what it's like to be a bad person.

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    00:00 - Intro
    00:51 - Bad mood vlog
    4:33 - lasering my armpits..
    9:44 - new wall art
    13:56 - fighting with a stranger
    17:28 - closet clean out
    19:54 - get ready with me
    22:04 - feeling a bit better...
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  • @Caroline_Winkler
    @Caroline_Winkler  Рік тому +1199

    To me, one of the strangest things about having a vlog channel about your life, is when you’re scheduled to post a video on a week when you just feel like a bad person. Fucking up in life all week long…and then capping the week off with a selfie movie about what you had for breakfast, what you’re wearing to your date, and how funny your jokes are.
    It doesn’t sit well to broadcast only select parts of myself. It feels like repeatedly looking into a mirror where my nose and left ear are always missing. It’s unsettling. And it leaves me unsure of what I actually look like.
    I receive a lot of love on this channel. Which has been an incredible gift, given me a lot of comfort, confidence and solace. And which has also led me to discover that it’s hard for me to feel loved without also feeling seen for my flaws. Sometimes the more comments of praise I read, the more I hate myself. “How deeply I must have deceived them.”
    UA-cam Caroline is much better than me. Yesterday I confessed to my sister that in moments of moral conundrum I sometimes catch myself thinking “what would UA-cam Caroline do?”. I wish I could be more like her.
    It’s not that anything I show is ever “not real”. But there’s just so much more to the human story. As a producer, I know that most parts of my day / myself don’t offer suitable entertainment value. But as a person, lovable moments often make me feel like a fraud.
    I expect there may be some comments of “You’re not a bad person, bad moods are normal, don't worry” and things like that - which are very kind comments and I appreciate them generally speaking, but I’m not fishing for that, that’s not the point of this video. Certainly, I do understand that this vlog contains mostly scenes of me simply in a bad mood. And I understand that being in a bad mood is not the same as being a bad person. Nor is it necessarily even “bad”. But I simply don’t have many of my true fuckup moments captured on tape. They tend to happen privately. But when they do happen, it’s usually during one of these bad moods.
    I’ve had to do some personal reflection this week. I’m working on changes for a better self. And for reasons that may not make sense to anyone, this video needed to be part of that.
    Thanks for being here
    And dang! this channel is getting weird huh

    • @Loesjewes
      @Loesjewes Рік тому +29

      Don't worry darling! Don't self-sabotage.. even if it is just a version of you, we still really love that version. That doesn't mean we would not like you even if you have flaws. We all have bad parts, it doesn't mean that you should hate yourself for that... You are worthy of love and credibility for making us laugh and inspire every week ❤️

    • @User5hhki98ncz
      @User5hhki98ncz Рік тому +8

      Still love you Caroline. Hugs.

    • @jeanne_guitton
      @jeanne_guitton Рік тому +52

      I feel like that when I meet friends for three hours. I am done up, and witty, and charming, and on point, and I sum up what I did so my life seems to make sense. They never see the weird, meandering, procrastinating, inefficient, moody me I experience so often. They just hear the narrative and see the best part of me. Not trying to deceive them, but of course I am also happy and focused when I'm with them. Would they like me if they knew "the real me"? My husband says: probably yes. Because everybody is like that. I suppose that experience is weirdly heightend for UA-camrs, but I think it doesn't mean your fake, or deceptive, or bad... just human. We do like human.

    • @hannahlennertkristiansen4797
      @hannahlennertkristiansen4797 Рік тому

      u need to fucken chill bietch, i get it you're aware, but it's really fine and you keep focusin on how upset you are
      great content and ur great, I wish u had the ego like a fat rich man and you would accept and brush off your own emotions easily
      thank u for being opem

    • @valarya
      @valarya Рік тому +5

      we all fuck up constantly. at least I do. thanks for being real about it. you get compliments because you deserve them, even when you're angry. 😉 there are a lot of people in my life who hate me because i'm crass, or lack tact, or am too brutally honest... and while I reflect on ways I can be a nicer person to people... there are those in my life who love me for who I am. that's how I feel about you this video. shit, that's weird. i just said i love you

  • @Dawnfelicis
    @Dawnfelicis Рік тому +986

    What the heck I came to this channel to be roasted alive for my decor decisions and now I find myself looking forward to each week’s therapy session or an entertaining rant that is all too relatable. Whatever is going on here, glad to be a part of this community, and always rooting for you girl

    • @loidaholder2689
      @loidaholder2689 Рік тому +16

      I don’t know how I end up in here too, but now in here to stay.

    • @ankbingham
      @ankbingham Рік тому +1

      Yep

    • @ericprincen3345
      @ericprincen3345 Рік тому +3

      Ha ha. Today is my first day in Caroline-land. I'm pretty much hooked. This one is stellar. Bad people unite!

    • @barbaramozzer
      @barbaramozzer Рік тому

      same here

  • @qareenquzman
    @qareenquzman Рік тому +414

    I’m tearing up because I feel seen. When I have days like these, I think of all the vlogs I watch and I’m like “am I normal?” It seems like everyone else has their shit together and I’m a chaotic mess 24/7. I love you for this, Caroline. Thank you for this. 🤍

  • @emilyfogerty6438
    @emilyfogerty6438 Рік тому +311

    During the whole kitchen segment I was just silently laughing because I have had SO MANY days like this lately and it's weirdly entertaining to hear other people rant about stuff they're pissed off about.

