Neil Hilborn - This Is Not the End of the World

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  • Опубліковано 4 лис 2024

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  • @ButtonPoetry
    @ButtonPoetry  7 років тому +237

    Support the artist! Get this poem and more in Neil's bestselling book, Our Numbered Days: bit.ly/ournumbereddays

    • @hisgirl041109
      @hisgirl041109 7 років тому +11

      My birthday is Saturday and Our Numbered Days is one of the only things I want. Hope Neil makes more books too. Love his work.

    • @ButtonPoetry
      @ButtonPoetry  7 років тому +8

      Stay tuned for news on that :)

    • @hisgirl041109
      @hisgirl041109 7 років тому +2

      Button Poetry ordered a copy. so excited.

    • @breckenalejandro3028
      @breckenalejandro3028 3 роки тому

      I know im asking randomly but does anyone know of a trick to log back into an Instagram account?
      I stupidly forgot the login password. I would love any assistance you can offer me!

    • @jeremiahmisael8723
      @jeremiahmisael8723 3 роки тому

      @Brecken Alejandro instablaster =)

  • @toshsharma5319
    @toshsharma5319 7 років тому +1316

    This is not to say you aren't special
    This is to say, thank god you aren't
    There lies so much depth in those sentences

    • @Emethegem
      @Emethegem 7 років тому +21

      Tosh Sharma and it means so much. I've found my identity in being different, being unlike everyone else in any way possible. So when I was diagnosed with depression, like every other teenager on the planet my age, and I wanted to kill myself, just like everyone else, I found no comfort in the words "you are not alone" because I was alone, and in some ways I liked it, I was unpredictable. This line hit me so hard..

    • @Emethegem
      @Emethegem 7 років тому +9

      I hope someone else relates to this

    • @fatinsakinah6033
      @fatinsakinah6033 7 років тому

      Tosh Sharma

  • @rakshakannan993
    @rakshakannan993 7 років тому +1244

    "Love how you hate yourself...because at least there is still something to hate."
    My eyes are leaking.

    • @MK-nw8yk
      @MK-nw8yk 7 років тому +16

      Raksha Kannan thats my favourite line. but to be honest this whole poem makes me weep

  • @Icareaboutyourapple
    @Icareaboutyourapple 7 років тому +528

    "Isolation isn't safety its death
    If no one knows you're alive, you aren't."
    "Other people are the life to which you provide the meaning"

    • @missjaxsyn
      @missjaxsyn 2 роки тому

      The exact lines that hit me

  • @vellaJuliana
    @vellaJuliana 7 років тому +827

    "This Is Not the End of the World” (transcript)
    I’ve been hearing that the world is ending
    I’ve heard it so much this days that
    I can either completely ignore it or
    never leave my house again
    that is if I actually left my house
    for things that don't directly enable me to keep my house
    see
    I’ve been thinking about driving nowhere
    I’ve been thinking about becoming a box inside a locked room
    inside a dark house at the dark end of the street
    I want to go away until I'm gone
    it take so much less energy to not exist
    than it does to exist and get burned
    I’ve been burned so much I am not me anymore
    I’m a stupid poppet version of me
    I got strings that lead to nowhere
    nothing is pulling on me
    I wish someone would drag my hand out of hiding
    and sign my name on the dotted line
    there are days when I can’t find the sun
    even though it’s right outside my window
    when getting out of bed feels like the key in the doomsdays machine
    so on those days
    this is what I tell myself
    whatever you are feeling right now
    there’s a mathematical certainty that
    someone else is feeling that exact thing
    this is not to say you aren't special
    this is to say thank God you aren't special
    I too have kissed no one good night
    I’ve launched myself from tall places
    and hoped no one would catch me
    I’ve ended relationships because suddenly I was also exposed
    but isolation is not safety
    It’s death
    If no one knows you are alive
    you aren't
    if a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it
    it does make a sound but then that sound is gone
    I am not saying you’ll find the meaning of life in other people
    I’m saying other people are the life to which you provide the meaning
    see
    (we are) wrong when we say I think therefore I am
    the more we say it the more it sounds like
    I think therefore I will be
    you can’t think your way into a full table
    you can’t think and makes walls and a roof appear around you
    I have thought and thought myself in a corners made of words and nightmares
    and what has it gotten me but more thoughts
    a currency that only buys more currency
    so please
    if you wanna continue existing
    do something
    learn to make clouds using only your breath
    build a house even if every wall leans to the left
    love it anyway
    just like a season
    just like a child
    love how you hate yourself sometimes
    because at least there’s still something to hate
    I know how easy it can be to think
    and keep thinking until you are the last person left on Earth
    until the entire world becomes no larger than the space between
    your bed and the light switch
    but
    I hear the world’s ending soon
    when we go
    and we’re all gonna go
    I will be part of it
    -Neil Hilborn
    Holy cow! Thanks for the likes guys!!

