My daughter did not exist before last night

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  • Опубліковано 26 гру 2024
  • Audio from the podcast I Am In Eskew, episode 22, written by Jon Ware and Munna Hussen, voiced by Jon Ware.
    Art is by me (Emma).

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  • @cecilyerker
    @cecilyerker 2 місяці тому +15615

    I’m relieved that this is from a fictional horror podcast and she actually is a creature, and not a human child with a parent experiencing psychosis

    • @OxygenatedMilk
      @OxygenatedMilk 2 місяці тому +846

      Came here to make sure lol ty

    • @sabieanbuddiesrandomness9142
      @sabieanbuddiesrandomness9142 2 місяці тому +617

      Whatever she is, it can't be too bad since she still looks very genuinely happy/youthful

    • @rightner305
      @rightner305 2 місяці тому +554

      That would've been a scarier horror

    • @glizzygulper8948
      @glizzygulper8948 2 місяці тому +201

      @@sabieanbuddiesrandomness9142 that makes it worse imo

    • @BengaIaas
      @BengaIaas 2 місяці тому +70

      How do we know it's not?

  • @Vaimi.N
    @Vaimi.N 2 місяці тому +12706

    During the pandemic I lived with only my dog and my daughter who at the time could not speak, I spent roughly 3 months talking to two people who could not utter an actual word to me. This deeply reminded me of that

    • @pemo2676
      @pemo2676 2 місяці тому +755

      you had your very own Wilson volleyball(s), but eventually wilson would start talking back

    • @Vaimi.N
      @Vaimi.N 2 місяці тому

      @@pemo2676 The dog did start speaking to me after about 3 weeks

    • @kuchauwe752
      @kuchauwe752 2 місяці тому +308

      I mean, both of them understand your words..

    • @mjrhmekssh
      @mjrhmekssh 2 місяці тому

      ​@@kuchauwe752 to a degree...

    • @angeld23
      @angeld23 2 місяці тому +50

      @@kuchauwe752 I doubt the dog did

  • @JeredtheShy
    @JeredtheShy 2 місяці тому +9470

    The hair fountain is my favorite little kid hairstyle.

    • @amethyst_cat9532
      @amethyst_cat9532 2 місяці тому +681

      Whenever I see it all I can think is "ha, turnip"

    • @TheeKittyPie
      @TheeKittyPie 2 місяці тому +396

      It’s their antennae

    • @chaomatic5328
      @chaomatic5328 2 місяці тому +72

      ​@@TheeKittyPiethey're spying ys

    • @Doopen
      @Doopen 2 місяці тому +133

      I remember my mom gave me a hair fountain when I was 4 years old (I always had my hair down until then) When my family saw it they laughed at me which made me feel embarrassed & I left the room 😭 LOL

    • @Archimedes-v2o
      @Archimedes-v2o 2 місяці тому +38

      lol yes. It’s so cute

  • @anxoanimates2569
    @anxoanimates2569 2 місяці тому +13081

    I feel lucky to have experienced this video randomly and without context

  • @SecondBestArtMuseum
    @SecondBestArtMuseum 2 місяці тому +5758

    I find it really interesting how it changed from "The child" and "my daughter" with a light hint of sarcasm, to her name. Lucia. The narrator knows their name. There's this weird willingness to accept this odd situation, like the narrator becomes okay with the idea of going along with this perceived lie. Maybe it's just an attempt to buy time, but the way they called her a monster at the end and thinking, "checkmate" to themself feels playful. Like whatever initial fear and tension has started to melt away.
    However, is this the narrator actively choosing to slip deeper into this comfortable lie, or are they slowly forgetting that they should be afraid of this THING?

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +1060

      You may enjoy the podcast series this is from! The full episode has more context and a lot more after this - it touches on a few of the things you brought up.

    • @SecondBestArtMuseum
      @SecondBestArtMuseum 2 місяці тому +192

      @@pseudonymjones Honestly, I think I might have to. If this is what I think it is, I may have seen a few other animatics using their audio and what I've heard in snippets is really interesting.

    • @anotherKyle
      @anotherKyle 2 місяці тому +154

      i am scared that the narrating person has some problem with their memory and just forgot they had a daughter

    • @zazope
      @zazope 2 місяці тому +73

      they referred to them as "my daughter" from the beginning. Only switching to Lucia at the end. They never refer to her as "the child"

    • @jacobhargiss3839
      @jacobhargiss3839 2 місяці тому +41

      Perhaps its the other way around. Maybe the lie is that the child didnt exist the day before. Perhaps she is gently accepting the truth.

  • @rockyvolcano4
    @rockyvolcano4 2 місяці тому +2467

    I have no reference for the context of the audio but it very much brings to mind my grandfather.
    While he was alive he had Alzheimer's and at times he would completely forget who, where, and when he was. During the early stages he explained that while he was having an episode he knew who I was and my relation to him, but couldn't remember which of his sons was my father, how I ended up there, any details about me, etc. To him, I simply spawned into existence mear moments before he walked in the room. He knew my name and that I was his grandson and that was it.
    The fear in his eyes when he described it was chilling and made me realize the kind of horror that he must have felt at having his mind fail him. The best way to describe it is that Alzheimer's is the closest we can get to true lovecraftian horror in real life, your reality twisting and folding in on itself as your memories eb and flow like tides on a beach.
    He self ended (can't say the "s" word) during a lucid moment back in 2008 and said in his note that he wanted to end (Can't say the "d" word either apparently) as himself, not the "thing" that his disease made him into.

    • @zorfmorf2414
      @zorfmorf2414 2 місяці тому +143

      Remembering how my grandma behaved in her last years, any sense of a person gone, I hope I can be as strong as your grandpa if the time ever comes for me.

