5 Signs Someone's Depression Calls for Inpatient Care
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In this video, a neuropsychologist explains 5 signs your depression may call for inpatient care.
Depression can be debilitating, and the signs of depression aren't always easy to spot. Even once you spot them, what if treatment isn't helping the symptoms? Sometimes clinical depression calls for more than just the standard medication or therapy.
If you're depressed, or if you're suffering from a condition with depression symptoms like bipolar disorder or anxiety, this interview will help you figure out if a higher level of mental health care might benefit you.
Research shows that the majority of people who undergo either inpatient or outpatient care for a mental illness return to functional and hope-filled lives. A structured treatment program provides a path toward recovery.
Check out the MedCircle original series on Inpatient Vs. Outpatient Care - it sheds light on which of those paths is right for you or your loved one.
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Sometimes the smartest people are the most depressive ones. The overthinkers in my opinion
I can relate... i come up with inventions , new ideas etc but i always end up in depression cause of struggles i face to impliment
@@dagadadzm5335 Yeah, the worst part is when ppl think your life is perfect only becuase your smart
@@luk_s._.9154yea ofcourse they think so
@@luk_s._.9154 yea, similar things happen to me..
Macarena Naveda ikr
I was put into a temporary "ward" for a suicide threat. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. Was treated horribly and so was everyone else there. It felt like a prison and ended up making things much worse.
Yes, hospitals are dangerous places.
@@Coneman3 oh it wasn't a hospital it was just a place where the state put people that had issues. It was a tiny building in the industrial area of Mesa, AZ. Fucking disgusting.
@@justindixon7441 same thing happened to me. It was the most disgusting place ever and they definitely treated you like prisoners. Boogers all over the walls and the water smelled like straight up rat piss. It was horrible.. places like that should be shut down.
Hi, I just want to know that were you put to a private mental hospital or government?
Thanks, Hope you notice me.
Bingo
The truth is, many mental hospitals don’t really treat patients. They just keep them there until they’re no longer dubbed a threat to themselves or others. They don’t actually treat your illness, they just sedate you until you’re not dangerous. I experienced this first-hand and watched it happen to others. Maybe mental hospitals wouldn’t be so stigmatized if they actually helped people.
That part
hospital killed my daughter
I agree they watch you walk around fill you with meds when they see your stable they kick you out till the next time.
Having worked in a hospital, you're absolutely right. The hospital keeps the patients in as much as their insurance will cover. Each patient had a treatment team of recreation therapists, occupational therapists, doctors, residents, psychologists, and social workers who would meet weekly to discuss the patient and adapt treatment goals. The staff did as much as they could while the patients were in the system to try to treat/cure patients, but a lot of mental illnesses cannot be cured at this point in time, so the hospital just kept the patients there until they found a discharge - be that to another program or to a home. It was all situational. For the patients that couldn't be cured, the treatment would be focused on coping skills and minimizing their symptoms as much as possible.
I've worked there. I loved it but i admitted that we were not helping. It was mire like a mill, get them in, get them out!
My mom committed suicide in 2019. She had done two different stays in an institution and she hated it, said it was like being in jail, and made her worse.
Im sorry for your loss.
It is.
Emily Wilhite Sorry for your loss. I had inpatient care, and it was the same for me. I always had hope that if I ever got bad enough I could always try inpatient care. Then, when I saw what it was really like, it destroyed any hope I had left. I think I was left worse off afterward, as well.
How are you caring for yourself?
Institutions are like a Band-Aid
They place this Band-Aid on the trauma and then that trauma gets infected and worse then they send you home without the Band-Aid along with a message to you from society that getting help can do more harm than good especially if you need specialized care.
You're getting charged so much money for getting zero help and on top of that you could be sexual assaulted while in those places I know it's 2021 but this is still going on because once you check yourself in your words mean less now and those nurses and doctors really take advantage
In the last 5 years I had suicidal thoughts as well as 2 official attempts.
Turned out I was not only dealing with my own severe depressive disorder as well as my generalized Anxiety disorder, I was being psychologically abused.
It's not easy to go in to an emergency room and look at the triage nurse and say you are having suicidal thoughts!!
No one wants to admit that they cannot "manage their life" like a "normal person"
However my 2 kids?
10&13?
Still have a mom.
Betsy O'Rourke so true 💕
B a parent overly protecting their child from any difficulty is abuse
Betsy O'Rourke I hope ur kids now they have the worlds best mom
I have the same fellings help
@@leesimmons9091
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Make you think deeply about,,,so many people are giving reaction about this... Know me how did you feel...
Kill the nonsense in your mind(inshallah you will find your answers whatever it is)...
Eye opening literally ❤️
I stayed a few weeks in a psychiatric hospital after a suicide attempt. My experience wasn’t great, and I didn’t find any help. It just felt like a daycare for people who couldn’t be trusted to take care of themselves. I’m happy to see some people in the comments found help, though.
I'm very sorry that you had that experience.
I too have been looked upon as though I wanted a" week vacation" or even treated like a guinea pig and given different meds than I was prescribed.
However I do hope that you continue to teach yourself about YOUR SPECIFIC DIAGNOSIS..
learn what's triggering the thought that you me human beings don't belong on the earth anymore.🙏💙
The same thing happened to me
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Some of us don't have the option of inpatient care. Living paycheck to paycheck, taking a time out is not an option. Depression doesn't stop the bills from coming in.
Ouch looks like UBI Is needed
@C NB
What are you even saying?
😂🤣😅
feel u 100%
If you have an active suicide plan, most facilities will cover the cost legally they have to admit you. That’s what happened to me her in AZ
Micro-dose Psilocybin. Take it every 3 days for 1 month.
I’m a fire fighter paramedic who was diagnosed with ptsd and major depression after a few calls that involved children. I went down hill fast started drinking heavily, lost all hope for my life and just wanted to unalive my self.about 2 years later it’s still a work in progress meds didn’t work, so I symbolically “ended who I was” changed my job, lost 100 lbs my outlooks are different my morals are different who I was before that is gone and honestly I like who I am now more. Recovery is possible. Stay strong everyone and keep pushing to get your mind back!
That's it. That's exactly what I want to do. I want to end who I am symbolically. I've been through a heck of a lot of emotional/mental abuse by my father ever since my mom died, and it's screwed me up so badly. If I'm not laying in bed then I'm walking around the house listening to music with my earbuds. This has been going on for nearly five years now, and I'll finally be 18 next April. I'm planning on a full makeover; cutting my hair, trying makeup & new clothes, losing some weight, getting my first job, and finally having my own place. A place of my own where I can make new, happy memories and hopefully move on from my past.
What do you do now?
This is such an important concept. I think we should meet all suicidal / at risk people with this concept of being able to symbolically end the old self/old way of life. Proud of you and grateful for your example
@khronosfateless One thing I find helpful is making slow and steady changes where the bar for a new habit or goal is low enough to meet it no matter what. Say, you want to workout 45 minutes each morning but just start with 5. You get this boost of confidence in yourself when you meet goals. Make easy goals and a timeline to improve/increase those bars (and make the goals based on who you want to become years from now). Once you accomplish your “one most important thing” each day or meet a goal really celebrate it.
Another thing is auditing what in your life is draining you. Do you need to change jobs too? Do you spend time with people who bring you down? Add things that make you feel better (hobbies, eating well, working out) slowly, but also cut out influences outside of yourself that are potentially harming you. Often depression is a result of long term stress and overwhelm. The unsustainable stress is almost always partly environmental -and can also be self imposed (ie being raised by perfectionist parents as a child). It’s also important to remember in the process that you have innate value- even if you aren’t “successful” or productive at any given moment in life, you are always enough.
But I loved my old self . This present guy is sad , negative. I was always happy & energetic. I’m 50 this is my first encounter with depression. It was triggered after my eye surgery, a month later insomnia..
I feel zero love. My life feels grey, dull, and "nothing".
@Dana Hale me too 😢
I feel black, dark, and empty. The few times I feel SOMETHING... it's hatred of the fact the entire rest of this species I belong to is fucked up in the head.
@Dana Hale It certainly is. I just wish I could beam EVERYTHING I know into other people's heads. It would frighten the hell out of them... and bring them down to MY level...
@Dana Hale Sorry I lost interest. I just don't care, and want to die.
@Dana Hale Meds don't help me have a home. Meds aren't a person to help me when I can't help myself.
How do you seek a higher level of care when you know the cost of it will damage your life after?
Exactly. This.
I think in situations like this you gotta find something in your life that will make the after damage worth it. Your mental health and we'll being is more important. You gotta put your oxygen mask on before helping others. I hope this was helpful.
Marie Baird very true. Boundaries are super important.
You have to ask yourself if you really want to die or if you want to feel better so bad that you would die to feel better. Honestly, a lot of people have bad experiences with psychiatric hospitals and I have too. The best thing the psychiatric hospital did for me was wake me up to the fact that I needed to drastically change my life because there was no way I could go back to what was there before, of course I don’t have kids so I’m privileged. The second best thing the psychiatric hospital did for me was drive me crazy with trauma so much that whenever I have suicidal thoughts I think about how I absolutely refuse to be inpatient in a psych unit again and I gotta mentally work through this and remove some of the stressors in my life before it gets really bad.
