Yo I've been watching for a while and I've recently gone through the hardest time in my entire life and had a heavy alcohol relapse. These new videos have inspired me to try and pick myself up and start again with my own mini series on getting my shit back together. Keep going dude, you've got a lot of support here!
Yeah I just got out of the hospital after 8 days of detox from alcohol. I had full blown delirium tremens (auditory, visual, and tactile hallucinations) and was on IV Valium and Ativan. I made the BIG mistake of quitting cold turkey after another heavy bender. I wasn’t eating and couldn’t hold food or liquids down for days so I knew unless I stopped drinking i wasn’t gonna get any better, my appetite wouldn’t come back, the insomnia and pounding headaches would continue and I’d be too weak and malnourished to function. So I stopped drinking completely. By night two (approximately 48 hours after my last drink) I heard my partner clear as day open the front door, enter the house while talking about me to someone on the phone, while proceeding to the bathroom to turn on the shower. Mind you, in reality he was visiting family at the time 3,000 miles away on the West Coast! Although confused as to why he would be home so early (he wasn’t), I was immensely relieved knowing I was so sick that I needed to be taken back to the hospital. Even though I knew he would be pissed because I had just gotten out of the hospital a few months prior back in March (currently mid-June) due to alcohol-induced acute pancreatitis, I started yelling for him to come help me out of bed (I was so weak I could barely move and hadn’t slept in days). Next thing I heard was the front door slam shut. At this point, it dawned on me that the DT’s were starting. Knowing that 40% of people who experience DTs and don’t get immediately seek medical attention end up dying, I did everything I could to muster the energy to dial 911. It literally took me 30 minutes to steady my fingers enough through the tremors to type my six digit iPhone password in and dial 911. The first time I called some dude answered the phone and I asked who he was and he said, “you’re the one calling me pal,” or something along those lines then started cursing me out before hanging up. So I tried calling 911 again and this time it was a success. I was so confused I told the dispatcher that I think I may have suffered a seizure and was hardly able to move. Long story short, the ambulance came and I was taken to the hospital. Once I started having moments of clarity from the Valium while at the hospital, I looked in my recent call log and noticed that first call to the strange dude never actually happened either and that I had only called 911 once and no one else. To wrap it up I’m only 35 years old and have only been drinking daily for two years. After losing my job last October, I got really depressed and pretty much became a shut in causing my drinking to significantly increase to the point I was diagnosed in January (my first spat to the hospital) with an enlarged fatty liver caused by alcohol. The next step in liver disease is alcohol hepatitis, and then alcohol cirrhosis, which is incurable requires a liver transplant. That can’t happen. I’m too young to die especially over something as stupid as a beverage. Alcohol is literally the worst drug there is and the fact that it is so easily obtainable makes it even more dangerous. So yeah man, I definitely can relate to your current struggles and the mental and physical anguish alcohol causes. I too am going through the hardest time in my life as well. Sadly I’m limited on resources to help me get through this as most detox places won’t accept me for reasons I could elaborate on later if you are curious. So unfortunately AA is my only option at this point. It just sucks because I moved to a new state two years ago where I have no family or friends as most of the friends I made here were my coworkers at the job I lost. So maybe AA or going to church would be beneficial as I do desperately need a support group. It’s just that I’ve been so depressed and lethargic recently and have extreme social anxiety so it makes going to meetings that much more stressful. I have attended several virtual meetings on Zoom but I honestly think a low dose prescription to Ativan or Valium for two to three months would help me more than anything else. If anything, it help with the social anxiety and desire to drink. Anyways, hang in there bro, you’re not the only one going through this battle. Feel free to let me know how your recovery is going and if you have questions. Nevertheless, God Bless! 🙏
Mindy Scorpio does sober check in lives daily.... Pretty cool. It helps hold her accountable because everyone knows when a creator is using, they aren't making YT content . Just an idea if you ever want to :)
I’m glad you are doing well many really however I do miss the war stories and differences between the various drugs. Specifically oxycodone vs H vs Fetty
ive shown up to a meeting in my area once where it was in a random dingy office in a little office park and an employee that saw me told me the same thing that they stopped doing meetings years ago. idk if anybody else has experienced this but im worried its pretty common :\ sorry this happened to you and you got burned for parking man
I just got over 120 days and was going to AA but this sponsor I got dont work & AA is his life & religion. I work 10+ hr days 6 days a week and all I wanted was someone to help me work the steps. Honesty Im about to bail cause dude wants me to get a homegroup, a commitment, get a new number every meeting, speak at this place my only Saturday off and a bunch of other stuff. Way more than I signed up for. Good luck but dont become reliant on some person. Find God!