    • @regentanz7364
      @regentanz7364 7 років тому +3

      Juliana Ramos thank you :)

    • @linny3012
      @linny3012 7 років тому +3

      Juliana Ramos Thank you'

  • @cdusdrei856
    @cdusdrei856 7 років тому +368

    Hilborn, thank you for speaking for us: the broken, the lost, the isolated, the dying, and the surviving.

    • @nikascheepers1553
      @nikascheepers1553 7 років тому +29

      Marshall Frost
      Fuck, I hate how perfectly you summed that (us) up

    • @cdusdrei856
      @cdusdrei856 7 років тому +17

      Nika Scheepers I love the way you appreciated it :)

    • @rosaboer39
      @rosaboer39 7 років тому +3

      this comment itself alone is art, wow 💕

    • @Nillowo
      @Nillowo 7 років тому +1

      Marshall Frost agreed

    • @karmabelieverI
      @karmabelieverI 4 роки тому

      This hits me even harder.😶

  • @marilainefourie919
    @marilainefourie919 7 років тому +484

    "If you want to continue existing, do something."

  • @nadasabry8902
    @nadasabry8902 4 роки тому +121

    Who else has this poem on his mind during covid 19 and self isolation thing? :(

    • @olivealexander5885
      @olivealexander5885 4 роки тому +4

      been the mood lately

    • @sirgeo1492
      @sirgeo1492 4 роки тому +3

      Been feeling this a lot lately:( stay strong though💙 we’ll get through this

  • @mayaa8821
    @mayaa8821 7 років тому +194

    The three people who disliked were crying so hard they thought the thumbs down was a thumbs up

    • @bob.ross330
      @bob.ross330 4 роки тому +2

      Maya A Thanks for reminding me to double check

    • @karmabelieverI
      @karmabelieverI 4 роки тому +1

      I checked again...I guess I hit the thumb's up.🌼

    • @krazedshade1834
      @krazedshade1834 5 місяців тому

      😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I can relate

  • @amberkennedy5448
    @amberkennedy5448 2 роки тому +21

    Beautiful poem. I always listen to Neil when I'm in a bad place. If he ever reads this comment, I want him to know how much he's helped me. Thank you!

  • @bqwadseertg
    @bqwadseertg 7 років тому +276

    "I have thought and thought myself into corners made of words and nightmares and what has it gotten me but MORE thughts."
    ~I don't think I've ever related to a line in a poem as much as I do to this one.

  • @magdalenatuowiecka3186
    @magdalenatuowiecka3186 7 років тому +171

    "i'm not saying you find the meaning of life in other people. i'm saying other people are the life to which you provide the meaning"
    wow, this is something i need to remind myself everyday.