Even if you know it’ll damage your life after, people will be more aware of you problem and over time you will be more confident in talking about it and hopefully taking action. Do what you need to do
I spent three days in a behavioral unit a year ago and it was miserable. I was a nameless, faceless patient.
Staff was kind to me but I can tell they mostly wanted to do their job on me, so I let them. I wanted to go home after all.
We did all these demeaning groups that were a waste of time and money. The food was atrocious. There was nothing to do.
I couldn’t have a phone or video game. How I’m supposed to self-harm with a Nintendo Switch is beyond me.
It was a touch better than prison. I got my own room and there weren’t any bars. But the man on the other side of my shared bathroom was sometimes violent and disconnected from reality.
What I learned from that experience is to cope with life and never talk frankly about my mental health issues.
I might get sent to what feels like a prison for telling someone I need help.
Oh and let’s not forget the thousands of dollars it costs.
Protip: don't go into inpatient. They'll belittle your thoughts about why you want it to end. They'll be callous. You'll be around a variety of unstable patients of different and possibly harmful behaviors. You'll count the days of wanting to leave or just wanting to die more for feeling guilty
I was thinking of going inpatient. I don’t think I will now that I e literally seen so many don’t go comments. I’m sorry you had that experience
@@Daye2D410 depends on where you go
This was my experience, inpatient made me worse
@@Daye2D410 in my opinion it helped me so much but when I went in I was forced and didn’t want to accept the help and now I wish I could go back :(
I was forced to camp out in the common area for 30 hours where a woman with severe hallucinations and inability to properly communicate sat in the recliner next to me and took a p×ss into it as we watched Top Gun and eating oatmeal raisin cookies. It was absolutely heinous. These places where you're _supposed_ to find relief in a safe haven, are total tresh.
Edit: The first time she took a leak on herself that day was when her and I decided to go with the Case Worker and bask🌞 Then as she's sitting on top of the big plastic trunk holding sports equipment, the CW and I both locked eyes like, "Are you fukin seeing this sh¡t right now?" Lol Her gown was drenched. She's dark skinned and she was so damn ashy that when she stood up to get help with that, you could actually see the evidence of ash that got wet - it was literal piss streams that channeled down to her socks🧦
It was secretly hilarious but at the same time, I felt so ashamed for being there.
I also got diagnosed with Bipolar 1 there and wasn't given any medication at all until night 2 so, of course, I was hypervigilant and delirious considering the circumstances.
I'm glad that I know another part of what's wrong, though but dang, these facilities have no soul whatsoever - like, do better.
When he said “ just remember that whatever your going through you got this” I just broke down because I see no hope in my depression to get better
I know this comment is old but yeh I feel the same way, I've been struglling with MDD for 5 years now, everytime i hear something like that now i just put on a fake smile and internally scream
girl same. Hugs 🫂 I know this isn’t easy but you’re not alone in this
This comment resonates with me so hard.. I am breaking down right now
frrr tho that’s like if someone’s arm broke and you’re like “here’s a bandaid.” like aight thanks bud. but anyways, i’m telling you that it will get better. been thru some dark dark days and i didn’t think i would make it. but i did. please jus hold on. it will get better. but if you give up then it cannot get better. if you hold on it will. circumstances will get better i know from experience. sending love and prayers ❤️
@@chi1610 lucky you, not everyone’s life goes that way, you’re did doesn’t mean s9mekne else’s will
I volunterily went into a mental health hospital because I was feeling suicidal. I was treated like I had the plague, the staff were extremely disrespectful towards me and inconsiderate. It took them 3 days to give me my iron pills despite knowing that they were needed, because I had 3 blood transfusions. They tried putting me on antipsychotics even though I have depression and anxiety.
Alice P im sorry you had that experience, did you read reviews about that hospital though?
Im so sorry :( that sounds terrible. Were the antipsychotics meant to augment another medication? Because anti psychotics can be used on conditions that aren't related to psychosis. I took some for a while
I went voluntarily too and it ruined my life. I lost my job for being away, was mistreated inside, and my family stopped respecting me when I came out. Going to the hospital is my biggest regret.
they prescribed me antipsychotics too, even tho im p sure i’m just depressed and suicidal
I’m so sorry you experienced that trauma. There is still so much discrimination and abuse of those with mental illness.
too bad America doesn’t have universal health care... would rather just try my best to ignore my suicidal thoughts than be in thousands of dollars of debt which will make the issue worse anyways
Lack of financially stability definitely makes everything worse. All of 2019 was me searching for a stable job that made more than barely above minimum wage and not back breaking because physically I cannot do jobs like that and my anxiety was almost debilitating. Just anxiety attacks daily and panic attacks before interviews. My savings had run out and I had NOTHING. I finally got a tip on a job and applied and got it and now I've been recovering for the last 5 months.
Universal health care wouldn't create more psychologists and psychiatrists. There is a shortage.
"A life in Christ is a restful life" (Ellen G White) Go to Jesus Christ, pray to Him, read the word of God, meditate on His name and you will find rest. "The LORD will give strength unto his people; the LORD will bless his people with peace" (Psalm 29:11) God bless!😊
I highly recommend this book called "Steps to Christ" it's free online, here's the link m.egwwritings.org/en/book/2017/toc
There is free counseling...it is very very beneficial. I have tried it. Since you can’t afford healthcare you should qualify for Medicaid which also pays for counseling...
@@jackcarterog001 actually, it does, if the government wants to...it's not what money is in the purse, but who holds the purse that decides how many doctors and therapists there are. A country that invests in free education from kindi to university, and a free healthcare system, would not be having these issues, but unfortunately, greed rules the hearts and minds of politicians. For profit corporations have bought them and are swindling people's taxes towards the rich and trying to convince us that our suffering and death is necessary and even patriotic.
The camera angle almost reflects how depression distances you from others and turns you into observer. Funny. Was this intentional?
I almost thought the same thing until I noticed the dog on the ground and I think the camera angle was to make the dog more noticeable because a dog has a calming effect to people.
The problem is that there are many who confuse depression with being sad, frustrated and/or mad... I have been suffering for depression for so long now... Depression is like a numbness on your feelings, when you're happy is like you are not there, and you when are sad is like that's the real you, is like there is nothing that makes you feel more alive than feeling pain, is like the love is not there, you can only feel whole and you feel empty, you forget how to feel good, and the more you go deep into the abyss of sorrow and death is when you start feeling more alive, I have been trying to find my way out of this, but I cannot, I have been thinking to kill my self too, but I am weak... I tried pills, tried everything but I feel like I am a loosen piece on this world... I know far too well the pain of being born into this world... thank you if you stopped to learn about me...
I really hope things improve for you 🙏😔
Me too
😶exactly how Im feeling now
@Jefparkn Your post is identical to my every single thought. I only go through the motions. I am completely numb and derive no pleasure from anything. I am ashamed to tell anyone how bad it has gotten. I don’t want sympathy. I would be embarrassed for people to feel sorry for me. I have dogs that depend on me too. I don’t want anyone in my life to feel guilty. I would not leave a note. The only thing stopping me is my fear of botching it up and not going to heaven.
@Jefparkn In some irrational nonsensical crazy way, your post caused a slight neuron spark. To know someone's situation exactly to the letter describes my own thoughts and what I am going through.... I think posting anonymously on a You Tube thread because you don't care to share with anyone in your life speaks to me too. At least you know you are not alone in your situation. I had previously replied but just needed to share this with you.
It was disgusting and no one was treated with dignity. I was stuck in a chair in a waiting room for more than 24 hrs with one kid detoxing and passing gas, sweating, shaking next to me and another woman’s wound open through her stitches. She had slice up both her arms deeply. No one care or offered anything and acted like we were just there for attention. This was at Strong Hospital in Rochester NY.
Nia Pgn awful
Hey, welcome to the east coast mental health care. I was treated in a facility in CT. So I feel your pain there.
East coast mental health care fucking sucks. I have too many stories
I really loved this video and very well explained. I was suffering from Depression for a long time. I got to clear my thoughts and move ahead overcoming Depression with the help of #RicckyKa
I would also request everyone to also watch the video from #RicckyKa on Depression and Mental disorders. It’s really very good and gives all the solutions to overcome and avoid any mental brain related disorders.
Marsha Magic Why when I read this did I automatically think of Strong? I live in Rochester and Strong CPEP sucks. I knew right away.
They always acted like I was there for attention. My suicidal thoughts were just attention seeking.
@1:54 but WHERE do we find this higher level of care? WHERE?? Theres no inpatient clinic striclty for depression, they always lump it together with a bunch of other conditions
totally
Yeah I got admitted with people shitting on the floor, screaming constantly, or didn't know who they are. I felt bad for them but was freaked out for just having depression.
Yes, this video is a load of rubbish. Horrible advice from clueless people. They should delete this out of shame and learn some respect.
Yes ! WHERE ??
I'm asking the same. I need help... but real help. But, I cannot get more than phone and zoom calls. Words over the phone, hearing the same thing..... I cannot reframe the tragedy, I cannot escape the trauma and loss. Move on.? To what?... my life just was destroyed.... not yours. They're paradime, or suggestions... maybe possible in your mind.... but, not mine.