    • @sydneymomma11
      @sydneymomma11 Рік тому +8

      Same! I appreciate this delve into absolute normalcy. It's so refreshingly comforting to see someone else get flustered by life. We're all human, and seeing raw honesty is connection on a level rarely seen. Thank you, Caroline. 💜

    • @zararodriguez7713
      @zararodriguez7713 Рік тому

      Me too! I know the feeling

    • @nmmle1
      @nmmle1 Рік тому

      Yep!

    • @TheMarsha06
      @TheMarsha06 Рік тому +2

      I think I like your channel better than anything I’ve found on UA-cam. I normally get bored with people really quick I don’t think that will happen here and I thought I would just get really good design advice😂

  • @sallycroft2191
    @sallycroft2191 Рік тому +605

    A bad mood doesn't equate to a bad person. Just make us part of being human. Love you more for showing this. No apologies!

  • @CountSorinsRealm
    @CountSorinsRealm Рік тому +613

    People need to stop lying to themselves and calm down about negativity in general. "Good vibes only", barf. Being angry, negative and bitter in moderate amounts is both necessary and helpful. Gives you a chance to hone your skills of incorporating your shadow and taming it/channeling it into productivity, creativity and net positive. Anyway, that's my "I am not nice!" Skeletor rant. Don't be too hard on yourself Caroline, you're as lovely as can be 🙂

    • @usernaames
      @usernaames Рік тому +43

      " 'Good vibes only', barf"
      For. Real. Some shit is fucking annoying, let me be annoyed about it.

    • @theta_ome
      @theta_ome Рік тому +37

      It has a name - toxic positivity. We must manage and balance our emotions, not shove them into a box until people explode.

    • @CountSorinsRealm
      @CountSorinsRealm Рік тому +3

      @@usernaames Hell yeah!

    • @CountSorinsRealm
      @CountSorinsRealm Рік тому +19

      @@theta_ome Agreed, so many people walk around as this smiling ball of vitriol and resentment and then wonder why they end up snapping at gargantuan proportions. "Oh, I don't know what came over me?!?" Lol, yeah you do, it's just a couple year's worth of shit at once.

    • @CountSorinsRealm
      @CountSorinsRealm Рік тому +5

      @@theta_ome Also, love your kitty, he/she looks awesome and adorable!😻

  • @aliciagalvin6558
    @aliciagalvin6558 Рік тому +208

    "I'm done with people, I'm done with parking, and I'm done with armpits!" OMG yes, yes, and yeessss!!! I agree with you 1000%. You are hilarious, even on your " bad mood days". This video makes you even more relatable, shows your humility. You are a rare breed, Caroline!!

  • @elizabethmorgan2513
    @elizabethmorgan2513 Рік тому +169

    Oh, THANK GOD!!!!!! Finally, a person who is NORMAL !!! I’m sooo darn tired of the false perfection tht is constantly posed on most channels. This makes me so much calmer even though I’m not happy you had a tough week. I hope the next week is/was better. ❤❤❤

  • @notenoughtreble
    @notenoughtreble Рік тому +186

    The rant about the park is actual PERFECTION- Speaks to me on a spiritual level.

    • @chubbydinosaur9148
      @chubbydinosaur9148 Рік тому +12

      I felt every second of it deep down in my soul. It's like one of those days where it seems, every person on this planet ONLY woke up that morning, to mess with my day. I'm glad it happens to others as well.

    • @elalle
      @elalle Рік тому +8

      the SLOPE OF THE EARTH. [I have beeeeen there]

    • @missshutova
      @missshutova Рік тому +1

      Same

    • @ScottHz
      @ScottHz Рік тому +1

      not sure which was better - Slope of the Earth or “forgot how elevators work” 😂

    • @ScottHz
      @ScottHz Рік тому

      @@elalle not sure which was better - Slope of the Earth or “forgot how elevators work” 😂

  • @mackenzie7517
    @mackenzie7517 Рік тому +196

    As someone who grew up in an environment that encouraged numbness, at the age of 26 I am just now developing ✨feelings✨ and I actually feel incredibly grateful and excited when I feel upset (like a grateful and excited me is watching the upset me) since being upset means I am a human! With standards and opinions and feelings! Thanks for sharing this vlog. As I grow into having feelings, I appreciate all of them... even the negative ones. ❤

    • @girlathebeach
      @girlathebeach Рік тому +10

      @Mackenzie, I like how you described that kind of environment-and environment of numbness. I could never find the right word for it. I grew up in the same kind of environment and also where people would get upset if you showed excitement or expressed how you felt. I've seen thankfully am now proud of how I make myself vulnerable to those whose deserve it, tell people I love them and express my joy's, frustrations, etc.I always tried to do this when growing up but was always the odd one out. Thanks for posting your comment as I rarely see anyone who went through the same or similar things growing up.We are alive and human and it's okay to show it!

    • @pleasedeliver
      @pleasedeliver Рік тому +1

      This

    • @Starlight_Akira
      @Starlight_Akira Рік тому +1

      "Like a greatful and exited me is watcing the upstairs me"... I love how you put that, its a really good way to view the way you are always watching yourself while being yourself... Idk XD
      I think i'm gonna steal it :>

    • @mackenzie7517
      @mackenzie7517 Рік тому

      @@Starlight_Akira not stealing, let's share it 😘

    • @laracorr9156
      @laracorr9156 Рік тому

      I agree! It's great seeing a woman be angry!

