch lol. Thank you for this. I was in a bad mood and can so relate to Getting mad at the loud noise from coffee maker and other rants.. sometimes it takes seeing someone else experience this to take a step out of myself and realize it's maybe not so bad and things will be ok
You basically pushed me to start youtube with your art of making videos. Absolutely love it and love your honesty about your personality and former struggles like your eating disorder. So brave to talk about it! Thank you for the inspiration.
I know you didn't post this for us to just tell you how great you are and how you're not a bad person and blah blah blah. So I'm not going to do that. I'm just going to say that this vlog made me feel less..alone? less crazy? less like a b*tch? I love you and all your moods, Caroline! Thank you for this, my dude.
I just found your channel last week and I’ve been going back and watching your past videos.
I just finished watching this one and through it I kept thinking, “she’s a female version of myself.”
I absolutely love your content and I have subscribed!
Thanks!
Real life ain't always pretty. It's got to be unnerving to film yourself constantly and then editing something cohesive together week after week. Don't be too hard on yourself. Not a one of us could pass the smell test on that. Your a gem Caroline, no need to explain yourself to anyone!!!
Thank you for talking about anger, I feel angry most of the time and I don't understand why I have to hide it and fake happiness.
For getting rid of clothes I try to keep a bag where I toss clothes when I decide I don't want them anymore. When the bag is reasonably full, I donate the clothes. I like this system because I find the process of going through my closet to be tedious. It doesn't work quite as well for clothes you never wear but just pull something new out once in a while and do it all in bite size moments. It's too overwhelming to do all at once, for me.
I love you, Caroline! Your transparency, honesty and humor transcend timelessly. I’m old enough to be your grandmother! You always touch my heart and humanity❤️
I don’t think I’ve ever felt so seen in my life!!
Ah we're on the same level. I have the same feelings sometimes too. It is refreshing to see this. Thank you. I know it is hard to open up about this s* on the internet. But rather then say you're a bad person, think you sometimes are challenging. See yourself as expert level vs. beginner. No one is inherently bad and it is damaging to believe that.
I LOVE bad mood Caroline. Its amazing, this is how I feel a lot. Its all about trying to work to allowing the shitty days to wash over you.
Best video. I’m 70 yrs., and relate. Feeling “rough” at times never seems to go away. I’m just glad that mostly it fades away.(and, of course, any intelligent/sensitive person will go through these waves).
"The slope of the Earth was f***ing with me!" LMAO
This really is a mood.
YAS‼️ More of this!! Let’s make this go viral! You helped me feel better about myself and my bad moods. Thank you‼️
Thank you Caroline for sharing this content. On a societal level there's an unhealthy expectation of always showing your best in large part due to social media. Our bodies literally have systems that contribute to an undulating path of emotion. It is normal to be emotional!!! Let's stop shaming people for revealing emotions that are considered less ideal.
I am actually crying while watching this - because I see so much of myself here. You and I are so very much the same in how we express ourselves that it's a little creepy and watching you just rage at life is exactly what I do. Only I do it alone - like really alone. No vlog channel or anything. But maybe I am not so alone after all. Thank you.
This angry ranting whilst trying to just live your life is so relatable haha. New follower here and I just love you, your style and your bad moods so much!
