Afraid to sleep in my apt. Bedroom. Always slept on the couch with t.v. on. Therapy helped. Finally living with people I feel safe with has helped me to sleep in my own bed. Good luck.
I got attacked for asking for food and drink after sitting 10 hours on a gurney with handcuffs. Didn't let me eat, drink or pee for reporting assault and asking for rape kit
Latenitetubing that’s been my life well over 35 years. I never got over what happened to me & I have had ptsd upon getting in bed for sleep & generally on high alert up all night. My episodes have slowed down but still occur my episodes are shorter. I learned to pay attention to triggers & events that trigger me. What happened to me has forever changed who I was. It will always be apart of me & near 40 years later I am still deeply affected by it. I never knew about PTSD till group therapy. I thank the ones who made & uploaded these videos. I have yet to overcome I am learning to live with it & go on In life. I have good days & bad.
My friend said to me that he didn’t believe I was raped Bcz everytime I told the story that I told a different story The police didn’t believe me Bcz i told them I was raped before when I was alot younger The judge understood me though and the rapist is now serving 10 years in jail for what he’s done to me 🙏🏻💜☘️✨🌸💛🎶
The statute of limitations should not exist with rape/sexual assault case. I was raped when I was 13. I spent the rest of my teens trying to understand what happened. The next 15+ years taking lots of drugs to forget. And the following years trying to deal with the reality that I was raped, and that I wasn't at fault. And now, at 47, when I have decided to deal with the assault legally, I'm being told that I 'didn't pursue a case years ago when I should have'. However, I will endure to get this in front of a judge, because it has eaten away at my life for long enough now. And the statute of limitations isn't making the journey any easier
I was violently molested at 10 by our neighbors son. He was 19. I suffered not just mentally but physical injuries to my body from him that still affects me to this day. It's been 33 years and I still have nightmares and bad thoughts. I have learned to keep moving forward but the issues still come up. Trying to block it out only made it worse for me, acceptance and knowing I'm more than what happened to me helped me so much. I agree with the vid I have felt many emotions and even denial. This is a lifetime issue that will always be there but you can move forward and find happiness.
This was very helpful for me leaning the stages at 48 I feel like I have been through all the stages and now since my daughter and revealed to me what happened to her as a child from the same person I'm reliving it again and now married I dont know what to say to my husband. 😢😢😢 as I relive this horrible trama.
I still hardly change my clothes in front of a mirror. If I do I don’t look until I’m fully clothed. I feel I can’t be seen I still feel uncomfortable. I keep clothes on until I absolutely have to wash a body part. I look like ur everyday girl. ..idk what else to say 😞 I hope one day my pain can contribute bc I’m an aunt and the best one (aunt humor..).. bc I’ll be extra protective of their childhoods and adult life. ❤
@@elizabethpettigrew4382 I appreciate you sharing. Im so sad and welp broken. I talk I cry, I am getting angry then guilty. I really thought I was safer, more aware and cautious. I narrowly escaped this last time. The cops did nothing and he hurt a 14yo child. The guilt I feel for her is crushing me. Her parents probably hate me for not stopping him. He's in jail now but I should have been louder warning my neighbor's (it was out local gas station attendant). My heart aches for you too, it altered my life. Please keep your worth, don't let them steal that too. Praying for you 🙏🕊️💕
@@beatrixkiddo5 you’re so brave for sharing, it’s not easy especially after not being believed. It’s dangerous bc not being believed can make you feel so hopeless that you don’t come back from it. I too sometimes wish I had the tools and circumstances “if only this/that” to receive justice and support let alone the love and care we all so much deserve. But remember this, we were ALWAYS brave! And insanely resilient! Quiet/loud/successful/not successful in life afterwards, we have always been incredible, and many people can’t see it because they can’t possibly imagine. We shouldn’t have to work this hard, but I’m proud of us. Remember that, at least for today if you can ❤️
@@beatrixkiddo5 That wasn’t your fault! I know the guilt feeling too well having not been able to rescue or follow up w a fellow trafficking victim and she worked w me at a firm in Houston at the time and years before that as a server. There were younger girls later rescued but not all. I’ll never know. And as for the parents, they have to blame someone, and it’s usually not fair in these situations. Doesn’t change how it hurts though I know. Im glad he’s in jail, I hope his time there around other prisoners, makes up a bit for our lacking justice system. So proud of you 🫶🏼
sleeping fully clothed, playing a radio in the bedroom 24/7, panic when people get physically too close (feels like intimidatiion)
Afraid to sleep in my apt. Bedroom. Always slept on the couch with t.v. on. Therapy helped. Finally living with people I feel safe with has helped me to sleep in my own bed. Good luck.
Wow. I got attacked in a bathroom
I got attacked for asking for food and drink after sitting 10 hours on a gurney with handcuffs. Didn't let me eat, drink or pee for reporting assault and asking for rape kit
In hospital
❤
When I have a PTSD episode I often can’t sleep until sunrise..