    • @zacharynguyen7286
      @zacharynguyen7286 2 місяці тому +41

      Hope you’re doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @zacharynguyen7286
      @zacharynguyen7286 2 місяці тому +17

      @@zorfmorf2414 Hope you’re doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️

    • @zorfmorf2414
      @zorfmorf2414 2 місяці тому +37

      @@zacharynguyen7286 Thanks! I'm completely fine, still a long way from turning old. Hopefully no Alzheimer's for me🤞

    • @TheAmazingDoorknob
      @TheAmazingDoorknob 2 місяці тому +12

      i know this has nothing to do with the rest of the text but you can say those naughty words, nobody is stopping you

  • @Katharoni
    @Katharoni 2 місяці тому +5135

    This almost feels like a commentary on postpartum depression/psychosis

    • @ruddiko
      @ruddiko 2 місяці тому +143

      I thought the exact same thing

    • @smokinggnu6584
      @smokinggnu6584 2 місяці тому +38

      Same here.

    • @bluedragonfly8139
      @bluedragonfly8139 2 місяці тому +18

      It reads more like horror, but ok.

    • @Katharoni
      @Katharoni 2 місяці тому +141

      @bluedragonfly8139 I mean your interpretation is valid too, some people seem to agree with my reading, I'm sure pleanty would agree with yours as well.

    • @spookycreachre
      @spookycreachre 2 місяці тому +340

      ​​@@bluedragonfly8139 I don't think these are mutually exclusive concepts. In fact, much horror explores mental illness and disorders. Your own mind turning against you is terrifying.

  • @UltravioletNomad
    @UltravioletNomad 2 місяці тому +6067

    Its kinda funny, because playing peekaboo with a child is like playing with their sense or permanence, once the face goes away it might be like the person goes away. But when the child quickly gets wiser it plays peekaboo back. Its kind of amusing the idea that a parent might not recognize their child in a similar way. But in a less literal sense, its still baffling to watch a person develop from seemingly nothing, even IF you saw the child born, a baby is so much different from a person, and a child can become different people at an alarming rate. The fear of finding something else pop out from that game of peekaboo suddenly takes new meaning.

    • @mommalion7028
      @mommalion7028 2 місяці тому +187

      Yeah.Turns out my kid is a fighter. He will literally throw hands at any other boy who displeases him. I don’t know he learned this or why he does it. We don’t hit at home. We don’t watch violent tv. We don’t venerate violence in any form. His favorite books are all comedies. He doesn’t attack girls, smaller kids, or pets, but I’ve seen him start fights with kids his own grade and much much older. It’s wild. All at once he goes from being my sweet innocent little kid to a fleeting shadow of a my late Marine father. My father who beat a man into a bloody pulp with an aluminum baseball bat when I was seven and hiding in the back of his truck. My father who killed and missed having a license to do it. You really don’t know what’s going to peek out from behind the cereal box.

    • @nothere_cora
      @nothere_cora 2 місяці тому +132

      ​You surely do sound traumatized by your father, doesn't mean you have to link your kids behavior with his, or you will resent your own child and he will notice it. Then they will do whatever they can to distance themselves from you, and if the family tells them they ressemble your father, he will be the only anchor point, exemple to follow, and you will raise someone who hates you. Don't see your father's behavior in your kid, see the behavior of a kid with his own mind, who learns to deal with others in evolving ways. Just make sure he doesn't bully. Fighting isn't always bad unless it's targeting weaker than you, people who don't deserve it.​@@mommalion7028

    • @momsaccount4033
      @momsaccount4033 2 місяці тому +40

      @@mommalion7028I’m sorry if you’re being serious and if so my condolences for your trauma but something about this comment is deeply comedic to me

    • @bertellijustin6376
      @bertellijustin6376 2 місяці тому +19

      You sound like you don’t like your father. That’s unfortunate. But be at ease, your son is perfectly normal. Boys exist on a spectrum of a social dominance hierarchy. Just focus on teaching him WHEN it’s ok to go hands on. You pointed out his force is reserved for boys in his own weight class. This is the sign of a healthy boy with leadership qualities. You’ve done something right. He knows force is an important tool but he also appears to know it should only be applied in the appropriate circumstances. If you were paying attention the boys he becomes aggressive with are likely doing something that triggers the violence. All you have to do is regulate and guide the violence to constructive ends. Males will challenge the position of other males in lots of shady ways, even at young ages. He’s likely reacting to passive aggressive ques or he is establishing his place in the hierarchy To prevent challenges. Nothing abnormal or bad. Just the way of our Sex.

    • @GMoth
      @GMoth 2 місяці тому

      ​@@bertellijustin6376 No??? Men aren't violent, unthinking monsters who can only communicate via social dominance, aggression, and fighting. We live in a civilized society, she should be doing what she can to curb these immature outbursts.

  • @ladylightning1741
    @ladylightning1741 2 місяці тому +1485

    This is like if the Cat Distribution System decided to do a trial run expanding business into Child Distribution

    • @Ambipie
      @Ambipie 2 місяці тому +36

      Changelings do that

    • @jonniedoe8658
      @jonniedoe8658 2 місяці тому +87

      ​@@Ambipieprovided the thing didn't replace an actual child I previously owned I would honestly just roll with it, fuck it, this is my kid now.
      Just quietly hope the thing doesn't like pupate into a 10 foot tall spider or something.

    • @computer_dude
      @computer_dude 2 місяці тому +11

      the what distrubution system?

    • @computer_dude
      @computer_dude 2 місяці тому +58

      i just researched into it, it's an internet term for cats adopting you in your own house. for a moment i thought that, somewhere in the world, there was a system of pneumatic tubes delivering cats on demand.

    • @prototype_15
      @prototype_15 2 місяці тому +27

      ​@@computer_dudekind of the joke😅😂just outside your vision, it will spawn a cat to be distributed to you

  • @rossamundbrennan7248
    @rossamundbrennan7248 2 місяці тому +1107

    Makes me think of people's lived experiences of post natal psychosis. Fantastic animation.

    • @segamai
      @segamai 2 місяці тому +61

      No other comparison in the comments comes even close, that's exactly what it sounds like

    • @Ghost-ql6tn
      @Ghost-ql6tn 2 місяці тому +25

      That's what I was thinking too, I just started learning about it recently.

