DID and Dysphoria
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- Опубліковано 21 лип 2018
- Dysphoria affects almost everyone in the system to one degree or another. Daniel, Kit, Kim Kim, and Lito share their experiences.
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Thank you for this video!
And to Lito, we're a mexican system and we want to encourage you to keep talking! You don't sound silly! I'm sure in the headspace everyone sounds more like themselves. That happens to us as well!
Sending hugs from Mexico!
I want to give Lito a hug. He seemed liked he was getting emotional.
What I find weird about your system is that more than half of the people in it are extraordinary at explaining things. Like I can't even explain how to tie a shoe, but you guys have described DID so well that I never have trouble understanding what you're talking about despite having never experienced it myself, and that is an amazing talent.
Probably becuase they spend a lot of time trying to think of the best way to explain it. Becuase a lot of people can't relate to being anything but a single person. Like how the fuck do I explain to someone that I can taste when one of my alters(who has yet to introduce themselve) is afraid. Like until resuntly I didn't even know that wasn't me feeling that and I just thought based on media that fear actually had a flavor. I know to the outside world that sounds kinda weird.
Oh Lito!! 😭😭
I just want to say, I don’t think your voice is silly. I love it. Always have, always will.
Sara Tillett I also really enjoy Lito's accent. It's never sounded silly to me.
I LOVE Lito's voice and accent!
I want to hear him say "Hello, my name is Inigo Montoya, you killed my father. Prepare to die."
It's kinda trippy how you guys talk from different places when you're up front like it sounds like Daniel talks more from the bottom of the throat but kit talks higher up and stuff. Ya' know? You can look away from your phone screen but you still know who's talking even when it cuts to somebody else.
me and another alter co-front a lot of times. And when we're alone at home, we have outside-speaking conversations, like actually speaking with sounds to each other, and everything about the voice, intonation, deepness and speed changes really fricking fast, even when we interrupt each other and talk over each other the body just changes everything about the voice perfectly smoothly in a way I would never ever be able to do on purpose. And trust me, I've tried.
I do not have DID but I relate so much to this video. I'm a trans dude and just so much of what Lito said resonated so hard. Like my voice is all wrong and having periods and not having a "masculine muscular build" and just yes.
I'm glad that each of you are finding your own ways to help cope and feel more comfortable in this body. I know that I myself have my own ways of dealing with being in the wrong body for my own gender.
And Lito, I don't think you sound silly, it's a skill that you will build up if you just keep talking and keep it up! Your feelings are totally valid obviously but I hope you keep working at it.
Oh boy, being born with a male body doesn't grant you a "masculine muscular build", and it can still be really really hard to get a slightly acceptably decent looking build, I can tell you that for sure, there are much more people that can relate to you than you think.
I understand that Lito's accent can be uncomfortable but I like it because I always know it's him that's fronting, even if I look away from the screen (and he's freaking great).
One of my most dysphoric alters was a girl, even though my body is female (I'm a trans guy who has yet to transition). I think this is because dissociative dysphoria is a lot different (though still in many ways similar) than trans dysphoria, and it has a different cause. Even with my male alters, it wasn't the same type of dysphoria I have now as an integrated trans man. A lot of it was gender related, yes, but when I envisioned my perfect body back then it wasn't me, it was a completely different looking guy. Now I just wanna look like me, my body, but with the "male dial" turned up a bunch of notches, so to speak. The dysphoria has gotten worse in the sense that now I can't escape it through switching to a non-dysphoric alter, but it's also gotten better in the sense that my body is at least mine in a way. It just needs a few renovations.
Lito, I LOVE to hear you speak! I don't think you sound silly at all, the way you speak is actually very pleasant and kinda calming to me 😙
Ikr!
I feel bad for any of you suffering from dysphoria; I feel terrible for KimKim because she is just a kiddo. I know it's gotta be rough for Daniel since the body is the wrong sex for him, too. At least Kit seems to be coping pretty well and Daniel is working it out. I love Lito and his optimism. The white female body does NOT invalidate his culture and heritage, and hopefully you all can work out a a way to bring some of Lito's culture around. And I feel sad that anyone is embarrassed of his accent, I know it isn't accurate to how he himself sounds, but I feel it is endearing and certainly nothing to be ashamed of. I can imagine it would provoke some sideways glances and questions perhaps, but still... Lito is who Lito is, and he should be celebrated for the individual he is. I'm glad he finds some satisfaction in working out, and maybe in time, the body will be capable of doing more than it is now, depending on what Wyn is going for.