Get a new sponsor who also works. Went thru the same thing... doing a 90 in 90 even on my lunch break. AA is full of people who have forgotten what it's like to work a real job. But there are usually some employed sober members who might be great for you. Best wishes, and congrats. You are doing awesome.❤
J my 2 cents, I had a hard rule to only do virtual meetings because I knew if I got to know people in person, exchange numbers, develop trust/credibility; I’d buddy up and j buy stuff later on. A lot of people are not there voluntarily either and don’t really have qualms about selling in the first place. J know yourself, be careful. In my case I needed to make this my rule
** HELLO EVERYONE, I AM A MOD FOR DANIEL AND JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH HIM. THIS ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED AND DANIEL CAN NOT LOG IN TO THIS ACCOUNT AT THE MOMENT. HE HAS MADE A 2ND ACCOUNT AND WOULD LIKE EVERYONE TO HEAD OVER THERE AND WATCH HIS NEW CONTENT ON THAT CHANNEL UNTIL HE GETS THIS ONE BACK. THE NEW CHANNEL IS www.youtube.com/@VeteransWithAnxiety2.0 **
You gotta go to some man. You have to change your life and way of thinking. If you’re serious you’d go. It humbles you. You finally admit you have a problem and can’t do it on your own. No offense. What you’ve been doing ain’t working. I was so scared my 1st meeting. Yeah it’s a cult. But you’re still in denial. Starting up and saying in front of strangers is empowering. The steps work though. You have to make amends and take self inventory. Then you realize that being of service is the only way out. You have to be around people that have gone what you’re going thru. No one else in my life understands how hard it is. At meetings they do. It’s about accountability and humility. You’re powerless. Admit and get around people that won’t let you screw up. They see you thru your BS for not having a job or working out. Gotta reset your entire brain. It’s harsh but this is real.
I tried to go in this video you watched. and to be honest I don't need an outside source for me to realize I have a problem, that's why this entire channel exists. Ive had a problem. And about the job and gym, you gotta realize that you don't know my personal situation and how my numbers look, the reason I don't have a job is because I didn't need one. I do now. This is just a little series about this little chapter in my life. If it wasn't working id be using right now id imagine
I don't do meetings now.. but I used to do them and I found them life changing. I really can't recommend strongly enough for you to get around to as many different meetings as you can.. until you find what really suits and inspires you. Really proud of you. Just keep doing the next good and right thing for you x 🤍
You should do more storytelling bro. Those videos are always great.
word up, yea Im about to start doing more of those soon!
Yo I've been watching for a while and I've recently gone through the hardest time in my entire life and had a heavy alcohol relapse. These new videos have inspired me to try and pick myself up and start again with my own mini series on getting my shit back together. Keep going dude, you've got a lot of support here!