  • @CvntyStvnts
    @CvntyStvnts Рік тому +19

    What Caroline doesn’t know is this incredibly authentic and unhinged rant in the kitchen WAVING A KNIFE 🔪 is what I came here for. I feel so validated and seen through her expressing her truth. It makes me feel ok expressing mine. Thank you ❤

  • @freetobepree4139
    @freetobepree4139 Рік тому +59

    I just ended a relationship. Literally. This video is making it more bearable. Caroline, thank you. Your honesty and truth is making my heart hurt a little less 😢

  • @FrogeniusW.G.
    @FrogeniusW.G. Рік тому +172

    As far as I could tell, this wasn't the first time we saw you in some kind of a 'bad mood".
    Actually I think that's part of your personality. Not mainly the moods, but _showing and not hiding them._
    And I think we (or the most of us) appreciate you being authentic and _not_ masking completely and editing it all out "perfectly"/for the perfect appearance, like all those "rainbow girls".
    Same opinion anyone?..
    Anyway, great video. As always. Love you. Bye.

    Btw.: Your lens is absolutely fine! I don't even know what you're talking about!! 😅

    • @francookie9353
      @francookie9353 Рік тому +7

      I agree and I love that about her. Hers is the only interior design channel that I watch (well, hers and Nick's) because the others are just boring.
      Caroline seems like an actual real person. I don't feel lied to.

    • @vickijohorne9695
      @vickijohorne9695 Рік тому +2

      Same

    • @ninjanana102
      @ninjanana102 Рік тому +1

      Frogenius W: I have the same opinion.

    • @Lily-uv9uu
      @Lily-uv9uu Рік тому

      I know what she’s talking about. A guy in the comments told her to use a different lens but she changed it

    • @FrogeniusW.G.
      @FrogeniusW.G. Рік тому +1

      @@Lily-uv9uu That's not what I meant.
      I know some guy once told her about an other (better) lens and she changed to it.
      But here in this video she says her lens was dirty and also not appropriate bc. in general her video-/filming-techniques/-skills are bad..
      I just wanted to say there's no dirt visible at all and everything is fine.
      😊

  • @keenanburkepitts
    @keenanburkepitts Рік тому +284

    Whatever the mood Caroline, we’re here for it.

    • @lynnmoreno6878
      @lynnmoreno6878 Рік тому +5

      Love this video 😂!!! Armpits so relatable Lol!!!

  • @obnitor
    @obnitor Рік тому +69

    I love this. Especially as a woman, I tend to hold this part of myself back and i loved seeing you be honest and vulnerable with your community.

  • @devincasey8547
    @devincasey8547 Рік тому +81

    Honestly love this. Being an imperfect human isn't being a "bad person" though.

    • @tdy7896
      @tdy7896 Рік тому +5

      Being bad at being perfect isn't being bad at being.

  • @1pamby1
    @1pamby1 Рік тому +104

    Being real is way more attractive than being fake. Thanks!

  • @kls0110
    @kls0110 Рік тому +112

    Your angry days look a lot like mine. Yelling about things but with a funny twist on it. Really, you still maintain perspective when you’re mad which is amazing. None of this makes you a bad person, and I would argue that people automatically assume creators want to present their best selves because of course they do. Thank you for sharing, this is above and beyond gutsy and not something I’ve seen from a UA-camr before.

    • @midlife_crossroads
      @midlife_crossroads Рік тому +7

      I agree 100%. Way too many UA-camrs are like clones of each other; refreshing to see some honesty, not just personal branding.

  • @soulure
    @soulure Рік тому +23

    what matters most is how you decide to react to those feelings. you shouting and yelling is just a reflection of your moods, how you treat people is the real test of your integrity. having a bad mood doesn't make you a bad person, it's how you ultimately treat people that matters most.

  • @VanessaLong
    @VanessaLong Рік тому +1

    "The slope of the earth was f*cking with me." - this is truth. Thank you for sharing real life.

  • @kal5870
    @kal5870 Рік тому +85

    “Close before I slap you…thank you.” Are we the same person? This makes me feel better about my own feelings, thank you!

    • @chubbydinosaur9148
      @chubbydinosaur9148 Рік тому +9

      Her getting angry at the coffee machine for brewing coffee so loudly was my moment where I've put a hand on my heart and softly gasped "omg we're the same"

    • @vickijohorne9695
      @vickijohorne9695 Рік тому +1

      😄 yesss!

  • @champagnemommy
    @champagnemommy Рік тому +85

    I couldn’t even wait until halfway through to comment. It’s probably gonna piss you off even more that everyone absolutely loves this video. You are hilarious and when you are angry it’s even more funny. The rant about the Sopranos was awesome and exactly how I feel when I’m being petty so it was great to see someone else is just like me. I’ll take your videos whether you’re being a good person or a “bad“ person. 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

    • @kennuchi9022
      @kennuchi9022 Рік тому +1

      Agree! 😂

    • @ninjanana102
      @ninjanana102 Рік тому

      Agree!

