Steve in conversation with David Bingham

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This passage was written by Steve in an email to David Bingham:
" I feel and believe, day to day, with a belief that feels grounded in experience, that we are not mortal, that death is not the end, that we are not bound to our physical bodies, that nothing is too serious, that this is more a game than anything, that "reality" is more dream-like than machine-like, etc. etc. I have rarely felt fear. But though this is all a “knowing” for me, it also most of the time feels distant - more like memories than present being. When I see it click for Kileann or Rika or John in the videos then I recognize it - I know I’ve been there - but also feel like I am not there now. It is like I can brush it but not immerse myself in it. It is like feeling with one’s fingers the fabric of a favorite sweater hanging in the closet but not being able to get it off the hanger to put on.
We are frequently told, and many people appear to behave as if it is so, that the world is a physical, material thing. I know that that is not the case. I’ve experienced dreams, first when I was a kid, that provided fine detail about events that then occurred the following day or shortly afterward. When in my early teens I had a period of time where I was able to astral project and fly about my neighborhood at night. In my mid-teens I read of the mantra OM and decided to practice chanting it internally for an entire day - when walking about town later that day, I encountered an elderly woman approaching me on the sidewalk and when our eyes met my heart exploded in my chest, I have never felt so much love, so blissful. I’ve witnessed events others would call supernatural or paranormal. I’ve experienced psychokinesis. When playing cards I occasionally have short periods where I just know what cards are going to turn up. There are times when I suddenly see the auras of trees and people and my hands. There are times when I feel I fall into sync with someone and that we are communicating directly somehow, not with words, though we may be speaking - that I can understand much more of them than what their words are saying. When I was a child I became interested in books on magic and have never lost my interest - my life has been a continual exploration, a continual experiment. I have felt, since young, that I am here on a mission of some sort but the details are only given on a need to know basis and I don’t need to know. I feel sheepish about writing these things because all of it really isn’t as important as all that. But I recognize my accumulated experience is not what is generally thought of as normal and I thought it important to share that."