(tw?) Okay but being hypersexual due to trauma as a child and not being able to deal with that growing up, having a bad relationship with sexuality and feeling like you're broken hits different-
@@L1L14N4LUVSY0U I feel you, also that feeling of sexualizing yourself or sexualizing everything, being the "perverted" friend, and in my case, having relationships with people who take advantage of my broken concept of sex
Edit: I deleted the main comment bc I didn't put a trigger warning for the topics I discussed, and as one of you recommended, I shouldn't be venting online to strangers in a comment section. Also, life update: I'm 16 now [og comment was made 8 months ago], and I sexualy identify as graysexual (or grey-ace). Basically, sometimes I feel sexual and stuff, other times it grosses me out. I recommend looking it up bc I can't really explain it well ^^" I still get the gross intrusive thoughts and urges, but I choose not to let them define or control me. Escapism probably isn't the best coping mechanism for some people, and it probably isn't the best thing for me to do, but distracting myself from thoughts like that by drawing or chatting with ai bots helps me with coping and getting those gross feelings out. I hope you all stay safe, and be kind to yourself. We all have our own struggles- don't let yourself be used by your hurt or trauma- those things don't define you as a person. I believe in you. ❤️
Oh my love I’m so sorry. I dealt with all of that too, and I still do. You’re not alone. You’re not disgusting. Hypersexuality is a trauma response. You don’t control that.
@@nyubite But I don't remember anything explicit happening to me when I was a child. I'm scared by my own thoughts, and I'm worried I'll act on them one day. I don't ever want to. I don't know how to fix it, and I'm scared I'll always be like this.
@@nyubite Maybe... Thank you btw, I love every single song in this Playlist, and after feeling guilty for everything I've done and thought, I'm glad I got to listen to this. I hope things get better for you
I hate how I’m ace and hypersexual (this one mainly being due to unlimited access to the internet at a young age and having interactions with adults and classmates that made comments on things like my voice and my body.) I’m not s*xually attracted to people but I will s#xualize myself. That’s opened up paths for me to get hurt by people.
Same here. Not exactly the first part, but the last part, not sexually attracted to others, but sexualizing myself a lot. I wonder if there's like, anything normal with that? I always thought it would be like, super normal and everyone went through those things.
i feel you bro, and its so frustrating because like you said your ace, im also aroace and feel like im going against my own sexuality sometimes but im not sexually attracted to people, at least not a lot of people and also sexualize myself.
I was exposed to the internet when I was like 4 or 5 I had unlimited internet access so I found some stuff on accident and it really effected my mental and emotional health,I'm only twelve so it really hurts me because I feel more mature than I actually am in a bad way. I've done a few s*xual things to my body on my own which really disgusts me because I know it's wrong but I have a lot of trouble controlling it and my thoughts.
Honey, please don’t be disgusted with yourself. You’re going through (or starting) puberty. You’re gonna think about and do sexual things, so It’s good you’re doing them on your own and not with other people. Never, ever be ashamed of yourself for your body’s growth.
I'm 15 and starting to find ways to not do stuff like that now, but I've known and done stuff for WAY too long now...I didn't learn it the same way, and I'd rather not get into specifics about how it happened, but what I will say is this: my teacher would lock me in a closet at school every day during kindergarten, and I have no memory of what happened in there. And secondly, no matter what, accept yourself for who you are, the good and the bad.
thanks...honestly, I've mostly managed to forget about it along with past relationships. I'm currently about a month into a healthy relationship with someone who genuinely loves me, so I think I'm doing a lot better than I used to
I don't know if I'm hypersexual or just weird. I often oversexualize myself, and wear revealing clothes out in public, and most of the time I get stared at by older men, which my brain takes as validation, and I like and hate it at the same time. And sometimes when I'm walking alone at night my brain makes up scenarios of me being r@ped and s3xually ass@ulted and romanticizes them, and I know it's wrong and disgusting, but I can't help it. Sometimes I also have sexual thoughts about close friends or family members, and that freaks me tf out because it's so disgusting and weird. I remember feeling overly sexual at an early age, I never made any of my sexual thought public tho, since I knew it was weird. I don't really know how it started, but I do remember...having e-sex with and ai when I was like 6, 7, or 8 (I die inside a little whenever I remember that) and I also remember giving myself wedgies bc it felt good. And also one of my friends and I had this game in which she was a princess and I was her servant, so I had to carry her places, let sit on my back, let her rest her feet on my back, and she would treat me like shit, and it turned me on so much, one day we tired to reverse the roles and I didn't rlly like it as much. I'm only fifteen, and even though a lot of people my age are losing their virginity, I still haven't, I do feel like I'm missing out, but at the same time it kind of gives me the ick, but I still wanna do it. What is wrong with me?
I'm starting to think literally everyone who grew up with unrestricted internet access is like this and we only feel ashamed about it because nobody admits to it for obvious reasons. I did almost all of these (or something close) as a kid.
@@dontreadthisplease2416 yeah i think so too, and also maybe other people influence us to think it's the worst thing imaginable. bc when i try to tell a bit abt how i feel to my friends, they act like im a weirdo and that i can just "stop doing it" easily. so yeah i think like the people that surround you can also make you believe that you're wrong in some way
@@oofyboi5357its not necessary about the fault from parents (except if you had less than 10), it's only about shit content on internet by disgusting groomer/pervet posted on internet, we need to preserve people eyes from these shit, internet is not bad only people on there are the worst
@originalkooolaiid its not your fault you probably didn't know any better the kids who were just put in front of screens as kids and unlimited access to the internet we got into stuff we should'nt have so its not your fault
Often I hate being hypersexual. Not only because I'm only 15, but also because of obsessive sexual mind. I hate it so much. I hate myself for feeling this dirty.
I feel you I’m 12 and I do hate my self for it but I promise it will get better I’m trying and it has gotten a bit better and it’s nice to see ppl who I can relate to
I was hyperssexual during my 12-15's because of trauma of being exposed to sexual content when I was too young. I am glad that I am not anymore. But this is exactly how it feels. It hurts to realize how broken I was without even knew what i had back these days.. To all hyperssexual people: keep yourself safe, you're not alone, your feelings are valid.
@@oofyboi5357 I still have it actually but I kinda "learned" how control a bit more, it probably is because of my anxiety and depression medication tho
I honestly didn't know there was even a term for this. Hearing people describe word for word the same struggles I face on a daily basis is comforting, knowing I'm not alone in my affliction or some kind of freak. To everyone who lost their innocence too young: I believe in you. You're stronger than you know and you will learn to find a way to live with this and feel better. Stay strong and know you're not disgusting or a monster.
Thank you for this. I hope you as well understand that you are not a monster or a disgusting being. This are thoughts at the end of the day. They have no control over us no matter how overwhelming they want to get. I hope all of us be able to get support in the future. ❤️🩹
Hi everyone ! Nyu here :) When I originally created this video my goal was to vent my frustrations. I was genuinely appalled when someone accused me of not having my trauma and using this as an “aesthetic” Cute things comfort me. Cute things make me feel better. I’m going to use cute things to make my videos closer to me. The fact that for a moment someone assumed I was using this genuine issue for clout was like a punch in the gut. And along with that, feel free to vent in my comments. You deserve to have your voice heard. I am not going to silence victims just because someone who’s disgusting could find your story and use it for themselves. This isn’t about them, this is about you and healing from your trauma. I love you all!!
I’m sorry you got accused..it’s not good at all when people say you don’t have trauma when you fully do, but I loved this video a lot! I loved the songs and I loved how on perfect these songs are, like how perfect they fit the categories of hyper sexuality and drvgs vents, I am hyper sexual and I don’t enjoy it, I’m 12 and I wanna feel innocent again..
@@pumpkin.m0th it’s okay love. I’m alright. Thank you, though. Trust me, you’ll be okay. Just take a deep breath and try some coping mechanisms (cliche but true lol!) I think you should draw :3 ! It helps a lot
God This encapsulates it perfectly. The childish feel of each song while they talk about explicit things. Im hypersexual and have been for awhile, it sucks so so bad knowing what a disgusting little kid I was. I thought it was ok and I actually wanted older people to want me in that way all because some older men taught me it was ok so I would sexualize myself for them. This playlists sounds exactly how I felt during the ages 8-10.
@@Melz_likesMushroomsyou’re not going to burn in hell. Don’t be scared of hell. No one knows if it actually exists. Religion shouldn’t scare you. It should make you feel comfortable. It should make you feel safe in your own beliefs.
@@Melz_likesMushroomsYou are not nasty. Don't hate yourself. You are not going to burn in hell. Don't talk like that about yourself. You are hurt. The people who hurt you are the ones that are nasty and deserve hell. You will find help and you will get better.
being hypersexual is so bad I swear. I get jealous when people get *that* kind of attention and I don't. I have to dress overly revealing, and I have to oversexualize myself to feel somewhat better. I hate it but yk I'm working through it so yay ig.