My experience with behavioral hospitals felt like a punishment, so I just held it all in afterwards.
they are awful
Exactly
And that problem and bescue of that no one gets help
same
Not to mention the fact cop's will damn near harass you every damn time they see you on the street. And they will search for anything and everything they can to send you back to the hospital. I was walking down the street one time and apparently somewhere near by a guy wrecked his truck and walked off. I was stopped by a cop who demanded my ID and all because I refused to give him my ID he cuffed me and put me in the back of the cruiser and another cop that had dealings with me in the past showed up and even though I clearly wasn't the guy who wrecked out because I told the cop to "fuck off you're not getting shit pig" which is my legal right the cop that knew me said I was in an "obvious mental health crisis's" and was being "belligerent" and "aggressive" towards law enforcement so I was illegally forced into the mental hospital and when I was released that same night the cop then tried pulling shit out his ass again to get me sent back.
I spent a week in an inpatient psychiatric hospital. Our entire mental health system needs a complete overhaul. Providers are terrified of being used and treat us as a potential lawsuit first and a person second.
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Couldn’t have said it any better myself
How they miss the logic that lawsuits come from MALtreatment, nor right, good, or fair, humane treament, I don't know. I once asked how come they treated me badly , making me worse,and the answer I got from the mental health staff was :"In order for you not to like it too much here and not wanting to leave". What a sick,cruel and preposterous logic! And they might tell who might be at risk for that, I am not the type liking to be locked in, idle with empty days and the only helpful thing being regular meals. Because I was not even left in peace in my room, despite being there for severe insomnia.
I am so grateful for DAA which helped me off medicine addiction around 2008. It tookme 2 years, and I felt such a relief in my body and noted symptoms of side-effects (=illness!) peter out! Painful back-cramps went, body rashes and dark circles around my eyes! The sleep I now get is mine, with aid of homeopathy and calming minerals, as well as prayer, acceptance, understanding, forgiveness,gratitude and self-inquiry.
In my humble opinion, PHP (partial hospitalization plan, which means you go for 4 hours a day, 5 days a week) and IOP (intensive outpatient plan, which is like 3 hours 2 or 3 days a week) is much better than inpatient. I've been in all 3, and PHP and IOP were much more helpful than inpatient. I do think inpatient behavioral hospital stays feel like jail. They make you feel like you are a criminal for being mentally ill.
Omg you saved me
Thank you for sharing this information, fr 🙏 ✨
This! This is great info right here.
True. You can't use your laptop, but you can use your roommates methadone. Inability to function implies that neglecting work for 3 weeks is not an option. Re-learning to function is anxiety provoking, it takes practice, and it requires support. It's time to evolve.
How on earth can you pay your bills while in in-patient care?! Is the magic mortgage fairy going to come? For Pete’s sake, doctors! We cannot afford grossly overpriced medical care and groceries, too.
I no longer have depression after decades of having it regularly. And I am unsure if I can explain how it stopped...
The only thing I can think of that really changed was hope. I started to travel that year abroad and the travelling gave me hope. The world is a big place and people are not all the same everywhere you go. Small town + small minded people = depression. Travel = hope. It's also like an adventure. You stagnate sitting at home.
You’re so right about the travel. Always helps with my depression and gives me hope too.
That’s so encouraging!
I agree and it makes perfect sense. I’ve noticed my son becoming depressed and he’s developed severe anxiety when we moved to this small rural town from the east coast. I am going to move back to a busier city and take him on a vacation because this town honestly sucks and it’s causing me to become depressed too.
I wish I had money so I could travel too .. I'm dying to experience it at least once in my life
Good for you tho I'm happy you got better
This is it!
I've been inpatient at a psych ward 3 times. Every time it ended up making me much worse. I have autism, which makes me struggle with loud noise, and since earplugs aren't allowed inpatient, I was in a constant state of panic and breakdowns.
i don’t have autism but i also suffer from being easily over stimulated by noise. when i was admitted i constantly had to take breaks in another room or outside because the other patients were banging on walls or screaming at eachother or both. i wish they offered accommodations for this! unfortunately some people will try to choke on earplugs to hurt or kill themselves.
@@mae1011 Right? They seriously should take into consideration that some people struggle with loud noise. You could choke on anything, even the food they feed us, so why make earplugs (which some people need) unaccessible?
Oh no omg I don’t have autism but loud noises bother me so much I can’t stand them this makes me so nervous
@@fiahahahahha3727 What I usually tried to do is stuff toilet paper in my ears. It didn't help much, but it was something
@@statickitten good to know thank you, literally just had a mental breakdown cause our fire alarms went off for 2 hours
EDIT:
I wrote this comment 9 months ago during one of my worst periods of depression. Seeking any form of help because the antidepressants weren’t working, I binged watched a bunch of videos, including this one. I had no idea this comment would blow up but I’m glad it’s enabled discussion. However, if there’s one thing I’ve learnt since then it’s that depression is the best at making you feel isolated, like you’re the only person going through the hell it drags you into and it creates a mechanism of “othering” yourself from everyone who claims to be feeling it just as much as you are, which makes you bitter. Which was exactly how I felt posting this comment. After learning the host himself has suffered with depression from the age of 9, contrary to my comment, I just wanted to say it’s important to remember not everything we see meets the eye. Outward appearances and how someone acts doesn’t always indicate their inner feelings. Never assume someone’s mental situation, especially since many of us are great at covering it up ourselves.
You can tell neither of these people have dealt with mental health issues
I think their version of depression is "not feelin' super duper"
Right. You know. It's like. You know. Like OMG! Like. Y'know? Follow the farkin' money. Bet they all work for some arsehole insurance company.
@@ellebasi88 actually it does matter. you can try to help someone who just got in a car accident and then you move them, and then their bones break.
The same applies here. Just "trying" to help, whether or not you have a single fucking clue what youre talking about, does absolutely nothing or can make things worse in many cases.
I agree. Especially with the jolly ending. "just
remember no matter what your going though, you got this" -I haven't felt like "I've got this" for a long time.
exactly. Most of these so called professionals are just drug dealers in it for the money. Their first go to is a ton a pills and pills can make it worse. In fact the main side effects of antidepressants is suicidal tendencies
I really want to do something about my depression, but I can’t afford a therapist. Not to mention I’m so high functioning. My depression doesn’t interfere with my ability to work and do day to day things, but it’s still there all the time in the back of my mind. I wish I could get a reset on life. I don’t see myself finding true happiness in this lifetime.
I used to have a great life a month ago and after taking an antibiotic and having an allergy reaction the docs didn’t even care I told them no I didn’t want to take it anymore but ended up taking 5 doses except for one. The side effects were nonstop trembling high depression Hugh anxiety and it took a week to get somewhat back to normal though anxiety was still lingering and so I decided to try acupuncture maybe this is what set it off idk but after an hour after the session I became extremely sensitive which I wasn’t warned about apparently that can happen after that I lost my appetite and started getting low pleasers from life and now I tried to get a psychologist but was referred to psychiatry like always and of course instead of wanting to work through my traumas they immediately ordered an antidepressant I just didn’t say no because I just wondered what would happen if I had said no. I think I have mid high functioning depression because it does seem to interfere and to make matters worse my sleep is weird now too I have a routine but even then when I sleep I go to sleep for a couple hours and wake up hyperventilating for no reason go back to sleep couple hours later wake up again same thing then 3 hrs later same thing. I am just super tired emotionally and right now is the worst since it seems I cannot talk to anyone who relates since this stupid covid thing. I hope at least you can grow and get better hopefully I will too I am gonna try almost anything I can before even thinking about meds because that is what got me here in the first place why would they think that I would trust them again especially after the way they treated me! 🤦❤️ I have kaiser currently trying to apply for medi - cal so I don’t have to deal with kaiser.
I wouldn't trust a therapist either. They fill you full of drugs that turn you into an emotionless zombie and possibly an addict. The therapist I was seeing one day got a better job offer up the country and her replacement was a cold mf. The drugs were the worst part. I went from a caring person to a violent zombie. Two fellas jumped me and apparently I stick one of them in the liver. Can't remember doing it. Thankfully I got sick of the tablets and haven't had any in 9 months. Was going good until my dog got really sick with cancer. Sadly she doesn't have long left. And tbh I'm done as soon as she passes. I kept hundreds of those tablets exactly for this moment. I'm not afraid, in fact I'm happy to finally be done.
Can I just say that you are pretty and seem to be a nice person and I'm sure any man/woman would be so happy to have you. I hope life works out for you. Remember that if you do ever decide to do it that it's a done deal. You only get one shot. I know it sounds hypocritical coming from me. But even though I'm done, it doesn't mean that I shouldn't try to help you. I actually care about other people in my shoes. And I just want you to know that there is somebody that cares about you. Stay strong kid. ✊
listen to some calming sound like this ua-cam.com/video/c4www9AN5EQ/v-deo.html any sound that brings you closer to relaxation like the sound of nature (rain, river, wind, etc.). I deal with my depression & anxiety through these.