    • @kzwzbjm
      @kzwzbjm Рік тому

      "Hoes be telling me" 😂

    • @sarahelsheikh
      @sarahelsheikh Рік тому

      Omg yes - the sopranos rant made me laugh out loud 😂😂😂😂

    • @spontaneousun
      @spontaneousun Рік тому +1

      That sopranos rant brought back all the reasons I deleted those apps. But then it’s hard as heck to meet folks… so I cave for a few hours or a few days or on the very rare occasions a few weeks once or twice every year or two. 😂

  • @danielsigursson6215
    @danielsigursson6215 Рік тому +39

    Hey girl, I can relate deeply to your rants, how everything and anything can just absolutely have you raging your face off. But I have to admit that even though you were positively furious I could not help but smile and laugh because I know exactly how that feels. Big props for being honest and daring to show it. You are just great!

  • @diaandreadi7309
    @diaandreadi7309 Рік тому +11

    I just got out of an 8 year relationship
    I don’t expect you to read this but you’ve really really helped me
    I just moved in to a flat I absolutely love and I’m trying to decorate it too
    I’m an actress who gave up acting and now I’m in sales in a job I love but not necessarily feel fulfilled
    I would love to hear more about your relationship how you picked up the pieces and do you ever have bad days etc? I’m 30 and I feel like a mess but seeing you just shows me that I may just be a funny smart independent woman who’s doing her best and she’s just human
    I’ve clearly fucking imprinted on you lol

  • @sunflowersadie543
    @sunflowersadie543 Рік тому +21

    Bad mood in the kitchen(this is just as far as I've gotten) is an animated depiction of my own PMS 😃

  • @lisamartin704
    @lisamartin704 Рік тому +25

    You had me at "the slope of the earth was bugging me!" LOL You are the single most relatable human on your tube. That's why we love you!

  • @racheybaby86
    @racheybaby86 Рік тому +1

    "Despite the chemistry, we did not decide to meet in person." made me snort laugh! Your anger in this video is visceral and it makes me feel so seen cos like, same.

  • @laurenadcock5307
    @laurenadcock5307 Рік тому +33

    I've been in the worst / weirdest mood for the past week, and feel less lonely watching this. Whether it was refreshing or uncomfortable (or both) for you, I appreciate it. Every one of us are made of many parts -- all true, all valid (shout out to IFS therapy). Obv everyone is many things, but it is comforting to see. Spesh bc I love you sm.

  • @florentina9118
    @florentina9118 Рік тому +25

    What means to be a bad person? As long as we don't harm any creature and their liberty, then we're good. I have unrealistic expectations, it's never enough what I do, even if I'm good at different things from technical to artistic. Trying to be everywhere at once, fomo, adhd, etc. Always been ashamed of me, guilty, trying to be a people pleaser and give myself an identity base of the society's tags. And what this brought me in exchange? Nothing.

  • @bethabbyjo
    @bethabbyjo Рік тому +43

    Caroline, I could go on and on and on about how quickly you have become my favorite person on UA-cam. I have been consuming UA-cam in various genres as my main source of entertainment for about a decade. NEVER and I mean that NEVER have I been more moved by and connected to a stranger. I love everything about you and what you do in the spaces you exist. You’re genuine, you’re bright, you inspire and I appreciate you. I have watched basically all of your videos in the last week since discovering your channel. As an introvert myself and my own reservations with other human beings, I will say man I’d fucking love to be your friend! You’re a gem and not in the rough, but for the whole world to see. Keep shining, even when you’re feeling dimmed you’re still brighter than you think!
    If you find yourself in Portland Oregon ever, let’s go thrifting! 🫶🏻✨🤗

  • @quinnforrer3801
    @quinnforrer3801 Рік тому +38

    What's amazing is YOU ARE SO LOVABLE EVEN ON YOUR BAD DAYS. Also, thank you for humanizing this space, in a genuine, real, way. You are a LIGHT here (:

  • @stayCscizzorhandz
    @stayCscizzorhandz 10 місяців тому

    " Ho-s be tellin' me" 😂😂😂 this is hilarious. I love your bad mood. I feel like that's me when I'm angry

  • @KludiM
    @KludiM Рік тому +41

    I was hiding in anonym silence watching your channel for a few weeks but now I have to speak/write because this is true bravery!!! I am amazed that you have the courage to film these moments. It is so therapeutic to watch as you just released all this tension and frustration. Thank you Caroline!

  • @reginaphalange8810
    @reginaphalange8810 Рік тому +5

    I'm not a youtuber, but i work with kids. Its like the same sort of thing, where you HAVE to be the Best You and showcase the happy, understanding side of yourself all the time. Which kids deserve, but it fucking... leaves you with a lot of pent up frustrations. WHICH is why i loved this unhinged, angry energy - makes me feel a lil less alone.

  • @Mauamone
    @Mauamone Рік тому +25

    Gotta spread some love because this video kind of completed the picture of how muuuch I appreciate you lol. You appear a very mentally awake person, trying to see your own mind and surroundings as they are and just finding how to work with it. I'm feeling actually understood in a way and find your views really realistic and interesting, which virtually never happens to me for youtubers. I'm also quite sure your way of consciously choosing which people, opinions and things to care about and put your energy into will keep serving you.