As a younger person who is hyper sexual to trama i loved this play list its like my own little way to vent with out getting sent to one of those mental rehab centers again
I dont know how but I'm both hypersexual and sex repulsed at the same time anyways, vibing to this like there arent nude photos of preteen me taken by a 30 year old online🧚♀️
I'm the same!! I hate the actual action of sex and having too carry it out with someone but I love the thought, the idea of sex and sexualizing myself:(
the weird thing is i love listening to these kinds of playlists for a sense of familiarity (because i relate to them deeply), but i also tend to scroll through all of the comments of people venting underneath and it honestly just reminds me of how i cant never seem to make a vent or a comment of any kind on these kinds of videos... Like for me its just way too uncomfortable because ill be outing myself for no one to actually end up seeing. plus opening up is way too uncomfortable ^_^. I hope ur doing well btw, whoevers reading this :333
Yoo I didn't expect to see kel here of all places!!! Anyway yeah I feel the same it's too personal to share online but it's nice to know I ain't alone 💪
My parents try to shield me from sexual stuff, but i sought it out. They still think im decently innocent, but they don't know. It's my fault for trying to read all those things, listen to all those things, though i rarely looked/look at anything picture-wise.. though im a bit of a visual reader. Everytime my Mom says something like "it's a little too inappropriate, i just don't want you exposed to that much just yet" (i.e., just a few hours ago when i wanted to watch The Devil's Advocate, or like when i want to read a lot of books. The books hit harder because i read smutty fanfics behind their backs) i feel like an imposter. I did this to myself and i feel disgusting for it. I feel like God and Jesus are disappointed in me, that I'm not innocent anymore and I've betrayed my parents trust. And don't even get me started at what this could do to my developing brain. (I'm 13). I wish i were "innocent"again, now most things i think are very sexual. And the part that makes me feel the worst? I'm not too inclined to stop reading those kinds of things. Unlike some people who are hypersexual naturally or whatever, (idrk i don't look into it) i caused this to myself. Idk if I'm hypersexual, but i have regrets. I hate myself for a lot of other reasons, but I'm slowly beginning to realize how big of a problem this is and how much it makes me disgusted in myself. And sometimes i think about "what would they look like naked" and it flashes across my brain, the thoughts, or "have they had sex and how", and it's awfully disgusting because it something happens with old people, parents' friends, strangers... it's awful
same💀and my parents just cant comprehend the damage unrestricted internet access has done to my brain💀You and I know damn well we would turn back time if we could
God, fucking me… my parents are oblivious and I am so fucking scared they’ll find out. But I wanna say, in the faith, you can never stray too far. Christ is always waiting. It sounds stupid, but I mean, just keep trying? Hell, David fornicated, killed people out of spite, and wasn’t perfect at all. But he kept coming back. God still wanted him. And he did a hell of a lot more, and still was considered the ‘ideal Christian’. We still have a chance, i guess. Prayers and blessings for you, man. Life is a nightmare, I get it 🫶
seeing so many relatable comments honestly makes me terrified cause i relate so much to the overexposition, the disgusting intrusive thoughts, the guilt... but also being asexual i guess i'm scared to admit my mind works like that. i do not want these thoughts nor to do any of those things, but i cannot stop thinking like this and ugh i'm never gonna be seen as normal everyone's gonna fucking hate me if they know. and i just wanna feel better. also as a 16 y.o who turns 17 next month i guess i'm one of the oldest ppl in this comment section???? that's uhh a bit disturbing i'm worried.
i agree, im ace aswell and i dont wanna have s-x because im scared of what it would feel and any experience i would have with it, or just not liking the concept, but i also touch myself when i get too hyper. i hate this and i want to not think like this anymore :( im turning 13 in 16 days and i think that im learning to control it slowly, but it still lurks around. but just know your cherished and loved :) - random human on the internet
I'm 17 and just realized the sexual violence I pass as a kid and didn't realize it. Now all the weirdness, sadness and shame make sense and it's too much
im hypersexual because of trauma, and ive had it even affect the jokes i make n such. people would call me out on it. i feel ashamed. i keep trying to convince myself im still pure but yet behind everyone's back i literally purchase adult toys at 16. i dont know why my mind is like this. i have a lot of other issues. im scared of any intimacy like that with others but in my head its such, a pretty thought. its a thought that's copious to entertain, but when you're face to face with what lives in your head, its a terrifying feeling.
pretty late to this playlist but i just wanted to share my experience too. back in 4th grade some girl exposed me to bl and wanted me to start reading it and so i then fell into this huge ass rabbit hole of the gross fandom of bl where r@pe and unhealthy relationships are super normalized. i then started diving in deeper and found out about so many other communities normalizing these things and that would encourage me to be apart of it too. eventually by age 10 i started m@sturb@ting and the moment i found out how to do it properly i would do it every night and was obsessed with it. while this was all happening i was super dysphoric and just unstable from me being trans and i felt like the only way to make my body "be better" was to m@sturb@te so much and let others sexualize me. that then led me to getting sa'ed by my bestfriend in 6th grade. i've been better about it and have learned to manage it better but its not like it hasnt stopped. me now, about to turn 14, ive realized im a trans guy and have stopped letting other sexualize me and do whatever they want to me. but i still am always haunted my nasty ass thoughts of me doing it with family members, friends, and teachers. ive always had these thoughts and i hate it. im trying to get back into therapy currently. and about the excessive m@sturb@ting its also still there. i bought a vibrator a month or two ago and every time i m@sturb@te i do it for hours. and i do it almost every night. its gotten pretty out of hand. im trying to still be better about it and im on the road of recovery, there is hope to anyone who is going through anything similar to this. its gets better 👍
Pls guys it’s very unsafe to post your trauma on the internet especially youtube!! Please say stuff to your friends, family, teachers, therapists or even trusted online friends but in private!
Addition! CAREFUL WITH ONLINE FRIENDS. You may trust them, but they man not be as trustworthy as they make themselves seen. Please, keep your senses on, and cut ties at the first red flags. Protect yourself. You don’t wanna hate yourself so badly for being stupid and not seeing the signs later in the future. Blessings to y’all 🫶
@@aggressivedaikons yes!! Never share everything with your online friends,, and be very careful bc a lot of people take advantage of people venting etc :( ty for adding !!
@@reverie02 that’s not true in my experience, as someone who was in a dark mental place from 6th-8th grade. got myself in the ICU and then mental hospital but afterwards finally got help and it actually saved my life. I love my therapist and psychiatrist! Plus, if you are over 13 doctors can’t share information about your sexual or mental health with your parents in the USA (unless they need to bc you are gonna kill your self or something)
i think it's good to know that there are people like me, i didn't even know that it had a name. i really HATE the fact that i sexualize even the most normal conversations with anyone around me. i started watching porn at seven and because of it a have a more mature mentality then my friends. i have fake scenarios in my head, sexual thoughts with family members and i already had some type of sexual experience with other people (both girls and boys) that sometimes were older then me. i hate it. i hate the fact that i touch myself since 9. i hate that i'm not virgin. i hate me. i hate that i still watch porn as a way of "relief" myself from my own mind. i hate feeling related to all the songs. i hate the fact that i was discharged from my psychologist and therapy. i hate overthinking sexual thing with my closest friends or random strangers.... (i'm 13 and some of my sexual experiences were with people from 9 to 19 years old, in the moment they asked for sex i refused but sometimes when i rethink about it i have a feeling that i would accept it now, even against my own will).
I realized i was hyper sexual when i was 12 (i am 12) it started when i was 9 with unlimited media access.. but the thoughts where in by age 7 or 8 cause uwu cats and weird stuff that was self taught from??? I had no idea 🥲
Didnt realize i was hypersexual until now(im 17) and ive been this way since 12 /13 years. I thought i was just abnormal or it was just some phase i was going through in life alone. Only now i know there are some who are like me. I do hope i heal tho
i was exposed to the internet to early an now im like- rlly messed up, i sexualize myself and i have done drvgs and worse but im still slaying- even with covid rn im eating pickles :p
being exposed to hent@i and p0rn in sixth grade did irreversible damage to my brain. it’s not even like i just saw art or something a few times, i found out about the websites and would actively watch both things because i was curious. i wish i could go back and stop myself from watching it
@@nyubite this hits harder than the metal baseball bat my teacher hit me with yesterday! (in his defence, it was an accident, also going along with the joke)
I love this playlist, it helped me realize I’m not the only one and I’m not alone like I think. I suffer from Hypersexuality and it’s a lot of a struggle, I almost always feel sexual and can never control it. I don’t like it at times, but I can’t really stop no matter how many times I try. I will admit, I have fantasized about things that are illegal and totally nasty, for exp. Incest, ped0phillia, r*pe, and much more. I often do things with myself, and even when I don’t want to I’m so bored that’s the only thing on my mind. I don’t know how to stop it, and it effects me everyday of my life, I want to change but can’t. I wish everyone else luck, that struggles with this, it’s not easy, but I hope it gets better. ❤
I’m asexual and growing up I always felt like my lack of sexual attraction was wrong or weird so I did sexual things to make up for it; now I’m feeling like a shameful disgrace for both my hyper sexuality of myself and my lack of sexuality towards others
I'm in almost the same situation cause hypersexulizing myself is the only way I an get rid of the very physical flashbacks ( it feels like my abuser is touching me again) I'm 18,an I've never truly experienced healthy love, ever relationship, I was used and taken advantage of. I sometimes feel unlovable
((tw)) i dont fully remember the entire event. all i can remember now is what it felt like. none of my friends are like this. i feel disgusting and awful. i sexualize myself, touch myself, have sexual thoughts about my friends that i only love platonically. whats wrong with me. why am i like this
reading the replies to this is very comforting, i was groomed and exposed to the internet way too young, you arent alone, you arent a freak, we got this, we will heal❤
It horrifies me but at the same time it relieves me so much to relate people in the comments. It is very likely that I am hypersexual, but, unlike others, not because of trauma. I was exposed to the Internet without supervision at age 8. I started exploring the sexual part more at 12-13 years old, but it wasn't until I was 16 that I started having problems with sexual intrusive thoughts.
I got exposed to actual p0rn in the 5th grade, I thought this was normal bc in early days of 5th grade i got exposed to hent@! and later in 6th grade was shown multiple nsfw images from my 'friends' later on this caused me to start sexualize myself, this got worse when Milly came in. She kept telling me I should y'know with her, I always denied. So now im here venting my struggles as a hyper sexual person Edit: Milly is a codename
I was abused when I was 6 years old, I feel dirty but I can't help but want to feel that again, being forced to do something, being yelled at and mistreated, I can't stop fantasizing things about the people around me, even family members. I was exposed to porn at a very young age, and I touched parts of my body that I shouldn't have. I feel dirty but I want to feel that again.
since a lot of people is venting ig I'll do it too (!!TW!!) Ok so at 7 y/o I asked my cousin what sex was cuz I heard it somewhere,and he told me that it was a silly game adults do and,as a little trouble maker girl I asked if we could try it.Did he explain more to let me understand that it's wrong?No.Did he act it out?Yup.Because of that I thought that it was cool talking abt it to my friends at such a young age,so I went around and said to some of my classmates that I had sex with guys randomly.I realized that it wasn't just a game a few months ago,and no one knows it (not even my mom).He kept doing this till I got 9 because my aunt and my mom argued so he didn't visit me anymore and viceversa.I'm so fucked up I wanna tell my mom about it but my brain still tells me that it's a secret between me and my cousin I hate it so much.