@@thefightisalwaysfixed8890 hey you
you still there 😨😭😰
If it doesn’t interfere with your day to day life than you don’t have depression sweetie
"These are not punishers for a life not well lived"
Speak for yourself, I was admitted to a psych ward twice & my therapist literally laughed at me in my face for confessing that I was struggling with an eating disorder.
I was told rumors of this same man being inappropriate with his patients. I wish all therapists actually gave a crap about their patients. Too many abuse their power & that's why so many people avoid therapy.
I've seen multiple different therapists of various levels from counsellors to psychologists & haven't met one that I felt comfortable with. Its so disappointing & it's not like I'm not trying to get better & improve.
I've honestly done better healing on my own than I did with any therapist & that in itself is depressing.
That said, I'm ecstatic for anyone who had a positive outcome with therapy inpatient or outpatient. Very lucky to have that.
You are hero💯👊
Well done - you actually have incredible strength and resilience, maybe more than you realize! Your comment has actually lifted me a bit because I feel the same. I've made more progress by myself and reading your comment jusr made me realize that and it feels good! Thank you and I hope you are keeping well 🙏 x
Same here, I've done better dealing with it on my own than with "professional" help which is extremely depressing because honestly I know I need the help but I can't find it anywhere. I've just been more truamatized. Sending you so much love dude I'm sorry you've experienced similar 🌻
I feel the same. I’m sorry.
I am so severely depressed.
I haven’t been taking care of my daily needs for months now. I cannot find my way out of this horrible state I’m in. My husband and I moved next door to his parents (80’s) 5 years ago and it has been a daily nightmare ever since, that is not the major reason I am depressed, I have suffered with this since childhood. I can’t move, I don’t want to DO anything, no interest in food, tv, outdoors….no one to talk to. Everyone says”people who are depressed are just weak”. So,..zero family support.
The stigma is as strong as ever IMHO. People just don’t understand depression. Love the pup!
I agree with you that the stigma is just as strong
Agreed. It's like describing pregnancy to to someone who has never been pregnant, or insomnia to someone who naturally crashes when their head hits the pillow. Depression is extremely hard to explain.
@@projectionv.accountability1010 felt that insomnia part
@@sunkid02 Insomnia has got to be one of the levels of hell.
@@projectionv.accountability1010 BRUH 🤦🏿♂️
I've been admitted to a psychological hospital and was able to get some change put in place to be better
Sadly, that's not always the case. A lot of the time, the patients are disrespected, ignored, and/or put on pills or crazy diets instead of actually helping them. I hate mental hospitals so much.
x_KitKat_ x can confirm. Worked in the area of a psych hospital as a medical provider (before moving on to purely upper management)
The handling of psych patients is almost always not professional or up to standard. Some people end up getting admitted for “prolonged stays” (as a way of racking up insurance charges) while others get prescribed unusually high doses of SSRIs.
An all around disaster, avoid the psych ward if possible.
I recently mustered up the strength to ask for help because I didn't want to give in to my feelings and attempts of suicide from 16 years constant. I was in a hospital mental health building where they watch and nurses look after you. I thought it would be good for me. I got a room that I woke up in every day with workmen staring at me like I was in a zoo because I got the only room without curtains and they told me to just deal with it and get changed around the corner because all but one nurse was too lazy to get spare curtains. I even put them up myself when they finally got them. They stole food I got, they treated me like a child who doesn't know or understand anything. And I was told I'm broken and negative and need to be fixed because I'm bad. Exact words. They were so bad with their security even. I had a bag with me that had several sharp objects in it and it took them 3 hours to take inventory of all my items and still missed several things such as a dart from a dart board and a lighter. I even managed to trick their phsych team into letting me leave because I miraculously got rid of all the life long mental health disabilities I have lol. I'm currently dealing with 16 years of pure incomparable bottling of weekly suicide attempts. Borderline personality disorder (all 9 symptoms lol). Severe depression and anxiety, an overactive thyroid and peturity gland and a few more. Probably a few I don't know about because I'm scared to talk about it. I've just walked away from an abusive relationship where there was narcissism, manipulation, physical abuse and allot of what I've learned as gaslighting. I'm probably not going to reach out any more than typing on UA-cam comments. I've been not asking, not just trying but begging for help. But I've even been told from a professional "your too far gone and nothing can stop it, your gone and it's too late".
ALL I WANT IS TO NOT HURT. These videos help me understand myself allot more. But I wish I could speak to someone like this who doesn't just have a qualification, but an understanding as well. To all those people out there hurting and confused, at least if you get the strength to ask your life can change. Some of us have no hope left but to die and yet wet don't want to. But it's the only way to end the suffering you know will always haunt and torture you mentally and physically. Get help before it's too late. Or you'll be commenting on UA-cam videos feeling hopeless and wishing you had a purpose in life and had the same possibilities for help most of you do. Do it for yourself because you deserve it.
@@ekatskatingrink they keep checking on cameras for 24/7 without any reason
@@ekatskatingrink I would never go
I was forced inpatient by my middle school for a week over thanksgiving break because I told a counselor about my suicidal thoughts. One of the worst experiences I've had. When I was transported from the hospital, I was stripped naked and put in a gown. I proceeded to be naked in my hospital gown for almost two days. They did not supply me with anything more. They belittled us. A girl in group therapy said she began cutting because of her boyfriend and got yelled by a staff member running group because "no one can make you cut, this is your fault". They took everything away and even stole from bags brought in from family while doing their "search for weapons" shit. They hung up on my mother while I was on a call, which sent me into a spiral since I already felt trapped and alone. Me and the other patients went into survival mode and relied on eachother. It was like being in prison. We were told not to touch eachother. One girl was very talented at braiding hair so she braided mine to reduce tangling, but was quickly stopped and told that "this isn't a beauty salon". All form of human interaction like that was banned. They put a trans boy in the girls section and treated him like he was stupid. When he tried to hang himself with the sheets, he was again belittled and made fun of. He had nothing but a matress in his room and when he would ask for something they would say that he should've thought about it before he decided to hang himself. Everyone feared of speaking up or having some sort of breakdown because you would get a needle of tranquilizer in the ass. There was one woman in particular who was antagonistic. Everyone avoided her at all cost because she was always angry and you did not want that directed at you. I faked it til I made it. I talked to the counselors and said things like "I feel good today!". It just traumatized me more. When I got out of the hospital it felt like I was dreaming.
I would suggest therapy because going inpatient is like putting yourself in prison.
Screw you Peachford.
This is wrong!
Disgusting, I'm so sorry this happened to you.
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Does anyone know any good source to get them? I put so much on my plate and it definitely affects my stress and anxiety levels, would love to give shrooms a try.
Yes, dr.sporesss
Dr.sporesss is the best, he's been my go to for anything psychedelics.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporesss
I was forced into inpatient care and all it gave me was PTSD. It was very traumatic and not the "extra care and support" people told me it was. It would have been so much better for me to just have control over my body. Now i have something else i need to heal from and get over. It was like getting raped. No choice over my life and body. It was 100% awful.
Sara Pattishall from a rape survivor I don’t even compare the two. I have been inpatient over 25 times and thank God or I’d be dead
I also have ptsd from being shot at
I can relate to the feeling of being mentally “raped” Yes it is not compared to physical rape but it is a violation. To be forcibly violated, to feel powerless and utterly destroyed. It is no less a very real experience just as they have found that emotional pain is comparable to physical pain in the brain.
Absolutely agree with that sentiment towards these places. I was forced to take medication that lowered my blood pressure to dangerously low levels, despite me telling them that that would happen. I also was forced to reveal personal health information to my family with penalty of being forced to stay even longer. They also violated my right to medical privacy. The nurses and doctors were jaded and power hungry and the only people there who made me feel some sort of relief were the actual patients, but often time staff would yell at us for doing so. This was at the Volusia County Hospital in Daytona Beach, FL.
I experienced the same. The lack of autonomy and respect in these places is extreme and traumatizing. I'm so sorry you went through this nightmare too... you didn't deserve it 🌻
I wanna know how you are still supposed to make your house payment if you need a “higher level of care” that involves taking weeks off of work. FMLA doesn’t pay the bills.
Susan Green truth
This is an insane and ridiculous society. I recently tried to improve my life, BUSTED MY ASS off to fix my life, and even quit 25 years of heavy drinking (COLD TURKEY!)... and looking back at it, I can only think "I wish I retried my suicide attempt so I could have gotten it right, last time..."
Humanity is a lost cause Self centered lunatics Same. No alcohol stuff but the busting my ass for years to try to get better, trying even harder over the past year, and just got done writing in my journal about how I can’t think of one reason to continue this agonizing life. Not one. I’m so sorry you are feeling similarly. And pissed that there’s no real help for us. All I can say is I hold your hand, wherever you are, and sit with you in the same pain.
Now here's hoping my "improvements" don't end up being MORE of a stress >.< That's about my luck lol
yup.
I feel so suffocated by all the loneliness and overwhelming guilt and shame and the complete lack of confidence and low self-esteem. I’m so exhausted and tired of being me.