Daniel, when will your next anime review be coming out?
Kit, makeup and fashion videos, pleeeease?
I'd love to see some vlogs of Lito, KimKim and Wyn just going about their activities and days. And for Lito, I'd really like to see a video more about his heritage and culture from his perspective. I'm afraid I don't know very much about any Latin cultures in general and he is so passionate about everything, I'd like to understand more about him.
Also, what are KimKim's hobbies? I would like to get to know more about KimKim and the things she invests her time in. Maybe she could put together a fashion and makeup book or Photoshop collage to show us her favorite things she's found that she would wear? And new music she likes?
Also... And this is probably edging on very personal, but I haven't seen much on interpersonal relationships and dynamics with having DID and strategies for managing healthy relationships at appropriate closenesses, how to feel out who you can tell, whether or not to tell someone you have DID, and how to suss out who you can trust to be around with your system-mates. And perhaps how to handle close family... This would be more for you to address, Wyn. I think. My mother and I are facing this dilemma because we still have immediate family unaware of her DID and she's getting to the age where her health is a worry and people would need to know she/her system isn't crazy if anything happens to her and her system. Anywho, this was terribly long winded, but thank you for the video and insight it had given, as always. It is always a joy to see each of you guys and either learn or catch up with what's happening. Lots of love to each and every one of you💕💟🌸
P.S. I love the hair bow, Kit!
A video about interpersonal relationships in the outside world is a really good idea. I’ll definitely add that to our queue. I’m sorry that is a stress that you carry, though. -Wyn
Hey Kim-Kim, I don't know a lot about this system yet bc I haven't seen all of the videos here... Are you artistic? Perhaps drawing pictures of yourself would be better than selfies. I know it's not quite the same, but maybe having pictures of yourself around you would make you feel better.
Ditto for others.
Slipping into a costume is such a freaking HEALTHY way of coping with gender dysphoria brought on by DID. Thank you so much for sharing this, Daniel!
Kit, I really appreciate you explaining not just that the body is a healthy weight now, but WHY you struggle with that, because of previous thinness when the body was younger.
I'm glad that dressing up helps for you, Kim Kim. And sorry you feel so much like you're borrowing someone else's body. :( I do appreciate the perspective that it's mostly the time jump that is so upsetting for you.
Lito, thank you so much for expressing this experience. I can see how hard it was for you so I really appreciate you talking about it. Also, there's nothing wrong with the way you speak. And I'm sorry others give you a hard time.
Guys thank you so so much for this. I don't have DID, but it is so very useful and important to get this message out, for both those that have DID and struggle with dysphoria and for those who don't have it, but want to understand more about your experiences. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
This was so interesting to hear from everyone's different perspectives. Also Kim Kim's hair piece is GORGEOUS!
Yo!! Daniel killing it with those glasses!
Had to pause the video immediately just to make that comment XD
I don't know if this is just me, or weird, or what...but I feel like I can tell you apart by your faces. Even if it's just a regular shirt, I'll be like "oh! it's Daniel in this one" Not just your clothes and your voices, but you honestly don't all look alike to me. I have watched all of your videos over the last couple of weeks, and I can't wait for more. I've learned so so much. Thank you all for teaching!
the resting faces are different, that's very apparent in most DID/OSDD systems, the resting face muscle contraction is different from one to another, and resting face is nothing something you do on purpose, nor is it something you can control without attention, so the faces can look a lot different from alter to alter.
you can see the difference very clearly in people with face paralysis in one side of the face, how the two sides look completely different from each other.
"so squishy!" That is an awesome way to describe it. I love that Kit. :) I'm gonna use that for myself now!! I grew up extremely skinny and would get made fun of for being anorexic, even though I wasn't - I love food but could never keep weight on. Once I reached 21 I started gaining weight rapidly and am now considered a healthy weight at 25 years old. But it's still something I look at and feel "big." So I really love the term squishy.... That's a good way to be a bit more fun about it. Thanks kit for being so open! Also, Kim Kim, Daniel, and Lito, thanks for also being so open about such a private subject
oh, it was so nice to see Lito and Daniel in a video again
This is so sad- I couldn’t imagine feeling out of place in something that is supposed to be your own :( I hope over time everyone can come to terms and hopefully it won’t be as uncomfortable ❤️
I don't usually comment, but Gosh, this was something. I support you guys so much, and I'm just so sorry that it's constantly challenging to be in a position where you're not comfortable or happy. I'm more than happy to know that it seems that Daniel, Kit, and Kim Kim have figured out ways to help themselves feel a little more comfortable; the same goes for Lito, but just the poor man has so much on him. You can really hear the hurt and pain in his voice even though he's trying to hold it back and I'm so sorry to him. Despite him not being able to properly portray his accent when he's fronting as he can, normally, in the inner world, I think he's doing his best and that it shouldn't be considered embarrassing. It's just like Wyn had stated, I believe, that she is open about having DID and it's because she doesn't want to hide who she is anymore; pardon me, if I'm incorrectly paraphrasing, this, it's on the spot of just watching this. None of you should have to feel the need to hide any part of yourselves, and I just, I feel so bad that Lito feels he has to even hide his accent because it seems like it's one of the few things that he can express to be himself. Gosh, all of you, I wish you the best and I hope that dysphoria can lessen within due time, truly.