  • @celineyounes4595
    @celineyounes4595 7 років тому +411

    "I've been burned so much I'm not me anymore" THISSSS

  • @nika3920
    @nika3920 7 років тому +316

    NEIL YOURE DOING AMAZING SWEETIE

  • @darksun8814
    @darksun8814 6 років тому +21

    “I wanna go away until I’m gone”
    This just hits me because sometimes I want to not exist. I don’t want to die, more like I wish I had never been even a concept, just never existed

  • @autumgrames4066
    @autumgrames4066 5 місяців тому +1

    I revisit this poem time and time again whenever life is at its ugliest. To remind myself I'm still lucky to be a part of it.

  • @SmolHuman1
    @SmolHuman1 11 місяців тому +1

    “Whatever you’re feeling right now, there is a mathematical certainty that someone else is feeling that exact thing, this is not to say you aren’t special, this is to say thank god you aren’t special”💜

  • @sarapaolella9694
    @sarapaolella9694 7 років тому +159

    This is one of my favourite poems of Neil's book but listening to it instead of reading it is a completely different experience, it has made me shiver

  • @kendallkieras1669
    @kendallkieras1669 7 років тому +1

    I love Neil Hilborn he always seems to say exactly what I'm thinking

  • @monpathomp
    @monpathomp 7 років тому +1

    You always speak truth. Sometimes it is truth I already know, sometimes it is truth I do not know. It is always truth that I need at that moment. Thank you, Neil Hilborn for sharing your truth.

  • @maddyk8022
    @maddyk8022 7 років тому +87

    This is actually my favorite poem of all time. There's an old video of it somewhere and it's in his book as "here and away" and I love the piece more than anything. In fact, I've been considering getting a tattoo based on it because of the profound impact this piece has had on my life. Thank you, Neil, for creating this.

    • @eminek8526
      @eminek8526 7 років тому +1

      Madlyn Kates what's his book called?

    • @cauldronclique6929
      @cauldronclique6929 7 років тому +1

      tylerrjoseph His book is Our Numbered Days :)

    • @fluffypuppy0
      @fluffypuppy0 7 років тому +1

      Madlyn Kates same same same same

    • @CharlieArchelli
      @CharlieArchelli 7 років тому +6

      Ahh I've been thinking about getting a tattoo from it too. I think I'm going to get a house with the walls leaning to the left

    • @marknutt7841
      @marknutt7841 7 років тому

      Alice B. Chamberlain I

  • @Sweet.peach21
    @Sweet.peach21 7 років тому +6

    "So please, if you want to continue existing, do something." Love this.

  • @celineyounes4595
    @celineyounes4595 7 років тому +137

    "Thank God you aren't special"

  • @rosaboer39
    @rosaboer39 7 років тому +11

    Honestly, I'm always coming back to his poems. When I'm bored, when I'm sad, or at night when I'm lonely, like I am now. I always find a way back to his poetry because I guess it's calming to know that you're not alone. He has such an amazing way of capturing feelings and explaining them onto paper. And after every poem I listen to, or read, I think: "this is my favourite one yet". But then I'll find another one and I will love it as much as the first. That continues to do so until I'm calm enough to sleep. So yes, I don't have a favourite poem of you, Neil. But I'm sure that I've found my favourite poet. Thank you for creating such beautiful art, and sharing it with the world (who clearly needs it).

  • @hannahriley8383
    @hannahriley8383 7 років тому +33

    God he is such a magical person. His poetry is so beautiful

  • @marilainefourie919
    @marilainefourie919 7 років тому +13

    Neil, your poetry has saved my life.

  • @samanthaproctor2665
    @samanthaproctor2665 7 років тому +19

    I love Neil's poems, used a bunch of them in a poetry unit in English and the teacher even loved it❤❤❤❤

  • @justaboveaverage8040
    @justaboveaverage8040 7 років тому +6

    Neil puts so much power in his poems, for some it gives that cliche "spoken word poem" sound, but Neil just comes off as genuine every time. Great guy to listen to.