I know I'm just some stranger on the Internet, but to tell someone something so personal could also really help. I understand its a big step, but it could also be a big amount of help towards the future. I'm proud of you for sharing it with us, this comment space feels pretty safe tbh, to be with a lot of people who actually get you.
I know I'm an internet stranger and I'm sorry if I sound out of place, but have you thought about visiting a therapist? Like going around finding a therapist that you can SEE that is going to keep everything you are saying PRIVATE. I feel that admitting this can't be an easy task. You as well as everyone on earth, deserve help and support, you deserve someone who listens to you in real life that can be able to help you. ❤️🩹
@@Ari_014 I'd love to do that but my family isn't in a good situation right now yk,I used to go to the free school therapist last year and I should go there too this year (she's a really good therapist despite being free!),but I still didn't get the invitation for her sessions and idk when she'll start :(
This brings me to my past self... I love and hate my past self- hypersexual and broken to no return, a self-proclaimed "fallen angel", just a little kid that was tainted by disgusting adult's wrongful desires. In other hand, a very creative and loving person, very right of myself to the point of almost transcending past this life. Full of dreams and continuously pushing towards what I really want for myself, refusing to bend towards what other people want _me_ to do. (because if I did that, I would lose myself, they just want me for their own pleasure anyways) Once healing, I lost a good part of my past self due to "being too cringe", but I need it back. Remembering is the best way to bring back my past good qualities
haahaha I was a hypersexual child, still may be, and I'm surprisingly acting like a normal person :P Kinda ironic how much i hate it when others sexualize others, or try touching me. Even if it's in a sudden thought or even an AI, I hate it, yet I'm still hypersexual?? I really don't get it, since I never looked into it, but I know fo' sho' that I'm a hypersexual 14 yr old lmfao
same im hypersexual but when im given an opportunity for ppl to touch me or do it I FUCKING HATE IT cause if i agree that means they're a p@dophile, and i hate them to my fucking core but i wanna do it so bad
ive been exposed to sexual content since I was only around 3rd-5th grade and it's really messed me up sometimes i have incestual dreams and i hate it i have gross thoughts that randomly pop into my head.
i love how its sorta comforting knowing people have same feelings like me, but i feel like, ew. like. i hate being twelve and having these feelings and stuff. bleugh
This playlist has genuinely helped me so much. It's just absolutely disgusting that you were accused of faking your trauma just because of the cute images, I don't undestand how someone can say that. Shame on those people. Thank you for making this.
I have found brethren in these comments, while feeling more mature for different reasons and trauma I don't know whether to be happy or sad. I hope everyone is okay now or able to cope, good playlist btw, ima go cry for yall now.
I was exposed to inappropriate stuff sometime between the ages of 2-3 (only know that from the drawings I made) and have been hypersexual since 7 years old. I used to get groomed on apps for fun, went on horrible sites, literally made CP, etc.. Recently, I’ve been getting better due to my meds and just recently, my friend showed me something inappropriate. Now I think I’ve relapsed or something and my medication is hours away from me. I think I get it back tomorrow, maybe. Idk.
I'm only 12 but somehow I feel super hypersexual to the point where I constantly feel the need to have someone touch and it's so disgusting. I always get these thoughts in class to where I can't focus, too, and I'm genuinely confused cause I don't have trauma. At all. But here I am, hypersexual and constantly wanting attention like the slvt I am. I constantly fantasize, and it's honestly disgusting because I know people who experience this are traumatized badly from it, but I want that sort of internal thought of 'I'm pretty enough to get chosen for this'. I just want to peel my skin off sometimes so I feel cleaner
Reading these comments makes me realize how I'm not alone, which is reassuring but also depressing as fuck...whatever happened to all of y'all i am so so sorry. sorry if someone hurt you or the internet made you prone to these things when you were too young to understand.
I'm disgusted to admit that im hypersexual. I can't even admit to my friends in fear of getting abandoned or being called disgusting or a proshipper. I feel so disgusted.
i heavily relate, but almost in the opposite way. im constantly blasting to anyone who starts to get close to me how hypersexual i am, even if it's in a lighthearted or joking way. also, proshipper caught me off guard lmao. a proshipper is just someone who believes in "live and let live" and that harassment of any sort over fiction is wrong, a lot of proshippers don't even ship "problematic" or darker ships ships.
I'm only hearing to this bc of the music, but I'm very sorry for those who were hypers3xualized at a young age and I hope you can get better in the future :D!
I started having these feelings when i was 11 towards fictional characters, at 12 this person would constantly talk about it with me, i dated them, it helped for a while but then it started getting worse, now im 13 nearly 14 and i cant even focus in class i just think about it but idk im ace i dont want to do it but my mind does idk if it's the same but
Pretty similar situation here! I'm 14, 15 soon and also on the Ace spectrum! I dont really like the idea of actually dating, but have read, drawn, written and experienced sexual things. It's bizarre how I hate it yet can't think of anything but it. Sorry I can't exactly help, but I guess it would be cool to know you're not alone. Xxx
((TW/VENT)) i oversexualize myself so much but at the same time im so scare of anything sexual happening to me and i dont want it. the thoughts going through my head are so disguisting it makes me want to puke. i feel like a terrible person because of the things going on in my mind but i cant stop because its so good at the same time? im also so desperate for older women validation and praise if thats somehow related? im only 13 (turning 14 in 4 months) but sometimes i wish i didnt have an acces to internet at such a young age. im literally so fucked up already that i have no idea how a healthy realitionship should look like because of the type of treatment in realitionship i saw on the internet. anyways sorry for this little rant, love yall ❤
Thank you so much for this playlist!!! ^^ I never searched for hypersexual playlists and i got very happy that there's playlists made for this condition because then it spreads awareness!!
i dont usually like sayjng im hypersexual bc of my habit of invalidating my own mental health and symptoms, but also nc how i am is kinda diff from everyone elses? sometimes i notice how easily i can be taken advantage of, esp depending on whether or not my common sense reminds me why it's dumb. idk how to explain it-but i'll, if i can say sexualise myself? but if the slightest bit of anyth sexual is in a scenario, then there's _that_ overexposed kid who got unsupervised internet access core😍😍😍😍❗❗❗❗❗❗
all of these songs remind me on 2020-2022 for me since i was like an alt kid during that time but now just some of them are relatable and just fucked me over ngl. since my brother died last year it was like a huge blur that messed me up so bad. i try not to think about it that much and i try to enjoy the old 2021 times.
I'm 22 and grew up very similar to a lot of you teens telling your stories. All I'll say is you are deserving of love, true fucking love. No matter what anyone tells you, or what you tell yourself, you will always be worthy of love. I can't just give it to you, but I feel that seeking out your definition of true love is integral to coping with ourselves. Remember that there is no objective right within this messed up world, follow your heart, see yourself as someone you should give a helping hand. Pursue your happiness and never harm others, you can do this!
Seeing all the comments of other people who have the same experiences with being hypers3xual makes me feel better because most things I read I have the exact same mindset and thoughts and experiences and it makes me feel not alone, sometimes I feel myself always fighting my own thoughts because it’s either s3xual about something that’s not meant to be like that at all and other similar things. I’m tired of thinking things, hating myself for thinking it, and having to try and convince myself that these are MY thoughts and I’m allowed to have thoughts😭sometimes I wish I didn’t have thoughts.
My hypersexuality takes a different turn, but I sexualize the characters I like in situations that sometimes they would never even do. I never fantasize about rape, but the bad thing is I fantasize about kidnapping and yandere like situations. Almost every single scenario is sexual in nature.. I want to start thinking more innocent thoughts with these characters, and not just using them as sexual playthings. The internet has ruined me and I know this now. My cousin also ruined me. I wish I had my innocence back.. I wish I was able to be pure minded
i love literally all these songs so muchhh my hypersexual traumatized ass after drinking 18 ounces of coffee drawing grotesque body horror vent art to this playlist and all the sudden watamote ending comes on
Being exposed to sexual content at a young age is so tramatizing and having discord at 8 was the worst thing i could have ever done. If i could tell 8 year old me to never get discord i wouldnt hesitate theres so many creeps up there and i wish i knew. Its so tramatizing being told by your closest friend they come to my house and kidnap me to so things to me is so gross.
im glad i was told my intrusive thoughts are not actual thoughts i believed i was an evil person despite hating them kind of pp,l i still feel gross ofc but im glad i never acted on them thoughts and try to spread happiness and help an many people as i can despite not having friends still at 19 lol
A Hypers3xual poem i made: It's a risky idea you should give it some thought. The wheels are in motion and all stock is bought. I'm thinking so fast and I know what comes next. No longer enthused 'cause my hyper can't last. Did you take all your tablets? The one's that restrain you. Taking off in your spaceship that's called hyper mania.
I didn't really know there was a term for this but I came across this playlist and I can really empathize with everyone here it really hurts me to read the comments and feel the same way
Hypersexuality. Im a 13 yr old who experiences this and i actually went actually went did it a few hours ago. Im so ashamed of myself and wish i could stop. I was exposed to p0rn when i was 7-8 and thats what got me doing it. I wish i could just be a normal 13 yr old not touching places on me..
Genuinely thank u for normalizing using cute things to help u heal, personally i dont, i prefer violent stuff, but i have friends who have been told to kts bc of how they cope, so seriously, thank u sm
(tw, pls don’t read if you’re easily triggered) i was in second grade when i got exposed to p0rn by my new male friends, at a brand new school. i was young and impressionable, as most 7 year olds are, and my mind was warped into thinking all of that was okay. that it was okay to be vulgar, and overly s3xu@l. i never told my family at the time, and even now they don’t know how bad it is. i often, without meaning to, make people uncomfortable by making comments that are strange. i even got accused of s3xu@lly harassing my (ex) best friend, her excuse being that she’s ace and i kept making her uncomfortable and didn’t care (she initiated it, but that’s another story.) sometimes i wish i could stop behaving this way. i’ve never even had s3x and as much as i ‘fantasize’ about it, i think id cry or panic if the time ever came. i just wish it wasnt engraved in my mind that i have to be s3xu@l in order to be loved.