I especially feel for Lito :( and I can totally relate to the mental gymnastics it takes to separate yourself and feel normal. Selfies are especially difficult, you're right. They usually just end with whoever tried one feeling weird or sad.
I know it's hard to think about and it must be hell to talk about, so thank you all for sharing, and I really hope things get better for you Lito!
Oh, Lito you have a wonderful voice 💕
"I try to view them as just a new adventure! oh look, a new experience! let's embrace this new experience!" I love Lito's efforts to have a positive outlook on things, even periods!
Its so cool seeing lito in someone elses body as I LOVED sense 8 and so i could immediately recognize lito and seeing him as an actual person and not just a character on a screen is absolutely beautiful and im glad he is a part of this world. Much love to lito♥️
Almost all of us can relate to what Kit said about how looking on the mirror can feel super invalidating.
We're working it out as well as we can and I'm glad you guys are too! Good luck to everyone!!
Goku falling over between Daniel and Lito and Kit’s recordings made me giggle. Also killer glasses! I wish I had the confidence to pull those glasses off like you do. Fantastic video, as always. :)
For anyone who struggles with Dysphoria, what we found to be useful is to consider the body as its own separate part. Parts often struggle because there is one host to which the body supposedly belongs, but if it doesn’t belong to anyone, it’s just an external shell with biometrics and physiology, and each alter has their own body and a separate name from the main passport name, then it’s easier. Your bodies are in the inner world, the real world body is like an diving or space costume, you have to ware it to go into space or dive deep into the ocean, you cannot go without it. So you need to take care of it. Especially as the length of the life of the entire system depends on it.
And I personally don't think it is fair that Lito doesn't get to express himself as much as the other do when up front. 😢💔 I understand he has a totally different culture and is completely opposite of the body; however, he should be able to explore expressing himself...
Love all the new looks! Kit's new bow is adorable, she looks like a little Christmas gift😂 amazing video! Glad you're able to spread interesting and good info like this
This is honestly the first time I’m learning about dysphoria, I didn’t even know there was a medical term for this. I’ve always known I was a spiritual being having a human experience growing up which cause me to dissociate from my “vehicle” a lot. It is interesting to see and feel what I thought no one understood, I use to avoid the mirror back in middle school; I didn’t feel like my vehicle was actually mine and I hated it because of that. Hope all of you guys will be able to truly be comfortable, accept your costume, and be yourselves!!💜✨
I have dysphoria just as one person in a body, I couldn't imagine how different, and in many ways difficult, it would be for so many people to try and work through their own problems in a system while still supporting the system AND sharing a body at the same time! You all are very impressive! Thank you for continuing to create educational content on this matter and sharing your experiences!
Lito is my favourite tbh
I'm glad your system is positive about the body from an objective standpoint because before I integrated, when my alter dysphoria was really bad, I would call my body ugly. I didn't actually think I was objectively ugly, it was just that I looked different from myself and it felt gross, but it wasn't so great on my host-self's self esteem. Sorry if this is difficult to understand, I still don't know how to talk about myself from back when I was a system lol.
It definitely makes sense. Some of us used to struggle with that, too. The dysphoric comfort got turned into saying bad things about the body or even causing self harm. We agreed together that we need to treat the body with respect almost like it is a member of the system. -Wyn
when Daniel showed of the new glasses i literally thought "i hope Win wears them so i can see what they look like on her..."
Another amazing and eye-opening video. It was nice to hear everyone speak freely about how they truly feel with such raw emotion. I'm curious as to how all the comments made you feel, Wyn?
