BEFORE YOU COMENT: Traumacore isn't really an aethstetic that glorifies trauma. It's actually to help people cope with trauma. Idk who named it traumacore or why, but it's an innacurate name.
When i was 5, i was $A'd by my cousin multiple times. And that made me so scared. I still suffer from the memories to this day... If you are dealing with any form of abu$e, don't be afraid to speak up. There are people who feel the same way.
i'm almost 18. i've been abused and neglected by my family. i was harrassed sexually and was even touched inappropriately by a close friend of mine. sometimes i wish i was better off dead. but music helps. i'm sorry for everyone that's gone through so much. you all deserve the world.
Don’t know if I have trauma myself or if I’m just being a drama queen, but there’s something about traumacore playlists that are so pretty to listen to and bring a small sense of comfort, I like this a lot :)
don't call you a drama queen man, I feel the same way. I don't really know if having to deal with a divorce counts as trauma for me, but I can relate to this at least a little.
Same- it's just an interesting thing. [I DO NOT THINK ANYONE GOING THROUGH THIS IS COOL IN ANY WAY! IF YOU OR ANYONE, YOU KNOW HAVE PLEASE CALL SOMEONE!!!] I don't know if that makes me weird or something, but I like the idea of a playlist like this... Am I crazy or something?
@@ariannabryant7940 hey two months later, and yes! Parents fighting can cause emotional distress in younger years or current years! It can cause children to repress their emotions or become scared of the place they're living in..! So while it isn't the most traumatic it's still trauma.
Im 20 years old, 21 soon. Ive been traumatized during my childhood due to the loss of my mother, abuse and harrassement. I cry very easily, Im still a baby inside and the wound will stay... but cute pictures and music comfort me a lot.
Im young. Very young. 12 year old. Ive been traumatized too. In different ways. But im not a baby inside, im an adult inside. I cant even feel my own inner child anymore. So i know how it feels to be traumatized, if u needed to vent im always here for you:)
@@Teroo_official Sorry but I dont vent to young people, especially you ! You are so young you legally cannot go on the normal youtube ! Poor thing... Anyway I prefer taking care of children/teens and tell them the things I wished Ive been told when I was myself a child, I wouldn't tell them horrible things that happened, we must live carefree and innocent as long as we can. Maybe one day i'l be able with my own children, who knows ? 💖
first picture when i was five, maybe younger - i was sexually abused, which i keep silent about to this day. after this my isolation, fear of people, life worsened, i would periodically wake up in the middle of the night and quietly cry, i don't remember much from my early childhood, except for nightmares. a year after the incident, when i was about six, my father left me in the car, in the parking lot, as he usually did, and i felt myself overwhelmed by a previously unknown feeling of horror, abandonment, being locked in, unable to escape and a premonition of impending danger, i had a panic attack and screamed as loud as i could. when my father returned he didn't understand my behavior. i cried the rest of the way home. i was a sociable, friendly child, according to others before that
Please, talk you family members you trust about this. It will be exponentially hard especially if it was another family member that SAd you, but it will help you a lot in healing. Stay safe, and I believe in you.
I teared up only in TW because of SH meaning, yuppie. uh, I was struggling with it actually.. for a half of my life? lol.. but i really hate how I was doing it in spring,this time I was cutting myself, and now a lot of scars covering my left hip and left wrist. they're not really noticeable, but they're still here. and I hate myself and feeling really ashamed because of the reason why I decided to do this like that. literally because of one old photo from my friend (it's not his fault at all, it's just me, a dumb 12 years old girl who wants attention as hell) I suddenly thought like "He thought that I can't do it! And it's looks aesthetic.. I need to do it, for cool photos and to prove that I can!" and that shit started, lol. I'm feeling terrible because of reason and scars, I'm regretting about doing it, but last two months I wasn't even touching my blade, and I'm happy with it. I wish I'll get rid of those scars when I grow up. But if not about cuts; I was hitting myself with my fists or things since I was, uh, 6 years old? idk, but after that first year in school I started doing it harder, and in 3rd grade I started combing my left wrist with my hails for any reason, just to get away from the bullshit in the family for a while (btw now things in the family is better). Hitting myself and combing my wrist became a habit, but I wish I'll stop doing it too. The most sad thing that none of my friends even tried to make me stop, so now I'm not telling them about that, same thing with family, mom and dad just yells on me because of that, or just ignore my cries when I'm feeling bad, lol Sorry for grammar mistakes, English is not my native language 🙏🙏 (I'm Russian if someone interested, lol) btw playlist is good
not to be mean or anything but pls do not share too much information online bad people can use it for bad things!!! hope you get help soon and get better
@@Kai-ux6wn ik, but I didn't notice any bad people in comments under playlist like this, I don't really think that there can be that people, not under that types of playlist :3 btw ty!
Я рада, что кто-то, как и я понемногу справляется с сх. Тоже уже 2 месяца не резалась, даже не причиняла особо никакой боли себе. Жаль, что тебя это коснулось((( Но я знаю, что когда-нибудь у нас всё будет хорошо, поэтому не сдавайся, ты справишься, я верю в тебя ^^ ❤
I am really sorry that a little girl have passed throught this crap, you matter, your body matters. Please, please, please, seek therapy, because, i don't know you but i love you, your body is precious, needs to be taken care. Be taked care, be taked care, please, your life has an importance. I want to hug you, really hard, be strong.
reading the comments on this just makes me want to cry for everyone here ty for making this playlist for ppl who need comfort, it even comforted me; even though i didnt need it.
My trauma is confirmation no amount of effort and enduring and personal internal growth will yield me another's warmth. But at any moment those who hold power over me can decide I am an ahhole and ruin my life on the spot, with them defining what an ahhole is. And that my actions are and have been irrelevant and minimally influential in any to all interactions with people other than preventing them altogether to roughly the same outcome as forcing them to happen.
This playlist hit me hard, I had a really bad childhood, my mom and dad fight all the time, I can’t wait untill I’m 18 and can move out, I didn’t realize my household was toxic untill a couple years ago, when my dad threw a glass across the room and broke my mom’s favourite painting, he also hit me when I was younger and he has a lot of anger issues, the only emotion I see on my mom is sadness, when I was 6 I had to comfort her when she found out my dad was cheating on her again, I didn’t know what was going on but she cried so much, she still cries a lot now, In grade 5 I’d get beat up by this one girl and she convinced my best friend at the time that I was a freak and was weird and hated her so my best friend at that time started to hate me and joined in on the bullying, and so did my other friends, about a year ago I told my dad that in grade 5 I was really depressed and he said “you were a kid, there’s no way you could have been depressed”, right now I’m struggling a lot with suicidal thoughts and SH, my parents haven’t even noticed the cuts on my wrists, I act like I’m happy around everyone else at school but I don’t know how much longer I can keep it up, this playlist gives me a lot of comfort and it makes me feel a bit better, so thank you.