Call out to Jesus. He loves you and wants to heal you & free you from all of it! My testimony is so long to share it here. I will tell you I was breathing bc I had air in my lungs but I felt dead and drowning in despair. . He picked up my brokeness and making it new! I will tell you that what Hes done for me He can do for you too. All glory to God. There is none like Jesus.🥰
I was put in a hospital that threw pills at me instead of helping, I was on 17 pills away being babysat. That truly destroyed me instead of why I was in there.
I do b writing suicide notes and then getting too scared to do it doe
Same🙁
Please hang on 🙏🙏 I’ll be praying for you
Same
same bro
I just hope you are still alive and let go of those notes. Write down how you feel in journal and write 1x a day what you are grateful for.
Been admitted 2 times. Attempted suicide 8 times. Suicide Hotlines dont help either I've called numerous times thinking I might get a better rep. All systems in place need work. I've been involved in narcissistic abuse with trauma bonding, CPTSD and not 1 person in the health care industry even figured it out. Been going through hell with this. Need awareness in order to help and heal
It may help
Dagada DZM Best vedio in UA-camua-cam.com/video/7d16CpWp-ok/v-deo.html
Make you think deeply about,,,so many people are giving reaction about this... Know me how did you feel...
Kill the nonsense in your mind(inshallah you will find your answers whatever it is)...
Eye opening literally ❤️
I understand from personal experience with parental narcissistic abuse.
I also have identified cptsd.
I am hoping this book may help as I also haven't been able to find useful professional support in my area. -: You can thrive after narcissistic abuse by Melanie Tonia Evans.
There is good information on UA-cam by Melanie and another channel by Ross Rosenberg helped me understand more.
It needs to be identified and studied much more effectively as it is more common/complex than many realize. Hope you find/found the help you need.
You are not alone in your fight for recovery. Xo
so sorry. have you been on Daily Strength online? it's a free support group for people who are struggling. i find it way better than the suicide hotline which usually sucks. check it out. people will chat with you there. it's not religious or anything. it's not perfect but it's helped me feel less alone. people there will understand how you feel and what you are going through.
@@wordswordswords8203 I appreciate you taking the time to share. I haven't tried them but will check it out. Enough is ENOUGH Bless you !
Check out Tim Fletcher's UA-cam videos on complex PTSD
If I tell people about my depression they will lock me up and I will no longer be able to work. Wont be able to support my family. This is why I cant get help.
I can't get help either I'm a child so yeah and my parents won't get me a therapist they said they would but they never did they just pressured me more
Going through this right now. My dad recently passed from Covid. He was diagnosed with depression but I didn’t know until after he died
I got diagnosed with lupus very young at 17 . He did everything for me- worked, was at hospital visits, made me meals, and paid for everything despite me pretty financially independent in HS.
I feel horrible now knowing during that time how many demons he was facing and I didn’t help him.
There’s no way he would’ve put himself first though.I’m not sure what the solution is but I really wish I did
This makes me so angry. Ive been hospitalized 6 times. Ive been on various meds. Nothing has worked. It only masks the problem but as soon as youre back in the real world it comes back.
I'd need it to be free and I'd also need my job to keep paying me while I'm gone for this to even be an option.
Never been but just feel like I am unstable I need a better place to live and no matter how much I try housing is a issue I need to move not enough income I want to better myself for the good
I feel this will b great opportunity to get rest and refocus my life
The Public mental hospitals are free. The private ones cost a bunch though.
The only reason I work in a hospital right now. Part time. I drag myself in through the depression for the insurance
i had a horrible experience at a psycosomatic Clinic. I was there for 10 weeks there after a burnout and deep depression. But I was left alone for the most of the time there, they had massive personnel shortage and afterwards I was conviced suicide is the best option. They justified their clinic with the sentence „it’s everywhere like this“. So ....I don’t need to go anywhere, but to death. Because:if I go to a therapist now and explain myself openly, the law in my country sais, he has to send me into a clinic. So, i can’t go there too. I am alone and will stay alone.
The sad joke is, that the clinic send me away without any medication, because they knew I could use it for suicide...
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Stay strong!! Hope you feel better soon xx
I know it's been a year and this isn't much but this calms me down and makes me feel a lot better I like to play this in my sleep and it just makes me feel less anxious and more hopeful somehow you don't need any scamming doctors or medication anyway ❤️ ua-cam.com/video/3pNpHZ1yv3I/v-deo.html
Hope you’re doing okay or in a better place
If you feel like this and you're scared you're gonna feel like this forever, I used to feel like this for years and now I am healing. There is hope, always have faith ❤️
How did you get better? What's your formula
My mom says if I talk to anyone about my depression/suicidal thoughts they’ll lock me up in a looney bin. My parents don’t realize living with them is worse I guess 🤷♀️
I feel the same way girl.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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My mom would threaten to send me to the looney bin as a kid.
@@GhostMonkey772 That's wonderful that you found something to help you out of depression and you're doing so much better and you're clean now! I wish you all well ❤️
@@joyrambin9196 Thanks Joy! ❤
I’ve admitted myself before. I felt like I was a criminal to be honest. But because they couldn’t give me seroquil I went into a very aggressive manic episode. Lesson learned, don’t throw things in a psych ward. They’ll tie you to the bed.
I'm really sorry they restrained you. Why did you go into a manic episode?
@@thesaddestdude3575 they said they didn't have their Seroquel. I know if I don't have mine I can go through withdrawal and more likely to get manic again when having bipolar disorder and unmedicated.
same here
They can tie me to a bed but I'm taking two down with me
@@TheJanayWellsShowwhat state was this in did they Russell you to the floor
Yes, I was admitted for inpatient psychiatric care a handful of times. My experiences do not reflect what Kyle said & it definitely was not a "reset" or mental wellness 'camp'. Good grief.
Im trying to help my wife right now. Literally every single inpatient facility has terrible reviews throughout all of southern California. I cannot and will not subject her to a place like that. The comments here confirm everything Im researching.
Did you find any solution for your wife since then?
n i was admitted against my will after an attempt i hated it. Till one day i finally caved and went to crafts. I had originally said "I'm not going to color like a six year old." Well, we did some leather stamping and staining to make wrist bands, and some cool wooden boxes. I loved it. Once my outlook changed it really helped, and i saw the place in a different way. It was me being difficult, and i saw after that many employees actually wanted to help.
After watching the horrors of what my brother went through and understanding how u literally sign ur life over… never will I ever. I’d rather risk my life out here than give it away in there. A good part of my childhood trauma is from watching my brother be drugged up tied down and taken away. Never will I ever. Ever.
What are these "centers" she's referring to? I'm a doctor in the US and typically inpatient options are a psych unit or full psychiatric hospital (less common), but patients are referred from a crisis setting or maybe as a direct admit arranged by their outpatient provider. In either case I've never heard of patients being able to choose from a variety of options (I wish they could!). This is especially true if the patient has an acute safety concern, like suicide, and is admitted through an emergency department - they are going to get placed wherever a bed opens first. For IOP/PHPs (outpt) can be a little more flexibility but still not a big variety of viable choices for most people.
I truly agree with you.
In order to get help. you have to say that you're suicidal and I don't want to go that far and being label as suicidal it's even hard to get a therapist do to the covert so many people looking for therapist.
She is talking about those with money. Forget the rest of us.
@@zenseed75 most that need help don’t have money or access to quality healthcare, this is a fact! Most treatment centers are there to make a profit sound terrible but it’s a fact. Big Pharmaceutical, make billions on peoples suffering. The truth is, profit over health and why cure any disease if we can profit from it. It’s sickening
@@chgofirefighter so sickening. Literally. 😭
Unfortunately only New York have option of alternatives for hospitalization. In New York they are called mental health respites centers that are modeled as bed & breakfast retreat.
I agree with so many of you . When I was hospitalized with depression, the thing I hated most was being treated like a little kid . You know, times when you've had a " good session ", I was given a pat on the head and a treat, like I'm a pup in training . The 1 thing they never admit is how therapy works AGAINST the patient . Like there was 1 time, I had just been released from the hospital therapy after a suicide attempt . My job coach from Voc. Rehab told me that my boss told her, if I didn't come back to work that day, that I would lose my job ! I came back, only to find out he actually told her that they were giving me a week off to help me adjust and heal . She LIED to me, just to make her company look good . Another way therapy works against you, is they tend to heap on you all these meetings you're supposed to go to and then rake you over the coals when you forget and miss 1 of those meetings . I remember when I was in therapy, they had me going to so many meetings a week, on top of going to college FULL TIME, and working at Chik-fil-a part time . I'd meet with my therapist, my psychiatrist, Voc. Rehab, their subdivision, the Choice Group, and the A.C.T. Group . Not to mention, at each of these meetings, all we would discuss is what happened at the PREVIOUS meeting, which was nothing . I wasted so much gas, just going to so many meetings to discuss pretty much NOTHING . And like I said, if I forgot or missed a meeting, I would get chewed out so bad, that the so-called " therapy ", was pointless . I needed therapy FROM my therapy !
3 inpatient stays in Texas. There was no real care received by myself or any other patient I talked to there. Groups didn't discuss real issues. We did..crossword puzzles..and sat around watching the common room's TV. Meanwhile, the facilities charged $1500/day to my insurance. The situation left me feeling even more hopeless.