Latenitetubing that’s been my life well over 35 years. I never got over what happened to me & I have had ptsd upon getting in bed for sleep & generally on high alert up all night. My episodes have slowed down but still occur my episodes are shorter. I learned to pay attention to triggers & events that trigger me. What happened to me has forever changed who I was. It will always be apart of me & near 40 years later I am still deeply affected by it. I never knew about PTSD till group therapy. I thank the ones who made & uploaded these videos. I have yet to overcome I am learning to live with it & go on In life. I have good days & bad.
if you’re reading this know it was not your fault and i feel your pain. you are not alone
Thank you
My triggers are unsupportive family
members whom act like they know everything when they dont.
Thank you 🙏
Thank you so much for being such a light here for others 🙏🏿❤️ More grace in Christ..🫂
@@Punisher1830I am so sorry for that. You deserve love regardless ❤️
My friend said to me that he didn’t believe I was raped Bcz everytime I told the story that I told a different story
The police didn’t believe me Bcz i told them I was raped before when I was alot younger
The judge understood me though and the rapist is now serving 10 years in jail for what he’s done to me 🙏🏻💜☘️✨🌸💛🎶
how did you get evidence for the judge to put him in prison? Mine was 27 years ago.
The statute of limitations should not exist with rape/sexual assault case. I was raped when I was 13. I spent the rest of my teens trying to understand what happened. The next 15+ years taking lots of drugs to forget. And the following years trying to deal with the reality that I was raped, and that I wasn't at fault. And now, at 47, when I have decided to deal with the assault legally, I'm being told that I 'didn't pursue a case years ago when I should have'. However, I will endure to get this in front of a judge, because it has eaten away at my life for long enough now. And the statute of limitations isn't making the journey any easier
Thanks for putting this out there
I have survived a more horrible complex situation in a Covid pandemic situation
I was violently molested at 10 by our neighbors son. He was 19. I suffered not just mentally but physical injuries to my body from him that still affects me to this day. It's been 33 years and I still have nightmares and bad thoughts. I have learned to keep moving forward but the issues still come up. Trying to block it out only made it worse for me, acceptance and knowing I'm more than what happened to me helped me so much. I agree with the vid I have felt many emotions and even denial. This is a lifetime issue that will always be there but you can move forward and find happiness.
Thats why there has to be no statute of limitations.
Insane
Thank you
Used to take hot showers with all my clothes on
This was very helpful for me leaning the stages at 48 I feel like I have been through all the stages and now since my daughter and revealed to me what happened to her as a child from the same person I'm reliving it again and now married I dont know what to say to my husband. 😢😢😢 as I relive this horrible trama.
This commentary does not take into account a childhood experience of ongoing rape
Merci.
I still hardly change my clothes in front of a mirror. If I do I don’t look until I’m fully clothed.
I feel I can’t be seen I still feel uncomfortable.
I keep clothes on until I absolutely have to wash a body part.
I look like ur everyday girl.
..idk what else to say 😞
I hope one day my pain can contribute bc I’m an aunt and the best one (aunt humor..).. bc I’ll be extra protective of their childhoods and adult life. ❤
Ive never came to stage 4, with every individual situation from 2008 up to 2024
It was a big deal.
Why would something happen years apart. Am I a creep magnet 🧲😭
It happens more often than ppl talk about. You are amazing and they’re sociopaths. It’s NOT your fault.. but I feel you.. I am in the same boat 😢
@@elizabethpettigrew4382 I appreciate you sharing. Im so sad and welp broken. I talk I cry, I am getting angry then guilty. I really thought I was safer, more aware and cautious. I narrowly escaped this last time. The cops did nothing and he hurt a 14yo child. The guilt I feel for her is crushing me. Her parents probably hate me for not stopping him. He's in jail now but I should have been louder warning my neighbor's (it was out local gas station attendant). My heart aches for you too, it altered my life. Please keep your worth, don't let them steal that too. Praying for you 🙏🕊️💕
@@beatrixkiddo5 you’re so brave for sharing, it’s not easy especially after not being believed. It’s dangerous bc not being believed can make you feel so hopeless that you don’t come back from it. I too sometimes wish I had the tools and circumstances “if only this/that” to receive justice and support let alone the love and care we all so much deserve.
But remember this, we were ALWAYS brave! And insanely resilient! Quiet/loud/successful/not successful in life afterwards, we have always been incredible, and many people can’t see it because they can’t possibly imagine.
We shouldn’t have to work this hard, but I’m proud of us. Remember that, at least for today if you can ❤️
@@beatrixkiddo5
That wasn’t your fault! I know the guilt feeling too well having not been able to rescue or follow up w a fellow trafficking victim and she worked w me at a firm in Houston at the time and years before that as a server.
There were younger girls later rescued but not all. I’ll never know.
And as for the parents, they have to blame someone, and it’s usually not fair in these situations. Doesn’t change how it hurts though I know.
Im glad he’s in jail, I hope his time there around other prisoners, makes up a bit for our lacking justice system.
So proud of you 🫶🏼
I felt this same way.