hell yea bro do it.shit ill watch them probably when im just posted up
Yeah I just got out of the hospital after 8 days of detox from alcohol. I had full blown delirium tremens (auditory, visual, and tactile hallucinations) and was on IV Valium and Ativan. I made the BIG mistake of quitting cold turkey after another heavy bender. I wasn’t eating and couldn’t hold food or liquids down for days so I knew unless I stopped drinking i wasn’t gonna get any better, my appetite wouldn’t come back, the insomnia and pounding headaches would continue and I’d be too weak and malnourished to function. So I stopped drinking completely. By night two (approximately 48 hours after my last drink) I heard my partner clear as day open the front door, enter the house while talking about me to someone on the phone, while proceeding to the bathroom to turn on the shower. Mind you, in reality he was visiting family at the time 3,000 miles away on the West Coast! Although confused as to why he would be home so early (he wasn’t), I was immensely relieved knowing I was so sick that I needed to be taken back to the hospital. Even though I knew he would be pissed because I had just gotten out of the hospital a few months prior back in March (currently mid-June) due to alcohol-induced acute pancreatitis, I started yelling for him to come help me out of bed (I was so weak I could barely move and hadn’t slept in days). Next thing I heard was the front door slam shut. At this point, it dawned on me that the DT’s were starting. Knowing that 40% of people who experience DTs and don’t get immediately seek medical attention end up dying, I did everything I could to muster the energy to dial 911. It literally took me 30 minutes to steady my fingers enough through the tremors to type my six digit iPhone password in and dial 911. The first time I called some dude answered the phone and I asked who he was and he said, “you’re the one calling me pal,” or something along those lines then started cursing me out before hanging up. So I tried calling 911 again and this time it was a success. I was so confused I told the dispatcher that I think I may have suffered a seizure and was hardly able to move. Long story short, the ambulance came and I was taken to the hospital. Once I started having moments of clarity from the Valium while at the hospital, I looked in my recent call log and noticed that first call to the strange dude never actually happened either and that I had only called 911 once and no one else.
To wrap it up I’m only 35 years old and have only been drinking daily for two years. After losing my job last October, I got really depressed and pretty much became a shut in causing my drinking to significantly increase to the point I was diagnosed in January (my first spat to the hospital) with an enlarged fatty liver caused by alcohol. The next step in liver disease is alcohol hepatitis, and then alcohol cirrhosis, which is incurable requires a liver transplant. That can’t happen. I’m too young to die especially over something as stupid as a beverage. Alcohol is literally the worst drug there is and the fact that it is so easily obtainable makes it even more dangerous.
So yeah man, I definitely can relate to your current struggles and the mental and physical anguish alcohol causes. I too am going through the hardest time in my life as well. Sadly I’m limited on resources to help me get through this as most detox places won’t accept me for reasons I could elaborate on later if you are curious. So unfortunately AA is my only option at this point. It just sucks because I moved to a new state two years ago where I have no family or friends as most of the friends I made here were my coworkers at the job I lost. So maybe AA or going to church would be beneficial as I do desperately need a support group. It’s just that I’ve been so depressed and lethargic recently and have extreme social anxiety so it makes going to meetings that much more stressful. I have attended several virtual meetings on Zoom but I honestly think a low dose prescription to Ativan or Valium for two to three months would help me more than anything else. If anything, it help with the social anxiety and desire to drink. Anyways, hang in there bro, you’re not the only one going through this battle. Feel free to let me know how your recovery is going and if you have questions.
Nevertheless, God Bless! 🙏
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Yo yo! Wuddup my dude!? Been enjoying the new series. Run it up!
you already know!!! tryin to keep theses dailyyyy
Mindy Scorpio does sober check in lives daily.... Pretty cool. It helps hold her accountable because everyone knows when a creator is using, they aren't making YT content . Just an idea if you ever want to :)
yea that's pretty much how it goes lol
Salute to a real one fam much love homie 💜💪💪
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At least you got some fresh air and a lil walk 🤙
yup, definitely that
Your eyes are so blue🎉😊
🥶
I’m glad you are doing well many really however I do miss the war stories and differences between the various drugs. Specifically oxycodone vs H vs Fetty
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my boy!!!!!
ive shown up to a meeting in my area once where it was in a random dingy office in a little office park and an employee that saw me told me the same thing that they stopped doing meetings years ago. idk if anybody else has experienced this but im worried its pretty common :\ sorry this happened to you and you got burned for parking man
lol I know I was like wtf.. lol I drove far as shit to get out there.
U can do this man 1 year clean from Klonopin now
that's what's up homie
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I just got over 120 days and was going to AA but this sponsor I got dont work & AA is his life & religion. I work 10+ hr days 6 days a week and all I wanted was someone to help me work the steps. Honesty Im about to bail cause dude wants me to get a homegroup, a commitment, get a new number every meeting, speak at this place my only Saturday off and a bunch of other stuff. Way more than I signed up for. Good luck but dont become reliant on some person. Find God!