Acknowledging the things that make us angry or sad or frustrated allows us to deal with them in a healthy way. You are allowed to feel the full spectrum of human emotions without judgment. I appreciate the transparency of your channel and your genuine nature. I’m so proud of you for being able to identify your feelings because that means you are now closer to processing through them healthily. ❤❤❤
I dk if my vocabulary is broad enough to explain how much I love and appreciate this video. I have gotten to where I instantly scroll past videos that have someone in full glam hair and makeup demonstrating how they did this craft project or cooked this meal. I dk if it’s my own crotchety-ness or what. I can’t spend another second of my life looking at it. I’m not showing up for “the tea” or whatever either. I can not relate to people who have thousand dollar hauls or who “thrift” pieces at $1k here and “I thrifted it for a steal at $800”. I spent months watching this woman decorate her forever home and then she broke down that she and her husband came up with her home decorating budget when they first bought their place a couple yrs ago. They’re fairly strict about allocating certain amounts per month and trying not to go over it. Her monthly home decor budget… $3k per month. For her own diys. Not for contracting. I had to unfollow. I felt like a fucking fool. And suddenly I realized that I don’t want to torture myself by watching content creators who aren’t relatable. It’s not like I’m unfollowing and hoping they’re doomed for failure. But more like by absorbing that content, I’m the one trying to “keep up” in a way and spending time and energy feeling lazy or inadequate or fucking discontent when that creator has sponsors or generational wealth or a retired spouse who just happened to be a general contractor and has their own wood shop. Hell, all of the above. Rambling. I guess what I’m trying to convey is that I’m making a conscious effort to protect myself from consuming content from folks that feel too stepford wifey. I saw someone on TikTok just today who found this cute little antique door handle on Etsy and bought it to replace a turning door knob on her pantry door. Then the backing on the antique knob didn’t cover the hole drilled through said door which is meant to house a standard doorknob assembly. So she grabbed a piece of very thin wood, held it up and said something like” I wonder if this over the door hole would work if I glued it on..” or something. That’s exactly how it plays out with me beginning with great intentions, affordable purchase and the idea to diy some cute simple upgrade. It’s far more relatable to me. That being said, I’ll be online looking for pretty door knobs to swap out on my own pantry door… and thanks for making this content.
I love this and everything about it. This world is exhausting with its standards for pleasing people and the relentless pursuit of perfection. It’s never enough and we’re only granted “a few bad days” when in reality, most days can have me irritated beyond belief at the audacity of expectations placed upon all of us. The filtered society we see keeps us feeling inadequate and defeated and I love you for showing your unfiltered version, because most won’t. ❤❤❤
I’m a newer subscriber of yours so I don’t know exactly your personal history of uploading and vlogging, but I just want to say that I find it really refreshing and honestly a relief to see a creator be honest about life and show that not every day is a good day and that’s okay. I think everyone could use a bit more honest and raw content
Just keeping it girl! Love it! Need more like you! Everyone needs to see this!
There are days that I'm in a mix of in a bad mood and also emotional and everything goes wrong to the point where it seems like life is having a laugh at my expense. So then I yell, swear and kind of cry and then I get over it.
Great vlog. I'm old now, but at your age fury was a frequent thing (hormonally driven?). Same kind of rage, too- silently hating strangers & burning up at the gall of their getting in my way...?! Of course- never expressed. So fun watching you build your channel. I'm sure it's going to get giant...Keep up the good work!
There's something sooo cathartic about seeing you rant about this dude from the dating app hahaha I can't even. I somehow love being in this ranting phase of a bad mood, my friend and I call it "Phase 3" and we just rant like crazy people until we feel better. I recommend
Calling it, this will be your most watched vlog to date. Honestly you are quite enjoyable to watch even when you are in a bad mood :) .
I ❤ you even more now for showing us the good the bad and the ugly. I think you’re even funnier when you’re angry! 😄
This is one of the most relatable vlogs I’ve ever watched. ❤
I’m going to make my friends watch it so that when I’m mad or frustrated about something, I can yell, “And there he was! Riding a scooter in a full suit!” And they will understand my frustration and we can laugh about the ridiculousness of it all 😂😂😂
This is the MOST RELATABLE video I've EVER SEEN!
this is such a great video, as you said many vloggers present a perfect life, but this one made me feel much better about having ups and lows in my mood. lots of love from Brazil ❤❤
I LOVE that she's vying for the WORST QUALITY UA-cam VIDEO Award. She wants to win... but honey, nope... there ARE worse.
And I LOVE your videos. Keeping it real is awesome... Plus, I speed up videos to 2x and then everyone sounds like ME... because i talk FAST... angry or not.