    • @heavysbeltbuckle
      @heavysbeltbuckle 2 місяці тому +1

      ​@@segamai This video has taught me what an unreliable narrator actually looks like, it's clearly just a kid playing peakaboo (unless at their supposed age that's hardly common) and the mother is seemingly having a hard time comprehanding that she gave birth to a juvenile human being and that the baby is (or toddler?) is already capable of playing games with her
      every second comment is just "fey, monster, metaphor for being raised neurodivergent" the mother might be, I'm an adult with autism but I don't intend on having children and I can hardly comprehend having a father because of how alien that notion has become
      sorry for the ramble and mild tangent, but these comments are buying what the narrator says without trying to rationalize them, unless that's the intend and I'm dumb

  • @Kryptnyt
    @Kryptnyt 2 місяці тому +1218

    Changelings also need all the same things normal children need!

    • @Mark73
      @Mark73 2 місяці тому +59

      Changelings typically replace an existing child rather than get deposited with a childless person.

    • @virgil2461
      @virgil2461 2 місяці тому +135

      fun fact, the changeling/fey child replacement myth is believed to be a way of explaining neurodivergent or autistic traits in children that seemingly come out of nowhere

    • @Voidi-Void
      @Voidi-Void 2 місяці тому +64

      ​@@virgil2461YEEEAAAHHHH I'M A FAIRYYYYY LETS GOOO

    • @Bluecho4
      @Bluecho4 2 місяці тому +36

      @@Mark73 Who can fathom the motives of the Kindly Ones? Best take care of the changeling, lest their parents become irate. They gave you a "gift", after all. You wouldn't want the Summer Lords thinking you _ungrateful._

    • @Mark73
      @Mark73 2 місяці тому +10

      @@virgil2461 I'm pretty sure that it's impossible to tell if that's where the myth came from.

  • @aria5614
    @aria5614 2 місяці тому +3142

    My thinking is "congratulations! You have been adopted by an eldritch or Fey creature. It is acting as your child because that is the best way for it to blend in, keep an eye on you and play with you in a manner you can comprehend."

    • @johnsullender3717
      @johnsullender3717 2 місяці тому +255

      Funnily enough, this is basically the explanation in the source. The podcast is called I Am In Eskew, it's really good

    • @navinhaze6343
      @navinhaze6343 2 місяці тому +16

      ​@@johnsullender3717 cool now I have to check that out

    • @Heligoland360
      @Heligoland360 2 місяці тому +115

      @@johnsullender3717 Really? I thought this was supposed to be a psychological horror with the parent having delusions that their definitely real child, isn't.
      Can you imagine jumping out and attacking your daughter because you thought she was some eldritch monster?

    • @Strangeric798
      @Strangeric798 2 місяці тому +34

      Ah, well, looks like you and johnsullender beat me to the punch. I was going to say something along the lines of, "and that is how the legend of the changeling was born".

    • @joewell6435
      @joewell6435 2 місяці тому +64

      Reminds me of an episode of Doctor Who where an alien disguises itself as a human child and adopts human parents. A big difference there is the alien actually gives its adopted parents false memories, and the doctor helps them come to the startling realization that the wife is unable to bear children

  • @FeatherVoid
    @FeatherVoid 2 місяці тому +6918

    I'm sure this is all part of some wider story, but all I can think of is; this is how parents react when children start to form their own opinions on things, or show signs of disabilities. That can't be their child, it has to be SOMETHING ELSE and not... a little human struggling with becoming self aware.

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +1818

      @@FeatherVoid it is part of a wider story but I love it because it works on this level too. I love the podcast this is from because the stories all have this kind of trueness to the human experience. I mean, that’s true of all good horror.

    • @hotpocketsat2am
      @hotpocketsat2am 2 місяці тому +88

      @@pseudonymjonesooh, what’s the wider story?

    • @Grab_001
      @Grab_001 2 місяці тому +30

      ​@@hotpocketsat2amI wanna know, too!

    • @Vegas242
      @Vegas242 2 місяці тому +121

      ​@@hotpocketsat2amI haven't listened to it but it's in the credits of the video, it's a series called 'I AM IN ESKEW' and this audio was from episode 22 ingratitude

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +312

      @@hotpocketsat2am- someone already mentioned, but this audio is from a podcast, “I am in Eskew.” I would recommend the whole series but if this clip caught your attention you should listen to all of Episode 22. It’s all a self-contained story about this guy and this kid. (And his wife, and the horrible haunted town they’re all trapped in)

  • @sweeterstuff
    @sweeterstuff 2 місяці тому +1662

    what a strange thing to be recommended at 9 in the morning

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +180

      @@sweeterstuff good morning! I hope you have a great day!

    • @reiltinedwards4459
      @reiltinedwards4459 2 місяці тому +26

      Better check to make sure you don't suddenly have a toddler who didn't exist yesterday in your house

    • @andriana5311
      @andriana5311 2 місяці тому +5

      I am also watching this at 9 in the morning

    • @InsertStuffHere
      @InsertStuffHere 2 місяці тому +5

      Well that's a little interesting I'm watching this at 9:30 at night.

    • @mangaminx9440
      @mangaminx9440 2 місяці тому +2

      It's 9pm i've been recommended this 😱

  • @mizushimo
    @mizushimo 2 місяці тому +32

    Imagine being the kid whose parent suddenly starts acting like you are a stranger and a monster.

    • @henkkahenrik4183
      @henkkahenrik4183 2 місяці тому +8

      Don't have to imagine. I mean while it's probably not as bad as someone dealing with a parent who has capgras syndrome for example, the way my biological mother acted when i came out as trans wasn't all that much different. She legit said it was like "her daughter had died", like i was just something taking the place of her kid. Like i was some demon or a changeling in the body of her child. Like i was suddenly a complete stranger. What makkes it worse, is the fact that the whole reason i was born in the first place was because her first daughter died, and i was basically a one night mistake because my parents mutual friend introduced them to help my biological mother cope with the loss. and i was made painfully aware of it since i was a literal toddler. I mean I would've pieced it together with time anyways, since i was born literally 9 months and 3 days after her death, but like it's a bit much to tell a small kid repeatedly that the only reason they exist is because the death of their own sister. As a kid, i always in a weird way felt responsible for my sisters death despite her dying before i was born. Like it was wrong for me to be born because of that. So hearing her basically say it was like her kid had died and i just took her place really felt fucked up. And honestly, it kinda made me think that in a weird way, i might have always been just a replacement for her first child despite the fact I wasn't even planned or necessarily wanted. Like my whole worth had always been to be the daughter she had lost, and when I wasn't, i wasn't really seen as her kid anymore. Not that she ever really acted like a proper parent when i was growing up in the first place.