  • @ophylias2107
    @ophylias2107 7 років тому +12

    I really needed this right now. I isolate myself cause I'm a downer right now, and I don't want to hurt my friends further. Despite them telling me they want to see me, my anxiety convinces me that they're lying and that truly, no one wants to be around me.
    But... I shouldn't let fear stop me from existing. I'm gonna try. I swear.

  • @_hiraeth_
    @_hiraeth_ 6 років тому +2

    After being a shut in for three years I have finally been able to get a normal life back. I started to go to uni again, started to simply feel alive again. And this one means so much to me cause I can relate to every freaking sentence. And just knowing I wasn't alone in that Dark place makes me feel so much better, and it isn't because you know that someone else feels the same, but because you are kinda connected through pain. Thanks for this.

  • @ChelseaCameronMusic
    @ChelseaCameronMusic 7 років тому +12

    *snaps* quietly in my room, as I watch by myself with watery eyes.

  • @nerlandjames
    @nerlandjames 6 років тому +1

    I watch this at least 2-3x a day. Every word rings true. I love everything about this.

  • @ilyem999
    @ilyem999 7 років тому +5

    I think about the line "this isn't to say you're not special this is to say thank God your not special" a lot. not sure why it sticks in my head but god do I love all his stuff

  • @SeredipityFinch
    @SeredipityFinch 7 років тому +1

    Every time I watch Neil perform, I cry. It's good to know empathy is not dead.

  • @forkwarrior
    @forkwarrior 7 років тому +1

    Why do all of the poems he recites touch me and make me want to cry? I mean happy cry. It feels good to know someone feels this way.

  • @maryhall6267
    @maryhall6267 11 місяців тому

    This poem has been my safety net for so many years, I repeat specific lines in my head when I’m feeling “those exact things.” It has been one of the few things that make me feel like I’m not alone. Thank you for producing this, you help people feel understood.

  • @smw1300
    @smw1300 5 років тому +2

    My world has been the distance between my bed and the light switch for two weeks. I’ve watched this 5 times in a row now. I really needed to hear this tonight.

  • @katelynbranch216
    @katelynbranch216 7 років тому +7

    Neil's poetry is so perfect

  • @jwanamari7828
    @jwanamari7828 3 роки тому +1

    my dear friend sent this to me on my bday. thanks to her, i learned how to love how i hate myself sometimes.

  • @chiranjitsamanta16
    @chiranjitsamanta16 9 місяців тому

    Came here again after 6yrs just to appreciate how well this is crafted and how it moulded my life, intertwined in it. ❤

  • @uniquefreak37
    @uniquefreak37 3 роки тому +2

    For whatever its worth, this is one of the few things that has brought me comfort on the worst days. Thank you.

  • @samevelyn
    @samevelyn 4 роки тому +4

    This feels so relevant right now

  • @anniewilliams6502
    @anniewilliams6502 7 років тому

    And, once again
    Neil Hilborn does, writes & delivers.
    Thank you, Neil!

  • @SchmumpkinII
    @SchmumpkinII 7 років тому +4

    His voice speaks with such strength and conviction. He gives a voice to those of us who, though we all have one, may have fear to use it, but may not know how. He makes me nod a lot during his poems and go..."THAT'S *ME*. HE GETS ME!"

  • @crowsandrainbows
    @crowsandrainbows 7 років тому

    he always makes me want to cry. beautiful. thank you.

  • @sage.anniex
    @sage.anniex 5 років тому

    Every word, every sentence is profound. Beautiful

  • @eeveemakeralibi
    @eeveemakeralibi 7 років тому +47

    This is an older poem that he's done some editing on. It's interesting to watch how the poems grow and change.

  • @Lucas-ce5yc
    @Lucas-ce5yc 4 роки тому +2

    This hits so close to home for me. I have always been an over thinker and have thought way too much over the smallest things and worried myself into not doing anything, but I have to remind myself that thinking never accomplished anything. Yeah, it’s good to think things over, but you eventually have to do said things, or else everything you thought will be meaningless.