People going to a mental hospital in 2019: I'm going to a mental hospital.
People going to a mental hospital in 2020: I have to go to a mental hospital but covid.
I’ve never been to a psych ward but in those situations I would assume that all the people there would be tested and those who are positive would go into quarantine and then get admitted.
is it just me who just wants to be in their room for the rest of their life crying forever and being sad forever
just me?
No. There are many. I cry so much tha I tell people that It's the eyedrops I'm prescribed that make my eyes red and watery.
Indeed, ive done that for about a year, but im going back to life as it is now, and honestly im scared as hell, walking down the hallways at Uni feels so uncanny, everything feels as a dream. I just know the others are gonna start hating me soon enough, just as highschool and school. In not too long the pressure gonna rise im gonna start failing classes as i usually do and the others are gonna stop talking with me. Atliest i hope its not like highschool where the others actively despised me.
For the most part i just feel like scaling the building... and you know.
It doesn't help that ive found a unsecure roof access. But i know im too scared to, i just feel like i want to crawl out of my skin, im so tired of myself, i cant even look myself in the mirror anymore.
I was admitted to a mental hospital when i was 16 for suicidal thoughts (i did not have a choice). It really wasn't great. The nurses and staff treated us like monsters that could attack them at any second. We weren't allowed to have anything, literally. There was a window on the door to our rooms so they could watch us, and we were supposed to sit on our bed until group therapy (which was about every 2 hours) or for meal time. The group therapy activities didn't really help because it didn't cancel out how they were treating us. It just instilled that there's something wrong with us and that i shouldn't have asked for help. The only thing that helped me was talking to other kids that shared a lot of the struggles i had. I had to try to make the shitty experience slightly better. If I'm judging the experience by itself, it was not helpful at all
Thats the reason why ive never spoken up, i'm scared that they will hospitalize me and that i have to go through somthing like that. The thing is, as much as it helps to go through psychiatric therapy there will always be an element missing, for me what helps the most is talking with others who have the same problems. The thing is, talking with somone who you feel you can really trust and really cares, a freinds who know your struggles is really the best. Sadly i don't have that kind of friends and its a complicated story. So i mostly hang about forums with other people who feel the same, like comment sections as these.
How are you doing now? has things improved?
I have spent 40 years battling depression , addiction , therapy, medication and more therapy with doctors, therapists, counsellors and psychiatrists, I've tried everything and their just comes a point when you realise nothing is going work and you have had enough.
Watching this video because I am a 24 year old who is severely depressed. I also wake up everyday with crippling anxiety to the point where I have to call out of work, but then I feel guilty on top of everything else for calling out of work. I’ve been in therapy for years but therapy isn’t cutting it anymore, so I’m preparing to call around tomorrow and see where I can sign myself into. I just can’t do this anymore.
I was admitted to inpatient November 5th 2020 for my consistent suicidal thoughts. It was very helpful and got rid of my suicidal thoughts for a few weeks - a few weeks later they came back. I did a partial hospitalization program and it was really helpful. I have been in a depressive episode for nearly nine months now and I’m not getting better. I’m in weekly therapy and on medications. I just am stuck in my depression. I am so glad I was admitted inpatient. It was the right decision even though in the moment I was upset that I got admitted. Thanks for reading.
Hi Kati r u feeling any better , hope OK to ask .
I have been in a depression for 8 months now and have suicidal thoughts every day .
I'm not very good educated pls excuse my grammer
Food for thought: because I went to treatment, I now wonder where I could’ve been. I had struggles in life but I would’ve gotten over them, instead an ex (ex at the time) told the cops i needed to be thrown in a mental hospital. Worst 3 days of my life. Because of all of this I lost my job, which also made me loose my housing and I went homeless. Now I’m 25 and I feel like I’m 18 again trying to start my life all over. My salary position gone, my housing gone, my ability to live where I want gone, my friend group gone, etc… not to mention the multiple of thousands of dollars the hospital is trying to charge me for the ambulance ride when I was detained against my will and forced to ride in the ambulance. I even went to a 30-day residential treatment center since I was homeless, until on day 12 my insurance told me I don’t have even close to the level of mental health issues that requires treatment… now I’m in such a bad place and feel like such a loser at this point in life that I’m thinking about iop but then again, after getting thrown in a mental hospital I lost all my friends and family so now I’m just super lonely and everyone assumes I have depression, ptsd, anxiety, and everything else in the book. I hate being told I’m fucked up when I just experienced an unfortunate situation and didn’t have anyone who cared enough to have my back.
Oof, I am really sorry to hear that man. If there is anything I can do to help please let me know
Horrible experience! Don’t do it!
Hang in there ..... Prayers for right help people to come give you strength. One friend or listener can give a boost ❤
Whatever you are going through, if you are reading this message, please don’t lose hope. You have a better future ahead. Don’t give up, okay? Accept my virtual hug. I love you.
Ew
And how do I afford this after I've become unable to keep up with "activities of daily living."
Get a skill bro. Anything that you can confidently say you're good at. It will bring Fullfillment and keep the voices silent.
@@westy229 I always have active suicidal thoughts I just never act on them I plan to but I know I won't
@@westy229 im pretty sure part of the definition of depression is lack of want to do things you once enjoyed. Shut up
@@windows-kx1of i feel you
@@westy229 Actually, that was a very good suggestion. Thank you!
I want to tell my mom I have serious depression but I can't I'm scared of how she will react but I think its time I tell her because I am so tired of living at this point
You should definitely ask for help.
Okay I will try my best thanks
My mum has gone through depression so when I realised I was severely depressed, I was terrified of opening up. Eventually it all become too much and i told her. She was perfectly understandable and she’s helping me get the help I need. She said she’s been where I am and it’s not a nice place to be at all.
@@joberogerson4950 that's good and I hope your doing good I'm going to therapy and I don't cut I just have a rubber band and I'm glad you told your mom
I completely relate. Took the words right out my mouth.
Edit: just told my mum everything... She gave me tips and a long hug. I cried the whole time. So worth it!
I was sent to the psych ward against my will and it was more traumatizing than anything else.
I really need to go to a mental hospital I know I do I’m just so scared to ask or even talk about it
Stay strong and speak to someone.
I started drinking when I was 16. I would drink at parties, but I also started drinking alone because I was unhappy, and I was in a lot of emotional pain all the time. My mom was very aggressive when I was younger, and my brother hated her and so did I. He started hanging out with shady people, he started failing all his classes, he was never home, and my parents fought all the time. I also ran away several times. I was always trying to figure out a reason as to why I was here or what the purpose of life was. So, I started looking at different philosophies, religions, and beliefs. When I was 18 after I was hungover, I got on my knees and I prayed for the first time. I asked if God was real that he would show me he was real because I couldn’t take it anymore. I was crying when I prayed for this. At that moment I felt a presence come over me like a wind. It was barely noticeable, but it was unlike anything in my life I had experienced up until that point. I was surprised when I felt it and I remember saying “what was that?” after that experience I pretty much forgot what happened and kept partying, until my senior year when I got arrested. After my arrest, my parents lost all their trust in me and I was expelled from high school. I was told never to come back. At that time, I felt afraid and hopeless. That’s when I started looking for God, and I prayed that he would reveal himself in my life and that he would give me signs. My prayers began getting answered so consistently that I couldn’t deny that God was doing something. It was mysterious and compelling. I ended up in Church and started reading the bible hours a day. I stopped hanging out with all my other friends because they were continually getting arrested. I was able to forgive my family and myself and to ask to be forgiven. I noticed how at Church people were judgmental and how they formed cliques but were afraid to be around anyone else different from them. It increased my faith because I realized Jesus was not like that and ever since I was young, I saw people as people regardless of who they were. After a while, it’s like I could see God's presence was in my life and then it felt like he wasn’t, and then he was, and then he wasn’t. One day I woke up and felt more depressed than I ever have in my entire life. I felt like I was dying on the inside. That night I prayed, and I said, God, I don’t see my life five years from now I'm going to die Jesus save me Lord, please save me. I was weeping when I said it and when I asked him to save me, I felt a presence inside of me like a heartbeat, and I felt it once like a pulse, and I said Lord please save me and I felt it again even stronger. It was like radiance. When I woke up the next morning, I had transformed everything felt brand new like I was a kid again. All my fears and all my racing thoughts everything was gone. I looked at my hands, and I said this can’t be real, it's impossible. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a different person. I started praying, and the holy spirit became entirely real to me; it was washing over me and inside of me. It was total love and peace, and I heard a voice but not an audible one, it was an inner voice. It said I am with you; I love you, I will never leave you, it’s done it’s finished. That was May 3rd, 2009, and ever since then I’ve followed God, I have seen many things change and many things I know wouldn’t have changed without faith and belief. I know what it’s like to be lost to feel you have no hope. Don’t ever think you’re stuck, or life can’t change because it can. My mom is a Christian now, Its night and day. Some of the things that went away during that period were severe anxiety and my addiction to alcohol. I’ve seen and experienced so many things that are miraculous and seen how God has worked in my life. When we ask God to forgive us for what we’ve done and turn away from our sins and wrongdoings and we believe in Christ's sacrifice everything changes. His word says if we confess with our mouths that Jesus is Lord and believe in our hearts that he died and rose again we will have eternal life but not just life after death but abundant life in the present. Our sins are erased not only past, present, and future but our burdens and fears are lifted also. Our thoughts, our minds, our hearts, our souls are transformed and united with God and we know his spirit lives in us. If you seek, pray, and knock you will know JESUS IS KING!!! HE LIVES!