Both work
Oba also consider online meetings
Tell him u want to commit but alsowork is hectic
And maybe reduce it to 2 days a week
everything but that last sentence 💪🏻
Get a new sponsor who also works. Went thru the same thing... doing a 90 in 90 even on my lunch break. AA is full of people who have forgotten what it's like to work a real job. But there are usually some employed sober members who might be great for you. Best wishes, and congrats. You are doing awesome.❤
NA/AA is a cult. You dont need meetings. Psychedelics are the best treatments for addiction and mental health related issues.
You’re using the wrong site to find meetings. They have ones that update by the hour
shit apparently so lmao
J my 2 cents, I had a hard rule to only do virtual meetings because I knew if I got to know people in person, exchange numbers, develop trust/credibility; I’d buddy up and j buy stuff later on. A lot of people are not there voluntarily either and don’t really have qualms about selling in the first place. J know yourself, be careful. In my case I needed to make this my rule
word, good advice didn't think about it that way
Im not a desert person. Cant take heat. Live at coast in Ca.😊
Me too:) Coastal Cali, Santa Cruz
hell yea that's what's up tho nice af out there
I just got done with my 5 th na meeting and it took going to two meetings before even walked in the door
Dam. Were the first two actually open tho? Haha
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@@wartowellness9558 thanks bro I didn't know about 2.0 I've been off line for a few weeks trying to unplug a bit
this was my experience
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What’s that ? Got juked on a meeting also?
When u gonna make another vid I relapse n I’m having trouble quoting again n ur vids give me motivation bro
this account got hacked man he made a new channel until this one comes back www.youtube.com/@VeteransWithAnxiety2.0
my boy!!!!
** HELLO EVERYONE, I AM A MOD FOR DANIEL AND JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH HIM. THIS ACCOUNT HAS BEEN HACKED AND DANIEL CAN NOT LOG IN TO THIS ACCOUNT AT THE MOMENT. HE HAS MADE A 2ND ACCOUNT AND WOULD LIKE EVERYONE TO HEAD OVER THERE AND WATCH HIS NEW CONTENT ON THAT CHANNEL UNTIL HE GETS THIS ONE BACK. THE NEW CHANNEL IS www.youtube.com/@VeteransWithAnxiety2.0 **
your my real homeboy for this one. thanks man, I got back in!!!!
Damn, been cancelled for 5 years? why hasn't anybody updated that shit?
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no kidding!!!
@wartowellness9558 I appreciate you big homie. that's what's up man. glad I was able to get this back!
You gotta go to some man. You have to change your life and way of thinking. If you’re serious you’d go. It humbles you. You finally admit you have a problem and can’t do it on your own. No offense. What you’ve been doing ain’t working. I was so scared my 1st meeting. Yeah it’s a cult. But you’re still in denial. Starting up and saying in front of strangers is empowering. The steps work though. You have to make amends and take self inventory. Then you realize that being of service is the only way out. You have to be around people that have gone what you’re going thru. No one else in my life understands how hard it is. At meetings they do. It’s about accountability and humility. You’re powerless. Admit and get around people that won’t let you screw up. They see you thru your BS for not having a job or working out. Gotta reset your entire brain. It’s harsh but this is real.
I tried to go in this video you watched. and to be honest I don't need an outside source for me to realize I have a problem, that's why this entire channel exists. Ive had a problem. And about the job and gym, you gotta realize that you don't know my personal situation and how my numbers look, the reason I don't have a job is because I didn't need one. I do now. This is just a little series about this little chapter in my life. If it wasn't working id be using right now id imagine
www.youtube.com/@VeteransWithAnxiety2.0 new channel this one was hacked
Meetings are bogus..no offense but they don’t work for me
yea I never been and got burned out on my first one that was lame af lol
@@danielsinrecovery Fr bro 😂😂😂
I don't do meetings now.. but I used to do them and I found them life changing. I really can't recommend strongly enough for you to get around to as many different meetings as you can.. until you find what really suits and inspires you. Really proud of you. Just keep doing the next good and right thing for you x 🤍
word I appreciate it !!! yea if I can actually find a real one ill go! lol
The Na app is a good way to find meetings. They should be up to date if the Na Service Group is doing their job in the area that you are searching.