  • @brandiwhitmore
    @brandiwhitmore 4 роки тому

    I always have and always will turn to this. Thank you.

  • @weareallfritz4365
    @weareallfritz4365 7 років тому +59

    I'm not sure who I'm sending this to, but I'm sending it to someone

  • @lachlancampbell7838
    @lachlancampbell7838 4 роки тому +1

    This poem saves me every year. Thank you so much Neil

  • @acediaethos4469
    @acediaethos4469 7 років тому +1

    i've been watching his other performance of this since it came out and when i saw this i clicked it before i even knew i did
    this poem has been so important to me for so long i love neil's words and the look on his face when he performs

  • @danijomusic
    @danijomusic 7 років тому +31

    "Love how you hate yourself sometimes, because at least there's still something to hate"
    Fuck.

  • @quanzihe8247
    @quanzihe8247 7 років тому +1

    Didn't believe i'd ever cry to a poem.
    But i just did.
    "If a tree falls in the forest and no one's around to hear it, it does make a sound, but then that sound is gone."
    This is so beautiful.

  • @katieblankenship688
    @katieblankenship688 4 роки тому +1

    Every time I listen to this poem it’s a different line that helps me get through whatever I’m going through.

  • @skhprwdm
    @skhprwdm Рік тому

    This is amazing, truly ❤️

  • @vidhitiwari21
    @vidhitiwari21 7 років тому +71

    "There are days when I cant find the sun, even though it's right outside my window" :o

  • @elizabethsmith6477
    @elizabethsmith6477 7 років тому +2

    This has always been one of my favorites!

  • @jesusfreak8266
    @jesusfreak8266 7 років тому +1

    I've seriously watched this over 50 times and everytime it hits me hard

  • @_Quazar_
    @_Quazar_ Рік тому +2

    I don't want to ever lose poets like Neil.

  • @poppetanya
    @poppetanya 7 років тому

    neil... the poet who brung me to my love of poetry.. i cant wait to see him live when i can!

  • @randallvance1299
    @randallvance1299 6 років тому +3

    “A currency that can only buy MORE currency”
    One of my all time favorite lines in poetry, its so multiuseful

  • @cbramkumar
    @cbramkumar 7 років тому

    Wow....passionate! Its takes so much effort to exist than to not exist any more! That is a torn expectation of a hurtful world, where we fail to love each other in a simple manner!

  • @f9gnjh4390gjer
    @f9gnjh4390gjer 5 років тому +1

    I love this poem so much. I keep coming back to it whenever shit gets tough.

  • @JUStCALLMEZIMM
    @JUStCALLMEZIMM 7 років тому +11

    introvert poem. love this.

  • @feminist_politics
    @feminist_politics 6 років тому

    Thanks for making my heart break and melting it back together

  • @OneUpdateataTime
    @OneUpdateataTime 7 років тому

    Neil blows me away every time without fail.

  • @adityaagarwal813
    @adityaagarwal813 7 років тому

    Neil, just love the way you convey! A big fan of yours. Love from India!

  • @amitpatil8747
    @amitpatil8747 7 років тому +1

    This is one of my favorite poems from your book!

  • @PX4MANGA
    @PX4MANGA 7 років тому

    Always excited to hear Neil Hilborn

  • @MK-nw8yk
    @MK-nw8yk 7 років тому

    i listen to this almost every morning. reminds me to connect to people instead of shutting myself out of life again

  • @amygillett7349
    @amygillett7349 7 років тому

    Neil is hands down my favourite poet

  • @paigeal-yamani720
    @paigeal-yamani720 7 років тому

    his poems always speak to me and bring me to tears...im so glad to have the pleasure of hearing and reading this man's work.

  • @psalm23sheep53
    @psalm23sheep53 6 років тому

    This poem is my favorite thing ever written.