“Come to me all you who are weary and burdened and I will give you rest”
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Ive been in five inpatient units. I have attempted a few times and none of it is fun. I was verbally and mentally abused for my whole life and.i thought it was normal to live that way. Now fast forward to freshman year has been the worst year of my life. dealing with girls who want to fight me because they never liked me. I struggle everyday and the attempt thoughts never goes away. I was diagnosed with MDD, GAD and BPD. If you dont know what the BPD stands for its Boarderline Personality Disorder. Meds work only if you want them to. They dont do all the work you have to help yourself as well. Ik it gets pretty freaking sad and the whole day feels like a dread and dark. But just stay strong pls.
aydenly going through it too fam, wish you nothing but the best. Don’t know what to say other than the cliches, stay strong and keep moving forward.
Same.
Exact same ... except I’m 26 and I’ve been dealing with this since elementary school I’ll say
I spent 3 weeks. Slowed down, learned, got my sleep and eating normalized and left more empowered to face down my demons.
i went to inpatient care once and it was a nightmare. the only thing i learned from it was to never put myself in that situation again. it's one flew over the cuckoos nest for real people.
IF YOU'RE COMFORTABLE WITH BEING STRIP SEARCHED, WATCHED SHOWERING, BEING PUT IN THE ISOLATION ROOM WHEN YOU CRY TOO HARD, BEING FORCED TO TAKE MEDICATIONS, BEING FED CAFETERIA FOOD, AND WATCHING MOVIES ALL DAY- GO FOR IT
Those places suck, every time I come out I feel more depressed.
What a repulsive scam.... I understand you need to be paid.... but there needs to be a better system..... stop making mental health punitive. Stop making it a debt. This life is f’n hard. Make it better for,people.
I agree 100%
While that sentment is good and all, we have to remember that the psychiatrists need to be paid too. Somhow.
AMEN!
Well maybe not in the hundreds of thousands. @@thesaddestdude3575
I was hospitalized for 21 days several years ago, I was treated poorly, nurses were cruel. Every time I asked to leave, the nurses would say you can request to leave but the doctor will likely put you on a 72 hour hold. Day in day out. I'd isolate by sitting near a window and stare out at the trees I wanted to be near. The kept pushing ECT, asking had I talked to the patients going through it or had I watched the video. No one came to see me(family is totally unsupportive in good times), have no friends really(to this day). I finally acquiesced to their "demands"(I was there voluntarily). I had an adverse anesthesia reaction, requiring oxygen and a sitter for 12 hours following my 2nd or 3rd treatment. I refused more after the 3rd. They treated me like my decision didn't count(nothing to eat after midnight, no breakfast etc. I told my psychiatrist at the hospital no more. She said that they wanted me to tell the psychiatrist performing the EXT would be the one to discuss it with and sent me . I was sent to the procedure room and told to lay one the bed. The nurse put a tourniquet on my arm to start the IV. I said NO! No more. I mustered everything in me to refuse. Even asking the anesthesiologist, "will I ever ride my bike again-I've been very athletic in my life). She said, "she didn't know." She was cold and uncaring. They'd chalked my respiratory issue up to some underlying respiratory disease, which I had no history of. I now do however(unknown cause). Some years later I was hospitalized again. Different hospital. I was bullied by nurses. Treated poorly by a psychiatrist. Ended up trying to hang myself with a sheet. The next morning I was discharged and walked out like a criminal. I'd asked the psychiatrist for a referral to a psychiatrist. She said I could find one myself. No nurse or doctor called my therapist. My therapist called me after hearing from an occupational(art therapy provider) called her out of concern. It was a nightmare. Also of note, I am transgender and was misgendered by staff. I was even kicked on my leg to wake for meals. I f
imprisoned, I felt like a criminal.
21 days dam tough the stay was for 2 weeks
I've been in inpatient at a hospital in NYC and it was one of the most horrible experiences ever. There have been many times that I should've probably been impatient because I stopped caring for myself and my household but would rather languish at home then go through that again.
A month ago, I voluntarily went to the ER at 3:30 AM after a suicide attempt a week prior. I was involuntarily transported by ambulance to Chicago Behavioral Hospital. I was in the women's ward for a week. Honestly, my experience wasn't as bad as some of the comments I've read here. The staff was supportive and it was comforting being around other women going through situations similar to mine. The cafeteria food wasn't horrible, either. However, I felt like I was just in a glorified adult daycare. There's nothing to do but sleep, read, go to meals, go to daily groups, and sit in the common room playing card games/watching TV. I was put on 5mg of Lexapro as well, which has done absolutely nothing for me.
I went through a major depressive episode in 2018 where I was struggling heavily with alcoholism and it wasn't until halfway through 2020 that I got sober and began to feel relatively back to normal again. At least the first time around, I was only 23. I'm 29 now. I feel like I've wasted away my twenties. I can't afford to go through this again.
Thank you for reading my rant, kind stranger.
I was put in psych ward by my sister after a suicide attempt also,they did nothing, didnt talk to me,the only "group" talking was asking what our favorite old show was,something like that nothing about why we were there or what was going on in our lives. Maybe some got more help but I was ignored, just laid in bed most of time waiting to be released
@@stopbeingsomean Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry you experienced that. I can definitely relate. The groups I went to seemed very superficial; we filled out basic worksheets together about coping strategies, did crafts, etc. I feel like they need to take a much more intense approach.
I hope that Dr. Ho and Kyle read the comments from people who have had horrible experiences involving institutions. It is very common to be treated poorly, unfortunately, even here in Canada, where we have universal medicare.
Agreed. They are absolutely horrible.
Don’t go inpatient. It’ll just make you feel worse. It’s not worth the money or the time. My advice is to just ask to stay with a friend or family member for a few days till you think you’re safe again.
I was 1013'd just recently and I had no intent or means, and I told them I would lose my house but they didn't care. Now I am going to have to file bankruptcy. Yeah, psychiatric hospitalization is great. I wasn't planning on acting on the thoughts and now I will have nothing left after all this "wonderful care".
Are you OK, Jesus loves you
I’ve been watching Medcircle series since they started and they are wonderful, thank you. I have learned so much. The only issue I have is that they assume you have money and (comprehensive) medical insurance to take advantage of resources like the ones mentioned in this video. Add to that something like if you are also a caretaker for elderly parents with illnesses themselves.... I recently checked up on various online therapy options, hoping they would be affordable, and they weren’t. So, until psychiatric/psychological treatments become affordable, the suffering will continue.
These people have clearly never been to the ward before. 🤦🏽♀️ it’s horrible some places and you have no control of where you go.
Well, it really differs. I know somone who has benefitted from it, but i also know some bad stories, not te emntion some of the stuff i have seen on the web, I think it really depends on the instiution.
I've been in the psych ward before :( scary time as i was like 16, the youngest person there and somebody was murdered while i was there. Now i might need to go back. I'm just extremely scared but broken. So broken. I just want a hug, and some warmth. The world is so cold to people who feel emotions
I am currently experiencing depression since my mom died in october 2020. And I’ve been trying to get out of this feeling day by day.. what makes it worst is the pandemic lockdown. I am hoping that I will get thru with this the soonest
Same but my mom died in November, I’ve been feeling lost and it’s so quiet in my house, I hope you’re doing okay
Bro you need to seek help in order to learn how to greave. Don't make the same mistake I did beliveing I could just block it out and handle it myself because it catches upto u in the end.. but you have the opportunity to seek help now in the early stages. Be totally open my friend to family close friends and most importantly to your doctors. I held all my grievances and my trauma my emotions and I can tell u now if I had to do it all again I would have been honest form the beginning to save all the suffering I've been through.
I'm depressed and sucidal, and searched for this and all i do now is looking at that cute doggo
I have 3 cute doggos and they are like my natural antidepressants sometimes 🙏❤️🐶🐶🐶
I know the people are trying to help but they just seem too bubbly like actors. The dog I'll listen too.
I've been in 3 different impatient programs and a few IOPs. All had good and bad aspects and their own rules. The single best thing about inpatient hospitalization (for me) was the "reset." It seems like something you should be able to do on your own, but it really isn't. With distractions taken away and a schedule to follow (especially having a set eating schedule with actual food and not quick snacks), I was able to breathe and focus on myself. I haven't been suicidal in two years, but I crave this chance for a reset.
Try a religious retreat camp which can be similar. Best wishes!
I too have been admitted 3 times and feel the same about the programmed schedule. I'm afraid I will need to go again but I don't want to
@@evenamber ditto. I have a line of sorts with my thoughts that, when I cross, I know I need to be admitted. I hate to admit how far along that line is, but I haven't reached that point for a while now. However, I am frequently worried about getting close.