Trigger Warning ⚠️ None of my abuse was physical, but it was emotional, mental, maybe verbal, deffinetly neglect mixed into the batch- Along with having to take care of my baby cousin 1-10 months old through all the stuff... Yet my worst nightmares, are based on my darkest fears, all physical things. It terrifies me. Its not real, but it feels so real. One time I woke up, and didnt even know if it was a nightmare or not. In the nightmare someone was, touching me, and licking my face... And I drool in my sleep so when I woke up I just thought... I felt so tainted, stained, and I still do, I don't know if thats being dramatic. It was just a nightmare. And I know darn well it's not the same as it actually happening for real, but it still feels gross. Out of everything, my emotional state is stuck as a young child most of the time, despite me being an fresh out of highschool. I'm childish yet, I have such "not so innocent" thoughts, about myself. I feel so dirty Nothing physical happened to me but I still feel so dirty... Sometimes I feel like I'm a small child but, I have all these "adult thoughts and feelings" I can be in the small headspace and those thoughts STILL come up and Im like "oh...that's gross..." I can't control it. It makes me so sick and I hate it. I wanna be innocent again. I'll distract myself with glitter, toys, stuffed animals, stickers, sweets, cartoons, or maybe action movies or music. It helps... better than "getting in a fight with myself" at least But in the end no one did anything physical to me for real, so it's fine... I dont feel fine but it's okay. I be okay....
Trigger warning but i cherish you at the end: When i just celebarted my 18 birthday i was craving s3xu4l attention desperatly so i began to do adult spectacles, but at the same time i was in a very bad mental state, so bad that i was an age regressed, i was 18 years old but i felt to be a 8 years old. When i getted those kinds of attentions i didn't know how to react, the adult part of me was in heaven (apparently) but me child part was hurted, sometimes i pushed my body to limits. So i know what do you feel. I want to be pure, i am a 22 years old woman who doesn't want to have nothing to do with s3x. Your trauma is valid even if it was a dream, you felt like it was real, you felt gross, that's matter. You are loved, you metter, you are import, your trauma is valid, you are valid, your life has value. Please, live, your life is precious.
@@Xx-Dani_Weird_pixie-xX It wasn't just the nightmares that traumatized me, it was the years of abuse (not physical but abuse non the less) And thank you... In a way it's comforting to know I'm not the only one experiencing this kind of stuff. Our troubles may be different, but I hope that you know that you're loved too, and your life indeed has value as well. Again, thank you..
@@alphawild8665 Can i ask a strange question? What do you like to do the most? You told that you like plushies, glitters and other childish stuff...I noticed that you have a UA-cam channel, is what that you like to do the most? I am asking this thing because i want to value you, surely we can't be friends, we are strangers, but after i read your vent i want to value you as your whole. Because i can sense that you have strenght to offer
i know exactly what you’re going through, especially when you said you surround yourself with toys and glitter and stuff, i have trouble with “you know” stuff and i stopped for 6 months but i ended up messing up and relapsing and i’m so mad at myself because i was doing so well and i also want my innocence back, that’s all i truly want
@@Xx-Dani_Weird_pixie-xXme too, i don’t want to have my adult self anymore i just want it gone and i want my innocence back, sometimes i try and force myself to regress but it doesn’t always work
I've been emotionally and sometimes physically abused by my father and brother in my whole childhood, plus got bullied quite a lot in school, hence got trauma. When I turned into a teen, my parents got a divorce, so now I live with my mother and aformentioned brother. I call my father sometimes. But ever since I turned into a teen, everyone acts like nothing ever happened back then. It's like they're diffrent people. And even thought I'm a boy, I can relate to some of these images shown, and it's quite comforting, really. Thanks, and keep up the good work!
I have yelling trauma from my dad and ive seen my dad hurt my mum and i didn't really like myself so this Playlist helped a lot and i cried when there was a photo that said i wish i could fly and never come back
I feel as if emotional abuse is always the neglected component of abuse that gets so overlooked especially in media because it’s one not classified as real abuse or it’s mentioned only in romantic relationships and not family situations. People don’t relize it can still effect how we think feel or get ařøuşëð by or how we cope same with any form of abuse.
@@aleatoriøXwX Hey don't mine them. I hope you can heal through even if it's quite a painfully slow progress, it's still progress nonetheless!! I wish you goodluck and all the best, keep going!!
I love this playlist, when I heard sayo-nara I got normally chills (those such good chills, sayo-nara is my favorite soundtrack) This deserves more likes! Thank you for this
Everytime i go to a traumacore playlist video and read the comments, I feel bad because I didn't experince sa/csa and I feel I'm taking something away from someone else who actually needs it even though I have trauma but not as bad trauma
this randomly played while i was drawing i was just vibing n stuff and then kk chorale aircheck starts playing out of nowhere that rlly hit me jhsgjhdgshdg i almost started tearing up nice playlist btw!
Hello jade I don't know you so this prob won't come across as sincere and if that's the case I'm very sorry. I hope you are feeling good and heal from your possibly traumatic experiences.
(Vent) When I moved away from my father I kept having nightmares of going back to get my stuff (some of which was left behind due to rushing to get away) and getting caught. It always ended with me crying, And either hiding, Running or just balling up on the ground until I woke up. One day I managed to calm myself down mid-dream since it had become such a routine thing that I simply recognized my dreaming as a dream, And I calmly walked away despite the anxiety that came from not running. It comforted me and the dream sort of shifted into walking to the beach on a concrete bridge with my family (When I refer to family I'm excluding my father). I don't even like the beach, But it was better. A little while later I had a dream that I went back to the old house with the rest of my family, And it was on fire. I just stood there in the street and watched it burn, Feeling the warmth of it despite not being in the yard. It was therapeutic, Like it symbolized my mind letting go of it all, Just so I can live peacefully. Some of my old stuff was still inside, But I didn't grieve over the loss of sentimental belongings. In a way, I sort of felt stronger and more confident since after that dream. It's been at least a year since I last had those nightmares. Sometimes I still go back in my dreams, But my father is never there, And it's not a stealth mission to get back belongings, It's more like I'm just exploring a memory that's frozen in time, Nobody is around to bother me.