  • @KatieSheaDC
    @KatieSheaDC Рік тому +3

    For getting rid of clothes I try to keep a bag where I toss clothes when I decide I don't want them anymore. When the bag is reasonably full, I donate the clothes. I like this system because I find the process of going through my closet to be tedious. It doesn't work quite as well for clothes you never wear but just pull something new out once in a while and do it all in bite size moments. It's too overwhelming to do all at once, for me.

  • @carolinepankey21
    @carolinepankey21 Рік тому +37

    I busted out laughing when you said “is this like a regular vlog?” It definitely felt very normal and there was no need for an apology. I think you are just so authentically you that you have a small rant at least once a vlog so this was like an extended version of that. Loved this

  • @yoursenileaunt
    @yoursenileaunt Рік тому +10

    This feels like home.

    • @Caroline_Winkler
      @Caroline_Winkler  Рік тому +5

      Reading comments in bed and this almost made me cry ❤️

    • @yoursenileaunt
      @yoursenileaunt Рік тому

      @@Caroline_Winkler ❤️❤️❤️

  • @deltatango6793
    @deltatango6793 Рік тому +2

    Yes to the rant where you are trying to entertain his interests and trying to keep an open mind only to have him try to tell you that your fair analysis and peaceful interpretation is wrong.

  • @pleasedeliver
    @pleasedeliver Рік тому +11

    This is making me feel way better about my emotional dysregulation

  • @ssstaffordva6113
    @ssstaffordva6113 Рік тому +40

    Best video. I’m 70 yrs., and relate. Feeling “rough” at times never seems to go away. I’m just glad that mostly it fades away.(and, of course, any intelligent/sensitive person will go through these waves).

  • @kayla216kz
    @kayla216kz Рік тому +6

    “The slope of the earth was fucking with me” 😂😂😂😂😂 relatable.

  • @dancer14280
    @dancer14280 Рік тому +11

    There's absolutely a difference between a "bad person" and just a person who has the ability to feel their feelings out loud. As someone who has watched a lot of your content, I do feel like I've gotten good at noticing little flashes of anger or sadness or tiredness in you- I'd imagine a lot of your subs have. You're an expressive person, which is so refreshing - I think it adds to the honest and genuine feel of you and your vids. Even if you display a higher proportion of good days on your channel than bad days, it's still you, it's all part and parcel of you as a whole. Don't feel like a fraud because so many people see so much of your good side and like it- if we couldn't sense the flaws too then no-one would be able to relate. You're worthy of the praise you get my love, don't for a moment think that being short-tempered and snappy makes you any less of a person deserving of admiration. No-one's perfect, not you, not me, but I think you're pretty cool anyway :) Much hugs xx

  • @PaladinoNancy
    @PaladinoNancy Рік тому +6

    Relatable all the way through but, hearing you call these fabric swatches your children brought this whole vlog home for me. Much respect girl

  • @Ruskaya789
    @Ruskaya789 Рік тому +18

    It's unrealistic to be happy 24/7. Life has its ups and downs, and we are allowed to have different emotions. I respect her for being honest and real. Social media is too fake and always showing "happy and perfect." That's why I stay far away from it, it's not healthy. I love youtubers like Caroline because this is reality and I respect it. We all have days, we all have moods. It's called life. So thank you for your honesty and vulnerability. Freaking love you and always look forward to seeing what new video you have posted this week. Truly makes my weekend!

  • @unrespiro
    @unrespiro Рік тому +29

    I've just had a moment of synchronicity! I've had a bad week, I started to look for a job after two years of not working. I'm terrified of going to interviews and I cried every day because I feel worthless and stupid. So I was thinking about the typical question "what are your weaknesses" and I had this thought "what would Caroline say to this? I'm sure she doesn't have any" and bam! a video about her being a bad person. Of course I know everybody have their different sides, but in a very low moment you idealize everyone around you and think about yourself as the worst person on the Earth. But then you realize that many people think about themselves this way and of course it's always irrational thinking. Thank you, Caroline, for not being afraid of showing your weaknesses too, it helps to remember that we are all human and we have to treat outselves and others with kindness and compassion ❤️

    • @ruchikachauhan9697
      @ruchikachauhan9697 Рік тому +1

      I’m in my 30s went back to uni for a career change. Studied for two years and forgot what it was like to have a job. I was terrified of interviews to a point that I didn’t apply for anything for 3 months. I was appalled beyond belief . Having worked for over a decade I still had the feelings you had. There were times I felt so stupid. We all have our moments.

    • @JustHereToHear
      @JustHereToHear Рік тому

      Hey girls, same here.. I am in a rut and not applying for the past 3 months because im scared and i feel unqualified

  • @emmelinesprig489
    @emmelinesprig489 Рік тому +3

    this is probably one of the strongest parasocial relationships i’ve felt with someone on youtube and it’s slightly scary but incredibly comforting during this time in my life… i feel like a chronically online freak for commenting this, but in the spirit of honesty 😣😅 but, i do think parasocial relationships can be beneficial sometimes. for example in my case, i have severe social anxiety (like i’m barely avoiding agoraphobia). for me, it’s difficult to imagine having close friendships. when i watch your videos, i feel like i’m actually hanging out with another human. it helps me imagine becoming friends with someone like you. plus, i learn a lot and laugh even more!
    you are a lot more authentic than you give yourself credit for. to me, your honesty about your flaws is a big reason your videos are so enjoyable. you are a normal person with neuroses and mistakes. i think the world would be a much more understanding place if we were all more honest about our unique palette of crazy.