    • @Bethsabee_Sheba_Newrose
      @Bethsabee_Sheba_Newrose 17 днів тому +2

      @@henkkahenrik4183 I’m so sorry 😞

  • @parmesanzero7678
    @parmesanzero7678 2 місяці тому +633

    As someone who grew up known they weren’t wanted, this is painful to listen to.

    • @bluelfsuma
      @bluelfsuma 2 місяці тому +96

      I'm sorry you went through that. I hope you have kind people who want you now.
      I can and can't imagine that feeling. I, at least, had about 8 years before the plot twist.

    • @BrandonQuezada-k2v
      @BrandonQuezada-k2v 2 місяці тому

      Nah we still don’t want yo ass
      Jk man mwa mwa

    • @GmetrixTutorialEsp
      @GmetrixTutorialEsp 18 днів тому

      Why, what’s the context??

    • @bluelfsuma
      @bluelfsuma 18 днів тому +5

      @@GmetrixTutorialEsp The context for the original audio of the animation seems to be that the child is actually a creature that spawned into existence overnight.
      But, to someone who's been unloved by family, this can remind them of how they were treated. That they shouldn't exist, that their family sees them as a monster. How, on the outside, it seems like normal family things. But on the inside, there's a deep resentment and coldness aimed towards the child.

    • @Bethsabee_Sheba_Newrose
      @Bethsabee_Sheba_Newrose 17 днів тому

      Parmesanzero7678 If you want it, here’s a big warm hug for you ❤

  • @matthewpaul6904
    @matthewpaul6904 2 місяці тому +118

    "Behind the parapet of the corn flakes" was one of many phrases i had never heard before. Bravo.

  • @samvsmedia8680
    @samvsmedia8680 2 місяці тому +70

    I love how absolutely terrifying normal childhood behavior is in this context, brilliant

  • @swanofoceane
    @swanofoceane 2 місяці тому +185

    I know this is like.... SUPPOSED to be at least a little unsettling, but I am just so charmed and delighted by it. Like the little girl is just so freaking cute and the main character is animated in such a relateable way. Like this was so cute that I want to have a baby now, and I never want to have a baby!!! THATS HOW CUTE THIS IS, ARGHHHH IT'S JUST TOO CUTE I'M SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • @Stella.22g
      @Stella.22g 22 дні тому +1

      GET CHILD GET GOOD FRIEND MAKE GOOD HUMAN THAT WILL MAKE MORE FRIENDS??? YES!?

    • @Bethsabee_Sheba_Newrose
      @Bethsabee_Sheba_Newrose 17 днів тому

      @@Stella.22g cackling!

  • @excrubulent
    @excrubulent 2 місяці тому +1228

    The worst part of this is wondering if the narrator is reliable, or does he have some sort of affliction that simply makes him think his daughter isn't real? From the inside would there be any way for him to tell? From this short clip there's no way to know.

    • @Heligoland360
      @Heligoland360 2 місяці тому +29

      That's what I was thinking.

    • @ivanna9788
      @ivanna9788 2 місяці тому +11

      It's from a podcast!!!

    • @ivanna9788
      @ivanna9788 2 місяці тому +16

      It's called I am in eskew

    • @one_smol_duck
      @one_smol_duck 2 місяці тому +102

      Yeah, I kept thinking how tragic it would be if this was just a normal child and the narrator was experiencing a break from reality

    • @EBDavis111
      @EBDavis111 2 місяці тому +138

      It's from a horror podcast where the narrator is trapped in some nightmare Twilight Zone-esque city that keeps psychologically tormenting him. So yes. He's reliable. And it gets worse.

  • @biggestsigh
    @biggestsigh 2 місяці тому +159

    I'm so confused, but the sheer paranoia just oozing from this mother is just golden.

  • @krakenpots5693
    @krakenpots5693 2 місяці тому +335

    I kinda bugged out at 2:34 when you said your daughter's name, because, well, my own daughter's name is Lucia! And the fact that the name of this creature who didn't exist before last night is taking on the very same name as the tiny monster sleeping next to me made me start to question her very existance!!! Truly terrifying!

    • @ctrl_x1770
      @ctrl_x1770 27 днів тому +1

      That's a cool name! Is there any particular reason her name is Lucia?

    • @krakenpots5693
      @krakenpots5693 5 днів тому

      @@ctrl_x1770 it means light!
      Also (and don't tell the wife this!) on my first playthrough of Skyrim waaaay back in 2013, I immediately adopted the little homeless girl in whiterun called Lucia, as well as the flower girl in windhelm named Sophia.
      (Guess what our next daughter's name is going to be? 🤭)

    • @ctrl_x1770
      @ctrl_x1770 5 днів тому +1

      @@krakenpots5693 How adorable! I hope you, your wife, and your daughters have a wonderful life.
      I never knew you could adopt children in Skyrim! I need to play that game again, haha.

  • @Noahsacoyote
    @Noahsacoyote 2 місяці тому +518

    0:14 ive been listening to too many podcasts i fully expected one of those music stings right here 😭😭

    • @Pip200ne
      @Pip200ne 2 місяці тому +16

      Hey, Vsauce, Micheal here

    • @nechdaught3412
      @nechdaught3412 2 місяці тому +4

      This IS from a podcast, so

    • @Noahsacoyote
      @Noahsacoyote 2 місяці тому

      @@nechdaught3412 oh wait actually?