I feel so scummy for being so fascinated with this quote unquote ‘aesthetic’, it feels like I’m glorifying trauma every time I listen to and enjoy trauma core playlists or look at trauma core images, or write OCs that have trauma My friends always tell me “it’s ok you’re just telling a story you made for a character” and I enjoy writing stories but it just feels so wrong when I look back on it Traumacore is supposed to help people cope but I took it the wrong way when I first discovered it, and I act like I understand but I really don’t because the only ‘traumatic’ events I’ve gone through are self hatred and bullying, and they aren’t even that bad compared to the real nasty shit other people have
What you went through is still valid, just because some people out there have gone through something worse that doesn't mean what you've dealt with wasn't bad, you still deserve care and love nonetheless! I don't know you whatsoever but still, you shouldn't disregard stuff you've went through just because others have it worse. And hey, it's not your fault for being fascinated with something, really. I still don't know who you are at all but either way I hope you're doing alright
@@Goobie_Snooberting thanks for the support, I don’t mean to disregard myself and what I’ve gone through, I just feel I’m being disrespectful by being so interested in traumacore and something that’s used for people to cope, and using this kind of subject matter to make up stories that people have actually gone through, and it feels kinda selfish ngl. Thank you for the kind words, though, I feel much better now I hope you have a good day :)
I was 5-13 when everything happened it happened so fast but time was so slow at the time what was i even meant to do i had no control of my own body, i could barely call it mine who could i even rely on when he was the one who made me dependent when she was my best friend, i was her lesbian awakening when he was my cousin when he was my neighbour when he was my best friend, he ended up stalking me and obsessing with me my skin was like paper for them to shred graffiti and butcher to their hearts content so many people and so many times i fell for the same false sense of security was all that dopamine really worth it back then my sexual hormones are a jumble a complete mess its because of this ive never fallen in love never felt any sort of romantic affection for anyone at all what did i even get out of it? i got stabbed, sa'd, abused, nearly graped and for what to feel wanted? to feel like my life was of any significance? pathetic or so but the only reason i finally remember is because im doing a psych elective i only did it cause i wanted to learn more about myself my brains always been a buzz and i cant read or understand it now im opening more paths more options more reasons to my irrational behaviour it makes so much sense now i believe one day i will become fine i hope if thats possible for me i dont know how long i can live for but i hope that theres something good coming even if it sounds like im lying to myself i cant let go now im luckier now than before because i have a few good friends lookin out for me now i dont know why they stay but im grateful either way i love my friends dearly i hope they remain happy forever and i hope if you read all of this too youll get out of the torment one day :) even if it sounds like a lie nothings ever impossible life has so much to bring
Im 17 and before i turned 17 used to be 16 and im still going to high school,one day i was going to school and i forgot to bring my jacket my grandparents insisted me on to bring one,and i said i was fine,my grandpa grabbed me hard and smashed me agains the window making it break but luckily glass didn't fell on me. I was crying during school hours. Another trauma i had was my grandparents hitting me for some things when i was on Third year of highschool,it was hrroible being yelled and hit by your grandparents on your mother's side. Another thing hurted me,was being called by my dad that i looked like a clown for how i was dressed up,it hurted me,i remember crying to my mom and ex-step dad,and one day when i made my cousin fall my mom called me fat like a whale and other stuffs..i hate my cousins. Now on fifth year of high school i dont get abused anymore,yes..i sitll get fatshaming comments,one day my grandpa asked me if i wanna go look for my mom and i said no thanks,soo he called me fatty and that i was a bad daughter..soo i cutted my arms,and i realiez how wrong was doing that,i did self-harm. Since i knew no one will belive me,i lie and i keep the secrets to myself and i lie my self harm scars were my cat tokyo who scratched my arm.
@@egbert67 yeah crazy!,but at least im safe now and this things dont happens (Sometimes i get called fat but mot hitten anymore) When i reach 18th i will move away and idk if i will be an the a..hole to cut contact for all the humiliation abuse and things i suffered for them.
I'm not traumatized, I've had a pretty boring life, but I'm still listening to this, as it appeared in my recommended. I can be very bad at showing empathy, so I'm trying to make myself more empathetic by understanding trauma and researching it, I most of the time just kinda stand there awkwardly like 🧍 and say "damn that's sad ig..." and that kinda makes me feel crappy. Furthermore, I am not completely apathetic about this kind of stuff, but I like to understand it more beyond a surface level understanding of it.
I know I'm not alone in this world which is comforting. But I'm sorry to everyone for what happened, and congratulations for still being here. You did it. Dogs usually live about 15 years, humans can live 3 times as much as that. Good luck on your journey. You have a lot more ahead of you and you deserve it.
Hello! Thank you for making this playlist, I’m from Mexico, I speak Spanish and I’m sorry if my English isn’t that good, I just wanted to say that I found this playlist today while I was crying over something that happened to me, I’ve been through abuse, bullying, I’m dealing with my self harm, I’m a very sensitive person and I’ve been dealing with a lot of things going on in my life, I’m currently in high school, thank you so much for making this playlist, I wanted to listen to some music that would relax my thoughts.
Definition: Traumacore is a type of imagery that delves into the themes of abuse and trauma (particularly sexual trauma or CSA) along with cute visuals to give the whole image a 'bittersweet tragedy' feel. Mental, emotional, and spiritual abuse are also common themes in traumacore
This feels like a dream. [VENT- sensitive topics ahead] So. I was around 5-6 when I had a sleepover with a girl (let’s call her A). She was a best friend of mine. I can’t remember what we did but when the bad thing came.. I was ontop of her, she was kissing me, rubbing my sides and back. I was giggling because I DID NOT KNOW what she was doing. Then she showed me adult content on MY phone. Which we were both giggling (I DID NOT UNDERSTAND I WAS LITTLE), she did it because the same thing happened to her.. when my parents found out they were mad (NOT AT ME BUT AT A!). Idk if that’s r@p3, s3xu@l @ssult or COSCA. Idk what it’s called.. but now sometimes my mind is s3xu@l. Idk what it’s called really, but I remember it sometimes.. ugh..
В этом нет никакой травмы, это лишь убаюкивает мой обеспокоенный разум. Давно уже не ребёнок, но внутри я всё та же ранимая и нежная душа, которая уже не видела упокоения не менее долгое время. Плачет душа, я в смятении - не покоится она в моих руках. Не хватает самообладания, был бы уже давно покоен, и внутренне, и внешне.
As someone who been Suicidal. This really helps me cope with life and connect. Thanks for this playlist. Thanks once again. Uf your suicidal. Always remember there still hope :)
TW: SELF HARM!! My dad has yelled a lot in my life, causing me to cry when yelled at...he is in jail rn for running away from the cops with me and my mom in the car and he is in there for more reasons....the cops had to come to my house to get him out cause he was drunk....He has gave me so much trauma, ptsd, and anxiety....this caused me to do s3lf h4rm....Clean for 3 months now...if anyone is struggling with anxiety, self harm, or ptsd...don't worry....ur not alone....you all deserve better❤ Edit:8 days now
In the past, I have dealt with trauma in ways more harmful than helping until I came across online solutions. Like listening to asmr and playlists, it's the best distraction. Thank you for this playlist for helping me avoid physical harm.
When I was in 3rd-4th grade I met a boy who was known as the weird kid and the reason he was called weird was because he had an obsession with the Joker so much so he wanted to BE him, yet as a kid I didn’t think it was a bad thing and wanted to date him which he agreed to dating me but the only reason why was because he wanted his Harley Quinn over the time of the relationship he would say weird things like how he “Created me” or how I was “his” he even searched up inappropriate pictures of Harley Quinn on his school computer yet I still ignored this and kept dating him until we reached 4th grade and he broke up with me because of rumors which back then broke me and I didn’t even realize how bad I was hurt until 6th grade (dunno if this counts as trauma but there is probably other things he did that I just don’t remember but I’m pretty sure he never even liked me in the first place because whenever he talks to me he treats me like sh!t ;-; )
the person that abused us doesnt hurt me anymore. she never did physically (at least, we don't think she did?), but emotionally, and mentally? theres so many scars from things said to us. somehow i forgive her. somehow i still love her. shes my mom, she's good to us now, she loves us and she makes it so evidently clear. i think she always did, really. she hurt me, but i forgive her. sometimes i wonder if i shouldn't though. if what i dont remember is enough to form so many horrible memories, enough to form a dissociative disorder. i wonder if theres more none of us remember. i wonder if i even have the right to forgive her. "theres things i want to say to you, but i'll just let you live." resonated with us the most. there's things i want to say to everyone that hurt me. but i'll just let them live. i forgive them. maybe if i do, they'll finally love me.
that made me cry again after I was crying like a maniac for two hours I don’t understand why mothers like this they hurt you really bad but you can’t hate them but rn I don’t even want to hug her or do anything with her or even touch her after what she did to me I can’t believe a mother would abu$e they’re child like this how can a person be this heartless? I’m not even a child and I didn’t do anything wrong to deserve to be treated that bad what hurts more that my own parents can’t give me the care understanding and safeness they should give me as their child who would?