  • @mariashopova9029
    @mariashopova9029 Рік тому +3

    Thank you for making me feel normal. I try to be as nice as possible but then I have moments like yours, when probably I won't be lashing out at people but I am really mean in my head and I hate everyone and everything. And the whole story ends up with me hating myself because I never say what I want to say but I can't say it coz it makes me feel like a terrible person...
    The bad thing is I get so overwhelmed with my negative emotions that I stop functioning. I will have days/weeks in which I don't want to cook, do my laundry, every tiny thing feels huge. I went to therapy without results because I also don't want to discuss it, as I am totally embarrassed with myself. The only good thing that came out is I worked on my relationship with family members. But when it comes to admitting I'm probably not a good person, I have huge problem with that.

  • @monstersmadewithlove6545
    @monstersmadewithlove6545 Рік тому +32

    Caroline, I love how authentic, talented, smart, funny and creative you are. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I just found you on UA-cam about a month ago, but have shared your spilled wine analogy with almost 35 people already…it’s magical for someone who is downsizing and finding my new home style. You ROCK!

  • @lesanimaux4416
    @lesanimaux4416 Рік тому +15

    I told you before you were quickly becoming one of my favorite people. I think you just did it. Caroline, you are a wonderful, honest, flawed, funny, perfect human being. Please never change.

  • @myneoangel4299
    @myneoangel4299 Рік тому +10

    Omg, this was the best video on the internet! I'm genuinely sorry that you were in such terrible moods, because it really sucks to go through. BUT... this was the most relatable thing I've ever watched, and it had me dying laughing (it's funny because it's true type situations, you know?) I loved it, you are a gem, thank you for sharing your terrible moods. 💜

  • @nadiacoffey2609
    @nadiacoffey2609 Рік тому

    Omg, all of this! I relate to all of this so much. Sometimes I hate myself for the negative moods I get in, and I tend to vent. Like, I need to. Certain people in my life who love me understand it. Thanks for the video ❤

  • @NM-ql7ey
    @NM-ql7ey Рік тому +29

    I love this. I'm dealing with someone close to me who is making me feel bad for saying something sarcastic or being in a bad mood sometimes. That makes no sense to me and is not realistic. I'd rather someone be real than pretend to be something they aren't. Thanks for showing us that you are human.

  • @madigagliardi
    @madigagliardi Рік тому +14

    I know you didn't post this for us to just tell you how great you are and how you're not a bad person and blah blah blah. So I'm not going to do that. I'm just going to say that this vlog made me feel less..alone? less crazy? less like a b*tch? I love you and all your moods, Caroline! Thank you for this, my dude.

  • @melissarobinson4236
    @melissarobinson4236 Рік тому

    I've had a rough week and this made me laugh and feel better as this was so relatable. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your amazing, true self.

  • @amandab.1602
    @amandab.1602 Рік тому

    Thank you so much for putting these feelings into words. It helped me realize something very important about myself.

  • @janekopley3893
    @janekopley3893 Рік тому +15

    I’m older than your parents and so relate to this video. We all had our stage to show our light and shadow side but definitely needed to keep the shadow side a lot quieter and around select people. Kudos to you on being authentic you here!🎉

  • @kathyficarotta598
    @kathyficarotta598 Рік тому +12

    Real life ain't always pretty. It's got to be unnerving to film yourself constantly and then editing something cohesive together week after week. Don't be too hard on yourself. Not a one of us could pass the smell test on that. Your a gem Caroline, no need to explain yourself to anyone!!!

  • @noellecantcook
    @noellecantcook Рік тому +1

    Love your vlogs - I just found your channel and now I've been binging it!

  • @phyllisramsey1374
    @phyllisramsey1374 Рік тому +1

    I love how genuine you are! Thank you for keeping it real 💕

  • @nataliemarie9928
    @nataliemarie9928 Рік тому +18

    No need to apologize for being human. I'm so glad your doing this and showing us these sides of yourself. 👍❤️

  • @jazybelle24
    @jazybelle24 Рік тому +7

    Being angry at the guy in the khaki shirt was very relatable. I always know I'm on edge when I'm mad about innocent clothing choices! It's okay to be irritated. It's okay to feel negative. It's okay for everything to be fine and all wrong at the same time. Thank you, as always, for putting more realness into the world.

  • @danielle.moore.22
    @danielle.moore.22 Рік тому +1

    THIS is such a mood, thank you for posting transparently 💗

  • @sophiej4557
    @sophiej4557 Рік тому +2

    Just what I needed right now :) did a terrible job at an exam a few hours ago and feel horrible, and although our situations do not compare that much, your mood speaks from my heart right now. Also, love your framed poem :D

  • @midnitekezia234
    @midnitekezia234 Рік тому +15

    Fully appreciate the honesty in this. Lately, I've been ranting and raving (to an audience of one, mind you) about the littlest things to the point where I'm pissing myself off. Nice to know I'm not the only absolute menace on the planet. ❤️

  • @dampf28
    @dampf28 Рік тому +7

    "Close, before I slap you" Yes!!! This is me yelling at non-living things. I love this video!