I'm 13 y/o and I'm hypersexual. not just that, I have a TON of intrusive thoughts, such as pedophilia, incest, wanting to smoke, do drugs, K1ll etc. I'm also a proshipper because of that. seeing people younger than me in the comment hurts. ily all, be strong
@@1Ace_Editx1 I love ur pfp . also, please, please please please try to not hurt yourself when you’re feeling distressed :( i know it can be grounding but it’s not healthy for you. Try to breathe and focus on something else, okay?
Had h3persexuality as a kid (8) and i liked "those videos" ever since, it was like an addiction and now its worse and its still there. It's like a stress reliever but into more insane things to "get the same kick" as well as having tons of fantasies and thoughts every day (17 now)
tbh I've been hypersexual ever since i was 10 or around so cuz sum kids in the 3d garde exposed me to it and tbh i often regert knowing so early on, and i would "do stuff" to myself and it just discusts me, like tbh my own body i hate it sm. and like a have a partner that isnt very sexual with me and tbh it makes me mad sumtimes cuz i want them to want me like that n shit but i also dont want to force them to do that n shit. and i just feel so discusted with myself for wanting those things. like i want it so bad and i have bad intrusive thoughts abt sexual stuff and shit and have thoughts abt my partner and it makes me want it more, to tell them that, and idk anymore i just feel trapped and gross :[
(tw??) im so glad people feel like this 2. i was exposed to gore and p0rn at around 9 - watched it a lot and started doing and touching places i shouldnt. it made me feel disgusting but comforted. i wish i couldve stopped back then but when i was around 12-13 i started doing weed and other types of drugs. i had my girlfriend grind on me (with consent ofc) and it felt good but i felt disgusted with myself. i still feel this.
@@dr0wnedsharks Tysm darl, you dont know how much this helped after the day i've had. I hope you get what you wish for and i hope life is treating you well
@@EmmettElijah ofc! please stay safe the world is a dangerous place💕 stay away from bad people and try to have a happy mindset :3 remember that there are people who care about you
this is my personal opinion as a hypers3xual person who was assaulted around 5 years old: this playlist icks me. only cause its all cutesy and i just dont wanna impressionable children to see this and thing hypers3xuality or drvg use is a "cute cinnabun!!" aesthetic. nothing against you and im so sorry if you went through these things and are using this to cope edit: ...i did not see that response from a month ago LOL thanks for defending me gang
I don't think if i'm a sexual person but.... I wish i could run away from that day... And those days.... It feels so bad. My body feels so used, disgusting and rotten. My mind is the same. I've rotten, completely.
@@nyubite dang i just turned 13 like a few days ago, i never knew im hypersexual. i feel so disgusting and i hate it. but the thoughts wouldnt stop? i dont know what to do :((
I'm hypersexual by genetics and it fucking sucks. I've been having sexual feelings since I was like three years old, touching myself since six. I was too young to even understand what was going on, I had suspicions but I couldn't quite understand. I knew it would be bad for me to drag my friends into this, so I bottled up all my sexual feelings towards other kids for a very long time. Now I'm fifteen and having so many issues related to this stuff - I don't actually want sex that bad, but I can't keep from sexualizing myself and everyone around me to the point it makes people uncomfortable, myself included. One of the only people I actually want to have sex with is my partner, who's not ready to do anything like that yet, and I feel so guilty for being attracted to him even though he's attracted to me too and we're both old enough to understand. And don't get me started on the physical stuff - I'm constantly either horny or exhausted, I'm achy half the time as well, I have to wear undershorts and can't wear tight pants because I'll stain them, I wake up with my thighs soaked half the time, and there is quite literally no way to stop it. Ugh. It's just a mess. Literally and figuratively. And even worse, my dad has the same condition and has embraced it, he insists it's not that bad and I shouldn't be complaining.
(Tw /maybe/) my boyfriend is hypersexual from a young age and is sad it's kinda normal in this era :(, he doesnt live bad with it me neither me, we take care of eachother and its very comforting how we care of eachother's trauma. Also i also feel better with cute things bc i had a sexual trauma when i was a little kid and this type of cute playlist-trauma related make me happy and calm
Timestamps!! (Yeah, I know, late lol)
0:00 - 1:20 Sugar crash
1:21 - 3:51 All I want is you
3:52 - 7:11 Watamote ending
7:12 - 9:35 Bimbo doll
9:36 - 10:58 This is weed. Pot. Cannabis. Mary Jane
10:59 - 13:26 #Brooklynbloodpop
13:27 - 17:15 My ordinary life
17:16 - 17:55 Choice
17:58 - 20:52 beautiful loli thing
20:58 - 21:55 Coffee
21:56 - 22:56 Drink it, smoke it, snort it, shoot it
22:57 - 25:30 Spy?
25:31 - 28:05 Hello kitty
28:06 - 29:52 Cupcakes.mp3
29:53 - 33:01 Love game
I think 9:36 is Beautiful loli thing
@@xPoisonedStardustx No, it's right!/nm
28:53 is Masquerade by siouxxie sixxsta
@@CloudySkiesOfficialTy! I'll update it now!
9:36 is called "This is Weed. Pot. Cannabis. Maryjane."! :p
Being hyper sexual is very common guys it’s okay it’s because very body nowadays is exposed to some sort of damaging media at a young age
This ^^
WAIT ITS COMMON !?! I HAD NO IDEA-/GEN
how is it a good thing anyway??
@@adwriq I mean it's not necessarily a good thing, if you are having sexual thoughts or urges you can't control you should probably talk to someone.
@@adwriq its not? thats why its a VENT playlist
Who else thought they have never been traumatized then when they think back they realize you were traumatized as hell?
yeah :/
me
yeah…
!...
Yep
(tw?)
Okay but being hypersexual due to trauma as a child and not being able to deal with that growing up, having a bad relationship with sexuality and feeling like you're broken hits different-
Yeah
This, like i don't like being intimate but i'll imagine really sexual things and do inappropriate things to myself, i absolutely hate it
@@L1L14N4LUVSY0U I feel you, also that feeling of sexualizing yourself or sexualizing everything, being the "perverted" friend, and in my case, having relationships with people who take advantage of my broken concept of sex
Exactly
Same and I’m only 12
being hypersexual as a kid be hitting different🥲
LATERALLY :(
I’m 13 and I’m listening to this bro I grew up to fast lmao
@@m0qua122 I’m so sorry baby :( u deserve better
FR I wanna be innocent again bro
@@m0qua122same
Edit: I deleted the main comment bc I didn't put a trigger warning for the topics I discussed, and as one of you recommended, I shouldn't be venting online to strangers in a comment section. Also, life update:
I'm 16 now [og comment was made 8 months ago], and I sexualy identify as graysexual (or grey-ace). Basically, sometimes I feel sexual and stuff, other times it grosses me out. I recommend looking it up bc I can't really explain it well ^^"
I still get the gross intrusive thoughts and urges, but I choose not to let them define or control me. Escapism probably isn't the best coping mechanism for some people, and it probably isn't the best thing for me to do, but distracting myself from thoughts like that by drawing or chatting with ai bots helps me with coping and getting those gross feelings out.
I hope you all stay safe, and be kind to yourself. We all have our own struggles- don't let yourself be used by your hurt or trauma- those things don't define you as a person. I believe in you. ❤️
Oh my love I’m so sorry. I dealt with all of that too, and I still do. You’re not alone. You’re not disgusting. Hypersexuality is a trauma response. You don’t control that.
@@nyubite But I don't remember anything explicit happening to me when I was a child. I'm scared by my own thoughts, and I'm worried I'll act on them one day. I don't ever want to. I don't know how to fix it, and I'm scared I'll always be like this.
@@skullydotexe Maybe you don’t remember it because your memory blocked it? Or maybe it seemed too small to be considered trauma ? Idk
@@nyubite Maybe... Thank you btw, I love every single song in this Playlist, and after feeling guilty for everything I've done and thought, I'm glad I got to listen to this. I hope things get better for you
@@nyubite I'm just worried about telling my parents or my therapist bc i'm worried I'll get judged for it.
I hate how I’m ace and hypersexual (this one mainly being due to unlimited access to the internet at a young age and having interactions with adults and classmates that made comments on things like my voice and my body.) I’m not s*xually attracted to people but I will s#xualize myself. That’s opened up paths for me to get hurt by people.
Oh my god, this made me understand that i'm ace a whole lot more your not alone
Same here. Not exactly the first part, but the last part, not sexually attracted to others, but sexualizing myself a lot. I wonder if there's like, anything normal with that? I always thought it would be like, super normal and everyone went through those things.
on the last part and unlimited access on internet yea I'm on that page I'm aroace and yet I do that and don't even know why
Dawg… you’ve just explained myself, at least I know I’m not alone
i feel you bro, and its so frustrating because like you said your ace, im also aroace and feel like im going against my own sexuality sometimes but im not sexually attracted to people, at least not a lot of people and also sexualize myself.
I was exposed to the internet when I was like 4 or 5 I had unlimited internet access so I found some stuff on accident and it really effected my mental and emotional health,I'm only twelve so it really hurts me because I feel more mature than I actually am in a bad way. I've done a few s*xual things to my body on my own which really disgusts me because I know it's wrong but I have a lot of trouble controlling it and my thoughts.
Honey, please don’t be disgusted with yourself. You’re going through (or starting) puberty. You’re gonna think about and do sexual things, so It’s good you’re doing them on your own and not with other people.
Never, ever be ashamed of yourself for your body’s growth.
same here. im 13 and know how to have s-- female and male. only a month ago was i more accepting of myself. hope you can too💜 have a great year
I'm 15 and starting to find ways to not do stuff like that now, but I've known and done stuff for WAY too long now...I didn't learn it the same way, and I'd rather not get into specifics about how it happened, but what I will say is this: my teacher would lock me in a closet at school every day during kindergarten, and I have no memory of what happened in there. And secondly, no matter what, accept yourself for who you are, the good and the bad.