I'm still going through the mill. I knew most of these songs, but it was crazier to hear them all in a format that made sense to me. Hearing Saynara with the last song hit me like a brick.
YOOOOOOOO I HAD A SPOTIFY LYRICS SCREEN SCREENSHTTED LIKE A YEAR AND A HALF AGO OR MORE FOR MY 2 OCS WHO ARE BROTHERS AND I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT TYSM FOR REMINDING ME THIS SONG EXISTS I THINK MY HEART LEGIT JUST SKIPLED A BEAT OR SMTH LMAOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭
"There’s things I wanna say to you, but I’ll just let you live" hit me hard. I always want to tell someone how I feel, or that I need help, but I just don’t want to disturb anyone, so "I just let them live :)"
I feel like i dont have trauma... the only reason im so emotional is because of the internet and i feel like thats a stupid way to be depressed. Although ive also had friendship problems that made me cry myself to sleep, i still blame my insanity and my depression on the internet. I sometimes even call myself dramatic. I love these playlists because they're calming when i draw but i feel so bad for people in the comments. My friend who lives far away got SA by her neighbor. I feel so bad for her. I also have this other friend who moved stated and i get a bit jealous when i know she has new friends. My current friend groups "owner" is the most insane and has had many traumatic incidents. The second member has abusive parents. The 3rd member has favoritism problems and friendship problems. He also does SH... actually my whole friend group dose including me. But were all too busy laughing at our own jokes to pay attention to our problems. Except for when the 3rd member says he has blades next to his desk for a reason. Ive even cried on call because of that once. I feel like i dont have trauma and i feel like im being dramatic.
i’m doomed to spend the rest of my life thinking about you. but i think it won’t last much longer. you threw me aside and will never pick me up again. i should of never held you close. i would of never have loved you if i knew that you would let me rot. but still i feel empty. but still i need your embrace. your thorn covered embrace. i need you back. why won’t you love me?
I was neglected by my mom, verbally abused by my dad. I would always get yelled at the hardest, it didn't help that my siblings were better off. They got the lighter side of him, whilst I got the harsh side. It messed me up, made my self-esteem the lowest its ever been, and now I don't know how to socialize.... my mom didn't really do anything either, she just would stay in her room while this was all happening. My dad and mom never gave me enough attention, they didn't play with me at all, they didn't talk to me much.. so how was I supposed to know? I trusted them, I really did.. but now.. I cannot. I cannot love them anymore. I've asked for an apology, and never gotten one. 21 and still haven't gotten one.
I have lived with the trauma of the physical and verbal abuse I have endured my whole life from my father and so whenever I go thru an event like a breakup or something sad I feel the abandonment issues crawling back up thru my throat and it hurts. so I use music as a healing help and coping method
So many things were relatbale in these pics. They made me feel happy and i didnt feel lonley anymore..but atlas i still kept crying. I wish i could *meet* them no pne really gets me and as ive had trauma many times, many ways, i dont know what to think about these lyrics, the feeling, if ill ever find anyone that *realy* be my friend i dont know either to think of this as therapy or other. But....thank you.
@@Crustymustyrat-b6e I'm just saying, maybe the songs are just um... "funny"? For example, I have a lot of OCs, so I like to create some scenarios for them, I didn't mean to fight btw, srry if my comment feels like that
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BEFORE YOU COMENT:
Traumacore isn't really an aethstetic that glorifies trauma. It's actually to help people cope with trauma. Idk who named it traumacore or why, but it's an innacurate name.
i think instead of traumacore it could be traumacope. the name says its meaning and it doesnt seem "aesthetic"!
Why do I feel like copecore or something would have been better (I'm tired idk what I'm saying anymore)
Should be called “Traumacope”
Core added on the end is so bad it's funny. What a ... fun aesthetic!
the -core suffix was actually meant to represent the word 'hardcore' (as in cute but hardcore)
"Disturbing art comforts the disturbed."
and disturbs the comforted
I love disturbing stuff❤❤❤
Especialy gore :3
True:(
Traumacore pretty much in a nutshell:
yeah
"how I wish to be independent. live alone. and not grieve for anyone."
that stung😟
Agreed. that one hit hard
This words from the Soviet cartoon "The Tree and The Cat"
i wanna cry
@cyspbiirxsI already am. I can’t hold it in anymore.
@@ST4R_BADDIE please stay strong. you have eighty years of life ahead of you. 🤍
"I'm crying in the parking lot again" hit me and "it's so dark and I'm alone", "I keep having nightmares abt you :(" hit me as well
Before going up and commenting, read this or the creator's comment.
TRAUMACORE IS MEANT TO BE COPING NOT AN AESTHETIC.
Someone made it an aesthetic..
Can i listen to it even though i don't have trauma..
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@@lightbrushloverr I do it too
Idk what you're on about but it's the definition of aesthetic
When i was 5, i was $A'd by my cousin multiple times. And that made me so scared. I still suffer from the memories to this day...
If you are dealing with any form of abu$e, don't be afraid to speak up. There are people who feel the same way.
Thing is I can’t speak up. :/
I hope you the best, and that you can recover quickly from this trauma.
I'm really sorry to hear that, I hope you recover and live your best life pookie 🩷🩷
@@K9_Bear Yg?
Thank you sm❤@@babyway2986
i'm almost 18.
i've been abused and neglected by my family. i was harrassed sexually and was even touched inappropriately by a close friend of mine.
sometimes i wish i was better off dead.
but music helps.
i'm sorry for everyone that's gone through so much.
you all deserve the world.
I’m sorry what you went through. I hope you’re living a better life..
@@Strawberry_backpack i'm trying to.
planning on moving out from my home to my partners, then i'll be free.
thank you for the comment.
I hope things get better for you!!!
@@UNT1TL3D. Good luck!!❤
I hope you'll feel better in the future, good luck mate. Don’t lose hope.
Don't you love it how when your parents scream at you that's called parenting but when you scream at them that's called being spoiled 😍
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Ovi😍😍
How I wish I could yell at my mom...then I’d get slapped and told I’m not allowed to see my family for a few weeks..I just love it here
Yeah 😍
so relatable😻😻😻
The bumblebee pic was a little too relatable, thank you.
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hey uhh ty 4 the likes I really appreciate it :)
get well soon !
True
MY TWIN!
@@Sallyface134 YOOOOO
Don’t know if I have trauma myself or if I’m just being a drama queen, but there’s something about traumacore playlists that are so pretty to listen to and bring a small sense of comfort, I like this a lot :)
don't call you a drama queen man, I feel the same way. I don't really know if having to deal with a divorce counts as trauma for me, but I can relate to this at least a little.
same although i know that i probably have trauma
=)
How is this so relatable for me
Same- it's just an interesting thing. [I DO NOT THINK ANYONE GOING THROUGH THIS IS COOL IN ANY WAY! IF YOU OR ANYONE, YOU KNOW HAVE PLEASE CALL SOMEONE!!!] I don't know if that makes me weird or something, but I like the idea of a playlist like this... Am I crazy or something?