  • @destinyheath6583
    @destinyheath6583 4 роки тому

    Literally listen to this so often. I love it so much.

  • @Jon_Chhan
    @Jon_Chhan 7 років тому +2

    i like how his brain forms his thought and how he expresses it in such a manner i cannot speak of!

  • @adamloosle8628
    @adamloosle8628 7 років тому

    this is why Neil Hilborn is my favorite slam poet. like freaking EVER!!!!

  • @juliev7786
    @juliev7786 7 років тому

    That's my favorite poem. Thank you so much for sharing it

  • @jessmosher1040
    @jessmosher1040 7 років тому

    Neil, you bring me out of my funk each and every time. Thanks brother 💜

  • @maddie.bolland.7
    @maddie.bolland.7 6 років тому

    This is so so good... there are so many tears.

  • @martynasmiech4062
    @martynasmiech4062 7 років тому

    This is so oddly comforting. Thank you!

  • @rubyslade8563
    @rubyslade8563 7 років тому

    Thank you so, so much for this piece of art

  • @davidknickerbocker9805
    @davidknickerbocker9805 7 років тому

    Neil you're so inspirational. You have a profound impact on me and I'm sure millions others

  • @christalodum3365
    @christalodum3365 7 років тому +1

    He is so amazing! I needed this so much right now.

  • @SaRtIn3000
    @SaRtIn3000 7 років тому

    Neil is my absolute favorite. I reread his book maybe once a ween

  • @xdark_galx
    @xdark_galx 4 роки тому

    This needs to be seen by billions. I love this. ♡ Beautiful Work. ♡

  • @julyrods756
    @julyrods756 7 років тому

    this is the poem I needed all along, I'm crying.

  • @ishaqa3569
    @ishaqa3569 7 років тому

    God bless you man. Strong relatable men are important to any growing man and I appreciate your poems every day

  • @Metanoia10
    @Metanoia10 7 років тому +4

    Needed this today.

  • @martyvanderloop7260
    @martyvanderloop7260 7 років тому

    Neil words always break me, always take every inch of me, then builds me back up into this hope of a heaven I never knew existed and then he breaks me back down, into a million pieces and let's me know that the hope and the love I have been search for has been there all along. fucking beautiful man.

  • @homicidehotelhelll
    @homicidehotelhelll 7 років тому

    Neil Hilborn will never stop amazing me with this writing, wow.

  • @SaturnRose1995
    @SaturnRose1995 7 років тому +1

    I love Neil so much it physically hurts 😭😭💕 he's absolutely incredible

  • @sergiocaldera6568
    @sergiocaldera6568 7 років тому

    this is hands down my favorite poem

  • @_parrylarry_
    @_parrylarry_ 7 років тому

    god Neil's poetry always hits me, this one especially hard. I needed to hear these words so much today, thank you.

  • @anthonymoyoproach6922
    @anthonymoyoproach6922 7 років тому

    Neil is so gifted, I love the inspiration and passion he speaks with while sharing his poetry

  • @pianoforte6048
    @pianoforte6048 7 років тому

    I first saw this a month ago when I was relapsing. Now I listen to it when I go to sleep to calm down and when I can’t get out of bed

  • @LexBeelen
    @LexBeelen 9 місяців тому

    You taught me this lesson before i learnt it and it feels so different listening to this now that i have. In a very good way. It feels a lot more gentle now, somehow

  • @jasminepruitt5519
    @jasminepruitt5519 7 років тому

    I LOVE NEIL SO MUCH!! Honestly those spoke right to me, I'm frozen

  • @hyrdeshgangwar
    @hyrdeshgangwar 4 роки тому +1

    This poem inspires me.

  • @TaysSparklyDresses
    @TaysSparklyDresses 7 років тому +2

    I LOVE THIS POEM SO MUCH
    THANK YOU FOR POSTING IT
    IT HELPS ME SO MUCH