As a headmate in a system (not necessarily DID), I experienced a similar dysphoria. For years I was unable to look myself in the mirror or take selfies because our eye color, skin color, height, face shape, and even weight in some cases (not to mention a lack of fangs since my form has fangs) was just WRONG. It was very upsetting that despite my ego I couldn't admire myself in the mirror without feeling that I was looking at something that wasnt ME. Even though I have now gotten over most if not all of this dysphoria, seeing this video gives me validation for how I felt in the past. It's very comforting to know that I wasn't alone in this sort of thing. I hope that you all (like Kit and myself) are able to overcome your dysphoria, though of course your situations and experiences aren't the same as myself or others in the system.
Can't thank you enough for this. We have one headmate that does not like to front at all because of his dysphoria. As host, I am doing what I can to help. This video was comforting and validating. Thank you so much.
Kim-Kim that black lipstick makes your teeth look SO PRETTY!!! I wish I could get my teeth that white! Also, if you would like a really nice BLACK BLACK lipstick, you could have Wyn or Kit check into Jeffree Star Cosmetics liquid lipstick in the shade Weirdo!
I can't believe how open you all are, I appreciate it so much that you want to share this all with us. It seems so bad to live in a body that is not yours and will never be, I wish I could help you but I can't. But you're absolutely my favorite youtuber, I find myself going to your channel to see if there's a new video already a lot. Keep going please, you are all doing so great!!
Im so happy this channel exist I would've never learned about D.I.D without it. Also I love everyone in the system. Thank you for existing
That would be so tough for all of you xxx you are all so strong 💖💖 like you guys have to deal with so many other things that most of the rest of the world would never have deal with! Also you are all so well spoken with describing how you’re feeling and stuff like I felt every of your experiences, I tested up in a couple too. It’s also so very brave for you to be this vulnerable and raw. Send all my love to your system xxx
I know this is an older video but I’ve been rewatching them all because I love you all 💕 I just wanted to say I love Lito’s voice and it makes me sad he’s discouraged or was from fronting because he is such an absolute delight
I will miss you all so much. Take care. Wherever you fare till your eyries receive you at the journey's end!
I feel so bad that Lito is getting told that his voice is silly and such. He’s such a cinnamon roll. His voice isn’t silly it’s his. And I personally love it!
Hello everyone in The Entrophy System! We absolutely love, respect, and appreciate all of you and your videos. You all have and continue to help us on our journey in living with DID. Your videos have become apart of our Monday morning routine! It just doesn't feel totally like Monday until we have watched your latest video!! Thank You so much for all that you do to educate society on DID. :)
Gracias por compartir toda esta información!! It's so interesting to hear from each one's perspective. I'm a new subscriber, but I've been watching so many of your videos that even without looking at the video I know which one of you is talking, and I love your educational videos. PS. I love Lito's accent, and positivism. Besos y abrazos desde Colombia 🇨🇴
I love your videos, thanks for doing this, to all of you!
Admire Daniel honestly about this subject.
Thank you for your videos, which is teaching me so much about DID. I appreciate the individual persons speaking for themselves.
This is a wonderful way to educate the world. I learned today what dysphoria is. You all make me a better person by knowing.
You are great teachers.
You guys explain yourselves, and express your feelings really well. It's so fun for me to learn more and more about DID with your videos :D
Big love to the system xx For Lito, personally I love it when you front. I feel your enthusiasm for certain topics, and the way your speech gets faster and faster. You are a valid part of your system, you deserve to be heard too xx
I’m learning so much more each day.
Thank You x
Then there’s us with a bunch of dragons and skeleton monsters… I actually think that in a way the fact that our non human alters are so different to our body makes it a little easier to just treat the body as a vehicle instead of something that represents us as people. it really would be nice to look the way we are supposed to, but there’s not really any way we could do that. So it’s just a body that’s happens to be the one we’re stuck with.
Awwww... Lito... I love your voice!! (And this comes from a latina, no less)
Lots of love to all of you 😘😘😘😘
Thank you guys for another interesting video. I really love how open and honest you are and I'm glad that you all seem to have found a way to deal with your dysphoria - at least to a certain degree. 💚
What I found really interesting is that Kit didn't even mention the fact that she was living in a human body. I would have expected that to at least be a part of her dysphoric experience...
Lots of love to everyone 💞
Idk what all to say on behalf of my system right now, but Lito helped me understand why male characters behave in some ways. Thank you for an eye opener. Accepting our traits when we are in the body will help us feel more confident and in control.