I was hospitalized twice for severe depression and suicidal thoughts. Shrinks and Prozac did not help at all. Group therapy helped me the most. You get to talk to people who are going through the same problems, and it makes you realize that you are not alone.
I think it’s amazing that she mentioned calling the centers WITH the person in distress. That’s so important. Literally physically help them and be there, because depression is crippling. No Joke.
I’ve had ketamine, ECT, TMS, 40+ medications and I’m an absolute suicidal train wreck. A couple things helped briefly like weeks or a couple months, but it wasn’t 10 out of 10 depression to 2/10. It was 6.5/10 for weeks or months then back to horribly depressed and suicidal. I can’t take it.
That sounds like shit luck..
Dude, are you still going? I really hope so, i feel the same for the most part. Just hang in there.
Look into psylocibin mushrooms, they’re becoming more popular as a very strong treatment for severe depression like yours. I’ve been considering it myself, not sure where to find thwm
@@dabulls1g Yes we need to find the shrooms for our depression. I wish I knew how to grow them myself.
Same boat, only less meds because I don't even have the money to try.
cost prohibitive in US,this is why people become homeless after one major health crisis
I'm wicked close to homelessness because I went crazy during my first marriage. My ex-husband got me to cosign on a house he kicked me out of the day after we closed on it. I went to a hospital because I felt like killing myself. I can't afford the help despite having a job and am living in a shack without running water, or electricity now. I might have been better off killing my ex-husband and going to jail where I'd get free help.
@Angerlyinn Greed thank you. I'm doing better now. It's been 9 months since my reply. I have a road to the shack and a well dug. Saving up for electricity and eventually a very small home on a foundation.
My experience was kind of traumatic in of itself, I stayed over night in a hospital bed feeling terrible and nauseous so I couldn't sleep... A couple of the nurses weren't very nice either, we were all herded like animals and I just saw things I wish I hadn't. I feel like things do get better but they might get worse before they get any better, understand that and dont be too hard on yourself. Looking back it makes me think I have gone from in the hospital, to getting better grades than I have in years all in the span of a few months. But as someone who has gone through it I completely understand the worry that comes with being admitted... figure out what works for you and your healing process and allow yourself to get help if you need it.
It depends on the hospital staff, as some are bullying patients as they simply don’t care and are only there for a wage.
Agreed, i have not seen this, but i know several who has, most of which got better from being hospitalized but i did remember them talking about specefic people there who were cold and uncaring.
I stayed in an inpatient hospital for about 2 weeks after a medication induced psychosis. I was blessed to have been in a facility that was run well and I felt like I got the help I needed at the time.
What is the name of the facility?
My younger brother is struggling with severe depression and everytime he's come to visit he's skinnier and skinnier. Right now he's staying at our moms with his two toddlers and when I saw him this time my heart dropped. He's so skinny, so sickly looking, he's weak and grey and has dark circles under his eyes 🥺 we're trying to figure out how to help him but he refuses help :(
Sometimes, I wish I could just go to sleep, and not wake up... what's scary, is, I can sense somebody is egging me on.. scary..
I just read six comments in a row saying impatient is disrespectful, punitive, and harmful. What a sad reality that impatient truly isn’t the answer if everything else has failed.
Going to a mental hospital truly saved my life. I was only there for a few days, but it helped more than anything ever has. I still struggle, but it is more bearable now.
I also went voluntarily because I knew I needed the intense care. The staff was truly amazing and helped me grow so much.
Please tell me/us, what did you receive in mental hospital that helped you?That is so interesting and important, contradicting my own and manys' experience?!
Doc, so many of us wake up to a morning that starts with tears, ideations, DARK penetrating thoughts in our heads and even entire body. The sadness is so great that the tears are too much to even make a cup of coffee. Kneeling on the ground anywhere and everywhere begging to make the pain stop. It never does. The wishes and thoughts of making this awful feeling go away are with me 24/7 as well as the neglect of everyone and everything around me. All of us that deal with tremendous depression know that this is no joke. It takes your life from you, however you still exist. Oh we try and try but the pain thickens until its so thick that we can't get our feet to move through this shit. We ask ourselves " Do I get help, go somewhere?" But then you read reviews of how people like us looking for life, looking for relief; we read these reviews or go to these impatient locations and get treated nastily, disrespected, and belittled. How is that supposed to help anyone? A person without depression could go into a "mental health ward" and come out with it. My question is: where? Where do people that need help go to ACTUALLY get help? The stigma is still there and I get looked at like I chose to be this way. Who in the hell would ever want this?...NOBODY! Ehh whatever too much writing.
If you want help, maybe i can help. Talk to me.
Hi. That's real nice offer. But im sure you dont want to hear all these awful things I go through on a daily basis. Its terrible and I dont want anyone else to have even one bad minute on account of me. You sound like a great human being. Thank you for you caring. Thats the nicest thing anyone has said or done for me in a very long time. Thank you again.
@@jayeo9032 every life is precious. Don't feel bad. If I can help in the slightest, then it's worth it.
@@htmoh8115 Thats so selfless of you, gives me a bit more faith in humanity. I don't have any friends so someone to talk to would really be amazing. I'm in a relationship going on four years. He is an addict in recovery who keeps relapsing and just found our nest egg is GONE. He wont get a job. So he he sits around all day projecting his bullshit on to me but he is angry, aggressive, verbally abusive(severely). I wake in the morning and make a cup of coffee and go outside and sit outside for hours so i dont have to be near him. Im talking hours...crying. This is al on top of severe PTSD and Major Depression and even bipolar disorder and I am diagnosed epileptic. I'm in the middle of trying to get disability so I cant work. Its just a mess. A big poopy mess. I just know that I cant continue to feel like this...im like dying inside. Well, thanks for the vent😉 That's a quick rundown.
@@jayeo9032 you don't have friends? Sad to hear that. Firstly, you need to leave your partner. He is adding fuel to your problems. At least 75% of your problem will heal if you leave. When did your epileptic start? Does medication work?
This was so helpful for me and answered the questions I have been really stressed over. Thank you🙏🏽
My son had suicidal ideations, He went in a psychiatric hospital and it was the worst choice I've ever made for him. Literally made him so much worse.
I was in inpatient care about two and a half years ago and right now I’m more depressed than I’ve ever been... thinking of going back...
I have been inpatient over 20 times in my life. Each time I learned something more on how I can help myself in my recovery. I have also done an outpatient program through the hospital 3 times.
I've been depressed a long time, and engage in self harm. My meds keep changing after a few months, and it hasn't helped. I tried 2 therapists and it hasn't helped.
I obsess over it, constantly researching how to do it and how to get the tools. The only thing that keeps me from doing it, is my cat. As dumb as that sounds. I have a strong bond with her, and if I suddenly disappeared, she wouldn't understand. She's the only one who has comforted me through this.
I'm 26 and live with my brother and mother. I never talk about it to my brother, but my mother knows. But she says she can't understand how I feel and just lectures me about what I've done wrong. If I stay in bed all day or call out, she either ignores me all day, knowing I was having suicidal thoughts. Or she yells at me for being lazy.
My doctor set me up with a second psychiatrist but I won't get to see him until the end of september.
I went to the psych ward a few years ago after struggling with suicidal ideation for the vast majority of my life. I had convinced myself everybody has suicidal ideation, everybody else was just better at hiding it. I remember feeling stunned when the Dr. told me "no, those are not common thoughts". I realllllly believed it was normal.
Call out to Jesus. He loves you and wants to heal you & free you from all of it! My testimony is so long to share it here. I will tell you I was breathing bc I had air in my lungs but I felt dead and drowning in despair. . He picked up my brokeness and making it new! I will tell you that what Hes done for me He can do for you too. All glory to God. There is none like Jesus.🥰
Those people that don't look opon those that take things into thier own hands and leave here on thier own terms as brave people obviously haven't ever been in the place where you see this sucky world as it is. You know your there when the answer to the question of what could ever make you joyous and happy if there were no limits to your every want doesn't exist for you.
I think inpatient care could have the potential to make an impact on mental illness, but like a lot of other people have said so far that hasn't been my experience. I was there for about a week and found that it helped in the short term, but didn't make any lasting effect probably because I wasn't there long enough. There have been a few times since my stay where I wished I could go back and get more dedicated help, but I'm often too worried about losing my job and not being able to afford treatment to do anything. Ironically, having those fears gives people the impression that I must not be serious enough if I can think about going to work at all. Nobody realizes that the world doesn't just stop because you go into inpatient. Your bills and your job, if you still have one, are waiting when you leave.
I struggle with suicidal thoughts and 3 days ago I found a suicide note from my son. God help us
Pray to Him. He will help.
💖💖💖 How are you doing ?
Did things get better?
I'm a child myself. The main part of my depression, if not all of it is caused by the loss I feel when I'm with my mother. It feels like I lost her to sadness. It honestly feels like she died a long time ago. You must remember that your energy afects your children more than you know. From experience, if your child is depressed, see to it that you are not the cause. Be positive and happy. You will see an improvement. That is what I would tell my mum if I were brave enough.
@@user-ol5bj4dm2v yes. I agree.