    • @nechdaught3412
      @nechdaught3412 2 місяці тому

      @@Noahsacoyote yeah, check the description

    • @Noahsacoyote
      @Noahsacoyote 2 місяці тому

      @@nechdaught3412 oh lol alr, ty 😭

  • @sirlancerstien
    @sirlancerstien 2 місяці тому +260

    This is how the dementia starts.

    • @artchick07
      @artchick07 2 місяці тому +2

      It's real fun when you have dysphagia in your 30s. It comes and goes

  • @Dacronhai
    @Dacronhai Місяць тому +8

    Thanks for introducing me to I Am In Eskew. 10/10 would visit again soon.
    Edit: The fact that this is the only video on a channel created almost twenty years ago, whose description reads "I don't make videos", really adds a lot.

  • @not-so-obvious_autism777
    @not-so-obvious_autism777 2 місяці тому +44

    2:14 The switch to realism made me laugh

    • @justtism
      @justtism 8 днів тому

      Oh far from it

  • @Wack.d
    @Wack.d 2 місяці тому +309

    1:06 I love how the top of the cereal box makes it look like the goose has a crocodile mouth!

  • @peculiarpangolin4638
    @peculiarpangolin4638 2 місяці тому +84

    I saw the title and thought, "that sounds like I am in Eskew." I was taken way back as soon as I heard David's voice. Thank you for reminding me of this fascinating story from years ago!

  • @notinspectorgadget
    @notinspectorgadget 2 місяці тому +68

    This is my fear of having a dissociative episode as a parent made manifest. Thanks.

  • @loganrenfrow2544
    @loganrenfrow2544 2 місяці тому +41

    Man I wouldn't last in a horror movie because I couldn't bring myself to mistrust a little girl who just wants to play peekaboo.

  • @ireallydidntwanttomakeanac575
    @ireallydidntwanttomakeanac575 2 місяці тому +44

    Emma just dropped in, created an animation, introduced us to a gripping scene from a podcast, have it randomly recommended in a ton of people's feeds, all in the matter of a few days from when I typed this. Well done, this is superb!

  • @ImWeirdAndILikeIt
    @ImWeirdAndILikeIt 2 місяці тому +62

    I saw the title and was like “oh shit, like in Eskew?” so I was VERY pleased to hear David’s voice immediately.
    Brilliant to use this bit for an animatic! Great work

  • @FlightWish
    @FlightWish 2 місяці тому +456

    This video's all well and good, but then I get to 0:50 where the child hides their face behind the cereal box and I'm immediately reminded of the time when Jerma985 did the same thing but with a burger instead of a box.

    • @carmelamarchese507
      @carmelamarchese507 2 місяці тому +22

      i love when i find a jerma reference in random places

    • @spit.or.swaIIow
      @spit.or.swaIIow 2 місяці тому +14

      A literal changeling acting as a human to catch us off guard.

    • @genericname2747
      @genericname2747 2 місяці тому +9

      The child is Jerma

    • @tplanojevic
      @tplanojevic Місяць тому +1

      What is wrong with jerma fans??!?! (Ily all)

  • @Exilum
    @Exilum Місяць тому +14

    The best proof that changing the way you write a story goes a long way to define the perceived genre.

  • @fgvcosmic6752
    @fgvcosmic6752 2 місяці тому +435

    Look. Look I know this is meant to be creepy, or scary, or unsettling.
    But this would get me. It would. I know how fast I'd accept that lie. I know that I'd quickly choose to take in the little one. Maybe that makes me weak or unwise but I know that, as long as I saw no harm coming to anyone else I loved, I would want no harm to come to her either.
    If she were truly a monster, or some other dangerous being, then I would unfortunately be prime prey. I lose this game. Because I know I would choose to love her as a daughter.

    • @fgvcosmic6752
      @fgvcosmic6752 2 місяці тому +94

      I've just read the original transcript and... wow
      Maybe my weakness would have kept me safe.

    • @koalabro6118
      @koalabro6118 2 місяці тому +119

      You call it a weakness, but what need does a monster have for violence, threat, or malice, when you provide it everything it could want freely and willingly?

    • @jonniedoe8658
      @jonniedoe8658 2 місяці тому +91

      If I woke up one day and suddenly had a wife and daughter I would know immediately that none of it was real. I was born completely sterile.
      I'm also a habitual loner, a bit of a loser really. If I woke up into an alien parasite family I would just play stupid and go along with it. I don't think I'd even care if the things eventually killed me really, for however long they maintain the facade I'd get to enjoy the life that was never meant for me.

    • @awesomeman8955
      @awesomeman8955 2 місяці тому +32

      Me when I spend too much time reading shitty horror stories and believe that my actual real life child is a fucking monster because my schizophrenia is acting up

    • @heyguy2767
      @heyguy2767 2 місяці тому +3

      Same.

  • @theartistcarol
    @theartistcarol 2 місяці тому +248

    The horror mixed with even-tone bbc documentary voice is such a great vibe enhanced by the artwork 👏👏👏

  • @fuzziestoffrawgs
    @fuzziestoffrawgs Місяць тому +14

    I didn't understand what was happening until I read the comments. I'm glad I'm not the only one who thought this was about a mom suffering from post-partum depression or psychosis 😅

  • @Vexxed_MC
    @Vexxed_MC 2 місяці тому +175

    This feels like a statement from the Magnus archives

    • @ReddStrider
      @ReddStrider 2 місяці тому +18

      did this comment have like a search bar and a weird link for anyone else

    • @literallylogan6750
      @literallylogan6750 2 місяці тому +2

      ​@@ReddStrider yea

    • @TheCodemasterc
      @TheCodemasterc 2 місяці тому +24

      Certainly, it sounds like the start of a Stranger statement. The growing mistrust of the person right in front of you, that you are the only one who can see the truth of the thing that is pretending to be human, that growing uncertainty of what you are looking at only matched by the growing certainty that it is wrong. The terrible dread that this thing, this stranger, knows you know and is getting a sick enjoyment of your fear.