@@elladreemurr6490 I’m so sorry my love
:( you’re so strong
thanks...honestly, I've mostly managed to forget about it along with past relationships. I'm currently about a month into a healthy relationship with someone who genuinely loves me, so I think I'm doing a lot better than I used to
I don't know if I'm hypersexual or just weird. I often oversexualize myself, and wear revealing clothes out in public, and most of the time I get stared at by older men, which my brain takes as validation, and I like and hate it at the same time. And sometimes when I'm walking alone at night my brain makes up scenarios of me being r@ped and s3xually ass@ulted and romanticizes them, and I know it's wrong and disgusting, but I can't help it. Sometimes I also have sexual thoughts about close friends or family members, and that freaks me tf out because it's so disgusting and weird. I remember feeling overly sexual at an early age, I never made any of my sexual thought public tho, since I knew it was weird. I don't really know how it started, but I do remember...having e-sex with and ai when I was like 6, 7, or 8 (I die inside a little whenever I remember that) and I also remember giving myself wedgies bc it felt good. And also one of my friends and I had this game in which she was a princess and I was her servant, so I had to carry her places, let sit on my back, let her rest her feet on my back, and she would treat me like shit, and it turned me on so much, one day we tired to reverse the roles and I didn't rlly like it as much. I'm only fifteen, and even though a lot of people my age are losing their virginity, I still haven't, I do feel like I'm missing out, but at the same time it kind of gives me the ick, but I still wanna do it. What is wrong with me?
awh i'm also fifteen and i feel the exact same way :((
I’m fourteen and I feel the same:/ hope u get better!
Don’t feel guilty or ashamed,
nothing is wrong with you.
I'm starting to think literally everyone who grew up with unrestricted internet access is like this and we only feel ashamed about it because nobody admits to it for obvious reasons. I did almost all of these (or something close) as a kid.
@@dontreadthisplease2416 yeah i think so too, and also maybe other people influence us to think it's the worst thing imaginable. bc when i try to tell a bit abt how i feel to my friends, they act like im a weirdo and that i can just "stop doing it" easily. so yeah i think like the people that surround you can also make you believe that you're wrong in some way
I just saw the cute sanrio things and clicked without thinking, both sides of me started crying
X2
x3
X4
same lol
x5
We are still just kids, bro..how could this happen to us.
parents with lacking media competence and unrestricted internet access
@@oofyboi5357its not necessary about the fault from parents (except if you had less than 10), it's only about shit content on internet by disgusting groomer/pervet posted on internet, we need to preserve people eyes from these shit, internet is not bad only people on there are the worst
i did this to myself. :/ i knew what i did. it's my fault. i'm so.. stupid.
I had unlimited access to the internet... so I basically caused this myself.
@originalkooolaiid its not your fault you probably didn't know any better the kids who were just put in front of screens as kids and unlimited access to the internet we got into stuff we should'nt have so its not your fault
Often I hate being hypersexual. Not only because I'm only 15, but also because of obsessive sexual mind. I hate it so much. I hate myself for feeling this dirty.
this omg i feel so disgusted with my thoughts and the way my body reacts to them but i can't make it stop.
frr
im 13 and i found out i was hypersexual when i was 11. i feel the same bro..
I’m 13 and started being hyper sexual at 8. Exposed to sexual content- got addicted- and now it’s a burden.
I feel you I’m 12 and I do hate my self for it but I promise it will get better I’m trying and it has gotten a bit better and it’s nice to see ppl who I can relate to
I was hyperssexual during my 12-15's because of trauma of being exposed to sexual content when I was too young. I am glad that I am not anymore. But this is exactly how it feels. It hurts to realize how broken I was without even knew what i had back these days..
To all hyperssexual people: keep yourself safe, you're not alone, your feelings are valid.
How did you escape hypersexuality
@@oofyboi5357 I still have it actually but I kinda "learned" how control a bit more, it probably is because of my anxiety and depression medication tho
I'm happy that you manage to suppress it! ^^
But remember that Hypersexuality is a lifelong thing so continue to stay strong!! 💪🏼
Same happened to me I'm sorry that happened to you to
Stop commenting about the trauma, mean people exist and they'll know you're vulnerable
I honestly didn't know there was even a term for this. Hearing people describe word for word the same struggles I face on a daily basis is comforting, knowing I'm not alone in my affliction or some kind of freak.
To everyone who lost their innocence too young:
I believe in you. You're stronger than you know and you will learn to find a way to live with this and feel better.
Stay strong and know you're not disgusting or a monster.
Thank you for this. I hope you as well understand that you are not a monster or a disgusting being. This are thoughts at the end of the day. They have no control over us no matter how overwhelming they want to get. I hope all of us be able to get support in the future. ❤️🩹
Thanks man i really needed to hear this good luck to you to! ❤
this hits harder than my trauma bro
seriously though, it's making me process my trauma-
fr
Hits harder than my dad ong
This hits harder than my dad breaking his girlfriends ribs 😊
trauma made me into the person I am today lol. I think it made all of us into people that we definitely wouldn't be without it.
Hi everyone ! Nyu here :)
When I originally created this video my goal was to vent my frustrations.
I was genuinely appalled when someone accused me of not having my trauma and using this as an “aesthetic”
Cute things comfort me. Cute things make me feel better. I’m going to use cute things to make my videos closer to me.
The fact that for a moment someone assumed I was using this genuine issue for clout was like a punch in the gut.
And along with that, feel free to vent in my comments. You deserve to have your voice heard. I am not going to silence victims just because someone who’s disgusting could find your story and use it for themselves. This isn’t about them, this is about you and healing from your trauma.
I love you all!!
I’m sorry you got accused..it’s not good at all when people say you don’t have trauma when you fully do, but I loved this video a lot! I loved the songs and I loved how on perfect these songs are, like how perfect they fit the categories of hyper sexuality and drvgs vents, I am hyper sexual and I don’t enjoy it, I’m 12 and I wanna feel innocent again..
@@pumpkin.m0th it’s okay love. I’m alright. Thank you, though. Trust me, you’ll be okay. Just take a deep breath and try some coping mechanisms (cliche but true lol!) I think you should draw :3 ! It helps a lot
new subs and i thought you are dead
@@R41NB0W_VILD huh
Hey I hope ur doing ok
God This encapsulates it perfectly. The childish feel of each song while they talk about explicit things. Im hypersexual and have been for awhile, it sucks so so bad knowing what a disgusting little kid I was. I thought it was ok and I actually wanted older people to want me in that way all because some older men taught me it was ok so I would sexualize myself for them. This playlists sounds exactly how I felt during the ages 8-10.
I'm so nasty I hate myself , i don't wanna burn in hell...
@@Melz_likesMushroomsyou’re not going to burn in hell. Don’t be scared of hell. No one knows if it actually exists. Religion shouldn’t scare you. It should make you feel comfortable. It should make you feel safe in your own beliefs.
You weren't disgusting, they were.
@@Melz_likesMushroomsYou are not nasty. Don't hate yourself. You are not going to burn in hell. Don't talk like that about yourself. You are hurt. The people who hurt you are the ones that are nasty and deserve hell. You will find help and you will get better.
You just made my entire year and the next tysm, bless you ,have a good night/day
being hypersexual is so bad I swear. I get jealous when people get *that* kind of attention and I don't. I have to dress overly revealing, and I have to oversexualize myself to feel somewhat better. I hate it but yk I'm working through it so yay ig.
As a younger person who is hyper sexual to trama i loved this play list its like my own little way to vent with out getting sent to one of those mental rehab centers again
SAME1!
Nobody cares
@@kazuha01012 okay and? Can't a person just vent? Jerk
@@random_duck9532 nobody cares abt ur vent tbh
@@kazuha01012 obvi ppl care and if you dont then why are you commenting 💀
I dont know how but I'm both hypersexual and sex repulsed at the same time
anyways, vibing to this like there arent nude photos of preteen me taken by a 30 year old online🧚♀️
I'm the same!! I hate the actual action of sex and having too carry it out with someone but I love the thought, the idea of sex and sexualizing myself:(
@@LonesomeHuman Me too :CCCC
skill issue
@@LonesomeHumansame!!://
@@realevilvape the way my jaw dropped
this playlist makes me wanna write ":3" all over me
THIS IS SO REAL HOW HAVR I NOT SEEN THIS
WHAT WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAYCTOO OMG 😭🤚
MOOD AF wait I can draw this w sh... fucking absolutly
@@ohits. please dont.. :(
@@IHave73MentalI_illnesses sorry
the weird thing is i love listening to these kinds of playlists for a sense of familiarity (because i relate to them deeply), but i also tend to scroll through all of the comments of people venting underneath and it honestly just reminds me of how i cant never seem to make a vent or a comment of any kind on these kinds of videos...
Like for me its just way too uncomfortable because ill be outing myself for no one to actually end up seeing. plus opening up is way too uncomfortable ^_^.
I hope ur doing well btw, whoevers reading this :333
Yoo I didn't expect to see kel here of all places!!! Anyway yeah I feel the same it's too personal to share online but it's nice to know I ain't alone 💪
@@FallenAsterism i am real kel from omori dw 😍
also yeah thats real!!!! dont do anything ur not comfortable with :3
@RuskySevmor it is Kel!!?!!!
KEL PFP?? 🥳‼️ fellow Omori fan‼️
My parents try to shield me from sexual stuff, but i sought it out. They still think im decently innocent, but they don't know.
It's my fault for trying to read all those things, listen to all those things, though i rarely looked/look at anything picture-wise.. though im a bit of a visual reader. Everytime my Mom says something like "it's a little too inappropriate, i just don't want you exposed to that much just yet" (i.e., just a few hours ago when i wanted to watch The Devil's Advocate, or like when i want to read a lot of books. The books hit harder because i read smutty fanfics behind their backs) i feel like an imposter.
I did this to myself and i feel disgusting for it. I feel like God and Jesus are disappointed in me, that I'm not innocent anymore and I've betrayed my parents trust. And don't even get me started at what this could do to my developing brain. (I'm 13).