@@ariannabryant7940 hey two months later, and yes! Parents fighting can cause emotional distress in younger years or current years! It can cause children to repress their emotions or become scared of the place they're living in..! So while it isn't the most traumatic it's still trauma.
Im 20 years old, 21 soon. Ive been traumatized during my childhood due to the loss of my mother, abuse and harrassement. I cry very easily, Im still a baby inside and the wound will stay... but cute pictures and music comfort me a lot.
Im young. Very young. 12 year old. Ive been traumatized too. In different ways. But im not a baby inside, im an adult inside. I cant even feel my own inner child anymore. So i know how it feels to be traumatized, if u needed to vent im always here for you:)
@@Teroo_official Sorry but I dont vent to young people, especially you ! You are so young you legally cannot go on the normal youtube ! Poor thing...
Anyway I prefer taking care of children/teens and tell them the things I wished Ive been told when I was myself a child, I wouldn't tell them horrible things that happened, we must live carefree and innocent as long as we can. Maybe one day i'l be able with my own children, who knows ? 💖
@@CDara. Yup! I still hope you have a good day/night!
Your comment made me cry. I’m sorry :)
@@Robloxian-e4u hey don't cry, its alright:) if you needed ANY comfort, im always here, for everyone with any age
As someone with PTSD, this feels like therapy ngl. Thanks for making this
first picture
when i was five, maybe younger - i was sexually abused, which i keep silent about to this day. after this my isolation, fear of people, life worsened, i would periodically wake up in the middle of the night and quietly cry, i don't remember much from my early childhood, except for nightmares. a year after the incident, when i was about six, my father left me in the car, in the parking lot, as he usually did, and i felt myself overwhelmed by a previously unknown feeling of horror, abandonment, being locked in, unable to escape and a premonition of impending danger, i had a panic attack and screamed as loud as i could. when my father returned he didn't understand my behavior. i cried the rest of the way home.
i was a sociable, friendly child, according to others before that
Please, talk you family members you trust about this. It will be exponentially hard especially if it was another family member that SAd you, but it will help you a lot in healing. Stay safe, and I believe in you.
I teared up only in TW because of SH meaning, yuppie. uh, I was struggling with it actually.. for a half of my life? lol.. but i really hate how I was doing it in spring,this time I was cutting myself, and now a lot of scars covering my left hip and left wrist. they're not really noticeable, but they're still here. and I hate myself and feeling really ashamed because of the reason why I decided to do this like that. literally because of one old photo from my friend (it's not his fault at all, it's just me, a dumb 12 years old girl who wants attention as hell) I suddenly thought like "He thought that I can't do it! And it's looks aesthetic.. I need to do it, for cool photos and to prove that I can!" and that shit started, lol. I'm feeling terrible because of reason and scars, I'm regretting about doing it, but last two months I wasn't even touching my blade, and I'm happy with it. I wish I'll get rid of those scars when I grow up. But if not about cuts; I was hitting myself with my fists or things since I was, uh, 6 years old? idk, but after that first year in school I started doing it harder, and in 3rd grade I started combing my left wrist with my hails for any reason, just to get away from the bullshit in the family for a while (btw now things in the family is better). Hitting myself and combing my wrist became a habit, but I wish I'll stop doing it too. The most sad thing that none of my friends even tried to make me stop, so now I'm not telling them about that, same thing with family, mom and dad just yells on me because of that, or just ignore my cries when I'm feeling bad, lol
Sorry for grammar mistakes, English is not my native language 🙏🙏 (I'm Russian if someone interested, lol)
btw playlist is good
@@1blzxx I'm sorry these things happened, I wish you healing
not to be mean or anything but pls do not share too much information online bad people can use it for bad things!!! hope you get help soon and get better
@@Kai-ux6wn ik, but I didn't notice any bad people in comments under playlist like this, I don't really think that there can be that people, not under that types of playlist :3 btw ty!
Я рада, что кто-то, как и я понемногу справляется с сх. Тоже уже 2 месяца не резалась, даже не причиняла особо никакой боли себе. Жаль, что тебя это коснулось(((
Но я знаю, что когда-нибудь у нас всё будет хорошо, поэтому не сдавайся, ты справишься, я верю в тебя ^^ ❤
I am really sorry that a little girl have passed throught this crap, you matter, your body matters.
Please, please, please, seek therapy, because, i don't know you but i love you, your body is precious, needs to be taken care.
Be taked care, be taked care, please, your life has an importance.
I want to hug you, really hard, be strong.
reading the comments on this just makes me want to cry for everyone here
ty for making this playlist for ppl who need comfort, it even comforted me; even though i didnt need it.
"I wish I could fly. I would fly. And never come back." Real.
My trauma is confirmation no amount of effort and enduring and personal internal growth will yield me another's warmth. But at any moment those who hold power over me can decide I am an ahhole and ruin my life on the spot, with them defining what an ahhole is. And that my actions are and have been irrelevant and minimally influential in any to all interactions with people other than preventing them altogether to roughly the same outcome as forcing them to happen.
This playlist hit me hard, I had a really bad childhood, my mom and dad fight all the time, I can’t wait untill I’m 18 and can move out, I didn’t realize my household was toxic untill a couple years ago, when my dad threw a glass across the room and broke my mom’s favourite painting, he also hit me when I was younger and he has a lot of anger issues, the only emotion I see on my mom is sadness, when I was 6 I had to comfort her when she found out my dad was cheating on her again, I didn’t know what was going on but she cried so much, she still cries a lot now, In grade 5 I’d get beat up by this one girl and she convinced my best friend at the time that I was a freak and was weird and hated her so my best friend at that time started to hate me and joined in on the bullying, and so did my other friends, about a year ago I told my dad that in grade 5 I was really depressed and he said “you were a kid, there’s no way you could have been depressed”, right now I’m struggling a lot with suicidal thoughts and SH, my parents haven’t even noticed the cuts on my wrists, I act like I’m happy around everyone else at school but I don’t know how much longer I can keep it up, this playlist gives me a lot of comfort and it makes me feel a bit better, so thank you.
Trigger Warning ⚠️
None of my abuse was physical, but it was emotional, mental, maybe verbal, deffinetly neglect mixed into the batch- Along with having to take care of my baby cousin 1-10 months old through all the stuff...
Yet my worst nightmares, are based on my darkest fears, all physical things. It terrifies me. Its not real, but it feels so real. One time I woke up, and didnt even know if it was a nightmare or not.
In the nightmare someone was, touching me, and licking my face... And I drool in my sleep so when I woke up I just thought...
I felt so tainted, stained, and I still do, I don't know if thats being dramatic. It was just a nightmare.
And I know darn well it's not the same as it actually happening for real, but it still feels gross.
Out of everything, my emotional state is stuck as a young child most of the time, despite me being an fresh out of highschool. I'm childish yet, I have such "not so innocent" thoughts, about myself.
I feel so dirty
Nothing physical happened to me but I still feel so dirty...
Sometimes I feel like I'm a small child but, I have all these "adult thoughts and feelings" I can be in the small headspace and those thoughts STILL come up and Im like "oh...that's gross..." I can't control it. It makes me so sick and I hate it. I wanna be innocent again.