    • @raspberryjam
      @raspberryjam 2 місяці тому +10

      If you like the magnus archives I am in eskew may very well be up your alley

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +67

      I learned about Eskew and The Silt Verses (creators’ other podcast) because they were promoted by Rusty Quill. If you like The Magnus Archives you will probably also like I Am In Eskew. The Silt Verses has a very different vibe but it’s by far my favorite of the bunch.

  • @madamwyrd
    @madamwyrd Місяць тому +9

    I just started re-listening to I Am In Eskew and I recognized it IMMEDIATELY. Such an underrated show

  • @jaymajaym
    @jaymajaym 2 місяці тому +78

    An indie comics icon and a legend, and now: storyboarder

  • @PringoOrSomething
    @PringoOrSomething 2 місяці тому +95

    Bro has no object permanence

  • @jerboa-1979
    @jerboa-1979 2 місяці тому +246

    "I don't make videos" yeah then what am I watching

  • @vanishingllama7342
    @vanishingllama7342 2 місяці тому +19

    I don't have the full context to this, so I can only assume this person woke up one day and a random possibly supernatural child now lives with them, and now that just have a kid. This their child now, and I love that. 😂😊

  • @stonedpossum69420
    @stonedpossum69420 2 місяці тому +40

    It took me a while to notice the narrator is actually right to suspect something awful was going to happen

    • @Calvin_Coolage
      @Calvin_Coolage 2 місяці тому +6

      He's right in a way, if you read/listen to the full story this is adapted from.

  • @tsujiyanagimashi1379
    @tsujiyanagimashi1379 2 місяці тому +40

    This is giving an incredible sort of statement from The Magnus Archives vibes that I really enjoy

    • @always_1895
      @always_1895 2 місяці тому +8

      You’re so right, I was thinking for like 30 seconds that this WAS tma and I must have forgotten a great ep lmao

    • @KnotAnOwl
      @KnotAnOwl 2 місяці тому +1

      @@always_1895 Same! I was trying so hard to place the voice before I scrolled down to the description

    • @TheMemeticWind
      @TheMemeticWind 2 місяці тому +3

      Looking up the series showed it was on Rusty Quill, so that about tracks

  • @NicholasHoward
    @NicholasHoward 2 місяці тому +20

    Getting this youtube recommendation fully out of context was quite a treat

  • @icecold1805
    @icecold1805 2 місяці тому +21

    On the isolation of this video alone, it is so sad, cuz it feels like the parent is just... uff... horribly mentally ill, and it is a great way to put us in the mindset of... I don't know, I guess they may have Alzheimer and just can't remember their own child?
    Anyways! amazing work on the animation, loving your style ♥

    • @jonniedoe8658
      @jonniedoe8658 2 місяці тому +1

      Some mothers up to a year after giving birth can experience postpartum psychosis. It's incredibly dangerous because they can try to kill their infant or partner under the delusion that they're aliens or changelings or something.

  • @SilverOnTheCloud
    @SilverOnTheCloud 2 місяці тому +51

    Never heard of this podcast but it sounds right up my alley! Great animation!

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +12

      @@SilverOnTheCloud I Am In Eskew and their second series The Silt Verses are both beautifully written, profound, and viscerally upsetting. If you liked this clip, you should give them a try!

    • @reiltinedwards4459
      @reiltinedwards4459 2 місяці тому

      ​@@pseudonymjones where is the podcast available on? Is it on Spotify?

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +3

      @@reiltinedwards4459 I just checked and yeah, it is.

    • @hallie342
      @hallie342 2 місяці тому +1

      @@pseudonymjonesI am in eskews by the people behind the silt verses?? Definitely listening to it now, tsv is probably my favourite story ever told

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +1

      @@hallie342 yeah! I Am In Eskew is written (and narrated) by Jon Ware and Munna Hussen who went on to make The Silt Verses. I’ll be real - compared to TSV, Eskew has some rough edges. It was their first podcast. The audio quality is a bit worse and it feels like a much smaller story (it’s just the two writers doing the narration from two points of view), but I still love it and would absolutely recommend it.

  • @exclamatia
    @exclamatia 2 місяці тому +41

    the ghastly grin of a grimacing goose...
    this was really good!!!!!!

  • @tammikilpi6993
    @tammikilpi6993 2 місяці тому +2

    You have created the perfect marketing campaign for eskew!!! This is SUCH an amazing animatic with the perfect vibe for the show! You have really captured the tension and absurdity of the show. Horror from the mundaine. I hope the people in the comments give the show a listen

  • @G00dTaste
    @G00dTaste 2 місяці тому +20

    Reminds me of that one chef guy from Welcome to Nightvale who just woke up with a whole neuclear family one day

  • @LetsGoGetThem
    @LetsGoGetThem 25 днів тому +2

    There are similar feelings to this no parents ever want to admit to feeling from time to time even though they love their children, this is very well done.

    • @Washeek
      @Washeek 18 днів тому

      Omg thanks. I thought I was alone.
      I guess it's just being afraid of their competency or something.

  • @idabsopeoplecantseemecry3835
    @idabsopeoplecantseemecry3835 2 місяці тому +4

    Highly recommend I Am In Eskew to anybody who hasnt heard it!!! The horror in it is genuinely disturbing

  • @lunagale1573
    @lunagale1573 2 місяці тому +2

    I did not expect I am In Eskew when clicking this video, but I'm so happy that it is!!!! It really puts into perspective what this situation looks from the outside. Wonderful animation!!!

  • @Shaggyladd
    @Shaggyladd 2 місяці тому +31

    UA-cam has blessed you with being recommended on a whim. It's great.
    In all seriousness this is really neat.

    • @Shaggyladd
      @Shaggyladd 2 місяці тому +3

      I just realized this is the only video on this channel. That's wild

  • @skywilson7471
    @skywilson7471 2 місяці тому +2

    i love the suspense! You're expecting something to happen and the best part is nothing does.

  • @Solar_Corpus
    @Solar_Corpus 2 місяці тому +158

    I sure hope the narrator is right to believe her daughter isn’t real. I would hate to harbor so much fear, anger, confusion, and resentment towards an innocent child. Especially being a mother to toddlers myself. Makes me feel dreadful.