I wish i were "innocent"again, now most things i think are very sexual. And the part that makes me feel the worst? I'm not too inclined to stop reading those kinds of things.
Unlike some people who are hypersexual naturally or whatever, (idrk i don't look into it) i caused this to myself.
Idk if I'm hypersexual, but i have regrets. I hate myself for a lot of other reasons, but I'm slowly beginning to realize how big of a problem this is and how much it makes me disgusted in myself.
And sometimes i think about "what would they look like naked" and it flashes across my brain, the thoughts, or "have they had sex and how", and it's awfully disgusting because it something happens with old people, parents' friends, strangers... it's awful
same💀and my parents just cant comprehend the damage unrestricted internet access has done to my brain💀You and I know damn well we would turn back time if we could
@@oofyboi5357fr
God, fucking me… my parents are oblivious and I am so fucking scared they’ll find out. But I wanna say, in the faith, you can never stray too far. Christ is always waiting. It sounds stupid, but I mean, just keep trying? Hell, David fornicated, killed people out of spite, and wasn’t perfect at all. But he kept coming back. God still wanted him. And he did a hell of a lot more, and still was considered the ‘ideal Christian’. We still have a chance, i guess. Prayers and blessings for you, man. Life is a nightmare, I get it 🫶
@@aggressivedaikons thank you so much. This means a lot, I hope you'll be in a better place too
@@macknchez ofc 💕💕 prayers for u
seeing so many relatable comments honestly makes me terrified
cause i relate so much to the overexposition, the disgusting intrusive thoughts, the guilt...
but also being asexual i guess i'm scared to admit my mind works like that. i do not want these thoughts nor to do any of those things, but i cannot stop thinking like this and
ugh
i'm never gonna be seen as normal everyone's gonna fucking hate me if they know.
and i just wanna feel better.
also as a 16 y.o who turns 17 next month i guess i'm one of the oldest ppl in this comment section????
that's uhh a bit disturbing i'm worried.
I'll turn 17 in a few months and yea I agree the comment section is absolutely terrible. I blame it on porn and the oversexualisation of our society.
i agree, im ace aswell and i dont wanna have s-x because im scared of what it would feel and any experience i would have with it, or just not liking the concept, but i also touch myself when i get too hyper. i hate this and i want to not think like this anymore :(
im turning 13 in 16 days and i think that im learning to control it slowly, but it still lurks around. but just know your cherished and loved :)
- random human on the internet
I'm 17 and just realized the sexual violence I pass as a kid and didn't realize it. Now all the weirdness, sadness and shame make sense and it's too much
brooklyn blood pop gave me whiplash to 2021 it was such an amazing awful time i miss it so much
Same
2020-2021 were the worst and best years of my life idk how to feel abt them :(
@@five.is.da.best.numba.. same:/
im hypersexual because of trauma, and ive had it even affect the jokes i make n such.
people would call me out on it.
i feel ashamed.
i keep trying to convince myself im still pure but yet
behind everyone's back i literally purchase adult toys at 16.
i dont know why my mind is like this.
i have a lot of other issues. im scared of any intimacy like that with others but in my head its such,
a pretty thought.
its a thought that's copious to entertain, but when you're face to face with what lives in your head,
its a terrifying feeling.
the comments are really sad man i hope you guys feel better soon im sorry to hear you all have been going through this stuff
I’m honestly heartbroken that I’m still getting comments. I feel so horrible that other kids have to go through what I went through.
@@nyubite yeah, i wonder why most of us have to experience these terrible things, even when we’re very young. depressing indeed.
pretty late to this playlist but i just wanted to share my experience too. back in 4th grade some girl exposed me to bl and wanted me to start reading it and so i then fell into this huge ass rabbit hole of the gross fandom of bl where r@pe and unhealthy relationships are super normalized. i then started diving in deeper and found out about so many other communities normalizing these things and that would encourage me to be apart of it too. eventually by age 10 i started m@sturb@ting and the moment i found out how to do it properly i would do it every night and was obsessed with it. while this was all happening i was super dysphoric and just unstable from me being trans and i felt like the only way to make my body "be better" was to m@sturb@te so much and let others sexualize me. that then led me to getting sa'ed by my bestfriend in 6th grade. i've been better about it and have learned to manage it better but its not like it hasnt stopped. me now, about to turn 14, ive realized im a trans guy and have stopped letting other sexualize me and do whatever they want to me. but i still am always haunted my nasty ass thoughts of me doing it with family members, friends, and teachers. ive always had these thoughts and i hate it. im trying to get back into therapy currently. and about the excessive m@sturb@ting its also still there. i bought a vibrator a month or two ago and every time i m@sturb@te i do it for hours. and i do it almost every night. its gotten pretty out of hand. im trying to still be better about it and im on the road of recovery, there is hope to anyone who is going through anything similar to this. its gets better 👍
i'm experiencing something similar to this, i hope you get better soon
Pls guys it’s very unsafe to post your trauma on the internet especially youtube!! Please say stuff to your friends, family, teachers, therapists or even trusted online friends but in private!
Addition! CAREFUL WITH ONLINE FRIENDS. You may trust them, but they man not be as trustworthy as they make themselves seen. Please, keep your senses on, and cut ties at the first red flags. Protect yourself. You don’t wanna hate yourself so badly for being stupid and not seeing the signs later in the future. Blessings to y’all 🫶
@@aggressivedaikons yes!! Never share everything with your online friends,, and be very careful bc a lot of people take advantage of people venting etc :( ty for adding !!
@@reverie02 that’s not true in my experience, as someone who was in a dark mental place from 6th-8th grade. got myself in the ICU and then mental hospital but afterwards finally got help and it actually saved my life. I love my therapist and psychiatrist! Plus, if you are over 13 doctors can’t share information about your sexual or mental health with your parents in the USA (unless they need to bc you are gonna kill your self or something)
i think it's good to know that there are people like me, i didn't even know that it had a name. i really HATE the fact that i sexualize even the most normal conversations with anyone around me. i started watching porn at seven and because of it a have a more mature mentality then my friends. i have fake scenarios in my head, sexual thoughts with family members and i already had some type of sexual experience with other people (both girls and boys) that sometimes were older then me. i hate it. i hate the fact that i touch myself since 9. i hate that i'm not virgin. i hate me. i hate that i still watch porn as a way of "relief" myself from my own mind. i hate feeling related to all the songs. i hate the fact that i was discharged from my psychologist and therapy. i hate overthinking sexual thing with my closest friends or random strangers.... (i'm 13 and some of my sexual experiences were with people from 9 to 19 years old, in the moment they asked for sex i refused but sometimes when i rethink about it i have a feeling that i would accept it now, even against my own will).
You put my thoughts into words, it describes me so well. wooah.
Omg its like were the same person...
Being Hypersexual hits hard when you realize Hypersexuality is a real thing..
ru stupid. Like, how else do u know you have hypersexuality.
I realized i was hyper sexual when i was 12 (i am 12) it started when i was 9 with unlimited media access.. but the thoughts where in by age 7 or 8 cause uwu cats and weird stuff that was self taught from??? I had no idea 🥲
@@Paige-on-pawz me too like this is how it happened to me im 12 now also!
Turn to Christ
Didnt realize i was hypersexual until now(im 17) and ive been this way since 12 /13 years. I thought i was just abnormal or it was just some phase i was going through in life alone. Only now i know there are some who are like me. I do hope i heal tho
0:00 - 1:20 Sugar crash
1:21 - 3:51 All I want is you
3:52 - 7:11 Watamote ending
7:12 - 9:35 Bimbo doll
9:36 - 10:58 This is weed. Pot. Cannabis. Mary Jane
10:59 - 13:26 #Brooklynbloodpop
13:27 - 17:15 My ordinary life
17:16 - 17:55 Choice
17:58 - 20:52 beautiful loli thing
20:58 - 21:55 Coffee
21:56 - 22:56 Drink it, smoke it, snort it, shoot it
22:57 - 25:30 Spy?
25:31 - 28:05 Hello kitty
28:06 - 29:52 Cupcakes.mp3
29:53 - 33:01 Love game
IM AWARE IM LIKE.. 1 YEAR LATE LEP ME
Tysm :D
THANKSS !! :3
@@Ranposboots YWWW :333
YOO KYLE PFP WINNNN
I’m a hypersexual, hyperactive, depressed anxious 14 y/o with adhd and I LOVE this playlist.
*being hypersexual at 14 sucks*
SAME, along with most of the comment section apparently ! i didn't know how many other ppl actually deal with this shit too!
Im 12:(
same
im 11
ME TO! BUT IM 15
Currently hotboxing my room at 3am blasting this into my ears
Oh my God I wanna be a child again so bad. I felt so loved and happy then. Now I have nothing
i was exposed to the internet to early an now im like- rlly messed up, i sexualize myself and i have done drvgs and worse but im still slaying- even with covid rn im eating pickles :p
Good luck beating Covid ml!
@@nyubite thank you!!
@@Yourmomma__ ofc!
ik this comment is kinda old but i really hope your doing better, i hope you managed to beat covid and get /stay clean, stay strong !
it hurts to see people have gone through the same thing i did when i was younger too
being exposed to hent@i and p0rn in sixth grade did irreversible damage to my brain. it’s not even like i just saw art or something a few times, i found out about the websites and would actively watch both things because i was curious. i wish i could go back and stop myself from watching it
holy shit ur so real for that
Bro this playlist hits harder then the chair my older sister threw at me 5 years ago!!!