I'll distract myself with glitter, toys, stuffed animals, stickers, sweets, cartoons, or maybe action movies or music. It helps... better than "getting in a fight with myself" at least
But in the end no one did anything physical to me for real, so it's fine...
I dont feel fine but it's okay.
I be okay....
Trigger warning but i cherish you at the end:
When i just celebarted my 18 birthday i was craving s3xu4l attention desperatly so i began to do adult spectacles, but at the same time i was in a very bad mental state, so bad that i was an age regressed, i was 18 years old but i felt to be a 8 years old.
When i getted those kinds of attentions i didn't know how to react, the adult part of me was in heaven (apparently) but me child part was hurted, sometimes i pushed my body to limits.
So i know what do you feel.
I want to be pure, i am a 22 years old woman who doesn't want to have nothing to do with s3x.
Your trauma is valid even if it was a dream, you felt like it was real, you felt gross, that's matter.
You are loved, you metter, you are import, your trauma is valid, you are valid, your life has value.
Please, live, your life is precious.
@@Xx-Dani_Weird_pixie-xX
It wasn't just the nightmares that traumatized me, it was the years of abuse (not physical but abuse non the less)
And thank you... In a way it's comforting to know I'm not the only one experiencing this kind of stuff. Our troubles may be different, but I hope that you know that you're loved too, and your life indeed has value as well.
Again, thank you..
@@alphawild8665 Can i ask a strange question? What do you like to do the most? You told that you like plushies, glitters and other childish stuff...I noticed that you have a UA-cam channel, is what that you like to do the most?
I am asking this thing because i want to value you, surely we can't be friends, we are strangers, but after i read your vent i want to value you as your whole.
Because i can sense that you have strenght to offer
i know exactly what you’re going through, especially when you said you surround yourself with toys and glitter and stuff, i have trouble with “you know” stuff and i stopped for 6 months but i ended up messing up and relapsing and i’m so mad at myself because i was doing so well and i also want my innocence back, that’s all i truly want
@@Xx-Dani_Weird_pixie-xXme too, i don’t want to have my adult self anymore i just want it gone and i want my innocence back, sometimes i try and force myself to regress but it doesn’t always work
I've been emotionally and sometimes physically abused by my father and brother in my whole childhood, plus got bullied quite a lot in school, hence got trauma. When I turned into a teen, my parents got a divorce, so now I live with my mother and aformentioned brother. I call my father sometimes. But ever since I turned into a teen, everyone acts like nothing ever happened back then. It's like they're diffrent people. And even thought I'm a boy, I can relate to some of these images shown, and it's quite comforting, really. Thanks, and keep up the good work!
wimp womp stop with the self pity
I have yelling trauma from my dad and ive seen my dad hurt my mum and i didn't really like myself so this Playlist helped a lot and i cried when there was a photo that said i wish i could fly and never come back
I feel as if emotional abuse is always the neglected component of abuse that gets so overlooked especially in media because it’s one not classified as real abuse or it’s mentioned only in romantic relationships and not family situations. People don’t relize it can still effect how we think feel or get ařøuşëð by or how we cope same with any form of abuse.
In a way is still classified as normal due to the standards of parenting….
Angle dirt
the pick a flower picture hit a little TOO close to home...
I'm here for you
real
Thank you....these types of playlist actually helps me a lot to cope with my own traumas when i'm having a crisis....
@@ultimatecutie what do you mean by that?
@@ultimatecutie ur pretty disgusting
@@aleatoriøXwX Hey don't mine them. I hope you can heal through even if it's quite a painfully slow progress, it's still progress nonetheless!! I wish you goodluck and all the best, keep going!!
@@ultimatecutie ?
I love this playlist, when I heard sayo-nara I got normally chills (those such good chills, sayo-nara is my favorite soundtrack) This deserves more likes! Thank you for this
Everytime i go to a traumacore playlist video and read the comments, I feel bad because I didn't experince sa/csa and I feel I'm taking something away from someone else who actually needs it even though I have trauma but not as bad trauma
Your struggles are just as valid as everyone else's ❤
thank you so much for the playlist, it feels like being wrapped up in a blanket or being hugged by a friend after long cry, so comforting
the first one got me wanting to dress up like a pretty princess in a pink dress (im a tomboy), kick my feet and look at the sky😓
I'm male and I agree
this randomly played while i was drawing i was just vibing n stuff and then kk chorale aircheck starts playing out of nowhere that rlly hit me jhsgjhdgshdg i almost started tearing up
nice playlist btw!
" art is meant to disturbed the comforted and comfort the disturbed "
Hello jade I don't know you so this prob won't come across as sincere and if that's the case I'm very sorry. I hope you are feeling good and heal from your possibly traumatic experiences.
I know this is a traumacore playlist but the pic for 12:27 made me think of pity party by melanie Martinez
(Vent) When I moved away from my father I kept having nightmares of going back to get my stuff (some of which was left behind due to rushing to get away) and getting caught. It always ended with me crying, And either hiding, Running or just balling up on the ground until I woke up. One day I managed to calm myself down mid-dream since it had become such a routine thing that I simply recognized my dreaming as a dream, And I calmly walked away despite the anxiety that came from not running. It comforted me and the dream sort of shifted into walking to the beach on a concrete bridge with my family (When I refer to family I'm excluding my father). I don't even like the beach, But it was better. A little while later I had a dream that I went back to the old house with the rest of my family, And it was on fire. I just stood there in the street and watched it burn, Feeling the warmth of it despite not being in the yard. It was therapeutic, Like it symbolized my mind letting go of it all, Just so I can live peacefully. Some of my old stuff was still inside, But I didn't grieve over the loss of sentimental belongings. In a way, I sort of felt stronger and more confident since after that dream. It's been at least a year since I last had those nightmares. Sometimes I still go back in my dreams, But my father is never there, And it's not a stealth mission to get back belongings, It's more like I'm just exploring a memory that's frozen in time, Nobody is around to bother me.
Thank you so much for this, I've needed it for awile.
“There’s things I wanna say to you, but I’ll just let you live…” a little too relatable…
2:48 I relate to this image…
i’m sorry for you my luv, you’re very stronger ❤️
@@mm.1016 thank you so much!
SAYONARA OML
Edit: The way the pic has a noose is perfect too
The image at 20:18 is so relatable fr
Same
I feel so scummy for being so fascinated with this quote unquote ‘aesthetic’, it feels like I’m glorifying trauma every time I listen to and enjoy trauma core playlists or look at trauma core images, or write OCs that have trauma
My friends always tell me “it’s ok you’re just telling a story you made for a character” and I enjoy writing stories but it just feels so wrong when I look back on it
Traumacore is supposed to help people cope but I took it the wrong way when I first discovered it, and I act like I understand but I really don’t because the only ‘traumatic’ events I’ve gone through are self hatred and bullying, and they aren’t even that bad compared to the real nasty shit other people have
What you went through is still valid, just because some people out there have gone through something worse that doesn't mean what you've dealt with wasn't bad, you still deserve care and love nonetheless! I don't know you whatsoever but still, you shouldn't disregard stuff you've went through just because others have it worse.