    • @zo6679
      @zo6679 2 місяці тому +65

      most adults do treat autistic children like that. once you show symptoms you flick a switch and you’re a monster. saying this as someone with autism

    • @zepharephic5381
      @zepharephic5381 2 місяці тому

      It's just a comedy sketch
      Of course the daughter isn't real, we all know children are hideous monsters hiding in under-sized humanoid meat suits

    • @zacharie6750
      @zacharie6750 2 місяці тому +11

      Yes, I agree. I... certainly hope this isn't how OP actually feels about their child, this would fuck a kid up to know that their parent felt this way about them.

    • @Solar_Corpus
      @Solar_Corpus 2 місяці тому +48

      @@zacharie6750 I highly doubt this was anything more than a work of fiction. I’m speaking as if the narrator is a character in a horror short, which they are, it’s sad either way.

    • @genericname2747
      @genericname2747 2 місяці тому +5

      It's part of a horror story

  • @Cryptic_Cryptid
    @Cryptic_Cryptid Місяць тому +2

    Seeing people’s reactions not knowing eskew is so strange. They are unaware of the horrors. Amazing podcast and amazing art!!

  • @KentonJohnston
    @KentonJohnston 2 місяці тому +18

    this is AMAZING.
    the EXPRESSIONS
    the TONE
    the perfect amount of face covered in each frame of peekaboo

  • @sharpeningtheaxe
    @sharpeningtheaxe 2 місяці тому +12

    This was such a wonderful work of art! It really sparks the imagination. As seen from the comments, there are so many different ways that it can be interpreted or related to. I personally found it to be cute and charming, with an element of absurdist humor to the whole thing.

  • @prismaticNett
    @prismaticNett 2 місяці тому +33

    One of my favorite moments from Eskew, and such a lovely interpretation of it!

  • @radda7447
    @radda7447 2 місяці тому +7

    Love the design of the daughter, very cute.

  • @rienksjoerdsma
    @rienksjoerdsma 2 місяці тому +37

    I don't know what the context is behind this, but I choose to interpret this in a wholesome way, someone learning to let go of old fears and learning to accept a loving family. That plus the (mostly) adorable art style made this comforting in a weird way.

  • @happmacdonald
    @happmacdonald Місяць тому +1

    Right on the heels of playing through Great Gods Grove and Smile for Me, both the artwork and the mixture of horror with slice of life reminds me a lot of Yugo's work. 😊

  • @aceofspades8474
    @aceofspades8474 2 місяці тому +5

    Your artstyle is so wonderful, and despite its adorableness, still manages to convey the unsettling horror elements. I have no context to this, but the thing I find most unsettling is the fact that the narrator sees this unfamiliar intruder, yet recognizes it as their daughter. There may have been some scene where they reacted in shock to the random child and the reactions of said child and/or other people around them all acted as if the kid was their child and so they are running with it to avoid being seen as crazy, but I would imagine their internal monologue would describe the entity as an intruder claiming to be their child instead of saying “my daughter.” Instead, it seems to me that they saw this entity and instantly knew on sight both that this creature is their daughter, and that that is not and never was true. That’s true horror, seeing something and knowing the backstory it’s supposed to have, the role it’s supposed to fill, yet being aware that it has only just now been superimposed onto your life story with no logic or explanation, while your own brain tries to convince you on some level that what is unfamiliar is familiar.

  • @lunaponta594
    @lunaponta594 2 місяці тому +2

    this gives SO MUCH disco elysium

  • @GoopGhostt
    @GoopGhostt 2 місяці тому +6

    reminds me of that reddit story where a guy had 2 roommates and one always complained about there not being a bathroom connected to his room, just a closet. op had stored a lot of his personal and sentimental things in the closet, and went to put something there one day, and when he opened the door it was a bathroom. both his roommates claimed that it had always been a bathroom the entire time they lived there and had no idea what he was talking about. it turned out he had a brain tumor

  • @aaravchauhan11
    @aaravchauhan11 Місяць тому +2

    Damm i have not been this invested in something for a long time. Good story building

  • @odrag.29
    @odrag.29 2 місяці тому +20

    This video appears on my home page, I watched and I liked. I say: "oh nice let look what other animations or video has on the channel.
    There is online one video on this channel and the description sayn that "I don't make videos". On that moment I feel more terror than the realization of my children did not exist yesterday.

  • @yourfavoritegremlins9788
    @yourfavoritegremlins9788 29 днів тому +1

    I saw this on my home page and wasn’t planning to watch it at first but then the audio clicked on and I noticed it was the same voice from when I read the monkeys paw in one of my classes. Also, very good animation!!

  • @probably_a_person
    @probably_a_person 2 місяці тому +3

    I didn't know this thick atmosphere and clean linework/artstyle was something I needed, but thank you :)

  • @BrigithPinho
    @BrigithPinho 2 місяці тому +2

    i love how the evidence she is a diabolical creature is how much she adores peek-a-boo and not the fact that her head is hallow

  • @potatopotpie69
    @potatopotpie69 2 місяці тому +276

    Me when I have Dementia

    • @temporalmentetonto
      @temporalmentetonto 2 місяці тому +4

      Antimementia

    • @temporalmentetonto
      @temporalmentetonto 2 місяці тому +14

      i am so dumb, thought this was from a "there is no antimemetics division" narration, cuz of the voice, wasted such a good joke

    • @Freddie_Smalls
      @Freddie_Smalls 2 місяці тому +2

      I have dementia

    • @Freddie_Smalls
      @Freddie_Smalls 2 місяці тому +2

      I have dementia

  • @diegoalejandroelizaldemarq6621
    @diegoalejandroelizaldemarq6621 2 місяці тому +2

    I like it actually develops the expectative on whether is it a real creature from a cursed dimension or either the dad's lost memory at not even recognizing his own kid...
    The horror feels real, the narrative could've been scarier but it's a good concept...