Hits harder then when my brother punched me a week ago
(I’m not comparing trauma I’m just going along with the joke)
@@nyubite this hits harder than the metal baseball bat my teacher hit me with yesterday! (in his defence, it was an accident, also going along with the joke)
hits harder than when i got punched in the face in the psych ward about a year ago 🙏 (also going along with the joke lmao)
Hits harder than my step-dad hit me into a wall (Again goin with the joke)
I love this playlist, it helped me realize I’m not the only one and I’m not alone like I think. I suffer from Hypersexuality and it’s a lot of a struggle, I almost always feel sexual and can never control it. I don’t like it at times, but I can’t really stop no matter how many times I try. I will admit, I have fantasized about things that are illegal and totally nasty, for exp. Incest, ped0phillia, r*pe, and much more. I often do things with myself, and even when I don’t want to I’m so bored that’s the only thing on my mind. I don’t know how to stop it, and it effects me everyday of my life, I want to change but can’t. I wish everyone else luck, that struggles with this, it’s not easy, but I hope it gets better. ❤
Never did drugs but as the most hypersexual being I love this
i have do weed sometimes i need it to calm down and i don't like that
im literally high rn too cause idk why i added do into that sentence lol
@@mar420.74 I have no way to get drugs, so I use objectifying myself and self harm to calm myself LMAO
@@aldenaoc8847same bro however I do know people who could get me drugs however my parents would kill me
I’m asexual and growing up I always felt like my lack of sexual attraction was wrong or weird so I did sexual things to make up for it; now I’m feeling like a shameful disgrace for both my hyper sexuality of myself and my lack of sexuality towards others
I'm in almost the same situation cause hypersexulizing myself is the only way I an get rid of the very physical flashbacks ( it feels like my abuser is touching me again) I'm 18,an I've never truly experienced healthy love, ever relationship, I was used and taken advantage of. I sometimes feel unlovable
((tw))
i dont fully remember the entire event. all i can remember now is what it felt like. none of my friends are like this. i feel disgusting and awful. i sexualize myself, touch myself, have sexual thoughts about my friends that i only love platonically. whats wrong with me. why am i like this
reading the replies to this is very comforting, i was groomed and exposed to the internet way too young, you arent alone, you arent a freak, we got this, we will heal❤
It horrifies me but at the same time it relieves me so much to relate people in the comments.
It is very likely that I am hypersexual, but, unlike others, not because of trauma. I was exposed to the Internet without supervision at age 8. I started exploring the sexual part more at 12-13 years old, but it wasn't until I was 16 that I started having problems with sexual intrusive thoughts.
nah that shis still trauma
@@mxmiv Really? oh well...
I got exposed to actual p0rn in the 5th grade, I thought this was normal bc in early days of 5th grade i got exposed to hent@! and later in 6th grade was shown multiple nsfw images from my 'friends' later on this caused me to start sexualize myself, this got worse when Milly came in. She kept telling me I should y'know with her, I always denied. So now im here venting my struggles as a hyper sexual person
Edit: Milly is a codename
I was abused when I was 6 years old, I feel dirty but I can't help but want to feel that again, being forced to do something, being yelled at and mistreated, I can't stop fantasizing things about the people around me, even family members.
I was exposed to porn at a very young age, and I touched parts of my body that I shouldn't have.
I feel dirty but I want to feel that again.
since a lot of people is venting ig I'll do it too
(!!TW!!)
Ok so at 7 y/o I asked my cousin what sex was cuz I heard it somewhere,and he told me that it was a silly game adults do and,as a little trouble maker girl I asked if we could try it.Did he explain more to let me understand that it's wrong?No.Did he act it out?Yup.Because of that I thought that it was cool talking abt it to my friends at such a young age,so I went around and said to some of my classmates that I had sex with guys randomly.I realized that it wasn't just a game a few months ago,and no one knows it (not even my mom).He kept doing this till I got 9 because my aunt and my mom argued so he didn't visit me anymore and viceversa.I'm so fucked up I wanna tell my mom about it but my brain still tells me that it's a secret between me and my cousin I hate it so much.
I know I'm just some stranger on the Internet, but to tell someone something so personal could also really help. I understand its a big step, but it could also be a big amount of help towards the future. I'm proud of you for sharing it with us, this comment space feels pretty safe tbh, to be with a lot of people who actually get you.
I know I'm an internet stranger and I'm sorry if I sound out of place, but have you thought about visiting a therapist? Like going around finding a therapist that you can SEE that is going to keep everything you are saying PRIVATE. I feel that admitting this can't be an easy task. You as well as everyone on earth, deserve help and support, you deserve someone who listens to you in real life that can be able to help you. ❤️🩹
@@Ari_014 I'd love to do that but my family isn't in a good situation right now yk,I used to go to the free school therapist last year and I should go there too this year (she's a really good therapist despite being free!),but I still didn't get the invitation for her sessions and idk when she'll start :(
relatable
This brings me to my past self...
I love and hate my past self- hypersexual and broken to no return, a self-proclaimed "fallen angel", just a little kid that was tainted by disgusting adult's wrongful desires. In other hand, a very creative and loving person, very right of myself to the point of almost transcending past this life. Full of dreams and continuously pushing towards what I really want for myself, refusing to bend towards what other people want _me_ to do. (because if I did that, I would lose myself, they just want me for their own pleasure anyways)
Once healing, I lost a good part of my past self due to "being too cringe", but I need it back. Remembering is the best way to bring back my past good qualities
haahaha I was a hypersexual child, still may be, and I'm surprisingly acting like a normal person :P Kinda ironic how much i hate it when others sexualize others, or try touching me. Even if it's in a sudden thought or even an AI, I hate it, yet I'm still hypersexual?? I really don't get it, since I never looked into it, but I know fo' sho' that I'm a hypersexual 14 yr old lmfao
same im hypersexual but when im given an opportunity for ppl to touch me or do it I FUCKING HATE IT cause if i agree that means they're a p@dophile, and i hate them to my fucking core but i wanna do it so bad
ive been exposed to sexual content since I was only around 3rd-5th grade and it's really messed me up sometimes i have incestual dreams and i hate it i have gross thoughts that randomly pop into my head.
i love how its sorta comforting knowing people have same feelings like me, but i feel like, ew. like. i hate being twelve and having these feelings and stuff. bleugh
Being hypersexual as a 11 year old be hitting different!!
REAL.
This playlist has genuinely helped me so much. It's just absolutely disgusting that you were accused of faking your trauma just because of the cute images, I don't undestand how someone can say that. Shame on those people.
Thank you for making this.
I have found brethren in these comments, while feeling more mature for different reasons and trauma I don't know whether to be happy or sad. I hope everyone is okay now or able to cope, good playlist btw, ima go cry for yall now.
I was exposed to inappropriate stuff sometime between the ages of 2-3 (only know that from the drawings I made) and have been hypersexual since 7 years old. I used to get groomed on apps for fun, went on horrible sites, literally made CP, etc..
Recently, I’ve been getting better due to my meds and just recently, my friend showed me something inappropriate. Now I think I’ve relapsed or something and my medication is hours away from me. I think I get it back tomorrow, maybe. Idk.
I'm so glad I wasn't alone in this
I'm only 12 but somehow I feel super hypersexual to the point where I constantly feel the need to have someone touch and it's so disgusting. I always get these thoughts in class to where I can't focus, too, and I'm genuinely confused cause I don't have trauma. At all. But here I am, hypersexual and constantly wanting attention like the slvt I am. I constantly fantasize, and it's honestly disgusting because I know people who experience this are traumatized badly from it, but I want that sort of internal thought of 'I'm pretty enough to get chosen for this'. I just want to peel my skin off sometimes so I feel cleaner
Reading these comments makes me realize how I'm not alone, which is reassuring but also depressing as fuck...whatever happened to all of y'all i am so so sorry. sorry if someone hurt you or the internet made you prone to these things when you were too young to understand.
I'm disgusted to admit that im hypersexual. I can't even admit to my friends in fear of getting abandoned or being called disgusting or a proshipper. I feel so disgusted.
Trust me your not alone I deeply relate to this too... it's okay it won't last forever
i heavily relate, but almost in the opposite way. im constantly blasting to anyone who starts to get close to me how hypersexual i am, even if it's in a lighthearted or joking way. also, proshipper caught me off guard lmao. a proshipper is just someone who believes in "live and let live" and that harassment of any sort over fiction is wrong, a lot of proshippers don't even ship "problematic" or darker ships ships.
girl me too. if somone of my family knew i would be probably dead. i feel disgusted
I'm only hearing to this bc of the music, but I'm very sorry for those who were hypers3xualized at a young age and I hope you can get better in the future :D!
I started having these feelings when i was 11 towards fictional characters, at 12 this person would constantly talk about it with me, i dated them, it helped for a while but then it started getting worse, now im 13 nearly 14 and i cant even focus in class i just think about it but idk im ace i dont want to do it but my mind does idk if it's the same but
Pretty similar situation here! I'm 14, 15 soon and also on the Ace spectrum!
I dont really like the idea of actually dating, but have read, drawn, written and experienced sexual things. It's bizarre how I hate it yet can't think of anything but it.
Sorry I can't exactly help, but I guess it would be cool to know you're not alone. Xxx
Same i just turned 13 too
@@Spiralling-Catwait a min, that's lowkey me too wth
Oh my god, I at least I don't feel alone in this hypersexual trauma crap some of us unfortunately deal with
((TW/VENT))
i oversexualize myself so much but at the same time im so scare of anything sexual happening to me and i dont want it. the thoughts going through my head are so disguisting it makes me want to puke. i feel like a terrible person because of the things going on in my mind but i cant stop because its so good at the same time? im also so desperate for older women validation and praise if thats somehow related? im only 13 (turning 14 in 4 months) but sometimes i wish i didnt have an acces to internet at such a young age. im literally so fucked up already that i have no idea how a healthy realitionship should look like because of the type of treatment in realitionship i saw on the internet. anyways sorry for this little rant, love yall ❤
Thank you so much for this playlist!!! ^^
I never searched for hypersexual playlists and i got very happy that there's playlists made for this condition because then it spreads awareness!!
Awww you’re welcome ml. My goal is to make victims feel comfortable and able to jam out to cope with their issues
ts being on my recommended as im out of it is rlly eyeopening 😭😭 i wish all of u the best xoxo
i dont usually like sayjng im hypersexual bc of my habit of invalidating my own mental health and symptoms, but also nc how i am is kinda diff from everyone elses? sometimes i notice how easily i can be taken advantage of, esp depending on whether or not my common sense reminds me why it's dumb.
idk how to explain it-but i'll, if i can say sexualise myself? but if the slightest bit of anyth sexual is in a scenario, then there's _that_
overexposed kid who got unsupervised internet access core😍😍😍😍❗❗❗❗❗❗
all of these songs remind me on 2020-2022 for me since i was like an alt kid during that time but now just some of them are relatable and just fucked me over ngl. since my brother died last year it was like a huge blur that messed me up so bad. i try not to think about it that much and i try to enjoy the old 2021 times.