Those are some snazzy glass 👌 I appreciate Lito bringing up periods, not the most comfortable subject to bring up 👏👏
Lito you are amazing!! You see a problem and immediately figure out how to get past it!! Whitness does not make you invaild my sister is extremely pale and she is asked if she is Mexican all the time because of how well she speaks Spanish!! What you feel disheartened about you are capable of doing!!! Your voice is beautiful! I Love hearing you talk the most out of everyone in the system! Love u! Keep at it!!
Thank you once again for posting, you guys are awesome. It was interesting to hear about the weight disphoria from kit I have an alter that is having the opposite discomfort he is a lot heavier and the body is now a lot lighter than it used to be.
It’s so nice to hear this cause i only have 1 other person in the system that is close in height to me but there is some level of nausea we feel because of vertigo from the initial switch to one of my taller alters cause he is about 5’6 and when he comes out he sees himself as 5’6 and then the reality sets in and he gets anxiety cause he’s shorter than he is in the headspace.
Everyone besides my cohost gets the face disconnect because I get out of the shower and we look in the mirror and whoever switched when I was in the shower gets uncomfortable cause they see my face and not their own. My cohost Emily has gotten used to it but is still jarring to her occasionally if she switches while we’re driving and she looks in the car mirror and it’s my face
This is hands down the most amazing “talk to camera” UA-cam video I’ve seen! Thanks for this.
I love Litos accent and the way he speaks, its definitely one of a kind and thats always a good thing in my opinion. Much love to you all x
I'm loving your new shirt Lito! It just screams Lito is *AWESOME*
I have watched so many of your videos and love them. Lito, I love watching you the most cuz I can see your enthusiasm and excitement when you talk. Kit, you show so much passion in what you do and talk about. Daniel, I couldn't imagine being in a different sexs body but I'm glad you have found a way around the uncomfortable feeling of fronting. Kim kim, you are a sweet girl and I know it must be hard fronting in an older body, but just remember you are you and you have so many people that love and support you. ❤
Hi guys, not sure if you'll see this, but I wanted to apologize for being shitty in the past on your comments. I don't know what got into me then. I also have DID and it has been a LONG road to recovery (not even half way done). It's easy to sit behind a keyboard and judge others' experiences when it looks different from yours. My experience with DID is not necessarily a happy one. But I won't get into that. Anyhoo, I really do wish you (all) the best, and it seems like these vlogs are helping you connect with the community. I was a crappy troll, and I don't want to be so critical and mean online-- that' s NOT how I am "irl."
Very sincerely, Laz
Thank you for this very thoughtful apology. I hope you are well and wish you the best on your healing journey. -Wyn
FYI Mondays are my favorite because of your videos ❤️
Lito's voice and accent are marvelous! Alters, please do not stifle Lito. We love him.
Thanks for info as usual!! Was just reading about dysphoria today!!!
Thanks for making this video. I can see you all differently. I think even without makeup or different clothes your personalities would shine through because each of you is so unique. The mannerisms, stance, the way each of you uses the body makes you quite distinguishable.
I really wanna give Lito a hug :(( he seemed like he was getting emotional but really tried to keep it back
Have any of your male alters tried wearing a binder?
2 things
1: Kim Kim I absolutely love your outfit
2: Lito I really like your voice even if it’s not what you have in the head space I think it’s a really nice voice
OH! Also! Your reading glasses look a lot like my everyday glasses!!! Mine are just solid red though.
Also, also, Daniel, maybe one way for you to feel more comfortable when you are up front is to where some more men or unisex clothing? You could get some pretty snazzy outfits that make you feel more confident? Not hating on the flannel, as a Supernatural fan, you can never go wrong with a flannel/plaid
Aw Litos my favorite. I love his accent and the way he’s always so positive. Lito, come out more and make more videos and don’t be ashamed of your voice or anything that makes you, you.
I really love this videos omg
As a factive, I reeeeallly resonate with this video and love seeing all the different perspectives~~~ it can be so hard to even look in the mirror. thank you so much for sharing this!!! -rose'
LITO!
I just want to say, please don't be embarassed by your voice or accent. It's absolutely charming and I know it must be weird in Wyn's body, sounding differently than you're used to, but that certainly doesn't invalidate YOU or anything about you in any way. You have such amazing energy and personality that it gives me absolute joy whenever I hear your voice in a video. You never fail to make me smile. And I know I'm not by far the only one... :) I'm sending loooads of love your direction!!
xx
I’m so obsessed with KimKim’s makeup look 😍😍
Lito you'r voice is amazing! Don't let anyone tell you different!