  • @rolypolysareawesome
    @rolypolysareawesome 2 місяці тому +4

    Oh god I though this was about a parent trying to get used to having a child-

  • @dolst
    @dolst Місяць тому +2

    Somehow learning the context behind this makes it more comforting. It's good to know the child is actually some eldritch abomination rather than having just sprung into existence overnight. For some reason, that's more terrifying to me. 😬
    Surf Wisely.

  • @glitchsister
    @glitchsister 2 місяці тому +17

    oh hey one my favorite comic artists is now an animator, awesome

  • @OnlyforFydo
    @OnlyforFydo Місяць тому +1

    This is really good! Came out of complete nowhere on my recommendation page, but really, really good. This feels so real despite it being animation. (Not saying animation doesn’t feel real, just, compared to most animation, this feels like, REAL). Also this writing style is extremely unique, I can tell why you chose this for the video. Can’t wait to see whatever you make next! (If you choose to continue making stuff)

  • @VitLJ
    @VitLJ 2 місяці тому +6

    Ahhhh! Its I'm in Eskew! Isnt it. I reconize that constant rain sound. This has made my night. The animation fits the audio so well. You did a great job!

  • @DarkwaveMistress
    @DarkwaveMistress 2 місяці тому +1

    Suddenly having a child is definitely one of my worst nightmares

  • @ghostlyexe
    @ghostlyexe 2 місяці тому +69

    As someone who never plans on having kids, the idea of waking up one day to find that I have an entire toddler and everyone else is completely unfazed by their existence is something straight out of my nightmares

  • @BontrasSnide
    @BontrasSnide Місяць тому +1

    This feels like something I would read in my horror and science fiction class, or perhaps a page from the notes of my memories. Something that once made sense, but was morphed and shifted over time so that it was no longer understandable except to the person who wrote it then. Like looking back on an author that is no longer the same, but is also you, and you should know, but you don’t.

  • @asianfrenchcanadian
    @asianfrenchcanadian 2 місяці тому +9

    1:48 You cannot grasp the true form of your daughters attack

  • @kutaraa
    @kutaraa 2 місяці тому +1

    A confusing story for sure, the best part is the art, i love it!

  • @availaboi6143
    @availaboi6143 2 місяці тому +4

    Ngl, I was relived this wasn't a parent hating their child story

  • @calzone7961
    @calzone7961 2 місяці тому +1

    This is a perfect 'Spooky' Video
    There's unease and tension that only spawns from the narration over a perfectly normal occurence.

  • @cakedo9810
    @cakedo9810 2 місяці тому +3

    This works insanely well as a short story. The art is wonderful also. I’ll have to check it out.

  • @renrolo7485
    @renrolo7485 Місяць тому

    I Am in Eskew is such a great podcast! It's so cool to see it animated.
    For those who don't know the story, the city of Eskew is sort of alive and it tries to act like a real city and merge with those living in it. Lucia *is* in fact a product of the city, but not in the way David (the mc) thinks. Lucia sees all the horrors of Eskew instead of David, giving him a break. Lucia has frequent night terrors and screams and cries, but he always runs over to console her.
    But in the end, he can't trust that she's real and leaves Lucia to the monsters, losing her. He's heartbroken afterwards, and his wife (who became a part of the city in an earlier episode) tells him "ugh nothing ever makes u happy. and what will we tell our son?" He looks down at the ground and sees the monster his daughter kept describing, Happy Jack Adam, scuttling around the dinner table on all fours. The monster he feared all along has taken her place because he couldn't realize what he had.
    (This also explains the name of the episode-- Ingratitude. He wasn't thankful enough for his daughter, so he lost her.)

  • @pedroscoponi4905
    @pedroscoponi4905 2 місяці тому +8

    That is definitely the most unexpected way to be reminded I haven't finished Eskew yet...

  • @ghhn4505
    @ghhn4505 2 місяці тому +2

    I thought this was gonna be in the more literal "my daughter was born last night" kinda sense, but I like this a lot too

  • @OldBeau
    @OldBeau 2 місяці тому +11

    i love eskew and pseu!!!! what a lovely combination

  • @NIRDIAN1
    @NIRDIAN1 Місяць тому +1

    Oh hey! Ever since leaving twitter (and most social media) I've really missed seeing your creative outings. Very glad to see you active(-ish?) here...!

  • @noesinferno
    @noesinferno 2 місяці тому +7

    oohhhhh i follow you on tumblr and this got randomly recommended to me just now and im so glad it did ^^ !! its always a delight to see more of your art!

    • @pseudonymjones
      @pseudonymjones  2 місяці тому +3

      @@noesinferno that’s so exciting! Thank you! I’ll keep making stuff :>

  • @CaiCanMake
    @CaiCanMake 2 місяці тому +2

    There is something truly magical about finding a video UA-cam recommends, loving the whole thing, and immediately subscribing before realizing this is the first video they made :)
    I can’t wait to see the rest!

  • @jackofn0trades29
    @jackofn0trades29 2 місяці тому +7

    You know, maybe not right not, but maybe at some point in the future, I would like to have a daughter that didn’t exist yesterday.

  • @cipocreep1050
    @cipocreep1050 Місяць тому +1

    I AM IN ESKEW MENTIONNED 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
    This was so well done, I love your graphical style!

  • @Pazliacci
    @Pazliacci 2 місяці тому +5

    YESSS, gorsh this episode is so good, I AM IN ESKEW.. just rules, and this rules too! also such a loving addaptation of the casual horror of the podcast, like the soft round style, contrasted with the just eerily horrifying forced mask of normality...

  • @Gamerman306vx
    @Gamerman306vx 2 місяці тому +2

    i cant get over how good this is. how fueling this is. this has given me so much hope for my future. thank you.

  • @kuchifritos
    @kuchifritos 2 місяці тому +9

    been following you on tumblr for many years, love this vid!

  • @TheFlamingDoh2
    @TheFlamingDoh2 22 дні тому +1

    Me, reading title: This is just something people my age experience the day after becoming a parent.
    Me after video: Ohhh