  • @somethingsomething3248
    @somethingsomething3248 Рік тому

    I really appreciate this video. I understand these moods as I am in them all the time. Moods where every little thing is setting you off, and you literally get mad at the earth for putting a hill there. I. GET. IT! Thanks for being real and for showing us this side of yourself. Makes you just as human as the rest of us, and helps us not to feel so bad too :)

  • @byork2223
    @byork2223 Рік тому

    I appreciate and love your channel so much for your realness. I often times feel this level of "crank" and it's honestly so comforting to see someone else deals with these days as well. 💗

  • @poppyseed389
    @poppyseed389 Рік тому +8

    Ok this is weirdly therapeutic to watch lol. Thank you for this. I was in a bad mood and can so relate to Getting mad at the loud noise from coffee maker and other rants.. sometimes it takes seeing someone else experience this to take a step out of myself and realize it's maybe not so bad and things will be ok

  • @sharonbillig8210
    @sharonbillig8210 Рік тому +11

    I love you, Caroline! Your transparency, honesty and humor transcend timelessly. I’m old enough to be your grandmother! You always touch my heart and humanity❤️

  • @_herhiII
    @_herhiII Рік тому

    I found a new favorite channel, thank you Caroline for sharing this part of your organic self. LOVE IT!! And I love all of your other videos too. 💚

  • @meredithmorris1263
    @meredithmorris1263 Рік тому

    I’ve loved your videos for a while now but this one made me subscribe. Thanks for the candidness ❤️

  • @EmmieMaria265
    @EmmieMaria265 Рік тому +10

    Ah we're on the same level. I have the same feelings sometimes too. It is refreshing to see this. Thank you. I know it is hard to open up about this s* on the internet. But rather then say you're a bad person, think you sometimes are challenging. See yourself as expert level vs. beginner. No one is inherently bad and it is damaging to believe that.

  • @emiliebrunet8739
    @emiliebrunet8739 Рік тому +25

    Watching other vloggers always makes me wonder how everyone is so happy all the time. It’s really refreshing to see a more realistic portrayal of someone’s life. Thank you for being vulnerable and authentic on this channel, it really means a lot to people ❤️

  • @jezabellovesyou100
    @jezabellovesyou100 Рік тому

    Love the different angles, both physically and emotionally, that you showed on this vlog. It was very much needed and appreciated as I have been feeling under the weather these past few weeks! ❤

  • @ccccccccccccccccccc1
    @ccccccccccccccccccc1 Рік тому

    I love this video. I love watching you! You are the one person I can actually watch a full video of, I can relate to you so so much. It's like hanging out with a friend! Thank you for posting this, it is good to know people are like me

  • @pilic.1008
    @pilic.1008 Рік тому +16

    I'm your fucking fan forever!!! ahhahahahahahahahahhaah this video speaks a lot to me, because all of us have bad days and we sometimes even feel shame for not trying to be more "optimistic" or "happy" when it doesn't feel real. This was so raw and honest, I loved it!miau💕

  • @magicbloo
    @magicbloo Рік тому +14

    I am actually crying while watching this - because I see so much of myself here. You and I are so very much the same in how we express ourselves that it's a little creepy and watching you just rage at life is exactly what I do. Only I do it alone - like really alone. No vlog channel or anything. But maybe I am not so alone after all. Thank you.

  • @Sypher32
    @Sypher32 Рік тому +1

    This video was so adorable - glad you were able to share your experience regardless of how you were feeling

  • @shaunasugar
    @shaunasugar Рік тому

    This is soooo relatable. I have cyclic depression and huge mood swings. So sometimes my anger or frustration comes out in ways I don’t intend for it to. Or I’ll say things in a tone or volume that I didn’t mean to. It just happens. We are human. And I seriously appreciate you showing us your vulnerable moments. ❤️

  • @newperspective5918
    @newperspective5918 Рік тому +4

    Calling it, this will be your most watched vlog to date. Honestly you are quite enjoyable to watch even when you are in a bad mood :) .

  • @WhoMe949
    @WhoMe949 Рік тому +4

    This is one of the most relatable vlogs I’ve ever watched. ❤
    I’m going to make my friends watch it so that when I’m mad or frustrated about something, I can yell, “And there he was! Riding a scooter in a full suit!” And they will understand my frustration and we can laugh about the ridiculousness of it all 😂😂😂

  • @tk3831
    @tk3831 Рік тому +1

    This video made me laugh. It really cheered me up to see someone so relatable. I'm terribly sorry about your bad day. Life is so irritating sometimes but somehow we manage to get through it all. You are an incredible breath of fresh air on YT. 🦋

  • @esencialnizdravi8608
    @esencialnizdravi8608 Рік тому

    Desr Caroline, thank you for being so vulnerable❤️I love the sequence in the cas - Sopranis - I also do get very emotional when it concerns things that are important to me (like movies🙃)and it is so great to see that I am not the only one😂😂😂

  • @Yep1850
    @Yep1850 Рік тому +7

    Acknowledging the things that make us angry or sad or frustrated allows us to deal with them in a healthy way. You are allowed to feel the full spectrum of human emotions without judgment. I appreciate the transparency of your channel and your genuine nature. I’m so proud of you for being able to identify your feelings because that means you are now closer to processing through them healthily. ❤❤❤