I'm 22 and grew up very similar to a lot of you teens telling your stories. All I'll say is you are deserving of love, true fucking love. No matter what anyone tells you, or what you tell yourself, you will always be worthy of love. I can't just give it to you, but I feel that seeking out your definition of true love is integral to coping with ourselves. Remember that there is no objective right within this messed up world, follow your heart, see yourself as someone you should give a helping hand. Pursue your happiness and never harm others, you can do this!
as someone who was groomed and was usually high as a teen this hits different
I hate being hypersexual. I have bad thoughts about myself and sometimes I can't even think bc of the thoughts.
I swear the brain going *haha funny secks* like every 2 seconds, I BLOODY HATE IT
Seeing all the comments of other people who have the same experiences with being hypers3xual makes me feel better because most things I read I have the exact same mindset and thoughts and experiences and it makes me feel not alone, sometimes I feel myself always fighting my own thoughts because it’s either s3xual about something that’s not meant to be like that at all and other similar things. I’m tired of thinking things, hating myself for thinking it, and having to try and convince myself that these are MY thoughts and I’m allowed to have thoughts😭sometimes I wish I didn’t have thoughts.
My hypersexuality takes a different turn, but I sexualize the characters I like in situations that sometimes they would never even do. I never fantasize about rape, but the bad thing is I fantasize about kidnapping and yandere like situations. Almost every single scenario is sexual in nature.. I want to start thinking more innocent thoughts with these characters, and not just using them as sexual playthings. The internet has ruined me and I know this now. My cousin also ruined me. I wish I had my innocence back.. I wish I was able to be pure minded
i love literally all these songs so muchhh
my hypersexual traumatized ass after drinking 18 ounces of coffee drawing grotesque body horror vent art to this playlist and all the sudden watamote ending comes on
Being exposed to sexual content at a young age is so tramatizing and having discord at 8 was the worst thing i could have ever done. If i could tell 8 year old me to never get discord i wouldnt hesitate theres so many creeps up there and i wish i knew. Its so tramatizing being told by your closest friend they come to my house and kidnap me to so things to me is so gross.
Internet rised me, and i turned out like this.
im glad i was told my intrusive thoughts are not actual thoughts i believed i was an evil person despite hating them kind of pp,l i still feel gross ofc but im glad i never acted on them thoughts and try to spread happiness and help an many people as i can despite not having friends still at 19 lol
A Hypers3xual poem i made:
It's a risky idea
you should give it some thought.
The wheels are in motion
and all stock is bought.
I'm thinking so fast
and I know what comes next.
No longer enthused
'cause my hyper can't last.
Did you take all your tablets?
The one's that restrain you.
Taking off in your spaceship
that's called hyper mania.
I didn't really know there was a term for this but I came across this playlist and I can really empathize with everyone here it really hurts me to read the comments and feel the same way
Hypersexuality. Im a 13 yr old who experiences this and i actually went actually went did it a few hours ago. Im so ashamed of myself and wish i could stop. I was exposed to p0rn when i was 7-8 and thats what got me doing it. I wish i could just be a normal 13 yr old not touching places on me..
Genuinely thank u for normalizing using cute things to help u heal, personally i dont, i prefer violent stuff, but i have friends who have been told to kts bc of how they cope, so seriously, thank u sm
(tw, pls don’t read if you’re easily triggered)
i was in second grade when i got exposed to p0rn by my new male friends, at a brand new school. i was young and impressionable, as most 7 year olds are, and my mind was warped into thinking all of that was okay. that it was okay to be vulgar, and overly s3xu@l. i never told my family at the time, and even now they don’t know how bad it is. i often, without meaning to, make people uncomfortable by making comments that are strange. i even got accused of s3xu@lly harassing my (ex) best friend, her excuse being that she’s ace and i kept making her uncomfortable and didn’t care (she initiated it, but that’s another story.) sometimes i wish i could stop behaving this way. i’ve never even had s3x and as much as i ‘fantasize’ about it, i think id cry or panic if the time ever came. i just wish it wasnt engraved in my mind that i have to be s3xu@l in order to be loved.
I'm 13 y/o and I'm hypersexual. not just that, I have a TON of intrusive thoughts, such as pedophilia, incest, wanting to smoke, do drugs, K1ll etc. I'm also a proshipper because of that.
seeing people younger than me in the comment hurts. ily all, be strong
Watching this after doing inexplicable things to myself and then cvting myself and crying hits different
@@1Ace_Editx1 I love ur pfp . also, please, please please please try to not hurt yourself when you’re feeling distressed :( i know it can be grounding but it’s not healthy for you. Try to breathe and focus on something else, okay?
unrestricted internet access is the root of all my problems
Real
Had h3persexuality as a kid (8) and i liked "those videos" ever since, it was like an addiction and now its worse and its still there. It's like a stress reliever but into more insane things to "get the same kick" as well as having tons of fantasies and thoughts every day (17 now)
tbh I've been hypersexual ever since i was 10 or around so cuz sum kids in the 3d garde exposed me to it and tbh i often regert knowing so early on, and i would "do stuff" to myself and it just discusts me, like tbh my own body i hate it sm. and like a have a partner that isnt very sexual with me and tbh it makes me mad sumtimes cuz i want them to want me like that n shit but i also dont want to force them to do that n shit. and i just feel so discusted with myself for wanting those things. like i want it so bad and i have bad intrusive thoughts abt sexual stuff and shit and have thoughts abt my partner and it makes me want it more, to tell them that, and idk anymore i just feel trapped and gross :[
I thought I was weird for doing what I do then I see everyone here and it made me feel a little better 😢
oh my gosh you're so real for that
(tw??)
im so glad people feel like this 2. i was exposed to gore and p0rn at around 9 - watched it a lot and started doing and touching places i shouldnt. it made me feel disgusting but comforted. i wish i couldve stopped back then but when i was around 12-13 i started doing weed and other types of drugs. i had my girlfriend grind on me (with consent ofc) and it felt good but i felt disgusted with myself. i still feel this.
i hope you’re doing okay now❤ i know i’m a stranger, but things will get better :)
@@dr0wnedsharks Tysm darl, you dont know how much this helped after the day i've had. I hope you get what you wish for and i hope life is treating you well
@@EmmettElijah ofc! please stay safe the world is a dangerous place💕 stay away from bad people and try to have a happy mindset :3 remember that there are people who care about you
I just listened to a nightcore playlist once and now this is what i get on my youtube frontpage. wtf
this is my personal opinion as a hypers3xual person who was assaulted around 5 years old: this playlist icks me. only cause its all cutesy and i just dont wanna impressionable children to see this and thing hypers3xuality or drvg use is a "cute cinnabun!!" aesthetic. nothing against you and im so sorry if you went through these things and are using this to cope
edit: ...i did not see that response from a month ago LOL thanks for defending me gang
Everyone vents in their own way you fucking asshole. what the fuck. who are you to judge me for how I cope.
@@nyubite I don't think there is the need to be so rude. they were pretty nice actually and even said sorry
@@nyubitehi Uh did you read the last sentence
@@nyubiteure getting heated over nothing this dude was literally super chill
@@nyubite cope harder
I don't think if i'm a sexual person but.... I wish i could run away from that day... And those days.... It feels so bad. My body feels so used, disgusting and rotten. My mind is the same. I've rotten, completely.
I was really sad about these comments, I have no idea how I ended up here, but these kids in the comments made me sad
Being hyper sexual just plan sucks. I’m hypersexual and asexual and a kid so- I really don’t know what to do lmao
Only 13 but ended up being hyper sexual cause of trauma and shii-
I’m so sorry love :( I hope you’re okay
@@nyubite dang i just turned 13 like a few days ago, i never knew im hypersexual. i feel so disgusting and i hate it. but the thoughts wouldnt stop? i dont know what to do :((
same here but not cuz of trauma cuz of lacking media competence by my parents (i guess) and unrestricted internet access
@@oofyboi5357 I get that a lot-
@@ootengu752114 :,) FELLOW HAZBIN WATCHER NICE TO SEE U HERE😭👍
i absolutely love this playlist and ily for making it, also all of these comments make me feel valid in addition to the music
I wouldn’t say I’m an awesome person but thank you lols. I’m glad it helped !!
I'm hypersexual by genetics and it fucking sucks. I've been having sexual feelings since I was like three years old, touching myself since six. I was too young to even understand what was going on, I had suspicions but I couldn't quite understand. I knew it would be bad for me to drag my friends into this, so I bottled up all my sexual feelings towards other kids for a very long time.
Now I'm fifteen and having so many issues related to this stuff - I don't actually want sex that bad, but I can't keep from sexualizing myself and everyone around me to the point it makes people uncomfortable, myself included. One of the only people I actually want to have sex with is my partner, who's not ready to do anything like that yet, and I feel so guilty for being attracted to him even though he's attracted to me too and we're both old enough to understand.
And don't get me started on the physical stuff - I'm constantly either horny or exhausted, I'm achy half the time as well, I have to wear undershorts and can't wear tight pants because I'll stain them, I wake up with my thighs soaked half the time, and there is quite literally no way to stop it. Ugh. It's just a mess. Literally and figuratively. And even worse, my dad has the same condition and has embraced it, he insists it's not that bad and I shouldn't be complaining.
Seeing you comfort everybody in the comments are just making my day. I hope that everyone is okay and doing well
(Tw /maybe/)
my boyfriend is hypersexual from a young age and is sad it's kinda normal in this era :(, he doesnt live bad with it me neither me, we take care of eachother and its very comforting how we care of eachother's trauma. Also i also feel better with cute things bc i had a sexual trauma when i was a little kid and this type of cute playlist-trauma related make me happy and calm