And hey, it's not your fault for being fascinated with something, really. I still don't know who you are at all but either way I hope you're doing alright
@@Goobie_Snooberting thanks for the support, I don’t mean to disregard myself and what I’ve gone through, I just feel I’m being disrespectful by being so interested in traumacore and something that’s used for people to cope, and using this kind of subject matter to make up stories that people have actually gone through, and it feels kinda selfish ngl. Thank you for the kind words, though, I feel much better now
I hope you have a good day :)
I think the name of it should be different
thank you so much for this 7th track was my favorite it saved my life
I was 5-13 when everything happened
it happened so fast but time was so slow at the time
what was i even meant to do
i had no control of my own body, i could barely call it mine
who could i even rely on when he was the one who made me dependent
when she was my best friend, i was her lesbian awakening
when he was my cousin
when he was my neighbour
when he was my best friend, he ended up stalking me and obsessing with me
my skin was like paper for them to shred graffiti and butcher to their hearts content
so many people and so many times i fell for the same false sense of security
was all that dopamine really worth it back then
my sexual hormones are a jumble a complete mess
its because of this ive never fallen in love
never felt any sort of romantic affection for anyone at all
what did i even get out of it?
i got stabbed, sa'd, abused, nearly graped and for what
to feel wanted? to feel like my life was of any significance?
pathetic
or so
but the only reason i finally remember is because im doing a psych elective
i only did it cause i wanted to learn more about myself
my brains always been a buzz and i cant read or understand it
now im opening more paths more options more reasons to my irrational behaviour
it makes so much sense now
i believe one day i will become fine
i hope if thats possible for me
i dont know how long i can live for
but i hope
that theres something good coming
even if it sounds like im lying to myself
i cant let go now
im luckier now than before because i have a few good friends lookin out for me now
i dont know why they stay but im grateful either way
i love my friends dearly
i hope they remain happy forever
and i hope if you read all of this too
youll get out of the torment one day :)
even if it sounds like a lie nothings ever impossible
life has so much to bring
Im 17 and before i turned 17 used to be 16 and im still going to high school,one day i was going to school and i forgot to bring my jacket my grandparents insisted me on to bring one,and i said i was fine,my grandpa grabbed me hard and smashed me agains the window making it break but luckily glass didn't fell on me.
I was crying during school hours.
Another trauma i had was my grandparents hitting me for some things when i was on Third year of highschool,it was hrroible being yelled and hit by your grandparents on your mother's side.
Another thing hurted me,was being called by my dad that i looked like a clown for how i was dressed up,it hurted me,i remember crying to my mom and ex-step dad,and one day when i made my cousin fall my mom called me fat like a whale and other stuffs..i hate my cousins.
Now on fifth year of high school i dont get abused anymore,yes..i sitll get fatshaming comments,one day my grandpa asked me if i wanna go look for my mom and i said no thanks,soo he called me fatty and that i was a bad daughter..soo i cutted my arms,and i realiez how wrong was doing that,i did self-harm.
Since i knew no one will belive me,i lie and i keep the secrets to myself and i lie my self harm scars were my cat tokyo who scratched my arm.
yup so real girlie ur totally not 10!! my heart hurted reading this/ btw before i was 13 i was 12. crazy right?
@@egbert67 yeah crazy!,but at least im safe now and this things dont happens
(Sometimes i get called fat but mot hitten anymore)
When i reach 18th i will move away and idk if i will be an the a..hole to cut contact for all the humiliation abuse and things i suffered for them.
nimbasa core is tooooo underrated i love itt!!!
I really like this playlist. tysm 4 making it!!
“The most hurtful thing in life isn’t a cut or a burn… it’s seeing people who you made memories with turn into a memory…”
I'm not traumatized, I've had a pretty boring life, but I'm still listening to this, as it appeared in my recommended.
I can be very bad at showing empathy, so I'm trying to make myself more empathetic by understanding trauma and researching it, I most of the time just kinda stand there awkwardly like 🧍 and say "damn that's sad ig..." and that kinda makes me feel crappy.
Furthermore, I am not completely apathetic about this kind of stuff, but I like to understand it more beyond a surface level understanding of it.
I know I'm not alone in this world which is comforting. But I'm sorry to everyone for what happened, and congratulations for still being here. You did it. Dogs usually live about 15 years, humans can live 3 times as much as that. Good luck on your journey. You have a lot more ahead of you and you deserve it.
This is way more comforting than i thought it would be .
22:55 I never knew this is where one of the songs in those mr incredible becoming uncanny videos came from
I love it, thank you 💕
I like this very much, Great to traumacore not a aesthetic and i needed this rn.
"It's so dark and I'm alone," "I keep having nightmares about you ):" Is so relatable omg.
I often cry upon hearing words of comfort.
You earned yourself a new subscriber
Hello! Thank you for making this playlist, I’m from Mexico, I speak Spanish and I’m sorry if my English isn’t that good, I just wanted to say that I found this playlist today while I was crying over something that happened to me, I’ve been through abuse, bullying, I’m dealing with my self harm, I’m a very sensitive person and I’ve been dealing with a lot of things going on in my life, I’m currently in high school, thank you so much for making this playlist, I wanted to listen to some music that would relax my thoughts.
Gracias, me ayudó a dejarme llorar y hablar conmigo mismo de varias cosas
Definition:
Traumacore is a type of imagery that delves into the themes of abuse and trauma (particularly sexual trauma or CSA) along with cute visuals to give the whole image a 'bittersweet tragedy' feel. Mental, emotional, and spiritual abuse are also common themes in traumacore
This feels like a dream.
[VENT- sensitive topics ahead]
So. I was around 5-6 when I had a sleepover with a girl (let’s call her A). She was a best friend of mine. I can’t remember what we did but when the bad thing came.. I was ontop of her, she was kissing me, rubbing my sides and back. I was giggling because I DID NOT KNOW what she was doing. Then she showed me adult content on MY phone. Which we were both giggling (I DID NOT UNDERSTAND I WAS LITTLE), she did it because the same thing happened to her.. when my parents found out they were mad (NOT AT ME BUT AT A!).
Idk if that’s r@p3, s3xu@l @ssult or COSCA. Idk what it’s called.. but now sometimes my mind is s3xu@l. Idk what it’s called really, but I remember it sometimes.. ugh..
If your mind has compulsive sexual thoughts it means you have hypersexuality! Hope this helps, and hope you get therapy!!! /pos
This isn’t r@pe (it’s probably r@pe if she did more things to her) but it was 100% sa
В этом нет никакой травмы, это лишь убаюкивает мой обеспокоенный разум. Давно уже не ребёнок, но внутри я всё та же ранимая и нежная душа, которая уже не видела упокоения не менее долгое время. Плачет душа, я в смятении - не покоится она в моих руках. Не хватает самообладания, был бы уже давно покоен, и внутренне, и внешне.
Let me get some of that "apply pressure to the sight" core.
Thank you for crediting the image creators !! Something more people should do!
i love this playlist its so good
As someone who been Suicidal. This really helps me cope with life and connect. Thanks for this playlist. Thanks once again. Uf your suicidal. Always remember there still hope :)
traumacore, is literally my core, the disturbing is for the disturbed! xoxo
TW: SELF HARM!!