  • @MC_Hammerpants_
    @MC_Hammerpants_ Рік тому +10

    YAS‼️ More of this!! Let’s make this go viral! You helped me feel better about myself and my bad moods. Thank you‼️

  • @kate_hendrick
    @kate_hendrick Рік тому +3

    This made my day. It’s nice to know that I’m not the only one that just has to rage from time to time. Thank you for your realness ❤

  • @rachelaltify
    @rachelaltify Рік тому +2

    I could not love this more. You sharing this raw, authentic, vulnerable self helps me feel less like a horrible person when I’m in a bad mood. I can so relate to that internal frustration ❤

  • @skudsie
    @skudsie Рік тому +14

    I love this and everything about it. This world is exhausting with its standards for pleasing people and the relentless pursuit of perfection. It’s never enough and we’re only granted “a few bad days” when in reality, most days can have me irritated beyond belief at the audacity of expectations placed upon all of us. The filtered society we see keeps us feeling inadequate and defeated and I love you for showing your unfiltered version, because most won’t. ❤❤❤

  • @garykuhlmann8149
    @garykuhlmann8149 Рік тому +6

    Love it. The weird thing to me is that your rotten moods look legitimate, like, they're not irrational, they're just natural reactions to things going wrong or things that are annoying. I totally get it. And yeah, not being "your best" or not being in a "good mood" all the time just means you're human. Also, what color did you paint your kitchen? I've been looking for the right color for my kitchen and that color looks perfect.

  • @Megs658
    @Megs658 Рік тому

    I appreciate your authenticity!!! Love your channel!

  • @OfficiallyUnofficialAlCooper
    @OfficiallyUnofficialAlCooper Рік тому +2

    I need to up my decorating game so I subscribed to your channel, and I found this collection of essays of yours charming, heartwarming, and hysterical. But I fully empathize with the bad mood vibes, though your editing skills and sense of timing make this video amazingly funny. Your comedy chops are next level fantastic. Namaste.🙏Thanks for sharing your darker side, too.

  • @katiesfarmhouse
    @katiesfarmhouse Рік тому +7

    Great vlog. I'm old now, but at your age fury was a frequent thing (hormonally driven?). Same kind of rage, too- silently hating strangers & burning up at the gall of their getting in my way...?! Of course- never expressed. So fun watching you build your channel. I'm sure it's going to get giant...Keep up the good work!

  • @valarya
    @valarya Рік тому +16

    jesus christ, you're literally the best. THE. BEST. so fucking real 🤩🤩one of the things I hate most about the way social media has gone (aside from all the photoshopped tiny waists and giant lips), is TOXIC POSITIVITY. We all feel mad or sad or whatever at some point... and seeing others go through the same shit we do CONNECTS us. I never understood the 'you're bringing me down' thing. No way, you're CONNECTING us bc i see you going through it just like me. bravo for this video, srsly xoxo

  • @ap3528
    @ap3528 Рік тому

    Thank you!! Thank you so much I feel like that everyday, and I feel bad for feeling like that.. I thought I was the only one feeling like that over those same things!

  • @Alai8766
    @Alai8766 Рік тому

    I relate to just about every word that comes out of your mouth. So glad I found your channel. been subbed since you had only like 3k subs girl im so happy to see your come up

  • @chubbydinosaur9148
    @chubbydinosaur9148 Рік тому +8

    Girl, I feel you all the way, I hope you can be the liberated woman you want to be. The entire time I thought: "man I think she is where I was and my solution was avoiding stupid people" and then the scooter dude came up and I laughed so hard 🤣 girl it ain't you it's the stupid people around you and you feel so obligated to take their shit at face value, but you don't have to. I Konmaried my social life by asking myself "does this person spark joy? Neh in the trash it goes" and I couldn't be arsed to change anything about that "omg you're such a toxic narcissist" shout they while I try to fit them in the trash bin so I can close the lid. I don't care, my mental tranquility and it being undisturbed is more important than listening to someone's "well I know more about your fav show because I'm smarter than everyone and especially you" okay fine dear "I need validation more than food and water" but can you just be quiet about it? I'm 31 and I just don't have the energy for this anymore and all those pretentious high conflict people who try to guilt trip me out of my bubble just so they can get yet another conflict to whine about. I'm not a pastime or a hobby, I'm a real person with needs and a life of their own. Blast stupid people.

  • @LoveGeneviEve
    @LoveGeneviEve Рік тому +4

    I always feel silly after being in a bad mood. I use to have this boss who would come in a lot and be in the worse mood ,I would just smile and try not to make it worse.The best thing she ever told me was that she couldn't stay that way around me. I'm glad I have someone like that for me .I hope you find someone like that for you because you are a true, good honest person. By the way love that green forest fabric.

  • @hobby_house
    @hobby_house Рік тому

    I love how your videos always make me feel validated. Somehow it’s always exactly what I need to hear. I hope you’re having a better week ma’am. Keep putting out your energy into the world. It helps people!

  • @Inga.schuler
    @Inga.schuler Рік тому +4

    You basically pushed me to start youtube with your art of making videos. Absolutely love it and love your honesty about your personality and former struggles like your eating disorder. So brave to talk about it! Thank you for the inspiration.