Thank you for being your authentically self! You’re 1,000% correct that many people on YT showcase a small fraction to none of themselves. This video only made me adorn you even more because I, too am a devoted person to being as raw and honest as I can be. I’m such a moody person as well and I know I’m intolerable at times to deal with, but fck it. I’m only human and as long as I try to be a better version of myself the next day then that’s all what should matter.
Girl, I just started watching you over the last couple of months and I just have to say, “ I LOVE YOU!” I’m not weird or anything just found a kindred spirit!! Thank you 🙏🏽 keep up the good work! Peace ✌🏼
You just changed me mood from angry to happy. Thank you. God bless and protect you always. 🙏
Caroline, you are not a bad person! You are a wonderful human being that openly and creatively expresses her imperfectly perfect humanness! Nothing wrong with that. It’s actually very refreshing! 😊🙏🏼
Your transparency and honesty is so fascinating and inspiring girl. Thank you so much for this, the internet needs more of this. This helps people sooo much to feel less alone (it does so for me at least). THANK YOU CAROLINE💗
I always feel silly after being in a bad mood. I use to have this boss who would come in a lot and be in the worse mood ,I would just smile and try not to make it worse.The best thing she ever told me was that she couldn't stay that way around me. I'm glad I have someone like that for me .I hope you find someone like that for you because you are a true, good honest person. By the way love that green forest fabric.
"AND HOS BE TELLIN' ME!" lol - This is the greatest gift the Internet has ever received. Thank you for your transparency and humor. ♥
Your channel is not getting weird, Caroline! It is unique and I can only speak for myself, but I greatly appreciate your honesty! I always will. You’re too awesome to feel like you have to hide the bad moments…but I get it. It’s the internet, so a lot of things still need to be private. Thank you for filming and sharing this vlog. As you continue to work on yourself, I will surely be doing the same…as I have a lot to work on as well. You are not alone. 💗
Caroline you are so entertaining. You have an unapologetic honesty about you that could be construed as arrogance but I don’t read you that way because you also show quite a bit of humility. And not to mention you are hilarious! You have a phenomenal eye for design and I wish you the best.
Love it. The weird thing to me is that your rotten moods look legitimate, like, they're not irrational, they're just natural reactions to things going wrong or things that are annoying. I totally get it. And yeah, not being "your best" or not being in a "good mood" all the time just means you're human. Also, what color did you paint your kitchen? I've been looking for the right color for my kitchen and that color looks perfect.
Just as little things can make us happy, the same goes for little things making us stroppy. You share your life with us - with all the interesting and fun stuff, so having the honesty and trust to share your not so positive moments and bad moods is what makes you human and relatable.
Thank you for showing yourself smack talking. I do it all the time, but when "others" accidentally hear me, they look so shook that I actually question if I'm hiding out-of-bounds personality. I never realized how much my inner monologue was yelling obscenities at myself until I regularly took hot yoga classes. The shit I would yell at myself was awful. It was actually a bit of a reckoning that I could not go on with that inner talk. I still yell loudly at assholes in my car, but I call myself an asshole less often than before, especially in my imposter syndrome attacks. Best to you
you know what? I like you! I don't watch vlog channels (honest or not), i don't have any use of life advice videos, even honest and good ones (though i should) - but i still watch you for the pure *realness* of you, more than literally anyone else i've seen online. You feel like a real living person and I appreciate you for that. Maybe in another life we'd be friends!
jesus christ, you're literally the best. THE. BEST. so fucking real 🤩🤩one of the things I hate most about the way social media has gone (aside from all the photoshopped tiny waists and giant lips), is TOXIC POSITIVITY. We all feel mad or sad or whatever at some point... and seeing others go through the same shit we do CONNECTS us. I never understood the 'you're bringing me down' thing. No way, you're CONNECTING us bc i see you going through it just like me. bravo for this video, srsly xoxo