Oh but Lito I love your voice, accent, and the way you speak!
Hey Lito! I feel all alters in the system have a unique way of speaking, so don't be afraid to be you! Lots of Love from Austria!
Hey! Love you guys
Yay! Finally caught a new upload!
Do you have pictures from being 12 - now? If you do, I'm wondering if Kim Kim could be helped some by seeing old photos regularly, maybe having an album or wall collage changed out every few months to an "older body" set, so she can see herself "growing up"?
I just told my mom about this video and I get the idea she doesn’t think you guys are legit 😞 makes me sad. Loved this though! Kim Kim, you look great!
thanks for making this video
As a trans guy I can agree that dysphoria sucks. But I was just wondering if the female alters are experiencing body dysmorphia instead of gender dysphoria? Or am I interpreting this video in a weird way because it's 1am, aha.
Dysmorphia is more focused on specific body traits rather than feeling like the whole body is not their own. I see why you’d think that, though. -Wyn
The Entropy System Ah, thank you for replying!
You can have body dysphoria, which is different from both body dysmorphia and gender dysphoria. Yes the lingo is confusing haha. Body dysphoria is usually what's experienced with DID as far as I know
Asher R. Martinez I would say you are right.
Dysmorphia is more when you look in the mirror you see tour body as something it's not. So a skinny person might think they are bigger because their mirror makes them think they are bigger. It's not gender dysphoria like with being trans
I love you guys!!
I love your videos and really enjoy knowing about everybody in this system. Quick question : why Kim-Kim said the eye color of Wyn's body is wrong if the body she remembers is the twelve years old Wyn's body ?
We get a lot of dysphoria, to the point that its hard to even record videos. We are aiming to just make the body more neutral so that it can be more of a blank canvas so that whoever pops into the body gets to just style it the way they like. Don't know if it will work but we figure its worth a try🍀
I'm sure other people have added this but we're trans as well. It's been interesting getting used to being in Mat's (our host's) body (which is characteristically feminine right now) knowing that he doesn't want his body to look like this either. It's something that I struggle with on a front of forgetting that it is a afab body, as well as forgetting it's not my body. If anything it makes me want to help Mat transition. Thanks for another video!
-Eli
I actually never see Wyn in any of the others. Like, I know the body is the same. But I see distinct features in everyone. The body changes to my eyes, perhaps.
Thank you for talking about this topic! It’s always good to see how other people experience things.
Have we gotten to see a drawing of Kim Kim yet? I’d love to see more of how Kim Kim sees herself 🖤
We recently had to get glasses, we went for clear frames so everyone is comfortable with the colour and they go with everything we wear lol
Ooh I love you all so much
Awwwh Lito I don't think you sound silly either
My alter Dylan also suffers severely from dysphoria. While he is a 35 year-old, tall, thin man with wavy hair and a beard, I am in my mid-twenties, quite small, chubby and have straight hair... Especially my feminine appearance really worries him. Back with my ex, he regularly had mental breakdowns and needed to go to the back to regenerate. Nowadays, I try to help him, searching for times, when he and the other boys can come to the front without worrying. At least, I know today what I can do to help him, and that I need to stay in contact with Elisabeth, my 'feminine' alter, so that she lets Dylan alone when he's out. She always reminded him of his incompatibility of his behaviour and my body.. It really got to him, but we're working on it.
Thanks for your great videos!!! I just learned about my DID, I am still unsure about certain things, but I got to know my alters and it really helped me, once they let me back to the front. Have a lovely day! :)
once our hair reaches a certain length, our mascs cant front at all. but if our hair is too short, our fems cant front at all. too much dysphoria too much negative feeling and its an immediate pop back inside. makes life balancing really hard 😭😭
none of us particularly relate to our body and especially our face to the point we all regularly forget what our face looks like so mirrors are a massive jumpscare 😭😭
Lito I hope you can find somewhere you can speak as yourself and more friends to be around and that you can slowly help make your body stronger in the outer world so you are able to lift heavier weights out here. Your voice is so beautiful and I would love to hear it again whenever you want to make more videos.
I wish Lito could speak the way he wanted to. It's so sad that he can't just for him to have just the littlest thing on the outside world of himself to hold onto would help him feel better.
My other Lucy can't look in mirrors or video chat. It can be really hard... Again thank you for being voices for this
I was legitimately crying during Lito’s part.