My dad has yelled a lot in my life, causing me to cry when yelled at...he is in jail rn for running away from the cops with me and my mom in the car and he is in there for more reasons....the cops had to come to my house to get him out cause he was drunk....He has gave me so much trauma, ptsd, and anxiety....this caused me to do s3lf h4rm....Clean for 3 months now...if anyone is struggling with anxiety, self harm, or ptsd...don't worry....ur not alone....you all deserve better❤
Edit:8 days now
This rlly helped me cope today 🙏🙏🙏
In the past, I have dealt with trauma in ways more harmful than helping until I came across online solutions. Like listening to asmr and playlists, it's the best distraction. Thank you for this playlist for helping me avoid physical harm.
2:54 It hurts how relatable this one is.
Good playlist
When I was in 3rd-4th grade I met a boy who was known as the weird kid and the reason he was called weird was because he had an obsession with the Joker so much so he wanted to BE him, yet as a kid I didn’t think it was a bad thing and wanted to date him which he agreed to dating me but the only reason why was because he wanted his Harley Quinn over the time of the relationship he would say weird things like how he “Created me” or how I was “his” he even searched up inappropriate pictures of Harley Quinn on his school computer yet I still ignored this and kept dating him until we reached 4th grade and he broke up with me because of rumors which back then broke me and I didn’t even realize how bad I was hurt until 6th grade (dunno if this counts as trauma but there is probably other things he did that I just don’t remember but I’m pretty sure he never even liked me in the first place because whenever he talks to me he treats me like sh!t ;-; )
Thanks for the playlist, it genuinely helped me to calm down.
"Maybe I don't want to heal maybe just want to sleep forever " hit me hard I was about to cry
3:12 k.k chlorale always comforts me whenever I feel any negative emotion.
wow, it's been a long time since i've been feeling this way
i feel like a child again idk
the person that abused us doesnt hurt me anymore. she never did physically (at least, we don't think she did?), but emotionally, and mentally? theres so many scars from things said to us.
somehow i forgive her. somehow i still love her. shes my mom, she's good to us now, she loves us and she makes it so evidently clear. i think she always did, really. she hurt me, but i forgive her.
sometimes i wonder if i shouldn't though. if what i dont remember is enough to form so many horrible memories, enough to form a dissociative disorder. i wonder if theres more none of us remember. i wonder if i even have the right to forgive her.
"theres things i want to say to you, but i'll just let you live." resonated with us the most. there's things i want to say to everyone that hurt me. but i'll just let them live.
i forgive them. maybe if i do, they'll finally love me.
12:19 I didn’t know an image could be so relatable-
i really needed this
thank you
22:56 This image disturbed and saddened me the first time I saw it...
HELP I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN NIMBASAS CORE PLAYED
that made me cry again after I was crying like a maniac for two hours I don’t understand why mothers like this they hurt you really bad but you can’t hate them but rn I don’t even want to hug her or do anything with her or even touch her after what she did to me I can’t believe a mother would abu$e they’re child like this how can a person be this heartless? I’m not even a child and I didn’t do anything wrong to deserve to be treated that bad what hurts more that my own parents can’t give me the care understanding and safeness they should give me as their child who would?
I like this playlist for some reason. Tysm
I'm still going through the mill.
I knew most of these songs, but it was crazier to hear them all in a format that made sense to me.
Hearing Saynara with the last song hit me like a brick.
YOOOOOOOO I HAD A SPOTIFY LYRICS SCREEN SCREENSHTTED LIKE A YEAR AND A HALF AGO OR MORE FOR MY 2 OCS WHO ARE BROTHERS AND I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT IT TYSM FOR REMINDING ME THIS SONG EXISTS I THINK MY HEART LEGIT JUST SKIPLED A BEAT OR SMTH LMAOOOOOO 😭😭😭😭
"There’s things I wanna say to you, but I’ll just let you live" hit me hard. I always want to tell someone how I feel, or that I need help, but I just don’t want to disturb anyone, so "I just let them live :)"
Lana's very quotable, it's sad💔
I feel like i dont have trauma... the only reason im so emotional is because of the internet and i feel like thats a stupid way to be depressed. Although ive also had friendship problems that made me cry myself to sleep, i still blame my insanity and my depression on the internet. I sometimes even call myself dramatic. I love these playlists because they're calming when i draw but i feel so bad for people in the comments. My friend who lives far away got SA by her neighbor. I feel so bad for her. I also have this other friend who moved stated and i get a bit jealous when i know she has new friends. My current friend groups "owner" is the most insane and has had many traumatic incidents. The second member has abusive parents. The 3rd member has favoritism problems and friendship problems. He also does SH... actually my whole friend group dose including me. But were all too busy laughing at our own jokes to pay attention to our problems. Except for when the 3rd member says he has blades next to his desk for a reason. Ive even cried on call because of that once. I feel like i dont have trauma and i feel like im being dramatic.
You know the playlist is gonna be goated when Miracle Musical is on it
Brings back my trauma... So.. Amazing.
i’m doomed to spend the rest of my life thinking about you.
but i think it won’t last much longer.
you threw me aside and will never pick me up again.
i should of never held you close.
i would of never have loved you if i knew that you would let me rot.
but still i feel empty.
but still i need your embrace.
your thorn covered embrace.
i need you back.
why won’t you love me?
I was neglected by my mom, verbally abused by my dad. I would always get yelled at the hardest, it didn't help that my siblings were better off. They got the lighter side of him, whilst I got the harsh side. It messed me up, made my self-esteem the lowest its ever been, and now I don't know how to socialize.... my mom didn't really do anything either, she just would stay in her room while this was all happening. My dad and mom never gave me enough attention, they didn't play with me at all, they didn't talk to me much.. so how was I supposed to know? I trusted them, I really did.. but now.. I cannot. I cannot love them anymore. I've asked for an apology, and never gotten one.
21 and still haven't gotten one.
Noped out of this one pretty quickly. Not going down that hole again before college!
I have lived with the trauma of the physical and verbal abuse I have endured my whole life from my father and so whenever I go thru an event like a breakup or something sad I feel the abandonment issues crawling back up thru my throat and it hurts. so I use music as a healing help and coping method
thank you so much for adding an alex g song 😭🙏
So many things were relatbale in these pics. They made me feel happy and i didnt feel lonley anymore..but atlas i still kept crying. I wish i could *meet* them no pne really gets me and as ive had trauma many times, many ways, i dont know what to think about these lyrics, the feeling, if ill ever find anyone that *realy* be my friend i dont know either to think of this as therapy or other. But....thank you.
Sarah from creep: *sad* me: here have this playlist to cope❤
5:10 pic is too relatable
"Ah yes, something about trauma, I love remembering my trauma"
-literally no ones
LMAO
So.... why are you here? Are you here for the songs right? ^^"
@@memiabril8246 wait Wha-
But to be honest, yea(mine trauma is a raped plushie of sonic-)
@@Crustymustyrat-b6e I'm just saying, maybe the songs are just um... "funny"?
For example, I have a lot of OCs, so I like to create some scenarios for them, I didn't mean to fight btw, srry if my comment feels like that
finally a good playlist to allow unsavory emotions resurface :D
Two years ago I would’ve EATEN this up. I was having such a hard time. I hope everyone who’s in that position right now heals 🤍
The person who abused me gave me a Hello Kitty stuffed animal before ending my childhood at 6 years old. Thanks for this playlist. :3
Maybe I dont want to heal,maybe I just want to sleep forever" It hits hard man
i LOVE nimbasacore